im so glad almost all detective media seems to recognise the very important fact that being a detective is inherently homosexual

small win - a year ago today i was very frequently self harming. today i am 3 weeks clean and am proud to say that my clean streaks keep getting longer each time. sure i relapse every now and then but the thoughts of self harm no long consume my life like they did a year ago. i’m really proud of the progress i’ve made. celebrate your small wins! i’m so proud of all of you 💕💕💕

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fuck a cum sock, all the cool kids have blood socks

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Yandere x SH-scarred Reader.

The first time he sees your scars is the first time he has you undress for him. It doesn't matter if they're not very visible, if they're many years old. He's observant, and with how his eyes roam over every inch of your skin, it's not a detail he misses.

At first, he goes quiet.

Then a hand softly trails over the marks, feeling the ridges. "What's this from?" he asks.

Maybe his voice is gentle. Maybe it's firm like an accusation. It's hard to read him, to tell if he knows what they're from. To the average person, scars like that make no sense.

But he's far from average, isn't he?

Whether he knows their origin or not, he makes you tell him regardless. Waits patiently for your hesitation to subside, for your nerves to ease. By the time you've submitted to his whims enough to disrobe, words- even difficult ones- aren't that much harder to follow. You tell him. Maybe you throw excuses in. "It was a long time ago." "I don't do that anymore." "It was a hard time in my life."

His eyes narrow just slightly, gaze focused but hard to discern. When he doesn't reply, you grow more nervous.

"I'm sorry," you say.

That's when he pulls you into his arms, shushes you, tightens his hold, plants a kiss in your hair.

"There's nothing to apologize for," he says. After all, he'll never let you fall into such despair ever again. He'll keep you safe from everything... Even yourself.

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If you have recent cuts? Everything ramps up to 1000. If you thought your freedoms were restricted before, think again. You will be under surveillance anytime he's not able to be by your side, or he will simply take you with him. You'll undergo full-body inspections to check for sharps. If you resort to biting yourself, he'll just have to keep you muzzled. No lengths will be spared to keep his darling intact.

"fuck you my child is completely fine!"

this is in your child's bookmarks

Excuse my fat thighs please lol

sherlock & co. review from an insane person (me) coz this is like. the 25th? sherlock adaptation i've checked out so ofc i have opinions on everything ever. and ik ppl who work on indie podcasts browse tumblr sometimes so just in case you work on this DON'T click keep reading, this post is not for youuu shoo. thanks x

ok so far it's like. fine? which is lowkey sad coz i wish it was smtg i really liked but it hasn't gripped me yet which is a shame but yknow. early days. i'm giving it time since it's only 15 episodes so far

my main issue is like. i really wish it wasn't so obviously influenced by bbc but it just so clearly is which is a shaaame like it's better than bbc in every aspect but yknow. not a high bar to clear. like it kinda feels like they liked a lot of things abt bbc and set out to fix the bad parts (h&w friendship being nonexistent, the mysteries being shit) but just kept the rest? in some places keeping things that were invented by bbc which is. baffling tbh

i'm not really picky when it comes to h&w personalities like i think it's fine to just do whatever you want w them, i think it's really fun when an adaptation gives them different personalities than what you're used to but, and this is where it feels far too bbc-ish for comfort, i just don't like it when sherlock is a cunt for no reason? like. he's not a mean person he's only mean in bbc coz moffat thought house md was cool and ripped it off. can we stop making him mean pleeeease 😭 he's just some guy..................

h&w relationship wise it's like... ok so i tend to go into adaptations with a fully clean slate so like i never let my general attachment to them influence how i view them in specific adaptations, the work itself needs to sell me on both the characters and the relationship and like... here neither of those really happened yet which makes me sad coz i think by now it should've but i'm giving it time. at least they're friends and i like that watson is useful for cases/knows things holmes doesn't sometimes coz thats like. such an essential element to sh stories for me and a loooottt of adaptations tend to just completely forget it so that's a win but idk if anything they're too tame? like i dont expect a romance but they can't just be casual friends they need to be bat shit crazy about each other. to me. but like maybe that'll develop over the rest of the podcast we'll see

kinda related to that point but case-wise i think holmes is a bit too ahead of everyone else sometimes which isn't inherently a problem but it does once again smell of bbc which like. noone should ever emulate moffat writing don't do that 🙏 god bles. but i've been able to solve every case along with/before the mcs which is like. thee point of mystery stories for me so yea i really like the stories themselves so far, especially the way they manage to make them solvable even without visuals or narration. OH and i almost forgot but i rly like the soundtrack, i love it when sh soundtracks have a heavy emphasis on violins coz. yknow

howeverr i am on my hands and knees begging them not to give watson a girlfriend tho like please oh myfffucking god . obvs watsonlock doesn't usually factor into my enjoyment of adaptations given that like. y'know. out of the hundreds out there theres only two where either of them is even gay so it's not something i expect nor require but like. to me it is essential that these two ppl are insane abt each other and don't really have anyone else, definitely noone important. like even the rdj movies got this despite ritchie's obsession w the 2 men 1 woman dynamic so idk why i'm constantly having to wage a war against random unnecessary romances for either watson or, god forbid, holmes. when the only interesting relationship either of these men have is with each other. that one granada holmes quote about them choosing not to include mary coz holmes and watson dont need anyone else etc etc. like i seriously dislike it when they introduce anyone else like cmonnnnnn thog dont care

anyway tldr. i guess if asked to pick a short description i'd say. promising? i hope it's gonna be good in the long run. the way they do mysteries is already something i like so. i hope they keep that up and i hope the h&w relationship evolves into something i enjoy coz so far i'm like. i can see the bones of smtg i'll potentially like but it's not there yet. but also like. this is an indie production i'm listening to for free so ion wanna rip into it these are mainly just what i liked/disliked based on the preferences i developed with this one quick trick (grow up completely insane abt sherlock holmes -> consume every adaptation that you can get your paws on -> no profit)

TW SH

Wie ktos jak szybko pozbyć sie tych ran lub co zrobic by szybciej sie goiły?? np jakies kremy czy cos.. Pliska tak zeby do 8 dni były zagojone, i zeby nie zostały blizny

i’m 85 days clean. holy shit

chronic self harm take

me: (literally cuts myself so bad i need stitches) meh. i barely feel it

also me: (forgets to stretch) i am in AGONY

“Do you understand how much this hurts me to see?”

Yes every time I look at the scars on my arms I consider your feelings first.

Every internal battle regarding if I can take my sweater off in a hot room is done with your feelings in mind.

Trying to brush off the stares I get in public like they don’t bother me is all done for you.

Coming up with a story on the spot with an ache in my chest when a child asks what happened to my arms is of course done for you.

Fighting off the urges while having to constantly look at the carnage from the past must be done for you.

I’ll gladly be selfish when defending my pain,

Because dammit i’m still here and it hurt to get here and it hurts to try and stay,

I will never apologize still being here.