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#honestly I was also getting imposter syndrome the whole time i was working on it
labyrinth-guard · 10 months
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After 9-ish hours of painting, playing with Krita features, and listening to long horror related video essays, I have completed what I consider, my best piece to date Honestly I am just so fucking proud of this, I just felt like drawing my favorite 80s horror icons with some headcanon designs and then suddenly I was practicing a bunch of stuff I needed to like Shading, color variation, and backgrounds
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e-vay · 1 month
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Evay QA Bulk Post 4
Here's another roundup of questions! I'm sorry if you don't see your question answered here. I tried answering as many as I could handle. Thank you all for reaching out :)
PERSONAL ASKS
Anon asked: I don’t know if this is too personal or not, but if you feel comfortable sharing, what prompted you to make a return after not posting at all for about 3 years?
A: That's okay, I don't mind you asking. To be honest, I just suffered from art block for a very long time. I couldn't get myself to draw no matter how hard I tried. I would sit myself down and try to force myself to do it, but I just couldn't. I don't know why it went away and I don't know why it came back, but suddenly my spark came back with a vengeance! I'm back to wanting to draw all the time! I think that's both the wonderful and awful thing about creativity: you can't force it. It sucks, but hopefully I can serve as proof to others who are going through it that you can spring back from it.
Anon asked: Hi E-vay! I couldn't help but notice a few Coraline references in some of your art work, are you a fan of the film too? By the way, Sonamy 4 eva!!
A: Yes I LOVE Coraline! I never read the book but I love the movie. It fills my spooky little heart and soul!
sonicalover1345 asked: Hey, quick question have you watched Hazbin Hotel Prime video? If you have what is or are your favorite characters?
A: I haven't yet! Honestly when the pilot first came out years ago, I didn't care for it. (I love Helluva Boss, did not care for Hazbin Hotel). But I've heard a million people recommending the series and I've heard the songs because of Tiktok and a lot of the songs sound great, so I have been meaning to check it out.
Anon asked: What is your favourite Tim burton movie? 🖤
A: I want to say Nightmare Before Christmas, but to be completely honest it's probably Mars Attacks! It's so campy and funny and it has that retro horror sci-fi film feel to it, and the cast rocks. It checks all the boxes for me. I even have a Mars Attacks! print hung up at my office at work:
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wind-upbaby14 asked: Just curious but what happened to that hell hath series you made and why did you stop?
A: I went through a severe art block and hadn't drawn anything for a long time, even though I had the whole script for it written out. However since getting my mojo back, I've completely re-written the story and am working on it again. You'll see more of HHNF soon and I'm certain you'll like it better than it was meant to be originally!
Anon asked: I’m unsure if you’ve been asked this before, feel free to ignore if so but would you ever consider opening a Patreon? Y’know for earlier access and possibly spicy art🤔?
A: I did have a Patreon once upon a time, but it gave me severe imposter syndrome lol It put too much pressure on me to put out content that I thought was worthy enough for people to be paying for, so I ultimately closed it down. It doesn't mean I won't ever open it up again, but I don't have any immediate plans to do that. Also regarding the spice haha 😅 I appreciate your interest, but I just don't like to share that kind of content.
milangakokoros asked: I know you like sailor moon, I remember that you published a drawing that you did in 2007 somewhere, of Aurora sailor moon version. What other animes do you like? have you seen saint seiya? (it's my current hyperfixation)
A: I don't watch much anime anymore, but I used to be obsessed with Naruto. That's primarily what I would draw back in my dA days, but I lost interest in it a long time ago. I also loved Fruits Basket, Kill La Kill, One Punch Man and Attack on Titan. There are other shows I've watched, but those were the major series. I haven't seen the series you mentioned, sorry!
milangakokoros asked: Have you thought about making more games like the one you made on Halloween?
A: Absolutely! I don't know what the next game will be, but I definitely want to make more!
prophecyhyper asked: Do you post any of your drawings on any other sites?
A: I sometimes post my art on my Instagram and I sometimes post timelapses of my drawings on Tiktok, but I mostly post here on Tumblr!
aviles2003 asked: I've been meaning to ask you this about adaptations, what is your only favorite Video Game Movie you wanna see, already watched, and excited to see? (Sonic the Hedgehog Movies, The Super Mario Bros Movie, Detective Pikachu, Or Five Nights at Freddy's?)
A: So far my favorite game-movie adaptation is the Super Mario Bros movie! I love it so much! I love that they kept the style of the game but made it a little more polished than what you'd get in the games. I loved the characters, I loved all the references within it, I loved the music. I just think it's a perfect adaptation. Of course I'm super excited for Sonic 3! I'm sure it's going to be great, I'm just praying that Amy will be in it! I need her in it :( I'd love to see a movie adaptation of Dead Space. That's one of my favorite games and ooh I think it'd make such a good horror film. I know they made animated movies for it, but I want it done in a proper hollywood horror way!
edwinflores428 asked: E-vay, since you're also a Beatles enjoyer, did you hear the new Beatles song 'Now and Then'?
A: I didn't know about this until you mentioned this in my inbox. Wow that was emotional! I can't believe they were able to make a song out of an old unreleased recording and really get to finally get closure for their band in a way. Just incredible!
Anon asked: hey, i logged in after a long time and i was just happy to see you’re still posting. i’ve been following since the deviantart days and i just wanted to say how much i enjoy your art. it has always brought me a lot of joy :)
A: This isn't an ask, but I wanted to include it just so I could tell those of you who send these kinds of messages to my inbox: Thank you ❤️ I don't know if you all realize how much it means to me to have your support. Whether you're new to my work or whether you've followed me since my deviantART days, it absolutely makes my day when I receive these kind of wonderful, positive messages. My only wish is that you didn't feel you needed to write me anonymously so I could thank you personally! But I'll respect your privacy ❤️ From the bottom of my heart, thank you!
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MISC SONIC ASKS
Anon asked: I was wondering what your favourite brotherly head cannon would be between Sonic and Tails? :3
A: Even though Sonic's older and technically raised Tails, I love the idea of them sort of "raising each other." Sonic teaches Tails how to defend himself, how to navigate the world, how to do the right thing, but Tails is the one who teaches Sonic how to read and write, introduces him to philosophical discussions that Sonic finds really boring but actually helps him to be a better hero and be a better version of himself. I even like the idea of Tails being the one to teach Sonic how to play music. Sonic has a natural talent for it, but Tails is the one to teach him notes and chords, how to actually read sheet music, things like that.
umbrathehedgehog asked: Hey, I noticed that one piece about Sonic Prime. It's very nice! What did you like or not like about the show? Been seeing a lot of differing opinions on it and I'm really curious about what you thought!
A: Thanks so much! As a whole I'd say it was okay. It certainly wasn't the best Sonic media out there in my opinion but no way was it the worst. I understand it's a kid's show, but it was way too formulaic for me. It got to the point where I could pretty much bet "in 2 minutes Character A is going to seem like all is lost, then a loud explosion/sudden shake will happen, and they'll look up like 'whuAHHH???' and Character B will show up to help." That's fine, but not when it's happening multiple times every single episode. So to be honest, it wasn't a show that I looked forward to watching like I did with Sonic Boom. It was just something I had on because it was Sonic-related. But Sonic Prime had a lot of good character writing and the acting was great. They explored character relationships/dynamics and emotions that some other Sonic content hasn't done before, so I applaud them for that. It's mirroring what happened in Sonic Frontiers and I love that the franchise is willing to dig a little deeper on an emotional level like that. And I've said it before but I'll say it a million times more: Shadow was PERFECT! The positive of having Shadow portrayed so excellently far outweighed any negatives I could say for the show!
chrismantike asked: What’re your thoughts on longclaw (the owl from the sonic movie) does she exist in your AU as Sonic’s mom?
A: Well we didn't get to see very much of her, but I loved her design! She was very majestic and beautiful and kind. None of the characters or storyline from the live action movies are part of my AU.
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MY OCs/AU ASKS
Anon asked: So when’s did aurora learn that she could turn invisible? And did she use it to pull a prank on her parents making them think she disappeared
A: Aurora discovers her light abilities when she's young (think about preteen age), but she doesn't fully know what all she can do yet. It takes a lot of experimenting and studying with Uncle Tails to figure out everything she can do. He is the one who tells her that if she can bend light, she should be able to use it to cloak herself. Tails and Sonic obviously mean she should use it as a defensive move, but Aurora instantly thinks it's the perfect power for pranks! Picture a lot of objects "floating" around the house with a lot of phony "OooooOOoooOOOO" ghost noises haha
Anon asked: Is aurora a comic book fan? If so what’s her favorite series
A: Aurora can enjoy super hero related stuff, but she's not an avid fan of it and I would say she does not read comics. Aurora is more into fantasy/romance books. Ruff is the one who is into comic books :) His favorite would be Batman.
Anon asked: I love your idea of Aurora and Sage being close friends, I really think that fits! That being said, do you think Sage and CC would get along?
and gale-gentlepenguin asked: I’m curious on how Sage would interact with Aurora and CC? I know it would probably be seperate universes but it would be fun to see how Eggman’s daughter reacts to Sonics daughter and a sentient AI of equal intellect
A: Thank you! I've been thinking about it and I like the idea of Sage and CC being rivals, but in a very cheeky, friendly way. Sort of like Sonic and Knuckles. Sage and CC would make everything into a competition to see who can solve this problem fastest or who can simulate something best, to determine who is truly the more intelligent of the two AIs. But again, not in a toxic way. In a "I have to be the best version of myself in order to beat you because the respect I have for you is insanely high" kind of way. And Sage could playfully tease CC for wanting to become organic because it'd be a "step backwards" in her evolution, but really she'd work to find a way to help make CC's dream come true.
antooogamer asked: Hello, I already know why Diamond is white and Boon's color is for Aurora, but now I have a question about Cinder, why is he Orange? :^
A: Orange is in the same color family as red and pink, so I think it still works. As far as color theory, in my AU Aurora has a grandma who is yellow and Shadow's fur includes red, so by blending those colors you can get orange. It's the same reason why Nova is purple, it's a blend of colors from their lineage. I tried Cinder out in several different colors but orange is ultimately what fit him best.
animefan299110 asked: After seeing your artwork of Sage and Aurora interacting, I got to ask: Do they hang out a lot or is Sage like a cousin/big sister who visits all the time?
A: They're more like best friends than sisters/cousins. I know people draw Sage growing older and stuff but I personally headcanon that she'd stay in the form of a child because she feels no need to grow up. But once she's friends with Aurora, then I could see her "aging" up alongside Aurora so that she always matches her friend. It's just a headcanon of mine for now and that could ultimately change in the future.
Anon asked: Has Aurora ever been to space before if so what were her thoughts. Was she like markiplier with the whole space is so cool song.
A: Aurora DESPERATELY wants to go to space more than anything! But for most of her life she hardly ever left her home. It isn't until she's grown up that she actually starts to properly explore the world. Eventually I want her to go to space, but it would be once she's living on her own.
skywriter97 asked: So I saw this one fanart comic (that I can't remember the name of) forever ago and in it Shadow had his emblem tattooed on his arm and it made me wonder (since you the best Sonic fan artist hands down no contest) does Sonamy/Shadora (or any of your characters kn your Au) have any tats or piercings anywhere? If so, what and where? (If the fur doesn't get in the way for them lol) (Votes go to Shadow being a tatted and pierced edgelord cuz that would be so 🔥🔥🔥👌👌👌😍🤩😍🤩🤩😍🥵🥵🤤🤤🤌🤌🤌)
A: You are just so sweet, thank you! You know I'm very pro tats and I love seeing what people think the different Sonic characters would get. For my AU, I only have two (technically three) characters depicted with tattoos. Amy's dad Clay Rose has two tattoos on his bicep: A heart with his wife's name in it, and then a matching little heart with Amy's name in it. Adult Knuckles has a simple "M.E." tattooed on his bicep. It's a reference to Knuckles' theme and also his dedication to the Master Emerald. Lastly, I have the human version of Cinder (but only the human version) with forearm sleeves that continue down his hands. So far those are the only characters I have with tattoos. As far as piercings, most of my characters have ear piercings but they don't often wear earrings. Blitz and Lulu are the only characters who always wears earrings. I could see Shadow getting at least an ear pierced, but I headcanon that with his rapid healing that it would almost instantly close if he didn't actively wear a piercing at the time.
Anon asked: I totally hope that Piper will have a girlfriend! Do you see her more with a girl or a boy?
A: I currently see PIper as demiromantic. She is currently not interested in anyone romantically or physically, and I don't want to diminish that part of her identity by saying 'Oh but she'll eventually end up with __." Of course, a headcanon is whatever you want so if you personally ship her with a woman that's cool with me!
Anon asked: Hey evay, i was looking at this old info of Amy, and It says that she wans't always at home, did Aurora had any issue with that? Did some part of her childhood she could say that she had mother issues? (Sorry if you can't understand, my english it's terrible 💀)
A: Your English is excellent! I wouldn't go so far as to say Aurora had mother issues. Amy wasn't completely absent from Aurora's youth, she was just working a lot so she wasn't constantly at home the way Sonic was. It would have made things a little awkward/emotional at times because that naturally made Aurora favor Sonic a little more when she was younger, but that also made the times she did have with Amy all the more special. Aurora never thought to herself "My mom has abandoned me because she's never home," it was more of a "Work is stupid and being grown up is stupid because it means Mom can't stay home and play with me all day." Aurora and Amy grow a lot closer as Aurora gets older and better understands the meaning of responsibilities and commitment.
Anon asked: Hi hi! I'm kinda new in the Sonic fandom and I've seen lots of your comics and content so far (That are great!) The shadora refs of their kids are just so *chef kiss*, when I looked at it, I told myself: "Damn, I wanna make ref sheets this great for my characters too!" I love the fact that you called them an horde! xD And the angst with Shadow's immortality must be amazing! Uh I'm getting out of the subject ^^'' I wanted to ask you if you planned or did anything with Silver? I don't think I saw anything from you with him And another question, if no one asked this before, are any of Shadora's kiddos immortal too? Or maybe they're "half immortal"? Like, they live longer than everyone else but still has a shorter lifespan than their dad I love your work! Keep going! ^^ And have a wonderful day :D
A: Wow, that's so kind of you to say! Thank you so much! I hope you do make ref sheets for your characters :) I haven't planned anything with Silver for my AU yet. To be honest, I don't know his character very well and I try my best to always keep the original characters in-character, so that's why I haven't done anything with him yet. But I recently purchased the volumes of IDW comics and I'm hoping to understand him better and then I will be more confident writing him! Secondly, none of the Shadora horde are immortal. They have stronger immune systems so they can heal faster and are less likely to get sick than the average Mobian, but they are still mortal and still age at a normal rate. Thank you for the questions and compliments!
Anon asked: I love the Shadora babies sm !! My question is..What excactly happend in the fight between Diamond and Cinder? Love your art btw<3
A: Thank you so much! I need to make a comic about it. When they were young they were all exploring the different zones and Cinder was really struggling with some of the obstacles so he was already getting quite aggravated. Diamond noticed this and offered to help because some problems are better solved as a team, and Cinder immediately gets pissed and tells her to buzz off. She gets upset that he snaps at her, and there's some escalation between the two and finally Cinder blows up at her (literally). He immediately regrets it as he did not mean to hurt her, but the damage is already done.
degux asked: What would happen if Metal Sonic ( somehow :v ) met CC ?
A: Hmm. Well, even though Metal Sonic is based on Sonic, I love stories that involve him having an identity crisis and ultimately deciding that he's not just going to be a clone. He's his own entity, right? They're alike, but they're not the same. I don't know where he'd be on that self journey by the time he meets CC, but she'd definitely see him as his own person, not as a Sonic copy. But likely he'd still be an antagonist, so they'd end up having to battle lol
milangakokoros asked: does team chaotix exist in the Aurora universe? and have they interacted with the Rose family?
A: They definitely exist in my AU, but I haven't completely decided what their roles are yet. I can see Vector becoming Cream's stepdad (I'm not passionate about the VanillaXVector ship but I know it's practically canon), and then that leads me down a rabbit hole (pun intended) of how does that affect the dynamics of Team Chaotix? I have some rough ideas but I need to spend more time on it.
Anon asked: Have you thought about introducing Vector or Team chaotix in your sonamy and Aurora comics? :0 I picture him being "Uncle Stanley Pines" from Aurora and the Hyena Boys.
A: I had to add this question immediately after because your idea of Grunkle Stan made me laugh out loud! Oh my gosh I love that!
Anon asked: hola, tengo una pregunta. Hace mucho que no veia tu contenido y veo que estas de vuelta me alegro! :) Mi pregunta es aurora no tenia un hermano? Si no mal recuerdo creo que tenia uno y de ser asi el caso, el también tendria sus propias aventuras? Lo poco que recuerdo de el es que estaba en un dibujo tuyo de navidad con toda la familia sonamy junta y otro donde aurora lo abraza. Me gustaría saber que fue de el
A: ¡Gracias! The character you're referring to was an OC made by my friend Nana, a Sonamy fankid named Spazz. I sometimes drew him interacting with Aurora because my friend Nana and I just liked to draw our characters interacting, but Spazz is not a part of my AU. Nana is no longer on tumblr so that's why there aren't any Spazz art/comics anymore.
Anon asked: Does Sonic’s Uncle Chuck exist in your AU?
A: No I don't include the Archie comics or characters at all
⚠‼️THIS QUESTION MIGHT BE TRIGGERING. SKIP IF YOU NEED TO. TW: INFERTILITY ‼️⚠ Anon asked: Hi e-vay! I’ve recently re-read your ‘Boom Baby’ comic & was wonderin’ - especially with all their attempts - did Sonic or Amy, either one, stuggle with infertility? If so, did they ever have any doubts of that “I’m pregnant” moment ever happening?
A: Infertility is a very real issue that many people (including those very close in my life) deal with. Although I do think it's very important for people to be able to see their experiences reflected in the media they consume to help them remember that they aren't alone in their experience, this is not something I wanted Sonic and Amy to have to deal with for Boom!Baby. The chapter where Sonic references making multiple attempts during a certain window of time was not meant to imply that they were struggling with infertility. It was instead supposed to show that now that they've both decided they want a child, Amy doesn't want to take any chances to make sure it happens lol. TMI - Even without fertility issues, getting pregnant is not always guaranteed so it can take a lot of planning and timing (and frankly, luck) to be successful. Super TMI - I headcanon that Sonic and Amy are already intimate A LOT so now that they're trying for a baby it's above and beyond and that's why Sonic is tired in that chapter lol
fireghost234 asked: Hi this is my first time asking you!!!, does sonic in your AU still have his swordfighting skills from black knight?
A: Thank you for the question! Personally I don't think he'd retain those skills after that experience, so no that's not a trait he has in my AU anyway.
madysonisbae19 asked: Okay so I’m listing to the Encanto soundtrack and when Surface Pressure came on tell me why I instantly thought of Diamond singing this song when she is down about being physically the strongest out of her family.
A: That song (and character) is so her! Thank you for pointing that out to me, I'm going to associate that with her now 🥰
Anon asked: Did Aurora actually got bullied in school?
A: In my stories Mobians don't really go to "school," but yes she was bullied by a group of other kids when she was little. I have a script for a comic for this, I just haven't drawn it yet.
Anon asked: I think I'm pretty sure you based post-Boom to make your comics, but do you think Prime to becanon to your comic continuity too?
A: My AU is a fluid situation haha It adapts as more Sonic content comes out and I get to pick what I want to include. That's what makes AUs fun! Hmmm, ultimately I'm going to say no, I don't think Prime is canon to my stories.
Anon asked: Hi e-vay! Just wanted to ask, will we ever see what happened with Sonic and Amy's wedding in your AU? We've seen Amy's pregnancy with Aurora and their first date, so it seems like another natural relationship landmark to make a shenanigans-filled story out of! Also, keeping on the Sonamy wedding topic, what's their guestlist look like? Are there any surprises in who's getting an invite and who isn't?
A: I definitely have a sonamy wedding comic in the works :) It's going to be multi-chaptered. I would love to answer your other questions but I don't want to spoil the surprise! 😜
SHIPPING ASKS
Anon asked: Not to sound weird or anything, but does Sonic have a go to move that seduces Amy? 💙🩷
A: He simply ✨exists✨
Anon asked: Does Sonic ever dream about Amy?
A: I mean, I think so 😉
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Anon asked: Hi e-vay! I had a question for you that I've been wanting to know about. If you read Harry Potter or watch the movies, don't you think that Harry and Ginny's relationship is similar to Sonic and Amy? I know this is kind of random, but it's like Harry is the hero, and Ginny was always in love with him, but their relationship slowly developed throughout the books, especially the 6th book. And that's how Sonic and Amy have been throughout the years
A: Hello! I have seen the movies and I read some of the books, but I don't know the series all that well. Actually, I don't remember Ginny being in the movies much at all, so I was a little confused when she and Harry ended up together. Maybe there was more to it in the books that I just never read. So if I'm going solely based on the movies I've seen, I can't say that I see the correlation. But that's not to say you're wrong in thinking that :)
aurorathehedge6 asked: What's your favorite Sonamy art that you made?
A: Definitely My Gal, specifically the last couple of chapters. I put my whole heart into that story and I'm pretty proud of it.
essycogany asked: Hi! First, I want to say that I LOVE your work! You’re so talented and I couldn’t appreciate your stuff enough. How are you feeling about the new Sonamy material from this and last year? Things are really starting to become more obvious as the years go on. Hope you’re doing well. 💖
A: Thank you so much! I hope you're doing well too :) UGH!!! 😩💙💖💙💖💙💖 We have been fed SO WELL lately! I can't believe it, what a time to be alive! I'm still sure they won't ever make it canon, but I love the sweet little snippets we get and just how much Sonic and Amy's relationship has evolved over the years to be so much closer. And I giggle like a little maniac every time they're on screen together or they're side by side in marketing. It makes my heart SING!
Anon asked: Are you still a fan of of the OT3 hedgies (Sonamyshad) and are still a fan of shadamy? Will we see any dribbles about them. Your art is so pretty 😍🤩 I just wanna see more 🤣😅 sorry if that embarrassing!
A: That's not embarrassing, that's crazy kind of you to say! Thank you! Yes I do still adore those ships and need to draw them more. It just seems every time I go to draw something my hand gets possessed by the ✨spirit of sonamy✨😂 I promise I'll draw the others at some point!
Anon asked: Are there any ships that you just… don’t get? Not dislike or hate or anything, just one that you fully don’t understand the appeal for…? Cause Metal Sonic and Amy is a ship that kinda baffles me. Like most Amy ships have some appeal. Sonic is obvious, you’re Ms. Sonamy after all. But Shads, Silver, Blaze, and even Surge have fun dynamics, and Metal doesn’t really strike me as a character that is able to be shipped effectively… Thoughts?
A: There definitely are ships that I don't understand. But if I don't understand or don't like a ship (or fan theories, or whatever), I'd rather just not talk about them. I used to indulge in that style of arguing discussion when I was a kid but I don't do that kind of stuff anymore. If I don't get something I just say "That's not for me" and move along. I do support the MetAmy ship myself but it's not at the top of my ship list (lol). I like it because Metal Sonic is based on Sonic, and if they're meant to be similar and I believe that Sonic does care about Amy, then that logic would tell me that Metal cares about Amy, too. And even though Metal is a villain, Amy does care about his well being (just like she cares about everyone's well being). Metal Sonic is also one of the main reasons Amy and Sonic met in the first place, so I think she holds a special place in her heart for him, even if it's not 100% romantic. That's my reasoning, but I don't want or expect you to change your opinion.
Anon asked: Will tails and CC ever get married?
A: Whoa now, I've never even drawn them on an official date yet ;)
Anon asked: What tv shows would sonic and amy watch together?
A: I think a lot of feel-good comedies like Brooklyn 99, Bob's Burgers, Modern Family and Schitt's Creek.
*The next question is a Shadora Ask. Skip if you don’t like Shadora*
Anon asked: What would Shadow and Aurora’s fave show be?
A: They don't have similar tastes in shows, but I could see them both enjoying Only Murders in the Building and cut throat competition cooking shows like Hell's Kitchen.
*The next question is a Shadora Ask. Skip if you don’t like Shadora
gray3754 asked: How old would Amy and Sonic be when Aurora started to date shadow
A: I don't really do exact ages, but Sonic and Amy have Aurora roughly when they're in their mid-to-late 20s. So they would be in their mid-to-late 40s when Aurora and Shadow first meet.
*The next question is a Shadora Ask. Skip if you don’t like Shadora
aurorathehedge6 asked: What's your favorite Shadora art that you made? Also have Sonic, Amy, Aurora, and Shadow ever been on a double date?
A: Hmm, I think my fav Shadora art is the comic where Shadow and Aurora discuss her "wings" (back quills). It started out as just a fluffy piece but I think it really set the tone for their relationship in my stories. As far as a double date -- I could see them trying a double date early on when Shadow first states his intention to date Aurora, but it doesn't go well. Years later when Sonic is more accepting of their relationship I could see them occasionally going out for lunch/dinner together instead of just their weekly family dinners at home.
*The next question is a Shadora Ask. Skip if you don’t like Shadora
ticciticcicendy asked: I don't know if you do this question but has any of Aurora and shadows kids ever walked in on them?
A: Hahaha, Shadow is too savvy for that! He had the Shadora house built to essentially be a fortress, which also means the primary bedroom is practically a vault. Ain't nobody getting in there unexpectedly hahaha
*The next question is a Shadora Ask. Skip if you don’t like Shadora
lazypatrolpizzapersona asked: One question, is Aurora jealous when Shadow is with these girls?
A: I'm not sure what girls you are referring to? But Aurora is not a very jealous type.
*The next question is a Shadora Ask. Skip if you don’t like Shadora
zero-aurion asked: Quick question, in terms of lap pillows, for Tails and CC and Shadow and Aurora, who rests their head on the others lap more?
A: CC doesn't need to rest, but Tails is so soft that she just loves to lay against him so she'd definitely use him for a lap pillow more. BONUS POINTS for using his tails as a shawl around her shoulders! Shadow is more likely to rest his head in Aurora's lap. The way she strokes his quills is very soothing and makes him feel content. She also has thick thighs so very, very comfy for lap pillows!
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if-confessions · 11 months
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Author here: my confession is i'm lying. My demoless intro blew up and i kinda can't be asked to write it anymore. I keep posting screenshots of snippets but i'm never gonna release anything. I feel bad cause there are so many asks but i seriously don't have an ounce of care. I love my cast and my story but it’s so hard to write. I've seen a lot of accounts with a lot of hype and asks but no demos so i don't feel terrible and we authors don't owe anyone content anyway. I know it's bad but i love getting sent questions and notes cause people are so interested and it's so fun to post new ideas. Once my hype dies i'll probably just create a new one cause i'm already writing a synopsis for this new story and it's so good.
Hi Anon,
I'm going to get real with you, buddy. I had to write this message multiple times because I ended up being a bit too... angry. And as much as I absolutely don't vibe with this whole position, it would still not be fair to you to get the end of my frustration with it.
So I am trying again, (more) calmly.
I honestly have been wondering if you are maybe lying to yourself when you said you can't be asked to continue your project. You seem to be very enthusiastic about the story and the characters (or you wouldn't be sharing snippets or answer asks about it. What jumped at me was: my demoless intro blew up.
I've answered a lot of asks in the past about creators worried about not being enough because their project didn't get enough attention, but very little when it came to the ones blowing up overnight. But just because your intro blows up, doesn't mean you don't struggle with all of this.
So I have a few questions for you:
Are you having this blasé attitude about your project and giving up because of the heightened expectations of having blown up?
Then you might find getting a break from interaction/the social aspect to help. Or maybe interacting with other creators outside of Tumblr and discuss experiences and what to do when the motivation is gone or it becomes to overwhelming (hint: it's often a break).
Another option is to set expectations about the project. And I mean yours. Creating a grandiose story spanning books and dozens of chapters each and a cast as long as your arm can be incredibly fun, but it might not feasible, and often becomes overwhelming. Maybe take a look at your story and chop it down to manageable bites or remove parts that don't fit.
Do you worry if you actually post it, people will not vibe with it?
In this case, consider alpha/beta testing, where you share more about the story to a select few and request feedback. Joining a writer's group or a smaller IF server to discuss or brainstorm or get feedback on ideas is also a nice way of getting confidence about what you are doing. Some community have even some sort of writer's circle, where multiple people get together and write for an hour or two.
Are you afraid you will be found out as not being a good creator (a.k.a. the imposter syndrome)?
We all start somewhere, and that somewhere is very often bad. Don't sweat it. The good news tho, is that it can't get worse. The more you write, the better you get. (but you have to write first)
Do you want a point of reference? Try reading the first version of my first game. It is cringy as hell, there are a lot of grammar and syntax mistakes... I hate it so much, so I made it public to everyone. Go roast me about it, then go read the much better version (or the other way around.
Do you feel like you are lacking confidence in your ability to finish the project because your experience with the medium is minimal, making it overwhelming?
Pause the project for a bit, and write a tiny game (not more then 1k). Join game jams to test some stuff out. Mess around with the program and see what can be done.
Did your struggle with writing come from realising the amount of work required to make it happen?
Time to break it down in smaller pieces, until it feels doable. Then take one piece at a time. And there is no timeline you need to keep...
Do you feel like you can't do this by yourself and would feel more confident continuing the project if you had more direct support?
Try to reach out to other people and see if someone would be interested in helping you make this project a reality. I've seen many projects being done in duo or trio (Harcourt, Lady Thalia...). It will be a different dynamic, but can be very fulfilling.
Are the characteristics of the IF medium something you can't see working? Does the story not work when variation is added? Is there only one path that works for you?
Maybe, IF is not the medium for this project (or for you). That is also fine!
Not everything will work with IF (hell, even inside the IF sphere, some stories fits better the parser-type or the choice-based one, or the hyperlinks one). Maybe the project should become a novel, or a poem collection, or be turned into a comic/webtoon.
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Before you go on to make another intro post with your new idea on the hope that it will blow up so you can just talk about it and bounce when it becomes too difficult, maybe ask yourself:
why you entered this community in the first place,
why you wanted to try your hand at making IF too,
why this story stuck to you so much you wanted to share it with everyone,
what made the story fun in the first place,
what was the point where the fun in writing actually stopped,
whether you want to abandon a story you seem so passionate about...
Interactive Fiction is an awesome medium, and it's a shame to take it for granted...
Or you can go ahead and post that new idea of yours, continuing to blatantly lie to people to get attention rather than enjoying the medium and the craft for what they are, and toy with people essentially...
I might have been reaching there about the lying to yourself, or the fact that blowing up affected your love for creation more than what you message conveyed...
... and you might actually not give a shit at all about doing anything but throwing ideas at the wall, ignoring the rich and incredible history of Interactive Fiction and its captivating evolution (still happening today), neglecting the vibrant community just to con people for notes and attention that are insignificant in real life, lying to everyone just for the lolz...
You do you boo...
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Little reminder for people reading this: Don't send hate to people posting an intro post without a demo assuming they are like this anon. It would really suck if we end up gatekeeping a fun hobby because of one bad apple.
[old comments in tags: I'm sorry but I really don't like liars that do it for the lolz it's not cute gosh i tried to tone done the judgement on this really hard I honestly hope anon is just overwhelmed because they got more attention than they thought they would in the first place /]
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astrofiish · 2 months
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hmm I wonder who I should ask you about /silly I am genuinely curious on your Barnham characterization thoughts
Pick a character I am likely to have Feelings/Opinions about and I will give and explain the top five ideas/concepts/etc that I believe are essential to accurately depicting them.
HEHEHEHEHE ZACH BARNNNN I love that guy so much. Hes been through so much shit and hes being so so so gaslighted but he genuinely thinks hes doing the right thing. Idk hes so so compelling to me I really do wish that his story was actually explored more in game- he has a character arc of someone who learns to go against the norm and figures out that what he is doing is not good and incredibly immoral, but because they bench him for case 4, he really doesn't have the resolution that I feel should have been given to his character.
1. One of the top concepts that I feel is essential to depicting this guy (especially post-PLvsPW) is regarding how he perceives his status as a person. Hes an authoritative figure (even though hes left out of the Storyteller and Eves conversations, he's still a prosecutor and has power over the townspeople) and hes also famous in his own special Barnham Way TM (the townspeople fucking love him), but regardless of his fame hes very much "I do this for the whole town, instead of doing things for his own personal gain". Post Case 3 Barnham is fascinating to me because hes taking down the wall of his perceived status and doubting the system that hes very much a cog in the machine with, but I also love really exploring how that effects his relationships with the townspeople and how he thinks of himself. Like- for example, I feel that he would have a shit ton of imposter syndrome, especially because for so long he was considered a celebrity and he was held in very high importance. Post case 3 Barnham would be an overthinker, whos morals and ideas are crashing into each other SO so frequently, giving him a sort of identity crisis (which also continues into post-PLvsPW Barnham's story, especially after Labrelum's experiments are shut down)
THEREFORE I feel that a crucial part of post-PLvsPW Zacharias Barnham is understanding the consequences of doing the work to deconstruct the monarchy that he's been under and a part of for all of these years. Now that he knows that he's been left out of SO many conversations with Eve and The Storyteller, as well as also being mind wiped like his fellow civilians, he deserves to be really really fucking angry. And ofc all Labryinthian civilians deserve to be fucking angry at the Storyteller, but I wouldn't be surprised if Barnham took it VERY personally, especially because his judgements that he was handing down to people was ALSO a cog in the machine that he did not understand to the extent that he should have. To be fair, I do feel like if he did know about what was actually going on, and wasn't mindwiped, he would have said fuck this shit im out a long time ago.
I do feel like post PLvsPW he would feel more of an obligation to stay, because everyone is getting their memories back after such a long time of not having them, and they all need a lot of support. Zach Barn, although he is an authoritative figure in his own special way, would definitely want to help with getting the townspeople back on their feet. However, I do very much headcanon that he does eventually leave several years in the future- he no longer has the authority that he had before, and honestly I dont think the connections he had with the townspeople (before and after) were incredibly strong given that he was perceived both with status as well as with a celebrity like guise. Sure, he stays in Labryinthia for a year after, but I do feel that he does eventually gets out of Labryinthia (it takes quite a while for him to do so, however. I'll talk about that later)
2. This man is so fucking uncultured. Labryinthian Culture is such a fascinating subset of English culture, especially given that they're living in a strange microcosm of British culture, which is, at the same time, entirely separate. Theres so many people from so many different places being put into this program, and of course we dont know the substats of how many people from how many different places are IN labryinthia, but based on accents, etc, they seem to be mostly British/French. However, BECAUSE of that, and also because they're being very mind wiped, Zacharias doesn't know shit about the outside world. This man has to be introduced to what English politics is, what different countries are, how different people interact with each other, etc. given that they have been all gaslighted that Labryinthia is its own separate thing and that there is NOTHING outside of the wall. I would also consider him really shit in regards to certain celebrities or historical figures- he wouldn't know, for example, who the Prime Minister is or who *insert famous singers are*, and would have to be told. Like I do think he GAINS knowledge about what things are over time, but learning about things and culture outside Labryinthia would be a learning curve for him.
I also love to HC that over time he loses his stupid lil knight "accent" (/affectionate) (also idk if its an accent but its certainly the knight like sentence structure) post-PLvsPW if he ever moves to outside Labryinthia, but when hes either stressed or angry it comes out. (but that's a smaller lil headcanon)
3. He has had a REALLY SHIT EDUCATION from this lady who has HORRIBLE ideas and genuinely all of her advice is shit. Therefore, I feel that whenever he goes back to average society, he'll have problems with mundane things that most other people wouldn't have problems with. I've always headcanoned that his sister is Rouge and that he was brought in with his sister because both of them were orphans of some way shape or form, and therefore (if Barnham was a baby), he would have all of his reading and writing skills taught by a lady that (arguably) does not know what shes doing (he also mentions that he was taught by her in the special episodes, but I also feel that its important to mention how young Barnham was when he moved to Labryinthia.) I also think that Arthur would also make the learning curriculum teach him how to specifically do things in a formal knight-like manner, which would also fuck up his vocabulary to a degree. Educationally, Barnham has soooo much to learn, simply just because of the way he grew up.
4. Also, on another side of this, I feel that he would get really really excited (and also really really nervous) when traveling. I dont feel that hes a guy that likes being outside of his comfort bubble (and for example, he went outside of his bubble when going against the storyteller) but once he gets his metaphorical feet wet into traveling his mind would be BLOWN with how much there is in the world. Hes been stuck in his lil Labryinthian-sized sphere for all of his life, and outside of that he really doesn't know much. The world is an intimidating thing, but also something that (when he learns and gets comfortable with it) he would be fascinated to learn more about. It'll take several years until he's at the point where he can travel, simply because he would be stressed out about the idea of going out of his social sphere. But eventually he'd get there!
5. He really needs therapy. This guy needs. so much therapy. Theres so much gaslighting that has gone on in his life and he needs so so much help and support post Labryinthia because (IMO) the feeling of your whole world falling apart at the seams (especially BECAUSE he decided to poke and prod at the idea that the Storyteller is a bad man) is not something that anyone should experience. Thankfully he has the support of some of his friends, and he definitely has his sister to talk to and get to know again but It'll definitely be a journey for him.
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ANYWAYS IVE RAMBLED ENOUGH I hope this makes any lick of sense (Im writing this somewhat quickly- that last point wasn't as good but you have a whole essay to read so I'll let you read all of that). Most of this is all post plvspw stuff cause I find post plvspw barnham FASCINATING and I wanna go into that a lot more in the future- Before PLvsPW Barnham feels so consistent, but post PLvsPW is a whole ball of Barnham trying to figure out his whole life and his whole personality and status all over again from the beginnning.
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wetcatspellcaster · 27 days
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hello! i have a question about finding time to write because i have an idea for an astarion fic but it's my first year in my ph.d. program and i am DROWNING IN WORK AND READINGS. how did you do this AND work on your dissertation? (also congrats on that!!! that's massive!!!)
hello, anon, congratulations to YOU on your phd programme!! many felicitations on the continuing of your education.
I took a while to reply to this, bc I'm not sure if I'm the best person to ask this question. my personal answer is 'hyperfixate on the dopamine source so, so hard until you burnout, and then feel guilty bc you haven't updated in ages (I'm currently one week since an update), and then let that guilt become your new motivator! :D'
...which doesn't seem very healthy. and definitely impacts my ability to answer the question in a way that is actually helpful.
so i don't have an answer, but my honest pieces of advice are below the cut.
idk what kinda PhD you are doing, but if it's a humanities, in my experience, there are dips and lulls. first year is always a bit hectic bc the imposter syndrome is high and you feel like you're treading water to stay afloat. but things will get so much easier, and will in fact go through peaks and troughs! in 2nd and 3rd year, i had months without any work at all. wait for a trough to do some drafting. if you're currently really struggling, then just sketch as detailed an outline as you can in a document when the idea is fresh, and then you can return to it in dribs and drabs when you have a spare moment. [if you're a scientist, apologies in advance, you have a much harder life than me!] .
this one isn't very burnout friendly, but i am introverted and treat writing fic like a hobby for when i have no social battery. then my fic battery runs out, i go be social. yes, this kinda just spreads the burnout around. yes, i also know writing is still work! but it doesn't feel like it, to me. so I guess make your fic idea as much about fun, and as least about work, as possible. make it into the catnip that will make you come back to it. treat it as an escape rather than another magnum opus, or god forbid, a second dissertation. .
this also applies to PhD work - again, if you are a humanities student, you'll inevitably hit a writing block in your thesis. these are normal, and though they feel like the worst thing at the time, they will inevitably shift. thesis writing block when i was often very productive with fic, bc my thesis wasn't taking up my brain power and/or taking time away from my thesis was exactly what i needed. If you're burned out on the thesis, maybe spend some time just playing around in your brain for a bit. my friend told me about how she used fic as a way to build 'mastery' - when she was depressed or feeling down about her thesis, she would do something she knew she was good at (fic), and this would lift her mood. in the self critical world of academia, sometimes a little fic positivity goes a long way (at least for me, but that's bc both my supervisors are very very harsh, the exact opposite of the AO3 comment box). .
find an update schedule that works for you. i used to write a whole fic before i published any of it, but that's become more untenable as my wordcounts get bigger and i need motivation. now, comments fuel me when i'm drafting. so honestly, if you think posting will add pressure, don't post. write it just for you. if you think posting is the only thing that will keep the idea alive, do it and then don't feel guilt if there's a large gap in updates. people will still read it when it eventually goes up! :)
Honestly, I don't really have an answer. I wrote a lot these last few months bc I was feeling very depressed with the endgame of my thesis, and writing distracted me and made me feel better. I try to keep two nights a week free for fic, but that works for me bc I'm an introvert who lives alone. I don't think you can force it, but what I can tell you is that the PhD does get much, much easier (and that first year is also a perfectly legit time to faff around a bit and commit some time theft if you want - at least in the humanities, bc you'll still have so much time in your project).
I'm sorry I don't have a clear answer! Fic is important to me, so I make time for it, sometimes to my own detriment. If your PhD is what is important to you rn, fic can wait! Similarly, if you want to take some time away from that treading water, maybe microdose an hour or so of fic to start building mastery :) xx
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coffeedrgn87 · 6 months
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Hai. I just wanted to say that LPK has ruined me for almost every other BDSM story. Now when I read any, I'm like "Where's the enthusiastic consent? Where are the loving and frequent check-ins with your sub? Where is the scene where you discuss whether this is something both of you want?" And I'm including original stories in the list too. There are very few stories that can satisfy me now. Even when the sex scenes are hot, the lack of a connection between the Dom and sub puts me off. There's a Sterek BDSM fic that kind of lives up to LPK, but that's the only one I've found. You have completely ruined me. I hope you're happy, you ridiculously talented author.
Hi! 💜
Funny you should say this, because this is, in part, how LPK came to life. I wanted kinky reading that really emphasised consent, communication, and negotiation.
And sure, there are some relatively good works out there (now at least) but they generally feature a) a hetero relationship and b) some rich dude who happens to be a Dominant and a submissive gal who wants to try out kink or is in the community (to some degree) but falls head over heels in love with the Dominant which changes the whole dynamic and leads to much unnecessary drama (my personal opinion, also mainly reference original works here…fan works very often do have queer representation).
While there’s nothing wrong with that trope, it doesn’t represent me in any way. I want queerness with my kink, I want munches and shibari and tough conversations, and trust. I want things to reflect reality with a scene going well and emotions changing the dynamic midway.
There are many reasons why LPK is so dear to me, and you mentioned some, the enthusiastic consent, the conversations, but also life getting in the way and finding ways around that, growing together, etc.
I grew a lot with the writing of the story which I absolutely expected I would (or at least hoped for). Never in a million years did I think so many people would read it, comment on it, favourite it, etc. I’m not in any community where people might talk about different works so I don’t see it happening…which is why I, for the most part, still have imposter syndrome about it all, but I think that can be said for all my other writing too, not that any of it comes close to where LPK went.
I have this recurring dream of wanting to turn it into an original work, but I’m daunted by my own word count thus far and the amount of rework required so I keep thinking that the perfect idea will eventually come along.
I honestly cannot thank you enough for you very enthusiastic support and your kind message. It means the world to me, and I know I say this to everybody who takes the time to tell me what LPK means to them, but it’s not some spiel, I truly mean it. The verse has done something special to me, even though I don’t want to believe it. I fear believing it may lead to me getting a big head about it all, even though I’m certain that I could never…ugh, look at this, not only do I digress but I’m also rambling.
I won’t lie, there’ve been many times I’ve wanted to take the verse down, and not just it but all my works, as I don’t especially feel connected to the fandom world, but then I remember that I primarily write for myself and anyone who would like to come along for the ride is more than welcome. As for the rest, I try my best not to care and if I do, I run to yell at my therapist.
Okay, this response is getting out of hand. And it’s also starting to sound a lot like a journal entry rather than a response to a very lovely and sweet ask. Let me close with this: I hope to have an update for book 3 soon. I’ve a lovely idea floating about my head…
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zhongrin · 2 years
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◇ a/n ◇ we don't do imposter au here but we do have imposter syndrome :) honestly, relatable i also had to split this into two parts since it was getting too long, apologies!
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to say that you're shocked after being told that you were asleep for twenty whole days was an understatement.
you weren't that tired, were you? when you went to bed that night after somehow helping to rectify the disaster that has befallen inazuma, you felt… normal. well, a tad tired perhaps, like you just had a busy day at work. and when you woke up,  it felt like you managed to get a good eight hours of sleep.
eight hours…
how long was 'a day' in-game translated to earth time again?
"[name]~! you're awake!!"
you definitely weren't expecting anyone to be in the same room as you, especially since said room is located in a place that normal intruders would find hard to sneak in unnoticed. but you would have recognized that voice anywhere.
"what is it with you archons always appearing out of nowhere!"
barbatos blinks owlishly and gives you an innocent look, "oh… you're not happy to see me?"
"wha- i didn't say that," you grab onto your other arm and shift on your feet, "i was just surprised, is all. next time, can you just, i dunno, knock before entering a room?"
"okay!" he beams and steps closer to your side, angling his upper body diagonally in a cutesy manner as his arms settle behind his back, "sooo, i was thinking, since you look all healthy and energized now… how do you feel about going to a festival?"
"a… festival?"
"mmhm!"
"i mean, i would be more than happy to, but-"
"great! then, let's go! our ride is here!"
"what-"
you hear a commotion outside and instinctively release a yelp as the door towards the balcony of tenshukaku opens with a loud slam. a heavy gust of wind attacks the makeshift bedroom that beel had fashioned for you, knocking books and vases and various things off their places. it's so strong you had to close your eyes to prevent it from drying out, and you hear familiar laughter in your ears before a sense of weightlessness washes over your entire body. before you can fully understand what was happening, you come face to face with a familiar-looking dragon.
dvalin bows upon meeting your gaze, his low, rumbly voice echoing loudly even amidst the soldiers trying to make sense of the scene. his scales have somehow lost their luster, and you can see that a few of them are chipped off his back, but his magnificent form remains unchanging. in the corner of your eyes, you see beel appearing on the balcony, her weapon slowly dematerializing behind her as she shoots barbatos an unimpressed look.
"and so we meet again, eminent one."
"h-hi, dvalin… so, uh, i'm guessing you're our 'ride'?"
"it would be my honor to escort you to the city of freedom."
"right, right, away with the formality, let us depart at once before the jealous shogun decides to attack us for disturbing inazuma's peace!"
one playful giggle later, you feel the wind carry you onto the dragon's back. as soon as you're sitting securely right in front of the anemo archon, dvalin's wings flap away from tenshukaku. you barely catch a glimpse of baal bowing towards you before your whole vision shifts into the blue sky. it's a wonder how you're managing to not topple off the dragon's back when he's literally moving straight up into the clouds, but you suspect barbatos has something to do with it. besides, the arms wrapped around you are certainly helping with your anxiety of freefalling into the hard ground of inazuma.
"[name], are you having fun?"
the close proximity of his voice causes your cheeks to warm up, but you nod, not trusting that your voice would be audible over the loud wind whipping around the two of you as you soar through the sky at unimaginable speed.
"don't worry, you're safe with me! i am, afterall, the one who controls the wind!"
"r-right…"
barbatos hums a rather cheerful tune, and you smile as his voice enters your ears. it sounds nostalgic… no, very familiar… you think it sounds just like one of the soundtracks that play in mondstadt, but the absence of any instruments whatsoever makes you doubt yourself.
but how on earth would barbatos know of the songs playing in the background of the game itself?
in the first place, what is the game anyway? which one of the worlds you know is the actual reality? what's going to happen when you finish your 'task' here?
what if you're just crazy and this is all just a long fever dream?
"[name]? you're shivering, are you cold?"
"huh?! oh…. y-yeah, just a little…"
a flutter of cloth later, you find barbatos' cape wrapped over you, his bluish-green eyes shining with mirth as he takes a good look at your form in the new ensemble.
"ehe~ you look adorable wearing this! keep it on, okay? don't want you to catch a cold~"
can you catch a cold in the first place? you decide to not ask him such a trivial question, and instead choose the more important ones after voicing your gratitude.
"are we going to mondstadt?"
"ding ding ding! yes, we are!" the bard snaps his fingers and beams cheerfully at you, "with dvalin's speed, it shouldn't take us that long till we reach mondstadt! i assure you, you're going to have so much fun!!"
"is it really okay though? i mean…," you trail off, remembering the state of the city the last you saw it in-game. "is… is jean okay?"
"oh, the grand master? yes, she's very excited to meet you! she is one of the organizers who worked hard to make the festival runs smoothly! oh, of course, i helped too! praise me, praise me!"
you smile at the youthful enthusiasm in his eyes and decide to indulge him just a little, since he's acting rather adorably, "thank you, barbatos. you've worked hard."
"ehe~ aw, shucks, [name], you're making me feel embarrassed with such sincerity…"
a thought suddenly comes to your mind, and it seems like the topic should be properly discussed before you reach the city itself. therefore, you ask with a gentle tone, "um- should i call you venti or barbatos? i know you want to maintain your venti identity in front of the mondstadt population…"
"aha, you're as considerate as ever, [name]~ but don't worry, you can call me either way.... i suppose you didn't know this, but us archons had to take the lead in fighting back and protecting our people, lest what we've built so far be burnt to ashes along with ourselves."
the solemn expression on his face tells you of the grievances he has endured thus far. just as in the game, his love for mondstadt shines through at the direst times, and for some reason you feel... proud, of him. your hand subconsciously comes up to pat barbatos' head, and his look switches to one of wonder and surprise, before finally morphing to glee.
"hehe! well the good thing is that i can freely accompany you everywhere, since i clearly hold that privilege among others!"
"just don't get too drunk," you reprimand him.
"dear me, of course not! since you're here now, i'd rather be able to remember my time with you when i wake up tomorrow!"
venti's hum enters your ears once again before you can even comment on his exclamation. he looks so happy and content now, that you don't dare to pursue the topic further.
thankfully, you didn't have to stew in the uncomfortable fogginess inside your chest for too long. a few moments later, dvalin suddenly starts diving downwards into the clouds. your vision fills with white mists, the rapidly dropping altitude making an uncomfortable sensation within your stomach. eyes squeezed shut, you try to tell yourself to not vomit and focus on the cheery humming coming right from behind you.
"[name], are you okay?"
"just... a little nauseous...."
"i see. don't worry, we'll be there soon, okay?"
you nod, not trusting your throat to not gag while answering. your surroundings continue to sway like the way fervent turbulence shakes a whole airplane for what felt like years - until suddenly, it stops.
"here we are!"
the sunlight enters your eyes as they flutter open, blinding you momentarily and making tears gather on your underlines. it takes you a few blinks to readjust, and the familiar sight of mondstadt's walls greets you.
it's beautiful.
sure, if you look closer, you can see broken parts on the castle-like walls that surround the city. the greenery that used to thrive around the city's perimeters has dwindled into a mere fraction of what it used to be. the massive anemo archon statue is unpolished with several noticeable cracks running down its sides, and if you look closer, you can see countless other imperfections present throughout the place.
but still, it is beautiful.
because you can feel the joy and hope across the whole town. people are smiling and pointing excitedly toward the dragon, children jumping and trying to climb onto nearby crates so they can stand on higher ground. 
in the distance, you see familiar golden-colored wings, and your lips move before you can hold them back.
"aether, lumine!!"
the twins perk up in unison when they hear you shouting. with a similar set of giddy smiles, they wave back, and they wait until dvalin descends low enough to the same level of elevation as their floating forms, before giving you a short bow and a casual salute respectively.
"hello! great to finally get to meet this teyvat's creator."
"aether, you're supposed to be a little more… polite, i think."
"oh! er- sorry- i mean- ahem. my apologies…"
you shake your head, arms waving almost wildly to emphasize your words further, "no, please, casual's good- actually, i would like it if you don't act so formal! just call me [name], okay?"
"oh- really? well then, nice to meet you, [name]!"
"be polite, she said. don't look too eager, she said- ow! hey!"
you laugh at the siblings' interaction, so free and almost... endearing, compared to how they were in most of the game's storyline. unbeknownst to you, the tree leaves and dandelions sway towards peals of laughter spilling from your lips. nature stirs. the wind whistles through the blade of newly grown grasses. barbatos watches silently with a smile as his dominion starts to reinvigorate in your presence, slowly but surely.
"will you come to the festival, [name]? it'll be fun!" lumine asks, hope shining in her bright eyes.
aether nods and gestures towards the townspeople, who are all watching the interaction closely, "everyone's been looking forward to meeting you!"
the hope in all these nonplayable characters- no, people's eyes... you can't deny that it feels... burdensome. frightening, even.
have they heard of what you did in inazuma? were they expecting you to do some sort of miracle here, too? what if you disappoint them when you tell them you have no recollection of being this all-knowing, holy being that you were supposed to be? what if they find out that you have no idea how or what you're doing here, that you have neglected their wellbeing, that you hadn't even realized they were suffering? real people. actual people. breathing, living beings-
"it'll be okay."
you turn towards barbatos-
no...
before you stand a smiling bard, his two-toned eyes looking at you with a softness that seems to ease the storm swirling inside your chest.
"venti..."
"think of it as accompanying me to a festival! a date with mondstadt's number one bard- now, isn't that a privilege?"
a familiar boy. a familiar smile. a familiar sense of casualty and freedom.
just for this small moment, you felt seen as [name]. just [name], and not the primordial one, the creator, the sovereign, the almighty.
you inhale shakily and nod, giving him an appreciative smile. turning to the twins next, you repeat the gesture, adding with a steady voice, "i'll go. i want to meet everyone too."
"great!" if the two realized something from the exchange, they certainly are covering it up well. the both of them choose to simply smile and extend their hands, and you take each on either side. having nothing under your feet is a terrifying feeling, but you somehow manage to float down onto the stone pavements in a gentle motion, all thanks to the siblings and barbatos' help.
"alright, move on, people! the festival isn't going to run itself!" venti chides, and to your complete and utter shock, the people of mondstadt complies, laughing and giving one last wave or a bow in your direction before continuing on their paths - as if the whole spectacle hadn't happened in the first place.
lumine gives you an excited smile, stars twinkling in her eyes as she asks you in an inquisitive but still upbeat tone.
"so, [name], have you had breakfast?"
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shxtodxroki · 7 days
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Match-Up Exchange
This is part of an Obey Me match-up exchange done for @courtofmatchups for the exchange we arranged! Hi hi, thank you for agreeing to an exchange with me! I wrote this using second person for your OC that you sent the request in for, so when I say “you” I mean your OC! :D I hope you enjoy the match-up :>
I’d Match You With:
Simeon! :)
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Reasoning:
Honestly, I found that you and Simeon had quite a few similarities both in personalities and in hobbies/interests, but you also both had enough differences that your relationship would be a perfect balance of having your own interests/hobbies but also plenty of things to do together :) I also just thought he’d be the perfect partner for you based on your description of yourself as well as what you do and don’t like in a person
Headcanons About Your Relationship:
- First things first, I think he would find your hair really beautiful, and he loves helping you with it if/when you’ll allow him. He enjoys brushing through it and is so gentle to make sure he doesn’t cause you any pain, and he’s an expert at styling hair (because Simeon’s good at pretty much everything lol) so he loves to put it up for you if you’ll let him :>
- And he love love loves your aesthetic as well! He thinks the put-together, academia type style is so attractive in general and it looks especially good on you in his eyes, and blue and purple are both two of his favorite colors too <3 He’s constantly complimenting your style and wardrobe, he literally adores every outfit you put together
- He finds your tradition of baking a homemade cake on birthdays so endearing, the first time you baked one for him and he saw the silly message you had put on top he was literally close to tears hehe :] He’s very sentimental and he loves things like that, and I think he would take a photo of the cake on his phone (after a few minutes of figuring how to turn the flash off lol) before anyone’s allowed to dig into it. It’s become his favorite part of his birthday, getting to enjoy something you made for him and feeling loved by the person he cherishes most <3
- He would also adore your cooking. He has quite the sweet tooth between your baking and Luke’s, but he can’t deny that he absolutely loves a nice warm home-cooked meal as well, and he gets so excited whenever you cook your favorite South Asian foods :D He’s not picky so enjoys almost anything you make, and if you’re ever in the mood to try out a new recipe, he’s more than happy to be your guinea pig 
- He knows how much you adore stargazing, and so sometimes on clear nights, especially when he knows you’re having a hard time or going through something difficult, he’ll meet up with you and bring you out to a nice, clear field in the Devildom and just hold you as the two of you stargaze together. He’s happy to stay there with you as late as you’d like, he would spend the whole night out there if you asked him to just to see you smile <3
- Simeon knows how incredibly smart you are, and he regularly praises you for that fact and is the first to recognize your achievements, but he also notices when you’re struggling with feelings of burn-out or imposter syndrome. He’s incredibly perceptive especially when it comes to you, and he’s always the first to notice when you just feel like you’re at the end of your rope 
- And when that does happen, he'll pull you into his lap or wrap his arms around you from behind as you work, bringing you a cup of herbal tea or affogato and gently massaging your shoulders and back. He won’t force you to stop working, because he doesn’t want to undermine you, but if you even hint at wanting to take a break he’s quick to jump on it and convince you that you’re more than smart and good enough, and that you deserve a chance to rest and take care of yourself <3
- He also really isn’t a fan of unnecessary conflict. He can be sassy sometimes and is very particular about things that are important to him, but he never takes it too far, as he hates genuine arguments or hostility. And because of this, the two of you strive to communicate well and avoid those kinds of conflicts in your relationship, which makes your relationship so open and healthy <3 You two hardly ever fight and are usually quick to resolve disagreements just because argumentative environments quickly get overwhelming to both of you
- He can be a little bit cheesy at times, though, and he particularly loves getting you space-themed gifts for any major celebrations or holidays. Some of them are super cheesy and things you may not use often, but you can tell he thought of you the moment he saw space patterns and he looks so proud when he gives you all his gifts :> And sometimes he finds beautiful things to give to you, so it’s clear his heart is in the right place <3
- I think he’d also really enjoy reading with you <3 As a writer himself he loves a good piece of literature when he sees it, and you two will often either read the same book so you can converse about it when you get together, or one of you will read to the other while you cuddle or lay down together so that you can share your thoughts right in the moment :]
Second Choice:
I almost matched you with Barbatos, just because you two also have many similar interests, likes, and qualities. I think that a relationship between you two would also be really loving and you’d fit really well together, I just thought Simeon would be the better choice in the end since I figured he provides a good balance of similarities and differences to you.
Song For Your Relationship:
Labyrinth by Taylor Swift <3
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ahundredtimesover · 18 days
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boom boom pow 💥🤯😏 anon here again!! thanks for your thoughtful response to my ask 🥺🫶🏼 honestly, i could do a whole analysis on your characters bc they’re so complex and real. and speaking of your characters … I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY HATE ON OUR OC!!!😡 maybe it’s an elder sister thing but i feel for her bearing the weight of the world on her shoulders and trying to do right. at the end of the day, she doesn’t owe anyone anything but i completely understand why she’d feel indebted to the jeons. how do you pay back someone who essentially altered your path in life and continued to support you? she sacrificed so much of her time and health at the company … she deserves to finally pursue other things outside of the internal guilt/debt she has tied to the jeons.
try putting yourself in her shoes … she initially had no experience in the corporate world, got the internship, got mistreated by her first manager, then switched over as hoseok’s assistant. do you know how stressful it is to jump into your role let alone multiple new roles at your job (possibly with little training or mentors)? then jk comes into the picture and he was an awful boss to her initially and she experienced so much imposter syndrome despite being with the company for over 8 years! yet every time there was a change or hurdle, oc persevered and adapted. she is always in survival mode — being in that constant state is exhausting and demoralizing. she did what she had to in order to make it through the next day. so no, she is not weak or stupid. 😡
i can see how some people are frustrated at the current state of chap 11, but that’s the beauty of drama in writing. characters aren’t going to be perfect. it gives us readers the opportunity to marinate on the intricacies of fictional characters going through life similar or completely different to ours. thanks for creating that world and these special characters, mimi 💕
There you are! Hehe thank you for your lovely ask and response! And for defending our girl. Hope u were there during the ASDOAH OC hate train too huhu 🥺🥺 but anyway, it's so true! It's reasonable for IWYTS OC to be feeling that way, even if there was rly no debt to be paid. I mean, I feel indebted to someone who just recommended me for a job like... HAHA but yeah, the side of the Jeons is also important to take note here. We'll hear a bit more of that later on.
And her being on survival mode is true!! This is a woman who's trying to better her life and give back to her mother. She put her all in a job that she doesn't rly know much of who she is and what she likes outside of it. This is a constant thought she has, which contributes to her doubting JK bc even she doesn't know what she's like outside of a role she's had for years. Work is such a big part of our identity and she's just experiencing that even more strongly, especially since she also doesn't have any passions outside of it.
Also, when I write my characters, I make sure they're flawed. Not toxic, but flawed. They're not out here intentionally hurting people they care about or self-sabotaging for the sake of it. There's always something underneath, and they don't change in an instant.
And I also do hope that despite this being fanction, somehow you guys get to relate to them somehow in thought or feeling or approach. Some have shared that it's allowed them to reflect on themselves and that's amazing! Pls know that I see you! 🥹🥹
Thank you for this again. You're such a sweetheart and I look forward to hearing what you think about the next chapters! 💕💕
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alister312 · 1 year
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do i even have to ask..... the character ask with gregory. Yes. All of them (if you can think of something)
THERE ARE. 50 OF THESE THINGS.
i honest to god tried but its midnight and im tired so i didn't get to all of them. maybe i will another time. here's the ask game for anyone maybe wanting to see certain ones i skipped answered.
1. Canon I outright reject
There is so little canon to him to even embrace but uhhhhhh. Him being so shit at drawing a directional compass. He's a smart boy I don't think he would fuck up a compass as badly as he did on his map in the movie.
2. A canon or headcanon hill I will die on
He has led a rich boy life. While I do love the idea of his parents as professors, it makes so much more sense if they're wealthy social elites and he's got all these immense expectations placed on his shoulders from a young age. He develops crippling imposter syndrome and anxiety due to this but is extremely good at masking it and accomplishing things so no one knows (except ofc Christophe).
3. Obscure headcanon
Big big fan of the "Gregory can play an instrument" headcanon, though I don't always see it implemented. Like, yes he sings but what if he also played the piano or violin? I think he does.
4. Favorite line
I kinda really like his little "O-ho..." after meeting Stan for the first time. It's just a solid line read and further solidifies the headcanon of him as a wealthy upperclass kid. He's clearly uninterested but he's learned he can't say that... he's gotta cage it. Maintain a good public image.
5. Best personality trait
The fact that he's so quick to stand up for others and put himself on the line for them!! Whether it's acting as Wendy's voice against Garrison or volunteering to go to the dangerous USO show, Gregory is willing to put in the work! Doesn't fall into that rich kid cliche.
6. Worst personality trait
Of course it's the flipside of his best trait: the fact that he thinks he has to do everything for everyone. He's gonna exhaust himself as well as come across as extremely controlling!!
7. Age/height/weight headcanon
Age depends on what sort of AU I have going on... though by default I tend to image him in his late twenties, early thirties? Usually makes the most sense.
Gregory maxes out at about 5'10" to me (with Christophe being more 6'1", 2"). Gregory carries himself very well though and may even wear shoes with a bit of height, so people usually believe he's a bit taller than he actually is. He's never slouched once in his life and he won't start now.
Weight I'm honestly not sure? He's fit and slim (swimmer's body type), well balanced. I know that much.
8. Unpopular opinion about them
He would never grow his hair out long. I know the Les Mis stans love to give him a ponytail and the Hell/park fans love to give him a ponytail but I absolutely don't understand. I get him maybe caring deeply about his hair, but that's why he'd keep it short. Much easier to style and manage.
9. Scene that first made me love (or hate) the character
I don't remember but it was probably the line about everyone being rogues. It's just such an iconic line.
10. Best moment on screen (or in the book)
La Resistance. Howard McGillin killed it as his singing voice and the sequence in general is just an absolute highlight of the whole film.
11. Faceclaim for the role
I don't actually have one?? Like I have a very clear image in my mind whenever I draw him but I've never sat down and found real life people who look like that. I'd know if I saw though.
12. Crack headcanon
Gregory really likes fish. Not like in the sea exactly, but big tank aquariums. He knows all about proper tank and fish care and has a beautiful one in his office. His pride and joy.
13. Dumbest thing they’ve ever done
Trusting his bestest friend Christophe to Stan and crew was a pretty dumb move. Especially when he knew how unequipped they were to handle everything.
14. Most heroic moment
Again. La Resistance. He's so good at rallying and motivating people <3
15. Worst thing they’ve ever done
Trusting his bes-- nah. Joking. Worst thing he did was what he DIDN'T do, which is run off to go find Christophe after not seeing him with Stan.
16. Deepest darkest secret they won’t even admit to themselves
Not a secret so much as a fear that all his activism and fighting will be for nothing ultimately and he'll leave the world having not changed it for the better at all. He knows on some level he will, what with the friends he's made, but he wants to do something on a grander scale.
17. Quotes, songs, poems, etc. that I associate with them
A bunch definitely but I am trying so hard to get all these questions done so I cannot dwell.
18. What they’d go to see a therapist about
what WOULDN'T he see a therapist about it. um. parental expectation issues. aforementioned terrible imposter syndrome and anxiety. probably war trauma and mercenary trauma.
19. Vices/bad habits
He can go for days without sleep and very little food. He's just too focused on being busy to really bother. Christophe has had to force him to take a nap many times before.
20. Scars
Ella had such a gorgeous way of putting it in the one gregstophe fic she wrote, with Gregory having some thin snicks of scars from sword blades? Something like that. It's good. He doesn't have scars he can't hide. He's got a public image to maintain.
21. Drink of choice (not just alcoholic)
I do see him as a tea drinker. No sugar, maybe a splash of milk depending on the kind of tea. For alcohol, he's a gin drinker. I'm only projecting a little bit there.
22. Best physical feature
His smile! He was born with perfect teeth... never needed braces and brushes and flosses after every meal. Uses whitening stripes on a regular basis. Flashes it proudly whenever he meets someone new.
23. If they were a scented candle, what would they smell like?
Pamplemousse. It's got a bit of citrus kick but it's on the sweeter side. Also it just sounds the way I imagine he comes off as.
24. Most annoying habit
Spins pens/pencils between his fingers while he's trying to concentrate. The frustrating thing is he always does this perfectly, never drops it. It's just a thing he does and doesn't get it when others ask him how he does it.
25. 3 things they’d want to take with them if they were dropped off in the middle of nowhere
Water bottle with filtration in it, multitool, and his favorite book. He's practical.
26. What they would do if stuck in an elevator with Stan (looking at his keychain rn)
Wait patiently while Stan exhausted himself panicking about being stuck and doing stuff like trying the doors in vain. Once he was done, Gregory would call the fire marshal to come get them out. Stan would hate him for how nonplussed he was the whole time.
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yourpalghost · 3 months
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Sorry im chatty this morning but
Yall sometimes
Sometimes its SO hard to accept that I’m sick.
Like, I know a lot of it is shame and what not. Most of it is. Some of the problem is imposter syndrome and stuff of the likes. Downplaying my own issues, thinking im doing it for attention, etc.
Like. Im not important enough to be sick. I SHOULD be able to do XYZ. Oh its not THAT bad, people have it worse. Does that REALLY hurt or are you just faking? Afterall, thats also just normal.
So like, I have chronic fatigue so i’m always tired and since my baseline moved, i don’t notice how tired i am until its even worse and sometimes the worse isnt an extra sleepy feeling, its my body feeling heavy, brain fog, and often times being more prone to crying (i call this the sleepy weepies).
I have a connective tissue problems which lead to constant pain so my baseline moved so I don’t notice the pain until it gets worse but sometimes the “getting worse” is just feeling like im gonna vomit for no clear reason, feeling dizzy, or sweating all of a sudden(also brain fog but I usually attribute that to the fatigue). (Not to even mention the literal excruciating periods I have that literally leave me shaking and in so much extra pain Im regularly on the verge of blacking out AND STILL GO ABOUT LIFE. Thats its own additional bullshit)
And these two things are going on together at all times
Those questionnaires that are like “where is your base level of pain”? I cant answer them because the pains so constant my brains blocked it out so its at a zero. Its like how your brain blocks out your nose or the sound of your heart beat in your ears. How it sometimes blocks out the feeling of certain things against your skin and just registers it as pressure.
My finger is fucking shattered right now(its healing up well) but like aside from the initial SURPRISE of getting it fucking crushed, it “doesnt hurt”. Because i regularly experience worse pain than BREAKING A FUCKING BONE. The pain is at zero but i feel sick. If someone else who wasn’t an experiencer of chronic pain jumped in my body, they would be on the ground in agony. And like I know im IN pain because painkillers when I do use them jusy dull itfrom distracting to noticeable unless im fortunate enough to have been granted the big boy pain meds that make you silly. That shit? Works. When it wears off, my whole body aches and hurts and it sucks.
AND WHILE ALL OF THIS IS TRUE, I STILL FEEL LIKE IM NOT SICK ENOUGH TO BE CONSIDERED SICK.
I hurt all the time and im so fucking tired all the time but I just keep going because “its not that bad” and while I need various aids (knee braces, wrist braces, honestly a chair or scooter, migraine glasses, and more) I just dont use them or cant justify getting them.
God the way that a mobility aid would improve my quality of life is astounding and I recognize thats enough of a reason to then say “then I need it”, brain also wont let me! Because idk man? I just gotta “push through”.
I started this forlorn and now im mad. Mad at me and my situation and everything really. Im so fucking tired and in lots of pain and I just wish it didnt suck so hard. I just wish i wouldn’t push myself. Yall I have to have other people tell me “you dont want to go to the store, you want to go for a walk” so I dont push myself to be productive on my days off. I had to convince myself to stay home from classes today instead of pushing myself through it to then have to recover wednesday and not vane enough time to recover and then push myself through thursday and then have to push myself all the way back through again to start the damn cycle over next week.
Im working on accepting that im sick and its hard and we all have days where we relapse into “no im not im just xyz” but gdi. Im sick im sick im sick. I am disabled, my shits debilitating, its chronic im sick IM SICK I AM SICK
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lavenoon · 1 year
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💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?,
🌿how does creating make you feel?,
🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing
and 💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language - @clxckwork-sun-n-moon
After a nap (or, well, many naps in a trenchcoat) here I am!
💫 what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?
I think, maybe the very specific feral ones? Mentions of particular lines or scenes and actions surrounded by screaming tell me exactly which bits hit good, and I just melt when it's in the context of a live reading and there's so many of these "sub" comments! Honestly the most encouraging comments to get, they push away the imposter syndrome like no other!
🌿 how does creating make you feel?
Mhh, a whole mixed bag of things, I think! There's definitely the elation - I daydream a bunch, but it's different to have those lines on paper to reread again and again and again. It's fun, and it makes me giddy! Unfortunately, sometimes the imposter syndrome creeps up, and I hold my own writing to unreasonably high standards where I just feel like deleting everything and never looking at it again. And that's silly, because I know, and tell myself "this is literally only to have it on paper." It's to get it out, to have it there, not trapped inside my head where I'll forget them. It's so the details don't get lost! And I do that! So I try to focus on just the happy things, the fun it is, and try not to force myself to create on bad days that have unfortunately outweighed the good days for a while now. Wish it was only the fun, but alas, everything has a downside!
🎀 give yourself a compliment about your own writing
Ah, compliments. Shot myself in the foot again. Thinking about the dynamic swap though (uh, might or might not make it too tumblr, feeling still eehh about writing so had to keep it contained for now, sorry) I think I'm just, really open for a lot. Like, I don't hesitate to embrace new ideas and make them fit - that was what the swap was initially! I thought "there's no way Sun would be rude to his civilian landlord, as a civilian," and then it turned into a thought experiment how to make it work without getting out of character! It's a lot of fun so I see it as a good thing, and it also means I love seeing everyone else's sonas and interactions! I don't need to stick to one storyline, I love all of them! And I love those storylines whether they came from me or others! Which makes having a variable AU like this a lot more fun, hehe <3
💞 what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language -
Got this one thrice, so I'm gonna split it a lil and ramble about a different factor for each because yeah like I could ever settle for just one fghdjs
For one, it's the characters. I tend to write character driven stuff first and foremost - even my one fic (the tloz one, currently on hiatus, again disclaimer no one needs to read that it's a very different style, anyways) that has a very nice defined plot is so character driven that it's now at 110+K and I'm in the middle of Arc 2. Of five. It's too important for me that the characters get along, and communicate, and have fun together and time to breathe, That's why so many AU drabbles are just that! The entire "plot" of the AU (except for the Glamrock teases) is just them getting closer! That's the point! So the characters are definitely something I pay very close attention to, and do my best to get right!
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vantaesfairie · 8 months
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my reader feedback
these are all feedback from people who have gotten readings from me in the past, i have copied and pasted them from my inbox and dms. usernames have been blocked out partially for privacy.
*****etessvalentine asked:
Thanks so much for the reading! It resonates a lot, especially the imposter syndrome cause i don't even know how i'm here. Anyway have a great weekend!
*****summers asked:
Thank you for answering my question. I'm really glad to hear we can have a stable foundation together before any romance happens 👀 I also appreciate the energy you put into the reading. Tysm!! 💕
***07 asked:
Aww , I can’t believe I guessed right. I was afraid at first that I was just projecting, because I’m a hopeless romantic. I’m so excited and can���t wait to meet him. Thank you so much for this. You’re so great at this!!!!
*****ornianhoe asked:
Yeah indeed I feel more open than before with my emotions/feelings cuz I tend to self sabotage myself always haha 😃 and you're so on point in everything! Thank you love, I hope we can have the chance/opportunity to have more like this! I enjoyed it!
*****nn21-blog asked:
I’ve pretty much anticipated this kind of an answer, I guess I just keep getting cold feet lol. So, I can say your response resonates with what I’m feeling about the situation and the confirmation that it will go well really boosted me. Also, thank you for your opinions/advice, I’ll bear them in mind.
Thank you for your response and time, take care!
*****elyi asked:
I just saw my reading! I apologize for late reply. Everything you stated about me having a motherly energy and enjoying nature is very true, and the reading truly spoke to me. YESSSS, I'm have a graduation celebration soon ! Yes, I value and care about those who are close to me. I do think he doesn't like me romantically. I appreciate it; I had a great time reading this. very thankful
*****mochiq asked:
Thank you so much for such a great reading and taking the time and energy to do it! Appreciate it. Actually, I was shocked because I'm really introverted or more of a loner type and I've often wondered what would happen if I got into a committed relationship and they didn't respect my space. Since this is such a big deal to me, your mention of it actually made me sigh with relief lol. Yes, I too value my time and like to do things on my own, and sometimes my social battery runs out immediately so I prefer to take time away from ppl. I CANNOT TAKE IT, THIS IS SO SWEET! LIKE THE READING AS A WHOLE IS VERY NICE I'm incredibly excited to eventually meet this person. Thank you so much once again for this amazing reading, it resonated so much.
*****iadivina asked:
Feedback: thanks so much this resonated! Honestly the part about hiding emotions can be both 😅 but i will work on my part. And the teen part resonates too, it’s not so bright now but I’m glad that’s changing 🤍
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Feel free to ignore if this is too much, but I'm a system who. Refuses to accept it most of the time. So what are some ways that you,personally try to communicate/improve communication? Or as a host like... Let go and realize that it's Not The End Of The World if someone else fronts lol
hmm
putting this under the readmore for being sort of a heavy-ish topic, tw for i guess imposter syndrome about systemhood
honestly it’s still really hard for me. i’ve known for a long time and yet i don’t know if it’s ever going to get that much better. accepting that kind of thing can be really really hard, especially when i felt like i was lying to myself and others because there was No Way i was really a system. it’s a strange thing to come to terms with
considering how our memories and opinions work i believe we’re somewhat median as well, which made things all that much more difficult. in the end what helps me out is just trying to take note of the differences and keep them in mind.
for example my cohost has a whole life going on that’s not mine; he has different friends than me and a partner and all kinds of shit. of course once he started fronting all the time he ended up taking over part of my life, too, and conversely i made room for him, so i think for us the lines being blurred is almost always going to be a problem.
but he’s happy with his life, and it’s literally not hurting anyone to let him and other alters have their own things going on. and i know he’d be pissed and upset if i made the decision to be the only fronter (therefore taking away his relations and hobbies) just because i have imposter syndrome about his existence.
so my recommendation is let your headmates have their own things. maybe a tv show that’s their favorite, or a book series they like, or a blog to maintain, or a specific friend. then that thing is their excuse to front and they slowly get their own life.
also if you don’t have it i would strongly recommend pluralkit on discord, since it can help differentiate between you and allow multiple of you to talk at once
i hope any of that makes sense ^^
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plenary-indulgence · 1 year
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about my cringefail wolship
some more thoughts on cocowedja since i had a lot of work meetings today and that’s what i’m thinking about 90% of the time when i’m supposed to be paying attention in work meetings
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i don’t know how or when it started. actually that is a lie i know exactly how and when it started it was that ARR quest in coerthas after the waking sands massacre where you have to rescue wedge under a bridge and he bitches about being cold and hungry and afraid and my brain just went
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and so did coconeja’s and that was the moment he fell in love just a little bit; and unfortunately for him he’s really only gotten worse since then
it’s definitely 100% unrequited tho on account of me not being able to invest emotionally in a ship unless everyone involved is miserable but check it: a) coconeja’s low self-esteem will not allow him to believe anyone could actually be into him in that way; there’s nothing really special about him aside from the echo/blessing of light which is a thing that he considers “happened to him” not so much a thing that he deserves to have or has “earned” in any way b) he also sees it as a burden that he carries and does not want to inflict on others. and he’s especially cognizant of how that kind of pressure would affect someone like wedge who, while not as infantilized now as he was in ARR (i have thoughts on this but i do find it funny actually so i let it slide) still is not the kind of guy who handles stress very well lol and coconeja is also all too aware of how being involved with the warrior of light in any capacity essentially paints a target on your back given THE EXACT SITUATION HE WAS SO AFRAID OF HAS ALREADY HAPPENED when omega quite literally blew up his spot honestly i could talk forever about that alone and how that shook him real bad, and he’s still hasn’t really confronted how it messed with him - like he went to a real dark place those few days waiting to see if biggs and wedge would be ok and he really just refuses to engage with those feelings in any capacity now that it’s over. it’s a struggle for him to not resent omega tho even now; knowing all that he knows it’s still an internal struggle not to punt the little bastard into the sea on sight. c) somehow, against all logic and reason, wedge remains totally oblivious to coconeja’s feelings (even though everyone else can tell, much to their exasperation, because coconeja thinks he’s being real on the sly about it but he really, really isn’t) and is still into tataru. and even if points a and b weren’t the insurmountable hurdles that they are he still would never risk their friendship like that by confessing in the first place - and they are really good friends; wedge is probably his second best friend in the whole world (his first best friend being flag of course which is fine because wedge’s first best friend is biggs so it’s all copacetic). even if coconeja weren’t down so bad his heart needs rezoning for a subbasement they’d still be close - they get along well, have the same sense of humor and values, are around the same age and are both kind of huge loser dorks in their own way. they’re both dog people.
so he tells himself that the way things are is fine, and he’s happy just so long as he can be there by wedge’s side and look out for him - that’s enough!! it has to be. like so what if the constant longing is wearing his gay little lalafell heart down into a shriveled little stump; it doesn’t matter. so long as they can be friends, and coconeja can make sure he’s safe and happy always and listen to him dork out about engineering stuff or in turn have someone to vent to who understands imposter syndrome and all the while he’s free to daydream about holding hands or first kisses or fun dates to all the exotic places in eorzea or an alternate universe where coconeja is the coolest and suavest mfer ever and everything he does is super impressive (and he can definitely do a backflip without landing on his face - 10 backflips even!! in sunglasses!!) and he is the kind of person he thinks wedge could actually fall in love with instead of being well, the him that he actually is.
and that will definitely be a fine way to cope forever and is certainly NOT unfair to wedge who is his own person that deserves agency over his own feelings and situation it’s not weird let’s not call it weird here look at all these daydream gposes i did aren’t they the most adorable wolship you’ve ever seen!!! i keep these in a folder called “the shame bucket” like any normal healthy person would :)
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Thess vs Menu Planning
Tomorrow, the groceries arrive. Also some gluten free Japanese curry roux and two new cookbooks. Only things I really have left to order is some more mixing bowls (I only have three and they do double-duty as storage for apples, onions, and potatoes) and a sifter (might be easier on me than the sieve is when I make homemade instant hot chocolate mix).
So here’s the list of Things I’m Going To Eat This Month:
Tandoori chicken (with aloo gobi)
Japanese curry
Potato soup
Roast pork
Pork risotto (related to the above)
Pork fried rice (again, see above - a roast is a lot of pork)
Lasagne
Chicken broccoli pasta bake
So a whole lot of pig and chicken this time around. Even with the potato soup, which requires a fair bit of bacon. Also I got smoothie fixings and some various snack-things. There are a few gaps in the menu rotation but that’s okay - I’m leaving a few spaces for stuff from new cookbooks.
I’m looking forward to the cookbooks. I got two of the four Cooking Tin cookbooks by Rukmini Iyer. Their whole selling point is “Easy, simple, just one cooking tin”. Sounds ideal for me, and I’ll be mining those for recipes for the Cooking With Spoons blog. And for me, obviously. Anything that gives me more recipes to try that won’t completely blow my personal spoons budget is good as far as I’m concerned.
Honestly, though, what I’m really looking forward to is the weekend. I am wiped. At least I didn’t have to push so hard at work today - we were pretty well caught up on the queue, so I slowed the hell down. That’s usually pretty hard for me, since I just type flat out as a rule, but I just took a moment between cases to play a bit of word puzzle on my phone. That seemed to solve the problem.
Of course, tomorrow there’ll be a brief intermission from the working to pick up groceries and put some stuff away. So long as I get the fridge and freezer stuff in straight away, I can just space out unloading the rest as part of regular breaks. I mean, not much of a break, doing all the arranging and stuff, but at least it’s changing positions now and then. That helps.
My Saturdays are free for the next few weeks as we’re missing a player on the Saturday shenanigans - unlike Sundays, we can’t really manage when we’re even one player down, since the Saturday group is so small. (Though I happened to mention the Saturday group in passing during our last Sunday game and one of my players went, “I might want to be in on that...�� - which is nice because that was said by one of the quiet ones that my imposter syndrome always says isn’t having fun, so that anxiety is eased.) Anyway, this means that I can do cookery, hopefully take some photos of how well my oregano is bouncing back from winter (and maybe repot some of my flowers in their planned new home in boxes on the balcony), and curl up in front of the TV and fall asleep in front of Korean horror. I haven’t done that in awhile, and I just picked up A Tale of Two Sisters on DVD, so...
I just have to get through Friday first.
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