Sanders Sides realization

ok i know I'm slow but I realized this waayyyy too late

Roman: Mary Lee marry Lee merrily and their life becomes a dream

Me: hehe that's a good tongue twister

[one year later]

Me: *singing* merrily merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream

Me: OH FRICK THATS WHAT THAT IS!!!!!!!!!

James: Remus, I’m this close to fucking Regulus.

Remus: James, your fingertips are- oh.

James: Indeed.

Sirius:

When the realization struck you

guys guys guys

I just realized something about Ambrosius.

He's the descendant of Gloreth herself, the first knight & hero of the realm.

He's in a gay relationship with Ballister, and his siblings weren't mentioned, so it's safe to assume he's an only child. He can't have kids of his own because he's with a man.

The Knights, as well as the wall ended with Ballister's & Ambrosius' generation.

Gloreth's blooDLINE HAS ENDED WITH HIM

THE FACT THAT HE WONT CONTINUE HIS BLOOD LINE EMPHASIZES THE FACT THAT NO MORE "HERO'S OF THE REALM" WILL BE

HE ENDED WHAT GLORETH STARTED

You can see in the movie that he's being treated differently for being her descendant, and now her bloodline will end

No more Knights, no more "Royals", no more Gloreth. Everyone is equal.

Gosh I love that movie

what purpose did this shot serve exactly

guys...

if tails can carry amy, amy's hammer and sonic with one hand while flying... how strong is he then?

because THIS is evidence that HE IS NOT WEAK!

OK WAIT THEY INTRODUCE BOW AND CATRA THE SAME WAY

Like at first you think catra is kinda a bitch cause you don't know if she's joking and then it's revealed that she and adora are besties (and also super in love but that comes later)

And the same with bow except you think he's trying to kill glimmer but then he's revealed to be he most adorable cinnamon role ever.

AND THEY ARE BOTH IN LOVE WITH THEYRE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS. AND HAVE CUTOUTS ON THEIR SHIRTS.

Anyway Nate Stevenson I see what you did there.

Az élet apró részleteiben jövök rá, hogy minden okkal történik

When Adrien is still thinking about the kiss and Gabriel makes a discovery 

*Suddenly realizes I’m horrifically lonely and haven't done anything meaningful with my life and don't know what I can do to change that at this point while in the line at the grocery store*

Why did it take me, an adult, rewatching Scooby-doo: Mystery Incorporated to figure out that Mr. E is a play on words for “Mystery”

I hope I have touched your life, the way you touched mine.

so this is a part two to my lil entry and here i merely wanna talk about what actually clicked for me and how everything has changed since then. part one is right here (:

as i said before, it was until september of 2023 when i was on around the fifth or fourth day of my cruise did things begin to dawn on me. if you're familiar with 4d-barbie, (i believe her name is Ada), she has a google drive filled with book resources and some of them are already annotated (which came in clutch). well, actually before the cruise i had began reading the book One Truth, One Law: I Am, I Create by Erin Werley and i resonated with things so heavily. i kept reading bits and pieces of the book but also was determined to be present and just enjoy my cruise. as i read, i became so interested in the way Erin would have full blown conversations with I AM. especially the part where Erin told her husband and then was afraid if he'd judge her but I AM simply told her to relax and let it do the talking--and that's what happened!

so i'm sitting there and i'm like "yo! how cool is this!" and of course, it's explained how to do this yourself--how to really tune in and trust your own wonderful intuition. i wanted to do it because i didn't want to reread Erin's(I AM) answers to questions to form my own answers. i had my own specific questions and no one else could answer them for me besides me. so i put the book down and i asked my own question and trusted that the answer would come to me whenever; even if he didn't come now, it was bound to.

and i had fear...i feared if it would actually happen or not. sometimes i'd be tempted to look things up or keep rereading every answer given by I AM in Erin's book. i would kind of just do self-talk when that happened, i don't know how i got through that to be honest. i can't seem to remember. but what i do remember is the little deposits that would drop into my head randomly. i was lathering up in the shower and was like, "why would i hate my persona?" [persona, ego, Vanessa--all the same, i just like the word persona better!] and i kept going with that line of thinking, asking myself a series of questions like: wait...why do i think there's something wrong with her?

isn't the persona how i'd experience a multitude of things? things that don't necessarily exist to I AM?

and i realized i was onto something because i felt so expanded. like my heart began filling up...my chest began fluttering. i know you've felt that feeling before and that feeling always comes when you're listening to yourSelf. there wasn't much else i did after i realized this because a new way of thinking just took over me. i had so much love for everything...i mean literally everything. i started to question everything i read from others.

again, something a lot of realized masters would say is "you suffer because you think you are this body" and while that's true...it just didn't feel right in my soul. none of it felt right--at least not something to remember all of the time. i didn't feel like it had any sort of longevity and the only reason i felt that way was because it didn't feel loving enough. i really wanted to know what was so bad about taking this persona into consideration...what was so wrong about loving her and holding her hand? why did i have to become aware of what she was thinking/feeling and suddenly say "oh but that isn't Me! let her cry and whine, she isn't Me."

i go into depth about this here. it's just a diary entry so the beginning i had a different outlook on my persona than i do now, hence the different header titles.

the bottom line is i had no reason nor right to hate my persona. after all, she found Me again--she found her True Self so that has to count for something. i simply started to look at the world differently and realized that it was never about fighting anything. we all know there is no "out there" and all there is is consciousness but how many have you actually put that to the test? have you stopped fighting shadows? fighting the seeming opposite circumstances? if you know there's only the will of God (which is you), why do you keep fighting everything else? have you stopped fighting your persona's fear, Vanessa's doubts--belittling her because she can't believe in herself...not yet at least?

i quickly gathered that if i love Myself, then i would have to trust Myself. i know someone probably has the fear of going "out there" and falling asleep again--losing faith or going back to believing in the world. but that could never happen. why? because of trust. You have to trust yourSelf enough to know only your will is imposed. and what builds trust? action.

personally speaking, there was a circumstance that i'd been ignoring for the longest in the name of manifestation. but lately, i've realized that whatever can happen "out there" and not only do i not have to form an opinion on it but i can watch how it crumbles when i stand ten toes down in trusting myself. i can trust Myself so much to stand tall in what i prefer and watch as Self carries me up and over the seemingly opposed...and then i glance back and they were nothing but cardboard cutouts. like that scene in coraline where she walked away and the world started crumbling--'twas only because it never existed too.

i don't fight anymore because i know My will is only ever imposed. i know that when something dares to throw a punch, it won't connect because it has already disintegrated. and most of all, i know that i can care about whatever the hell i want. hey, if you don't care about being a realized master than cool--find something that makes your heart sing and you can't help but burst from the seams when you think of it. for me, it was shifting. (do not come for me about the terminology, human mode rn so i gotta put a label). i found that shit to be so cool and to be honest, it's helped me discover my sexuality too which is a bonus. but none of this could've ever happened if i didn't start operating out of love for my persona.

just think of it, everything you desperately want you'd need a persona to experience anyway. you can take this and make some shit shake, and really define what you want or no labels at all. you can fully be I AM and have zero needs or you can be I AM with a persona, or you can just be a persona! there's people who look to an outside god but their god is rooted in so much love!

like you know a lot more than you're giving yourself credit for and only if you'd be so determined to listen to yourSelf the way you've listened to others, then shit would really start clicking. everything is perfect in its likeness and it is because I AM is all-encompassing that everything is possible--even the things we think are "bad". i promise, every question you'd ever have there's an answer for it and it's within you. you can find what matters most to you--you'll know. it's a feeling of pure confidence that cannot be described, you'll move without thinking and take chances and do whatever else and it'll feel like you're under a trance. That is You. there is no other...fall in love with Yourself and your human form too because it's nothing but a vehicle to bring you back to Self. your persona's fears and doubts are nothing but an opportunity to rely on Yourself...to trust Yourself and i speak of the infinite You.

lol i'm sorry if this seems all over the place, i was just saying what was heavy on my heart. i've been feeling a lot of love for everything lately and i want somebody else to feel that too. i know this will reach the person who's looking for it. so because of that: hi hi! you've done well, my love.

also, one last thing. there were a couple of people who helped me come to this realization and i wanted to say thank you! heavenlythea here on tumblr, iam_love.co on instagram, and Betinho Massaro for his book Super Accelerated Living (dude's mad funny, like i legit would smile reading it) oh and Ada! she came in clutch with the resources and annotating! and really everyone else for simply existing. know that you are perfect because you exist and the only reason you can't shake Self is because You (the real you) knows you'll be just fine.

love you all!

At last, no one will be able to hurt me again.

wow. i’ve been learning about advaita vedanta for several months now, but your ‘minimalist’ and straightforward way with words has finally set me free. it is all so simple. there is literally nothing to do. and it’s not at all nihilistic or depressing. it’s just so freeing. nothing is happening to you. like, nothing at all. you are not bound by anything at all. you are not defined by anything at all. there are no rules, no limits, no concepts, no laws, there’s no time that’s running out. there is NOTHING.

i didn’t think i could ever feel fully at peace with where ‘my’ life was at right now. i thought i would always, deep down, want to change what i was ‘seeing’. but once you understand that nothing is being done to you, that no one is hurting you because no one is there, suddenly anything that once hurt you doesn’t hurt anymore :)))) because none of it feels… forced onto me, if that makes sense? it is empowering. i can do anything, it is all equally unreal. i am not who i thought myself to be. i am not just a little body with fears and hopes and struggles.

and no, it’s not about settling. it’s not about putting up with ‘your’ life or becoming so numb to it that you stop wanting to change it. in my illusory experience, once you truly know that you can change what ‘you’ are ‘seeing’ whenever, with no effort, that is actually when you find the most peace with the present moment.

anyway, thank you for all that you share with us. thank you for helping me wake up. thank you for making me realize that — there is no need for me to conceptualize or try to make sense of what is happening to me because, in fact, nothing is happening at all. 💓💓💓💓💓

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there's truly nothing ever happening, "nothing" can appear as "anything", always effortless👁️

again, it is ALL just a pointer, Go beyond concepts!