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localityghost · 1 year

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ᗷᒪᑌE ᒪOᑕK ᗷOYᔕ ᗯᕼEᑎ YOᑌ ᗪOᑎ'T ᑕOᗰE TO ᗷEᗪ ♡

CW||Fem!reader, yelling, pro!bllk boys, fluff a Lil I promise, wholesome, anyways enjoy ^^

Hiori Yo

Hiori was streaming on his game after he had a argument with you he didn't care about what the effect was at the time he never liked talking about his parents so when you brought it up he lashed out at you and kinda hurt your feelings so you decided to give Hiori his space until he realized you weren't coming to bed. It took him a few minutes to realize and thought you were staying up late again but when a few minutes passed by he could tell you still weren't there by the way the cold air hit his presence on the bed and the spot where you usually lay was empty nothing but a vacant space, on his bed that he invited you in. Hiori rubbed his eyes and dragged himself out of the bed to come find you.

While Hiroi was looking for you, you had placed some sheets on the floor and fluffed your pillows, and as you were getting ready to lay down, Hiori appeared in the living room doorway "R/N? What are you doing? A-Are you not coming to sleep with me?" You looked at him with a soft smile. "I thought Sleeping here wouldn't be so bad" You knew Hiori wasn't taking it well by the devastated look on his face. "But why? We always sleep together!" He frowned, looking at your placement on the floor. "Goodnight, Hiori" you pulled the covers over yourself and tried to sleep, a few hours into the night you look down to see Hiori snuggled in your chest.

Alexis Ness

You felt like Ness was being overly clingy with Kaiser to the point where you started to question your relationship with him. Ness wasn't the problem, and maybe it was you? You loved Ness, but the way he's so devoted to Kaiser, you wish it was the same way he's devoted to you. You sulked the past couple of days and kept your distance Ness which he didn't notice at first until you two had stopped sleeping in the same bed at first he thought it was just a phase and that you'd get over it but you never did the more he said nothing the more distant you became. Ness didn't know what was going so he went to Kaiser for advice "Maybe she wants to break up with you" those words hit Ness like a bullet train. You? Break up with him? He couldn't let that happen not with you he loved you but you've been so dreadingly distant from him that he hyperfocused on soccer instead and didn't realize it.

You had been avoiding Ness for 2 weeks now and it was a pain but you didn't mind you even bought a separate mattress so he wouldn't question it. Ness decided enough was enough and dragged you to a love hotel "Ness? Where are you taking me?" You asked and he just smiled and said "Were spending the night here" he said and it shocked you that he was taking you here maybe he took notice you were being distant? So many questions filled your head as you got to the room. Ness immediately made you lay down with him as he cuddled with you "Du warst so distanziert, meine Liebe" [You've been so distant my love] he said as you sniffled he held you closer and that was all you needed to do to make him understand.

Michael Kaiser

Kaiser is a self-centered bastard of course he sees everyone else as pawns so he can ensure the winning victory, I guess that's what Germany gets for putting so much confidence into a young star. You as his girlfriend took it way differently though he was mostly more enamored with fame and his fans which left you out and to say you were jealous was the least of your worries since he would always brag about his fans and all the gifts he would get which led up to this moment a heated argument that you started once you had snapped the last thing he heard from you was "IF YOU LIKE YOUR FANS SO MUCH WHY DON'T YOU JUST MARRY THEM" and you stormed out his condo with tears in your eyes ever since then you two had spent time apart.

Today was a sunny day as normal, no Kaiser in your ear talking about his fans, and they made you feel oddly at peace until you heard knocking at your door and saw Kaiser with a blanket in his hands. "Es ist schwer zu schlafen, ohne dass du nach Hause kommst, meine Liebe" [It's hard to sleep without you come home my love] you tries to shut the door in his face, but he stopped you and held the door open as he got onto his knees holding onto yours as he begged you to come back and sleep with him so he could be by your side again after about 15 minutes of begging you gave in and let him take you back to his condo as the night began to close in Kaiser had took you to his bed with special fuzzy pajamas he had bought directly for you which you loved to your hearts content and as he slept with you he showered you in praise and apologies.

Isagi Yoichi

Isagi is a dedicated man when it comes to soccer he also wanted to be dedicated when it came to you little did he know you had other plans ever since he started becoming more and more infatuated with soccer he began to neglect you but Isagi didn't realize it he wanted to be the best boyfriend he could of course! So when you left the bedroom one day to go sleep on the couch he was Overthinking about what he did wrong to the point of trying to use his metavision but he couldn't put his finger on it until he had a certain moment that made him really think. Isagi was shocked at the realization was his soccer career really getting in the way of your relationship? If it was he had been going about this all wrong.

Isagi was deep in thought as you were making yourself a makeshift bed on the couch you made sure it was comfy for yourself until Isagi came and hugged you from behind you jumped at his touch even after he still didn't let go "Isagi...what are you doing here? Go back to sleep you need to rest for practice tomorrow" you said in protest but Isagi just buried his face in your neck "Come on R/N-Chan...come back to bed with me" Isagi pleaded as he hugged you tighter bombarding you with kisses until you finally have in and went back to bed with him.

Ryusei Shidou

Ryusei isn't the one to think he does anything worthy of you not wanting to sleep with him many people want to sleep with him he is a good looking guy after all not to mention sexy as he is. Shidou posts literal thirst traps of himself letting all the girls gawk at him when he started doing that you felt unworthy of him you felt incomplete like you were just a stray puzzle piece to him of course Shidou noticed but thought you were being all downy again so he let you be not wanting to be around a downer which was his mindset until you started to reject his hugs, gifts, kisses, basically any type of affection from him but the last straw was you refusing to sleep with him.

Shidou saw you moving all the pillows on your side and your stuffed animals then when Shidou knew something was up when you took the stuffed animals he immediately initiated in a tug of war with you which led to him trying to overpower you with a annoyed look on his face "What game are you tryna pull huh? First you refuse to kiss me then hug like I'm some type of parasite! Now your mocking me by sleeping somewhere else?" You puffed your cheeks so you wouldn't cry "Don't you have fans to entertain?! Go take a pic or something!" Shidou then yanks the pillow you were holding and you fall on his chest "Now what made you think I'd prioritize my fans over you? Your my one and only shorty! You ain't going nowhere!" He bombed you with kisses and love bites and you spent the night succumbing to his touch

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gx-gameon · 2 months

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The roughest part of Gx is that Jaden doesn’t have a lot of real friends.

After watching DM and seeing how far the group goes to support each other. Even when they can’t help they still uplift each other. And ya I know Téa can get annoying to people. But as I rewatch DM Téa and Tristian are always supportive. Tristian’s not a duelist but he’s out here physically fighting people to keep his friends safe (duelest kingdom, battle city) they never tear each other down or put pressure on each other.

In Gx it’s different. (I’m going to rewatch it soon) but Jaden feels really alone even though he’s surrounded by people. Chazz might be a good duelist, Zane definitely is and Alexis can hold her own, but they don’t support each other. Cyrus is pretty useless for most of the show. I love Hasselberry but he quickly falls into the same trap the others do.

They throw Jaden under the bus a lot. They put a lot of responsibility and leadership on him that he doesn’t want. It’s not that Jaden won’t step up to the plate, he always does, but they aren’t supportive of him in the same way the DM cast is.

He doesn’t have a Joey who stands by his side no matter what. Joey’s a lot of things but above all he’s a great friend. His best friend tell him, “I’m going to fight to save the world against a cult because if the spirit living in my pendant. You know the spirit that possesses me.” And Joey immediately is like “you mean WE are fighting a cult to save the world. Love that spirit.(platonic) Love you. (Platonic) We’re best friends. You’re never alone.” Like Joey is THE ride or die. Yes he’s stupid. But his heart is in it.

Jaden doesn’t have that. Not until season 3 when Jessie, Axel, and Jim arrive. Jessie is definatly the most ride or die of the whole group. But Axel and Jim are right there to. They are the team going out into the duel world to get everyone back home. They save Jaden from himself/supreme king. Like he has support for the first time and it’s immediately removed.

Like I get why home boy went crazy. And the Gx crew see him rushing to save Jessie and go, “he’s selfish, he’s rushing ahead without us, he doesn’t care, this is his fault.” Like he didn’t ask you to come. You decided to come and complain the whole time. Most of you haven’t carried your weight since season one.

This is another reason why it’s going to take Jaden so long to tell people who his parent are in my Yugi raises Jaden au. Like homeboy grew up on Téa’s friendship speeches. He was probably so excited to go and find friends like his dad’s.

Cyrus is just not it, like he’s not a bad character, I don’t hate him. I just wish that instead of the writers making Jaden the only one who can do anything they let his friends help. But instead Jaden is constantly standing alone. They are there “cheering” him on, but it doesn’t have the same feel until season 3

I’m going to watch Gx again soon so maybe I’ll feel different.

#yugioh gx #yugi moto #yugi mutou #yugioh #judai yuki #jaden yuki #spiritshipping #jessie anderson #joey wheeler

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twst-kumi · 1 month

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Weeping Maiden prologue part 3

Alexis smiled cutely as he joined the two. His hand still held [Name]’s hand, and he eagerly talked. He was like a sweet child, eyes full of curiosity.

Aurelius couldn't help but grumble as they walked together. It felt like someone had just snatched his place right under his nose.

“_So… the lady in blue?

_She was a courageous adventurer, full of curiosity and kindness. One day, she got to a kingdom that a terrible queen terrorized. She was so terrible that she cut off the head of anyone who displeased her. Indignant of the blatant abuse, she rose against her and inspired many others.

_What happened after that?

_She slew the Jabberwocky, the terrible Queen's champion, and helped the tyrannical queen’s sister to dethrone her. Turned out the tyrant usurped her sister's thrones. I would have to be there at that time. So much drama.”

[Name] smiled as she listened to it carefully. She was curious about everything that the world she only knew behind the screen was expanding before her eyes. It felt more natural. She couldn't help but look at the academy with curiosity. It was like a whole level of hidden lore. Seeing her so immersed in their culture, Aurelius smiled brightly. He felt more excited to show her this world.

“_ Next is the seventh sea princess. She was the youngest princess but didn't hesitate to enter the human world to make peace. At that time, the merfolk and the humans were at war. It turned out that it was all a misunderstanding created by the king’s sister, who was plotting for the crown. She married a human, creating an everlasting peace. They said she was a sage and creative person.

_Her dorm, Oceanid, is led by Rielle. Her direct descendants and the crown prince of the merfolk.

_Oh, I see.”

She knew Rielle. He was like a shadow in Azul’s background story. Knowing he led on the octomer’s bullying, she wasn't really thrilled to meet him. [Name] had a special relationship with the bullying subject. Even more, after she discovered her brother’s school life and the bullying he received. She hated herself for not noticing it at that time.

“_What about the Asian-looking woman?

_She is a hero in an old empire in the east. She had the courage to dress as a man and join the war against a terrible man to protect her family and the emperor. The emperor even recognized her as a war hero.

_Wow, I don’t think I could have even half of her courage.

_Right? Well, everyone in the Kingsword dormitory is both courageous and athletic.

_Stubborn, too.”

Alexis added with a gentle smile. Aurelius subtly glared at the boy like they were some kind of enemy. The more petite boy only smirked at him before leaning against the beautiful girl. He pointed at the only man in the row of statues. It was fun to provoke the other boy.

“_See that man? That prince Ali ababwa.

_Like, Alibaba Express?

_No, Ababwa. And why Express? Is it something from your world?

_Forget it, so… prince Ali?

_He was the lost prince of a kingdom in the desert. He grew up in complete poverty before they found him and saved a princess from a sorcerer who wanted to force her to marry him. The princess was so touched by his generosity toward the commoner that she fell in love with him, and they married.”

[Name] looked at the statue in awe. It didn't have such a lore in the game, but it was exciting and fun to hear. But as much as she started to love this world, she needed to return to her world. She still had her missing brother to find. The young girl surprised herself when she noticed little to nothing she cared about her parents. As she expected, she still couldn't forgive them.

Not liking how deep she was in her thought, Alexis leaned against her ears, gaining an exasperated glare from Aurelius. He mischievously whispered.

“_I would love it if you could focus on me instead, my lady.”

[Name] jumped away, both embarrassed and confused. What was that for?

Alexis looked at her with an amused glint. She looked like a cute rabbit to him. So easily startled and flustered. The sweet-looking boy couldn't help but want to bully her more. Maybe he will try to get a taste next time. She looked absolutely delicious.

Aurelius pushed the girl behind him, now openly hostile to Whitecourt’s student. He grunted as he stepped further between them. Both glared at each other fiercely; they looked ready to get into a fight. It was [Name] who stopped them from going further.

“_A… anyways… What about her?”

Aurelius still glared at Alexis before softly turning to the statue.

“_It’s the Wise woman. She was the chief of an ancient tribe dwelling on ancient magic and wisdom. She loved to explore the world around her and used the knowledge she gained from it to protect her people from invaders. In the end, she was so powerful that they had to flee. Even so, she was very kind and spared them, allowing them to return home.”

Aurelius explained, still glaring at Alexis. His hand pressed against the small of her back, and he walked her away from the main street. As they walked into the building, Neige waved at them happily, running to her. Next to him was another blond boy.

“_Princess! Are you ready for your first day? If you need-!

_She is not a baby Neige. Don't overwhelm her too much.”

Neige ran up to them because she could hear the other students talking about her. It was to be expected as she was the only girl in the academy.

“Hey, look, it’s the girl who appeared in the sacred tree room.”

“Yeah, so the rumors are true. We have a girl in our school this year.”

“Did you hear how Neige called her? I mean, she does look like a princess.”

[Name] blushed a little as she could hear them talk. It looked like she would bear that name until she got home. Neige patted her head while looking at her fondly. She was so adorable. Neige dared not say it out loud, but he couldn’t get her out of his mind.

“_Hello, it’s nice to meet you. I’m Ash Blueglass, Apple Red’s vice dorm leader and a close friend of Neige.

_ I’m [Name] Yamada, and it's nice to meet you too.”

After a brief greeting, she walked to her class with Aurelius and Alexis. Both seemed to have calmed down from their quarrels, but they couldn’t stop glaring at anyone coming too close to her for their taste. Their first class was history with Mr.Pot, a friendly middle-aged man who loved telling stories. He looked funny in his white costume, purple and gold cuff lapel, blue shirt, and pink tie. It was so mismatched it actually suited him. The next class was Alchemy with Teacher Makoa; he was a big man with a proud smile. The man felt a little overwhelmed by his overly confident behavior.

“Hey there! Welcome to the Palace, the academy's one and only cafeteria. I’m Tanis, the chief cook here. Let me or Remy know if you need anything.”

[Name] looked at the charming cook, surprised at his friendly gesture. Behind him, a mouse beastman was also working expertly. She took her tray and sat down with the other. It would be long before the other students would stop staring at her.

The meal was delicious.

She laughed with her new friends while enjoying herself before it was time for her to go to her next class, sports. The teacher, Li Chen, was an ancient Chinese Spelldrive player who retired and became a teacher here. He was a rigorous teacher to his students. At the end of the day, they buy a slushie in Scrooge’s convenience store.

“_Oh, right! do you want to join a club, [Name]?

_I promised Neige that I would go to the music club.

_You love music?

_I guess you could say that. I used to play violin, some piano, and some singing.”

They looked at her in interest; she naturally had a pretty voice, and they wanted to hear her sing now.

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allyymcl · 2 years

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—𝗠𝗖𝗟 𝗕𝗢𝗬𝗦 𝗕𝗘𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗝𝗘𝗔𝗟𝗢𝗨𝗦 (𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗗𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗢𝗡𝗦)

—pairing; ot5 x f!reader

—summary; just hc about the mcl HL boys being jealous

warnings; none for this!

a/n; hello!! this is my first post and i hope you guys like it! english isnt my first language so be kind <3 love you all

—𝗖𝗔𝗦𝗧𝗜𝗘𝗟; 51% (jealousy rating)

oh boyy

castiel is quite impulsive and we all know it

but also, he is pretty confident

in my opinion, cass tends to get jealous when seeing you with specific people

like nath, for example

his first reaction will probably be to make a passive-aggressive comment, but soon he will end up arguing with whoever you are with

this also ends up leading you both into several fights, so sometimes, he try to relax a bit with that.

anyways, you have to prepared for public jealousy scenes

he know he's wrong, but, he cant think clearly in the moment

this also doesnt happen regularly, he bursts out when he cant keep taking it

but, cass isnt even THAT jealous, he's just too intense at the moment of letting it all go

and dont get me wrong, he trusts you

so so much

and thats why he know you would never hurt him

—𝗡𝗔𝗧𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗜𝗘𝗟; 34% (jealousy rating)

i think nath wouldnt be that jealous, because, lets be real

hes pretty mature

EXCEPT, when its about someone he deeply dislikes

maybe castiel, or a friend of yours that is just to touchy

but it isnt like, strong jealousy, just that feeling of wanting you to spend your time w him instead of w that other guy

he prefers to talk about it, and let you know how it makes him feel

THIS IS WHAT WE ALL WANT

COMMUNICATION

he thinks its just so important in your relathionship

he loves you with all his being

and ofc he doesnt want to lose you

but he also wants this relationship to last

thats why he always tries to act mature

so dont expect him to be extremely jealous

—𝗟𝗬𝗦𝗔𝗡𝗗𝗘𝗥; 999% (jealousy rating)

lys is REALLY jealous

BUT

he usually doesnt show it

when he sees you too affectionate with other guy, he feels that weird nauseous feeling in the pit of his stomach, and that blood boiling sensation

tbh he just want to grab you and kiss you in front of the person just so they know youre taken

but he doesnt

actually, he show up there and sneaks "innocently" his arm around your waist

with his aggresive stare, and the coments he makes he just expect the other boy to leave

but if he stays there, he might give you sweet peck on the lips from time to time

that guy better be leaving alreadh or things could get harder

in conclusion: lys is passive-agressive when jealous

—𝗔𝗥𝗠𝗜𝗡; 4% (jealousy rating)

after AL, i cant picture jealous armin

his base in a relathionship is

TRUST

he sooo rarely gets jealous

and if he does he just hides it

also he just trusts you so much that he doesnt want to make you feel uncomfy

he thinks you dont like the toxic men

those who want to show up as manly and make a jealousy scene out of everything

he knows you would never hurt him that way

thats why he never feels the need of telling you to stop spending so much time with others

anyway, ofc he feels jealous

he just doesnt tell you

but he feels it

probably, on their all-nights talks with alexy, he ends up telling him about that

maybe about that friend you keep mentioning

or that other guy that helped you w that stuff he didnt know how

but you wont know that

because probably armin has threatened alexy to not tell you a word he said

he just really doesnt want you to think is intense or anything

pls hug this man

—𝗞𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡; 85% (jealousy rating)

so, kentin isnt so jealous

hes more insecure

he used to follow everywhere since he met you

and you never really noticed him

it took soo long for you to finally correspond his feeling

so, sometimes he just feels like you someday will leave him because hes not as good as the other guy

so, when he sees you talking with aother boy, he just want you to hold him and reassure him

he follow you around like a lost puppy

also tries to back hug you while youre talking with this other person just so they get the hint

if they dont (or pretend not to) he would be SO UPSET is heartbreaking

maybe he would silently ask you get away from him

you would find him just SO adorable that you would just do it

ken wants you to tell him that he is the only one for you and that the other boy doesnt mean anything

def expect a lot of kisses, hand holding, any kind of pda

he just wants to feel loved by you

PLS LOVE THIS MAN

#mcl #mcl boys #mcl headcanons #mcl armin #mcl castiel #mcl high school life #mcl nathaniel #mcl lysander #my candy love #mcl kentin #mcl candy #sucrette #reactions #mcl alternate life

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comphy-and-cozy · 2 years

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You Got What I Need - Brock Boeser

Pairing: Brock Boeser x Reader (f)

Summary: When Brock says something horrible in the midst of an argument, you take off and leave him alone to face the consequences of his actions. Will he be able to win you back, or are you gone forever? Chronicling the aftermath of a fight, featuring big brother Anders Lee.

Word Count: 5.5K

Author’s Note: I had so much fun writing my first fic for @antoineroussel’s fic exchange, I had to do it again as a pinch hitter 😜 This was written for @dazeddobson - this may be a little bit (read: a lot) self-indulgent and contrived but hey, it’s our world and these boys are just living in it, right? I tried to cater to multiple of your likes/asks! Hope you enjoy, beautiful!

Warnings: Angst, language, alcohol use, references to sex/adult themes, brief hockey violence, a little bit of toxic masculinity. Also included: some protective Islanders to make you feel nice and soft.

When Elias answered his door, seeing you with red eyes and a duffel bag was the last thing he was expecting. No, scratch that; having you collapse into his arms, choking out a sob, was the last thing he was expecting.

As soon as the initial shock wore off, he was holding you, hushing you quietly as you let your tears out, spluttering out nonsensical words as you tried to explain what happened not even an hour prior.

You and Brock had spent the afternoon at the dog park, bundling up in the cold January air in Vancouver, carting Coolie and Milo for a day to frolic in the snow. When you got home, rosy-cheeked but feeling warmth in your heart, you got a group FaceTime from your sister, Alexis, with your brother, Anders, to inform you of some big news: She was pregnant with a baby girl.

Of course, you and Brock were over the moon for your sister and her husband, knowing that they were both looking to start their family, and you were already excited about the idea of being a cool aunt. Anders promised to outfit her in Islanders gear, to which Brock jokingly said he’d be battling to make her a Canucks fan instead.

After some happy tears and many congratulations, you finally hung up the call. Brock smiled, beaming at you. “I’m really excited for them. I’m gonna be an uncle!”

“That you are, baby,” you smiled.

He grinned, hand moving to poke you in the stomach. “I can’t wait til we start a family and have little Boeser babies of our own.”

You laughed, lighthearted as you said, “We’ve got plenty of time before that, Brock.”

His face fell. “What do you mean ‘plenty of time’?”

The smile on your face faded too, and you realized the serious turn this conversation was about to take, unable to brace yourself. “I just… I’m not ready for kids yet, Brock.”

“Well, yeah, we’re gonna move to Minnesota first, buy a house, settle down. And then we get married, and then the babies come,” he said matter-of-factly.

You hesitated, and Brock noticed. You saw the hurt in his eyes as he watched you search for the right words.

“Yeah, B, eventually,” you said, emphasizing the ‘eventually’. “But not right now.”

“But — I thought we talked about this. We’re ready.”

“No, Brock, you are ready.”

“What is that supposed to mean?” he asked. The frustration in his voice was evident, rising steadily along with yours.

“It’s not that I don’t love you or don’t want to commit to you, I’m just not there quite yet,” you explained.

“Well, it sure sounds like you don’t want to commit to me,” Brock snapped, your words hurting his heart. “How am I supposed to plan a future with someone who won’t even move with me? It’s not like it’s a big deal. You are literally from Minnesota, too.”

“Because it’s not that simple, Brock! That’s a huge ask — for me to pack up and leave my friends and my job and my entire life here, regardless of who’s waiting for me in Minnesota. Why don’t you understand that?” you tried to explain, pleading with him to step into your shoes.

“I would do it for you,” he said coldly.

You scoffed. “We’ve hardly spent any time in New York since we started dating.”

“We could!”

“No, Brock, we go where your career leads us, when it leads us. Which is fine with me, because you’re doing what you love, and I know what I signed up for by being with you – obviously, I know what it’s like to have a professional athlete in the family. All I’m saying is it’d be nice if we could do some things for me when it’s not all hockey, hockey, hockey,” you said.

“Are you fucking serious?” Brock’s eyes were blazing now. “Do you see this? All of this? I do all of it for you, Y/N!”

“Sure, that’s why we spend so much time in New York,” you retorted, your tone scathing.

Brock scoffed, running a hand through his hair. His cheeks were tinged pink, heated from the argument, as he laughed darkly to himself. “How could I be so stupid thinking you’re the one?”

At his words, you swore you could feel your blood boil. “What the fuck is that supposed to mean, Brock?”

Brock’s eyes were dark, but not in the way you were used to, in the way that meant he’d have you moaning his name shortly; instead, they were hurt, angry, and betrayed. He looked at you, and you barely noticed the moment of hesitation in his eyes before he spat, “I’m just not sure if you’re the person I want to spend the rest of my life with anymore.”

He closed his mouth immediately, regretting the words as soon as they tumbled out. Your eyebrows raised, in shock at his words, feeling the deep slash in your heart as they settled in. Staring at him for a moment, you gave him the opportunity to follow up, to say something else to soften the blow, but he didn’t take it, instead glaring back at you angrily, an angry flush in his cheeks.

Turning on your heel, you left him standing in his own silence, moving to the bedroom to pack a bag. Instead of stopping you like you expected, he just watched you walk out the front door, not glancing back once.

The next morning Brock groaned as he stretched himself awake, rolling over to press a kiss to your temple, but was met with the snoozing bodies of Milo and Coolie instead. Blinking, Brock lifted his head to see the rest of the bed was empty, cold from the absence of your body.

It was in that moment that the memory of the day before came flooding back, and he closed his eyes, the regret sinking deeply into his soul as he remembered the things he said. He had taken the evening to cool off, thinking that you two just needed some time apart before you’d come back and talk things through.

His heart hurt at the notion that you still hadn’t come home, and he had to admit he said some nasty things, but what worried him the most was the validity of them. Was there truth behind the statement he made? Did he not want to spend his life with you? You had been right; you two were at such different parts of your life, so it only made sense you were looking for different things. Was it really unfair to ask you to change that?

Brock checked his phone, hoping to see a message or missed call from you, but was met with nothing, other than a text from Elias letting him know you were with him and safe. Sighing, he glanced at the clock, realizing he needed to head to the rink soon for practice; he’d deal with what he was going to say to you later.

After a grueling practice, Brock caught up with Elias to hear what had happened after you left. Understandably, Elias was pissed.

“Dude, I can’t believe you fucking said that to her,” the Swede shook his head angrily as he packed up his bag.

“I know, man, I just…” Brock trailed off, absentmindedly fiddling with the label on his Gatorade bottle.

“Did you mean it?”

“Did I mean what?”

“What you said. That you don’t want a future with her,” Elias said, watching him intently.

Brock sighed. “I don’t know, man. I mean, I love her so much, I love her more than I’ve ever loved anything. But she’s right. We’re at different points in our lives, and we both want different things. I’m ready to settle down, start a family.”

“How’s that gonna go when you don’t have someone to settle down with? That takes time, you know, and apparently you’re running out of that.” Elias raised an eyebrow. Fuck, he had a point.

“Well, how am I supposed to feel, knowing that she’s not willing to commit to me?” Brock’s defenses were up, not yet ready to admit that he was wrong.

“Dude, she packed up her entire life and moved with you to Vancouver,” Elias pointed out dryly.

“Well, true, but —”

“All she wants is to spend a little more time closer to home when you have the time. It’s not that much to ask, bro. She’s given you everything.”

Well, shit. Elias was right again. “Fuck, man. I fucked up.”

“Ya sure did, Boes. She’s still at my house. You should swing by and talk to her,” Elias suggested, and Brock agreed, getting into his own car to follow him to his house.

When he pulled in the driveway, your car was gone. He and Elias both took to calling out for you, but to no avail. Figuring you must have gone home, Brock turned around and headed back to the apartment you shared together.

It was when your car wasn’t in that driveway either that he started to worry. Heart rate speeding up, he fumbled with his key and pushed through the door, frantically hoping and desperately wishing that at this point your car had been stolen, because at least it’d be better than the alternative —

Tearing through the house, Brock called for you. Milo padded out, confused as to why his dad was acting so funny, and it was when he looked down at Milo that he realized something was missing.

Coolie.

Brock’s heart sank. It couldn’t be — you couldn’t have —

He flew up the stairs to the bedroom, furiously tugging open the dresser drawers to find them empty. Throwing open the closet door, he found your half empty, the hangers hanging neatly on the rack. Barely a single trace of you left in the home you’d made together, gone like you’d never been there at all.

“Fuck,” Brock cursed. He was sure his heart was about to explode, hardly refusing to believe that it — you — were gone.

In that same instance, Brock realized that he had a phone that could contact you. Hands shaking, he clicked on your contact, his favorite photo of you on the beach from a vacation to Mexico a few years ago. His heart nearly thumped out of his chest as he waited to hear your voice on the line, hardly able to handle the anticipation as he listened to ring after ring after ring. When he heard the automated message, he hung up and chucked his phone on the bed, slamming his fist against the wall.

Eyes closed, Brock rested his head against his hand, trying to regain his breath before he figured out what to do. When he opened them, he realized he had put a hole through the wall. Fuck.

He tried calling once, twice, three more times, before he realized you were probably purposely ignoring him, and he sat on the edge of the bed as the realization sank in that you were actually gone. Suddenly, it was like he could see how much of you was in him, in this house, in the life that you had built together. How could he ever see a future without you?

Brock was distraught, beside himself, without any idea where to turn or where you even went. How was he supposed to get you back? As he contemplated his options, a worse thought entered his brain: What if he couldn’t? How was he supposed to live without you?

A week had gone by, and Brock still had received no word from you, only a single post on your Instagram story of the Empire State building, letting him know that you had gone to New York, presumably to stay with your brother. Since you left, he’d also been having one of his worst stretches of his career, consistently missing chances and giving away pucks, letting his opponent’s rookie deke him in a glaringly obvious move that almost had him benched for the rest of the game. Not only was he hurting at home, but now it was affecting his work, too.

He tried texting, tried calling, even messaging on Instagram, with no response. Not even a ‘read’ notification to prove that you were giving him the cold shoulder (though he knew you were). He wasn’t going to even attempt calling Anders – he wasn’t that stupid – but he did call Alexis, desperately begging her to have you call him. She said she’d pass along his message, but she didn’t think it’d do any good. She was right.

Brock knew he had fucked up, but what hurt the most is that he didn’t even have the opportunity to apologize or explain himself, and now you were in this limbo where he didn’t really know what to call you. Was it over for good? All signs pointed to yes, considering every trace of you was gone from the house, but he couldn’t help but hope — hope that you’d give him the chance to talk it out and at least end it to his face. He just had to figure out how to get to you.

It was a Friday night, and after practice, he was off for the night. He wandered around the house listlessly, with the home feeling empty and cold and nothing like a home without you in it.

He had finally found you, the girl of his dreams, but he just couldn’t get things right. How could he have fucked up so royally, letting his emotions get the best of him in the heat of the moment? With just a few simple words, Brock was sure he’d ruined his life. Kicking at a tuft in the carpet, he went into his dresser drawer, ignoring the empty drawers next to his, and pulled out the ring box that he’d been hiding and saving for the right time.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, he opened the box and looked at the ring, the diamond glinting in the light, imagining how pretty it would look on your finger. He had an entire folder on his phone dedicated to the comments you’d make here and there about other girls’ rings, taking note of what you liked and didn’t like, until he pulled the trigger and bought one that was perfect for you. With a sigh, he carefully returned the ring box to its hiding spot, and moved to break out his guitar, strumming lightly.

He had a whole proposal planned, was going to sweep you off your feet before asking you to make him the happiest man in the world and be his forever. He knew how much your music meant to you, and had made an entire playlist of all your favorite songs to listen to whenever he missed you — needless to say, it had been playing on repeat since you left, only making the ache in his heart swell harder.

Brock’s fingers found their place on the strings, playing the familiar tune he had been practicing for months. He strummed the chords of “10,” envisioning the look on your face when he’d surprise you, playing your favorite song, before getting down on one knee.

As the song played, he could have actually kicked himself. In another world, he’d laugh at the irony of the song — your song — and how it painfully juxtaposed the situation he was in now.

I never had it so easy She taught me how to be She’s a keeper And I ain’t goin’ nowhere

She’s fire, a messiah She ain’t a ten, she’s higher And I don’t wanna waste no time She’s flawless, I’m in awe She ain’t a ten, she’s more My eyes never wander, there’s no need to explore She’s everything that I’ve Been looking for

She’s the one I’ve waited for

Brock swallowed the lump in his throat, bitterness resting on his tongue. He’d never forgive himself if he lost you forever because of a few stupid words — words he didn’t even mean. He looked at his phone one last time, hoping for a text he knew wasn’t there, and then he made up his mind.

He stood up, grabbing his duffel bag that he usually brought on road trips — a gift from you for Christmas one year, embroidered with his initials — and shoved some clothes in, not really paying much attention to what he was packing. He sent a quick text to Elias, giving Milo a scratch behind the ears, and then he was in his car on his way to the airport.

He had to see you, to try one last time.

When you left, you knew you may have been a bit melodramatic, but leaving was the only option that felt right; you didn’t feel comfortable in your own home anymore, not after the words that Brock had cut your heart with. So, you called Anders, who, of course, welcomed you with open arms.

He’d picked you up from the airport, listening with an expressionless face as you told him what happened. Naturally, playing the role of your protective older brother, he offered to murder Brock and hide the body, and you laughed as you declined, citing that it might make his job a little difficult to do in prison. Really, you weren’t sure what was next, only that you needed some time to think and to let your heart heal from Brock’s words.

In the same vein, Anders and his teammates were excited to have you in town, surrounding you with love and laughter from the minute you set foot on the Island. Though it didn’t fill the gap in your heart, the warmth was a soothing comfort that you desperately needed.

When Mat asked you to hang out, you accepted instantly. Did you know he had a crush on you? Yeah. And was there a mutual attraction there? Maybe. But he knew, and you knew, that even if you were spending time with him, maybe even flirting with him a little, that that was all it could be for now, both because of Anders and Brock. You weren’t sure what your relationship status was, but you didn’t think you were single — at least, not yet. Still, it was nice to feel wanted and appreciated, and it didn’t hurt that Mat was sweet and kind and caring. And maybe it felt a little bit satisfying to know that someone was interested in a future with you, even if you really only wanted a future with one person.

Brock’s nerves were out of control as he drove to Anders’ home, getting halfway there before he realized that hadn’t looked in a mirror all day and had no idea what he even looked like, so he made a pit stop at the nearest supermarket to freshen up.

As he was leaving the restroom, he fell upon a familiar face: Noah Dobson. Noah greeted him with a quick hug and a short smile, and in that moment Brock knew that he knew.

“Hey, man, it’s good to see you. What’re you doing here?” Noah asked, though Brock also suspected that he knew the answer to that, too.

“I just… I have to see Y/N,” Brock explained. “Do you… do you know where she is?”

Noah shifted on his feet, casting his eyes down. “Yeah, I think she’s… out tonight.”

“Out? Out where?”

Noah hesitated, and Brock nodded silently to let him know he was ready to hear whatever he was going to say next. “She’s out with Mat. I’m sorry, man.”

“Mat? Mat Barzal?”

“Yeah. She’s been spending a lot of time with him since… since she got here. She doesn’t seem good though, dude. Whatever happened between you two fucked her up.”

Brock cursed, running a hand over his face in frustration. It broke his heart to hear that you, too, were hurting, maybe just as bad as him, though he couldn’t decide what was worse: you being in pain, or you being over it already.

“Yeah, man, I know, I fucked up big time.”

“Yeah…” Noah trailed off awkwardly. “Well, good luck, dude.”

With a nod of thanks, Brock walked back out to his rental car. He could drive to Anders’, waiting awkwardly with your menacing big brother who probably wouldn’t hesitate to murder him, or he could wait it out. It wasn’t a difficult decision to make.

Brock drove around aimlessly, not sure where he was going. Part of him hoped he’d run into you and Mat, and the other part of him never wanted to see his face with yours ever. What were you even doing with Mat anyways? What did Noah mean by “spending time together”? Were you two fucking? Was it more — already? Would it be cheating if it was? Fuck, he just had to get to you.

Eventually, he decided to get out and walk around as a way to help relieve some of the pent up energy and kill some time before he thought you might be home. He wandered the streets, taking in the sights and sounds of Long Island.

Then, he heard your voice. Your laugh, actually. A rush of excitement flooded through him, oddly mixed with a deep fear that resided low in his gut. He looked up right as you were walking out of the restaurant, laughing at something Mat had said. He was laughing, too, and Brock’s blood started to boil when he noticed Mat’s hand resting on your lower back.

It also happened at that same moment that the coffee he had grabbed slipped out of his hand, spilling all over the sidewalk, and of course, attracting the attention of you and your date.

“B-Brock?” you called, as he hastily attempted to clean up the mess he had made, trying to act nonchalant.

He stood up, clearing his throat, attempting to act casual even though he knew how fucking crazy he looked flying all the way here to see you, unnanounced. “Hi. You, um, you look really nice.”

Brock could see the hesitation in your eyes, clearly having an inner battle with yourself about what to do next. You folded your arms, not wanting to accept his compliment. “What are you doing here?”

He sighed, the entire speech he had prepared flying out the window as his heart softened seeing you in front of him. “I had to come see you, baby. I need you to know I’m so sorry for what I said. I know I fucked up, and you have every right to hate me, but please just hear me out.”

You raised an eyebrow at him. “What’s left to say? You made your feelings pretty clear, Brock.”

“No, baby, please —“

“I’m sorry you came all this way, but I think you should leave.”

“Y/N, please, I love you,” he begged, desperately searching for the words that would convey how he felt. “Please. I can’t do this without you.”

“Brock,” you said, your tone final, though he could’ve sworn he heard a waver in your voice. “Please leave. Go home.”

With that, you turned on your heel, walking the other direction with Mat. Brock stood, dumbfounded, numb, frozen to his spot, as he watched you walk away from him forever.

Brock took a breath to calm his nerves — it was more than just the usual pregame jitters; this time, he knew you’d be in the stands watching him. Or, watching Mat. Or maybe both? He didn’t know.

Once he had left New York, at your request, he was completely distraught. He returned to Vancouver hopeless, depressed, and a complete shell of himself, certain he had lost you forever. Elias came to check up on him the next day, discovering him asleep on the bathroom floor at 2pm, surrounded by empty bottles of Tanqueray.

Elias had heaved Brock up, forcing him into the shower and getting him some food and a Gatorade to replenish his system. He winced upon hearing Brock retching in the shower, and knew in that moment this was so much worse than he feared.

“Come on, buddy, I got you,” Elias grunted, helping Brock out of the shower, into some sweatpants, and onto the couch. “What happened, man?”

Brock recanted the whole horrible story, feeling his heart shattering all over again as he replayed the image of you turning away from him. He was sure he’d be haunted by that vision for the rest of his life, never able to forgive himself.

“We’re gonna get through this, okay, brother?”

As Brock skated out onto the ice, he felt the familiar adrenaline rush through him, though this time for a different reason than normal. He swore he could feel your eyes on him, and as he skated through warmups, his eyes darted around to find the familiar warmth of yours. It wasn’t until he was about to skate off to head back into the locker room that he finally spotted you, eyes gazing at him. He offered a soft smile, which you returned.

After the incident, Elias had helped Brock to get back on his feet, bringing him to practice and, between him and several other guys, checking up on him regularly. What Brock didn’t know, though, was that Elias had (somehow) recruited Anders, and the two were working overtime trying to convince you to talk to Brock when the Canucks visited New York two weeks later.

Somehow, by some miracle, it worked, though Elias never knew that it was actually Mat who talked you into seeing Brock. You begrudgingly agreed to talk, less because you were ready to see him, and more because you knew that you owed it to him to hear him out. The arrangement was that you’d meet with him after the game was over, because you didn’t want to distract him from playing with his full focus. Joke was on you, though, because he could do nothing but play out every possible scenario in his head, completely distracting him from the game itself.

Still, the game was underway, and Brock was able to get himself out of his head enough to focus each shift, sort of. Right from the get go, it was a chippy game — or at least, it was for Brock. It seemed every Islander on the ice had it out for him, checking him and slamming him into the boards whenever they had the chance. He couldn’t help but notice that he was being attacked more than anyone else, and he had to admit, he admired their tenacity.

At the start of the second period, the Canucks were up by one, until the Isles scored to tie up the game, equalized by none other than Mat fucking Barzal. Brock grimaced watching the celebration, his eyes immediately darting to you, his heart sinking as he watched you cheering with elation.

You continued to watch the game, torn between watching Mat, and the rest of your Isles, and Brock. As the Canucks entered the Isles’ zone, you watched Elias set up a play, winding up to take a shot, when all of a sudden your eyes were directed to a commotion on the opposite side of the goal. Gloves were flying, and there was a tangle of blue and green as you realized what was happening; Tito – Tito! – had dropped his gloves in favor of landing a solid punch to Brock’s face, delivering a beat down, keeping the advantage from the get go. The two men wrestled their way to the ground, punches flying.

Eventually, the two were broken up, and the adoration in your heart you felt for Tito was quickly shrouded by fear and worry as you watched the trainers run over to Brock, blood dripping freely onto the ice. He was escorted off, leaving for the rest of the game — which, at that point only had 5 minutes left anyways.

Somehow, someway, the Isles ended up winning the game, 3-2, but you could hardly be bothered as you raced down to the locker room, flashing your visitor’s badge from Anders. You waited impatiently, anxious, for the guys to wrap up their post-game scrum before you were allowed in, seeing Brock with a butterfly bandage on his cheek and a tissue sticking out of his nose to stop the bleeding.

You couldn’t help but giggle a little at the sight, relieved that he was awake and seemed to be doing fine, and then he caught sight of you, his heart leaping through his chest.

“Hi,” you offered shyly.

“Hey,” he said, trying to keep his voice normal.

“How’re you doing?” you asked.

“Oh, I’m good, Beau got me pretty good but I’ll survive,” Brock responded, smiling a little and wincing slightly at the movement. “Have to say, those guys sure love you. Was a little nervous your brother was going to take off his skate and slit my throat.”

With a dry chuckle, you hummed, your heart fluttering at their display of loyalty throughout the game. You made a mental note to thank Tito, the unlikeliest of fighters.

“How are you?” his question pulled you out of your musings, and when you looked at him he was glancing at you anxiously.

You weren’t sure your voice would speak at this point, but you tried anyway, croaking out a quiet, “I’m good.”

He cleared his throat, attempting to swallow his nerves as the room cleared out. “You want to talk?”

You nodded. “I think I owe you an apology. I’m sorry for shutting you out like that when you came here to talk; I was just surprised to see you and didn’t know how to react. I know me leaving like that was… maybe a little dramatic. I just needed some time… time to think.”

“Oh, no,” Brock shook his head. “I shouldn’t have surprised you unannounced like that in the first place. It’s my fault.”

You bit your lip, falling silent, not sure what else to say.

“Y/N, I’m so sorry, for everything. I said some really stupid shit that I didn’t mean, and I know that doesn’t change the fact that I said it, but I just need you to know that I love you more than anything in this world, and this time away from you has only made me positive that you’re the one I want to spend my life with,” Brock said, all in one breath. “I’d wait fifteen years for you if that’s what you needed.”

You looked up at him, suddenly shy at his outpouring of emotion. It was redeeming and wonderful and sweet, all at once.

He took another breath, saying slowly, “But I understand that I fucked it up, and I’ll spend the rest of my life waiting for you.”

“Brock,” you spoke finally, your voice small. “What do you mean?”

He shrugged, his eyes cast down as he gestured behind you. “You’ve found the one. You should go be with him. I’m happy for you, Y/N. I really am. That’s all I’ve ever wanted, was for you to be happy, even if it wasn’t by me.”

“Mat? Brock, he’s not the one,” you said, resisting the urge to giggle at his dramatic speech.

“He- he’s not?”

“No, Brock, he never was. We’re just friends,” you explained. .”Do you really think my brother would let me date Mat Barzal?”

Brock shrugged, realizing that maybe he’d made a few assumptions along the way. Then, taking a deep breath, you added, “It’s always been you.”

The silence hung in the air for what felt like an eternity as Brock stared at you. Were you really saying what he thought you were saying?

“Brock, what you said really hurt me, because you’re the only person I want a future with, so hearing that you didn’t want that was… tough,” you continued. “But that doesn’t mean I don’t still love you.”

“Oh, baby, I love you too,” Brock sighed, relief flooding through him at hearing those words from your lips. He stood up quickly to pull you into his arms, wrapping themselves tightly around you. As you returned his embrace, you could feel him shaking slightly, and you realized he was crying.

“B, why are you —”

“I just love you so fucking much, baby.”

“You are an idiot, but I love you for it,” you grinned, and the next thing you knew, he was kissing you like he’d never kissed you before. His lips pressed firmly against yours, like he was trying to pour every emotion he had for you into the kiss, holding you close to him.

Brock’s hands slid from their place on your back, one trailing up to cup your face, the other taking hold of your hip, as he softly ran his tongue along your lip before slipping it into your mouth. You sighed against him, the mood instantly changed.

“Back to the hotel?” you asked against his lips, and he chuckled, nodding in agreement.

“Unfortunately I don’t think I’m allowed to fuck you in the visitor’s locker room.”

#brock boeser fic #brock boeser fanfic #brock boeser blurb #brock boeser imagine #brock boeser x reader #brock boeser x y/n #hockey fic #hockey blurb #hockey imagine #nhl imagine #vancouver canucks fic

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I love all your characters sosososoososoooo much and is like to know more about Athanasios. In my head he’s like the straight man so Id like to know what batshit insane hijinx he gets caught up in

Ohh boy ‼️‼️‼️ for the duration of the post I will be calling him Niki (shortening of his last name, nikitas) because I cannot type his full name properly 90% of the time 👍

Right! He believes he’s straight for the majority of his life, and realises he’s actually aroace very shortly before he becomes a ghost (he also thought he was homophobic for a bit because he was repulsed by the idea of any romance). This is not important to the plot at all but I like it being known because it’s important to him 👍

In his childhood, his family was not necessarily abusive, but very rarely payed attention to him, bordering on neglect, meaning that Niki spent most of his time with Ares, Shimmer, Letalis, and slightly later, Python. Python is the only one who’s family never had a high role in the government and later mentions feeling slightly isolated due to this, though it isn’t a large plot point, just an influence. All of the main 4 kids are about 12 when they all meet, ares is linked due to being shimmer’s older brother. They also all have nicknames (letalis umbra; Lucius or luci, athanasios nikitas; Niki, Alexis Harlowe; python. It’s suggested that shimmer had one but never brought up.) Of course, Ares ran the organisation (though everyone thought Kronos did other than people ares had told), Letalis’ family ran a branch of it, having the second highest role, and where Niki’s family still had high roles, they still worked for the other two’s families. Letalis’ family and Ares both made it very clear to Niki’s father that he’d lose his job if Niki got hurt, and it’s slightly implied that this is why his family was neglecting at worst, but never violent.

Niki was (for most of his childhood) the least likely one to start conflicts or actively choose to do stupid things, but he’d always stand up for the others without much hesitation at all after things would go wrong. He was also the oldest by a year or two. He had the most knowledge of how the entire government system worked, and was the first one to ask ares why python’s family never interacted with other’s families, as well as the first to ask ares to help. Him and Shimmer interacted with Ares the most and knew how he actually acted, unlike Letalis, who only knew Ares as the persona he used in meetings or presentations, or python, who didn’t seem to care for a while.

He also held grudges the most, and was extremely stubborn, he’d stand by a point if it killed him, and did for his entire life.

When python ‘disappeared’ presumed dead at 17, Niki entirely held the blame against ares, who was too upset to say otherwise. He slowly isolated himself further from ares and shimmer, associating with Kronos and working on some highly morally questionable projects. The cut one of these was a science experiment on a young child with a powerful skill in which she was put through the worst situations possible to test responses. I believe she eventually either died from shock or ran away and died or disappeared somewhere else, but I didn’t write that bit so I can’t remember.

The first time he’s ever shown in the game he is introduced as Ares’ assistant (assigned by Kronos), and immediately tries to convince him to kill shimmer instead of finding them and bringing them back alive. He mentions as a ghost that he had wanted to test if there was any semblance of humanity left in ares enough for him to defend shimmer, or even attack Niki for saying that, but due to being almost entirely caught up in an act, ares just goes “well I’d rather not kill them myself but we could consider it if they keep causing problems. Not yet though”.

From this point to directly before his death, Niki is exclusively painted as evil, he has entirely given up on shimmer and ares, and seen reports of what the fuck letalis has been up to since python ‘died’*, meaning he ruled everyone he used to care about as ‘fucked up and evil and murderous’, so he decides to get on that train fully too; no one would be able to tell the difference anymore anyway.

*met Eris, was a serial killer for a bit, 100% killed and ate people (the reports are confidential and not public but Niki saw)

Just before Ares fakes his death for the first time, Niki tries to confront him, calling him an idiot and a coward for not killing shimmer. Unfortunately, ares is having a nervous breakdown, and stabs athanasios in the stomach, leaving him in a burning building to die. Ares does not actually manage to get out on his own, he has asthma and collapses from the smoke inhalation until shimmer drags him out of the building.

It’s never described how Niki is brought back any of the times, but it’s mentioned that it is always linked to Kronos/Kronos chooses for it to happen. The first time, he looks slightly rotten and burnt, but you wouldn’t immediately go “he’s been dead.” He just looks horribly injured. You meet him again before Ares returns thinking dolos is dead, and he helps letalis with their plan of find and killing ares, during which they almost torture shimmer to death (thinking that they know). After this happens, Dolos shows up for the first time, with a man called Mars who is completely unrelated to anything at all and gets almost beaten to death by Lyssa for saying that ares deserved to die. ‘Mars’ finds letalis and tears her eyes out, then both him and dolos disappear again, never seeing Niki, nor knowing that he was alive and involved, which Niki was very thankful for.

When ares comes back, Niki makes it his role to antagonise him as much as possible; made very easy by how fucked up ares is, having repetitive flashbacks to watching dolos die. Niki’s final straw per se was when he stole a necklace from dolos which ares had kept and threatened to destroy it, and after a violent fight, Niki has ares at gun point and makes some comments about everything around ares dying. With little to no warning he puts the gun in his own mouth and pulls the trigger, which ares takes as ‘proving his point’, but was actually caused by dolos.

When Niki is finally brought back, he is visibly a corpse, and completely drenched in blood. He is brought back to supervise ares, who grew significantly harder to blackmail and more unstable after finding out dolos was alive. It’s never explained whether he started trying to destroy things hoping he could get back to dolos even after telling him to leave, or if he entirely gave up and started breaking things to lash out at something. But Niki is told to watch and make sure that ares doesn’t destroy the building again or leave. Niki has almost given up on his stubborn point of hating ares, making slight jokes about how ares should kill Kronos this time, how he hates that he’s back.

Ares pours them both a drink. He never even touches his cup. Niki knows what is going to happen. He tells ares that he was sorry for how everything turned out, and it is barely even acknowledged.

Niki talks about how the system had always worked, anyone who works for them has one engineered weakness to get rid of them if they try to leave. Letalis’ legal record, shimmer’s addictions, and ares was never taught to swim- he’d drown from even falling into a river. Ares asks what Niki thought his weakness was, the way they’d get rid of him if they had to. Niki says that he thinks it was Ares. He sends a message to Kronos, setting up his murder for ares, and tells ares to burn the place to the ground. His body is never found.

As a ghost, Niki spends his time attempting to get people to see him so he can finally leave, but every time he is actually visible he exclusively spends the time saving other people. He tells ares that he needs to protect Corvus because they are Kronos’ child and that knowledge might be dangerous. He saves someone’s life by showing them the way out of a building they were trapped in. He leads Pluto to someone who is dying so that he saves them. He makes no progress in saving himself. He has not yet been written to ever make any progress on it, actually.

I know I missed something im so eepy but um The 👍 I can answer questions if something doesn’t make sense

#my posts dont forget this tag bro.#theproject.#I love him he’s so tragic he gets trapped in his own dramatic outburst for his entire life #oh also in his entire life he never found out that python was alive by the way. he only finds out after he dies.

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May I ask you at what point it's clear Anne wrote/decided that Armand was physically a teenager? He doesn't seem to be written specifically as one during IWTV (especially) or even QOTD -- possibly why he's portrayed as a grown man in the early comic books and in the 1994 film?

Okay hahah full disclosure I’m writing this at work instead of working and I don’t have books with me to pull quotes so use your imagination or if anyone wants to jump in with some quotes please feel free!

So in IWTV he’s just described as a young man, and Louis doesn’t go crazy telling us too much about what he looks like. I have a few thoughts about this, and about how it influenced the movie and other incarnations of Armand:

Louis has spent most of his vampire life with a grown woman who looks like a 5 year old, so BIG FUCKIN DEAL LOL, wow ur 17? Get in line.

The movie specifically made him older & more spooky old world looking for the visual contrast, also to sidestep Louis’s rebound love interests both being children/young.

I don’t think we should get too nitpicky about the comic books like let’s, just. Lmao. Let’s leave that one.

By the time he shows up in TVL is when he goes from being described as “young man” to “young boy”.

I lied I do have this one quote:

This was a boy, as I had said, and he had a head of long curly hair, and he walked very straight and very simply through the silvery light and into the church. He hesitated for a moment. And by the tilt of the head, it seemed he was looking up. And then he came on through the nave and towards us, his feet making not the faintest sound on the stones. He moved into the glow of the candles on the side altar. His clothes were black velvet, once beautiful, and now eaten away by time, and crusted with dirt. But his face was shining white, and perfect, the countenance of a god it seemed, a Cupid out of Caravaggio, seductive yet ethereal, with auburn hair and dark brown eyes.

So there’s like, 12 years or whatever that she took between books and that gives her a lot of time to let her mental image and idea of the character to evolve, but also just her writing style is so different. I remember Anne saying that she also had Stella from The Tales of Hoffmann in mind when she wrote Armand, so he evolved from “ageless & androgynous” to “gleaming manikin of a young boy” !

For a visual reference, this is Moira Shearer as Stella, which Anne said was Armand in her mind:

And this is the painting Lestat mentioned:

But I think we are all aware of the tonal shift phenomenon between IWTV & TVL where IWTV is this like, heavy melancholy Gothic tome and then Lestat just shows up and fucking wrecks the place. I don’t recall ever hearing her talk about this aspect of Armand and I don’t know if she had it in her mind the whole time, even if Louis didn’t take the time to describe it in detail the way Lestat does. I’d love to know how much of this was in her mind the whole time and if anyone has clues please let us know!!!!!!!

TLDR to answer your question, it’s ambiguous in IWTV and obvious in TVL.

HOWEVER.

I have this crack theory lmfao. !!!!!!!!!! About how Prince Alexi in The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty is also an auburn haired teenager, and how it was written in between the two VC books.

I mean like. Anne can say anyone has auburn hair but it’s just such a staple for Armand 2 ICONIC so how are you NOT gonna wonder about it when she’s writing BDSM porn? Idk.

There’s really no evidence for this except me with my Charlie Day board but sometimes I wonder if that break between books influenced her idea of him at all, and what impact it had on her prose for when she returned to Lestat, and I always wonder if they’re connected at all. IT JUST SEEMS SUSPICIOUS TO ME.

Like I mean. I think, there’s lots of teenagers in her books, so maybe this isn’t really much of a coincidence. But. I must wonder!

#vampire chronicles #armand #interview with the vampire #the vampire lestat #the claiming of sleeping beauty #anne rice #tvl quotes #vc quotes #moira shearer

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magicalyaku · 1 year

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After the first week of February I decided I would only read sequels. I made true on that for a few books until my library app fucked me over and didn't download Simon Snow 3 which I intended to start reading during my break at work (where I have no internet). I was so mad! 8D I was sulking afterwards and started a different book once I got home and the resolution was broken. Instead the theme of the month can easily be "I have never read so many books with adult characters in a row."

Das Verbotene Kapitel / The Lost Plot (The Invisible Library 8) (Genevieve Cogman): I honestly wasn't too invested in this. I was like for the first two days, but the writing style of this series always takes so long to read for me. I used to like it, but right now I just lack the patience. Also, it's the eighth volume. High time for it to end, really. Halfway through I switched to the audiobook to listen to while gaming and well. I'm not good at listening while doing other things. Maybe I'll pick the book up again in a few years to give the second half a proper read. I was content though with what I heard of the end.

The High King's Golden Tongue (Tales of the High Court 1) (Megan Derr): I said "I need more fantasy buhu *sad face*". And then I looked at my TBR and realised that out of 50 books only 3 have absolutely no magic, ghosts, different worlds or planets or whatsoever. Uhm. Well. Errr ... That didn't stop me from going through this recommendation list for queer fantasy books. uAu" Found this book. Sounded alright. Read the preview pages. Sounded alright. Looked it up in the library, uhuh available immediately! Borrowed it. Read it for the remainder of the day and a few hours of the night. uAu~ I can safely say I had fun reading this book. It's not fantasy with magic and creatures, just old kingdoms full of queer people. The worldbuilding is good, with all the different regions and languages being a major plot point. I liked the adventure, the characters (Sarrica's and Lesto's friendship is great), the pining. Good times!

The Pirate of Fathoms Deep (Tales of the High Court 2) (Megan Derr): The follow-up to Golden Tongue! I was unsure at first if I wanted to read the sequels (there are of 5 volumes in the series at the moment), but vol 2 is about Lesto who was my favourite character in vol 1, so no choice. It's like that 5.5 chapter of a boys love manga though. In the 5 chapters of the main story everything is tame until the bonus 5.5 chapter where they can finally do things. In High Court 1, there's exactly one smut scene. In vol 2, there's a million. And the book is only half the size! D: There is a small adventure going on and given the setting it makes sense that it progresses the way it does, but the 3 books afterwards are full length again, so why is it only this one character who gets the short one? u_u He's happy in the end, so all is well, but I would have liked a little more. I guess I have to continue reading the next volumes in the hopes to get a few glimpses. u3u

Husband Material (Forever Material in the German edtion) (Alexis Hall): After two books with middle-aged man and their (amourous) adventures, we slowly inch back to the younger generation. From end-thirties to mid-twenties! Books written by adults for adults, you know. Adult problems. Brrrr. At least, it's funny. Silly even. Was the first one this silly? I think, Oliver and Luc did well sorting through their various issues. I enjoy Luc’s narrative voice. And I loved the ending! xD It must be such a sore point for many people but I was like HELL YEAH!!!

Out of Nowhere (In the Middle of Somewhere 2) (Roan Parrish): I already read the first and third volume of this series, so reading volume 2 was inevitable even though Colin was not the most likeable character in vol 1. And well, he has issues let me tell you. Daniel of vol 1 was a mess but he managed to get a new start and build something for himself in that place. Will of vol 3 may not have the healthiest lifestyle but he was not unhappy with the direction of his life before meeting Leo. Whereas Colin is absolutely miserable and has no idea what to do about it. It was intruiging to read how he and Rafe managed. You know, there's this thing about this kind of books where the characters meet exactly the kind of person they need to survive and to thrive. Even with all the shit going on in this particular one, it's still comforting. xD

Wayward Son (Simon Snow 2) (Rainbow Rowell): The gang is 20, so it doesn't break the streak! I had fun reading this. Curiously, I liked it better than volume 1. Not quite sure why. (Maybe because of Suffering Boys.) Volume 1 was interesting in the way it felt like the 8th season of a series you haven't seen any episodes of before. Now this is the rare look at what happens to the heroes after the series ends and I'm here for it. I also found it remarkable how Baz was described as that utmost evil and ruthless being at first and turns out now he is the most loving and patient boyfriend of all times. xD

Pictures of You (Tina Winter): German author here. It's very basic in the theme and kind of predictable. But in a comforting way. Sometimes it's nice to know where everything will go so you can just lean back and enjoy the ride. The characters were pretty good and the setting was well illustrated. I mentioned last month that my visualisation abilites are not very good but I had no problem seeing the photos the protagonist takes which was pretty neet! I also very much appreciated how all the important conflicts actually happen and are resolved! That’s not a given. xD

Ring of Solomon (Aden Polydoros): I like Mr Polydoros' other books and I appreciate very much how all his books are different from each other. This one is contempory middle grade with a touch of magic. It was pretty okay, but I think it could have been a little bit deeper, a little more ambitious or challenging or complicated. Just more. Yes, it's middle grade but kids are always smarter than adults give them credit for, right? I feel, if you really want them to adore a book you have to give them something challenging that is a little bigger than themselves so that they can grow into it.

Reforged (Seth Haddon): Another gay king+knight story that made me realise I very much have a weakness for this kind of setting. xD Which is so weird because when I look through YA books and see a heroine who is a queen or princess fighting for her kingdom I immediately click away ... Well. This was a solid book. Not quite as joyful as A Taste of Gold and Iron or The High King's Golden Tongue but still solid (also it's a debut). The author clearly put thought and love into his main characters and probably the worldbuilding. Sometimes it was just written in a way that confused me at first, because the actual thing was named late. There's that other paladin guy who works alongside our hero. When he's introduced, it's written "They never got along." and then 90 pages later: "Now that XX was dead, he was his closest friend" And I was like "What?! I thought you hate each other? Did I read wrong? Let me leaf back real quick!" I mean, there is the possibility that among all those people he doesn't get along with this one is still the best but ... that's kinda sad. 8D So, there's small things like that. But the overall story and intrigue was well done I think.

Keeper of the Lost Cities 2: Exile (Shannon Messenger): I stayed at my parents's place for a few days to take care of the cats and thus my commute to work was twice as long as usual, so this came in from the library at just the right time. I listened to the audiobook though, so it was still a struggle for the first 8 hours. I'm so bad with audiobooks. 8D But the beginning was also very slow. It picked up speed around the halfway point, I'd say and also Keefe is my favourite character so I appreciated hearing more of him. I still find it a little odd how some of the characters' attitude towards Sophie is. Guys, she's only thirteen and didn't know about her powers for the longest time! How do you expect her to be perfect at everything and solve everything this very second? Geez. I'll probably continue with the 3rd volume at some point but I should really think about reading it instead of listening. :'D

On to the next month! As of writing this I already have read the best book of March, I swear. xD I’m possibly still high enough to even make a fanart happen.

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Everything I Love about Armin's Alternate life so far

1. It's realistic??? I mean, let's face it. It was so like Armin to behave like that and focus more on a preparing the big suprise and forget about everything else? He just gets hyped so fast and we have already seen that in a spin off, for example? And Candy always was overreacting instead of talking with boys first (e.g. Priya's arrival). And Armin was, in fact, most immature of them all, and I just knew their problem would be in communication.

2. IT WAS SO FUN! The dialogues got me laughing soooooo much i cried because IT WAS JUST GETTING BETTER AND BETTER. AND THE INSIDE JOKE ABOUT BALDNESS? GOT ME WHEEZING WMAJJSNSBS

I feel like humour was one of the best thing so far, i had such a good time playing this episode akalsoxowjajja

3. Just Armin. Like, the first time I played the episode i was so hyped i was too happy to see him and read him to focus. My mind went like "ARMIN ARMIN ARMIN BARK BARK BARK BARK" and i cried too much and laughed all the time and i had to replay it so to process all the data (lololol)

And i have SO MANY THINGS TO SAY ABOUT MY PRETTY BOY, YOU HAVE NO IDEA

Because the break up from his perspective was just as bad and hurtful, leaving him confused about what have happened and after he worked so hard just so he could suprise her (and he worked even in GARDEN!!?!?! like, OUTSIDE!!!?!!). Yet he behaved way better than Candy, he was quite polite and he really just saw her and instead of getting just as mad as her, he wanted to take his chance to make things better between her, just like Alexy has planned.

I loved when he tried to start a polite conversation (Candy could never. And they both were hurt so it really makes him seem more mature than her WHICH IS JUST AS NEW AS HIS SUDDEN LOVE FOR SHOPPING).

I also felt like he interrupted Rosalya just because he noticed Candy was uncomfortable, because he did it only after looking at her and i honestly loved this moment way too much than i should have.

His teasing seemed more flirty than mean. I think he actually hoped they would start being friendly and forget about the fight, maybe he even planned to ask her out when she'll calm down and stop attacking him? Especially in a mall (I know, i know, the bus scene, but as much as i enjoyed it, i think it was actually more teasing less flirting, at least because of the way he ended it :<). But when Candy goes to get some food and he plays with her hair and whispers to her and proves that he know her by not only remembering her regular order but literally talking about it in so many details, like, he wanted to show her that he cared SO MUCH 🥺🥺🥺🥺 my poor baby 🥺 also the fact that he actually followed her even tho he didn't have to stick with her, he wanted to talk to her, spend time with her, he was desperate to be with her and you cannot change my mind about that.

He offered her his help at the computer store and talked about how great time they had together while gaming in the past and i'm sure he thought it's finally his chance to shine and be a good (boy)friend and wkksjsjdjdjjd he imagine him getting so tired when she starts to yell at him again, no wonder that he lost his patience after all.

And even when he did lost his patience it was actually just him saying how much he cared AND WHEN SHE TOLD HIM THAT NOW HER WHOLE LIFE IS WITHOUT HIM???? I'm so sure i heard the sound of his heart breaking into tiny pieces. When he finally realised that he doesn't, in fact, have a chance to try again with her, she doesn't want to try again. And that's when he finally left, because his hopes were buried.

And when no one really understood why Armin haven't told her about the Disneyland after the breakup or even now when they met again and why he forbade Alexy to talk about it, i might have an idea. I mean, i could be wrong, but i think he just didn't want her to feel guilty about the situation?? Like, in his mind his idea with the suprise was great so he thought that as soon as she will acknowledge it she would be devastated about how she has treated him? I don't say it was his firsty thought, because at first he was probably just angry and confused, but when they met again, now that he's healed, he just didn't want her to feel bad. Idk, it's actually a great wonder to me too, but that's my closest guess. Also, he didn't say it out loud but i think he actually realises HOW MUCH stupid this idea was and what he did wrong because he was so nervous when she confronted him about it? I feel like the emotions and the way she really blamed him for everything while it wasn't entirely his fault and just how mean she was made him not confessing it to her. I mean, he did said it might have been stupid, but he didn't actually apologized or state that it was, not just might have been, u know? If only Candy could behave herself and take a few deep breaths (and maybe realised she wasn't oerfect either) before talking to him, i bet things would have went differently😫

And then the KISS 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

The way he stiffened at first, but then just relaxed and kissed her back like it was the most natural thing to do, like those last three years have never existed, like they weren't just yelling at each other a second ago??? HOW HE WRAPPED HIS HANDS AROUND HER AND PUT HER EVEN CLOSER?!?!!? IF THAT WASN'T HIM SCREAMING HOW MUCH HE MISSED HER, I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE DID?!?!

Also, i love the illustration, how their outfits just match and how they still look angry while kissing, like THE TENSION AGGGRHHH i love images like this, it's officially one of my fav illustration in the whole game (not as nice as Campus Life Nathaniel 16 tho, haha)

And i have so mant thoughts about Armin, but i think i will just shut up for now and let my emotions fall down a bit hahhaa

4. Outfits for AL Armin are the best ones in AL. I love every single one of them, the outfit we buy with real money included. They're totally my style, they're well made, they're just perfect

5. Rosalya and Alexy's redemption after LL. No more comments about it, i'm just glad they're making them, well, them, at least in all of the ALs, cause i refuse to believie they weren't kidnapped and replaced by their fake versions in LL

6. HAVE I MENTIONED THE ILLUSTRATION??? NO???? OH WELL MY BAD, BECAUSE THE ILLUSTRATION 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

(now when i look at this illustration i also notice that Armin looks more upset than angry??? Or am i imagining things?)

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hello angel, how are you? i hope everything's fine <3. so i always read cute headcanons of nathaniel taking care of candy when she is sick/hurt but i never found anything more detailed about it like a oneshot or something and i was wondering if you could write something like that if you want? you are very talented and everything you write is perfect, hope you're ok <3

Hello, anon! sorry for how much it took me to write this oneshot. It's been sitting in my drafts for sooo long, but I got the motivation to finish yesterday and here it is :) consider this my comeback from creative block (i hope it is indeed).

Sweet of You

Rating: General audiences

Pairing: Candy/Nathaniel

Words: 2018

AO3

That tuesday morning was even more tedious than usual for Nathaniel. He was trying to pay attention to History class, but Faraize wasn’t making it any easier for him, deviating from the subject every five minutes. The chapter they were supposed to cover that day was German unification, a theme that was capable of holding his attention for a long time if the class wasn’t so interested in asking the teacher every detail about his past relationships. Nath didn’t understand why his classmates were so eager to talk about anything but stuff that was actually going to be covered in their exams.

Either way, that day Nathaniel wasn’t as irritated by his friends’ efforts to dodge lectures as he normally would be. After all, he was barely listening to Faraize telling the entire class how miserable his own love life was. His mind was elsewhere, more specifically, on a girl that has been occupying his thoughts so frequently that he might have begun to charge rent.

If she was present that morning, Candy would’ve been sitting close to Rosa and Alexy, exchanging short looks and whispers that, although little, were everything they needed to communicate. He smiled, thinking of how much trouble the trio has been into thanks to their habit of knowing what’s up with everyone. Even though it bothered him sometimes, he would always remember how it was Candy and her will to help everyone that saved him from his father and be grateful for that. The bell rang and his classmates started to gather their things. It was time to go home. In the corridor, Nathaniel approached Rosa and Alexy, who were chatting next to the lockers.

“Hi Nath!” Greeted Rosalya, with a smile on her face.

“Hey, guys. How are you doing?”

“We’re good. So, what did you think of today’s class?”

“It was fine” Seeing how Alexy raised his brows in disbelief, he completed. “I didn’t pay much attention. I wish you guys just let him give his lecture in peace instead of asking so many personal questions, though. Unfortunately, the next exam won’t cover Sabrine and her addiction to putting ketchup on every dish.”

Alexy laughed loudly and Rosalya rolled her eyes, smiling. “You have to admit that his love failures are way more interesting to hear about than German Unification. And I’ll read the textbook later so it’s alright.”

“Yeah, I guess. Anyway, do you have news from Candy? Is she recovering from her flu?”

“She’s getting better, in a few days she’ll come back to school.” Alexy said

Nathaniel smiled. That was good. “Okay. Well, see you, then.”He made a move to leave, but Rosa’s voice stopped him.

“You should visit her, Nath. We already did yesterday and she said what she got isn’t super contagious. She’d love to see another familiar face.”

“Yeah! I mean, we know we are amazing friends, but I have to admit we can be a tiny bit annoying sometimes…” added Alexy “Just a bit, okay?”

“You say? I never noticed that! After all, you two are so reserved…” Nath answered in a playful tone.

“Hey!”

Rosa giggled at the boys’s banter and slapped Nathaniel’s arm. “You better stop with that, mister. We’re trying to help you out.”

“Help me out? What do you mean?”

Rosa and Alexy threw a meaningful glance at each other, which made Nath feel a hint of suspicion. What were those two up to? Anyway, he let the subject go and said goodbye to his classmates.

Just as he was leaving the building, the suggestion his friends made crossed his mind. He would love to visit Candy, sure, but wouldn’t he be too pushy if he did that? Their recent “date” to the vet had been his idea and, even though she seemed to have a lot of fun, usual etiquette would tell him to wait for any indication of her wanting to do something again. On the other side, it wasn’t like she showed him signals of not being interested. It was quite the opposite, every day he was more convinced he should do something about his crush and ask her out on a proper date.

With all these thoughts roaming over his head, Nathaniel sat on a bench at the entrance of the park. As his eyes focused on the backpack resting over his knees, a thought occurred. He could tell Candy that the purpose of visiting her was lending her his notes from the missed days of school. What a great idea!

Before getting to her apartment, Nath went to the market and bought some treats to cheer her up. Though he wasn’t a fan of sweets, he knew it was a good gift for a girl. He was glad that he already knew her favorite types of candy due to her habit of always eating something with sugar before an exam (her justification was that the human brain functions in base of glucose, therefore she needed to get the calories she was going to burn).

Half an hour later, Nathaniel was at Candy’s doorstep, notebook in hands. He pressed the bell and waited for an answer. A moment later, the front door opened. It was her mother.

“Hello, Mrs Darcy.”

“Nathaniel! You must have come to see Candy, haven’t you? Come in!”

Candy’s mom was very nice to him. She brought him with a smile on her face, asking if he wanted something to drink. He replied politely that he wasn’t thirsty.

“Please don’t mind the mess, we weren’t expecting any visits today.” Lucia grabbed a blanket that was scattered across the couch. “Have a seat, I’ll go and fetch her.

Before he could answer anything, a groan interrupted their conversation.

“Mooooooooooom, who are you talking to? Don’t tell me it’s Rosa and Alexy again!”

He barely had time to process the thump of footsteps going down the stairs when he heard her voice again, clearer this time.

“Guys, you know I love you, but if I can’t take another day of you two poking at me. You know those visits are just an excuse to tease me all day about my thing with-” He laughed internally as he saw Candy freeze as soon as she noticed the person sitting in the middle of her living room wasn’t who she was expecting. Her face was so cute like that, eyes wide open and face growing redder by the second. However, his amusement vanished as soon as he noticed how she was dressed.

He didn’t know what he was expecting her to be wearing, but it sure wasn't a tiny pajama set that, although seeming comfortable, wasn’t fitting to receive visits from a guy. He looked at his hands, unable to glance any more at her underdressed figure. As quickly as Candy appeared she vanished, running up the stairs and slamming the door to her room. Worried, Nath stood up and slowly walked the same path she had just done, not before throwing a glance at Lucia and receiving an encouraging nod. From the outside of the bedroom, Nath heard a muffled cry as if she had just screamed with her head buried in a pillow. Not wasting any time, he knocked on the door.

“Who is it?”

“It's me. Nath.”

He waited patiently through the ruffling noises. A few moments later, she answered.

“Come in!”

He opened the door slowly and sighed in relief. Thankfully, she had put on a pair of shorts and a plain t-shirt. He watched as she sat on the bed, looking as pretty as ever even though her hair was messy and her clothes rumpled.

“Hi.” He said.

“Hi… gosh, that was so embarrassing. I’m so sorry, I just wasn’t expecting you and-”

“Don’t worry. Actually, it was cute seeing you like that.” If this situation had happened a few weeks ago, he probably would have been mortified. Now, he was even able to make fun of it at her expense. Who would say, huh. He was enjoying the new confidence that was starting to bloom.

“Seeing me in my pajamas? Wow, I didn’t know you were a pervert, Nath.”

“W-What?”

His face instantly turned red. He was about to start explaining himself before he noticed the cocky smile on her face, finding his reaction very amusing. Some things never change, huh.

-x-

Candy adjusted herself in her bed and tapped the spot at her side, motioning for him to come sit beside her. “So… what brings you here?”

She was trying not to show it too much, but she was very happy that he came. The only people that went to see her were Rosa and Alexy and, with all the love that she had for them, she had been wondering whether any of the boys was going to come. It was such a pleasant surprise to see Nathaniel there.

“Well.” He made himself comfortable beside her and showed her the notebook in his hand. “You missed a lot of classes, so I brought the annotations I made this past few days.”

“Oh.”

Candy did her best to hide her disappointment. Even though she was happy that he cared for her learning, she was hoping that he came because he wanted to see her. She wished he felt the same rumbling in his chest as she did when she remembered their recent encounters and missed his presence. However, it made sense. He was the responsible president of the school union, it was like him to care for a classmate and friend. Still…

“Do you want me to go through my notes with you? Some of them are kinda messy, so it would be good if I explained them to you.”

She nodded, longing to talk about anything other than school. “I’m a bit hungry, so do you mind before we study if I go downstairs and get us something to eat?”

“Oh, shoot! I had forgotten!” Nath opened his backpack and started rummaging through it. Everytime their shoulders bumped with the motion of his arms, a tingle ran through her body. Being near him felt so good.

“Here it is.” Nathaniel retrieved a bag and emptied it all over the bed, revealing a mix of sweets. There were two chocolate bars, a few caramel lumps and a lot of sorted candies. Those were her favorite kinds of sugary food. How did he know?

“I’m not a fan of sweets myself, but I figured it would cheer you up.”

“Thank you, Nath. It was really kind of you. How did you know exactly which ones I loved?”

“Come on, you’re always eating those before any exam. I alway notice these details about people I care about.”

Candy didn’t fail to notice the sub intended message behind his words, and that almost made her choke on the chocolate she had already started chewing. After she recovered from the surprise, her eyes locked with Nath’s. She liked his company and how he cared about her. They had gone through a lot together. Plus, watching him free himself and be more open was pleasing. She liked every new layer of him he showed her. She liked him. All of him. “So, how has it been at school? I feel for you, having to put up with Rosa and Alexy without me to control their craziness must be hard.”

“Control, you say? I think it’s more of you engaging with all of their madness.”

“Hmm, maybe. Why? Do you have a problem with it?”

Nath laughed and put his hand over her thigh. Candy tried to ignore the rush that gesture sent through her body. They looked at each other in silence for a long time before his hand squeezed lightly her flesh in an intimate gesture.

“I don’t mind. I like it, actually.”

They did end up studying, after all. However, it wasn’t productive at all because all Candy could think of for the rest of the evening was his hand on her thigh and his eyes on her. Nath blamed her distraction on her fever coming back. She let him believe that.

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thewingedwolf · 1 year

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I broke this up bc it was getting embarrassingly long, here’s my thoughts on the crows storylines going into s2, pls be aware i ship every possible iteration of the crows together in a very romantic context, i Will Be referring to Jesper as both Kaz and Inej’s boyfriend, bc he IS DAMMIT.

anyways after all that mal talk and speaking of “clearly in love and coping with it as best he can”, I think it’s very funny that Jesper looks more like he got caught doing something embarrassing by his crush (bc that’s exactly what it is) than actually chastised by his boss for straight up abandoning his job to go gamble. he tends to look imo way more embarrassed at Kaz snapping at him in Ketterdam than he does when they’re out and about, probably bc it’s like “in front of all our friends babe? really?”

Also - jesper abandoning his job to go gamble. oh poor baby. they’ve set it up as like A Problem but it’s sort of quirky funny right now, while not being the butt of the joke either. the joke is more “kaz is annoyed by jesper’s gambling and jesper charmingly brushes it off bc he’s a goof” but Clearly, jesper gambling away their money instead of just buying coal later on is a problem.

Everyone calls Kaz boss right in front of Perr Haskell’s salad lollllll i know they do this in the book too and i think it’s just as funny

Once again speaking of “dumb bitch trying to hide his crush & failing miserably” I love that Inej is having a literal religious experience realizing a sun summoner has been born when Alexie tells them about alina, looks at Kaz in excitement, realizes he hasn’t even twitched, and goes back to being excited. Kaz meanwhile, pointedly looks everywhere But at inej until after he notices Inej has stopped staring at him, and THEN he watches her reaction. Just the biggest dumb ass alive.

Also Jesper “apparently i’m a big softie” Fahey being genuinely distressed when Alexie is killed while once again, Kaz refuses to react.

Jesper evades Inej’s unsaid question about Kaz & Pekka, then immediately asks Kaz “did pekka recognize you” so he knows SOMETHING WHY DOES HE KNOW AND WHAT DID KAZ TELL HIM.

related to that but jesper is less obviously in love with Kaz in the show, & seems ok w Kaz bossing him around bc they’re genuinely friends vs Jesper bitches waaaay more (with good reason) in the books about being Kaz’s errand boy - show!Kaz is the boss & still a big bitch, but Kaz trusted Jesper w some truth of his past OR Jesper was there when Something happened, so Jesper lets the bitchiness slide. More even footing, and i think it was a good change, esp as Kaz gets more withdrawn & erratic as Pekka’s plans start to fail, bc now jesper knows why.

Note that while Kaz is just as much of a bitch to Jesper as in the books, he also just as clearly loves him. “Watch the door” “Come along we have a new job” all these orders that Jesper follows with only mild complaining, but they’re *important* jobs that Kaz only trusts Jesper with. It’s that Kaz only trusts Jesper & Inej to watch his back, but he shows it by being the biggest bitch alive lol.

A lot of the changes to the Crows seem to be an attempt to put Jesper & Inej on slightly more even footing with Kaz. That they could leave (bc Inej has paid off her indenture to him) but choose to stay with him. That they know why he hates Pekka, or more keenly suspect the reason he hates Pekka. What i wonder is if it’s in preparation for the soc/ck storylines, where Kaz gets a lot more reckless, so the writers want him to seem slightly less unlikeable to show only watchers who don’t get to peek inside his head & see how much he loves the crows even when he’s being a dink.

OR if it’s a purposeful contrast to the Darklng - both very powerful men who love the color black & are allergic to doing the right thing, but Kaz spends half his story line trying to liberate Inej, trusts Jesper with the truth & needles at both of them, but isn’t explicitly forcing either to do something they don’t want to do. while the Darklng at every turn further undermines Alina’s power, and keeps Zoya, Genya, David, & Nina in the dark about his real motivations, & we can SEE already how guilty David, Genya, and Zoya feel about continuing to follow his orders no matter how cruel.

Once Again speaking of dumb ass bitches who can’t hide their crush, the way Nina is ready to beat the shit out of Matthias, and even then, powerless, alone, weak, and so clearly just the exact sort of threatening, seductful Grisha the Fjerdans warn against, Matthias is struck by Nina’s humanity, her point that grisha are never found innocent, her anger in the face of certain doom. they speak one (1) time and he’s like “cool time to forget everything i’ve ever been taught so i can be this weird mean lady’s malewife” aksjjdjd

the sequence of the trio with the conductor in the fold is so entertaining, the comedic timing of them all sniping at each other, and jesper walking up to kill the volcra while clutching milo, and the way he closes his eyes and trusts his abilities as a grisha to send the bullet where it needs to go. chefs kiss, no notes.

“i’d rather starve than be a traitor” is the moment Matthias really starts to understand Nina is just as human as he is, bc she’s just as stubborn and loyal as he is, but when she spits the bread back in his face is the moment i think he falls in love with her. Loyal, stubborn, and too much for Matthias to even comprehend.

Jesper being delighted by Inej’s acrobat abilities and Inej letting him shoot a gun at her face and Kaz just nopes out of that shit immediately truly the most chaotic throuple.

The deep breathing as Kaz tries to ignore the he pain and walk without a limp & all his pained noises as he’s running around, jumping up into the carriage, etc has me like “haha i do that” aksjs

something something inej always looks to kaz when Something Religious is happening because faith is something she has always shared with the people she loves, but she’s always met with Kaz’s impassive insistence that faith is nothing more than a parlor trick. but still she always looks to him to share her faith. and it’s always there, just underneath - he doesn’t feel the need to share those moments bc the only saint he’s ever looked to was Inej & despite himself, he’s eager to share those moments with her, the ones where they fight together and save each other.

Kaz being so shitty with the Darklng bc he realizes how Aleksander has mistreated & isolated Alina is so fucking good. He’s a criminal but he has like, standards lmao. A straight con is one thing, but Kaz always dislikes rich people being cruel to people they’re supposed to care about for Rich People Reasons (see: his thinly veiled dislike for Jan even pre-Jan Stealing Inej).

“You’re loud and you’re lewd” while staring directly at Nina’s mouth, get it together Matthias you’re embarrassing yourself akksjs

Kaz moves towards Inej when she’s injured like he wants to hold her up but immediately stops short & looks anxious, turns to Jesper sort of helplessly, but Jesper is already moving to help Inej, probably picking up quickly that Kaz won’t. And then Kaz just stands there looking like he feels like a shit for not helping her, no Wonder he’s so shitty with Jesper when they get to the Fold, he’s just mad about the whole thing aksjdj like “oh now you like Jes more than me huh” kaz, inej has always liked Jes more than you bc he’s more likeable

what’s interesting about kaz the whole season is that he refuses to explicitly tell inej that he will protect her from tante heleen, bc admitting that out loud is admitting a) that he gave up the crow club to protect her already and b) he loves her. so he skirts around it whenever she brings it up, which makes inej suspicious (with good reason - he owns her indenture and it makes their dynamic inherently unbalanced. he wouldn’t do it but that doesn’t meant he couldn’t do it - he has the power to sell her right back into slavery) and she brings this up, only for kaz to continue skirting around the issue. When she outright asks if he’s threatening to sell her, and he once again refuses to give a clear answer, she seems to make the decision to cut her losses & ditch ketterdam. it’s only when facing the fact that she might actually leave him that Kaz finally forces himself to open up to her - and not just open up but meet Inej on her level. Admit Alina is a sun summoner, and share in her feelings of faith, but not of faith in saints and intangible power, faith in her. And Kaz bringing that little bit of wall down convinces her to stay - she will have him without walls or she will not have him at all, and Kaz will always choose to painstakingly confront his trauma over truly losing Inej.

I like how often Matthias, similar to Kaz (and boy would they both hate that comparison lol), dances around his feelings by changing the subject and cutting the tension, and Nina (just like her girl Inej) simply refuses to let him run. I just love the way he tries to end the conversation and Nina straight up tells him no. Won’t let him make a joke about the whaler’s hut. Won’t let him take the easy way out and pretend there isn’t something between them. She forces him to admit his feelings, and to find a solution. it goes to shit immediately but the point is just like inej will not take shit from kaz, nina has her limits with matthias. and both men see they are approaching they limit, and back down to meet their girls at the level they need. i love the crows so fucking much.

“i will keep you warm” MATTHIAS PLEASE. YOU ARE EMBARRASSING YOU ME AND DJEL.

I also love the kerch sailor being like “hey you kefta wearing fuck if u don’t think kerch will go to war over a few bucks you are out of your goddamn mind” and fedyor KNOWS he’s telling the truth akskd

I could write a book about Nina and Matthias’ final scene, and the Crows final scene, the way all 5 of them have no one in the world but each other, desperate when they walk into Kerch, but certainly not alone.

#rani's liveblogging tag #shadow and bone #grishaverse #six of crows #the dregs #poly crows #same here - u can comment & even disagree just don’t be a bitch about it

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Gx episodes review (while thinking of my Au.

Episode 3

I am very uncomfortable with Crowler setting up Jaden to spy on the girls. Especially on the girls bath.

Like very disturbing especially when Crowler shows up to spy to. Like he’s there to catch Jaden but those out your female student’s.

But Syrus thinking the note for him and getting caught instead of Jaden is wild.

I don’t want this.

I’m going to have to re-write this. Like yes Jaden’s duel with Alexis is good. But there has to be a better way to set this up.

Jaden coming to help his friend and dealing out of trouble, love that. Spying on the girl’s in the bath, whether intentional or not, is not going to fly.

Episode 4

Love that getting rare cards for Duel Academy is on par with a military operation on purpose.

I love Jaden meting and helping Dorthy is wonderful. Love the boy helping her out even though it makes him late. A good boy.

Crowler taking all the rare cards to give to Chazz to beat Jaden is wild.

Also Chazz using the VWXYZ cars this duel (which correlates him with Seto Kaiba who uses the XYZ cards. In my Au Jaden grew up around these cards. Something that is shocking and new to all of Jaden’s classmates is something Jaden grew up watching trash other duelist. He grew up watching his Dad destroy Oto-san’s XYZ monsters. No one at the school is more prepared for this)

It’s a great second duel for Jaden and Chazz. With Chazz showing off this expensive and rare deck while Jaden is playing his weak monsters and the cards Dorthy gave him.

Also it’s the first duel that we get level 10 wing kuriboh. It’s a very Yugi/Atem move. Using a Kuriboh to get ride of a big threat.

I also love that every time some one tries to boil Jaden’s skill down to stupid luck he corrects them. Even if it’s sassy “luck? Nah I just have a soft spot for old ladies”

Also Jaden getting accepted into Ra in the second episode and turning it down because he values Syrus is so sweet. (Loyalty Syrus doesn’t deserve) but it is very in line with my Au. Jaden growing up around Téa and her friendship speech’s. He’s not one to abandon a friend, especially when he thinks he’s finally making the life long friends he’s always dreamed of. (His own Joey, Tristian, Téa, Duke, Serenity, Bakura. He wants friends so bad)

Episode 5 + 6

Baby Jaden! Baby Jaden!

And his first memory of duel spirits calling out to him. And him completing that he’s hearing winged kiriboh

Professor Banner coming in to play their scary story game. Immediately gets mess by telling the kids about the abandoned dorms and the missing students as if these kids aren’t 14 and going to go explore it!

Also Jaden hearing shadow games and saying “ya the millennium items, but they’re not real.” One in cannon is great k love the call backs to DM while also poking fun. I’m loving the fake shadow games.

But in the au Jaden is sweating bullets “shadow games? I’ve heard of those. Powerful items like the millennium items haha those aren’t real!” As he’s remebering all the story’s he’s heard form Uncle Atem, Uncle Joey, his Dad and Oto-san and the rest of the friend group. Like boys wondering if he had to call Uncle Atem and tell him that someone is kidnapping? Students and playing shadow games? No he should check it out first before he worries Uncle Atem about the millennium items being at his school.

Also the intro of Alexis’s story arc. The first mention of Atticus.

Jaden immediately wanting to go in knowing the rumors of missing duelist are true.

The wall of millennium items! With hieroglyphics! Why is this here? And Jaden recognizing them? Oh I’m going to have so much fun with this place in my au.

Alexis being kidnapped and and used to lure in Jaden and friends. Jaden recognizing her card and coming to his friend’s aid.

Also Jaden continues to”the shadow games aren’t real.” Thing is going to be so fun to twist.

Also Au Jaden has to be so stressed he asks after Alexis and they guys tells him Alexis is in the shadow realm. But this guy doesn’t feel like Uncle Atem. Jaden’s been around Shadow magic before and this guy doesn’t have it. He can’t feel the shadows the way he can around Atem.

But at the same time he’s talking about how the games are real and if they lose they lose their souls. But Jaden knows that isn’t right either. Atem always told him that the person who initiated the Shadow game got to pick the punishment for losing the game. Somethings not right about this guy. And Jaden’s not talking magic

But Jaden still duels him. He’s not going to let this creep kidnap his friends.

Jaden is doing well but then this guy pulls out the millennium puzzle.

Which first off this show is honkers for pulling out a fake millennium puzzle and having Jaden fade away like Yugi/Marik/bakura did in Battle City.

But the fact that Jaden canonical (dub) response to all of this is, “So what in our dorm we have black out curtains so that we can sleep in later. In not scared of the dark it’s great!” Is not only fantastic. Never change my empty headed king. But also a really cool foreshadowing that Jaden is tied to darkness. He’s the King of the Gentle Darkness. It should be no surprise that he is afraid of the dark.

Also love that canon Jaden sees all this and is just like “wow! What a fun challenge!”

But let’s focus au for a second. Jadne already knew this guy had no real powers, he’s felt that shadows before this guy doesn’t have them. But pulling out a cheap copy of the millennium puzzle! An object that means so much to his Dad and Uncle Atem (the whole group really) unacceptable! The millennium puzzle was Atem’s for thousands of years it would feel like him, there for this is not real because Jaden can’t feel Atem. Also if this was the real puzzle this guy couldn’t use it without defeating the previous owner(s) Yugi and Atem. Jaden has no fear but a righteous fury. But he’s trying to play it off as being worried for Alexis and not his rage at this moment of his Dad and Uncle.

He’s doing his best but he starts disappearing more and start to wonder if he guessed wrong. Maybe this guy does has some form of magic

Especially when Jaden stops being able to see.

But then Winged Kuriboh reaches out and shows Jaden how his mind is being messed with. Something he already guessed but had started to lose sight of. Also love that it’s Winged Kuriboh who showed him the path.

Jaden breaks the illusion with his attack and then breaks the paper mâché millennium puzzle by throwing Avian into it (a very Seto Kaiba move that man loved throwing cards at things)

Also cannon Jaden calling the guy out for being an out of work festival work and being right is amazing.

The guy tries to keep the lie going by bringing Alexis back up. But calls the millennium puzzle the millennium pendant.

Jaden makes fun of him again and the guy tries to leave with out telling them where Alexis is Haden runs after him and accidentally sets off a real shadow game.

Jaden thinks of a moment that it’s another trick but then he feels that shadows and starts to panic but Winged Kuriboh comes to Jaden’s rescue.

In cannon Jaden continues to think it’s a hoax but in the Au he can realize just how much trouble he’s in. Especially when the guy (panic?) gets possessed and starts dueling him again for his soul, for real this time. At least he has Winged Kuriboh at his side. He’s not alone.

Winged Kuriboh spends the duel flying around Jaden’s feet keeping the evil spirits away from Jaden.

Jaden is focused on the duel until he hears the possessed man say, “I’ll take your soul just like I did to the other students.” This is what took Alexis brother and the other students. He needs to win and call Atem.

Jaden wins and he watches as Panic loses his soul. In cannon he thinks it’s a special effect but in the Au he knows it’s not. He plays it off for his friends but he knows he needs to make a phone call when he get back to the dorm.

But at least Alexis is safe. Jaden offers to help her look for Atticus. If this has to do with the shadow realm he feels like he has to help, he has more knowledge than anyone else here. Plus Alexis is his friend. Jaden would do anything for a friend.

It’s sunrise by the time they finish their conversation and Jaden and the others have to get back to their dorm and class. It takes all day and he’s exhausted (he’s had no sleep and just dueled for his soul for the first time) but when Chumley and Syrus lay down to nap he pulls out his phone and goes to the woods to call Uncle Atem.

They have a lot to talk about.

#yugi moto #yugi mutou #jaden yuki #judai yuki #yugioh gx #seto kaiba #atem #dad yugi #yami yugi #pharaoh atem #rivalshipping #rewatching Yugioh Gx to plan out my fic!

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anyathefandom · 1 year

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My chaotic thoughts on To Those Fortunate Enough part 1:

@burned-lariat

He dreamt of this reunion for years.

She looks as beautiful as ever, Wallace thought, taking a shaky step towards her. Irina's cheeks were stained with tears while her face was full of shock. They both ignored the assortment of stares from the other Cassadines in the room.

"Wallace," Irina repeated, clearing her throat.

"Liebling," Wallace replied, his tone gentle. Irina smiled back. His heart melted, "it's you…it's really you…"

Me:

"Wallace…?" Alexis leaned towards Valentin, "Is this-"

"Dexter's father? Indeed," Valentin nodded, "Rough around the edges, but has a soft underbelly."

Me: *plays Taylor swift willow* 😌

Gott," Wallace took a deep, unsteady breath, "I've missed you."

"I've missed you too," she cupped his cheeks, his stubble stabbing her palms, "You still look the same as you did all those years ago."

"As do you."

Me:

"Oh God," Victor ran a hand down his face. Wallace glared at him, "now we have this."

Me:

Victor is an S-Tier hater. Just because he's lonely and bitter everybody around has to be.

Irina slapped the man the moment he let go of her, causing everyone to jump. The sound echoed in the room, louder than when she slapped Victor. Wallace laid a gentle hand on his cheek, a bright red, and felt it throb. Irina glared at him, her eyes a burning red.

Me: Would you excuse me for a second?😀 *Screams* *Comes back* okay back to where I was.🥲

So now Irina has turned her ire towards Wallace and I'm sitting here reading it like I'm a child of divorce.

Victor really be like:

*says fucked up thing*

*Everybody death glares him*

Victor:

You're right, you don't, certainly not after you showcased how little you love me."

"That's not fair," Wallace felt his heart begin to shatter, "and you know that. I love you, Irina. I always have."

"If that were true, we wouldn't be in this position. You would've done what I asked, no, begged you to do. Our son would still be alive."

"I hate that all of this happened at his expense, trust me I do. But I love Dex, and I love you, even if you think otherwise. That's not up for debate."

"Then you should've done better, you should've been better. Instead, you're just as vile as my father-"

Me:

Meine Geliebte…bitte…" Wallace tried to approach her. Irina put up a hand before turning and walking towards the front door.

Translation: My beloved...please...

Me: 😩😭

Dex basically to Anna and Robert: I'm cool. Everything's fine. I can get up.

Anna and Robert: Noooo I don't you should try and wal-

Dex: Look I'm standing!😏

Robert: Oh okay take a step then

Anna: ROBERT

*Dex takes a step* *Immediately almost falls on his face*

Robert:

No why did Dex saying his father sucks have me dying. So much craziness has been going on and him sounding like a normal disgruntled child who's upset with dad is killing me.😂

He…he was the one thing that belonged to me," Irina choked up, "Helena had 'given' me a lifetime of 'things,' but Dexter…Dexter was mine. He was a part of me, he came from me, and nothing could change that. I can't put into words how…amazing all of that is."

"She pushed so hard to turn me into a cold-blooded monster, but that little boy kept me grounded. Even when I had to send him away, I didn't slip like she wanted me to."

Me: That's her baby boy.🥹

"Irina," Valentin scoffed in amazement, "you're being a contrarian at this point. I know you're angry and hurting, but you have to recognize that you're wrong here."

Irina averted her eyes, feeling Valentin hold her hands in his, "You don't think Wallace is evil. You don't think he's responsible for what happened to Dexter. You needed someone to take your grief and rage out on, and he was an easy target. You did that because deep down, you didn't want to accept that your worst nightmare might've come true."

Me: Valentin really has been the voice of reason during all of this and I appreciate him for that.😌

Irina dropped the letters, each one floating down to the floor. Her heart swelled as her eyes captured his face, pale and full of shock. Electricity raced throughout her body as she took in the young man before her. She opened her mouth to speak, but his gentle, hoarse voice cut her off.

It was a reunion twenty years in the making.

"...Mommy."

Me: The way slipping through my fingers by Abba started playing in my head.🥹

#dex heller #irina cassadine #wallace heller #to those fortunate enough #general hospital

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kitkat-artcorner · 1 year

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(small warning for smoking mention!)

It was yet another somber afternoon for Alexie Holland, He was in his room, dressing himself in fancy, black and red attire. His uncle; Rostislav Holland, had unexpectedly scheduled him for a dinner party, but then again, when was the last time he was told anything?

He started to fidget with his tie, careless about the time he put into making it look perfect. Although he's been to many parties and meetings like this, it doesn't get less nerve-racking.

Soon, there was a knock at the door, this startled Alexie, he turned around to the door to answer. "Oh- um.. come in!" He called awkwardly to the person knocking. To his misfortune, it was Rostislav, coming in to check on his nephew. "Alexie, are you ready to go?" He asked, Alexie answered sheepishly. "Um, yes, in a moment дядя!" He then fumbled with his tie, trying to get it back in order.

Rostislav closed the door behind him and walked up to Alexie, peering over from his side. "Are you having trouble with your tie again?" Alexie looked over at him and gave a quiet 'yes', then let Rostislav fix his tie. "This is the fourth time in a row and you've only gotten slower, has something been bothering you?" He asked, Alexie only looked to the side, there were a number of things on his mind but he was hesitant to say out loud. His uncle then reassured him. "C'mon, Alexie, you're my nephew, you know you can tell me anything.."

Alexie glanced back at Rostislav, taking a few seconds to answer. "Well.. I-I guess.. work has been stressful, maybe that is what's getting to me." Although work wasn't actually a problem, it was enough of an answer to satisfy his uncle's curiosity. "Oh, Alexie.. you shouldn't let something so little get to you, you're a Holland! It's a glorious family name that earns you power and riches! We are above the rest, so there is no need to worry about silly things like work or people, you got that?"

Alexie thought for a while, before giving Rostislav a soft smile. "I got it, thank you, дядя." His uncle chimed as he finished up Alexie's tie and walked out of the room. "That's my boy, now hurry up, we don't want to be late!" Alexie only replied softly "Alright." Then the door shut again, Alexie turned back around and faced the mirror, dropping his fake smile and sighing.

[ Later into that Evening..]

Rostislav and Alexie had driven over to the restaurant where Rostislav's 'friends' had set up the dinner party. Alexie looked up at the flashy sign hung out in the front, feeling dreadful deep down. His uncle then whispered to him. "Remember to use your manners and don't call them by their first name, instead, call them by their last name." Alexie nodded, then the two walked inside.

It was almost a routine to Alexie, fake a smile, shake hands, satisfy the conversation and be quiet when you're not needed. He's gotten a bit bored of going through the same thing. Not only that but the women around these places were always trying to catch his attention when he didn't even like girls in the first place. Soon Alexie had noticed the amount of couples in the restaurant, laughing and kissing without a care in the world for who was watching. That's when he remembered, it was Valentine's day, of course there'd be a lot of couples. His emotions went from confusion, to jealousy and down to sorrow as he remembered his own love life. He had a lover back during the Six-Year-War. They were always loyal and loved one another deeply, the only reason why things ended was because Alexie wouldn't be able to keep their relationship a secret anymore. He still blames himself for not speaking up.

Eventually, Alexie had asked his uncle and the host at the table. "May I be excused? I need a moment." They both gave him permission to leave and he left from his seat to the bathrooms, when he got to the corner he made a sharp turn and quickened his pace, heading outside of the building. He couldn't stand looking at these happy couples without feeling the heartbreak.

When he got back out to the front again he went walking down the street, Alexie knew his uncle would be very upset when he got back but that was the least of his worries right now. He had wandered from the Paradizna streets down to East Grestin territories. He found a small park that had a small bridge going over a river and into a dirt trail. He went over to said bridge and pulled out a pack of cigarettes, taking one out to smoke.

Then, a voice called out to him. "Alexie? Is that you?" He was startled and nearly dropped his cigarette, he looked to his side and was shocked to see a familiar face.

It was Calensk, his ex-lover from the war, he hasn't kept in touch with him since their 'breakup'. "Cal.. I didn't expect to see you here.." Alexie spoke up, a little nervous. "Heh, neither did I except you to be around East Grestin. How have you been?" Calensk chimed, his tone feeling bittersweet. Alexie responded shyly. "I-I've been fine.. How about you?" "Doing alright, I suppose.." Calensk answered.

The two shared a moment in semi awkward silence, they both felt the urge to run up and hold one another, to say how much they loved and missed each other, but they resisted as much as they could since they weren't supposed to do those things anymore. Calensk then broke the silence. "You haven't even written to me in a long time, I am guessing your family business giving you trouble?" Alexie sighed, sounding defeated. "Yes.. I haven't had much private time for few months now, my uncle keeps on setting me up for meetings I do not know of till last second!"

"Yeesh.. sounds like hell." Calensk commented, feeling sorry for Alexie's lifestyle. "It definitely feels like it." Alexie complained, it felt like everything had piled up around him and he had to deal with the constant anxiety of it all crumbling down onto him every second. Calensk had noticed the unlit cigarette in Alexie's hand, and asked. "You've taken up smoking? How long?" Alexie snapped out of his thoughts as he looked down at his hand. "Oh, yes, I did. Started not too long after border opened." He answered "Hm, at least I don't have to worry about you nagging me anymore." Calensk jokes, trying to make light of the situation. Alexie failed to stifle a laugh.

Calensk brought out a cigarette of his own and lit it with his lighter, Alexie felt around in his pockets, only to find his wallet and house keys. "Must've forgot my lighter at home.." He mutters, Calensk looked over at him and offered to help. "I could light up your cigarette for you." Alexie glanced at Calensk and smirked. "Thanks." He put the cigarette in his mouth and turned his head to Calensk, who leaned in and used the lit end of his cigarette to light the other, making it look like a sort of kiss. Alexie only froze up, flustered with his face turning a soft red.

When Calensk pulled away he whispered to Alexie. "That better?" Alexie, still half dazed, gave a quiet "Y-yeah.." the two shared another moment of silence, looking up at the bright, shining moon in the sky. Subconsciously, they both held each other's hand, enjoying the peaceful moment. "You know.. you don't have to keep listening to your uncle, if you want, you could live with me." Calensk spoke up, he missed spending time with him like this, just them and the environment around them, they didn't need to worry about much else back then. But now, things are very different.

"I'm sorry, Calensk. But I can't let my last bit of family down, I already failed enough during war.." Alexie mentioned, he noticed his expression turned solemn and then added. "But.. one day.. I'll figure things out, when that time comes, I'll go with you.." He then looked up at him with hopeful, yet worried eyes. "Will you wait for me till then?"

Calensk was surprised but then gave a bitter smile, using one hand to cup the side of his lover's scarred face. "I would wait centuries for you, Softie.." Alexie then shared that same, bitter smile. They couldn't be together now, but one day, they would be able to. He was forever grateful that he was given such a loyal man to love.

[ End.. ]

Writers Note: Glad to bring out this old AU again! Alexie and Calensk's dynamic in this is just so 👌 also sorry if I messed up on certain words, I'm kinda half asleep while writing this lol, still, I hope ya enjoyed n' I'll cya next time, Happy (late) Valentine's day! ♡

#papers please #alexie holland #calensk #rostislav holland

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