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d3athanddecay1 · 2 days

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What did I do to feel so hated

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lovelaceisntdead · 6 months

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Oh. having a bad time.

#I've been holding it together all day but suddenly everything is really getting to me #so sick of feeling like this. i want to be able to have a nice time and enjoy myself but i can't walk around for more than half an hour #without feeling so exhausted #and i saw my brother today and i was really trying not to let it get to me seeing him doing so well #and I'm really happy he's doing well it's not that i just get so jealous that he's able to do all the things he can #i thought I'd been doing well the last couple of weeks bit maybe i was just repressing because now i cant fucking breathe #and i miss the cats so much i know it's been literally a day but I'm so used to having them there all the time #i am so tired. i want to sleep. but I'm so sad #I'm so anxious and i feel like I'm being short with everyone and it's making everything really tense #i don't know what to do.#I've been looking forward to this week for ages and i knew it would have an impact on me but i didn't think I'd feel this bad #I'm just really upset i don't what the point of this is but i just need to get this out because i feel like imgoing to explode #i think I've been feeling triggered since yesterday but not purging it so my body has just been feeling it and then its all spilked over #i know it started in the car because the roads we took to get here are the ones i used to take for my hospital appointments

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boopicide · 2 months

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bpd is bpd-ing

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hailsatanacab · 2 years

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Chapters: 10/? Fandom: Danny Phantom, Batman - All Media Types Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Danny Fenton & Damian Wayne, Batfamily Members & Danny Fenton Characters: Danny Fenton, Bruce Wayne, Tim Drake, Damian Wayne, Alfred Pennyworth Additional Tags: Good Sibling Damian Wayne, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Danny Fenton and Damian Wayne are Twins, Danny Fenton Needs A Hug, Implied/Referenced Torture, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Not Phantom Planet Compliant (Danny Phantom), Bad Parents Jack and Maddie Fenton, Gun Violence, Blood and Violence, Gunshot Wounds, Mugging, Medical Torture, Vivisection, Panic Attacks, Anxiety Attacks, Child Neglect, Past Child Abuse Summary:

“If you ever find yourself in danger, go to Bruce Wayne. He will help you.”

His mother had loved him, in her own way. If she hadn’t, she wouldn’t have helped him escape. If she hadn’t, she would have dragged him back to the League of Assassins, to Grandfather. If she hadn’t, he’d be dead.

She loved him, but she loved the League more.

Jack and Maddie Fenton loved him too, they did, but they loved their work more.

They loved their work more.

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After his parents react poorly to his reveal, Danny escapes to the only person he thinks can help him - Bruce Wayne. He doesn't know what to expect when he gets there, but it has to be better than where he is, surely? He certainly doesn't expect to be reunited with his long lost twin brother Damian. It's funny how things work out that way.

Danny is 16 years old, not Phantom Planet compliant

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Capter 10!! Chapter 10!! Chapter 10!!

#danny phantom #batman #dp x dc #dc crossover #danny phantom crossover #uh guys we're at chapter 10 can we just pause and say holy shit to that??#sorry it's still so weird to me that I'm actually doing this?? and still doing it #i've not given up (yet) lmao #BUT i am taking a short break :0 sorry #no more updates until september!!! i'm sorry #but i've not written at all and it's not sustainable haha #i got onto chapter 10 to do a last minute edit before posting and WOOF it was like i'd completely forgotten how to write haha #double digits guys how crazy #anyway not that you need or want to know but there's a cricket just outside my window and it's driving me round the bend #on the one hand i'm hit with the immense sadness that it's just the one cricket you know? Oh i wonder if it's a grasshopper instead #do they both make noise? how can you tell?#but also go to sleep i'm tired stop making noise #there used to be a log across the road in the verge that they never cut - there'd be crickets galore and little lizards that we'd try and #catch #all gone now how sad #bring back hedgerows!#ANYWAY i am to sleep - if the crickets are willing #thank you all for reading and i love you all please enjoy this chapter and leave these tags with my sincerest apologies for the short hiatu #s #lmao i love you all goodnight

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rowenabean · 10 months

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#the wedding was lovely and i am so sad #managed to get most of the sad out of the way Friday and Sunday so i could be glad for them on the actual wedding day #but still. i'm going to miss her.#we always talked about living together and we never did and now we probably never will #i've got a model of married folk living together in community but i don't think they do and it has to be something you choose #her family are lovely and i was really glad to meet her friends and cousins that she talks about so often but they don't really get it #they get to have her!!! she's moving somewhere that's more convenient for literally everyone other than me! (this is not hard to do)#really good to get home and hug my dad and my little sister and have people who are my people around #was actually really good at the reception that there were a few other folk from my current town - i wasn't the only person who was #mixed joy and tears #i said something about us giving her over in my speech and they said yes that's exactly how we're feeling #but it wasn't till her husband responded to that in his speech that i started crying #everyone has been so kind to me but it has been SO good to get home #hoping i can get a bit more sleep as well. emotions are bigger when tired even though they're real still #(her cousins invited me to come stay any time and tbh i can see that living in Auckland could be actually really nice if you live where they #do. but i couldn't live where they do and do the work i want to do it is quite far away from the places in Auckland i could imagine working)#rowena adventures #btw no photos of me currently but probably some later??? not that we took many the groom had been sick the previous week and was #still pretty wiped so they got like two photos with the bridal party and ten with just them and that was it

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imwritesometimes · 2 months

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I want to do more work on my wip (I'm officially calling it a wip at this point like it's plotted out it's pages of notes I know where it's going) but my god I am so drained from the last few weeks I feel like I'm barely alive

#I am just. so fckn tired. so. fckn. tired.#2024 just keeps coming with right hooks to the face and I'm just fckn so TIRED #this year is 2 months long but it's also been 6 years long #the roof leaking the washer dying my brother's car dying. all within the first 2 months. I'm fckn DONE. exhausted.#I want to sleep this entire weekend #but I also wanna work on the wip. I'm just. so TIRED. MY GOD.#it's so bad my whole family is like jfc sleep this weekend maybe?#I'm sad I'm too tired to work on my hobby :(#erin explains it all

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ridiculously-over-obsessed · 5 months

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You know this time next year, when I haven't spoken to mum in months and I'm not coming home for xmas, I hope she thinks back on days like today and is like "yeah that's probably the reason he went no contact"

#max rambles a lot #sometimes i think that maybe things will be okay and i won't have to cut off the other half of my family when i move out #and then days like this happen where both of them start screaming at me because idk the way i'm feeling is inconvient to them #and *my* autism and mh isn't an excuse for being 'bone idle' and 'lazy' (i swear i'm really trying i'm just Going Through It rn)#but theirs is an excuse to treat me like shit #i fucking hate it here #i've decided that whether or not this opportunity comes to fruition i'm moving to York in september #opposite side of the country while still being in the north #hate the idea of moving out of manchester tbh i love it but a fresh start is what i need so 🤷🏻#yeah fuck them both tbh i worked so hard to buy them nice xmas gifts that i know they'll love #and almost broke myself on multiple occassions to clean this hovel of a house and it's never fucking good enough #i am the only one who is *still* sleeping on the floor because mum and my sister both have new beds and mattresses #and i got yelled at for trying to figure out if i could afford to get a bed too #because mum didn't want the hassle of sorting my room out too before xmas so i have to wait until the new year???#like fuck off i'm so tired of being on the floor all the time i hate it here sm #anyway i'm sad and tired and angry i've really had enough i just needed to rant into the void #because if i go off at either of them it turns into 3 days of screaming at me and i'm way too tired for that honestly

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diapause · 7 months

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#good evening I Am So Tired #so much going on brain won't shut off xxxxx #going to a party tmrw that is officially alcohol free and I'm honestly not sure if I can manage that 😭#which sounds concerning or whatever but idc. only person I know also going is fcking holly who I have not mentioned here but #she's a lovely person. I wish I hated her so much. actually shes not THAT much of a lovely person lmao but #none of this is making sense im drunk im tired im sad my family hates me my cat has cancer I want to sleep for a month #im fine

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gamebunny-advance · 1 year

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Oof...

I'm sorry about not posting much lately, but I've been in a pretty bad slump, so I haven't been working on much of anything lately.

#my sleep's all out of whack #(hence why i'm posting at 1 AM)#i'm tired all the time #and my body's sore #i don't think i have a SAD but depression's been hitting me hard lately #i am just not where i want to be in any regard. everything feels hopeless. but i've gotta keep going #i did doodle some stuff the other day #some kun3h0 doodles and some kliff/tati stuff #but that last one is so self-indulgent i don't think i could post it even if i did finish it 😳

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shoreline-system · 11 months

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i think one of the things we struggle most with is adjusting our expectation of ourself - especially during flareups. This body cannot do what it used to, and if we keep trying to meet those unrealistic expectations, we're going to hurt ourself.

Accepting that we can't do as much as we want to, that some things are simply out of our reach, that we aren't who we used to be - that shit is so hard. We have so much to grieve.

#water world #vent #disability #fibromyalgia #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #i am Struggling rn alright-#everything hurts real bad. it's only going to hurt more when i go lie down #i'm too tired to do anything but i have so much i want to get done #i sleep so much these days. it feels like i hardly have time for anything else #and i'm so frustrated!!!! but so nauseatingly tired too.#tired and sore and sad and afraid i guess.

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peachsayshi · 2 years

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I just had my session with my therapist and I cried halfway through. Usually I hate crying, but didn’t realize how much I needed to let go of my emotions.

I need to lose myself to some comfort characters right now 🥺

#or maybe I'll play some genshin for a bit #I've not be as active because of work but also because I am processing quite a lot of stuff #and I don't want to bombard you all with my sad #peach is tired of being sad all the time #I'm sorry this is so vague but I am doing so much better I promise #I'm actually sleeping!#and I've put together a workout schedule for myself #(this is all to help with the anxiety and depressive episodes I've been going through tbh)#I just really really want to overcome this #every time I get through a session I give myself a little mental gold star #because I know I'm actively trying

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ambiguousgrass · 2 years

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I'm reading transcripts of the exile streams and just. Wow. C!dream was a fucking asshole. Like I've watched these streams before but sweet jesus I forgot the extent of his bullshit.

#I've been in the fandom since november 2020 and I watched as many vods as I could from before then but I've mentally blocked out/forgotten-#so much that it feels like I'm watching for the first time again and it's a bit strange lol #grass yells into the void #block men #tommy was doing his best and it just makes me so sad the entire exile arc was fucking rough he did not deserve that #<- hot take I know /sarcasm #no but like the fandom is definitely aware of exile but I feel like so many people haven't watched the streams so they're not really aware o #like I've seen a lot of dark!sbi discourse which I'm not going to touch with a ten foot pole btw leave me the fuck out of that #but anyway I've seen so many people get upset at the actions of the characters in dark sbi works and claim that the author shouldnt've-#written something like that meanwhile they wholeheartedly support c!dreams actions #idk it's just a bit funny to me #again I'm not taking a side on the whole dark sbi thing I really don't want to be involved in that shitfest #but some people who are vehemently against the genre are a bit hypocritical imo #if you're gonna be an apologist (or whatever people call it) for a character don't denounce another character for doing the same things :/#god I am so tired my sleep schedule is so fucked up and my pain meds arent working so I'm very opinionated today while being sleepy #not a great combo lol I'll probably delete this later if I come back in a better state of mind and think all of what I just said was bs #<-very likely #I'm afraid to tag this as discourse so I'm not going to plus all of the stuff that would merit that is in the tags soooo #should be good I think #dear lord I need to sleep

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synthyk · 1 year

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girl help I am recognizing the pattern

#fuck getting older you learn to recognize your brains own bs #sucks when the solution isnt just 'take a shower' (though it did help)#i need to go back to therapy I am so self critical and aware to the point it is paralyzing #'am I seeking these sensations as a form of self harm' NO!!!!! MAYBE!!!!!#i don't KNOW this is STUPID #anyway I gauged my ears and have been eating spicy food to feel alive and I am slipping ever further into this depression despite it all #i'm not sad i just don't feel anything. i want to be sad. that would be /something/.#i'm empty and scared and tired and I want to just.#sleep #HOW YOU SPEND YOUR DAY IS HOW YOU SPEND YOUR LIFE #AUGH #AUGHH #AAAAAUUUGHHHH #<- bearer of the sickness #I hope they weigh the stuff they cut out of me. I want weight and length like they do a newborn #have the surgeons take a pic of it like a tinder fishing profile pic #ideally i want it preserved in a jar so I can keep it on my desk #but sadly. it will go to the labs for biopsies. and then be incinerated.#kinda cunt. kind of metal. i can live with that #why are you reading this it's my DIARY. LEAVE

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yangjeongin · 2 years

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omg my 9 am class doesn’t start until oct 28th skz will probably be done promoting by then if all goes as it usually does so i should be able to watch all the music shows live...very excited for this bc as a multistan like 8 artists i like are coming back in the first two weeks of october LMAO

#carly.txt #most excited for seulgi and park jihoon...also dreamcatcher...but seulgi and jihoon are like Ults #and chaeyeon and eunbi........#my laptop has been having Issues dling files and i'm going to have issues with IT if i can't dl files omg i just realized #that would be so sad....#i am going to want to gif so much #i aim to be ur annoying hyunjin cc dropping gifsets of the performance every day at like 8 am without sleep again #speaking of. it is almost 8 am and i need to sleep #but i am not tired....so we'll see how that goes #You May See Me Again

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sysig · 2 years

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