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Sobbing in bed because I'm writing a Ulysses fic and I'm caught between him killing the Courier because they are willfully giving up all the people they love and all the good they've done in the Mojave and he wanted them dead and gone-
And him just telling them they don't belong in the Divide with him. Not them, not their soft heart.
"You need to go home," Ulysses would say.
The courier would just laugh.
"Go home, Courier," they mumble. "Your signs. I have them all marked on my Pip-Boy. I don't even know why, but I mark all of the ones I find."
They traverse the Divide KNOWING Ulysses will kill them.
They take off their armour and keep only their finest, best combat knife and a gun on them with enough ammo to get them to Ulysses and to give him a third bullet to put in their skull alongside the two from Benny.
They offer him their knife, their gun, and the option for him to kill them with his bare hands.
Willingly. Selflessly. Painfully.
"I could never hate you, Ulysses. Not for this, never for this. I will never be mad at you for this."
And he's caught.
They're a godsend to this place, so much good they've done.
Does he kill them? Or does he bridge the Divide?
Maybe they go home. Maybe he kills them.
And maybe, after everyone back home knows they're okay... Maybe they do belong here, in the Divide, with Ulysses.
#im actually fucking full-blown sobbing#i hate angst. why do i write it so much??? i make myself cry every time#ulysses fnv#fallout new vegas#fnv#f:nv#fallout#lonesome road#ulysses x courier#technically#it's romantic and heartbreaking and i want my courier to give their life for him and for ot to bresk him#because for all he CAN handle... he cannot handle taking their life#not when theyve listened to all his tapes. been on all the same journeys through all the same hellish places like the Big MT and-#the Sierra Madre too. they listened to his words. and now that theyre here they offer their life.#offer to die however he sees fit throat bare for him to snap and sink his teeth into until he tastes blood and eats at flesh-#and he can't . he can't and he doesynt want to and he'd never want to.#grips their wrist where they hold the blade of their knife- and kisses the before he thinks. he doesnt think with them. he cant.#sobbing.
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so the day started peaceful right. woke up to Donna squealing about being engaged (they got engaged a week ago and she still wakes me up like this) . Logan’s chill and gives me some free sewing needles and thread and says it’s because of Donna pestering him but I’m pretty sure I’ve just grown on him. anyway I walked on over to the lordships house because Levins burrowed himself into cold dead heart and I’m actually excited to see his cute baby self everyday. I’m usually there from morning to evening the past few weeks because it’s nice to have something to do and definitely not because Zoeys maternal presence soothes my mommy issues and Levin is adorable and I don’t want to leave. But this time I stay until it’s nighttime because Donna gets home late and the babe house is painfully lonely and the moment I step out the front door to go home I see red eyes and a face that says murder so I fucking scream of course and then realize it’s Zenix and scream again because ngl he’s always been creepy and I run back inside and shut front door and he’s trying to fucking get in so I barricade the door and I’m yelling for Zoey so she runs up and sees what’s happening and hands me the baby and tells me to go downstairs and she starts doing some barrier magic stuff so I run to the baby’s room, trying to soothe said baby because now he’s awake and freaked out, and tuck myself in the corner of the room while clutching the child and there’s fucking explosions and shit happening. And the next few hours were just that. Listening to random explosions and hearing what literally sounds like a battle going on outside the house and demented roaring from Zenix I guess. and im just rocking Levin, wondering if everyone’s dead or dying.
It isn’t until the sun has come up that everything’s quiet and Zoey comes downstairs to tell me everything’s fine and Zenix is gone. but everything is very much not fine and more then half the village is blown up and there’s only a hand full of villagers now and I immediately ran to the plaza to see if Donnas alive and she is thank Irene but she was a whole mess, sobbing while tending to a unconscious librarian, because she thought I died. but everyone I’ve lowkey grown attached to is alive so. i guess maybe it is fine.
the lord returned from her travels in time to see the aftermath and I guess Garroth lost his helmet so I went down to the mines where he was hiding to give him a scarf to at least hide half his face since he’s honestly become kinda big brotherly. like asking how I am and shit and lightly making fun of me but still helping when I tend to my pathetic garden and me making fun of him for being scared of changing Levins diaper. I don’t really feel awkward around him anymore. anyway I go down to the mines only to see and hear the lady talking to him and. I guess Zenix is responsible for a lord dying and came here to kill Levin? And Lady Aphmau is just. Saying these 2 things are unrelated. so I dashed on over to the dead lords house to grab a slightly soot covered baby toy and brought it to Levin and I have never seen him so excited over a toy before. so.
#minecraft diaries#aphmau#outsider pov#aphmau mcd#aphblr#mcd#mcd garroth#garroth ro'meave#mcd donna#mcd levin#zenix mcd#mcd logan#mcd zoey#mcd rewrite#phoenix drop#lady Aphmau was literally eating bread while examining Garroths face#a shelf fell on me during the commotion so when Donna saw me she literally thought I was dying on the spot#it wasn’t even that much blood I swear it was just a scratch#she said I’m not allowed to die since I’m her and Logan’s practice child. okay.#Sylvia and Kimberly are gone <\3#lady Aphmau really came back with 4 new dogs#and I literally saw her talking to a big ass wyvern that she flew in on what the fuck#wondering if she knows what that means. that she can speak to and understand wyverns#whatever knowing her she probably already knows and I ain’t gonna tell her anyway#feeling some existential stress. might runaway. or get a dog who knows.#I don’t really benefit from putting pieces together and knowing more then I should tbh#I guess I just hate when things are ignored
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So much happened overnight!!! At first listen, literally within 13 seconds I sobbed. Full blown sobbed. I haven’t heard a new album since Oct 27, 2022 so this an absolute gift. Then at 11pm she does the most unhinged thing and drops a SECOND album!!! So the TWOs did mean something!!! FIFTEEN NEW SONGS!!! I feel like she was able to pull out this sadness I don’t like to talk about. A different kind of sadness, one I keep to myself, and one that you can only understand if you’ve been there. Her vocals are even more beautiful, definitely more on the lower register which is my favorite with her. They were all fountain or quill pen songs. The Anthology album is definitely sadder and more scathing. So now I’ll just post my thoughts as I listen to these works of healing poetry.
Fortnight feat. Post Malone - SOBBING! SOBBING!!! It’s ethereal, the synth sounds incredible. The beat. I am so glad this is a single. It’s so beautiful. Posty’s voice sounds so good in the backing vocals. And he got to sing the bridge!
The Tortured Poets Department - It’s beyond beautiful. Her imagery. Her metaphors. I’m going to keep this one to myself.
My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys - The only thing I’ll say about this song besides I love dancing to it is “once I fix me, he’s going to miss me” and I wonder if that’s true. If they ever miss me. I haven’t fixed me.
Down Bad - I’ll never admit it aloud. But this song is probably my favorite 😭. Oh and I’m crying again. “You sent me back where I came from” IM DOWN BAD CRYING AT THE GYM. FUCK IT IF I CANT HAVE US. DOWN BAD. Nevermind this is my favorite. Wait I already said that. The beat. TEENAGE PETULANCE. I MIGHT NOT GET UP IM DOWN BAD. Yeah I’m obsessed. This is the one 😭 This sort of epitomizes like the second choice thing I say I’m plagued with.
So Long, London - TRACK FIVE. OH THIS IS SO PRETTY! It is really sad. I think when you lose people you love you lose a place to call home. Lots of synth pop. HOW MUCH SAD DID YOU THINK I HAD IN ME? Oh yeah she wrote this about me.
But Daddy I Love Him - Oh it’s country. We’re so back! Debut will destroy me when she releases it. Oh this is such a pretty song! I’M HAVING HIS BABY, NO I’M NOT, YOU SHOULD SEE YOUR FACES!!! Oh Taylor that lyric.
Fresh Out the Slammer - Yeah it’s definitely time for country. I love this!!! Oh I love this I can’t wait to not be busy and absorb every single lyric. I love this so much. Her lyricism is so beautiful. It makes me think of old westerns and duels, and going into a saloon.
Florida!!! feat. Florence & The Machine - Umm I don’t really care for the feature or the slamming of the drum. Like it’s definitely heavily influenced by Florence and she’s never been my vibe. The lyrics are beautiful. Maybe it’ll grow on me.
Guilty As Sin? - So my friend and I interpreted like when you’re really into someone and when you physically can’t have them, what do you do? The next best thing. You scream his name in your mind. You don’t touch his skin but IF HE’S WRITTEN MINE ON MY UPPER THIGH ONLY IN MY MIND!!! OH WE’VE ALREADY DONE IT IN MY HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD TAYLOR!!!!!!!! Building back waves, crashing over, without ever touching him???????? PLEASE NEVERMIND THIS IS MY FAVORITE. ACTUALLY ITS ONE OF MY FAVORITES. IM OBSESSED. FUCK!!! I need this tattooed on my damn forehead! I am so obsessed I’m so serious. This is so serious.
Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me - I claimed this song before listening to it so let me just said I AM SO GLAD I DID!!! Country undertones. She’s definitely telling a story. I love this song so much. She’s angry and kind of owning people fearing her. This feels very much like the antithesis of mirrorball. Like fuck you, I’m done pleasing people. I’m doing what I want. Like I feel that way. Yes why are you afraid of me? Oh actually you should be.
I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) - this song is very sexy. Country overtones now. Like something you’d listen to at a saloon. With a whiskey, neat. I love this song.
loml- I AM FUCKING CRYING. OH THIS COULD HAVE BEEN TRACK FIVE. THIS IS SO SAD. I CANNOT STOP CRYING. This is truly a sad story. Talking rings? And talking cradles??????????? Oliver Twist count your days you malnourished charlatan. LOSS OF MY LIFE. OH FUCK. IM GOING TO JUMP RIGHT NOW. Aaron Dessner you destroy me time and time again. This is a favorite but because it’s just so sad I need to take time to sit with it. This is so sad 😭😭😭.
I Can Do It With A Broken Heart - I KNEW IT WAS ABOUT THE ERAS TOUR!!!!!!!! I knew it!!!!!!! 😭😭😭 LIGHT. CAMERA. BITCH. SMILE!!!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! Oh this is so 80s. I’m so depressed l act like it’s my birthday. Please!!! So good. New insta caption activated!!! I can’t stop dancing to this. Please. I love it so much.
The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - Ratty you’re a piece of shit. Goodbye.
The Alchemy - I, too claimed this song. And fuck it’s so good. It’s about having undeniable, magnetic chemistry. I’m- OH ITS ABOUT HAVING A CRUSH!!!!!! Oh Taylor. Wait this is about Travis. This is definitely giving “I’m so happy Travy made it to the big game” LMAOOOO. I fucking love this song!!! He just comes running over to me!????????? Please.
Clara Bow - Well I’m destroyed again. I am Clara Bow. I’m the fucked up girl no one ever wants. And this song really called me out. THIS IS SO GOOD! SHE NAME DROPPED HERSELF!!!!!!
Okay these are my initial thoughts of The Tortured Poets Department. I’ll do an initial thoughts about TTPD: The Anthology later. I have to go to a stupid job I stupidly applied for.
Anyway, TTPD is my new personality, I will be listening to this album forevermore.
#taylor swift#the tortured poets society#the tortured poets department#taylor nation#fortnight#down bad#the alchemy#travis kelce#florida#florence and the machine#post malone#loml#so long london#who’s afraid of little old me#fresh out the slammer#but daddy i love him
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making a post in the tags to “call out” a person is so dumb and childish and stupid, so i won’t put this in there. however, the admin of @wavehq is full lying on my name these days even though i haven’t talked to them or anyone else involved in there in like 6mos. and i rly want them to stop.
i don’t have my old discord account w ss. if anyone else has ss with me in them, u can add them to this post idc how ugly it makes me look. i talked a LOT of shit ( and pertaining to this story, about sel esp ) and called ppl some nasty names and any ss will incriminate me of that. so me talking shit isn’t a ‘gotcha’ anymore. i talked shit and called sel names, as well as k, and i know sel called me names, and im sure everyone else did too. whatevs.
yk what i never did ? i never made a “manifesto” about my ex friend, or priv-retweeted their personal ooc twitter account to mock them. i never helped create and work on an rpt blog, then went and consoled the person being mentioned in nasty messages in the blog on some “oh im so sorry this is happening to you ˙◠˙” shit when it was them the whole time. the worst i did was “fuck her, he’s a cunt, fuck them”, but dream, you lied to me a Lot!
and you’re lying in defending yourself by saying i “heavily hate” sid or anyone. i never have, never did, never will. the last thing i said to sid in like July was “hey, heres my ooc tiktok, im deleting discord. if i never hear from you again, take care.” and then i left rp and the rpc entirely. haven’t talked to or even perceived any of you in months.
you want to believe i’m “bringing this up now” to start stuff or something, but what stakes do i have in any of this? you and yours drove me out of the hobby i’ve loved since i was 12, used an rpt blog to force me to defend myself against your ugly claims at a time you Knew well and good i was absent and dealing with a family death ( and then came in my dms to comfort me ??? you and k both. ) . i lost all of my best friends of several years. trust me, i want no part of the rpc anymore. i don’t want back in. i don’t want to engage. this is a nothing tumblr account that ill never use again. consider, instead, that another person close to the situation and i shared similar experiences and realized there were too many untruths and inconsistencies to let it rest, rather than just ‘starting stuff’ to start stuff.
“sid says steph crops screenshots to make them look incriminating” aye , but i definitely gave my entire discord login out, more than once, and encouraged my friend at the time to go ahead and look for themselves ( they declined at the time. i can still give the login i really do not care. though idk if the login will work anymore bc the accounts been deactivated for, uh, 6 months.) i cropped ss where earthp members were telling me how K is making them uncomfortable and how they were worried lenny was being dragged around by K, that i did do. and i STILL let k know that that’s what they were saying. i can’t stress enough ive got Nothing here that im fighting for i just think its ugly to lie for so long to everyone
“steph heavily hates sid” i do not. note the last thing i said to sid, up there ^. we did follow each other on tiktok then, and then we didn’t speak for 6 months. as of this morning, we are no longer tiktok mutuals - so it goes. sid never owed me anything. i don’t hate them. they know ( and yk what, so do my irl work managers!!! bc this shit affected my actual real mental health!!! ) that the day things went down, i left work early sobbing full blown emotional episode, writing paragraphs in desperation, to the point of overwhelming them and myself. i loved them dearly, called them my ‘spouse’ and best friend everyday, etc. though i don’t know now if they knew more about you than they let on. anyway……. please don’t just be declaring shit about me like it’s fact ?? i don’t hate anyone. not even you dream! just stop lyinggggg i hate that
ye all made me feel like i was crazy and losing myself in my own paranoia omg??? and ye were in your private chats afterward going “well deserved!!!” who even are you what did i do to you omgggg are we not in our late 20s with lives and careers ?????
if this is all bc of heddie/reddie and avengefm ? its ships dude it’s dolls it’s not real and to commit so much energy and emotion to lying to protect ur ships/rps is troubling at best. and if its not about heddie/reddie, then i haven’t a NOTION bc you and i, even when we were friendly w each other, were not close enough to create a bond to break??? i didnt do anything to you but welcome you into my writing spaces and engage in yours to the best of my ability. i was transparent with you when my activity struggled or i needed a break for mental health reasons… but what you had done with your friends is what ruined my mental health ?… go figure ….
i know who was behind that blog because they came clean and told me your connection to it as well. i know sel said nasty things about me too - we’re human and humans love talking shit. but no one else ever took it as far as you did, dream.
i don’t want anything from you! just stop lying on my name i don’t “heavily hate” anyone. outside of my shit talking from 6mos ago, i haven’t said a word against anyone but yourself; i’ve called you a liar, here in this post, because that is what i believe you are.
nobody in my entire life brings up what happened in everwell more than you and k. i owned up to every part i had ( whether directly or by my unavailability, all of it ), i deplatformed and cut out my two best friends ( people i had had in my HOME and had met IRL they were real people to me!!!!! ) and apologized personally to everyone affected, while picking out a funeral outfit and consoling my crying family. these are all my cards on table. you don’t have to respond either. just omg quit lying about me and the way i feel and what my intentions are - if a mf wants to know what im thinking and feeling, they can just Ask me.
and k i don’t want anything from you either! your names in this post because you were involved, and you know your involvement with that blog and how you also came to console me after. outside of that, i do not think of you and do not care what you think of me.
sid, i don’t want anything from u all either and i meant it when i said if i never hear from you again, take care bc i did care for u lots and also invited you into my home bc you were a real person to me. just know for a fact that anything dream says i’m saying about you or feeling toward you is just pulled out of thin air for whatever reason.
i always thought ye all were great writers!!! and so did snags and lex, way back when it was about writing for the love of writing. i would say all the time “omg dream is so funny” “omg k is cracking me up”, and they’d agree. hell if they’re at all in the rpc anymore and see this - hey guys! sorry shit got so ugly. you’ll never guess who was behind it.
i left the rpc and got mental help. i hope ye can get some help too.
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this is dream bringing sel into the Issues and tying her directly to k, btw. you keep saying you didn’t bring sel into the k stuff, but “they’re besties” “she and sel” “they want peach to drop eddie so sel can pick up eddie” this is where we’re getting that from, bc you keep saying you only referenced sel’s activity and didn’t connect her to k at all. i cropped out sids response. i can add it if need be but it’s just sid believing you.
this is where i’m pulling what im referencing in this post from. the second half is censored bc it doesn’t have to do with me.
this is me texting my irl work manager on the day sid and i last spoke. i was distraught and emotional and crying but ok yeah i “heavily hate” sid when the way everything went down broke me to bits OKAYYY
the censored names are the names of my irl managers like it was So Serious so don’t try putting words in my mouth about sid.
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out of char
watching the amazing digital circus pilot writing down my thoughts
DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT WATCHED IT YET
-ooh the change in graphics was so good
-why does Caine enter the screen like a deflating balloon you've blown up and set loose
-WHY THE HELL DOES BUBBLE TALK LIKE THAT I DIDNT KNOW IT WOULD TALK AT ALL MUCH LESS SOUNDING LIKE >THAT< DEAR GOD THAT SENT A SHOCK THROUGH ME I WAS PARALYZED FOR A FULL MINUTE JUST IN SHOCK
-the soundtrack???? It actually sounds like a kids show when they introduce them. ALSO gangle is so cute
-someone fire kaufmo bc why is he not showing up. Disrespectful. Also does it bug anyone else that they say ragathas name like raga?? No tha??? Just me, ok.
-the 'why' in the 🎶we don't know why🎶 is so good
-SOMEONE HELP POMNI OUT SHE IS SO CONFUSED
-i didn't get the Jax simps before... I'm not saying he's hot he just has sassy fav character potential
-can someone actually acknowledge pomni or is she gonna go insane by herself
-the censorship... I love how pom goes straight to swearing. Also it seems like you put I headset on and then you become a part of the circus? Like... a vr headset? Something like that?
-RAGATHA HAS NO FEET
-IM DYING CAINE IS LIKE "stop swearing girl this show is supposed to be PG 😊" and pom is just like "SHIT BITCH FUCK ASS. BITCH!!!"
-pomni is so baby
-"did someone say something about an insect collection?"
-micheal kovatch really gets all the good roles huh
-ZOOBLES VOICE. MOMMY?
-i thought pom was gonna have a panic attack instead she just spirals
-NEVERMIND. I HATE JAX. HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO GANGLE DID YOU HEAR HER VOICE IM SOBBING BABY NOOOO
-" the GROUNDS! 🎪🍓😊😁🎶 drown yourself at the digital lake 🍓🎶🎪😊"
-was not expecting a flirty moon. Huh
-bubble what. "Why are you like this..."
- I- that was an exit door. The way Caine just goes DIGITAL HALLUCINATIONS! and shuts her down makes me think Caine is keeping them there all on purpose. either that or the exit door is something evil that Caine wants to protect them from.
-"I said that like five minutes ago"
-"YOU! do you like adventure? Activity? Wonder? Danger? HORROR? PAIN? SUFFERING? AGONY? DEATH? DISEASE?! DEATH??!!! angel food cake?"
-Caine is actually insane what. YOU PARASITE!!!
-gather the gloinks has bisexual letters
-Caine is insane pt 2
-really hoping the way to defeat a gloink is to beat the shit out of it
-"oh no. They killed zooble. Anyway do you guys want to get something to eat"
Yeah I'm only at 7 minutes so I'll stop now. I'll keep going when I wanna blab about something
-CRYBABY AND HOOHAH 😭
-gangle is my favorite. I love her. She is baby.
-OH MY GOD. OHHH MY GOD. LITTLE RUNMO REFERENCE!!!
-uhh. Yall pomni isn't okay. Can someone help her out
-oh damn. The end is just pomni realizing she'll be there forever. She needs a hug
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hi anon who had the idea for the valdangelo lost hero au here! i made the executive decision to actually try and write the fic. more stuff that will be included: they’re both autistic as fuck. this has absolutely no relevance to the plot but i’m autistic and i don’t think i can write them any other way! in leo’s memories (which were a full blown, heartstopper scale romance between them both at their boarding school) he and nico were a very touchy couple, so even now that he knows they weren’t really together he can’t stop himself from being touchy w/ nico. accidentally holds his hand, brushes his hair out of his face. a few forehead kisses. leo also spends a good portion of the fic convinced that nico finds him annoying. at one point nico BLUSHES bc of leo ‘accidentally’ kissing his forehead and leo is just “oh no am i too warm did i accidentally burn him. fuck.” they are both so emotionally constipated it’ll take a while for any actual love confession to come out xx however i cannot for the life of me decide if nico should immediately have a crush on leo from the first Real encounter they have, or if it should just be like. ‘cute guy. why is he holding my hand tho’ and THEN feelings build over time. i think given the situation nico def wouldn’t have time to form an actual crush, he’d be too stressed but. also. idk
ouhgogughgho i cant wait anon i cant wait im so excite im sobbing im throwing up im selling my kidneys yuo have such an enormous brain i love you so much i am kissing you so sweetly
nico wakes up with not a thought in his head he looks to his left, cute boy holding his hand, looks ahead where theres a nice girl leaning over the seat to talk to cute boy. decides this is fine back to my nap.
im calling you hero anon from now on so you can get back to me easily anytime you want to talk about your absolute galaxy brained fic
#my me#i am looking directly at it#i see only it#looking with my autistic eyes#pjo hoo toa#riordanverse#valdangelo#valdangelo tlh au#nico di angelo#leo valdez#hero anon
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Batfam and their fave Jem characters:
Ok first Im gonna split it into the batfam and who their fave member of the holograms would be, and then I’m gonna split into fave character overall.
Alfred-Aja: OK HEAR ME OUT: I think that he’d appreciate Aja’s tough but polite thing going on. She’s never rlly the first to start a fight but she’s also not soft on others and will call bullshit out when she sees it. From what I can remember she’s a very stable presence in the group, if not the rock of it, and I think he’d like that l.
Bruce-Jem: Listen I KNOW it’s cliche but c’mon?? The double identity, the relationship issues, the dead parents; it all hits for him. And the plane episode made him break into full blown out sobs. I think his fave songs would be can’t get my love together and everybody wears a mask.
Dick-Shana: I think Shana would be Dick’s favorite because of her arc where she left the band to pursue her career. I think the fact that she WAS jealous of the new drummer but her feelings were validated and still loved her new profession and found a way to do both in a way that benefited her with the help of her friends would make him ugly cry. His fave songs would prolly be Like a Dream and I believe in Happy endings.
Jason-Roxy: The reading episode could honestly say it all, but I also think the way Roxy IS insecure in the Misfits and defends her place with the “I deserve it I’m a REAL misfit” attitude when Jetta is introduced would hit him hard. His fave songs would prolly be it takes a lot, nightmare, and congratulations.
Cass-Stormer: LISTEN LISTEN I think she’d enjoy how Stormer is kind and ultimately acts for the greater good but is still very much a misfit at heart. Even in the breaking of the bands, Stormer goes for an insult first and makes her demands to the misfits and she’s absolutely firm with it. Her leaving in the first place was out of love and respect for herself. I also think she’d like Pizzaz’s attitude lol. Her fave songs would be who is he kissing, midsommers night madness, and making mischief.
Steph-Jetta: Her parents were absolutely shitty to her and she came out strong. Whenever she was disrespected she actually swung (even physically in her debut) back 10X harder. Roxy questioned her spot on the team and Jetta was ready to defend it immediately, despite her just getting it. She was a misfit and she knew it, Fuck what anyone else says even if it’s a senior misfit. I think Steph would actually admire that attitude and she’d wish she could’ve channeled it when Bruce and Tim were being absolute assholes to her. Like even though she did talk back she still Bruce be the ultimate authority and took what tim said to heart and Jetta would never take it lying down. She hates clash bc of her desperate attitude and a small part of her mind feels like everyone thinks that’s her. She’s right (that they think that) and it’s terrible :( Her fave songs would be I am a giant, there aint nobody better, and take a hike Jack.
Tim- Pizzazz: LISTEN! I think it’s be another admiration thing. I thing he’d really fuck with her attitude and the way she’s not afraid to take what she believes is hers? Like not in an evil way or whatever but he was rolling his eyes whenever the Holograms just so happened to get offered XYZ for being in the right place at the right time. The misfits are lowk right! Sometimes you have to set things in motion for yourself and if that requires a little bit of murderous intent…so? Seriously tho I think he’d relate to her issues with her dad but I also think he wouldnt take it that seriously. Like pre Jack trying to connect with him more, I don’t think he took the absence that deep so when he sees pizzazz it’s more of “look at u doing all this and u don’t even fw horses I’d take the money tbh 🙄” the entire family is sideyeing tf outta him. His fave songs would be scandal, gimme a gimmick, and there’s a melody playing.
Duke-Raya/Jetta; NOT JUST BC THEYRE NEW I think he’d find raya’d relationship with her dad super sweet and he’d relate to how she felt being the new kid on the block. Stuff like when she first fully interacted with the misfits and didn’t really get the big history between them and the holograms, or other moments where past stories are talked about that she doesn’t fully get would prolly hit hard. I think the scene where she realized Jem was Jerrica and was terrified but also completely willing to help hide her secret immediately just screams Duke finding out about Bruce and Batman. And he thought it was funny when she ripped the flower out of Jetta’s hair. Speaking of I think his would be less of an admiration thing with Steph and more if ‘she is me’ thing. Like idk Duke being an awful flirt and getting into a fistfight is screaming equal opposite to Jetta lying about being royalty like honestly it’s less that he likes Jetta and more that he knows she’s him and he’s her and they’re eachother. fave songs would be who is he kissing, I like your style, and it could be you.
Damian-Minx: LISTEN! I think he’d relate to Pizzazz a lot but as much as I hate to say it, Pizazz’s very valid feelings about her father and his lack of relationship with her were very much played as a joke in the show and I think Damian would feel pathetic for relating to her like that. Like I think post therapy Damian would openly love pizzazz but for now? Minx. The thing with the Minx is that she TRIED the whole being nice thing and nobody believed her. They thought it was weird or fake and only started to trust her later on. But that’s not the appeal of it, the appeal is that Minx went back to being bitchy and had a real support group there. It’s not that Damian wants to be the way he was, God forbid, but the fact that she did and had people who not only accepted her but were ecstatic to have her back? The fact that they weren’t glad she ‘reverted’ because they wanted to use her for anything but because she was their friend and they knew her? He ugly cries about it to this day. His fave songs would be who is she, destiny, and get outta my way.
#I’m not checking for errors btw#jem and the holograms#batfam#Duke Thomas#dick Grayson#I’m not tagging them all idc#wait do ppl filter specific characters out?#this isn’t hate to any of them it shouldn’t matter#wait I am tagging all of them I ate with this lowk#bruce wayne#tim Drake#jason Todd#cassandra cain#Stephanie brown#Alfred pennyworth#i won’t clog main Batman tag#Im not letting y’all forget that they still mostly treat steph like shit when she’s in character 💔#anyways this was from awhile ago#i disagree on some#mainly on this feels less like who’s everyone’s favorite and more who does everyone relate to#and i hate inaccurate phrasing like that#i do nawt care enough to change it tho god bless#anyways#i think i ate with some of this Idk#if u disagree KYS
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Wow it’s actually been a really rough fucking month
Like my brain always makes me minimize everything I experience and feel but I’ve actually been so visibly unstable that it’s scaring some of my professors and that’s pretty fucked up because it’s like my brain won’t even let me remember how bad it gets for long enough to try and seek treatment or something
#the second i feel slightly better its like youre fine youve never had a depressive episode what are you talking about#youre not actually mentally ill you just overreacr#amd yet ive spent the majority of this week completely zonked#crushing headaches intrusive thoughts completely empty eyes and blunted across the board#i actually had a full on nervous break at the end of rrhearsal on wednesday#im talking full blown sobbing and hyperventilating out of nowhere and the room went silent#because nobody knew what the fuck to do#em does a distress#senior year babie
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maʼam do you have any megumi or reki drabbles to spare 🤲🏼🤲🏼👁️ if not, dw, bc i can also just reread. like. seriously, your writing is so delicious 🤩
HELLO YES OF COURSE OF COURSE. OF COURSEJEJEKEKD
HAVE BOTH BC I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. ALSO I LOVE Y O U SO MUCH YOURE SO SWEET PLS
feral megumi brainrot
megumi’s pretty compliant in bed, you’d say. he’s putty in your hands the moment you place them on him, brushing your palms along his torso, your fingers hovering and teasing at his hips and thighs as you slowly lead up to riding him, taking your time as you sink down onto his lap, his cock nudging deep inside of you. and he’s always making the sweetest sounds with you, looks so pretty when his eyes get dewy and hazy, when he cries out for you, when his chest heaves for you, when his skin flushes for you.
but sometimes, sometimes, it’s the complete opposite.
sometimes, you find yourself on your knees, your ass raised, thighs smacking against his as he fucks into you from behind, your hair twisted and knotted in his fist. he’s brutal, vicious, unforgiving, menacing, and it’s because he never gets like this. it’s a once in a lifetime moment, where he’s so— harsh with you. where he pulls at your hair even harder, so hard it hurts, so hard it forces your head back, your back arching deeper, further, his cock buried so deep within you, the tip tickling your cervix at this angle.
he doesn’t stop, even when your thighs and ass are red from the brutal fucking, or when your throat is hoarse from the screaming and crying, or when you’ve cum a thousand times. it’s like he wants to ruin you, properly.
at some point your hair untangled from his fist, and you fall, unsupported, onto the mattress, finding leverage in the sheets as you grip them tightly and as you sob, heart-wrenchingly sob, into the bed. your body’s going numb, burning with oversensitivity. your cunt’s a mess around his cock, drooling and drenching him, still somehow unbelievably tight, sucking him in so well. and he tells you that much.
he’s not too much of a talker, not when he’s like this, reserving to more noises, the most beautiful of, than anything. but sometimes, he spares you a few words, telling you how pretty your cunt looks ruined like this, for him, all for him, how you’re so good, so tight, around him, that you’re his perfect little plaything, hm? and it all goes straight to the knot tightening in your stomach. it all deepens the clouds surrounding your mind, hazes it over, has your eyes rolling back and your mouth dumbly falling open as you wet the mattress with your drool.
his hands, so big and large, are squeezing at your hips, so rough, so hard, so bruising, helping himself fuck into you, before they travel to your ass, kneading and squeezing roughly, turning the skin a bright red. his thumbs reach over to where your cunt is stretching out around him, and he strokes at your lips, spreads you more as he watches himself disappear within you, watches as you swallow him whole.
no wonder, no wonder, he gets like this sometimes. who could ever hold back with someone like you at arm’s reach anyways? of course you were his weakness. of course.
the first time you gave reki a blowjob, he came all too quick and landed some in your eye, which had you squinting for the rest of the day. it was a little too embarrassing for him to look back at back then, and it honestly still is to this day, but to you, it’s a reminder, a reminder of how much he’s grown. and it’s pretty hilarious.
but now, now reki sits above you so much more confident than he used to be. while months ago he was shy, cautious, too careful, and a stuttering, awkward mess, he’s now a lot more relaxed, a lot more trusting. where he’d jump and squeak at the tiniest of movements, at the simple brush of your fingers against him, a small flick of your tongue to the head, he now leans into the touch, sinks into the feeling and trusts in you.
it’s why you agree to something different this time.
he spreads his legs wider for you, letting you settle more comfortably before him as your hand reaches for his cock. your spit on your palm and the precum he oozes makes the process a lot smoother, a lot easier, as you fist at his cock, slowly, tugging lightly, squeezing at the tip and lowering your hand all down to the base. your grip on him is a relieving one, tight and warm and firm, but reki can never, ever, compare it to the feel of your mouth.
your tongue darts out to kitten lick at the tip, swirling it slightly and poking at the slit as your hand continues to very slowly stroke him. he had already been hard to begin with, but with all this borderline teasing, his cock feels so much heavier in your hand, the tip darkening as he grows more and more desperate.
and so, finally, you look up at him, his dick inches away from your face, throbbing in your hand, and ask him, “do you wanna fuck my mouth, baby?” and it’s another reminder of how much he’s grown. his dick twitches in your hand, and he looks visibly pained as he groans deeply at your words, at your suggestion, at your offer. but still, he contains his self control, because if there’s anything being with you has taught him, is that patience is key.
he nods, nods so urgently he feels his neck sprain, and lets you guide his hands to the back of your head. you bring your hand to his cock, your lips obediently falling open, tongue sticking out as you push his cock into your mouth. slowly, you lower your head, taking more and more of him, sucking and hollowing out your cheeks and slurping until he sits nestled in your throat, your loud swallowing and soft humming keeping away at any gag reflexes.
reki, above you, is already shivering, eyes wide and pupils blown as he gapes down at you. it’s not his first time watching you take his dick down your throat. again, the first time you’d done it, aside from his first blowjob in general, he’d came the moment your throat squeezed around his tip. and although every other time after that he’s gotten better and better at enjoying it for longer, at letting it last, at dragging it out for as long as possible, he remembers what you’d consented to just a minute ago, and he thinks, fuck patience.
his hands are shaky as they grip at your head, as his fingers tangle in your hair. it doesn’t take long for him to find a rhythm, no time at all before he’s pushing your head down in time with the thrust of his hips up. you’re making so much of a mess, gagging and coughing as drool and spit pools on his lap, sticky with precum as he fucks up into you. he thinks you look so pretty like this, eyes red and watery, lips swollen and wet, staring up at him so pleadingly and desperately.
and god, he— he’s fucking gorgeous. there’s a tightness in his jaw for a few, teeth gritted as he suppresses any noises he wants to make, before it all dissolves into a blissed out expression, eyes fluttering and mouth parted, skin flushed as red as his hair. he’s gripping your hair so tightly as he fucks up into you, so hard it almost hurts, and the praises he sings for you are stirring up a swarm of butterflies in your stomach: telling you that he loves you, loves you so much, he’s thanking you, thanking you, thanking you—
and when he cums, he holds you to him, head buried in his lap and throat full of his cock until you’re thrashing in his hold. he spills and spills and spills, pulling you off of him only to watch his cock weakly shoot cum at your lips and chin. still, the fact that you grin at him, so cutely, so prettily, has him carelessly pulling you in for a searing kiss, swearing upon the fact that he loves you, loves you so much, loves you so, so, so much—
goodNIGHT. idk if this is actually good cause im half asleep rn 😭 but yk, the brainrot is real, so — i hope u like this anon! mwah <3
#megumi x reader smut#megumi smut#reki smut#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#jujutsu kaisen x reader#sk8 x reader#sk8 smut#sk8 infinity x reader#sk8 infinity smut#fushiguro megumi smut#fushiguro megumi x reader#megumi fushiguro x reader#sal’s thirst tag <3
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wiped out! ↝ jj maybank x reader
a/n: lowkey don't know how this is going to turn out
summary: you and jj makeout for the first time with wiped out! by the neighboourhood playing in the background.
warnings: making out, swearing, mentions of drugs, mentions of alcohol, steamy, mentions of abuse
song: wiped out! - the neighbourhood
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mL_eky_nMaM
gif found on google
you and jj sit in his room at john b’s, the silence taking over the both of u. you can hear the music from the kegger along with the sound of chatting teenagers. jj stares at the floor as he picks at his fingers.
about 1 hour ago, jj had showed up after disappearing for days, again, and acted like everything was normal. he had a few cuts and fading bruises on his body. you didn’t really know much about his home life, just that his dad gives him a hard time.
he instantly made his way over to the keg to grab and a cup of milwaukee beverage before stumbling towards the fire that you and the pogues had sat around. he ignored your gaze and joked around with pope and john b. you sighed and got up, heading over for a re-fill when you feel a pair of eyes on you. you glance over your shoulder and see rafe cameron standing with a couple other kooks, staring directly back at you.
you gulp and quickly turn your gaze back to the guy in front of you as he hands you your cup. you thank him and turn before feeling your body slam into a broad chest, your beer spilling on you. “oops. sorry about that, y/n.” you hear the smirk in rafe’s voice as you slowly look up from your soaked shirt to his smug face.
“rafe.” you slightly mutter, trying to step past him. “woah woah woah, where are you going? don’t you need a refill?” you shake your head and try passing him the other way. “no, actually, i don’t. i didn’t really spill much. plus i just want to get away from you.” you stop when rafe grips your wrist. “now that’s not very nice, is it?”
“get your fucking hands off of her, cameron.” you hear jj shout at rafe before lunging towards the kook and shoving his grip off of you. you carefully step back behind jj, resting your hand on his lower back so he knows that you are there, you are okay, and there doesn’t need to be a full blown fist fight.
rafe stares at you, a challenging look in his eyes before he blinks and looks at jj. he holds his hands up defensively, “i’m leaving, alright?” he backs up, “I'm walking away.”
you both didn’t know what rafe was silently planning in his hand. beating the shit out of the pogues was his hobby, so why did he step away? jj turns to you, a small smile on his lips, “you okay?” he asked as he put his hand on your shoulder as he inspected your slightly bruised wrist.
“im okay.” you nod, smiling up at the tall blonde. “you sure, sunshine?” he asks, glancing up at you before looking back down at your wrist. you gently pull it out of his grasp, nodding. “I'm good, jay. lets go back to the pouges, okay?” he nods and follows you, his hand resisting to grab yours.
after a little, you noticed jj was getting distant and emotionless around the fire. he wasn’t talking like he usually did. he wasn’t being himself. and surely, everyone around the fire noticed. kie nudged your side before nodding her head at the blonde across from you. “you should go talk to him privately. he isn’t doing good. he’s usually good at hiding his feelings.”
you nod and stand up, calling jj. he looks up at you and furrows his brow but stands up and follows you up to the chateau in silence.
and that is what lead to where you are right now. jj still picking at his fingers as he sits in silence on the end of his bed in front of you.
“jj.” you whisper, grasping his attention. he turns to you, a slight hum in question leaving his lips. “you okay?” you ask him as his baby blue eyes stare back at your for a split second. he nods before looking at the wall in front of him. “jay.” you state again, a little louder. he glances at you quickly, before turning back to the wall. “i know you don’t like talking about your feelings. i know you like to put everyone you care about above yourself. i know you like to keep us happy and help us through our hard times. but i also know that you need to let us do that for you in return.” you stop and look at him, hoping for a response.
you sigh and continue, “i just want to be there for you. through it all. you are my world and it physically hurts me that i can’t help you. hell, i don’t even know what happens in your life unless you tell me, which you hardly fucking do. i just want you to know i am here with my fucking arms open no matter what is going on. i am here for you.” he slightly sniffles, and you scoot forward in concern.
you see the tears streaming down his red cheeks. “jay.” you gasp, wrapping your arms around him and pulling him into your embrace. he snuggles his face into the crook of your neck, sobs escaping his lips as he shudders in your grasp. you gently trace circles up and down his back, trying to calm him down. this is the first time you have ever seen jj break in front of you.
after some time, jj calms down and gently pulls out of your gasp. “do you think you can talk to me?” you whisper, gently brushing the hair out of his face. he hesitantly nods, ignoring eye contact with you as he starts to speak again, small tears brimming his eyes.
“its my dad, y/n. he does more than gives me a hard time. he beats me over every small thing. he blames me for everything. fuck, he makes me want to die sometimes, y/n. there are times i think that he will kill me. that it will never get better. and to just let it happen. i-i can't stand him anymore. its fucking destroying me, sunshine. i can't.” he sobs, slightly leaning over so he is resting on your shoulder.
you gently grab his face and hold it in his hands, your eyes starting into his. “jj, listen to me right now. i am so fucking proud of you. for many things. I'm proud of you for still being here today. i am proud of you for not giving up and letting that dickhead win. i am proud of you for opening up to me. i am proud of you. and i will always be proud of you. you are so fucking strong. you are so brave.” he slightly nods in your hands, the tears from his cheeks dripping onto his bed sheets.
he removes his face from your hands and snuggles into your chest, his tears soaking into your shirt. “want me to play some music to calm you down?” you ask, resting your chin on his head. you feel him nod under you, causing you to reach down for your phone. you hit shuffle and set your phone back down, listening to jj’s heartbeat slow.
jj’s fingers fiddle with the band of your shorts anxiously, while a couple other fingers trace small circles on your thigh, your heartbeat quickly picking up. jj notices the shift in your mood and slightly smirks to himself. he knows what his touch does to you. he lifts his head up a bit so his lips brush against your neck a bit, causing you to shiver. “you good?” jj asks, trying to hide the smirk on his lips as wiped out! starts playing.
“shut the fuck up.” you whisper, a small smile on your lips, “you know what you’re doing, jay.” he pulls away from you, his eyes lingering on you. “do i?” he asks, inches away from your face. you nod, “you do.” you whisper, your hands becoming sweaty as he massages your thigh, his eyes becoming slightly dark.
he grabs your chin, bring you closer, “yeah, i guess i do.” he whispers before smashing his lips to yours. your both move in sync, fireworks exploding and hands gripping each other. jj licks the bottom of your lip before gently nibbling at it. you slightly open your mouth, letting jj explore all of your mouth with his tongue. he grips your knees, pulling you closer to him, if even possible.
your hands find their way to jj’s hair, gripping and gently pulling as you run your hands through the blonde mess. he gently pushes you back so you’re lying down before hovering over you, his lips attaching to your neck. he softly sucks on your sweet spot before nibbling the skin slightly and reattaching his lips to yours as you let a quiet moan.
he kisses down from your neck to your chest, “you look beautfiul, as always.” he whispers breathily into your ear, causing a shiver to run down your spine. you slightly swing jj to the side, flipping him over so you were straddling his waist. you take a couple breaths and move your hair out of your face before leaning back down to kiss jj hungrily as the beat drops, the music adding to your needs. “i need you.”
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hey there again!!!
might i slide in this fine ask box with another HC request?
if yes, then could you please write some HCs where uf and ht sanses and papyruses (seperate of course) s/o gets put in a hospital for a lil bit? you can decide what happened to s/o. maybe a bad heatstroke cuz its summer or something (totally not because its a bad heatwave where im living rn haha nope). idk, i just crave angst or hurt/comfort again from my fave skeletons.
if you're not up for this, its totally fine!!
thank you, have a chill day/night B)
- 🌌 anon whos sunburns arent stinging that much anymore B)
*Evil cackling* OH-HO-HO, yOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MONSTER YOU HAVE UNLEASHED…… I am an evil being who feeds off of angst and pain, and you’ve given me ample opportunity to make some of that sweet sweet angst >:-)))))))))
I tried to keep it ambiguous as to what you’re in for, mostly because I want you to be able to imagine heatstroke and me to be able to think “hahahah stab stab”! ^^
Also!!! The healthcare system in some other countries is fucking insane (like??? You guys have to pay to not die??????) so I’ll be going off of what I know about the healthcare system in Sweden where it’s free. (At least I’m 99% sure it’s free, except for like. Small things. For example, my antidepressants. I had to buy those myself when I was still on them.)
UF + HT BROS WHEN S/O IS IN THE HOSPITAL
Red (Underfell Sans):
He’s panicking so so bad, he’s terrified. What if you die?
Curses out anybody who tries to keep him from you, including the poor nurse who’s just doing their job
Actually he just. curses in general. He’s just spewing cuss words to seem angry instead of scared because That’s Definitely Better
Most likely out of all four to physically lash out at… well, anybody (except you obviously) lol
Red hates hospitals too, to make matters worse. He doesn’t know why, but they make him feel uncomfortable.
If somebody did this to you purposely and he’s not allowed by your side, he’s going out to find the person and kick their ass during that time lol
If nobody did this to you, he’s pacing and cursing and jfc Red, you do realise there are other people here right enjdjdjdjsjsk
This fucker tries to pull a “pfff nah i was never worried” but like. Red. Darling. Light of my life. Stars in my sky. Center of my universe. Bitch of my heart. Everyone can see right through your “anger” and literally your shaking voice is so not convincing. Get a better poker face and voice.
With some prodding, admits that finehewasscaredyou’ddieandhethoughthisheartstoppedforasecondwhichisweird’causehedoes’tevenhaveaheartanywaysthat’sovernowsowhocares
(He’s not great at expressing himself but it’s still progress)
WILL be staying right by you as you recover. You’ve no choice. (You do actually, he respects you and will back off if you tell him to)
Edge (Underfell Papyrus):
Oh no. Oh no.
Edge is trying his very best not to show any emotions but he’s not good at it because like. It doesn’t take a genius to see that him screeching angrily at people and demanding for the doctors to fix this is actually him poorly masking his fear. Edge doesn’t have the best poker face lol
He’s so pissed if he can’t stay right next to you the whole time. You’re his S/O!! What kind of bullshit is this?!
If you do need to be left alone with doctors and such things, Edge will do one or two things depending on why you're in the hospital, how bad what you’re in for is and for how long he can’t see you.
If you’re here for something like heatstroke - AKA something not brought on by somebody else - he’ll call friends and such while pacing and somewhat frantically share your current condition.
However, if anybody did this to you; and you’re in bad shape… Well, even fucking Satan will cower at the brutality of Edge’s revenge.
When he’s allowed to be, he’s by your side and - depending on why you’re in and for what - he might nag you for being careless, reassure you it wasn’t your fault, reassure you in general, and/or just stay silent.
It’s barely noticeable, but just noticeable enough, that you can tell that he’s shaking.
All it takes is a “are you okay?” For him to break and confess how scared he was.
For a moment he was back Underground and it was horrible and he felt so powerless and he hates that. He’s so, so happy you’re okay and he- he swears he’ll be with you on your way to recovery. Please just never get hurt again.
Dusk (Horrortale Sans):
If you thought Red and Edge were scared, just know it’s nothing compared to the absolute terror he feels.
Dusk knows how fragile the human body can be. He’s seen horrific things happen to humans and monsters alike and he’s always hyper-aware of just how easy it’d be to kill and/or hurt you.
Logically, he knows you won’t die, he knows human anatomy well enough to know this is something you’ll bounce back from, but his instincts are going haywire and all he can think of are the mangled corpses back Underground. It doesn’t matter whether your condition has anything to do with broken limbs or not, because those pictures are what his mind is forcing onto him.
He refuses to leave your side. If he’s forced away from you by nurses/doctors/staff, he’ll protest but if he really can’t be by you for your safety, he’ll be anxiously hovering as close by as he possibly can. Whenever he’s allowed to touch you, he’s practically glued onto you.
If he’s sure it’s just the two of you, and you’re unconscious, he’ll probably cry.
He… He hates being reminded of your mortality. He hates the idea that any day could be your last. He doesn’t know what he’d do if you were gone.
(He’d dust, probably.)
If somebody else got your purposely hurt, he’s going to hunt them down after a while (after you’ve recovered enough for him to be comfortable leaving you alone for a bit). He’s not going to kill them, but he might rough them up a bit -- but most likely, he’ll just intimidate them and/or threaten them. (It’d be a different story if you were murdered.)
Whenever you’re conscious, he’ll do pretty much anything you say, so long as it won’t get you anymore hurt or risk stunting your recovery.
When you’re released from the hospital, he’ll be by your side nearly 24/7 because he hates the idea of you getting hurt again just because he wasn’t there to protect you.
Aster (Horrortale Papyrus):
Tries to look calm and composed, but he does about as poor of a job as his brother. He does better in that he doesn’t act out or get in the way of the nurses, but he’s also crying and shaking and sobbing and can’t stop.
You getting injured triggers him pretty badly. If you’re not bleeding, it’ll probably be “only” a bad anxiety attack, but if there’s any blood involved it’s escalating into a full-blown panic attack.
He’s a nurse himself, but I doubt he’d be allowed to work with the other nurses when it comes to you because of how unsteady he is. He’s not sure whether he’s thankful for it or not, because he doesn’t trust himself to do a good job but he also wants to be there for you. He trusts his colleagues, but it’s still nerve-wracking.
Just like the others, he’s glued to your side when he’s allowed to be. Very metaphorically. He’s the best of them all at giving you space, partially because he’s just more respectful lol and partially because he’s a nurse so he knows not to smother you with physical affection until you’re in the clear.
If somebody caused you to go into this state, he will just like Dusk go and find them. He won’t do anything physical, but he does intimidate the person very effectively. He’s a terrifying giant and he knows how to use that to his advantage.
When you’re fine again, he’ll be acting anxious and protective for a while. He feels really guilty about it (because he should be comforting you - plus, he’s a nurse! He’s seen way worse things on his job) but you’ll have to give him comfort. This whole thing didn’t inspire much positive feelings in him and it stressed him out a lot, it may honestly take more of a toll on him than it does you.
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About Atsumu and mommy kink: his brother kind of had an inkling about the nature of his relationship and at first he teased him about it even if he wasn't 100% sure about what was actually going on. He'd say things like "are you sure your mommy's going to be okay with that?" And "Aw, you're going to cry now? I'll call your mommy for you" just to get a reaction and Atsumu always laughed it off and pretended to find it funny.
Turns out, his brother teased him a little too much one day, the same day that he was feeling particularly little and he just really wanted his mommy, okay? So he gave a weak little laugh and as soon as he got home he just- he broke down crying, like full blown meltdown. Poor boy couldn't catch his breath and naturally his mommy was worried like never before because her baby was hurting and she didn't know what the hell was going on?
Atsumu cried himself to sleep. He tried to nurse but couldn't really do it right because he kept crying, so he just laid there with his mouth attached to his mommy's nipple and his stuffie clutched to his chest. As soon as he woke up he told his mommy what had happened and kept saying that maybe he should stop acting like "such a baby", kind of slurring his words because he ended up falling into his headspace really hard.
Mommy was fucking furious. How dare that boy make her baby feel self conscious? Not to mention that he made her baby cry like never before.
She decided that enough was enough. Went after Osamu and gave him the biggest lecture about boundaries and didn't he want his brother to be happy? At the end of it, Osamu was properly admonished and he felt so fucking guilty. Atsumu couldn't look his brother in the eyes for days until Osamu cornered him to apologize for being a dick.
I just- I didn’t know I needed crybaby!Atsumu and now my thoughts are consumed?? How could I not write this??
type: drabble
tags: angst if you squint, crybaby!Atsumu, mdlb (mommy dom/little boy), subspace, comfort, some boob touching, ironically not too smutty
character(s): Atsumu Miya (hq), Osamu Miya (hq)
“A-And th-then- he- he- hic! -he wou-wouldn’t stop!”
Your baby’s tears rolled down his cheeks like a never ending flood. Words slurred and normally big brown eyes red and blotchy. Atsumu wouldn’t even take any form of comfort from you in the slightest.
You’d offered your baby boy his stuffie. His favorite blanket. Even offering him breast. Atsumu had walked past the threshold today and utterly broken down. Nothing you could do was consoling him. Even when you tried to coax it out of him every word he spoke only ended with louder more distraught choking sobs.
This alarmed you to no end but you couldn’t do anything for him until he told you what was wrong. Atsumu, clinging to your chest, seemed to stop sobbing so hard when you simply played with his bleached curls and let him take a few breathes. So that’s what you did. Atsumu, still unable to really enjoy a good nurse, had his lips against your nipple. Sniffling and pressing his lips against your warm breast even if he didn’t latch. Open mouth soft cries as your fingers combed through his hair and you hushed him quietly.
Nothing too much. Cuddling your big baby to your bare breast and letting him sink into the skin to skin contact. One of his big hands on your breast that his cheek simply couldn’t occupy. Waiting for Atsumu to calm down and tell you what was wrong. You found that would have to wait because he fell asleep at your breast. Slack jawed and everything. You couldn’t even remove your nipple from his mouth if you tried. Sighing softly you snuggled him up close to you and let him sleep it off until he woke up.
Finally when he did wake up. Atsumu seemed a little more collected. Still his words came a little stuttered and slurred. Your baby boy was really upset. Justifiably so as you found out some of the things his twin had said to him when he stopped by for lunch. Osamu’s teasing palatable for Atsumu. But when he did it in front of the entire senior group of Jackals. It was too much for him.
Tears threatening your baby boy’s beautiful brown eyes once more. You cup his face and pepper it in kisses. Rewarding him with nothing but praise on how good a boy he was and how much he was loved. Atsumu came back down from the wind up he was working on. Leaning into your touch and your kisses. It wasn’t until you asked him if he wanted you to talk to Osamu did some sort of fix begin to happen. Atsumu didn’t want to admit it but sheepishly nodded to the idea of you going and talking to his twin. Leaving you to do exactly what you knew only you could do. Somethings only mommies could fix.
You made the time to make a segway to Miya Onigiri during an off day. Well aware Osamu would be there. He of course had no qualms letting you in when he saw it was his twin’s other half knocking on the door.
“Yer not normally alone,” Osamu looked around like his brother would be in tow, “Where’s that baby huh?”
The look on your face clearly not amused.
Osamu laughed a little, “What, yer not really here to say ‘Tsumu was cryin ‘er somethin?”
“So it’s fine if I have to deal with the shit you say huh? Fun to leave me to deal with it?” You weren’t laughing.
Of course Osamu tried to play it off, “Wasn’t like I was serious or nothing-”
“It’s serious when I have to deal with it.”
“Yer not the one I meant-”
“Atsumu is shit is that what you wanna tell your brother? Might as well straight up tell him you hate him if you can’t be nice right?”
“’Tsumu knows I don’t-”
“Then maybe don’t harass him like that huh? Maybe don’t act like a total fucktard to the one person closest to you yeah?”
Osamu fell quiet. Look looked down at his shoes longer than he should have. Atsumu was one thing but he really didn’t like you being upset. If he could avoid that then he’d keep it up. Still your words were true and Osamu had to swallow that.
“Yeah, yer right...” Osamu nodded slowly, “Guess- I’ll say sorry ‘er something when I see ‘im next.”
“Thank you.” You offer Osamu a hug, “I just want my boys to play nice is all.”
Osamu laughed a little and hugged you back, “Y’know, ya practically sound like our mom ‘er something. No wonder ‘Tsumu likes ya.”
#mommy kink#threethirst#hq smut#haikyuu smut#hq!!#haikyuu!!#atsumu miya#osamu miya#atsumu#osamu#hq atsumu#hq osamu#atsumu x reader#atsumu miya x reader
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Dkks no jaj i have this thing that won't leave me and i just NEED TO SHARE IT
Also, PLEASE ADD ON I'LL ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT
Okay, i personally think that even in pre-game hajime and nagito never intended to hurt each or be actually mean (well maybe at first but it didn't last long) , They unconsciously make sure not to make the other too upset
The worst thing that has happened between them is when hajime made mildly violent gestures with his hands at nagito
Now, the reserve course's exams are a nightmare and when they happen the department falls into chaos, it's bad. and i mean "student body has to mentally prepare and starve themselves of sleep at least a month in advance" kind of bad
this takes a huge toll on hajime who is just so sleep deprived he's almost falling on his ass because he just wants SO sleep so bad. Not only that but he feels stupid for not being able to remember the 70+ questions of his exams, he is not having a good time :(
Meanwhile nagito has gone to fetch hajime after he ghosted everyone in 77-b for two weeks and they weren't able to find him in campus, In fact, he's planning to give hinata-kun a piece of his mind for overstepping his boundaries with the ultimates and NOT because he made nagito worried sick! Nagito is not worried!!!
He stops feeling this way when hajime passes by swinging from side to side and looking horrible and oh god he's falling
nagito grabs him before he falls over and they just stare. At each other. For like a whole minute
To alleviate the tension nagito decides (oh no) to be condescending again (a lot less harsh tho) to shift the attention y'know
This was the wrong move because when nagito stops talking, it's all too much hajime finally falls over and just. Starts bawling his eyes out im talking about the most ghibli-esque thick as fuck tears full blown sobbing and screaming
It's literally so embarrassing for hajime but he can't stop. To cope, he just starts cursing nagito out in hopes that he just leaves hajime alone and forgets this ever happened
Nagito can not even understand what hajime is saying but he's like "wow i'm the worst person to ever exist" bc now he's crossed the line now, he's made hajime cry and he's the worst
In an attempt to comfort hajime, nagito decides to awkwardly hug him and pat his back. since hajime's dignity is dead he enthusiastically (and still crying) returns the hug and sobs into nagito's uniform, it's just so awkward all around
mmmgmgmhmmgh crying, suffering hajime,,, my weakness,,m
k first of all, hpa for sure made the reserve course students MISERABLE. hajime in particular was going through hell cuz he's very much a perfectionist. he wants so badly to belong at hopes peak and he wants to make something of himself, so he pushes himself extremely hard. he wants to get perfect grades and he wants to go above and beyond so maybe the higher ups will regard him with even the smallest bit of respect (they dont) . he wants to feel like he belongs. so he disregards any form of self care in favor of excelling at everything.
he doesnt want to say it or show it but he feels horrible constantly. mentally, physically, and emotionally. he has terrible headaches, his whole body is in pain, he's utterly exhausted, he's painfully stressed and overwhelmed, he's just on the brink of losing his composure altogether
nagito's sarcastic remark just came at the wrong time and managed to hit the very specific nerve that would break hajime
and HOOO boy does hajime break,, his body can hardly even support himself. at first, he's lashing out at nagito but the stream of consciousness just keeps going and he starts to belittle and curse himself for not being good enough
and hhhh nagtio. is dumbfounded to say the least. he proabably stands there for a good minute just watching hajime spiral, unsure if hajime would rather nagito leave or... do something.. should he comfort him??? uummhhhhh,,
and nagito is half expecting hajime to punch him in the gut when he offers a very stiff and awkward hug. he was most certainly NOT expecting hajime to throw himself onto nagito and hold onto him for dear life
and just asjkdhfjh when it's all said and done, hajime probably quietly apologized and even more quietly thanks him and run away
#nagito has no idea what to tell the rest of the class#he probably makes some offhanded remark like#i went to go find him but i couldnt bear to step foot on that repulsive campus so i retreated#he decides to keep that interaction between the two of them#asks#macoisinanartica#dr#sdr2#komahina#sunny speaks
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im rewatching jatp instead of studying for the 3 tests i have tomorrow and i thought i would share my thoughts and reactions with each episode so enjoy!!....
wake up
- hearing the “1, 2, 3″ at the start of the episode gives me more serotonin than my antidepressants ever will
- julie’s slippers...that’s it...that’s the thought
- that dry ass pasta the molina’s are eating for dinner??? someone needs to give my man ray some cooking tips or a cookbook... something
-the looks the boys give julie when she says it was an OLD cd she found. as if they could be old??
-the entire julie and luke kitchen scene i mean there are no words to describe how much i am in love with scene. the banter, the flirting, luke giving this girl he literally just met an actual PIECE OF HIS SOUL so she can get music back into her life. not a single time have i watched that scene and not felt my heart literally grow cause of how cute they are.
-the entire scene when julie is singing wake up. that scene is what made me literally CRAVE watching the other episodes. like of course i was going to watch them cause i wasn’t gonna just stop watching a show after one episode, and yes the show was good already but seeing the lighting and her voice, and just everything about the scene,,,,*chef’s kiss*
bright
-flynn drinking seven sodas....SEVEN??? i would be throwing up if i drank more than like 2 and she drank seven,,,no ma’am.
- flynn and her trumpet. talented queen
- “ i wouldn’t have given you the song if i didnt think you were gonna rock it.” lmaooo im crying:)
- i start tearing up every time julie goes to play the first notes of bright,,, and then i’m full on bawling when the guys come in and play with her cause...they weren’t playing to be seen they were playing to be there for her and play to comfort her. pls i love them<3
- nick vibing in the front row
- the tech guy deserves so much more praise
flying solo
- reggie’s little butt shake or whatever you wanna call it!!
- julie’s little laugh when she yells at the guys to stop it
- “and we’re on the runway again” GENUINELY one of my favorite lines of the whole show pls i love luke’s humor
-this is the first time i noticed this but reggie’s face after alex says “DONT TELL ME HOW TO GHOST!”
-WILLIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU<3333333
-the slow mo helmet take off,,,,me too alex me too
-willie’s little giggles:))))
- “oh-oh!”
- “no clue” alex i love you baby<3
- next season better give us a scene of flynn throwing eggs at someone’s house because i think it’s safe to say we were robbed of that experience.
- the flying solo performance is just amazing
i got the music
- just the whole opening scene is so cute ....the dancing, singing, happiness RADIATING from julie
-nick in an all white suit and fedora
-WILLEX MUSEUM DATE YEAH BABYYYYY
- carefree skateboarder bf and anxiety ridden drummer bf
- yelling. in. museums.
-alex thinking he’s literally dying again because of the salt... zero braincells in this band.
- another scene we were robbed of that i need to see in season 2...reggie singing “home is where my horse is” while alex and julie sit patiently and attentively listen to him but luke looks like he’s about to commit murder
- i get SO MUCH second hand embarrassment for julie when she looks through luke’s songbook and says “ wow luke I didn’t know you were such a romantic” julie baby i love you but...eekkkkk
- “he looks like a substitute teacher”- where did he come up with that like so many other things he could be compared to but a substitute teacher??
- “luke introduced you to rock” heck yeah it did.. literal soulmates
- would like to see a picture of the raccoon in Flynn’s backyard
- wee woo wee woo police sirens://///
- julie’s outfit ughhhh i love it
- the poster that im pretty sure says “sexiest role” behind caleb... why was that necessary
the other side of hollywood
- THE ENTIRE PERFORMANCE OF THE OTHER SIDE OF HOLLYWOOD
- i lose my absolute shit over this song omg literal chills
- the cape grab i cannot physically do this rn
- willie being so excited the entire performance and looking over to see alex’s reaction
- reggie being in awe everytime one of the girls performing does something.. me too reggie
-”well i wouldn't really call it mAAgiCcCC bUT”
- nick and his fedora again
- alex has a crush, alex has a crush on.....WILLIE
-the boys eating food for the first time in 25 years is honestly so realistic
-alex shoving a whole slice of pizza in his mouth
- lukes ‘OH MY GODDDDD’
- reggie kissing his meatball sub that looks painfully dry but also delicious
- the continuation of the other side of hollywood performance and everyone dancing
-reggie imitating caleb’s evil laugh and owen trying so hard not to break
-me getting mad at the boys for not showing up for julie and being sad with her but at the same time i’m obviously not mad at the boys just...disappointed?? idk
finally free
- how did julie get to the school if she missed the first three classes?? wasn’t she still at flynn’s house from the night before cause she slept over so did she walk to school or was she just sitting in flynn’s house by herself and one of flynn’s parents was like you gonna go to school or???
-dance class with nicky poo<3
-reggie fixing his amp in the rain
-julie’s blue dress outfit in this episode is my ABSOLUTE favorite
- the birthday candle scene makes me sob like a little baby,,,and rightfully so
- julie smart, smart to be taking calculus as what a sophomore??
- all eyes on me yes queen iconic
- alex dancing is how i dance in my brain whenever the song comes on
- finally free as a song is NEVER given enough credit and why not?? it’s my favorite song they do as a band AND the madison’s vocals and the echoing part omg i loveeeee
- and the whole performance with luke’s heart eyes. i count this performance as the moment luke like fell in love with julie...like full on just blown away with how much awe and admiration he has for her in that moment and all the time.
- julie and luke singing “and you’re a part of me” while staring directly into each others soul,,,yeah that’s love kids
edge of great
- carlos being the ghost hunter he is and tía being done with him
- luke’s pouting face
- reggie and ray making breakfast together is so wholesome. reggie really loves and seeks comfort in ray and i love that
- luke just waiting next to julie’s locker and his little “hey”
- the first time i watch this scene i thought charlie was from new york cause of the way he says “ i can't do this without you” and then i watched the cast interviews and just realized he is somewhat joey tribbiani
- jealous luke hehehehehhehehe
- “well dont you look shARrP”- yes he does luke thank you very much
- “uh oh i think someone has a crush on julie” yeah you do you little shit,,, now admit it to her
- the proud look on luke’s face when he realizes julie is still paying attention to HIM even though she’s supposed to be having a full on conversation with nick
- the shoulder push ( as someone who has had their own shoulder pushed in the middle of a high school hallway as a weird way of flirting,,,,i can definitely somewhat attest to how luke is feeling in that moment and i too continued to flirt with the person who shoulder shoved me while we were still standing in the hallway)
- the flow from whatever the hell dance nick and julie are doing and the perfect harmony dance is so special to me and i love it
-ADOANCLOBNAOVBCOAB THE HAIR PLSSSSS
- EVERYTIME THE SCENE COMES ON AND I SEE HIM WALKING THROUGH THE MIRROR I HAVE TO PAUSE THE SHOW FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES WHILE I DIE LAUGHING BECAUSE THE HAIR IS SO BAD EVEN THOUGH I SHOULD BE USED TO HOW IT LOOKS AFTER WATCHING THIS SHOW LITERALLY 30 TIMES
- i think people see my username and assume i like his hair in this scene but...ummm fun little fact i do not like it
- the dance is so good though ugh my babies
- the hair
- madison is gorgeous
- another season 2 scene i need: julie teaching this dance to luke and they perform it in front of alex and reggie so they can see luke roll on the floor like that
-the hair
- the lift i loveeee
- the voices at the end of the song *chef’s kiss*
- the way julie spins out from luke and into nick omg so good
- “thAnKs pArTnER”
- luke denying his feelings for julie,,,babe pls
- the whole edge of great performance is so good and beautiful and the colors are SPECTACULAR
-julie avoiding luke’s gaze lolz
- can't believe my mans really tried to deny he didn’t have feelings for julie like 5 hours earlier even though he’s getting upset because she hasn’t looked at him in 2 minutes
- THE. GUITAR. RIFF. SOLO.
- when i finally learn how to play the electric guitar well enough to learn the guitar solo... it’s over for everyone
-nick just came to watch the girl he likes perform not watch her flirt with a hologram plssss can we give this man a break next season.
- “we have to say goodbye to julie”- that’s literally more important to luke than not playing music anymore because julie is music to him now
unsaid emily
-already crying and the episode hasn't even started
-willex in the orpheum
- alex literally being OVER reggie
- nope too emotionally unstable to watch this scene right now
- my therapist will be hearing about this tomorrow
- show us the baby picture of luke cowards
- this is such a beautiful song that makes me cry every fucking time gosh damn it
- everytime i watch the flashback scene of luke on his bike i think of “christmas song” by phoebe bridges and i cry even more
- i tried to learn how to play this song on my electric guitar (because i dont have an acoustic guitar) and i ended up crying half way through so i do not think i will be playing it anytime soon:/
- the harmonies *chef’s kiss*
- THE POLICE LIGHTS ....i cry
- FAT tears rolling down my face
- there's literally not a moment i don’t cry during this episode
- interesting little relationship :0
- when i played percussion in 7th grade i used to lay down on the couch in the practice room at school ( which god knows what people did on that couch...ew) and stick my drumsticks up my nose too,,,, just another similarity between alex and i
stand tall
- willie really drove a bus 200 miles into the desert for his crush
- WILLEX HUG
- i love willie no last name so much,,,i just wanna hold and protect him
- alex’s ballerina dance
-julie’s overall outfit i love<3
- “im swimming”
- the way carlos hangs up the iPad on tía makes me CRACK UP he’s just lmao bye girl
- another julie outfit i love
- “anything julie. you know that.” AHHHHHAASIDSJFPACISN love bitches
- the suits
- luke’s hair in this episode is so much better than the perfect harmony hair pls
- YOU GOT NOTHING TO LOSE
- the way luke looks so restricted and confined in his suit... but at the same time he looks like a 10 week old puppy
-luke’s AGGRESSIVE but small foot tapping leading up to being on the stage
- the solos:)))))
- crying again over julie’s monologue to her mom
- julie really was brave enough to be ready to perform by herself
-the way Trevor looks at carrie when she says “been here before”
-ALEXXXXXX
-REGGIEEEEE
-luuukkKKKEEEEEEE
- this performance makes me cry
- especially the first time when i saw luke flickering...sobs
- he finally looks free in his suit:))
- alex’s solo is so pretty i love him
- reggie’s solo too
- nick just straight up vibing the entire performance
- alex and luke holding hands...hehehe cute besties
- “thank you, guys” NO THANK YOU
- the way julie begs for them to do something about the jolts for HER cause she knows luke would never say no to her
- “no music is worth making, julie, if we’re not making it with you,” I JUST SCREAMED AND IM PRETTY SURE I WOKE UP MY ENTIRE HOUSEHOLD...whoops
- going back to that line i could say so much about it but....for someone who’s life was literally MUSIC for the 17 years he was alive, and after finding out he could play music again even though he was dead and saying it made him feel alive, he would give that up- he would give up playing his guitar, playing in a band with his friends, give up writing and singing music- if he wasn’t doing that with julie. that’s more than saying i love you,,,that’s literally like saying i’d give up my ENTIRE LIFE and what i love to do if i dont get to do it with you
- i just made myself cry with that description...wow
-the hug<3
-also imagine how luke felt in that moment,,, hearing this girl, once again that he would give his life up for, saying in his ear that she loves them. i would motherfucking glow too, luke
- *passionately but gently holds each others faces*
-HANDS OFF MY BABY NICK, CALEB
- caleb’s outfit is....something
- the head turn plssss
this was so long and i am so sorry but if you read this far.....leave some of your own reactions or thoughts:)))
k goodnight im gonna, ugh, finally go study ://
#julie and the phantoms#jatp#julie molina#alex mercer#luke patterson#reggie peters#willie#flynn jatp#nick jatp#carrie wilson#renew jatp#netflix PLEASE we are begging give us a season 2
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sorry for all the harry potter posting in 2021…. but like….. reflecting on just how dark the later books were/are, why on earth did every harry potter fan always romanticise having a movie marathon with the movies??? like yeah, it’s basically what i’ve been doing for the last few weekends staying at my sister’s on my own…. and since i’ve been awake this morning, i’ve gone through ootp, hbp and deathly hallows part 1 so far….. and like…… these movies, to me, aren’t really made for marathon watching/binge watching in a sense….. due to the heavy subject matter imo. they’re made to be standalone (although part of a series) viewed movies one by one, not back to back to back in succession; when there’s just so many incredibly substantial themes like death and obviously racism, systemic corruption etc etc. to be thought about while watching.
like of course everyone is going to say that im reading far too deeply into this and that the hp books and movies are trash….. but like the constant romanticisation in the 2000s and early 2010s of wanting to do harry potter marathons as if they were as cutesy and happy go-lucky as romcoms…. or simply just as lighthearted kids movies backed by whimsy and fuzzy feelings back in the day, was just so fucking backward.
like obvs since im older now, i can see that harry was abused by petunia & vernon for example. and by reading other teen fiction (specifically aussie YA fiction series’ tomorrow when the war began series and the ellie chronicles trilogy); harry’s horrible dreams/flashbacks of cedric before/after he was killed in goblet of fire is a symptom of PTSD (which i read in harry potter essays in uni when i did i philosophy essay on epistemic injustice in ootp in the courtroom scene). i can actually see how harry is being used as a pawn by dumbledore in his master plan. and obvs in analysing these things im putting my apparently “useless” arts degree in english and philosophy to use lmao. and of course as kids, we either ignored those themes or never picked up on them because they went straight over our heads.
on this bent then, another YA movie series that is NOT made for binge watching is the hunger games. which i found out to my own kind of detriment last year….. considering that i had never bothered to read the books back when they were popular past the titular namesake hunger games book (and had also forgotten all the early 2010s tumblr posts about how dark it was)…. while deciding to watch all the movies til catching fire part 1 in a binge watch sesh in the middle of 2020. the binge watch sesh was also spurred on by the book about young president snow that came out in 2020 lol.
so last year, when i finally decided to watch hunger games, i could actually understand and contemplate the political ramifications of katniss’s & peeta’s behaviour and defiance… which was something that i completely brushed off while it was hugely popular in the early 2010s because it was “too political”…… while i utterly denied the GLARINGLY OBVIOUS major political undertones and themes in harry potter because i was so obsessed with it….. but I obvs was most specifically preoccupied with what hogwarts house i’d be in lmao and whether i was more like hermione/luna/ginny or a mix of all of them. like yeah. it was so backward.
of course, the HP movies do have a bingeable quality to them; but my god. from really goblet of fire onwards, they’re heavy as fuck and really don’t need to be binged back to back in succession….. like you can do with how i met your mother or Loki eps in terms of tv shows. or idek, for movies, old rom-com faves like suddenly 30/13 going on 30 or rom-coms starring sandra bullock (bc they’re some of my faves)…. or teen indie comedy faves like juno or napoleon dynamite.
bc harry potter at it’s core, is a war story, more obviously from the end of GOF til the end of the series. it’s heavy, it’s dark, and emotionally devastating (for me when i was younger obvs). in some scenes, such as when harry returns with cedric’s dead body in GOF and it’s backed by the cheery marching band music but then drowned out by fleur’s scream and amos diggory dramatically scream sobbing “MY BOOOOOY!!! MY SOOON!!! MY BOY IS DEAD!!!!” (which as a kid i used to laugh incredibly inappropriately at every bloody time i watched it)…. but NOW??? THE PAIN! THE SUFFERING! THE TURMOIL! which is finally paired with the sad score music and camera panning out from the tri-wizard cup school stadium??? oh! i am but torn asunder by it all (okay not really, but i feel amos’s pain more acutely and i can shed a tear or two is the point here). and speaking of GOF, it’s pretty sad that over the years, it’s always been reduced to “C A L M L Y” and hermione’s yule ball dress being pink instead of blue bc of both the real and supposed lack of book to film accuracy…. when there’s obvs more important things to focus on lol.
bc literally one of the most horrifying scenes in the gof movie for me, in retrospect, is voldemort being reborn???? and wormtail sacrificing his own hand to get that essentially cursed silver hand that ends up strangling him to death in DHP1. and also david tennant’s albeit very disappointingly short appearances as barty crouch jr???? that was good casting. and also the incredibly fucked up storyline in GOF of BCJ imprisoning the real mad eye moody in moody’s own enchanted chest for his hair for polyjuice potion???? it hit me last week again (bc it hit me in 2020 when i reread the series with audiobooks as well) just how ridiculously FUCKED UP and BATSHIT that ENTIRE storyline really was. and i read and watched that???? and was fine with it at 10 years old???? jesus christ lmao.
okay. i went a bit off topic and overboard. but y’all get what i mean??? it’s so weird that an entire generation romanticised a YA series that was essentially about a war in its later instalments (and obvs a full blown one by deathly hallows) as some cutesy marathonable story bc it was/is so whimsical and its filled with childhood memories. but in doing it myself over the last few weeks, it’s just not. it was definitely one of the heftiest book series for kids/teens back then. but also for the movies, aside for their run times mostly all being close to 3hrs long, they’re quite emotionally charged and are astonishingly dark & dense in subject matter/themes for a KIDS movie series for the backend of the series. and mostly the only reason it’s “marathonable” in a sense, is because we all know the story so well.
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okay Hi here's my will and Holly headcannon's !!
first of all im so so happy i get to share this with someone because ive been sitting on these FOREVER.
1: Holly calls Will, willy. She has ever since he started coming over and continues to call him that even when she can say his actual name but likes it because their names rhyme.
2. When Holly was still fairly young so many she was around 7-ish Will and her had a conversation. about mike.
"do you love my brother?"
"yeah, yeah i do." Will said, hoping she would take it in a friendly manner.
"i know. you guys act like the ones on the shows my mommy watchs, but only some." She confesses.
Will doesn't know how to respond to that.
"I-i um, thats uh different." Will stammered out.
"yeah because your both boys, but that doesn't matter. your both still in love." She smiled as she put down her barbies.
Will was at a loss for words. literally. he didn't have any idea on what to say.
"yeah, i do love him, i think, but your brother doesn't feel the same way so it's okay. also don't tell him, this is in-between us, okay?" Will decided this might work.
"okay! i won't." Holly smiled as she continued playing her barbies.
3: When someone finally explained to her that will went missing she started SOBBING, having a full blown tantrum at the thought of not having Will around.
4: when she is older and will and mike are dating (i wish💔), holly is VERY overprotective over Will. she has threatened her brother about how she will kill him (and she said it VERY detailed.) if he hurts will.
5. When Will and El come to stay at the wheelers house is when El first meets holly. El tries to be nice and introduce herself to her but holly runs to will. Will feels bad about this and tries to get Holly to talk to El but holly won't leave his side.
6. after the byler fight in s3 Holly sees mike running around the house to get his raincoat so she asks whats wrong and he says will left and holly asks why and mike said we got into a fight, she got angry and yelled at him to fix it.
7. they have done eachothers hair. imagine baby holly putting butterfly clips in wills bowl cut💞💞🥺
8. mike has had sleepovers with will and sometimes he goes to the bathroom and then comes back to see no Will. He finds Will in hollys room playing dolls together.
9. Holly is pretty mean to her brother, calling him stupid, a butt face and an idiot. she even calls him that to his face. But will is always there to go and be nice to mike but sometimes he definitely plays along.
thats all i could think of :( but i hope you like these!
OMG IDK EVEN KNOW WHERE TK START 🥺
1)Holly calling Will Willy is so fucking ADORABLE??
2)But like she 100% a byler shipper, THE BIGGEST
3) no because I bet that both mike and holly were crying together and Nancy saw them and then started crying g with them and then Karen came tot he rescue and comforted them 😭😭
4) I find holly threatening mike so hilarious that’s so canon I love that
5) holly running to Will and clinging to him is adorable but like I bet he tries to pick her up and try to introduce them and FINALLY AFTER AGES she finally talks to el and she finds her so cool and el is just like I love this child she’s adorable and internally mike is crying because he’s so whipped for Will and OMG
6) I bet holly I threaten mike saying something along the lines of “you better go fix this or else your a dead man and this better not happen again” and he’s just like you got it but he’s also like uh oh we got another bossy bitch in here but he loves her bossiness but he’ll never tell anyone that
7) WILL WITH A BUTTERFLY PIN IS SO FUCKING CUTE AND I JUST KNOW THAG MIKE WOULD DIEEE and omg imagine Will braiding hollys hair 😭🥺
8) them playing with dolls or something like that is like 😌 but like imagine them playing with play doh or clay building something and holly keeps messing up and wills just like “hey it’s ok, we can just fix it” while smiling and when mike comes back he see them playing around and he’s WEAK
9) I love the idea of Will going along with holly and making fun of mike cause it’s like he likes making fun of his boyfriend with his boyfriends little sister but like instead of mike being mad he’s literally just full on MELTING because he loves them both so MUCH
Imagine either mike and Will sleeping and cuddling each other and holly gets in the middle of them and it’s CUTE and Karen or Joyce are both like taking pictures of this because they find it adorable
Or mike walking into his room to find his little sister and his boyfriend snuggling and he’s so SOFT
MORE WILL AND HOLLY PLS DUFFERS
But if you want to ramble more about byler in my inbox don’t be afraid to, I low key love replying to these
#byler#they’re so soft#mike wheeler#holly wheeler#will Byers#I love these three#cmon duffers don’t be shy#I need to see this or I might just die#I’m crying over here in my tiny corner#they’re so fluffy#😭🥺🥺#holly wheeler is the best#protect her at all costs#will too#never mind we’ll leave that to big brother/ boyfriend Michael wheeler#hc
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