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#Bc he was scared and worried. And it wasnt about me at all. So then i was just ... Fine. I wasnt planning to say anything about that even
girlcrushau · 1 month
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#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/#but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment#i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating#there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2#months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it#not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him#in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to.#until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if#he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone#and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think#there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy#your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you)#and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly#so last night#i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text.#i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart#until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent#that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real#did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart#and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about#and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in#which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever#it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in.#just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the#reason that he went away on me.#im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying#not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me#that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest.#and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs#he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am
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perenlop · 1 year
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ok sorry for wings of fire posting ik the warrior cats posting is probably enough psychic damage, but thinking abt how they assassinated anemone’s character in the second arc depresses me
#it had the potential to be really good and hey maybe theres something im missing#i dont disagree with her being a spoiled brat in the second arc at all. that makes complete sense with her character and we saw some of that#in the second book. it just wasnt the highlight bc the pov character was her royal sister who was being treated weird as well#my actual issue is with her animus magic. shes described as being scared to use it and worries about being seen as a weapon#she hides it from others (at the advice of her mom but still) and she talks abt albatross as being someone she feared becoming#so like. why the fuck. does she just carelessly use her magic on frivolous things in thesecond arc#if its bc shes finally free from her mom then thats weird  bc part of the reason she wanted out was bc she was afraid of animus magic corrup#corruption#its like they took that aspect of her character away and gave it to turtle instead#so to serve his arc shes suddenly all like ''oh well ill turn insane anyways so whoooo cares'' and he has to save her#i like that she hates him for giving her magic bc that at least makes sense but its so weird how suddenly shes like#oh noooo ill overuse it on small things. where before it made her so nervous#if its bc she did end up using more of it during book 2's climax then they should haveset that up better#bc in arc two it feels more like tui suddenly just wanted a spoiled brat ''i should do whatever i want'' character and chose anemone#and again. her being spoiled DOES make sense for her character. its the animus attitude that bothers me#echoed voice
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mrfoox · 1 year
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Uh.... Kinda brought up an topic which was tough but it was okay....?
#miranda talking shit#As usual i never said all i thought bc i always have so much on my mind#But ... Basically mentioned that people but is the recent case oliver can feel like hes too careful with me#So ofc he clarified that he doesnt and just generally liked to be nice and not rude and i buy that but kept on saying#That people in my past also have thought i am more fragile and maybe proper than i actually am#And that im a very uncomplicated person when it comes to some things. For example how i feel about other people#They can tell me and do anything and that wont make me suddenly dislike them or drop them. If i like a person already#... Theres a point where i do not care what else they have done or do? At least ive not encountered anything that have changed it for me#Ive never met someone who killed someone or something but... Who have opinions or have done things or do things which i dont care about#For example drugs. I havent tried anything and probably wont but i know multiple who have or are using and that doesnt make me... Think#Less of them? So. I explained that and said that he had never said something to me that has hurt me or something. Or then i brought up#The incident a few weeks ago and said that time i got hurt. But then i cried for an hour and realized he probably said what he said#Bc he was scared and worried. And it wasnt about me at all. So then i was just ... Fine. I wasnt planning to say anything about that even#But told him anyway. And then touched on the topic that i... Do things... Without thinking about it in the moment#And then realize afterwards its somewhat intentional? And its not something i like to say bc i feel like a bad person?#We didn't discuss that much bc he had to go so idk if ill even bring that up again unless the topic is close but yeah.#He said it was a good talk and i agree. Im always worried to share anything i think or how i work with people bc i fear they'll think im#Weird. But i did it and he seemed fine and i was stable enough. I think he wont care and thats what i like about him but also#I know bc we are so different... It's more likely we misunderstand each other. And honestly i cant shake the feeling i scare him a bit#Bc i feel so much and i want to talk about everything. Thats why i somewhat hesitate to say some things#He also said he have a history of. Dropping people or having his opinion of someone shift bc of something. Thus then it make sense#He got freaked out by me that time. Bc he thinks in his terms and for him others can be changed by small incidents so he thought i had#Changed mine. Thus the 'ive ruined it. I ruined our relationship and it was so good' It should scare me more that he said that his opinion#Of others can change so quickly and big. Bc... Im anxious but for some reason i.. Dont feel worried about that? Maybe bc i have always had#The mindset that people will leave me in the end no matter what and that i always care more about someone than they me. So i dont expect#Anything of anyone i like... But today was interesting talk tbh. I love discussing things with him. He's so different from me it's fresh#Possibly my autistic ass being hyperfocused on him and intrested bc of that. This is kinda how i was with Fabian at some point#He felt like an interesting individual bc he was so different from me so i was obsessed with talking with him about things#I enjoy it and i wont share how i think so i dont scare anyone so.... Should be okay
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thecherrygod · 2 years
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First of all i am an asshole and a piece of shit second of all i want to. Scream. And I'm also feeling extremely guilty about that
#my posts#one of my dogs is sick. he even sshat blood on thursday along with like. diarrhea and vomiting#and at that point i was alone with him and i was very scared and worried and i cried a little and then we took him to the vet#by cry i mean less than 10 tears bc i dont really. cry. so thats twice as much as i do when i cry which is usually just three tears#unless i break down. anyways.#ok so i broke down a bit that day but not too much and then the dog felt better but today felt bad again#so today with everyone at home they saw what i saw and now everyone's like i was the other day#but theyre worse like too emotional about everything and i guess that's valid but like at one point my grandma was just#talking about holidays and relevant days and my dad just tells her 'yeah and on *day* its the aniversary of your dads death'#and my grandma is old some things scape her its valid so she was calm speaking about how she thought it was on a different date#and my dad just started crying a bit and i was there just. looking at the whole situation like. begging for a way out#and thats just. one thing.#and partially im a bit like 'oh no' but also im just like 'ha dumbasses now you have to deal with it like i did' which.....#which man thats such a shitty thing to. consider. but i. feel that. also i feel theyre all overreacting bc. they all have eachother#which is sorta the reason im very salty about all this now im keeping composed and im just. sorta angry#maybe angry is my default when i could be sad#OH ALSO WAIT I AM ANGRY my mom told me the other day she kept composed bc i wasnt and that she was feeling bad like?#you don't have to tell me i am feeling guilty of showing vulnerability like i try to never do that and once i do i am made to feel bad#for doing so like. fuck.#i also think this is all bc ive been feeling like utter shit for. too long#ive been feeling extremely bad to the point to almost cry in public constantly and so always trying to. avoid that. ive been getting worse#these past few weeks honestly and just. i. they just usually make me sorta angry#like i understand them being sad we all love this little guy but. not to the point of being on the verge of tears and crying the entire day#over anything that may be happening#but also i. think thats just. normal. which is why I feel bad about feeling like this#...... man i am an asshole this is why i dreamt the other day i hurt someone badly on an emotional level i think i will die alone
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ranhaitanisgf · 4 months
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hi!! can you write an oneshot of yuuji confessing his love to reader with the help of the first years and gojo? you are my fav writer!! ily bye<3
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just confess already!!
synopsis: yuuji just can't get you out of his head!! maybe his friends and teacher can help?
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☆ a/n ˎˊ˗ first req for jjk !! it took a long time to write this bc i wasnt sure if i was characterizing everybody right, so lmk how i did !! thank you so much anon for requesting this idea; it was soso cute !! i hope you all enjoy ! xoxo
☆ characters ˎˊ˗ yuuji itadori x fem!reader
☆ wc ˎˊ˗ 2.1k+
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“idiot.” a harsh slap on the back of his head made yuuji yelp out in surprise and slight pain, clutching the back of his head. “if you keep staring like that she’s gonna notice, y’know.” he pouted a bit as nobara sat herself next to him, sipping a smoothie as the two of them watched you train with maki. 
“whatever…” he mumbled, setting his head on his hand. nobara watched him for a moment, the kicked puppy look on his face making her let out a breath, sighing. 
“i can’t enjoy your struggle with love if you look like that.” yuuji didn’t respond to her comment, making her roll her eyes. “hey, stop ignoring me and listen. you have the love expert sitting right next to you and you’re not even gonna ask me anything?” 
“you’ve never even had a boyfriend.” 
“hey!! i’m not gonna help you if you start being a little shit!” she yelled, huffing as she took another sip of her smoothie. 
as nobara looked at yuuji, she had to admit that it was strange to see him like this. it was odd to see yuuji so down in the dumps and not talking excitedly about something stupid, (not that she really cared. it was just an observation). 
“...you gonna confess to her?” 
“confess to who?!” 
“aah!” nobara screamed as she jumped, her cup almost slipping from her grasp. gojo peeked his head out between yuuji and nobara, his face twisting in feigned pain. 
“woah! don’t go screaming so loud, nobara! you’re gonna burst my eardrums!” the man whined, dramatically clutching his ears. 
“well maybe don’t go sneaking up on people like that!! i could’ve dropped my smoothie!!” she complained, clutching her smoothie much closer. despite the sudden appearance and scare from gojo, yuuji hadn’t even moved a muscle, his cheek still squished up against his hand as he watched you, your training partner now being panda. 
“sorry! but what’s got our vessel so down in the dumps? he get rejected?” 
“he’s gotten himself rejected in his mind before even confessing.” 
“ahhh, young love. so tragic!” gojo exclaimed dramatically. “so, who is it? hmmm…” gojo’s head turned to yuuji, matching his gaze until he saw you. “woah, (y/n)! what’re you gonna do?” 
“dunno…panda said she’s totally into some guy from kyoto…” nobara raised a brow at his words, scrunching her brows as she thought for a moment. 
“panda is a big fat liar. (y/n)-chan does have a crush on someone, but-” 
“you know who she has a crush on?!” yuuji suddenly asked, his voice raising two octaves and his jaw almost dropping. “who is it?!” 
“i’m not gonna break girl code for you, stupid! all i’ll say is that panda is completely wrong and that you have absolutely nothing to worry about.” she stated, making an ‘x’ symbol with her fingers. “you’ll be fine, so just confess already.” 
“i don’t even know how to do that! it looks so easy in those romance movies…” yuuji said, completely unaware of what she had just implied. 
“you watch romance movies? actually, why does that make complete sense- nevermind! stop being a coward! girls don’t like men who are cowards!” nobara confidently stated. “you’ve gotta be confident and tell your feelings unashamedly! be bold! be fearless!” 
the little pep talk had no effect on yuuji, the boy just sighing and standing up when he noticed that you were finished with training. before he could get up and walk away, gojo suddenly grabbed him from under his armpits, easily lifting him up and walking away with him, (yuuji’s flapping and flailing had absolutely no effect). 
nobara had stayed seated, staring at the scene for a couple moments and wondering if she should get herself involved, (teenage boys are so much trouble, after all). despite the fact that she could do much better things with her time, she ultimately decides to get up and follow them. see, she’s thinking for her future self! the future her wouldn’t be able to enjoy the small moments of peace and quiet if yuuji was constantly moping and feeling sorry for himself, so she has to intervene now for her own self preservation! 
“hey, let go of me!” 
“we have to fix this, stat! i wouldn’t be a good teacher if i didn’t help you out!” 
“i’m not asking for your stupid help! have you even had a girlfriend before, sensei?!” gojo gasped at yuuji’s words, shaking him a bit as he continued to carry him to wherever he was taking him, (nobara isn’t sure why she decided to help, actually. this was ruining her peace and quiet). 
“ouch! you don’t think your own mentor is hot with the ladies?!” gojo suddenly stopped walking when he noticed a familiar black-haired first year who stopped in the doorway to the school, staring at the scene in front of him. 
for a few seconds, megumi stared at gojo, hoping that silence would hopefully be enough to exclude him from whatever was going on right now. 
“megumiii~! come help us with yuuji~!” 
“no thanks.”
“me~gu~mi~!” 
“i’m busy.” 
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you’re not sure what’s going on right now. 
you had been walking with maki and panda back from training, the three of you talking about getting a bite to eat somewhere good after taking showers and freshening up, (you felt pretty cool that you were able to hang out with the second-years, so you were pretty excited about it). 
when the three of you had heard a giant racket from behind you, none of you had expected to turn around and find gojo and the other first years restraining yuuji as they were sprinting your way at quite the alarming speed, (gojo was holding yuuji like a cat, his hands under his armpits while megumi and nobara were half-heartedly crouch-running while holding his legs). 
“aahhh!! let me go!! let go!!” yuuji was yelling, trying his best to wrangle himself out of gojo’s grip. 
“what in the world…” you said in shock, preparing to get out of the way since they didn’t seem to be slowing down, (would they willingly crash into all you? nah…right?). 
they all suddenly stopped right in front of you, unceremoniously dropping yuuji. he didn’t lose his balance though, standing up straight away and throwing his hands up in anger. 
“hey!! what’s the big idea here?!” he was yelling, his face twisted in confusion and frustration. “you can’t just pick me up and take me wherever you want!!”
“actually, i can! maki, panda!! let’s scram!!” gojo said, a big smile on his face as he started shooing them off. 
“hah? why should we-?” 
“c’mon c’monnnn! listen to your teacher for once!” gojo interrupted, taking hold of both of their shoulders and pulling them along with him. “ oh, and (y/n)! yuuji has something to say to you!” megumi and nobara followed behind him as they shook their heads, leaving you and yuuji staring at them in shock as they all walked away. 
“what the hell just happened…?” you asked, your question hanging in the air as you watched them all promptly exit the scene, (you could still hear maki arguing with gojo in the distance which you thought was a bit funny). 
yuuji didn’t answer your question, his jaw hanging wide open as he watched everyone walk away and leave him there. 
“uh, yuuji…? you alright? gojo-sensei said you have something to say?” you asked, a bit concerned. yuuji was finally looking at you, his mouth opening and closing as he tried to say something, (were his cheeks pink? are you imagining things?). it was odd to see him acting so timid, especially when he was usually so excited and friendly. maybe he was finally making a move? 
no, you shouldn’t get your hopes up. 
“i…uhh…” he managed to let out, his hands moving to his head to mess with his hair. you nodded patiently, waiting for him to say something. 
“yes?” 
“i…you…uhhhh…” he shook his head, his hands suddenly slapping his cheeks. “i like you!!” he exclaimed, his eyes screwed shut. “i really like you and panda said that you liked a guy from kyoto so i wasn’t going to say anything but nobara said i should go for it and i wasn’t going to but then gojo-sensei dragged me all the way here so i kinda feel like i have to say it now! i’m sorry!!!” you stared as he talked, not even taking a breath between his sentences as words poured out of his mouth. at the end of it he bowed deeply to you, his arms stiff at his sides. 
all you could do was stare at him for a few moments, his talking being too fast for your brain to process all at once. the silence was thick over the two of you as he anxiously waited for an answer from you, whose eyes were blown wide as you realized what was happening right now. 
the first thing you did was gently grab his shoulders, pulling him up from his bow and smiling at him, your hands moving to hold his, (you found it cute that his palms were sweating a bit). 
the second thing you did was giggle a bit at his flushed and embarrassed expression; you didn’t think you’d ever see him like this, but you were glad that you were. 
“yuuji! i thought you would never say anything! i like you too~!” now he was the one staring at you with wide eyes, his gaze flicking down to look at your joined hands, then back up to your smiling face. 
“me? you like me?!” he asked in shock. 
“of course, silly!” you answered, squeezing his hands a bit. “i’ve liked you since the first day i met you. i was waiting for you to realize!” yuuji continued gaping at you, his shock extremely evident on his face. “was it really not that obvious?” 
“i’m kinda stupid, so i didn’t know…” he mumbled, his eyes staring deeply into your own, almost as if he was searching for your feelings in them. a smile suddenly bloomed on his face, his shock melting away as he gave you the most genuine and happy grin you’ve ever seen in your life, (you’re being blinded!!). 
“will you let me be your boyfriend?” he asked, lacing your fingers together. “i can’t say that i’m the smartest and i can’t say that i’m the strongest, but i will do my best to make you happy!” 
there was a particular shine of complete and utter love in his brown eyes that beamed a light straight into your heart; a complete k.o!
“guh, yuuji…” you said, your head dropping down. “my heart…” 
“what?! are you okay, (y/n)??” 
“ahhh, you’re so cute…!” you exclaimed, popping your head back up to beam at him. “let’s go do something!! right now!” 
“r-right now!? where-?!” you cut his words off by starting to drag him with you, beginning to jog a bit. he confusedly jogged behind you, but despite his confusion his hand held yours in a firm grip, blindly following your lead as you led the both of you down the halls. 
“somewhere! wherever we find something cool!” you giggled, going outside the school and leading him in the direction of the city. “let’s get some good food! oh, and maybe we can watch a movie or something! didn’t you want to watch that worm movie?” 
“human earthworm 4? seriously?! you’ll see it with me??” yuuji asked, his expression dumbfounded and elated at the same time. 
“of course! i would do anything if it was with you!” 
“h-huh?! anything?!”
“yep! anything!” you smiled, looking back at him. his cheeks were completely flushed by this point, the pink shade being darker than his hair color. even more obvious than his flustered state though was how happy he was; his face was contorted in the most beautiful grin you think you’ve ever seen and you almost trip over your own feet because you’re so happy too. 
“...i-i would do anything too! if it was with you!” he exclaimed, unconsciously helping you jump over a big root in the pathway. “i think anything would be good if it had you!” 
“do you mean it?” 
“of course i do!! i feel like you always have this sort of aura that’s just like whoosh! and then i just feel better, even if my lunch got stolen out of the fridge!” 
“haha, i have an aura? don’t worry though, i’ll protect your lunches from now on!! you won’t need my aura because-!” 
“no, i do need your aura! always!” 
“hmm, well i guess we could arrange that, right?” you mused, giggling. yuuji’s eyes drifted to his view of your smile, your joyful expression making his heart go ten times faster than it already was. 
hey! not that he’s complaining…it’s really nice, so….his heart rate be damned!! 
yuuji doesn’t know if there’s a god out there or a higher power, but he hopes that he can be able to relive this moment with you forever, (would it be too much for him to ask to be with you forever? it would be, right?).
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clanwarrior-tumbly · 1 year
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NWhile you're doing pokemon, might i ask, for a platonic headcanons ofseeiven, Penny and Nemona x reader,
where reader's showing them the snowy cat weasel legendary pokemon that was sealed away(i forget names atm-), i can picture arven at least being concerned seeing the dex's entry for it as reader's just all "oh but it's a sweetheart! Don't be so worried!" as theyre giving the pokemon that no doubt would absolutely cause a devastating avalanche if the reader wasnt there scritches and pats/lh
feel free to ignore just thought it could be amusing!/lh
-salt anon(stay safe btw!)
This is perfect timing bc I caught Chien-Pao today (and also Ting-Lu, my fav) after struggling and restarting the game a lot
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After Ms. Raifort piqued your interest in the "Treasures of Ruin", you set out to free them from their confinements, knowing these poor things were taken advantage of centuries ago.
You believe they could still be helped. It wasn't too late! All they needed was love and friendship, things you were more than happy to provide.
Of course, pulling the stakes that sealed the Icerend Shrine and challenging Chien-Pao afterwards was no cakewalk, but you caught it after convincing it to come with you, promising to give it a better life.
The feline ice-type was surprisingly quick to warm up to you after you gave it a bath during a picnic, figuratively melting its icy heart. 
You took great care in shining its sword fangs, smiling when it purred in thanks before taking a nap in the grass, curled up.
It becomes harder to believe this sweet creature had a hand in destroying an entire kingdom.
Soon after, you decided to call your friends so they could see it for themselves.
As expected, Nemona was the first to arrive, psyched to see a Pokémon she's only heard about in books. 
She could immediately tell it was quite strong (despite it being cuddled up to you when she got there).
"..and you're gonna let me fight it one day, right?" She dares to ask, taken aback when Chien-Pao wakes up and looks at her in disdain.
You just laugh and shake your head, giving the Ruinous Pokémon chin scritches. "Unless you wanna be swept away by an avalanche..I don't think so. Besides, I think it's been through enough fights in its life."
Not long after her arrival, Penny and Arven show up, completely shook(tm) at the existence of this bizarre Pokémon.
Penny’s surprised it was just stuck in its own little cave all these years, while Arven’s curious about what the Pokedex says about it.
But when he finds out..well...to say he’s just “concerned” is a huge understatement.
He’s downright scared for you, having no clue how you tamed it and fearing the repercussions of freeing it.
“...[y/n], this thing is more than just a Pokémon..it’s...it’s got a bunch of souls in it--angry souls of people who hated that “king”. It also causes terrible avalanches and-”
“Oh give it a rest, Arven...does this look like the face of someone who’d cause terrible avalanches?” You pouted, holding either side of Chien-Pao’s face as you stared at him. “Do you see any hatred here? Because I don’t.”
When he has no answer, you resume patting its head, treating it like a big ol’ kitty that was simply misunderstood.
Even Penny becomes brave enough to pet its back, only to freeze when it sends an icy gaze at her. “Uh....sorry...?”
She thinks she did something wrong and is about to invoke the wrath of this ancient beast....
Until Chien-Pao purrs and nuzzles her cheek, invading her personal space just like Koraidon/Miraidon did all those times, causing you to chuckle and shake your head.
You could only hope to nurture the other three in the quartet into sweet and cuddly creatures like this one.
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elysianstarl1ght · 1 year
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TF2 HALF-ANIMAL AU
HEAR ME OUT.
au where engie and medic are experimenting, the other mercs are in the room when something goes wrong. they get it contained and don't think anything went wrong, until they all go to sleep, wake up, and find that they all have new animal features.
medic - dove heavy - grizzly bear pyro - scorpion engie - bumblebee demo - 'unknown sea creature' (nessie) soldier - eagle spy - rattlesnake sniper - tarantula scout - rabbit
i wanted to avoid mythical creatures but i really had no idea what to do with demo. but i think imma stick with it because technically its not mythical in the tf2-verse and i have a rlly funny hc about it.. so..
ONTO SOME HEADCANONS!
(warning you. theres alot. a l o t .)
scout constantly complaining that he "got a rabbit of all things and not a cool animal" and refusing to admit he's actually having a lot of fun as a rabbit. he really likes his new ears he'll just never admit it
(also pauling trying to talk to scout through the headphones but his ears are on the top of his head and he cant hear through the headphones
one of the mercs calling pauling to let her know what happened and she shows up at reds base and is just like "what the fuck did you guys DO" and she goes on a huge rant and eventually asks if medic can make an antidote, to which he says yes.
demo having a huge ass tail and constantly knocking things over because he doesnt know how to control it.
medic officially banned him from the infirmary until he could get a cure to un-animalify them. demo went in there ONE TIME on the first day and knocked over an entire cabinet filled with medical supplies and he never went in there again (he darted out of the room instantly because he was worried medic was gonna kick his ass /lh)
engie absolutely loves his wings, he doesnt use them often but when he does he gets so excited and giddy bc theyre SO helpful!! hes probably also rlly protective of them too!
soldier knocks shit over with her wings all the damn time too. she randomly flaps her wings because she Loves Them and wants to show them off and whatever she's next to goes flying. she was also probably one of the only mercs that wasnt extremely concerned when she woke up; she probably shouted "AMERICA!!!!" at the top of her lungs and woke up half the base
spy wearing his mask significantly less because she has scales on the side of his face and under her eyes and the mask rubbing against the scales makes him cringe (sensory issues moment)
also i just find it slightly cruel how i made spy a SNAKE and scout a RABBIT. just- just think about that real quick.
sniper would have the time of his LIFE fucking with his team and the opposing team with his new spider powers!! some examples below
creating web traps to catch them. he especially does this to blu spy when he tries to backstab sniper (and scout just for fun. he falls for the traps every time)
web nets just around corners in the base that the mercs run into
crawling along the ceiling and walls to scare the shit out of his team, especially at night
swinging down infront of them when hes hanging on the ceiling also to scare the shit out of them
yeah sniper probably hated being a tarantula at first, but after he discovered what he could do oh BOY. he never realized how much fun messing with people was!! (he no longer blames scout and pyro for doing stupid shit)
pyro lowkey struggles with their mask and suit because of their new scorpion features. like they have those extra leg thingies and it was a huge struggle trying to get those to work with his suit
and dont get me started on his pincher hand things. pyro struggled. alot.
and his stinger thing. houh boy they probably accidentally killed the mercs a lot of times with that thing...
i dont really have anything for heavy yet (please feel free to drop any hcs) but i can tell you this much he has HUGE bear hands and he has bear ears and medic finds it absolutely adorable.
adding onto this medic wrapping his wings around the mercs while healing them when theyre standing still. like theyre hiding around a corner and medic brings them closer with his wings.
ALSO MEDIC HAS BIRD FEET (he hates it) and he had to cut holes in a pair of his gloves because he got bird talons (he REALLY hates that.)
oh my god thasts... thats a lot of writing... thats not even all of it... oh yikes...
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cass1opi4 · 7 days
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Can you do one where it's muke (platonic) and the thing where they were on the tower in Korea and where Michael was really scared bc he doesn't like heights (which I know happens irl but in the thing it's the "off camera" stuff) and ashton was too busy taking pictures and calum was being dragged around by ashton so only luke was left to try to make Michael feel better about being that high up. But Michael was also kinda freaking out and not listening to luke so it wasn't helping at first and he had to keep trying for a bit
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heights - muke (platonic)
THANK YOU FOR THIS REQUEST I LOVE IT!!
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there were few things on the list that in life terrified michael; impending doom, the thought that all day everything he’d worked for would be futile - and heights.
every fibre of his being refused to acknowledge being so far from the ground as safe. it couldn’t be. not in his mind.
“that’s so darn pretty.” ashton stated, staring of of the window to view the rest of seoul, loving every moment of the view. “cal, mate, look at this.”
calum didn’t protest, walking up to ashton with curiosity. he loved the view, the two conversing as they began to guess things michael wished he never overheard.
the blonde fidgeted with his hands, nerves spreading through his body like wildfire, never had he been up so high - and never would he be again.
the constant thought that he would fall to his death at any given moment replayed in his mind on an endless loop. he knew he wouldnt, but the chance that he could was enough to terrify him.
he dragged his hand across his face, breath unsteady as he moved as far away from the windows as possible. which, yes, was hard - considering he was indeed surrounded by them.
the fear had doubled once he’d walked on the glass corner of lotte tower, having done so for nothing other than a silly tour video.
michael would gladly put on a facade and face his fears for his fans, but it didn’t mean he wasn’t still terrified by the act of it.
luke from afar had noticed michael’s wide-eyed panicked state, moving to put a hand on his shoulder “you okay?”
“am i fuck.” michael sighed, near shaking in fear of the thing he was doing “i didn’t think it’d be this bad.”
the lead-singer nodded, staying quiet and letting the cogs in his brain turn “well if it falls at least we’ll die together.”
michael shook his head “not helping.” he spoke, the panic instilling in him further. “god, i feel like i’m going to die.”
“you’re not going to die.” luke chuckled, dropping his face again upon receiving a glare from his friend. he clearly wasnt great at saying the right things in such a moment.
“you don’t know that!” michael shot back, wiping his palms on his jeans, the thoughts getting to him.
luke huffed “you’re fine, mike.” he smiled softly, remaining calm as possible, hoping his demeanour would calm his friend even just a small bit.
silence fell between the pair, and michael’s worry only grew, his thoughts eating at him now more than ever.
with every breath his chest felt tighter, though the thing was unnoticeable to anybody but the boy stood right next to him.
he hid his face in his hands, groaning into them, wanting nothing more than to be back on the ground floor.
“michael!” luke repeated for the hundredth time, shaking the boys shoulders. “calm down, you’re okay man.”
“but what if i’m not? this is so-“ michael was cut off mid sentence by a sigh, his eyebrows furrowing at the action.
luke shook his head “no what ifs. you’re fine, you’re safe. you hear me, mike?”
michael nodded hesitantly, luke was right before - if the tower fell at least they’d die together, right?
he remained shaky as he followed luke around the place, but he pushed the fear as far back in his mind as it could go.
once they’d come down from the tower, luke was surprised michael hadn’t started kissing the ground, his reaction to finally not being up so high more than laughable.
it was as if he was a fish seeing dry land for the first time, all but jumping up and down in happiness, grinning as he spoke to ashton about how he didn’t die.
he was so glad he didn’t die.
(this got so sloppy toward the end, and im sorry its so short, i kind of gave up because i was writing on a time crunch just before school.. um, hope it was at least readable? loved this request, but i wasnt great at executing it, sorryyy)
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Love when artists draw me as a harbinger because yes yes that is me! That was my future only a few years post-canon. I also love when people draw me with Father because I'm their successor. I love the art that spawns from my story.
What I dont love is the amount of art that fits these critera where I look upset. Some I just look stoic, like my second drip, so its fine. Though I've seen several where I look depressed, unhappy, or even scared in the ones where I'm with Father. They work well for sadder shifts I suppose but it worries me how common it seems to be.
As if these people think I don't want this? That this wasnt the biggest honor in the world to me? I had my fears because I didnt feel good enough for such an important role, or the reaction Lynette would have when she learned I accepted it without even asking her, but I was never scared of the job itself, nor of Father putting me in it. It was my dream, to be the best successor Father could've ever dreamed of.
I wanted it so badly I begged for a delusion after Lynette earned her vision, because how could one be worthy of being a harbinger if he didn't have power from the gods. Or power from the Tsaritsa herself, so much better than typical visions according to the fatui. I was willing to become whatever I needed to inorder to fulfill my future. Luckly Father knew I would earn a vision myself soon enough so those sacrifices didnt need to be made.
I don't understand why people would think I didn't want to live this life. Or that I didnt love being fathers successor. Sure I loved my magic act, sure the hearth was more loyal to Father than the Fatui. But I didnt want it for the fatui and I wasnt scared of them either. I wanted to be my Fathers best son. The son worthy of being the one they chose to adopt fully. I wanted to prove to myself that Father Never Makes Bad Decisions.
I know I had nothing to prove to them by that point, Father always made that extremely clear, that even though all of the hearth were their children, Lynette and I were special. We were ACTUALLY their kids, by all laws in Teyvat we were proper official family. But none of that was ever going to stop me from reaching higher. Thats what Father taught me. And what kind of son would ignore his fathers teachings?
~Lyney, No.6 of the Fatui Harbingers 🕯♟ (Genshin Impact)
(p.s. yeah sorry Wanderer I stole your title and seat number a little bit bc everyone not only forgot you existed but thought whever was in that seat they cant remember anything about was dead due to all the uh. Stuff you did in Sumeru. I'm sure you dont mind hahaaaa.....)
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winderlylandchime · 8 months
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Okay 3/3 I AM SO SORRY! But i really wanted you to get the full gist of this since this was the episode that kind of started it all without him even realizing it.
‘..oh no offense to Brian but I would NOT sit on that swing set…haha that kid does not want that bat! He is an ally just like me and he knows the horrors! OH SHIT HE REMEMBERS! HE REMEMBERED AND BRIAN IS SO FUCKING WORRIED FFS CAN SOMEONE MAKE HIM ADMIT HES IN LOVE ALREADY BECAUSE I AM ONLY ONE MAN AND I CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH!’ He is saying all this while looking at me as if its my fault the writers wrote this. ‘Im happy for mel and linds so no offense my dudes, but yall suck as a couple.’ Ive been waiting all episode for the last scene to happen and when i looked at him, he just put his hand up and shushed me. ‘oh bri bri was scared! What did i say?! He looooves him! Yeah Brian why didnt you tell him you tried to save him?! Ill tell you why: GUILT! He is feeling guilty bc he too has ptsd and yet nobody except me for some reason notices that and *points to himself* I am on many many many drug- oh they’re gonna fuck. Justin, are WE ready for this? Oh apparently we are. OH MY GOD THE SCARF! I FORGOT ABOUT THE SCARF! THE SCARF! JUSTIN IS BACK BUT HE STILL HAS IT! I THOUGHT IT WAS ONLY WITHOUT JUSTIN BUT JUSTIN KINDA WASNT HERE EVEN WHEN HE WAS BC HES NOT THEE JUSTIN YET YOU KNOW? I SWEAR IM MAKING SO MUCH SENSE IN MY HEAD! He has the scarf!!! AND JUSTIN SAW IT! OH MY GOD THE SCARF! THE SCARF!!! *hits me repeatedly while just yelling the word SCARF! at me*, okay i am chill! I am calm! This is all normal! HE WANTS HIM INSIDE OF HIM?! OH THATS ONE WAY TO SAY IT! LIKE THE FIRST TIME?! OFC HE REMEMBERS! Brian..bri bri, idk how to tell you this my bro but what you’re doing right now is making love not fucking, so WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY FIRST TIME HMMMM? Do we need to revisit the L word?! THEY ARE HOLDING HANDS WHILE MAKING LOVE! BRIAN WHO ARE YOU FOOLING BC IT SURE ISNT ANY OF US! ALEXA PLAY L-O-V-E BY ASHLEE SIMPSON! *alexa starts playing* OH SHIT i forgot you had that bitch, i was just messing, stop her she’s ruining the vibes for them! This my dear friend is making passionate love after a horrible even- OH MY GOD THE SCARF AGAIN! Im cool, im tota- actually i dont think im cool. That was..i need a cigarette’ he then went outside and when i looked out the window to see how he was doing, he was laying in the middle of the grass in a star position. It took him 10 minutes to come inside, and when he got inside he just went ‘i gotta call mom..but i told her im not watching it. I need someone to listen to my thoughts (OH IF ONLY HE KNEW) i know! Im gonna trick her into listening to me without her knowing whats it about so that way she wont know i watched it’ so there we have it: 1) he went through every emotion on the planet 2)i swear 1 ep takes over an hour to watch bc he keeps pausing/rewinding for “research” 3) our mom will for sure kill me and him too and 4) writing these is chaotic bc i do update the group chat while its happening and then later put it on “paper” for you but holy shit this is A LOT and i always feel bad hdjska
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE ANON
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More yummy Sanctuary AU bc all i think about is this AU
Imagine a whole like- Harambe incident but instead of the kid and the gorilla it was you and the legacies, You were just visiting them on your day off when you fell in, guarenteed some people panicked and tried to call the employees but you're just like "Childe Im okay please stop whining it'll make me sad". Poor babies were so concerend. Caused a massive media uproar though.
Thankfully nothing else happened beyond a few interviews and a raise in security, many were scared to visit the creatures after your incident and many feel guilty even though it wasnt their fault. Imagine since Childe is the aquatic abyssal monster too that he'd help you back onto the surface little mermaid style.
Bonus: All the Harbingers have their own individual tanks/enclosures dressed to the nines, they're all very different monsters but they all love you just as much as They could.
( You know the meme where everyone is a muppet execpt for the protagonist? You're the protagonist and instead of Muppets its abyssal monsters. Seriously i feel like the abyss one day is just gonna hand you the monsters and be like-)
"this is Dave he like Cuddles and watching cats, he's orange so don't expect much in the brains department thx bestie
Xoxo
Abyss Twin"
!!!! oh yes i like this very much this is SCRUMPTIOUS
ok but the Legacies all fretting over you afterwards- you fell into Childe's tank and he downright refuses to let you go, holding you tightly and chittering in worry. once everyone is shooed out and the security issue is resolved you insist that the other Abyss creatures you're looking after be let in- your coworkers try to reason with you, but when you refuse to budge they have to relent (none of them really want to deal with an angry Diluc anyways, since he already suspects something's going on)
so all the Legacies you're looking after are let into Childe's enclosure, since they've also already learned to tolerate each other. Childe whines when Kaeya runs in and starts nosing his way under your hands, Diluc watching from afar to make sure you're alright. even Dainsleif and Albedo are there in the corner, sitting quietly but contently, and your coworkers marvel yet again at how good you are with dealing with Abyssal monsters- in fact, maybe they should assign you some more! it could do wonders for everyone's happiness
also YESSSS all the Harbingers are just so nice looking- i've only seen most of them once or twice but i'm already more invested in them than most other characters so ABSOLUTELY they are here too
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noxiatoxia · 7 months
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hi i wrote this like bulletpoints bc im not making this an essay. tldr youre kinda right but kinda wrong and this isnt new but kaorus issues DO get resolved we just dont really see him say "hey!! my issues are resolved :)) ". he lives through the things he was anxious about and survives so we can see it gets resolved. just in a shitty way.
ep 16/karuizawa arc> kaoru tries to help hikaru and himself to have their own individuality by experiencing different types of relationships and increasing their emotional maturity
ep 21> kaoru describes the cindrella metaphor. the dynamics in the club are the carriage. (haruhi/tamaki as daughter/father noted)
>tamaki is the one leading the carriage, aka the dynamics. hes the "leader" in a sense.
>once tamaki realizes he likes haruhi, they wont be platonic like a father/daughter anymore aka->
>the dynamic is gonna change
>hikaru also likes haruhi
>in this situation, hikaru might care a lot about haruhi and might not take this well especially after "replacing kaoru" (i assumed this is how kaoru feels bc hes later relieved when hikarus w haruhi and he still seeks out kaoru to make sure he's ok)
>this complete dynamic change is going to seperate the host club
>but hikaru seeks him out first after haruhi and hikaru are trapped
>he is sure that the dynamic issues and a group break will happen when the dynamic between haruhi and tamaki change and time passes by (whichever comes first) but so long as he's hikarus first choice he's fine with it
>kaoru assumes tamaki creates a family scenario so everything can be platonic as long as possible, but is shocked to see that tamaki wasnt willingly doing this he was just fucking stupid
>this creates a crack in kaorus way of thinking, his ~deep~ theory is just a conspiracy (that he made up due to anxiety but he doesnt realise it yet)
>hani say "kao and kyo are as oblivious as tamaki" implying that they trust the host club to stay together in face of struggle
ep 25
>the host club is facing the struggles kaoru was scared of and in a sudden, unprepared way. tamaki is leaving (might leave and then leaves), kyoya's family suddenly seems disappointed aka he might pull away from the club entirely, in the end theres a lot of changes in the club. they lose hani and mori first in the battle (graduated), then kyoya isnt coming (pulling out for future plans/family pressure), they are running after tamaki as a trio when hikaru gets hurt.
>in the pumpkin patch when doubt is highest and they are thinking about how this is surely the end, we see haruhis flashback to her dad about not hesitating when the time is right. even though she doesnt have the need to continue, she still does because she /wants/ to. AND she succeeds. this would show kaoru that there is no "spell" or some uncontrollable event that would lead to the end of their friendship, and that he can keep it alive just by working on it
>the fact that the show ended the way it did (with tamaharu happening TO keep the dynamics alive + all members working their hardest just to keep it all going) wouldve been enough to curb kaorus worries because it was physical proof that even when the things that he feared happened the group didnt fall apart and even got stronger
>so he lives through his fears becoming true and it gets resolved symbolically. obv i would want there to be a 40 min episode where kaoru goes to theraphy and resolves his issues including the incest kink but the last few episodes were rushed as fuck
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Hi! Never disagree with me about the carriage ever again I'm going to fucking kill you. (<- this is a joke i am joking im not mad at u u are my friend)
I've talked about this before -- about what the last episode symbolizes in terms of the carriage allegory. But it was an old post so many people probably haven't seen it.
To showcase why I disagree we need to first realize what the carriage allegory actually stands for.
In short, the carriage is the anime's way of implementing Kaoru's depression arc from the manga. If you're unaware of that, the tl;dr is very similar to episode 21 just without Cinderella metaphors. Scared Hikaru will leave him, scared he'll lose his friends, etc. Except in the manga, Hikaru and Kaoru actually talk about this, culminating in Hikaru dyeing his hair but reassuring Kaoru they'll always be together.
In my mind, the carriage is obviously a stand-in for this. But... It's also trying to serve to be a plot device to set up the end of the show.
My guess is the creators probably thought Ouran would get a 2nd season but it didn't get greenlit, so they had to wrap things up very suddenly, which is why the ending feels as rushed as it does. This is just a theory though.
The carriage, as it is presented in episode 21, clearly is setting up a major plot point: the dissolve of the host club. And since we as an audience are lead to believe Kaoru's word is to be believed, we're also like "oh, shit, is the host club gonna fall apart?"
cuz keep in mind, through this episode and episode 16, the show presents Kaoru in such a way that makes him seem "smart" and "wise" and that his ideas hold some sort of weight to them.
So, to recap, the carriage allegory in the anime is two things: 1, a character-driven arc about Kaoru's fears and 2, a plot device to set up the ending of the show.
This is where the "resolved" thing gets tricky.
The carriage is resolved on a plot-level. By the carriage hikaru, kaoru, and haruhi were one falling into the pumpkin patch, yet still saving tamaki in the end, shows that even though the "spell" ended, they still managed to get their happy ending. The club did not fall apart.
But, keep in mind, Kaoru's side of this equation -- about the fears of growing up, drifting apart, being different from his brother -- are not touched on.
To say it was resolved because of the pumpkin patch thing I think is just...wrong. At best it's incredibly lazy writing.
Tamaki & Kyoya had character-driven arcs, too. Ones that were presented throughout the whole show. And those actually got resolved in the final episodes. Yes, they were still open-ended endings, but they were acknowledged. That's what I'm pissed off about when it comes to the carriage. It doesn't get fucking acknowledged ever again. Not even a little bit. The best we get is symbolism that only, as I said, solves one half of the puzzle at best.
for further reading here's this post and this post.
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spearxwind · 10 months
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forgive me for sending asks when you are trying to decrease your amnt but whats the town of hollowridge like? are they aware of the cult? how do the general populace feel about machines like adri and such and how did they react to the perpetual winter. im saying tell me everything your worldbuildings tasty
UWAH NO WORRIES i get to them as im able to sjlfkdsd
The town itself is a small little mountain town! It's surrounded by acres and acres of forest. Since the world fell the forest has grown uncontested over the terrain, so the borders of it are REALLY close to the town, and within the forest itself are lots of half buried, abandoned buildings, broken roads, etc.
Hollowridge is not open, it has fortified gates around it to protect the town from the forest creatures that want to stray inside, though they only close at night or when there's a threat. There are a few weak points to the structure though, and Adri knows where they are, so he's good at leading people into the thick forest if he's hunting them :)
The houses I am basing them a lot on european vibes bc its what im familiar with, so its all closed narrow streets, two to four story buildings at most, mom & pop shops on the ground floor, etc. People are just making a living there in whatever way they can
Most laypeople dont actually know about the cult, they attribute the disappearances to creatures from the forest, but some HAVE heard rumors of them.
The people also dont know much about machines themselves, its all very otherworldly to them, and they are scared. Machines are very dangerous. Some people (like Dianne) make a living out of fixing up old tech and selling it so that people can use it for specific purposes or protect themselves
Adri specifically as OVERSEER ADRIEL (the guardian array) is kind of a legend for people who know a bit of the history of when tech fell... though they don't know him by that name. They know him as The Hydra. He is known as something you should NEVER EVER wake up (Which makes it all the more fucked up when Knife does exactly that to save herself)
The winter has always been harsh too and they did have a bit of a nuclear winter deal going on there anyways where it wasnt ever warm.. but December has made it significantly colder and people have noticed. They think its a bad omen (and they are right)
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bonesandthebees · 3 months
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now for the strategy exercise
I think phil choose that exercise on purpose, believing it could show well the benefits of tommy being a blank slate (just as this phrase isnt getting out of wilburs head, youre not getting away from the unintentional lyric reference)
also the solution tommy gives is pretty simple, it kinda shows how niki and q both tried to go the way they are most familiar with, showing off a bit their capabilities, thinking about more tricky stuff like the psyche of the people, with niki especially
the exercise is about coming up with a super complicated strategy, its more about finding out what APPROACH they would take to this situation
and like I understand the problem with nikis solution but tbf to niki, she came up with a much better solution to the presented problem when you focus just at the result, unlike tommys plan hers was thought thru and didnt have that many loopholes, it just didnt fit phils expectations, like when this happens to me in an exam, im also arguing with the teacher that the fact that it wasnt their answer doesnt mean my answer isnt correct
now im bit saying I think thats the best way to rule a kingdom BUT niki is very rightfully angry about phil praising tommy
and honestly I just think good for niki yk, like yes, go get that power, whatever it takes
I love her standing up against phil but than being scared she messed up, there are so many layers to her it's amazing
you always treat your female characters right and rose!niki is prime example of that, she is everything I adore her so much and I support her rights and her wrongs
and when it comes to q, hes the one that confuses me bc he seems so easy to read and very certain about being chosen as the heir which is very dangerous in court and foolish and first look youd think hes just not good at hiding his opinions which could tie into him being a less likely heir
but like hes been at the court for quite some time and must know how much of a disadvantage being readable is so maybe hes playing is double layered, pretending to be easy to read while actually hiding the important stuff, I mean wilbur calls him really smart and witty
or theres a secret third option where its only wilbur whos able to read him so well and we wouldnt know bc its from wilburs pov but the way its described, compared to how wilbur reading niki is described this is unlikely id say
and the worst is that with the kind of character quackity is he could be either, like he turns out to be super smart and calculative ill be like thats so like him but if he turns out to be actually just that egoistic and easy to be ill be like yeah thats exactly like the train wreck of a man I know and love
I mean quackity knows his strengths and how to play on them, knows it wont be easy getting the throne and so he does stuff like partnering with schlatt, calling the meeting...
but with the strategy exercise it shows that hes putting everything on his strong suits and thats not always gonna be enough
oh yeah phil definitely chose the exercise for a reason. tbh it was a test for all three of them, less to learn their war strategy and more to learn how well they take guidance and criticism. definitely highlights the benefits of tommy being a blank slate.
and that ties into the issue with niki. while her plan had some issues, it was the most realistic of the three. the problem was her reaction to phil's criticism. she had a right to argue with phil regarding the success of her strategy, but that's not what phil wanted.
I'm glad you're enjoying rose!niki so far. like yes, she stood up to phil and was stubborn and angry and ruthless, but she was also scared. she was worried she messed up and regretted speaking out because she deals with so much pressure to always maintain a certain public persona and reputation, because her future is so reliant on it. I'm so happy I get to spend so much time focusing on niki in a long fic like this. rose!niki is so complicated and has so much going on with her, I'm really excited to continue diving into her character.
hmm won't go into detail to what's going on with q, but I'd say there's a mix of things going on from what you said. wilbur's pov definitely plays a role in how well we're able to read him, but also he is very aware of the games being played and knows how to adjust his behavior accordingly.
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macroglossus · 1 year
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oh my fucking god. i washed all my clothes in the Great Carpet Beetle scare but i've been so extremely depressed that i havent been able to fold them and put them back into my room yet so theyve been hanging out downstairs. i was really hot today so i went digging for a tanktop. i thought i checked it but about an hour after i put it on i saw a carpet beetle larva on my laptop. i freaked out and didnt know how it got there but eventually i was like, wait, i just took something from the pile. and it's a HUGE pile btw. and i shifted some clothes and i saw an adult carpet beetle on the couch some of them are on :( and i know there's gonna be more in there. and i don't know what to do i literally want to burn everything! i'm going to have to rewash everything and i have no idea how much they bred in there i feel so nauseous. and i'm scared i infected the rest of the house because they've been downstairs for like a month, so i have to deep clean the room they were in. everything i read said washing would kill the bugs but i guess some eggs mustve survived and i'm so scared because that means that even washing them again and putting them in my room im at risk of them living and breeding in my room!
when i called pest control he said it wasnt a big deal at all and pretty much everyone has carpet beetles to some degree but people online have HORROR STORIES. i literally just sort of crossed the bridge into not worrying about them so much anymore and i know my parents will think i'm making a huge deal out of nothing but im so sick and scared and i feel like i've ruined everything! i don't know what to do i don't know how to fix this i don't know how to make them stop happening! they survived the wash! and it took so long to wash all my clothes first time and my mom wasn't happy because i kept them on the porch bc i didnt want them to crawl out of the dirty laundry and infect the house and she didnt want trash bags of clothes out on the porch and there's only one place in the house that i can keep the bags and that's the room theyre in and it's fucking infected and even if i wash them and bring them into my theres no FUCKING POINT BECAUSE APPARENTLY THE EGGS CAN SURVIVE!!! and then im back at square one!
and i cant talk to ANYONE about this because everyone in real life is so tired of hearing about it and they think im acting insane. i want to burn them genuinely but all my clothes are in there ALL of them and i don't have the money to replace them. i just fucking cant do this im losing my shit genuinely and paired with the fact ive been literally sick for a while and i'm scared bc im getting like physically worse but im so scared that i feel like im gonna get sick so i cant EAT and that's making that issue worse
i just wish my parents took me seriously about this and didnt think i was crazy! i love them so much but they think im insane for this and that i should stop looking things up on the internet which i guess is true but that doesn't make the stories i read on there less true and it also doesn't make it any less likely to happen to me. god i cant do this
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