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This friday sucks super bad so far.
#vent incoming#my boyfriend is having super bad time and it's strongly related to me yet not my direct fault and the only way i could remove#myself from the equation would be completely get out of theor life. and even then i don't believe it would help. there's so much#internalized stuff#bad family stuff#overall so many bad things pilled up one on another that are centered at the topic of identity#and such that yes. i could leave. but then will it help with the homophobia or transphobia he's facing? if he goes back into closet how#will it help if the base of the problem is still there?#i can't help if he doesnt leave and find a space where his parents have no say. i asked him over and over again to go to a psychiatrist#ive been asking him to do it for over a year. and he has a barrier that makes sharing hard for him but for the love of the saints he needs#help from someone who is qualified to do it. i asked him to choose his doctor so he can be most comfortable. i offered to pay for the doctor#in case he has no money. i try so hard to pull him out of this place of self blame and of blame he receives from his parents#from anyone else#i try so hard to let him know he can ask me for help. i try to make him feel comfortable and safe. i want future with him and he made m#me think he wanted it too but today he told me that he doesnt know if getting together woth me was a good choice. and even if he breaks up#with me i will know that all of it is going to stay the same#i really dont know what to do. how to help. how do i make everything better if i cant do anything about his family and his home? he goes#back there and i immediately start worrying about him. he told me he doesnt feel safe in that town and i cant do anything. i cant convince#him to move out. i cant convince him to drop this old life. i feel so helpless
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For International Asexuality Day, I'm hitting you all with the Ace Beam. ☺️
(This took a lot more effort than I thought it would, lol...)
Edit: 800 notes?! In less than five hours?! Thank you all so much!!
Edit 2: 2000... The most I got on any post before was just over a hundred, lol. You are all so nice!
#pixel art#sprite art#fighting games#neo geo pocket#street fighter#ryu street fighter#hadouken#asexual#asexuality#international asexuality day#i dub this move: museiai hadouken#i know i've not discussed myself on this blog much#but i am asexual!#i'm not really “out” but more in the sense that i don't really need to be#my family's pretty cool about all that stuff lol#and yes i personally headcanon ryu as ace#just hits the vibes ig
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you know the art you made of Soap "accidentally" giving Ghost a kiss before going on a mission? (before they started dating) what do you think happened when Soap came back from the mission? :3c
follow up to this post
They start dating of course! <3
#ask#anon ask#u were so right to ask for a follow up to this one#ghostsoap#soapghost#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#soap x ghost#ghoap#doodle#cod fanart#my art#soap has been mortified the whole mission#like blowing stuff up and doing his job while internally having a constant monologue of ‘why did I do that??? will everything change now??’#just gay panic while war crimin’#meanwhile ghost has just been waiting to kiss soap back 😌#this comic is the 6323489th time i've smooshed them together and made them start dating. its still fun!
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So I’ve been joking for a while about how Inko manages to afford all of Izuku’s AM merch
But I decided to nerd out and look closer, and I’m pretty sure the only expensive piece Izuku owns is the poster he got from Sir
You might think his dorm looks absolutely stacked
but that’s only because it’s a very small room and he brought every piece he owns
If you look in his old room it’s all the same posters
so he’s owned it all for at least a few years, he’s been working up to this for god knows how many years, just to be the proud owner of 5 posters so basic even he would put tape on them
All of his figures are less than 50$
One of which he’s had since he was a child
And it doesn’t look like the other unidentified figures are anything special either(except maybe AM in his yellow suit)
Izuku only has generic fanboy shit, like maybe one of the posters is a custom but I honestly I don’t think he owns a single special anything
The dead guy poster is 100% the coolest thing he has, no wonder he’s so reverent about it 💀
As for fits this is all we’ve really seen is
So yeah Inko isn’t dropping stacks on merch, I’m pretty sure those sweaters were a 2 for 1 deal because they’re almost identical 💀
#the Midoriya’s have green everywhere but their bank 🙃#he probably got all his merch at Walmart#starting a gofundme for Izuku so he can get better merch#AM is the most popular hero in their world like he has international appeal so you know his stuff is a dime a dozen#my hero academia#mha#bnha#boku no hero#deku#izuku midoriya#all might#toshinori yagi#inko midoriya#if there’s one thing I know it’s that if there’s a demand for something in both Japan and America#then you can’t throw a rock without hitting that things merch#if you create something that gets popular in both countries you get sent a lil metal that says ‘’You won capitalism!’’
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Danny's really, really good at making peanut butter fudge.
Not even Jack can make it better than him.
So when Kord Industries very own Ted Kord himself comes by to look over the weird stuff the Fenton's make, his parents go just shy of begging him to make that fudge.
Mr. Kord very enthusiastically chows away at it, and while Jack and Maddie go downstairs to get more inventions, asks Danny how he perfected the recipe.
Danny answers honestly.
"Well, the only edible things in the house for a lot of the time are peanut butter and maple syrup. I learned to work with what I had."
He's pretty proud of it, but doesn't really get why Jazz turned red or why Mr. Kord got pale.
for those who do not know, Ted Kord is Blue Beetle before Jaime.
#dpxdc#dcxdp#phanfic#dp x dc#story prompt#dc x dp#neglect mention#neglect mention by a child of neglect who had no idea it was neglect#well meanings but neglectful fenton parents#the kind of parents that think because they got food then obviously there's stuff for the kids#but forgot to order for the kids#and the kids are so used to it that they don't bring it up#ted is internally freaking out rn ngl#kid just admitted to abuse
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this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...
#and also. not the direct focus. but love doesn't make things good. you can be in love and do terrible terrible things.#people do bad things in the name of love and in despite of love all the time.#but!! imagine a world where people could exist as people and not be demonized.#sex positivity means being cool about All sex. reexamine your internal systems of moral judgement.#this goes for sex workers. for aroallo people. especially aroallo men. for aro people in general who might enjoy sex.#and frankly i think it can easily bleed into discussions about mental health disorders around 'not feeling' certain things#especially demonizing ppl who don't feel as much empathy. i think there's definitely a correlation between that and the emphasis on love.#our support needs to go out to Everybody and i think these things are all structured together in one way or another!!#it might not be immediately obvious but when i tell you it all leads back to amatonormativity..... little bit wild.... large bit wild....#anyway. horror movie psychopath 'oh he can't feel emotions or love' damn alright. well. let's take a closer look at that.#silly that there's an association between lack of love and Murdering. feel like that might affect some stuff.#love is just an emotion/a feeling it doesn't mean anything about you one way or another#same with empathy. you can feel it all you want but it doesn't inherently change the actions you choose to take#anyway. thesis statement. there is a socially constructed link between love and morality. unlearn that.#kiss kiss (<— lovelessly)#aromantic#aromanticism#arospec#talking#aroace#aspec#sex positivity
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#BundesTag#headlines#german stuff#(news in short for the international followers: There's a lion on the loose in Berlin. no it didn't escape the zoo no one knows where from)
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promised raph angst. so much under the surface
this takes place right before leo and mikey get back from checking hidden city entrances
#rottmnt#rottmnt rapheal#rottmnt residuum#residuum#bonus! an aside#i dont write internal dialogue in the comic#i struggle so much with it that i wouldnt even be doing this comic if i had to write internal dialogue lmao#i dont consider residuum angsty because. well.#to me angst is entirely internal?#if you aren't privy to the characters thoughts angst isn't possible#but from i've learned and what co-author has told me- that isn't the case??? weird lmao#bonus stuff
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Welcome 양띵 to the QSMP!
I know that the current state of the QSMP is a bit iffy and many may not feel comfortable watching QSMP right now (valid response), but I still feel like a warm welcome to these new Korean creators is still needed regardless as they are being introduced to an international community, which is a very scary thing ngl.
So welcome 양띵 or Yangdding who will be one of the new Korean CCs!
She streams on CHZZK and her channel can be found here.
Her Youtube can be found here.
Fun fact: She was the first YouTuber in Korea to reach 1 million view and is considered to be the one to create the foundation for Korean Minecraft content.
#qsmp#qsmp korea#qsmp yangdding#qsmp 양띵#a bit about me too i wont liveblog qsmp for the foreseeable future#i just want to make sure that everyone knows where to find these new ccs and how to access their content#cause even if qsmp has no improvements and more people leave than stay#being introduced to new international ccs regardless is still really cool#and people may begin watching them outside of qsmp related stuff too
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How do you imagine Levan/Revan/ Mallenoa's husband?
Appearance, personality etc.
Revaan/Laverne/whatever-his-name-is's title sort of implies that he might be from a fantasy-Eastern country (they've established that in Twstland, 竜 = Eastern-style dragons, andドラゴン = Western-style dragons). and that's about as much as we know right now about...anything in regards to what he might look like. so I've been trying very hard not to form too much of a mental picture of him, because I'm still hoping we'll get to see him (or at least a silhouette)! ergo, in my head, he kind of looks like this:
so handsome. surely Malenoa fell in love at first glance.
I do think the funniest thing about what we've learned so far is that Malleus being kind of quiet and reserved and dignified...absolutely did not come from the Draconias. and he sure as heck did not learn it from Lilia. so he probably got a lot of that from his dad! the vibe I get from how Lilia talks about him is that he could be a bit of a prim little fancyboy sometimes, but was (mostly) willing to go along with his wife's zany antics out of love. he sounds sweet, honestly! I'm sorry he (maybe) died. :(
my favorite thing about Mal's parents is that Malenoa and Lilia's dynamic was "long-suffering guard and princess who has long been the cause of said suffering":
but then they would happily join forces in order to gang up on Revaan:
tl;dr Revaan was the straightman in Malenoa and Lilia's comedy act until it all ended horribly whoops
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#can't wait to be proven wrong about all of this!#no seriously if it means more episode 7 i literally cannot wait#oh revaan. hopefully they will not make us wait much longer to learn...anything at all about you#international relations probably got a lot easier once he was around to do the diplomatic stuff#the malenoa-revaan-lilia dynamic seemed to largely revolve around lilia and revaan's shared understanding#that malenoa does whatever she wants and neither of them can stop her#god i love them#while we're on the subject i found out the other day that the romanization of the name eleanor is エレノア#so i wonder if malenoa is actually meant to be something like maleanor as a takeoff on that#i am going to stick with malenoa for now but i think that's kind of cute!#we desperately need some kind of confirmation on revaan's name though twst please#if malleus' dad is actually named laverne i need to know
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holding hands
#i saw you people ship this intern guy with Yeva#well can't judge you it's just funny x)#murder drones#evele stuff#murder drones ep 7#murder drones yeva#md yeva#murder drones doll’s dad#murder drones yeva's husband#murder drones doll’s father#my art
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Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#plot twist he COULD be admitting angsty stuff but he’s pushing the less oof truths forward instead on purpose#raph: hey leo what do you want for dinner#leo: *about to bare his soul on all his internal torment but pivots* I’m afraid of snakes#(no but fr Leo’s stripes being technically more pink instead of red is cute ngl)#(a very reddish pink to the point that in certain lighting it looks red but at the base they’re p pink)#(i also am very fond of the idea that Leo doesn’t just have questionable taste in fashion he also just loves Raph a lot and looks up to him)#but yeah I think that something like this would be 99% Leo admitting to unimportant things or admitting to how much he values everyone#like they all KNOW Leo loves them and he’s talked them up enough for them to know but it’s different when he’s like#‘I just wanna read my comics with you guys around - it’s my favorite place to be’#or again just random bs that doesn’t REALLY have a lot of weight like#‘I like using my portals to prank random people around the world’#‘I’m worried about being a bad influence on hueso jr’#‘sometimes I kinda wanna see hypno’s plans succeed’#‘it’s been way too long since I found this out and honestly it’s embarrassing but I actually don’t have a di-‘#SORRY COULDNT HELP MYSELF#(<-but did u know that that pink rather than red observation actually ties into this headcanon as well if u know about red eared sliders)
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it's not even half the percentage
#if i wasnt so held back- id have more than what i do rn and more unhinged at that#but hHHRGHH i have to be-- limited somehow (screaming internally bc its like being locked in a cage like LEMME OOOOOUT)#i am normal about things ( i am not )#me and my hoarding problem against the world#messyr#doodle#artists on tumblr#neurodiverse stuff#neurodivergent
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I won't let myself get devoured
Or a Normally Oak-swallows-garcia angst post about grief and anger.
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#my art#normal oak#dndads spoilers#dndads s2#yes i know he ended up looking like one Jonathan jims i know#the wolfs are doodly on purpose and have meaning and definitly arent just like that cause i dont like drawing animals#his shirt has tiny purple eyes which are very faint btw#someone once said in some tags i saw that they enjoy older norm looking like lark and i internalized that stuff#also him looking slightly like jesus is also on purpose i do love me some religious imagery#i have been overcome with angsty thouths lately about my faves so now you gotta suffer :-|#my commissions are open btw if you guys wanna support me
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btw quick reminder that if you're a terf you're not welcome here
#chibiblabbing#the whole thing going on rn. man.#scrolling the dash today has just been depressing with all the international news and internal tmblr shit#also tired of seeing h*rry p*tter stuff on my friends insta stories i love her but hhh#seeing her share a thing and then go on to find the asshole donated tons of money for her terfy crusade#yikes
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How long was it between when Iroh convinced Zuko to take up the Fire Throne, and Sozin's comet? A day? Less??
AU where Iroh convinces Zuko to be the next Fire Lord MUCH earlier in the series. Zuko, who hasn't been in formal education since was 13yo, understandably panics. He barely remembers his lessons on How To Be the Fire Lord, and they were all focused on how to rule during wartime. Not peace. What does an international peace treaty even LOOK like and how does one go about making it???? How does trade work when you're NOT trying to eradicate every other nation????
Book 3 Zuko spends all of his time teaching Aang firebending, interrogating the other members about their culture's traditions and politics, going on Blue Spirit journeys to raid any passing libraries, and reading everything he can get his hands on. He barely eats. He doesn't sleep. He's info dumping about the DRIEST political texts. The gaang are THIS close to holding an intervention or having Toph sit on him until he sleeps.
#the gaang: morning zuko how did you sleep?#zuko (600 pages into an ancient text on the economic significance of grain farmers in the rural earth kingdom): a... agriculture....#avatar#atla#atla headcanons#i am obsessed with feral nerd zuko#the kid finished formal education at 13!!! against his will!!!#i know iroh was probably teaching him as much as he could but ngl zuko was NOT gonna sit and listen for long when he had an avatar to find#he's panicking and info dumps about ancient international law the second someone looks at him#hakoda is worried about zuko being nervous around him since he's a Father Figure#but zuko skips straight past the trauma and zeroes in on hakoda being an actual political leader!!! who knows stuff!!!#teach him sifu hakoda!!!#my posts
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