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sturnsreader · 5 months
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scars
TW: self harm
!! requested by @sturns-posts !!
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౨ৎ ⋆。˚
“y/n?” you heard your boyfriend, matt, call from upstairs. you sighed and made your way up stairs to find matt on his laptop. you walked around the corner and smiled walking up to him.
“yes matty?” you asked cheerfully.
“are you okay?” he asked sounding concerned.
“yeah, why?” you asked confused at by the sudden worry.
“well, im just worried about you.” he sighed. you noticed that he kept looking back down to his computer screen to making glances at your arms.
“you would tell me if you weren't, right?” he asked.
you gulped wondering what he knew.
“yes, baby, please dont worry about it.” you nodded quickly before turning back to go downstairs.
he grabbed your waist and pulled you back into his arms playing with your hair.
“are you sure you’re okay?” he asked again repeating himself. you nodded into his chest before he pulled you back leading you into his room. he didn’t say a word, just sat you on his bed and opened up the screen. on the left hand side of the screen was a recent picture of you in mcdonalds that a camera man had taken, on the right hand side was the same photo just zoomed into your wrist. your scars visible for the world to see. you read the headline over and over in your head sighing.
'HAS TWITTER TROLLS PUSHED MATTHEW STURNIOLO’S GIRLFRIEND OVER THE EDGE?'
“what is this? you told me you stopped a while ago and if you felt like that you were going to tell me. did i do something wrong?” he asked pointing to your wrist on the screen with teary eyes. you couldn't speak, your whole throat had closed up.
he noticed and pulled you onto his lap staring into your stinging eyes.
“i love you so much and i want nothing but for you to be the happiest girl ever. i let anyone hurt you. whether they're old or new, i don't care because i'm here for you now and i always will be." he smiled before kissing your forehead softly. a tear escaped your eye making you smile.
“we don't have to talk about this now, whenever you're ready.” he smiled resting your head onto his chest as he wiped the tears off.
| 2 hours later |
“hey, i know you wanted to go to the cabin back in massachusetts, so were going with nick and chris tomorrow morning!” he said with a smile while tucking your hair behind your ear.
“baby, you didn’t have to”
“shh, i wanted to.” he said as he hugged you around the waist.
you waited at least 10 seconds before letting go. matt’s hugs were the most comforting thing ever. “can you help me pack, please.”
matt shook his head up and down with a big smirk while grabbing your hand and walking downstairs to the bedroom.
“oh, how long are we staying.”
“since were with nick and chris we are staying for a week and a half, but soon we can go alone.”
he was digging through the closet trying to find a bag big enough before you made him stop.
“i love you so much.”
“i love you more, my love” you could tell he meant it. “we are going down to nick and chris’s house tomorrow morning at 4 am. i know its early but i want to get there earlier, if its okay with you.” he said right after he found a perfect suitcase to fit all your stuff.
| two days later |
“hey babe i was scrolling through things to do here and there is a tattoo parlor like five minutes away from us can we PLEASE get tattoos together!” nick said excitedly.
“shut up you have been rambling about tattoos the whole time we-“ chris said as you cut him off.
“nick i would LOVE to get a tattoo with you and i know exactly what i want. follow me!” you said as you go to find matt in the store.
“im getting a tattoo with nick and i just want you to draw stars around my scars.” you say while going through your purse to find a pen.
matt looks at you in awe as he takes the marker and draws the cutest stars ever. you start to tear up. you look up at him as he concentrates on drawing them all.
౨ৎ ⋆。˚
not my best work but i tried 🥲🥲
i hope you enjoyed and if you have anything you need to talk about message me! i love you guys sm🩷.
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patscorner · 19 days
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TRIGGER WARNING
I'm only gonna say this once. If you haven't gone through it, don't speak on it, especially when it's about self harm, or mental health in general.
You have no idea what someone has going on, and if you don't understand it, then talking about it is not something you should be doing.
You need to reevaluate and understand that people go through things, and not everything is rainbow and sunshine. "Just don't do it"
PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP‼️ ITS NEVER THAT EASY. AND IF YOU HAVENT GONE THROUGH IT, AND DONT UNDERSTAND IT DONT SAY SHIT.
Anyways, love yall, stay safe.
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monster-gut · 8 months
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The journey to healing is long, but you don't have to do it alone. I find that it's easier when others are their with me
I know exactly what it feels like to want to hurt. To want to keep hurting. You're not alone
I see you
I hear you
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mikeyelistsukasa · 1 year
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Hanako,Sakura,Teru,Tsukasa & Kou seeing Darling‘s SH scars for the first time
Tw: self harm ofc,scars mentioning,basically dark topic
An:yeah it wasnt requested,i wrote that because…why not?Enjoy NOT PROOF READ
please do not self harm yourself. And im sorry to those who already done it or ho though it. Stay strong and don’t give up. Ily all
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You were cleaning the bathroom today because yashiro was sick today and kou had to leave early
Not that you minded. You still have company and that is hanako and those little adorable mokke‘s.
This is a lot better than going home and just lying in bed doing nothing or homework.
„say s/o-chan/kun, how come you agreed to clean the bathroom? Most people would decline it you know, GASP don’t tell me you enjoy my company~“
„Oh sush will ya? Im doing this cause i feel bad for yashiro…but i suppose you are correct about me enjoying your company“
Hanako smirked, happy at the response you gave him
„Now tell me where is the sponge and gloves so that i can start cleaning the toilet“
„Oh!- its over there“
Hanako pointed to the left corner
„I’ll bring them to you :D“
Hanako decided to spare you these 5 steps and decided to bring them to you
But just as he turned around he saw you pulling your sleeves up so that you wont get your sweater dirty
You reached out your hand to take it but before hanako gave it to you he
He noticed scars?
This boy stared in shock at your wrist
„Uhm…hanako? Can you give me the gloves already?“
Suddenly you are being grabbed against dour wrist
„S-S/O YOUR ARM I- WHAT HAPPEND ?!! WHO DID THIS?!?? DOES IT STILL HURT??!!“
It took you a second to understand that he is talking about you scars
„O-oh! I totally forgot i had them“
You laughed a little seeing hanako‘s worried expression
„DONT LAUGH! YOU ARE HURT“
Just before he could go to grab some bandages you gently grabbed his hand
„Pft Hanako…im okay.“
You sat down with the ghost
„Im sorry for laughing i guess heh, your worried expression was pretty cute tho~“
Hanako flushed at that but you could still he his concerned look
„To answer your questions. I self harmed. I did that to myself. And no they do not hurt anymore because i quitted“
You smiled gently hoping it will relax the poor boy for a bit
But i think you only did worse
„Yourself??? Why??? Dont tell me someone forced you to do it to yourself. When did you quit???“
„Geez give me a break dude haha….i had a very hard time back then where i thought doing this is the only way to release stress.i had big family issues at that time but now everything is doing well.and to answer your last question i did about 2 years ago. So again do.not.worry“
Hanako blinked processing every word you just said
„I see“
Suddenly he stands up reaching out a pair of gloves
„Well ready to continue cleaning?~“
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You and Sakura were sitting in the broadcasting room enjoying some cup of tea while reading books
„Hm“
„Is there something wrong?“
Sakura asked without taking her eyes from her book
„No not at all. I just got really invested in the book you gave me its very interesting i like it! Thank you by the way“
Sakura smiled to herself hearing that and went back to reading her book
Suddenly instead of reaching her cup, Sakura accidentally spilled her cup of tea with her elbow all over your pretty white gloves
„Ow ow ow ow ow hot hot hot!“
„Oh no dear- im sorry i didnt mean to do that, it was an accident“
You slowly take off the glove
„It’s alright don’t worry hah! Everyone doesn’t mistakes“
Sakura couldn’t help but let a slight sigh of relief hearing that
Thought that relaxed aura she just had disappeared right this instant after seeing your wrist
You stared at her in confusion
„…..S-sakura?“
Sakura stared at your wrist realising those are old scars and coming to a conclusion that you stopped this awful habit
…but just in case-
„You don’t do this anymore. Right?“
„Eh? Oh! Nono don’t worry i quitted. Im okay now :D“
„Understood“
Sakura grabbed gently both of your hands
„I’ll go get you new gloves“
„Oh don’t worry it’s okaaaaaaand she is already on her way„
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“Hey s/o.”
You saw Teru sitting next to you
“How come you always wear a sweater under your uniform? I mean its summer. Aren’t you like sweating under there?”
“Ah hello Minamoto-kun. No im not sweating under it. And i wear it because its my favourite sweater! Ofc i wouldn’t wear it if it was that hot for me, i dont like it that much to the point i would sweat under it”
“Well nothing i can do. Also i told you, you can use my first name”
“Yeah yeah okay prince minamoto (¬_¬) “
Boink
“Whaaa what was that for T-T“
“you know exactly why :)“
“say... Wanna go out tomorrow like i dunno swimming? I heard it is going to be very hot tomorrow”
“Hmmm…yeah sure! Im free tomorrow so i don’t mind”
“Great! I’ll meet you there”
And just like that the bell rang and you went your ways
𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚝 𝚍𝚊𝚢 | (• ◡•)|
You were waiting for teru at the beach for about 10 minutes already
“Phew, he sure didn’t lie about it being hot today”
You took off your favourite sweater and wrapped it around your torso(or hips idk)
“S/o!”
“Speak of the devil”
You turn around to see none other than Teru Minamoto
“Hey Min- Teru… well where do you wanna go first?”
“Hm how abouuutttt…some ice cream?”
“Sounds great to me!”
And just like that you guys went to get something to refresh youself
And while you two eat you remembered that you need to apply some sunscreen
“Teruuuuuu~”
“Yeah?”
After teru saw s/o holding the sunscreen he without any hesitation sat down allowing s/o to put suncream on him
“In return I get to put sunscreen on you correct?”
“Hmmmmmm alright alright”
After some minutes s/o finished and took off her clothes revealing herself only in a bikini
Teru slightly blushed after seeing s/o in such clothes but stayed respectful non then less
That is until he saw s/o do a ponytail revealing scars on their shoulders
“S-s/o…”
S/o sat down signalling teru to put the sunscreen on their back
“Teru? Is something wrong?”
“What…happened to your shoulders?”
“O-oh… well you see back when i was *insert younger self* i had fallen into pretty deep rabbit hole after loosing something/someone important to me….”
Teru couldn’t tell if you finished talking or want to add something more
“But…”
S/o shows their left/right arm to show more scars
Woah!How did he not notice them before?
“I was only getting more and more let down with each day. To the point i started to let out my anger on myself”
Teru looked at your expression seeing that you were uncomfortable with the topic so he put the cold sunscream without saying anything on your spine
„C-COLD you jerk!!!!“
„Haha. Im sorry we don’t want you get burned right?…Also promise to quit what you are d-„
„I already have don’t worry, these scars are like from 2-4 years ago“
„Oh! Well if you feel like doing it again let me know and I’ll be there gor you“
„pft You sure are cheesy today“
„Well what can i say? Im spending time with the most beautiful person right now“
„Oh my~“
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„S/O S/O S/O S/O S/O S/O S/OOOOOOOOOO“
„Sigh what is it tsukasa.“
„Let’s go find some supernaturals to smash!“
„Heh yeah-no not today im very tired right now“
„Awh :(„
„Don’t give me that look“
:(((((
„Fine just not for too long…“
„YAAAAAY“
‚i don’t think we will find a supernatural anyway‘ i thought
When out of nowhere i heard some noise
But that was probably just my imagination
„OHHH A MOKKE“
„W-wait tsukasa don’t run away!….great now im alone“
Suddenly i heart the same noise again but this time it sounded like someone was…growling?
Just as i turned around i saw a big supernatural right behind me
I barely managed to dodge his attack but in the process it ripped off my sleeve
„TSUKASA??!?!?!NOW IS A GREAT TIME TO SMASH A SUPERNATURAL“
You closed your eyes ready to take the supernaturals attack
….but nothing came
In fact you heard some…unpleasant noises
You opened your eyes just to see tsukasa smashing the supernaturals face against the floor
You stood up glad that you didn’t get hurt and went up to tsukasa
„Hey…tsukasa thats enough“
„It hurted you…“
„Hm? No it didn’t don’t worry so lets just g-„
„Your arm“
You looked at your arm confused since you don’t feel any pain on it
„Oh! Tsukasa those scars are old its okay it wasn’t the supernatural that did it!“
„There are others that hurt you?…“
Tsukasa stood up and placed his hands on your shoulders
„Tell me who“
His dark aura made you kinda nervous
„Well how do i explain this to you…the one that caused these scars was me“
„S/o is hurting themselves???!!! (」°ロ°)」 „
„No! I mean- it was a long time ago…so do not worry i am not being hurt and im not hurting myself“
Tsukasa didnt quite fully understand why you did that in the first place but hearing you being safe is all that matterd to him.
„well then…LETS GO FIND MORE TO SMASH“
„NO-„
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You and kou had teamed up at school to be partners in cooking class
‚They probably teamed up with me cuz they struggle with cooking‘
‚i teamed up with him to spend more time with him‘
Yeaaaaahhhh cooking sure was something
Honestly he didn’t even notice your scars right away after you rolled up your sleeves
He noticed it when he told you to cut the cucumber
„Ow! Stupid knife(╥_╥)“
„S-s/o are you okay?“
„Yeah just a tiny scar on my finger heh“
„Wait let me see- S/O YOUR AR-„
You quickly put your hand against his mouth
„is everything okay here you two?“
„Y-yes mr. (Teachers name)“
That was close
You shouted with a whispering voice
„What was that you idiot???we almost got in trouble“
„your arm its full of scars!!!!“
„Yeah??? So what“
„What do you mean so what???? I got concerned and-“
„You two! Out.now“
„.:…Promise to not tell nii-chan that i got into trouble“
„I promise-„
„OH RIGHT your ar-„
„Sighhhh you still on about that?“
„Ofc! What happened??? Who did this???How did it happen???Does it still hurt??? Should i bring anything????“
You let out a small laugh. You hate to admit it but kou being so worried is so cute to you
„Its alright kou. Those are my old selfharm scars“
„huh- but-but why would you hurt yourself?“
„Sometimes people do harm themselves. Some stay up late. Some stop eating and well…“
You looked at your wrist
„Some people harm themselves physically“
Kou grabbed both of your hands
„I might not have a right to say anything about this but please don’t ever do this again! You matter so much to me…the last thing i want is to see my friend/bf/gf/partner suffer while i dont do anything!!! I will do everything and anything you want just please…“
Hearing that made your eyes form up some tears
„D-don’t cry!!! Did i say something wrong??!!!?“
„Oh kou… i promise. Those are old ones so dont worry I’ve stopped…it’s just…hearing this i-„
You hugged Kou tightly which startled the exorcist
„Thank you“
Kou hugged you back tightly
„You’re welcome“
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Hope i left you satisfied. Stay safe you all and don’t do stupid stuff
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the-magic-mirror · 2 months
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It’s self injury awareness month, so my art will largely focus on self harm and recovery for the time. Will tag all art for triggers. Block tw sh and sh recovery to avoid triggers in the future.
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Important reminder !
Doctors won't tell anyone about your sh scars. They can't give any of your informations to anybody unless your life or someone elses is at risk. Even if you're minor they can't tell your parents, so really do not be scared to seek medical care if needed
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lunarofthevalley · 2 months
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“Do you understand how much this hurts me to see?”
Yes every time I look at the scars on my arms I consider your feelings first.
Every internal battle regarding if I can take my sweater off in a hot room is done with your feelings in mind.
Trying to brush off the stares I get in public like they don’t bother me is all done for you.
Coming up with a story on the spot with an ache in my chest when a child asks what happened to my arms is of course done for you.
Fighting off the urges while having to constantly look at the carnage from the past must be done for you.
I’ll gladly be selfish when defending my pain,
Because dammit i’m still here and it hurt to get here and it hurts to try and stay,
I will never apologize still being here.
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lunerabo · 6 months
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I just saw the most depressing TikTok I’ve ever fuckin seen I’m not gonna explain but if anybody on here is thinking about it jfc do not post shit about how to ‘safely’ SH. It’s SH. There’s nothing ‘safe’ about it. If you wanna be safe, then stop doing it. The only thing posts like these are going to do is give the idea that SH is okay, thus encouraging people to continue doing it. For the love of fuck do not be part of the problem. Please don’t scroll past this reblog to spread awareness
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kurochaccomcflurry · 13 days
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Having someone who is slowly destroying themselves around and not knowing what to do is dessesperating...
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sw4rm-16 · 14 days
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tw: sh
all i want is to forget it all
but a strong enough drug hasnt been invented yet
and no cut could ever be deep enough.
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piney-45 · 11 months
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crying to sharpener by cavetown
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zebraaddictsh · 1 year
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Guess who’s about to relapse after almost two months clean? I didn’t even have a bad day either
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st4r-cr0ssed-l0v3r · 2 months
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I AM OFFICIALLY 1 MONTH CLEAN OF SH!!!!!!
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
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the-magic-mirror · 2 months
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EROS is normally a series of red and blue ink drawings, but the color for self harm awareness month is orange, so I went with orange and blue.
Bloom is partly about getting help, recovery, and trying new things besides self harm, and partly about experiences in mental health institutions. It’s often a traumatizing experience, though other patients can sometimes help, as they did with me. The themes of this piece are supposed to be a play on having blood drawn, on finding your lifeline, contrasting the upsetting clinical environment with communal growth. The idea that it’s meant to be a supportive place, and yet many people find it hostile, especially towards poc.
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poetrybysolace · 1 year
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9-21
All these bittersweet mornings are fruitless to me.
So, I smile through clenched teeth
and try to stay
six feet away
from the guillotine
that hangs above my head
while I sleep.
The weight of the rope in my hands is paralyzing,
and it’s frayed edges haunt me
but at least I’m in control.
Though the power I have is enchanting,
I’ll try to find my way home.
At nineteen
I’m everything I’ve ever wanted to be.
I haven’t fully processed this yet.
I just hope I live long enough to feel it.
Goddamn,
I wish this were as easy as I pretend it is.
- 2021
(from my book, A few moments of honesty)
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whyybesocial · 1 year
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people should know about us.
girls who write their pain on their bodies.
- girl in pieces,
kathleen glasgow
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