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orchidsangel · 3 months

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okay so i’m usually more of a silent follower (i’ve only like sent one ask ever) but i kinda love your posts/talks about things that you love (even if it’s not necessarily something i care about,,i just love it when people talk about their interests it’s amazing),, so i’m kinda curious about why do you think sos should have won over midnights,,, not saying that sos is bad or anything i actually love the album and sza but i was rooting for midnights honestly and personally think it deserves the title for many reasons,,, like i’m NOT saying that sos didn’t deserve to be aoty on the contrary, all the albums that were nominated are amazing and all had their big impact and the title is very subjective and ngl, this is one of those years where the nominees are all so good it’s actually quite a tough competition to choose between, but personally i found that midnights deserved it the most so i’m actually really curious to know your opinion on why sos should have gotten it

(i’ve already seen so much discourse about this for the past week on twitter but obviously. it’s twitter. so they don’t have any valable reasons except just pure hatred, misogyny, slut shaming and obviously racism)

Okay, so first off, thank you for sending in this ask and allowing me to speak about something I care about!! Second of all, when you added racism in the "don't have any valuable reasons section" what did you mean by that? I'm not coming for you or anything. I'm just curious if you meant racism towards Taylor or if you mean racism towards SZA.

anyways, now for my thoughts.

So, while I obviously agree that SOS is a great album, the part I disagree with is Midnights being a good album. I don't like it; I never did, and I probably never will. And this isn't me being a Taylor hater; I am a Taylor Swift enjoyer and have sat down and listened to a few of her albums. While none of them absolutely stunned me, I do think she's an overall good musician and can make a relatively good body of work. Midnights is a snoozefest. It's boring and doesn't hold a candle to the rest of her discography, which I feel fine saying because I know there are a significant amount of swifties and non-swifties alike that agree.

To me, midnights is nothing special, and most of the songs blend together. It's not completely bad, though; it has its good moments, but the many cons, i.e., boring instrumentals, mediocre lyrics, no super deep meanings, etc. outweigh the very few pros, i.e., Snow On The Beach ft. Lana Del Rey, but more importantly, Snow On The Beach ft. more Lana del Rey. And I just can't get behind Midnight's winning album of the year after being the pinnacle of mediocrity.

Now, if you wanna talk about impact, let's talk about impact. Midnights broke tons of records, most notably taking up all ten top spots on the Billboard Hot 100 chart, a feat that no other artist has managed to accomplish. But that wasn't because the album was good or because the general public was tuned in; it's because of streaming culture, because, like most fandoms these days, swifties are rabid and reaching for the charts. That, combined with the sheer size of Taylor Swift's fanbase, means that the album was bound to do well regardless of whether it was good or not.

SOS, on the other hand, obviously didn't chart nearly as well as midnights (although it definitely did chart, like, let's get that straight bc Snooze didn't leave the chart at all last year). But that doesn't automatically mean that it was less impactful, because charts aren't that reliable these days so you have to find other means of calculating impact, and this is when we turn to social media.

(I'll be using tiktok for reference as I feel that since the app relies on music as its #1 source of content, that's the best representation for my argument)

So I'm an avid TikTok user, chronically online, way too invested in drama that doesn't involve me, a loser, blah blah blah whatever, who cares. The point is that I spend enough time on TikTok to be able to observe many different trends going on at the same time and their musical origins. There are so. many. songs. on SOS that trended on tiktok. You could not escape SZA on that app, not even if you wanted to.

Kill Bill, Seek & Destroy, Low, Blind, Snooze, Ghost in the Machine, Shirt, I Hate U, Good Days, etc.

All songs that I've heard on TikTok at one point or another, some of them having their own designated trends to go along with certain lines, and I'm sure there's more I missed.

This specific point means so much to me because I need you to understand that I didn't listen to SOS in full until WAY into 2023 (the album came out in 2022 for reference), and each track was so familiar because I had already heard so many of them on TikTok.

Now, I'm not saying that there weren't any songs on midnights that trended on TikTok. Obviously, there were. i.e., Karma, bejeweled, Midnight Rain, that one part in The Great War, etc., but when I say that most of the songs from Midnights that trended on TikTok were pretty much always used in the context of Taylor Swift, I mean that. I cannot stress this enough. If there was a song from Midnights playing in the video, then I can guarantee that Taylor was being mentioned in that same video, whether it be the eras tour, speculation about her and Joe Alwyn's breakup, her and Travis Kelce, speculation about which Taylor's version album was coming out next, or literally anything pertaining to her at all.

You might think that this is a stupid point, but to me, it's a good example of the fact that it wasn't an album the general public was interested in. And I think for an award like Album of the Year at the Grammys, the album in question should be one that is either objectively good, incredibly poetic, and thoughtful with a deep message, or beloved by the general public, and midnights wasn't any of those.

As for the misogyny and slutshaming, I'd never in a million years agree with that and don't condone that by any means. Pure hatred, if unwarranted, isn't something I really care about either because I'm a hater at my core and have a lot of one-sided beef with people who don't know me. But I will say that most people I know who don't like Taylor Swift do actually have one or two valid reasons. It's not that hard to find them, what with white feminism, not using her platform for good, dating a known racist, and committing ecological warfare, amongst other things.

If the racism you're referring to is in regards to people bringing up her privilege as a white woman, and it bothers you that people are bringing it up, then I'm sorry, but I'm not the person you want to talk to about that because I won't agree. The Grammys have a history of snubbing black and POC artists in general to favor their white counterparts; in fact, the entire music industry has a history of it, and this situation isn't any different in my eyes.

Anyway, that's most of all I have to say. Thank you for asking again, I'd love to hear why you thought Midnights should have won.

#☆ messages from friends ☆#☆ ro's headphones ☆

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catgirlforkaeya · 1 year

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ARE THEY A SWIFTIE ?

various characters

headcanons of genshin characters i believe would listen to taylor swift along with their favorite songs and/or album

modern au

disclaimer: some of these may not be 100% accurate, it’s just for fun don’t get mad if your fav isn’t on here. i didn’t include every single character, so if ppl want i will do a part 2. also sorry if i picked the more “known”-songs, i’m drained from today and just going off the top of my head rn

a/n: in honor of me getting tickets to the eras tour today i decided to do this!! :D god bless my mom for sitting in the queue for 6 hours, i’ve been a taylor fan since red came out this is huge for me

kaeya

• starting off w my fav, of COURSE he would be a taylor swift stan. would be very vocal about it and not ashamed whatsoever. was def in the top 1% to listen to midnights upon its release

fav song: you’re on your own, kid + no body, no crime + wonderland

fav album: reputation + midnights

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childe

• i can definitely see him being one. he wouldn’t be as open about it like kaeya but he enjoys the music. his little siblings probably introduced him to it 😭😭

fav song: anti hero + innocent

fav album: midnights

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thoma

• absolutely 100% a swiftie, not a doubt about it. when he’s doing chores around the house he’d definitely have a playlist of her songs for it

fav song: message in a bottle

fav album: red + 1989 + lover (he can’t pick)

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itto

• something about this man just SCREAMS swiftie. idk how to explain it but i’m right idc. he wouldn’t be a hardcore stan but wouldn’t just be a normal fan. he’s somewhere in the middle. he’d also def be a fan of her more up-beat albums, so like red, 1989, lover, those genres

fav song: all you had to do was stay + style

fav album: 1989

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al-haitham

• this is probably ooc but idc he would be a swiftie, argue with a wall. kaveh yells at him to turn the music down but does he listen? no. and honestly good for him (he slowly turns kaveh into one too)

fav song: i did something bad + out of the woods

fav album: reputation + midnights

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lisa

• lisa is a powerful woman so of course she’d love taylor. probably grew up with the music and fought for her life back in 2015-2017 when the world suddenly turned on taylor

fav song: last great american dynasty + tolerate it

fav album: folklore + evermore

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mona

• i don’t have much to say about my reasoning behind mona, she just fits the vibe y’know? probably also fought for her life alongside lisa

fav song: starlight + enchanted + the lakes

fav album: speak now

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amber

• same as mona, she just fits the energy. i can see her being like itto where she’s kinda in the middle of how much of a swiftie

fav song: wonderland + cornelia street

fav album: 1989 + lover

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barbara

• a swiftie but she prefers the more country music albums over the pop ones

fav song: should’ve said no + the best day

fav album: debut + fearless

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rosaria

• at first she was iffy about the music because let’s be honest, rosaria probably isn’t a huge pop music fan. but kaeya and/or barbara probably played it enough to the point she made herself listen and liked it

fav song: i did something bad + look what you made me do

fav album: reputation

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keqing

• a swiftie but she’s very quiet about it bc she doesn’t wanna get judged even though everyone around her probably also is a fan

fav song: lavender haze + karma

fav album: midnights

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ganyu

• same as keqing she’s quiet about it. definitely also listens to it whilst she’s doing whatever work she has though

fav song: paper rings + mad woman

fav album: lover

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xinyan

• how could i not include the music queen herself?? xinyan probably wouldn’t have any preference as to what type of genre she likes, so she’s happy to listen to any taylor song

fav song: the way i loved you + coney island + wildest dreams

fav album: any and all

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yae miko

• i love yae but she’d be one of those long-time swifties who are honestly scary. not in a bad way, she’s just the type to have been there through every era so she’s considered ancient in terms of stan wise

fav song: midnight rain + the man + don’t blame me

fav album: lover + midnights

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kokomi

• also like yae, a long-time swiftie but not as intimidating. she probably bought extra tickets to give people who couldn’t get in because she just seems nice like that

fav song: all you had to do was stay + the great war

fav album: 1989 + evermore + lover

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nilou

• in a modern au nilou would 100% create dances to taylor songs, probably posts them on tiktok and the dance goes viral too

fav song: dancing with our hands tied + this is me trying

fav album: speak now + red + midnights

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layla

• mona probably introduced her to the music and she fell down a rabbit hole and became a major swiftie. fought for her life to get into the presale for eras tour too

fav song: snow on the beach + never grow up + tolerate it

fav album: 1989 + lover + folklore

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youngtomhardy · 2 years

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LSD (2023) promo shot by Camila Noriega. Edited by Euan.

For as long as I can remember I feel like I’ve had to fight for everything in my life. When my parents outed me, I was verbally abused and eventually made to sleep in the garage. It wasn’t so bad, my dad had converted it into a makeshift studio right before. So there was carpet, insolation, etc. Still it was fucked up, I was only 15 at the time. I only had my bed, some books, and a lot of hurt. I ended up running away for weeks in order to show them I wouldn’t tolerate the mistreatment. It worked, but only because I fought.

Let’s go even farther back: I picked up music by ear in middle school, this is where I learned about my perfect pitch ability. I was quick to learn, dedicated, and honestly a natural born talent. For some reason though, the band teacher seemed to hate it. I understood his annoyance when I would only play the top line rather than my part. But what about later, when I learned to read music? He seemed to hold a grudge, always talking down to me. My friends would openly talk me up to the director in an effort to move me to 2nd or 1st chair. Still, he never budged. This attitude continued with future instructors all the way up until my senior of high school, where they seemed to finally appreciate me. I always checked myself to see if I was rude or cocky, thinking maybe a kind demeanor would win them over. Looking back, I had 0 confidence so that wasn’t it... I just did my best. At the end of my senior year I finally got 2 awards, one including a small scholarship that helped pay for my laptop. That went a long way and I’m grateful, but damn did I have to fight for any type of recognition in my youngest years.

Flash forward a few years, I’m trying to break into the industry as an artist. I have like 300 listeners and it’s starting to slowly grow after my collab with Steve Grand. I see a lot of small queer artists getting press on a VERY popular music publication — no, it’s like THE music publication. I decided to shoot my shot… BOOM. Sexually harassed by the head editor! From the very first message!!! Why am I surprised at this point? I decided to play along in hopes of getting a feature, because who wouldn’t? I was powerless. I remember he was trying to sext me while I was in Mexico visiting family. It was humiliating. I respectfully shot it down and the next day he suddenly, “didn’t have the bandwidth” to feature my upcoming single Fluids. Go figure. Luckily, a group of other very small artists that were being harassed came forward and made a big fuss in the press. I knew I had to make my voice heard, this was my only chance to put an end to it. Guess what? We did. Finally, once that editor was removed, I finally got my first ever major feature. Crazy how much went into that single moment, huh? Once again, I fought.

Now, I face an entirely new monster. An invisible one that is literally programmed to be biased. As much as everyone wants to deny it, it’s true. TikTok. The beast that every artist — small to big — is enslaved by until further notice. Now let me say, I truly am thankful for the growth that the app allows. I’ve never had such easy access to an entire audience. That being said, and i know this sounds dramatic, but it’s just 100% true… we’re in hell. This app is relentless. The pressure to blow up is insane. The pressure to then maintain it once you do blow up is insane. The low attention spans. The coming and going of big name labels. And when you don’t blow up, when you don’t get an offer, when views suddenly plummet… you spiral and think, “what’s wrong with me? what aren’t I doing right? aren’t I interesting enough?”

Directly after that spiral, you go to an influencer party or a label mixer where you meet a kid just like you. Perfect pitch, musical savant, a natural born talent. Just. Like. You. Except they come from a family that loves who they are & nurtures their talent. They get found by Justin Fucking Bieber, just by chance! They get an A-List songwriter as their mentor. They date an A-List teen celeb. Everything lined up for them from day fucking 1. So they’re cocky, arrogant, a little snobby, but overall pretty kind when you’re around. You don’t even have room to be jealous. It’s more like, this deep sadness knowing what could’ve been. It’s toxic thinking so I try not to let my mind go there.

Instead, I try to be okay with knowing my story is different — long, winding, sometimes painful, but always beautiful. I won’t stop fighting until I get what I deserve. Not now, not ever.

- Disco Dad

#michael medrano #disco dad #stache papi #tumblr diary #leather #hot pink #retro futurism #pop music #pop star #indie artist #dear diary #music industry #me

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ask-serendipity-sky · 9 months

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I like Tae’s vibe. I actually like the New jeans approach of multiple low budget MVs instead of 1 big bang cause it increases more revenue without triggering the hyper competitive K-pop space.

What do you think?

and this suits Tae, something about him just gives off not interested in the K-pop space. In fact, the only member I think who actually respects K-pop is probably Jimin. I judge this based on the artists they look up to. Jhope & RM like Jcole & Nas, American rappers. Forgot who Suga likes. Tae looks up to older jazz artists. JK likes American pop artists and Jimin likes Big Bang & independent artist. Idk about Jin honestly.

I’ve listened to Jimin’s playlist on AM: Springtime sounds and none of these songs are big title tracks/ singles. These are low key artists singing about their lives and loves. Jimin listens to Alec Benjamin, a guy with a great voice, small but loyal following and purposefully left the music industry behind after making a breakout hit so he could sing about his stories. My flex is that Jimin and I listen to the same type of music.

Went off on a tangent but my point is: These guys obviously have different views as to what a successful artist is. And they are all following that path. I think for Jimin a successful artist is producing good music for loyal fans rather than a general audience. I could be wrong of course. If so, Like Crazy’s success would be heartwarming as everyone and their mama knows that it’s carried by fans sharing & streaming.

The funny thing with Jimin though is that even if he tried to be a low key artist he couldn’t. Yes he does his own thing, sings about his story, doesn’t get major airplay and is listened mainly by a loyal fanbase who lives him and shares his music.

However his loyal fanbase is hugeee, so by virtue of that he’s left the lowkey artist category and also the K-pop category behind. What you mean you wanna release your long awaited album as an mp3?

Thinking about that sometimes makes me laugh. Jimin just wanna be lowkey, regular K-pop male artist singing his tunes then boom #1 on hot 100, Ryan Gosling giving him a guitar, song going platinum in the states(I’m calling it), fans demanding to buy his song. He’s non existent on socials rn and still trending

To be honest i kind of find Jimin fans funny. He said in Suchwita he wants to top billboard continuously. And everyone kinda knew he meant as BTS but his fans said “oh YOU want it? Here you go baby have a #1 on hot 100”. Making it look like it’s easy. Lol I’m sure Jimin knows his fans have plans for him.

They keeping him in the top 50 global just cause and I don’t think they gonna stop. Right now they have a goal to rechart LC also just cause and I’m interested to see how things unfold.

All of these are gifts they want to give Jimin. Almost like they’re proving to him we are here, we support you and we appreciate your music, and to cause a ripple in the company doesn’t hurt either.

Hello,

Ok, this is the only ask I will answer regarding Tae's music so don't come sending more, please!

I don't want to answer Tae music stuff, other anons!

But I'll answer this one because I appreciate that you took time to share all this.

First question. Our opinions vary greatly.

I think with how competitive kpop is, you need that big trigger, especially if it's a debut album. Tae needed to risk it but didn't. For me, this all feels safe although it wasn't intended to come across that way.

I think that his visual album should have been released all at once. I know this way is done to create anticipation but I haven't been pulled into his story yet. Maybe that will change once the 3rd mv is released or his photos tie more stuff together?

It's interesting that you find the aesthetic fitting because I don't lol I do agree that Tae is not kpop at all but this album concept feels off to me. Like it's fabricated and doesn't show the real Tae. I feel like his fans would appreciate that. Perhaps the concepts worked for New Jeans since it's quirky cute. And I remember writing a few weeks ago how Tae had changed his style and if that was reflective of what he would show in his upcoming album. And we are seeing change but not in any sort of direction. I don't see the essence of Tae in this. Or his new style.

I like to see the essence of the artist even in their on-stage personas. I'm not seeing it here.

But maybe this is just me being intense as usual.

Second question. Jimin. I do agree that Jimin tries to tell stories through his songs and he does that beautifully. Even if his songs differ greatly, like Promise and Set Me Free pt.2, they both have that air of Jimin in it. But I'm not being biased, I'm not a fan of both.

I do think the pandemic caused the change in direction of Jimin's artistry. But I hope that he has seen the reception, BB charts and worldwide records, and sees that his music is meant for a wider audience even if the stories are personal to him. We can see that FACE was his struggle and rebirth so I'm looking forward to his next album, which he said was going to more upbeat.

With the right team and tools, his songs can achieve greater success. It is heartwarming that Jimin lovers are still carrying his song still. It's our token of love and appreciation but I hope that the his next project has the company support he deserves added to the fan support he has rightfully earned.

Hopefully we get to see this soon enough.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

I really like how you think. Maybe you won't like my take on Tae's music but do you want to be friends? Message me?

#skyasks #no more tae music!!!

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thegirlfromhawkins · 2 years

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Rager Teenager! (Eddie x gn!reader)

I’ve had such a shitty time at work lately but getting high and dancing with my dog has 100% helped. Highly recommend. Thank you for your love and support always! <3 Requests are open!

Summary: After being let down by your ‘friends’ Eddie’s right there for you. Ready to see you finally let go of all the shit you’d been letting hold you back from being yourself.

Endless conversations with Eddie about those 3 girls who were supposedly your friends. Eddie knew they were no good despite them being on the popular side of the High School’s stupid hierarchy. He tried his best to help you and tried talking you out of hanging out with them too many times to count. All he could do was be there to listen about what they’d said or done this time.

To Eddie, you were so much better than anyone else in Hawkins. You just couldn’t see it yet. Eddie could see the real you you’d hide to try and fit in. He wished you would let go of others’ opinions and judgment. Just being you was amazing to him. He knew it’d take time for you to realize those things about yourself but he had no idea what would lead you to finally letting go of all the bullshit.

It was around 10 at night when the phone rang out in the Munson trailer. Eddie was quick to pick it up and what came through the other line was not surprising for him to hear. They had hurt your feelings again and ditched you. Eddie quickly told you he’d be on his way over and drove off in his van to wipe away your tears.

The door was unlocked when he got there and he let himself in. As he made his way to your bedroom he could hear your music playing that only got louder when he opened your door. There you were sitting against your bed with your arms wrapped around your legs with tears still in your eyes.

“Hey,” you muttered up to Eddie showing a half smile despite how upset you were. Having Eddie there made you feel a little better. Not being alone was really all you wanted at that point.

Eddie walked over and sat next to you on the floor. He looked at you but it was hard to keep eye contact. You honestly felt bad for calling him over this stupid shit so many times.

“Y/N,” Eddie put his arm around you pulling you closer to him,” What happened?”

“They fucking lied. They lied Eddie! And they don’t even care about it. They were so obvious about how they were all hanging out tonight right in front of me. Then when I ask what they’re doing they don’t mention anything! This is bullshit!”

“Woah, Woah. Calm down Darling.”

Tears rolled down your face again thanks to your short outburst. You’d just spent so long trying your best to stay friends with them but this. This was it.

“I’m so tired of it. I’m just done. I’m done with them. They’re fucking stupid.” you spat out thinking about how careless they are for your feelings all the time.

“I’m not going to disagree with that. You deserve so much Y/N. You deserve to be around people that actually care about you and your wellbeing.” Eddie spoke now holding eye contact with you finally. He could see the hurt in your eyes but also the anger. As upset as he was about this situation he was glad that you had come to your senses and seemed serious about it too.

The room filled with the music playing through your radio as Eddie held you and played with your hair. It calmed you down from your previous state. You were sad to lose people in your life but were they even a part of it in the grand scheme of things?

“Let’s go for a drive,” Eddie said breaking the silence. You nodded and went to grab a jacket and your shoes.

Once you were both in the van Eddie put in the cassette of your favorite songs he had made. He always played it when he was with you and even listened to it when you weren’t around. The music playing through the speakers immediately put a smile on your face that you flashed at Eddie as if to say thank you.

The windows were rolled all the way down with the cool night air flowing past you with the moonlight shining down. Eddie looked over as you were now getting into the music making him laugh as he drove through the streets. The streetlights mixed with the moon made you look beautiful to him. The way you sang along and danced in your seat with the wind blowing in your hair with that gorgeous smile on your face was heaven to him.

You had finally done it. You’d let go. As cliche as it sounds you could feel that burden of trying so hard for others fly off your shoulders with the night’s breeze. There’s no other person you’d rather be with right now than Eddie. He was your true person. Not just friend or best friend. He was your person. You were two halves of one heart.

Eventually, Eddie pulled off into the gas station where you’d decided to stop and pick up snacks to binge eat and forget the world while spending the night with Eddie. Whatever those girls were doing wasn’t even close to how great your night was turning out.

Dropping all the packs of candy and refreshments you’d both grabbed on the counter Eddie paid for them. ‘His treat’ he said but everything is like a treat with Eddie. You both ran giggling to the car with arms full of shit just bought. The jamming out continued until you pulled up at Eddie's trailer.

He helped you get everything inside and held the door open for you like the gentleman he is. You’d decided on watching a horror movie to start your ‘I don’t give a fuck’ celebration of finally being yourself. Eddie couldn’t be more proud of you. It’s like there was confidence radiating off of you.

After the movie finished a smoke sesh was on queue. Eddie rolled up for you and even lit the end of the joint for you. You spent the rest of the night dancing around the trailer together laughing about who the hell knows. Neither of you probably knew what you were laughing at anyways. Eddie gave you pep talks about how amazing you were and you reciprocated it. The rants of love for each other could be heard throughout the whole trailer park. Surprisingly you didn’t get a noise complaint about the yelling.

The night had now become a beautiful moment in your life. It was full of love and acceptance from the only person you needed. Thank the universe for giving you such an amazing person in your life. All that mattered was that moment in time. Who the hell knows what comes tomorrow so you’re going to be yourself today and every day. And Eddie was going to stay right by your side.

#eddie cult #stranger things #stranger things s4 #eddie munson #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson x gender neutral reader #eddie munson headcanon #eddie stranger things #eddie munson fluff #st4 #stranger things headcanons #stranger things imagine #eddie munson x female reader #eddie munson angst #eddie munson masterlist #eddie x reader #Eddie comfort fic #Eddie Munson Fic

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questions-from-d87 · 7 months

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oc-tober day 7 - hatred

♤ tobi overhears.

♤ 814 words

♤ prompt for @oc-tober2023

♤ this one is loosely inspired by things that have happened to me, it was an experience to write lmao

Tobi arrived home from school at three. He sat in the back next to Phoebe while Melody talked about her day with their mom. Phoebe looked sad.

Seventh grade was taxing - he knew Melody would be horrified if he said that to her, what with her grown-up high school classes, but at that point in their life, it was 100% true. They went into the pantry and grabbed themself a granola bar from the box their mom had gotten at the grocery store and took a seat on the couch. It was a colder day, and Mom had finally turned the heat on.

They turned on the TV and switched it to some cooking channel. They honestly didn’t usually watch much of whatever they turned on - they just liked the background noise. It helped him to think.

Phoebe was in the kitchen microwaving herself a bag of popcorn. Melody had brought her backpack upstairs, presumably to work on homework.

“How was school, kid?” The way Phoebe talked made them sound so much older than they were. They were only a teenager, not that much older than Tobi in the grand scheme of things, but she was such a mentor to them that she might as well have been three years older in Tobi’s mind.

“Fine,” he answered. “A little boring.”

“I remember when I was in seventh grade. I was always bored out of my mind.” She chuckled softly and took a seat beside them on the couch, holding an open bag of popcorn. “Don’t tell Mom about this, alright, dude?” They gestured to the bag of popcorn - technically, eating on the couch was a no-go. Tobi nodded. They weren’t a snitch, especially not about a rule so small that they were actively breaking themself.

A few minutes later, Phoebe stood up and gave Tobi a little bonk on the head - not hard enough to hurt, but a simple, friendly tap. “I’ve got homework. See ya at dinner, kid.” Tobi waved and she headed up the stairs.

Tobi got up and went to the piano in the other room - they could take a little time to practice before they had to study for their math quiz. The walls of the room were lined with art projects of varying quality from the kids of the family, and their music sat in a messy, disorganized pile atop the piano. One book sat on the stand in front of the keys, the result of yesterday’s practice.

Miss Emily had assigned him a new piece at the last lesson. He opened to page sixteen and looked over the notes briefly. This one was fairly new to them, since they’d only played it a couple of times so far.

They straightened their back and rested their fingertips on the keys -

- when they heard talking.

Not talking. Talking wouldn’t be notable. This was talking just on the cusp of yelling, voice raising but not quite that much.

“You have to be kidding me.”

That was Phoebe for sure - only she and Melody were home besides him, and that voice, in all its boldness and clarity, was unquestionably hers.

“Phoebe, you aren’t listening to me -”

“Oh, I’m not listening to you? Grow up and stop acting like you’re better than me.”

“You’re being ridiculous-”

Tobi covered their ears and pressed them closer to his head until his sisters’ gradually crescendoing voices became an unintelligible mix of muffled sound. They knew they should be used to all the arguing by now, but it still made them sad to hear. He remembered seeing them slowly lose their ability to get along as they got older. One of his very first memories was hearing the two of them proudly proclaim that they would be best friends forever - he watched that vow gradually decay, and it probably hadn’t even hit rock bottom yet.

Suddenly, they didn’t feel much like practicing anymore.

He went back to the kitchen, picked up his backpack, and took it down to the basement couch. Their voices were still audible from downstairs, but they were quieter and easier to cover up with headphones.

He slipped on his headphones and plugged them into the family laptop. Listening in to these arguments was useless, he’d learned - there was no point in taking sides, because neither one would mention it later anyway. They would try not to fight around Tobi - he’d inevitably hear it, but the effort was nice of them.

They pulled up a Depeche Mode album and pressed the play button. The math Quizlet would always be agonizing, especially with his sisters fighting upstairs, but maybe good music would make it a little less insufferable.

The older they grew, the more they realized how much of a mess their household really was. But it was theirs regardless.

He turned up the volume of the music, desperately hoping to drown the yells out.

#oc tober #tobi stuff #cecil writes

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beyondtheseaofstars · 1 year

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amber appreciation day!! mainly because of boredom but also i’ve just been feeling this urge to make these lol.

we haven’t been friends for very long but i’ve thoroughly enjoyed all of our conversations. i feel like you are the first person i’ve met whose had a similar music taste to me lol. normally i don’t go around telling people the artists or songs i listen to on a day to day basis but every time i’ve seen your discord spotify status, i would always look at it and be like “wait- i know this artist/song!! i love this artist/song”.

like i’m fairly certain the first proper convo i had with you was about songs like sana ako na lang and other variations of niji, holo or indie vtubers, which i never really talk about with people who aren’t my irl friends lol. before that i think i only really heard about you from conversations with cyrus and rin so ig i had no real expectations besides ‘tlos fan and really nice person’.

which i mean, both of those statements are very true but also i’m just very glad to have gotten to talk with you more often and learnt more about you. not to mention the fact that we’re literally in the same timezone (again…weirdly very rare for me lol-) and our love for skylene <333 and oh my gosh your art style is to die for. literally it’s so prettyyyy. i can’t wait for the opportunity for us to all roleplay and possible even vc together if i get the chance in the future and hopefully we can be closer in the future. here’s to making more memories <33

gift ;;

THANK YOU SO MUCH AAAAAA <33

This is the best start of my day ever (and I mean that 100%)!! ^^ and you're very kind omg, I'm actually going to cry-

Me too, our conversations have always been really nice for me. I'd love it for us to talk more together :)) Again, same here! I never thought I'd find someone who also listens to so much of what I listen to, and honestly, it's amazingg. (Whenever you dm me about a song, I get so unreasonably excited that you know it too-)

I believe it was, yeah! I know I've been saying this a lot at this point, but me too lol. Finding someone online who knows and watches vtubers, and also a lot of stuff I'm into as well, is so cool! No but same?? 😭 Prior to the vtuber convo, I always heard of you from Cyrus and Rin too- Every time I hear about you, I've always been like "ooh, they sound really cool :0".

thank youuu <33 I'm also glad to be friends with you! ^^ I know lol (same, like, so far you're the only person I've met in my timezone-) and yess, we love Skylene here <33 ty tyy!! I've always loved all your mood boards! I can't wait either; you, Rin, and Cyrus seem so fun to roleplay withh. Ooh, I'm also excited to get the chance to vc with you sometime, since the one time we all vc-ed was like, awfully late at night and you and I were muted. Hopefully so!! here's to making more memories together! <33

#THIS IS AMAZINGG MNBDSVJMBSDV #YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME <33 #HANDS DOWN BEST START OF MY DAY EVER #(I'm really sorry this is a bit late—I just woke up lmao)

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cyborg-3005 · 5 months

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incoming personal first world problems from a whiny autistic white boy. if you like christmas, that’s cool, please ignore my ranting.

ok ik most people really like holiday/christmas music and theming and allat. honestly, great for them, they should enjoy what makes them happy.

i dont really get it myself, tho. guess i, just, derive happiness and quality time with people i care about in ways that dont involve following this specific theme and using this specific music and these colors and dressing up like this specific thing. not saying its wrong for others to enjoy it that way at all. it just feels a little suffocating that it seems like EVERYONE loves the shit out of this specific theme.

like, yes, i love the idea of giving to others and spending time with them. that’s super cool and i vibe with it 100%. it makes me happy.

it’s just like, people seem to expect that i’m going to enjoy this specific brand of it, even though that’s not really how happiness works. why do i need a theme for my happiness? why can i only enjoy giving gifts to other people and spending time with them while listening to the 74th remix of “all i want for christmas is you?” i don’t think anyone has bad intentions when they tease me for my dislike of christmas theming or whatever, but it does feel a little suffocating that i’m personally expected to enjoy doing these specific things that just make me feel uncomfortable and like im not myself.

this isn’t to say i try to ruin it for others tho. i always stay silent on my own opinions, trying to help my parents out with their decorations and saying “happy holidays” to my friends and family. i don’t want to intrude on their happiness. it’s just when i’m expected to enjoy the “christmas activities” and shit myself, and when i just don’t, people like to invalidate me as just being edgy or whatever. and like, im not trying to be. its just something that my mind and body don’t like doing on some subconscious level to a point that its engrained into who i am. i’m not sure why. i didn’t ask to turn out like this. but i’m not going to force myself to be someone i’m not if the whole point is to derive happiness from it.

i’ll spend time with the people i love, and give to others, and enjoy the togetherness. those central parts of christmas i’m 100% on board with. i just don’t really get all the extra branding that’s tagged onto it, it’s not really what i’m interested in. to me it just comes off as corny and disingenuous. it’s not who i am.

maybe it comes from the fact that i didn’t grow up in a place with snow. maybe it’s because im not religious. my neurodivergence most definitely has a part in it, not sure how much tho.

i just, dunno, want to give to people and hang out with them without forcing myself to listen music i dont care for, wear clothing i dont care for, hang decorations i dont care for, act all cheery in this ultra specific branded way that i dont really care for. idk.

yeah i’m probably coming off as some sort of entitled dick. i dunno what to do about that. i’ve gone from a distaste toward the holiday to a mere lack of enthusiasm in its eccentricities. i’ve mellowed out on it quite a bit.

what frustrates me in a way is that everyone else’s love of the holiday feels strangely oppressive, like no matter what i do it’s in my face. it’s not their fault or responsibility in any way, it’s a me problem, but it doesn’t make it any less frustrating.

what’s even more frustrating is that it feels like literally no one feels the same way. it’s silly, but i just wish there was someone like me in this way. i haven’t found them yet.

this feels like an “am i the asshole” thing for some reason and i don’t like that.

i guess for now, i’ll keep doing my own thing to the best of my ability while not suppressing the happiness of others. it’s hard but i’m learning. live and let live.

literally listening to kendrick singing “this dick ain’t free!!!” as i type this lmao.

yeah sorry for my whining. if you actually read to the bottom of this i’m impressed

#personal rant #rant #first world problems #neurodivergent #vent #goofy ass personal issue!!!#literally no one cares about this except me lmao #christmas #holiday

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jen-lee3 · 8 months

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So I love Resident Evil, and in particular Leon Kennedy because when I was like six or seven I watched my dad play Resident Evil 4 on the gamecube and went, I like this funny man. And now years later the remakes slammed me in the face now that I'm capable of complex thoughts. But none of my irl friends like Resident Evil to the point my best friend has stopped me mid conversation because I got really focused on it again. So I need people to talk to about Resident Evil, if not for my sake then my friends. So here are some random Leon headcanons/thoughts that I need to put somewhere. They're not completely original of course, but here.

These are pretty much all Remake Leon, because honestly I prefer him. He's got consistent characterization. Not that og Leon had much of a chance in that regard, there were a lot of writers and years and even consoles between each game, and I still love him. Remake Leon just gives me a chronic case of "i can fix him" disease.

He is a dog person, 100%. I think there's even art for either 2 or 1.5 of him with a bloodhound. But we knew this.

He can’t really have a pet, but if he could I think he’d inexplicably end up with a cat. He doesn’t know how this happened. It just did, and suddenly his phone is filled with pictures of this cat. Like a real ugly cat too.

I feel like he played soccer or baseball in high school. Gotta get look good for those college apps. Absolutely not foot ball.

I feel like he was well liked in high school and college. Not exactly popular, but if someone was planning a party and saw him walk by, shout out an invite to him, because he's just a nice guy.

Girls probably liked him being at parties because while he's bad at flirting, he is always ready to throw down with a creep, watch a drink, walk a girl home. Using his hero complex to enjoy a party without worry.

Leon listens to dad rock. This much is obvious. I’m using my parents for reference but they’re roughly about ten years older so there's differences. Def doesn’t listen to as much hair metal I think, but would probably get a kick out of steel panther still.

So much nirvana though. So much.

That being said, nothing is funnier than the idea of his inner elevator music being Linkin Park. He kinda missed them, getting beat up by Krauser. But I can see Chris several years later grabbing a cd thinking Leon might like this. Leon doesn’t know when Chris found out his birthday to buy him this gift as he did not tell him.

The visual of Leon zoning out and miserable with Numb playing just hits different okay.

Also everyone has seemed to collectively decide he likes NIN, specifically Closer. Which yes totally see it for re4 Leon, but also hilarious. He was 17 when that song came out. Can you imagine, freshman year or college with a Leon that's even a few years younger than re2 Leon, taking a girl back to his dorm room, and putting on some music to try and set the mood or something, and that song pops on. “I wanna fuck you like an animal” Sir, you are a golden retriever of a man that song doesn’t suit you yet.

Leon’s arm with the bullet wound seems to have some issues. I’ve seen several people throw that idea around and it makes sense. We know it was hours before he got proper medical attention at the very least if not days.

I also think he might have some slight tinnitus. Maybe just in one ear. Not enough that it would make him more vulnerable in a fight than his arm having issues. But the amount of explosions, getting thrown around, and even firing a gun. It wouldn’t be surprising.

I know that when he mentioned Wesker before he called him ‘Wesker’ like everyone else. But I think if they met, Leon would call him Albert cause it’s funny and he had no sense of self preservation.

I think Leon has a weird thing about his neck. Like sure it's fun to joke about him getting choked, but he has actually been choked by a lot of monsters to the point it’s probably touchy for him. I genuinely don’t think he’d like getting choked. And even touching his neck gets him to flinch unless he trusts them.

I didn’t want to get into nsfw, but since there's literally a tag for this on AO3… yeah, Leon’s packing. At the very least, I think this because something has to give him the confidence to say all that stupid shit. Because I don’t think it’s just his fighting skill.

Eye contact. The boy loves eye contact. If you manage to get in a conversation with him (and there's not zombies trying to kill you) he is keeping his focus and his gaze. And you know… eye contact in other situations too I guess…

He watched Buffy season 1, only got to watch exactly 2 episodes of Buffy season 2 before Racoon city. I looked up when the episodes aired. He didn’t even get to see the Angelus arc. He’ll never go back and watch until years later when streaming is a thing.

Another idea I’ve seen more than once I agree with. His apartment is so impersonal. Man walked into Ikea, pointed at one of their display rooms and said yes. Which is what they did in The Room. Tommy Wiseau looked at a display window and went yes.

Loves blockbuster and other video rentals. He loves movies but it’s probably hard for him to have a collection, so he rents them. Though that's always risky if he gets called away. But what else is he gonna spend his money on, the late fees are barely an issue.

sapphire-weapon has a lot of good Leon headcanons but I like the one about him being a fantasy nerd in particular. Being a Neil Gaimon fan makes a lot of sense. Probably enjoys some Terry Prachet as well. Very picky about fantasy but I would just want to show him my weird puppet movies. Like come on, this one has David Bowie who doesn’t like David Bowie?

I recently was shown Escape from New York and I think Leon and Chris would somehow start talking about that movie and they’ll get really excited about it and that they both love it. Like lots of good Kurt Russel movies, but I don’t think The Thing or Big Trouble in Little China gets the same results from those two.

He’s probably not Italian. If he is, it's probably too far back to matter or at the closest a grandparent they don’t really talk too. I would buy Scottish or Irish relatives closer than Italian. He is a white guy in America so he is probably a mix from several European countries but again, too far back to matter or really affect him culturally. He’s just American. Take this from someone who is of Italian descent, (my dad’s grandparents moved to Canada from Italy) and while I’m only a quarter Italian and actually have very similar colouring to Leon (pale, blue eyes, blonde) my family is still very Italian. So I feel like I can be a pretty good point of reference here.

Also the mafia background. Y’all saw one concept artist say he was Italian, and then that mock interview back in the day said his parents died in a “heinous crime” and decided it was mafia related, which hey. But idk, he seems too plucky in re2r. I feel like he’d be more disillusioned with the police force if something like that happened. I mean that is applying realism to Resident Evil which as we all know is a very grounded and realistic horror game, but regardless, he’s not mafia. Mafia princess Leon is hilarious, but just as a fun au.

But eerizon mama’s boy video tho? Makes me want to rip my phone in half (affectionate)

Probably raised catholic. He’s got a couple lines about religion and by merit of being a white guy in America, def christian family. Now y’all in the states have like a million different versions, start throwing directions into it too, so I really only know catholic. And also, Sister Michael of Derry Girls comes to me saying “I do love a good statue it must be said” and she’s right.

I wish there was more fan art of Leon with Catholic aesthetics because they're so good. Martyr Leon, Saint Leon. the possibilities. God I wish I could draw.

As for shipping, I’ll ship Leon with just about anyone.

Leon and Ashley are my personal favourite, I just think it’s adorable and knight/prince/ss relationships make me feral.

Chris and Leon are fun because grumpy old men romance!

Luis and Leon are really fun because Leon looks like scary dog privilege but I like the idea Luis is the dangerous one. He may or may not have been involved with Nemesis. Pissing off Leon is bad, but pissing off his boyfriend? Rip.

Leon and Ada are toxic and fun. I don’t understand the sentiment of, oh it’s not manipulative or unhealthy. Yes it is, that's why it’s sexy. I support women’s wrongs.

Leon and Claire are wild, something ends up on fire at the end of all their dates.

Leon and Krauser… okay maybe I don’t ship them. OG Leon? Sure, they’re more equals. Remake Leon? Krauser I’ll kill you.

In my head I refer to him as blonde because I first saw him in OG re4, but he's really more of a brunette huh. It also varies even in that regard (looking at you vendetta). Kinda like Link. Various between shades of blonde and brown with one random ginger/pink thrown in due to tech constraints.

Anyways, I have more thoughts but this was already waaaay too long. Please talk to me about Resident Evil my bestie can’t take it anymore.

#Resident Evil #resident evil 4 remake #resident evil 4 #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #pls i need re mutuals #my friend is going to kill me if i dont stop #leon my favourite idiot

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humblemediagenius · 6 months

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It's au guys ask time >:) one 📻 for that song meme, and skin, break and future for the not-so-nice oc meme >:3

GENE YOU ARE MAKING ME WRITE SO MUCH BUT IT’S WORTH IT BECAUSE I AM INSANE OVER THESE TWO YAY

Song: mememe by 100 Gecs

I know I already sent you a different 100 gecs song that was on their playlist but I’m sending you another one because I am insane. Besides the fact that this is absolutely the type of music Luna listens to, I just think the lyrics fit these two PERFECTLY. Like, I interpreted the song to be about a breakup from a unattentive / uncaring partner and I don’t think that applies to Zeke and Luna’s relationship, but rather applies to their relationship with their ex-boss and with their hosts. It’s a big plot point that the two of them figure out who they both really are, and the traits that make them who they are as their own individuals is blatantly looked over by their ex-boss (and the canon counterparts to their hosts, to an extent). So it feels like the type of message they’d want to be heard, that they feel like their experiences aren’t important…….. ough. I even did a drawing to this song, I think it fits them that well. also yeah just 100 gecs is au guys core music IDK what else to say on that

ok now for the other ask game:

skin: How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they grapple with anything that lives inside them -a beast, a curse, a failure, a monster? How do they face the smallest, weakest, most horrible version of themself? Are they able to acknowledge it at all?

WELL. The AU guys take that one phrase “the human skin is hard to live in” to the next level because they are literally living inside human bodies but aren’t human themselves. Over time I think both of them have kind of accepted their fate, but they don’t exactly like it overall. Luna has somewhat grown to appreciate their host and appearance, but Zeke has actually gotten less comfortable with it. He hates the color red because of that jacket he had to wear for so long. They don’t HATE the skin they’re in but they don’t LOVE it either. But then again, it’s all they’ve ever known, so even if they DID get freed from their hosts they probably would base their appearances on their hosts (especially after they start dressing and acting like themselves).

break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?

God, this is hard to think about because the AU guys are generally lighthearted and not getting into situations like this. I know for sure Zeke could (and honestly probably will at some point) reach his own breaking point because he’s repressed everything he hates about being in a host and acting like someone else. He’s jealous of Luna and how they’re so confident about everything they do, and he is so SICK of that jacket. So after months, maybe even over a year of holding it all in he finally snaps and breaks down. Zeke is typically very monotone, calm, collected— so you may or may not be surprised to hear that he is an emotional WRECK. I mean, ugly sobbing, shaking, barely able to coherently speak. He holds a lot in, not just his thoughts but emotions in general. Luna is obviously the only person to see him like this, and also the only one to help him get in a better place.

Luna, on the other hand, I don’t feel would realistically get to their lowest. They’re very flexible. I think the only thing that’d ever cause them to feel that way if Zeke, like, died or something (and vice versa for Zeke as well), but that obviously isn’t happening.

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

Well the worst possible future that could have happened to them would have been if a certain ex-boss of theirs continued to mind control them and not let them break away; if it weren’t for them, they probably would have taken over Rackethill by now. In the story they’ve basically already avoided this fate, but they’re very much aware that 1) it very much could have happened, 2) it ALMOST really did happen and 3) they are never ever going back there again. I feel like Zeke especially panics about the fact it almost happened because for many months before Luna got their host, he was being mind controlled and he did not like it at all.

#seaspeak #oc tag #ask #i love the au guys this is all you guys get to know before it gets more complicated /lh lh

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juliesdiary · 11 months

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06/02 T.W.

I’m overstimulated and overwhelmed. I need to release, but how am I going to do that in public? On top of that, I don’t even have the equipment to do it. What’s more, my mom’s calling me over to do her a favor. I honestly thought this part of my life was over a long time ago. After all, it's been over a year since I’ve had the urge to cut myself again. At this point, I don’t think my depression will ever go away. It’s always going to be there in some shape or form. I remember when my parents found out, they tried blaming it on the kind of music I listened to. Trust me, it wasn’t Asking Alexandria or Pierce the Veil that made me depressed. Then they tried to say that everything was just an elaborate act of jealousy towards my younger sibling, which had never crossed my mind. Nope, it wasn’t that either. I know it began in middle school in 6th grade, then it got better in 7th grade and then severely plummeted in 8th grade. Then it kinda disappeared in 10th grade but always lingered throughout high school. Then it came back in college, and it’s been on and off ever since. I’d like to say that we’ve learned to coexist, but when it hits, man, does it hit. I often think about what life would be like if I ever went through with it. When my dad passed away, I screamed at God that it should have been me. Had it been me instead, my family would still be okay. They wouldn’t suffer as much as they do now since my dad was the main breadwinner and head of the household. I mean c’mon, my sibling was only 15. That’s a critical age where a child needs their father. Had it been me, things would have been smooth sailing. I don’t contribute to anything. I just take up space. I just get everyone annoyed, upset, or pissed off. My dad took care of everyone. He made my mom feel safe. He gave advice. He taught us important life lessons. He had a reason to live for. He was loved. It’s been proven time after time that I’m forgetful and never anyone’s 1st, 2nd, or even 3rd option. Even my own ex-husband saw that I wasn’t worth anything and left me. So why couldn’t it have been me? I heard that some life insurance covers suicide, but you have to wait 2 years. If it were to happen within the first 2 years, then the policy becomes invalid, and your beneficiary gets nothing. I wish I could get a million dollar policy and put my family as beneficiaries so that I could finally be of some use. I’d be out of their way, and I’d be setting them for life. Everyone wins. Sometimes, I wonder if I don’t die from suicide if I’ll die of sadness. I can feel it weighing down my heart like as if someone was sitting on my chest. How ironic would it be if I ended up living to 100 y/o instead?

#juliesdiary #artists on tumblr #tw s3lf harm #relatable content #tw depressing stuff

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seylaaurora · 1 year

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ok ur turn. top 5 ajr songs (do not feel the need to give big long explanations like i did lol im just insane. unless u’d like to be equally insane about it)

I cannot do this. I now see the error of my ways of asking you to do this ranking, cause it is just pure torture😆

Started to relisten to their first album cause it's the one that's least clear in my mind and... I already want all of them in my ranking and I know I like the Click, Neotheater and OK Orchestra even more... take pity on me😭

Let’s start with Pitchfork Kids! Absolute classic, absolute banger, delightfully weird in the way that reminds me why I love AJR. The song of their first album that stayed the longest on my playlist and the one that I always get back to being obsessed with whenever I listen to it. I don’t know what it is about this song. I don’t even think it’s one of their most relatable songs, probably not even one of their weirdest songs, it’s just... soooooo good tho. Legit one of THE AJR songs of all time. I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. They’ll never be able to produce a song that hits the same buttons Pitchfork Kids does. No one will be able to, it just holds such a special place in my heart and my brain.

Role Models. This always hits even harder listening to it after Woody Allen like I’m doing today (no one can tell me it’s not a direct sequel to that song, this is 100% partly about Woody Allen). The disillusionment of realising your (childhood) heroes are not who you thought you were. Your heroes letting you down is suuuch an experience of growing up. They’re not just heroes, but they are actual people and honestly, some of these people suck. The struggle of taking what your heroes gave you while leaving the people behind that gave it to you. To what extent can you separate the art from the artist? How do you go on, knowing the influence this person’s art had on your life, on the person you are today and the decisions you’ve made? How do you become okay with you having been shaped by something made by a person you so fundamentally disagree with? How do you keep that part alive while killing the part that is attached to that person? (I’m trying really hard not to write an essay but it’s not turning out so well)

3 O’Clock Things. Look. This song is ace. I don’t make the rules.

Way Less Sad. I haven’t seen a single person yet who didn’t think this song was super optimistic, but also kind of thought that was weird of themselves to think. It’s an “This is not happy, so it can’t be the ending” optimism. I don’t know if we’re just all not okay, or if it’s not actually all that weird to think it’s an optimistic song, but this song came out in February 2021. That’s what we were in. Stuff sucked. It still does. But we are, in fact, not dead yet, and I personally think it’s very sexy of us to hold on to hope. We’re not done yet. Things will get better. They just will. It feels a little like spite, and I’m okay with that. This song makes me want to go out and change my life for the better

Birthday Party. There’s always been some social commentary in their music, and while this isn’t even the most obvious one (looking at you 3 O’Clock Things), it’s just so delightfully ironic about it. Look, Role Models doesn’t hit for no reason. This song always felt like a promise to me. We won’t be them. I remember seeing a post on Instagram around the time about how people were apparently complaining that they shouldn’t get political in their songs and I always thought “who the hell did you think you were listening to?” AJR’s songs have always been about growing up, and while there is the things about how to navigate relationships with other people, looking at the state of the world and building opinions on it has always been part of growing up too. This song is about the innocence of a child who will find out about all the horrible things going on in the world at some point, and I, for one, find that incredibly relatable.

Okay, this got away from me XD

I think I could write an essay about each of their songs, and my top 5 ranking could change at any point. I also wanted to put Weak, Netflix Trip, Call my Dad and Burn the House Down on the list, but I can’t do 9 instead of 5😂 at some point it’s just too much😂

Was this insane enough for you?😂

Drop sth in my ask box if you also want me to do a top 5 ranking for sth

#ajr #music #ask games #seyla interacts #magic-number-3 #this is getting out of hand 😂#we're becoming ajr fan blogs😂#thank you so much for this💕#and sorry it took me so long haha #seyla talks

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okay realistically i could just say one direction as a band, and then Harry, Louis, and Niall as solo artists for four of the five because i really do still love the music they made as a band and obviously i adore our boys as solo artists. but for the sake of actually giving an interesting answer, i'm not gonna name any members of one direction 😂 naming my top 5 is sooo hard because it's like being forced to pick my favorite children and my favorites change all the time but at the moment i'd say Three Days Grace (in particular the older stuff when Adam Gontier was still the lead singer, they've been a favorite of mine since my early teenage years), Bastille (Bad Blood is still such an elite album after a decade idc what anyone says), September Stories (they do a lot of spoken word stuff so it's a bit of an acquired taste but Every Word, Everything and Home have been in my top 100 songs on Spotify every year since I made my account), The Smiths (Morissey sucks as a person lol but his ability to turn his misery into absolutely gorgeous lyrics goes unmatched and Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want and There Is a Light That Never Goes Out both have such an otherworldly vibe to them), and Beth Crowley (she does a lot of songs inspired by books that I've never read but I really love the way her lyrics always tell a story and I wish she was more popular!!)

i know you didn't ask for all these details but i can't talk about my favorite artists without adding at least a few comments 😂 i could seriously talk about music all day so i'm loving that you asked this!! 🫶

but now i obviously have to ask you the same question...top 5 artists/bands? 👀

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okay so i’m loving the variety here ! a lot a lot !! i’m also now curious how one direction / solo 1d would rank ? just out of pure curiosity because i obviously can’t decipher based on your list here 😅

now asking for my top 5 is 😩 lol top 6 is even easier than top 5 for some reason 🤷‍♀️ so is top 3 lmao for some reason 5 is just messing with me but here we go ! and i’ll preface this with 2 points. firstly, i’m not putting one direction or any of their solo careers, but mostly because they honestly probably don’t rank in my top 5 (and cue the absolute massacre i’m gonna receive in my inbox, especially considering i’ve been blogging about 3 of them for the last 10+ years. but listen, top 5 of every artist EVER, cmon 😅) and secondly, you will very much be able to pin down my fav kind of music. i really do like a lot of artists from a lot of different genres, but i do have a fav and it will be blatantly fkn obvious. alright, here goes 😂

first, and always motha fkn first no matter what, green day. they are my everything, their music from 80s through to now has shaped me into who i am today, more than anything else. jesus of suburbia is the best song ever written, nothing will ever top it, like everyone else can stop trying, we have the best song ever, yall can go home 😂 then i’d say afi. fantastic band from the start, but their decemberunderground album is my favourite album of all time, so beautifully written. and fun fact, the only album that i have tattooed twice (or i should say once but getting the second next time i’m getting tatted) ! now we’re gonna flip things a tiny bit, and go with steve miller band, hands downs the BEST stoner music ever. they have the vinyls i reach for most, it’s just such a fkn vibe, i adore it !! (also sliding in an honourable mention for oasis, because that’s another vinyl i’m always reaching for when stoned 😅). fourth, i would say good charlotte, simply because they are fkn fantastic, and their young and the hopeless album is the one album i turn to constantly when life is hard and it just resets me, idk what it is 😂. and then in fifth, i’m going with our lady peace, i feel like they’re super underrated but they have some fkn bangers, they deserve more love ! and then i’m throwing in an honourable mention to counting crows because that 90s vibe is unmatched, and it brings me so much nostalgia for easier times.

sorry for the bible 😅 i hope you enjoy my rant about my 5 (or 7 😬) top fav bands that quite clearly capture the essence that is my punk rock heart 🫶

#asks #🤘anon

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MGP starts tonight with the first six songs battling it out in Heat 1, but before we get there, I’ve ranked all 18 songs:

Mileo – You´re Mine

Gothminister – We Come Alive

Gåte – Ulveham

Ingrid Jasmin – Eya

KEiiNO – Damdiggida

Margaret Berger – Oblivion

Vidar Villa – MER

Thomas Jenssen – Take Me To Heaven

MIIA – Green Lights

Myra – Heart on Fire

Mathilde SPZ ft. Chris Archer & Slam Dunk – Woman Show

Annprincess – Save Me

Mistra – Waltz of Death

Fredrik Halland – Stranded

Farida – Heartache

Super Rob & Erika Norwich – My AI

Dag Erik Oksvold & Anne Fagermo – Judge Tenderly of Me

Eli Kristin – Touch Of Venus

I honestly really enjoyed doing this ranking – I had a good time listening to most of these songs and I love the variety on offer here. Not everything is working for me, but there's a great range of genres. Actually my real struggle was placing my lowest ranked songs – based on the points system I use to help me make these rankings, My AI would have been dead last, but I bumped it up a couple of places just for the audacity of it, even if I think it crosses the line from fun annoying into annoying annoying.

In contrast, my favourite song of the selection treaded that line perfectly! You’re Mine is awful in the best way, a possessive, toxic gay bop. The music is frustratingly catchy, and while it is deliberately provocative and annoying it does it in a playful, fun way. I’m all for edgy, dark lyrics, and the contrast of the subject matter against the upbeat music is absolutely delicious. Is it kind of trashy? Sure, but it’s edgy and fun and it 100% works for me!

I also really enjoyed We Come Alive for the music – it’s a solid metal track, and it’s doing everything I want in terms of sound, but the lyrics let it down. I get what they’re going for, it’s style over substance, the focus is on how the lyrics sound rather than what they say, they’re treated almost as another instrument than a vehicle to carry a message or story. It’s not about the lyrics, and that’s ok, but I personally prefer songs that have both awesome music and interesting lyrics. As it stands though, the music does enough for me that I still really like this song.

I don’t expect Norway to get another top 5 placement with this set of songs, but I think they’ve got some good options nonetheless. Margaret Berger and KEiiNO are both back, both artists who know how to sell a song on the Eurovision stage. I don’t think either of their entries are as strong as what they’ve brought before, but they are still good, and should easily take Norway through the semi. They’re not the only ones – there’s plenty of catchy, enjoyable songs here that I could also see doing decently. I’m looking forward to seeing how they come across live!

#eurovision #esc2024 #nf ranking #norway

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I just read about your current projects, and they sound soo cool! Would you mind talking to me about them and i cojkd talk to you about my projects too and it could be a fun discussion...i completely understand if ur not up for it tho....just wanted to let u know the ideas of ur story sound super cool and if u ever publish them i really look forward to reading them... i dont do this often and my social skills are like a B- so i hope i didnt offend u i any way or over step.

Anyway hope you're doing well!

Hiya! My social skills are also honestly not great, so that's okay.

I am hoping to get both published, but as I still need to hook an agent, that's probably at least a couple years off for now.

You can sometimes see things I reblog or post about the books with the tags of the protagonists: Tiadane, for the first one, and Avel for the second, but I honestly have no idea what would even come up for either of those at this point.

This is my current working, mostly unedited and not perfect, query for Tiadane's book.

Tiadane has spent his entire seventeen years of life watching his city fall apart and listening to everyone tell him there’s nothing he can do to fix it so he shouldn’t bother to try. Once his neighbors die in a building collapse, he’s done watching and listening. Cinralen is an isolated city in the clouds, and no one who lives there understands the magic that keeps it aloft. So Tiadane leaves. His destination is Deermein, an old city founded by the wizards that helped build Cinralen in the first place. But by the time Tiadane arrives, wizards have been gone from Deermein for centuries and the people responsible want him and his wings gone, too. But one teenager in Deermein still remembers the legends his parents were killed for telling him, and he springs Tiadane from his jail cell and they escape Deermein to find the last shreds of magic on earth. But outside Deermein’s city walls, they find themselves facing down centuries of history, fragmented cultural heritages, and the impossible task of rebuilding something that was stamped out long ago—or at least building something new from the ashes.

This is the project I mentioned this morning wanting to kind of sprint through the last 100 pages or so of revisions to get this done soon, then off to a CP that...I don't have yet, so that's another thing I gotta figure out.

As for Avel's book,it's currently on hold around 25k words. I realized I was at a point where I really need to sit down and untangle the threads I've started spinning for it and figure out what to do with what I have and how to use things, but I haven't had time with the revisions and work, etc. It needs some thought, and I hope to be back to it soon, because those 25k words were tons of fun to write, came very quickly, and I have high hopes for that project.

This is some of the last bits I worked on for Avel's project, to give you an idea of...well, him.

“You play violin.” Avel snorted, clapping a hand over his neck where he knew his violin hickey was. “It could be a viola.” “It could, but it’s not.” The stranger grinned. “You’re pretty well known on the concert circuit, Avel Martins. I know what instrument you play.” Avel startled and his cane jangled against his back inside his backpack. He’d never been recognized before—or if he had, no one had bothered to say anything. He must have seen Avel’s collapse. People would recognize his face now. People would remember him, and not for his music. The stranger offered a hand. “Rafael DeMarco. Don’t worry, I’m not looking for an autograph.” Rafael tilted his head just slightly so his grin was almost even. “You look different when you’re not dressed for the stage. You have piercings.” Avel tugged at his right ear, where two hoops were threaded through his lobe and a silver stud marked the cartilage. He had more in the left. They came out when he was preparing for stage or promotional head shots, and went right back in after. His Doc Martens, black jeans, a t-shirt his parents had paid too much for to ensure it was 100% organic cotton, and a hoodie made of the same were a far cry from ill-fitting suits.

And this bit, I guess.

The man nodded and stayed on the floor with Avel quietly, waiting until the second worker came carrying Avel’s violin case, his jacket folded over one arm and a wood cane with a curved brass handle. Avel took the case first and wiped his violin down carefully before setting it inside. He ran his thumb over the clasps, letting each one close with a sharp thump. If he fell again, it would be safe, at least. Then he accepted the help to his feet and propped himself up with his cane. It wasn’t his favorite—that one was at home, foldable black aluminum with a skull pattern and violin stickers over that—but the one he used for concerts matched his suits better.

So anyway, yeah, having fun with Avel's character design (and Raf's, for that matter).

So that's most of the longer projects I'm working on at the moment. I'm very proud of both right now, and Avel's book is still super new and raw so I tend to share less about it (whereas Tiadane's is close enough to be useful I'm a little less worried about that). I'm happy to hear about yours.

#writing #my writing #Avel #Tiadane #as always if you feed my ChatGPT I'm going to haunt you #pls be respectful

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