#online pool gear | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

thefirstknife · 4 days

Note

(This is a theory based on the previews shown for Prism and the most recent TWID, so there may be other recent official communications that I've missed and should consider, apologies if that's the case)

Prism looks really fun but also seems like a significant jump forward in terms of powercreep, and especially the exotic class items, seem like they'll be a long-term balancing nightmare. The impression I got from the showcase reveal was that previously, it was an idea that got shelved as being not great for the long-term balance of the game, but then was brought back online in response to underwhelmed backlash.

Similarly with the Brave Arsenal, it feels like they looked at the perk pools and said 'screw it, let's make them all obscenely juiced up' again a jump in powercreep, and they don't seem to be overly concerned about that right now.

Today's TWID said that legacy gear will be re-enabled for infusion, undoing the last current mechanical implementations of sunsetting, and that a lot of it will be re-introduced and rebuilt for the current sandbox.

We're on the way back to a sandbox where everything goes, in a game world that seems broader than it was when the DCV was introduced, with way more power than we had before with 3.0 classes and weapons with ability verbs. Looking just at the PvE side of things, it seems to me like the game is going to be in the same state it was when Luke Smith announced the huge changes in Beyond Light. (We also keep getting more vault space when they had told us not to expect more vault space)

I see this as a path with 2 branches on it. The first is they aren't worried about powercreep because the game is not 'bloated' the same way it was when they developed Beyond Light i.e. it's not a nightmare to keep a laundry list of activities balanced against guardians more powerful than we imagined we ever would be. Prism will have a rough patch but come in-line with everything else within 6-8 months. Gear will also get equalized again via consistent tweaking. Episodes will continue the story in cool ways, new gear will cycle between cool and less cool, more reprised raids/missions, maybe we get new permanent destinations, maybe another (or more) major expansion in the future, but right now I expect Episodes will probably be a lot like what we've seen from the beefier seasons with custom locations and activities that wont be permanent.

The other branch is that they aren't worried about powercreep because some amount of time after the first 3 episodes, destiny 2 will go into stasis; playable but with no major updates or expansions while they work on Destiny 3, which will have another hard reset for character progress/gear. Destiny 2 stays free to play with a huge library of campaigns, raids, dungeons, and exotic missions but the 'gear chase' and all the 'forever game' mechanics get moved to destiny 3 or whatever it'll end up being called. This game will be built based on all the hard design lessons and problems they have had to crack for D1 and D2 with the expectation that they won't need to do this again for a D4 (and maybe they'll even be right).

Thoughts?

Honestly that sums up my thoughts on it too.

I know there's been talk about them allegedly already working on D3. I generally don't have a strong opinion about it; my personal only issue is the loss of all cosmetics. But outside of just me, I think D3 will do the same as D2 did, which is split the fanbase and piss everyone off. People will need an exceptionally strong incentive to be okay with restarting their characters once again, years after TFS, and to re-grind everything and wait years for the game to have more than vanilla content.

A lot of people think that D3 will somehow drop and magically be better in every aspect, but what they fail to realise is that it will take years, again, to populate the game with content. Like, D3 will launch with 1 raid and will have 1 raid for a year. We're used to a selection of much more than that. I can't imagine a lot of people will have the patience to wait 4-5 years for the game to have the same amount of options to play with. It's a big risk overall. Not to mention the cost of keeping both D1 and D2 still alive.

Anything is possible! These things are still years away from us so genuinely who knows what they're planning long-term. I do think that eventually they will have to move away and update the engine and probably stop supporting old gen consoles, purely for technical reasons.

As for the possible powercreep, I don't think it will be too much of a problem. As it usually is with any new abilities/supers, things will be wild at first, but probably reigned in fast. Same with unsunsetting; a lot of the old weapons are simply not that good anymore given their lack of updated perks. I'm more interested in them saying that they will reissue most if not all of the old stuff and update it to modern standards, but even then, we already have a lot of weapons. There's only so many types of legendary hand cannons to make feel unique and useful. Most of the old stuff will just be for nostalgia's sake. Still, it will probably super wild at launch and until things settle, but powercreep can be dealt with over time with changes and content being made to account for new options.

We'll have to wait and see! I am not opposed to the game being refreshed with a full restart, though I do have personal gripes that are mostly based on the fact that I really don't want to wait years to have my characters look like I want them to rather than wearing gear that doesn't fit my aesthetic because there's only 4 armours in the game. A new game will simply not have enough options for years to come and I think that a lot of players will be incredibly put off by having to start again. I'm not sure if they would risk this again, given how vanilla D2 went. But also, it's been so long since then so with all of the experience, maybe things can go better this time. Third time's the charm?

#destiny 2 #long post #ask

11 notes · View notes

pokemonshelterstories · 9 months

Note

my Joltik evolved, and as you do, im thinking about doing a silly little fun day for the guy as celebration. do you have any activities or snacks you think would be a good addition? i want this to be the best not-party party ever for him

oh, how exciting! congrats to your buddy!

galvantula are kind of an interesting pokemon...despite being relatively speedy, they actually prefer to lie in wait for their prey, and they don't really move around much! so some novel enrichment is probably a better idea than activities. if you go to an electric-type specialty store, they have these toys where the pokemon can use their electricity to make different lights turn on, and that can be a lot of fun for a galvantula to investigate! a nice plastie kiddie pool full of coconut fiber as a bed will also make your buddy a happy spider.

in terms of snacks, one of galvantula's preferred foods is pidove squab. you can sometimes find these at pet stores with the frozen pawmi and pichu, but you're more likely to find them at a store that's geared toward battling pokemon, or you can order them online.

#charlietalks #pkmn irl #pokemon irl #galvantula #pokemon care

26 notes · View notes

anarchy-and-piglins · 1 year

Note

My friend @kay-limbo mentioned Scooby Doo Zombie Island, and my brain went into AU mode so...

Zombie Island AU (Dark SBI edition 😘)

Twins Technoblade and Wilbur are new to the Ghost Hunter scene. They've done a few youtube videos of local ghost stories, and they gained some traction. But a few hundred views are honestly not that impressive.

They pool their resources and decide to drive a state over to investigate a ghost story that Technoblade had found online. When they get there, they investigate and find out that the whole story was actually a cover. The Local Mayor encouraged the story to hide the fact that he was trying to bulldoze an important nature reserve for profit. Technoblade and Wilbur take their evidence to the police, who do nothing.

So they post a video about it.

It goes VIRAL.

They blended the ghost story aspect seemlessly with the outrage of the Mayor's actions. It was funny, it was infuriating, it was a HIT.

Suddenly, Technoblade and Wilbur's older videos are getting views as well. They are super excited that their hardwork is paying off.

And then they get an invite to a HUGE Ghost Hunting convention on a place called Rosales Isle.

Through Techno's research, he finds legends referring to it's history of people disappearing.

Techno and Wilbur agree immediately, packing all their gear and gleefully heading to the isle.

The island is small enough that there isn't a direct flight. They take a small ferryboat out to the isle, but they aren't the only ghost hunters there. And the other ghost hunters are sort of...well, they're assholes. The other ghost hunters interview the ferryman and his crew, and they are being SUPER DISRESPECTFUL. Wilbur was trying to create connections with the others (because the other ghost hunters are much more well known), but stops when the talk turns to video editing and one of the guys talks about how he is going to play up the ferryman's accent for laughs.

Wilbur and Techno pull the Ferryman and crew aside and give them all snacks, telling goofy stories and stories of ghost hunting. Wilbur has a great time telling how Technoblade fell off a bridge into a disgusting river trying to get a wide shot. Techno retaliates with the time that Wilbur left the camera lens cap on for an entire night of filming and thought a ghost had blacked out his footage. The crew is riotously happy. And they get footage of some of the funniest and most jovial ghost stories from these guys. It's more of a party than an interview.

The crew presses amulets in their hands, for protection from the spirits of the islands. Wilbur and Techno marvel over them, asking all kinds of questions about how they were made, the history of a design, was it supposed to look like a heart or was that just a coincidence? Techno and Wilbur put them on gratefully. When they disembark on the Island, they wave happily at the crew of the Crow's Chatter as they sail away.

The historic mansion on the island is beautiful, but it is a LONG walk from the docks. Impossible to get lost, because its the only road. But it is HUMID and HOT and all UPHILL. By the time they all get to the mansion, they are exhausted. Well, most are. Technoblade is completely fine, taking pictures of some of the really cool plants "like a nerd", as Wilbur says. But Technoblade hasn't seen plants like these before.

They are met at the mansion by a smiling blonde man and his teenage son. They introduce themselves as Phil and Tommy, members of a family that had owned the home for generations. They lead everyone inside, Phil placating the irritable ghost hunters. Most are near furious that the house doesn't have air conditioning, but Phil smiles apologetically.

He explains that the convention wouldn't be held for a week, much to the anger of almost everyone. But he calmly reassures everyone that he will take care of everything. Food, boarding, and each of them will have exclusive free reign of the island to make their discoveries first before the rest of the convention arrives.

THAT calms them down. Phil starts to explain which areas they should be respectful of, as the people of the island have a rich spiritual history. But Wilbur can see the other ghost hunters collectively decide to ignore that.

A few of the ghost hunters start to immediately pester Phil for an interview, but he smiles politely and explains he is busy and it will have to be later.

Loud and obnoxious, the other ghost hunters start calling dibs on which parts of the island they are going to film first. Wilbur and Technoblade don't bother, as it seems that the other ghost hunters didn’t notice that there was ANOTHER member of the Watson family still in the room.

Or maybe the scowling deterred them, who knows? Wilbur immediately approaches Tommy and politely asks for the interview. Tommy is in the middle of telling them to fuck off before he realizes they are the guys who exposed the asshole mayor. After that he's much more curious.

They chat for a while before ever even pulling out a camera, until Tommy finally agrees after they talk about the Crow's Chatter. He seems to smile gleefully when he sees the amulets.

He gives them a great interview. The kid is hilarious and plays off Techno and Wilbur's humor well. The kid tells them all about the history of different groups invading the island, and mysteriously going missing. Technoblade makes a couple of comments about the benefits of anarchy when Tommy talks about how a few government officials had tried to pass through legislation to force them to allow a theme park to be built. Wilbur comments about eating the rich, which has Tommy laughing so hard tears are pouring from his eyes.

Phil shows up after hearing the sound of Tommy laughing himself sick and joins into the conversation. He starts telling Techno and Wilbur about the history of the island. About how the people historically worshipped the goddess of death and how she protected the isle from invasion. Technoblade asks so many questions about the religion, but backs off when Phil explains a lot of it is kept secret. Technoblade is disappointed, but tells Phil he understood. Wilbur double checks that it is okay to post the info they filmed, and Phil smiles kindly and says its fine. It's a much nicer smile than the politic one he had given the other ghost hunters.

Tommy offers to give a personal tour, since they are cooler than the other ghost hunters, and Techno and Wilbur agree. Tommy gives them a great tour. It's a ton of fun.

Until they come across another group of ghost hunters breaking a grave marker in order to make it more #aesthetic.

Tommy, understandable, flips his LID. Technoblade grabs the teen before he can go for the eyes, but Neo Trio are all three involved in a shouting match with this group of Ghost Hunters until Phil comes out to see what the fuss is about.

He sees the broken grave marker. He see's Neo Trio. He sees the smug ghost hunters. He suggests that everyone just calms down and comes inside for dinner. Its an awkward affair as all the groups come together, but Techno and Wilbur make sure to compliment to food, even as the other ghost hunters are complaining or taking unflattering footage of the food.

When it gets dark, all of the ghost hunters split up. Tommy refuses the offer to join Techno and Wilbur, but gives them some tips of where to get footage.

The ghost hunters who broke the grave marker never show up for breakfast.

It starts the mystery. Techno and Wilbur are trying to figure out what is happening. More and more asshole ghost hunters are disappearing. Strange things are happening that they can't explain.

By the time Wilbur and Technoblade figure out that Phil and Tommy are immortals, taking the life force of the people trapped there, it is too late.

Because Phil and Tommy already decided that the Twins were going to stay with them.

Forever.

Whether they wanted to or not.

AAAAA this is SO excellent!!!

Whenever I get these asks from you the only thing I can think (well, the only thing I can think *besides* thinking I'm very blessed to have such a cool person come into my inbox with their fantastic ideas) is that I want a full fic of this.

BUT THEN AGAIN your description here is already so detailed it reads almost like a fic itself. (Still wouldn't say no to more though)

#asks #dark sbi #thoughts

79 notes · View notes

footloosefotography · 2 years

Text

I am well on the way to healing after hernia surgery a week ago but am still confined to long walks rather than the activities like swimming and paddling that I'd rather be doing. This early morning my walk took me along Sunshine Beach in Queensland, Australia. A small outwash stream pool caught my eye and with my iPhone 12 (I know, "already outdated" I hear you cry), I took this image (not post processed) which I really like.

Coincidentally today, my buddy Dan Milnor https://shifter.media/about/ posted his latest opinion piece about photography (and a bunch of other things!). What he said makes a lot of sense and is something I already subscribe to 100% so I thought I'd share some of his words because they are relevant to my photo from this morning....

"I don’t know a single good photographer who changes their gear on a yearly basis. Good photographers work with gear that no longer requires much thought because they know how difficult it is to make great work and anything that gets in the way isn’t helpful. People who talk gear are amateurs. Talking about gear is easy. Far easier than making something original. Heck, making something original might take years and come with layer upon layer of failure, which looks really bad on an online feed...

Whatever camera you have right now is the only one you need especially if you are still learning photography. Find something that feels right and then go take a decade and practice. Stop sharing every moment, stop posting [guilty] and stop watching...Go work."

#photography #iphone #iphone photography #australia #camera equipment

75 notes · View notes

awkweirdgaming · 5 months

Note

I was thinking about the Kill la Kill game again, and I while I'm disappointed in it, it wasn't because it was bad just because it wasn't the type of game I wanted. Like for years I heard the rumor that the Bayonetta crew were approached to make a Kill la Kill a game and I'm like "DAMN, that's a match made in heaven, practically born to do that shit." And reality said "fuck that, you get the Guilty Gear guy's" and it's like "okay that still sounds pretty cool, so will it be easy to learn/hard to master polished 2d fighter like Dragon Ball Figherz?" Reality slaps me in the face again and goes "NO, it's a arena fighter where half of the cast move pool are projectiles, also there's only 10 characters in the base game" And I'm like, "why did a game that's barely has the same amount content and niche reach as a 2000's game?" Because other than the single player mode and MAYBE the diarama mode IF has as much as the first Naruto game on Gamecube.

Also, I know this is mostly because I play on Switch and Switch games that aren't first party usually don't have high online activity unless they're Smash, Mario Kart, or Splatoon but I also feel like this is a case study that having online multiplayer isn't enough to keep games like this afloat. I don't even remember if the game has a arcade mode just the main IF story, vs, and the kumite survival mode.

I enjoyed what I got out of the experience but I was also disappointed that there wasn't more to it. It's the same way I felt about Black Clover: Quartet Knights. I feel like we were in a "once in a lifetime" type of scenario where a lot could have been utilized and milked for all it's worth cause it's fucking Kill La Kill; who knows if we'll ever get to that point again. Sadly I think the fact that it doesn't have that larger hype and audience behind it like DBZ has and Naruto ultimately gained after it's first game is probably why it only went as far as it did.

#Kill la Kill: IF #Kill la Kill #Video Games

5 notes · View notes

prototypelq · 9 days

Text

One of the things I really, really, Really miss in MHW is, ironically enough, variety.

MHW is a game with dozens of amazing monster designs, all with unique attacks, strengths and vulnerabilities. And what does the game force the player to do?

Grind your chosen monster again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again, cause you want that upgrade and it costs a (monster name)-gem, which has around 3% drop chance.

I think I won't be breaking any new ground by saying this has been not the best decision on the designer's part.

*to be fair, only the top-est of the top upgrades require a gem, and in my experience you don't Really need those upgrades anyway, cause they will just break the game numbers. that said, my actual experience is just the main story, and I haven't touched the enhanced monsters or the raid ones, also I have not played Iceborne, and I know for certain that the numbers in that DLC are Completely broken right off the start, so maybe that gem upgrade is actually a requirement for it. I can't say for certain

This 'single-monster grind for the rare part you need' is the thing that knocked me off MHW for a while, I am just really tired of farming a single enemy like that. It's so repetitive and boring, despite the combat in the game being stellar. I have tried to switch weapons to make the grind more engaging, however, the skill ceilling for both the weapon and the monster attack patterns is too high far that to work, and you can't get the Gem if you're switching to a less powerful monster version, so that strategy won't work either.

This whole situation is outrageous to me, especially when the game has a few monsters that I have not fought even Once. For ex. Uragaan, it just looks like a Radobaan reskin on a surface level and I don't need it's gear, so I have not engaged with it even once, also Radobaan is just more badass. Here I am, instead, grinding a single monster over and over and over.

Okay, I think I've conveyed my disappointment quite adequately, now for the solution. I think this is a great time to remember about Dauntless.

For anyone who doesn't know, Dauntless is/was s f2p online monster-hunter and I've been a big fan of it for a few years. (sadly, the game has been bought by a chinese magnate and is being driven into the ground by them)

Obviously, as a monster-hunter, in Dauntless the core loop of slaying a beast > getting gear from it > slaying a more powerful beast is the same as in MHW. The difference is that you don't need that much parts from a monster to craft gear (about three kills will secure you an armour, five total should be enough for a weapon on top, those are not exact numbers, and I am speaking from memory), buuuut you need special Orbs to upgrade it. You get Orbs from doing Patrols, and here is the simple beauty of the Dauntless' solution to the grind problem-

Patrols are hunts where your target monster is randomised from a pool of monsters. Later in game, you get Heroic Patrols, which are the same, but for more powerful monster versions, and some new elite ones start appearing only in this category.

Patrols force you to engage with ALL the monsters in the game, and prevent the grind from becoming overbearing. In Dauntless, Pangar and Hellion might seem like model reuse, However the game forces me to experience both fights, and the attack patterns of these two are quite different.

So, the game loop of Dauntless is much more interesting and varied than MHW, because it makes use of 100% of its own content, while MHW has you repeatedly engaging with only 1/31 of it (= monster you grind for gear / total big monster count base game).

From my understanding, this is more of a design oversight, rather than a deliberate mistake, as the Monster Hunter series is quite old, and the 'streamlined monster grind for rare part' was the core eastern design of the series for most of that history, made primarily for the local market. However, this is still a design flaw and MH World was primarily made to bring new audience to the series, so this was the perfect time to reassess some of the carried-over design philosophy.

#i was just fuming about farming around 50 odogarons and not getting the final gem for the glaive upgrade #btw i didn't include investigations in this but they also make this issue even worse #(investigations are hunt quests for specific monster with additional random rewards)#(meaning any time you just slay a monster while free roaming the area cause you are sick of doing the same thing over and over #you are getting less item drops than you Could be if you have done investigations and the gem grind becomes even more tedious)#i don't think rise solved this issue either so here's hoping that mh wilds will #mhw #monster hunter world #mh world

2 notes · View notes

thefanficmonster · 2 years

Note

Yes, so I would like to place a request for Rebal D x reader hcs since you aren't doing any fics now. I dont have anything particular in mind but yes it can be nsfw, I definitely don't mind lol. It can be angst/fluff. Whatever. I just want some good Rebal stuff.😭 Hope you have a good day/night!❤️

Hi dear! I'm so sorry for fulfilling your request so late (life got pretty hectic) but here is a set of headcanons I based on a prompt I got from an online generator. Hope it lives up to your expectations and hope you enjoy the read! 💕

Pairing: Rebal D x Reader (Gender Neutral)

Warnings: Mentioned break-up angst (very briefly)

Genre: FLUFF, Romance, RPF (Real Person Fic)

Summary/Prompt: "Home remedy for a break-up"

Your audience were rightfully concerned about you

You'd been gone for a total of two weeks, breaking your pattern of daily streams on your Twitch which was so out of character for you, it got your fans genuinely worried, not just wondering where you'd gone

That being said, they had every right to swarm you with questions during your first stream back in what felt like forever

Your reasoning felt weak to you, but your fans were super understanding and were simply relieved to have you back

Now, what said reasoning is....

A breakup

An ugly breakup, putting an end to a three year relationship

It hurt, even if you felt like things had already ended months ago

It felt like being kicked out of a home you'd built, falling straight into the pool of cold water that is loneliness

A feeling so dreadful and painful, it rooted itself in your bones and only hurt more when you faked a smile for the camera and feigned a giggle to couple with your: "No, really, I'm doing way better now."

It wasn't a complete lie, but not 100% true either

You deemed two weeks of wallowing in your sorrows to be more than enough so you pulled out your best acting skills and put that last shaky crumb of confidence at the forefront

Honestly speaking, you did have some help...

"How I got back on my feet? Wow, you really made it sound like I was devastated."

You were, but I digress

"Ok, all you broken-hearted bitches take notes! Those of you who haven't had your heart shattered might wanna jot some down as well. You never know when it'll hit ya."

You saw it coming from miles away but did you adorn any protective gear? HA! No!

But I digress once more, I apologize

"Of course, for everyone it's different. For me, it's always been comedy. Hear me out: If you don't take it seriously, if you don't give it power to hurt you, it won't hurt you. If you wrap the spikes in cotton, they won't puncture your skin. My way of dulling the blade's always been comedy. I grew up watching stand-up comedians, and I still do! But if that's not your cup of tea, I have a few YouTuber suggestions for y'all."

You listed a few of your fellow gamers such as PewDiePie, Jacksepticeye and Markiplier but you dubbed them the ‘obvious’ choices

Moving away from the gamers’ community, you listed the following:

“I came to like reaction channels as well. Not your typical ones, though! I enjoy Kallmekris, I think she’s hilarious. And also Rebal D. I’ve had an on-again-off-again relationship with his channel throughout the years, but he’s one of those YouTubers I can enjoy no matter how long it’s been since I last watched them.“

That prompted many fellow Rebal D fans to proclaim their shared love for him and his content in your chat

It made you smile, but didn’t get you thinking far beyond that point

However, as we all know, it’s only when you stop looking for love that you find it

But it really had to hit you upside the head before you could understand what was happening

Like the way your heat leaped up into your throat when you received a DM from Rebal who’d caught wind of your compliments about his channel

Or the way a smile spread across your face whenever you’d get a message from him anytime after that

Took you seven long months of texting and Facetiming before you met up IRL

And another three months of hopeless pining before he gathered the guts to ask you out on a date

Thankfully, the rest is history

Your relationship with his channel maybe did remain on-again-off-again

But your relationship with him couldn’t have been better

And it gave you one hell of an answer to the widely asked question couples get: ‘How did you two meet?’

In response, you simply say: “Well, he was my home remedy for a breakup. And the rest is (thankfully) history ;)”

23 notes · View notes

queermatters · 10 months

Text

On being queer and neurodivergent: Isolation and marginalisation

I'm an autistic, non binary pansexual in my mid 20s, and I'm beginning to come out in all aspects of my life.

One of the things I was really looking forward to with "completely" coming out, was not having to hold back from building community. I was excited to enter queer spaces as me, and not having to worry about keeping it secret or hiding the before or after. But most of all, I was looking forward to building queer community.

When I discovered I was queer, from the outside looking in, I saw all these queer people with incredible friendships and relationships. I longed for those deep, loving connection. That deep sense of camaraderie and solidarity between people. The physical affection, mutual understanding, empathy and love.

But I've very quickly found that gaining those sorts of connections isn't quite as straight forward as you might think. As an autistic introverted person (with many other parts of the ND experience), I experience a lot of compound discrimination. I experience constant exclusion and lack of care and understanding in my university course, spending my spoons battling to get an equal and fair education. By the time I've had to deal with the ableism, the day to day exhaustion of being in an NT world as an ND person, and the general hostile environment for queer folk at the moment, I'm left with little energy to push myself to socialise.

To make it worse, accessing queer spaces as an introverted and neurodivergent person has been a challenge. Many of them are geared toward cis people, many revolve around drinking. Even trying to find my way in less "club like" spaces has not been straightforward and a lot of the time, I have felt excluded. Some spaces I've hung around in have had cliquey tendencies: all the quieter people gather in one corner of the room, with the louder people on the other side. To make things worse, neither side of the room seems to do a very good job of welcoming in a newer quiet person, to make them feel included, welcome and wanted in the space. Even more upsetting is who's been on the receiving end of such cliqueyness. Having spoken to a few people of color in these spaces, they've also felt the same, and it happens that a majority of those experiencing this behaviour in these spaces have been people of color.

This is particularly disappointing, because as queer people, we should know what its like to be excluded and marginalised, and we should be doing better to help those who are still finding their feet. This also has a further marginalising affect for those of us who experience compound discrimination. As a disabled transfemme, I've found this experience incredibly isolating. Being able to access IRL queer spaces is a vital tool for building strong support networks, to feel seen and to grow as a queer person. But unfortunately for me and many others, a lot of us feel cut off from our community.

This often leads those of us with those experiences to seek out connections elsewhere. Maybe we download a few dating apps to meet other queer people, be it in a romantic, sexual, platonic or a mixture of those contexts. On the one hand, meeting people online can be very accessible for those of us with low spoons, but on the other, it still poses an issue. Dating apps are famously fickle, and queer dating apps are generally no exception. Ghosting, no replies, limited matches depending on location, and one sided conversations all gradually gnaw away at morale and self esteem, leading to feelings of further isolation and marginalisation within our own community.

Using apps requires constant and consistent effort (to navigate the fickle nature/behaviours that they encourage), even more so with a smaller queer dating pool. For disabled people, or those of us with compound discrimination, this can be a very draining experience.

One of the most important things when we're navigating the world as a baby queer is building and maintaining good support networks. I fear that there are many people, especially those of us with multiple marginalised identities, navigate the world without such support networks. Through therapy, I've found that one thing that would make coming out less scary is stronger and better queer support networks. And here in lies the issue: the marginalised in our community can often experience inaccessible routes to coming out, or at the very least, roads to coming out which are fraught with isolation, pain and desolateness.

I'm being tenacious, I'm on many apps, I've been talking with my online friends about my profiles and getting feedback on them (mostly good, aside from maybe getting more full body shots!), and I continue to swipe, message and meet with people. Its taking a lot of time and effort (and self esteem hits, if we're being honest!), but I'm very very slowly starting to find new and cool people to connect with.

My experiences have been eye opening. Despite what a welcoming and inclusive community we can be, I've seen from both my perspective and others, how we ourselves are capable of leaving those of us behind with compounding issues. It hurts, because I want to have a flourishing love life, I want a fulfilling and nutritious social life with people who understand and accept me. But sometimes that feels so far out of reach, and I fear that many others with the same, differing or a mixture of marginalised identities experience the same or even worse.

Either way, for those of us experiencing this: I see you and I hope that you can find your special people soon. You don't have to feel hope, but please keep trying, we all deserve to have people we feel safe, secure and loved around.

#trans #transgender #queer #coming out #non binary #enby #gay #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #pride #lgbtq community #queer community #neurodivergent #actually autistic #autistic #bisexual #pansexual #transfemme

5 notes · View notes

magnetohazard · 11 months

Text

So how was Combo Breaker?

Combo Breaker was awesome. Probably the most fun I've had in my life, actually. I got to talk to a lot of friends, new and old, and even got to be on Sajam's "Will it kill...?" where I got to be wrong as fuck about a Street Fighter 6 clip!

It was kind of a surreal experience at times. I spent most of day 1 meeting up with my out-of-state friends, specifically the Ohio Vampire Savior community. Everyone was in high spirits and we got together several times to go smoke or run some sets throughout the day. I had some really close matches in my stacked as fuck Guilty Gear pool, but ultimately went 2-2. I'm satisfied with my performance though, especially in the Baiken mirror I had to fight against a much more experienced Baiken player.

I was also absolutely SERVING all 3 days

Day 2 was a lot more of the same, I had 2 pools that day and was only prepared for one of them. I had a terrible time waking up for my 10am VSAV pools but I managed to put on the bat dress and tough it out anyway. Won my first match against a player whose name I knew from online fightcade tournaments, and from there I was fucking pumped!

After that, I had to fight a player who I'd never taken a game off of in my life: TankTopTyphoon. He is an excellent wolf player and I somehow did the impossible and had a very close 1-2 set with him. Again, I've never taken a game off of him before so this was an accomplishment for me!

I wound up getting team killed by another Team Tengu member and got knocked out of bracket from there. I still had a lot of fun and it was great to know I'm not fucking free anymore. Vampire Savior saw me coming out 2-2.

The last pool I had was at noon for Virtua Fighter 5 Ultimate Showdown. Now, first thing's first: I fucking ADORE Virtua Fighter. My problem with this game is the netcode is ass and it requires CONSTANT practice to see any notable improvement.

I had not played this game in about a year.

So I sandbagged and went 0-2. Moving on.

Going into the night, I decided to get fucking wasted and enjoy Real Vampire Hours which is basically a winner-stays-on set of first-to-2 that goes until the production team decides to go to bed. This one was real special though because for the final match of the night/morning I got to be on commentary with the guy who got me into the game in the first place. If you know, you know, but if you don't let me tell you that YetiGhettoSlang is possibly one of the most fun commentators to ever pick up the mic. Man says shit that sends my sides to the moon and I love him to death.

Day 3 was another special day because it was finally time for Vampire Savior top 24 which was fucking hype. I highly recommend watching the VOD if you're at all interested in the game. I was screaming and cheering the whole time and ruined my voice in the process but, hell, it was worth it!

We also got into some funny shit over the weekend like running a Beyblade tournament, taking a few friends to Portillo's for the first time ever, basically just going goblin mode for a few days and forgetting about work and responsibilities for a while.

Overall, it was a great weekend like I said before. I had my best tournament record ever, something to finally be proud of. It was also the first time I'd had a week to myself in over 6 months since the death of one of my closest friends, and I feel like I was finally able to get together with some of the other people close to them and process some of that grief with them. I like to think we made this a tournament they would've been happy to see, a true SWANbo Breaker 2023.

Anyway, things kind of immediately took a turn for the worst when I got home. After 3 whole years of avoiding it, I got bodied.

I'm recovering right now which is why it took so long for this post to come out but I'm also still in Hell.

I've just been sitting around waiting for my smell and taste senses to return to me and playing Fortnite while I wait for my copy of Street Fighter 6 to show up.

Stay safe out there, y'all. I love ya!

#combo breaker #vampire savior #darkstalkers #fighting game community #fgc #fighting game tournament #guilty gear strive #virtua fighter #tournament recap

3 notes · View notes

divingsportscanada · 1 year

Text

WHY LEARN TO SCUBA DIVE IN COLD WATER ?

For those looking to take their PADI Open Water certification (https://www.divingsports.com/products/padi-open-water), you might be asking if learning to dive in Vancouver, BC is worth it? Cold water diving can be intimidating for some people but it is definitely worth the challenge. Vancouver has some great scuba diving, and the diving on Vancouver Island is some of the best in the world!

Getting scuba certified by taking your PADI Open Water course in Vancouver will actually benefit you in a few ways. First of all if you live in BC, you will be more easily be able to access the incredible diving we have right in our backyard. Most of the open water lessons and training we do are right in Vancouver and North Vancouver, and you can access the dive sites from shore! There are of course boat dives and trips we organise, but after certification you will have the ability to rent gear and go diving with a dive buddy. It will also open you up to drysuit training and experience so you will know what to expect the next time you want to get in the cold water!

We always say that if you can dive in cold water, you can dive anywhere in the world. The reason we say that is because usually the conditions and the equipment are a little more challenging than in warm water, and because of that we take extra care to meet our high training standards throughout all scuba lessons to create the best scuba divers. Divers who become comfortable scuba diving in Vancouver will find conditions in most other parts of the world easy by comparison.

When you start your PADI Open Water course or SDI Scuba lessons with Diving Sports, you will have lots of time in the pool and in the ocean to master your scuba diving skills. There is eLearning material sent directly from PADI to start as soon as you sign up for the course. We will make sure you are comfortable with the theory before going diving at one of our local dive sites in Howe Sound. One of the reasons people choose to learn to scuba dive in Vancouver is because they don’t have to spend all that time on vacation learning the basics of diving; they can just get out and go diving! So not only do you save valuable time when visiting warmer dive destinations, but you will also go with more dive experience which will make you more comfortable and make your dives even more enjoyable.

Our dive shop is located right in the center of Vancouver on main street so we are easily accessible from all over! We also know that travel around the area isn’t easy for everyone so we include transportation to and from pools and dive sites for those who need it. We also offer Discover Scuba Diving at Diving Sports for anyone who wants to try Scuba Diving before the PADI Open Water Course. This Try Dive is one evening lesson to experience scuba diving before committing to a full course.

We also have a diving club in Vancouver through our dive shop and Whatsapp so scuba divers and freedivers of all experience can connect and get out fun diving! When you do the PADI Open Water Course with our dive shop in Vancouver, you will become a part of our community and receive special offers on training, lessons, trips, and more!

If you want to know more about how much scuba diving costs in BC, or how to start your PADI Open Water Course, CONTACT US either online or in our store! You can speak with any of our experienced instructors and we will be happy to help you get started! Check out our website for the next course dates https://www.divingsports.com/

#scuba diving #cold water swimming

5 notes · View notes

geislerlohse41 · 1 year

Text

Sap Easy Finance Course London Uk Sap Simple Finance Certification London Uk

At iTraining sap mm online course london , we provide career-focused professional certification coaching that helps the students to achieve the true working experience. Our internship programme is designed to assist students who've efficiently completed the coaching and provides expertise in real time tasks. Our aim is solely centered on high-quality training which are tailor-made to corporate wants. “Wizcore recruitment and placement services place me for SAP FICO internship. Currently, I am working at BAT, canary wharf, implementing world rollout project as SAP FICO information analyst”. It is crucial that the candidates have work experience related to Accounts or Finance and basic data of enterprise processes in monetary management, however not required.

It is also one of many smoothest ways of transition into the extremely paid IT trade for individuals with non IT backgrounds.

Remember, investing in coaching yourself reaps long-term returns.

Opportunities in this subject can be found in numerous industries and particularly with firms in the expertise sector such as IBM, Accenture and CTS.

Our instructors are extremely skilled with business experience of a few years, working in best and renowned organization.

The programs are run by experts with ample business expertise on this material.

Undeterred consideration of trainers by way of out the training course of.

PowerShow.com is delivered to you byCrystalGraphics, the award-winning developer and market-leading writer of rich-media enhancement products for shows. Our product offerings include millions of PowerPoint templates, diagrams, animated 3D characters and extra. It has tens of millions of presentations already uploaded and obtainable with 1,000s extra being uploaded by its users daily. Whatever your space of interest, here you’ll have the ability to discover and view presentations you’ll love and probably obtain. The high quality and methodology of coaching lie at the core of our success. We rent consultants who've served at revered organizations the world over.

On-line Coaching

Our instructors are highly skilled with business expertise of many years, working in greatest and famend group. Our Trainers observe an method to have interaction students throughout instruction and thus the coaching methods are modified as per the trainees wants which may include direct 1-1 discussions, group discussions, Q&A rounds and so forth. Also you get many more advantages along with highly professional strategy. SAP Simple Finance certification proves that a candidate has the mandatory expertise and information wanted to develop SAP Simple Finance functions and is able to applying these skills practically. Course examination has eighty questions and is obtainable in different languages. By the fruition of this instructional class, you will be wholly versed and geared up for working with and making your individual explicit SAP Simple Finance packages in a Business and financial setting.

Department, I used to take lot of time in finding the knowledge for patrons. After learning about Microsoft Dynamics CRM Functional, my work is simplified and I have elevated my productivity. All students of Karuna Management Services are allowed to enjoy a hands-on coaching in all features of SAP Simple Finance course Training within the course fee.

Sap Simple Finance Coaching Faq

I would advocate Wizcore recruitment companies and profession advice to the new students”. SAP Finance and Controlling is predicated on pure accounting ideas which provide core accounting and reporting capabilities and ensures essentially the most up-to-date balances and reporting accuracy. Remember, investing in training your self reaps long-term returns.

youtube

Constantly attaining highest certification move rates and making a seamless expertise pool of experienced SAP consultants. Learning about Microsoft Dynamics CRM Technical has improved my skills and I am now in a place to configure all of the techniques and provide supporting services. This is a very helpful software studying required to offer efficient providers to clients. Your success in the skilled entrance largely determines our success. You will get pleasure from a good time choosing up the talents in our global neighborhood, where ideas and concepts get transmitted seamlessly. Trained over glad customers for over 10 years, with an unparalleled business expertise. Hardy III, founder of the 84 Lumber Company, purchased Nemacolin at an auction that year and reopened the complicated as an upscale lodge and resort täällä. Undeterred consideration of trainers through out the training process. Although there is not any guarantee of a job on track completion we're virtually sure that you want to be capable of find a suitable position within a quantity of weeks after successful completion of the course. All the students and professionals enrolling with our hcm coaching and different courses get the opportunity to complete an internship. This offers them with useful industry-oriented data, earlier than they stride additional forward in their career. In the competitive business circuit, hands-on expertise issues when you tap the alternatives in the industry.

#sap mm training uk #sap mm course uk #sap mm training london #sap mm course london #sap mm online training uk #sap mm online training london #sap mm online course london #sap mm online course uk

2 notes · View notes

theflowerofthecommonwealth · 2 years

Text

Power Armor Punch Part 10

Masterlist

Nick: Hey! *sits up and wraps an arm around her shoulders to help her sit still* Jasmine, it's okay! You're still safe! *moves the blanket enough so she can sign*

Curie: *comes running in* Is something wrong? Is she alright?

Nick: She's fine, just a nightmare.

Jasmine: (Panicking and trashing still. She shoves Nick back before reaching under her gown to desperately and aggressively rip away at the stitches. She had been dreaming about her final months before the bombs dropped, probably had the most bloody and hellish moments of her life….)

Nick: Agh-! *hits the ground hard, probably knocking a few things loose he really shouldn't break* SHIT-! *scrambles when he gets back up and tears her hands away from the stitches, which luckily haven't given way much* JASMINE!! STOP!!!

Curie: *runs to get sedatives*

Jasmine: (Screams again, trying her hardest to pull her hands away from Nick, her face full of tears and confused pain)

Nick: *not letting go, going so far as to plant his feet* Jas! Stop! It's me! It's Nick!*

Jasmine: (Shakes her head with another loud and pained shriek, still trying to yank her hands free with all her strength)

Nick: *servos and gears whine as he keeps a tight grip on her hands. He feels his body being pulled toward her. Pained shout* JAS!!

Jasmine: (Stops pulling so hard, still tugging a bit but not as much as before as she looks up at him in horror) “……....” (She looks around the room, then down at herself, still lightly trying to tug away as her body trembles)

Nick: *eases up on how hard he's resisting but maintains his grip. He looks distressed from the sudden ordeal but worried for her*

Curie: *comes back with the sedatives but doesn't enter. Instead she softly asks through the door* Has she calmed down?

Nick: Somewhat...

Curie: That is good. I will return in a little bit to check on her progress. *leaves again*

Jasmine: (Makes another tug, staring down at her legs in thought, remembering the blood…) “Nnnghhh!” (Instead of pulling, she tries to twist her writs free, while trashing her legs, tears starting down her face)

Nick: *gripping her wrists too tight for her to pull free* Jas! Please! You don't have to do this!

Jasmine: (Lets out a choked sob, her heart still racing. To her, the room is warping and blurry with everyones voices being slow and muffled, including her own screams. Every time she looks down on herself, all she can see is blood pooling around her legs and sides. She continues to thrash, not as hard as before but still an attempt)

Nick: *shouts for Curie while holding on tight*

Curie: *runs in with a strong sedative (not an an anesthetic) and stabs it in between Jas's shoulder and neck before quickly backing away*

Jasmine: (Cries out desperately, feeling her body relax as tears really start going down her face. She could probably fight off the sedative if she really tries, but all she is really thinking about is that awful day when she couldn't walk and was bleeding out all alone….)

Nick: *pained expression, both from damage and sorrow for her* I'm sorry... *lays her down and reapplies the restraints on her legs before quickly grabbing her arms again. He thought waking her would relieve her of the nightmare but apparently she's so mentally unstable she still believes she's in it*

Jasmine: (Just cries, still believing that she is still bleeding out. She feels the restraints being put back on which makes her cry out almost like she is begging)

Nick: *trying so hard to not let it get to him. He bites back another apology. His vision is glitching. Something's wrong and it's only getting worse* Jas-! *notices his voice sounds broken slightly. Very low then normal* N-not good.

Jasmine: (Blinks rapidly, still sobbing, her lips moving but she is not talking)

Nick: *notices his system tries to catch it but it's no good- everything's so garbled. He's doing all he can to stay online and restrain Jasmine* I-! *not even sure where that thought was going. He can feel his system starting to go into an emergency shut down* No-!

Jasmine: (Trembles, feeling something off but its all muddled under her thoughts)

Nick: I- *voice broken and low as he suddenly powers down* Sorry... *face is blank, his eyes completely dim. His hands and arms have gone limp. He looks like a lifeless puppet, dead to the world*

Jasmine: (Now that she is no longer restrained, she sits up and tries to get her restraints off, not noticing or registering Nick lifeless form yet as her vision is practically flashing pure red)

Curie: *left but comes back in as soon as Jas started with the restraints. She takes out a bottle marked "EMERGENCY USE ONLY!!" And a rag and douses it with it only to shove it over Jas's mouth while restraining her arms to completely knock her out*

Nick: *completely out of it. Looks like he's going to fall over any moment*

Jasmine: (Shrieks and falls backwards into a forced sleep, the last image in her mind being the haunting picture of Nicks lifeless body standing over he)

Curie: *heavy breath before she realizes Nick's still not moving* Oh no! Monsieur Valentine! *shakes him* Please wake up.

Nick: *eyes flicker but he doesn't turn back on*

Curie: *quickly sets him in a chair and backs up with her hands over her mouth. She runs out to get Shaun, panicking*

Jasmine: (Sleeping, but can still think, kinda like sleep paralysis) (To herself) ”Oh god, what happened? What did you do?” (Remembering Nicks lifeless body, his eyes staring off) ”He tried to help you!”

Shaun: *worried* Mr. Valentine? *approaches Nick with a tool case*

Nick: *unresponsive*

Jasmine: (Still sleeping) “It is all just a fucking time loop! You get so absorbed in your shitty self that you hurt those who actually love you! First your Mom then now Nick! How many other people have died by your hand that you could have saved? You just let it all spiral down and don't care what happens to you!”

Shaun: Let's see... I think Mom showed me how to troubleshoot a sudden shut down... *manages to open up the back of Nick's head. He pulls out a chord and attaches it to his pipboy then to Nick* Oh... okay. Yeah. I see, grandpa. *goes quiet and gets to work on fixing some components back where they're supposed to be*

Jasmine: (Still Sleeping and talking to herself) “You are so fucking stubborn! You punched Lucille and you shoved Curie and Nick! For what other reason than stupid old memories that happened centuries ago!!” (Starts twitching in her sleep)

Nick *still unresponsive, mostly. Occasionally his eyes flicker on and off*

Shaun: Hmm... *checks the light flashing with gen 2 synth error codes his mom taught him* Alright... let's see if I'm right. *starts really fiddling with Nick's head- it took the brunt of the fall* Storage drive still seems okay... some things just need to be reseated. *looks at the pip-boy after resaudering a few things back in place* Oh! Power! A wire isn't making good connection. *Manages to sauder that* Alright! Commencing start-up sequence! *presses a button on the pipboy*

Nick: *eyes flicker briefly before finally going static. The fans inside his head start to spin as well as his main cooling fans in his torso. He stays silent as his system runs through some version of POST before finally kicking into the main operating system and loading his personality subroutine right where he left off* -Sorry-! Wait- huh?! What the-?! *disoriented from being moved* Did I...? "Emergency shut down"? Guess the damage was worse than I thought...

Jasmine: (Internally screaming at herself, fighting to wake up)

Nick: *tired sigh as he rubs his face*

Curie: *putting on stronger restraints around Jas's arms and legs*

Shaun: You okay, Mr. Valentine?

Nick: Oh... Shaun... *notices the tool kit* Did you repair me...? Good work! You're going to be one hell of a mechanic one day. *ruffles his hair before getting up to check Jas*

Jasmine: (Starting the third world war with herself. She has broken out of many deep sleeps but for whatever reason this one is difficult. Maybe it was whatever Curie gave her or just her will to live or do anything starting to grow paper thin. Her body really starting to tremble again, luckily, the restraints keep her in place)

Curie: I had to use a very unique and strong sedative. It is similar to chloroform but could, in practice, put an enraged Deathclaw to sleep with little harm to the brain. Do not worry- I tested this on Lucille and some settlers who willingly volunteered for the experiment. It is perfectly safe.

Nick: No wonder I found her passed out on the couch that time... how long does it last?

Curie: It varies but the shortest amount of time has been an entire day. The longest, three. All with careful monitoring and nutritional sustenance orally administered. Some had horrible wounds that I treated during the experiment. They mostly healed by the time the subject awoke!

Nick: *looks over the twitching girl*

Jasmine: (Try me! She is still screaming at the eternal darkness trying by all hell to wake up. The amount of experimental sedatives and drugs that have been pumped into her by the days is incredible and also very saddening. She would wake up from a forced deep sleep only to be put back under then awaken again by her own sheer force. None of the scientist and Doctors could figure out how she does it, they just wrote it off as part of her high tolerance and endurance)

Nick: *flatly* I give it less than a few hours before she's awake, panicking, and trying to remove the restraints again...

Curie: Well... she is an outlier and quite different from the average volunteer participants...

Jasmine: (If the strong restraints weren't there, she would be trashing like mad in her sleep. Part of her rage to wake up is fueled by the thought of Nick being shut down, because of no one else but herself)

Nick: I recommend you two leave. She's a bit unstable. Not quite sure it's safe for either of you- specially you, Shaun.

Shaun: ... Okay... Be careful, Mr. Valentine.*leaves obediently*

Curie: *nods and leaves*

Nick: *sits next to her bed again*

Jasmine: (Still sleeping and trying to thrash) “You cannot fix any of this! If Nick is dead that is just more blood on your hands! Either give up or try harder you worthless Bitch!”

Nick: *rests a hand on her head* Easy, Doll...

Jasmine: (Giving herself a hellish headache, but she is starting to break out of the forced sleep, desperate to check on Nick and on herself still partly believing that she is bleeding out)

Nick: Maybe I was a little too generous with that estimate...

Jasmine: (Bursts awake, gasping and with the mother of all hells headaches, but awake somehow. Of course she goes straight to trying to pull herself free from the restraints, but they are too tight and strong as she tugs) “Nggggnnn!!” (Continues to pull, Not noticing Nick sitting by her yet)

Nick: *grabs her shoulder* Jas, ssh... It's alright.

Jasmine: (Stops and stares at him, her eyes filled with worry and guilt as she looks him over, but she cant help but tug a little more on the restraints)

Nick: Don't worry. I'm fine. Shaun patched me up. *small forgiving smile*

Jasmine: (Shakes her head, giving him a fearful and panicked look. It could have been so much worse. It came pretty damned close. The lifeless state she saw him in is haunting…. and it was all her fault. She lets out a pained gasp, still trying to pull free, looking down at herself trying to figure out if she was hurt or not other than her headache from hell)

Nick: You were just knocked unconscious, if you're wondering what else was done besides restraints. Honestly I wish we didn't have to restrain you but it's for your own safety... *thinks about what happened just a moment ago* And others....

Jasmine: (Looks back up at Nick for a second to give him a quick apologetic look before looking back down at herself) “……….” (She swore a minute ago that she was covered in blood and cuts, but other than a small drop of blood from her popped stitches and a little dried blood on her wrist from her scratching there was nothing. Her wrists and legs are still twisting to break free from instinct)

Nick: Hey...! *shakes her shoulder to regain her attention*

Jasmine: (Looks back up at him with wide dazed eyes, halting her twisting slightly for a second)

Nick: I forgive you...

Jasmine: (Blinks in confusion. Why should he? She shoved him like mad and could have done much worse damage. She has been nothing but trouble for him and everybody else here and yet he is still trying? It’s not even like she is getting any better. She shakes her head at him, going back to twisting her wrists)

Nick: I don't blame you for reacting the way you did. You were confused and terrified. You didn't recognize me... luckily, we have a junior technician on hand that knows how to patch up an old Synth like me so it's not a big deal.

Jasmine: (Twisting still, tears starting to prick at her eyes. It IS a big deal in her mind, she doesn't think that she will let herself just brush it over so soon)

Nick: *gently pets her head* Things won't always be like this. I want to believe with time and patience you'll open up- start trusting people a bit more. Not everyone, mind you, now. You still gotta be careful out there. But in time I hope you can come to rely on others to help you...

Jasmine: (Gives him a doubtful look. Like she said to Lucille, she ain't relying on anyone fully for anything. Neither is she gonna be so trusting of other people, she’s had her fill of them. She twists some more, but winces at her monster headache, side effect of bursting out of forced sleep so many times in the past dozen hours)

Nick: Don't give me that look. You're only 15- you're just a kid... *sighs* Trust me, going alone and walling yourself off? I've been there and it ain't pretty. In fact, it gets pretty damn miserable.

Lucille: *passed out on the beds at the Slog with a blanket Wiseman kindly threw over her*

Jasmine: (Wants to snap back to him that she is NOT a kid, but cant really so she just scoffs like a sassy teen and turns her head away with a scowl. Ignoring the headache and the tears. She has either been alone, or watching out for someone else, this is nothing new in her life. Plus, shes already accepted that her life is one big miserable mess and there is no changing that)

Nick: *sighs and leans against the bed, facing away from her* I get nothing out of this, by the way. I've always been the type to go by the philosophy of helping people who need help regardless of payment. If they're really grateful they'll hopefully find a way to return it in kind. If not... well... I can only hope they wise up one day... *glances at Jas* I wish I could make you see, even out here, people can still be kind...

Jasmine: (Twists her arms again, as if the restraints had loosened up in the last time she tried. She keeps her face turned away, partly because she doesn't want him to see the tears on her cheeks. She wants to tell him again that she is not WORTH all this trouble. That he should be doing something else because good and caring people like him are rare in this world. She also wants to let him know that she GAVE people her trust out here, and they slapped a shock collar on her and tried to make her “pay” for water they gave her with her body)

Nick: You're not a lost cause... I don't think so anyway. Can't tell you why but I feel it's the truth. I've seen how brave you can be. I hope that bravery hasn't been snuffed out completely, because it'll take a lot of it to give people a second chance... *laughs at himself* Listen to me, preaching like I know better than anyone else out here... What do I know? I'm just an old synth-

Jasmine: (Gives him a teary side glance, wanting to say that she has always been a lost cause, since she was dumped as a baby. Also to remind him that he is MORE than an old synth to a lot of people)

Nick: *catches that look* I suppose to others I'm not... I've tried damndest to just be me. I'm still trying. But when you wake up on top of the garbage with another guys memories rattling around in your skull, you kind of have trouble nailing down a concept of self.

Jasmine: (Turns her head to fully look at him for a moment again, unsure what to say to that. She looks away and makes another attempt to twist herself free before letting out a small sigh to herself, looking herself over again)

Nick: *goes quiet. Just leans against the bed in thought*

Jasmine: (Takes a deep breath, closing her eyes to clear her mind) “……….” (Flash backs intensify so tries to shake her hands free again, a little desperation on her face)

Nick: *death felt very close that time... he wishes there was something he could do to help her own up to others who actually care about her. What if the next time is the end of him? What would she do without him?*

Jasmine: (Whimpers, tugging a little harder on her restraints. This scenario of the hospital gown, bandages, stitches and restraints are hitting at the wrong memories at the wrong time. She wants to ask Nick to hold her hand, but she figures he has had enough of her shit for one lifetime)

Nick: *takes her hand in hopes it will comfort her* Please stop...

Jasmine: (Looks at him with sad, sorry expression, her lips quivering and her hands shaking. She wants to, she really does. But this is all going in a circle and she still seeing the same thing over and over again)

Nick: *frowns and mutters softly, guiltily* I shouldn't have woken you up from that nightmare... You're still a bit out of it, it looks like...

Jasmine: (Shakes her head. Fuck sleep, she would rather be wide awake because at least things are more realistic and ghost aren't attacking her. Yes, she still feels it and she is still seeing things but it’s not as bad as a dream. Still lightly trying to twist free. She does want to tell Nick that if he ever has to wake her up again, to not shake her by the shoulders, as that was one of the ways she was pulled out of sleep for brutal activities)

Nick: *trying to figure out what he did wrong* Was it the grip of my hands? The shaking? What triggered this state-? *remembers his system trying to read her lips* Oh! If you mouth your words I might be able to read lips. *points at his own mouth with a smile* Ain't that handy?

Jasmine: (Blinks a few times) (Mouthing) “The shaking, bad timing” (Shudders. She was either yanked by the hair/arms, or shaken by the shoulders so hard that she was given a horrible headache) (Mouthing) “Sorry.” (Gives him another apologetic stare, guilt still slapping her for hurting someone that she loves and cares about, again)

Nick: It's alright... I already forgave you for it.

Jasmine: (Sighs, looking down at herself again. If she wasn't restrained, she would be picking her skin practically off by now at the very least)

Nick: ... *goes silent again*

Jasmine: (Cant help but to look back at Nick with concern. Right now he is the only one of them two who can talk, so the silence is a little unnerving, especially with the her hellish headache) “……..” (Wiggles her wrists again)

Nick: *squeezes her hand* I'm still here. Just don't have anything else to say, at the moment.

Jasmine: (Blinks rapidly, frowning. Not like she can complain, shes gone silent for weeks at a time, and just scared everyone by completely shutting down. Her eyes glaze around the room in a daze. She starts tapping to get his attention) (Mouthing) “How long?”

Nick: Do you have to be here? Until a good chunk of your wounds heal. That could be days. Maybe weeks. Depends on how much rest and food you get. *remembers the water and hands it to her* Here. Some water for that headache you're no doubt nursing.

Jasmine: (Stares at him)

Nick: *catches that look* You need to drink water. Otherwise, we're going to have to put an IV back in so you can stay hydrated.

Jasmine: (Sighs, mouthing fuck to herself before nodding her head at him. There was a good chance she might spit it out, but she didn't want anymore needles coming near her anytime soon)

@lucilleandherrobots

#fallout #fallout 4 #fo4 #fallout oc #fallout original character #nick valentine #fallout fanfic

10 notes · View notes