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xiki-pupper · 7 hours

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I can understand how Shuro may be a frustrating character to some folks - in fact that is kinda what he is there for, narratively speaking. But it really gives me ick when people just wanna shit on him for "being awful/the worst/an asshole"

The way I see it, the dude is his own different flavor of Autism- repressed, conditioned, awkward, and forced to participate in high society, not to mention the culture clash - and he sees laios just being his own weirdo self and he hates it --- no, thats not it. I honestly don't think he hates laios; i truly believe he hates that Laios gets to be TRUE to himself, and he (shuro) Doesn't get to be.

And it's a feeling I can understand and sympathize and empathize with, as I have been on my own personal journey to try and un-mask and deconstruct and heal myself in a world that has made me feel broken my entire life

People scream "hypocrisy" as shuro sees the same traits between the touden siblings, and is attracted to one whilst hating the other - and yes, I can agree that it's a bit hypocritical, but yall are taking it at face value and not understanding where his feelings are coming from. Shuro doesn't hate laios because he has a special interest, shuro hates that his whole life, he has had to squash himself into a form-fitting box, behave as his family commands, and now he sees laios being free of expectation, just out here being a weirdo, and shuro is possibly feeling that frustrated grief that comes with the late diagnosed autistic situation of "I could have been happy, too, but no, *I* had to be the responsible one"

... at least, that's how I view it. Coz I myself have had those thoughts. And I know, it's NOT a good look for me to be out here admitting that I have felt this way, like for example, maybe I see someone else's struggle with anxiety, whether it's online or in real life, and I have this bitter thought to myself of "yeah, I have anxiety too, but *I* was still forced to be a responsible adult anyway" which makes me momentarily frustrated.

And before anyone jumps my ass about it, NO, I definitely DO NOT think that "if I had to suffer thru it, so should everyone else" that's NOT what I'm saying. But I AM saying that, there is a bitterness, when u see someone who is able to avoid a struggle that you had to endure - that bitterness is NOT thinking that everyone should suffer as I did, but me being bitter that *I had to* at all.

Does that make sense? Coz I really feel like Shuro just gets shit on because people think he's there to interrupt the Yuri and be mean to Laois, and I really feel that he's a whole ass person. And a somewhat melancholic one, at that. He makes me think of how I had to grow up Christian whilst being queer and undiagnosed Audhd my entire life, and I would be very very surprised to hear that a large chunk of dunmeshi fans didn't ALSO grow up this way, feeling broken and stupid and tired, forced to do things the "normal people" way, and then NOT understand how Shuro feels when he sees someone who is in a position to be mostly free of that...

#dummeshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi #toshiro nakamoto #danmeshi

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thechaoticrow · 1 year

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🚨🚨🚨 HONEY WAKE UP SaB SEASON 2 MAY BE DROPPING IN JANUARY !!!!!! 🚨🚨🚨

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chibishortdeath · 8 months

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So I was playing Simon’s Quest (again) earlier and you guys might know by now that I’m incredibly normal (extremely deranged) about that game, but it’s got me thinking about something: what exactly are the hearts and why are they the money in this game?

Hearts in the first game and almost every game after Simon’s Quest are the thing that you need to collect to be able to use subweapons and they primarily come from candles, but enemies can drop them too. But in Simon’s Quest, while they do still power a couple subweapons, it’s only the ones we’ve never seen before like the Sacred Flame and Golden Knife while not being used for the Holy Water, something that does in every other game. And they only come from enemies because there’s no candles. And there’s different sizes of them. And collecting enough of them levels Simon up. And their primary function is completely shifted to currency!!! Odd, isn’t it?

And the whole way that you buy anything in this game is really framed like some black market sketchy deal. These sellers (or crooked traders with bum deals lol) are primarily holed away in their houses under one or two layers of walls and floors only breakable by magical infinite Holy Water, something only the local badass vampire hunter guy would have after having bought some with said hearts in the first town, or they’re way tucked away in the thick of these Dracula’s army overtaken mansions, some of them even standing directly where skeletons walk past them or in between relatively large pits of spikes. Whatever the reason, these guys obviously want this fairly secret. (Aside from the first town white crystal guy, he’s fine being out in the open lol.)

So what gives??? What is Simon grinding monsters for and trading with the locals for weapons and herbs???

Now this is where things get really ✨speculative✨. I’m gonna put the cut here for suspense and intrigue I guess lol XD. This is gonna be a lot of me thinking out loud and throwing down ideas, not really like a confirmed answer to anything, just havin fun thinkin about a part of a game d(•w• )

I think there’s a few possibilities. They could be the same thing that they are other games or they could be something different just used similarly as a power source.

But first we gotta break down what hearts could be in Cv1. In a lot of the games they seem to be some kind of a general mana, a magic energy possibly not unlike how metaphysical/magical things are depicted in other media. Perhaps the subweapons themselves are magic objects and not really a physical thing that require “hearts” to be conjured. Maybe they could be physical objects that need to be enchanted with “hearts” to be anywhere comparable to Vampire Killer level usefulness. Just a few possibilities.

If the hearts in Simon’s Quest are the same thing, then this kinda makes some sense. Simon trading monster soul energy or whatever with presumably magic users for things he needs on his Quest, especially since things like Laurels (also can be called bay laurels or bay leaves) are commonly used in spells and who better to be selling a spell component than someone who does spells! Also, it makes sense that these people would be fairly out of sight as magic use was still a touchy subject at the time.

Now I don’t know how accurate this is, and if I do find a source somewhere in my way too many bookmarks I will reblog this and link it to it, but I remember reading somewhere in an interview about either SotN or one of the games made close before it that the candles are like the souls of Dracula and his army’s victims that you free when you hit them and they leave you a little parting gift for it. Yes, these games were made way after, so it’s not certain if that was the original intent of these, but I figured it adds something to this.

But what if the hearts in Simon’s Quest are not the same thing? After all, the Holy Water doesn’t use them and we can’t say if they would or not work for other subweapons that appear in CV1 since they aren’t in this one. Well there’s something else that could be dropping from killing monsters that could also fit into the above probability that these traders are magic users and it’s a little darker!

Hearts! Bones! General viscera! And this also kinda makes sense! I mean the whole plot of the game revolves around Simon already carrying pieces of Dracula’s corpse around to burn all together on an altar to cure his and the surrounding area’s curse, it’s not that far of a stretch to say that he’d be fine with carrying around pieces of other monsters and that magic users might be willing to trade things for them so they can use them in their own spells, potions, and so on. And that might also explain why Holy Water isn’t powered by hearts and is incredibly weak in comparison in this game. And why these weird, new subweapons seem to be Simon exclusive! They could be powered by things like monster blood instead of the usual magic energy-ish stuff we’re used to hearts symbolizing.

Regardless of if I’m right or not with either of these, Simon is probably taking advantage of some underground monster essence/organs trade the whole game and this is just such an interesting batshit detail for him as a character.

Anyway, I love this game so much, I’m gonna be spreading propaganda for it like this a lot hopefully lol. Okie that’s it hope that was fun, do with this information what you will :)

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8irdies · 2 years

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so yesterday i got my autism diagnosis! and i decided to get a jellycat to sort of accompany me on my autism journey (they are my special interest so it seems fitting) and be a representation of it. here is punkin/pumpkin! he is a medium beckett fox. i love him very much he has such an adorable face and head tilt!

#jellycat #plushies #plushblr #actually autistic #alt text #autism #actually neurodivergent #stuffed animals #special interest #cozy bedroom #i am very very happy also yes i was right all along take that ableist psychologists and mom #(my mom is also likely autistic but not diagnosed so she didn’t notice i had symptoms because i basically just acted like her #when she was that age)#safeplush #my jellies

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bee-ina-boat · 8 months

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@ tma fandom, i have a concept:

the fear entities but they are mythological gods.

that is all thank u

#like. theyre huge and kinda humanoid-ish and they have their own interpersonal drama like greek mythology and people worship them world wide #and avatars are just demigods really and theres different sectors of worship and sacred temples and holy blessings #do you see where im going with this #me combining my special interests of mythology and tma into one because i am autistic thus is my right #yes im drawing this already #already have a beta ceaseless watcher design and they are so pretty i am eating them #i know im late to the tma fandom but i am tentatively offering my brain rot to you all #.txt #tma #the magnus archives #magpod

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ganondoodle · 2 years

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got so little time on this god forsaken planet and my brain decided to waste it with useless 'fan'work instead of something where nothing and no one can tell me what to do

#ganondoodles talks #-ueheuheu how can someone get so worked up about a game traila ueue-#i wrote destiny specifically to fit into the lore with as little as possible contradictions #SPECIFICALLY bc i wanted it to fit into the canon #to make the canon more interesting #and the trailer is pointing at several things i feared it would go #and that i hate #and that could destroy it all #yes i am autistic #yes this was my special interest or whatever you call that #i guess i am gonna try and develeop shitty games now #or something #and no i dont want to hear your opinion on the trailer #i dont care #leave me alone #this is a vent post #not a question

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echoes-lighthouse · 1 year

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Petition to see the longest DNI in ur collection

Hahaha okay! Here’s my go-to DNI for quizzing people on, to see how many of the items they know/understand. I thiiiink I have a longer one but it’s mainly a big list of kins that they don’t want interaction from, which is a bit less interesting for me!

to be clear: THIS IS NOT MY DNI and does not apply to this blog

(the context is that I collect dnis I find interesting and then share them with my parents and other nontumblr people to see what they think about the tumblr discourse because I think it’s fascinating. For the record I do support and respect DNIs, I just also find the long ones interesting to study??)

I’m on this DNI 13 times btw, what’s your score? (including if you’re multiple things in one paragraph)

#special interest: fandoms and tumblr #anon #i usually wouldn't share these 'cause i don't want anyone to be made fun of #for trying to make a space for themselves online #but you asked nicely and i wanna share my interest!!#tw discourse #discourse mention #ask to tag #YES i bust this out at parties and first dates #YES i am autistic #...okay maybe more on second dates this would be a lot up front

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weenhands · 9 months

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#DOMT look at this im still documenting my process on being on the fence about possibly getting diagnosed for autism Dont look #just. realizing things #like. i know its fixations on celebrities but sometimes its people i know in person its not that i need to be with them 24/7 i just #i Have to collect information about a particular person at times #Actually. Now that we are on topic of this i remember having that feeling towards smaller internet celebrities on instagram and #smaller youtuberz #and actually going to very great lengths to research as much information on them as possible #plus mimicking their behavior alot. Hm ash i wonder why #DONT LOOOOK #look i used to be like Yea i dont really collect information about things im interested in 👍#and sometimes its awkward when im in a space where autistic ppl r everywhere and tend to show that #they themselves collect lots of information on their interests (yes the mcr fandom)#but. i literally do have a history of this. two times it being internet celebrities/youtubers and once it being on haircare itself.#i remember telling myself i could probably do anyones hair. Anyone. because i know so much about it and the complexities #rn my special interest is makeup of course. but im studying how it can turn into info collecting + on people itself .#idk ldjsjdhdhdhduwodjsofiowdid i know i am hashtag confirmed autistic a year ago but i need a much more deeper understanding of myself ig

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austinwehaveaproblem · 1 year

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i think i just need to like. take a day off and be super autistic abt fall out boy it'd fix me.

#austin's problems #i have RESPONSIBILITIES and it sucks #i just. how long has it been since i've just #spent all day reading interviews and watching performances on youtube and looping their discography and sending journal entries to my bfs??#i Am scared i'm not giving fall out boy enough time which is a little stupid bc yes they're my special interest but like #there is stuff outside of fob and that's okay i can i can enjoy things that are not directly connected to them ! but it's hard for me </3 #and i can't just explain any of this to neurotypicals or rlly anyone who isn't autistic bc they really will not understand !!!#like. one thing u should know abt me is you will Never come first my loyalty will always lie with fall out boy #</3 sprry i love them more than i love myself #and i do feel guilty because i've been posting about mcr so much and like #it makes sense since i have so many mcr mutuals and they were Just on tour but #yeah i don't know #this wasn't meant to turn into a vent FJSKDFDJS #vent in tags #ig #i have this really irrational fear that i actually don't like fall out boy and it's stupid but um. yeah

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brightlotusmoon · 2 years

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Me, suddenly realizing that The Sandman and The Rise Of The TMNT movie will premiere on the same fucking day:

I am going to be so annoying about two of my biggest special interests since the late 1980s!

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mxflintoldblog · 2 years

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Who THE FUCK, when a trans person is talking to them about the name they've been thinking about, says that they don't like it and then proceeds to tell them that it's not gender neutral (when it fucking is) and then starts to tell you to name yourself after the stupid fucking kpop band they've been obsessing over for 6 months? Like why the fuck would you think that's an okay thing to do.

And then you get angry because what kind of fucking interaction is that they tell you ''oh, are you upset because i told you i didn't like the name'' NO I'M UPSET BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT FUCKING LISTENING TO ME. I'M TALKING ABOUT A SERIOUS THING AND YOU MAKE FUN OF ME. and then they tell you that it's not that serious.

My sister, that's who.

#personal #trans #i'm so mad right now. this is something that's very important to me and she just... made fun of the name and of me?#like the name is Robin. which is a top tier name; it's gender neutral and it's pretty easy for italians to pronounce and understand #(yes maybe i'm partially naming myself after robing hood. so what)#like i get that she's autistic (i am too) but like. how do you not see that's. like. nowhere in the world would that be considered #an appropriate response #i get that her special interest right now is this kpop band. i get it. i listen to het talk about them and i watch their stupid fucking #videos when she asks #but WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with her. like. how is the second thing you tell me ''why don t you name yourself chris'' with that stupid tone #you know the tone. like when you're asking people stupid rethorical questions #AND WHY DO YOU NEED TO TELL ME THAT YOU DON'T LIKE THE NAME. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU.#i'm so mad with her right now #and then to tell me that basically ''i can't take a joke'' like. it's not a fucking joke it's my name.#i'm telling you something i've been thinking about for months and you don't even... like you don't even acknowledge it basically before #starting with stupid fucking stray k*ds #i'm sorry i'm just really mad okay

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simgameblogging · 9 months

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Me: I don’t need to buy the new sims 4 expansion pack at launch

Me, on launch day, every fucking time:

[image description: a screenshot of the EA app checkout screen for the Sims 4 Horse Ranch expansion]

#in my defence i do not own dine out wedding stories or batuu #and i will not be buying the first two unless ea actually fucking fixes them #and yes i know about the dine out mod #but i am not giving ea money for a broken pack #but the reviews for horse ranch look like there aren't a lot of glitches #and the content is at least on par with other expansions #which is still shit when compared to earlier games but i'm an autistic person with a special interest and disposable income

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haml3t · 1 year

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Gotta say after having an appointment earlier in the week with a “specialist” who looked like she worked for the reagan administration and whose top tier medical advice was weed is evil in all ways and “tough it out” …..seeing my surgeon for post op later like the way he seems happier to see me every time and he’s so easy to talk to and having a genuine doctor/patient relationship was especially delightful 😄💚

#I have such major beef with doctors I am ready to throw hands with any doctor…..except my surgeon and GP saw them both this week love them #very grateful for both of them bc I continue to experience so many fucking vipers in the medical field!#when my GP joked that she's the only one I've got......I am genuinely afraid it's true #I love my surgeon more each time too idk he gets a kick out of me! maybe in part because of my love for medicine #like how I was excited for the pathology report out of nothing but fascination #he's such a good doctor I think he's aware I'm autistic and yes duh it's in my chart my doctors can see #but my point is that it's not relevant at all to my surgeries with him so it's a testament to him being a good doctor #that he took the time to study my chart and see that and make the connection of like #OH that's why she's beyond just an informed and smart patient she's a nerd bc this is a special interest #and that's why he goes into unnecessary details because I think it's FUN 💚💟

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 4 months

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AITA for making my ex-gf watch a cartoon with me

This was long ago but it still haunts me. 💎 To identify later

Me (transmasc, at the time 20) and my gf (F, at the time 23) started dating when my Special Interest was super focused in Steven Universe. I used to talk about this a lot and draw and sing, and when I asked my then-GF to watch with me, she accepted and watched the whooole thing with me (at the time, to the movie). Since I am autistic I never noticed much of a change in her behavior or social cues, I would ask if she wanted to continue watching and she would say yes.

Fast forward to a few months, and she's angry at me because of my Special Interests (still SU) and she tells me she never wanted to watch Steven Universe and that I made her sit through it without any regard of wether she wanted or not and I got really confused because she said she wanted to and she would say yes when I asked if she wanted to keep watching and she would say yes. Then she proceeded to say that she sometimes says yes to stuff she didn't want and I should've known that by now. AITA?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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nozunhinged · 5 months

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I finally managed to put my overall thoughts about Playboyy into words and hoooooo boy do I have a lot to say.

I watched the mdl ratings go down, the blatant hate towards the plot, the actors, the scenes, the sex. There was nothing that wasn't torn apart about this series and yet I wasn't phased for a second and I kept wondering why because usually get very passionate about defending the things I love.

And then I realized that this series is the cinematic embodiment of a very lonely path that I've been walking for decades and I am already very, very used to the shame around it.

Sex is not just my special interest, I also had the privilege to grow up with excellent sex education (thanks parents) and on top of that I never struggled with my (pan)sexual identity. Sex plays a significant role in my life. But I learned VERY quickly that I should keep this to myself if I don't want to be ostracized or bullied.

"You're autistic AND you like sex? You like porn? What the fuck is wrong with you??? That's impossible."

And all the comments I read about playboyy are exactly the same just in different fonts. Ew sex. Ew kink. Ew porn. Ew sex work. Sex can't have storytelling, plot, it's just for shock value. We all read it.

And sadly it's a very accurate representation of the role sex plays in our society. Which - ironically - playboyy exactly is about.

Playboyy is a visual collection of all the experiences of lives and people in which sex plays a significant role - even the lack thereof (looking at you zouey and all you lovely aces).

It's a collection of very important social commentary, with all the characters, sets, plots and visuals as a medium. Because this way, the points they make come across even stronger and draw out all the emotions they want us to feel - which is in the rarest cases, pure arousal. Because this is, in fact, storytelling. Even if many don't want to hear it.

Telling stories about sex is so stigmatized and shunned, it only has the tiniest place to exist freely. Just like sex itself. Every sex worker, sex educator, sex therapist, everyone who has a profession that deals with sex will tell you about it. The shame. The misunderstanding. Look at the state of sex work and porn in the world. It tells you everything you need to know.

And it's happening in the middle of the "modern" western society - Yes I'm talking about you, UK and I can't not plug this here:

*btw I am not a sex worker I'm just very passionate about letting people not just live their lives but giving them a CHOICE to do what they want or don't want to do

I existed in this tiny place for decades now and I got really comfortable in my tiny lil corner, but to see a show like this go "mainstream" talking about all the topics that tickle all the knowledge I collected over the years feels so amazing. And I can tell you, all you lil smartass purists, everyone involved in this show doesn't care an inch what you think, just like me. We're used to it, believe me.

I could go on for ages about how carefully all these topics of the show are treated but what I actually want to say is that I find it incredibly ironic that a show that depicts the struggles and stigmas about sex, exactly draws out the reactions and treatments it criticises.

If you don't want to join in on the fun, that's totally fine. I get that it's not for everyone (just like sex, he). But treating it as a piece of trash just because it's a thing you personally find icky is exactly the reason the issues Playboyy talks about exist in the first place. Hence you can thank your stuck-up ass yourself that debauched individuals like me get a gem like this to enjoy.

And the fact that it didn't just find a crew, but also the funding and the mainstream distribution proves that I'm not alone in this.

It's not my lonely little corner anymore and I'm absolutely thriving on that. Cry about it.

#playboyy the series #playboyy #playboyy meta #and no im not using tumblrs mature label for this because i like to love dangerously and want you to read it

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outro-jo · 1 year

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skz with autistic partners

pairing: stray kids members x reader

type: scenario

summary: how the skz members help their autistic partners

warning: mentions overstimulation, touch in han’s, food, non speaking periods, stimming

a/n: happy autism awareness/acceptance month! i am fully aware of my autism and have come to accept it 🙃 yes, i am autistic and some of these scenarios i have experienced myself. also they’re all probably good at a lot of these but i just stuck to like one (twoish for hannie) per… thing. idk i can’t think. i wrote skz first bc they felt the safest when it came to being autistic/nd but lmk if y’all want any other groups

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chan- chris makes a big mistake every few months by showing you a new song he’s working on and it triggers your auditory stim. he’ll have to email you the file so you can listen to it on repeat until the next one is finished. all it takes is a look and he sighs knowing he has to send you the file right away.

lee know- the best at respecting you during your non speaking periods. he finds all kinds of different ways to communicate without you having to speak. it’s usually by text but sometimes he’ll use his hands for opinions and even learn a little sign language. he’s also careful not to talk too much or be too loud bc he knows these times are usually bc you’re overstimulated.

changbin- always keeps a backup pair of headphones in his bag. you’re usually pretty good about charging your headphones before going anywhere but just in case, he’s got a pair on standby.

hyunjin- super careful with his art. one time he drew something that slightly resembled holes and you were so triggered you screamed off and on for like an hour.

han- great at deep pressure. he always checks before hugging or touching you but if you’re feeling overstimulated and need a tight hug, jisung’s your man. also really great at body doubling so you can get some work done.

felix- truly the best when it comes to safe foods. he knows if it’s not safe, you don’t eat and he wants to make sure you always eat. good at making excuses for other people when you’re out so you can eat your safe foods and not feel judged. always has some kind of safe snack in his bag.

seungmin- best listener. he’ll ask you one or two questions about your special interests and let’s you talk as much as you want. even if he has absolutely no interest in the topic, he still just likes for you to talk about it as much as you want. also loves when you just start talking about it randomly.

i.n- BEST PEBBLER!!! not only does he love when you give him little random gifts but he’s really the best at giving gifts. he always finds the coolest rocks it’s truly insane. he keeps his little collection of trinkets you give him lined up on his dresser (it’s lined up perfectly and it’s so satisfying). if you’re into bugs he also sends you pics of the bugs he finds.

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