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schizopositivity · 1 day

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If people in general can understand that someone watching a horror movie might jump in their chair, have their heart rate go up, and feel nervous, even though there is no actual threat in the room, then why can't they understand the same is true for people experiencing psychosis?

They are similar, you are seeing something that isn't actually real, you may believe it's real or not, but either way you will react as if it were real because your brain can't help it. The difference is the person in psychosis isn't seeing it through the safety of a screen, isn't prepared for it and can't immediately turn it off if they want to.

So why is it so hard for people to understand why people in psychosis will react like they are actually experiencing something? Anyone would jump back if an elephant suddenly appeared in front of them. Or be very nervous if they hear their name called when they are home alone. So why are people in psychosis expected to not react, or stop reacting when someone tells them it isn't real?

It really shows a lack of sympathy from people who haven't experienced psychosis, for them to expect us to not have reactions. We are expected to somehow suppress our brains natural reactions, simply for other people's comfort. This applies even more to people of color and homeless people. We are expected to fit the status quo, even when our brains are experiencing something as real.

I say all this to say, try to consider the experience of people with psychosis if you haven't. Don't gawk at people reacting to something you don't see. Try not to fear the homeless person talking to someone that isn't actually there. Don't make fun of, or judge people for reacting to something they are experiencing, just because you don't experience it.

#schizophrenia #mental illness #nd #neurodivergent #schizophrenic #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness #pseriouslypsychotic #hallucinations #delusions #schizophrenia awarness #psychosis awarness

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dromaeocore · 7 months

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Hey guys! I noticed there are pretty much no cute psychosis awareness stickers in existence, so I made a couple. I chose dandelions because IMO they are a very resilient, beautiful flower that are often misunderstood and hated <3

Hope you enjoy.

You can buy the wildflower/ribbon one here and the brain one here.

#psychosis #pseriouslypsychosis #schizophrenia #actuallyschizophrenic #seriously schizophrenic #mental health #mental health awareness #my art

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rattusn0rvegicus · 10 months

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Happy Disability Pride Month! Today I would like to talk about schizophrenia. :]

I think a lot of people see schizophrenia as simply hallucinations and Maybe Delusions but like, that's not all it is by far.

There can be speech issues. This can look like issues with word-finding, tangential or circumstancial speech, or even go so far as "word salad."

There are also negative symtoms (essentially, really bad executive dysfunction + symptoms that can look like depression such as lack of experiencing pleasure or emotions in general) and cognitive symptoms (such as: difficulty concentrating, short term memory issues, brain fog, slowed thinking, etc)

Antipsychotic medication usually doesn't do much for these symptoms. It can sometimes help, but it usually does nothing and can also make those symptoms worse.

There are physical aspects to schizophrenia as well. Schizophrenics are also at a higher risk for type II diabetes and metabolic dysfunction even if they don't take medication , and antipsychotic medication makes this risk even higher. Some schizophrenics deal with catatonia, a condition that can affect movement - usually by essentially freezing and being unable to move (not the same as freezing in fear or being really depressed), and sometimes characterized by hyperkinetic movement. Malignant catatonia can even cause death. And finally, many schizophrenics have Tardive Dyskinesia, an iatrogenic movement disorder - that is, caused by antipsychotic treatment. TD causes involuntary muscle movements, that can sometimes even get so bad they cause muscular atrophy.

Schizophrenia can also cause fatigue, and antipsychotics are notorious for inducing drowsiness/fatigue/somnolence.

Not every schizophrenic person will deal with all this stuff but like, yeah. It's a lot more than just hallucinations and delusions.

This is not to say that schizophrenia as a psychiatric construct is not without its flaws, but that's a post for another day.

This is also not to say schizophrenia is a death sentence or that having schizophrenia means you're incapable of doing anything positive with your life or enjoying your life. That, again, is a post for another day. If you want to read something more inspiring after all this, check out my post here on highly successful schizophrenics. Additionally, around 86% of schizophrenics achieve functional recovery (this is not an absence of symptoms, but rather, an improved quality of life).

#schizophrenia #actuallyschizophrenic #seriouslyschizophrenic #disability #Disability pride month #actuallydisabled

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valiumgf · 1 year

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I'm not paranoid I've never been paranoid who told you I was paranoid who's talking about me

#txt #actuallyschizophrenic #actuallyschizoaffective #pseriouslypsychosis

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wheelie-sick · 11 months

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I feel so embarrassed about some of the things I said and did while in psychosis. I've been coming out of an episode for a couple of months and it's so upsetting to look back and process it all because I just get so embarrassed by my delusional self.

this wasnt from my most recent episode, this was from 2021 but still

I'm just processing that I really did, in fact, tell many people in my life that I'm psychic and can talk to ghosts (I am not! I can't!) ...... and also that I was talking to the Norse gods and that they had chosen me, and also that it was my destiny to bring lost souls on Earth to the afterlife and just. now that I look back at it all it feels so obviously untrue?

I used to go around to roadkill and perform different blessings on them so that they could pass into the afterlife because I believed that was my job. all of the traffic saw me (thank god because I would not be here if they didn't) and this was when I lived in a small town so everyone knew who I was. they. all. know. and they probably remember because when you see teenager standing in the middle of the fucking road doing witchcraft on a dead squirrel you don't forget that!!

I just wish I could go back and undo it and make myself no longer psychotic because all of these memories make me want to turn invisible. I don't mind people online hearing about it but the people I know in my real life?? the people I interact with daily??? it makes me want to shrivel up like a raisin

and they all pretend that they don't know about my schizophrenia. everyone pretends that they believe the abilify is for "anxiety." that or they all have come up with some absolutely wild ways to explain it all away.

it's just so frustrating. it often feels like psychosis takes away my autonomy. I didn't get a choice in doing those embarrassing things I never stood a chance at not having embarrassing memories.

!! I have religious psychosis. your religious beliefs might be true but my beliefs were delusions. do not try to talk to me about your religion at all !!

#actually schizophrenic #ActuallySchizophrenic #pseriouslyschizophrenic #pseriouslypsychosis #neurodivergent #shizophrenia

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psychosis-spectrum · 6 months

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Looking for Psychosis Peer Support?

Hey! Do you experience psychosis and need a place to share your experiences and find community? Come join our Discord server! Fun for all ages! In operation since 2018!

here’s some cool stuff we got

a lovely and friendly community

plans for music and movie watch parties

cool bots

a channel for the memes

a channel for gaming

voice channels

occasional med reminder check-ins!

some other cool things we have

we offer as much help and resource redirection as we can

we try to foster good coping skills

we uplift and support marginalized identities

we’re active

we’ve got channels for people of color and LGBTQ+ people and actively work to prioritize the marginalized people of our community

community channels for people with all sorts of mental health experiences

zero tolerance of oppressive behavior or violent language

#psychosis #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #schizospec #actuallypsychotic #actuallyschizophrenic #schizotypal #bipolar

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thetigerlady · 5 months

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Sorry I haven't posted in so long. So much has happened, I don't even know where to begin. The voices are still here obviously. The good news is my kidney filtration rate is back up. So that's good news. 👍 maybe I can get into a drug study again...

Oh! Before I forget. I don't remember if I posted this before, but here's a little something I wrote about my marriage a few years ago...

A peek into my marriage - "you're so lucky"

"You've been married 27 years?"

"You're so lucky".

I don't feel lucky.

Determination?

Or did I even think

of the outcome?

Neither wants to be here.

Why are we?

We still care...

...but, love?

Love seems farthest from your mind,

not even our kid is safe.

Why do you insist

on treating us this way?

Questions turn to anger -

anger clouds the judgment.

Your reactions are killing us.

If you just thought about

what you said,

and what you did...

The abuse.

Not physical,

but it might as well be -

it hurt us deeper than you'll ever know.

Changed us -

into a mess

of emotions

we don't know how to control.

But you do.

And control you do,

both you and us...

Every day.

Can't do anything.

Can't buy anything.

Unless it came from you.

Aren't marriages supposed to be equal?

How is this equal,

when I can hardly do anything

without your approval...

You are *such* a good actor.

Might win "best in picture"

for your performance

in this show.

You may have everyone else fooled,

but you don't fool us.

Still think I'm so lucky?

You don't know the half of it...

...yes... I am *so* lucky.

I gotta tell you...so much stress. So much. Even my psychiatrist is like "no wonder you haven't gotten better"...

Welp...that killed the writing mood. 🫤😜😂

I guess I'll have to write some more another time. I promise I won't wait so long this time...

❤️ Jen

#schizophrenia #schizophrenic #poetry #mental health #actuallyschizophrenic #actually schizophrenic #mental illness #mentalillness

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mayalaen · 6 months

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If I gotta be stuck with schizophrenia then I should get to have some fun with it too.

Blah blah good representation. Good rep's in a lot of my shit. It's enough.

I should get to do some completely awful, shameless (bc I have none anyway), irredeemably bad rep.

As a little treat.

#actually schizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenic #about me #writing is hard

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mad-pride · 1 year

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Schizospec Autism Flag

This flag represents those who are on both spectrums (schizophrenia spectrum and autism spectrum). Although autistic schizophrenia (also known as schizophrenic autism, or Bleuler's autism 4A's symptoms in psychopathology) is its own concept, this is not the exactly same.

Words: schizaut/schizau (schizautism/schizautistic), schizoautism (schizoautistic).

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schizopositivity · 3 days

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#im just genuinely curious #schizo-spec #psychosis #neurodivergent #actuallyschizophrenic #pseriouslypsychotic

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hellishrebukesystem · 2 months

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System Update 02/10/24

David here! Today has been fucked up. On Thursday we started seeing a man on fire sitting in our living room recliner--he has flesh wings--he appears at eight pm--or at least he has the last couple nights. Today I saw him on my couch sitting next to me and eating raw meat. I saw a crucified deer woman in my backyard. I'm sleeping okay (suprisingly) I guess my meds don't let me stay up all night l--it is scary to go to sleep but I have to trust these things can't actually hurt me. I'm holding it together in the presence of my family. They don't seem to notice I'm losing it but maybe it is just temporary. Stress about school and such--grad school is no joke after all. Things are so fucked right now--everyone else in the system seems to want me to keep this shit handled, so I'm dealing with it and being front stuck with minimal to communication between other alters. I'm so frustrated and tired and I feel very dramatic and stupid and annoyed right now.

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paranoidscizo · 3 months

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nothing worse then trying to tell if what you are seeing is really there or not

#scizophrenia #self£harm #bpd vent #s3lf mutilation #self h@rm #cvutting #self mutalition #tw self destruction #bpd thoughts #cvtaddict #actuallyschizophrenia #actuallyschizophrenic

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valiumgf · 1 year

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#actuallyocd #actuallyschizophrenic #actuallyschizoaffective

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stumblingcuriosities · 2 years

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shoutout to my coworker who talks over my hallucinations without realizing it… kory beloved… you’re a real one…

#actually schizophrenic #paranoid schizophrenic #schizo spectrum #schizophrenic #schizophrenic disorder #actually schizoaffective #actuallyschizophrenic #actually psychotic

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twinantithesis · 2 years

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Pages of charcoal eyes from a psychotic episode

#pseriouslypsychotic #pseriouslyschizophrenic #actuallyschizophrenic #actuallypsychotic #scopophobia #eye contact #eyes #eye contact tw #my art #my drawings #charcoal

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schizoaffectively · 1 year

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Emma's Intro Post

Hi, we're Emma! We are a DID system going by "The Bewitched," hence the use of the term "we" and "us." This is our main blog, all system members use it. We mainly focus on disability and mental health content on this blog.

Basics:

-When in doubt, call us Emma, or Em!! It's our collective name.

-24 years old

-Collective pronouns are he/it, and sometimes they/she

-Collectively Masc-aligned Nonbinary.

-Collectively arospec (most alters are arospec, and a few are not), and very very VERY queer.

-Physically disabled, neurodivergent, and mentally ill

-Certified Pretty Boy

DNI if...

-You are homophobic/transphobic/and type of LGBTphobic, racist, sexist, TERF, a bigot, etc.

-(no)MAP/pedo, pro shipper, shota/lolicon, believe that "it's fictional so therefore [insert problematic thing here] is perfectly fine," etc.

-Believe in "narc abuse" (a disorder does not make someone inherently abusive).

-Are generally a complete and utter asshole.

Interests:

-Drawing

-Video games

-OCs

-RPing

-Reading

-Writing

-Fashion

-Psychology

-YouTube

Other stuff:

Brain Stuff - Physical Stuff

Our tagging system for each alter is generally "[alter name] blogging" and posts like this representing most/all alters will be tagged as "all blogging"

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