omg I got hit with something. it's the thought of knowing demons can change their wing form however they want (Beelzebub one is fly wings, Satan's is bat wings) but Crowley chooses to keep the feathery angelic one, just in different colour. I bet some demon that got to know his wing form would sneer at him because to them feathery wings are a symbol of the past and of the angel bastards they don't have fond memories of. he keeps them anyway.

I'm not saying Crowley wants to be an angel again. he also doesn't like being a demon either. it's probably some effort of him to symbolize how he was still the same being he was even after the Fall, albeit a little mix of black - the death of his innocence.

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken. It wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.

-Meredith Grey, Grey‘s Anatomy

What Do You Imagine?

What Do You Imagine?

When you start moving toward your desires, you must set a clear intention about what you want to achieve. It is one of the most important first steps you can take. No trip can reach a successful conclusion unless you know the destination. That is one of the problems we face in life. We want something better but are unsure what that looks like. Indecision in intention leads to a lack of action and…

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

Yesterday marked the 100th day of genocide. Please, do not get used to this. Our people, killed, bombed, kidnapped, stripped, executed and starved is not normal. Our kids in pieces, their body parts collected in bags is not normal.

Israel has killed 23,700 human. More than 10,300 child. We'd need 177 school bus to carry the Palestinian children killed by Israel in gaza. 10,022 fatherless child. 8,352 motherless child. The wounded have their wounds rot and die waiting in front of the crossing. Maggots seen inside alive people's wounds. 5,500 pregnant woman will give birth in the upcoming weeks. 100 Days of Genocide. 100 Days of the world watching silently.

Of the 19 hijackers who carried out the Sept 11 attacks:

15 were from Saudi Arabia (a powerful/oil-rich country the U.S. works hard to maintain diplomatic relations with)

2 were from the United Arab Emirates (also a powerful/oil-rich country the U.S. works hard to maintain diplomatic relations with)

1 was from Egypt, 1 from Lebanon.

None of the hijackers were from Iraq.

None of the Sept 11 hijackers were Iraqi.

None of the 9/11 hijackers were from Iraq.

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

i have neither a good imagination nor aphantasia, but a secret third thing

Why did it bother me so much?

The night of the quickie I realized how sad the set up was. Basically begging you to come over and saying you only did because I annoyed you. I was myself. I felt like I overstepped. The next day you were supposed to let me know if I’d see you again. I was given silence. I could’ve asked but everything in me screamed “if he wanted to talk and see you, he would” I feel like nothing but an annoying child. I knew I did too much and your lack of a text confirmed you wanted your space. Also made me realize the set up isn’t what I want. I don’t want to feel so disposable. I don’t want to walk on eggshells to people please. I want to be adored for my character not my body. I’m the one that crossed the line in the first place. “I just want dick” I doomed myself. I’m the one that would agonize over a text or sending the perfect picture. You’ve admitted you were always on your phone, you’ve shown me you’re dedicated to yourself. At times you made me feel like I wasn’t worth your time. I don’t have to go by your schedule and accept your callous. I’m going to solely fade into the background. Going to choose myself. I’m not going to continue to fall down this rabbit hole of fantasies. Reality is I wasn’t supposed to get attached. I allowed my motions to intercept the experience. “Keep it open and honest” I was myself from jump. Feeling like I need to dial myself down makes me feel unappreciated. I could be making assumptions, but I will no longer make excuses. I did too much, I can be overbearing. I wanted attention, I pushed. I’m at fault. I know going forward. Our interactions will not be the priority. Your attention will be welcomed, but not needed. Stop being a Simp! I will dial it all the way down. I don’t need you and I don’t need sex. I need to put myself first and choose me. The lesson in self-discipline begins now

I’m going to place myself in the spotlight. Before I do anything, I’ll ask if I would’ve put my baby self through it. When the internal discomfort arises, I won’t swallow it down and try to act normal. I’ll listen to the feeling, question it, analyze it until the voice is quiet. I’ll practice this until it becomes second nature, my new norm. My voice will be my greatest teacher instead of my biggest threat. What a relief.

MARCILLE'S DESPERATION FOR FALIN THE ENTIRE TIME. TO THE POINT OF NEEDING TO BE HELD BACK SO SHE DOESN'T RUSH IN AND GET HERSELF KILLED. THINKING THAT FALIN, HER FALIN WOULD NEVER HURT HER. GOD.

THEN DEFENDING HER DURING AND AFTER FALIN IS MERCILESSLY KILLING PEOPLE IN FRONT OF THEM AND BEGGING THEM NOT TO KILL HER. GOD. SAPPHICS PORTRAY DEVOTION LIKE NO OTHER

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

saying “visual style" because, for example, if you would swap your current wardrobe for an identical, ethically made counterpart, there would be no visible change

I'm not certain as to how many people checked the description of the new hbomberguy video but he linked a playlist to queer creators on youtube!

Your New Favorite YouTubers - Queer YouTubers you should check out, meticulously compiled by Kat.

It's worth a look! Please don't forget to support your fellow queer creators on YouTube whilst spreading memes and jokes about James Somerton and discussing the hbomberguy video!!

EDIT: @cursedgamerchild pointed out THIS REDDIT THREAD made by Kat

Which is a thread to share more discoveries of plagiarism and also to share more queer creators who could use some love! There's also a link to a google form if you don't have reddit and want to share said information.