#oh my gosh I finished a challenge for the first time in my life........
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FFXIV Write 2023: Day 30 - Amity
Satella’s first love is a girl named Helena.
Back when she was only Amelia, she had arrived on the shores of Vylbrand sullen and quiet. She remembers those days well, of feeling as if all along something in her life had been missing – the spark that made life worth living – as she lived cloistered in Old Sharlayan and stifled by the presence of her mother and like-minded individuals. No one cared for little Amelia, who was always buried in the wrong kinds of books and would rather sneak out to badger the gleaners than dedicate her time to classwork. The adults had preferred to ignore her and so the children had soon learned to follow, leaving her be with her fantasy novels and lonely solitude.
She had liked it that way, she thought. All the way until Helena burst into her life like the first warm ray of summer sunshine. She had knocked on Aunt Zoya and Frederick’s door with a platter of cookies in one hand and holding on to her mother’s with the other, and well–
It was history, after that, and it went like this:
Amelia’s first love is a girl named Helena, a widow’s daughter with a father lost at sea and a brother too old to be comforted by tales. They meet in the wheat fields between their little family farms and run like beastkin through the golden stalks, hair bleached by the sun trailing behind them like the banners of oncoming ships. They herd livestock together and read periodicals and name themselves after the heroines in their favourite ones. They dance to all the tunes on the orchestrion in Helena’s bedroom and spend their nights stargazing shapes and stories into being on far too many evenings, even on the cold ones.
They fall in love slowly, into the kind of love birthed from friendship. It is gentle and sweet and soft. It is as all first loves should be.
It ends with Dalamud descending and Helena’s cold hand in hers, but Satella has learned to stop dreaming of the golden girl she’d loved so still and colourless. She chooses to remembers her first love more like this:
Satella’s first love was the neighbor’s daughter. Her name was Helena and Satella doesn't remember the shape of her face or even her laugh, anymore, but she remembers sun bleached hair and dark freckles and a warm hand in hers. She remembers the ocean breeze and songs in the air and sun-warmed ground beneath her back and a clear, starlit sky above.
She remembers the gift of friendship and of love given freely from a girl full of laughter and life, all to a girl who did not know how to laugh nor to live.
#ffxivwrite2023#ffxivrwrite#ffxiv#oh my gosh I finished a challenge for the first time in my life........#listen I've been holding on to Helena since something like 2020 and I hold this tender and tragic first love between the two very close#I am glad to finally be writing some of it out!#my writing
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*immediately bolted here as soon as i saw my favourite hq writer open these prompts again >:D*
"i cant get over how a few months ago i wanted to learn your name and now youre having breakfast with me in my sweater" + goshiki 🥹🥹🥹 (stay safe and stay hydrated phia love u <333)
#8'S LOVE STORY | goshiki tsutomu
prompt: "i can't get over how a few months ago, i wanted to learn your name, and now you're having breakfast with me in my sweater."
content: (🦷) tooth-rotting fluff, goshiki gushing over you and perhaps getting distracted during practice while thinking about you, you're his upperclassmen (second year), tendō is a wingman and brownie enthusiast, you like baking, quite long.
⚠ warning/s: none.
note: gosh this was so fun to write that it became a one-shot instead of a drabble. i've never gotten a goshiki request so this was a good challenge for me. i really hope that i got him and the rest of shiratorizawa's personalities right! TYSM AND ILY HIKARIII ENJOY READING GIRL!!! :D
"her name.. what's her name?!" goshiki tsutomu mentally groaned with furrowed brows, peeking out from his classroom door to look at you, his beautiful upperclassmen. you were a responsible girl who did everything at your own pace, hence the clipboard in your hands to check your schedule for the day. if the student council of shiratorizawa accepted second years, you definitely would've at least been the secretary.
goshiki heard your name once from a few of your friends, but he.. just can't remember!
so here he is, irritatedly sipping on his juice box while staring you down. although not on purpose, of course.
"what's up, goshiki! what are we lookin' at?" tendō appears out of nowhere, accidentally spooking the poor wing spiker. goshiki turns his head to look over his shoulder, "huh?! tendō, what are you doing here?! aren't the third year's classrooms all the way on the third floor?"
"what a smart little cookie you are!" tendō ruffled goshiki's hair. "well, y'know how shiratorizawa's annual bake sale is coming up? i'm trying to find y/n because i heard that she's handling the preparations this year. i wanna see if i can get some of her famous two-bite brownies in advance before they sell out again!" tendō hisses at the bitter memory.
tendō can still recall the stinging feeling of how he wasn't able to purchase last year's batch because a volleyball game overlapped on the same day as the sale, so by the time the team got back to shiratorizawa, all of the brownies were gone.
and, hold on..
"y/n!" goshiki rejoices as he was finally able to recollect your name, all thanks to tendō. "yes?" you ask, looking at goshiki with a confused look.
goshiki turns red. "n- nothing!" i forgot that she was in the same hallway!
something in tendō sparks, and he suddenly has the urge to help his underclassmen's love life. he can bring up the brownie topic with you later..
"hey, n/n! what do you think of our up-and-coming ace here? ain't he a real firecracker?" tendō suddenly compliments goshiki, even wrapping his long arm around the young boy's shoulder. goshiki widens his eyes, already wanting to hear more. "hm? oh, i haven't seen him play yet," and just like that, goshiki's ego has been cracked and bruised.
"but i'd love to be invited to the next game if that's okay with you, goshiki." you smile a pearly one at him, and goshiki's mood is turned right back around. "yes! please come, y/n! i won't disappoint you!" he exclaims.
you giggled it off and soon excuse yourself from the two.
"what a cute boy!" you thought with a faint blush on your cheeks.
goshiki looks at tendō, utterly speechless to the core, while the middle blocker only dusts his hands off as if he's just finished some heavy labor. "what can i say! i may not be the first to get married from our team, but i can be a good matchmaker!"
goshiki has never had more respect for tendō than he has right now.
time skip.
"oi! stop standing around like that, number eight! you look like a lost kid at the mall!" coach washijo scolded goshiki, who flinched. i was spacing out again! "s- sorry, coach!"
reon comes up to tendō and shirabu, "what's up with him?" he asks. shirabu sighs, "i don't know. but if he continues to do this, then he'll just drag the whole team down."
"oh, poor little shirabu! i can tell you what's going on in goshiki's head," tendō says, "our future ace has a crush on the sweet and classy y/n!"
"that doesn't matter. can't he just leave his personal feelings out of practice? prelims are around the corner, after all." shirabu stated factually. "it's not like you're capable enough to have crushes anyway, so the least you could do is cut goshiki some slack." semi poked fun at shirabu, as the older setter just so happened to overhear the conversation from a few feet away.
"what did you say?" a visible vein forms on shirabu's forehead.
tendō turns to reon while shirabu and semi bicker, "anyway, the kid is all worried about the upcoming game because y/n is coming to see him play for the first time." tendō whispers. "you think he'll be alright?"
reon looks at goshiki, who's physically trembling. there's even a gloomy aura around him practically screaming, "don't screw this up, don't screw this up, don't screw this up."
just in good timing, ushijima places his palm on goshiki's shoulder. "rest, goshiki. you need to be in good shape to practice." he states. "yeah, exactly! aren't you gonna be ushiwaka's successor? what'll y/n think when she sees you all shaken up on the court!" tendō exclaims.
ushiwaka's.. successor.. y/n..
goshiki's aura quickly shifts into one of fiery determination, ready to take on anything and everything. "you're right, tendō! i'll do my best!"
"it's really easy to get this kid going, huh.." the team thought simultaneously, sweat dropping in the process.
time skip.
it's the day of the prelims, and shiratorizawa was up against ohgiminami high. they're not a powerhouse that goshiki was familiar of, but then again, they're not be underestimated.
the starting line-ups are on court, and there goshiki was standing, being the only first year. that was something you noticed from the stands.
"he must be really talented to have been able to get that far.. i heard that coach washijo is tough on the volleyball club too." you thought.
the coin is flipped and shiratorizawa ends up serving first. ushijima hits the ball and there we go, a service ace. you're impressed to have seen the ball fly by that fast, but then again, it's ushijima. "if i tried receiving that, my arms would fall right off.."
goshiki sees your amused face from the stands, and he huffs. "wait until you see me score a point, y/n!"
a few rounds later, and the rotation is in goshiki's favor. he's up front. he can do a line shot, a move that he specializes in.
"make it a good one, goshiki!" tendō encourages the boy as shirabu sets the ball cleanly toward goshiki. even though he has two blockers against him, he was still able to make a beautiful line shot that granted shiratorizawa another point.
"what was that?!" you were shocked, to say the least. "tendō wasn't kidding when he said he'd be the up-and-coming ace.." you quietly mutter, referring to goshiki.
you watched the way that goshiki shortly celebrated on the court with each of his teammates giving him some heavy pats on the back. the moment was adorable.
goshiki looked up to see you smiling fondly at him. you send him a wave, and he shoots back a smile full of pride; a smile that says, "look at me, y/n! aren't i amazing?"
and only if you knew what it conveyed, you would've replied with a, "yes, goshiki. very."
time skip.
you yawn, clearly drowsy from the lack of sleep. on the table in front of you, was a nice breakfast whipped up by shiratorizawa's patient cooks; one omurice, a small bowl of grapes, and a cup of milk. but besides what was on the table, was what was across from you; goshiki tsutomu, your boyfriend.
it was a cold morning in japan, for spring had finally started. so here you are, all bundled up in goshiki's volleyball jersey.
he's seen smiling at you, and you tilt your head. "what's on your mind, tomu?"
"nothing, it's just.. i can't really get over how a few months ago, i wanted to learn your name, and now you're having breakfast with me in my jersey." goshiki says, "honestly, if it weren't for tendō, i probably wouldn't even be with you right now."
you perk a brow. goshiki panics, "d- don't tell him i said that though!"
"i wouldn't give tendō all the credit, really," you started, "i actually had already taken an interest in you when you were looking at me in the first year's hallway. it was only a matter of time until i'd have mustered enough courage to talk to you myself." you admitted.
is this what a heart attack feels like, because goshiki can feel his chest swelling in both love and pride.
this was a happy ending not only for the two of you, but for tendō too, since he was able to buy all of the two-bite brownies he needed.
© lowercase intended | loveephia
#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu!!#haikyuu x y/n#hq x reader#hq x y/n#haikyuu headcanons#haikyuu imagines#hq hcs#tooth rotting fluff#hq#haikyuu#haikyu x reader#haikyū!!#goshiki tsutomu#goshiki fluff#haikyuu goshiki#goshiki x reader#goshiki x you#goshiki x y/n#satori tendō#ushijima wakatoshi#reon ohira#shirabu kenjirō#semi eita
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annual writing self-evaluation
thank you @pipergirl17 and @erythromanc3r for tagging me!
1. List of works published this year (in no particular order):
oh gosh, I've been busy-busy this year with fanfic, so here goes!
Complete works:
... And a Hellcheer New Year
Galentines and Valentines
Hold Onto Me
Devil in the Woods
Every Time I Run, I Run to You
Eddie and Chrissy Go to a Wedding
Knocking Me Out With Those American Thighs
Cooking Up Something Sweet
Please Don't Say You Love Me
Let Me Start Over Again
You Got Me Good
Be My Breath (Through the Deep, Deep Water)
This Old Man
Do You Wanna Touch Me
My Words Will Be Your Light
She'll See I'm Not So Tough
She Knows What She Wants
Give Me a Taste
The Right Kind of Sinner
Release My Inner Fantasy
Hooked on a Feeling
Whiskey & Wine
The Graveyard Smash
Long Is the Road Out of Hell
In a Sentimental Mood
Set My Soul On Fire
Burnin' Out of Control
WIPs:
Looking For Something Dumb To Do
I Can't Get Rid of You
If You Fall, I Will Catch You
2. Work you are most proud of (and why):
hmmmmm, that's a tough one! I love them all for different reasons, but I will say I'm very proud of Long Is the Road Out of Hell because it's my longest fanfic to date (almost 60k!) and at one point I really wasn't sure if I'd be able to finish it. but I did!
3. Work you are least proud of (and why):
tbh if I'm not proud of something, I won't publish it. but I think the work that frustrated me the most was Whiskey & Wine, my kinktober fic. I pushed myself too hard with too big of a goal and burnt myself out halfway through. but I did learn the importance of setting boundaries for myself (and why I need to be careful committing to challenges 😅)
4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:
not gonna lie, once I publish something, the words tend to leave my brain, so I don't always remember what I write lol. I should probably keep a doc of good lines from my fics so I have something to present when people ask me 😂 but here are two excerpts that I'm pretty proud of.
Devil in the Woods:
He had loved her since the first time he opened his eyes to find her snuggled up on his chest. He had loved her longer, since the moment he’d held her in his arms on that endlessly rainy night. And longer still, he’d loved the little girl who played jacks with him on May Day and laughed at his wild antics.
Hooked on a Feeling:
He knew he could be… a lot, as kinder people said. A goddamn nuisance, according to everyone else. He didn’t mean to be, he just tended to… latch on to things. Kind of like a bulldog (but in a nice and lovable way, thank you, Jeff). And right now he had ChrissyChrissyChrissy clamped tight between his jaws, and he hoped to god she didn’t ask him to let go.
5. Share or describe a favorite comment you received:
I have a few regular commenters who give me the longest, loveliest comments where they literally analyze each chapter section by section 😭 it makes me feel so loved. but as for one individual comment, I distinctly remember a commenter from one of my early fics commenting on a really tough scene I did re: chrissy's eating disorder. they said that they also had an eating disorder, and that chapter was very healing for them. I don't think I'll ever get another comment as powerful as that.
6. A time when writing was really, really hard:
I go in and out of mild anxious/depressive episodes, mostly due to outside stressors, and that makes it really hard to write. writing is the one constant joy in my life, and when I don't even feel like doing that, I know something is very, very wrong. but luckily, they don't usually last too long!
7. A scene or character that you wrote that surprised you:
mike's redemption arc in Long Is the Road! that one was a total curveball to me, and it only came about because it was the closest place I could think of to have Chrissy walk to after her mom kicked her out. total accident, but it spawned on of my favorite sibling-ships for chrissy that I've ever written!
also writing wayne's pov! i never intended to do that, but once I started, his voice just kind of stuck in my head 😂
8. How did you grow as a writer this year:
I wrote a lot. like over 300k of fanfic. and i even got back into writing some original fiction, which I'm so excited about!
I also started writing smut for the first time in 2023, which was something I never anticipated doing, let alone enjoying! but it's been super fun
9. How do you hope to grow next year:
I'd like to work more on my original fiction, maybe get a short story published. I'd also like to get better at world-building! I tend to get so focused on the characters that I forget they exist in a place I should spend some time creating lol
10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):
@slumped-in-the-arms-of-fiction all the way! she's been such a wonderful beta reader, cheerleader, and overall positive influence on my writing. I Can't Get Rid of You wouldn't ever have happened without her support and feedback!
11. Anything in your real life show up in your writing this year:
ooh, buddy! pieces of myself get sprinkled all over the damn place 😂 but as for specifics...
Galentines and Valentines opening scene was reminiscent of the girls' nights me and my college friends used to have (and still have sometimes)
Hooked on a Feeling had elements of my own past experiences of being laid up in a hospital (and being very annoyed about it)
This Old Man was absolutely inspired by my love of Columbo
You Got Me Good definitely included some of my own thoughts and feelings about when I get a little too high 😂
12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:
give your writing time.
it's so tempting when you have a new idea to jump on it and then get frustrated when it doesn't immediately turn out the way you want, but I've found that if I give myself time to think over a piece before I write it, and let it sit for a little while after I write it, I'm much happier with the end results!
13. Any new projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:
finishing my three WIPs! and hopefully a little christmas fic 😂 I don't have anything else immediately in the works, thank god!
14. Tag three writers/artists whose answers you’d like to read:
@1lostsoul0fishbowl @pearlypairings @rose-n-gunses and anybody else!!!
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Alex Rider S03E06 Reaction
Unspoilered episode reactions, warning for book spoilers, you know the drill. Time to kill Mrs Jones!
Liveblog
‘We have both been betrayed too many times’ over an image of John, nice
Don’t just approach the strange man watching you, Jack!!
Why did he tell Jack?? It’s sort of wild that Alex is thinking of killing Mrs Jones as just something he needs to do first, like he can in any way go back to a normal life after. Like, also him thinking he would ‘just’ finish Scorpia, like that’s not an entire criminal organisation that’s been hidden for years. Alex, I love you but perhaps these are not realistic life goals
Omg why would you get the CIA involved
Ahsdlfhs I need Alex to be more isolated, I can’t handle him seeming to be winning this argument with Yassen about contacting Jack when it was objectively a stupid thing to do. ‘She needed to know I was okay’ Alex… you will literally never be able to live a normal life again if you kill Mrs Jones, you showing yourself to Jack will not make this easier in any way
‘We trust each other, you should try it sometime’ Alex you literally just met up with your friend in secret ahsdlfhs
Oh no I think Yassen may know that the story about Mrs Jones isn’t true. ‘Shortly after the operation. Shortly after your father died’ sounds like Yassen knows John didn’t die on the bridge. But also gosh him telling Alex he could be a good killer!! What are Yassen’s motives here??
Ayyy first Helen mention, that took a while. Interesting choice to have Yassen be the one to tell Alex, and that he knows about the plane crash
“Because it’s my job. I work for Scorpia. And I’m good at it” 🥺
“You think this is about John. Alex Rider’s father” ahsldhfs why not just call him John Rider lol
YASSEN IS COOKING FOR THEM!!! 🥰 They’re having dinner together omg
“You can’t kill someone and go home. You can only go forward.” “forward to what?” “To the next target” ooof gosh he’s not wrong tho and Alex is definitely overdue hearing that given his behaviour earlier this ep
“Alex worked it out, because he’s actually quite good at this stuff” yeah I mean that is part of why they blackmailed him to work for the Department, Tom ahsldfhs what sort of burn is this supposed to be lol weren’t you all glad Blunt wasn’t interested in Alex anymore??
“If i were betrayed like that, I would make sure there were consequences, no matter how long it took” lol foreshadowing
Gosh this part about her trying to make him separate from Jack is a lot more complicated in the show than in the book, what with Alex not being as isolated/him not feeling like he’s already decided to be with Scorpia/Scorpia being a lot more brutal to him so far
“He’s confused” I mean he’s also trying to kill Mrs Jones and joined a criminal organisation. So like, they absolutely should be treating him with caution now
Why are they not putting together yet that Alex is going after Mrs Jones tho? In the book Blunt puts extra security on her the moment it becomes clear that Alex may have joined Scorpia because he learned about Albert Bridge, it doesn’t seem such a big leap to assume Alex is out to kill a particular person?
Love how they kept in the Coke trick with the metal detector, always loved that in the book haha
Lmao Alex just putting together the gun on camera
I love how she immediately notices the picture being turned down and knows something is wrong
Alex is so angry!! I’m sad that we don’t get Mrs Jones challenging Alex about his dad being a killer tho
Overall
Very nice. Some really cool scenes this episode, loved how much Yassen and Alex we are getting but oh man I need the Department at least to be rough with Alex when they bring him in after this, I crave Consequences.
Thought/predictions
Some very interesting Yassen and Alex scenes in this episode, and I loooove the fact that they are living in the safe house together for a bit and that Yassen was cooking them dinner, but also it is wild to me how Alex could just walk out. Where is the danger, the consequences of him telling people? Yassen is huffy for one moment and then Alex talks back and they move on like ahsdlfhs I love Yassen being soft for Alex, but he really is being very foolish contacting people he knows like that. Like ‘yeah I’m on a mission of revenge and I’m planning the murder of a government official but after that I plan to come home’ like Alex…
Those were some really wild reactions to Kyra stealing the equivalent of state secrets lol. Like, those are highly classified files, and frankly the fact that Smithers either didn’t notice it going missing or didn’t care because he likes Kyra makes me think that perhaps the Department is not ISO certified.
Okay so, Julia Rothman wants revenge on Blunt and John (through Alex). The plan was just Blunt until Alex started searching for Scorpia and now Mrs Rothman really wants to watch him die too (which I assume Alex will learn once they tell him about what Scorpia is planning next ep when they bring him in).
Yassen on the other hand seems to think Alex can be a killer like him and John, and I still can’t tell if he knows that John betrayed Scorpia. Because he is very ‘emotions don’t matter’ so it is possible that yes he felt betrayed but now he put that aside, and he is not about things getting personal and doesn’t question orders, so he might never have even considered that Julia Rothman actually wants Alex dead. Because apparently he’s happy never thinking lol. But that also means that perhaps once he’s forced to choose between Scorpia and Alex later this season, he may need to make an actual choice, and may realise that Julia actually planned to kill Alex from the start. Alternatively, he doesn’t know but also never looked into it. But the way he phrased things when it came to Alex’s mother dying and warned Alex not to make things personal is a bit suspicious. But also that means he’s lying to Alex about his dad??
Also Kyra loves Alex apparently, but I wish we could have got more on her feelings about Alex joining the organisation that murdered her parents. Like, it may even have been Yassen who did it, and now Alex is hanging out with him. Can we please get some moral consequences and angst in here?
I want a hundred more scenes of Alex and Yassen living in the safe house. Did they do dishes together? Did they have separate bedrooms? What’s it like for Alex to spend so much time with the man who killed his uncle? He did actually seem to warm up to Yassen from around that time with the shopping list, but it has to be strange when he’s reminded of Yassen being a killer.
I assume they will send Alex in again like in canon but I really wonder what that conversation will be like, because I always liked how in the books Alex is sort of half resigned to the fact that they are going to ask him, and half knows he wants to do it because he wants to save people & get back at Julia Rothman for the lies and also her trying to kill him.
Questions
Does Yassen know??? I need to know more about his motivations
Is Tom’s brother going to be okay without a good cameraman?
Will Tom move to Malta?
What is Yassen going to do when he sees Alex is caught??
How did the shooting end this time, did Alex just straight up miss or is there still a glass wall?
#alex rider tv#alex rider spoilers#alex rider tv spoilers#alex rider s3#cyan watches alex rider s3#alex rider#yassen gregorovich#mrs jones#alex x yassen
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Head in the clouds
Tom ‘Iceman’ Kazansky x Reader
Gender neutral reader
[Masterlist]
[Previous Chapter] - [Next Chapter]
Warnings: MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH. We all knew this was coming. I cry when I watch it, so writing it wasn’t much better. Seriously. I'm in tears. Damn this movie.
The past was supposed to stay in the past, but with Goose and Maverick getting into Top Gun, it would seem that it’s repeating itself. No matter what you do, you can never escape Tom Kazansky.
Word count: 2.5k
Chapter Twelve - The day time stopped
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You were at the Bradshaw’s quite early the next day. Goose and Maverick had a flight test today, with Iceman and Slider. Nervous felt too small of a word for how you felt. When it came down to it, Ice and Mav were rivals. Iceman and his RIO were in first, where as Maverick and Goose sat in second. It had been this way since the start.
Maverick was going to meet Goose at base, so you decided to just go around to their house and see him before he left. The house still smelt amazing from whatever it was they had eaten for breakfast before you arrived.
“My stud is off for another day with the big boys,” Carole sighs, though the smile on her face gives away her teasing nature. You laugh.
“He’ll be back before you know it.”
Goose grins as he grabs the last of his things.
“You know it,” he winks at you both. You laugh again. He kneels down and scoops Bradley into his arms and gives him a big hug. Carole gets up and walks over to her husband, pulling him into a kiss. You walk with them to the door and watch Goose put his son down. The tall aviator pulls you into a hug.
“Wish me luck,” he grins.
“I wish you all the luck. Keep Maverick in check for me, yeah?”
“You know it,” he mock salutes you. You just chuckle and wave him off as he goes. Carole and Bradley wave too, watching their big brave navy officer go off for training.
Once he is out of sight, you head inside with Carole again.
“So?” She asks, putting Bradley down so he can go and play.
“So... what?”
“What happened yesterday with Kazansky?” She grins.
You roll your eyes, but smile. “Nothing, but something will,” you tell her.
Carole has a huge grin on her face as she leans in closer. She needed to know everything.
“Spill!”
You laugh. “I asked Ron to tell Tom to come by my place tonight. I’m tired of pretending I’m not still in love with him, and I can’t cope with just being his friend. I’ll tell him how I feel... and I’ll be honest with him, even if it doesn’t hold up any more. I can’t let go.”
Carole’s smile turns soft as she looks at you.
“Good for you.”
“Whatever I have to do, I’ll work it out with him. If he will still have me, I’ll be there. You can do it, so can I.”
Carole pulls you into a hug. You smile as she rock gently with her. She’s so proud of you and continues to tell you so as you pull away from her.
“I’m so happy for you. Gosh, life really is a roller-coaster.”
“It sure is,” you agree.
Maverick smiles at Goose as he comes over. They’re both geared up and nearly ready for their turn in the sky. Pete gives Nick a firm pat on the arm as they walk side by side. Goose, though he trusts Maverick more than anyone, felt the need to say something. After all, you told him to keep and eye on Maverick today.
You both know how he can be when met with a challenge. In this case, the challenge being Iceman.
“Mav, you’ll play by the rules today, right? If you want us to graduate and do well, we should listen to our wingman.”
Maverick looks up at Goose.
“Even though our wingman is Ice?” He asks him.
“Even then.”
“Of course, Goose. We got this. We’ll get us a kill, you’ll see.”
Goose smiles at his bud and they walk onward.
Ice is in the locker room with Slider. They have just finished gearing up for their flight today. Kazansky can’t say he’s overly thrilled to be flying with Maverick, but as long as he listens and they work together, they’ll both come out of this on top. Ice doesn’t need to lose points because Maverick did something stupid.
“Oh, before I forget,” Ron looks up. “The love of your life has invited you to their place tonight. They want to talk to you.”
Ice looks up instantly at Ron.
“Is that what you were talking about yesterday?” He asks his RIO.
“Yeah. Asked me to pass on the message, so... consider the message passed on. My job is done.” Ron give his friend a grin.
Tom feels his heartrate increase slightly. You wanted to talk to him? Well, how can he deny your request? He wants to talk to you too. A part of him wants to let his mind run away with the idea that this conversation will change something between you, but he stops himself before he gets too far ahead. Maybe you just want to spend some more time with him.
Maybe, just maybe, your feelings are still the same.
“Thank you for telling me,” Ice says. He slides his aviators on and lifts his head a little higher. Hearing from you was all he needed to keep his spirits high today. He would pull off today’s training without a hitch and be at your place before you know it.
As far as both you and Tom were concerned, today would end on a high note.
Three weeks until graduation. Every point still counts. Ice was determined to stay in first. He once told you he was going to be the best of the best, well, he would keep to his word.
Check were complete and the go ahead was given. Both jets took off and soon were up in the air.
All Maverick and Ice had to do was work together. How hard could that be?
Both jets fly side by side. The pilots look over at each other. Ice didn’t trust Maverick. He didn’t like the way he flew. Yet, he was stuck with him as a wingman today. Maverick better behave.
“You up for this one, Maverick?” Ice asks.
“Just a walk in the park, Kazansky,” Maverick smiles.
Slider reads off the location of possible multiple bogies. Maverick spots them.
“I’m in,” Maverick says.
“I’m in,” Iceman repeats.
Both jets dive right together in perfect sync. As soon as they come behind, the three smaller jets break.
The dogfight commences.
“That son of a bitch cut me off,” Maverick says, unhappy that Ice immediately cut in.
Ice was flying right in front of Maverick as they followed on of the jets, hot in it’s tail. Not shot had been taken and Maverick was losing patience.
“Come on, come on. Ice, take the shot.”
“Come on, Ice, get the hell out of there,” Goose says.
“I can’t get the angle, I’m too close for missiles, I’m switching to guns,” Ice tells them.
“Ice, fire or clear,” Maverick states.
Ice stays put.
“Look at this. Jesus Christ. I could take a shot right here,” Maverick groans. His frustration with Ice was building fast.
“I need another 20 seconds,” Ice replies.
They fly further, but no shot is taken.
“I’m moving in, I’m taking the shot,” Maverick says.
“Come on, Mav, let’s get in there,” Goose chimes in. “Come on, Mav.”
“Take the shot,” Slider speaks up.
“10 more seconds then I got him,” Ice tells his back seater.
“Come on, Ice, get the hell out of there!” Goose exclaims. “Let’s do it, Mav.”
This was taking too long.
“Ice, turn off fly right, I’m in,” Maverick orders.
“5 more seconds,” Ice says.
Maverick tells him again, Ice knows he can’t get the shot.
“I’m off, shit,” Ice curses and flies on out of there quick.
Unfortunately for Maverick, he gets caught in the jet wash left behind. He begins to lose control of his plane. His jets lurches into a tailspin and he is unable to gain back control.
“Engine one is out,” Goose tells him. “Engine two is out,” he says right after.
Both engines gone. Maverick has to get back in control, and fast.
“Goose, I’m losing control. I’m losing control.”
The jet is filled with the annoying beeping of the alarm. Maverick is trying to get back into check, but it’s not working. “I can’t control it.”
There’s panic in his voice.
The jet is still falling.
“Come on, Mav. This is not good, not good!”
“May day, may day. Mav’s in trouble,” Ice calls out.
Goose calls out how far from the ground they are. The feet dropping by the second.
The jet falls faster, still spinning. Maverick has no control.
“I can’t reach the ejection handle,” Maverick calls out. “I can’t reach it, Goose. Eject!” He calls out.
“I’m trying, I’m trying,” Goose reaches, his hand just not grabbing it. He reaches with all his might.
To eject is their only option.
“Eject! Eject!” Maverick calls again.
Goose grabs the handle and pulls. The canopy detaches from the plane, sparks flaring up. Everything that happens in the next few seconds happens so fast and without so much as warning.
The canopy hasn’t cleared the plane.
The seats fire up from the cockpit.
Goose is shot straight up into the canopy with harsh impact. Maverick clears it. Goose hits his head hard. The parachutes deploy and two bodies are dropped to the water.
The only difference being, Maverick is still conscious.
This day just became the darkest of days. Maverick’s darkest day.
When they land in the water. Maverick swims to where Goose is. He grabs him and holds him. Goose’s helmet is cracked. Blood is running down his face. Maverick clings to his friend, not wanting to let go.
The coast guard helicopter fly in for the rescue. They have to tell Maverick to let go of him.
He doesn’t want to.
The moment the helicopter reaches land, Goose is whisked off to hospital.
Something in Maverick changes.
Orders are called out and there are people everywhere. Maverick is whisked away in the opposite direction. He doesn’t even notice Ice and Slider watching from afar.
All he can think of is Goose.
You’re at home when the phone rings. Maverick and Goose have been gone a few hours at this point, but the day was far from over. You answer the phone not sure who was calling you, but when you hear Carole’s voice down the phone, you’ve never let your own home so fast.
Goose was in the hospital. His condition hadn’t been announced.
Carole had been notified of the accident and the situation of her husband.
The moment you open the door, she is in your arms. You hold her, unable to stop yourself from crying. Goose. Your Goose who has always been there had been in an accident, and for once you didn’t know what to think or do.
She pleads with you to look after Bradley while she goes to the hospital. Of course you agree. You kiss her cheek and watch her go, promising Bradley will be alright with you.
She’s gone hours.
Maverick.
Oh Maverick.
You hadn’t heard a peep from Pete. Your heart ached with the thought of your friends suffering. You prayed. You prayed for Goose because what else could you do? Of course you wanted to be there for him, but the best thing you could do right now is look after his son.
You hung on to the hope that he would be alright.
Though you had invited Ice to your home that night, things changed the moment the accident happened. One, you were not at home any more. You were going to spend the night at the Bradshaw’s and watch over Bradley. Carole called ahead to say she wouldn’t be back that night. Two, Ice wouldn’t show up anyway. How could he? He had tried to call you, but received no answer. He wouldn’t find out until a little bit later that it was because you weren’t home. He understood.
Things turned worse.
Carole was gone most of the next day too. You would soon find out why.
Goose was dead.
You heard it from Carole. She had called to tell you, but couldn’t finish her sentence down the phone. You heard the gist of it. You had to hang up the phone, because just like Carole, you couldn’t stop yourself from crying.
Never had Bradley been held so tightly before.
The young boy was confused. You held him and you cried.
He would never see his dad again.
You stayed the night there again. You looked after that boy while Carole dealt with things on her end.
Nothing was ever going to be the same. There would always be a Goose shaped hole missing from your lives. Your glass heart was about to shatter. This isn’t how it was suppose to go.
You were suppose to see your boys graduate. Watch them become some of the best pilots the navy ever had.
That dream was shattered into a thousand pieces.
Carole returns that following day and she just breaks down in your arms. You hold her and you cry with her. Already this house felt empty without him.
You spent another night at their house. Helping out with Bradley. You would mourn later, for now, Carole needed you.
Maverick came to the house.
You hadn’t seen him since the beach. He had a box full of Goose’s things. You clung to him. Maverick was broken. He was lost. He couldn’t comfort you because he didn’t know how. Now when he was still suffering.
Maverick had been cleared of any fault in Goose’s death.
You knew it wasn’t his fault, but procedures had to be taken.
“God, he loved flying with you, Maverick,” Carole told him.
You stepped away from him and moved to the side. You didn’t know what to say. There was nothing you could say.
Carole gets up and hugs him.
“He’d have flown anyway. Without you,” she whispers. “He’d have hated it, but he would have done it.”
You try to blink away the tears pooling in your eyes, but it’s useless. They won’t stop.
Maverick can’t seem to say anything. He wants to, but he can’t. You see him struggling. Carole caresses his cheek softly, understanding, but she leaves the room quickly, needing to cry.
You meet Maverick’s eyes.
He tries to speak again. You shake your head softly and step forward once more. You place your hand on his arm and rub circles softly. You don’t need him to speak. You just need him to know you’re there.
He wants to tell you sorry, but sorry won’t cover it. He can’t help but feel like he robbed you and Carole of someone so special. Someone who was special to him too.
You step away and crouch down near Bradley.
There were no words.
Maverick leaves and you can’t help but sob. This pain was unlike anything you ever had to deal with before.
You don’t think your heart can recover from this. Ever.
Bradley looks up at you with big eyes. God, it was like looking at his father. All you can do is hug the boy again.
Everything hurt.
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your rarepairiest pair: Is this a mid-life crisis because if it is I'm a bit worried about your lifespan.
Oh gosh yes please! I will take any and every excuse to write JuBobby! (Also I think I accidentally set this in my Jem and the Holograms AU... whoops! Oh well, I think it makes sense still without context.)
Bobby generally considers his girlfriend a levelheaded person. Sure, she's done some crazy stuff (See the history of how they even met in the first place), but in general, Julie thinks things through before she does them. And that's probably a good thing, considering the insanity of at least half of her brothers/band.
But even for the most even-keeled individual, fame does weird stuff. So when Julie gets back after what was supposed to be a casual family dinner (no significant others allowed on the first night of the visit to give Julie and her brothers a chance to catch up with Ray, Victoria, and Carlos), crashes onto Bobby's bed, and says, "I'm going to get a yacht," Bobby isn't entirely sure how to react.
He hits the save key on his computer and rises from his desk. "Is this a mid-life crisis?" he asks slowly, approaching his girlfriend and sitting down on the edge of the bed beside her. "Cause if so, I'm a little worried about your lifespan. I don't want to outlive you by that much, Molina."
Julie groans and rolls onto her side to look at him. "People can't recognize me on a boat," she states, voice flat.
Bobby winces, suddenly understanding. He'd turned off most of his notifications while he was working, which is probably how he missed whatever pictures have made it online of Julie and her brothers just trying to spend time with their family. He reaches out to run his fingers gently over her arm, offering what comfort he can.
"We didn't even have our food yet before someone came to ask for an autograph," Julie sighs, wriggling a little closer to him. "And then the waiters were staring, and...sometimes I wonder why I told the world my real name."
Bobby hums softly and lays down on his side, pulling her into his chest. "I'm sorry, Ju." This sort of thing has been happening more and more over the past nine months since Julie took to the stage as Dahlia and the crowd was chanting her real first name by the time she and her brothers finished the show.
"So I'm gonna get a frigging boat so I can hang out with my family without getting interrupted," Julie huffs, curling into his embrace, letting his cool hands smooth out the rough heat racing through her body from all the unwanted stares.
"I mean, I know it doesn't really solve the actual problem," Bobby begins, resting his chin against her hair, "but you could just bring them here if you wanted. Get some fancy takeout and just stay in together."
"I wouldn't want to kick you out of your own house though," Julie protests, looking up at him. "I mean, I know the guys and I live here too, but it's your home too. You shouldn't lose your safe space just because my family is in town."
Bobby forces down a joke about being used to it from how things were with Caleb up until a year ago. His therapist says that's not healthy, to downplay it like that. "I don't mind," he promises instead. "They're important to you. So, important to me. I can stay out of your way no problem as long as no one ends up in my room."
Julie cracks a tiny smirk. "Awww, so no sleepovers while they're here?" she teases.
Bobby chuckles and shrugs as best he can without loosening his grip on her. "I suppose something could be arranged," he responds. "You know, if the situation were desperate enough."
"So... you last maybe one night without me," Julie snarks.
"Hey, you leave my insomnia out of this," Bobby complains lightly, unable to resist the slow grin spreading across his face. "I managed just fine before we met."
"Lies," Julie retorts, pushing herself up on one elbow so she's above him.
"Oh yeah? Whatcha gonna do about it?" Bobby challenges.
"Go sleep in my amazing bazillion thread sheeted bed in my room by myself," she answers, smirking. "We'll see just how well you sleep by yourself."
Bobby raises an eyebrow. "I don't see you moving."
"Hey I got accosted by twelve-year-olds today, I'm not moving very fast," Julie says.
Hah, Bobby thinks. An opening. He reaches out and grabs an edge of his bedspread, flipping them over and pinning her down with the blanket and his body. "Well then you're not going anywhere," he teases.
"Oh no, woe is me," Julie laughs as she fumbles one arm free to cup the back of his neck. "I shall never escape."
"Nope, mine now," Bobby agrees before giving into her gentle tugging and leaning down to kiss her. "I'm serious though," he adds, pulling back a hair after a moment. "Just bring your family here. I know it's not ideal, but we can make it feel just as fancy as those stupid restaurants downtown. And here you can just be you."
"You're amazing," Julie says. "Think we can make it happen for everybody dinner tomorrow night?"
"Caleb has an impressive wine cellar," Bobby promises. "And he owes me and Willie and Carrie like... a lot."
"You know I'm technically underaged, right?" Julie jokes.
"Well, rockstars are allowed to do fun stuff sometimes," Bobby responds, leaning down to kiss her again. They'd figure it out, one way or another.
#legolas tag#julie and the phantoms#legolas ask#jatp#jatp fanfic#julie molina#bobby shaw#jubobby#jem and the holograms au#look they're just cute okay!
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hi honey! i hope the end of the year is treating you well! 4, 5, 23, and 30 for the fic writer's ask game! <3
hi morgan! i've got my exams coming up in early-mid january, so right now i'm just spending a lot of time on maths! i hope to take a brief break afterwards, though. i hope the end of the year is treating you well, too. thanks for the ask! <3
4: What piece of media inspired you the most?
Well! This is a fun question. I'm going to say Disney's Descendants (I don't know if you've watched it?). Completely out of the blue earlier this year, I was struck with an intense bout of love for Descendants that reminded me that I am absolutely obsessed with Descendants, so I then wrote a small fic and rewatched the first move and spent two months being absolutely insane (and also had COVID at the same time). Looking back I think this was brought on by my May-Jun exams, because the same thing is happening now as my Jan exams approach. Such is life, alas.
I'm going to cheat and give you two more answers, too - in the summer, I read Frances Hardinge's Deeplight (an absolutely fantastic book, I definitely recommend it) and then wrote my junhao fic. I also read Garth Nix's Frogkisser! (another brilliant book) and have since been thinking very deeply about my batkisser wip.
5: What fandom(s) did you write for this year?
So! This year I actually wrote for quite a few fandoms! I had to go back and check, but it's actually been quite a good year of writing, and I've managed to post fics for four fandoms in total: I wrote three fics for Stray Kids (one of which Versity and I wrote together), one fic for Miraculous Ladybug, one for Descendants and (finally, as I've been meaning to finish a wip since 2018) one fic for SEVENTEEN.
23: Share the final version of a sentence or paragraph you struggled with. What about it was challenging? Are you happy with how it turned out?
Since I'm in a Descendants mood, I'll share a bit from my Carlos fic - while I was writing this fic, I discovered that all my previous kiss scenes have had a pattern of not saying much about the actual physical kiss itself - it's all stuff like people discovering what other people's smiles feel like against their mouths, which is all well and good, but I wanted to work on that. Originally, this kiss scene was just going to be 'And Carlos discovered that he hadn't read it wrong at all,' which was perfectly serviceable (in fact, I kept it in the fic, in the paragraph right above the following one), but I wanted to write something that wasn't just "and then they maybe kissed." This might be a good time to mention I've never kissed anyone on the lips. Anyway. This paragraph was a bit of a struggle, but I think I did well enough in the end! It was definitely a good start, in any case.
Jay’s fingers find their way into his hair — gently, far more gentle than Carlos thought was possible — and Jay’s tongue is trying to find its way into his mouth, hot and persistent against his lips (it’s a bit much for this kiss, Carlos’ first kiss with asking and explanations and kissing-just-for-kissing, so he keeps his mouth firmly shut until Jay gets the hint, but it’s exhilarating all the same), and Jay’s other hand finds its way from his shoulder to the notch at his waist, and Evil, this might be the best thing to ever happen to him.
30: What's something you want to write in 2024?
Oh, what a question. I'd like to say Every WIP I Have, but I'll start with some of my most recent ones: the junhao batkisser one, the hyunho owls one, the hyunho catboys catfight one, the jeongho mommy issues one, the soonhoon fairies one (and the likely junhao sequel), the junhao where jun keeps leaving and also there's magic and baby seungkwan, the hyunho camera one and, finally, i'd like to iron out the details and actually star my junhao call off your dog one. Gosh. What a long list. Good luck to me. Oh! And the fic I'm writing with Versity, which we have both abandoned for the time being as, unfortunately, we are both very busy.
#ask games#nettlestingsoup#thanks for the ask!#apologies for the absolute word vomit of these answers btw. i've been going kind of crazy lately#also apologies for going overboard with the hyperlinks. you don't have to read any of these i just love putting hyperlinks in#asks
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💫🎀🧿💌 for the ask game!!
Oh my gosh, thank you for the ask!
💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?
I love all comments and feedback (as long as it's not like.. mean). Just knowing people read or enjoyed something I wrote is honestly an incredible feeling. But I think my favorite thing is when I've made someone laugh. That always makes me really happy. Also love hearing when I nail the characterization because that is important to me, but making people laugh is like... my favorite thing.
🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing
I mean I sure do a lot of it. 😅 Sometimes I worry I post too much fic (is that a thing??) and I definitely don't expect to people keep up reading when I'm posting weekly or whatever, but I really enjoy writing, and it's part of how I engage with fandom and I write fast, so I end up with a lot of fic. (I also end up with a lot of scraps, unfinished stories, false starts, and stuff I don't think is worth posting.)
Also I do think I'm pretty solid at dialogue. Not all the time but I try to get the character's voices correct or as close as I can. Marius and Louis are often the hardest, but Lestat and Daniel having conversations takes me FOREVER to write because I want them both to sound like them. (That's two compliments, whoops. The first is sort of dubious I guess.)
🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?
I always take it personally. 😂😂 No, no, I'm kidding. I try to remind myself of several things: 1. Sometimes you just post at a weird time or a day when people aren't around and then it gets forgotten and buried so it doesn't get as much love. 2. Sometimes it's just not a popular pairing or type of fic. But I like to experiment with different stuff and different groups of characters. 3. Not every fic is for everyone and neither is my writing style. I tend to write a lot of dialogue-heavy slice of life stuff, which I love, but it's not everyone's cup of tea. I've gotten a lot more confident writing smut, and someday I want to write a big Plot-Heavy Multi-Part fic or try cowriting with someone, but I love little fics that just explore the nooks and crannies left by canon (both reading them and writing them). Not everything I write is going to have broad appeal and that's okay!
Mostly, I'm writing for me. I am my own target audience. Of course I want other people to enjoy what I write, and I always hope they do! Which is why comments really help, it makes it feel like I'm not writing into a void. But at the end of the day, as long as one or two people enjoy it and it's what I set out to write, then I'm happy, and I move on and write the next thing.
💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!
I am desperately trying to write something Lestat/Daniel for Lestat Birthday Bingo but I have like 3 half-finished fics I'm not super happy with any of them right now, so we shall see! Their conversations are so hard to write, I think because they get deep and getting Lestat to actually open up is a challenge! 😬
I also have an idea for a fun Devil's Minion Christmas Fic that I want to start soon, so I'm really excited about that but I don't want to say too much since I don't want to jinx it.
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ok midday UPDATE here are some Good Things:
faculty retreat was fun albeit full of Characters lol. they are such a funny species of human. i was telling macky some of them behave like they are simultaneously the most important people in the world AND the most oppressed... like deposed royalty or something. but i learned a lot about our first-year programming and got to meet some interesting people. plus my table had just finished a summer discussion group exploring the idea of implementing specifications grading in their courses and i was like omg i did specs grading and i loved it!! and then they had lots of questions about how it worked in my classrooms which was fun and made me feel briefly like A Teacher again lol
i don't like it when people act like i'm a total nobody until i say something smart & then it's as if i suddenly materialized in their field of vision and they're like oh wait who are you. i hope i never make people feel that way no matter how Important i think i am!!!! but i have to admit there's something satisfying about the challenge of being like "ohhh got it ok this person is clearly telegraphing that they don't consider me worth paying attention to in the slightest. i bet i can convince them i am and i bet i can do it not by monologuing about myself but by practicing the kind of active listening everyone in this room is starved for & asking really thoughtful questions & making connections to things they'd shared earlier that they thought no one was listening to. i bet i can make them feel Heard." and i did that with two people today lol they barely gave me the time of day for the first hour or so but by the end they were both like let's get coffee and keep talking about this why don't you come to my class this quarter why don't you come to this meeting my group is having. like i get ittttt sometimes you don't want to engage with a rando and it's not personal lol but it is still satisfying to be like ok i won you over and therefore i win. liz says not everything has to be framed as a competition but it does make life into a more interesting game.
i am wearing my new black jeans from everlane and every time i catch my reflection the mirror i'm like DAMN girl you look good. gosh they are just soooo flattering and so much more comfortable than skinny jeans. plus i feel like you can dress black jeans up a bit with a work top so i still feel Professional. also my new slip-on sneakers from old navy arrived today and i feel like they are gonna be the perfect way to wear comfy shoes at work but not look quite as casual as my white sneakers do. tbd but i have high hopes
i cleared a bunch of emails off my to-do list! this was virtuous procrastination as i am avoiding finishing the PPT for thurs lol but i think i can probably get the PPT done tonight in under 15-20 min if i just do a burst of work before bed. so i am freeing myself from having to do it RIGHT NOW at work.
it's beautiful out.... fall is so beautiful here.... gosh it's so nice and i think i am going to go home a bit early & walk the dogs since i worked late last night and will do some more work tonight too
my hypercompetent coworker is probably leaving sigh but my other hypercompetent coworker is staying and today she was like i got asked to serve on this board and i could definitely do it but i think you should do it for XYZ reasons, and that was nice. i mean i know it is added work and i'm sure she's glad to be out of it but i feel like there have been a few times where she's gone out of her way to be like "this opportunity is going to be good exposure for you/a good way to meet people/a good way to show people what you can do" and i really appreciate that. everyone else has been here so long and i am still so new both to the institution and to this level of role! and i can figure some stuff out on my own i know it's a learning curve but i really appreciate it when people are like hey i think doing this thing would be good for your career/work. my [redacted] just cannot provide any useful guidance at all so it can really feel sometimes like i'm on my own. but i'm not!!
i know i probably literally can't be pregnant yet as implantation doesn't happen until day 6ish and it's only day 5 and anything i feel could still be side effects from the hcg shot. but i have just had little cramps and twinges all day. i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i hope i am trying to live in the light of hope and not in despair!!! clean hope clean pain!!!! can she do it!!!
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Meet the Creators - Midnightdrops
What username(s) and platform(s) can folx find you on? (Please include links!)
@midnightdrops- can find stories here on AO3
(Fun Fact) What is your favorite kind of potato?
Sweet potato!!! they're so delicious :)
How long have you been creating works in fandom spaces? How long have you been active in the SM fandom?
Oh gosh I think the first Sailor Moon fanfic I wrote was in 2011 (same year I joined Tumblr and became truly active in the fandom), so it's been nearly 12 years now! But before I created works in the fandom, I was a part of the sailormoon(dot)com community, which had a lot of RPG forums, and I joined those around......2006? It's so hard to believe I've been a part of the fandom for so long :')
What type(s) of creative works do you usually make? (fanfics, digital art, cosplay)
Usually fanfiction! I do love making digital art too, though; my love for my ships holds no bounds 🤗
What do you enjoy about creating for the SM fandom?
The boost of serotonin it gives me and that I get to share with others!
Are you strictly UsaMamo or do you create for other pairings as well?
I mostly stick with UsaMamo! I do love exploring other ships like ChibiTaru and (one-sided) Beryl/Endy though, and would love to create more work for these ships (or others!) in the future ^^
What inspires you to create works for Usagi and Mamoru?
Getting to imagine my OTP in so many scenarios and share/discuss that fun with others is super inspiring for me :)
Do you tend to work on multiple projects (WIPs) simultaneously or try to finish one at a time?
😅 Multiple WIPs simultaneously (sorry y'all)
Do you prefer large projects (chaptered fics, webtoons/zines, highly detailed art) or small projects (one-shots or simple art)?
Small projects! As much as I love large projects, my short attention span and personal life just work better with smaller ones ^^
Are there any common themes, situations, tropes, or mediums in your work?
I always love writing the "involvement of the inner senshi in UsaMamo's relationship and it leading to hilarious disaster" trope. It's fun, silly, and brings a smile to my face everytime.
Is there anything you haven’t explored artistically and would like to try?
I'd love to try a month of prompts challenge, finish my WIPs (😭), or paint (irl) UsaMamo!!
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*Flowey enjoys his ice cream with the others, looking into the distance where Layer and Merg ran off.*
So Merg can’t be hurt or murdered at all? Or were they just bluffing? I feel like it was a bluff because then Merg wouldn’t have felt intimidated enough to run away. We should see if we can really hurt them next time!
Seriously though, don’t they get to you with what they say? Clover… Merg… anyone else who talks to us like that… I’ve tried to manipulate people’s minds like that too. But that doesn’t mean I’m desensitized from when I’m the flower on their sword’s end. You seemed pretty upset, so I figure it’s the same with you. *He bites the inside of his cheek and turns away so he can make a partial lie.* Not that I’m actually concerned… but you’re doing okay, right?
(Kara) "If you're going to tell a lie so obviously fake don't bother making it in the first place. I am a teenager, I'm never okay. But to the average teen yeah I'm fine. Although they are bluffing a bit. Merg can technically not get physically harmed, but if he dies in game he can never play Undertale AU's ever again. So yeah he's much more scared then he's letting on."
*Layer shows up hiding their tears with their hair but it almost doesn't matter.*
(Kara) "Oh my gosh what happened to you. Do you need some Ice Cream too? Hey can you give them a umm what do you like?"
(Layer) "A chocolate soft serve. *They think Might as well enjoy this last moment with them.*"
*They buy the ice cream and Layer eats it like they're at Jesus's table in the last supper. Every bite is as important as the last savoring every bite and enjoying it more than even Chara would.*
(Kara looks at them when there finished) "Oh my even I could tell you enjoyed that. So what happened?"
*Layer's hand is shaking with such force, they know their's one way to solve the undergrounds problems for a while but they've never killed an Undertale character let alone one who personally befriended them.*
(Layer) "You know that I do things for good reasons most of the time right? Well I am the player who came to stop others. To be honest sometimes even I question my morals. I mean look at myself I'm talking to lines of code all my life. If I were anyone else I'd be sick in the head. But no. It's me, Layer."
*Layer says this and realizes acting insane might calm them down so...*
(Layer) "You and I are a bunch of freaks!!! We go around destroying others fun for our own personal gain! Holy shit it feels good to yell! *Looks at Noelle who is crying* Oh the poor little princess, what do you need? Someone to actually care about you for more than your power and your looks? Everyone like that is dead!!! BY YOUR HANDS!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! And Flowey, the predictable little flower. You and I both know that your middle name might as well be hypocrite, Jesus fucking Christ!!! You complain all the times about people doing the wrong things well guess what you forced people to be tortured hundreds of times because you were freaking bored. Here's a tip, if it's boring JUST CONTINUE THE GOD DAMN FUCKING STORY!!!"
*Layer now feeling better takes out there sword and challenges Kara*
(Layer) "FOR THE UNDERGROUND!!!"
#undertale#the white soul#kara#underplayer#flowey#ask flowey#noelle holiday#merg#I'm with you in the dark whether you like it or not#This was fun to make#It's the best way for me to cope with anxiety#Thanks for supporting this silly little Blog of mine
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A test task I've done right when I got sick, four days ago, so it feels a bit like a fever dream, how I was maniacally drawing, modelling and texturing 3 days in a row. And the final piece has this feverish vibe, I think x)
So, the theme was a retrofuturistic dieselpunk+atompunk bomb shelter's atrium leading to living rooms. I didn't know there is a whole genre called atompunk, but apparently good old Fallout series is a part of it.
And also it was told that the main focus would be the wall, ceiling, floor and railings design. You have 3 days to make it using any medium.
I've decided to use my 2D-concept art skills + modest 3D Blender somewhat skills + aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand my new passion, making procedural textures in Substance Designer, which I've started to learn and use about a 1,5 month now. I thought, let's mix useful and pleasurable, shall we? The best way to learn something is learning it on the field. Come on, I've learned Photoshop while drawing my first picture book in uni, it works.
First thing first is to find the whole vibe.
I'm by far not an architecture expert, most of my life I've been drawing characters, but the thing I've learned about it that there should be a pleasing repeated pattern of shapes to look at. As it doesn't suppose to look natural\organic, there should be a decent amount of straight lines, so it will look manmade.
And it's freakin' hard to find this fine line between atompunk and regular sci-fi and I don't think I've managed it.
But that's the thing with test tasks, what matters is:
• the amount and diversity of variations you provide
• your desicion making to show what you as a professional think works best
• your ability to turn any variation into a project
• your determination to finish it
Even if your choice might not fit the project one employer has in their mind, other potential employers will see your work too and might find it fitting for their projects.
My idea was to create a wall of doors that will also be a tileable wall texture that I'd do in Substance Designer. I was so thrilled about it as I was so inspired by so many tutorials on Youtube and Artstation how it would be fun to do my first sci-fi panel...
...and oh my friggin' gosh it took me 6h in one sit to make it. I was so focused I think I've rarely breathed, my shoulder was aching and burning form tension, it was about 01:00 am and I was slightly panicking if I could finish everything else. It was the end of a day 2, I've spent 1.5 day on concept arts and this door. But still I was determined, as having a clear idea what to do (concept-art) and a tile that will cover 1\3 of the final piece (doors) is already a lot. Everything else can be improvised on the go.
I've tested my door texture in Blender, was relieved it works and went to sleep.
And I was also getting slightly cold and coughing a little, but I haven't thought about it.
When I have a goal, I even wake earlier than usual. It's a day 3, I must put everything in it. So after a really challenging for a texture novice like me door creating a floor tiles was like walk in the park. It was fun, not painful and done before the noon, so I was confident in myself.
And I've began my blocking in Blender.
It is not by any mean a sophisticated 3d-modelling as a true 3d-artist would do. If any professional 3d-artist looks inside my Blender kitchen, their hair would turn grey. I do the same when I model my scenes for Deciphering comic: if it looks right, than it works for me.
In game development production it's also the case that concept artist's models are only a reference for 3d-artists, so if you are a concept artist you can just don't bother about how technically disasterous and wrong in terms of wireframe and polygons your models could be.
Slightly unreasonable tangent: Blender, why are you such a bitch when it comes to spiral stairs?! WHY? Why, you caprisous shmack, what the matter with you, why can't you do a decent spiral stairs in the first try?! Why every time I'm doing the spiral stairs I have to pull my hair from the head, dance with drums and shout curses at you, and you still do it through you digital asshole?!
So... yeah. My initial idea with a solid staircase went to the trashbin as I couldn't handle mine and Blender's temper and there've been not so much time left, it was around 8 pm. So I was thinking on my foot how I could turn it into something that looks like a designer desicion and not rushed last minute one, but yeah, I've failed it.
I've also find out that I got sick and had a high body temperature. Yay!
By the way, stained glass looking texture on walls was an accident. When I was testing my door texture, I've made a mistake an applied it on the whole bloking area. It stretched across everything in an ugly way, but... this screen pattern looked good. Surprisingly good. It would be a crazy idea to have a glass walls in the suposed bomb shelter, but... damn it looked interesting. So I've created a new texture just for this part.
Yeah, design over functionality, that's how it gets born, that's how it goes. Just some happy accidents.
Then I've figured it would be a right time to do a fast concepts for railings... but my tablet decided to not respond. I've tried to install new drivers, checked eveything, lost an hour on it and decided: f*ck it, I'll finish it with my mouse if I must.
Luckily I still had my Samsung Galaxy tablet so I quickly doodle some designes for railings. But composing the final concept art was still going to be done by mouse.
This is when I've accepted that this is more a steampunk-ish train station with a bit of 60s than a bomb shelter and let it go.
We have high ceilings? Let's have polls to the roof. No, let's also have a balcony under the roof. Let's have an elevator with glass and metal ornaments. Let it be more retro than futuristic! Can you hear I had a high temperature and feverish determination?
I've made several Eevee shots as they were fast to render and compose.
And a Cycles engine one for a better presentation. As my tablet died, there wasn't much I could paint over it, but I've tried to hide a couple of rendering mistakes. Mostly it was just about composing rendering maps, masks and filters in Photoshop - and I also was close to my limits as it was 02:30 am when I've finished it.
It looks a bit as this whole location is underwater, but it's fine. Brings some mystery to it.
Next morning I've send and still haven't received any answer. But it's alright, if they don't find it fitting, and decline. It's actually happened to me several times, when my test tasks for one company is liked by other one. That's not the main case I'm talking about.
Every now and then an artist should do some kind of challenge, as only challenging yourself you learn something new. It's a never-ending journey and that's the beauty of art, it's not just a job, it's a way of life. And gee I've learned several things during this one! It may look like a screenshots from 2000s oldschool videogame, but hella I love old school videogames.
It may not lead me to a new job in a short run, but in the long one it feels like a one of a millions steps in my art journey and I'm strangely inspired to create more of this obscure kind of environments.
And thanks for reading!
#my art#my post#scifi#science fiction#retro science fiction#retro scifi#retro futuristic#concept art#environment concept#game concept art#atompunk#steampunk#blender#substance designer#interior design#futuristic#environment concept art#atrium#arainmorn's art
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2023 AO3 Fic Review/Wrap-Up
Thank you to the lovely @harnitbee for the tag! 😘
List of Fics Completed This Year
One-Shots:
-I’m So In Love That I Might Stop Breathing
-Stars by the Pocketful
-All That You Ever Wanted From Me
Multi-Chap:
-Older But Just Never Wiser
-Can I Ask You a Question?
-My Whole Life
-Midnight Rain
-The One I Was Dancing With
Series:
It’s not finished, but my only series is the Meet Me at Midnight Series
Your Personal Fave
So this genuinely feels like choosing between my children, a little bit. But I think the one that warms my heart the most is “Stars by the Pocketful.” I just love the mental image of Kate keeping Anthony company in his office while he works.
Your Fave Scene
It’s recent but I honestly experienced so much joy writing the scene where Kate and Anthony dance in the moonlight, it might have to be that. (“The One I Was Dancing With”)
A Fic or Scene that Challenged You
Oh my gosh, I’m always so intimidated by writing any scene that involves a large group of people— especially the Bridgertons. It can be hard to keep track of where everyone is located physically and also to give everyone a distinct tone. I remember the third chapter of “Midnight Rain” giving me multiple headaches, even though I’m happy with the final product.
A Line of Writing You’re Proud Of
I wrote something like “No matter how bad things get sometimes, they always get better” in “Midnight Rain.” I actually use this as a mantra in my own life when I’m struggling and find that it genuinely helps me. So, that, I suppose. 😊
A Comment That Touched You
Everyone has been so kind. Genuinely, every single comment is like a little hug, so thank you to everyone who does!! Any time someone told me they read a story more than once, or has felt moved by a particular moment or scene, it’s brought me to tears. I can’t believe someone feels that way about something I’ve written. 🥹
Something That Inspired Your Writing
Well, obviously I was inspired by Taylor Swift’s Midnights album. I once heard her say she approached the album as a writing prompt - what are some different reasons you might be up at midnight? So I sort of did that in my series. It’s a little collection of slice-of-life stories that all have one thing in common: a meeting at midnight.
Your proudest accomplishment (that one scene; finally finishing that one fic; posting your first fic; etc)
This might be a cop-out but I’m just so proud of myself for finally sharing something I’ve written. That was a huge leap of faith for me and it’s been amazing.
Do You Have Any Writing Goals for Next Year?
Just to find the time to keep writing! It’s been a real source of joy for me. (And maybe to give myself the space to take my time on my stories, too. To give them room to breathe in my mind for a while. I’ve been really pushing myself to write quickly lately.)
Tagging— my pals @mimix007 and @nervousladytraveler — but no pressure! ❤️
P. S. This also came with a stats sheet - I’m going to attach mine- feel free to make it part of the challenge or not! The template is from dreputationera!
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Thumbprint Challenge Tag
Oh gosh bygosh a tag from @mysticstarlightduck how kind!
I can't recall if I've done this one before but no better time that the now!
RULES: Look back on your work, both past and present, finished and unfinished. What are five to ten narrative elements or tropes that continuously pop up in your work? Give a list of these things!
Tag now (gentle as always no need to fret): @asterhaze @lola-theshowgrl @tailoroffates @gummybugg @stanrendipity @garthcelyn and anyone else!
Queer characters in some variety (there are exceptions to this though lol). Self evident explanations and what not.
Flowery or overly-wordy descriptions of things- I take a lot of inspiration for how I describe some of the bigger moments and scenes from video essayists like Jacob Geller. Words are such a powerful and fun tool that I want to really have a blast with. Because sometimes it isn't that the water is really deep, sometimes, the threat was not in dipping your head under the surface but it was the realization that no matter how long you dove the world around you stayed the exact same.
A whole lot of moderately vague descriptions of monster if I can help it. I really subscribe that less is often more when it comes to scary thing, let you make up the monster I can't. Though sometimes this doesn't always work out but I try to keep it back as much as I can.
While there is horror yes I don't shy away from the occasional bit of humor as long as it makes sense. Like running from a killer is not going to be a funny ha ha moment, but sometimes you end up tripping on the smallest pebble imaginable. This is also comes from an idea I heard once, I can not for the life of me remember from where so I am bad at sourcing, but, it's the idea that horror in of itself is a little silly when you really think about it. Like not telling a joke silly but like, you just kind of need to accept that "Yep this is a world where these horrible body horrors are a thing but my rent is still due by the end of the month"
Rule of cool/rule of the bit: I mean sometimes the story really needs the husbands to kill the eldritch/nature god of a deer with a baseball bat. Does it always make the most logical sense? No. Is it fun to write and maybe read, yeah. Now this isn't an always thing, it's like a treat for the writer.
A recurrence of the writers' own fears: I have this thing about windows, it's not about what you see outside but what can see you inside. Also the best way to write something scary or tension building is to start with what gets you. No matter how obscure your feel your fear might be, there is a very low chance you are alone.
Eldritch/cosmic horror: What can I say I like the things that can't really be explained, and tentacles.
Not describing what the main character(s): I can't figure out a good way to go about it in a first-person format, nor do I think it matters all that much. Like they will be described sure, but through context and cues. Also kind of like the monster, I like to let readers envision what they look like, more fun for them. That said they aren't without defined characteristics sometimes (Like Alex from Rituals and Red Tape being a cloaked figure)
#writeblr#writing#original fiction#tag game#original work#thanks for the tag as always#writers#my wips#I have more tropes for sure#maybe some that aren't considered tropes to be honest#maybe some of these aren't also but whatever it was fun all the same
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Hi! Id like to request a romantic matchup if you don't mind?
For fandoms, id prefer jujutsu kaisen or My hero academia (whichever you find easier honestly)
Im a straight female
Im 5'6 with long, wavy brown hair; freckles all over my face and some on my chest; small waist and bigger hips; my eyes a pretty big and very dark brown ;my skin is pretty tan and my voice is very soft(i get called mouse for it a lot)
I usually wear a baggy hoodie with skinny jeans and converse with no makeup because sadly i dont posess that skill
I love sweets and i have an obsession with gummy worms (munching on them help me while studying or taking a test)
I love listening to sad songs or love songs. I haven't been cheated on, but i will definitely belt out "before he cheats" to my poor confused dog while im home alone "cleaning"
I love working out and challenging myself
I have a total of five friends who have worked really hard to earn the title since i dont trust easy
Love dancing, playing soccer snd volleyball but my parents think its a waste of time so i dont compete, but I help my friends train anyway
Im 100% a dog person and im allergic to cats
im not afraid to punch a bish if they mess with my friends, but I probably wont do much if im being messed with
Friends = family
Kinda aloof and standoffish around strangers
Afraid of being alone and drowning (nearly drowned when I was 7)
Prefer the heat over cold
Terrified of driving
Sass 100% if im comfortable around you
Love to argue and playfight
Touch starved
Honestly i just want someone who would dance with me in the living room with no music, workout with me and later eat an ungodly amount of food or eat ice cream with me while watching disney movies :(
OMG OMG DUDE I HAVE THE PERFECT MAN FOR YOU!!! like the moment i finished reading this i was like OH MY GOSH i know who do choose for you. i hope you agree with me @pantherhappy!
the character I chose for you is...
YUJI ITADORI!!!
like it's perfect change my mind
he would love to be the man who dances with you in the living room and then slam pounds of food with you in the living room before passing out in your arms
like I CANT GET OVER HOW PERFECT THIS IS
he would be your workout buddy and you guys would build the best workouts fr
would cuddle you all the time and study with you, but hides the gummy worms so every answer you get right, he gives you a gummy worm lol. gives you the proper motivation
you guys would playfight all the time and omg so cuteee
at first, when you met him, you were a little distant, but with Yuji, being the friendly guy he is who also happened to have a little crush, he would make his way into your life slowly, but loudly and very nicely
if you move in with him, yall would get a cute little dog
he would love how you can stand up for yourself it makes you 20x more attractive to him
would cuddle up on the couch with you and binge movies forever
he loves driving you around. he'll take you to work/school and then would wake you up at 4am to go on a late night drive
would stick to you like glue
when you start dating, you would always be around you
you're never alone when you're with yuji
"Don't be down, okay?" You looked up to find Yuji's hand outstretched to you.
You and Yuji both had tear stained eyes after having a long and deep conversation.
You smiled and grabbed his hand, letting him pull you up from the couch. "I'll never let you be alone, okay babe?" He pulled you close and buried his face in the crook of your neck swaying you back and forth in the living room.
You buried your face in his chest and nodded, sniffling. "Thanks for talking, Yuji. It means the world."
"Of course. I'm always here for you."
"And I'm always here for you."
Yuji pressed a little kiss on the tip of your ear and squeezed you close as you kept swaying in the living room before falling asleep on top of each other on the couch. You wouldn't give Yuji up for the world.
#i hope you agree#because this is EVERYTHING#literally perfect#matchup#matchups#writing#my writing#fanfic#fanfiction#yuji itadori#yuji itadori x reader#jjk#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader
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