Yknow I'm kinda really tired of people using my mental illness. Full stop

Like I'm tired of "psycho schizo man murders family" true crime shows I'm tired of "crazy guy escapes psych ward oh no!!" Movies I'm tired of 'alt' peoples romanticization of mental illness I'm tired of "shadow people" and "hat man" jokes

Idk man I'm just tired

have been learning more about disability justice / abolitionist frameworks for mental health care / community care / restorative justice, and the like. found this article and the first paragraph made me cry, so i thought i'd share for my fellow disabled trans babes <3

"The first time I saw Poison Ivy, I fell in love with her. She was sexy, smart, powerful. I don’t know if wanted to fuck her or if I wanted to be her. She was crazy, and I loved that, because I was crazy, too. She was a woman trespassing on the Mad scientist boy’s club, genetically engineering offspring (who needs men for reproduction?) and putting pressure on our human-centric worldview with her passion for plant-life. She was incredible.

But I didn’t get to play Ivy. I had to play Batman. And Batman punished Ivy for being a Mad queer femme. He played the role of the legal system, and the legal system punishes people like her, like me. The logic of the game was patriarchal, sanist, ableist. The game made me hurt us."

Mad/Crip Games and Play: An Intro by Adan Jerreat-Poole

being trans is not a delusion. nondelusional people can be trans. nontrans people can be delusional. people who are both trans and delusional are not trans because of their delusions, and they are not delusional for being trans.

delusions are strongly held beliefs outside of reality. and identifying with a gender that doesnt allign with your sex assigned at birth is real.

plus gender is a social construct. so things like xenogenders, neogenders, mulitgenders, genderfluidity and any other gender identity is just as valid for being constructed socially.

the belief i see that new genders are delusions, or transness is a delusion, is transphobic and sanist. being trans has nothing to do with delusions or psychosis. and being delusional or psychotic doesnt indicate if you are trans or not. and delusional or psychotic trans people exsist, but their transness isnt what makes them delusional, and their delusions dont make them trans.

im tired of seeing transphobes use words like "delusional", "psychotic" or "schizophrenic" to invalidate trans people. trans peoples identities are real and valid. these people are clearly very ignorant of the meaning of transgender and the meaning of delusional at the same time. and this especially hurts those of us who are both trans and delusional, psychotic or schizophrenic who are the least likely to be believed and validated.

if you are trans and not delusional, please try and make the distinction without being sanist. and please be kind to people who are both and dont pretend they dont exsist. you can advocate for trans people without bringing people with delusions down. you can make the destinction without pretending that trans people who have delusions dont exsist. people who are trans and have delusions are still part of the trans community.

Let’s see then… HOW…?

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it's one thing to use ableist language but it's another to actively shit on and mock antiableist alternatives we've come up with. it's just double ableism and there's a special place in hell for you

Fucking begging supposedly leftist people to stop being sanist while trying to advocate for marginalized groups or talking about politics. Being bigoted in one way isnt helping combat other forms of bigotry or helping you to fight against fascism and other harmful ideologies. For example, when you call all transphobes/terfs etc "insane/crazy/psycho" etc you are not helping me as a mentally ill trans woman, you are just being bigoted to me in a different way. You are also validating the sanism that a lot of those exact people believe in.

Viewing bigotry, hate, terrible ideology and all things you deem bad in the world as synonimous with people like me is just hatred. You are part of the problem. Using denigrating terms for people like me as equivalent to those persecuting me is not fucking helpful.

Y'all can understand how someone who calls everything they view as bad "gay" is homophobic but then can't seem to piece together that calling everything you view as bad "crazy/insane etc" is sanism. Hint if you view a marginalized group as synonimous with everything wrong in the world you're a bigot too.

I am just so so so sick of how obvious it is that most of you see people like me as the embodiment of evil. You need to accept that sane people like you are just as capable of terrible acts and beliefs, above and beyond that you are going to have to reconcile with the reality that the vast VAST VAST majority of bigots are "sane" like you. That the vast majority of violence done in this world is done by sane people. I get that sanism is your emotional support bigotry that helps you sleep at night, because you get to Sit there going "I cant do and believe terrible things, I'm not "insane" like those bigots and fascists. I have the essentially good brain, unlike these evil bad brain people." but from where I'm standing your sanism is dangerous to me just like the people you're incorrectly calling crazy are, and you need to take a long look in the mirror and start deconstructing that. Because until you do, you are no ally, accomplice, or safe person for me. Big fucking hint those people you are decrying hate people like me and say the same shit about everyone they dislike that you do. Centrists and neoliberals and bigots and conservatives and fascists are not terrible because they're insane or crazy or whatever diagnosis term you're incorrectly throwing around this week, they are terrible because of their beliefs and because of how they seize and use power.

If you have ever agreed with something I've said you have agreed with a crazy person. If that sentence makes you uncomfortable or squeamish you need to unpack where that comes from or you are going to keep hurting marginalized people like me.

Just thoughts from one of those scary insane people you spend so much time ostracizing and demonizing.

Let the schizophrenics unmask without institutionalizing us send tweet

people who say "i wont feed into your delusion/delusional identity" are so silly because there's no way for them to judge our "level" of delusion. or what behaviors even are related to delusion (yes im talking about psychotics here too. many psychotics are deeply guilty of this sanism.)

i just bought a little personal utensil set online. it has a knife, fork, spoon, and a little container. this is mostly because i have a contamination/uncleanliness delusion. if i follow the beliefs of the "i wont feed into your delusion" crowd, i never would have bought that and would have struggled with eating from utensils indefinitely. because getting my own personal utensil set with the intention of avoiding the contaminated utensils of others, in their eyes, would be "feeding into delusion." in their eyes, any level of non-negative interactions with delusions are inherently bad and inherently harmful. to them, if you're psychotic and not actively attempting to shame yourself out of delusions (or other psychotic symptoms) this is a moral failing.

fortunately, this isnt how delusions work in real life (or anything. when has self-shame helped us really?) my personal utensil set doesnt confirm My reality as any more real to me than it was before. the people in my life who encouraged me to buy my utensil set, and who will encourage me to use it, are not worsening my delusions. my delusions are already there, and they will be there regardless of what happens to me; schizophrenia is chronic after all. all they have done is provide me an environment where i wont be judged if i engage in coping methods related to soothing delusions, and where i am encouraged to cope and feel better

the best part is, engaging with my personal utensil set AND other people encouraging me to use it is completely unnocuous. it's literally just a fork, knife, and spoon; a person eating with a personal utensil set is uncommon and a bit odd, but nothing more. these behaviors not only cause no harm to me (they directly benefit me actually) but they also cause no harm to others

this post is about coping behaviors and respect for delusional people. this post is not about whether you should engage with your delusions in a specific way or not. every delusional person has an individual experience and should address their delusions in whichever way helps them most - but this does not mean forcing other delusional people to cope with whichever method worked best for you, especially if that is shame.

Insane Clown Posse identity masterlist. General: (Juggalos, ICP in general, Hatchet Man) ICPgender ICPical + CadensICP ICPhypic ICPfascic Evilclownic Juggafayic Jugglmakeupic Juggalogender Juggalothing (alternative flag, accidental recoin) Juggalettething Juggalogirlfriend Juggalotrender Juggaloweirdo Juggaloish Hatchetmanix Hatchetmanthing ICP introject/kin flag

Faygo: Faygothing Ccfaygothing Peachfaygogender Moonmistfaygoan Faygosubjugglic Handful of Faygo flavor objectum terms i know user win95s had more terms related to faygo planned beside moonmistfaygoan. if anybody would happen to know if these were coined prior to deactivation and also had a link to them, that would be greatly appreciated.

Specific songs and albums: Myaxeical + Cadensmyaxe Myaxesongic + Myaxegender Boogiewoogiewusongic Thefearlessfredfuryic Juggalojuicesongic (alt flag) Vulturesongic Chainsawnightical + Bazookajoeyical + Butcherjoeyical + Theboneical Inmyroomsongic (alt flag) CC&Psongic WITLsongic Bedlamic Madprofessic Mentalwarpsongic Cemeterygirlsongic

Warning to anyone who posts about having a schizo-spec disorder, psychosis or psychotic symptoms openly online:

• it's possible that people will be sanist to you

• it's possible people will claim you are lying

• it's possible people will try to trigger you and make you paranoid

These have all happened to me, so here's some advice on how I deal with that:

• only check that platform when you are in a good headspace

• know that people are doing this to get a reaction out of you because they are sanist and want to see a "crazy" reaction, try not to feed into it, don't reply, ignore it, you don't even have to read the whole thing

• turn off anons if you need to (they tend to hide behind anons)

• block people right away

• delete asks right away so you don't have to see it again

• try not to take any of it personally, some people online don't see us as people, they see us as a label that they want to discredit, trigger or laugh at, they are either ignorant or hateful and don't deserve your time

It's important that we have our voices heard, don't let assholes on the Internet stop you from doing that.

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OK. just got a super fucking uncomfortable ask about Ronin's plurality that I'll answer later when I have the energy to break it down but For Now.

Please look into what DID is before trying to comment Ronin's character, or anything to do with Ronin's plurality.

Ronin is not an individual part of the system; they are a person with DID, a serious mental illness (which I have) which often gets mischaracterized and dramatized by media. "Ronin" is just the collective name of a system, a name which represents their shared life and experiences. You cannot separate Ronin from their alters. Because they are their alters.

This is less directed at the ask, but split personality aus and fics are already annoyingly popular in this fandom. AU's with sanist (against mentally ill people) depictions of mental illness are already very common. The lack of good representation of mental illness in this fandom is one of the reason's I made this AU. So I just ask that in the future, that you please at least research the experiences and disorders you're trying to portray. Or at least disorders that mirror what you're trying to portray.

Thank you for reading

Sincerely, a mentally ill person with stigmatized disorders

soong-type antiphobic ableism

periodical reminder that a phobia is a mental illness and not a synonym for bigotry or oppression or hate and this constant equation harms actually phobic people and mentally ill people as a whole. you cannot fight bigotry with ableism & saneism.

Long post JH doc schizospec rant

Discussion of Joe Hawleys proposed mental health problems upsets me massively. Diagnosing a horrible celebrity with a stigmatised mental illness isn’t a new thing, and yes, even though there’s more ‘proof’ that Joe is schizophrenic, that doesn’t make it a different less sanist discussion, it doesn’t make the steak taste better or make any of this talk feel more justified to me.

I don’t trust people are talking about his mental health issues with completely pure intentions. There’s always either people downplaying his actions because of it, saying that he was too crazy to know what he was doing he didn’t meaaan to say slurs and be weird to young fans, or of course some assholes demonising him further or making schizo meltdown memes, because this might be the most they ever bother to learn about this serious, complicated and very sad mental health issue.

I don’t know if I’m overreacting but I think this will have consequences for schizophrenic, psychotic and other stigmatised mental illness having artists out there. This conv doesn’t exist in a vacuum. He’s a famous man, tally hall is prevalent in a lot of fandom culture and digital media history as a whole. I want to be more optimistic that this will start better conversations about mental illness online, or that people will stop being parasocial and let this guy get reasonable therapy and then do better, and oh my god not come to the conclusion that this is a universal experience of schizophrenics having bad episodes!

This is not inevitable mentally ill behaviour for the love of god. It’s a reason not a cause, and I don’t even like saying ‘reason’ cause I don’t want it to get twisted, I promise you this disgusting behaviour and actions are avoidable even when you’re living with a long term condition man. Whether it be by ranging therapy or extra support at home and at work, you can compress the pain and fear in your mind through your art and what you give to the world without being a piece of shit, I promise you. And you can even get famous without that shit happening too! I won’t rest until I see it or I be it.

If you read all this sorry for me going on. Please support your schizophrenic, psychotic, narcissistic, dissociative disorder having, bipolar, BPD and NBPD having, and OCD and OCPD having, anxious and paranoid, and any other stigmatised condition I might have missed, artists writers and musicians on tumblr. Raise each other up! And to the people who have tally hall related hyperfixations/ a th related special interest who are struggling right now, my heart goes out to you, keep yourselves calm safe and well.💚