god i love being SOOO obnoxious about my ocs everyone should be 50% more obnoxious about their ocs right neow

hey if you ever feel like you're faking your pain/mental illness/any symptoms, or if you feel like no one understands or believes you. i do. i believe you. i love you and i hope you do what you can to take care of yourself <3

Buttercups and Golden Flowers

Friendly neighbourhood reminder:

If you’re sick, it is so easy to feel overwhelmed, catastrophize, be in a low mood and so hard to self regulate.

Don’t think about your life. Don’t believe the things your brain tells you about you and your life.

Just be sick. Focus on rest, hydration, sleep, nutrition.

And, if life won’t allow you to engage in self care, just focus on getting through the day and remember it’s so hard because you’re sick.

I think more people should make peace with their dark sides, and I don’t mean that in an edgy way, I mean that in a “letting purity culture infect you to the point where you get frightened by even your own darker thoughts and impulses is NOT the healthy own you think it is” kind of way and

“queer spaces should be inclusive of people who don’t enjoy sex and who have “strange”, negative or repulsed relationships with sex” and “sex is an important aspect of lgbt community, history, and activism and queer people should be allowed and able to talk freely about sex without stigma or shame” are ideas that can and should coexist.

holy shit these keep getting better and better

to be completely honest, I don't want macdennis in this finale at all. i want den's plot to stay his own. i want the gang to understand just how much they rely on dennis, and how the pressure is finally wearing him down. dennis' inability to escape these high expectations from all of them. of the responsibility that he hates so much. this has been a part of his plotlines for years, and now he can't even take a day trip to the beach without the gang calling him for dumb shit. he's expected to be there to help the gang whenever they need him, but will they be there to help him?

the sexual tension between me and relapse

this past week its just been a constant cycle of *normal normal normal* OH FUCK THE SITE UPDATE IS NEARLY UPON US *has to sit down and breathe*

I sometimes regret watching the dead poets society because of how much I was affected by it.

But then again - I don't

Thinking, talking and blogging about this movie occupies a billion hours of each day I have. I honestly don't remember the person I was before it.

I thought and cried about life before dps. Now my life is dps and reality is but a mere distraction.

Like i said

It's consumption.

woah.. childhood riding school answered my email

* IM CURRENTLY LOSING MY MIND AT THIS I CANT DI THIS I CANT

Imagine you get sick and your f/o realizes you’re under the weather. They carry you to your comfy bed with fluffy pillows and blanket, tucking you in and making you feel safe. They bring you water and soup of your choice to make sure you’re hydrated and rested.

Your f/o lets you sleep as long as you need, they know rest is important when you’re sick, and they’ll wait as long as they need for you to get better.

When you finally go to sleep that night, they gently kiss your hand and whisper, “Sleep well, [insert name or nickname].”

very funny honestly that my last couple of sessions with a cbt therapist have actually just been me breaking down crying as i realize that a decade+ of cbt has left me with no way of handling it when things are actually shit