I currently just feel so overwhelmed by cleaning

Does anyone have any ADHD cleaning tips?

Rant below

I have no clue on how to fix this but I'm sick of having no space and being treated by my parents like I'm a slob

You know even though they never bothered to teach me how to clean, how they clean is based on their dopamine "time to do this task now" and how I've never lived in a clean house my whole

I just feel so frustrated

Currently my brain thinks that if I get storage (because I do not, and it resulted in me just having shit everywhere)

I just feel so frustrated and it's keeping me awake and I just want to sleep and not think about this

vent rant

mAN why do i feel guilty

I had a really good day today, got shit done, yet I feel guilty over saying “please don’t call me best friend”. Just 6 simple words are making me feel guilty for, what, sticking up for myself? Saying I’m uncomfortable with being called that by someone I don’t really like??

Oh, yeah, and I hate two people whose names are similar to mine!! One’s a fucking homophobe AND transphobe, the other one I wouldn’t be surprised if they were. And they’re both Christians. Nothing bad about being Christian, but they’re the “get Jesus and repent” kind. Man, I don’t know if I have religious trauma or what but I actually despise religious talk. Makes me wanna cry. I was in elementary when I was first shamed for believing in no god. ELEMENTARY. I was younger. Less mature. Less understanding of the world. And yet a fucking adult shamed me for believing in what I wanted. A full grown adult.

And now I’m put into a school full of Christians. And I’m the probably only atheist here. There may be one more but I’m not sure. But I feel like the only one. Luckily, I know someone who respects people who are gay and is Christian and doesn’t pressure it onto me 24/7. Because I hate people like that. I hate the person sitting next to me in TSA because they believe that gayness and being trans is wrong.

I hate the people sitting at the table next to me in ela because they’re so stupid and so immature. I hate my classmates in gateway because they’re so stupid to the point where they don’t know what basic reproduction is. They’re so fucking stupid. I hate them so much. I hate them. I hate my health class because people don’t ever listen or do anything except one person, and the people to the right of where I sit, except for one person because she’s actually smart, just don’t care. They don’t care about others. I hate the person who sits a bit ahead of me in health because they think my anger is funny. I hate everyone and anyone who thinks my anger is genuinely amusing. I hate it when people say “I understand you” and yet they don’t.

I hate everyone who says that. I hate anyone who says basic, negative human emotions are funny. How would you feel??? How would you feel if you were angry and people were laughing at you? How would you feel if people were pressuring something on you that you don’t believe in? How would you feel, hm? How would you feel if you were so emotional to the point where you isolate yourself for hours on end without other people’s voices and touch while you have a breakdown? How would you feel? And be honest, people! How would you feel?

People don’t understand. They don’t understand my brain. How I function. Funny how the only person who’s super super close to me (aka my mom) doesn’t understand my feelings. And yet people who I don’t interact as much with, such as one of my friends who’s present online but also an irl friend, understands me more than anything. Funny how my online friends get me more than my parents. My mom doesn’t understand anything. She says she’s the same way and yet she’s not. She’s compared sitting and standing once, saying they’re the same thing. /srs

I think my mom’s dense because they are, in fact, nkt the same thing. And I hate when she says “would you do this in class?”, because, NO. I WOULD NOT. But I’m doing it here, because it’s a non-public space, and no one can see me but myself, my brother and you. And I hate my dad, too. I don’t like him. I love my parents, but I don’t like my dad too much. I hate him more than I love him. He doesn’t believe someone can go by they/them pronouns, and as someone who prefers it when people refer to me with they/them online and partially irl, it makes me want to sob. He makes me feel like I’m pressured to shave. He doesn’t let me have headphones or my tablet at the table because he wants to “have a family dinner / lunch”. I wish you weren’t my dad sometimes. Because I don’t like you.

I feel like I’m too emotional. I cry too easily. I get angry too easily. And it doesn’t make it easier that I pressure myself. I pressure myself to get stuff done sometimes. I hate this. I hate my brain. Why must I do this to myself. And the only way I can relieve this hatred and sadness is either keeping it to myself or talking to people online about it.

I hate this. And I’m starting to hate me.

Scroll or dont this is just a Negative rant -

I was in a wh server when we saw a shark au, and look I'm not saying I'm gonna be the only shark au creator but it just irritates me when I see it- like errmm that's OUR idea 😒😒😒 /hj what's even worse was how Hikaru was fronting/sys (Hikaru is the most sensitive) so Hikaru nearly started crying like BRO YOU NEARLY MADE THE SILLY CRY ☹️☹️ but still we say "idm if u have a shark au" i do, i do mind, infact i will hate it im sorry it's just im very passionate about my shark au so seeing another shark au just makes us frown :(

Sorry but the next cracker that reprimands me or my countrymen for an outcome we ultimately did NOT have control over gets snapped in half (speaking as a minor and for those who were unable to register due to the mismanagement of COMELEC).

Our countrymen are being forcefed propaganda and disinformation—from lax teaching in schools and to fake news on social media. These are systemic problems that we so desperately want to fix, but activists here get shot or red-tagged.

To top it off, our Commission on Elections is not listening to the cries of citizens who were being cheated out of their right to vote. Don't say that we didn't try to fight: there were so many protests during and following election night. People in my precinct waited for 12+ hours just to be able to feed their ballot into the "broken" Vote Counting Machines themselves—and were still paid dust in the end because the VCM was never fixed. There is so much video evidence of cheating and targeted attacks at polling stations, and it's breaking our hearts because we wanted a fair and clean election too.

Don't generalize all of us as BBM-loving airheads. Do you think we want to suffer? Do you think we enjoy having our futures and taxes toyed with? Do the desperate chants of, "NEVER AGAIN TO MARTIAL LAW AND TO A MARCOS PRESIDENCY," not reach your ears? Or are you too busy standing on your high horse, because the only thing you can do is kick people when they're down??

And as if certain countries can judge us as well! You have more democracy and freedom than us and you still chose racist, xenophobic, misogynistic, homophobic, etc. leaders. Gago wala kang hiya talaga, you can't even self assess.

I don't want to play nice anymore about this subject, because the ridicule that I've seen Filipinos facing today is ridiculous. This election doesn't exist in a vacuum—hell it doesn't even exist in a democracy. So many of us bled and cried for this election, we don't need your condescension. Not all of us supported the son of a dictator.

I can't say never again to a Marcos in power because the chances are looking slim. But the resistance against this administration is just beginning and needs all the traction it can get if we want to oust him.

Right now, more than ever, the Philippines needs your ally ship. I doubt Marcos will declare martial law so soon, but welfare and government help might be harder to come by. In times of natural disasters and conflict, please stand by the people of the Philippines. Fight with us, because alone we're vulnerable to our own government.

Wish I could tell past me in 2019 that actually it's okay to just end it all because everything literally went downhill from then on

i keep seeing this idea that Real wheelchair users all have custom active chairs, and that transport/standard chairs are just an embarrassing stereotype. “no one really uses those!” “stop drawing disabled characters in standard chairs!!”

well, plenty of us are a stereotype. sorry. custom chairs require MONEY and good medical support. meanwhile active chairs are unusable for some people. i used an uncomfy transport chair (the kind with tiny wheels and no way to self propel) for a year, and a standard chair for 7yrs. until i got my powerchair i was only ever pushed by a carer. a lot of disabled people will never use an active or custom chair. don’t pretend we don’t exist just because we don’t fit some cool independent ideal.

shoutout to people who use transport chairs and adaptive strollers and other chairs that need to be pushed by a carer

shoutout to people who use standard chairs that don’t fit their body

shoutout to people who use secondhand or makeshift wheelchairs

in my teens i literally felt invalid as a disabled person because i didnt have the ‘real actual’ type of wheelchair everyone talks about online. just my garbage transport chair that my mom had to push. ​but people with shitty wheelchairs exist and are extremely common actually

Being aromantic isn't like being colourblind because you "have a narrower human experience 😢" or "you see the world in black and white 💔" or whatever but being aromantic is exactly like being colourblind because most people don't even know what it is and most people who think they do have the complete wrong idea. Because our society is not designed for people like us but no "allies" take our issues seriously. Because I'm still not even sure if people want us in their communities. Because whenever you tell someone you know you're going to be asked the same stupid questions. Because people in fandom love to use you as a cool quirk to add to characters without respecting what it actually means. Because my life would be marginally better if everyone spent just 5 minutes reading about it on google. But hey it's not all negative you also get a unique outlook on life and an appreciation for beauty outside the norm.

Signed, a colourblind aro

Sincerely, STFU

I KNOW IT'S TOXIC.BUT, MY LOVE, THE TOXICITY I FUCKING ENDURED SHOULD HAVE MADE ME A RADIOACTIVE BIOMEDICAL HAZARD, BY NOW. SO IT'S MY CHOICE TO TURN MY TRAUMA N TOXICITY INTO A FUCKING AESTHETIC.

I don't get why the fuck everyone literally fucking everyone shits on girlbloggers like damn i never heard you comment on toxic men, never addressing about all those women hating twitter threads. Like, Men shit on Women every fucking day, and we can't even post toxic feminine things.

i dont know why the fuck tumblr keeps recommending me pr/sh/p blogs despite all the tags ive blocked but this is your only polite reminder to please unfollow and even block me if you're pr/sh/p.

i KNOW i can't stop you from doing it, and im tired of trying to solve my problems with fighting. im literally just asking you to stay away from me and my blog because ships involving family members and minors/adults, believe it or not, is NOT what i wanna see when i open this app, thanks.

I’m not going to say much because I don’t want to stir up shit for specific people

But I just read a fucked up comment on the youtube bit about a specific person in the podcast.

and I just it makes me so upset.

Nerds are so cool

they are so passionate about really cool things

and they put their whole hearts into things

AND THEN THEY ACT LIKE PIECES OF SHIT 

AND I HATE 

I HATE IT SO MUCH

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF I SEXUALISED YOU LIKE THAT )))):< WHAT THE FUCK )))):<

I don’t want to have evidence of what was actually said but I just it upsets me so much and I have no idea what to do with this and I just ))):<

This dead ass might ruin dungeon and daddies for me and that fucking sucks

I need to not think about this or I’ll just feel like shit

- Bossy 

waking up and seeing dream’s rip off project just breaks my heart man what the hell qsmp barely had two weeks to shine and now he’s introducing a VERY similar project in larger scale and uglier graphics and its just “the two are allowed to co-exist?” be fucking serious for a second dude why are you doing this NOW at the height of a project spearheaded by someone that used to call you a friend? like just . logistically speaking comercially speaking when you see how obviously similar these concepts are Why would you announce it now when you know someone else is getting the spotlight for once.

its hard not to call it spite or jealousy or anything of the sort when we cant confirm the timelines of this new project’s development but it REALLY, really feels like something unkind. not only that but it feels really gross to see most aspects of quackity’s passion project warped into something worse.. like LIVE TRANSLATION? really? bc dream of course wouldnt expect people to try and learn the different languages to communicate. he probably doesnt understand how redundant and ultimately hindering it will be to rely 100% on automated translation because 1) he’s not bilingual nor does he make any effort to understand the bilingual experience 2) he has no actual interest in the learning process of foreign languages or the different linguistic communities on twitch and in content creation in general . which makes me wonder WHY he is leading this and very likely profitting off of it when there’s no real reason for him to associate himself with this kind of cultural project other than . wanting to be relevant i guess.

during squidcraft, i didnt see him attempt a single word in spanish. i saw dream use google translate or straight up speak english (fast, idiomatic english at that) to spanish speakers and otherwise not try to meet a communicative middle-ground in any way. if this is how he intends to take on “united SMP” i cant wait to see it fail.

quackity’s project is successful because he cares. its modeled after his own experience and thrives because he as a bilingual host is able to cater to both communities within it and work as a linguistic bridge when need be. which, as we have watched day after day on qsmp streams, becomes less and less necessary because the environment quackity is fostering is actually very concrete INCENTIVE FOR LANGUAGE LEARNING. people are actually interacting and having meaningful linguistic/cultural exchanges that actually LEAD TO LANGUAGE KNOWLEDGE AND UNDERSTANDING. how the fuck is that supposed to happen if theres live translation? ill tell you now, it won’t.

when we study linguistics in college one of the first things we learn in regards to foreign language teaching is that translation methods rarely fuckjng work. by doing that youre limiting human interaction and actually DISTURBING the learning possibilities because youre taking away Real, varied input. dream doesnt know what he’s doing and its so upsetting to watch. dont even get me started on “language rankings” or whatever the fuck the competitive aspect is supposed to be

the project is just so flawed and the timing couldnt be worse. quackity is doing such a great job and? you just try to hijack his idea like this even though you clearly lack both the heart and the knowledge to make something like this work? to me it just appears so sour. so mean-spirited and uninspired. i dont even know man i just dont like it

Listen, I'm just gonna offer the best gpose tip anyone has ever told me...

If the clipping is happening out of view

Then clipping doesn't exist.

This is the same for crunchy limbs, crunchy elbows, weirdly posed cloth, etc.

Clipping happens. Clipping in gpose is an unavoidable thing. The sooner you accept clipping happens, the happier you will be trying to gpose.

Yes I know it's not easy to accept. Esp if you're very hard-wired to correct any errors, or if you're a perfectionist (like me).

But I promise you, eventually you just stop caring about it.

And if you point it out, or any flaws on someone's gpose when you were not explicitly asked for constructive critique, on someone's gpose I hope both sides of your pillow are warm and that you stub your toe on something different every time you get up so you can never avoid it.

Reading ur comics made me realise i am probably a girl

Oops

(Great stuff btw, ur art is mega awesome and so is you!)

awww w hell yeah transgender blast ♥

I’ll probably be bitter forever about the things Purgatory has done to our fandom. We all underwent incredible amounts of stress because we thought the eggs’ lives were all at risk. It fractured and divided us in such lasting ways.

We all legitimately thought that if our team lost then the most beloved players on the server, characters we canonically think of as children, would be killed. That’s fucked up! It’s now double fucked up in my eyes because there wasn’t even a point!!!

There was no planning and the idea of a “cursed team” was bullshit. We know from a few signs from eggs like Dapper and Tallulah that even they didn’t know what the deal with the cursed team was and it sucks to know that apparently NO ONE knew. Tubbo and all of us fans were investigating and trying our best to prevent disaster and it was completely pointless.

I’ve seen so many people who, to this day, still can’t watch Bolas or Soul Fire streamers because of how much they experienced.

I’ll be so honest, it took me close to a month to be able to watch Badboyhalo without feeling some level of upset. This is a guy I had been watching and appreciating the work of for MONTHS then one two week span mentally turned me against him. The only thing which pulled me out of that is reminding myself that I realistically have no real problem with him. Everyone was just in a horrifically stressed frame of mind and we were dividing ourselves even though all of us want the best for the eggs.

I was probably able to do that /because/ I was both a Bolas and Soul Fire watcher. I was fighting to see both sides, but damn. The stress and fear around Purgatory actively made that so difficult. I’ve been upset for awhile about the division in some of our fandom spaces, and now that I know for certain about the absolute failure of storytelling that happened here, it feels so much worse to me.

would love to find a youtube channel that talks about reasonable prepping for things like natural disasters/sudden homelessness and economic disasters because not only have I experienced these but its become a special interest/passion to talk about go-bags and sustainable living and community sharing in times of crisis

except all of the youtube channels I find for prepping are right-winged and chastise you for not hoarding massive amounts of resources in a bunker and think you deserve whats coming if you cant afford the costs

“practicing for grief”. god, how stupid. how foolish of me. not even half way 26 and now i attend the rehearsal of it not only at night but also in the morning. in broad day light. i keep sketching and redrawing and revise it all over again of how this one would go, my biggest heartbreak, probably. just as stupid as the question, “were you close to your dad more or to you mom?” because it doesn’t matter, does it? whether i was close to my mom more than my dad, she’d still refuse to tell me how things work in this world, how to survive it. stay back to relearn it all yourself then you’ll know. or even if i was closer to my dad more, he’d still push me away and not tell me about the huge void in his head like a bullet wound, but it’s growing bigger. infected and infecting him the more he talks to me, i guess. fucking stupid, whichever answer will not give me the ability to escape them. i still live with them. they still turn the other cheek either way. and i still look for them in the crowd but never under the same roof they neglected me since the very beginning.