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thedevilsoftruth · 9 months

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Mirror On the Ceiling ~ Loki x fem!reader

Warning: heavy sexual content. Breeding kink, dom Loki, foreplay and oral ( at start ), reader being forced to look at their reflection while being bred. Side fucking at the end. Minors dni!!

Summary: Loki is your husband and comes back home early after an excruciating night out with Thor and his friends.

Notes: So I have never posted a smutshot in my life lol. ( Ps my writing is reallllyyy easy to read ) I have like 12 other Loki smutshots I have written and I just haven't really finished any or posted them. Anyways, although this one isn’t my best I just wanted to post this one bc I really liked the concept of it and I just couldn’t keep in my cluttered drafts anymore. ENJOY!!!

2,993 words

Read Time: 15 minutes

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After a long steamy shower, you step out of the bathtub and grab your towel to dry yourself off. The fan was on and the door was creaked open so that the warm air could escape the room without fogging up the mirror. You looked at yourself in the mirror as you dried your wet body off with the towel, watching as the dripping water ran down your body only to be quickly wiped away. You hummed a random tune as you continued drying, enjoying the feeling of the cold air hitting your skin and cooling you down. Your husband, Loki, was off doing something with his older brother Thor and the guys. You found that pretty weird since Loki claimed he didn't like most the activities Thor would do, and especially didn't like being around his friends. But you hoped they were having fun.

You took your towel off of your body, exposing your naked form as you wrapped the towel in your soaking hair to dry that off as well. As you were drying your hair off, you picked up your phone to check the time. The time read, 10;34 pm but Loki wasn't supposed to be home until somewhere around midnight. how were you going to spend the rest of your night without your dear husband? Sighing, you put your phone back down and dropped your towel to the floor. You stood for a few moments and ran your fingers through your hair, deciding that you were going to spend the next few hours watching tv in your robe and in your bedroom. You picked up your towel and wrapped it around yourself once more before leaving your bathroom and heading for your bedroom closet.

Without looking, you tossed your towel into the bamboo laundry basket you kept next to your closet as you fixed your eyes on looking for your favorite robe. The silky emerald robe was nowhere to be seen, however. You furrowed your brows and begun to flip through the mound of hangers and clothes before you felt the air around you change as if someone were in the room behind you. Before you would turn to look, you felt cold hands wrap around your waist and a pair of warm lips on your sensitive neck, all making you jump and yelp. You turned around to see your beloved husband holding you flush against his body with a slightly unbuttoned black t-shirt on. He pulled away slightly and you could see the glint of mischief in his green eyes.

" I didn't even hear you coming through the door- " Your stammered words were cut off with your husbands lips meeting with yours in a passionate kiss. His hands moved to your arms and slowly ran up and down your sensitive clean skin. Your eyes fluttered shut as you melted into his touch, sighing into the kiss. He pulled away from the kiss shortly after and rocked your body with his sideways.

" You're home early. " you said simply, touching his strong arms around your naked body. He hummed, his face buried into the crook of your neck.

" I missed you. Stark was being a big pain in my ass. " Loki stated nonchalantly, pressing small kisses to your bare shoulder as you sunk in his arms in contentment. You gazed at your husband behind your shoulder to get a glimpse of his expression.

" what did you guys do? " you asked as you gave him a kiss you his pale cheek. He shrugged his shoulders.

" Thor made us go to this fancy bar to hang out since we all haven't talked in forever. " he said, his voice muffled in your neck as he spoke in between kisses. You smiled and nodded in understanding as you rubbed circles onto his upper arm. Loki pulled away from your body and let go of you completely.

" I hope you all had fun. " you spoke as You looked back into the closet and began searching for your robe, to which you finally found.

Loki scoffed at that response, his eyes scanning your nude body as it faced away from him, taking the silk robe off the hanger. He just couldn't take his eyes off your legs that flexed as you moved, seeing you like this was certainly a surprise but he did have a other plans for the both of you tonight. A smirk grew on his face and he took your hand and turned you around to face him directly.

" you won't be needing that, dearest. " he said in a low tone as he took the robe from your hand and threw it back into the closet. His eyes didn't move off yours as you both stared at each other hungrily. His arms wrapped around your waist once more, pulling you in for another passionate kiss. His head tilted to deepen the kiss, his lips sloppily moving against yours with a hunger that mirrored your own. Your hands were pressed against his chest now, his muscles tensing under your touch. You pulled away to catch your breath, looking at him in his lustful gaze. His lips were wet and formed into a wide smile, which you returned.

Loki's hands traveled down to the back of your thighs, lifting you up in his arms. You wrapped your legs around his waist and giggled as he pecked your lips gently.

He walked over to your shared bed and dropped you down carefully on the mattress. He crawled on top of you and his hands pushed down into the mattress taht was covered in black silky sheets. You felt his hips settle against yours as he rested one knee atop your thigh, leaning forward to capture your mouth again. The heat radiating from his body sent shivers running through you. You tangled your fingers in his dark curls, his tongue tangling with yours as the kiss got deeper. He leaned back slightly to place soft kisses to your jaw and then to your neck. Your body was no mystery to him. He had explored you many times before this, so he knew which parts of you that were the most sensitive to you.

Loki parted his lips and abraded his teeth on your soft skin, sucking on it harsh enough to leave a mark. A few moans escaped you every now and then with his lips on your neck, your mind only focused on the pleasure of the moment. He pulled away with a loving gaze, pulling and hair out of your face so he could get a clear look at you.

" My love, you are absolutely stunning like this. " he said, his eyes wondering your nude body like he were trying to memorize every part of you. You curled your fingers around his inky curls and tugged them playfully, causing him to chuckle. His eyes darted back up to your beautiful eyes and he stared at you lovingly.

" would you like to start with a bit of foreplay, my beloved? " he breathed, his voice deep yet tender as it echoed throughout the large room. you nodded pathetically, completely out of words. His fingers went to the collar of his black buttoned down shirt, quickly unbuttoning it to reveal his beautiful torso. You stared an awe at his perfectly sculpted body, his muscular torso that flexed as he moved. His shirt slid off his shoulders and he tossed it off like it were nothing. Never once did his eyes leave yours.

Your fingers slipped out of his hair as he picked you up in his bare arms, setting you carefully in his lap with your back against his chest. He hummed in your ear, his hand moving down to your sopping cunt.

" already this wet for me, my love? " he teased you, his breath fanning across the shell of your ear as he placing kisses along your neck. His middle and ring fingers moved up and down your slick folds, feeling your hot juices dripping down on his fingers as he played with you. You arched your back and whimpered, his lip placing a gentle kiss on your shoulder as his fingers slipped inside your entrance. His thumb grazed against your clit, his other fingers pumping in and out of you for a little while and making wet sounds as they moved as far as they could in you.

" please, " you moaned helplessly, your eyes squeezing shut tight as he took his fingers out of you.

They shifted up to your clit and moved the small bud up and down. His pace was slow, occasionally becoming faster before slowing down and then going fast again.

" ah, Loki…I'm reaady-yy - ha! " you whined through needy moans and a cry of his name. His hand reached behind your neck and flipped your hair over your shoulder, revealing your exposing skin to his hot breath.

" ready for what? " his pace fastened, his voice gravely as he spoke. His fingers continued to move fast and rough, his lips exploring your shoulder and neck, leaving wet trails behind.

all you could do was simply moan and helplessly grab his arm as his fingers worked you into a frenzy. It was pitiful how just one simple touch from him could send you over the edge.

“ please, Loki— fuuck.. “ you panted, hoping your pleas would be enough for him. He growled against your ear, his fingers moving out of you and grabbing your knee to keep your leg spread nicely.

“ good girl. “ he praised, giving you a soft smile while he flipped you over so you were underneath him. His hands rest on your knees while he positioned himself nicely in between you. His head lowered down to your collarbone, giving you gentle kisses down your sternum. You could hear his ragged breathing as his wet lips moved against your sensitive skin. His lips made a series of kisses down your torso until he reached your lower abdomen. His hands shifted to the back of your thighs, spreading them wide enough for his face to go in between. His eyes darted at you through his brows, giving you a seductive stare.

“ now beg for me, bitch. “ Loki whispered huskily, his lips brushing against your sensitive nub of nerves. You moaned, your head thrown back as the pleasure of his kisses and licks caused waves of sensation to crash over your entire being. With the same two fingers from before, he twisted as much as he could fit into your tight entrance, making you moan louder and your hips jolt upward. His lips sucked on your throbbing clit, his throat humming and sending vibrations through your core in a way that made you feel intoxicated with pleasure.

“ L-loki! Please, j-just give it to me! “ you cried, arching your hips with your toes curling as he continued pumping fingers and giving your clit kitten licks. He hummed again, and you swore to yourself he was gonna be the death of you. His lips tore away from your bud and his finger painfully slowly twisted out of you. He moved the tips of his fingers up into a V while they spread your soaked flaps apart.

“ So eager for me to fuck your pathetic cunt, are you? “ Loki spoke with a smirk as he rose back up, magicking his way out of the rest of his clothes.You bit your lip, simply just wanting him to come and destroy you.

“ Don’t worry darling, I’m going to ravish you until you’re filled all the way with my seed. “Loki said, his voice barely above a whisper as he lined himself up with your opening, watching as you looked up at him through wide eyes. You lifted your hips upwards, begging him to push himself inside you. He smirked, his eyes roaming over your body as he leaned over you, planting his lips gently against yours before slamming into you roughly. You let out a loud cry of pain and pleasure, his name coming out of your mouth with heavy panting. The bed creaked a bit with his movements, his hips rocking against yours harsh like he hadn’t felt anything good like this in years.

The sounds of the two of you moaning and groaning filled the night air and bounced off the walls of your shared room. The room felt hot, your body sweating so much already and the heat of his own radiating off and onto you. You dug your fingernails into his back, your legs wrapping around his waist to deepen his thrusts.

Loki intertwined your fingers with his as he leaned down to share another kiss with you, but it was rather sloppy this time. You both exchanged moans into each others mouths and you tilted your head to deepen the kiss. His tongue danced with yours, your mouths moving together like it was the end of the world.

His hands passed from yours to the back of your thighs, lifting your legs over his shoulders.

Lokis pace increased, almost all of his long length being thrusted into your saturated core. Your moans turned into screams and cries of pleasure. The sensation of his shaft pounding into you was like being hit with an intense wave of bliss, it completely left you breathless. His hand momentarily removed from your leg and covered your mouth, muffling your screams of delight. Your eyes rolled into the back of your head, getting the feeling he was moving closer to your sweet spot.

“ Darling, “ You could hear Loki’s guttural voice whispering in your ear. “ Look up. “

Your eyes fluttered open, only to be met with your own reflection through a mirror staring back at you from the ceiling.

“ Watch yourself, y/n. watch yourself as I breed you in your pitiful state. “ He said, releasing his hand from your mouth with strings of your saliva detaching from your lips to his skin.

You felt like your body was on fire. You couldn’t even keep your eyes open, your head cranking back as your body moved back and forth with his merciless thrusts. The man was driving you crazy, the smell of your heated moment filling the air around you and the wet sounds of his shaft hitting the deepest part of you echoing in the room. His hand roughly grabbed your neck, forcing your eyes to open again.

“ Take it, my love. Take every last inch of my cock and every drip of my hot seed. “ He whispered huskily, his eyes never leaving yours. He drove his hips back before making one swift move forward and slamming all of himself into you, hitting your sweet spot in the process and making you scream louder than before. Your fingers gripped onto the sheets beneath you, slowly coming undone all over the sheets and his length ( which was still buried deep into you ) Your body was quivering, your hips and legs jerking as the warm liquid seeped out of you.

“ ride it out, darling. “ he spoke sweetly, removing his hand from your neck and then your legs from his shoulders so you could have control over your own pace. Weakly, you rolled your hips forward against as your orgasm soon came to an end. You felt shocks of pleasure continuing to overtake your body as you attempted to ride out your high. Unfortunately your body felt too weak.

“ nevermind that. “ Loki said with the click of his tongue, pulling out of you and then laying on his side next to you. You whimpered, your eyes opening to see the mirror still on the ceiling. You certainly had made a mess in the sheets.

“ Come here, darling. Allow me to help you. “ he cooed, watching you crawl into his arms like a sad dog. He kissed your temple tenderly and clenched your thigh, widening your legs so he could burry himself into you once again. He needed to finish off, it had been his mission all day long. Even when he was out with his brother, all he could think about was getting between your legs and breeding you so you could bury his child. It was something he had always desired, but today he needed it bad and he certainly go it.

You immediately wrapped your legs around his waist, letting his shaft to get deeper into like he had you before. Then, he started thrusting again. In and out, in and out. A little kiss here and a little kiss there every now and then. In, out. Your whimpers and cries continued, only letting out smalls moans every here and there but you ached and burned.

Loki promised himself he would be gentle with you for this part and continue to be in this same passionate position, but he was so so close. He just couldn’t control himself from rolling you on your back again and ramming into you like a hungry beast. Your chest heaved up and down as moans escaped your breathless throat, groans and small moans escaped his. Your fingers tangled in his inky curls, his length hitting your sweet spot repeatedly again—a lot more faster than you would have thought. You began screaming again and he helplessly moaned as he finally reached his peak. His hot semen shot into your stretched wet cunt, his breathing ragged as he gripped the sheets and his face buried in your neck. He gave your sweaty skin a soft peck before sitting upright and pulling out, though quickly noticing he was spilling out.

“ oops, don’t want any of this to be wasted, eh? “ Loki chuckled, holding his shaft in his palm to direct the white liquid back into your hole. You reached out your hand to touch his shift cheek.

“ I love you, Loki. “ you spoke hoarsely, still trying to catch your breath. He smiled and took your hand in his, giving your nuckles a kiss.

“ I love you too, darling. “

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so I finished this reallly late at night and just decided to wing it, so sorry if it’s bad and there’s typos and some stuff doesn’t make sense. I don’t really feel like going back and fixing it!!!

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strawberrysohn · 1 year

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on the low — choi san.

the prologue

pairing: fboy!choi san x inexperienced good girl reader

genre: smut, fluff, angst, (lowkey) coming of age [nothing really like any of that for this part tho]

warnings for this part: slight fluff, playful banter, slightly cocky san, one (1) kiss, swearing, flirting that goes nowhere, very much plot, rather boring tbh :/

part summary: it's the night before your first day of university and you get a ride home from one of your friends. wary of going into college without any romantic experience, you decide to ask your friend for some help.

word count: 2919 (because it's just the prologue lol)

for the longest time it was just the two of you. you, a girl trying to break free from the "girl next door" cliché you fit almost perfectly, someone who lived with her overprotective father and very critical mother and felt happiest away from home. and wooyoung, a bubbly, talkative boy at your school who became your lab partner for chemistry in sophomore year. you two clicked rather easily, and he got a kick out of the fact that he was your first friend that was a boy. who would have thought that in three years, you'd be friends with him and his seven other friends that were also boys?

you met yeosang and hongjoong next. coincidentally, they were in book club with you but you just never talked to them. then there were yunho, jongho, and mingi, who didn't go to the same school, but instead the next one over. then there was seonghwa, who you instantly got along with, seeing as he lived in a similar situation as you.

finally, you met him. wooyoung's closest friend, choi san, who was the perfect example of people you had been taught to avoid.

much to your family's dismay, you got along really well with san. even though he was nothing but nice to you, they knew that he was bad news. and so did you, but you didn't care. it's not like you were one of the girls lining up to be the next one he sleeps with. you were just the girl friend. that is...friend that's a girl.

so, there the nine of you were sat cautiously on the top of yunho's mom's minivan, staring at the night sky.

"isn't it crazy that in a few minutes, it'll technically be the first day of our freshman year at university?" wooyoung speaks, staring wistfully at the sky above.

"yeah, and we should be sleeping," hongjoong retorts. "do any of you have any idea how much we're going to have to do tomorrow?"

mingi chuckles and rolls his eyes playfully. "whatever, i'm just glad we all ended up at the same place," he says, shooting a small smile to yunho. "and that yunho's mom willingly gave us the van."

"it was not willingly," yunho says. "she only let us use it because san was showing up separately."

san dangles his feet off the side of the van. "do any of your parents like me?" he asks with a small laugh in his tone.

"i don't know," you say to him with a shrug. "my dad might be warming up to you now that he knows you're a car guy."

"i'm not a 'car guy', i have a car," san tosses his empty chip bag down to the ground. "there's a difference."

"twenty seconds to midnight!" seonghwa announces as he puts his phone back in his pocket.

wooyoung gasps excitedly and shakes jongho, who had dozed off, by the shoulder. "is everyone ready?" he looks at the time on his phone impatiently. "first day of the rest of our lives starts in 15...14...13..."

"this is so dumb," san leans in to whisper to you. you hadn't even noticed that he was seated beside you.

"...11...10..."

"he's enjoying himself," you chuckle, whispering back to san. "i say let him have his fun."

"...7..."

san shifts his position so that he's more comfortable, sat next to you with one leg tucked up halfway to his chest. "you know, i can give you a ride, if you want," he says suddenly.

"...4...3..."

you turn your face to look at the boy next to you, not realizing just how close he was. startled for a moment, you blink softly. his dark hair was slightly windswept from the late summer air. you were about to respond when wooyoung's excited voice interrupted your thoughts before you could say them.

"...1!" wooyoung claps enthusiastically. "happy first day of freshman year, everyone!"

a defeaning silence overtakes the nine of you after the time hits midnight. aside from wooyoung's bright smile and big eyes, no one shows any reaction.

san meets your eyes as you look around. a concerned look paints his face and you stifle a laugh. the both of you knew wooyoung and his antics the best, so you weren't surprised.

hongjoong sighs. "are we done now?" he adjusts his glasses and looks at wooyoung expectantly before sliding down the side of the van, dusting off the back of his jeans. "my mom is gonna be upset if she finds out i'm out so late on a school night."

"yeah, can we go?" jongho wipes his tired eyes with the sleeve of his black sweater. "i'm tired, in case you haven't noticed."

a small frown on his face, wooyoung looks around at the various faces around him. "does everyone want to go?" when everyone including you nods, the boy sighs. "alright, fine, whatever. thank you all for agreeing to do this, though."

the rest of your friends slide down onto the ground from the top of the van, yunho warning everyone to be careful because he 'still has to drive it back to his house before going back to campus'.

you meet up with wooyoung once you find ground. "hang in there, woo, okay?" you pat his shoulder softly. "i'll see you tomorrow. have a good night." you smile at him, but he looks at you in slight confusion.

he watches as you start to walk in the opposite direction. "aren't you coming with us in the van?"

"nope," you shake your head. "san offered to drive me."

your friend's eyes light up and he grins at you. "really?" he lifts a hand for a high five, which you return, although you're not sure why it was initiated. "have fun, y/n!"

"calm down," you furrow your brows. "it's just a car ride."

"with the choi san?" wooyoung shakes his head and chuckles, only deepening your confusion. "nuh-uh, honey. a car ride with san is never just a car ride. he's probably gonna try to make a move on you."

you blink slowly. "nice try, woo," you shake your head, tired of his games. you were used to him making things up like this. "i'm just gonna go, okay? have a nice night."

wooyoung smirks as you walk away. "you too."

san, who was leaning against the front of his car, looks up as you approach. "hey, you accepted my offer!" he smiles slightly and stands up straight to welcome you. "isn't this your first time being in my car?"

"yeah, it is," you tell san as you both walk around to your sides of the car. you slide in the passenger seat, taking in the interior of san's car. it was very him, if that made sense. "it smells nice in here."

"strawberry," san points to an air freshener hanging from the mirror. "bought it two days ago so it's still fresh."

you breathe in the scent and smile as san starts up the car. you wondered deep down if there was any truth to wooyoung's statement. you knew about san's reputation as a hit it & quit it kinda guy, but would he really make a move on you?

"there are snacks in the glovebox, by the way," san interrupts your thoughts. "hand sanitizer in the box underneath your seat. kleenex is there also." he informs you and you internally applaud how organized he is.

"thanks!" you lean forward and open the glove box in front of you, your eyes lighting up at the selection of snacks you saw. chips, pretzels, various candies and cookies.

"so, are you excited for tomorrow?" you ask san as you grab a bag of pretzels and close the glove box. "well, later today, i should say."

san chuckles and hums in response. "i guess so," he shrugs. "i mean...hot college babes, am i right?" he smirks at you and you shake your head at him in mock disappointment.

"san, i swear," you giggle at him. "i know you're not kidding, but there's gotta be more things you're excited for?"

as san starts to pull out of the spot he had parked in. "well, i guess i'm glad about the fact that i'm finally moved out," he adds. "you know what my parents are like."

you nod in understand. "yeah, of course," you dig into your bag of pretzels, feeling the familiar sweet and salty taste excite your tastebuds. "same here."

"right, yeah," san nods. "i bet your parents are gonna call you every night."

"oh my god," you roll your eyes at the thought. "i'm gonna have to change my number!" you laugh at your own words, and san does to.

you finally hit the road, the radio playing music so quietly it was inaudible to you. "you think you're gonna get a boyfriend this year?" san asks you suddenly. you were confused as to why he brought this up.

"well, it is college," you start before letting out a sigh. you knew the answer. "but no. i don't think i'll ever get a boyfriend."

san glances at you from the corner of his eye. "why's that?"

"i don't know," you toy with a loose thread hanging off the hem of your shirt. "i don't think i'm relationship material. i have literally no experience whatsoever."

"really?" san hums in thought, keeping his focus on the road in front of him. "you've never been with anyone?" you shake your head. "no first dates?" you shake your head again, and san is only more perplexed. "have you ever fucked someone before?"

your eyes widen. "san, oh my god!" you smack his arm as your cheeks heat up.

"it's just a question!" he smiles at you. "was it the way i phrased it?"

"yes!" you reply, shaking your head at him as you reach for another pretzel from your bag.

"okay, fine," he clears he throat and tries again, this time sitting up straighter and speaking in a pompous tone. "dear, have you ever fornicated with anyone, perchance?"

you burst out into laughs, so much so that tears prick your eyes and your vision blurs slightly. luckily you had already finished swallowing your pretzel, or else you would have choked. when you calm down from your laughing fit, you take a deep breath and compose yourself. "no, san," you finally say. "i've never done it."

"wow," the man next to you was actually surprised. why did he think you had done all these things? "how about...have you ever kissed anyone?"

embarrassed, you turn away and look out the car window. that was enough to give san his answer.

"you're 18 and you've never even kissed someone?" san was truly baffled. "have you at least thought about kissing someone?"

you roll your eyes. "of course i've thought about it," you respond with a sigh before continuing. "i just...don't know how to kiss, really. and i really don't want to go into university a complete loser but it's the night before our first day. who am i gonna kiss between now and 7:30 am? who am I even going to see then?" you look at the man beside who, even though was focused on the road, was listening to you very intently.

and then it dawned on you.

"hey, um, san?"

he glances at you for a moment. "hm?"

you close your eyes and take a breath. this could end horribly. "would you like to...do me a favor?"

"of course, y/n," he says. "what's up?"

you wince. did you really have to spell it out? "what were we...what were we just talking about?"

"uh, that you don't wanna go into college as a loser and that you want to kiss someone between now and the morning but you're not gonna see anyone– oh."

san pauses and looks at you momentarily. seeing your bashful expression he shakes his head. "wait, really? are you for real?" you nod and he mutters something like 'jesus' under his breath. "y/n, you want me to be the person you kiss between now and the morning?"

"san, i swear, we never have to talk about it again," you tell him. "i just know that you know what you're doing so this should be an easy task for you. please understand that this will mean and change nothing. okay?"

after a long moment of silence and consideration on san's part, he sighs and pulls over on the road, parking on the side of the street. "fuck it," he unbuckled his seatbelt and turns to face you completely. "you're fully 100% sure about this?"

"i mean, i'm a little nervous, yeah," you admit, following it up with a shrug. "it's just a kiss, right?"

san looks at you and smiles, nodding. "yeah, just a kiss," he repeats back to you. "you have nothing to worry about. just...follow my lead, okay?" he gazes at you and you feel your heartbeat quicken. was this really happening? were you going to finally have your first kiss?

san leans in closer to you, and you stay where you are. you figured that it might be weird if both of you leaned in. you watch as your friend's face grows closer to yours, your eyes drifting to his lips as his tongue darts out to wet them. you notice how chapped and dry yours are due to the wind but realize you have no time to put on any chapstick or anything.

san's face is two centimeters away from yours when he speaks, his hot breath against your skin. "i'm going to kiss you now," he says, his voice quiet, but loud enough for you to hear. "like i said, follow my lead."

you nod, watching as he closes the gap between the two of you completely, his soft lips meeting yours for the first time. you feel your heartbeat almost pound out its confinement in your chest. remembering what you've seen in movies, you close your eyes and start to slowly kiss back, your lips moving against san's in a beautiful harmony.

it felt like you were floating on a cloud. except, the cloud was san...weird. you expected kissing to be this satisfying but something about doing it with san just felt right. you wondered if he thought the same...

after what feels like the shortest long time ever, san breaks the kiss, opening his eyes and looking at you. he catches his breath and grins – no, smirks – at you. "so?" he quirks a brow at you in question.

yeah, like you could put together words at this point. you had just had your first kiss! there weren't words to express how you were feeling. so, you just nod in response to san's question, earning a chuckle from him.

"good then?" he smiles and bows slightly in his seat, a somewhat cocky look on his face. "pleased to please, my dear."

shaking your head, you smack his shoulder lightly. "whatever," you groan, hiding your reddening cheeks with your hand. "just drive, okay? i should get some sleep."

san laughs and starts the car up again. "yes, ma'am," he replies, making you smile a bit from behind your hand.

the rest of the ride back to your dorms was silent between you two. you figured that san just wanted to listen to his music, and so did you, since he had very good taste. plus, you didn't know what to say. you had just kissed, what was there to say? not wanting to make things even more awkward for yourself, you decided that staying quiet and thinking your calm little thoughts was the best way to go. you just wished that you knew what san was thinking. were you good? were you bad? did you need more practice? this was very important!

finally, you pull up in front of your university campus dorms and san turns to you. "this is your stop, no?"

you look at him quizzically. "isn't it yours too?"

"ah, nope," san responds. "late night cravings. gonna go get some food." he hums as he unlocks the door on your side.

"oh, okay," you say with a nod of understanding. you unbuckle your seatbelt and make sure you have everything you entered with. "have fun! don't stay out too late! remember, big day today." you smile at san, who nods, a matching smile on his face.

"gotcha," he says in response. watching as you open your door to leave, he sends one last dimpled grin your way. "good night, y/n."

"good night," you say to him before closing your door, leaving you outside the car. as you walk around the front of the vehicle, you take a deep breath. you had to say something.

"and san?" you call to him through the open driver's side window. he looks up, turning his radio down to hear you.

"yeah?"

you smile, seeing him so intrigued as to what you were gonna say. "thank you, by the way."

san grins mischievously at you. "you're very welcome, y/n," he winks and you roll your eyes. "for a beginner, you're pretty good."

a blush creeps onto your cheeks. "thanks, i guess," you tell him. "from what i know with my very limited experience, you're not so bad yourself, choi san."

the boy laughs and shoots finger guns at you. "catch you later, okay? take care of yourself." he drives off as you wave goodbye, a giddy feeling in your chest.

this was going to be an interesting school year.

#choi san #choi san smut #choi san fluff #san smut #san fluff #san ateez #ateez san #ateez #ateez imagines #ateez smut #choi san fic #kpop smut #kpop fluff #kpop angst #<33333

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bigolgay · 4 months

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Happy new years

Nervous rambling below

I think I’m a slut

Actually I know I am

First I kiss Harley at midnight (a surprisingly good kisser… for a man. Not a fan of the stubble tho, that’s not fun). Gotta kiss the homies💪💪💪

THEN PRETTY GIRL FLIRTS WITH ME AS I COME OUT OF THE TOILET.

FIND OUT PRETTY GIRL WAS IN THE YEAR ABOVE ME IN PRIMARY SCHOOL.

THEN WE FRICK.

IDK WHAT DO NOW.

IVE MESSAGED HARLEY BUT HE HASNT RESPONDED.

HE DROVE ME HERE.

Actually now I think about it he’s probably downstairs, omg okay maybe I’m safe. He can take me home in the morning. I thought I was stranded.

Anyway. Im just laying on the bed in the spare room (I didn’t frick pretty girl in it worry not. That’s fucked up.) while pretty girl is sleeping.

BUT I CANT SLEEP BECAUSE IM A SLUT. AND AM FEELKNG THE GUILT.

Also my already hurty back is hurty much worse now (don’t read to far into that). I am now sober as well so I haven’t got alcohol as a pain reliever. I could sneak downstairs and see if there’s any alcohol left but also I don’t wanna still be drunk in the morning.

ALSO I DONT WANNA BE A DICK AND SMASH AND DASH. NUT AND BOLT. HIT IT AND QUIT IT. One hit wonder? Wait stop I’m trying not to giggle and wake her up.

My original plans for tonight was to get drunk and watch my mum and stepdad get stoned and then when they go to bed play some gta online because lols.

But then FUCKING HARLEY IS LIKE “hey guess what? (Name of person here) is throwing a house party for new years and I miss you so much because you’re the most magical human being ever and I love you endlessly, so please please please come with me and grace me with your presence🙏” I might’ve paraphrased slightly, but that was basically what he said.

And I’m a good girl and turn to my mum and go “pls let me go house party I’ll be good gorl and not cause any trouble or come stumbling into the house at ridiculous time.” And she said “👍”.

AND THEN I GO AND FRICK SOMEONE. I LIED MUM I SORRY I CAUSE TROUBLE.

Although I’m an adult and she totally won’t care right? Who I spend my time with is none of her business. Ahhhhh guys I’m actually secretly a lil baby and sososo shy and I’m just a silly little guy.

Omg it’s only been 15 minutes??? I’m running out of things to do now. Like what else am I to say???? I mean it’s 6am… I could totally just go downstairs and make food or something.

OMG SHE JUST SCARED THE POOP OUT OF ME SHE JUST STARTED TALKING IN HER SLEEP.

I wonder where Harley is. I think he’s in the garage? Although it’s cold as balls in there, but they were all playing never have I ever in there last I checked… which… was like… 5 and a half hours ago?

My new years celebrations are usually so tame wtf.

Okay… I took a minute (several minutes) to think. I’m freaking out for no reason. We fricked. That’s fine and cool. We both consenting adults. I’m an adult. Mum isn’t the boss of me. I’ve had sex before. Oh god has she had sex before?? I mean probably. I’ve never done a proper one nightstand before guys. Non committal sex? Oh baby that’s the closest I’ve ever had to romantic affection in my life. But I’ve always sort of known them beforehand. But this is fine. New experience!!! Okay I’m calmer now. Should I sleep? I guess I should probably try and sleep.

Okay, ramblings concluded. I’m not nervous anymore. See? Sometimes I just need to write my thoughts down so I can look at them and rationalise them. Goodnight I guess…

#also!! to my anons real quick!#I have seen your asks! I will answer them at some point tomorrow (today…)#I hope you’ve both had a great new years🫶🏼#idk if either of you will see this #but who knows!#goodnight!#who threw the tennis ball!?!🎾#also I don’t know why I keep saying frick and not fuck or… sleep with?#IM AWKWARD AND DONT KNOW HOW TO TALK ABOUT SEX IN A SERIOUS WAY

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vani-lla-boi · 8 months

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Top surgery day 1:

I got to the surgery center feeling a bit nervous but less nervous than I had the night before. My surgery was at 12:00 PM so I didn’t have to get there super early, just an hour before. First they made me take a urine sample and measured my height and weight. Then I had to change into a gown and surgery socks. Then the doctor came into the room I was in to mark my chest which took about 15 minutes. I’m glad he was precise about it but I kept fidgeting and he kept telling me to stop so I hope I didn’t annoy him. I asked him some questions during this process.

Then they put the IV in my right arm twice, making me scream in pain (I have a phobia of medical needles) and my mom told me to be quiet lol. Then they tried my left arm once and failed, and again and it worked. I was crying and they were asking me some questions about when my last period was, what surgeries I have had before, etc.

I remember them wheeling me into the operating room and I felt relaxed somehow once they put the mask on. They told me that was to get me to fall asleep and then the anesthesia through the IV was to keep me asleep.

When I woke up in the hospital I was under like 48284 blankets and I was sweating so hard, but they took them off of me and I was feeling better. I was so exhausted and I was struggling to stay awake. My mom was with me for a while as I got some crackers and apple juice which were really good.

Then my nurse helped me do things like get up, use the bathroom, and give me dinner. There was a sphygmomanometer on my right arm that measured my blood pressure at the beginning of every hour which is another feeling that makes me uncomfortable lol. There was also a pulse oximeter on my left index finger but since I’m left handed I kept moving my hand to eat and it made the pulse oximeter keep beeping. I was surprised that I didn’t feel too dizzy getting up. They gave me papers with a lot of information of bad/warning signs, who to call for various things, and instructions. They also showed me how to empty the drains which kind of hurt.

At some point I felt asleep, mainly because the nurse told me they would put antibiotics through my IV at midnight and I didn’t want to be awake during that because I was worried it would feel weird. However I couldn’t feel it at all.

The nurse woke me up at 5:20 AM or so and gave me yogurt and crackers for breakfast. I met with a resident who didn’t work on my surgery at all but he said he heard everything went well. They started preparing for me to leave and had a wheelchair ready for me. At this point they took out my IV and wheeled me downstairs when I told them my mom was here to pick me up. I didn’t feel any pain on the car ride home or for much of that day, so I stopped taking the opioid pills and just have been taking Tylenol.

#top surgery #ftm #trans #transgender #trans ftm #transmasculine

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studywithanoodle · 1 year

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Weeks 3 and 4

It's been a bit since my last post! My bio midterm was Wednesday, so my time was taken up by that as well as my mental health problems that came up again last week. That will be discussed more in the next section of my post. I also got my midterm score at midnight on Friday, so I will reflect on that as well.

A View Into My Week of Work and Studying

I found out that I have to take the final for Calculus 2 at my school so that I can take Calculus 3 next semester, which slightly concerns me because of how it'll fit in my schedule at this point in registration. I registered for classes on November 1st, and my schedule looks pretty good other than my long day on Wednesdays. It pretty much has everything that I need, including Monday mornings free when I travel back to school from home and Friday afternoons free before peak time for the train back home so that my commute is cheaper. Because of this, I created a calendar to space out my review of Calculus 2 topics so that I can be prepared in time for finals week.

I found out that I can't take Physics 2 next semester since it would be technically re-enrollment due to my transfer credits from high school and would require a whole process, so I decided that I would audit the class. I like this option a lot better because I won't have to do labs LOL but I get access to the subject material and can practice my skills. On this note, I'm unable to tutor in the Learning Resource Center this semester, but next semester I should have a spot.

Now, for my review of my bio midterm! I studied a lot for it in the two weeks leading up to it, which resulted in me finishing it in around 15-20 minutes. In the days leading up to the release of grades, I kept hearing people discuss the answers to certain questions that were hard, and I started get nervous about my score.

I ended up getting an 86, so if I had gotten one more question right, I would've gotten an A, which I'm slightly upset about. I aimed for an A, so I'm not the happiest, but it's definitely advantageous considering the curving and the fact that the median score was a 59 like the last midterm. I'm really trying to figure out how to study better so I can get an A+, which is obviously possible considering someone got a 96. If anyone has any extremely obscure tips, let me know ahaha I feel like I've seen everything!

I'm currently working on my application to a neurosurgery summer program, so I requested a letter of recommendation from my mentor. The acceptance rate is around 3%, which I'm concerned about, so I'm looking at other summer research programs. Even if they don't end up being for neurosurgery, I can gain a lot from doing clinical neuroscience research at a major institution somewhere. I just really hope I get into the program of my choice, though.

Concerns

This is where I discuss the mental health episode that I had last week (not this week that just passed). I think that it's important to discuss mental health when it comes to being a student and a productive individual outside of academics. My depression (which for now is undiagnosed but I'm on the road to treatment for it) affects my life in many facets, as it would for anyone else. I definitely would categorize it as high-functioning, but I've had really bad depressive episodes a few times, with them occurring only in 2022. This is most likely because my condition went untreated for a while, so that kind of stress builds up. This episode in particular delayed my submission of my paper for my writing class, which was the second one that I unfortunately submitted late already this semester.

Part of the stress comes from not really feeling comfortable with the community since my class in my program is small, so I don't have any friends in it. I started meeting with a study group, and we helped each other with doing better on the midterm for bio, but it's not really like I would hang out with them normally? I don't really know. Well, there's our vulnerability statement for this week lol.

Hobby Analysis

Yesterday, I took out time to watch youtube videos and crochet a bit, which was really fun. I missed watching tiktok compilations on youtube and crocheting at the same time, which was something I did on the weekends often during my senior year in high school. I really enjoy it because I usually learn a lot since they're social justice videos.

Hopes for Next Week

I hope that in the upcoming week, I get more on track with my calculus studying since this week was kind of wild considering I had to travel home. I'm starting mentoring, so that's going to be an enjoyable experience, as well. I hope that I start doing my research proposal for my writing class in a timely manner as to prevent a situation like the one from last week. Finally, I hope that I can finalize my list of summer research programs and be more diligent with work on my clinical research.

Until next week!

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survey--s · 8 months

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613.

Are you tired? Are you taking this survey because you can’t sleep? I am a bit tired but it's only 12.40pm so it's not like it's the middle of the night. I just stayed up too late playing Xbox instead of sleeping.

Do you have something important to do? No. I did just go and make a cup of tea though as I had a real craving.

Do you like Jalapeno Cheetos? I'm not a fan of anything spicy so they're not something I've even tried before.

Do you wish you had a new phone? Not immediately but mine will probably need to be replaced within the next couple of months as the battery is starting to go.

Name one thing you ate today? A donut.

Do you like 80’s music? 60’s music? 90’s music? I like some music from all those decades.

Do you find rap music annoying? It depends. Some I really like and some I don't even understand lol.

What song is stuck in your head? Nothing at the moment as I'm watching Cinderella lol.

Have you ever been to Germany? Yeah, to Berlin a couple of times. My dad used to run marathons and we used to fly out with him for the weekend while he did the race.

Do you drink coffee in the mornings? Yeah, I always have at least one coffee before work.

Do you become a fan of lots of things on Facebook? Not really.

What time do you go to bed on school/work nights? I go up to bed around 9pm most nights but I don't go to sleep until about 11pm-midnight ish.

Have you ever seen a therapist? Yeah, I was in therapy for a while as a student.

Do you get in trouble at school often? No.

Do you watch videos on YouTube? I watch TV shows on YouTube but that's about it.

Name a song that makes you happy. Mr Brightside - The Killers.

Name a song that makes you want to dance. ^ that one.

Name a song that brings back memories. Pretty Girl by Sugarcult.

Does the song above bring back good or bad memories? Both good and bad. It's a weird nostalgic song for me.

What decade do you think is the best musically? I love music from all sorts of different decades. I couldn't just pick one that I like above all the others.

Do you take a long time to get ready in the mornings? If it's just me and I don't need to sort the animals or do any housework, I can be up and out in 15-20 minutes. Normally I give myself an hour, though.

Do you wear a lot of makeup? No.

Have you ever written poetry or fiction? Yeah, both.

Do you know how to read music? Theoretically, but I haven't played an instrument in ages.

Do you regularly use a blow dryer? No.

When was the last time you went to church? About twenty years ago.

Would you date someone who was a different religion than you? I wouldn't date anyone who was religious in the first place.

What is your best subject in school? History and English.

Name something you do nearly everyday. Drive.

Do you take surveys a lot? I go through phases. Sometimes I do some everyday for weeks, other times I go a week or without bothering.

Have you ever had sushi? Sure. It's nice enough but it's not my favourite thing in the world.

#survey #surveys

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jimmyjrsmusoems · 1 year

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Imma be real selfish with this one heh heh--

What songs would your preferred Baby Steps playlist have on it (and not just for chapter 15 lol)? 👀

ahhhhhh thank you for the ask (and your patience!)

i thought long and hard about these and i'm going to try and keep them chronological but some of them are just based on vibes lol

would've, could've, should've - taylor swift

"i can't let this go, i fight with you in my sleep, the wound won't close, i keep on waiting for a sign, i regret you all the time"

this song gives me big tina x jordan vibes

clean - taylor swift

"rain came pouring down when i was drowning, that's when i could finally breathe. and by morning, gone was any trace of you, i think i am finally clean."

this song reminds me so much of chapter 5 (i want this to be spoiler free but of course you know why!)

boys will be bugs - cavetown

"i just turned 14, and i think this year i'm gonna be mean - don't mess with me, i'm a big boy now, and i'm very scary. i punch my walls, stay out at night, and i do karate. don't message me 'cause i won't reply, i wanna make you cry - ain't that how it's s'posed to be? though it isn't me"

this song gives me big jimmy jr. vibes but specifically before chapter 8 lol

new year's day - taylor swift

"don't read the last page, but i stay when it's hard, or it's wrong, or we're making mistakes. i want your midnights - but i'll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year's day"

i don't think this one needs an explanation lol :)

second single bed - katie gregson-macleod

"i don't wanna be, i don't wanna be your girlfriend. i just wanna feel like you want me to be"

idk this is one of those pure vibes songs

the story of us - taylor swift

"i don't know what to say since the twist of fate, when it all broke down, and the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now"

we have already talked about this one but !!!!! chapter 15 vibes for sure

bonus : better than revenge - taylor swift

"the story starts when it was hot and it was summer and i had it all, i had him right there where i wanted him. she came along, got him alone, and let's hear the applause - she took him faster than you can say sabotage"

another chapter 15 song but i literally had to listen to it the minute i finished reading it for the first time lmao

thank you again for asking!!!! i'm sure i will have more to add as the story goes on :)

#fic stuff #zekina #tina belcher x zeke #ask #look i made a playlist #baby steps

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glamourizz · 1 year

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Cafe 7 Dream Masterlist

Cafe 7 Dream || NCT DREAM

Summary:

When Hyunae’s mother falls severely ill, Hyunae has no choice bu to return to Korea to take care of her mother’s business.

When their boss falls severely ill, the Dreamers have to deal with a new addition to their team.

Themes: nct dream x oc au, coffee shop au, sitcom au, attempted humor, slice of life au

Warnings: Mature themes, suggestive, no explicit smut, minor character death, strong language, mentions of violence and gore, bimbofication of jeno and jisung

Status: TBR (expected: May 2023)

Episodes:

EP. 00 Introducing the Dreamers (Official Trailer)

EP. 01 Pilot

EP. 02 Dreamers and the New Member

EP. 03 Dreamers and the Health Inspection

EP. 04 Dreamers and Hyunae’s Mysteries

EP. 05 Dreamers and the Midnight Bully

EP. 06 Dreamers and Jaemin’s Past

EP. 07 Dreamers and Sexism

EP. 08 Dreamers and Jeno’s Rumors

EP. 09 Dreamers versus Chillers

EP. 10 Dreamers and the Betrayers

EP. 11 Dreamers at the Fight Club

EP. 12 Dreamers and the Shopping Chronicles

EP. 13 Dreamers and Haechan’s Girlfriend

EP. 14 Dreamers and The Celebrities

EP. 15 Dreamers and Mark’s Habits

EP. 16 Dreamers and Renjun’s Date

EP. 17 Dreamers and the Unexpected Visitor

EP. 18 Dreamers and Chenle’s Inheritance

EP. 29 Dreamers and Jisung’s Mental Health Issues

EP. 20 Dreamers arrange a Funeral

EP. 21 Dreamers Get An Offer (Season Finale)

A/N: not me starting a new fic while still figuring out my chenle fic im sorry. I shouldve learnt how to make smau stories before deciding to announce it to the world like a dumbass. But was rewatching nct dream content instead of studying again and i couldnt get the idea of a cafe based sitcom fanfic out of my mind so here we are. as for this fic, i will make sure to update once a week, special episodes too if i get the time. I dont know how long this will go but ill wind it up at 20-21 episodes excluding the special episodes. If this gets a good response maybe we’ll have more seasons idk. If by some reason i dont update on friday. I will do it on Saturday morning at 10.30 am kst not a minute late not a minute early. I havent decided who hyunae ends up with or if she even ends up with one of them. We’ll see as the story goes by. So yeah feel free to reblog. I’d really appreciate it if you shared it with others lol.

Taglist: comment or send an ask to be added

#nct #nct dream #na jaemin #lee jeno #mark lee #lee haechan #renjun #chenle #park jisung #sitcom au #cafe au #nct fanfic

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i-rate-horse-games · 1 year

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in Let's Ride! Friends Forever, you get to customize your avatar when you start a game, but there are very few options (no skin color) and it looks like this

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and then you have 15 horse options, which are really just 5 colors and then warmblood, coldblood, or thoroughbred. you don't get to type a name for your horse, you have to choose one of their horse names.

so you get your foal, and the game is like "hi! :)" and then just lets you do whatever you want. there's an encyclopedia where you can read instructions when you get stuck, so that's nice, although it's largely unhelpful. when you want to know "why don't I have a curry comb and how do I get one?" the page on hygene says "hygene is important! you don't want a dirty horse LOL" it does not tell you that you have to take your horse for a walk, then walk yourself to the shops. but that's what you do. and then you drag each cleaning item to the respective body part and wait until the bar next to it turns green.

you can walk your horse in shows right away. you can end the day whenever you want. there is a clock telling you what time of day it is, one second a minute, but i lack the patience to see what happens at midnight. there's a diary that updates to show your progress.

on day 3 it said Your Horse needs Exercise! and so i went down and walked for a bit but that exercise bar goes up soooo slowly, they really want you to drag your stylus around that meadow for a While and think "wow this meadow is awesome! i love walking in circles!" but that is exactly what i did when i was Child, so that's fair.

it takes 13 very repetitive days before your horse is old enough to ride. then you gotta walk to the store to buy some tack, then walk back. then you click Ride and you can ride. it doesn't show the tack. then you ride off to your first tournament and

how. do you jump.

i couldn't figure out how to jump, so we went back to the stable and i discovered me horse has pulled a muscle because we didn't warm up by walking first. point for accuracy! also i bought leg wraps but that was actually only 1 singular wrap for one leg. so horse has a bracelet now.

i checked the encyclopedia and it just says to make sure my horse jumps on time. it doesn't say how to jump! I'm googling it

ok they say you have to click rapidly on the hurdle

nothing is happening. i can't figure out how to get this horse to jump.WAIT I DID IT. ok so you move by dragging the stylus but you lift it and tap it for a second and you'll jump. That Needed Instructions.

alright, so your 2 gamemodes are the horse show, where you lead your horse on foot around for the judges, and the jumping, which is challenging. you can get trophies and advance in both. you win money and spend it on better tack and decorations at the shops. you keep your horse healthy. there is no breeding. if you neglect your horse for 3 days, animal custody comes and takes your horse away and the game ends.

i had this stylish lad in a save from 2015

the music is a little bit of a banger, but it is the only music for the entire game and never stops or changes. here's a snippet.

i rate this game 2 stars out of 5!

★★☆☆☆

good for those who like filling in the gaps with their imagination. there are only 2 activities to do and two places you can ride outside of that. you get sick of the music after about 7 minutes. but it's a horse game!

#lets ride friends forever #horse game #horse video game #ds game #nintendo ds

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how long did it take you to watch the van scene the first time? about how many times did you rewind? did you catch the lip glance right away? did you think it was heading in a byler positive direction when mike was talking? how about when will was talking? were you happy/disappointed by the painting? how did you feel by the end of it? how devastated were you by will's crying?

this was intense af to come back to in the ask box LMAO

Anyway—the first time I watched the van scene through was the day after vol ii dropped, because I started watching it at midnight (right when Netflix US crashed) and skipped to it with expectancy only to have my heart drop when I realized what was happening.

Like almost everyone else, I’d gotten my hopes up for a quicker (like, faster paced in the plot) version of byler endgame than what happened, so seeing Will sob after breaking his own heart to save Mike & El’s relationship made me deeply sad, but also extremely angry? I feel like I’d made up a way it should go in my head, and when it didn’t meet those expectations…I wasn’t convinced they had ruined byler entirely, but I was certainly not happy at how it was going LMAO

Honestly I’d say it took me about 4 tries before I could get through it without having to leave it alone like. Halfway through. I skipped it a few times during rewatches because I over-identified with Will so much in vol i that seeing his heart crack in half was too much, even though I started catching on that Mike was open to the prospect…fairly quickly? He seemed too pleased and open even though he wasn’t saying anything—I didn’t even notice the lip glance until like the 3rd watch, but once I got over my initial shock of Will’s words and tears, there was no missing Mike’s heart eyes, or the way he was hanging off every word Will said.

—I do fully admit I was deeply irritated at Mike for being so blind despite seeming so pleased at Will for sharing it / coded-confessing (I felt like his character was being flat out assassinated for not catching the pain Will was going through), but I dunno. It wasn’t until I rewatched the two parts of the season over together that I started to piece together what was happening on Mike’s part. Not viewing them as two separate parts but a cohesive season & then seeing how El responded to him at the end was kinda the glue that made me reassess Mike as a character (and dig deeper into the show as a whole, since I was GA before S4 and then only passively fandom-minded because of how cute I thought Byler was during the month between volumes lol)

Anyway. To the latter part of your question: I loved the painting even the first time through even though a bunch of people were convinced it would be the swings 😂 I loved that it was literally the most “I am a 15 year old trying to tell another 15 year old I am in love with them in the most nerdy way possible” thing ever, and it incorporated the thing they’d bonded over / that was basically an metaphor for their bond and the state of it from like, the minute we saw them on screen together.

Honestly the van scene is still kinda the most emotionally raw moment for me to watch even though I’ve seen it 1.5M times at this point. Like. I can watch the monologue and only roll my eyes, but watching Mike make those heart eyes still gets me to this day 🤣

this got long so quick omg. still—thanks for the ask! 💕

#asks #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things #st commentary #the me tag #my st commentary

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reikoackerman · 2 years

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Our happy little family

Characters: Levi x Rei (me)

Genre: Modern!au

Warnings: SFW, fluffy. Mentions of childbirth and everything kinda bloody and gross. Also very very VERY self-indulgent. Block the tags #levi x rei and #reivi to refrain from cringing. Also, I cried happy tears writing this, so I hope you all can happy cry together with me 🥺

Word count: 6k I'm very fucking sorry lol

A/N: Yes lol the day is here. Finally, you all will know the name of the last Ackerman Junior ~ ^_^ I'm tagging the loml @mrscommandersmith just because <3

Also I've obviously not given birth before so there might be some inconsistencies hahaha I'm sorry and do not mind me :') I tried not to talk too much about medical terminologies so, bear with me and enjoy the story hehe.

[03 July 2022]

It's here.

Again.

Once every 15 minutes, I keep feeling that annoying pain in my abdomen, as though I was having a very very bad cramp. Breathe in, breathe out. Calm down, Rei. You got this. I told myself. I turned to Levi who was sleeping peacefully next to me, his breathing slow and deep, a contrast to my own ragged and harsh panting. Clutching on to my watch tight, I looked at the seconds ticking by, counting till the contraction subsided.

Thirty seconds later, the cramps were gone. I quickly noted it down in my phone.

Is today the day? I wondered. Hange told us that our little princess would be due any time during the first week of July, and Levi and I have been like a bundle of nerves since then. Levi already prepared the overnight bag last week and also took the week off work, ready to drive us to the hospital whenever. I quickly got up and washed my face, making my way back to the bed before I started contracting again.

Fifteen minutes passed, and the contraction came back again stronger. Out of instinct, I grabbed Levi's hand hard, and he suddenly jumped awake.

"Mon cœur—" Levi let out a yawn mid-sentence. "What's wrong?" The sleepiness was still evident in Levi's voice. He briefly pushed himself up and saw my face covered in a light sheen of perspiration.

"L-Levi, I th-think, I think it's—" I grabbed Levi's hand tight again and closed my eyes before feeling the cramps subside. I slowly let out a long breath before looking at my husband. "I've been keeping track for the past 45 minutes. The contractions are coming at a regular interval." Levi's eyes widened as he wiped my perspiration away.

"I-I think our little princess is arriving today." I placed my free hand on my bump and gave Levi a shaky smile. Levi scrambled out of bed and went to wash up, calling his mother to meet at the hospital. I tried pushing myself up and poured myself a glass of water, dropping Mia a text to tell her what was happening. It was close to midnight, and I didn't want to wake her up since she had work tomorrow. Before my cramps came back, I quickly called Isabel as well, telling her and Farlan to come over and babysit the kids and our fur babies. I knew Levi would call Farlan and tell him the same thing too; they already have the spare keys to our house. Knowing Levi, he would have dropped Erwin and Mike a text as well.

Levi quickly gave Hange a call to tell them what was happening, and that we would reach the hospital within an hour. Another wave of cramps hit and I winced, willing myself to finish the glass of water before leaving. Levi rushed to the kitchen and took out some granola bars, dark chocolate, milo bars, and bottles of water and added them into the overnight bag. Grabbing a thick wool jacket of his that he knows I love wearing, Levi draped it across my shoulders before helping me up. Checking on the twins and Renée, Levi carried me out of the house and locked the door, a look of worry all across his face.

"Amour, calm down, I'm fine, really," I clutched onto Levi's hand while he placed me down in the passenger seat. "This is our fourth child already, relax." Funny how I'm the one about to give birth, but Levi is behaving like a lost sheep instead.

"Do I need to remind you about what Hange said? Every pregnancy is different." Levi placed the overnight bag at the rear before quickly going to the driver seat, passing me a pillow that he knows I'll definitely need. "How are you feeling?" He adjusted his mirrors before driving, interlocking my hand in his.

"Fine, for now," I closed my eyes again as another wave of contractions came. I grabbed the pillow and Levi's hand tight. When we stopped at the red light, Levi turned on the radio, tuning to the station playing classical music. Levi brought my hand to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to each of my knuckles as the contractions subsided again.

"Je t'aime, mon cœur," Levi whispered before driving off when the lights turned green.

"我也爱你，亲爱的。(I love you too, my darling)." I managed to smile before kissing the back of Levi's hand in return. Isabel replied my message and said she and Farlan are already at our house. Our kids are still sleeping soundly.

"You're doing so good, baby, stay strong for a while more, okay? We're reaching soon. Hange's waiting." I nodded before closing my eyes, willing myself to breathe normally especially when the contractions came back.

[04 July 2022]

It was almost 12:45am when we reached the hospital's car park. Hange worked at a Women's and Children's Hospital, and probably one of the best in the country. Renée, Pierre and Léon were all delivered by Hange and their team, and I have absolute confidence that our little princess will be in good hands.

Levi pushed a wheelchair towards the passenger door and helped me sit, grabbing the overnight bag and locking the car properly before wheeling me inside. True to what Levi said, Hange and Moblit were waiting for us. Moblit looked a little pale while Hange was smiling.

"Good day Mrs Ackerman," Hange joked while Levi scowled. "How's everything?"

"I've been having these regular contractions every 15 minutes or so, and each of them last for about 30 seconds," I muttered as Levi wheeled me ahead, Hange and Moblit walking beside us. "I've been keeping track since about 11:15pm."

"You've done really well, Rei. Now let's get you changed and comfortable, and we'll start prepping you, okay?" Hange patted my shoulder as I nodded.

"Has your water bag broke yet?" Moblit asked.

"No idea, I think so? I feel a little moist down there."

"Your water bag broke?! Why didn't you say anything in the car? I would've driven faster and—" Levi frowned and I had to calm him down again.

"I'm fine, Levi! Relax."

"Oh, please calm down Levi," Moblit quickly interrupted, scribbling on his clipboard. "Everything is under control." It's so amusing to see my usually calm and collected husband getting so flustered. Hange was laughing as well, the sight of Levi panicking must be really entertaining.

Once we reached the delivery suit, Hange's team of nurses were already on standby, greeting Levi and I cheerfully. It felt good to be in the hands of such skillful and dedicated nurses, and there was already a sense of familiarity too.

Once nurse Nifa helped me change into the gown, Levi grabbed my hand as Hange did their first round of checks. Thankfully, my water bag hasn't broke yet. The moistness I was feeling was from the mucus plug.

"You're about 3cm dilated now," Hange looked up once they're done. "You know the drill, we'll have to wait till you're about 10cm." The rest of the nurses started hooking up all the wires to the machines to monitor mine and our baby's heartbeats.

"Everything's fine. Just breathe, relax, and call us when you need anything." Hange gently pat my head as they spoke, giving Levi a nod of reassurance.

"This might be their fourth child, but I don't want anyone to be complacent, understood?" Hange spoke to their team of nurses and they all nodded. "Keep me and Dr Berner updated with Rei's progress."

"Yes, Dr Zoe!" Hange then left the delivery room as they had to check on other patients.

"About seven hours to go, then?" Levi looked at his watch. It was about 1:25am.

"It might take faster than that, Mr Ackerman," Nifa piqued. "Since it's her fourth delivery already, Mrs Ackerman might dilate faster than usual."

"I know, b-but, but then, her contractions lasted so long with the boys. I'm just—"

"Amour, it's fine. I'm fine. Relax for me, okay? Our little princess can feel it if you're nervous." I squeezed Levi's hand, smiling up at him. Levi visibly relaxed and gave me a soft kiss to my forehead.

"Mm. Do you need anything?" Levi released his grip on my hand and brought the overnight bag over. "Milo, sweets, chocolate?" Levi took out a milo bar, some sweets, and a few chocolates.

"I'm fine, Levi. I don't need anything. I just want you here." I giggled, grabbing his hand again. Levi gave me a kiss as he swiped my fringe away. He nodded and gazed at me, telling me about something funny that happened at work. Everytime I felt my contractions, Levi would whisper encouragements in my ear, gently rubbing my arm as I squirmed around.

"You're about 4cm now, Mrs Ackerman," Nifa did a quick check. "We might want to induce labour later by breaking your water bag when we get to about 6cm or so." I nodded, taking shallow breaths. Just then, Levi got a message on his phone.

"Maman's here." I nodded, urging him to go talk to Aunty Kuchel. She must be worried and nervous too. "Don't worry about me. Go spend some time with your mum." Levi seemed reluctant to leave me in the room.

"Go, don't worry." Levi sighed, muttering "I'll be quick" before going outside. Waves of contractions came and passed, each getting a little more intense. I wonder what time was it now. Levi came back later with a cup of tea in his hand and the corner of his lips looking a little dirty.

"Was the croissant good?" I giggled. Levi looked a little embarrassed. "H-how did—"

"You have some pastry crust on the corner of your lips, love," I gestured for him to come closer before kissing Levi full on the lips. "And now they're gone." Levi's face turned pink, realising that he was walking around with pastry crust on his lips, and that I just ate the crust off his lips in a room full of people.

"You're really cheerful for someone about to give birth." Levi scowled again, wiping his mouth with some tissue.

"I don't know, I'm actually feeling really excited. I can't wait to meet her." I held Levi's hand again, feeling a surge of emotions. Levi's other hand went to gently pat the bump, giving me a soft smile.

"I know. I can't wait to meet her too." I looked at Levi bashfully. Levi interlocked his fingers in mine, gently stroking my knuckles. I tried to take deep, slow breaths as the intensity of the cramps start to increase. Levi softly kissed the crease between my eyebrows. We've been married for six years and I still feel butterflies everytime he does that. It's funny how back in the day, Levi would feel embarrassed to even hold my hand. Now, Levi is actually showing me affection in a room full of people. I guess fatherhood really changed him. Or maybe, being with me changed him?

Hange came back after 3am, making a check on me again.

"You holding up okay, Rei? How's the contractions?"

"Uhh... they're getting stronger... how far am I now, Hange?"

"You're 7cm dilated now, we'll break the water bag soon to help you induce labour. How's your pain on a scale of one to 10?"

"I guess... about 6? Maybe 7?" I grimaced as I felt another wave of contractions. Levi held my hand tighter. Hange sat by the edge of the bed and began to do something to burst my water bag.

"How are you?" Levi asked me again. I nodded, adjusting my position on the bed. Levi opened a bottle of water and inserted a straw for me to drink. "Keep yourself hydrated, you're going to lose a lot of water later." I nodded again, taking sips of water as Levi opened a granola bar and tearing it into small bite-sized chunks. Our last meal was around 7pm, and I was feeling a little hungry.

"Are you sure you don't want the epidural?" Levi asked me and I firmly shook my head.

"No... I can do it, I can do this. I don't want it, Levi," I grimaced again. I didn't take any of these when I gave birth to Renée and the boys, and I definitely don't want to take them now, too.

"I don't need it, Levi." I looked at him again. Levi stared at me, until he gave me a small nod. He knew how stubborn I am sometimes, and there's no point in persuading me to do something I don't want to. Levi fed me a few more bites of the granola bar.

"What time is it now, amour?" I asked Levi after I was done eating. The contractions were getting even stronger. It was really starting to hurt. Perhaps it was time soon. Levi yawned and checked his watch.

"It's almost five soon," Levi yawned again, rubbing the sleepiness out of his eyes.

"Take a nap if you're tired." I urged him, but Levi shook his head.

"No, I'm staying awake. I want to be with you all the way," Levi gave me a small smile and drank from the cup he brought back hours ago, scrunching his face in disgust. "God, their tea sucks."

"I heard that, shorty," Hange called out as they entered again, Moblit following behind. Levi ignored them and drank some water. The contractions were getting really unbearable now, and I could feel it. Our baby wants to say hi to us soon. I started breathing a little harsher, and both Hange and Levi seemed to notice it too. Hange quickly made a check.

"Rei's about 9cm now. Everyone standby!" The nurses all went to their designated spots, some standing by the monitors, some standing next to Hange. I could feel it again. Our baby is pushing against my cervical opening. The pain got even stronger and I clutched Levi's hand tight. I tried to regulate my breathing, Levi whispering next to my ear.

Once Hange told me I was close to 10cm, Levi's usually stoic expression was long gone, he clenched my hand tightly in his as Hange kept telling me to breathe in and out.

"You're doing good, Rei, keep breathing. When I say push, push as hard as you can, hmm?" Hange called out and I grunted.

"One, two, three, push!" I tried pushing as hard as I can, hands squeezing Levi tight. I don't know how hard I'm grabbing him, but I could tell that Levi was bearing with the pain too. My face was screwed up as I pushed again with all my might once Hange told me to push. It may be my fourth time giving birth, but I'm never ever going to get used to this pain.

I don't want to give birth ever again.

Once more, Hange told me to push harder, our little princess' head was slowly getting closer.

"Good girl, mon cœur, you're doing so well. So brave, my wife," Levi repeated next to my ear, wiping my perspiration and tears. I huffed and puffed, feeling nothing but excruciating pain. Hange told me to push again and I did, mustering all my strength and pushing as hard as I can. I grit my teeth and clenched my fist, I'll brave through all these pain for our little princess.

"I can see her head, Rei, keep going! You're doing well!" Hange called out again, further encouraging me. My face was so wet, I didn't know if they were from my tears or perspiration anymore. Hange told me to push again, as hard as I can.

"C'mon, baby, you're doing so good, I'm so proud of you. Just a bit more—" Levi caressed my cheek and kissed my sweaty forehead, muttering endless words of encouragement next to me. "I love you, Rei, I love you so much. My darling, the love of my life, my Rei of sunshine. My girl, you're amazing." Even through my pain, I could tell Levi was choking up. I knew he would rather be the one in my place, to help relieve some of my pain.

I calmed myself down and brought Levi's hands to my lips to kiss them, feeling strength flow through me again. Hange kept encouraging me to push harder; they could see our little princess. I held on to Levi's hand tighter just as Levi leaned his forehead again mine, I pushed with all my might.

All was quiet for a moment, until we all heard the first cries of a newborn. Tears welled up in my eyes as I breathed and panted, looking up at Levi. We both turned to the source of crying.

"Congratulations, Mr and Mrs Ackerman, it's 5:10am, say hi to your baby girl." Hange was beaming as they carried our little crying princess over. She looked like a little baguette, her skin red and sticky. Her cries were crisp and clear. I quickly placed her against my chest, letting her feel my heartbeat and skin. Her cries started to soften. No matter how many times I've given birth, this moment always feels the most magical to me. The skin-to-skin contact. The mother and baby bonding. It's a special moment between our little princess and me. My baby. Our baby. Our daughter.

She's here. Our little princess is really here. My tears started falling uncontrollably as I looked up at Levi with a teary smile. Levi's eyes were moist as he gazed at me lovingly. Wiping the perspiration off my forehead, Levi pressed his lips on my sticky skin and leaned his forehead against mine again.

"I'm so proud of you, mon cœur. I love you. I love so much." Levi choked again as we wept tears of joy.

"Okay, Levi, time to cut her cord," Hange chuckled, carrying our baby girl over to a bunch of towels. Levi stared at Hange.

"Oh, come on! You've done this three times already, don't tell me you're still nervous?" Hange joked and Levi hastily wiped his tears, following Hange’s instructions even thought he probably already knew them by heart. Once Levi cut our little princess' umbilical cord, Hange briefly cleaned her up and put her on a weighing scale, taking down our baby girl's vitals and measurements. Then, Hange wrapped her in a towel before passing her back to me.

"We'll just have to wait for her placenta to flush out, and then we'll do the clean up." I hugged our little princess close to my heart again, beaming towards Levi. Her eyes slightly opened to peep at us.

"She's gorgeous. Just like you." Levi smiled as he gently stroked our little girl with his finger. "It's still too early to tell, amour. But y-yeah, she's lovely. And s-so t-tiny..." I choked up again, feeling a little lump in my throat. Hange did tell us before that our little princess is a little underweight, and I couldn't help but blame myself. Now that I'm taking a better look, our baby girl was a little tinier compared to how Renée, Pierre and Léon were when they were just born. Maybe I should have taken better care of myself, or eaten healthier food. I should've taken those prenatal vitamins consistently. Tears started falling again, but they weren't happy tears.

"Rei—mon cœur, listen. Listen to me," Levi wiped my tears and made me look at him. "Hange said she's healthy. And that's the most important, hmm? Come on now, don't cry anymore." Levi kissed me softly as he stroked my head lovingly.

"Shhh, baby, don't cry. I love you, more than anything else in this world. Always know that," Levi softly pecked our little princess. "You're my wife, my beloved, and our children's mother. You're the best." Levi smiled at me again as I blinked my tears away. I gave him a little nod, the corners of my lips turning up.

"I hate to interupt this lovely moment, Ackermans, but we have to register her name," Hange came over, writing on a clipboard. "Have you two thought of her name already?" Levi and I looked at each other and smiled before turning over to Hange.

"Charlotte Rachel Ackerman. That's her English name." Levi replied with a smile. Aunty Kuchel helped us choose her first name, she said 'Charlotte' meant 'strong' and 'free' in French. Levi and I decided on 'Rachel' together. It was a lovely name, and it was a Hebrew name, just like what all our children have, and what Levi has as well.

"And what about her Chinese name?" Hange looked at us again once they wrote down Charlotte's English name, birth date, and birth hours.

"It's 佳琪 (Jia Qi)。佳 (jia) for beautiful, and 琪 (qi) for fine jade." I told Hange. Levi repeated Charlotte's name over and over in her ear, and she peeped at us again, her tiny mouth widening just a bit. I gently patted her back, rocking her to sleep. Nifa and the rest were already done cleaning me up as well, leaving the delivery suit while Hange and Moblit remained behind.

"You've done so well, my love, I'm so proud of you." Levi stroked Charlotte's cheek again and planted a soft kiss there before kissing me on the lips.

"I love you, Rei, so so much. Thank you." Levi held back another sob as he kissed my forehead, letting his lips linger for a moment longer.

"I love you too, Levi, thank you too, for everything that you've given me." I gave him a teary smile, looking at Charlotte who was lightly snoozing. Levi kissed my forehead once more, as Moblit carried Charlotte away, giving her all her first immunisations while Levi and I just gazed at each other. Renée and Léon cried a lot during their first injections, but Charlotte was so quiet. She merely squirmed around and let out a small cry, but soon after Hange was done, Charlotte was snoozing again.

"She really is a strong little girl, just like her name. I've never met a baby who's so brave when they're given their injections," Moblit smiled as he handed Charlotte back to us. "She's already living up to her name." Levi beamed at her proudly, stroking her cheek once more.

"But she's so quiet. I remember the twins crying a lot more. Is this normal?" Levi looked at Moblit with worry.

"Don't worry Levi, she's fine, she cried a lot earlier, didn't she? Her breathing's normal." Moblit threw his gloves and washed his hands before patting Levi on the shoulder. "We'll let Rei rest here a while more before transferring her back to the normal ward." Levi thanked him and Hange before they both left. The sleepiness started to consume me, and I passed Charlotte to Levi who placed her back in her little cot. The last thing I could remember was Levi kissing me good night, and all I saw next was black.

[06 July 2022]

"We're home," Levi called out as he unlocked our door. Aunty Kuchel was sitting at the living room couch feeding Léon his porridge while Renée was playing peek-a-boo with Pierre.

"Mama! Papa!" Renée called out as she dashed towards us. Aunty Kuchel placed Léon down on the couch before coming over to us as well.

"We're home, Maman," Levi and I called out together as we removed our shoes.

"Mes coeur! Rei, my darling, come here—" Aunty Kuchel grabbed my overnight bag from Levi and guided me to the couch while I was carrying Charlotte. Renée came over to us and stared at the bundle in my arms.

"Say hi to your little sister, ma chérie," Levi smiled as he placed an arm on my shoulder. Renée looked at the both of us and her eyes went back to Charlotte.

"哈喽妹妹，我是你姐姐。(Hello, younger sister, I am your older sister)." Aunty Kuchel carried the boys over too.

"Say hi, boys!" The boys started giggling once they locked eyes with Charlotte, and they happily cooed '妹妹 (younger sister)' together. Hearing all the noise, Charlotte briefly opened her eyes for a little while, and she let out a small whine and a cute yawn. Uh oh. She's hungry.

"Guess it's time to feed her," I told Levi and he brought me back to our room. We made Levi's study room into a temporary bedroom for Aunty Kuchel because she's staying over during my post-natal recovery. We've shifted the twins' cots over to the study room too, so that we can have Charlotte in ours. Renée followed us into the bedroom cautiously.

"Mama?"

"Yes, ma chérie?"

"...... can I touch meimei?" She asked us with wide eyes. To be honest, Levi and I were initially a little worried about Renée's response to yet another younger sibling, furthermore, a younger sister. After we had the boys, Renée got so grumpy and kept throwing tantrums all the time because we could no longer have all our attention on her.

However, it seems like we were thinking too much, because the moment Renée had her eyes on Charlotte, it's like the two of them were starting to form their own special sisterly bond too. One that only the both of them will share and have.

"Come here, ma chérie," Levi called her over and Renée softly poked Charlotte's cheek. Renée even reached her face down to give Charlotte a sniff.

"Meimei smells nice," she muttered, stroking Charlotte's arm now. Levi and I laughed.

"You smelt like that too, you know."

"Really? Was I so wrinkly too?"

"Yes, of course. Now, go out and look for Grand-mère, your Mama needs to feed meimei." Levi patted her cheek and Renée skipped outside. Once Renée was playing with the boys, Levi closed the door and held Charlotte as I briefly undressed. Charlotte was beginning to cry a little louder. Levi quickly handed Charlotte to me, and I cradled her in my arms while guiding her to find my breast, hopefully to get a successful latch on my nipple. It took me a few tries, but in the end, Charlotte managed to latch on my nipple and as she started sucking, I heaved a sigh of relief and lay back on the pillow.

"Damn, my boobs hurt," I whined as I closed my eyes, dreading the countless pumping of breast milk for our baby. My boobs were already feeling so heavy and sore and it hurts.

"I'll massage them later," Levi sat down next to me after changing out of his clothes, patting my knee.

"You just want a chance to grope them, don't you? You're jealous your daughter gets to suck my nipples and you don't," I joked with Levi and he frowned.

"Who said anything about wanting to suck your nipples? I have my entire life to do it." Levi crossed his hands behind his head and leaned on his pillow too.

"I'm serious. If they're hurting, let me know, okay? I'll massage your boobs before every time you pump. I'll freeze your guasha tools and jade roller too."

"Okay okay, amour. I will." Once Charlotte had her fill, I slowly rubbed her back and coaxed her to sleep, laying her against my chest and keeping her warm. As Charlotte snoozed, Levi and I just gazed as her. I still can't believe I gave birth to this angel two days ago. Levi, I, and our four children. Our little Ackerman family seemed whole and complete now. Who would have thought that the both of us would be in this stage of our lives in just six years? It was like Levi knew what I was thinking, and he reached an arm across my shoulder and hugged me close, pressing a soft kiss to my cheek.

"I love you, mon cœur. Thank you for everything that you've given me." I merely looked up at Levi and hummed, smiling as I felt tears starting to dot my lash line. I am so not ready for those mood swings again. Levi seemed to know what I was thinking too, because he wiped those tears away and tried to stiffle his laugh.

"I am so not looking forward to your random outbursts of crying," Levi stroked Charlotte's cheek again.

"I'm not too. But it's all good. I know you'll always be there for me." I whispered, slowly patting Charlotte's back as she snoozed. "But first, let's prepare ourselves for all the visiting that's coming for us soon—" I let out a yawn, quickly making sure that I didn't accidentally scare Charlotte.

"Mm. Don't worry. I told everyone to come only at their allocated time slots." Levi whipped out his phone and started going through the 'baby visiting schedule' he planned. Erwin, Mia, and their kids will be visiting tomorrow evening, followed by Nanaba and Mike the next day. Hange and Moblit will be dropping by when they both end work, and Farlan and Isabel will visit during the weekend. Before I knew it, my eyelids closed on their own and I dozed off listening to Levi's voice, my head leaning on his bare shoulder. Levi didn't realise I fell asleep too, until I stopped replying to him. Smiling to himself, Levi adjusted my head properly, hugged me a little closer, and just like that, we drifted off to dreamland together.

It felt like we were only asleep for a second, because Levi and I were both abruptly shaken awake by Charlotte's cries.

"She's hung—" Levi let out a yawn mid-sentence and rubbed his eyes. "She's hungry again? It's been barely two hours." I undressed again and tried to get Charlotte a successful latch, and moments later Charlotte was happily enjoying her milk.

"My daughter's hungry, and I am too," I grumbled and Levi started laughing. "She's only two days old and already having such a huge appetite."

"Guess who does our little angel resemble now, huh?" Levi kissed my forehead and pushed himself out of the bed as I continued to feed Charlotte.

"I'll get Maman to cook something for us. I'm starving too." Putting on a shirt, Levi went out to tell Aunty Kuchel to cook something. She's probably already going to make some confinement food for me. Mmm, my mouth watered at the thought of eating sesame oil chicken.

Levi didn't come back after a while, even after Charlotte finished drinking her milk. While coaxing a milk-drunk Charlotte to sleep, Levi came back later with a cup full of hot red dates tea. He urged me to finish drinking it so that I wouldn't feel so lethargic. As I finished drinking, Charlotte was sleeping peacefully as well. Levi and I just remained in bed while we waited for Aunty Kuchel to be done with dinner.

The first evening with Charlotte went okay, she didn't really cry much and drank her milk well. I was thankful to have Aunty Kuchel helping me watch the twins too, as they kept playing with their food. While I made sure Charlotte was properly fed, Levi was doing the same for me too, feeding me small mouthfuls of food. Renée was a great older sister as well, helping her Grand-mère and I with the young ones. She ate her meals quietly and helped Aunty Kuchel feed Léon. I had my hands full with taking care of Charlotte, and I was glad that I had such a supportive mother-in-law and husband. Even my eldest daughter was beginning to show more of her 'big sister' side.

Once we were all done with our meals, I went back to the bedroom and started to coax Charlotte to sleep again. Levi was by my side, giving me a shoulder massage. Just then, there was a knock on our door.

"Mama?" Levi and I both turned our heads and saw Renée outside, holding her brothers on each side.

"Yes, ma chérie?" Levi ushered the children in and carried the boys onto our bed.

"Can we all sleep together on your bed tonight?" Renée asked as Pierre started crawling on our bed and Léon ran into Levi's chest. Carrying the boys on his left and right, Levi smiled and told Renée to come up too. She giggled and snuggled in between Levi and I. Instead of sticking close to her Papa, Renée shifted closer to me and started staring at Charlotte again. We both looked at each other, surprised by her behaviour.

"Who wants a bedtime story?" Levi suddenly spoke and the twins started laughing. Renée loved it when Levi read her bedtime stories. Levi was surprisingly good at story-telling, and he can even change his pitch and voice when he was changing between the characters. Levi started telling them about Goldilocks and the Three Bears, not forgetting to make things a little exaggerating to scare them too.

However, Renée was still uninterested in whatever Levi was doing and instead, she hugged me while Charlotte was still in my arms too.

"Mama, can I carry meimei?"

I hesitated for a while. Can I really trust my six-year-old with my two-day old baby? What if Renée didn't know how to carry Charlotte correctly and injured her? What if she hurt herself too? In the end, I gave Renée a smile and nodded.

"Of course you can, sweetheart. Show me how do you carry Mr Teddy?" Renée grabbed a pillow and imitated my arms, cradling the pillow pretending it was her favourite bear.

"Good job. But you must be careful, okay? Meimei is a lot heavier than Mr Teddy. You must tell Mama or Papa if your arms are aching." Renée nodded again and she placed the pillow on her lap, using it to support her arms. I slowly placed Charlotte in her arms while Levi watched. Renée groaned when she felt the weight on her arms.

"I don't like meimei anymore," Renée whined again and I quickly carried Charlotte back into my arms. "She's heavy when she's so tiny."

"You were this tiny and heavy too, ma chérie," Levi chuckled and Pierre stirred in his sleep. "Imagine how tired Mama is from carrying meimei all day." Renée kept quiet for a while and she looked like she was in deep thought.

"Mama, if you're tired, I'll massage your arms." My heart softened hearing Renée. She really is growing up and acting like a big sister now.

"What about me, hmm? My arms are aching after carrying your didi too." Levi started complaining and Renée giggled, saying that her Papa doesn't need massages because his arms are stronger. Who knew the day would come where Renée would actually talk back to Levi.

As time passed, Renée was getting sleepy too. She closed her eyes and lay down on my pillow. Levi was still carrying the boys too. And as we looked at each other again, we gently kissed our four children goodnight, before washing up and getting ready for bed too.

"And finally, we have the entire house to ourselves." Levi grumbled while we were brushing our teeth. He went to shave his stubble while I changed into my night gown. Now that our children are all asleep, I can finally pump my milk without getting disturbed.

"You were the one who said you wanted a fourth child, amour, don't forget that." I yawned and went to grab the pumps, wondering if I will be getting proper sleep. Taking my seat on the armchair next to Charlotte's cot, I attached the pumps onto my breasts and let them do their work.

"Of course I wanted another one. Look at how happy they all are." Levi came out after he was done and squeezed himself onto the armchair, draping an arm across my waist. "I didn't have siblings growing up, and neither did you. Maybe this is why I always wanted to have many children." I hummed in agreement, feeling the fatigue slowly consuming me.

"I know, amour. I feel the same too. B-but it's ju—" I let out another yawn and Levi let out a soft laughter.

"Get some sleep, baby, I'll take care of Charlotte if she wakes up." I nodded again and leaned my head on my husband's shoulder, drifting off to sleep as I felt his lips gently kissing my forehead. Levi and I are now proud parents to our four beautiful children, and no matter how tired things get, I'm sure we'll never exchange this for anything else in the world. Levi, Renée, Pierre, Léon, Charlotte, and I. Our happy little family.

Hehe yes everyone, the little princess is called Charlotte Rachel Ackerman 🥰 and yes, I'll post the meaning behind the kiddos names soon!!! I've put A LOT of thought into our children's names so please hold up and wait out for that post hehe. ALSO. Don't you all wanna know how the four Ackerman juniors look like?? Hehe.

And I know some of the things here are taking place in the 'future' lol BUT LET IT SLIDE OKAY IT'S FICTION HAHA. Lastly. I apologise for the verbal diarrhoea I know it is very long-winded and dramatic 😂

#levi x rei #reivi #self-indulgent writing #HAHAHAHAHAHAA FUCKING HELL I AM SORRY YOU ALL #just let me be crazy here ayyy :')))

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