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el-velvis · 2 years

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Austin, Elvis x reader!

𝗪𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: Elvis being in a bad mood for the colonel, Apology, cuddle, love

𝗦𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆: You just got up, the morning was long, Elvis was still sleeping, when you start having breakfast he wakes up but he got up badly, he start to respond badly, you understand that it was not his day and you decide to go out to let him calm down, when you got home he try to be forgiven, as only he can do.

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You could feel the wind slowly caressing your face, it was 7:30 am, you raise your head from the pillow to look around, seeing the sun that was hitting in your face, the heat that you feel everytime you wake up was something that you liked since you were a little baby, you turned to your right noticing that Elvis was sleeping peacefully.

You decide to get up, you went to the bathroom and started washing your face and teeth, after the cold water hit your face you wake yourself up immediatly, you then walk out the bathroom and notice that Elvis didn't even flinch, he was sleeping like a rock, it was strange because Sometimes when you got up, the noise could wake him up, he had always had a light sleep, only when he arrived home late that he arrived with sweat flowed on his forehead could sleep until the next day, but today it seemed strange to you.

You brush it off because maybe he was really tired, you walk out the room and went in the kitchen to eat something.

You switch the fire on, taken a pan and put eggs to cook, after a while you hear footsteps approaching, you turn around and see Elvis come out from behind the door, he had just got up, his hair was all messy, you chuckle a bit for his sleepy face "good morning Love!" you said with a big smile on your face, he didn't respond, This makes you a little sad, but you continue asking him "so.. You want some eggs? Just to start the morning in a energic way?" you said joking around.

Nothing... He didn't even look at you in the eyes, didn't kiss you once, it was strange so you faced him again, in the same time he sit in the chair and put his hands on his face, he let out a groan.

The eggs were cooked and you put it in the plates, and put his one in front of him "well i hope you like it, if you want some coffe just tell me i- " he didn't let you finish that "i dont need anything" he said with a cold and angry tone, youre face went pile, you dont know why he was like this, like in the morning, you didn't even start to talk about the day, he was just pissed with you for just no reason.

You felt a little out of the world in that moment you didn't know what to do so you thought that maybe he woke up in a bad mood, so you try to "enjoy" your breakfast as much as you could because you could feel the pressure that was starting to grow in the room, you felt a little uncomfortable, but It was only a matter of minutes... Right?

You looked at him and he was eating slowly like he was in a sort of trans, maybe he was still asleep, but why then he woke up if he was still tired? you couldn't think about any questionable reason of his attitude, so you just staring a little at him trying to study every moviments, you feel bad because if something bothered him you wanted to help.

At some point he looked at you in the eye and open a little his mouth just like he was saying something, but then he brush it off and continue to eat his eggs, his eyes left yours and you were a little worried at this point.

"Elvis.... Are you okey love?" you asked "yes" he said hitting you with his freeze tone "are you sure because it looks like you had something on your mind? If anything bother you just tell me and i wil-" he cut you off like "I said i don't need anything, just stop being so clingy" he said while stare at the plate of his eggs, you went white, his reaction makes you freeze on the spot, you know that something could have happened at work that maybe made him so angry that he even got it the next day, but you didn't think he could get angry with you.

You stare at him for a little and then got up from your chiar, you didn't even clean up the plate and the pan, you just didn't care, walk in to your room and took a jacket and you made your way to the front door.

You didn't want to leave him like that, But you know it was right that way, he would calm down on his own and then you would quietly return to your routine, so you were there to open the door when you saw his shadow that was quickly walking towards you, you turn yourself to see Elvis in front of you "w-where are you going?" he said and you could see that he was breathing faster "Elvis dont worry i Will come back just try to relax okey? I dont know whats bothering you but i can feel that is something important, and if you dont want to tell me is fine really but, i cant see you like that and you know, i don't deserve this attitude like is the first thing in the morning..." you said letting out what you felt before, you continue "now try to do something for that attitude okey?" you kiss his cheek and left the house, you left him there standing like a scared deer for the light of a car.

After a while you were walking down the street trying not to cry, you felt a little bad for how you treat him but you couldn't stand that bad mood anymore, so you were walking and wipe away the tears that were forming in your eyes, then you stop in front of a diner, you decide that was time to eat something, because from the breakfast you "had" at home you didn't eat much, so you want to bring something light just to full your stomach a little so you can feel better after.

You enter the diner, you sit down and ordered a milkshake, after 5 minutes your drink arrived and you started drinking, you were always thinking about how Elvis was feeling right now, you knew that after a while the fire will shut down alone but you were feeling bad for before.

You're head was full with million of thoughts like why would he be such un ass for nothing you know that everything that can get on your mind you two were always there for eachother, you didn't understand why he was like that... But maybe you have some ideas, obviously that you didn't like but well.. You cant do nothing about that

After you finished your milkshake you then thank the bartender and walk out the diner, you were still walking down the street and start get really annoyed, for pass the time you start sing and whistle "moody blue", singing that Song make you happy but at the same time melancholic... You want to get back, but you resist the urge and kept walking.

After an hour that you were walking alone in the city, you decide it was time to go finally home, you hope that maybe the mood will be different now.

After you return home you opened the door and walk inside. You didn't see Elvis in the livingroom so you were thinking that maybe he was out, but after 5 seconds you feel the touch of his hand on your shoulder, and a very big hug from behind, you let out a gasp for the sudden contact and then you felt a kiss on your neck, you turn slowly around to see his face placed between your shoulder and neck and a big smile that was forming on his lips.

"ehy y/n... I miss you..." he said caressing your stomach, "mh... You did?" you respond like you were still angry at him "yeah.. And.." he then left you and walk in front of you and his smile left his lips and a serious face take the place "I-im so sorry for before....Really... I was just i-i was just" he didn't know how to express the heavy feeling that he had from this morning, his stomach was turning upside down for the anxiety, you let out a big sigh and finally talk "Elvis listen, if you dont want to talk about what is wrong because maybe is something so big and strange that maybe you dont want to talk with me or maybe because you dont think im enough for help you, just tell me you dont wan-" he didn't let you finish the sentece that he start again" NO! No-no is not that y/n really! Is just... The colonel... You know, he t-talk about how our relationship is going and that i have to left you because my fucking carrier is going to die and other bullshit! I just dont! *sigh* i just I FUCKING LOVE YOU! And Im so sorry that i make you sad before i didn't mean it, i was just so pissed with him that my entire mood make me act like an idiot.... Im so sorry... And you know what he's saying doesn't mean anything to me.... Really! I would never leave you behind just for my carrear... You are my everything! You are my world! Im so sorry y/n... Forgiven me please.. " he finally let out everything that he had in his stomach and now he felt very reliefe, but he didn't want to upset you anymore, he knows that he make you sad and would do everything he can to make you happy again.

You stare at him in his blue ice eyes and feel a tear falling down you cheek, your cheeks becoming red and you lungs went out of hair... "No no! Dont cry please! I-Im so sorry i-" he was saying but you finally pull him in a passionate kiss, your lips were crushing together in a dance of love and lust...

Your hands were touch ing every part of your bodys, You let go just to get air, your eyes meet again and you were sure that you saw a sparkle in his, you spoke "Elvis you dont have to say sorry, i know how stressfull can be your work and your life, and you know what i think about the colonel, and i know for sure what you want and what you feel, for this reason i left you calm down because i know that you didn't mean all of that, obviously you took me off guard this morning but it doesn't matter... Really... I love you Elvis.... And i know you love me... That is the only thing that matter to me.... " his left hand on your hips and his right on your neck and with his thumb that was caressing it he than spoke " i love you so much...i would die without you, really, you know me so well i would never change anything of what we have for just some stupid fucking clown..." he said and put his head between your neck, you then let out a little gasp and you could feel his lips turning in a grin.

"next time you can punch me if i behave like that again" he joke and you laugh a bit "i would do that for free" you said back with a grin on your face and he than lift his head up and look at you with a shocked face "ehy! Youre evil!" he joke around with a little chuckle, and you look at him in the eyes and with a huge grin said "yeah... Im your devil in disguise" and kiss him on the lips "i love you my little cute devil" he chuckle and hug you tight "i love you too my love...."

He was the right one, the only one that you could ever love, you know him well enough and you would never change anything, you were his obsession, he was always there for you, he love you and won't never leave your side.

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Finally Another one! I love how it turned out i hope you like it too, tell me if something bothers you so... anyway i hope you have a great day!

See ya guys! ❤️⚡

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this-is-a-dystopian-parable · 1 year

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"i can call him up and tell him what i want!

Jesus.mp3

(first im gonna tell him, again, how i love glorious sound; the tambourine forever convulsing, the concertina and horns in stereo imperfect mirroring, the full stop || to announce the entrance of guitars. the church bells, and beautiful beautiful the one man who comes in wrong towards the end but everyone smiles through. thump thump hit your foot on the floor and all this worry goes away. and ry cooder isnt even really supposed to be cool, is he?)

am i sick? do i want to get well? is such a goal possible? i am goalless, theres just thump thump this beat, and merely attending to each new downbeat, thats what im going to do. after every hit of the drum there another one coming up. on it. right now im riding fast through midnight a slipper of ice, and the walls of night are a million cymbals suspended and waiting for my playful picket fence stick. im hitting more than ever...abandon the metaphor for a moment and revel in the quotidian count, ive got 7 plays lined up for the first 6 months of next year, and i am thrilled psychedelic sick about each and everyone. listen: a cabaret, a song played on a solo saxophone, a train to catch, a gun goes rooty toot toot, russian rock n roll beamed into outer space, prayer both silent and full, and finally a birth of light. i must be fucking crazy. i must be! am i sick? do i want to get well? these seven bursts of metal with wonderful souls talent so beautiful, none of them will be the single goal, each night will be another cymbal sizzle crash through starlit wind flying past me as im riding so recklessly down the hill, weaving past cars technicolor lit, and its going to blur in the speed to just one stream of light pouring out exhausted. i love the challenge, the sleepless push to hit every next note, keep playing, keep going, i want it.

i can call him up and tell him what i want!

do i want more than this? im making a living at it now. im paying the rent on these outbursts now; and the people are good, everyones mind is reeling in another way and i love the laughs each one gives me. how can i ever come close to knowing them all? is there room for me? do i want more than them? maybe, maybe. real success, that elusive flame of fame, ha ha my musical opening on broadway in 2007, my god, why not, why not. i can call him after all, and ask him for this, right? what i want. what i want.

when the whiskey veil wears away for just a second i look down at my hands and they are white knuckled for im freezing cold causing im going so fucking fast and i forgot my gloves or i lost them in a bar on mission street or in the bart station, but i cant go back because i jumped the gate, i jumped the gate again almost every day a bart train renegade heart racing fast everyday but i cant remember right now. i must be crazy. there are so many things to wrap your hands in anyway...and look at her with her mittens fingerless, and her with her hat fizz fuzz blue, and her with her legs i can see fishnet stockings, garter and all, under a wider fishnet hose, that lovely leg all wrapped twice. every woman around me wrapped up different and my fingers trembling no matter where or when for a little more warmth, a fabric new always, why? why? i must be crazy wanting that when ive already got those eyes to get so lost in that temperature vanishes like direction in the dark, floating through centigrade in a shivering sweat flawlessly true. i must be crazy, but i can ask him, what i want, what i want.

i dont want anything, i dont. god, please i dont. please let that be the truth. cause ill get so sad if i want it and dont have it and ive got so much right now that im almost blind. i can be what i want to be/i can choose whatever heaven grants. but i just want to be whatever heaven grants, any cymbal so bright and lovely to be seen when im riding fast like this, god its like a new moon gold in the sky! crash a cymbal that i want to hear ring clear, crash peel, i want to hear them PEEL!

and i fear the shallowness, maybe theres too much and im not there deep where i could be. theres someone ive known as long as possible in real pain and i cant understand it really, cause i felt real pain once and said never again? no, surely not? that was so little...

but solo now so: lo the cymbals,

only the cymbals and my bike out of control too fast, but god theyre so glorious shiny! ive been working on riding no handed so i can grab a stick in both hands and catch my ears in the nodes and hear a mountain range valley strange of waves in the cold night air.

one asked me, why do i perform? i cant answer you, i cant. i have no idea. its what im here to give? its just there and its beautiful and thats all i can do. maybe im doing too much? i can barely feel.

tomorrow ill make the drummer a vegetable lasagna in exchange for a haircut, god my hair is so long, its the only helmet ill wear. i know how to make a good vegetable lasagna; i just have to pick the right vegetables, and only a few, so that its about *mushrooms*, or its about *broccoli*, its about the *one* taste, dont lose it, dont lose it//

(but on cannery row hazel pours all the half drunk drinks into a single jug, and comes home with a wild punch maybe champagne spiked one night and fernet the next. one taste.

i have no idea what all of this tastes like,

i have no idea what god looks like,

i have no idea how there can be so many sounds in the universe that when i open my mouth next time ill sing one brand new song, once and only once always one note to the next never ending, never goal, just sound all the way SHHHOOM! to the end of the universe getting absorbed by all around it cymbalstars bursting and dying brand new)"

Dave Malloy, 09 December 2005

#obsessed with this one #but solo now so:lo the cymbals #dave malloy #pointless dave malloy #try reading this out loud seriously #it's lovely

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booksandseventeen · 4 years

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Ushijima X Fem!Reader

Where the only way to talk to the captain is if you catch up to him.

Your watch beeps, letting you know that you have one mile left until the end of your course. Your route had started at your house and would end 1 mile away by your school.

With track season starting soon, you knew you had to start doing your own training.

You could see the bench and tree that was your end point up ahead, just a little further, the rhythm of your shoes hitting the sidewalk was like a constant tempo in your head.

And then it happened.

You weren’t exactly sure what it was, but the air was suddenly thick, the trees around you moved like a wind had whipped through, and another tempo joined your own.

He ran past you like a hurricane. Strong, large, and intimidating. You barely registered him until he thundered past, his long legs taking him further and further away. The trees settled down and the air returned to normal. He was a force.

You hadn’t realized you had stopped running until your watch beeped at you, reminding you that you should have been done with your workout by now.

Slowly, a smile spread across your face, this was a challenge you would gladly accept

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Day 1: The Beginning

He had a pretty easy schedule to memorize, he ran everyday and at exactly 7:23 am, his route took him by your school 1 mile later until he probably hooked a right that would take him to Shiratorizawa (you had caught a glimpse of his volleyball shorts).

One week later, you had created a workout. If he could run a mile in 6 minutes, then your goal was 5 minutes and 30 seconds, and considering how you ran the mile in track, it was perfect.

And today was day 1 of your training.

You stretched outside your house, putting one foot across the other and bending down, he would be here soon. You spread your legs and bent over, placing your fingertips on the ground and feeling the muscles stretch, you looked between your legs and yelped, scrambling out of the way before the boy could run you over.

“Damnit” you muttered under your breath and took off after him. It wasn’t until you practically sprinted to close the gap and you were now running behind him, closer than ever, that you realized how out of shape you were.

“Hi.” you say to him, but before you can hear his response you have already fallen too far behind.

“Damn!” you gasped, your hands above your head to get more air into your lungs. you collapsed on the bench.

You had a lot of work cut out for you.

Day 7: First Words

You kept up with him more and more each day, pushing yourself a little further each time. You often wondered if he even knew you were there, waiting for him outside your house and running beside him until you couldn’t keep up any longer. He kept his eyes straight ahead the whole time, never once commenting on your huffing and puffing before slacking behind him.

But it was a challenge, one that you planned on conquering.

You saw him round the corner and you got ready, your right foot in front and your right hand leaning on it slightly. You felt the air change, the tree’s rustle, the thundering of his feet and right when you felt the hairs on your neck rise...you took off.

your feet matching perfectly with his, head held high, and arms pumping. There was only now. The tempo of both your feet, the tree’s bending towards the road like onlookers, you began to picture them as spectators. Your name chanting from their branches, the birds squawked their encouragement, and you pushed yourself faster.

You were one step ahead of him.

“Come on.”

You almost tripped.

You looked at him from the corner of your eyes and a cold sweat broke down your neck. He was staring right at you, the intensity of his eyes rivaled a carnivore. You nodded once and focused on your tempo but now your heart was beating much too fast than it should have.

And just like all the other days your breath came out faster, your steps faltering only slightly but that was all he needed to create a gap between the two of you.

Later, when you were sitting on the bench you went through your run over and over again. He had only said two words to you. The only words he had ever said to you, but they had been one of encouragement. And you had kept up with him longer than you ever had.

An improvement.

Day 9: Name

His name was Ushijima.

Your running partner- albeit against his will, actually had a name

It happened two days later after his first words to you, you had just began your run when his phone ring. And you watched in unmasked awe as he began to speak into his phone without missing a beat, his voice coming out normal while you wheezed beside him.

You kept pace with him as long as you could, attempting to hear the conversation.

“Ushijima?! Are you running?”

“yes.”

“these last two weeks you’ve been barely making practice! is it that new route?”

“I’m never late”

“Yes I knowwwwww, but i thought you said you weren’t going to run that new route anymore but now-”

and by then you had stopping keeping up, once again you made it farther until you slowed down but damn did you wish you could have heard the end of that conversation.

Were you the reason he had kept running this route? It was true that you had never seen him before until recently. You let a smile grace your lips, this just got a lot more interesting.

Day 10: The Accident

You glanced at him and he glanced at you.

This was the farthest you had ever ran with him and you both knew it.

“A little farther.” he said and you nodded. By now you had grown accustomed to his little words of encouragements. They still made your heart flutter but you wouldn’t let that falter your tempo.

You pushed yourself again, you were now two steps ahead of him, three, four. You knew you wouldn’t be able to keep this pace for long, a stitch in your side began to appear and you gritted your teeth and closed your eyes briefly, missing the slightly raised pavement that got caught on your foot.

The pavement hit you hard. You barely had time to yell out before you were sprawled across the ground, immediately, you felt your chin, knees, and palms throb.

Strong hands were on your back, the back of your legs, running down your arms.

Oh...he’s making sure i’m alright.

“That..was not fun. Would not recommend” You grimaced as he helped you to your feet.

“Your bleeding.” he said.

“I’ll be alright, you continue your run, I dont want you to be late to school.” You stepped away from him, aware that he kept his hand on your lower back, his other hand holding your hand. You looked up at him, the intensity of his gaze telling you he wouldn’t take no for an answer.

“I’ll walk you to your school.” he said finally and pulled you against him as you limped your way the rest of the mile.

You knew your cheeks were flushed and you concentrated on the closeness of his body instead of the throbbing of your knees.

“I’m really sorry about this.” you finally said.

“don’t be. it happens.”

“you’ve fallen before?”

“no.”

you laughed at his straightforwardness and felt him stiffen beside you. Too soon for your liking, you came to your school and the familiar bench.

“This is fine, thank you, Ushijima.” if he was surprised that you knew his name he didn’t show it.

“And your name?” he asked.

“L/N/F/N” you said and he nodded.

“Get well, y/n, my morning wont be the same until then.”

Day 15: I’ll be there

You waited for him with bandaged knees.

You didn’t realize how much you missed his presence until you went a week without it. And now you jumped up and down, waiting for the familiar head and strong presence.

A smile broke your face when you saw him.

Finally.

You blushed slightly when you saw that he had a small smile on his face as well and soon you were running next time him.

“how are your knees?” he asked.

“much better thank you. How have you been?” you asked, realizing that you were able to hold a conversation with him compared to when you first started and wouldn’t have even been able to conjure up two words.

“Better, now. Why do you run with me?” he asks and glanced at you. You took a deep breath to steady your breathing, but couldn’t stop your heart from fluttering.

“I uh...have a meet on sunday. I’ll be running the mile.” You kept your eyes straight ahead, “I’ve kinda been running with you as a form of training.”

“You’ve gotten better.” he said. and you smile at the compliment.

“I’ll be there.” he says.

“what?”

but you’ve fallen too far behind and can’t hear his response, a few minutes later you come to your bench and rest.

your mind running through the possibilities of his answer.

Day 18: Meet

It’s funny, that the day you’ve been training for for weeks has finally come and yet you’re as calm as a lake.

“You’ve gotten better.”

His words echo in your head and when the starting gun shot resounds through the air, you picture your other opponents as Ushijima, and all you have to do is catch up.

One lap down, you’re in 4th place and you realize that the stands are louder than you’ve ever heard.

On the second lap you move up to third place and you think, wouldn’t it be nice if Ushijima could watch you? And see how much you have truly improved.

Third lap, you’re in second place and that dreaded stitch is beginning in your side. The crowd is going crazy, and then you glance at the stands, and just about fall on your face.

Ushijima is standing with a group of boys all wearing the Shiratorizawa uniform. You don’t know any of them except Ushijima but they’re all cheering and yelling for you. Ushijima is standing in the middle of them and he opens his mouth and you hear him the loudest of all.

“Win!”

You couldn’t believe it. Ushijima was here, watching you. And you weren’t about to let him down.

Though it’s too early to kick it into high gear, you can’t help it. The tempo speeds up, the cheers of a random school’s volleyball team ringing in your ears. Ushijima’s familiar back is the opponent in front of you. You’re running toe to toe with her. Her long strides familiar.

Two steps ahead, three, four, five. You can’t stop, no matter how bad it hurts to breath and when you round on the last curve, the stands are cheering your name. But you only hear one voice.

Day 18: Later

“Congratulations”

you look behind you when you finished cooling off at the water fountains. Ushijima is standing there with his team.

“You were amazing! So fast! And I can finally meet the girl worthy of keeping up with our captain!” a boy with red hair exclaims and a blush dusts your face.

“It’s all thanks to him that I was able to get this far.” you say and rub the back of your neck sheepishly.

“You did amazing.” Ushijima compliments you again and the boy with red hair nudges the members around him and they slowly back away from the two of you.

“I...I didn’t know you were gonna be here.”

“I told you i’d be there.”

“Guess I missed that part.” you chuckle and he steps closer.

“I..I was wondering if it’d be okay if I came to your other meets.”

You could melt right then and there.

“But only if you come to our games as well.” he says.

“your volleyball games?”

he nods.

“I’d love to.” you say and when Ushijima reaches forward, you freeze. His fingers glide around your neck and lifts up the medal hanging from your neck.

“this looks good on you.” he says, his voice low.

“T-Thank you. Maybe it’d look better on your bedroom floor.”

“what?”

“Nothing, want to go to that cafe not too far? your treat.” you smile up at him and he returns it with genuine affection.

“i’d love to.”

End

#ushijima x reader #ushijima wakatoshi #hq ushijima #haikyuu ushijima #hq #haikyu #haikyuu #haikyū!!

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sukirichi · 3 years

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[ BROKEN RECORDS ; asks ]

💌 — love letter from @kyriaan

from track 007.

Okay okay im still kinda meh'ish' but i really wanted to answer you so 😭 ill try to compile both my answer to your answer on my love letter and my hyped review on track 7 <3 so yeah another long ass rant from me 😩💕Suki... Suki pls I totally forgot Tsumu had a crush on us Suki... And then poor Tsumu ir there sulking cause he still likes u- JFBFBDVDVSJCHDHSIA omfg i wanted so much to hug him my baby I like him so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and he was trying so hard to behave while just sitting there sad fhfhfvbbshsjfhbdjaofhffhsoshd TSUMU YOU'RE STILL IN MY TOP 3 BABY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

And then you throw the whole dancing scene with suna and I dont know whos on my top 3 anymore 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 SUKIIIIIIII THAT SCENE ALONE GJGJBFBSJCNFNKSOSNF OMFG IM FALLING SO HARD FOR SUNA I THINK? I think my top 3 had 4 dudes in it cause 3rd place has Suna and Atsumu tied?? Hfhfbfbfhdhsja I CANT PICK?? BUT BUT I WAS FEELING STUPIDLY DOWN WHEN READING THAT AND THAT SCENE ALONE MADE ME FEEL SO SOFT IT WAS SO CUTE AND OMG IF SUNA DID THAT TO ME I WOULD DROP ON MY KNEES AND ASK HIM TO MARRY ME CAUSE OMFGGGFFFF DUDE EVEN WENT AHEAD AND SAID THAT WHOLE 'HES GOING TO BE ONE LUCKY GUY'

Oh shit im crying again that scene lets me emotional 😭😭😭😭 someone get me a sunrin irl pls

Anyways the way that suna knows y/n is just.... FUCKING END UP TOGETHER ALREADY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST JBVSHSJBEHSISJ

Also how powerful are we?? HOW FUCKING POWERFUL ARE WE TO SCORE SUNA KITA AND TSUMU?? ARE YOU GONNA TELL. ME IF OIKAWA MOFO TOORU APPEARED HE WOULD ALSO BE ON HIS KNEES FOR US?? (okay no wait... No nooo i would legit drop anyones ass for tooru hes that powerful for me like sorry suna was fun but TOORU)

Yo nah but the whole Kita sex scene- let me breath bestie LET ME BREATH CAUSE I WAS HOT BUT AT SAME TIME I WAS FEELING GUILTY 😂😂😂😂 ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS FEELING DISAPPOINTED NEXT DAY LIKE KITA PLS BABY WHAT WERE YOU EXPECTING?? 😬😬😬😬 But at same time his 'ill fuck the thought of him out of you tonight' I ALMOST MOANED YASSSSS TELL ME DADDY HOLY SHITTTTT

👀👀👀👀 Still not a kita simp ✌️✌️🤏✌️

Okay Kita deserves the best tho I mean okay he went there as a y/n mom's plan but he did ended up helping alot... Especially cause he knows no matter what y/n heart will always be suna's and pls give Kita the best ending possible cause he deserves someone who will trully love him and show him the world cause mah boy deserves it

*breaths in breaths out* i hated this scene- not in a bad way but shit i hate rejections... To the point im kinda afraid of confessing now cause i despise the feeling of being rejected... The best i can descrive it it like this coldness in your chest that descends your whole body and then you feel frozen in place.. Thats how it feels for me I hate it I absolutely despise it- its also the feeling i have when in a really bad situation and ugh...

The suna part made. Me feel this no matter how many times i reread it the feeling doesnt lessen it keeps being there cause (okay you probably are tired already of me saying this but) Suki I feel like I cant put it in words how much of a fucking good of a writer you are. Ill go ahead and say you are by far my favorite writer the fact i always feel so engaged and the fact i always feel like im there its just- it blows my mind.

I felt like suna was personally rejecting me and i hated it- i swear the moment he said prove it I almost screamed HOW? My brain had to take a moment to just slap me and say: 'kya you reading this is not happening chill-' cause i was already sobbing uncontrollably... I even whimpered the dont leave me 😬 my sadass went to bed feeling so sad thanks to suna... Man i wanted so much to hug him and i swear i would give him as much love as he gave y/n cause well i kin suna alot in this series cause im like that im a giver i treat others the way i would like to be treated (reason why ive been down lately ✌️) and i cant blame suna for finally setting boundaries- his call tho 'do i not stand a chance with you anymore y/n? Are you really not capable of falling in love with me?".... Oh suna... We are in love with you.. We always were we're just fucking stupid 😩

Also mari pls go jump off a cliff <3 youre in need dear cause sleeping with other man just to separate suna and y/n <3 i want so much to punch her 🙂🙃

Now for the love letter part (im so sorry for this being so long ✌️)

You said that if we asked suna he woukd say that he genuinely loved mari okay... Ill go ahead and say yes he liked mari he even learned how to love her and he genuinely cared for her BUT and heres where my personal view comes in so maybe ill be biased here still for me that was just a he loves her as in he cares you also love your friends and care for them but he didnt love her- and by this I mean- he could never be fully committed for her. Yes he loved her and he felt happy with her but like track 7 proved everything he would do in the back of his mind was y/n he deeply wished Mari was her and for that he just loved Mari cause he learned how to care about her- but he never forgot who he trully was in love it. Also the happiness he experienced with Mari was pretty much the one I experienced the bliss of having someone there and that bliss also made suna turn a blind eye to all the red flags from Mari cause to him all the jealousy meant she cared and thats toxic but suna was so desperate for some sort of 'she cares' that even all the possessiveness was bliss for him... And that makes my heart clench for suna...

'suna had to put an effort for the relationship' and saddly i feel like mari didnt... Mari didnt care mari was there because she was a fangirl of suna and got lucky, the way she just discarded him so effortlessly that proved-screamed how much she loved him- she didnt. She was just possessive over him she liked the whole 'hes mine' dynamic and suna was the perfect boyfriend cause he was giving her the world... What he wanted someone to do for him.

Also yeah suna and y/n might have been spurred from them being fuck buddies but well love doesnt really have an agenda- they just clicked, understood each other and had chemistry yeah they had tons and tons of sex but feelings started not because of sex but thanks to their deep connection... Also that dsncing scene in track 7 that alone spoke for their whole relationship- that alone is enough to defend their feelings for each other- yes it might jave started just as fuck buddies but ended up in them loving each other deeply and that is enough love after all doesnt need a perfect start. It can start out of the most stupid ways.

You said life with excitement and fun wouldn't be permanent or real.. Honestly i think it could be.. Cause i mean when you love someone that deeply your life always feels exciting even with the littlest things and that the purest kind of love. Even just going for a walk at the beach would be fun for them or even staying up watching movies i believe suna and y/n would always find a way to make their lofe exciting without much effort.

Also it kinda makes me. Sad when i see some anon saying that y/n and suna relationship are toxic? It makes me. Confused maybe because I was in such extremely toxic one (girl i sweat if you search for toxic relationship my ex's face will be there as an example 🙄) that Mari to me screams toxic! Possessive, manipulative, jealous and a few more if I think closely about it while with y/n and suna they are just two idiots that are hurting each other cause they're just that: idiots one that is afraid to get hurt and the other that keeps hoping- dont get me wrong what they're doing is not healthy but i dont find it toxic honestly

Sorry for the extreme long rant 8D I tried to keep it short but you always make me so hyped to talk about your works 😩

Hfbfbfhfhfieia

[ from saeren ]

NAHHH CUZ I LOVE TSUMU SO MUCH HERE HE WAS SO PRECIOUS. I didn’t write too much about them in college but Atsumu was so cute when he crushed on YN. he was always sending her memes and cute texts like “have you eaten” “good morning” and she’d feel so awkward because she doesn’t know how to let him down easy without hurting him. either way tsumu would feel hurt. AND YES PLS HE WAS SO SAD I MEAN, HIS CRUSH AND HIS BEST FRIEND NEARLY HAD SEX RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM SO THAT’S GOING TO HURT

SUNA AND ATSUMU TIED?? tbh I loved that dancing scene bcos suna is one of my faves and I really wanna do that with him hehehhehe. NAHHH PLEASE SAME IF SUNA DANCED WITH ME AND MADE A WEDDING PLAYLIST I’D BE LIKE boy what’re u waiting for let’s get married now !! n yes he said whoever YN will choose in the future will be one lucky guy IM SOBBING RN

naur cuz. there’s something about dating your best friend. I’m not saying a boyfriend wouldn’t know you as well but there’s something different when you’re best friends first. they could literally share eye contact and have a long ass conversation just from that. their connection is different.

HAJKALA AS FOR THE POWER, BR! YN IS A VERY CHARISMATIC AND FRIENDLY PERSON !! she’s like one of those people you meet that not only are they attractive as hell, but they’re also super approachable and down to earth. that’s why she’s so popular + she’s flirty and can make a stranger feel welcome or comfortable in the first meeting. SGSHJAK I WAS ACTUALLY PLANNING TO ADD OIKAWA HERE BUT I WANNA MAKE IT MORE INARIZAKI CENTRED

the seggs scene with kita SOBSSSS he’s such a soft dom IDC he knows where the clit is, he knows how to hit it. he’s a “your pleasure first before mine” type of guy. kita is perfect, PERIODT. HE GIVES DADDY VIBES HUH AHSKAA HE’S SO SWEET YET SEXY IM IN LOVE WITH HIM ISTG IF SUNA WASN’T OUR BEST FRIEND THEN I’D RUN FOR KITA ALL THE TIME. and I agree, kita deserves the best !! and don’t worry, I actually plan on giving kita the best ending, I promise you he’ll be fine (slight spoiler there)

YESSSSS OMG I’VE BEEN REJECTED BEFORE AND THAT’S EXACTLY HOW I FELT, MY BODY WAS SO COLD AND I WAS SO CONFUSED LIKE IT MAKES YOU THINK. am I not good enough, did I do something wrong, do you not wanna give me a chance or try it out but ofc I’d never say that out loud. AND KYAAA AAAH IM YOUR FAVORITE WRITER??? NO CUZ YOU’RE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY. I remember ur asks way back reckless era and you used to tell me that my writing made you picture the scenes easily and you felt you were there in that moment and I’m just so grateful thank you so much <33

NO BCOS WHEN SUNA SAID “prove it” I was like. this is it. that’s his hot boy shit moment. man’s has had enough of being thrown from one toxic relationship to another and he also deserves his good moments yknow. and you kin suna here?? BESTIE IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT, SUNA’S BEEN THROUGH A LOT HERE AHSJAKA. that’s true about suna tho !! he’s definitely affectionate + a giver. he’s happy being the one who gives most of the time but he’s a human as well, ofc he’d want to receive the same amount of love back. ALSO HIS PHONE CALLLLLL ugh tbh that part was the one that made me the saddest bcos he’s just. he wants to know if there’s really no more chance. all this time he never gave up. but he’s also tired so if yn says ‘no more’ then he’ll give up. its his way of respecting himself too ahsjaka

YOOOOO I AGREE WITH THAT. he cares for mari as a person but not 100% as a lover. but ofc he’s still thankful for how happy she made him because she was there at his worst. and that’s true, deep down suna still wishes that it was YN who’s right beside him. he will always ALWAYS want her back. he learned how to love mari in a way that was more out of mutual care but not in the way he loves YN. no that’s reserved only for YN – she will remain no 1 in his heart. AND YESSSSS the reason why suna overlooked the red flags was bcos to him, its something that was supposed to be “normal” like no perfect partner existed. he thought mari’s attitude of pushing YN away was normal, and its normal to want your partner’s best friend keep some distance but not to the point of mari’s place where she literally wants the two of them to cut each other out of their lives.

and aww I’m so happy that you realized how I wanted to portray suna and yn’s relationship. they’re….like the definition of youth in its freest form. they were fucking around and doing stupid things, but they had a connection. they had something deeper than just sexual intimacy. even if they never dated or even if YN never proposed the idea of it, they would’ve actually been still great friends. and oooh I actually don’t remember saying life with excitement and fun wouldn’t be real HAHAHAHA so I can’t comment further on that. but I think when I ‘said’ those I probably meant that it’s not always going to be all rainbows and unicorns in a relationship. there’s no such thing as a relationship that’s always happy and sweet 24/7, but ofc it can be sweet and it can be pure even with the little things <33 they just need to work on it.

hmmm tbhhhh… suna and yn are toxic in a way that they refuse to let each other go when they clearly can’t meet halfway. toxic doesn’t have to be limited in just being mari-like in which they are possessive or manipulative, because then if we’d drive deeper into yn’s personality, then she’d be stringing suna all along and that’s unfair of her. she knows suna wants more and yet she remained being friends with him, which totally isn’t a bad thing, but it’s because she keeps flirting with him and is so romantically comfortable with him that she doesn’t realize it’s hurting suna because he’ll give double meanings to that. their relationship is ‘toxic’ because they’re not entirely good for each other, they’re not that ready to be with one another yet and neither is the world letting them be in peace, so forcing their relationship to a point they’re hurting another is the toxic part.

[ from @kyriaan ]

Ah also not me feeling all proud and mushy cause my analysis made you mind blown fjfbdnsjdkpa 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I guess its also because i see this story as a really big mirror of my own toxic relationship sonits extremely easy for me to get it... And oh boy the way i kin suna here

But dhdhfjdospdhfbsoa 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i feel happy now *huggles*

[ from saeren ]

and aah yes ofc, I’m really happy whenever someone can see the underlying details I scatter throughout the story !! yeah omg same hahahaha broken records is also half inspired by the toxic people I’ve met. I kin kita here tho and I’m so glad you’re happier now !!

#asks with naoya's trophy wife #series ( broken records )#tw: toxic

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hufflautia · 3 years

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hI this is a tOTALLY ANONYMOUS PERSON ASKING. and i am asking u to answer everything on here😌

lmajfniasnf yall i forced menna to send me this ask and i was kinda kidding but also a bit serious but also kinda kidding- ok anwyas here we go

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed? closed

(2) Do You Have Freckles? no

(3) Can You Whistle? yes

(4) Last Song You Listened To. “Needed Me” by Rihanna

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour? grayish green

(6) Relationship Status. in love with loki<3!

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now? cold, my fingers are cold and menna knows this

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky? no i did not, quite the opposite actually!

(9) How Many Followers? around 650

(10) Zodiac Sign. taurus

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour? brown

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily? yea

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower? usually

(14) What Books Are You Reading? no book bc i have no brain cells

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.

“i cannot imagine,” replied the scarecrow; “but we can go and see.” -the wonderful wizard of oz! i forgot i had that book, i got it from library for school last year but then quarantine hit and i couldn't return it bc the library closed

(16) Favourite Anime? i barely watch anime, so i guess “Attack on Titans”, being that its one of the few animes I've watched

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of? my math teacher

(18) Do You Collect Anything? only the souls of the innocent. also chapstick.

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch? wontons that fucked my stomach up bc the meat was not cooked properly :D don't we love that?????????????!!!!!!

(20) Do You Dance In The Car? not rlly

(21) Favourite Animal? dog

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics? no

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed? usually 11 or 12- depends on day

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now? no

(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean? pool

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog? clandestineloki

(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water? i don't care as long as its safe

(28) What Makes You Happy? my siblings, my best friends, loki, tom hiddleston

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.

i saw this and thought it was a good fit but then i realized it was too calm so

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music? without

(31) Dogs Or Cats? DOGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be? yellow

(33) PlayStation Or Xbox. i don't care

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean? I've never swam in a lake before, so lake

(35) Do You Believe In Magic? yea

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing? gray

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue? no

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It? depends

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You? yes

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now? of course, loki will always be an obsession of mine bruh

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly? nO BC IM SCARED OF BUTTERFLIES

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People? yes:’(

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams? of course

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes? yes

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry. ParaNorman

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds? sunflower seeds

(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be? the neighbourhood

(48) Are You A Picky Eater? kinda

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper? eh

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning? kinda

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write? yes

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud? depends on mood

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents? wrap

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up? sleepy hallow ft foushee- deep end freestyle

(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather) winter??

(56) What Are You Craving Right Now? l o k i (my original answer was warmth but its basically the same thing)

(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.

(58) What Is Your Gender? female

(59) Coffee Or Tea? tea

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About? nope, i finished it on Friday and Saturday like a bad bitchhhhhhhhh

(61) What Is Your Sexuality? bisexual

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning? depends on day

(63) Favourite Pokemon? squirtle i guess

(64) Favourite Social Media? insta

(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories? they're fine

(66) Do You Get Homesick? kinda

(67) Are You A Virgin? ill leave it up to ur imagination bitch (MENNA IM SO SORRY IM NOT CALLING U A BTICH IM JUST SAYING THAT IN GENERAL)

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now? i forgot the name, but its white and fancy and from the same brand

(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm that is a very good question, probably the motel

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life? AHAH depends on what u mean by “still in my life”!!!!!!! i guess technically yes, but I've already cut off those bitches in my head 😌 manifesting it into existence <3

(71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters? avatar 2

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex? i don't have one

(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now? “not you, i didn't wanna hurt you”

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest? brown bc if i say any other color, its probably a yt person and also brown be smexy

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set? yes, yes

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate? honey buttered biscuits

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone? among us, maybe Minecraft

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not? no bc i don't know how and i would call for someone else to help

(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?probably bc I'm a hermit

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network? amsifnda this is ME ur talking to

(81) Do You Like Meeting New People? yes kinda, unless they're awkward (aHEM BREAKOUT ROOMS WITH NEW BUT AWKWARD PEOPLE-)

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them. i used to but not anymore

(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed? i want it closed but the person i share the room with leaves it open bc they say we’re gonna fuckin suffocate if we leave it closed and i hate it bc ✨trauma✨! DONT WE LOVE TRAUMA??!?!?!?!??!?!?!? :D............

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today? i baked biscuits, i did college stuff, i showered

(85) What Do You Wear To Bed? usually mismatched pjs

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now. chapstick, natural skincare serum, lotion, face masks

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person? day

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc. don't have any

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.

a snake chased me and it was weird as fuck

(90) Favourite Soda Drink? don't have one

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite? people laughing, violin and piano, my friends voices, my siblings voices

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More? SWEATS

(93) How Do You Look Right Now? comfy

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You. showering

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want? maybe an important quote? “dont trust owls” imprinted on my face

(96) Favourite YouTuber? stephanie soooooooooooooooooooooo

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noahhernandez · 4 years

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02/02/2020

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? I.. do not know, yes? maybe? lol. 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Incorrect, why did you say correct like i’m supposed to 3. Have you taken someones virginity? no 4. Is trust a big issue for you? I am huge on trust. I have a hard time trusting people with like 100% of everything. 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? I don’t like anyone, plus the last person I hung out with was Bri 6. What are you excited for? Nothing! The load of homework I have but I am doing this instead to waste time! 7. What happened tonight? its 3pm idk nothing. I will be doing nothing 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? Hell nah! I love when my bitches are throwing up and falling we having a good time! 9. Is confidence sexy? IDk sure. 10. What is the last beverage you had? A cup of coffee 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Bri, Michelle, Faith, and eh.. Angel? 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? It is the only pair of jeans I own 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? Yesterday was saturday, and i did nothing but work! So this upcoming saturday, I will be doing the exact same thing and just working. 14. What are you going to spend money on next? My rent because it was due yesterday, then my other bills 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? I dont even know the last person I kissed.. Michelle? no.. Braeden? no too long ago. Idk who knows but NO 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? I’ll still be a fucking bitch! 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? oo.. I’m not sure. Maybe Janett 18. The last time you felt broken? I would want to say back in July? or June. summer time though 19. Have you had sex today? no 20. Are you starting to realize anything? no, i am stupid 21. Are you in a good mood? yes sure I am just sitting 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? i cant swim! 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? dark brown yes 24. What do you want right this second? um iced coffee 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? when I was in that situation i just asked why 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? I have no idea, my hair used to be black until recently now it is like getting dark brown which makes me mad 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? NO 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? i was reading twitter interactions between me, alisa, and sam earle lmao 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? I miss seeing Angel every day, I miss seeing Adrian every day, and I’m sure I’ll miss seeing Courtnie every day. but not like i miss them in that specific way yet 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? no, i did that and it like kind of allows them to think they got a free pass for doing something wrong. this can be related to any situation too 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? talking to in which way because I do not think so no 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? i dont like anyone 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? I drink coke, but I dont have coke at my apartment. I drink it here and there at work, and if I’m going to get food, i’ll sometimes get it. I would say like the amount I drink could be equivalent to 3 cans a week. 34. Listening to? Bellyache by Billie Eilish 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? Only when I’m doing inventory at work or making the rough draft of the schedule, working on math which is rare, or making a plan/rough draft of events 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? home ? 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? no! 38. Who did you last call? Leann 39. Who was the last person you danced with? no one 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? IF it was Braeden then because I was dating him IF it was Michelle it is because I was drunk 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? EW I dont even know i hate cupcakes 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? no 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? more than likely 44. Do you tan in the nude? i dont tan 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? doesnt matter to me 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? No 47. Who was the last person to call you? Leann, lol 48. Do you sing in the shower? NO 49. Do you dance in the car? um? I guess 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? the plastic ones yes 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? shit probably back in 2008 or some shit 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? I can not stand musicals 53. Is Christmas stressful? working christmas is stressful and time consuming 54. Ever eat a pierogi? i can not even pronounce that 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? apple ! ! 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Lawyer 57. Do you believe in ghosts? i dont know .. 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? hmm no. 59. Take a vitamin daily? yes, I take vitamin d3 60. Wear slippers? no 61. Wear a bath robe? no 62. What do you wear to bed? sweat pants and a tshirt 63. First concert? PAPA ROACH 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? i love the walmart 65. Nike or Adidas? I own both does not matter to me 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? hot cheetos 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? neither both are disgusting well actually i would eat the peanuts 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? i dont know i like a few but i dont go out of my way to listen to taylor swift 69. Ever take dance lessons? hell no 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? anything that has steady income 71. Can you curl your tongue? yes? 72. Ever won a spelling bee? no 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? honestly i dont know 74. What is your favorite book? I am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter 75. Do you study better with or without music? With 76. Regularly burn incense? noo 77. Ever been in love? Sadly yes 78. Who would you like to see in concert? OMAR APOLLO 79. What was the last concert you saw? Lil Debbie ??? shit that was a long time ago 80. Hot tea or cold tea? iced tea 81. Tea or coffee? coffee 82. Favorite type of cookie? oatmeal raisin 83. Can you swim well? i cant swim at all lol 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yes wtf 85. Are you patient? depends on what it is for 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ 87. Ever won a contest? no 88. Ever have plastic surgery? not yet 89. Which are better black or green olives? BLACK olives 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? i dont care i personally dont have sex, now, until i’m close/comfortable with someone. I dont hook up or whatever 91. Best room for a fireplace? a living room 92. Do you want to get married? no

#personal

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blueshipstealstars · 5 years

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I guess I could put this here???

I GUESS??? Cause I feel some people like knowing if something up with me so why not share the last 24 hour events cause I basically: Went to urgent care to get rid of a cough from a previous cold and ended passing out several times to the point my heart stopped and now I’m on new meds and sort of still out of it in terms of doing much is exhausting haha-

Bottom line I am OK what happen is common as heck!!

But yeah I’ll explain it in detail under the cut and fair warning I talk about blood in this (lab tests kind) some mentioning of needles and fainting just as an fyi!

So as I mentioned, I went to Urgent care cause Ive had this cough for a while, I student teach so I never really give it a break ya know?

Also that morning at 3 am I work up in a sweat and a fever before I took some advil and dayquil and finally got back to sleep after an hour. Woke up at 7 and the fever was gone but I was still sweating.

(Aka note there’s a lot of sweat loss -> Sodium loss)

In the end they noticed my one tonsil is swollen so they prescribed some meds to help with it.

In the meantime they also wanted to test for step (it was negative) and then mono (also negative).

Downside, I warned the nurse I DO pass out when getting blood tests. But never when being baby pricked like you do for mono

So weirdly enough I pass out when he does this, not once but twice, I briefly came to before passing out again before finally waking up.

I woke up was active and responsive as normal and he was giving me orange juice and some of the meds for my throat

Before I even took them I leaned back cause I felt weird and proceeded to pass out AGAIN (which is NOT normal)

When I came to this time they were putting an IV in me and saying they were gonna call the hospital next door to come get me and bring me there

The emts come and take me there and Im exhausted yeah but alright until they put me in the wheelchair but I was conscious as the nurse got my information and asked me questions

It wasn’t until they took me for a chest X ray and needed me to stand that I once again passed out (luckily I sat myself back down and tried to tell her what was going to happen and that I needed to lay down but alas I balcked out again)

They brought me too and this time put me back into a bed and brought me to an emergency room (I think) to emit me there

Ngl before they moved me to another room I was in tears because I have basically passed out several times for unknown reasons within less then 4 hours

Also by then my mom was there because I kept her updated during my visit and even managed to text her i was being sent to the hospital

But yeah they got me into a room checked me out and I was EXHAUSTED but conscious and responsive. All was going fine and dandy until WHICH IS WEIRD another nurse came in literally changed my IV bandage do they could put a bag on and I remember saying it hurt when she was pulling it off and telling her I dont feel right and passing out again

And this is where it was scary

Because I came back just as I normally do but I remember ALOT of people were in the room like we’re talking 8+

This is because I was out longer than I should have been and due to that my heart stopped for 22 seconds

The good thing is BECAUSE there is nothing wrong with me and I am young my heart jumped right back up the moment I came to so it was all good

Downside they did add on a second heart monitor which is a little annoying BUT UNDERSTANDABLE

But yeah so they put off getting lab tests for the obvious reason and just let me rest ESPECIALLY after the doctor and nurses mentioning what exactly happened to each other and my mom which really sort of shocked me cause who wants to hear their fucking heart actually stopped at any POINT???

Funny enough once I went through the IV bag I was my normal chatty self showing my mom the new pokemon starters and everything just to keep us distracted

Hell we even got the lab tests done without me passing out

Down side ya girl passed out 5 times

I met with a specialist (A heart rhythm one if I remember right) and yeah he explained this is normal and you usually never know cause not everyone passing out can see their heart rate obviously what I have is considered a situational Vasovagal Syncope where I have a trigger that sets my body into fight or flight mode and it lets the blood pressure drop to the point my heart goes with it aka causing me to pass out its common as heck and we know the trigger

It is VERY unusual that this happened this much and is unlikely to happen again but they have given me meds to regulate my pressure and I will see that doctor in two weeks to see how I’m doing!

Another thing they noted is I have a sodium deficiency (ive known this for years and worked with it) and it didnt help I sweated out so much this morning since 3 am. But turns out because my FAVORITE beverage is water I am deluding the sodium I do have so I’m weirdly suggested to drink more different sorts like soda or gatorade or juice that give me boosts of other things

In conclusion, I am ok. Not totally better based on how my day has gone due to any excessive movement or standing has made my light headed sadly. But I’m not in the hospital currently and I just need to get myself to stop being active for the weekend and relax and recover my strength! I just sort of wanted to put this all down in a full “this is what happened” cause I don’t have anywhere else to put a long thing like this LOL-

But yeah make sure to take care of yourselves ok guye!!

#personal #tw: fainting #tw: blood #tw: hospital visit

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whaleyoufeedmenuggets · 5 years

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Im too lazy to look at the questions so DO ALL OF THEM. (if you dont wanna then go on a random number generator and get 5 random numbers)

ITS REALLY LONG BUT I DID IT KJSHADJS HERE GOES i love oversharing my lifealso im putting a read more line bc its hella long

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

water bottles

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

ehhh depends on my mood. i’d say it’s (dark) chocolate most of the time (love that 70% dark chocolate mmMmMm)

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

cotton candy!! except when it gets all over my face and hair o no

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

common report book comments included

- very active

- bright

- “the live wire of the class”

- usually distracted but still does well

- mischievous

- playful

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

bottles so that i can close it and save the rest for later and not have to chug it yeet

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

sportswear #sweatpantsalldayeveryday

7. earbuds or headphones?

def headphones but they’re inconvenient sometimes :/

8. movies or tv shows?

tv shows!! (also, my adhd ass can’t get through a movie without zoning out oops)

9. favorite smell in the summer?

i haven’t experienced /real/ summer (thank u singapore’s tropical climate) but i rly like the smell of rain :”)

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

making up excuses to skip pe

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

belvitas before morning practice

croissant sandwich and chocolate milk after practice

if there’s no practice, then scrambled eggs from the dining hall lolol

if i’m too lazy to go to the dining hall, then cereal

12. name of your favorite playlist?

it’s literally called jams and the description is “a clusterfuck of stuff i’ve jammed to at some point”

13. lanyard or key ring?

key ring

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

gummy bears/sour patch kids

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

death of a salesman - arthur miller

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

with one foot up on the chair and the other leg sitting normally

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

a pair of asics sneakers

18. ideal weather?

15ºc/60ºf when its like cool but not too cold but also not ridiculously hot and also when theres no insane wind (a light breeze is fine)

19. sleeping position?

on my left side and hugging a pillow/bolster/soft toy

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

i like the feeling of pen and paper but im disorganized as hell so an apple pencil + ipad makes a good enough substitute

21. obsession from childhood?

frogs (i’ve loved them since i was 3 hehe)

22. role model?

a dude i used to train with for a while in 2014. he retired last year but he’s always looked out for me like an older brother since we trained together (he’s 8 years older than me lmao) and even thought i’m so far away rn he still checks in on me and stuff and idk he’s probably one of the swimmers i respect the most.

23. strange habits?

i cant fall asleep at night if im not hugging something. like. it could be a pillow. or a soft toy. literally anything. once on a school trip i hugged a pair of sweatpants to sleep bc i legit cant fall asleep if im not hugging something.i have no problem falling asleep in class/on buses/cars/planes though.

24. favorite crystal?

idk i never really paid enough attention to crystals to actually have a favorite and know their names. they’re all rly pretty tho.

25. first song you remember hearing?

uhh h h i honestly can’t remember. probably some classical music bc i played the violin and that was my first experience of music that i was actually aware of????

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

switch on the aircon and take a nap / sit in bed on netflix/playing on my nintendo switch. and swimming outdoors i guess.

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

switch on the heater and take a nap / sit in bed on netflix/playing on my nintendo switch.

do u see a pattern here

28. five songs to describe you?

jet lag - simple plan (bc time zones suck and i miss my fam & friends)

avalanche - bring me the horizon (pretty much sums up how tf my brain feels)

high hopes - p!atd

astronaut - simple plan

the reckless and the brave - all time low

29. best way to bond with you?

doing dumb shit with me

also Quality Time™️ like idk even if we’re chilling and doing our own shit i like just spending time with people im comfortable enough with

30. places that you find sacred?

idk

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

a hoodie and sweatpants

for no reason other than that’s what i wear 90% of the time

32. top five favorite vines?

I AM CONFUSION!!! AMERICA EXPLAIN

this bitch empty. yeet.

im in my mom’s car VROOM VROOM

the one of that dad playing the saxophone (???) and the kid slamming the oven door open and shut

road works ahead “haha yea sure hope it does!”

33. most used phrase in your phone?

either lmao or lolol or LMFAO or yeet

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

gOD i had spotify ads stuck in my head all the time before i switched to premium and now i cant remember any of them (thank god)

35. average time you fall asleep?

i’d say 12:30-1ish

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

the tROLL FACE MEME LIKE those rage faces idk what they’re called but BASICALLY THOSE 2010-2012 era memes

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

suitcase!!! i like sitting on them and yeeting myself around on them or getting people to push me around and then falling off

38. lemonade or tea?

lemonade

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

ngl i havent had either of them before

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

so in jc2 (aka 12th grade), for some reason PEOPLE WERE PUTTING PRE-PACKAGED HARD BOILED EGGS ALL OVER THE SCHOOL. like they were still in their wrappers and all but u could open ur schoolbag and find like 5 eggs in there. and no one knew where they came from. i think at one point there were even eggs hanging from the pull-up bars. all i know is that they were everywhere and people in my batch still remember it as the egg invasion of acjc.

41. last person you texted?

my mom

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

def jacket!!! especially when they have zips hehe

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

hoodie

44. favorite scent for soap?

idk man depends on my mood

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

sci-fi bc im a fricken nerd

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

shirt and sweats

47. favorite type of cheese?

cheddarrr also i like mozzerrella sticks

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

a fineapple B)

lmao jk ummmm maybe a watermelon bc when u hit it it sounds hollow, just like how my skull would sound if someone hit it (h a)

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

here for a good time not for a long time

never give up without a fight

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

idk probably some dumb meme. i laugh at a lot of stuff like i laugh anything even mildly funny. some that i can think of off the top of my head are:

- i was tryna type ducky but typed fucky instead and sOmEOnE (could be the person who submitted this ask, idk tho) changed my facebook messenger nickname to fucky and the notification was like ”poopy butthole changed your nickname to fucky” and i think that’s still the funniest sentence i’ve read in my whole life

- one time we went to mcdonalds and a friend said mcfluffy instead of mcflurry and idk why but i laughed so hard at that

- once @doduo and i spent half a chinese lesson cutting out random faces from the chinese newspaper and sticking them randomly all over the classroom and idk. it was the funniest thing ever. until the teacher came over and confiscated my scissors rip.

51. current stresses?

- an essay draft (that i am procrastinating rn by doing this, oops)

- CANADIAN TRIALS (but thats a good kind of stress)

- submitting a proposal for a group project but none of my groupmates are freaking replying my texts ugh

52. favorite font?

avenir next!! i find san serif fonts way easier to read than serif lolol.i like helvetica neue too.

53. what is the current state of your hands?

dry af but also i just got my nails done so they pretty rn hehe

54. what did you learn from your first job?

i…havent had a real job yet

55. favorite fairy tale?

idk i was never rly one for fairy tales even as a kid.

56. favorite tradition?

chinese new year when we get CASH and we spend 3 days just eating junk yEET im rly sad im gonna be missing it the next few years tho

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

hh h h hh hhh hh hh they’re pretty personal i don’t /really/ wanna put it out here but i can text you the answer to this if you want (i’m perfectly fine with that!!)

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

- i think i’m pretty intuitive!!! i can guess anyone’s mbti if i’ve spent enough time with them/gotten a detailed enough description of them /winks/ and i can read people pretty well in general and i can draw links to themes/symbols in lit pretty well….???

- i’m somewhat decent at lettering…i think

- i’m good at pull-ups and also vertical jumps i’m secretly a froge

- i’m decent at photography…i guess….

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

yeet

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

pokemon !!

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

/sweats/ i’m not very good at remembering lines from books/movies/shows WELP

62. seven characters you relate to?

JAKE PERALTA - b99

rosa diaz - b99

linguine - ratatouille (he’s permanently confused and he let a ratto take over his job bc he had no idea what he was doing like damn what a big mood)

dory - finding nemo/finding dory (i relate to the forgetfulness)

percy jackson

kale bae /winks/

mitt (during bad phases) /winks again, but sadly/

63. five songs that would play in your club?

idek man i wouldnt even be at my own club i’d be at home taking a nap i’ll just ask someone else to handle my playlist

64. favorite website from your childhood?

club penguin !!!

65. any permanent scars?

yE one of them was from jumping onto a treadmill going at 13km/h 2 years ago bc i thought i was a good idea

66. favorite flower(s)?

i dont have any

67. good luck charms?

i eat pancakes for breakfast on meet days!!!! altho i think this is more of a habit than a good luck charm tbh lmao.

also i guess pip???? he’s my emotional support narwhal :’)

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

durian. i cant stand the stuff or anything flavored like it ugh.

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

red food coloring is derived from beetles

70. left or right handed?

right

71. least favorite pattern?

overly-floral patterns i guessssss. also i hate wearing stripes.

72. worst subject?

chinese

besides that, math and physics

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

i rly like vanilla ice cream and fries

also i would eat ketchup with nearly anything

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

i usually just suck it up and go to sleep when it comes to pain but i guess an 8??? idk. i usually take advil/ibuprofen only for fevers

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

i got my first loose tooth on january 11 2005 and it fell out on january 18 2005 & it was a tuesday (pls don’t ask me how i remember this bc i dont know)

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

tater tots

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

cactus i guess. idk im not good at plants.

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

grocery store sushi (it was pretty decent in singapore so yeeeee lmao also i ate a lot of that as a kid)

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

its the same photo for both so yeAh

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

earth

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

idk i always called them fireflies

82. pc or console?

console I LOVE THE FEEL OF BUTTONS

83. writing or drawing?

drawing (more like doodlign for me bc i cant draw for shit)

84. podcasts or talk radio?

neither but if i rlllllly had to choose then podcasts i guessss s sss

84. barbie or polly pocket?

neither LMAO i gave all my barbies haircuts when i was a kid bc i didnt know what to do with them

85. fairy tales or mythology?

mythology for sure!! i love greek mythology (may or may not be bc of percy jackson lolol)

86. cookies or cupcakes?

87. your greatest fear?

losing those i love and care about (could be drifting or actual death it goes both ways)

88. your greatest wish?

rn, for my essay to write itself

for the short-term, to make the olympics (and WUGs…and worlds…and sea games…and asian games…and commonwealth games lmao)

for the long-term, uhhh idk. i just wanna live a life i’m satisfied with and to have a job i actually like and to be able to support my parents

89. who would you put before everyone else?

my mom

90. luckiest mistake?

i always say that i regret doing a year of college in singapore instead of coming here for freshman year but if i’d come in a year earlier like i was supposed to, i proba wouldn’t have made it past swim team tryouts and i made some pretty great friends in my first year of college soooo it all worked out i guessi cant think of any others rn

91. boxes or bags?

bags

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

fairy lights are rly pretty!!but i like natural light :”)

93. nicknames?

deb

debs

debo

debbo

alpha childuhh h h i think thats about it??? i cant remember any others

94. favorite season?

spring’s pretty great rni like fall too (before it gets cOLd)

95. favorite app on your phone?

insta/tumblr/telegram

96. desktop background?

a photo of me looking rly cool at the starting blocks before a race B)

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

4 - mine (singapore & US), my mom’s and my dad’s

98. favorite historical era?

uhh h h idk the ice age seemed pretty cool haha sike it was actually coldmedieval times seemed pretty cool too like damn i want a suit of armorWHEW I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON THIS but i had fun so yeet

also if you read all the way down here ily and you’re cool

#ask #this was hella long #but also hella fun

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duchess08 · 5 years

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Meeting Him. Finally.

23/11/2018

So, hi! It’s been a long time since I wrote something here. Yesterday, I met Gifar.... That one old guy that I crushed on back in middle school. It was started with me, stalked him in Instagram and found out that he worked in this cool cafe near my friend’s house. So, I, without no expectation at all, asked my friend about this cafe and turned out she was curious about it and wanted to go there. Well, I thought we could do it next week or sometime but since she will be busy moving to Tangerang, she asked me to go there right the next day!! She even texted me, making sure that we will go. I was so surprised and I can’t stop fidgeting and trembling and hyperventilating the whole night. I woke up and I remembered that I will go to his cafe and just right away, I was shaking and nervous, I even picked my clothes for thousandth times, doing my makeup carefully, etc.. The whole day filled with me being so nervous. I told my other friend who also lives nearby the cafe and she wanted to join. So finally, it’s us three who went there.

Finally, we arrived there at like 3 pm. I started to hyperventilating, my knees were getting weak like I’m sure I can collapse any time, my hands were ice cold, and I walked really slowly.. As we walked the stairs, I suddenly stopped and thinking about not entering at all HAHA, I was so nervous and not ready to meet him (will I ever be?). But then my friends encouraged me, said that it will be okay, and I took a deep breath and keep repeating that maybe he wasn’t there and there was nothing to worry about. The second that I entered the cafe, I saw that the bar is right in the center which means I have no place to hide. The waitress put us in this table that is right in front of the bar which means if he’s there, he will see me right away and I do too. I asked for a further away table but we can’t since it’s for 6 pax. So... Oh anyway, while I walked there, I really turned my head down with my hair down so it covered my face...

Then we have to order something but my mind was still not working so I let my two friends chose. At that time, I still didn’t know whether he was there or not, and my friends as well since I haven’t showed them his photos. But I don’t know, my feelings said that he was there, so close with me.. And after awhile, Ajri begged me to show his pic so at least she can told me where he was or even whether he was there or not. And then I showed him and you know, it’s only a second but she said “yu itu bukan sih?” And Ayu saw the photos and said yes right away. I was so nervous knowing that he’s really there and then Ajri said something that make me more nervous than I will ever be; “Rez, dia pas banget di belakang lo. Beneran pas banget di belakang lo.” And I passed out.. Gadeeeng hahaha. I was so nervous that I started to not turning my head to the left that my neck hurt. After like half an hour, my confidence finally back and I started to act like a normal person. We chatted and I just forget that he was there and my curiousity also calmed down.

But then, suddenly, Ajri said “Rezk, shift dia udah kelar ya? Dari tadi kayaknya ga keliatan deh rez... Lo yakin gamau liat gitu?” And you know, I realized there that I HAVE to see him, even just a bit, or else I will regret this for years. So, since the place is quite silent and I feel that he wasnt at the bar, I turned my head and there he was, right on the corner walking towards the bar.. I asked Ajri whether I am right or not and she confirmed that it was him... You know, I only got to see him for a split second, with blurry eyes that I can’t figure out the details but I just know that it’s him.

He was pretty much the same like in those pictures, with his cap, wearing that grey shirt and brown apron.. He’s tall, well comparing to back in middle school... He’s nearly as tall as me. But in that short time, I just... got happy, elated, ecstatic, to finally able to see him doing well. For these past seven years, I never have the chance to know his whereabouts, maybe just a bit. But finally, able to see him, with my own two eyes, knowing how he changed, is just..... too much that all I ever feel is joy. But yes, I’m still so nervous that after some minutes, I asked Ajri to accompany me to the washroom.

I tried to keep myself from bursting that time. I did everything slowly, washing my hands, drying my hands, hoping that I will regain my confidence back. Then Ajri said these, “Rez, sadar engga sih dari tadi pegawainya kayak ngeliatin kita banget? Liat aja mba-mba yang tadi berdiri, langsung kaget pas liat lo..” I was trying to be calm but I’m not. After hearing these, I dont know... I was happy because it means he did notice me, even though I’m kinda sure that he’s not really sure that it was me. Or maybe, he’s not brave enough, or maybe close enough, to say hi. It’s not like I’m hoping him walking to my table, suddenly say hi out of nowhere because I know it’s impossible for him.

And then, I walked out from the washroom. I really want to try look at him again, but I failed. My eyes were too blurry and it looked strange if I squint my eyes out of nowhere. So... yeah. We talked again, shared some stories until we decided to go home since it’s already late. You know, back then, I really want to see him again for the very last time. I tried to collect my self but no, I can’t. He really stood beside me, so it’s just too close. We called the waitress, asked for the bill and paid it. We stood up and walked out. All the waitress said thank you, and there was a lot of them in the bar, and I know he was there, saying thank you to us. I’m able to raise my head but only to smile to the nearest waitress that stand around me.

At that very last time, I tried hard to collect the remaining braveness that I have. Reminding myself that this is the very last chance I have to see him again. And when my friend, who walked behind me, trying to open the door, there I was, turning my head back, seeing him behind the bar. I saw him for some seconds, trying to absorb all of these last memories that I will have about him. Even tho I only able to figure out his side profile, but still, it’s him. I know there were some guys who stand around him and still looked at us, but I don’t care. I want to see him, for the very last time.

It may sounds cheesy, but I’m so happy to finally able to see him. The guy who I’ve been curious for years. I saw him changing from years to years through the pictures. I know his exes. I always tried to catch up on how he’s doing. I’m so happy to see him doing well, doing the job that he seems love so much. All I ever feel is so happy, to witness this with my own two eyes, it liked I can burst in any seconds. I want to jump, to express how it will end, how we finally able to go with our own in the best possible way.

So, after seeing him, with my friends already walked out from the cafe, I walked out.. I closed the door behind me, with him standing there and I’m ready to leave him for good.

There is this passage in Forever Princess by Meg Cabot that keeps hanging in my mind;

“I wish I could say when Michael’s dark eyes met mine, I was completely cool and collected about seeing him again after all this time, and that I laughed airily and said all the right things. I wish I could say after having pretty much single-handedly brought democracy to a country I happen to be princess of, and written a four-hundred-page romance novel, and gotten into every college to which I applied (even if it’s just because I’m a princess), that I handled meeting Michael for the first time again after throwing my snowflake necklace in his face almost two years ago with total grace and aplomb.

But I totally didn’t. I could feel my whole face start to heat up when his gaze met mine. Also, my hands began to sweat right away. And I was pretty sure the floor was going to come swinging up and smack me in the face, I suddenly felt so light-headed and dizzy.”

This is definitely me. I wish I could say that when I met him for the very first time since the last 7 years ago, I can look at him, saying all good things, act with poise and grace. I wish I could say that when I met him again, I’m not the same girl, with big frizzy hair, pimples all over my face, too tall for my age, gigantic, fat, who has zero confidence, shy, sometimes bursting in the wrong moments. I am the girl, who’s currently pursuing my medical profession, written a research that will be published in international journal, a semi-finalist in a pageant, having this amazing life of mine, no more pimples on my skin, my hair is smooth that everyone is always jealous for, having this great body of mine that people told me to be a model, so the time I handled him, I can be a girl with full confidence yet humbleness.

But I totally didn’t. I could feel my legs get weak, my face heated up, my breath get shorter and shorter, when he was there. Also, my hands began to sweat and cold right away. And I know, if someone poked me, I would just fall. It feels like the world will smack me and bury me and the room is getting smaller and will succumb me in the end.

Because in the end, I’m still the same old boring girl inside, who’s hopelessly in love with the memories of his. All the accomplishment that I’ve done is nothing when I was with him. I don’t care about those things, because the only thing that I do care is how he looks at me, how he sees me.

There’s this one thing that I will always wonder; How did he feel when he saw me right there? Was he surprised? Was he curious why I was there? Did he even recognize me? How did he think about me, about how different I was compared to the last time he saw me, the last 7 years? Did I look beautiful? Did I amaze him? I truly wonder...

I did say that I won’t ever go out with him, and it still applies today, it never changed. I do question myself thousandth times. Why I keep saying that he will never be my boyfriend? Why I keep saying that I never interested in pursuing romantic relationship with him? Yes, I can say that I like him. But what exactly that I like? Is it his face? No, I mean, I met guys who looks better than him. And to be honest, his isn’t the ideal type for my liking. He’s short, he’s also getting darker now, he’s not that old cute guy anymore, he isn’t neat. Is it his personality? As far as I see, his personality isn’t changed much back since middle school based on my stalking in his personal account. He didn’t write neatly, using this awkward lines, I could even say “alay”. Is it his kindness? No, I’ve never seen him doing something kind that to the point that it amazes me. Is it his life? No... So then I realized, there’s only one thing that keeps me attached to him.. It is the memories of him.

I love him because he was the only one that able to put my life upside down even tho I was still a young teenager. He was the only one who able to make my days better just by a simple text messages. He was the only one who I once want to give chocolate in Val’s Day. He was the only one who can make me blush without any fluttering lines. He was the only one who, is very far from my ideal type, but still able to make me interested in him.

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this-is-a-dystopian-parable · 2 years

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"i can call him up and tell him what i want!

Jesus.mp3

i can call him up and tell him what i want!

but solo now so: lo the cymbals,

(but on cannery row hazel pours all the half drunk drinks into a single jug, and comes home with a wild punch maybe champagne spiked one night and fernet the next. one taste.

i have no idea what all of this tastes like,

i have no idea what god looks like,

-Dave Malloy, December 09 2005

#dave malloy Pointless #not sorry for how long this is

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tidsoptlmist · 6 years

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It’s a Boy-Girl Thing - E.D.

Authors note: I’M BACK! for those who care: my holiday was sO MUCH FUN OH MY GOD!! I had the bEST time!!! sadly school has started again and i’m drowning in homework again!!!

disclaimer 1: over these past few weeks I’ve received so many asks about whether or not I was still gonna update this: the answer is YES!

I hate the feeling of letting you all wait or maybe letting you down when i’m not posting as often as i (and you) would want me to.

the things is that (and this might come as a shocker) actually do have a life outside of tumblr. I’m in my senior year of high school and I trying to get good grades, so I can get into a good university next year...

I do love writing this and I am so excited to continue writing this story (and more!!) and I will not stop until this story is finished!!! I promise ahha!! I see those messages as a compliment (bc apparently you all like this very much and want to read more) but sometimes they make me feel a little bad/stressed because i feel like I’m let you all down... so yea..... I hope you all understand!

(what im trying to say is that i dont really mind those asks but at the same time it won't help asking bc YES i will be updating: but only when I’m able to...) (which will be regularly again next week!!!!) (promise)

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Part 9 一 ANIMOSITY

Summary: Ethan and Y/N are neighbors. And although Y/N is on good terms with Ethan’s twin brother Grayson, Y/N and Ethan loathe each other and are constantly in dispute. Ethan is a populair varsity football player, who likes to be in the spotlight. Y/N prefers to stay under the radar, while reading books and poetry.

Although the constant bickering between the two drives everyone around them crazy - the two live their separate lives peacefully. At least that’s how it was until they wake up one morning and every had changed…

PART 1 || PART 2 || PART 3 || PART 4 || PART 5 || PART 6 || PART 7 || PART 8 || PART 9 || PART 10

You liked sports. You honestly liked being active. But not in late summer, when it was hot like an oven outside and the air humid.

You could feel the sweat dripping down your back, your shirt completely drenched. Your heart beat banging in your head and your legs shaking. You squint your eyes against the intense sunset.

Ethan had made you run around the field all afternoon. He had made you run laps, do pushups, situps and all different sorts of exercises which names you had forgotten right after Ethan said you could stop doing them. After finishing you had dropped yourself next to Ethan on the grass: completely worn out.

‘What are you doing?’ Ethan had asked.

‘I’m taking a break. Actually, not even a break: I’m done! I think if I continue I might get a heart attack or something,’ you breath still went rapidly.

Ethan just laughed while grabbing a water bottle from the cooler he had taken with him. ‘What are you on about? This was the warming up!’ He threw a cold bottle of water next to you in the grass. Your hands quickly opened it and you gulped down half of the bottle before glaring at Ethan.

‘I’m definitely warm…’ You mumbled annoyed.

Slowly you had gotten up from the grass and Ethan had made you catch footballs for an hour. The sun was now setting and your whole body ached. You fell onto the bench at the side of the field.

‘I don’t think I’ll ever be able to leave this bench. I can’t carry your body anymore Eth,’ you sighed and wiped your forehead with his shirt. It didn’t help much: your shirt was completely soak. Ethan stood in front of you, grinning. Silently you watched the sunset behind the hills.

‘Let’s go home,’ you said, getting up. You grabbed your bag and looked at Ethan. He was still smiling at you. ‘I thought you said “you were never gonna be able to get off that bench”,’ he chucked at you. You rolled your eyes, but couldn't help but let a smile creep on your face.

‘We really need to head home though. Grayson said something about a party this morning and I think he really wants to go,’ you say as you walk towards the parking lot where Ethan had parked your car earlier.

‘Who’s hosting the party?’ Ethan asked you, eyeing your in a curious manner.

‘Austin, I think…’ You say, trying to remember what Grayson had said this morning. ‘He said Austin invited you both. And that it would be a big party. Apparently his parents are out of town.’

‘You should go,’ Ethan says, as he opens the trunk. You put the footballs and bottles of water and other training gear in the trunk.

‘I don’t want to go,’ you say in all honesty. Ethan rolls his eyes as he closes the trunk again.

‘Grayson and I never go somewhere alone-’

‘Yea, that’s kinda weird: you two should try to being more independent,’ you cut him off. Ethan eyes you angrily - irritated that you cut him off, but ignores your comment.

‘Like I said, before you cut me off: we never go somewhere alone. If Grayson wants to go: you go with him,’ Ethan says as he walks towards the driver seat. You walk towards passengers seat and get into your car.

‘I don’t like those kind of parties! What do you want me to do while I’m there?! Also; this could only go wrong. Someone will definitely notice something’s off!’ You tell him, trying to convince him why you shouldn’t go to Austin’s party.

‘You can try talking to some girls?’ Ethan suggests chuckeling, but quickly comes back from his idea: ‘Wait, no! Don’t talk to girls! You’ll for sure embarrass me!’

You glare at him. ‘What’s that supposed to mean?’

‘Y/N, you might have a 4.0 on your GPA but you definitely don’t have a 4.0 in flirting,’ Ethan laughs at his own joke.

‘I’m not that bad….’ You say softly.

‘You know what, I’ll go to the party as well. That way I can keep an eye on you so you don’t embarrass me too much.’ Ethan says. You give him another glare. Annoyed how he won’t trust you.

The field wasn’t far from your home. Ethan parked in front of the Dolan house and you got out of the car.

‘Do you need to pick an outfit for tonight too - or do you trust me to pick one out myself without embarrassing you?’ You snarled at him. Ethan looked unimpressed by your remark.

‘Nah, you’re good,’ he simply said, pushing a strand of your long hair out of his face. In the days that he had been trapped in your body, he had only wore your hair down. It was now that you relised it was probably because he didn’t know how to tie a ponytail with long hair. You huffed and walked towards the trunk where you got the footballs and other training gear.

You walked towards the Dolan house without saying goodbye to Ethan. You dumped the training gear in the garage and walked immediately upstairs. You grabbed a clean pair of undrwear and some basketball shorts and walked towards the shower.

You took a quick shower - the same way you did that morning. This time the towel didn’t drop and you got the underwear on in one go. You stood infront of Ethan’s side of the sink and sprayed on some cologne. You closed your eyes as you inhaled the scent: it was smelled very good.

You walked out of the bathroom and layed down on Ethan’s bed. The party wouldn’t start till 9:30 - so you had a good three hours to kill.

Before you really could think of something to do, Grayson barched into the room. These boys left eachother no privacy did they?!

‘E,’ he exclaimed as he jumbed on the bed next to you, ‘wanna play some video games?’

And before you knew it, you were walking towards Grayson’s room. It was practially the same as Ethan - but with different colored bedsheets and instead of a poster of a motercycle there was a poster of old looking car. You recognised Grayson’s Ford Bronco - altough the one on the poster was red in color. Grayson turned the PlayStation on and handed you a controller.

‘Dude!!’ Grayson yelled at you. You stared at the screen. “YOU DIED” it read in thic red letters.

‘I swear I shot them first! I don’t know how I died?!’ You said annoyed.

‘Why are you so bad at this game?! Did you lose all your skills while haning out with Y/N today or something?!’ Grayson said jokingly, although he stilled looked a little annoyed at you for losing.

‘No,’ you mumbed while restarting the game. Playing video games was more fun then you innitionally thought it would be. Grayson was good company too, chatting away about his day.

‘How is Y/N doing?’ Grayson asks suddenly. You huff, concentrating on the game, ‘she’s good.’

Grayson falls back on the bed, starring at the ceiling, ‘she looks good.’

His comment makes you forget the game and within a second the red letters spelling out “YOU LOST” fill the tv screen again.

‘What’s that supposed to mean?’ You ask Grayson, confused. Grayson gives you a ‘like you don’t know what I’m talking about’-look. You gave him the ‘I-really-don’t-have-a-fucking-clue-what-you’re-talking-about-so-tell-me-now’-kind of look.

‘You said it yourself E: she has a good ass!’

You look at him in shock. It was weird hearing Grayson making comments about your ass - well just any ass - without getting red and flushed.

‘I never said that!’ Ethan would never say something like that about you!

‘Yea you did, like three days ago,’ Grayson says while taking the controller from you hands. ‘But don’t worry, I won’t tell Sophia tonight.’ He chuckles at his own joke. He walked towards the PlayStation and turns it off.

‘Is she gonna be there too?’ You mentally roll your eyes. Your energy level for this party just dropped to minus 6.

‘Yea, so let’s have some diner and get ready for this party,’ Grayson says as he walks out of his room. When he’s halfway down the stairs you hear him laugh and say:

‘and don’t forget to bring protection! We don’t want any surprises in 9 months!’

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redvelvetreel · 6 years

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Red Velvet Reel 4.3: A Crabapple A Day

[Fic Directory]

Pairing: [Married] Spicyhoney (Underfell Papyrus x Underswap Papyrus)

Summary: Undyne finally shows up, and tells Stretch and Blue the rumors about Edge and Red- much to their delight. The Fell Bros take advantage of the situation to try and scare Undyne....

Characters: Edge (Underfell Papyrus) & Stretch (Underswap Papyrus) & Red (Underfell Sans) & Blue (Underswap Sans) & Undyne (Underswap Undyne)

Contains: Mpreg/Skelepreg! Awkward & Anxious Swapdyne! Red and Edge being mean, lol.

Rating: Teen and up! (I guess?)

Note: Allie is Swap!Alphys’ nickname, of course! :’D She’s just mentioned~ While technically she works with Edge on the ‘military matters,’ she’s more of Swap!Asgore’s personal body guard. TBH, Edge’s got enough confidence, bluster, and charisma to make it work by himself most of the time anyway.

“I’M SO LATE AND I AM INCREDIBLY SORRY ABOUT THAT-” “Dyne-a-mite!” Stretch was on the other side of the room in an instant, cutting off the incredibly nervous-looking fish monster by giving her a big bear hug. “Pap-Bomb!” She sounded equally excited, squeezing back hard enough someone’s bones popped. She reached up to loop her arm around his neck, noogieing the top of his head affectionately. “Where have you BEEN?! You missed out on the newest m00n-single! Serena got a rap solo, and she was so good! I didn’t like her look very much though- gray hair! White I could live with, but gray?!” Stretch winced, still hunched over and trapped in her grip, “Owie Ow Ow- I’ve been busy-“ Undyne’s grin widened, “Don’t I know it, you sly-“

Blue cleared his throat pointedly, and Undyne literally jumped in alarm. Her face darkened in a mortified blush, tripping over her feet to stand in front of him. She grabbed Blue’s hand and started shaking it hard enough his entire arm was moving. “HEY MR. EDGE OH WAIT YOU HAVE A RANK UH UM COLONEL NO WAIT ITS HIGHER GENERAL GENERALISSIMO IN CHIEF IM SO SOR- SORRY I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MILITARY THINGS SIR EDGE IVE HEARD A LOT ABOUT YOU-“ Blue sighed, prying her vice grip off of his fingers and shaking them out with a wince, “Ow! It’s me, Undyne!” She blinked at him owlishly, putting her slightly skewed glasses back in place firmly and leaning forward. “Oh. So it is. Hi Mr. Sans. Wait. Sans. Hi Sans.” Blue smiled warmly, reaching out to gently clap her on the shoulder. She jumped with a little scream. “Why are you so nervous?! It’s just us!” “It’s not just you!” Undyne hissed, leaning close and looking around suspiciously. Edge and Red had been quick to move out of her line of sight, quietly watching her every movement with strategic calculation. “Pap’s husband and his brother-in-law are here too! Didn’t they come with you? Are they coming later? I’m super nervous about meeting them! First impressions are the most important!” Blue raised his browbones, exchanging a quick glance with Stretch. Edge had knocked her out cold that one time... It was probably for the best she didn’t remember that incident. “Why? What have you heard?” Undyne turned to Blue looking incredulous, not realizing he hadn’t been the one to ask the question. “Wha- you guys told me! And Allie, but she doesn’t know them very well cause they don’t work together often. She said they’re a different kind of monster. Like how some humans look pretty much the same, but they come from different countries and cultures? They’re like immigrant monsters! Which I never even thought was possible! We were all in the same Underground, but no one seems to know them!” Edge and Red exchanged a look behind her back, and Stretch started to sweat a little. “Can’t get anything past you! My mail-order husband! Directly shipped from an alternate universe!” Undyne frowned, rubbing her arms self-consciously, “That’s just... a pet theory... it’s dumb, I guess, yeah...” Blue gave Stretch a disapproving look, turning to Undyne with a reassuring smile, “I think it’s a very interesting theory! What makes you think that about Red and Edge?” Undyne opened her mouth, before stopping to look at Stretch a little warily. He sighed, slumping, “Sorry Dyne-amo, I was just teasing. I could never afford the cross dimensional shipping fees!” She laughed despite herself, punching him in the arm in camaraderie. Stretch blinked back tears of pain. Undyne’s excitement came back tenfold, “Allie says that Edge is unlike any other monster she’s ever met, which is why he can’t be from around here! He’s got the highest LOVE of any non-Boss monster EVER! Even higher than hers!” Undyne lowered her voice to a reverential whisper, “But she said he’s always professional and observant, wearing his scars like badges of honor and keeping his thoughts and emotions a secret. A grizzled veteran whose calm is a mask for the raging storm and power beneath! He’s as cold as steel in the winter, as sharp and mysterious as a blade in the moonlight! The glinting Edge of a sword poised to strike!” Edge didn’t say anything, but Blue could see the stars in his eyes all the way from across the room as he visibly vibrated. Stretch snickered, trying very unconvincingly to disguise it as a cough. “He sounds super dreamy- I wish he were my husband.” Edge didn’t look like he cared (or heard) still riding that flattered high. Undyne gave Stretch an incredulous look, “As though you don’t cry about how hot and cool he is every time we have A-Drama night.” Stretch blushed, looking down at the ground and playing with the cuffs of his sleeves. “Yeah, well, I never wrote detailed fanfiction about our future together!” Undyne turned an impressive shade of purple, “Wha-?! I-?! That’s!” “What about his brother?” Blue cut in to save them both from their embarrassment, although Red and Edge seemed to be enjoying themselves. “Allie says he usually sticks close to Edge, so she hasn’t had much of a one on one conversation with him. Red walks with a self-assured swagger, and has next level reflexes. She doesn’t know his LOVE or any of his stats because he manages to move out of the way before she can even try to CHECK him!” There was that familiar spark of excitement in her eye, and Stretch smiled fondly, “He’s irreverent and bold, speaking his mind to everyone, including the King and Queen themselves! Open and dangerous like a nail-studded baseball bat, warm like the last rays of summer sunlight in an alley without an exit. The silver tongue between Red-stained fangs!” Red’s grin was equally large, turning to his brother in glee. They had some sort of quick, whispered conversation, agreeing on something and- SLAM! Blue had seen it coming and he still flinched as the door slammed shut. Undyne and Stretch, distracted, both jumped and clung to each other. “Interesting.” Edge and Red radiated confidence and power, circling them leisurely like sharks sensing blood in the water. Edge circled to their right, lifting a browbone as he pointedly looked them head to toe. Undyne visibly shuddered under his scrutiny, clinging to Stretch even tighter in obvious apprehension. “Red, I need a second opinion,” Edge sounded disinterested, pointedly pulling a file from his inventory and sharpening the tips of his claws, “What does this look like to you?” Red, hands folded behind his head irreverently, slowly circled around them from the left, scrutinizing them in a way that had both Stretch and Undyne squirming uncomfortably. He scoffed loudly as he came back to stand by his brother, mouth quirking into a sly smirk. “Thinkin’ there’s somethin’ fishy goin’ on, Boss.” Undyne tensed, looking down at where she had been holding onto Stretch with a vice grip with mounting alarm. She let go and shoved him backwards hard enough he ended up crashing into the door, scrambling to smooth her clothes as though she had been caught doing something indecent. Undyne’s face turned such a dark shade of purple and she was positively shaking with nerves, stumbling over her words so badly it was essentially unintelligible. Edge tucked his file away, arms folded behind his back, calculating and menacing. Red stuffed one hand in his pocket, baring all of his teeth in a nasty smile, dangerous and intimidating.

[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3 - Here!] [Part 4] [Part 5] [Part 6] [Part 7]

#spicyhoney #underswap papyrus #underfell papyrus #underswap sans #underfell sans #underswap undyne #fanfic #redvelvetreel #skelepreg

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rp-grannies · 6 years

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[Sentence Starters] The Boss Baby : Back In Business

Feel free to add context, change pronouns, names, jobs, and anything else you need to change to make these work for you! Have fun! ^-^

EPISODE 1

❝ For criminy's sake, (Name). Those beans are not gonna kill you. ❞

❝ Come on, beat it like it owes you money! ❞

❝ (Name), I like the problem solving and lack of morals, but the kid's right. ❞

❝ It's like negotiating with North Korea! ❞

❝ But when you took away (Name)'s pain, all you did was unleash a greater evil. ❞

❝ I will go out in a storm of blood and fire! ❞

❝ So, uh, do I owe you now? This is making me uncomfortable. ❞

EPISODE 2

❝ I am the ghost that haunts your dreams. ❞

❝ Asking for help is a weakness. ❞

❝ See you later unless you die. I'll send cheap flowers. Buh-buh-byes. ❞

❝ This meeting is making me uncomfortable. ❞

❝ Claws, bloodshet, anarchy and terror! The end of all things! ❞

❝ Vengeance! ❞

❝ You should act for yourself more often. ❞

EPISODE 3

❝ Stop boring me to death! ❞

❝ What's the play here, (Name)? Torture? You don't have the stones. ❞

❝ You're an inspiration. Amen. Throw the confetti. ❞

❝ I respect you too much to tell you a lie that I can't come up with anyway. ❞

❝ Do NOT make me come over there. ❞

❝ In business, my word is gold-plated and triple-A rated. My word as a family man, I'll admit, kind of garbage. But I will work on that. ❞

❝ Come and get 'em, you filthy animal. ❞

EPISODE 4

❝ Unusual problems call for unusual solutions and you are nothing if not that. ❞

❝ Why are we always fighting? ❞

❝ I can't be expected to remember the names of people I don't care about. ❞

❝ Enclosed spaces make me emotional and violent. ❞

❝ Uh... Please stop crying. It's weird and creepy. ❞

❝ I would love to hear your ideas, but I reserve the right to fall asleep. ❞

❝ You have one minute to surrender your creepy little vent self before security drags you out. ❞

EPISODE 5

❝ Competition is what made this country great, (Name). ❞

❝ Why does your brother look like Halloween just threw up on his face? ❞

❝ I never repeat myself. ❞

❝ Put me in a ball pit and I will crawl out right over (Name)'s stupid face! ❞

❝ How am I supposed to win something that's totally pointless? ❞

❝ Mirror, mirror, on the floor, show that kid the door. ❞

❝ Honestly (Name), I've never seen you display so much heart. Or any. ❞

EPISODE 6

❝ Silence, villager! I know what I like! ❞

❝ No! Dont help me. I got this. ❞

❝ Sick days are for the weak and unionized. ❞

❝ I'll join you as soon as I can... offshore my personal assets. ❞

❝ Snatch and grab. We move stealthy and silent, like the cold hand of death. ❞

❝ The law can't touch me! Yeah! ❞

❝ Aw, you look stressed... Sway with me! ❞

EPISODE 7

❝ It's me, I don't have much time. ❞

❝ You're too young to die. ❞

❝ If she weren't the enemy, I'd shake her hand and take her to lunch to learn her secrets. ❞

❝ You better figure out your loyalties, because I am ending this, with or without you. ❞

❝ I will end her! ❞

❝ We never stood a chance. ❞

❝ I know that stings, but in every battle, sacrifices must be made. ❞

EPISODE 8

❝ I have problems! Focus on me! ❞

❝ Don't hate me for being prepared. ❞

❝ It's pitch black in here. ❞

❝ Barely logical and incredibly asinine. ❞

❝ I can't choose! I wanna save everybody! I'm the nice one! ❞

❝ Comedy and danger. Today's been a real roller coaster. ❞

❝ Never judge a book by it's cover. Even if it turns out the book is even creepier and weirder on the inside. Just read a few pages anyway to be sure. ❞

EPISODE 9

❝ I smell... overcooked bratwurst and communal sweating. ❞

❝ Did the breeze just get... funkier? ❞

❝ You can shred more than incriminating documents? Hmm, I'm intrigued. ❞

❝ Oh, wow. We really should've medicated that. ❞

❝ I don't like it when bullies win. ❞

❝ We should hang out some time without mobs. ❞

❝ I'm not betraying my team! ... Not until I'm good and ready. ❞

EPISODE 10

❝ There's no such thing as free, (Name). ❞

❝ Is your brain okay? ❞

❝ You're just afraid because my art is too real. ❞

❝ You probably wanna clear out now. ❞

❝ Top off my coffee, hon. ❞

❝ I will never question your commitment again. ❞

❝ Okay enough socialism, let's go home. ❞

EPISODE 11

❝ I love that jazz sizzlin' in my little lady veins. Whoo-hoo! Yes! ❞

❝ I'm king of your face! ❞

❝ I can't watch you throw away your potential like this. ❞

❝ Lucky for you, stealing a lawn gnome is just a ticketable offense in this town. ❞

❝ I need action! I'm so bored! ❞

❝ I could not be prouder of you, monster I created. ❞

❝ Make no mistake, I'm still selfish. ❞

EPISODE 12

❝ Whoa, I thought we were the good guys. ❞

❝ I'll get you, no matter the cost! ❞

❝ Welcome to the magical world of gray area rationalization. ❞

❝ I'm... touched. But I have to say, I'm uneasy about this side of you. ❞

❝ You've always been my moral compass. ❞

❝ I have never felt so alive! ❞

❝ I'd hate to get on your bad side, BFF! ❞

EPISODE 13

❝ I'm the Chief Executive. I don't do things. I criticize the way others do things. ❞

❝ Whoever gets hurt, 'it's just business'. ❞

❝ I don't need an excuse to stop hugging you. ❞

❝ Everybody loves me, and I love being loved~ ❞

❝ Sweet and helpless one minute... and the next, we turn into fit throwing, ankle biting psychopaths. ❞

❝ Honk. Your nose is my prisoner. ❞

❝ We can be friends when you pay your debt to society. ❞

#RP Meme #RP Memes #Sentence Starter #Sentence Starters #The Boss Baby #Back In Business #Netflix original

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trickortaeil · 7 years

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human!doyoung

human!doyoung * our next installment would have be kim doyoung and of course you’ll notice that doyoung isn’t a monster yet is instead the resident human of the monster!nct * like doyoung literally has his nose in EVERYONES business and is constantly nagging about ANYTHING that’s out of place or wrong * like for example when it comes close to the full moon and sicheng and ESPECIALLY renjun shed you already know doyoung’s grumbling and getting the vacuum cleaner out and DONT LET HIM FIND SCRATCH MARKS ON THE SOFA HE SPENT MONEY ON BECAUSE HE WILL GO CRAZY * like he never wants to see whenever the vampires come back from a hunt and OH BOY does invisible man!ten drive him crazy because doyoung never knows where to look when he’s lecturing and ofc ten uses it to his advantage * and of course you’re probably wondering how doyoung a human boy is living amongst a whole bunch of monsters and still surviving??? * and basically the way doyoung got involved in all of this was because he stumbled upon the monster!nct house one day and he was just really chill when he noticed hey this kid has fangs and wow did that kid just walk through a wall and hey this kid has gills?? and tbh he just didn’t care and plopped right down onto the couch because doyoung needed some new friends anyways and here looked like a pretty decent place to start * ofc doyoung got comfortable with all the members probably too quickly and thus controlling human doyoung took place and like this kid isn’t even scared of ANYONE he’s like a vampire no biggie, oh a werewolf on a full moon that’s no big deal as long as you try and be quiet, forest spirit!jeno accidentally turning the living room into a lush garden?? just fix it before he comes home * and like doyoung’s just such a rarity because he lives with monsters but he’s the one that probably scares them the most with his long lectures and nagging * like if you even ask anyone in the house as far as they can remember doyoung was just kind of there one day and none of them were going to question it tbh * doyoung is SUPER defensive though in public when someone claims that one of his roommates is a monster because it’s still a very harsh world out there even if monsters and humans are aware of each other and he doesn’t want anyone to be bullying them * like one time he had to prove to someone that donghyuck WASN’T a vampire by putting a whole bunch of garlic right by him and waving it around and donghyuck looks like he’s going to pass out but doyoung’s like if he were a REAL vampire even 0.5 seconds of this would have knocked him out and so the kid reluctantly agreed and left before donghyuck basically passed out by doyoung’s feet * but you see this is where you come in because you were probably way too curious for your own good and you had a sneaking suspicion that doyoung’s roommates were in fact monsters and you were bent on proving it * just to clarify you weren’t trying to find out if they were to expose them or ridicule them, simply you found it really cool and wanted to know more which differed from the average human’s opinion of STEAR CLEAR * so of course you just start pestering doyoung with questions like why are yuta and taeyong ALWAYS wearing long sleeves??? is yuta DECAYING by any chance??? is taeyong hiding his gills??? why does taeyong carry 100 water bottles with him EVERY SINGLE DAY * and of course your questions were always WAY too specific so doyoung would always try to LITERALLY RUN AWAY FROM THE CONVERSATION or just ignore you to the best of his abilities * buT OH BOY IF YOU THOUGHT IT’D STOP YOU YOU MY FRIEND ARE INDEED WRONG * by doyoung’s feverish actions you could tell you were pretty much hot on the trail now if only you can ask him about why renjun and sicheng always miss out on full moons * and of course you’re doing your research spending hours upon hours in the monster research section of the library well into the night and one night it’s like 3:00 AM and yes the library is open 24/7 because of the night creatures also because taeil loves to read at 5:00 AM for some reason?? * and so you constantly keep pestering doyoung when you get the chance and then divulging into the library that following night * and you’re pretty sure at this point you’ve been able to identify every single monster that lived in the nct house but tbh you’re still baffled at invisible!ten because who ISN’T WHERE IS HE * and so you’re walking back whistling a tune to your favorite song before someone literally clamps a hand onto your wrist and drags you back AND OF COURSE YOURE LIKE WHO IS THIS YOU BETTER GET YOUR HANDS OFF OF ME * and it is indeed a cold grasp and you look up and it’s doyoung??? and you’re like wow heYA DOYOUNG and he kind of just lets out this heavy sigh and tells you that taeil’s seen you in the library every single day this week staying up until unbearable hours in the morning for a human being researching * and so he tells you that if you’re going through all this trouble to expose his friends he’s not going to let you do so this easily and ofc you’re not going to tell doyoung that he basically confirmed that he did live with monsters because you can tell he’s stressed * and then you have to explain that a) you’re not some villain in a movie trying to expose his friends for your own benefit it was just simply that you think it’s cool and that research on monsters always fascinated you and you kind of got carried away??? * and doyoung’s facial expression kind of softens because he could just go on and on about how interested you are and he surely doesn’t notice how his hand has slipped down to your own hand * and when he does realize he clears his throat to try and distract the heat in his face but that doesn’t work and so he finally tells you he’d take you to them right now * and you’re like right now??? 3:30 AM??? you want me to go now?? and he kind of rolls his eyes and nods and then you two are embarking on a quest to his house and when doyoung gets home he announces he has a visitor so everyone should come down to socialize which isn’t hard because most everyone is awake at this part of night except johnny whose charging * and OH BOY YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD A LOT OF QUESTIONS FOR DOYOUNG BUT YOURE ABSOLUTELY GOING CRAZY WITH THEM NOW and taeil just has this look of understandment because that kind of happened with his girlfriend so he just KNOWS * and so of course you’re like donghyuck can i touch your fangs??? yuta your skin really is falling apart!!! sicheng can i see your claws??? and yelling that you can hear ten but can’t see him but you will find him * and you’re just so fascinated that you end up wearing yourself out and passing out on the couch and doyoung has moved closer to you now to wrap a blanket around you and he kind of just is staring at you in admiration??? AND OH BOY * the other boys are having a silent FIT BECAUSE DOYOUNG HAS A CRUSH DOYOUNG HAS A CRUSH and of course doyoung gets really flustered and he tells everyone to stop bEFORE THEY WAKE SOMEONE UP * and the boys are so smug because they know they’re right and so they excuse themselves all upstairs before doyoung got up to have a lecture * and doyoung’s just kind of lying on his back now thankful it’s dark so it can hide how flustered he is and that’s when he hears someone moving * and usually doyoung doesn’t think much of it BUT HE’S ON HIGH ALERT BECAUSE HIS MIND IS ON PROTECC MOOD because you’re harmlessly asleep on the couch * but he didn’t realize it was just you sitting up kind of panicked because where did doyoung go??? * and you see a head pop up not even half a second later LIKE HES HERE DONT EVEN SWEAT IT * and your heart is kind of doing a little loop because wow he is so cute and is it just you or can you see the blush almost permanently on his cheeks??? * and so you asked him to of course come over closer because you were scared * and he and you both knew this wasn’t true and that it was simply the fact that you wanted him to sit up closer by you SUPER SLICK LIKE * and so your head is now on his chest listening to his heartbeat with your eyes closed and breathing steady * and you tell doyoung that you have one more question and ofc he’s confused because he’s pretty sure that you got every single question answered tonight * and so you ask him if you can tell him about a cute human boy who you really like that is named doyoung??? * AND BOY HIS FACE IS ON FIRE NOW but you can just see the smile on his face * and by the end of you hearing about doyoung’s story * and you tell him that you think out of everyone doyoung the human seems to be your favorite * and he’s pretty grateful that out of everyone you liked him the most

m another part to me and @dest-writes monster!nct au!!!

#nct au #nct scenario #doyoung scenarios #doyoung au

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Behind The Scenes 4 (7/?)

Author’s note: I last minute changed a part of this scene so i am not use how much i like it or how it is going to effect everything. (technically i took a detail out so yeah i don’t want this to change things too much)

*The part i took out was because the topic was a trigger to me, so i only scratched the surface the whole thing. You still get the main idea, i just imply more that what is written. I am sorry about that*

Genre: fluff? (but with suga)

Word Count: 1793

Summary: Suga and y/n bring up kinda bring up somme deep stuff.

ALL PARTS

( i am debating making a new gif for this part. I still don’t know how far i will go with the story but this gif is like a bit over a year old haha)

You heard a loud thud right next to you. You opened your eyes and searched of the source of the sound.

“Aish.” He grunted. Immediatley you recognized who it was

Your eyes adjusted to the dark room and you saw the silhouette in the fetal position grabbing his knee.

“Yoongi are you okay?” you whispered

“Yeah” he groaned as he crawled up to you. “Scoot over and don’t hog the blanket this time.”

You moved to the wall, giving him enough space to join you

When he situated himself next to you, he fixed the blanket over the two of you. His hand went to your wait and you scooted closer to him.

You could sensed his body heat and already felt so much warmer. You could smell his faded cologne, happy that you weren’t getting any hints of beer on him

“Hi.” He said with a bit of frustration in his voice

Things had changed over the past week and a half. V went back to his room, jimin fnially able to sleep in his own bed again. Jin’s resentment towards you had come down a tiny bit and he only stuck to the enraged stare if you ever encountered each other in the living room on those late nights watching tv with v. Suga and Jhope were actually trying to cut down again. You could see it. They were still struggling but they were trying harder than they were the first time. Jungkook… There was more space between you and Jungkook. According to V, Jungkook felt you wee a bit mad at him over the argument with your dad. V said that he therefore advised Jungkook to give you some space (because he remembered how annoyed you were about Jungoook and Suga). Jimin however denied this. Jimin pointed out that Jungkook never listens to anyone so he wouldn’t listen to V’s advice. Jimin said that Jungkook was just going to the gym more because he wanted to make sure he looked good for the comeback. You weren’t too sure which was the real reason and you didn’t really care. You liked that he wasn’t around because it made everything easier with Suga. Suga was the one sneaking into your room every so often so you coud talk some more(*cough* make out a bit *cough*). Tonight was probably his third night coming over to be with you.

“Hello Mr. Grumpy.”

“I am sleep deprived, hungry, physically drained, going through withdraws, stressed, and I just tripped and hurt my knee do you really blame me for being grumpy?” he said with a tired smile “I want to get drunk so bad!” he whined. “ Remind me why I am not blacked out right now.”

“Because you claim to love me.”

“Oh yeah.” he remembered, as he leaned in for a kiss.

You let him kiss you, unable to deny his lips. But you left it at just one to let him know you were trying to be serious about not wanting him to drink.

“If you are so tired, why are you in here again?”

He gasped at you. “Again? You think I am in here too much? you don’t want me here or what?”

You laughed and slapped his arm. “You know what I mean.”

He shrugged. “I can’t sleep. You know how it is.

“You have really deep bags under your eyes from not sleeping. I am sure the stylists are mad at you. Have you tried sleeping medicine? Being sleepy isn’t gonna help with your writing either. Hobi told me that Namjoon was on your ass the other day and had a melt down at the studio.

His eyes shifted a bit. You could feel his body get tense. “Last thing in need to to get myself fixed on pills like Hobi.” He mumbled. “I just got a lot on my mind and getting drunk is the only thing that would help.” there he was bringing up the beer again. He had done well with going cold turkey so far, but by the way he was whining, things were getting harder without it.

“What do you keep thinking about?”

He rolled onto his back, putting space between the two of you. “Nothing.”

“It doesn’t seem like that. Is it the deadline? The solo?”

“No”

“Is it jin? You all have been good in keeping him away. My bruises are gone now. I am fine… except for my pa- Is that what is getting to you?" Lately that is where your mind always went. Being alone in the room, all you would do was think oof your parents. Thankfully the guys were aware and they would try to cheer you up, this being now of the reasons suga snuck in. He never said it, but you knew he went back to this tactic of sneaking into your room and coming into your bed as a way of keeping your mind off your parents. But maybe this was putting alot of stress on him, maybe you were the reason he was feeling this way.

“No!” He rolled back on his side and pulled you into hug. “you aren’t stressing me out. Don’t think that way.”

Still, just bringing them up made you sad again and you coudn;t help but start crying.

“Hey don’t cry. It’s alright.”

“I just miss them.” you whimpered.

“I know I know. But remember what we said the other night. We know that they still love you, they are just upset because that dickhead down the hall lied. And we agreed that was for the best! It means that they aren’t going to be on his radar anymore ad they are going to be safe.”

“…Yeah”

He wiped away the tears that trickled down the side of your face. “ What’s bothering me is nothing, don’t worry about it ok.”

A very stubborn you shook your head at him. You weren’t going to let yourself get distracted with your own problem “No. I know you want to talk about it. Don’t feel like you cant tell me anything anymore! I can take it. I am here for you. Tell me. Talking about it might help you sleep. It might keep you from wanting to drink. Tell me.”

You could make out his features from the light coming in between the curtain. You could see the creases on his forehead, the uneasy look in his eye as he looked at you, his quivering lip. He was conflicted. He opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out.

“Yoongi, tell me.”

“…It’s Aiko.” He said to so softly you could barey hear him despite how close he was to you

Hearing her name broght back a waved of memories and emotion. You let out a deep breath “Oh… ok” you said as you tried to hold back that tears that were forming in your eyes again

“I can’t get her out of my head.” he sniffled. “I can’t stop thinking about how her family is feeling right now. I can’t stop thinking of what things would be like if I just did one thing different. I can’t get your words out of my head. You were right, she trusted me! I hurt her when all she did was want to do something for me! And- And the little sleep I get, she is in my dreams! And- she- she talks to me and-“ that’s when he broke.

He shoved his head in to the pillow. He was crying so hard, although muffled, his sobs filled the room.

“What’s going on?” Jimin’s sleepy voice asked.

You saw jimin sit up from the bed

That’s when Suga tried to stop crying.

“Yoongi?” Jimin turned on his lamp. “Yoongi are you crying?”

“It’s nothing Jimin.” You told “Can you just give us a few minutes.”

“…Yeah… I- I have to go to the bathroom anyway…” Jimin said as he slowly got off the bed. His confused eyes were glued on suga as he left the room. “Are you sure everything gis ok?”

“Yeah we are only talking

JK POV

Blood. Fire. Guns. The nightmares wouldn’t stop. How could he sleep with dead eyes staring back at him.

Jungkook stood up from his bed in a cold sweat. He looked at his phone, 2:17am. There was only five hours left before he was supposed to wake up.

He took off his shirt, just a way to try and cool down. His fingers ran through his damp hair in an attempt to calm himself down and remind himself that everything was a dream. (of course it didn’t help since he knew that although, yes it was a nightmare, it was still a reality that he was causing)

“Water. I need water...”

His sore legs moved moved him out of the room and down the hall. In the dark hallway, the light coming from under the bathroom was enough to light the way to the kitchen. He didn’t care who was up, his mission was to go quench his thrist

In the kitchen he dug himself into the fridge in search of a bottle of water. Once he did, he chugged it sown in a good 10 seconds

It was when he hunched over to catch his breath, the idea came to him to go to y/n’s room. A week had been long enough to give her some space. Things were probably better now.

He was a bit more awake as he waddled down the hall. He reached for the door knob when suddenly it moved. In a panic, he jumped back and shuffled in the direction of the kitchen.

“What are you doing?” Jungkook heard a voice ask him just as he was a few feet from the kitchen

He stopped, it was time to be cool. He “yawned” as he turned around to the source of the question. “What?” he grumbled, scratching a fake itch on his chest.

“What are you doing?” suga asked more harshly

“I thought I lived in south korea, when was it illegal for me to get some water.”

Suga scoffed at him

“But I think I should be the one asking you that. Why are you coming out of y/n’s room?”

“That’s none of your business.”

“I said it before, if it involves y/n, it is my business.”

Suga walked up to him, stucking his jaw out all smug like. “So just becuase you are her fake boyfriend you think you can starting interrogating me as if are her real one? I think you are forgetting who it the hyung here, let alone your actually relationship to y/n.”

Jungkook looked right into Suga’s bloodshot eyes. “Just because you are older doesn’t make you any better than me or any better for y/n. Leave her alone and let her sleep instead of bothering her with your drunk ranting.”

“I’m not bothering her if she wants me in there. Not like you would know, she doesn’t even look in your direction.” Suga said as he walked off to his room

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