i need the bkdk reluctant bff era where things are relatively normal post war and they have to awkwardly try to do normal friend things because they both acknowledge that their lives are intertwined and they're actually important to each other but there's no war where they can simply express all their feelings by sacrificing themselves for each other so instead they just have to like hang out and idk watch movies together or something

i crave friendship more than i crave a relationship. i crave sleepovers and taking turns watching our favorite movies. i crave game nights- both irl and online. i crave the feeling of knowing that even if i was delusional about a toxic situation, they would snap me out it and vice versa. i crave those late night talks about serious things and about absolutely nothing. i crave the support and encouragement we would give each other and the jealousy we wouldn’t feel towards each other. i crave a circle where no one gets left behind. i crave times where we just meet up at someone’s house and just chat while we each pick up a task of making food together and eat together. i… want to belong. more than anything.

i want so badly for taylor swift to speak out against israel and the genocide this apartheid state is committing in palestine. im so proud of her and everything she has achieved this year, starting from the eras tour to her successful rerecords. it’s not a surprise she’s on top of many year-end most influential/best of the best lists.

but what then? what use is her ever-growing influence? it’s ridiculous to say but she’s the only one who has enough of a sway to make people actually pay attention to something. just look at how the voter registration in the US spiked again when she posted about it a few months ago. how the NFL had boosted views for the simple fact that she was attending the games. can you imagine how much the tides would change if she denounced israel’s atrocities? if she rallied for support for palestinians? the legions of swifties would actually listen and pay attention. because right now only a very small fraction of us care, truly care, about what’s happening. the rest are too busy fishing for a taylor nation notice.

yes, taylor swift cannot end wars. no, it’s not taylor swift’s job to make life better for an oppressed population. but she has the platform, the momentum, and the voice to bring all these issues to light.

this is not to mention how the apartheid state has been using her pictures, her lyrics, even the friendship bracelets to further their propaganda. did taylor not fervently oppose the n@zis who were calling her an aryan goddess a few years ago? even if this is all she does now, ask them not to use her for their propaganda, it would already do so much.

instead she’s silent. when her influence is needed the most, she’s not there.

the sad thing is, we all know she’ll live and thrive if she chooses to stay silent. hell, i have tickets to see her next year. she’ll continue to be successful and she will put out more albums and she’ll earn more money and she’ll be safe and happy. palestinians have none of any of this. some of them are dying under the rubble after their house is hit with b0mbs that israel is dropping as im typing this.

but if she uses her influence? if she puts pressure on the government, on joe biden whom she proudly endorsed, there’s a chance that she could tip the scales. and even if it doesn’t work, isn’t it better to have at least tried? even selfishly, will your conscience not feel lighter knowing you did something instead of nothing?

taylor, you have a ton of resources at your disposal. i hope you use them, and i hope you use your influence to help the palestinian people.

CREGAN STARK CUDDLING HEADCANNONS - cregan stark x f! reader

SUMMARY AND TW: There's a lot of backstory in the start - Cregan's in his Kazzle Dazzle's era. Mention of Cregan's parents death.

AN : i made this in the hair salon today and i was too nervous to tell them they didn't do my hair the way i wanted bc i realized it when it was finished 😟

- From a young age, Cregan Stark had always commanded respect from the houses of the North, at the age of 13, he had lord Tully and his brother shaking in their boots, and stammering.

- His father had died too early than what was expected, he barely had any time to mourn him until he became Warden of the North. He was set into the life of an unmoving ruler who was steadfast in the makings of the North. All he had left was a legacy to protect.

- This left endless nights, hiding under the covers while reading books on the various Starks throughout the centuries. Except, it was only known that he read, not that his tears stained the pages he so loved. With the loss of his father, who could there ever be to guide him? It would be a surprise to anyone if he admitted that he didn't know what to do really, at all.

- This left him susceptible to the idea of affection, hardened by the ways of the life that had been imposed on him. Never getting a moment of relief from anyone. He'd hide away from any physical touch, his hand immediately pulling away when some random lord had come to visit and had shaken his hand.

- When he first met you, he had been slightly suspicious at how easily sociable you were. When you brought him in for a hug, he couldn't even hide his shock as he raised one of his eyebrows, and slowly patted you on the back hesistantly. No matter how tough he wanted to seem, he was pretty soft. There could be chuckles and even small gasps heard around the room, why would he hug you? He only just met you, and he wouldn't even embrace his friends of years just like he did.

- The friendship had slowly developed with small moments of peace. He showed you around the North, even in his own home. The burly man led you to various shops, markets, fields full of the pure white snow, where people trained with their swords. He even embarked you on a challenge to fight, even though that led to you falling on the ground, while the young Stark could barely contain his laughter as he laughed at you, holding his arms around his stomach. Finally after his eyes had started to become teary, he held out his hand for you to grab.

- Now, Cregan Stark will finalize the relationship by something simple. He's not reallt an extravagant type of person, he knows that loyalty and the heart is more worthy than what you can buy. He'll ask you what's your favorite book, even though he already knows. He'll then put a page in the last part of the book asking you to be his (He knew not to write inside the book or else you'd be furious), with your favorite treat and a flower he had shown to you in the field of snow. You had pointed at it, and exclaimed to him how badly you wished you had it where you came from. "Cregan, I believe this to be the most beautiful flower I've ever encountered."

"I disagree."

"Why?"

"I see it right infront of me."

- Now, that it was official. You had moved to his chambers, it had been a cold night. You needed comfort - warm comfort. His body was facing the ceiling, a little stiff, but he certainly looked warm, and you needed that. You nervously placed an arm around his, and it slowly moved to around his neck. His head basically snapped, with his taller figure, he looked down at you.

"Hm?"

"Nothing, I just wanted to cuddle and.. I'm cold..?" You said it questioningly because of his confused stare, as though he's never received such type of love.

He murmured something incoherent under his breath and he instead wrapped his arms around you.

"Go ahead. Sleep." He whispered to you as you laid your head on his chest, while you tapped his waist with your fingers repeatedly.

- When you woke up, you had looked up to find a snoring Cregan, with your legs entangled together like your arms, and his breath down your neck. You tried to lay your head down again, but he woke up. With a hoarse voice, and groggily rubbing his face, he said, "Don't leave, please." He held you even tighter, and went back to sleep immediately.

When he finally fell asleep, you murmured to him, "I never will."

- From that day on, Cregan cuddled you. All. The. Time. Literally, he'd never let go of you. After a meeting, he'd plop down on the bed and reach for you, he'd even let out a huff when you apparently "took too long" to hold him.

"Y/N!" His body fell on the bed, almost making your own body fall off.

You glared at him playfully, while you noticed your book fell.

"Cregan. Did you just make me lose my page number? Yo-" You couldn't even finish your words, before he engulfed you in his arms.

"I'm more important than some old book." He finally declared after ruffling your hair up.

"I think we can debate on that." You rolled your eyes slightly, you were still annoyed but I mean, it's the Cregan Stark cuddling you. That's a privelege only you get.

- It was clear how he never let go of you, made sure to you that you were his forever. In the day, his arm would creep around your waist when some annoying lord came to you with promises of his "vast" land, and riches. All he had to do was nod at him, and the guy would run away.

- In the night, he'd rest his head on your chest this time, vice - versa. He doesn't want anyone else near you. You'd put your hands in his hair, fluffing it up, maybe braiding it a little. His hair was irrestible, just like him. It was those Stark genes, you suppose.

If u cam do issa Weired request ... blurb

Hongjoong leaving his gf, yet haven't moved on.

Now he is a successful producer whilst he found out that ex is now struggling with depression!!

﹟𝗠𝗜𝗦𝗦𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗬𝗢𝗨 ⋆ 𝗄.𝗁𝗃 𝗑 𝖿!𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋

𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗘𝗭 𝗠𝗔𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗟𝗜𝗦𝗧 / 𝗥𝗘𝗤𝗨𝗘𝗦𝗧

plot - you and hongjoong brokeup a while back so he could focus on his career. the both of you didn’t know how badly that breakup would affect you.

warn - slight angst and some fluff, idol!au, mentions of depression, mention of s/h and s/i (more like implications), happy ending, kind of based in present time (guerrilla era)

w/c - n/a

𝗧𝗔𝗚S - @felixs-voice-makes-me-wanna @starillusion13 @mingitheskzstan

“who’s that girl?” you mumble to yourself as you stare at the picture hongjoong posted recently. it was a picture of him and another girl holding hands and looking in love. you narrowed your eyes and threw your phone across the room, falling back onto your bed and sighing.

it’s been years since you and hongjoong broke up. you two were young, and had your whole lives ahead of you! of course, that meant you two had to part ways. it was impossible to do a long distance relationship if you planned on going all the way across the globe for college. hongjoong wanted to stay in his home town to work on his music and focus on his group, ateez.

when you heard the words “we need to take a break,” leave his lips, the only thing you could think of were the things you did for him. you were always there for fan signing events, concerts, promotion events, etc etc. you were their biggest supporter and ateez thank you for it. you were there even before they debuted.

it was after ‘say my name’ was released, he decided to end things. it took everything in you not to cry, but you couldn’t help the torrent of tears flooding down your cheeks like niagara falls.

you were able to handle the breakup for the next few days until you saw that one interview. you could’ve sworn hongjoong felt your eyes burning holes into his head. the interviewer asked ateez what their ideal type was, and if they were looking for relationships. you cringed on the inside from the question, but listened intensely when hongjoong was asked.

“i don’t mind what my future girlfriend looks like, it doesn’t matter to me. but, as of now, i’m still looking for my perfect lady.”

he was still looking. those words were now engraved in your memory. that wasn’t like hongjoong. he wouldn’t just ignore everything you two had because ateez was gaining popularity, but judging from his expression, he was dead serious.

you clawed are your chest. if it were even possible, you felt your heart drop inside of you. the tears that fell from the day he brokeup with you started up again. nothing could’ve prepared you for what he said. nothing. you thought you two had something but clearly you were wrong. were you not perfect to him? did he not find you pretty? did you mess up? did he lie about his reason of breaking up? everything ran through your mind all at once.

his one answer sent you into a spiral. you spent hours everyday checking to see if hongjoong’s ideal type changed so you could make yourself look like the person he described, but you got nothing. you spent hours looking at tips tom how to become prettier, how to keep a long relationship.

all of the internet you consumed in those days sent you into a deep depression, one you thought you couldn’t get out of. you kept in contact with the ateez members, but hongjoong was the only one who didn’t talk to you. mingi said he was busy in the studio whenever you asked to speak to him, and you couldn’t help but breakdown when you heard those words. excuse after excuse. he really got over you that quick..?

everything hit you like a truck so fast. hongjoong broke up with you and refused to speak to you, and the friendship you thought you had with ateez disappeared when their schedules became booked and they didn’t have the time to talk to you. they used to respond to your messages hours later, then it turned into no responses at all. you weren’t close with anybody else as much as you were with ateez, you felt alone. nobody was there to talk to, and you definitely didn’t want to tell your parents. chances are they’d say you were overreacting.

your depression worsened when you saw hongjoong having fun with other idols who were girls. he seemed so comfortable around them, as for you, he’d refuse to talk to you. you felt like a burden. you weren’t important. you were useless.

harming yourself felt like your last option since the job you were working at didn’t help you afford getting actual help, so you felt it was your best bet. though it wasn’t. your job, being ignorant, said you needed to “take a break” since your scars were scaring customers. you didn’t bother arguing back and just took the punishment.

and here you were now, scrolling through his personal instagram account and seeing him post about this one girl frequently. he had found someone new. he forgot about you. you weren’t important to him. in fact, tou weren’t important to anybody. there were a few times where you’ve thought of leaving the face of the earth and never coming back, but what about your family? they were still assholes but they cared about you? how would it affect ateez’s mental health? you didn’t want to make them feel what you felt.

not paying attention to what you were doing, you liked one of his posts. it wouldn’t have been a problem if you were on your secret account, but it was your main. it was the entire reason you threw your phone, and you were so scared to pick it up thinking he’d see it. but the post had 100k likes? how would he see yours?-

ding!

well, you were proven wrong. carefully you crawl off your bed and snatch your phone up, staring at your screen blankly when you saw a message from him. his account. the account that was verified. it couldn’t have been true, you had to have been dreaming.

hj: is this who i think it is?

yn: yes?

hj: oh, hey y/n :) how’ve you been?

yn: i’ve been okay.

hj: that’s good

hj: soo what have you been doing since the last time we spoke to each other?

yn: nothing

hj: really? nothing? i thought you wanted to focus on dancing or something like that.

yn: i didn’t get into the college i applied for

hj: oh i’m sorry to hear that. have you been doing anything else?

yn: no

hj: oh ok

hj: is it awkward speaking to me again? i’m sorry if i made things weird or i made it seem like i forgot about you. i haven’t forgotten about you.

yn: its not awkward, i’m just embarrassed

hj: embarrassed?

yn: people knew we were dating before and after your group debuted, but you went on national television and told everybody that you were still looking for your soulmate or whatever? that was embarrassing.

hj: we talked about the questions they’d ask us if we were on the show? i thought you knew i wasn’t being serious?

yn: i would’ve thought that, but i didn’t. even after that you refused to talk to me, no matter how many times i tried talking to you. mingi told me you were always busy. i thought you had forgotten about me.

hj: i didn’t forget about you? but i’m sorry if i made it seem that way… i was always busy though?

yn: you could’ve told me that yourself, hongjoong.

hj: i realize that now

yn: i know you don’t know how much you hurt me, but it hurt me a lot. not only you, but everyone else. i hate being alone. i didn’t have anyone to talk to.

hj: i’m sorry. are you still in the states? we’re here to promote some music but i have a bit of time, i can visit you? what’s your address

yn: [___] my roommates aren’t home, so we can talk alone

hj: cool. be there in thirty.

and he kept his word. he arrived at your apartment in 30 minutes, maybe even under thirty. you thought he’d come empty handed since the plan was to talk about your feelings and settle the rocky relationship, but he came with flowers and chocolate. it was pretty cliché but you didn’t care. at least he cared about you enough to get you something.

"hey," the smile on his face let you know he was happy to see you for the first time in what felt like forever. he's been missing you like crazy since the breakup but didn't have the guts to reach out to you.

"hi." on the other hand, you were still mad at him and didn't want to make it seem like you've been stalking him since you two parted ways, which you have.

"can i come in?" his eyebrow raises and you nod, moving out the way of the doorway and allowing him to walk inside. you handed him a vase to put the flowers in as you walked over to the couch. he closed the door behind him then moved to a nearby counter, taking the flowers out of the plastic and throwing them into the trashcan.

“so… i haven’t kept up with what you guys have been doing.” which was a lie. you always spent your free time going through the official instagram as well as the members to see what they were doing. “what songs did you guys release?”

“we just released guerrilla, that’s why we’re in the states.” when he was done with the base, he walked over to where you were and sat on the couch. he wasn’t sure if you were comfortable with him being close or not so he kept his distance.

“oh, that’s cool.” you nod slowly. “have you been seeing anyone since we… parted ways?—”

“nope.” joong answered quickly. “you may not believe me, but i never got over you. i’ve missed you like hell, it felt like i had a hole in my heart. y’know? everything i did felt weird because you weren’t with me. when i didn’t see you at our concerts and at promotions, it felt wrong.”

“…it did?” you started feeling guilty now. “i didn’t know you felt like that.”

“it’s not your fault! okay? it’s not your fault, it’s mine.” he sighed. “i kept reading over your texts while i was driving and i felt bad. really bad. i feel bad knowing i was the reason you went through all of that. i didn’t want to point it out when i first walked in but i noticed your…”

you furrow your eyebrows and looked down. you hadn’t worn a long sleeved shirt like you planned on, which meant your arms were fully exposed to him. some of your scars were healing pretty good, but there were still many that weren’t healing as fast as the others. they were more visible. you didn’t know what to say to him. hongjoong scoots closer and pulled you into a hug without saying a word. before you knew it, tears were streaming down your cheeks again.

“shh, it’s okay, i’m here.” he held your face against his chest, patting you on the head and holding you tightly. you weren’t aware of how badly you needed a hug until now; the same arms that held you years ago were holding you now and it made you feel so much better.

“j-joong,” you sniffled. “are you mad at me…?”

“what? no, no i could never be mad at you.” he sighed, feeling the urge to cry as well. “im just glad you’re still here. im glad we’re together right now.”

“i… am too,” you smile weakly and wrap your arms around his body. “can you stay the night?”

“sure, i think i can. i think this is the one week where we don’t really have anything to do as a group. i can ask to spend the entire week with you, would you like that?”

“yes please, do that. i wanna spend as much time as i can with you before you go back.”

hongjoong chuckles and pushed your hair behind your ear, staring into the eyes he fell in love with all those years ago. “do you want to try again?”

you were waiting for that question since the moment he walked inside. “i do, joong.”

Sam reacts to: GOLF WITH SLITS - Dan and Phil Play: Golf With Friends #9

- For context I need you to know that they released the video an hour into my weekly Lorcana (card game) session. So I spend the following two hours playing the most horrendous Lorcana games I have ever played because my brain was: Dan and Phil video, new Phil layout, Spotify album on repeat.

- Why is Dan blushing SO badly when Phil talks about his slit...

- Not the friendship in the album description that is hilarious to me because suuuuure babes, friendship.

- Phils extensive birthday celebrations will forever be my favourite thing, like he really just wants to be a special birthday boy.

- Dan apologising for swearing? What timeline is this?

- NOT THEIR MATCHING MUGS MAKING AN APPEARANCE (Phil's little P mug and we know Dan has a matching one...)

- "Phils gone giddy. He's got too excited by the music and his little hat." possibly the most Phil thing ever, and the way Dan knows.

- "That was so straight. That was nothing like me." I don't think I will ever get tired of Phil making gay jokes.

- Phil aggressively screaming FUCK when losing is so me honestly.

- Dan's slit is so hot.

- We have reached the casual level of Phil googling something in the middle of the video.

- RPG talk, Fall Guys mention, all while they play one of my favourite games... FOR ME

- THE CASUAL LOUNGING, Dan pushing Phil out of frame. What era are we in this is too much.

- "I've got charisma. I've got charisma and luck!" Somehow that is literally Phil described in game stats.

- Okay last golf video Dan only held his hand in front of Phils face, this time he fully grabbed him and I could say so much about that

- Phil is SO happy to be winning how could anyone be upset about that, he's so giddy. Dan breaking out in a smile when Phil says he's in a good mood now, I love them so very much.

This literally made my day, I did mentally drift off multiple times because simply so much else was happening but I always love their Golf with Friends videos so much!

thoughts on pjo series so far after episode 6:

(spoilers for ep 6 ahead!! minor spoilers for the books too but nothing much about the plot)

acting SLAYS. slays. i almost teared up like 3 times bc of percabeth in ep 4/5 ALONE. and sally!! and grover!!!! luke and clarisse too ugh!!!!

special effects SLAYYYY. the monsters look really good and just as i imagined, I’ll give them that.

sets and locations are also very accurately pictured and the vibes brought out are just like the book!

script sucks. the writing is soooo awkward most of the time and the conversation just does not flow well. it’s too serious and boring half the time and i can’t keep relying on the actor’s tones even if they’re doing well as child actors.

soooo much exposition in every single conversation my head is spinning. like i feel like there were better ways to contextualise info from the book?

i saw someone say this show could’ve been approached with a fleabag ish narration and while that sort of would be a bit unorthodox i feel like that or just having walker narrate over the top sometimes would’ve been a good way to nod to the books. it’s difficult to bring a first person series alive when the narrator has so much personality and stuff to say that affects descriptions and how we see it, but i think it could’ve been possible.

music is clunky sometimes in that like why r the vibes so heavy for nothing…. like when they were talking in the animal truck and when they were driving the taxi etc.

no action. like i don’t need it to be pumping out adrenaline all the time but they have fr barely done anything i’m sorry 😰 book trio would’ve ate them alive.

cutting grover out at the waterpark likeeee??? yeah maybe him w ares was important but also it was not. they could’ve gotten that info any other time without making him stay w ares.

lacking explanation where it matters. like the eeriness of the lotus casino and why there are people from all different eras. and their RESOURCES like they aren’t explaining where their money and clothes and stuff are like these kids are surviving off one backpack?? it reminds me of in a wrinkle in time (2018) how the kid’s shirt changes like every 10 minutes and it’s just never acknowledged.

speaking of the lotus casino it’s just so like… bland. they’re cutting out the best parts of the story. percy fighting the chimera was so underwhelming and the bus scene too!!! and the lotus casino like yeah ok let’s not promote drugs i guess but they could have and SHOULD have had fun. why did they waste that time on cgi for the roller coaster in the casino at all?? it wasn’t sinister enough bc the whole vibe of the show is just serious so there’s no contrast between them thinking they’ve found paradise and realising there’s something wrong. captured the vibe of the show tbh: they plateau along the middle line of fun and serious business instead of playing with it like the book does.

feels like the character relationships r poorly drawn out. i’ve already forgotten about the weak attempt to build a percy-luke friendship. and annabeth not letting grover talk to hermes in the casino felt badly explained. plus grover’s whole backstory?? why r we straying so far from how the books explained him like they’re separating him a bit toooo much from the others.

generally just too many plot changes like as much as there is good in this show there is also bad and we stray further and further from the plot every single episode (the SOLSTICE WHAT HAPPENED TO THE TIME PRESSURE??).

it’s somehow too low stakes and too serious at the same time. like they’re acting like the stakes are high but i’m not feeling the pressure.

i understand it’s a new iteration and an adaption almost never means it’ll be the same, but that doesn’t mean i like all the changes. i guess there’s probably tonnes of reasons why book to screen adaptions always change so much (actually harry potter and tbosas ate tbh but oh well), and in this case it’s been many years since pjo was released, so rick is just taking that chance to rewrite things as he would if he wrote the books now. and i accept that. but these are just my opinions and some of these things are just plain bad choices for a show 😭

but i do still hope it gets picked up for all 5 seasons + heroes of olympus like i’ll give u all my money i’ll watch it all i swear

We as a fandom are rlly underestimating how confused and *hurt* Mike is gonna feel when he finds out Will lied about the painting like-

Quick disclaimer before I explain: this is not any sort of Will slander. I love Will Byers so much only Mike Wheeler could top how much I love Will kdkdjsjj

Ok now with that said, let’s look at the whole PaintingSituationTM from Mike’s perspective:

As far as Mike is concerned, he’s pretty much told Will multiple times that he doesn’t feel like his relationship with El is working anymore. He’s thinks he’s being clear, and he probably just assumes Will understands that since Will has *always* been able to understand Mike instantly.

Unfortunately, he’s completely unaware that Will is convinced Mike is in love with El because Will fully and wholeheartedly believes that he’s wrong for how he feels abt Mike, and Mike being in love with his sister is some sort of karma. This is what causes Will to push Mike towards El in a misguided but well meaning attempt to make him feel better. To will, it doesn’t really matter if he’s lying, because *of course* El needs Mike, who wouldn’t need Mike? Will needs Mike, and if El and Mike are in love, of course El would feel the exact same way, right?

But Mike doesn’t know any of this. All he knows is that his best friend (that he’s also in love with) is actively pushing him back into his relationship with El. Even if Mike is confused by what Will said abt El’s feelings, since it doesn’t add up with what he *knows* is happening between them, he chooses to believe Will bc if there’s anyone that would always, *always* be honest with Mike, it was Will, and Mike knows that Will would never push Mike back into his crumbling relationship with El based on only a lie… or so he thinks.

Now, Mike is once again under the impression that El still needs him romantically, hence his speech in surfer boys, where he tells El what he *thinks* she wants to hear from him in a desperate attempt to save her life. He also most likely feels like he owes it to El to try and love her romantically, since he *does* love her, and he thinks she needs it to be romantic, so he makes himself try bc if there’s anything we know about Mike wheeler, it’s that he feels like he needs to be *needed* in order to be worthy of someone’s love (someone plz give this boy a hug omfg).

Alright, keeping in mind all that messy context, let’s go back to what we know about m*leven. It’s pretty likely that El is gonna break up with Mike in the first (or maybe second) episode of s5, and she’s gonna tell him he shouldn’t have lied, and that she doesn’t need him the way he thinks she does. El’s gonna dump Mike’s ass again and enter her girlboss era (Max will be so proud). This…. Is gonna leave Mike HELLA confused. Why did El ask Will to make that painting about how she needed Mike if she didn’t??

And it’ll click for him: Will lied. Mike’s not gonna understand why, all he’ll know is that Will lied to him about El’s feelings and basically set Mike up for failure. Mike’s gonna be confused and hurt just from that alone, not to mention that fact that he’s ALSO still trying to come to terms with how he feels about Will, even though Will unintentionally gave Mike a set back for that. And we know Mike wheeler, when he gets really confused and upset about his relationship to and with Will (guys, trust me, unaddressed mutual gay feelings can make a friendship a MIND FIELD) what does he do? He gets angry and lashes out.

In conclusion, this is gonna massively blow up in Will’s face, and byler is going to have their worst argument yet. If we think the rain fight in s3 was bad, this is gonna be so. Much. Worse.

On the plus side, the fights gonna obliterate most if not all of Mike and Will’s built up miscommunication, so we’re gonna get a high payoff, it’s just gonna hurt really badly first 🥲

If you made it this far thank you for reading all of this and I hope you enjoyed kdjsjsj

I love analyzing these two so much I think abt them 24/7 it’s a problem 💀

Yes, I'm still making my way through Archie era *however* someone convinced me to read "Imposter Syndrome" so I could baseline understand Surge and Kit, and then sent me some other comic screenshots

And

I have now become a Sontailsurgekit qqp polycule truther

Listen listen

It possessed me so badly I had to make a poorly done relationship chart

They could all be roommates, partners, still be enemies, they could be anything they could be everything

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Bonus!:

Kit and Sonic about each other: Wow they remind me of my partner (affectionate) 🥺🥰💖

Surge and Tails about each other: Wow they remind me of my partner (derogatory)

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[Image 1: The image consists of four bubbles in each corner, eight arrows, and eight blocks of text. The bubble in the upper left corner depicts Surge the Tenrec from the Sonic the Hedgehog comics from IDW publishing, the bubble in the upper right depicts Sonic the Hedgehog from the same comic, the bubble in the bottom left depicts Kit or Kitsunami the Fennec from the same comic, and the bubble in the bottom right depicts Miles "Tails" Prower or Tails the Fox, also from the same comic. The first set of arrows extend horizontally between the Surge and Sonic bubbles and are colored orange. The text above the orange arrow that points from Surge's bubble to Sonic's reads as follows:

"Hates him so badly that the relationship is fun. Blood. Murder. Pain. Has the capability to become attached to him in a Shadow like way. She would not kiss or fuck him but nevertheless the tension is off the charts."

The text below the orange arrow that points from Sonic's bubble to Surge's reads as follows:

"Wants to be friends or at least rivals/enemies who won't kill each other so fucking bad. Recognizes they could be a fun power duo. WOULD say shit to her like 'you wanna kiss me so bad it makes you look stupid'. Not fully romantic but not platonic. Definitely wants to kiss her once. Just to try it."

The second set of arrows extend vertically between the Surge and Kit bubbles and are colored green. The text to the right of the green arrow that points from Surge's bubble to Kit's reads as follows:

"Needs him (won't admit). The feelings grow slowly over time into something not fully romantic but definitely not purely platonic. No matter what other relationships she will have this one will always be different and most likely stronger."

The text to the left of the green arrow that points from Kit's bubble to Surge's reads as follows:

"Toxic codependency and obsession. Would kiss her if she asked. Yandere for her. Has the potential to develop into strong love."

The third set of arrows extend vertically between the Sonic and Tails bubbles and are colored red. The text to the right of the red arrow that points from Sonic's bubble to Tails' reads as follows:

"Instantly clicks as friends but develops slow burn kinda love. Not fully romantic but not opposed to kisses. So dense he doesn't realize that this 'friendship' is not just stronger than others' but also different than 'normal' relationships. Wants to be by his side forever."

The text to the left of the red arrow that points from Tails' bubble to Sonic's reads as follows:

"Puppy crush and admiration turned love. Best friends. Would not be sad if they never date as long as they're together forever. Kisses him in his dreams."

The fourth and final set of arrows extend horizontally between the Kit and Tails bubbles and are colored blue. The text above the blue arrow that points from Kit's bubble to Tails' reads as follows:

"Definite bit of jealousy towards. Has never had someone relate to him and treat him like this. Likes him a surprising amount but would not admit it except under special circumstances. Has dreams about kissing him."

The text below the blue arrow that points from Tails' bubble to Kit's reads as follows:

"Wants to have some sort of relationship so fucking bad. Would kiss him if he wanted. Wants so badly to hit the lab with him to analyze his tech or make shit with him. Cares very very much about his wellbeing. He wants a relationship with romance undertones but also to not actually be killed. Thinks he's cute too."

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[Image 2: The image consists of four bubbles grouped together in the top left corner, four different colored arrows, four circles of solid color, and four blocks of text. The upper leftmost bubble depicts Surge the Tenrec from the Sonic the Hedgehog comics from IDW publishing, the bubble in the upper right depicts Sonic the Hedgehog from the same comic, the bubble in the bottom left depicts Kit or Kitsunami the Fennec from the same comic, and the bubble in the bottom right depicts Miles "Tails" Prower or Tails the Fox, also from the same comic. The first arrow extends diagonally between the Surge and Tails bubbles and is colored turquoise. It points from the Surge bubble to the Tails bubble. This arrow corresponds to the first solid color bubble near the top right of the image, which is also turquoise. The block of text next to this bubble reads as follows:

"Grows to tolerate. Not super nice to him. Thinks he's helpful though."

The second arrow extends diagonally between the Tails and Surge bubbles and is colored blue. It points from the Tails bubble to the Surge bubble. This arrow corresponds to the second solid color bubble near right from the top of the image, which is also blue. The block of text next to this bubble reads as follows:

"Knows she tolerates him. Nice to her when he can be. Also kinda grows to tolerate."

The third arrow extends diagonally between the Kit and Sonic bubbles and is colored purple. It points from the Kit bubble to the Sonic bubble. This arrow corresponds to the third solid color bubble near right from the top of the image, which is also purple. The block of text next to this bubble reads as follows:

"Has potential to become obsessed with and/or admire. Actually likes him and would kiss under correct circumstances. Loyal to Surge first though."

The fourth and final arrow extends diagonally between the Sonic and Kit bubbles and is colored a pastel green. It points from the Sonic bubble to the Kit bubble. This arrow corresponds to the fourth solid color bubble at the bottom of the image, which is also pastel green in color. The block of text next to this bubble reads as follows:

"The Tails effect (aka, starts/tries to create strong bonds with those who remind him of Tails and has the potential to become affectionate with). Wants him to be happy and cared for. Would take a lot of time but has the possibility of developing into similar relationship as with Tails. Would not realize how easy he can begin to wrap Kit around his finger, but recognizes he (Sonic) is second to Surge."

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Sorrel imma listen to each song and the playlist and give my take! I wanna see how close or off or just any feedback tbh! For funzies! LMAO The first song is JUST THE VIIIBE FOR THE SHOW OVERALL <33

YOU ACTUALLY WENT THROUGH EVERYTHING honestly im so giddy over this. I'LL PUT MORE SPECIFIC THOUGHTS under the readmore, BUT U WERE PRETTY SPOT ON DUDE!!!

arrival - totally for the vibe. Just sounds like them to me daydream in blue - originally this was more so about rick/diane and how rick (badly)copes with her loss. BUT HONESTLY your interpretations centering morty's disillusionment ARE ALSO REALLY NEAT and i cant believe i didnt think of that sooner hehe i think it might be hell - YUP!!! mostly rick song but also has some lines that work for morty them changes - ALSO WORKS FOR BOTH OF THEM!! but personally i think of it more as a rick song snake eyes - I'LL ADMIT THAT THIS is half here for the vibe, BUT ALSO yeah definitely morty at a breaking point toy plane - YESSS EXACTLY!!!! i've been plugging this as a morty song basically since i found it. Very much about the dynamic between him and rick. TO BE HONEST i've never even thought about the "though this house is unchanged" LINES BUT YOU'RE SO RIGHT. RICK POTION #9. found god in a tomato - YUPPP very much their vibe. also makes me think very much about rick and just The way he is. his whole "i'm better than everyone" shtick just - YESSS EXACTLY THIS IS LITERALLY JUST rick being an asshole 180db_[130] - YUP just here for the vibe B) everything hurts - YEAH YEAH YEAH just completely rick's angsty sad miserable life no need for a leader - actually this for me is very much an evil morty song. specifically s3e7's whole plot starstruck - YUP MORTY SONG!!! for all his hurt feelings and protests, morty still obviously looks up to rick A Lot, so while he may be mad about something, he'll still go along with whatever rick wants fifteen minutes - THEM BOTH YEAH. here for the vibe cadence - this one is just kind of Rick and Morty to me. i dont even know how to explain it, just has their vibe. BUT I LIKE your interpretation a lot!! about how morty is aware of rick's self loathing and trying to kind of help him in his own way i'm your dog - YEAH. this is the most morty song ever to me. he really wants to act like he doesnt need rick, but he's also disgustingly codependent so the moment rick needs him, he comes running back. in the yard - YES!!! huge morty song. kind of has rick potion #9 vibes again, BUT I REALLY like the idea that there's some pressure to never mess up around rick, and feeling like his family prefers each other over him who is she ? - YEAH kind of here for the vibes, but also a bit for rick and diane! i don't know, i just feel like after searching for her killer for a couple of decades she might morph into less of a person and more of just an idea running on a treadmill - HEHE YESSSS morty doing everything for ricks approval to the point he sacrifices his own comfrot barbarism begins at home - YES about rick and morty's weird abusive relationship. morty not being "good enough", rick being a terrible role model/adult presence and not knowing how to be Nice call this # now - JUST FOR THE VIBES!!!! money - THIS ONE to me is about rick wanting to be better for morty, but having a really hard time stepping out of his nihilistic-asshole comfort zone. he knows he sucks, he acknowledges it, and he really wants to be better kiss me, son of god - very much a rick song hehe. specifically im imagining him in the era where he's contributing to the citadel's creation, but there's a line here that also make me think a bit about his relationship with prime (i destroyed the bond of friendship and respect between the only people left who'd even look me in the eye) birdhouse in your soul - just Rick and Morty and their relationship dungen - another Just for The Vibe song, BUT YEAH works well as a "throwback to the "good" ol' days" interpretation too drunk to come - YEPPPP RICK SONG ALL THE WAY BABY nugget killer - i'll be honest i also have no idea what this song says or means But it just Feels like rick and morty to me. i can feel it in my bones glue - YUHHHH MORTY ABOUT RICK YEOP YEP YEP YEOP oulala - YEP rick and his whole attachment and substance abuse issues two weeks - YEAH. their whole relationship

Febuwhump Day 19: "Please don't"

CW: Injury

AO3

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Technically, Legend supposed the last battle hadn't gone too badly. They'd dealt with the monsters, saved a group of travelers they'd been attacking, everything. But the last monster had speared Hyrule through with a claymore, pinning him to a tree, and to Legend that outweighed any success a hundred times over.

They'd released Hyrule and the combination of his own healing magic and their last potion had saved his life, but he was still desperately weak and now lay bandaged and horribly still in the camp they'd quickly set up. Four and Time had accompanied the travelers to the nearest town with the goal of bringing back more supplies. Sky and Legend had been left with Hyrule.

Legend knew he should be doing equipment maintenance, keeping watch, patrolling, something, but he couldn't tear himself away from Hyrule's side, running over the battle in his mind, wondering despite his best efforts if there was any way he could have prevented this.

He didn't look up as Sky came to sit next to him. "If you're going to tell me it's going to be OK, please don't," he growled. "And if you're going to tell me I shouldn't have cussed out Four, you can keep that to yourself as well."

"Neither, actually," said Sky. "I just came to keep you company."

"Well, don't. I don't need company, I need to be left alone."

"Really?"

"If you can't fix this" - Legend gestured at Hyrule's limp body, his bloodless face - "Then I don't want to hear it."

Sky didn't move.

"Did you hear me?"

"Yes."

"Then get lost!"

"No." Sky settled down a little. "I don't have to say anything, but I'm not leaving."

Legend hunched a shoulder to do his best to turn his back. "Fine. Do what you want."

The silence stretched. Legend had been hoping that Sky would get uncomfortable and leave when it became clear that he really wasn't welcome, but he didn't; he just stayed put on the log next to Legend.

Eventually, Legend couldn't stand it anymore. "Look, you can't do anything for him, so just go."

"I know. I'm… not actually here for Hyrule; you're already doing everything I could do for him. I'm here for you."

"I can't help you with anything right now; I'm busy."

Sky sighed and Legend thought he caught a note of frustration. Good. "Legend, I don't want anything from you. All I want is for you not to be alone."

Legend shrugged, shoving away the warm feeling in his chest at the words. "I'm used to it. I prefer it, actually."

"Really?"

No.

"Yeah." Legend hugged himself. It was bad enough that Hyrule had set up home in his heart after such a short time without opening space up to Time, Sky, and Four too. This wasn't going to last. Out of all the adventures he'd ever had, this was the only one he'd gone into knowing any friendships he found wouldn't last. As soon as it was over, they were all going back to their own eras. He knew that. Why set himself up for heartbreak he knew was coming?

"I don't care where you go, Sky, but I don't need you here."

Sky didn't move; he just pulled out a whittling knife and a small piece of wood and began carving.

"Didn't you hear me?"

"I did: you said you don't care where I go."

"That's not what I meant and you know it." Legend was about to say more, but then he thought he heard Hyrule stir and bent over him, his heart in his mouth. But the kid's expression just twitched a little as if he was dreaming and then his face went slack again. Legend sat back with a sigh and then registered that Sky's whittling had stopped. The knight was also watching Hyrule, eyes bright with concern. Legend turned away from him.

"Look, I… I'll tell him you were here when he wakes up. I'm sure he'll appreciate that you wanted to check. But for now… go away."

"Is it really so hard to believe that I care about you too?"

"Please don't try to get inside my head."

Sky sighed softly, but stayed where he was. Legend looked back at Hyrule, trying to pretend it wasn't comforting to have someone at his side.

Damn it, Sky, please don't get inside my heart.

a-dough-rable / sim jake

pairing: best friend!sim jake x gender neutral reader

friends to potential lovers!au

warnings: cursing, being called or referred to as an idiot, down bad pick-up lines (if this is a warning at all) (lmk if there's something i must include)

genre: fluff

word count: 1.7k

summary: So when you put two oblivious idiots together as partners in crime for their whole lives, would one even realize how badly one wants another even though it’s literally right in front of their eyes?

note: lower case intended. not what i was initially writing for jake but here u go. this is utterly cliche, just needed to write something to make me smile, i hope i make u smile too :>>> may have grammatical errors!!

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you and jake were the best of friends, attached to the hip, been there since diapers era type of thing. the two of you have bonded over mac and cheese and argued the most terrifying battle of whichever comes first, the cereal or the milk. crushes, relationships, friends and all that teenage angst stuff have been shared by the two of you, and if ever one’s shoulder is too heavy, there will never be a hesitation to carry it alongside one another.

you were currently sitting at the passenger seat of jake’s car, terribly crying your eyes out…crying your eyes out of laughter. even jake, sitting beside you, was trying his best to not get lost with his own laughter as he was driving the both of you and not really wanting to cause an accident. 

“you have given injustice to donuts, like doughs in general!” jake exclaims in between a fit of laughter as he cannot believe what you have just said.

“what? it’s a good one huh” teasingly raising your eyebrows at him even though you knew he wouldn’t be able to look your way. you have just made a terrible pick-up line and he started saying that you have caused injustice to doughs.

“no, it’s fucking terrible” the curse giggle it’s way out of his mouth had you’re eyes rolling.

“jake look, if someone you like asks if they look okay, what do you say to catch their attention? ‘a-dough-rable’ and it’s cute!!”

“if i do that, i’d remain single forever”  him being dramatic as ever clutched his shirt as a symbol that being in that state would wound his heart. “how dare you i read that somewhere, you’re the one giving injustice to the writer” matching his dramatic energy with a pointing finger.

“and where could you have read such a thing” still unimpressed with the terrible pick-up line and unable to believe that someone credible would actually write that.

“in a blogpost” you were very much impressed with how you answered so proudly, too proudly that jake just laughed off your response, causing you to do the same as well.

jake dropped you off at your home after you came from the boutique, fitting and picking up your attire for tomorrow’s ball. It was a tradition for your school to hold a ball for all the seniors before they all graduate high school. you have to admit it was very cliche, and it’s literally just prom night, your professors just wanted something formal. you knew it wasn’t going to be fun, you weren’t that very good with crowds, well, at least jake would be with you tomorrow, and all will be alright. 

you felt a sudden heat crept your face the moment jake crossed your mind. yes, you have an undeniable unexplainable crush on your best friend, sim jake. everyone says he likes you, but you never believe them. sure he likes you, but never in a romantic way, probably like a little sister which is why the two of you act like dorks in each other's company.

“you’re a mess and down bad (name), get a grip and confess to jake already” your mom started walking towards you with a smile yet frustrated look on your face.

“that would ruin everything mom, so no” you were stubborn, everybody knew that, you are never ever going to confess to jake and ruin the years of friendship you two have built since you were babies.

“oh honey, why would that happen when he likes you as w-” obviously your mom would convince you but you only replied a “yada yada yada” after hugging her and going straight to your room. you just wanted tomorrow to come and be over.

your mom was right though, like everyone else. jake likes you a lot.

words of advice given to him by his friends and family, to simply confess to you but such words would come in on one ear and out through the other, with the same reason as yours, that would ruin everything and that how you like him is never going to be that way.

the people close to the both of you have called you the “blinded idiots''. two birds blinded by love that they couldn’t actually see that they’re simply head over heels with each other. acquaintances, batchmates, schoolmates and even most of the professors would simply shake their heads at the thought of you denying one’s feelings for another and all they could do is watch, that maybe a star would fall from the heavens above and knock some sense to the both of you.

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It was the night of the ball, and here you were fixing up your hair, your shirt, and your make up if everything looked okay, but you weren’t really convinced even if your mom had complimented you a thousand times the moment you started to get ready. 

“you look wonderful, honey” your mom, for the hundredth time that night, told you as you met each other's eyes in the mirror in front of you. although it was getting embarrassing that your mom had to go on repeatedly about you looking amazing, you were thankful. she’s the most supportive ever.  a shout from your dad who was waiting downstairs, caused your eyes to go wide and you ended up in a frantic state. 

things could’ve been the other way around, you picking him up. but sadly, you didn’t have a licence yet and he has told you several times that he doesn’t want to go with an injured leg to the ball, dramatic. or best way you suggested was for him to not pick you up and just meet at school, but as per usual he has a reason why that is not a choice because “it’s a ball (name), arriving in a car makes you look cool”.

a smile was given to you by your mom as she exited your room, probably to meet Jake downstairs. with a final breath, you closed your eyes and stood right in front of the door thinking to yourself, ‘don’t be embarrassed, it’s just jake.’

the moment you went down the stairs, you came in contact with jake’s eyes. It was mesmerising you at one point, but you have to act cool, you really didn’t want jake to see that you were embarrassed and nervous.

“that seamstress or seamster sure did a great job with that” jake smiled as he looked over at you from head to toe, giving a nod of approval as he slowly met your eyes. a small thank you escaped your mouth, although you weren’t sure if he was able to hear it.

after a series of photographs from your parents, they finally stopped and let the two of you go, ushering excited ‘have fun’s’ as the two of you walked out the front door. nearing his car, you looked back at your parents to see that they went inside, you gave out a big sigh.

“sorry, mom is too excited as you can see” a small smile was exchanged between the two of you until he finally spoke and said, “nah that’s okay, your parents are amazing”.

“sooo, how do i look, is it okay?” you asked him, trying your best to not sound nervous or look nervous, but you biting your bottom lip kind of gave that away.

with a small chuckle, he said “you look, a-dough-rable”

hearing the compliment that came out of his mouth, you started laughing, “i thought you would never use that on someone, and that it’s actually terri-” 

you stopped. and for two reasons. 

one, jake was looking at you differently, not in a weird way, but in a loving and caring manner which obviously struck you to stop blabbering and laughing. two, you remember the conversation you had with him yesterday, when you told him about that, especially the words, “if someone you like asks if they look okay, what do you say to catch their attention? ‘a-dough-rable’

“what?” that four letter word with a punctuation mark was the only thing that came out of your mouth.

“i said you look a-dough-rable” he held you in both of your shoulders and aligned his eyes into yours. “a-dough-rable” , he repeated again and again and again, until the two of you burst out laughing. 

“what the heck, jake” still laughing hard, but you couldn’t wipe off the big smile on your face as you came down to realise what was happening.

“mind you, it was your advice and see this is why i’d remain single forever” he started sulking and dramatically pointed his finger at you and pouted. 

“well, you look a-dough-rable too, jake" the two of you bashfully looked at each other for a good three minutes, until of course the two of you started laughing at you own behaviour again, not believing that after all these years you have the guts to be shy.

jake placing a kiss on your forehead, caused peace and love to engulf you like a soft cuddly blanket. He also placed a quick peck on your lips before putting one hand in his pockets and the other brushing up his hair, “I would really like to give you the most unforgettable kiss of you lifetime that would sweep you off your feet but your parents are watching right now” looking away, you rather found him cute.

“well too bad, i could give you one right now”

you grabbed him by the collar and put his lips onto yours, chocolate sprinkles and stardust erupting around you like it has been waiting for this moment for a very long time. his lips were soft and eager to kiss you, and to be honest, so were you. you feel him smiling through the kiss and as much as you didn’t want to pull away, your lungs needed air.

“damn, that was the most spectacular kiss i’ve ever had” 

his eyes shone like they were stars, so bright and that made you happy. but of course, you two were best friends, you were dorks, each other's idiot matching piece, you definitely had to say something.

“that was your first kiss jake”

“shut up”

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a/n: it's been a while since i last posted here so i really hope you likeit :>> i had fun writing this, i hope you did too (with reading this ofc). If you could comment or reblog i would really appreciate it, thank you so much for reading!!

If you have other thoughts about other mdzs's charac (or again jgy!) in other role, I would love to read them!

Thank you for your patience, anon! I meant to answer this yesterday along with the one about JGY and Edmund. Each of these involves characters from the Henriad--Richard II, the two Henry IV plays, and Henry V.

-Hotspur, my beloved and cherished son who appears briefly in Richard II and is the antagonist (in the "opposes the protagonist" sense, not the "is a villain" sense) of 1 Henry IV, is the midpoint between Jiang Cheng and Nie Mingjue. Hotspur is essentially a child soldier; his descriptors suggest that he's a young teen when he joins his father in deposing Richard II in favor of Richard's cousin Henry IV. When we see him as a young adult in 1 Henry IV, he's fully immersed in warfare as a way of life, and while he's won great renown, he's... not really doing so great. Some of his lines are alarmingly visceral (ex: "they come like sacrifices in their trim/ and to the fire-eyed maid of smoky war/ all hot and bleeding we will offer them."), and his wife's concerned speech describing his behavior in II.3 reads like a checklist of PTSD symptoms. Hotspur also wholeheartedly believes in his personal code of honor and is clinically incapable of guile in a way that comes off to me as almost childlike. If a cause is just, then it will prevail no matter the odds (spoiler: it does not)! He loves his family and trusts that they have his and the kingdom's best interests in mind (spoiler: they do not)! Basically every line Hotspur speaks in Acts IV and V of the play could be given to Mingjue and you'd only need to replace all the proper nouns.

(Hotspur is also canonically SUCH a horse girl and so is Mingjue in my heart.)

Meanwhile, on the Jiang Cheng side of things, Hotspur also wants SO badly to do a good job. He is so so SO determined to fulfill his roles as a knight and as a son to their fullest extent, and has nothing but contempt for Hal because Hal, despite being heir to the throne, does jack shit and spends all his time drinking and pickpocketing for funsies. For all his impetuousness and general lack of an inside voice (which is NOT a Jiang Cheng problem), he shows flashes of being a strong leader--particularly in his speech outlining his grievances against Henry IV in IV.3. Personality-wise, Hotspur is filled with BIG FEELINGS and most of them manifest as cantankerousness. He is prickly and argumentative by default, which makes him lowkey one of the funniest characters in the play (see: his soliloquy arguing with a letter at the top of II.3, his entire exchange with Owen Glendower in III.1), and also make his moments of genuine vulnerability hit hard (ex: "come, wilt thou see me ride?" in II.3 and his death speech in V.4).

-On the flip side, Huaisang reminds me of Prince Hal. Remember how I said Hal doesn't do jack shit? Hal's flop era is deliberate. He knows he can't run from his responsibilities forever, so he's slacking off to lower people's expectations for him. The first soliloquy we get from him in I.2 is an EXTREME Huaisang mood and I'll try to trim it to the most relevant bits:

I know you all, and will awhile uphold The unyoked humour of your idleness: Yet herein will I imitate the sun, Who doth permit the base contagious clouds To smother up his beauty from the world, That, when he please again to be himself, Being wanted, he may be more wonder'd at... I'll so offend, to make offence a skill; Redeeming time when men think least I will.

His flop era does NOT endear him to his father, who wishes he were an accomplished warrior like Hotspur, and their relationship is rocky. When Hal becomes king upon Henry IV's death, Hal decides to jettison his past friendships, quash the joyful aspects of his identity, and go do war crimes in France. I describe Hal's actions in the play Henry V as "Hal doing his best Hotspur impression," except that whereas Hotspur honest-to-god believed he was fighting for justice, Hal is more calculating. Sure, he gives us the "once more unto the breach, dear friends" and "we few, we happy few, we band of brothers" speeches, but he also cheerfully threatens mass slaughter in response to an insult in I.2 (and ratchets up the threats in gruesome detail III.3).

-Huaisang is also Hamlet, of course, but I don't personally subscribe to the "Huaisang was always sooooo scared of JGY" interpretation of the timeskip. Fear makes you act with urgency, as Hamlet very much does post-Mousetrap and post-return to Denmark. Readers give Hamlet a lot of shit for dithering on killing Claudius, but he does get the job done in just a couple months (much of which he spends offstage with pirates) because all he wants is Claudius to be dead. Huaisang takes his sweet time because he wants JGY utterly destroyed, which is more a Hal vibe.

-Lan Xichen is NOT Richard II at all. I'm not even going to explain why he's not because he's not. However, Richard's big soliloquy when he's imprisoned alone in the penultimate scene of the play is VERY MUCH Lan Xichen in conclusion. It's long--66 lines!--but I will excerpt the relevant portion.

Music do I hear? Ha, ha! keep time: how sour sweet music is, When time is broke and no proportion kept! So is it in the music of men's lives. And here have I the daintiness of ear To cheque time broke in a disorder'd string; But for the concord of my state and time Had not an ear to hear my true time broke. I wasted time, and now doth time waste me; For now hath time made me his numbering clock: My thoughts are minutes; and with sighs they jar Their watches on unto mine eyes, the outward watch, Whereto my finger, like a dial's point, Is pointing still, in cleansing them from tears.... This music mads me; let it sound no more! For though it have holp madmen to their wits, In me it seems it will make wise men mad. Yet blessing on his heart that gives it me! For 'tis a sign of love; and love to Richard Is a strange brooch in this all-hating world.

I JUST!!!!

001 for both mckirk and spones please!

This is gonna be long :D I'm gonna have to use read more

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: mckirk

when I started shipping it if I did: so when the lockdown in 2020 started, I had nothing to do and just watched stuff. I have this favourite dubber and I was looking at the list of stuff he dubbed, and saw Star Trek AOS on that list. This guy is the voice of 2000s Alan Rickman, Tom Hanks, Tony Stark, he also apparently dubbed Garak in that one Star Trek series, and so seeing the reboot films on the list and his name next to McCoy, I was like, gotta check how he sounds. The fact that Kirk was also dubbed by a guy I generally like was a plus. (funnily enough Captain America/Iron Man and Kirk/McCoy are dubbed by the same guys here, which is funny to me). So I checked youtube and the scene I saw was the scene in Beyond where Kirk and McCoy are alone and are having a drink. And that scene did something to my brain, and I was like this is the dynamic I want, I wanna read fics, so before that I had to watch the films. So I watched AOS, basically through McCoy (Kirk/McCoy) lenses and started to read fics. Three weeks later, I decided to watch TOS because a lot of the fics referenced Kirk's backstory, so I wanted to know about it. The three weeks reading fics and looking through livejournal, kind of made me think that McCoy wasn't really an important character in TOS and that AOS made up the mckirk relationship (such a lie), so when I started watching TOS, I only planned to watch episodes heavy on McCoy. Which like... were most of them at the beginning lol I kinda decided not to trust the fandom after like three episodes or something. I binged the three seasons of TOS in like three weeks. I've had a hard time seeing tos!Kirk with men for a long time (I've had a complicated "relationship" with tos!Kirk for so long), so my interest in tos!mckirk was primarily as a platonic relationship [but it was always my fave relationship, I liked it even more than spones, actually] (but romantic in aos), but I started to insert Kirk into my spones fics, wrote a part from his POV, and then one day I just woke up and decided to write a tos!mckirk fic (it was actually because I started to read aos fics again, getting back into aos!mckirk, but... the tos version has been calling me) and just embraced the romantic (and sexual lol) aspect of their relationship.

my thoughts: I love their friendship so much. It's very important to me. I like that McCoy knows what to say to pull Kirk back on the right path, I like that Kirk can be vulnerable around McCoy. In AOS I like that McCoy is the only one Kirk shares stuff with about his mother and his insecurities (in Beyond it looked like he never even allowed the other crew to acknowledge his birthday... until McCoy finally decided to give him a party, after 5 years on the Enterprise...)

What makes me happy about them: we see both of them the most at ease around each other. They can forget who they are around each other, for a moment, at least. McCoy gives Kirk some of his most brightest smiles; McCoy can make Kirk genuinely laugh. Kirk needs him. badly.

What makes me sad about them: I eat angst for breakfast, so uhm...

things done in fanfic that annoys me: the lack of their friendship even in gen fics T_T (we all know what annoys me in aos fic, we don't need a rehash)

things I look for in fanfic: having more fics would be fun lol You know, just a genuine intimacy they show in the the show. Jim's sense of duty being the cause of angst.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:  McCoy with Spock (I do like the idea of mckirk to spones after the movie era, more or less). tos movie era Kirk? Actually, no one.

My happily ever after for them: buying a cabin in the mountains and getting two dogs (one big and one small) post TUC (then we can stop time lol or not...)

who is the big spoon/little spoon: idk haven't thought about their sleeping position. It would probably change based on what kind of story I'd wanna tell

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: .... you know, they're happy when they find the time to have sex...

spones under the cut

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: spones

when I started shipping it if I did: so above I said that I started to watch TOS because of mckirk, right? Mainly because of The Conscience of the King and Tarsus IV, right? Well... I finished that episode shipping spones LMAO It really was quite quick for me.

my thoughts: the most engaging dynamic in TOS imho

What makes me happy about them: The loyalty, the trust. They were in each other's lives for 100 years. 100 years. That they're more similar than different. That they actually understand each other, but would never admit it. "I don't think I could stand to lose you again." < what is that? so real to have McCoy say that

What makes me sad about them: that they would leave the other one behind and die if it meant to save Kirk (this isn't meant negatively, I'm not really explicit about it or talk about it, but my spones know that Kirk's life is a priority, sometimes even just to show that no, we're not emotionally compromised, we know what our duty is kinda way. I just think it'd be great to explore that in a fic)

things done in fanfic that annoys me: uhm (I'm speaking in general, it is just my opinion based on my taste; I believe that everyone should write what makes them happy, we can't ever please every single person) McCoy using hobgoblin, elf, jackrabbit (the last two are terms that Kirk used to make Spock angry) as a form of affection/endearment, or at all tbh. McCoy being insecure because of Kirk. (give me Spock being insecure because of McCoy-Kirk friendship) Some people feeling guilty about writing spones and therefore still making kirk-spock have the specialest bond *rolls eyes* I just don't get the need to quantify relationships, I guess. Any kind of pet names.

things I look for in fanfic: balanced relationship, mature arguments that don't rely on pettiness, trying to combine the different world views, not needing to express love in a traditional way, but a way that works for the two of them and their two differing cultures.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: McCoy with Kirk, obviously. Spock with Chapel or T'Pring (even during the movie era, yes).

My happily ever after for them: 100 years. What more do you want? LOL My personal hc is that when McCoy dies, and Spock goes to Romulus, McCoy's spirit is always there because a part of his soul stayed inside Spock's katra. So Spock is just haunted by McCoy's spirit until he dies on New Vulcan, and then they're put into the katra stone. Together forever.

who is the big spoon/little spoon: I imagine them more as Spock sleeping on his back and McCoy's head on his arm/chest.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: banter (they especially enjoy if it makes Kirk exasperated)

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Interview With a Writer

Here is part 4 of my Interview With a Writer series. You can go to this post to review the other amazing authors I have spoken with ♥ Just a BTS of some of the talented minds on Tumblr and ao3.

Name:  f4ll-for-you

Story: The Intern

Paring: modern Aegon Targaryen x Reader

Rating/Warning: Sexual themes and substance abuse.

So, when did you start writing? If I’m honest, I’ve always loved writing, even when I was young I’d always write ‘fanfiction’ for stories I’d read myself, but I began writing for ‘readers’ when I was about fourteen. That was back in the boy band era, 5 seconds of summer days and none of it was good, and it’s all very much deleted now, luckily!

Everything I’d written since had been for myself, until house of the dragon came out. I mainly began writing because no one seemed to be creating any Aegon fics, and I desperately wanted one. 

I began writing on Wattpad, which is where my main (very badly written un-edited, first proper fic lives) and when I got back into tumblr, 6 years later, I found a wonderful community on there and began my modern Aegon fics.

Where did the plot for The Intern come from? Awkwardly, I’m not sure. I knew I wanted to write a modern Aegon fic. I’d seen a few ideas floating around where the family had a large successful company, that Aegon is meant to ‘inherit/work for’ so I guess I gained inspiration from that.

I wanted the reader to be someone in her own right, not just ‘Aegon's love interest’ so I tried to build up her character just as much as his. I also wanted to show how damaged Aegon was, and hint that there were reasons why she understood him. Maybe I’ll explain her backstory at some point, because I have it in my head.

Explain your interpretation of Aegon. What drives him? Why is he the way he is in The Intern? He’s damaged, that’s the main theme. He’s done something (we don’t know what, but I do hehe) that means his grandfather has forced him to work for the company and, obviously, he hates it. 

He uses his position to get girls, and continue to live his life as it was, if he can’t party at home, he will party there. It’s not until the reader comes along that he finally sees a girl for more than just sex. He likes the way she takes little interest in him, how she needs glasses to read, how she never stays at ‘after work drinks’ for more than an hour. 

I think he appreciates how she’s never looked at him as less than a person, which is what he’s used to from his family and the girls only want him for a reciprocated ‘quickie’. Whereas she actually sees him as her boss, not that he’s ever acted like one. 

My version of Aegon (this is gonna sound pretentious as fuck) has been defined by his faults for so long that he’s become them. The Aegon we meet at the beginning is a shell of the person he becomes once he befriends her.

Was there anything in specific that inspired your Reader portrayal? As I said earlier, I was determined to make her a main character, not a side character that Aegon desires (not that there’s anything wrong with that, I love those fics just as much). 

I’ve massively fallen for the ‘enemies to lovers’ style, which the intern very lightly touches on, shown in their boy/girl teasing and joking friendship they have at the beginning. I liked the idea of her being a girlboss, hard working, clever but mainly incredibly kind. I wanted to show her as a little bit damaged, through her understanding of Aegon and how gentle she is with him. She rarely pushes him into getting help when he clearly isn’t ready to. She loses her temper, yes, but I think there’s only one time where she fully asks him to get help throughout the story, even though she clearly wants him to.

Do you feel your Reader compliments Aegon well? I’d hope so, I wanted to to make them fit together, but also have their own ‘things’ they needed to do before they could fully be each others. I guess you could see it a bit like Chuck and Blair in Gossip Girl, but they weren’t an intentional inspiration, now I think of it.

They both had a lot on their plates, the reader stuck working her ass off and Aegon stuck between various girls legs…that sort of thing.

In my head, I think they compliment each other by being what the other needs. Aegon needs someone grounded, kind and gentle, but she’s also not a pushover. She’s not going to let him walk all over her. Whereas the reader needs Aegon to realise her life isn’t based around her career, that she can enjoy herself and fall in love and be a little bit reckless.

Is there any reflection of you, the author, in this story? Pretty much always the female character is a part of me, it’s kind of a way of you living the life you want to live, so why wouldn’t it be I guess? Also, I find comfort in writing about addiction/other themes because it’s kind of a way of dealing with my own experiences.

Do you think you will do a sequel or expand on this AU? I have one chapter left, the epilogue, where I will hopefully make everyone forgive me for the sad ending to part four! I’m now expanding on the Backstage one-shot, and rockstar Aegon.

While I'm here, I may as well share my issues with how Bliss was handled.

She works fine in Eight's Time War Volume One as the one-off companion she was originally intended to be. I'm glad they kept her on, but after that she really needed a strong character focus or story arc, and she didn't get it.

Volume Two and Volume Three each dedicate one episode to her backstory, but neither does it well. Volume Two's episode (The Lords of Terror) edits her into a story about the loss of a planet by making it her homeworld, but edits her in so badly that she doesn't seem to care about the fact that it's her homeworld getting destroyed in half the scenes, and we don't really learn anything new about her. The episodes immediately afterward had her acting totally fine and not addressing the loss of her planet at all.

Volume Three's Bliss episode (State of Bliss) attempts to address her multiple timelines, but does so in a way that's confusing, badly explained, and again doesn't end up saying or provoking much about her as a character. Both of Bliss' backstory episodes end by proposing things to do with her character moving forward (grieving her home planet in the first, and helping others affected by the Time War as a form of coping in the second) but no other episodes really pick up those threads in an explicit or meaningful way.

Despite not dedicating an episode to her, I think Volume Four gives some of the most interesting characterisation and story arc fodder for Bliss. Namely, she butts heads with the Doctor a lot more thanks to their slight philosophical differences: they both want to help people affected by the Time War, but Bliss is more willing than the Doctor to go near battlegrounds, to use violence in her own and others' defence, and to work with the Time Lords. What could be a better arc for a companion of Time War-era Eight than her friendship with him gradually fracturing as she gets irritated by his desire to not interfere with the War, even when he could help others. The fact that these ideas are only really hinted at makes me wonder if any of it was intentional narrative hooks and development, but the hints were spread throughout the set, so who knows.

Then Rakhee Thakrar got too busy to keep playing Bliss, and good for her. Big Finish should've given her meatier stuff while they had her. I had honestly hoped that they'd write her off in Volume Five by saying she had left the Doctor on bad terms to work with other Time Lords. But instead she was simply erased from the timeline, which honestly feels very disrespectful if they never bring her back.