you’ll heal from this. maybe not today or tomorrow. but you’ll heal just as all wounds do in time with patience and care.

not to be naive but it still shocks me when people are so apathetic and cruel towards others like .. you’re literally rotting on the inside … , hope you feel better soon ?

They just always hit different

“Cringe culture is dead” well then act like it!!I’m so sick of people being all for self expression and being passionate about what you love until someone enjoys media that they don’t personally like. I’m sick of people making fun of anyone who likes a certain thing because a vocal minority of people who like it are bad. Let people love what they love as long as it’s not hurting anyone!! There is no reason to treat others as lesser because of their interests!

Maybe the problem isn’t people self diagnosing! Maybe the problem is that a professional diagnosis isn’t easily accessible a lot of places! Maybe you could actually do research on how difficult it is to get a diagnosis for so many people! Maybe instead of complaining that people are self diagnosing, you could use that energy to push for better healthcare!!

a while ago i attended this lecture on autism. guy in the audience said he had many of the symptoms that were presented and asked what should he do to get treatment and possibly a diagnosis. instead of answering his question the psychologist went on a tangent about how “the clinic reigns all powerful over guesswork”, and how actually it has become a trend amongst little children on the internet to claim that they are autistic for cool points, and that this hurts real autistic people. no she didn’t tell him how to get his symptoms looked into, she just made it very clear that to her, aknowledging your own symptoms is bad and evil and hurts the poor real mentally ill people.

an ex-friend of mine, then a psychology major and by now probably a full psychologist, once lectured me on how horrible and bad it was that i told her “i probably have some sort of neurodivergency”, and that if i were her patient she would never give me a diagnosis because “you aren’t like this now, but i know that if you get a diagnosis you’ll use it as an excuse to start treating people badly. that’s just how mentally ill people are.”

same ex-friend was extremely disgusted when she found out that fans sometimes make neurodivergency headcanons for characters that have the same symptoms as they do, and that authors sometimes write books with neurodivergent protagonists in stories that don’t focus on that (ex: she seemed horrified that percy jackson has adhd?)

multiple psychologists i’ve seen on facebook agree that they should refuse to treat patients that say “i’m here because i have symptoms of a disorder and wonder if i have it”, and that a patient should arrive to a psychologist as a blank slate.

school psychologist asked me how i was feeling about my trauma situation and i told him i thought my friends would leave me. instead of addressing the issue he said that that no i didn’t, that i was lying, that i had searched “bpd symptoms” online and now i was faking symptoms because i wanted to have bpd, that he shouldn’t have told me he suspected i had a personality disorder because now look what was happening. no, i didn’t search bpd symptoms online. yes, my friends left me, it was a completely founded belief and not a symptom, let alone a faked symptom.

so the next time you hear someone saying they’re “anti self-diagnosis” i want you to understand what they’re saying. what they’re saying is:

- i don’t want people to be aware of their own symptoms

- i don’t think my patients should have access to any information that doesn’t come from me

- i don’t think neurodivergent people should learn how to cope with their symptoms and live “normal” lives

- i think neurodivergent people should be denied a diagnosis because the moment they get one they will become evil and dangerous

- i don’t think people who don’t look like a stereotype could possibly be neurodivergent, even if they have all the symptoms, so i think they are faking it for attention and should be denied treatment

drew a constant mood on the mind

Being a trans afab person who loves being feminine is so annoying because no one will ever take you seriously. Like yes, my favourite colour is pink, I love wearing skirts and dresses, I love wearing makeup and jewelry and feeling pretty, but that does not make me a girl!! I am so sorry I don’t fit into your perception of gender, but I’m not doing this for you! I’m not here to preform for you, put on a show of what you think a trans afab person should be. I’m here to express my true self.

Falling Through Dreams.

you deserve to be treated with respect. you deserve to be treated with understanding. you deserve to be treated with humanity.

I want to be free! I want to love with all my heart without fear! I want to feel loved by the people around me! I want to be hopeful of the future and forgiving of the past! I want to find my place! I want to be at peace with myself! I want to live!!

Illustrations from Aristophanes' Lysistrata by Norman Lindsay (1930)

thinking about “I know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it”

dear diary, today i ate a grape and it was kinda mushy. needless to say, this is the final straw. if anyone should find this i