#i dont get what you get out of doing this i really don’t
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quiet down
pairing(s): itoshi sae x male reader
summary: locker room sex, that’s just about it.
warnings: amab!reader, top!male reader, bottom!sae, semi-public sex, slight voyeurism, anal sex, crying, begging, degrading, hickeys, literally awful and rushed (minors + fem aligned dni, all characters are 18+)
word count: 1.1k
a/n: omg tysm for ur support on my last post!!!! 700 notes? i love y’all sm!! (sry for late post i had exams + writers block)
“quiet down, sae, we don’t want the others to hear do we?” you whispered sensually in his ear, the only response was a glare. the two of you were whisked away in a secluded corner of the locker room, while there were still teammates inside.
you pounded roughly into his hole, his dick flushing a mad red. you smirked at the pathetic sight. “this is what you get for provoking me. what a horny bitch, can’t even wait till we’re in private?” you said with a slight condescending tone.
sae didn’t reply, only with a slight frown. he bit his lip trying suppress his moans, yet a few slipped out, all whiny and high pitched. “why’re you suppressing your cute noises hm? dont wanna get caught? you brung this upon yourself though?” you rambled on, trying not to laugh at his attempts to be quiet.
“f-fuck you…” sae managed to slip out. “that’s not very nice, sae.” you furrowed your brow before sharply thrusting into him, causing a gasp to slip out. he gripped onto the walls for support while the teammates laughed and chatted about the game. “bet youre into this, huh? you wanna be caught, you wanna show how you’re such a useless slut for me.”
you watched as sae desperately tried to not make a loud noise, “i-i don’t— ah..!” he really looked like he was struggling to hold on. you saw him grind his ass back on your cock, small curses spilling out when it grazed his prostate, regardless of him not wanting to make any sudden noises.
you could see how puffy and red his cheeks were despite him facing the wall. he was just so lucky the others in the room were talking loudly. you slowed down your pace slightly which resulted in a disapproving grunt from sae. he looked at you with knitted brows, “what’s with the look? don’t tell me you want me to go back to the pace before?” you looked at him smugly as you said in a fake honeyed voice.
sae looked conflicted, on one hand, you could tell he really wanted it, but on ther other you could tell he didn’t want to be noisy. he gritted his teeth and narrowed his eyes at you. “if you want it so bad, how ‘bout you beg for it?” you said with the most shit eating grin.
you knew sae had a big sense of pride, to beg was a big hug to his ego. he looked at you with a hard glare, his eyes a bit glossy from pleasure, or maybe from his ego getting wounded. it was silent for what seemed like an eternity when he finally said something.
“…p-please,” you raised an eyebrow, you really didn’t expect him to do this. “cmon baby, use your words.” his face looked just as red as his pathetic drooling dick, you loved it. “what’s wrong? make you don’t want it then, we can just end it here…” you sighed dramatically as you slowly was starting to pull out.
“you’re such a pervert…!” sae exasperated, he gritted just teeth in annoyance. “me? a pervert? says you…” you mumbled to yourself. “okay— fine, if you really want it so bad—” he sighed with irritable, “please…please— ugh..please f-fuck me…” sae said while averting your gaze.
you blinked in surprise and just looked at him in awe, sae, the sae, begging? “so? i don’t have all day hurry up…” he looked towards the wall sheepishly. “you’re so impatient, sae” you sneered before roughly snapping your hips into his. you watched as sae choked out a small whine.
a few teammates walked dangerously close to where you two were. one of your hands slipped over his mouth, “you’re being too loud. don’t you see how close they are?” you whispered a bit playfully, his only response were muffled moans. tears of pleasure glazed his eyes as he kept struggling to be quiet.
you made small pecks along the nape of his neck before sucking on one part, making a clearly visible hickey that even clothes couldn’t cover. “mngh—” sae kept making muffled whimpers. you loved seeing how pathetic he was when he took your dick. such a prideful man reduced to a cheap slut.
you listened in on your teammates’ conversations, talking about the game you just had, cute girls, if they did the homework or not, innocently not knowing that the team’s best midfielder was getting his brains absolutely fucked out.
roughly, you made another thrust and caught sae off guard. again, sae glowered at you “h-hey— ah! that’s not…that’s not— fair…! stop being so…s-so mean dammit!” sae angrily shout-whispered to you. “sorry, can’t help it.” you casually dismissed, he was practically fuming now. “can’t help it my ass—” he practically yelled before shutting up because he realized he said it way too loud.
the locker room went quiet for a bit, before returning to its normal bustling self. “jeez, you really needa control your temper sae…” you taunted him as a mischievous grin tainted your face. sae mouthed the words “i hate you”, but you knew he didn’t. “love you too,” you rolled your eyes playfully.
soon, the locker room was emptying out and before you knew it, it was just you two. “i hope you know i’m not holding back now.” sae just stared at you, “you were holding back?” you scoffed and laughed light heartedly, “you know me, ‘course i was” you said that like it was so obvious.
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the next day, you two were walking back to the locker room with the rest of the team. “[name], i seriously am going to kill you.” he said just loud enough where you could hear him. you just gave him an innocent look, “what did i do?” you threw your hands up in the air defensively, “you know damn well. my back hurts like a bitch because of you.”
“but saee…it’s your fault y’know? you wanted to do it in the locker room…!” you whined in a playful manner. “i never said anything like that, you just decided on that and rolled with it. you seemed like you enjoyed it more than me.” sae scoffed.
“yeah, maybe i did.” you cheekily smirked. the team was now talking in the locker room as per usual until someone said something, “there’s these weird stains on the wall guys…” he said as he pointed towards the ‘stains’… on the wall.
sae shot you a death glare and you mouthed sorry. “i think it’s always been there!” another teammate chimed in before the rest agreed. you and sae both sighed in relief.
“we’re never doing that again.” he sighed sharply. “whatt? fine, whatever…”
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casual , part 12
“ knee deep in the passenger seat and you’re eating me out ”
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i haven’t updated this in a week guys am i cooked?!?!
wanna start that rut au so badly but i don’t want it to flop and i also don’t wanna put another au on hold 😔😔
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the sturniolo tumblr community is quite literally a dumpster fire right now so i am going to put out this disclaimer as to what my opinion is and what you can/cannot expect from my blog going forward:
1. writing about an actual human being (not a character from a show/movie/fiction), without them acknowledging fanfics and being okay with it and/or not caring, is NOT okay! so NO i will not write for nate or read any fics ab him. bc like what is there to simp over? what do we really know about nate? & besides that shit, he has not consented to being overly sexualized on the internet. he is literally a random motherfucker who half of you would not recognize if he walked past you on the street.
2. i think a majority of us are on the same page on this one but get the old ass motherfucker who wrote a fic about her and matt when she’s middle aged the actual FUCK away from my blog & my face. i don’t even need to elaborate on this one.
3. the death threats yall send around this fandom are insane bc is it ever that deep🧍🏻♀️. we all just happen to be fans of three white boys and yall out here sending death threats? over what? i hate to be that person but please go outside. 🚨it is okay that not everyone thinks alike🚨
4. writing smut male x readers for chris/matt and smut female x readers for nick is morally wrong and i will not write them! absolutely the fuck not!
5. deepfakes are crossing the line and not okay. dont ever bring that shit my way, get a fucking grip
6. this is probably the most popular controversy im seeing right now. it is okay to have the opinion that the triplets content is declining. it is okay to think its not. it is okay to be disappointed in the decrease in content. ITS OKAY TO HAVE A FUCKING THOUGHT.
in conclusion: you bitches are going to make everyone go bald if you keep this dumbass shit up
i’m not leaving the fandom by any means but i am definitely going to take a step back for a bit (not from you my beautiful mutuals mwah) & spend some time writing for the other fandoms i am in that are not being engulfed in flames. with all my love, tara
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My enemy - Matt sturniolo
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Summary: Matt sturniolo and y/n have hate each other for basically forever. Nick and Chris hate their bickering, they think y/n and Matt should just date. Y/n and Matt think that’s disgusting till….
Paring: fem!reader + dom!Matt
Warnings: use of y/n, SMUT, cursing, fingering, blowjob, handjob, p in v, a little dirty talk, rough sex, pet names kinda (like.. good girl, and I don’t know SO LOOK FOR YOURSELF.)
A/N: I broke my fucken phone like 2 weeks ago and just got it fixed yesterday 🙈
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Y/ns pov
I’m sleeping over at the triplets house today, cause…..why not? I miss Chris and nick. Definitely not Matt. He’s a total asshole to me, but all sweet and charming in their YouTube videos. Pathetic. I open my phone and text nick. “Hey can I come for a little sleep over today?” I text. Almost immediately I get a text back. “Yeah sure. Just don’t be so fucking annoying with Matt.” He texts with an attitude. I think he’s pissed off.. I text back. “okay, I’ll be there in an hour.” I text. All I get is to be left on opened. Alright…
I grab all my shit for a sleepover. I get in my car and drive to their house. I get to their house but I’m not a fuck ass person to just walk in so I knock. Guess who opens the door. Matthew fucking sturniolo. “great.” He says. Asshole. He walks upstairs just leaving the door open for me to come in. I walk inside and take my shoes off and go and put all my shit in nicks room.
I walk into nicks room. Nobody.. what the fuck? I question. I put all my shit down and walk over to the couch where Matt is sitting. “where’s nick and Chris?” I ask. He looks up at me and sighs. “They’re out getting a bunch of shit for the store for a YouTube video.” he answers. “How long have they been gone?” I ask, considering nicks phone is right by Matt. “Like 2 hours, an hour ago?” He tells. huh? I texted nick 30 minutes ago and they have been gone for apparently 2 hours? Weird.
I sit on the couch, about 2 cushions away from him. “what the fuck are you watching?” I ask while confused. “Some random ass documentary, I’m not even watching it. What’s with all the questions?” He asks with an attitude. “I was just asking.” I tell. He gives me and weird look then goes back to his phone. I lay down and curl into a ball on the couch.
He glares at me and looks at me confused. “Why are you laying like that?” He asks me. “I don’t know, I’m comfortable..”I answer. He gives me a shrug and goes back to his phone. I pull my phone out of my pocket and go on it. I go thru my camera roll and find a sex tape of me for a while back, with my 2nd ever boyfriend. I forget my phone is on full volume. I click on the video and it blasts moans, the sound of me and his body’s slapping together.
My eyes go wide and I turn my phone off and Matt looks at me with wide eyes. “what the fuck were you watching…?” He questions. “nothing…” I say out of embarrassment.
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Matt’s pov
I hear y/ns phone blasting a sex tape of… sounds like her…? “what the fuck were you watching…?” I ask her. “Nothing.” She says almost immediately with a hint of embarrassment in her voice. We go quiet for a while, while I have a big ass tint in my pants from my dick… it’s bad from the last couple times this has happened. I let out a slight groan for only me to be able to hear.
God this fucking hurts. But I can do it here or get up cause she’ll think I’m fucking disgusting. Which it is…. She rolls over and looks down and sees my bulge thru my pants…
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Y/ns pov
I look down at Matt’s pants and see he has the biggest boner ever.. “fuck… I’m sorry y/n. Im really fucking sorr-“ I shut him up by smashing my lips into his. I climb onto his lap, feeling his boner on my legs. He pulls away. “Please y/n..” he groans out. I know exactly what he wants. “Please what?” I tease him. “Use your mouth or anything..” he continues. I get off him and get on my knees in front of him.
I undo his belt and slide his pants down along with his underwear. His dick springs out, slapping his stomach. I grab his dick and kitty lick his tip. He groans to the feeling. I go down and start bobbing my head. He’s a moaning mess at this point. “F-fuck y/n..” he groans out. I let out a little groan to him moaning my name, sending waves of pleasure through his body.
“P-please..” he begs me for more. I look up at him and smirk. He makes a makeshift ponytail with his hands for my hair. Matt pushes my head down a bit, making me gag a little. “Oh fuck y/n..” he groans again. I start pushing my head a bit more down, making me gag more.
“Fuck! I’m going to cum!…” he moans but also yells out. I bob my head on e last time and he shoots his warm load down my throat. “g-good girl…” he whimpers. I smile at the nickname. He grabs me and picks me up and walks to his room to continue. He lays me down on his bed and closes and locks the door even though no one’s home.
He crawls up towards me. He hovers above me. He kisses me all around my neck. I lift my head up for him to be able to kiss my neck more. He kisses all over till he finds my sweet spot. He sucks and licks my pure skin. He leaves a big purple hickey that’s very noticeable. No one will know.. right? He slides his fingers down to my aching core. Sliding my pants down along with my underwear. He starts pulling my shirt up revealing my purple lace bra. He smirks when he sees my bra. “Cute bra…” he smiles. I blush from his compliment. He slides his fingers along my curves.
He gets down to my core, slowly rubbing my clit. I let out a very soft moan. I kiss his soft lips as he fingers my core. He shoves his two fingers, the middle and ring, right into my core, I let out a moan making him groan. I kiss him deeply as he kisses me back.
He pumps his fingers in and out of me making me whimper every time he pumps his fingers. F-fuck Matt…” I moan. I bury my face into his neck. He pumps fingers in and out of me faster making me and whimpering and moaning mess.
“Sh-shittt” I moan. “M’ close!” I yell out. He pumps his fingers about three more times, hitting my g spot each time. “Fuck! Please! Matt!” I scream out. I release all over his two fingers. He pulls out his fingers. He licks off all of my release off his fingers. “mm you taste good.” He tells me while smirking.
He gets on top of me again. He kisses me on my neck. “All fours, ass up.” Matt says with a controlling tone. “Hmugh please…” I moan out. He lines himself up between my wet folds. “P-please don’t tease Matt.” I whimper out. “Be patient.” He tells. I nod my head and he slides him self in. I let out a moan as he burys his length into my core.
“so tight.” He whispers out. He thrusts his hips at a fast pace, his hips smacking into mine making an echo in the room. “Fuck…” he groans. “Mhughm fuck! Matt!” I moan loudly. He groans from me moaning his name. He pounds into me like theirs no tomorrow. I make a little noise every time his skin slaps mine. “are my good girl!?” He yells out at me. “Y-yes!” I yell back. He shoves himself deeper. I moan louder, my eyes going to the back of my head. He smacks my ass, making an echo sound around the room. I bury my face into the pillow. F-fuck..y/n.” he groans softly.
He pounds me till I yell out “fuck I need… fuck! I need to cum!” I yell out. “just wait.” He dominants. “W-what?..” i whimper. “just wait.” He says. He pounds me a couple for times till the point where now I’m feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated. “M-Matt please!” I yell. “be a good girl and cum all on my dick.”
He finally tells me. I feel the knot snap in my stomach. I release all over his dick. I feel his dick twitch inside of me. “F-fuckk!!..y/n!” He moans loudly. Digging his nails into my hips while shooting his hot load into my cunt. Painting my spongey walls white.
He pulls out and claps beside me. “damn.. didn’t think you were that good.” He tells. “Me either..” I agree with him. We hear the front door open and hear yelling. “Matt! Wer- what the..? Y/n!?” Chris yells from the front door. I look at Matt. He looks back at me. He starts getting up but kisses my lips. He finishes putting his clothes on. He winks and leaves and closes the door behind him. I just had sex with my enemy.
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IM DYING.
idk I’m bored now🙂
NOW I HAVE TO GO WRITE MORE😔
BYE.
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jealousy • j.musiala
summary: a stressful day can lead to a unexpected night..(based on this request!!)
word count: 3.5k!
warnings: “y/n/n” means your nickname btw!!! mention of alcohol, musiala is readers brother best friend, age gap (musiala 21, reader 18.) jealousy, slight angst, smut, unprotected sex, doggy style, and cowgirl style.
note: NOT PROOFREAD! i’m so sorry if this seems or sounds rushed! hope y’all enjoy this!💝
You were currently cleaning the kitchen, closing time was the best time for you. All you wanted was to get home, take a shower and sleep. But the first thing you had to do was close up the cafè, technically you and your friend isa. “Did you get all the dishes put up!” Isa shouted, “yes i did, i even wiped the counters and everything.” You said, removing your apron. Now you were left in a pink shirt with your wide jeans, isa looked at you and giggled. “Are we closing now isa?” You said, she walked to the kitchen putting her apron up as well, “Yes, now lets get out of here before your brother yells at me for not bringing you in time.” She said, your eyes widened at the remembrance of the curphew your always put in, but usually there’s parties. You were hoping you wouldn’t walk into one, today. The two of you closed up the cafè. You and isa walked to the car, you got in the passenger seat as she got in the driver seat driving to your house. “He’s not responding to any of my messages..” you sighed out.
“Your brother?” Isa spoke
“Yeah..i don’t want to assume he has a party..i’m just over this day..” you mumbled, looking out the window.
She looked over at you, a little grin appearing on her face. “You could text jamal..” she said, you turned your head around. “No fucking way, never will i press my fingers into his fucking contact and text him.” You said, she laughed at your reaction. You indeed never really liked jamal, he was your brothers best friend, always bothering you about why you dress up the way you do, why you never talk as much as you used to or why you don’t like to party. The youngster himself always got the girls, got to admit it..he was a very cute handsome boy. Just, not his attitude. Isa had parked the car in the driveway and you immediately groaned loudly in annoyance. “Seriously! What the actual fuck!” You whined, “Every fucking time theres a party i’m so tired of this!” You grumbled grabbing your bag, she looked at you. “You don’t want me going with you?” She spoke, you shook your head. “I’ll be okay..drive safe and get plenty of rest isa, thank you for bringing me.” You smiled, she smiled back.
“we dont have work tomorrow right?” You spoke, ahe shook her head. “Nope, they’re not letting us work tomorrow due to some type of age restriction..i don’t know..” she spoke, you nodded your head before opening the door. “And don’t drink neither!” Isa shouted, you laughed nodding your head before walking inside. You rolled your eyes right away, already dealing with the crowd of people. The warm atmosphere making you ick. That is where you meet yourself with none other your brother, xavier.. “oh y/n, take this.” he said, you scoffed. “I don’t want it, you didn’t even tell me about this today..” you mumbled, he frowned. “I did, i don’t know what you’re talking about.” He said laughing, you rolled your eyes again. “k.” you said, slightly walking away. The reek of alcohol making you disgusted.
Even the fact that you were carrying exactly a cup of alcohol as well, you were infact stuck in a crowd of people. People you didn’t even know, you were very pissed at the fact this even happened. The crowd pushing you through, just to figure out you spilled the red alcohol punch on none other..jamal. “What the fuck!” You shrieked, the cold substance also getting on your clothes. Jamal looked down at you, “Didn’t expect you to be here..” he said, you rolled your eyes. “Yeah you weren’t supposed to be here either. Come on.” You grumbled, grabbing his arm throwing the cup in the trash. “Ur so fucking boring..” he mumbled, you turned around and hit his arm, “No, you’re clearly wearing a white shirt that’s stained and you have to change. Dumbass.” You said, he chuckled. You pulled him upstairs to your brothers room.
He looked at two blonde girls who were giggling and head over heels for jamal. You rolled your eyes, both girls moving. He smirked at the girls, giving them a wink as you punched his arm. “Fucking stop! We’re in the middle of something!” You yelled, pushing him in your brothers room, slamming the door. You walked to the closet, opening both doors. Going through his clothes, meanwhile jamal was standing by the door, zoning out. “are you going to take your shirt off or are you going to stand there like a dumbass?” You said. No response. He looked at you, you looked up at him. Great, how fucking stupid did this kid get or was it just the alcohol you thought. Even worse, he was older than you by three years. “You want me to take it off for you?? Or something??” You said, getting up finding a shirt. His gaze turning to you again, “yes please.” He said, you snickered. “Get one of those fucking drunked ass girls to do it then.” You said, throwing the shirt at him. “But i want you to do it.” He whined, you looked at him disgusted, possibly drunk? You thought. You sighed giving in, you raised his shirt up your cheeks heating up as you lifted the shirt up to his neck. You swallowed nervously removing the shirt off him.
You put the black shirt on him, attempting yet again to not look at him. You moved away, grabbing the stained shirt. “I’ll wash it later on..” you said, attempting to leave before he held your waist. Without looking up at him, he lifted your chin up. “you’re very gorgeous, y’know that right?” He said, you stared at him smacking his hand off. “cut the bullshit off, that won’t work at all.” You said, opening the door pushing him out the room. He chuckled watching you storm off to your room, in which you slammed. You went into your room, find a new shirt. You changed into a white tanktop, before changing into some pink baggy sweatpants. You put your hair down, walking out your room.
You made your way downstairs, happy to see less people. You found your only favorite friend from your brother laying on the couch, you sat next to him. “Oh you’re here, hey y/n!” He said, you smiled. “Wheres xavier at..” you said, he shrugged. “Not my business and i really don’t care..he’s probably drunk as hell.” He said chuckling, you rested your legs on his lap as he smiled. The two of you had a very close bond since you’ve pretty much known him since kids, you turned around feeling eyes on you. You frowned before going back to having a conversation with your brother’s friend.
“Y/n, do you remember when we would throw stuff at each other when we were little, especially you.” He said, you laughed, your hand holding onto bicep. Jamal had looked at you, his gaze being serious. You looked around feeling eyes again, just to find out the eyes were gone. You frowned legs still resting on your brothers best friend, the two of you just talking and laughing through the night.
12:16am..
“are you staying here?” you said, he looked at you shaking his head. “i have to leave in a few minutes, why?” he spoke, you shrugged. “just tired..i think imm going to bed now tho, thank you for entertaining me!” you said sitting up, “of course y/n/n” you smiled at the nickname before getting up, “goodnight! drive safe!” you said, he waved at you as you went upstairs. you left the door half open, you got under your blanket covering yourself. Not even minutes later, the door slammed open, you looked up from your phone. “What the fuck are you doing in my room!” You yelled sitting up. “Since when the fuck were you and zach close.” He said furious, looking at you. “Why the fuck is that your concern! Get the fuck out of my room! Why does it even matter who i’m talking to!” You shouted, he looked at you. “That doesn’t concern you neither on why i care, why are you suddenly close with him?” He said, you glared at him.
“Get out of my business! This isn’t your worry, he’s my friend since we were kids and you obviously weren’t halfway there for my childhood too!” You said nearly getting up, he stared at you. “So what, he was fucking touching you! He’s definitely not your friend.” He said you looked at him, “Touching could mean anything! You’re so fucking childish j!” You said getting up, walking towards the door, walking past him. Just as you were about to open the door fully, he grabbed your arm from behind, slamming the door, then suddenly you were pinned against the door in a swift quick movement. You turned around and looked up at him, “Seriously! What the fu—“ you got cut off midway, jamal had smashed his lips onto yours, you kissed back.
His hands traveling down to your waist, the kiss was unexpected, heavy and desperate. You wrapped your arms around his neck, still giving in. He raised your leg, letting it rest against his hip making him lean closer to you, he grinded his crotch against your core. You bit his lip, causing him to groan into your mouth, without hesitation you slid your tongue inside, exploring through his mouth. He kissed you deeply, you held onto the back of his head, his hands gripping onto your thighs, lifting you up. Without hesitation, your legs wrapped around his waist, he moved you to your bed laying you down. You looked up at him breathlessly, he hovered above you. You grabbed the back of his neck, pulling him closely, kissing him deeply he fell onto you. he kissed back, you spread your legs open letting him lay on top of you. He desperately began grinding against you, you moaned at the sensation, sending a little shockwave up into you. He slipped his tongue inside your mouth this time, sloppily kissing you. You kissed back, hands cupping his cheeks as your acrylics drew lines on his cheek. You moaned into his mouth again feeling his hardened member against your core yet again, your panties already soaking.
“j..please..” you whispered in between, whimpering when he bit down on your lip as his lips trailed down to your neck, nibbling, sucking and biting on your skin. You arched your back onto him, he held onto the back of your head leaning closely to your neck. you whimpered his name out, as he sucked onto your neck starting to leave marks around. You moaned feeling him grind harder onto you, he found another noticeable spot on your neck, sucking and nibbling on the skin. You moaned again, biting down on your lip as your lifted your hips up. Attempting to find some type of friction. he grabbed your hips pushing your hips down, you grunted at his tightness, he pulled your sweatpants revealing your white lace thong. You blushed heavily looking away, your hands traveled down to his shirt raising it up.
He laid down on the bed, as you sat on your knees looking at him, you watched him unbutton his pants. Your eyes slightly widening at the print, he looked down at your thighs. “C’mere..” he said, you crawled over to him. He touched and rubbed on your thigh, you blushed heavily. So many thoughts were going through your mind, was her using you for tonight and that’s it? are we actually going to have sex? what if your brother walks in? you pushed all the thoughts, you were about to sit down on his crotch just when he held your hips, you looked at him. “w-what..?” you said, he pulled your thong off, you blushed heavily again. He grabbed your hand pulling you closer to him, he kissed you deeply again. You kissed back, cupping his cheek. He sat you down, “you’re so pretty naked..” he murmured, you whimpered trying to find some sort of friction yet again.
Impatience. That’s how it was, he pulled down his boxers while you were distracted into the kiss. You wrapped your arms around him, you looked down sinking yourself into him. You moaned into the kiss, “fuck. don’t move yet..” he breathed out, you nodded your head, tilting your head while kissing him. He slightly raised his hips up into you, causing you to whine. “Shit..you’re so warm.” He said, you whimpered again. He held your hips, “move, it’s okay.” Jamal said, you hugged onto his neck, moving your hips back and forth slowly. Your eyes twitching at the sudden pleasure of his cock, you burried your face in his neck again. Still moving your hips, he squeezed your ass causing you to moan out. You held his hand starting to bounce on his cock instead, you bit on your lip holding back your noises. He groaned feeling your ass smack against his thighs, you looked down at him moving up and down against him. He watched your pussy squelch onto his dick, you rested your forehead on his shoulder. He squeezed your hand, “fuck..move faster babe.” he spoke.
You shook your head, “n-not yet..” you whimpered out, he chuckled. “too big?” he spoke, you stayed quiet moaning already as you began to pace yourself up. He squeezed your boobs, cupping them into his hands. Squishing them. “c’mon, answer me.” He spoke, you shook your head again, you cupped his cheek looking into his eyes. You whimpered before smashing your lips onto him, the kiss between the two of you being noisy and sloppy. He held onto your ass cheek, attempting to move you quicker than your usual pace. “j..” you moaned out in between the kiss, he squished your ass hardly. you bounced up and down on him, pulling away. You rested your hand on your bedrest, hopping on his cock. You moaned out between every small bounce, he held onto your boobs squishing them. “Fuck, finally got what you—mmngh..wanted huh.” You moaned out, he nodded his head. You looked down at him, cupping his cheeks. Tilting your head, you kissed him again. He kissed back groaning into your mouth, gripping your hips tightly pushing you deeper.
You scratched his back, he thrusted up into you. You moaned uncontrollably into his mouth, he gripped onto your hips stopping your movements, he thrusted quicker into you. You cried out, your wetness leaking down into his length. He grabbed your chin, making you look at him, your eyes all glossy from the tears of pleasure, “you never answered me..” he said, you moaned looking at him, you shook your head. “s-shut up..” you whined, he chuckled. “it’s okay..i don’t need the answer either way, just looking at you shows already..” he said, you burried your face in between his neck. His hand finding your clit as he began to rub circles around your sensitive knob. You scratched his back, moaning into his ear. He felt himself twitch, his fingers rubbing your clit at a pattern making you moan uncontrollably as you felt yourself on the edge.
“I-I’m gonna cum..” you moaned out, as seconds later you let your head fall on his shoulder yet again. Gushing around him, releasing yourself. You breathed heavily, looking at him. “Y-You haven’t..” you spoke, turning your head to him, “i know..get on your fours though..” he spoke, you nodded your head. As you got off him, he slapped your ass marking it yet again, you felt him push himself in thrusting into you. You bit your lip again, trying not to be as loud, though you were loud not too while ago..you hoped your brother wasn’t here or one of jamals friends. He pushed you down, burrying your head into the blankets, your tummy nearly laying on the mattress. He pounded deeply into you, causing you to gasp letting out a muffled long moan. He held the side of your waist, ramming his hips back and forth at a rhythm causing you to moan uncontrollably already.
Your ass slapping against his pelvis making your eyes roll back, the noises of your skin smacking, jamal’s breathing and your exquisite sounds being spread around your room. You gripped onto the sheets when he pulled your hips back, his cock brushing on your g-spot with a cry out. He began pounding his cock into your g-spot, “o-oh f-fuck!..” you stuttered out in each thrust. He slapped your ass, marking it again. “Stretching you out so perfectly..” he moaned out, feeling you squelch around him. You rested your cheek on the sheets, your noises being louder this time. He grabbed your arms, pulling them back as you fell forward. “j-jamal!” you moaned out loudly. His dick pulsating quickly into your g-spot. You moaned uncontrollably nearly screaming, your throat aching from your pornographic noises. He leaned closer, letting his weight fall on your back, he slammed his hip harder into you. Your moans turning into stuttery uh-uh-uh’s.
“Shit baby..you’re doing so well for me.” He whispered in your ear, your noises repeating over and over. Cock drunk into the way he kept pounding your guts. “M-Mhm..” you stuttered hummed, he fondled with your pussy, rubbing your clit in circles. Your eyes rolled towards the back of your head, moaning his name out. He continued as he moved his pace quicker than he was. Hips still smacking harshly against you, you whimpered in between your noises feeling him twitch inside you. He halfway laid himself down, you felt his cock in a different angle making you cry out. Hand under your tummy as his fingers were still working down there, he held your jaw with his free hand turning you around to him. You looked at him, your eyes drowsy and glossy. He kissed you deeply, you kissed back with a moan, a tear slipping out your eye from the pleasure.
The two of you sloppy kissing, your moans muffling with his as you felt your tummy tighten. You cried out, “I know baby, i know.” He kised your neck, you gripped onto the sheets nearly letting yourself release. “let go for me, it’s okay.” he whispered, you cried out as his fingers rubbed slowly against your sensitive knob. you came onto his cock, with a loud moan squelching all over him. You blabbered nonsense, your tightness causing jamal to let himself come down inside you. You breathed heavily laying down on your stomach, thighs shaking. He kissed your shoulder before pulling out, you turned around carefully shutting your legs tight, not letting anything spill out. He grabbed your stained shirt from earlier, you looked at him. “What are y-you doing..” you murmured, he slightly spread your legs open.
you looked down at him, he cleaned your inner thighs with the shirt. you snickered, letting your head rest on the pillow, he laid next to you. You two stayed quiet, the only noise coming out was jamal covering both of you. God you just hoped your brother wouldn’t ask about anything, luckily your door was locked. You looked at him, moving closer you rested your head on his chest. Listening to his heart beat, and with that sound. You and jamal dozed off to sleep.
Approximately the next morning..
You woke up to the noise of your ears ringing, your head pounding with a sudden ache. You sat up, eyes still heavy. You looked around your room, clothes on the floor..you thought, your nipples began to harden from the cold, your eyes widened when you realized. you slept with your brothers best friend. you looked to your side not finding your shirt, you sat up letting the blanket fall loose on you as you attempted to reach for your shirt on jamals side. He grunted in his sleep, he grabbed your wrist pulling you back to his chest. “where were you going..” he groaned out, you tried to get off him. “j we can’t do this, my brother will get mad at us.” you said, sitting up. “not to mention..we argue a lot and we just dont seek to be suitable for each other..” you said, he covered your mouth. “y/n listen to what you’re saying, most the times we argued was because i was being a jerk. i like you, i really do.” He said, you looked at him.
“really?” you spoke.
he nodded his head, moving your hair out the way. you smiled, resting your head back on his chest. “does this mean you like me back..” he said smacking your ass playfully. “jamal!” you yelped out, he smirked kissing your cheek.
not a very bad night for yourself.
#jamal musiala smut#jamal musiala x reader#jamal musiala imagines#jamal musiala imagine#football imagine#football x reader#football smut#𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐬ꪆৎ𓏲 ๋࣭
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This is completely random and unrelated to anything but the other day I was watching “isn’t it romantic”, an episode from Season 2 of golden girls where they have a lesbian character, and while I think the fact it was a single episode with a token lesbian to push the message that being a queer woman isn’t a bad thing is something that not as relevant to contemporary audiences, it amazes me that it’s honestly aged better than your average 2000s/early 2010 lesbian rep.
The most hated thing about 2000s lesbian rep is the “predatory lesbian” troupe. Think Cynthia-Rose Adams from pitch perfect chasing the other girl around while everyone is freaking out while she runs from her and blows her rape whistle, or Nicky Nicole’s and Big Boo from Orange is the New Black (I am saying this as an OITNB fan who loves these characters). Jean is presented as a sweet, harmless, caring woman who actively avoids doing anything that would make the other women uncomfortable, for example when Dorothy says they’ll share a bed because there isn’t enough rooms she instantly offers to sleep on the sofa, and when she ends up having to share a room with rose she admits her feelings for her before getting into the bed with her, and upon not getting a response decides to sleep on roses chaise lounge instead. She also decides to leave once she realises she’s developed feelings for rose, but when they discuss it rose isn’t afraid of her in the slightest and says she is fine with her staying unless Jean feels friendship alone with rose isn’t something she can live with, to which Jean responds that she would happily just be friends with rose.
There is also zero fetishisation from men, in fact I don’t think we see a man the whole episode. Not saying any lesbian movies should write off men, but it’s so refreshing to see lesbian portrayal completely removed from the male gaze.
A small thing but something else I liked- Dorothy admits she didn’t know if Rose would know what a lesbian was and she simply responded “well I could have looked it up!”, and when her and Jean discuss it she admits she doesn’t fully understand jeans feelings, but she recognises that she feels that way and that’s ok- PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT PRONOUNS AND DIFFERENT OR NEWER LABELS TAKE NOTES! You can simply google what something means and respect it without needing to know the nuisances!
I just think it’s wonderful how a show from 1986 made by and catered towards more middle aged/older watchers can beat modern shows with a younger target audience, and it really goes to show that having an open mind and simply accepting others means a lot more than being overly educated on such matters. Love golden girls
#golden girls#betty white#rose nylund#bea arthur#dorothy zbornak#lesbian rep#lgbt representation#gay representation#lgbt shows
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Game Night
NSFW Lee Minho x Reader 2,951k words
Warnings: 18+, Minors DNI, unprotected sex, oral, cursing, overstimulation, competing screams with you best friend in another room (idk i this is a warning but just dont want anyone uncomfy)
Imagine hating your best friend's boyfriend's best friend... Or do you?
Best to pick your Chan bias friend!
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“YOU LIKE WHO?!”
Your best friend about drops the wine glass in her hand as you both are cleaning up in the kitchen after another successful game night. A pretty common occurrence at the Bahng residence. The two of you catching up on the week while Chris and his best friend in the other room talking about their next record release. You looked forward to this all week every week. The ONLY thing that could make it better is if the man you hated wasn’t Chris’s best friend and roomate.
“Jesus Christ bsf/n, lower you voice! Chris and Min are literally in the living room…”
“Sorry, sorry! But like babe I thought you hated Minho? Just yesterday you said you hoped he walked into a vat of gasoline and then tripped on a match.”
“I can’t stand him! But he just, everything! It’s infuriating why does he need to be so god damn sexy with everything?”
“Why do you even hate him again?”
Bsf/n asked as you started to walk out of the kitchen to go grab your phone you left on the coffee table.
You cant even remember honestly when it all started. Maybe it was the cocky way he carried himself? Always so cold to everyone not really even giving anyone an opportunity to see a different side of him. But it wasn’t just you, he hated you too. Always acting like a school boy pulling at the things he knew would get to you. But after today, you were just confused. The looks he kept throwing your way. You caught him staring multiple times. His eyes following every little thing you would did, every slight move you would make. Which lead you to the conversation confessing that you may have breathed in every moment of him staring a little too much. That maybe, just maybe you wanted more.
Getting so caught up in your thoughts you didn’t have time to react to the tall figure colliding into, drenching you both in leftover punch.
“Fuck Minho, Im so sorry!” You waited a few seconds to be called a dumb ass or some rude remark, but it never came. He set down the punch bowl he had been holding down on the table you left your phone at. And within seconds had your wrist in his hand leading you to his room.
“Come on you can change into one of my shirts.” Thats all you heard before the door opened and you found yourself where you had never been before. But here you were back pressed up against the door, Minho inches from your face with an expression you just couldn’t read.
“The shirt Min?” Trying to break what ever tension was happening.
“Oh I’ll get to that, don’t worry. But first tell my how much I infuriate you. Go ahead kitten, if you can talk shit about me to bsf/n you can do it to my face.” Leaning with one hand above your head and the free hand brushing the little bit of hair falling in front of your face softly behind your ear.
“I….”
Before you could even form a sentence his lips were already crashing into yours, pressing your whole body further against the door. Your hands holding his face in an instant pulling him closer into the kiss, if that was even possible. It was painfully obvious as your tongues danced together the craving you both had for each other had reached its breaking point.
“Can I?” Minho gestures to your button down blouse. You quickly nod in approval. As he starts to unbutton half way down he pauses and takes in every inch of what’s in front of him. Making a mental picture of the way the black lace popping out from your bra perfectly accents the curves of your breast.
“Minnnnnn” You very impatiently whine out as he takes his time lightly peppering your collarbone with kisses, trailing his way done as he finishes taking off your shirt completely.
“Oh y/n, kitten relax youll get what you want but im about to take my time with you. Tell you what though I'll share a little of what i have planned. After im done getting my hands and lips on every inch of this gorgeous body, im going to have you on your knees so I can see if those pretty lips are good for more then just talking shit, and then im going to fuck you into tomorrow. Sound like a plan?”
Before you could even think of a response you felt his hands quickly lifting you up under your thighs wrapping your legs around his torso pressing you up against him, feeling how painfully hard you had already made him. With you safely in his arms, your hands behind his head pulling him into kiss after passionate kiss he made his way with you over to his nicely made bed.
Slowly setting you down on your back, lips never leaving your body but instead trailing down your neck right in the creek that made you fold as he gave little bites, blowing on each fresh red mark he created. Little squeaks and whimpers leaving your mouth was like some kind of overwhelming drug to Minho. Like a song he wanted on repeat in his ears forever. Trailing down your body further licking, biting, marking every free spot available. But he needed to hear more. He needed to know just want kind of noises he could pull from you. Finding your waist band he began toying with the elastic while looking up at you with the deepest brown eyes. You couldnt tell what exactly you were seeing as part of him was filled with such a dark lust that washed over his appearance but somehow he also was looking at you so softly something youve never seen him do.
“You know ive really wanted this for so long y/n but I never thought i had the chance. I want to make this body of yours mine.”
“Please, need you Min.”
“You need what sweet girl? Come on use your words.” His hand still running along the areas of your waist, using the top of his hand to softly brush up against you feeling just how wet you already were through your thin leggings. Your hips moving and wiggling slightly trying to feel more. His face so close you could swear the pressure of even his breath was about to set you off.
“I need you, I need you to touch me” the most pathetic sounds starting to pour from your mouth as you start to beg this man you thought you hated to finally fuck you.
“Please fuck me, do what you want to me, i need to feel you in me minnie please.”
“What a good girl finally being honest with me for once. Lucky for you im a man of my word.”
With that he pulled down your leggings to reveal matching panties to your bra. You hear a harsh hiss come through Mins teeth.
“Fuck you wear these fuck for me?” Minho was really taking in everything just like he said because with every step he took you in like a painting. Memorizing every detail to its fullest before continuing.
“You are so fucking perfect y/n” taking his hands and harshly grabbing your thighs, he truly thought every part of you deserved attention. While his hands massaged up and down your thighs his head was situated in perfect view giving your inner thighs the same licking, biting, kisses he was to the rest of your body. Kissing so close to where you needed him most causing you to cry out for more. With a a smirk and a slight evil giggle he flicked the side of your black lace to the side very eager to get a taste of you. With the first swipe of his tongue he looked up at you with a low moan.
“My god you taste incredible kitten.”
Pulling your panties fully off he went back down licking and sucking every part of you, holding your hips down while you squirmed.
“Now sweet girl you were making such pretty noises earlier why are you covering your mouth now?” He noticed once he inserted 2 fingers while continuing to give your clit the full attention of his mouth.
“bsf/n and Chris are outside I dont want them to hear”
“Oh but kitten i want them to hear, i want them to hear exactly what we are doing in here. I want you to scream so loud the whole city knows who owns you tonight”
“Fuck yes please” you more confidently moan out.
“There we go, thats my girl. Plus i guarantee they are playing the same game so why dont we play a little game back, called whos louder. Its only fair since it is still game night. Now baby grind on my face i can feel how close you are lets win the first round”
Obeying his orders you tighten your grip in his hair and grind against his perfectly sculpted face. Everything was so overwhelmingly pleasurable, the pace of his fingers, the way they were curling repeatedly i to the perfect spot, him sucking and licking perfectly. It was all going straight to your head making you dizzy. You could feel your high coming and listening to him loudly enjoying himself was exactly what you need to push you over the edge.
With a scream of his name, your legs tightening around him, your body broke through your high. But that didnt stop Minhos pace.
“Min, its too much, i cant. Please”
You couldnt tell what you were feeling but you felt like your body was about to snap. He didnt respond to your pleas with any words just a low growl between breathes. You felt a new high climbing but a different high. Something yould never before this and as your cried out his name for the second time in less then a minute you felt everything below you became soaked.
“God, fuck that was so perfect kitten.” Minho raising his dripping face up with the most shit eating grin. He threw in a few licks to cause your body to twitch at the over sensitivity.
“I dont know what just happened but im so sor..”
You were immediately cut off with him on top of you mouth back on yours.
“Sorry? Oh god for what? That was so fucking sexy i need that from you over and over again. I want to taste you like that every night. Fuck i need you even more. Did it feel good?” He was looking so deeply in your eyes.
“It felt incredible, ive never felt that good. Can i have more please. I want to feel you in me. Need to feel you in me now.” You beg as he removes his shirt still hovering over you giving your hands free roam all over his body. Every part of him is so stunningly perfect. How have you had the strength to go on this long not getting to touch every inch of him.
Using your nails a little to graze over his skin, watching goosebumps appear along his strong arms currently one on either side of your body holding himself up. Watching your movements, the look in your eyes silently begging for more. You reach down to begin unbuttoning his pants and he helps you by removing them fully letting himself bounce up against his lower stomach. Your hand reaching immediately to grab him, smearing his precum over the beautiful caramel tip. A little groan falling from his lips. And a shiver through his body finally feeling your touch. He had thought about it for so long, after a long day late at night. Alone in room with his thoughts. Thoughts about you, touching him, playing with him, how your mouth would feel around him, how good yould feel taking all of him thrust after thrust. Knowing this was finally happening was enough to make this once stern strong man to melt into a puddle. He was quickly taken out of his thoughts as you pushed him forward and switching him to the bed so you could bend down in front of him.
Now on your knees you take a moment to look up at the god like man in front of you. Perfectly chiseled body, and holding him so beautifully in your hand… it was enough to bring out a few pathetic whimpers from you. You were waiting to hear some type of overly cocky bullshit come from his lips but all that you heard were small moans as you rubbed your hand up and down slowly. It was a dangerously gorgeous sight.
Taking your tongue in replacement of my hand going up along the middle, bottom to glorious tip top. Taking in the feeling of every vein before circling around his tip and back down again. Stopping every few cms to give small kisses.
Starting to see impatience grow on the man groaning before you, you decide to give in and fully take him into your mouth swirling your tongue around and sucking when needed. He felt so fucking good as he slid towards the back of your throat, starting to buck his hips needing fuck your throat deeper.
“God fuck 자기야” groaning in between words louder and louder as he takes a fist full of your hair pushing your head as far as yould go.
“You are so fucking pretty like this. So fucking perfect. My perfect toy.” Drool dripping everywhere, running down your chin as let out the most pathetic noises. This was a vision of heaven for Min.
In between the sounds your mouth was making and Mins delicious moaning you could hear your friends in the other room playing the exact same game. The echoing of it all was making you dizzy. You need this man deep inside you now.
“Please Min, please fuck me”
Looking up at him with begging eyes, pleading for him to finally take you.
“Sweet girl i thought yould never ask.” His strong arms picking you up from the floor bringing you back to laying on the bed, him hovering over you. Something so animalistic about the look in his eyes while he brought his face closer to your so he could kiss you. More passionately then youve ever been kissed, his hands exploring every inch of you. Wanted to simply devour you in every way he can. While kissing and sucking at your neck he was perfect aligned to rub himself up and down your folds. Teasing you, causing you to gasp everytime he was close enough to enter. Little hip movements trying to get him inside you.
“My impatient little bunny” he let out a giggle as he slowly sank into you. With a slow pace back and forth, kissing at your face, and leaning into your ear.
“You are truly so beautiful. Absolutely made for me. I need you.”
You giggled as his statement.
“You feel so good, you have me right now”
“No, no y/n i need YOU. I need all of you. I need this every night. I need to wake up to you every morning. I need YOU.”
Wrapping your legs tighter around his waist, pulling him deeper inside he rushed his pace.
“You can have me, i want you. Please take me and make me yours Minho.”
Nails digging into his back as he abused the perfect spot. You felt your body close to snapping at the incredible rush of feeling.
Loudly sputtering out syllables of his name.
“Yes come on tell me whos making you feel this good, scream for me.”
Your moans were pathetic loud but so were your friends. It was like a match between you and bfs/n to see whose man was making the other feel better. It was clear both men had the same idea on how tonights game night was going to go.
“I told you they would play too”
“Fuck Min, i cant take it please”
“Cant take what pretty girl? Come on tell me what you want. Tell our friends what you want. Go on scream for me.”
“Please i want to cum, i want to cum for you.” Moaning in a way you dont think youve ever moaned for anyone. Feeling your mind slip away into a state of pure bliss.
“Yes!” The only word coming out of your mouth over and over and over again. Holding on as long as you could because it felt so good.
“Go ahead 자기야 i want you to make another mess”
Min wanted it to continue but with as good as you felt clenching around him he knew he needed to let go with you right then.
As wave after wave rushed over you Minho grabbed your hand in his as he let his orgasm go with yours both bodys twitching while the most beautiful melody of moans from the both of you came together.
He stayed hovered above you for a bit his head in the crock of your neck. You could feel the smile on his face. Bringing his face up to yours giving him a gentle kiss on the nose.
“That was perfect Minho”
“No you're perfect y/n.”
The gentle kisses continuing into something more passionate. You could feel Min on your thigh harding all over again.
“It doesnt sound like bsf/n and Chris are quite done. And by the feel of it I dont think your done either I might have a little left in me.” Letting out an innocent giggle.
“Fuck it ill go all night with you.”
#smut#skz#skz smut#stray kids smut#straykids#bang chan smut#minho smut#lee know smut#enemy to lovers
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Hello love. I like sending you asks because you’re always great at responding. This one is a bit sensitive. Don’t post if not appropriate.
Louis and alcohol. You’ve worked with him and seen him a little more closely than most. Is he a massive drinker (like, every day) or is his alcohol consumption a little exaggerated? I’ve seen other posts referring to him as having a problem, which seems a cruel assumption when people don’t know the guy.
It looks to me like there’s a ton of boozing on tour (lots of stories from other artists who’ve worked with him confirm they all drink a lot when they’re all together) but L never looks as though he goes on stage p*ssed. He tends to have beer on stage with him but never drinks the whole thing (I kind of feel like it’s a bit of a nervous habit, to have a drink there he can grab but not to be necessarily knocking it back show). I mean he definitely looks like he drinks a lot post show but we never hear of him turning up to meet fans drunk or smelling of booze (and there dont seem to be any major boozy stories about him doing something bad because he was drunk - oh apart from breaking his arm!) so I’m on the fence about whether or not he does have unhealthy drinking habits or not. He seems pretty controlled and put together with the occasional post show drunken/stoned selfie!
What are your thoughts?
I guess I just want a healthy Louis.
Hello anon! Apologies for the hold up on this, I wanted to do a good and thorough job at responding because it is a sensitive topic, for sure. I’m not sure how much you dabble in substances, your age, or your experiences with said substances, so what I say may feel like it’s still too much, but yeah, I hope I can provide you with some reassurance. So, lovely anon, welcome to the show!
TW for alcohol and drug use
Drinking and drug use is heavily glorified, over indulged in, and used as a crutch in the entertainment industry, but often times you only hear the worst of it. You’ve got the stories of overdoses, media analysing stars because they look drunk performing on stage, and artists having a bad/shocking image because they partake in alcohol/drugs depending on who their demographic is (zouis weed video, for example).
It’s often used as a coping mechanism, to just take a bit of the edge off. This doesn’t mean that all artists use it to an extreme extent to where they can’t perform/can’t live without it (like it’s portrayed in A Star is Born), and don’t get me wrong, some do, but from what I’ve seen and my pals and colleagues in the music industry have seen, Louis doesn’t overindulge.
I mean, they’d have a drink (or multiple) for the same reasons as we do, to just… chill out the nervous system, or carry on the energy. Dissipate some anxiety before going on stage and while on stage, calming down your body and mind from the adrenaline afterwards, partying and carrying on a bit more heavily if you’re celebrating. I’ve toured, not to the same extent as L or H, but it becomes quite normalised within people from the artist’s direct team, their direct touring crew, to the promoters, to the artist’s personal friends. It’s SO much work putting on these shows and travelling and when everything goes well, it’s a huge relief and time for a beverage or a joint. It’s just kinda… very normalised, which is also really bad, but Louis, from what I’ve seen and heard, is smart with it.
You’re correct in saying he isn’t drunk on stage, he doesn’t smell like substances (only cigarettes but that’s a whole other story), and only has 1 beer on stage.
His rider is pretty standard too. Artists over order so they don’t need runners to go get them stuff causing a delay. And then they take whatever they don’t finish to the hotel with them or whatever. If you were famous you’d wanna milk the free stuff 100%, so yeah, if that is a cause of concern for some fans seeing the leaked LATAM rider, I can assure you that it doesn’t go that far between the amount of people in his band and crew. It’s just… very normalised, but doesn’t happen every night.
Louis also just loves to dabble in the devils lettuce (im super annoyed that I have a story about this that I can’t share but he’s fucking hilarious) and loves a drink. Alcohol is also super normalised and encouraged in the UK, and here in Australia too. So I see a lot of it and it’s just kind of a thing you… do. It’s more so if you don’t drink, people are like ????? Hahaha.
So growing up in a country where it’s very normal to drink a beer or get pissed, it’s kind of engrained, and then being in an industry where it’s also normalised, it’s 100% natural to lean into it. When I drink on tour, it’s certainly less often than artists, but it’s just a social celebration thing and it’s kind of expected to a degree. In my opinion, and from what I’ve seen of him going on tour, he doesn’t have a problem nor loses any professionalism on or off the stage. He’s very serious about making these shows good and proving himself.
When I was backstage with him at one of these shows, he was in a green room that wasn’t too far from my office. He is so LOUD and hearing his giggle and talking shit was so wild hahaha. I could smell cigarettes, and heard him and his band/crew do a shot before the show, but apart from that I think maybe they had one or two beers in the late arvo together. I don’t clean/service green rooms so I can’t tell you 100% how much they drank, but it was pretty lowkey. I also don’t think he gets stoned before going on stage (I would’ve smelt it). I think it’s purely an after show fun time which also helps him sleep from jet lag/adrenaline etc. like I mentioned earlier.
He eats well, and while not as healthy as H, still filling food and has an appetite (im talking during the day, not the wild amount of munchies he orders post show), so he’s not letting alcohol/nicotine curb his appetite to that point. He did have bottle service at his hotel on a couple of those nights, too. But again, the bigger indulgence seems to be post show. He’s overall still healthy.
From what we’ve seen, it would be very easy to spot if he was going too far. He’s 100% in control and uses it as a small crutch like a lot of us do due to the intense stress of our jobs. Tbh he also just likes a drink and a joint or two and there’s no reason to worry. Hell, I like a drink or a joint or two and im good at my job, know when to stop, and uphold my professionalism to a high standard. There’s truly no reason to worry, he’s just louder about it than the other boys (I’ve heard that Niall gets on it just as much, but we don’t see it).
Now, it may seem like im making excuses for the industry or for Louis or whatever, but truly, it kinda is what it is. There has been a small but significant shift in the industry around drinking and drug use though, and how it affects mental health, which is great. In Australia, we have a resource called “Support Act” which is an organisation that now has a 24/7 wellbeing hotline for artists, industry folks, and crew, and while it has been around since 1997, it is obviously far bigger and more accessible now due to technology etc., and has great resources. The UK similarly has “Music Minds Matter”, and there are multiple around the US. So there is definitely a larger awareness on the toll touring and an industry career can take on you, and I have no doubt that Louis is aware of his limits and has supportive and wonderful people around him.
Wow okay this turned into a whole other thing. Sorry!!! Hahaha. Look, in short, he drinks nowhere near as much as other artists I’ve worked with (8 bottles of top shelf whiskey in one night thanks) and unless we see any cause for concern, im sure he’s okay, 100% in control, and just living his best life as a 32 yr old successful rockstar. Try not to worry!
#sorry I feel like I’m repeating myself / making little sense sometimes in here#it’s a tricky topic#anon#answered#louisisalarrie chats#tw alcohol#tw weed#tw drugs
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I'm not a "ship" person whatsoever but I do scroll character tags on occasion and see quite a bit of Vox and Vel together as well as what seems to be a lot of what I'm assuming is female original character stuff. I've even seen some Charlie and Vox too. So it's out there, but unless you're scrolling through character tags I can see how it might be hard to find. Personally, I also block/filter a lot of the big "ship" tags so maybe that also makes it easier for me to stumble across this stuff that "slips" through since I don't know if those pairings have names.
I get your point though. I do think many are inclined to erase his bisexuality when it's convenient. Interestingly, they also erase Valentino's pansexuality too. The same with Husk as well, but I check his tag a lot less so who knows.
What disappoints me, and I know I'm about to come off as nit-picky right now lol, is the lack of research people put into their "sexuality" headcanons for the characters with reference to their different eras. When reading some of them, you'd think the idea of "gay rights" was a completely new and foreign topic that only emerged after the early 2000s. I get people want to go for the simplistic "repressed and doesn't know what being [insert identity here] is" for some of the older characters but that completely ignores a fascinating and rich tapestry of queer history that could create far more interesting (and still accurate) stories for the characters/their backgrounds. I would really encourage those who haven't already or are generally unfamiliar to dive into this history as it might inspire their character ideas while also educate them on the work, art, and activism our queer elders have contributed to the community we have today.
I think this may partially relate to character ages being under explored as well. While I've seen debate on what is canon/has been decanonized many of these characters, as far as we know, died in their late 30s and beyond. That's a lot of life to live and experience. While certainly many people throughout history (and even today) kept their sexuality hidden from the public due to culture, shame, and safety that doesn't mean there weren't many incredible private venues/spaces that could be utilized to explore those feelings/identities in secret.
I could go on and on about this but I've totally strayed from your original point (I'm sorry!) and I'm very tired haha. I just think there are multiple factors coming into play here with these character interpretations and, for me, the biggest missed opportunity is the lack of historical research. But end of the day people should have their fun! Just an observation.
Completely agree with this! I doubt my response will be as long since I just woke up but other characters doing certain things or not knowing about sexualities is interesting, it just seems like a lot of people think older people don’t want to explore any of that like it only just happened recently as you said. I like to joke about Angel being shocked about gay marriage and not knowing a bunch of current terms but thats about it. With him being in the mafia when he was alive makes it much more interesting as well, I’m pretty sure around his time the mafia was blackmailing men in gay bars but dont quote me on that I might be wrong.
Anyway for Husk and Valentino pan erasure I see that a bunch too. Not exactly erasure but just… ignoring it? Moreso erasure on Valentino’s end because Ive seen people get mad at people for shipping Valentino with a woman and was like “hes gay dont do that” no he isnt. Also dont ship Valentino with anyone for the love of god. But like people are super used to just making up headcanons that they dont bother to look up actual canon stuff. I know Hazbin isn’t the best but if you want canonically LGBTQ+ characters use what you have and add on later. Or headcanon a background character, thats what I did with Molly.
People are very focused on modern day queerness and forget that this stuffs been happening for decades and it’s a bit sad. Also I seem to have strayed from my own question as well?? Anyway ty for mentioning this! Its very interesting 🩷
#raimble#hazbin hotel#hazbin critical#hazbin hotel criticism#hazbin hotel critical#angel dust#hazbin angel dust#hazbin angel#anti vivziepop#angel dust hazbin#husk hazbin#husk#hazbin husk#hazbin hotel husk#husk hazbin hotel#husker#husker hazbin#hazbin hotel husker#hazbin husker#tw valentino#cw valentino
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hiii!! I just recently found out abt ur blog and I really really love your works sm like omg ugshhdhdh
anywhoo is it okay to request sbg x reader who acts like regina george? its been bothering my mind lately aaaaa u dont have to write it! hihih tyty i love you take careeee
IT GIRL
author’s note : i love when ppl enjoy my things ilysm /p
concept : regina!reader with the sbg group
genre : headcanons, mean girls!au, drabble
content : might be ooc, reader is an actual bitch, not a single hint of genuine softness
meeting the group
⠀ › ⠀has bullied logan once or twice but then ignored his presence completely after and forgot about him
⠀ › ⠀out of the whole group, logan is unsure of you the most. he can’t tell if being in a group with someone who bullied him before is good since you have seemed to forget who he was.
⠀ › ⠀tyler knows your reputation and is bothered by your presence honestly
⠀ › ⠀ashlyn has never heard of you; never had connections so she doesn’t know you that well but was bothered with your first impression
⠀ › ⠀taylor would try to warm up to you but you make her feel so out of place with how flashy you are
⠀ › ⠀ben and aiden don’t know your reputation since they’re new students but when tyler suddenly revealed everything when he started complaining about you; aiden was entertained with your rivalry
sorrel house
⠀ › ⠀you found the random lady who asked you to go inside very.. weird.
⠀ › ⠀only went in because the others said sure, you just had to be nice.
⠀ › ⠀you felt chills down your spine when you saw the phantom but just like tyler, you chose to brush it off.
phantom world
⠀ › ⠀by this time, you still hated them. (you probably shit talked them too)
⠀ › ⠀when you all got locked in the room, you felt panic until you just thought of using them as ‘meat shields’
⠀ › ⠀you and tyler had a whole fight about what matters most in the moment until ashlyn had to break it up
⠀ › ⠀the first time you were put in severe danger, you used the others as an advantage to survive.
⠀ › ⠀however, this caused problems. the next night; you would be in the same place again.
⠀ › ⠀at some point you’d have to apologize. the next time you were put in danger; it was logan near you. the first thing you had to do was.. apologize? are you fucking serious.
⠀ › ⠀due to the panic of the near-death experience, you stammered out an apology and begged him to help (took a few corrections since you were screaming curse words)
general headcanons
⠀ › ⠀when you flex your expensive things, aiden would suddenly bring up something more expensive (it becomes a debate on whos is more expensive. between the two, aiden’s having fun and you’re just getting upset.)
⠀ › ⠀tyler took the longest warming up to you
⠀ › ⠀there would be a lot of times when you would get into fights because of how opinionated you can be.
⠀ › ⠀you’re pretty much forced to be friends with them. it’s ride or die. no matter how much you hate them.
“i can’t do this anymore, i swear to god, i’m so stressed! and stress causes pimples! and restless nights cause eyebags! i’m gonna get eyebags and pimples!” you panicked “now’s not the time to worry about that!” tyler screamed, grabbing your arm and pulling you away from the phantom chasing you.
#school bus graveyard#sbg#school bus graveyard x reader#aiden x reader#ashlyn x reader#taylor x reader#tyler x reader#ben x reader#logan x reader#logan fields#aiden clark#ashlyn banner#taylor hernandez#tyler hernandez#ben clark#sbg x reader
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'its not like i like you' but boat boys lol joel is a tsundere or maybe its etho idk but they fit...im so sorry for spamming u with boat boys stuff lol hoope u dont mind
I don’t mind at all! I absolutely love them! This was super silly goofy. I hope I did the song justice? Sorry this took so long, I’m back on my grind though! Enjoy! (Also, the veil I refer to is a veil typically worn in Japan for women who work in the night life scene, I’ve seen some art of Joel with one and I absolutely loved it)
It’s Not Like I Like You: Boat Boys
Etho: "Hey! That's pretty good!"
Joel: "Wha-! No one asked you! !!!!!"
[Etho]
I've got myself just a little bit of love
That I wanna spend on you
But love, I'll never get that chance
To dance that romance with you
Oh, No, cause
You're always hittin'
And kickin' (HUGH)
And putting me down. [giggle]
I hope you don't mean what you say
[Etho and Joel] But I keep seeing you-
[Etho] stickin' around
[Etho and Joel] Like you/I can't get enough
[Etho and Joel] So I stay and I wonder
[Etho and Joel] How my hand would feel
[Etho and Joel] intertwined with yours
As of now though
Joel: "What are you doing?"
Nothing but closed doors
[Etho]
My boy’s a Dere
A Tsun-Tsundere
Just saying hi gets me a punch in the face
And if I should compliment him, he starts to chase
Joel: "Hey! That was a direct attack!"
Etho: Oh, no! The wild ogre found my hiding place!
Joel: "Stupid fox! Take it back!"
Etho: "So, uh, how’s it going?"
Girl: "Why are you talking to me!?"
Boy: "Wow, I see how it is."
Girl: "Go away!"
[Joel and Etho]
Can we get along? You're so headstrong
There's no way, go away, now so long!
Just talk to me and you will see
That's not fair, soulmates don’t matter anymore
[Joel]
I've got myself just a little bit of love
That I wanna spend on NOT you
Cuz Etho, I'm afraid you'll say
That it's not okay with you
Oh, Oh, cuz
You're always laughin', [chuckle]
And jokin';
You look like all washed up
But I hope you mean what you say
Etho: "I do."
And I wonder what you would think
If I let my pride down, let it sink
Could we hold hands, kiss?
Live our lives in some form of bliss?
Etho: "We could."
Joel: "Ah! I'm not talking about you!"
You're not my lover in this
[Joel]
I'm not a Dere
A Tsun-Tsundere
I have a heart, I'm not that mean!
I'm not blushing, I was just rushing and forgot the sunscreen!
Etho: [laughs] "Your smile is really cute, though."
Joel: You'll never see it from underneath the veil I now wear!
Etho: [sigh] "Alright. I just wanted to let you know."
Joel: "Uh-um hey..."
Etho: "Yeah?"
Joel: "Um-"
Etho: "Are you okay?"
Joel: "Yeah, um- well heheh."
[Joel and Etho]
Hey, hey are you free-free today?
Oh ho ho. Why do you want to know?
It's not like I like you okay!
Alright cool, where do you want to go?
[Etho]
We could go out on a boat and sail
Find a fox and
Feed it some juicy sweet berries
Joel: "No that sounds really stupid."
Okay well how about a;
Classic dinner by candlelight
Or scary stories til midnight
So then I could hold you tight
Ba da ba da ba
Joel: "And get bread crumbs on me?! No Way!"
[Joel]
Ooookay I think you're a little dense
I really don't like all this talk
You and I in the present tense
Ba ba da ba da
So listen here, boy
It's all just a big fantasy
You see inside of your head! No!
So just say goodbye!
Etho: [sigh] "Eh-whatever."
Ba ba da ba da!
[Etho and Joel]
I'm not a Dere
A Tsun-Tsundere. (My boy’s a Dere a Tsun-Tsundere)
Hey! I can kick your butt even in this dress!
UH! I digress! So let's just go to the park I guess
Joel: "Pffffft!You wouldn't even know what to bring."
Oh, come on, will you please just say yes!
Joel: "Ugh geez fin. It's not like I'll enjoy it or anything. You’re so obsessed" [giggle]
#briar’s parodies#parody#parody song#hermitblr#hermitcraft#joel smallishbeans#life series#trafficblr#mcyt#mcytblr#ethoslab#boat boys#double life#secret life#as always let me know what you think and leave suggestions in my ask box!#trafficshipping#hermitshipping
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ok im sorry to come in here with a ranty preachy sort of “woke” ig post (even though it should just be common sense) but i feel the need to say this again,
the colors in the first row are colors i picked directly from pictures of brandon, specifically from his skin and even more specifically pictures of him as bryce, i tried to pick images that had very little filter or funky lighting or anything like that, theyre arranged lightest to darkest
the colors in the bottom row are colors i picked from certain fanart of bryce that i found online, not from any specific artist or website, i just picked any i found that i felt belonged here, theyre arranged darkest to lightest
so hey! uhh sorry for being a sensitive snowflake or whatever but why are we doing this? i know lighting is different and anyone can look different in any sort of lighting or filter but if that person generally appears to have a darker complexion in most of their pictures maybe you should draw them with one, and some of these cant even be justified like cmon that last one is paper white. there’s no logical reason for this and it just feels gross? dare i say kind of colorist? idk just a thought, maybe we shouldn’t, i feel like it’s pretty easy to not do this
#this isnt everyone obviously but it is a handful of people#i dont get what you get out of doing this i really don’t#like it can be an honest mistake but#really dawg?#this happens with a lot of the characters but i see it the most with her#bryce tankthrust#and yeah i draw his characters sort of far from accurate#especially bobby#but i feel like theres a line between headcanons and changes for fun to a character and just flat out whitewashing?#and sure yeah maybe it’s a little ridiculous for me to preach about something like this over brandon rogers#yk with all his history#but i dont really care this is weird as fuck to me#and it should be weird as fuck to you
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oh ok so its the usual no-homo bullshit you always hear, good to know.
#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#guillermo de la cruz#nandor the relentless#nandermo#look im a reasonable guy#i dont get worked up easily and ive been around writers rooms and understand the pressures of writing a big show like wwdits#hell i even liked season 4#but this has got to be one of the most offensive bs ive read that wasnt from 2015#‘its only a small (but vocal) amount of people that actually want to see them together’#‘their love isnt ~s*xual~ they dont need to kiss its more ~profound~ than that’#‘you don’t REALLY want to see them together! (thats gross!)’#also ‘the power dynamic is ~problematic~’??? are you kidding me???#jfc its like someone literally got this out of the queerbating handbook from 2010#and like yeah i know wwdits isnt queerbating but its queerness feels more performative when it treats an actual central relationship#like its a gross kinkything only a few freaks on the internet want#instead of a legitimate plausible story that deserves exploration#nandermo should be a triumph - a victory for the characters and something the writers should be pleased with writing#not…this.#like it’s some problem pressured reluctantly upon them that needs to be carefully defused#this has left a bad taste in my mouth
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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despite my previous post, I don’t know how to handle when people talk abt things I don’t know or understand bc I focus too hard on my own reactions so I don’t accidentally offend them bc there’s only so many times you can say “oh really?” before you sound sarcastic ‼️💥
#LIKE I DONT WANNA ONE RESPONSE THEM BC I HATE THAT TOO YKNOW !!#i get saur nervous#it’s an even tighter pickle when it’s a media I dislike bc I don’t like lying or being rude so I go into customer service mode#but usually I’m interested or like to hear without wanting to seek it out myself#but it’s one of those social skill (?) struggle moments where I don’t know what to do but I try . but end up nervous#job interview ass#‘’right! yeah. uh huh! really!’’ (I feel like the devil !!!)#ALSO THIS IS ALL WORSE IN PERSON BC I WILL NOT MAKE EYE CONTACT AND I THINK IT MAKES ME LOOK SOO BORED BUT IM JUST TRYING TO HEAR#ur honour im turning my ears toward you#also looking at peoples face make me feel exposed and I will immediately focus more on my position again#there is just too much work ‼️‼️‼️‼️🤮🤮🤮🤮#ive stopped trying with the eyes it’s too stressful my heart races#in my head I’m like And this is where I ask a specific question abt this part of the topic ! as if it’s a puzzle (it’s a puzzle to me)#i Hope i dont sound like a hypocrite I was mostly joking in my other post I think I’m aware of when I’m doing too much phphph
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I think listening to the line begins to blur and something i can never have at the ripe age of 7 changed my brain chemistry irreversibly
#natnotes#nine inch nails#me really listening to why do you get all the love in the world and really understanding the lyrics:#I don’t think my father was mentally well during my childhood#still cant believe hesitation marks came out when i was 12. that album i was listening to on my own time WHEN IT RELEASED#what was i doing!!! girl you dont know what came back haunted is about!
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