realizing that a lot of the pro palestine people on the left don’t actually care about reducing harm or helping people or working towards a better and more peaceful future was such a disappointment.
Another change. Another heavy burden. And another year coming to an end. I’m still stuck with this weight on top of me, and I can’t seem to wiggly my way out. I thought the mid of this year was as torturous as it could get but I was gravely mistaken. I rather be miserable due to heartbreak than to endure these new set of challenges. I just didn’t know how easy I had it and instead went and looked for trouble. And I found it, more pain and more misery and another burden to add to the list. What a fool. And now I’m standing among the consequences of my own actions and I want nothing more than to run away and hide and pretend like it doesn’t exist, like this never happened. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where to go. The idea of loneliness no longer scares me or saddens me. I’ve grown found of it, to be left in peace. But here I am, in another awful situation and one I can’t seem to deal with all alone. I truly don’t know what to do. Do I speak up against their overwhelming addiction and unstable mental state? Or do I remain silent, a simple enabler by not speaking out only because I’m afraid of them, afraid of what they’re capable of, afraid that it puts people’s life at jeopardy. It’s all so complicated. I wish it were how it was before, the innocence, child-like mentality, our youth. I wish we were both still young, naive, and hopelessly falling in love. Now it’s just gotten too messy too fast. I don’t feel real. Life doesn’t feel real. And I certainly don’t recognize this person before me. You’re nothing but a stranger, a stranger clothed to look like them. I don’t know you.
Behold, my personal LucBedo/AlbeLuc Manifesto (aka Why I'm Delusional About THEM). Warning for one slide of NSFW text!
In my original powerpoint, I included fic recs and artist recs, but links do not work in Tumblr images, but the full PDF version of it can be found here with working links!
Links to the Fan Events are as follows:
Alizarin: An AlbeLuc & LucBedo Ship Week [Twitter] [Tumblr]