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note: omg hiii ??? helloo ??? okok this was supposed to be posted for yoongi’s birthday... then i planned it to be written in time for my birthday/bts birthday... now it’s being posted mid summer.... like hello? where did the time go? i felt so stuck writing this extra because it feels more like the ending than the actual ending ? does that make sense lol... i planned to write their first kiss scene but honestly i don’t think i’ll be able to do so [unless i get the random urge to write it instead of studying for a final or smt] ! hoping to back more regularly when my work schedule stops being a bitch <3 slowly but surely,, my fics will continue to be deleted off my notes/drafts and pushed out frfr. thank u all of ur patience ,, i TRULY miss u all... laughing with u guys after every update literally gave me a reason to wake up and have smt to look forward to. i look forward to all of ur love and support for my upcoming / ongoing works.
muwah muwah ,, kimi 💛✨🥂
ps… it’s lengthy y’all 💀 it’s to make up for being so mia HAHHAAA
warnings: smut & angst ,, MY FAVE DUO <3
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In the midst of the airport chaos, Yoongi finds you standing with a stupid sign that looks like it was decorated by your preschool students.
It’s times like these when he can’t help but smile at how insufferable you are. Why are you so fucking cute? Standing there, looking for him in the sea of strangers with your warm greeting. It’s a sight he wishes to last forever. It makes his stomach turn knowing that it’s him you’re waiting for. It’s him you’re here for.
It’s him.
As usual, Yoongi finds you first and continues to let you look for him. He waits for your eyes to find his before he picks up his feet and makes his way to you. You smile, unable to hold yourself back from making your way to him as well.
As you do so, Yoongi gets a closer and closer look at the sign. At that moment, his heart skips a beat, realizing that your preschool class knows about him.
The boyfriend.
It’s such a simple label. It even sounds silly to say and even so; he never gets used to how it makes him feel. How excited he is to be yours and how others react to it... Something about little children running around the classroom, knowing their teacher ____ is loved and has a boyfriend makes him so happy.
God, it’s so fucking embarrassing and it honestly doesn’t even matter... But why... Why was it consuming his mind so effortlessly?
Though these thoughts and daydreams are so easily executed in his mind; being your boyfriend—the mere title of it—has him in shambles. He will never get used to this privilege. So, it’s only natural that he wonders if you talk about him to them just as much. He wonders if they’ve asked you any silly questions like... If you two have ever kissed or if you two were ever going to get married.. Better yet; if you have any babies with him...
All valid questions 3 year old's could ask you! Even more valid questions for your boyfriend to ponder.
You talk about your students so much. Like, it’s a little ridiculous! You talk about them as if they’re yours. With that, the idea of having a family with you is prone to linger in his mind. However, that’s way down the line..
He’d have to propose to you first; marry you second, and then have children with you. All the while, loving you forever.
These thoughts, though dramatic and honestly a little extensive—consume him. It’s a little strange and overwhelming considering that you two haven’t been together for that long. Not to mention, he had just left for nearly and month.
Yet, isn’t that how you two bloomed anyway? Testing and proving that absence does make the heart grow fonder.
He gulps as he watches you rush to him. You squeal as he picks up his speed and meets you halfway. There, you practically fall into his arms.
Nothing is better than this.
Yoongi has only been away for three weeks, but it feels like it’s been forever. You’re so used to having him by your side and these past three weeks just felt like torture. All the texts and photo updates were simply not enough. If anything, they made missing him even worse.
But that’s all over now.
Now, he’s here. He’s kissing your cheeks and holding you close. He doesn’t think he’ll ever let go.. Why should he?
“I missed you,” Yoongi confesses in a rather whiney matter. It’s as if he wasn’t the one that left for a trip.. You clearly remember asking him if he really had to go. Then, he pouts with eyebrows knitting together. You tilt your head in response. “Ace...”
You snicker at his whine.
“What?”
“Why haven’t you kissed me yet?”
“Hahahaa! Yoongi, you just arrived—”
His lips crash into yours, kissing you so profoundly that your back arches and melts into his touch. Everyone is probably looking at you two—ever so the dramatic couple.
Oh, whatever.
You missed him too.
The boys are all patiently waiting for Yoongi back in his apartment.
As you unlock the door, Yoongi drags his luggage in. Immediately, he’s greeted with a wave of affectionate yells and shoves. His friends, ever so the gentlemen, push him around so much until they all end up on the floor. Laughing together, you watch them help each other up.
“We’re grown men. Stop embarrassing me in front of my girlfriend,” Yoongi reprimands his friends as he dusts himself off. The guys roll their eyes in response and you even scoff.
“She was late to a game and you cried about it—”
Yoongi corrects his friend with a technicality. “I almost cried.”
“Same shit!” Jungkook laughs at Yoongi’s sad attempt to save face. He then wraps his arms around Yoongi and looks up at him with bambi eyes. “You know.. I’m really glad you’re back.”
“Why?”
“Because I was promised cotton candy if I showed up to your welcome home dinner... So where the fuck is it? Give it to me. Now.”
The boys exchange looks with one another. “Jungkook, we actually don’t have any cotton candy tonight... But, don’t you want to be here and spend time with us—”
“Fucking liars!” Jungkook flips everyone off before pushing Yoongi aside and exiting his apartment.
Everyone stands there for a moment, unsure of what just happened.
“Did he really just leave?” Taehyung bursts into laughter.
Before you know it, everyone joins in. Laughing together because Jungkook is so unhinged... Also because you all know Jungkook would be back in (give or take) 20 minutes.
Why?
It’s not like he has other friends that would put up with his dramatic ass.
As expected, Yoongi kicks everyone out.
They all hurry out, leaving a bit of a mess behind. You shake your head as you collect all the dishes and bring them to the sink. Soaking the dirty dishes, you scrape off any extras and set them aside. Meanwhile, Yoongi is in charge of sweeping, mopping, and putting anything Jin, Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook played with away.
“How the fuck did Nam Joon manage to leave his sock here?”
“His what?”
“Sock. He left one.”
You throw your head back, laughing and recalling how chaotic tonight was.
“He didn’t even drink that much tonight... I think you drank more than him,” you comment, turning to face Yoongi. He pauses on wiping the table and rolls his eyes at you.
“Nam Joon is lightweight.”
“Yeah?” you challenge him, “what are you?”
“Wanna find out?”
“What do you mean by that?”
“Let’s see how sloppy I fuck you tonight.”
You send him a glare, trying your best to mask your amusement. How could he be so unhinged? “Min Yoongi!”
“Yes, Ace?”
“Behave!”
He shrugs at you. “I’ve been behaving.. Don’t believe me? Punish me tonight.”
You gag at his line. He laughs a bit as you make a cringe face at him. “Is that why you wanted me to sleep over?”
“No,” Yoongi slurs. You raise your eyebrows, eyes softening, with a small grin. Yoongi folds; “... okay, fine.”
You chuckle.
“Shut up!” He defends himself.
“I didn’t say anything!” With that, you burst into laughter.
To put into perspective, the idea of sleeping over occurred after a very mature and communicative compromise. The compromise was that Yoongi had won 2 of 3 in an intense rock, paper, scissors game and you (have to because you lost) decided to spend the next week in his apartment. This would be a great time to reconnect and catch up on his trip. Regardless if he called and texted you every day during it; it’s different seeing his face light up as he relives his stories. You love listening to him talk about the things he loves—oddly enough, you’re all he can talk about these days.
Nevertheless, Yoongi tells you about how great his trip with his brother was. Seeing a bunch of NBA games in real life made him feel like he was doing something for his inner child. He talks about how much his brother bickered with him and how their taste in food was exactly the same so every time they went to restaurants; they would argue about who should get the other dish instead of both of them ordering the same meals.
You’re glad he’s back.
Having your friends over tonight was such a good reset and time together. Now, the night concludes with cleaning with the love of your life. Could the simple things in life get any better than this?
Your thoughts are put on pause as you feel Yoongi’s arms wrap around your waist. As you continue to rinse the dishes, he rests his chin on the crook of your neck.
“___,” he murmurs into your skin. You put the last dish on the dishrack before turning your body to be face to face with him. Tilting your head at him, a little confused with the underlying look of seriousness on his face. “Do your preschoolers ever ask about me?”
“Hmm?” you hum, unsure of what he means. “What about you?”
Yoongi purses his lips. “Like.. Do they know I’m your boyfriend? Who they’re making a sign for and shit?”
“Well, to be honest… We’re not really allowed to be talking about our personal life—”
“Bullshit.”
“Language,” you warn him.
He kisses you in apology.
“My bad,” he pouts. “Come on, ___. You’ve talked about me to them, haven’t you?”
You laugh, not quite understanding why he’s suddenly getting so heated about this. Sure, you’ve mentioned him once or twice.. How could you not? You’ve been in love with Yoongi for so long; it’s practically second nature to you. “Why do you care so much?”
Yoongi huffs, letting go of you. In a stiff manner, he shrugs. “I mean… The sign was made by them, right? They must know about me.”
“Umm, sure,” you roll your eyes. It’s not like this was turning into an argument or anything… But it’s just such an odd direction for the conversation to be going. “Aki, they’re a bunch of 3-year-olds. What does it matter if they know about you or not? I just asked them to help me make a sign because I was running out of time—”
“Do they ever ask you about marrying me?”
Your eyes widen.
“What? No!”
Yoongi blinks.
“Do you not want to marry me?” Yoongi crosses his arms, leaning against the kitchen counter. His chest tightens as he begins to feel offended. “Why’d you answer like that?”
“Like what?” you slightly panic.
All his words are so new to you. He’s never been this straightforward… Or has he? Have you simply missed how seamless and blunt his words have been because you’ve been so into him? Suddenly, you can’t think straight. Now, you’re really confused.
Was he getting angry?
Was he hurt?
From what? What did you say that’s triggering his reaction? You try to run it back, but it’s too late. Yoongi takes a step back and asks; “do you not want to marry me?”
You’re tongue-tied, unable to answer him.
He scoffs. “You’re so fucking annoying.”
“Woah,” you instantly feel offended. “You can’t just bring up marrying me and then call me annoying for needing time to process what you just asked me!”
“Why do you need time to answer it? It’s yes or no. Do you want to marry me or not?”
You glare at him. “Are you proposing?”
“No.”
“Then I don’t need to answer right now… And honestly? You could tone down the intense attitude. We haven’t seen each other in 3 weeks… Why can’t we just have a nice evening together?”
Yoongi sighs, slightly feeling more flustered. He takes a deep breath and surrenders to the feeling of hurt.
“I think I’m gonna crash at Hobi’s tonight.”
“What?” you groan in disbelief. Is he actually serious? “Yoongi, this is your apartment. You won that stupid rock, paper, scissors game and I’m here. I had to switch my shift for tomorrow to be here with you and now what? You’re just going to leave me here?”
… And before Yoongi can think of a proper response to deflate or change the course this moment; he lets his sharp words cut through his lips. “Well, pardon me for not being in the mood to spend the rest of my evening with someone who I thought saw a future with me… Kind of a mood killer, you know? When your girlfriend is practically dating you to break up.”
“I never said—”
“Drop it, ___. It’s whatever.”
Your face softens and you can’t help but tear up. His anger feels sharp and abrupt.
“What now? Did I fuck up again?” Yoongi says coldly.
You shake your head, eyes fluttering the tears away. “No, it’s okay. I know you’re upset.. But it’s Ace, you know? You always call me Ace. I haven’t heard you say my name in a while. It’s like you’re actually mad at me or something..”
Yoongi stays silent.
You never expected this.
A whole week passes by and the most that has happened between you and Yoongi since are pathetic “good morning” and “good night” text messages. You two avoid each other and barely replied in the group chats. You’ve picked up extra shifts and Yoongi has been spending most of his time with the guys, with his brother, or alone. Thank god he warned the guys not to reach out to you regarding the argument.. Yoongi knows he was wrong to get so heated up so quickly… But also, he knows deep down his feelings were valid.
It’s so stupid.
The way he has been handling this entire thing is so fucking lame. He knows it and you know it. You both are acting like such babies—unwilling to communicate and understand each other. To be fair; you two have never reached the part of an argument where it actually made one another upset. This was the first time and it’s honestly the worst fucking thing you two have gone through.
It’s sickening.
It’s painful waiting for his calls and missing his daily updates… Avoiding eye contact and hesitating to hold your hand when you two are around each other. It doesn’t help that you can’t even remember the last time you two kissed and held each other since his arrival home. It has practically been a month since you two have been together together.
Now it all aches.
It hurt him to think that you couldn’t see a future with him when he knows his future is you. It ached so much to see the way your face went blank… Why were you unsure? Has he not given you all the reassurance you need? Has he not been doing enough? Was the 3 for 3 not good enough? … Rather, will he ever be good enough?
All these questions flooded his mind from morning to night. He waits for your reply every day and wonders if he should just swallow his pride and be the first to yield.
This was your first disagreement as a couple and he isn’t too sure how to navigate through it. What is he supposed to do? His past relationships were never as dramatic as this.. Well, truth be told; he didn’t really care about his exes as much as he cares about you. Dramatic or not, the feelings were real and all more of the reason to push forward with begging for forgiveness.
Begging to be yours.
Begging to be loved.
So what now? Does he surprise you with a significant gesture and make a bunch of promises that he knows are half-assed? In a sense, he was still angry. However, Yoongi knows better. His anger can’t be the reason he loses you.. And as we all know; Min Yoongi is a sore loser.
Forever, Yoongi will refuse to lose you.
The mere idea of dating you only for you two to break up… Sickening. He would rather crawl to you than walk away. As this realization hits him, he rushes inside his apartment and then into his room. He should go see you.
Now.
He has to see you now.
Yoongi doesn’t know where you are.
At first, he had a few ideas of where you could be. At your apartment, in the library, or at the pool watching Jungkook’s swim practice.. He runs around campus desperate to find you. In all honesty, the speech he had prepared got lost along the way. As he hurriedly searches for you, the only words that ring are: it doesn’t end here.
We don’t end here.
I love you—
You.
Yoongi sees you sitting on the same bench you pitched three for three. You’re swinging your legs, watching the morning waves crash against the shore. He soaks in the sight of you looking so at peace. He loves how pretty you are from a far.
And then it hits him: he’s so lucky to love you.
It’s truly a privilege to love you because of everything you are. His anger and all the reasons he had gaslit himself into self-sabotaging your love for him—the extension of your beauty… It was so fucking wrong. Maybe he got too comfortable believing that he had you. Maybe he was too mesmerized with the idea of you two lasting forever that he forgot to even fucking ask it.
He was wrong.
He should’ve asked first.
… But that’s the thing about being in love; you have faith. You believe in everything about the person you love. You believe in the good and that the universe sees you well enough to bless you forever. You believe in all the shooting stars and wishful thinking… You believe in forever when you meet the one that makes forever feel like it’s not enough.. But, you’d take it anyway.
Drowning in his thoughts, Yoongi stands still and practically zones out. Meanwhile, from the corner of your eye, you see him. You see him standing there with the most devastated and desperate look on his face. Then, his eyes flicker to you.
Your eyes meet and lock. His are glossy with tears building up. Even from a far, you can tell he has horrible eye bags. Perhaps, he hasn’t been sleeping well at night. Overall, he looks like a mess. He’s wearing grey sweatpants and your favourite white FOG shirt he owns. Even so… He looks restless.
For his sake, you pretend not to see him. You turn back and watch the sea. Sitting in silence, you take deep breaths as you feel him walking toward you. You’re sure he’s here now but you don’t want to say anything.
What could you say?
And it’s weird because you’d expect him to clear his throat and speak.. But he doesn’t. No, he stays silent. Yoongi also doesn’t sit down next to you. Instead, he stands a few feet away and watches the waves kiss the shore.
Never has he ever felt so jealous of the sea.
An hour and a half passed by since Yoongi found you and within this time: he stays silent.
He follows you around, trailing behind you like a fucking loser. His head is bowed down for the most part and he focuses on following your shoes.
You don’t have any classes today so he finds it a little weird that you’re running around doing random shit. You aren’t buying anything or meeting up with anyone.. It just feels like you’re stalling. In a stupid way; he’s thankful you’re doing so.
He doesn’t say anything though.. Why would he? All the words he had prepared got lost as he followed you around.
All of this simply angers you.
The quiet moment shared between you two at the seaside bench was cute but now he’s just being fucking annoying. Is he serious? He blew up a week ago and now he can’t even apologize for leaving you alone that night? For how cold he’s been? For being the worst boyfriend ever?
Oh my god.
It pisses you off so much. For a man that’s such a sore loser; he surely isn’t doing much to win you over.
That’s just it! All men do is lie.
By now, your feet hurt and you’re too annoyed to keep playing whatever game this is. You pick up your pace and turn toward the direction of your apartment.
Yoongi follows.
Your irritated mood begins to cloud your thoughts. You can feel your frustration take over and you just know you can’t do this anymore. The silence, the sad puppy look on his face, and the simple fact that everything between you two just feels so paper thin—no. This is not it. This isn’t want you want.
You pause and turn to him.
He lifts his head and blinks at you slowly. Still, he stays silent. He doesn’t even greet you with a smile.. Nothing. What the fuck? What’s the point of any of this?
The fucking audacity of this man.
“That’s it?”
Yoongi shrugs.
“Coward,” you hiss. Taking a step forward, he follows your lead. You’re close enough to him to reach out and hit his chest with your fist. You don’t do anything. You stay still, just like him. In your head, you’re crying and he’s holding you. In your head, he’s already pouring his heart out and you’re mending everything back together. In your head; Yoongi is fighting for you.
“Do you have anything to say?” you ask desperately. “You can’t do this, you know? You can’t ignore me for a week and then just show up and not say anything. You can’t follow me around like you care when you obviously don’t. What the hell, Yoongi? If it’s over, then just say it. Say it so I can go home and wonder why the fuck the universe gave me you just to lose you because I.. I’m falling apart here—I can’t—I don’t know what’s going on and you just spent like two hours not saying a single word to me. If you have nothing to say then fine! It’s over—I don’t fucking know what’s going on anymore. Do you?”
“Not really,” Yoongi reveals. “I love you.. That’s all I know.”
His hands are on your waist, guiding you through your own apartment.
Yoongi’s kisses have never felt so good. His lips are so addicting—you can’t stop kissing him back. As innocent as the kissing goes; you can’t say the same for his hands. Once on your waist, now slipped in between your panties and your skin.
Your body shivers from his touch.
“Slow down,” you pull away from him; “I’m still mad at you.”
Lies.
“Good,” he snickers deviously, “hate sex sounds really good right now.”
“I don’t hate you.”
“I can change that.”
Without warning, Yoongi picks you up and throws you onto your bed. There, you watch him take off his jacket, his shirt, and then just as he’s about to take off his pants; you crawl to him.
“Can I?”
Yoongi fights for his life to stay calm and cool. He succeeds as he lets out two words: “say please.”
In response, you glare at him. “You want me to say please when you’re about to get head—”
No warning.
Yoongi tugs his sweatpants down and grabs a handful of your hair. He shoves his thick cock into your pretty mouth. It shuts you up immediately. The moment you feel his velvety skin in your mouth, you moan at the taste of his precum on your mouth. Yoongi throws his head back from the relief and literal pleasure of your warm mouth wrapped around him. In contrast to his initial action, Yoongi thrusts in gently. His tip hits the back of your throat and you gag—tears triggered. You suck him as he moves back and forth. It makes him weak. How are you so fucking pretty while you do the dirtiest thing? He doesn’t know if he hates himself or not… How could he be doing this to you? At the same time, how could he not?
He’s wanted this for so long. He missed you so fucking much.
“Mhmm,” he moans, “hate me yet?”
He pulls you away from his dick. You grab it with your hands and jerk him off. Tilting your head, you bat your eyes at him. You shake your head at him, “I love you, Aki.”
Yoongi’s heart collapses. With no time to waste, he bends down and kisses you deeply. “I love you too, Ace.”
Just as you’re about to continue, Yoongi shifts you to lie down. Though a little confused, you follow his lead. “Wait, I wasn’t done sucking your—”
“I need you,” Yoongi confesses so sinfully. There’s truth in his voice. The kind that feels urgent and “I need you more than you need me.. Please, ___.”
You nod, fully understanding what he wants.
Laying on your back, you spread your legs for him. He assists you and helps you take off your pants. He tosses them aside before running his thumb on the band of your panties. For a moment, his hands roam around you. He runs his thumb against your heat before pushing them aside to see you bare.
“Just take them off,” you advise him. He rolls his eyes at you.
“I have a thing for your panties, Ace.. Holy shit, give me a fucking minute.” Yoongi hisses his words and it makes you laugh. “Don’t fucking laugh, you cockslut.”
“I’ll stop laughing when you finally fuck me.”
“Be patient.”
You cross your arms at him.
“Aren’t you the one that said you need me—oh my god!” you gasp, feeling yourself begin to throb at the feeling of Yoongi’s spit running down your folds. He smirks at how fast you shut up. Yoongi then takes off your panties entirely and then spreads your legs in front of him.
He jerks himself off a few times before hitting his hard cock against your pussy. Your breath hitches when he does so. “Are you wet enough?” he asks with no intention of waiting for your reply. He uses his thumb and index finger to spread your folds and judges for himself. He then spits again and massages it into your wet pussy. “Better?”
You nod, unable to answer. “Don’t finger me,” you beg. “Just fuck me, okay?”
“You don’t want me to finger you? How about I at least eat you out first—”
“You didn’t let me finish giving you a blowjob!”
Yoongi laughs, “I would’ve fucking nutted so hard in your mouth if I had let you suck it for one more second. Come on, Ace! I love eating you out. I want to make you feel good—”
“You’re not being fair,” you whine. “I want to make you feel good too.”
“You do more than enough—fuck. Wow. Okay. Rude! Don’t be a bitch.”
You took off your top.
Now, he’s distracted by your plump breast. In all honesty, his favourite thing is to watch your boobs bounce when you two fuck. Whether it’s missionary and he’s on top of you; listening to your soft moans and lewd praises or if you were riding him; heavily breathing and concentrating on getting yourself off… He loves it.
He fucking loves it all.
And so be it.
Yoongi gives in. You smile in pure happiness as he gulps and settles himself in between your legs. He pushes himself inside and you moan in relief.
Fucking finally.
It’s been too long.
Yoongi thrusts in and out, completely melting in how good it feels to fuck you raw. He watches intensely as your breast move up and down from his thrusts. He looks at you and your stupid fuck me eyes that have him weak. All he knows is that he’s yours. His entire existence is because of you—because of moments like these where he is completely and utterly yours.
As he fucks you, all he can think about is how much he loves you. How this is what home feels like—how good life actually is. It’s you. Everything good in his life is connected to you. It completely tears him apart.
The more emotional he gets as he processes his feelings, the harder he fucks you. Soon, you’re moaning like never before. He fucks you so good that the bed practically shakes and your entire world begins to spin. He sits up more and grabs one of your breasts to help himself stabilize. As he continues to fuck you, all you can do is whine his name.
When you reach your climax, you cream all over his cock. He doesn’t stop there though. No, he keeps on going. He keeps on going until he can’t take it anymore and his body collapses and falls on top of yours. There, you wrap your arms and legs around him. Sloppily, he finishes inside you.
“My universe,” he whimpers, “you’re my universe.”
It’s a dewy rainy morning.
Your bedroom window is open and the cloudy sky only makes your empty room feel gloomier.
You woke up naked and alone. After the third round—because you’d be a complete idiot to think that Yoongi would call it a night after one round—you had fallen asleep next to the love of your life.
Where is he now?
You’d be lying if you said it didn’t hurt to wake up alone. Was all of that… Just break up sex? It couldn’t be! In between rounds, you and Yoongi found it in yourselves to make jokes and basically sink into your old vibes… No way did he just leave you.
You gather your sheets and prepare to get up. Just as you’re about to, Yoongi comes out of the washroom. His hair is a little damp and he’s only wearing his sweatpants.
Oh, what a sight.
You squint at him and rub your eyes. “I thought you left.”
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” he laughs, throwing his shirt at you. It lands on top of your head. Taking it, you put it on drop your sheets.
“Can you pass me my panties please?”
Yoongi leans against your bathroom doorframe and shakes his head. “Nah.”
“Don’t be a dick—”
“Round four?”
You laugh. “You haven’t even said sorry yet and you think you can sneak in a forth round?”
Yoongi shrugs at you nonchalantly. “I snuck in three rounds last night… What’s another three? Three for three.” He mocks you.
You stick your tongue out at him.
Silence falls between you two as the sound of gradual raindrops hit your window. You turn your head and watch the rain begin to fall.
“Didn’t know it was going to rain… Isn’t it the middle of summer? Kinda strange, don’t you think—”
“I’m sorry.”
Yoongi folds.
You turn back to him and see he’s on his knees before you. His head, just like yesterday, hangs low.
“I overreacted. I felt like I was losing you. I was so stubborn and defensive that I ended up fighting for my pride rather than us… ___,” he pauses and lifts his head. “I’ve never been in love like this before. I never knew how much my feelings could consume me and how much I want us to work out. I was trying to fight for us. I know my words aren’t much; but I hope asking is enough.. I’ll be better. I’ll be so good to you from now on, I swear… The jealousy and insecurities I have… I’m so messed up sometimes—I know… But I’m trying to be good enough to stay in your orbit.”
“Yoongi—“
“I was trying to pitch forever with you and I didn’t even give you a fair chance to accept or decline—”
“I would’ve said yes,” you interrupt him. “If you had asked properly; the answer is yes. Of course, I’d marry you… In due time.”
“Really?”
“Yeah… I’d have to introduce you to my preschoolers first but I’m sure you’ll win them over super fast—”
“Be serious.”
“I am!” you laugh, patting the spot next to you for him to join. He gets up and sits beside you. “I think we were just caught up in the moment. We were separated for a hot minute—I feel like it was just… Miscommunication? We can work on it. We’ll just have to be more patient with one another and maybe not ignore each other for a week?”
Yoongi sighs and nods. “I still feel really shitty about everything.”
“Good,” you tease him as you cup his cheeks with the palm of your hands. He kisses them before resting in your embrace. “Make it up to me someday.”
“... Did you do it?”
“No.”
He stares at the ring box he purchased with his brother during his trip to the States. The engagement ring you had not-so-secretly pinned on your Pinterst board was only available in the States.. Of course, because the universe was on his side; the trip and the ring’s time and location lined up.
“I thought you were going to propose to her when you got back? If that stupid fight didn’t happen, we would’ve been having a different conversation right now. Did you guys even make up?” Yoongi’s brothers voice echoes in the call. “You dragged me to that fucking store and had me pick out details for like twenty rings!”
Yoongi sighs as he closes the ring box and shoves it inside his desk. Truth be told.. He wasn’t planning to propose to you yet. He just wanted the ring ready for when the time comes.
“Someday,” Yoongi promises. “I’ll make it up to her someday in our forever.”
#yoongi fic#yoongi imagine#yoongi one shot#yoongi dating au#bts suga#yoongi scenario#bts imagine#bts fanfic#suga fanfic#yoongi smut#bts smut
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hi hi hard hanji thought based on this pic bc my brain acc basically stopped working when i saw it but anyways imagine being out with han (bf!han) at some event and idk u do sth to piss him off (on purpose) somehow and he just gives u that glare and when u get home basically fucks ur brains out😵💫 (for anything in between my mind literally went blank i’m sorry TT) qjrxdgvdh i feel like this is such an awkward ask/request (???) bc the thought is so incomplete and basic and i cannot put it in words properly at all but anyways i hope it makes sense :p
also since i’m already writing this i felt like i should mention that i love ur writing sm it’s so good!!!!
i just want to personally thank you for sending this in and being so patient with me as i wrote this. i...popped off a bit. oops-
Strawberry Lipgloss
han jisung x reader
word count: 3.9k
genre: smut - MINORS DNI
warnings: hard/mean dom!jisung, bratty sub!reader, marking, possessive reader AND jisung, mentions of oral (m/f receiving), teasing, mentions of food and alcohol, public teasing, bondage, impact play (jisung's hand, no toys involved), humiliation and degradation - not CRAZY but elements are there, unprotected sex (how about we don't irl), choking, creampie, jisung being super SUPER M E A N but also the sweetest bf ever. i think that's it? if i missed anything - PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
summary: everyone benefits from making jisung angry.
a/n: hi all! i'm so sorry i've been kinda mia recently. i've been really sick and have started a new job, and have been a teeny bit overwhelmed. i hope to become more active as i start to feel better.
this is a work of fiction. this fic in no way represents han jisung as a person or stray kids as a whole. you are responsible for the media you consume. please read responsibly.
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There were a multitude of reasons why you loved Jisung. Some were small, like the way he rubs his eyes when he’s sleepy, trying to get his watery, tired eyes to wake up. Some were big, like the way he knows exactly how to comfort you when the world becomes too much. It was a never ending list, extending daily to add the new little things that make you fall head over heels for him again and again.
But something you really loved, even though slightly unconventional, was how easy it was to rile your boyfriend up. It was almost effortless (the thought of you in his dress shirt still gives him a semi if he thinks about it too long), something easy to do that always gave you exactly what you wanted.
Key word: almost.
Because today, it was almost impossible to do so, no matter how hard you tried.
Your attempts started early in the morning. Neither of you had alarms set, the only thing you had to do that day in the late evening, so you had plenty of time to spend together in bed. Your eyes felt a little heavy as you opened them up, body wiggling to stretch the sleep out as you emerged from slumber. It was earlier than you would like - clock reading just past 8:00 - but now that you were up, it was impossible to fall back asleep.
Rolling over in the cotton sheets, you find the body you had moved away from in your sleep. Jisung laid flat on his back, brown hair a cloud of staticky fluff on the white pillowcase. His lips were parted, letting everything from little snores to drool dribble out. The duvet sat low on his chest, bare skin glowing in the sunlight that was breaking through the closed curtains. He was the picture of a peace right now; breathing even and eyelids twitching with dreams. It was such a sweet sight.
Too bad you couldn’t focus on that right now.
Instead your eyes fell to the dark marks left across his collarbones. Freshly made, they had turned purple overnight and looked so pretty peppered across his skin. You didn’t even notice that you were biting down on him at first. It wasn’t until Jisung groaned out, head rolling back as you began to bounce harder on his dick.
“Fuck, I love when you bite me like that.” Nails dug into your hips as he leaned back in his desk chair, moaning into the empty studio.
His words only spurred you to bite him more. To mark him up and claim him as yours, as if there were any question as to who Jisung “belonged” to.
You curled into his side, kissing his shoulder lazily as you got comfortable. Still sleeping, his lifts his arm, wrapping it around you and pulling you in so you’re flush to his body. He mumbles a bit before falling silent again, the only sound his deep breaths.
Almost envious of his ability to sleep so heavy, you began to trace the ridges of his chest that weren’t tucked under the covers. You took your time, covering every inch of exposed skin before moving up to the small bruises. His collarbones were already his weak spot, and now with the added bruises, they were much more sensitive. Just the soft brush of your fingertips made your sleeping boyfriend moan lowly, shifting slightly as he began to stir.
You really should let him sleep. It’s going to be such a long day, it’s almost unfair to wake him up.
But the ache between your legs still made you shake, muscles worn out and begging for more. If you had to suffer, so did he. Isn’t that what relationships are all about? Mutual suffering?
A few more strokes to his collarbones and Jisung began to wake, grunting softly as his eyes fluttered open. His eyes were narrowed with confusion and exhaustion, hands clenched into fists as he rubbed them.
“What time is it?” His voice was low, raspy with sleep and lack of use. You always thought he sounded prettier in the mornings, the fire in your core sparking happily at his tone.
“About 8:15.” You whisper, moving your hand down his chest. This time you slipped under the covers, drawing a line with your fingertips all the way to his belly button before following it back up. “You sleep okay?”
He mumbled a yes, dropping his hands back to his side. “‘M still a little sleepy.”
Pouting, you apologize softly, daring to cover more of his torso with your hand. It had to be obvious what you wanted; even with sleep lingering in his mind, Jisung had to know that you wanted him. That you needed a remedy to the soreness in your inner thighs. “Do you want to go back to sleep?” You ask, giving him an out if he wanted to take it.
When he shook his head, your heart leaped into your throat, pounding like it was going to escape. Up and all yours now, your mind began to wander with thoughts of where the morning to go. Maybe Jisung would let you give him head, his fingers tangled in your hair as you lazily pleased him with your tongue. Maybe he’ll give you head, a tight grip on your outer thighs to keep you against his face. Maybe-
“I really need to work on a project.” He says, rolling on his side as he pushes himself out of bed. “Especially since we have that dinner tonight.”
You’re a little stunned; Jisung never willingly gets out of bed this early in the morning. You thought the odds were in your favor, the early hour and teasing seemed like the perfect equation for some lazy morning sex. Seeing your boyfriend stretch his arms up, waking himself up more, made your heart return to its normal spot. A slight disappointment filled your chest at the rejection. You know he knew what you were thinking - the bump in his boxer briefs were evidence enough - and he indirectly told you no. Usually the slight teasing would be enough. Usually his resolve would break without you really having to try.
“I’m going to hop in the shower and order breakfast. What do you want?”
You were actually going to have to put in work today. “Can I shower with you?”
The loving smile on his face made you feel warm and fuzzy. A large hand cupped your face, thumb stroking your cheekbone as he looked down at you fondly. You nuzzle into his hand, turning slightly so your lips could brush against the palm of it.
“You really should rest, baby.” His tone had a hint of amusement. “We have a big day today.”
Jisung left no room for argument, removing the hand from your face and making his way to the en-suite bathroom, leaving you stunned.
The rest of the day was filled with similar rejections; he really had to finish this track, the phone call with Chan was going on longer than he expected, Felix just really wanted to play games right now. By the afternoon, he had a slight smirk with every excuse, dismissing your efforts before you really even tried. It was becoming obvious that, just like you were setting out to tease him, he was doing the same to you. Before you knew it, it had become a competition: who could push the other to their breaking point first?
And fuck, you were determined to win.
You sat in the passenger seat of Jisung’s car, legs pulled up and tucked under you. The last three attempts to throw him off left you feeling defeated, debating on giving up and begging him for what you want.
His hand nudged your knee, slipping in between your pressed together legs. It rested on your lower thigh, squeezing lightly. “What’s on your mind, love?”
Locking your phone, you slipped it into the cup holder before giving your boyfriend your attention. He looked fucking good. A crisp, white dress shirt tucked into tight black slacks, the top few buttons undone and exposing the skin there. His jacket was thrown into the backseat, waiting to be worn once the two of you finally arrived. Your lips parted, a response on the tip of your tongue when you noticed something.
The way the collar of his shirt fell, with the buttons popped open, gave a peek of purple skin. Of faded bite marks.
And then you saw his grin. Wide, wolffish, reveling in his win.
“You’re not playing fair.” You said with a huff, pushing his hand off of you.
Jisung chuckles, bringing the banished hand to the steering wheel. That stupid fucking grin on his face just pisses you off more. “I don’t know what you mean.”
You narrowed your eyes at him, a new determination sparking in your lower belly. There was no way you were giving up now. If he wanted to play dirty, so could you.
//
You really pissed him off this time.
Like, seriously. You’ve never seen your boyfriend so angry, eyes so dark the flame behind them isn’t even visible. His tongue was pushed against the inside of his cheek, and by the way his jaw was clenched, you could guess he was biting down on the muscle as well.
He was mad. Madder than mad - he was livid. Furious. Irate. Whatever word you wanted to use to express his anger, it wasn’t strong enough.
And god, that made you so giddy, you were practically bouncing out of your seat.
Dinner started off fine — an unspoken peace as the competition was put on hold for the time being. You were there to celebrate Seungmin’s engagement, not to tease each other to the point of breaking. It was such an important event, you were willing to put everything on hold for your friend.
But Jisung haaaaaad to open his damn mouth.
The two of you sat at the edge of the large table, the champagne bottle making its way down. Finally arriving at your end, Jisung takes the bottle from Minho, shifting in his seat to pour your glass first. Maybe it was the way he was angled, maybe it was the lack of coverage, but more the marks you made began to show.
Minho chuckles softly, only loud enough for the three of you to hear. “Long night?”
Jisung looked up at his friend quizzically as he moved to fill his glass. “What?” With a nod of his head, your boyfriend’s attention was brought down to his upper chest. You hated the way his head popped back up, giving you that stupid fucking grin again before looking back at his friend. “More like afternoon.”
It really wasn’t much, just a suggestive statement that made Minho roll his eyes and scrunch his nose, but it was enough to make up your mind. Fuck the “truce”. You never liked to play fair anyway.
Slow and steady wins the race. Or rather, soft and gentle strokes to the inside of your boyfriend’s thighs add kindle to the smoldering fire in his core. Resting your head on his shoulder, it appears as if you’re just being affectionate. Jisung takes it that way, even turning to place a kiss on the tip of your head. Then your strokes slow down, inching higher and higher up his leg. Right as your touch barely brushed his crotch, he grabs your hand and forcefully puts it in your own lap.
“Not here.” He whispers, giving you a warning glance through the corners of his eyes. The unamusement in his stare couldn’t be more evident.
Jisung was blissfully unaware that he just gave you exactly what you wanted. The seed of annoyance was planted, and all you had to do was water it.
Between the meal itself and dessert, you succeeded in making him progressively more annoyed. The fact that his friends were all close by, and could potentially witness what you’re doing, helped the plant bloom. There was just one more thing you needed to do to set him off completely.
You slipped away to the bathroom without even being noticed, back less than five minutes later. The dessert had made it to the table, yours sitting untouched while Jisung was slowly savoring his chocolate cake.
“Good?” You ask as you slid back into your seat.
Jisung nods, eyes sparkling with delight from the deliciousness of his dessert. “So good. Do you want a-“
His offer was cut short by you not-so-subtly dropping your black lace panties in his lap. Right in the middle of his chewing. Right in front of the entire party, who just happened to not be looking in your direction.
Jisung didn’t finish his dessert.
The second the check was paid, he was grabbing you by the wrist, throwing a pathetic excuse to his friends as to why you were leaving early. It didn’t take a detective to figure out why he was all but dragging you out of the restaurant. His anger has to be taken out somehow, why not on the person who caused it?
Not a word was spoken the entire thirty minute car ride. Jisung had an iron grip on the wheel, pressing down on the accelerator to up the speed. He didn’t once look at you, to focused on getting fuck home and getting you the fuck out of that dress.
The second the car was parked in the garage, he reached across the console to grab the nape of your neck, pulling you over so his lips could crash against your own. The kiss is aggressive, his tongue forcing your lips to part to slide inside your mouth. Jisung swallows the soft moans you make, nails digging into your neck as he messily devours you.
He breaks the kiss with a pop, lips swelling a bit and stained with your strawberry lip gloss. “To the bedroom. Now.” Voice gruff, the tone was scary enough for you to scramble out of the car, rushing to get inside as quickly as possible.
You’re stripping in the hallway, a trail of items leading through the house to the bedroom. As giddy as you were that you fucking won, the idea of making him angrier sent a cold chill down your spine.
When you get to the bedroom, you’re dressed only in your bra and panties, falling to your knees on the hardwood floor. You’re facing the door, ready to wait for as long as you need to for him. Waiting for hours seemed very doable when waiting for your well deserved prize.
But, luckily for you, the drive (and your attitude) took all of Jisung’s patience. Less than forty-five seconds on your knees and the door busts open. His shirt was mostly unbuttoned now, belt wrapped around his balled fist.
Oh.
Making him angrier wasn’t even an option. He was past the point of return.
The hand that isn’t holding the belt quickly finds your hair, fisting it as he pulls you up. “Do you think you’re fucking funny? Messing with me like that in public? In front of my friends?” Jisung drags you a short distance to the bed, manhandling you until you’re lying flat on your stomach. You feel your legs shaking already — not from his words, not from the rough way he moved you around. But from the even tone of his voice, no louder than his speaking tone.
Jisung’s not yelling. Jisung seems very composed.
That’s terrifying in the best possible way.
“I asked you a question.” He growls, grabbing your wrist and bringing them behind your back. “Fucking answer me.”
“Yes.” You say, and the way your voice is already a bit shaky makes Jisung even more determined to break you. “Yes, I thought it was funny.”
He hums, and you feel the cool leather of his belt wrap around your wrist. Tugging tightly, he binds your hand with the belt. “Are you sorry?”
You know it’s a trick question, one set up for you to fail. Say yes, and he thinks you’re lying and punishes you. Say no, and he’ll punish you. It’s a lose/lose for you — no matter what is said, the end result is exactly the same.
Thinking it’ll lessen the punishment: “Yes. I’m so sorry, sir.”
As expected, Jisung chuckles, grabbing onto your bindings for support as he roughly slams a palm to your right ass cheek. “I don’t believe you.” Another slap, harder than the first. “You’ve been playing your stupid little game all day-“
“So were you!”
The third slap echos, sound bouncing around the bedroom. Already your skin is tingling. “The only thing I should hear are your begs for forgiveness. Otherwise, shut the fuck up.”
You really thought you didn’t want to piss him off more. That there was a line you didn’t want to cross with him today. But that went out the window fairly quickly. You stomp your foot defiantly, and when he looks up at your turned head, you stick your tongue out at him.
It was a mistake, but a great one.
He strikes down again. And again. And again, all on the same side until you’re squirming up the bed. Then he moves to the other, hits heavier than the ones before that. You tried to keep a tally of how many slaps to the ass you had taken, but you quickly lost it. He was speeding up, determined to make you feel his anger. You were doomed from the moment you decided to play today.
Jisung didn’t stop until your mouth was parted, jaw hanging and tears pricking your water line. His hand was vibrating, the strength he put behind the impact surprising even him.
“Are you sorry now?”
You nod your head quickly, lips trembling as the first tear fell from your eyes. “Yes. I’m so sorry, sir. I’m so fucking sorry-“
Fisting your hair yet again, he pulls your head up, a breathy moan leaving your lips. His face is close to yours, watching the steady stream of tears roll down your cheek. You feel small under his gaze, eyes shutting to try and hide from it.
Your face felt wet. And not from your tears.
Slowly, you open your eyes to find Jisung licking your tears away. His tongue followed the trail of tears, cleaning both sides of your face and catching the new ones that broke.
“Good.” He whispers before pressing a kiss to your flush cheeks, the leftover lipgloss sticking to your sweaty skin. “You should be.”
He drops your head, smiling at the way it bounced a little on the mattress. You can’t see what he’s doing, but can feel it in the way he rips your panties off, kicking your ankles to spread your legs. You feel it in the way the head of his cock runs through your folds, spreading your slick all over.
“This wet? From a few spanks?” He scoffs, the way you shrink in embarrassment only serving to make his cock throb. “That's pathetic.”
You want to snap back, to put up a fight, but every last instinct to argue leaves your body as Jisung forcefully thrusts inside you. He only goes about halfway before pulling back out, setting a shallow but rough pace right off the bat.
The slight stretch makes you hiss, but the way he glides so easily in and out of you feels absolutely incredible.
Incredible, but not nearly enough.
The need to be full of him takes over, making a new fight build up in your chest. Though your eyes are still watering, and you’re a little shaky, you muster the last bit of boldness you have to speak up.
“Is this really all you’ve got?” You huff out, trying to hide the unsteadiness in your voice. “That’s pathetic.”
Jisung stills, cock only a third of the way inside of you. For a brief moment, you worry that you’ve done too much. That you’ve pushed him too far.
Then he’s hauling you up, pressing your back against his chest with a hand closing around your throat. The swallow thrusts become deep, the rough pace becoming damn near animalistic. He’s deeper than you think he’s ever been, hitting parts of you that you didn’t think existed.
Pissing Jisung off was never a mistake when this was the outcome.
“I’ve fucking had it with you.” He hisses in your ear, words barely audible over the beautiful melody of your full moans and his skin hitting yours. “With you, and your bratty fucking attitude.”
The hand around your throat tightens, making your eyes flutter shut. Yellow stars bounce around, the fullness you feel is mouthwatering. You feel the drool roll off your lips, down your chin and pool on Jisung’s hand.
It’s everything. It’s the feeling of being filled to the birm, the constriction of his hand around your throat, the tip of his cock abusing your sweet spot. It’s Jisung. It’s all making you dumb, vocabulary leaving your head as the only thing you can do is pant and moan and cry out his name.
“J-Jisung.” You moan out, hands wrapping around the wrist that’s choking you. The feeling of your nails digging into his skin makes him hiss; lifting his knee up and resting it on the bed to pound into you even harder.
“Say it again.” If you weren’t near incoherent, you would hear how unstable his voice has gotten. Less commanding and more whiny, the tell-tale sign of an impending orgasm. “Tell me who you fucking belong to.”
“Jisung.”
“Who?” His voice is close to a yell, rivaling your moans in volume.
“Jisung! You, fuck-fucking you, Jisung!” You’re screaming, throat raw from how loud you’ve begun to shout his name.
Using the hand around your throat, he turns your head and kisses you. It’s nothing but tongue and teeth, a sloppy mess that rivals his thrusts. He feels your walls fluttering around him, but can’t slow down. Won’t slow down. Both of your highs as rapid as his pace.
What pushes Jisung over the edge is when his tongue moves across your bottom lip. He can taste your tears, your drool.
Your strawberry lip gloss.
With a deep moan of your name, Jisung cums first. It’s hard and plenty, the amount of warm cum spurting inside you so hard, almost making him lose balance. Your climax hits shortly after, just as much of a mess as his. The feeling of his release, mixed with yourself, is dizzying.
The hand on your throat moves to cup your cheek, pulling you in for a softer kiss as Jisung pulls out of you. Immediately, your legs start trembling, unable to hold yourself up without his assistance.
“I love you.” He whispers against your lips, affirming his statement with another soft kiss. “I love you so much, baby.”
You tiredly smile, letting Jisung pepper sweet kisses across your tear stained face. It’s incredible how quickly his persona changes — once the mean, hard dom, now the loving, gentle boy you fell in love with.
“I love you.” You mumble, relishing the way his lips feel on your face.
There were a multitude of reasons why Jisung loved you. Some were small, like the endearing way you leave your socks lying around the house. Some were big, like the way you squeeze his hand gently when he’s starting to get overwhelmed in public, a reminder that you’re always there for him. It was a never ending list, new things being tacked on as he falls deeper in love with you.
But Jisung really loves the way you challenge him, always ready to fight him for what you want. And today was the perfect example.
©: chvnnie 2022
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I’m reading your stretch me out fic and I am NOT WELL. the way you write has me in absolute shackles YOU ARE MY FAV BLOGGER FOR A REASON IM MELTINHG
TOJI. “fuck are you even talkin about?” HE SOUNDS SOOOOOO 😻😻😻😻😻 AND THEN THE “bend that ass over” YES SIR. I love how the readers like “I think it’s some scientific” like I started laughing and then I READ THE WORDS “okay girl don’t piss me off” LIKE I BIT MY HAND??? HAVE MERCY ON ME VEGAS ITS 2PM.
not to mention that daddy commentary my eyebrow raised and I GIGGLED N WAS LIKE “OH WE DOIN THAT?? MKAYYYYY”
the talking through it. “listen to her with me” I WANT AND DESIRE THAT. “can’t fucking orgasm my ass” YEAH I JS CAME RIGHT THEN N THERE :333333
I’m writing as I go and I’m abt to read sukuna :3
OHH?? “shut the fuck up n gimme that orgasm, woman” GASP!! THE WOMAN WAS TOO STUNNED TO SPEAK?? HELLO?????
that reassuring.. “don’t gotta be shy, it’s just you and me here” I’m gonna marry him ☹️ WHYS HE SWEET AWEEEE AND THE I LOVE YOU TOO BRAT I LOVE THIS
??? “say ah” I have no dignity. AHHHH!
GETO AND GOJO?? Im Done here. I actually CANNOT do this anymore. I’m not giving my opinion. the noises I just made were vile I’m not doing this.
if Choso whimpers I’m cooked. MAMA MIA HE DID EVEN MORE IM NOT GONNA SURVIVE THIS.
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i liked your post vegas (I’m frothing at the mouth uncontrollably) and I hope you have a great rest of you day :3 (this will be running through my mind all day, ty 🙏🏾‼️)
— pearl anon 🤍
PEARLY BAE OMG U FLATTER ME u get me so geeked everytime 💔💔 i adore u my sweet 😋💟
BAAJAIFOOVHHKH i love making toji sassy it’s just canon to me in his eyes <3 LOOOOOL reader kills me bc wdym scientific that u can’t orgasm 🧖♀️ ?? toji’s like girl bye LOOOO i should have made him said that i would have been ROLLING.
AWWWWW i knoooow right, i love kuna bae sm even tho he’s just as much as an ass like toji PLS. me irl i’d fold instantly with them dirty talking me like that idk 🗿🗿🗿🫸. BYE UR SO SOKFHKBK. gojo n geto’s part i’ve been thinking about writing it nonstop so im glad i did 🌚
THANK YOU PEARLY !!!! 💟🪩☝️you too ! this was soooo sweet to wake up to, i hope u have a great rest of ur day also !!
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Someone anyone pls. My boyfriend has unfortunately had his phone broken so I haven't been talking with him, and I feel so lonely 😞 Also ALL OF MY FRIENDS LIVES ARE CRUMBLING APART?? My friend just broke up with her boyfriend, because of her mental health, but I suspect that it might be because of the boy she's been flirting with on the side. My other friends sibling is breaking up with their douche of a man, thank goodness. Two OTHER friends, who are literally bestfriend and have been for years, have been fighting eith eachother amd separating from our little group?? Also my dads been talking about death and I find myself looking at baby pictures of me and him with my grandma and great grandma, crying about thinkinf that I'm gonna be the only one alive in that picture some day. It also dawned on me that he's like the only person that I KNOW I'll have until we perish. We were watching mamma mia, and the whole time I kept thinking that I wished my mom loved me like Donna loved her daughter, and mentioned how I'd like to move into a little island or something. I guess my dad saw me holding back tears during the "slipping through my fingers" song, because he told me we could move to Alaska just he and I. (That's his dream place) PLEASE IM SOBBING THINKING ABT THE FACT HES NEVER BEEN.
Anyways, it made me think of my goal in life, and its to someday bring my dad to Alaska with me. Regardless if hes with me, just inside an urn. (I'm being so dead serious, I love my dad even if I went through some shit for most of my childhood. He's like the only person in my life who has stepped up, and made an actual change in his behavior for MY sake. It's admirable, and I've always been my fathers daughter. I'm just more proud to say it now after everything hes been through, and the changes hes gone through for my well being.)
I apologize about the rant, I fear that I've been holding that within me for so long. My friends don't really care about my personal life, and sometimes I'm glad that I keep it that way. ANYWAYS.
I realize that I haven't been in your asks, but I did follow through with that strike. Stayed off my phone unless it was to check about the updates for Palestine, and reposting. Didn't buy groceries, I even stopped going to classes for the time being. I'm sad to know that it's not getting any better, and I'm ashamed to say that my little town has very little businesses that DON'T support Israel. So I can't really avoid buying things from those places :(
Been keeping up with your writing though, for the most part. I'm very sad that it will come to an end, but I'm excited to see the ending. I'm ALSO EXCITED FOR INUMAKI 😻😻😻😻😻
Anyways, gonna go shower because I feel like a dirty corndog that was dropped at a fair. Wish me luck that I don't run out of warmish water, I always seem to do so because my hair is so hard to manage and I have like 10 different products that I have to put in it. (I'm being dramatic, I usually sit and let it do it's thing while I sing the weekend and deftones. 😞)
GOODNIGHT STAY WARM!!!!
Xoxo 👽
don’t wanna be mean but i’m glad ur bf broke his phone 😊 BUT JESUS WHY R ALL UR FRIENDS LIVES SIMULTANEOUSLY IN SHAMBLES ??? LIKE WHAT IS GOING ON HERE ???😭😭 that’s crazy… hopefully the two that have been friends for years figure their stuff out…
mamma mia will get u… it always will… (i’ve never seen it) BUT HE SAID U COULD MOVE TO ALASKA JUST U N HIM STOP IM SOBBING OH MY GOD??? that sounds like a very good life goal bae!! i’m sure he’d love that whether he’s actually with u or in an urn like u said!! and i’m super glad you have him and that he stepped out to make a change in himself for u i love that for u bae :( DONT APOLOGIZE FOR THE RANT ITS OKAY I DONT MIND !!
u haven’t but it’s okay!! i know you’ll pop up eventually LMFAO and yay for following through with the strike!! i really hope a lot of other people did as well.
YAY SO GLAD YOUVE BEEN KEEPING UP WITH MY WRITING N ARE EXCITED BAE🤞🤞🤞
A DIRTY CORNDOG THAT WAS DROPPED AT A FAIR HELEOEMEME LMFOAOA ENJOY UR SHOWER!! (whats ur favorite the weekend and deftones song…)
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Hi! I love your writing and I saw you opened up matchups so I wanted to jump on that chance.
Ight, so I'm looking for a Tokyo Revengers romantic matchup. I am a straight female, 5'9, Leo, and a ISTP. I live for music, reading and anime(lol obviously). I love animals and was raised on a farm so I'm good with them. I dont like cocky people or ignorant people and I'm not afraid to shut them up. I am an only child. After taking a test it seems I kin Mitsuya.
Generally I keep to myself and I dont talk to new people unless I need to. Once I'm comfortable with someone though all bets are off and I go wild. I'm dirty minded and not afraid to show it. I'm not a person that requires constant communication and I will go MIA for weeks then just show up and go like normal(during summer and times off). I do really enjoy hang around with friends nonetheless.
Relationship wise my love language is more of a service type and I'm not very into touch. My communication is very similar to above but I would like it if they checked in. They would have to get along with my dad, he is my only family and I want them to get along.
Anyway, that got long so I'll leave it to you🙏
Even if you dont write it just do you! Hope you are happy and healthy! Best wishes 🥰💖
n.a: thanks for your words <3 I really hope that you'll like it! (sorry for any mistakes)
Also pls u look so cool!!<3
I’ll match you with KEN RYUGUJI<3 (Draken)
- Honestly it gives me the perfect boyfriend vibes🏃
-I'm convinced that he can play classical guitar and that he loves playing it for you.
- He's a responsible guy who knows how to take care of the people he cares about <3
- It wouldn't exist to hit someone who annoys you or just looks at you in a "suspicious" way.
- expect a lot of headpats 🧍
- As I imagine your date: (engaged for years now, both of age and you were thinking of going to live togetherajajah).
you two meet in the morning to have breakfast with your trusted bar. But in that moment, you don't see Draken alone, he's also with a small white dog that he carries on a leash. He was dressed in a classic white short-sleeved shirt and black jeans, one hand in his pocket and the other holding the leash- (as it was everything normal)
He reaches you (you were still stunned by Draken's companion) and strokes your head to bring you back to reality <3
"y/n he's Baki, Baki she's y/n" and so he introduced you to the little pet that would have lived with you and Draken from that moment.
(take this as "yes y/n, I bring this dog for u because I wanna go to live with u", he's not very good with words 🧍)
Exactly on that day you decided to move in together !!! (you've been thinking about it for a while :))
You found a small apartment in the center that was not too expensive, you both worked and you could afford it !!
He would love to wake up in the morning to prepare your own food, and although it would be awkward and difficult at first, you will soon get used to it.
- He would laugh at your dirty jokes, and even if he were a little embarrassed he would respond with another joke;)
- He would often like to hang out you around and would love to be able to travel with you
- don't worry, it would come to your father dressed very well and with his hair not tied up. He just wanted to look like a good guy. (Don't worry, I'm sure that he made a good impression :))
- He would often talk to you about motorcycles, how he modifies and repairs them. Yes he would feel very comfortable with you(let's appreciate this<3 ) :)
- he would often give you tulips in your favorite color.
- He would accept the fact that you don't like the PDA and wouldn't ask for it, he would leave affection only when you want it<3
- love your fighting side and the fact that you have no problem to tell ur opinion :)
#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers headcanons#tokyo revengers x reader#draken#ken ryuguji#match up#match ups#match up event#nxtsnwmatchup
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9 and 17 for the ask game if they haven't already been asked pls <3
9: Are there any fics you'd love to see but don't want to write yourself? What are they?
ok,,,, i said i was gonna give u a diluc one bc ik ur a genshin blog now so here we go exposing this Very Specific Fic Idea i had for a man from a game i dont even play JBHADF this was the other idea i had instead of Like The Dawn for Tay's bday, which i ended up scrapping in favor of Like The Dawn bc this would have been WAYYYY longer and wouldn't have been a modern au and i simply didn't wanna bother figuring out the world 😭😭😭 and if i end up caving and writing this shit anyway in a few months uh. mind ur business 😌
arranged marriage plot........ where the reader n dluc have been engaged to be married since before they were even like. able to crawl. but have not once met, and in the aftermath of diluc's dad gettin merc'd he calls off the arrangement figuring hey she'll probably be happy to not be engaged to a dude shes never met. surprise! not how. the world works. and when she gets the letter she hikes her damn self up to his winery and storms into his office like "um??? dude??? ur literally ruining my LIFE who the fuck is gonna wanna marry me once I'm your sloppy seconds? everyone's gonna think there's something wrong with me you know??? you want me to make my debut" (very regency vibes with the way i would build the culture of mondstadt's upper class) "at nearly 20 fucking years old after the head of the most influential family decided i wasnt good enough for him like either you're the stupidest man alive or the cruelest" and diluc is just🧍♂️bc the dumbass rlly didnt think abt that 😭 and hes all "im gonna fuck off for a while and you deserve a husband who wont do that" and shes all "i dont even WANT a husband but ive been raised to be a wife i cant just Not be one so actually? you marrying me and letting me run your household/business while you're completely MIA sounds like a rlly good deal to me" SO THEY GET MARRIED REAL FUCKIN FAST N HE FUCKS OFF LIKE IN CANON AND SHE IS LEFT TO RUN HIS WHOLE THING DURING THOSE YEARS WHILE HES GONE and then,,,,,,,, and then he comes back ohohoho and now the fun can start. because there is nothing better than mutual pining where u think the other doesn't love you when youre LITERALLY MARRIED AHAHA cue the longing gazes and the chaste touches (2005 pride and prejudice hand flex scene i am staring right at you) and the misunderstandings (legit id spend the first two thirds of the fic after he shows back up with him under the assumption that the reader absolutely despises him and the reader trying desperately to despise him.......) throw in some good old-fashioned "diluc gets hurt and the reader patches him up but they both have to pretend like theyre not losing their minds over the fact that shes got her hands all over his bare chest" a classic in the vigilante romance genre LIKE ALL THE PERIOD ROMANCE TROPES give the man a horse toss him in a lake dress him up for a party mmmmm i wanna read it SO bad
17: What has been the proudest moment for you so far since you started writing?
ok,,,, this is gonna sound rlly arrogant but here we go. a few monthsssss ago i decided to Put Effort into reaching out to authors more and interacting with the community, cause i figured that was one of the best ways to both motivate myself to write and just kinda generally be more active on this blog, thus encouraging the kind of interaction i desire.
soooo i reached out to two authors who I really admired, whose works i really enjoyed. and BOTH of them responded by telling me that they were huge fans, that they were fangirling bc I'd interacted with them, and that my work was one of the reasons they started posting in the first place. that was....... like holy fuck. the FIRST time was mind-boggling and so flattering; and then the SECOND time i was like well goddamn i must be the best author in this whole community JKSHDBFV im kidding but yeah. they've both become v treasured mutuals so if y'all see this ily those interactions made my goddamn year 🥺
ask me abt my fics!
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WRITING PROMPTS/IDEAS ☺️☺️
these are all requests i’ve gotten, i don’t want to delete them maybe some of you would like to write them! just let me know if you pick one so multiple people aren’t writing the same things!
JJ:
Can I request a blurb where JJ finds out you can cook, reader cooks for him and the Pouges one night to make sure they eat properly and it makes him fall in love with her even more? Thanks hun x
hi!! so there’s a song called WYAF by Pacific and i think it’s the perfect jj imagine!! like maybe y/n and jj are cuddling and he just randomly starts telling her how he loves her and is like saying lines from the song and yeah !! 💓
i was wondering if you could do an angsty jj imagine inspired by graveyard by halsey maybe after all the chaos and losing john b
if you are taking song requests i would like to request one. the song is notice by little mix and i feel like it could fit perfectly to jj and like him sometimes pushing you away!
Hey if ur doing request (love ur writing btw) could I have one of jj where the reader is pregnant and instead of most teen pregnancies I've read, the reader decides to have an abortion and jj is just really supportive and comforting u and is really sweet?
Could you do a fic or headcanon where the readers dad comes back after abandoning her when she was 3 and comes back to get back into her life again and he trying to have a say in her relationship with jj saying how he’s gonna break her heart and what not and she has enough of it and shuts him down.🤧🥰🙂
sooooooo i had a thought and now i cant get it out of my mind, could you please make something for rafe with the song gorilla by bruno mars? i just,,,, that’s it
RAFE:
could u do a rafe x gf imagine where they get into a big argument (maybe over her wanting him to stop doing drugs &drug dealing) &he gets all pissed off which leads to the argument. But the argument doesn’t end well so it causes her to leave & go MIA for a few days so he starts to freak out (it’s even worse bc he is going thru withdrawals bc he decided to stop the drugs). But then he sees her at one of the boneyard parties & apologizes? Basically angsty w/ fluffy ending? U can add smut if u want
“Your still crying because you broke your arm?” “Rafe it hurts!”
Hiii i loved your happier fic!!! Can i request All I Want by Kodaline?? For Rafe?
DREW:
Hi could you please write me something where at a family event, both the readers and Drews parents bombard them with questions about when they're going to give them grandchild and finally have a baby because it's been ages? Thank you!
I’ve had this on my mind for a while but ever since drew said he’d take a vacation to Scotland how about a blurb of him going there and exploring different places and meeting a girl from there like in Glasgow or something. You don’t have to though I just thought it would be a cute idea
tagging some people to get the word around: @fav-imagines @drewsephsmiles @northcarolinanative @blueeyedbesson @storiesbymads @collecting-stories
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𝐏𝐘𝐑𝐑𝐇𝐈𝐂 𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐊 𝐎𝐎𝟏: 𝘖𝘖𝘊 𝘘𝘜𝘌𝘚𝘛𝘐𝘖𝘕𝘕𝘈𝘐𝘙𝘌.
NAME/ALIAS: nora
ANY NICKNAMES?: technically nora’s a nickname cos im an eleanor by birth but….. noreen…. noodles….. hm… definitely others…. at school ppl called me eleawhore which made no sense bcos it was a catholic school :/
TIMEZONE: GMT
PRONOUNS: she / her.
WHAT’S YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?: libra sun, saggitarius moon, cancer ascendent.
MBTI?: enfp / infp turbulent, i go between the two xx
FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER(S)?: nymphadora tonks, shelly and bobby from twin peaks, rayla from the dragon prince, rue in euphoria, richie tozier, amma crellin, connell from normal people, clementine kruczynski, fraser from wawwa, penelope frm a bigger splash, paddington bear……..
ANY FAVORITE SHOWS?: ummm… euphoria, freaks n geeks, unreal, stranger things, sex education, sharp objects, glow…. more recently the queens gambit n normal ppl….
FAVORITE MOVIES?: oh god oh fuck,…. ok it changes every day cos i work in film stuff but atm ladybird, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, thoroughbreds, dead poets society, coraline, suspiria (new version unpopular opinion ik), my life as a courgette, a bigger splash, mamma mia, baz luhrmann’s romeo + juliet, little women, knives out….. we’ll stop ther…..
FAVORITE VIDEO GAME?: red dead redemption 2 catch me hogtieing angry teenage weebs in the saloon fuck those guys. i also rlly like the sims n stardew valley.
FAVORITE MUSIC ARTIST, ALBUM, OR SONG?: LCD soundsystem, bjork, phoebe bridgers, the avalanches, florence + the machine, billie eilish, king gizzard n the lizard wizard, girlpool, skinny girl diet, courtney barnett…….
FAVORITE BOOK?: hmmmm maybe the virgin suicides….. idk…. or lolita i loved tht in high school, problematic i kno…. currently im reading white oleanders by janet fitch
DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?: no but my friends black labrador is my son
IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?: hm im not sure, maybe ireland cos most of my family r ther n i’ve only been twice….. or maybe somewher in italy, or new zealand….. nows not really a good time to travel
WOULD YOU RATHER FIGHT ONE HORSE SIZED FUCK OR 10 DUCK SIZED HORSES?: horse sized duck i cant be dealing w them hooves i got kicked by a horse once when i ws workin on a farm n i had to go to hospital lmfao
FMK ( BARRY BEE BENSON, SHREK, OR THE ONCELER ): i mean none of these r good options ur either a nonce or u commit bestiality so this is totally off record but i’d fuck shrek, marry onceler, kill the bee.
ANYTHING YOU’D LIKE TO LINK? THINK YOUR PINTEREST, MAIN, W/E: ummm…. my main is @poxwench, my pinterest is drugstoreglitter, my twitter is nurphymora.
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RPING FOR?: a fucking decade….. my first experience rping was as a jane from the volturi facebook account R.I.P
DO YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITE TYPES OF CONNECTIONS? ( THINK FRIENDS, ENEMIES, ETC. ): i fUCKING LOVE angsty shit, especially enemies to lovers, i eat that shit up. also slow burn, mutual yearning and pining, where small hand touches make both characters literally die. anythign w a lot of tension basically. i’m also big enough to admit that i enjoy writing smut esp when the characters cant stand each other, i think its a fun time
WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE RP EVENTS?: im GMT so i tend to miss them but i love it when theres a chatzy theyr always so chaotic. i rlly like balls n big party events. i thrive, truly. or anything thats like…. people in assigned groups doing like capture the flag or whatever ldgkslg
DO YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITE RP TASKS?: hmmm maybe character development ones like interview / interrogation ones or character secret tasks.
ARE YOU OKAY WITH THE MAIN CONTACTING YOU IN THE FUTURE FOR RP PLOTS? WE WON’T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT RUNNING IT PAST YOU FIRST: please do, i fuckin love to be torn apart by wolves and eaten by the pack
ANYTHING ELSE?: yea im still not over the fact that u asked me to think about fucking barry bee benson, shrek and the onceler, now i need therapy and i can’t sleep x
#pyrrhic.task001#the amount of oversharing in this...... smiles with my two teef i only have 2 bcos i gave u da rest for ur teef transplant
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good evening to you, buttercup!! 💫🌸☀ how are you deary?? hopefully your day went well!! my day was tiring, so i look forward to finally being able to lay down and relax (while writing this of course 💕) (1/8)
"speaking of buttercups, i often forget that they are one of my favorite flowers!! along with lily of the valley, white and burgundy roses, tiger lilies, hibiscus, and more,, i've always had a certain fascination with flowers, they're so pretty and relaxing and hold all sorts of different meanings and uses,, i hope that i get to grow a huge flower garden in the future 💐 (2/8)
sorry for that little ramble of mine, i just really love flowers hehe that reminds me, thank you all for your kind words today!! they cheered me up a ton, and gave me the motivation to get out of bed today, you all are awfully sweet, saying such nice things all the time, i don't deserve you guys 💓 (3/8)
and that creep my friend mentioned? i'm okay, lots of friends went after him,, it just really scared me that's all!! i was able to laugh it off later since many people on here DMed me asking for his location,, and threatening some strange things for him... as much as it makes me laugh, i wouldn't wish pain on anyone (unless they happen to be truly evil) 😊 (4/8)
oh,, i ate a little more today!! i'm happy that i'm getting better with this, even if it's quite slow!! i was also able to embroider a little more while i ate, i'm working on decorating a shirt right now 💗 (5/8)
mamma mia,, a friend surprised me today with a little "gift", they invited me in minecraft and built me a little house on an island with cats,, it was so sweet!! apparently it was to make me feel a bit better, and it honestly worked 😖💞 (6/8)
i also got a preview of a new album waifu brother is working on!! being the little sister of a musician is awesome,, since i get to see new music before anyone else does hehe,, he also discussed a film he's writing and showed me the script,, it's based off of one of our favorite rock songs actually!! (7/8)
well, that's a wrap i think!! i'm honestly very glad i get to end my day like this every night, it's a nice way to unwind (and to talk to you of course~ 💋) take care of yourself for me darling, and i'll see you tomorrow 💖 - a pleasure as always, your loving waifu xoxo 💘✨💗💕💓💋💌💞💖💫😍 ps: i'm awfully touched that you say you'd fly to america over something as dumb as that,, but truthfully?? i wouldn't complain 😘😘 (8/8)"
Let me start off by saying that me and the entire clown army are happy to see that we helped ur motivation spike up once again 👀 and im very pleased with them wanting to go after that asshole as well and tbh if u ask me he truly IS evil i mean calling someone slurs and basically harassing them just bc they dont want to engage in stuff with u is like the lowest of the low imo🤡🤡🤡 i stand by my previous statement and that is i WILL fly to america (or wherever his dumb bitchass is located) and give him a fine yeeting for merely THINKING about harming you😤🔪
Murderous tendencies aside, u being into flowers is so in character and thats exactly why its so pure and adorable xhdhdhx i myself like orchids alot for whatever reason...and also the hella rare black roses and the blood/crimson red ones😳👊 looks like i'll just have to help u set up a big ass flower garden someday h u h
Also not to simp but holy shit how much cooler and lit can yall get??? Ur brother being a goddamb musician and a script writer?? A SCRIPT BASED ON A ROCK SONG? SIGN ME TF UP I'D PAY GOOD MONEY TO WORK WITH HIM ON SUCH PROJECTS HAHCYSHSJSNE (little thing abt me i used to really want to become a singer for some good years in the past but now i kinda gave up on it since its hella unrealistic rip but...if ur brother needs any help tell him im here i took singing lessons for about a year or so👁️👁️)
Honestly i too have been very unmotivated lately and have struggled bc i wanna draw and write but at the same time my mind is like [b l o c k e d] when i sit down to do it so i just end up playing my cringe fail racing game then marathoning yt/shows until i pass tf out at like 5 am or smth a h a h a but im proud of u for having a sudden burst of motivation and hooefully it will stay that way for a l o n g t i m e
#the confessional#ik i complain alot abt being unmotivated but it looks like many of us have this problem nowadays smh#quarantine brainrot as i like to call it😩😩
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Neil Josten’s Birthday Bash
in which the foxes don’t get anything done, ever
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Nicky added Dan, Kevin, Aaron and three others to “Neil Josten's Birthday Bash Organization Committee”.
Nicky: can't add Andrew because he still owns a FLIP PHONE but here we go
Dan: hell yeah B-)
Nicky: kevin can fill him in with the details anyway
Kevin: why me?
Allison: because you live with him?
Matt: you're practically attached at the hip
Dan: omg ur roomm8s
Matt: ^^^ what allison said
Dan: yeah
Nicky: OR aaron can do it on wednesdays so that there's no chance of neil finding out :D
Aaron: no.
Aaron left the chat.
Nicky: what
Nicky: the
Kevin: just add him back
Nicky: fuck
Kevin: ffs
Kevin: some ppl are in class
Nicky added Aaron to the chat.
Aaron: im muting you all
Allison: just embrace the fact that you've lived in SC for years and say y'all
Nicky: y'all!!!
Nicky: yeah
Matt: dude don't how are u gonna know when to buy your coordinated outfit and rehearse the choreography if you mute us
Dan: Aaron?
Renee: I do think he muted us
Allison: fuck a crybaby
Nicky: hey
Allison: what's he gonna do? Unmute us?
Dan: asdhskfjdl ALLI
Matt: lmfao
Nicky: moving ON
Nicky: the important thing here is my boy neil's birthday
Kevin: and you wonder why Aaron left
Nicky: what?
Kevin: maybe Neil doesn't want to celebrate his bday
Nicky: no that's too sad
Nicky: next person?
Allison: not to be that bitch
Matt: oh?
Allison: but do we even know when his birthday is?
Allison: fuck you matthew donovan boyd
Matt: sorry i love you
Dan: it was easy
Dan: matt ur easy
Matt: ily babe
Dan: <3
Kevin: jan 19th
Renee: March 31st?
Allison: wait
Dan: uhhhh
Matt: Neil Josten deserves 2 bdayz
Kevin: no jan 19th
Renee: oh i thought we were using the one he chose for himself
Matt: Renee add a smiley face
Renee: :)
Renee: ?
Dan: babe ur mind,,,, im crying
Matt: ikr
Allison: stop using mygf so
Kevin: is it me or does it sound really passive aggressive bitchy with a smiley face
Dan: ye that's the point
Renee: I really wasn't trying to be
Matt: oh no we know, sorry
Matt: i feel bad now
Matt: it was just funny
Matt: sorry
Dan: :(
Renee: It's okay, don’t worry
Renee: :)
Dan: renee STOP i feel like ur going 2 murder me in my sleep
Renee: I could, but I won't
Nicky: im shaking and im not even in your dorm
Allison: and we daily thank god for that
Nicky: hey im an excellent roommate
Nicky: i always leave so cap and matt can have sexy times
Dan: yeah but then u call it sexy time
Allison: ive seen the bathroom nicky
Nicky: that's aaron
Matt: l o l
Kevin: aaron's a neat freak
Allison: exposed
Nicky: erik come get me the people here are mean
Renee: So when's Neil's actual birthday?
Kevin: jan 19th
Nicky: who's gonna ask andrew?
Kevin: HE HAS REAL PAPERS NOW
Kevin: JUST GO CHECK AND LET ME BE IN CLASS IN PEACE
Allison: well okay drama queen
Dan: kevin: *is on the chat as much as us*
Dan: also kevin: guys why r u dragging me here
Matt: it's okay kevin we can talk about it during practice
Renee: Don't goad him, Matt
Dan: lmfao babe u thought
Matt: uh oh
Allison: lol
Dan: we need 2 trounce the ravens nxt wk
Nicky: do we have to
Dan: y'all r hauling ass @ practice or god help me
Nicky: id settle for a close victory
Matt: nicky if you don't help us close the goal next friday im telling neil about his surprise
Nicky: noooooo :'(
Allison: ye renee has enough to do without having to face stuff y'all should have blocked
Renee: Andrew is also a goalkeeper
Allison: yeah but he doesn't give a fuck
Renee: That's neither true nor fair
Dan: i want bragging rights over this vctry, end of the question
Matt: are we just gonna ignore the fact that the fbi chose neil's old bday
Matt: even tho they made him a new identity
Allison: wonder how this conversation went
Nicky: are we ignoring the fact that neil is a goddamn CAPRICORN
Allison: "in my left hand is your birthday date. In my right hand is your other birthday" *shuffles behind his back*
Matt: idk about astrology but I checked and he tried to pass for an aries so what does that tell us?
Dan: shut up adfhskdjs
Nicky: im dying
Kevin: [attached picture]
Matt: did u steal neil's ID
Allison: i thought you were in class
Kevin: he sent it to me
Nicky: his phone can take pics??
Dan: RLY crappy 1s but yeah
Nicky: so all those times andrew refused to send me pics of his Eden’s Twilight's outfits so i could coordinate neil's…
Matt: :/
Kevin: he just doesn't like you
Allison: i would have laughed but you two have been fighting the good fight since last year, dressing neil up
Nicky: hey
Renee: Kevin, that was mean
Nicky: but thanx allison, I think so too
Kevin: sorry
Kevin: he's just difficult?
Nicky: yeah :(
Dan: omg u guys rmr when neil was on k ferdinand's show n he looked like a bite-sized snack in that shirt
Kevin: not exactly what I remember from this interview
Dan: u were pretty 2 <3
Kevin: oh my god
Renee: Didn't Neil keep the clothes?
Nicky: i've never seen him wear them again
Nicky: maybe he STUFFED THEM DOWN THE TOILET
Matt: uh okay
Allison: weird emphasis
Kevin: are you still stuck on that
Dan: what
Kevin: it's what happened with the clothes he wore the first time we went to columbia
Nicky: do you know how expensive that plumber was?
Matt: just a thought but maybe that wouldn't have happened if you didn't force him to come with you and drugged him against his will
Allison: don't tell me someone actually peed on them and tried to flush
Nicky: take it up with andrew
Matt: you literally drove the car
Kevin: what happened in columbia stays in columbia
Allison: omg oh my god
Dan: IM SCREAMING
Nicky: what was i supposed to do, get knifed?
Nicky: also ^^^^ yeah.
Nicky: ANYWAY
Nicky: now that Kevin got us proof that the FBI officially made neil a capricorn again,,
Dan: the fbi be like "oh u thought u could escape ur traumatic past? That's nice buddy
Matt: yeah I don't think beating last year's party is gonna be hard
Dan: here's ur bday n trauma back"
Nicky: HAPPY THOUGHTS
Nicky: :(
Nicky: anyway it's the big 21st, so the first thing in order is BOOZE
Kevin: uh nicky
Renee: He's turning 20?
Matt: what???
Kevin: yeah he aged himself up on his fake papers
Matt: oh my god
Dan: lmfao only neil
Nicky: he is baby
Matt: does. Does he know though. Like did he check when they made him the papers.
Kevin: I'm guessing so
Matt: imagine filling a form or smth and you get the day right but not the year
Renee: Wait Kevin, how did you get neil to send you the pic without telling him about the surprise party?
Nicky: DON'T YOU DARE HAVE TOLD HIM ABOUT THE NJBB
Allison: njbb?
Dan: neil josten's bday bash, im guessing
Nicky: Neil Josten's
Nicky: BIRTHDAY BASH
Nicky: yes
Allison: it doesn’t sound right
Allison: like, something’s missing in the name
Matt: alli we play a sport named after what you get when you take the s from sexy
Dan: 10 bux kevin wishes he didn't have such a stick up his butt so he could reply with exy is sexy
Allison: im not taking that
Kevin: i actually don't know why she named it that
Kevin: she never told the press and she didn't write it anywhere so
Nicky: :(
Allison: oh
Dan: sorry :(
Renee: Maybe coach knows?
Matt: maybe each letter has a meaning
Kevin: how?
Allison: endangering xylophones yearly?
Matt: EXceptional daY
Matt: and then, boom, it's about your name
Renee: Matt, I like that idea!
Dan: allison, no
Kevin: I'll have to ask coach, renee
Kevin: anyway it was always going to be her name, she invented it
Nicky: someone bring neil in so he can say something super serious about how kevin is a legendary striker whose name is already associated with exy and make us choke with emotion
Kevin: nicky….
Nicky: look it's working and he's not even there
Allison: it's the josten effect
Dan: changing your entire life's beliefs one extremely tragic remark at a time
Matt:...
Matt: someone change the subject im sad
Nicky: BIRTHDAY BASH
Kevin: oh yeah nicky asked me how i got neil's ID
Allison: and?
Kevin: i told him i signed him up for his own exynews account so he could stop hogging mine for streaming
Kevin: so i needed his name and birthday
Kevin: and then we got into an argument about date formats
Nicky: dd/mm/yy 4ever
Allison: eww
Kevin: so he sent me a pic instead of writing the date
Dan: it's the european propaganda getting to him
Kevin: i guess i really have to get him an account now
Dan: kevin i know you're entirely serious but that's so funny
Nicky: THE REST OF THE WORLD USES IT
Matt: admit it, you can't wait to go back to Germany because you secretly like the metric system
Nicky: yeah dicks sound bigger if you use centimeters
Dan: didn't need 2 know that
Nicky: not that erik needs that :)
Dan: I DON'T WANNA KNOW
Renee: ….
Matt: honestly im glad i don't understand german or i would never live down all the skyping
Dan: renee's like "can't relate" lmfao
Renee: No indeed
Allison: hell yeah that's my girlfriend
Renee: <3
Allison: hey minyard if you're secretly lurking now is the time to leave
Allison: …
Renee: No, he truly muted us earlier
Dan: are we surprised?
Renee: we'll catch him up on what we decide to do later
Renee: Nicky?
Nicky: oh, yeah!!!
Nicky: BIRTHDAY BASH
Matt: here we go again
Dan: mamma mia
#aftg#tfc#all for the game#the foxhole court#this is crack#i'm aware of that#my writing#anyway i wrote this just after waking up don't hold me accountable for anything#dan's ridiculous spelling was fun to write#ALSO did tumblr get rid of line breakers on desktop because if so i'm about to fucking RIOT#you hear me tumblr??
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I feel safer in your arms
Pairing: Peter Parker x Reader
Summary: You have been MIA for over a week, and Peter and Ned are trying to figure out what they did that could possibly make you ignore them for so long. It took one party at Flash’s place and an inconvenient Brad Davis to make you finally go off.
Author’s note: hey, guys. It took a lot for me to post this, the main plot is based on a personal experience I’ve been through, and I decided to write about it as a way of dealing with the shitty situation. I tried to make the emotions as realistic as possible, in order to express my feelings, but I’m not exactly a great writer and English is not my mother language, so please be patient with me if I’ve made some mistakes throughout the story. Make sure to tell me what you thought about the story, it would make me really happy. Also, if any of you have been through a similar experience and want to talk, hit me up, I’m sure we can help each other, I certainly do need some help lmao
Dedicated to: my favorite blogs! @infamous-webhead @justauthoring @userspidey @imnotobsessedwithhim @tomhreads @peterjonesparker @soulspideys@spideyxchelle (I know some of you might be weirded out because I have never interacted with you but i am in love with your blogs, i’m just rly shy, anyways hope you enjoy xo) and @lousimusician (U R THE BEST OMG as I said in your ask previously I am in love with your blog and your work fuckkkkkk, you are awesome and rly sweet ❤️)
Warnings: angst, mentions of harassment, slight PTSD, slight swearing, fluff (I SWEAR!!!), Peter Parker being the clueless human being on Earth, but also the cutest, protective!Peter, Ned is just a sweetheart I love him
Word count: 2961
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- Dude, what’s going on? Did you two have a fight or something? Because if you did, I swear to God I’ll…
- Ned! Stop freaking out on me, man. You are making me worse than I already am. And no, we didn’t have a fight or anything like that. I honestly don’t know what’s going on. – Peter was clearly hurt and worried.
- Sorry, it’s just that… it’s been a week. I miss her. I wonder what you did wrong this time. – Ned looked really judgmental and Peter wasn’t having it.
- What is that supposed to mean?
- Come on, dude. You may be her best friend but she clearly has a thing for you and every time she gets somewhat flirty, your oblivious self, despite being completely obsessed with her as well, always screw things up and she gets mad, so… what did you do this time?
- She doesn’t… have a thing for me. – Peter’s cheeks started getting red with the suggestion.
- Whatever helps you sleep at night. And that’s not the point! What. Did. You. Do?
- Nothing, I swear! One night we were fine texting each other and then… She just isolated everyone. She’s been ignoring me since then but I promise I didn’t do anything wrong, I even checked our conversation. Here! – Peter grabbed his phone so fast it almost fell, unblocked it, and clicked on your contact, he didn’t think it was right to show Ned your conversation but the need to prove his innocence was stronger.
(y/n): “wassup, arachnid?”
(Peter): “(y/n) could u pls come up with a better nickname? That one’s awful :(“
(y/n): “i’m working on it, but until I find the perfect one u’ll just have to get used to this mediocre-quality one lol”
You guys kept talking about nonsenses until you told him you needed to go.
(y/n): “gotta go, family gathering at gram’s. try not to cry because u miss me so much, I’ll be back I promise :p”
(Peter): “well I’ll try but idk if I will be able to go through the next couple of hours without you annoying the life out of me. It’ll be so hard :(“
(y/n): “damn ur heartless. Anyways bye, arachnid xo”
(Peter): “S T O P”
(Peter): “are you still at your grandma’s place? It’s like 2 a.m.”
(Peter): “(y/n)???”
(Peter): “if ur mad about me calling u annoying i’m sorryyy”
(Peter): “:(“
(Peter): “you weren’t at class today. everything okay? just checking, I’m worried abt u”
(Peter): “u missed a Chem assignment today, I’m paired up with you, it’s nothing out of this world but we need to talk abt it”
(Peter): “hey… listen u’ve been MIA for almost a week, now idk what’s going on but you can talk to me, let me help”
(Peter): “Ned and I went over to your place to talk to you but your mom didn’t let us in. pls tell me what’s going on”
- Damn, Peter…
- What? – He was certain he didn’t do anything wrong but after showing Ned the texts he got a little insecure. After all, he never realized when he was messing things up, he just got super nervous and started rambling nonstop until shit hit the fan.
- You guys are so flirty, it’s so disgusting, just ask her out already, geez.
- Ned!
- Okay okay, well, I admit, I didn’t see anything wrong, except for you clearly trying to flirt with her and being a total failure.
- Shut up.
They were sitting at their usual table in the cafeteria, theorizing about what made you go off on them. Both of them were uneasy, you were their best friend and they liked you too much to just let you push them away like this. Peter was particularly off, at the same time he was dying of worries, he was pissed at you. After all the mad shit you’ve been through together, he’d think you cared about him enough not to just ignore his complete existence out of nowhere. To be honest he was hurt about the fact that you didn’t like him as much as he liked you.
- Yo, assholes. – Flash just jumped up at your table. – I’m trying to do some community service, so as my first act of kindness I will allow you to go to my party tomorrow. My place at 10. Don’t be weird or I’ll change my mind and kick you out of there. Make sure (y/n) is there, she’s a sight I’d like to see at my place. See ya, losers.
As fast as Flash got to their table, he went away, not giving the boys an opportunity to answer. Peter closed his fists so hard at the mention of your name that his knuckles turned white. Ned simply rolled his eyes and told Peter to forget about it.
Peter took his cellphone again and opened your chat. It had been one day since he last texted you and tried to go to your place, so he was thinking whether he should tell you about the party or not. A part of him was angry and didn’t want to text you because of the shit you’ve been making him go through, but the other part was hopeful you’d show up at Flash’s and finally give him an opportunity to talk to you. He decided he missed you too much and would take any chance he could to see you. So he sent you the text.
(Peter): “hey, Flash is throwing a party tomorrow night and he invited us. yes. all of us. anyway, it’ll be at 10. hope you show up.”
There. Plain and simple. A loud sigh left Peter’s mouth as he hit his head on the table.
- It’s okay, dude. She’ll be there. Don’t stress about it.
(…)
- Do you see her? – It was the fifth time Ned poked Peter and asked the same question. Peter felt like he was about to lose it.
- No, dude. I’ve been looking directly at the door and she still hasn’t shown up.
- She will come, Peter. Don’t worry. Hey, do you think Betty would be impressed with this hat I’m wearing?
- Uhm, sure! Why don’t you go over to her?
- Are you sure? You’ll be okay? I know (y/n) is always the one who makes you company… - Ned was about to start rambling but Peter was quick to stop him laughing.
- Ned, I’m fine. Now go get your girl.
- Yeah yeah, you should go get yours too, you know. Look who just showed up. – Ned pointed to the door.
And there you were, with all your non-glory, and an alarm rang in Peter’s head almost instantaneously. The first thing he noticed was your clothing. You were wearing a jacket, which was not usual for you, who is always complaining about how hot it is, even if it´s freezing. The next thing he noticed was your body, you were thinner, not enough to make everyone notice, but he for sure did, and he for sure got worried right away. The last thing he noticed was your face. He always admired you for being so outgoing and confident, but now you looked scared and insecure, constantly looking to your sides, like the walls had spikes and the room was slowly getting smaller around you.
After scanning the whole room, your eyes met Peter’s, he was beside Ned, looking straight at you, you forced a side smile and walked up to them.
- Peter, Ned… Hi. – You looked really shy, something was definitely off.
- Hey, (y/n)! Oh my God I missed you so much, where have you been? We thought you were mad at us. – Ned was as agitated as he was when he talked about Betty. You couldn’t help but smile at how excited your best friend was to see you.
- I… I was sick, really sick. You know how it is… - You looked at Peter, but he had his eyes fixed on the floor, looking upset.
- Of course you were. – He sighed and you felt the sarcasm in his voice.
- Excuse me?
- I’m not buying that, (y/n). If you really were sick you would tell us, you know, your best friends.
- Yo, don’t put me into this mess, I’m going to talk to Betty now. But (y/n), I’ll talk to you later, okay? So happy to see you again! – Ned was quick to flee the situation, leaving you and Peter alone. You grabbed his hand and took him to the pool area, where there were less people.
- Start talking, Parker.
- What?
- You were pretty quick to shoot me a snarky comment inside, so I guess you have a lot to say, right? Start talking.
- I… I don’t have…
- Peter, talk!
- Why… Why would you ignore me for over a week? You were so sick you couldn’t grab your phone? And if you really were sick, why didn’t your mom tell us right away? I was so upset with you I wasn’t even going to tell you about the party, but I missed you and was worried about you and wanted to see you, and you lie to my face?
- I shouldn’t have ignored you, I know. I’m sorry. I really am. But you want to talk about lying? What about all the times you lied right to my face for almost a year, huh? The Stark Internship, the Washington shit, me being stood up by you countless times, what about that? You didn’t tell me about the spider shit, I figured it out by myself. And it’s okay if you didn’t want to tell me, that’s your business, but don’t point your finger at me talking about fucking honesty. – Peter’s face was sad and angry at the same time as you threw the words at him.
- You know, I only came to this shitty party to see you. – You stared right into his eyes. – I missed you and wanted to have a good time with you, but I guess that’s not going to happen so leave me alone. – At the moment Peter saw tears wanting to leave your eyes, he knew something was wrong, and that he had messed up. Big time.
- (y/n), wait! – He tried to hold you but you sprinted back inside the house, leaving him with his thoughts.
You were grabbing a snack at the kitchen, when you felt someone breathing down your neck. You froze instantly, trying to push away the memories. You turned and in front of you was Brad Davis. He was a good guy, but he was drunk and an alarm rang in your head.
- What the fuck? Back off, Brad.
- Hey, (y/n)! Long time no see, wanna dance? – He placed his hands on your shoulder, and the memories came flooding you as you tried pushing them away.
- No.
- Come here, I missed you. – He then pulled you in for a hug. At the moment you felt his hands on your back and waist, and smelled the alcohol exhaling from his mouth, you just couldn’t fight the memories any longer. It was like you were back your grandma’s house all over again, you started to shiver, your heart felt like it was going to go out of your chest and your vision turned black.
- Get off of me! – You couldn’t stop yourself. You shoved him away aggressively, and punched him right in his face. It was like you were stuck in your own body, not being able to control it.
You realized what you did when he hit the floor, nose bleeding.
- I’m… I’m so sorry… I… - The music had stopped, you looked up and everyone was looking at you. Then you saw him. Peter. You immediately ran away and grabbed a cab down the street, ignoring Peter’s screams calling you and asking you to wait.
By the time you got home, you were crying uncontrollably. You laid in bed and let everything sink in. You knew going to the party was a mistake but you did it anyway. Fucking stupid little girl.
- (y/n), let me in. – You looked at your window and saw Peter with his suit on, how could he have changed clothes so fast?
You went over and opened the window. He got in, you turned around as he changed clothes once more. You turned around again when he was done and sat on the bed. He sat beside you.
- So, I’m an idiot. I know. – He looked at you with puppy hazel eyes and you couldn’t help but laugh a bit. – (y/n)… what happened? Please, I beg you to talk to me.
So, you started talking immediately. The more you talked, the more you cried. You talked about how when at your grandma’s, while the whole family was going to take a picture, your old drunk cousin grabbed you by the arm to be closer to him, and started walking down your body with his hand, making you freeze with terror. You talked about how you felt like you couldn’t move or scream, about how hard he was squeezing your arm, leaving a bruise after. You talked about how you felt used, dirty, and weak, about how you should have done something, anything, but instead you stayed there like a scared little girl. You talked about how you were afraid of people touching you now, and how afraid you were of hurting people, and how that’s exactly what happened. You hurt someone, Brad. And finally, you talked about how you were feeling like your worst version of yourself, and didn’t want anyone to see that, especially Peter.
He listened to everything quietly, and only after you finished talking was when he realized he wasn’t breathing and that you had grabbed his hand at some point. He didn’t know what to say, all he felt was hatred, so he started crying.
- I’m so sorry, I made this whole thing about me when you were hurting so much. – You squeezed his hand when you heard he say that.
- Listen, it’s not your fault. I shouldn’t have ignored you, I just didn’t want you to see the mess I am right now.
- You are not a mess. It’s not your fault this happened to you. You are the strongest person that I’ve ever known, you are the utter best version of yourself and that’s one of the many reasons why I really like you and… - He suddenly stopped when he realized what he said.
Shit.
- You know… as a friend… my best friend! You are my best friend and I like you as my best friend and… - He stopped on his tracks when he felt you hugging him, he didn’t know what to do so he slowly and gently put his arms around you, making sure you were comfortable.
(…)
After that night, things didn’t get better, but they got less worse. Peter and Ned were the only people you were comfortable with, and Peter was the only one you were physically comfortable with. You didn’t think it was possible to be closer than you were before, but it happened. Peter was super protective of you, and he didn’t even noticed. He would always hold your hand when you were walking, and would always make sure you felt safe. Every time he noticed you being anxious, he would grab your hand and caress it with his thumb, or he would play with your hair and whisper “it’s okay, I’m here with you. You are okay” into your ear. He made you feel safe, and he also made you feel weird things, mushy and warm things. He looked at you differently, you knew it, and it always made you feel like your stomach was upside down, but in a great way.
One day, you, Peter and Ned were at the cafeteria talking, you and Peter were holding hands when you felt hands on your shoulders. You stopped moving right away
- (y/n), nice work on that assignment! – Your Chemistry teacher said and left without letting you respond.
Peter and Ned looked at you, clear worriedness stamped on their faces. You started to breathe heavily, your heartbeat started racing, you started shaking and your eyes got wet. Peter quickly grabbed your hand and took you away.
He took you to the janitor’s closet, the closest thing to the cafeteria. It was so small you were pressed against each other, but Peter didn’t care about that. All he cared about was you. When he closed the door, you started sobbing.
- Hey, hey it’s okay, I’m here. You are okay. No one’s going to hurt you, okay? I promise. – He hold you tight in his arms.
- I… I feel dirty.
- Here – he stood in front of you, took off his sweater, staying only with his nerdy shirt, and swept it over your shoulders. – I’m cleaning them, see? They’re clean. You’re not dirty, you are perfect.
He wiped your tears away and started caressing your cheek, cupping your face with his hands.
- I’m here and I’ll always be here. You are okay.
- I’m… I’m okay.
- See? Everything’s going to be okay. – He hugged you once more.
- Peter? – You called against his chest.
- Huh? – He didn’t let you go.
- Thank you. I… I really like you too. You know, as my best friend… - You felt his heart racing. – You know what I mean.
He let you out of his arms to look at you. He knew what you meant, he remembered the day he almost confessed his feelings, but he thought you wouldn’t have realized.
He kept his hazel eyes glued at yours, and you could swear he was seeing through your soul at that moment. He smiled, his face lit up. You smiled. You don’t know how long you guys stayed there, but it felt like eternity and it wasn’t enough.
#spider-man#spiderman#spiderman imagine#peter parker#peter parker imagine#peter parker x reader#spidey x reader#spidey#spider-man: homecoming#spider-man: far from home#ned leeds#brad davis#spider-man imagine#peter x you#peter x reader#peter parker vs reader#peter vs reader#spiderman vs reader#spiderweb#tom holland#tom x reader#marvel#marvel cinematic universe#mcu#peter parker x you#spiderman x you#betty brant#flash thompson#spideychelle
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Mammia Mia! Part II
Request: Heyy do you accept requests? If so can u maybe do an imagine like a movie Mamamia (its a musical movie hehe) seb x chris e x tom h x reader? imagine? So the plot is like the reader got pregnant and she doesnt know which one is the dad hahaha could it be fluff/smut/angst ?? You could have it your way! I love ur stories and imagines btw xx
A/N: Thank you for your kind words! Here is the conclusion to the first part! I hope you all enjoy! xx
Word Count: 3.1k
Pairing: Sebastian Stan x Chris Evans x Tom Hiddleston x Reader
Warning: Language
PART I
MASTERLIST
Y/N stormed into the drug store down the block from her an Ruby's apartment, throwing out wary glances to make sure no one was watching her. She headed to the back and grabbed several boxes, tucking them underneath her arm, rushing to the only cashier she spotted.
She set down the tests and remained wordless as she paid for the small pile. She grabbed the bag eagerly and quickly headed back home, ready to get some more answers.
Just as she walked out of the door, and into the sunny afternoon, she crashed into another body. She let out an annoyed oof as tumbled to the ground, in a tangle with the other person, "Jesus H. Christ!"
"Oh my God, I am so sorry," the man's voice reached her ears and she stilled as she realized she knew this person.
Standing up, she brushed herself off and started to get her discarded purchases, but he had to be a gentleman and help, "it's fine, don't worry about it."
"Y/N?" he asked as she straightened up and gave him a tight lipped smile.
"Hey...you..."
"Sebastian," he finished for her and she mentally smacked herself. How could she forget his name - one of the men that might have gotten her pregnant, "I was wondering if I'd ever see you again. You never called."
"Yeah, I've just been busy, really it's nothing personal," she stammered as she tucked the bag under her arm, "well, I should get going."
"Wait," he said as he bent down and picked up a box and tried to take a look at it, "you forgot this."
"Thanks!" She almost shouted as she ripped the box from his hands, and sped off down the street, ignored his call of her name. She hoped he hadn't looked at it closely enough to see what it was.
“Y/N?!” She heard him call after her and she increased her pace, hoping he wasn’t going to follow her. Y/N swallowed the lump in her throat and but didn’t turn around and carried on.
Y/N sat on the counter her kitchen counter, eating out of a container of ice cream as she waited for the timer on her phone to go off. She sighed at her own predicament, but knew it was her partly her own fault.
“Hey, girl. What are you doing home, I thought you were working in the office today?“ Ruby asked as she walked and set her stuff down on the counter, “what happened?“
“It’s a long story,” she sighed as she set down the carton down, “take a look in the bathroom.”
“The bathroom, what are you on about?” she raised her eyebrows as she walked down the hall and entered the room, flicked on the lights and immediately let out a gasp of surprise, “Y/N! What the fuck!? I thought you were on birth control?!
“I was! I stopped taking it NAME and I broke up. I figured I wouldn’t need it for a while. Using protection wasn’t exactly on my mind last weekend,” she groaned as she rubbed her face. She picked up her phone and saw that the timer had run out, “I guess it’s time to go and see what my fate is.”
“Oh Y/N,” Ruby said as she put her arms around her best friend, wiping away the tear that had started trickling down Y/N’s face, “you know you’ll always have me here to support you.”
“Thanks,” she said as she grabbed the tests off the kitchen counter and looked at all of them. Her stomach dropped as her suspicions were confirmed and the tests indicated that she was indeed pregnant, “well fuck me.”
“What are you going to do?” Ruby asked as Y/N dropped the tests in the small waste bin, “I’m here to support whatever decision you make.”
“I don’t know,” Y/N admitted as she headed to her bedroom, “I’m going to take a nap. Maybe that’ll give me some answers.”
“If you need anything let me know,” Ruby said as Y/N nodded and quietly closed her door. A nap probably wouldn’t help anything, but it was the best idea she had at that moment.
Tapping her chin with her pen, Y/N stared at her computer screen, thoughts anywhere but the work in front of her. Sighing, she tossed her pen onto her desk, grabbed her water bottle and took a long drag from it. Her phone rang, drawing her out of her thoughts; she grabbed it with an enthused, “hello?”
“Mr. Evans is on the line for you,” her assistant was too cheery for this time of the morning, “shall I patch him through?”
“Umm, yeah, go ahead,” she pulled her notepad closer to her, popping in her ear piece, ready to take some notes. After she heard a click, she paused for a moment before putting on a fake cheery voice, “hello Chris. To what do I owe the pleasure?”
“Hello again, lovely Y/N. I went over the concepts you sent me earlier this week. I like them, but I was wondering if you had time to go over some comments and ideas?” he asked and she rolled her eyes, hoping this wouldn’t take too long.
“Of course,” she picked up her pen again ready to start writing, “go on - I’m all ears.”
“Sure, and let me just add one thing before we start,” he cleared his throat and Y/N immediately knew where this was going, “I had a lovely time last week. If you’re available, I’d like to take you out again sometime.”
“I...had a lovely time as well,” she admitted; while things were not exactly panning out as she had planned, she couldn’t deny that he was a gentleman and she had a great time as well, “unfortunately things aren’t going so well right, so I must decline the offer. But please, it’s not you at all, it’s all me.”
“If you ever change your mind, please let me know,” he sounded somewhat defeated, but tried to hide it feebly, “anyways, onto business. Let’s start with the first idea.”
“Mhmm,” she commented awkwardly.
As Y/N was finishing writing some notes, Chris still going on in her ear, Deirdre opened her office door, unaware that she was still on the phone. She looked at her notes before announcing, “Y/N, your doctor called to confirm your appointment for next week, and they’ll perform your an ultrasound to confirm your pregnancy.”
Y/N looked up at Deirdre in shock as she processed what happened. She narrowed her eyes and pointed at her earpiece as she hissed, “get out!”
Deirdre’s face fell as she realized she was still on the phone and rushed out, slamming the door behind her.
“Y/N? What was that?” Chris asked as she fell silent. He had heard everything. Of course he had.
“That was nothing, but I’ve gotta go, I’ve got lots of great notes and I’ll be in touch,” she said as she ended the call and threw her ear piece onto the desk. She let out a deep breath as she laid her head down on her desk and tried to calm herself. She felt her phone vibrate and checked it only to find a text from Chris.
What’s going on? Can you call me?”
She sighed and left the message on the read, wondering what on earth she was going to do.
Sipping her cup of tea, Y/N flipped the page of her book, happy to have the bustling noise of the restaurant around her. She had decided to get out of the office for the afternoon, it had been another stressful week, and decided that a nice quiet lunch was necessary.
She had her pregnancy confirmed at her doctor’s appointment, knowing she only had a small window to make a decision about what to do. Ruby had been more than supportive of her, letting her know she’d be there for her every step of the way. That, however, didn’t make anything easier.
Y/N looked up when she saw someone brushed by her, but failed to do so gracefully, tripping over her chair leg and falling, grabbing the chair and knocking her purse down along with it.
“Are you okay?!” she asked as she stood up to help the person. She let out a small, but audible gasp when she saw who it was; Tom of course.
“Y/N, how lovely to see you again. I wish it was under different circumstances,” he said as he brushed off his suit and started to help her pick up her stuff. She hastily grabbed her purse and started to throw the stuff back into it. Tom grabbed something and stopped when he looked at it and saw what it was. His brow furrowed as he realized he was looking at a sonogram.
Y/N ripped the pictures out of his hand and stuff it into her bag, jumping up quickly, throwing a large bill onto the table and headed out of the restaurant, trying to evade Tom as quickly as possible.
He was confused, and concerned, but followed, trying to see what was going on, “Y/N! Please wait!”
She made it to the end of the block, when to her complete chagrin, she came up Sebastian, walking in her direction. He looked up from his phone and smiled when he saw her standing there, “hey, Y/N!”
“Fucckkkk,” she hissed to herself as she realized she was surrounded by the two men. Tom caught up to her just as Sebastian closed the gap between them.
“Y/N, what’s been going on? What were you doing with sonograms?” Tom asked and Sebastian’s eyes widened in surprise.
“So those were pregnancy tests I saw in your bag,” Sebastian commented and the two men exchanged curious glances.
“Well, well, well, what a gathering,” Chris said as he made his way into the clandestine group, “I see we all share the same concern - Y/N you hastily ended our call and then never returned my texts. Do you perhaps have some explaining to do?”
“I, ugh, yeah,” she admitted in defeat with a small nod, “why don’t you guys come to my place and I can explain everything.”
“Hey girl! I’m home!” Ruby called out as she walked into their apartment. She was met with some hushed voices as she entered the living room and saw Y/N there with the three men, “ohh, I’m sorry I didn’t realized you have company.”
“It’s okay, Ruby. This is Sebastian, Tom, and Chris,” she said as she pointed them out individually. They all gave her a nod and she put two and two together.
“Oh,” she said with a small smile, “oh.”
“Yeah,” Y/N said and Ruby gave them a small wave as she exited the room.
“So, basically, you’re telling us that you’re pregnant and you have no clue which of us is the father,” Chris stated as he glanced at the other two men.
“Yes. I’m sorry, I just...I didn’t expect any of this to happen. I’ve never just slept with random people,” she said as she hung her head, “I’m not normally like this at all. But I guess I wasn’t prepared.”
“What are you planning on doing?” Sebastian asked as he leaned back on the couch, a million different thoughts running through his head, much like with the other men.
“I don’t know,” she admitted, “I haven’t fully made a decision. But...I don’t think I want to get rid of it.”
“And where does that leave us?” Chris asked the question they had all been dying to get the answer to.
“I don’t expect any of you to help with this, or feel the need to help me with this child. I know I can’t provide any answers to you right now, but I don’t know what else to tell you right now,” she put her hands up, “I don’t know what you all want to do. I mean, we can do a paternity test, if you three would be up to that.”
“I think we should maybe all take a few days to think this about all of this and then revisit the situation. It’s a lot for all of us to take in, and deserves some thought, not just a rash decision,” Chris suggested and they all nodded in agreement. Y/N let out a long sigh as she nodded in agreement, in awe of stridently the men who taking the news.
“Okay,” she atoned as she stood up and unwittingly clutched her stomach, “we’ll reconvene in a few days. I want to...thank you guys for taking this all so well. I realize this is high unconventional and I assure you, it was never meant to be this way.”
“We’ll figure it out, Y/N. Don’t unnecessarily stress yourself out,” Tom gave her a small half smile as he stood up and got ready to leave, “we’ll talk soon. Gentlemen, a pressure of sorts, I suppose.”
Sebastian and Chris nodded in agreement and decided to call it a day too. Their heads were spinning with everything they had learned that afternoon, both processing the news differently.
“Thanks, guys. I’ll see you soon,” Y/N commented quietly as she held open the door for them, a few murmurs of goodbye exchanged.
Once they were down the hall, Y/N closed the door and let out a sound somewhere between a cry and sigh, leaning against the door.
“That was certainly something,” Ruby said as she stuck her head out of her bedroom door. She looked to make sure there was no else milling about before she came out and rushed over to Y/N, wrapping her arms around her.
“I know. Everything is so fucked up,” she said as she held onto Ruby, “I have no clue what’s going to happen. But at least they didn’t all yell and scream.”
“It’s half their fault as well. Frankly, it was an accident, but you’ll all get through it,” she tried her best to cheer Y/N up, “if nothing else, this baby will have two mamas.”
“I love you, Ruby,” Y/N chuckled as she wiped away a few tears that had started to stream down her cheeks, “I don’t know what I’d do without you.”
Y/N almost jumped out of her skin when her phone started vibrating on the coffee table, interrupting her scary movie. She muttered a few curse words before pausing her movie, and grabbing her phone, surprised to see Chris calling. She took a breath before answering with a reserved, “hello?”
“Hey, Y/N. I’m here with Sebastian and Tom and we were wondering if you were available to talk?” He asked and she blinked a few times, surprised that they were taking it upon themselves to get together.
“Yes, of course. Where can I meet you guys?”
“We’re at Deanda’s on 5th. Can you make it here?”
“I’ll be there in fifteen minutes,” she agreed as she stood up and went tot he counter to grab her purse.
“Perfect, we’ll see you when you get here,” Chris said before hanging up the phone, leaving all sorts of things to run through Y/N’s mind. She sent Ruby a quick text letting her know what was going on as she rushed out of their apartment and to met her fate.
“Hello darling,” Tom smiled when Y/N walked up to the table of men, all eagerly waiting for her arrival. She gave him a smile as she took a seat at the small table, “just the lady we wanted to see to.”
“I can’t say I’m a little surprised to see you all together,” she admitted as she looked at the three of them.
“We’ve actually gotten along quite well,” Sebastian said as the other nodded, “we’ll all been talking the past few days.”
“Oh?”
“Yes, and we believe we’ve reached a good solution to our little dilemma,” Chris smiled at her and she was more confused than ever.
“Please, do go on,” she said meekly as she flagged down a waiter to get some water.
“We’ve decided that we don’t want to go through with a paternity test,” Tom said as Y/N felt her jaw drop in surprise at their admission.
“You-you don’t want to know who the father is?” She asked in confusion, “so none of you want to have anything to do with this baby?”
“Au contraire,” Sebastian stopped her before she could go on, “we all want to be part of the baby’s life. All three of us. Like you said before, it’s an unconventional situation, which calls for a different type of solution.”
“We all want to be fathers to this baby. It’ll be different, but it took all of us to get here, and we all want to be here. This baby will be the most loved baby ever,” Chris said as Y/N felt her eyes get misty. How was she this lucky? To be in such a difficult situation, and have the best response possible.
“Really?” She asked as they all nodded and her heart felt like it might burst.
“We’ll be one big family family,” Sebastian chuckled, “unusual,but I think that’s suiting for all of us. We’ll be able to figure out all the logistics and things as time goes on, but now we just need to focus on making sure you have you a safe and healthy pregnancy.”
“This is amazing. You guys are all the best,” she beamed at them, “truly. I couldn’t ever have wished for a better response.”
“Don’t worry, darling. This will all work out,” Tom said, “we all had a part in this, and we’re all part of the solution.”
“Thank you all,” Y/N said, “we’re going to be the best family ever.”
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Heyyyyy I’m bored out of my mind omg what’s the best fic u have ever read? I read through all the recs on ur blog already, just wondering if there was any thing new. And I trust ur judgement cuz ur amazing. Thx!!
hello, honey bee! ahhh the best fics i’ve ever read would be the ones i listed on my fic rec page (i need to update that sometime oops) and reblogged on my fic rec tag, but i think i have a few more in my likes :D also, thank you for calling me amazing, like i’m literally smiling like a complete dork right now. and, i have some fic recs listed below!
♣︎ reverse onism by @000e0f
[ taehyung x reader | angst, fluff | alternate universe au ]
oneshot.
this is one of the prettiest, loveliest, most intricate plotlines I’ve read, and i don’t have enough words to express how much i love this fic. it’s like one of those fics that can be made into a movie, like your name or 5 cm per second. it gives me the same kind of emotions and feelings as the ones i felt when i watched one of those movies. reading her entire masterlist is one of the things i have on my list to do this summer, so please, please, please check out all her fics!
♣︎ we touched the sun by @kidguk
[ taehyung x reader | fluff, angst | supernatural au ]
oneshot.
i love mia (even with her indecisive biasing ways) and her fics, like gosh darn, they’re so so good and jaw dropping, and i cry over all her writing. i will rec the heck out of this fic, like i know i already reblogged it, but you don’t understand how much i love this fic. i waited years for this masterpiece, and it does not disappoint. i cry every time i read it. legend has it, if you read this fic at least once a week, your lifespan will expand by twenty years. (also read her other fics: the wildflower + masterlist)
♣︎ sempiternal by @syubits
[ yoongi x reader | fluff | fake dating au ]
oneshot.
elfie’s writing is always this type of feel good fic, and of course, this one is no exception. yoongi is so head over heels in love with y/n in this, and it’s obvious she is in love with him, too, and the fic is just so sweet and fluffy, like cotton candy, and i love it to bits. honestly, if you ever need a pick me up, i would go straight to elfie’s fics because they’re so cute and will make you so happy after reading one of them.
♣︎ the bailout by @dubujeongguk
[ jimin x reader | fluff | slice of life au ]
oneshot.
okay, let me tell you, i have never felt attracted towards jimin or any sort of romantic feeling, but this fic made me grin like an idiot and feel those butterflies in my stomach. the story plot is incredibly cute and fluffy, and jimin is a true friend in this. also, the excuses he uses to scare off y/n’s dates are hilarious, and yeah, i just really, really, really enjoyed this fic to the max, and you should definitely read this work of art.
♣︎ maybe i’ll call you mine by @1rapmon
[ yoongi x reader | fluff | high school au ]
oneshot.
i love del with my whole heart, and i still never forget the yoongi fics she writes because they’re my absolute favorites, like i adore this other one by her called i want to kiss you (i know it’s 2AM) for yoongi, too. but this one makes me scream over the cuteness so much, and in the fic, yoongi reads this book called “basketball through the ages: a history” and it reminds me of a mix of “quidditch through the ages” and “hogwarts: a history” but that’s just my inner nerd side showing.
♣︎ remember this by @yoohtae
[ taehyung x reader | angst | wedding planner au ]
oneshot.
this fic made me bawl like a baby, and i’m actually tearing up while i write this now as i’m thinking of this fic again. it’s such a beautiful piece of literature, and i cannot stress how breathtakingly wonderful it is. i could picture every part of the fic in my mind as i was reading it, and it made me go through every possible feeling on the entire emotion spectrum. this is one of those fics that you can’t stop thinking about for days, months even. i don’t know how many times i’ve already read this fic, but it gets better every time.
♣︎ brass and strings by @jimlingss
[ namjoon x reader | fluff | college au ]
series: 21 episodes. (episode 1 + other eps listed on masterlist)
okay, i’ve told kina this so many times by now, but i love love love this fic with my entire heart, body, and soul. i always avoid multipart fics, but her writing is so gosh darn amazing that i stayed up all night reading this masterpiece. literally, i started reading at 4 am and then stayed up all night and went straight to my 8 am accounting class where i proceeded to read another fic of hers called the leather loafers, which is another fantastic piece of writing by the way. but i love the oc in this fic so much, too, like she’s so unapologetically herself, she knows what she wants, she doesn’t care what anyone thinks, and just wow. this is who i want to play if i’m an actress. also!!! you have to read starlet and moonstruck (5 episodes – episode 1 and other eps listed on masterlist) god, i love everything she writes for jin and basically the hyung line. the oc especially in starlet and moonstruck is another favorite oc of mine. i love how the personalities of each oc in kina’s writing is so distinct and wow, just read everything on her masterlist.
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no joke I literally check your tumblr every night to see if a new part of fatal attraction is posted and you have SRSLY just made my day!!! and is it bad that I still want y/n n jungkook to be together
you lil devoted sweetheart!! you’ve made my day. thanks for sticking around bb and being so patient i rly appreciate it. and yes, you and everyone else lmao ;)
hi my lovelies!! i’ve compiled my asks bc oh my gosh u all sent me so many!! here are a few and i’ll answer some more soon!! ily all 💖
Anonymous said:fatal attraction has been one of the best fics i’ve read in so long. tysm for it honestly 😂 i usually get bored of fics midway but this ones so captivating and i can’t get enough. you’re an amazing writer and can’t wait for more !! 💓
thats so humbling to hear my fic is special to you and kept ur attention wowie thank you so so much!!
Anonymous said:Hi I’m a long time lurker and I just wanted to tell you that your writing is incredible and thank you for writing fatal attraction because the writing and plot is so damn good ❤️
a long time lurker?!?! alksdjfds i’m shook thank you so much happy to hav u lurkin hehe x
Anonymous said:Hey, I just wanted to pass by and say that everytime I hear “Too late to say goodbye” by Cage the Elephant I think about FA😍
omg i love cage the elephant!! i haven’t heard that song tho! i’ll have to give it a listen c:
Anonymous said:the time has arrived. ever since fatal attraction 1 has been came into all our lives, i had always been waiting for jungkook to appear. aND THE DAY HAS ARRIVED AND THAT DAY IS IN CHAPTER 4 ASDFGHJKL YOU DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH I SCREAMED LMAO
the dAY HAS ARRIVED YOU ARE CORRECT!! ALKSDJFALSKDJG
Anonymous said:LOL OK WOW WHAT A FREAKIN LUCKY DAY CHAPTER 4 OF FATAL ATTRSCTION IS OUT I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO ALIVE FOR THE WEEK LMAO DANG JUNGKOOK FINALLY MADE AN APPEARANCE YAAAAAAAAS thank you so much 😭💓
omg you are so so welcome!!! and yes he did!! woOOOoOOO!
Anonymous said:Hiiii!!! I just wanted to say that the Fatal Attraction series is so good and I actually screamed when I saw the update! ㅋㅋㅋㅋ the story has such an amazing plot and great character depth and the mystery/action/suspense its all amazing! Thank you so much for this amazing story ❤️
oh my, thank you so so much!!! it’s really nice to hear i’m doing a good job in those aspects, thank you :’)
Anonymous said:I AM SHOOK.THE ENDING OF FATAL ATTRACTION, THE MOMENT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR Y/N TO SEE JUNGKOOK HAS ARRIVED AHHHHHHHHH. I CAN’T WAIT FOR WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN, AND IT WAS JUST SO AMAZING HOW THE GUYS GUARDED Y/N FROM JUNGKOOK?????. GOSH, THANK YOOOOOOOOOOOU FOR UPDATING.
OFC YOU ARE WELCOME!!! i’m so happy to see you so excited about it!! i can’t wait to share with you all what’s going to happen!! and yes, we always need the guys to swoop in and be protective and cute 🤧
awkward-kooks said:I’m not ready for anyone to die yet 😭😭
none of us are amrite
Anonymous said:I just had to say you’re such an incredible writer! I can really feel the inner turmoil, the remorse, sympathy, and fear, in Fatal Attraction. It’s comedic, heart breaking, angsty, I’m addicted! I’ve read many a fic, and this is by far my absolute favorite! Great job and I can’t wait for more!
your favourite?!? i’m as;klgjflsdkfjg wOW :’) thank you so much omg you hav no idea how happy it makes me that all those elements transcend!! can’t wait to share more!! x
the-rise-of-bangtan-boyz said:I just wanted to tell you that I have never clicked on a notification so fast. Thank you for the new Fatal Attraction update. Can’t wait for the rest of it :)
i feel very honoured u turn notifs on for me :’) and pls, u r very welcome
Anonymous said:I freaking love fatal attraction. Thank you so much for updating!! You made jungkook my bias wrecker after FA, you have that power.
oh my god really?!?!? amazing i’m shook. good luck, that handsome boy about to ruin ur life.
definitely-not-your-noona said:MIA I WILL NEVER GET OVER HOW WELL YOU WRITE EVERYTHING IS JUST PERFECT. As much as i hate Jungkook in this fic i love his character, it’s so complex and psychotic omg it’s amazing. I love your plot line and plot twists and just UGH EVERYTHING IS AMAZING I cant wait for the next chapters but at the same time I don’t want thins fic to end. Thank you so much for this masterpiece and take care of yourself. Love always 💕✨💕✨💕✨
oh you sweet sweet angel, you always give me the best feedback thank you so much!! aksjndfg i think we all feel the same way about jungkook’s character lmao. you take care of yourself too!! x
Anonymous said:Wow real shit is about to start. This is honestly worth waiting for, every chapter just gets better and better 👍! This is crazy , Jungkook is crazy … no he’s more than that he actually a psycho 😲 I really can’t predict what’ll happened, this fic just messes with my mind (but in a good way), I makes me question myself a lot😊 I love FA so much , I really really can’t get enough of it . Thank you so much Mia, and as always take your time with everything 💕
shit is about to get real alskdjgf oh hunny!! thank you for saying it’s worth waiting for :’) i always feel so bad i make u guys wait so long bc i’m such a slow writer. but anyway i’m glad you’re enjoying it!! thank you again for this kind msg.
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idk why
ppl want to be fake friends like i’d rather have real friends or no friends but i don’t get why ??? ppl rly wanna try n be my fake friend like no listen i’m sorry but i can’t be ur friend on the day u feel lonely n a stranger when ur thriving and omg!!!! this one rly just told me my expectations are too high bc get this! i asked her to consider me like o ok lol so you’re rly telling me in ur twisted idea of a friend I’m not allowed to expect u to care abt me like isn’t that only the literal definition of a friend my mistake??? bc i totally get having no expectations of ppl and all that but at the end of the day when ur then best friend decides to ignore ur existence then come back into ur life whenever they feel like it? like my problem isn’t that ur trying to come back into my life i’m open to whatever ok but when u can’t have consistent intentions to be a good friend u auto = fake aka nobody ???? i GET that ppl mess up obv i’m not perfect either but it’s just admitting that and actually understanding where u went wrong n at least making an honest effort of not doing it again that is SO CRUCIAL
wow wow wojeofiae and like it’s just soooo funny when ur pride is the fucking reason we’re not friends??? like if ur ego is what’s holding u back i rly don’t need someone so easily swayed by that bs in my life? so no i’m not gonna try or give a fuck abt u if ur idea of a friend is not aligned w mine like and if it isn’t that’s fine we don’t have to be friends uk but like idk it sucks tbh bc i’ve been sooo transparent abt how ur lack of words/actions hurt me so bad so u literally know but don’t do anything w this knowledge??? n still wanna try and talk to me like we’re friends after?? fuck no
it’s sad that 2 of my absolute best friends did this to me in diff ways but like this is the underlying pattern n it just hurts so bad when the person ur the closest to in the world and has learned the most abt u and has been thru sooo many ups and downs just one day decides that ur not important to them anymore uk??? like and when they come back later bc of c that’s what they always fucking do! they expect it to be like the old days and make u feel like ur fucking crazy for being hurt when they literally just left u in the dark. it was so painful to grieve thru that period without u bc i had to feel what it was like when u turned ur back on me and yes it was v fucking cold bc when i was ur friend it was all sunny days n that was a stark contrast but
also these past few days rly just make me wanna ask u why tf are u so fucking bipolar and a passive aggressive cunt to me one second and talking to me in ur bubbly tone like im ur friend legitimately 2 seconds later bc oh u just remembered u can use me for this thing or that??? i’ve literally never met an angrier or immature person? like ok obv i’m just off one on this rant so i’m gonna explain just how this girl tried me today! so she’s my roommate n keep in mind like i have told her explicitly my problem w her is that she hurt me when she didn’t communicate w me n went mia like i said this multiple times so no guess work needed n anyway today i was playing music in our room and guess what this girl does!!! puts her music on louder than mine! at first i was like?????????????? literally what? LIKE DID U RLY!!!!!!!!! JUST DO THAT LOL it was rly too much for u to tell me u wanted to play ur music???? i was honestly amazed and was like ok like obv this just sounds like shit at this pt n tbh all i wanted to do was just ask u why u felt that u didn’t want to tell me u wanted to play ur music? but then i checked myself and remembered ur words that i am expecting too much of u when i ask why u don’t care to communicate certain things so i guess it’s too much to ask u this too so like what now? n i just turned my music off after this internal resolution that u literally told me i can’t expect anything from u aka i can’t ever expect u to show up for me so like who is someone to u that is there one day and not the next?? like a relationship needs a degree of stable commitment and if i can never count on u why would i want to waste my time waiting on u to fuck up / my breath for calling u my friend?
the ppl i’m lucky enough to call my friends are ppl that i’m inspired by and i’m not saying ur an ugly person like obv u have parts of u that are so beautiful and that’s who i saw in u before but like if u keep showing me how ugly u can be don’t blame me if u singlehandedly broke my trust in u ??? AND ANYWAY LOL if ur reading this still the CHERRY on top of it all and what actually got me fucking mad is this !!!! girl!!!! asked me for a bandaid a breath after i turned my music off. like. o. ... .m. . . m. g. i just honestly couldn’t believe it n w her cheery ass tone like this is what i’m talking abt how u only matter to them when they need u!!! i was debating asking her abt the music thing now that she decided i was worth speaking to but literally it just wasn’t worth it to hear another one of ur excuses??? i would’ve loved to see what u would’ve twisted out of that situation tbh but i was also like ok like i don’t wanna help u bc ur a cunt but then i was like uk what! she wins if i’m a bitter person bc of her by telling her no so i let her have my stupid bandaid but talk to me like we’re friends one more time and i swear to fucking god !!!!! i won’t be so silent
n my friends are like r u gonna be friends w her after n i’m like ? what friend treats a friend like this ????????? like real q? this is not a friend. why would i say yeah i’ll be friends w her just to make her happy? no bitch my one requirement to be my friend is to act like a fucking friend and if u tell me that’s expecting too much of u like ok but u have to understand! this is my definition of a friend i can’t be ur friend then ! stop half ass trying!!!!!! either leave me tf alone or the moment u choose to decide (and actually act like) u wanna be real to me is when i consider u my friend again uk!! i’m not gonna hold ur shit over ur head but idk i feel like it’s bc they think that i will that they don’t try or honestly i don’t know their reason why but all i do know is there’s a blatant discrepancy between their words and their actions. for both of them but like the one who did this to me first even apologized to me and like i honestly rly appreciated that like it was only! a year and a half late lol but still i was happy but then they went ahead and did them and i haven’t heard of them since! like ok COOL so u just wanted to say we’re friends then go away again like that’s what i’m saying i don’t get it why do ppl want to be fake friends? what’s the pt????????? wow ok these are just the questions that i’m asking myself rn it like tears me apart that the ppl who know me best can’t bother to act like my friend when they wanna still have the perks of calling me a friend ! literally if any of them were to hit me up and put an attempt that lasts o idk beyond a single day to be my friend then i’m down i’m there but don’t fucking tell me i have high expectations for thinking ur my friend yeah obv i’m rly frustrated at everyone for complicating everything like clearly i care so much abt these ppl and that’s why i’m hell bent on trying to make myself feel ok for not taking them back bc as much as i love them i have self respect and literally it would just become an emotionally abusive relationship if i try to engage in a friendship where the friend would just let me down every day like i already have my own shit i’m dealing w why tf would i want to put myself thru unnecessary pain?
like everyone knows when ur being genuine or not. the recent one gave me a fake apology and it was so clear it was fake and last night she even admitted that it was n that she doesn’t think she needs to apologize and like i’m just like ......... so let’s just say i forgot that u can’t stick to ur word ok.... did u rly just have to remind me again?! this is what i’m talking abt it’s just painful and i can’t be ur friend if u can’t be real w me ok that’s all if anyone wants to be a human w me say hi like i rly don’t think anyone reads this so i was gonna delete my tumblr so long ago bc like whats the pt if no one sees u but then i realized how fucking cool that is and how liberating it is to just like put ur thoughts out into the interweb like journal writing is cool n all but on the off chance someone other than me does happen to see this then hi ur only looking at my deepest thoughts so i might as well know who u r lol but like if not (prob) then that’s ok i’ll just lol at myself when i reread this later! as stressful as this is like omg i’m graduating next week and i won’t have these kinda petty problems anymore and like that’s cool when that happens but idk i’m just not ready to grad f m u so ik as like annoying as this is and as stressed as i am abt my classes and assignments and finals and the future i’m eternally grateful for my education n like that’s why i don’t wanna leave! it’s the little things like tn i was at a coffee shop studying w friends n in the car ride back me n one of them were talking abt that one cute barista like he doesn’t matter but having someone to just say whatever the fuck u want w n confide in! it’s these little pleasures that i just love so much!!! n like i didn’t even notice but my friend brought to my attn like how he was acting kinda dumbstruck when he was talking to us n i was like lol fuck ur right that’s fucking hilarious n i had a new thing to laugh abt that i wouldn’t have if i had experienced it alone uk! like talking is literally what allows a relationship to flourish so w these 2 ppl where they just don’t communicate w me like that sounds like such a small flaw but the reason why it’s such a problem is that it literally stunts the friendships growth! how can we connect and etc if u can’t share what’s rly going on w me??????? or like why do u feel u don’t need to talk abt the truth?????? but ya as i was saying lol it’s ok i’ll just have to grind until i can get into my next school (hopefully, someone take me pls lol sos) but ya idk i suffer a lot during school but tbh it’s my fav ever so i’m so sad i’m graduating!!!!!! but like the only thing that’s making it ok is bc all of us are saying the same thing and it’s comforting that even tho we all dk what the fuck is going on i’m not the only one
so mostly sad bc i’m gonna miss my real friends here soooooooo much like w all my heart omg nothing will be the same again and i’m not ready! i’ll miss being seconds away and the fact that i can go over or call them like hoe get ready bc we’re going to the beach that’s down the street!!!! at my parents place the beach is half an hour away and i was in love but u had to drive like an extra 15-30 min to get to even nicer beaches n bruh let me tell u i rly did myself right by going to a school an actual 5 seconds away from the beach and granted besides us students it’s a rich white conservative person area but still it’s in a cute n clean area?? omg like this is just as good as it gets uk??? so ya blessed to be stressed
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This is a mutuals mention game! u need to mention one or more mutuals that come to your mind at first when you read the following words (per word): flower, angel, love, smile, laugh, chocolate, sweet, cute, gorgeous, fun, sun, moon and stars 💓
listen i love all my sweet mutuals ksjkds imma do my best!! bc i lov u all
🌸 flower: this is cass @kihyuns hands down when i think of u my head goes there’s cass a fuckin cherry blossom you’re so soft n pretty n idk how else to describe it !!
👼 angel: this is kihyun jk @ukiqyun-93 is the angel dez u always slide into my dms when i least expect to cheer me on and you’re such a bright presence :(( my savior
💖 love: dont roast me abt emotions bc i dont do feelings :))) but my babies @sugabean and @scoupqs (even tho ik u wont see this gryta i still love u) are my best frands on here and irl
😊 smile: @monstox jenny my babe bc i do the weird mom smile whenever im talkin to you dskjdsksd not in a condescending way!! i just love hearing abt your hs shit n abt kazoo boy and that hottie harvard boi and i love having someone to stress with when will u get social media so i can scream at u on the go
😆 laugh: miss ria @kihwii never fails to make me cackle esp when we message each other at ungodly hours n u call me out for using toesies n fingies ur truly terrible and i love it
🍫 chocolate: this is u miss alli @bloodorangeki i think your presence is v warm n calming?? n chill like a cup of hot cocoa !! we only started talking but it feels like we’ve been doing it for a while and i just like how comfy it feels u are truly an RA queen
🍭 sweet: silvia!!! @wonhosflower i see the way u answer your cute anons and you’re nothing short of lovely you’re always so kind to everyone n also ur an absolute sweetheart who happens to look like a vampire queen i hope you know that you’re amazing
😚 cute: reka!! @wongguk ur the gangbebe emo gf but you’re also super cute n soft bc who says emo and cute are mutually exclusive? i’d fight them :/ anyway you’re a warm presence in the gangbebe gc im sending u big hugs ALSO @yookik loretto i just wanna squish u whenever i see u update your insta story sdkjds your selfie game is too strong and your hair colors!! save my life
💃 gorgeous: kdjlsd all of u dont fite me on this mbb are a blessed visual fandom the monstas are lucky but also like idols like stans
😄 fun: ksjksd we havent talked for a hot second but when we did @wonhosbub mia my clone i love talkin to u you’re so funny like the funnier lovely soft half of me i didnt realize i needed?? i hope you’re doing well bby i always went !! when i’d get a message from u queen
☀️ sun: leticia u are the sun @changkyunsprincess um u light up my world and when i see your selfies i burst into flames…. you’re so bright n lovely n positive and your tagssss make me :))) cheese so hard
🌙 moon: this is cristina my love @hackerkyun you just give off a gorgeous moon vibe like you’re so so pretty in a rlly elegant way?? idk words but also your presence is calming even when ur flipping shit lol anyway you’re changkyun’s blue moon so haters can stay pressed
✨ stars: jksasa call me forward bc i literally just slid into your dms today @jooheonies but nawar i admired u from afar bc ur so cool n ur writing busts my nuts ur like the stars… outta my reach… also u like astrology so it makes sense too :))
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