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artisvns · 2 years

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❃ ↷ ˊ- pelican town is all abuzz about SUN JUNHEE, our resident 25-year old VET TECH ASSISTANT. you know, the one who looks like JUNG YOONOH (JAEHYUN)? i don’t see it, but maybe that’s just because they remind me of NAPPING & FORGETTING THE WORLD UNDER SUNBEAMS, THE FEELING OF DEEP DIVING INTO UNKNOWN WATERS, AND LOOKING UP AT THE STARS IN HOPES OF SOMETHING MORE every time i see them at SUNSHINE ANIMAL HOSPITAL. word around town is that they’re increasingly TENDERHEARTED and ASTUTE, but can get rather SELF-DESTRUCTIVE. hope to see them around the valley soon!

ღ hello cuties !! i’m KLEE, ( she/they, 21+, est ) and i’m here to introduce my bebe JUNHEE, an animal lover & vet who radiates the biggest golden retriever energy you’ll ever see ! he’s a remix of many muses pulled into one where he’s trying to accept his fate as something else when he wishes he could be something else. under the cut you’ll find more info on him and if you’d like to plot, please like this post and i’ll hit you up asap ! ( discord is available upon asking ! )

☀️ BACKGROUND ⸻

read his profile HERE !

TL;DR ⸻ this is the story of how a young boy has been trapped in his hometown by his weak-willed heart, who follows everyone else’s wishes of him despite longing to be discovering the world and viewing it with his own eyes instead of through photographs. he has accepted that fate current roots him to stardew valley, though he hopes one day he can develop the courage to stand up to his parents who’ve set his future in stone.

25, cancer sun / aquarius moon / virgo rising, he / they, born & raised in pelican town.

his family owns and operates sunshine animal hospital, and they help with aiding the locals’ pets and their farm animals ( if they have any ).

he’s always wanted to leave pelican town and travel the world… but his parents have set him up to eventually take over their family business with no room to debate. he’s currently trying to accept his fate but it’s so hard when he sees others coming & going all the time.

initially wanted to be a musician, but he’s lost hope for this dream and has turned it into more of a hobby. no longer sings, bc he’s not confident enough to try anymore, but he plays guitar for the lil animals he gets to care for ♡

he is an only child, which is the primary reason why his parents are so set on having him take over sunshine animal hospital when they retire. he was interested in the idea when he was a child — who can really blame him, working with cute animals for the rest of his life was a dream ! — but now that he’s older, the idea has lost a bit of its lustre.

studied & graduated from the university of stardew back in 2019, although he’s qualified as a veterinary technician, he is usually his father’s right-hand assistant as opposed to working on his own. when he’s out doing work with farm animals though he’s def by himself and able to show off his knowledge !

junhee really loves his work, so much to the point that he absolutely will not stop until someone is pushing him out of the doors. sometimes work genuinely doesn’t feel like actual work to him, but then there are other times when he wants to just get as much as he can done without any regard for time.

once he passes out he’s out for a good ten hours ! luckily for him, his parents aren’t the type to ignore his health — it’s purely self-sabotage. you’d think for someone who studied medicine he would be more careful, right?

when he isn’t working, he frequents local cafes, the beach, and the community center ! he’s always down for fun and good vibes, which what he considers the best reward after working super hard all week.

he likes meeting new people and hearing about their hometowns !! he may not be able to travel but he likes listening to all the stories anyone is willing to share ( a great listener btw, always super engaged ! ). he keeps a notebook of places he’d like to visit with little notes on what others have told him about these places so he doesn’t forget why he even wants to go there.

he has two adopted pets, a 3-year old orange tabby cat and a 2-year old black labrador retriever. he adopted both of them for his 24th birthday a year ago, and the three of them have been lowkey inseparable ever since? it’s not uncommon to see him with both of his pets just out and about ! doesn’t usually keep them on leashes ( especially since his cat sits on his shoulders ) mostly bc they’re obedient and friendly, but has them on him just in case someone asks him to.

he’s kind of a shy individual but warms up very quickly to people if the vibes are good. he’s an easy-going type of person who typically follows a crowd but unexpectedly has a fighting spirit if his friends need one ( yet does not fight for himself, a whole other conversation tho ). he’s very protective of those around him and very good at comforting people if anyone needs a shoulder to cry on (✿◠‿◠)

there’s probably more that i’m missing but he’s still kinda newish despite being a remix of all my recent Lost Boy-esque muses in one but i’ll figure it out along the way !!

☀️ SCUFFED PLOT IDEAS ⸻

the platonic soulmate, best friend, ride or die, whatever you wanna call it … basically his #1 and there’s no one he trusts more with his life but them !

i love just having more close friends, either friends separately or they’re considered a #certified_squad within pelican town ♡ kinda like ‘where there’s one, the others aren’t far behind’

i think an adventure buddy would be cute ??? he seems so stuck up since he’s a workaholic but he will always be down for walking around aimlessly with a friend ♡

a classic and typical exes plot … could’ve ended horribly for whatever reason or ended amicably !! he’s completely non-confrontational so ig the worse the situation the more he would avoid them like the plague … but imagine a situation where he can’t avoid them like while he’s working lmfao ( not limited to one muse btw i just didn’t know how to word it )

kinda separate from the exes plot but his first love / kiss / whatever ♡ could’ve been a love from his teen years when they were in high school ( puppy love UwU ) or a love from his early adult years where they’re both more mature ♡ he probably doesn’t have feelings anymore but the affection will always be present !!

speaking of uni, anyone who has attended the university of stardew between the years 2015-2019 could’ve met him there and formed some sort of relationship with him … but what that relationship is is completely up for plotting.

um hello roommate or roommates maybe ??? he moved out of his family home after graduating uni so they could’ve been roomies for a couple years already or they started living together recently ♡

fellow night owls / midnight gremlins … they always see each other late at night either bc their shifts end super late or they simply cannot rest at night. they’ve fallen into a routine where they’ll either go out for food together or stay in his apartment for the majority of the night and just chill~~

i can’t think of any more with details to add but other ideas include: cousins / grew-up-like-siblings friends, people who have pets / livestock who see him regularly/semi-regularly as he is a vet, fellow cat/dog owners who want their babies to have playdates ♡, work out buddy, someone he doesn’t get along w for whatever reason, past pen pal(s) who decided to visit pelican town … also vv down for brainstorming ♡

#stardewtm:intro #i. ╱ 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙙𝙪𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 .#the only thing i changed abt him was the fact that hes now an only child lol

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adlerbarnes · 1 year

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Hey, guys! I’m Katelyn, and this hunk of a man is Adler! I’m excited to be here and to interact with a new-ish character as I explore this wonderful roleplay and this beautiful town that’s been created! I would love to plot with every single one of you. My discord is xADumbHuman#3145 if anyone wants to add me on there!

THE STATISTICS

𝗕𝗔𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗦

FULL LEGAL NAME: Adler Benjamin Barnes NICKNAME(s): Adler, Addie (his Mom is the only person that’s ever called him Addie), Benji when he was a kid AGE: 33 DATE OF BIRTH: April 25th SPECIES: Human ETHNICITY: German, Italian, Irish, and possibly other (Google gives me all the facts) NATIONALITY: American LANGUAGES: English, some Spanish, ASL GENDER: Cis-Male PRONOUNS: He/Him SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Heterosexual BIRTH ORDER: Second Born (Though he thinks he’s the first born) HOMETOWN: Andover, Mass. CURRENT RESIDENCE: Ashmore in Nightrest, Mass. EDUCATION: College; Associate’s Degree OCCUPATION: Veterinary Technician MARITAL STATUS: It’s complicated. FAMILY: It’s also complicated. RELATIONSHIPS: See connections. PETS: Siberian Husky named Motley 𝗣𝗛𝗬𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗔𝗟 𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗜𝗧𝗦

HEIGHT: 6'5 WEIGHT: 200 pounds. BODY TYPE: Fit, muscular but not as defined as he’d like. HAIR COLOR: Brown EYE COLOR: Hazel SCARS|MARKS: He has freckles on his shoulders; a scar under his chin (that just happens to cause his beard to grow slightly shorter in that spot) and a scar on his hand from childhood. FACIAL HAIR: A beard, but it’s on the shorter side. Not long or scruffy, nicely kept. SIGNATURE SCENT: Tea Tree Shampoo, Bourbon scented cologne (very musty/manly) TATTOOS: A full sleeve on his arm. PIERCINGS: Right nostril

𝗣𝗛𝗢𝗕𝗜𝗔𝗦 & 𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗘𝗔𝗦𝗘𝗦

PHOBIAS: N/A MENTAL DISEASES: Though it’s undiagnosed, he suffers with anxiety. PHYSICAL DISEASES: N/A 𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬

HOGWARTS HOUSE: Hufflepuff PROMINENT TRAITS: Uplifting, Honest, Anxious, Hard Working FAVORITE FOODS: Sushi, French Fries, Chocolate Cake, Supreme Pizza, Chocolate Covered Pretzels FAVORITE COLOR: Navy Blue, Maroon MUSIC TASTE: He doesn’t have a preference; as long as it’s good music he’ll listen to it. HOBBIES: working out, walks with Motley, video games, starting books and never finished them, motorcycle riding. ZODIAC SIGN: Gemini LIKES: Taking control, Vintage cars, Foggy mornings, Reptiles, Old action films, silk sheets DISLIKES: Losing people, Subtitles, Rowdy kids, Sick animals

THE APPLICATION

was that ADLER BARNES i saw by the lighthouse today? i heard that the THIRTY THREE year old who has been in nightrest for ONE WEEK and works as a VETERINARY TECHNICIAN has a reputation of being UPLIFTING, but also ANXIOUS. they reside in ASHMORE & people in town usually associate them with LEATHER BIKE JACKET HANGING IN HIS CLOSET, BABY BLANKET TUCKED AND HIDDEN UNDER HIS PILLOW, WRITTEN LETTERS TO HIS CHILDHOOD SELF HE’S NEVER READ. let’s hope the killer doesn’t go after them next.

THE HEADCANONS

In his spare time, Adler likes to fish. You can find him on the river watching the water ripples underneath the stars.

He doesn't know much about his family as he was placed in foster care at six months old. All he knows is moving from house to house.

While he doesn't quite know how he feels about being a father, Adler wouldn't mind having children. The responsibility scares him slightly, but he wants to provide a safe space for children that he never had.

A true animal lover at heart, Adler has had several pets growing up. While they were never allowed in his household, he would be known to be the 'owner' of wild animals growing up; feeding them concoctions he would create from leftovers in his houses.

Adler has never loved holidays, but New Year's Day has always been his favorite. He finds himself looking forward to the change it provides every year.

Adler was a terrible student. He went to school every day, but regardless of how much he tried, he barely passed every year until he reached high school. That's the first time anyone ever really gave him the chance and he felt he could finally allow himself to pursue a future that was receivable.

THE SUMMARY

Adler grew up in the foster care system - his mother was a teenager when he was born - after none of his biological family would take him. He bounced from house to house, seeing more than thirty by the time he made it to high school. That's when he met the people he calls his parents; both were older at the time with children graduating college and getting married, but they loved Adler like he was their own. It was the first time he'd had any real sense of a family, and he knew he would do anything to make them proud. That's when he moved to Salem after bouncing from town to town his entire life, and after graduating with honors, he moved onto college, getting an associate's degree in veterinary medicine; he'd always loved animals and wanted nothing more than to be able to take care of them. During this time is when he met Selin. The two dated, but Adler has commitment issues and broke it off when he got scared. A year later the two were married in Vegas a year ago, telling no one that they'd done it. After a year of being married, She left, signed divorce papers, and now a year later Adler is in the same town as her - divorced papers unsigned - unknowingly to him.

#nightrest:intro #foster care tw #drugs tw

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hag-lad · 1 year

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Okay I just gotta get this out. I fucking despise employment culture. I know that work is the only way that anything can ever get done, I know that labor is important, I know that it’s only driving me crazy to think of work as optional when every facet of reality is abundantly clear that work is mandatory. I know! And I still can’t fuckin stand it.

I quit my job in December and haven’t even interviewed for another one. I’m 2 months behind on my car payments, drowning in debt, and basically unable to function for how broke and miserable I am. I know that I should just step up and get a goddam job. But there is nothing I can see myself doing. I’ve either done it already and know intimately how much I hate it, or it’s utterly out of left field and I’m abysmally under-qualified. I’ve worked so much in my life, and I’m fucking tired of it. I literally am the bratty millennial stereotype who “doesn’t wanna work these days.” I literally don’t wanna work! I’m in like a protracted toddler-grade tantrum over this shit. I’ve seen too much of the workforce and I can’t stand it anymore.

I am dizzy from this whirlpool of hatred I’ve trapped myself in. I can’t be employed in a field I’m passionate about, because it makes me too crazy. Even “important” jobs that “help people” are all lies and bureaucracy and in-fighting and politics and conflict and questionable ethics and heartbreak and misery and sadness and stress, stress, SO MUCH STRESS. Then artistic or creative jobs are the opposite, where they feel so appallingly frivolous and superficial, I lose my mind spiraling about how much waste goes into the whole thing, the very first-world nature of it all. And then I can’t even take respite in a job that I’m not ultra passionate about, because it’s so time-consuming and monotonous, I feel like I’m wasting my life!

I’ve done so many different types of jobs, way more than most people my age, I feel like I have firsthand knowledge of exactly how ill-fitted I am to work anywhere. I’m a shitty employee, and I have nothing resembling the will to get better! I don’t give a fraction of a fuck about professionalism, I absolutely never show up on time, I use every millisecond of sick pay and frequently take unpaid days off just cuz I hate being at work so much, and no proximity to any of my “dream jobs” has ever even come remotely close to fixing this. I’m habitually tardy, flaky, and my attitude is so bad I’ve made enemies out of wildly different types of people. I can’t seem to get along with anyone, and I don’t fucking want to! This was even the case when I was making $36/hr doing a job that was basically tailor-made to my strengths and interests. If even that can’t get me on a path to enjoying work? I don’t think anything will!!!!!

And I hate, hate, HATE when people suggest jobs at me like I haven’t considered them. I just want to grab them and shake them. I HAVE ALREADY THOUGHT ABOUT IT, WHATEVER IT IS. I have already googled it, looked into how to get into it, considered what it would take, and decided against it. I’ve thought about being a social worker, nurse, plumber, electrician, teacher, therapist, doula, IT guy, car mechanic, bike mechanic, photographer, graphic artist, talent manager, veterinary technician, librarian, general contractor, cosmetologist, mortician, park ranger, HR guy, transcriber, grant writer, student, botanist, gardener, sanitation worker, solar panel tech, retail monkey, babysitter, foster parent, dog walker, AND LIKE TEN THOUSAND OTHER THINGS. Okay?! I’ve already thought about it! I’ve already looked into it! The problem is not lack of ideas. It’s attitude. It always has been attitude.

I’m fuckin 30 years old, man! My brain is harder to fight now than ever before. I feel so deeply, inexorably set in my ways, so fixed and rooted in this way of looking at the world and existing around other humans, it is like a maze with no exit. I can run around and drive myself insane looking for the way out, but I know deep down that I am going to die here. There’s no fuckin way out. There is no “fulfilling career,” there is no “dream job.” There aren’t even jobs where I’ll be able to tolerate the daily grind. There are only prisons with varying levels of brutality. Some are worse than others, but they’re all prisons. I know this is all very privileged and spoiled and whiny. Believe me, I know. And the fact is, my car will get repossessed if I don’t figure this shit out. But I will violently hate wherever I wind up next, that’s a guarantee. Because I hate everything! And I can’t just stop hating. I try all the time, and it just comes back worse every time.

Nobody ever tells you this. Nobody sympathizes with lazy, angry people. We’re the exact type of person that people hate the most. We are not lovable, we are not virtuous, we can’t make the world better. We were put on this earth to suffer, then die as a relief to everyone who had the burden of knowing us. Some people are just shitheads, and that is how I see myself, way more than any career path. Just a fuckin shithead waiting to die! Lmao

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deancaskiss · 4 years

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Positive 20 Questions Tag Game

1.) Name 4 fictional characters who showcase your personality the best, with explanations if you want.

- Tinkerbell (Peter Pan): I very much relate to her, because I also am possessive over the people I love and also need attention all the time or I die hahah. But also she’s sassy and spunky and goes after what she wants, and I love that. She’s persistent and determined and willing to take out anything in her path. And I think all of those things sum up me pretty damn well.

- Dean Winchester (Supernatural): not only have I seen the connection, but my sister and several friends have also told me how similar I am to Dean. The way I bottle things up and avoid dealing with my emotions. How I would die for the people I love because I care for them that strongly that I couldn’t bear to live in a world without them. I’m sarcastic and witty and sassy just like Dean is. Just like Dean, I put up a tough guy front and act like things don’t both me, but really I’m an emotional teddy bear who doesn’t know how to deal with all the things I feel. I also tell ridiculous and stupid jokes and puns and normal get eyerolls from my sister for it, but it’s totally worth it.

- Tony Stark (MCU): I could go on and on about how similar I am to Tony. From wearing my heart on my sleeve to trying to make the right decisions and screwing things up in the process. Just like Tony, I’m sarcastic and smart. But also like Tony, I have a ton of mental baggage. I struggle and suffer with anxiety and panic attacks, too. Just like Tony, there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for the people I love. And I hope, like Tony, I learn from my mistakes and try every day to be better and work harder. A lot of my mannerism is just like Tony, the way he uses sarcasm and wit and banter as a front to cover how vulnerable he is. I do the exact same thing. I’m no where near as smart as Tony is, but I’d like to think in difficult situations I let my brain switch into puzzle solving mode just like he does.

- Riley Poole (National Treasure): Riley is my smol bean. I swear he is me in male movie persona. Nerdy and sometimes a little slow on the uptake, but wicked smart in areas most people aren’t. Dedicated and loyal to my friends/family no matter what else is going on. Not always the main hero, but the relatable one everyone loves. Able to do things people don’t expect of me, and to do the things people do expect of me on top of that. Always in the background, working my ass of, just like Riley is. And always seeking the approval of my loved ones, just like Riley. Brave and smart and full of quippy one liners and great comebacks.

2.) Aesthetic?

- pastel colors, flowers, hippie vibes, glitter and sparkles, sunsets

3.) Favorite musical/play? (If you’ve never seen a musical or play, one you’d be interested in seeing?

- The only musical I’ve ever seen is The Very Potter Musical (oops). I’m not really a musical or play kind of person. I much prefer movies and TV shows. But hey, I can still sing a ton of the songs from AVPM and said references to it so many times even my parents know them.

4.) What is the best compliment you’ve ever received?

- either “for some reason you remind me of Marilyn Monroe highkey” or it was this client I was working with as a vet tech assistant and she said to me “you are the best technician I have ever had work with my dog. You are going to be a wonderful and compassionate doctor and I’d love to be your client in the future” and y’all like she literally complimented me so much she even told my boss how much she adored me and my work ethic and I literally went into the back of the clinic and cried after she left because I’ve never felt so strongly that I’m meant to be in the veterinary field.

5.) How many times have you been in love?

- twice. Once was with the girl I had my first kiss with (actually there was many many kisses with her). She was my first love. I mean I really fell for her. She was a lot of firsts for me. And my first boyfriend. He led me on though and played me even though I fell for him and he knew that. So that sucked.

6.) Embarrassing story or fact about yourself that makes you laugh now?

- When I was 9, I was running in the playground at school and tripped over this tree stump that was like kept there by the school for some reason (I can’t remember). But I tripped ad badly tore up my left hip. I mean like blood everywhere, massively bandages, the whole 9 yards. It healed over and there’s no scar now, but it was super embarrassing to trip over it in front of my entire class and to really badly hurt myself, and this was all like a month after I had just moved to the town and just started school. Way to make a fool out of myself from the very beginning.

7.) Favorite Disney/Pixar movie?

- Peter Pan. See my above answer about why I love Tinkerbell. Peter Pan is also my favorite because I love the idea of being able to escape some place and be young forever and forever free and happy. The idea of being able to just enjoy the simple things in life without the weight of the world on your shoulders.

8.) Favorite flower or plant?

- Plumerias. They are just absolutely beautiful and they smell amazing and their colors are vibrant and beautiful and I just love them.

9.) What’s your favorite holiday?

- Christmas, without a doubt. My mum adores Christmas and she instilled that same love in me. The music, the lights, the decorations, the cheer, the happiness, the gift giving. All of it. It’s just such a happy time in my household and it’s what I look forward to all year because it’s just warmth and happiness radiating in my family.

10.) Name three things that made you laugh or smile this past week.

- @deanscastiel79 sending me messages every day to check on me and to see if I’m okay. Nothing makes me happier than someone noticing if I’m being quiet or if I’m MIA and checking on me and sending me things to make me smile.

- Just seeing the amount of likes and reblogs my destiel fics are getting. And the amount of followers I’ve gained since I started posting destiel fics. I’ve literally gained more than 25 followers in a couple weeks. It blows my mind. And seeing like the notes continue to climb on my fics and then having someone reach out to comment and personally message me to tell me how much they liked one of the fics I wrote. It makes me smile so much my cheeks hurt.

- My puppy, Rocket. He’s the biggest goofball in the world. But he’s so damn affectionate it’s unreal. The amount of love and cuddles and kisses he gives me almost hourly every single day literally fills my heart to bursting. On my worst days, he’s the only thing that can make me smile. He makes me feel loved.

11.) What song would you play to introduce yourself to someone?

- Rare by Selena Gomez. Because you know what? I am rare. I’m special and unique and proud of who I am. And maybe not everyone can see that, but that’s fine, because I can and will find people who do see that and who cherish me and treat me right. “I don’t have it all, I’m not claiming to, but I know that I’m special.” My favorite lyrics of the song. Because I know I don’t have it all, but I do have so much to offer the world, and I’m ready to share that with the right people.

12.) Name something that truly makes you feel peaceful even at your most stressed moments.

- I’m a Maladaptive Daydreamer. When I’m most stressed, I’ll let myself go into one of those daydreams until I feel calm again. I let those characters ground me. Either that, or spending some time with Rocket (my puppy mentioned earlier). Because there’s nothing that makes me feel better than puppy cuddles.

13.) What do you, did you, or would you study at college?

- For my undergraduate, I studied and got degrees in Biology and English (Concentration in Creative Writing) with a minor in Chemistry. I’m currently in grad/med school studying Veterinary Medicine and earning my DVM (Doctor of Veterinary Medicine).

14.) This is kind of a weird one, but which outfit of yours makes you feel most like yourself?

- It would either be high waisted shorts and a crop top/tank top/hippie shirt or a summer dress.

15.) What is a quote you live by?

- “Grateful for where I’m at. Excited about where I’m going” and “It always seems impossible until it’s done.”

16.) Name the funniest playlist name you have.

- My playlists don’t have weird names. I just have playlists for different artists. I have a playlist called “Soft Songs” for when I’m stressed or need music to sleep to. I had started a playlist called “Down and Dirty” for when I was writing smut fics and needed some inspiration, but the app on my phone wiped it and I was too lazy to remake it again. Maybe I will when I have some more time on my hands so I can have some inspiration to write some destiel smut fics.

17.) Make a reference to an inside joke you have with someone you love with zero context.

- “Why are you looking at me like that?” “Because you’re Skipper Sophie.”

18.) What is a message you would give your younger self if given the chance?

- Don’t let anyone tell you who you can and can’t be. There is always light at the end of the tunnel, and there is always people who will love and support you. And if your gut tells you something isn’t right, trust it.

19.) Who is your favorite family member? (If you have no good blood family members, feel free to mention someone in your found family)

- My sister. She’s the one person I can go and talk to about anything and everything. We can talk for hours. She always has my back. She boosts me up when I need it. She’s my inspiration and my support system. I don’t think I could live without her by my side. She’s my rock and I love her with everything in my heart and more.

20.) What’s a secret dream of yours?

- To publish a book. I know I’ve gone down the medical path as a career, but someday I would love to write my own novel and have it published.

tagging: @deanscastiel79 @singingninja4 @themarvelavenger @seekinsideanimus @fadinglight123 @nonthebinary @pizzamanhedelivers @proudace @beatmetothesnitch @s-l-u-m-p-i-e @vcastiel

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the-wardens-torch · 5 years

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LFRP - Falerin Arcita

(Following @painted-foothills ‘s lead here and using this more as an updated character profile for my “About” link than an RP solicitation - I’m not sure I have the guts to RP with anyone who isn’t already a mutual and even that’s super hard for me and almost never happens hahafffff.)

Falerin Arcita The Basics ––– – Age: 22 Birthday: 16th sun of the fifth astral moon (9/15) Race: Mostly Midlander Hyur with a smidge of Duskwight Elezen Gender: Cisgender male Sexuality: Pansexual Marital Status: Single, never married Physical Appearance ––– – Hair: Black - Straight and waist-length, usually worn in a ponytail or braid. Eyes: Royal Blue Height: 5’11 Build: Angular and long-limbed Distinguishing Marks: Scars; one slanted over his left eye running from hairline to mid-cheek, another along his jaw line (usually covered by his sideburns) and a third horizontally crossing his right shoulder. Freckles on his face, shoulders and back. Common Accessories: Leather jewelry, pointy wizard/witch hats, strappy boots/sandals, feathered hairpins, long fancy skirts, crop/tank tops. He tends to be an ostentatious dresser. Personal ––– – Profession: He considers himself a musician first and foremost - he has a wonderfully deep, smoky voice and sings very soulful, heartfelt songs - some of which he writes himself. He’s also Eorzea’s best accordion player *pause for laughter* and can also play piano and a few other instruments. Aside from that, he makes leather jewelry and accessories that he sells to a handful of independent shops. His “adventurer” job is Summoner, but you wouldn’t know it from talking to/looking at him. Hobbies: Collecting and writing songs, poems and stories (in print or spoken form,) occasional archery (more as an exercise/meditative practice than for combat reasons.) Languages: Common, Seeker Miqo’te huntspeak (though he’s pretty out of practice,) a handful of songs, poems and phrases in several other languages. Residence: Has a room in the Lavender Beds, but is more commonly found crashing at any of a number of friends’ houses around the main city-states. Birthplace: Arcita - a small port town in the Cieldalaes Islands Patron Deity: Azeyma Fears: Abandonment, loss, walking on shaky scaffolding/suspension bridges. Relationships ––– - Spouse: None Children: None Parents: Adoptive Mother - N‘elyrha Kikitu; Bard living in Wellwick Wood (estranged) Biological Mother - Roxane Seaborne - Inn manager living in the Cieldalaes (has never met her.) Biological Father - Uther Alcyone; Arcanist living in Idyllshire (estranged until very recently.) Siblings: 2 maternal half-brothers and 1 maternal half-sister (has never met them, is unaware of their existence.) Other Relatives: BFF-practically-soul mate Reonora Aestethe - who belongs to @aspected-benefic Pets: Ruby (aka Ru-Bee) - A “familiar” of sorts that resembles a sparrow-sized, translucent, red honeybee made of some sort of condensed aether. He is never without her, although she’s not always visible due to a knack for hiding in his clothes, accordion case or travel supplies. Friend - A feral, fish-loving Tight-Beaked parrot who’s not really a pet so much as an occasional tag-along. She(?)’s loud, obnoxious and not very friendly, but sometimes preens Fal’s hair or tries to eat his jewelry. Lamrei - A retired Twin Adder cavalry chocobo. She’s got a calm temperament and a penchant for eating any insect or rodent unfortunate enough to cross her path. Traits ––– - Extroverted / In Between / Introverted Disorganized / In Between / Organized Close Minded / In Between / Open Minded Calm / In Between / Anxious Disagreeable / In Between / Agreeable Cautious / In Between / Reckless Patient / In Between / Impatient Outspoken / In Between / Reserved Leader / In Between / Follower Empathetic / In Between / Apathetic Optimistic / In Between / Pessimistic Traditional / In Between / Modern Hard-working / In Between / Lazy Cultured / In Between / Uncultured Loyal / In Between / Disloyal Faithful / In Between / Unfaithful Additional information ––– – Smoking Habit: Nah. Drugs: Indulges in something to soothe the nerves and/or trip balls once in awhile. Alcohol: Not much. He has a glass of wine a few times a sennight, otherwise he only really drinks at gigs and social events, and then just enough to loosen up (although he‘s pretty loose already hahaffff.)

RP Hooks ––– – Reluctant Mage: Fal doesn’t volunteer that he’s an arcanist/summoner, and really can only be caught using (or even talking about using) magic in dire situations. However, on the rare occasion an experienced mage might see him break out the spells, they would notice that his technique is unrefined and atypical to say the least. He casts via gestures and verbal/auditory components rather than diagrams and symbols, and does not summon -egis, though Ruby can mimic their abilities. He does carry a “grimoire” but closer inspection will reveal that just a book of dirty limericks rebound to look appropriately mystical. As a mage, he’s a unique curiosity at best and a butcher of ancient arts at worst, depending on your perspective. That’s What They Said: Fal’s into casual sex and will happily go home with/take home people of most any gender/race as long as they have a compatible personality and provide enthusiastic consent. A one night stand could easily turn into a lasting friendship. He also has a great respect for sex workers and adult entertainers of all kinds, and even spent a few years performing in the orchestra at a burlesque house. Bohemians: Fal performs solo most of the time, but its mostly for the sake of convenience. He actually loves the company of other creative folks and artists of all types, and is naturally drawn to them. Need to hire a guest musician in your band? Want some creative leatherworking ideas? Just want to talk poetry? Need people to come to your gallery showing? He’d love to. Even if you’re not a creative type, you can still hire him to play at your nameday party or make you a nice set of wristbands! Lowlives: Fal isn’t a member of the criminal underworld and doesn‘t actively commit crimes himself, but Eat the Rich and Fuck the Police are two of his favorite phrases. He’s happy to look the other way or even aid/abet people that fall on the wrong side of the law (within reason.) Please note that this DOES NOT mean he can’t make friends with individual nobility or authority figures, he‘s just inclined to be distrustful of them at first. On the flipside, it also DOES NOT mean he condones violent criminals.

RP Preferences ––– – I actually don’t do in-game, real-time Rping, due to my schedule and pathological shyness/social anxiety (sometimes it takes me a few minutes/hours/days to work up the courage to respond to friendly overtures dasdasdsdfff). Long-form, paragraph based RPs are my favorite - Discord chats work great for those! A little darkness is fine - horror, mature themes, angst, combat, injury, but please miss me with that super dark edge lord shit. I’ve seen some Bad Shit IRL and I don’t take kindly to gratuitous cruelty, torture, abuse or violence for its own sake. I’m also not interested in ERP at all, and I‘m not big on shipping or fluff as a goal or focal point. HOWEVER, I’m not against the idea of it if it develops organically.

OOCly I am ––– – -Full disclosure; In my 30s and would rather not RP with minors. -Employed full-time as a veterinary (laboratory) technician at a decent-sized small animal practice. -A longtime RPer - I started with D&D in high school and never looked back. -Very happily married (my partner is an Rper as well, just not into MMOs.) -Ace and honestly dgaf what pronouns you use for me because I’m Tired. -In the PST time zone. Contact Information ––– –

Discord is my preferred RP method - My handle is Falkyrie #6034

Also, I LOVE getting tagged with character/writing prompt memes - I want them all and will return the favor.

#About #Falerin Arcita #RP profile

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bambihanson · 5 years

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Questions Tag

I got tagged by @highkinglizardeliot

How tall are you?

5′1 and 3/4. Not that the 3/4 matters because I’m still very short

What colour and style is your hair?

Pretty long, pin straight, and it’s like a light brown/dark brown color. Also it’s super thick. It has no volume, but there’s a hell of a lot of it.

What colour are your eyes?

Blue-gray

Do you wear glasses?

Yes. To quote my eye doctor, “Oh, you are severely near sighted with some astigmatism, bless your heart!”. I was tempted to get glasses like Alice’s last time I brought a pair only to learn large black frames do not suit me. I still went for a similar style, just more narrow. And they’re brown.

Do you have braces?

I did, but my teeth have shifted a little because I refused to wear my retainer after a while when I realized I’d have to wear it basically for the rest of my life and 13/14 year old me was like “Fuck that”. I’m not mad at her yet because they’re not obviously crooked in the front but we’ll see.

What’s your fashion sense?

IDK, I guess a little feminine but also pretty casual. I literally refuse to wear pants that aren’t skinny jeans, that much I can say.

Full name?

Let’s just keep it at Tessa... but I will say my middle name is the name of a girl in a Beatles song and my surname is German and people can’t attempt to pronounce/spell it without having a seizure.

When were you born?

August 2nd

Where are you from and where do you live?

I’m from New York and we still live on the East Coast of the US, but we moved down south in 2015

What school(s) do you go to?

Community college

What kind of student are you?

One of those booksmart people who squanders their potential because they’re also clinically depressed and kind of lazy

Do you like school?

More or less? I just have the motivation of a turnip.

Fav subject?

I’ve always loved history. Also going through the vet tech program I learned that I really love Veterinary Diseases

Fav TV shows?

Aside from The Magicians, I really love The Umbrella Academy. The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina is also a good one. I was super into Leverage, may that show rest in peace. Also I’m trash so I like The Vampire Diaries (granted just for the characters, especially at the point I started watching where it was actually pretty garbage. You think Sera is bad? Wait til you meet Julie Plec.)

As for cartoons... I still watch ‘em and have some I really like: Bojack Horseman, Star vs the Forces of Evil, Rick and Morty, Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, the list does go on. I’m really into animation.

Fav books?

I LOVE LOVE LOVE The Monstrumologist series by Rick Yancey and have since high school. If they made an adaptation for it for TV I will scream and shit myself (though I’ll also be very worried about them fucking it up and will never be happy with the casting for Pellinore Warthrop since I have a highly specific image of him in my head)

Fav pastimes?

I write. A lot... not that anyone who follows me on a03 would believe me. I also like creative stuff and puzzles (jigsaw, crossword, sudoku, it doesn’t matter). I’m also that person who has a million stupid games on their phone at any given time.

Do you have any regrets?

Yeah, but you’re not my therapist so I won’t put you through that story

Dream job?

I mean, I don’t really have a “dream job” but my most realistic job aspect is veterinary technician. Not that I don’t have any other passions to fall back on.

Would you ever like to be married?

Yeah, but I’d probably only get married in the type of relationship where it’s like “we’ve been together for a really long time so we may as well?”

Would you like to have children?

Not really, but I won’t deny that it may happen one day. If I had a dick I definitely would. But as someone with a uterus every aspect of pregnancy and birth causes me so much discomfort at the thought of it happening to me so no thank you

If so, how many?

Only one or two. I could never imagine myself having more than that.

Do you like shopping?

With my mom? No, it makes me wanna gut myself with a melon baller. But I do when I’m by myself... it’s the spending money part I don’t like.

What countries have you visited?

None. I’ve literally never been outside of the US. I’m very confined to a certain stretch of the East Coast and have never been outside of that. My parents used to travel a lot but they ended that once they had me (not that I was an accident, they basically got all of that out of their system before settling down).

Scariest nightmare you’ve ever had?

I really HATE those nightmares where all your teeth fall out; you probably know what I’m talking about since they’re not uncommon. I’m pretty sure I had one like that (I can’t tell if it was stress related or me thinking that my metal filling darkening was my teeth straight-up rootting) but I remember my teeth falling out, spitting up blood, then falling and hitting my head on the vanity. SO yeah fuck teeth dreams

Any enemies?

I had one in high school but not since then.

Do you have a significant other?

No, not that I don’t want one. I’m just a very anti social person who doesn’t go anywhere and has no IRL friends

Do you get along with your family?

My parents, yes. Even if we do bump heads because my mom is super passive aggressive and my dad, while chill most of the time, can be very short when he’s tired or stressed. Look, if you live with someone 24/7 you’re bound to want to murder them a lot. I do get along with a few members of my extended family but I could not even BEGIN to tell you how fucked up all of them are. Let’s just say it involves scams, thefts, murder, and good old fashion personality defects. Also a LOT of crazy religious people.

Do you believe in miracles?

No, just serendipity.

How are you?

Still sad about the finale but I currently have enough sugar in my bloodstream to kill a diabetic instantly so I’m good I guess

I tag whoever the fuck wants to answer these questions

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peonysimmer · 6 years

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OC question tag - Rules: 1. Pick a character you’ve created. 2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were that character. 3. Tag at least four people to do this meme

tagged by @neutralsupply

check out haleigh’s here

QUESTIONS:

1. What is your name? Zackary James Norwood

2. Do you know why you were named that? my mom said that she just always liked the name zack.

3. Single or taken? single

4. Stop being a Mary Sue! make me.

5. What’s your eye color? man you tell me, my driver’s license says blue but i never know.

6. How about hair color? brown.

7. Have you any family members? two younger brothers, Sammy and Levi.

8. Oh, how about pets? my mom worked as a veterinary technician and we fostered animals a lot when i was growing up, so I’ve always had pets.currently I have a bulldog named Bowser, and Haleigh’s full of shit, by the way. I take care of my dog.

9. That’s cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don’t like? white chocolate, it’s not even chocolate, it’s cocoa butter.

10. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do? hitting the gym, i guess. i’m a fairly avid reader too. i’ve been learning how to play the guitar, it’s a work in progress. 11. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before? i’d like to say no, i’ve never hurt someone intentionally, but i do know a few people who might be less than happy with me right now.

12. Ever… killed anyone before? no? unless we’re talking video games, in which case, yeah, like five minutes ago.

13. What kind of animal are you? i dunno, maybe a wolf? (lmaooo side note: i took a quiz to see what animal he was and got butterfly im crying)

14. Name your worst weaknesses. pretty girls, they get you every time.

15. Do you look up to anyone at all? my mom, she was the toughest person I’ve ever known

16. Are you straight, gay or bisexual? straight? get a couple drinks in me though and we’ll talk. 17. Do you go to school? no, college didn’t really pan out like i would have liked.

18. Ever want to marry and have kids one day? i mean, not any time soon, but yeah, someday.

19. Do you have fangirls/fanboys? no? is that a thing normal people have?

20. What are you most afraid of? losing my brothers.

21. What do you usually wear? jeans and a t-shirt, my wardrobe’s pretty basic.

22. What’s one food that tempts you? all of them, i’m not picky, but you can never go wrong with a cheeseburger.

23. Am I annoying you? depends on how many of these we have left.

24. Well, it’s not over! then let’s move it along

25. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)? uh, lower I guess. we didn’t have a lot growing up, single mother raising three boys and all, but i’m doing alright for myself these days.

26. How many friends do you have? i’ve got like three close friends, that’s really all i need *haleigh in the background* ride or die biiiiitch!

27. What are your thoughts on pie? as long as it’s not pumpkin i’m in

28. Favorite drink? milk

29. What’s your favorite place? the observatory, astronomy’s my jam. 30. Are you interested in anyone? not really, it’s been awhile since i’ve met someone who really piqued my interest.

31. That was a stupid question. i guess

32. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean? i’ll do either, but i’m down for the lake if wake-boarding's involved.

33. What’s your type? a good girl who’s a little wicked when the mood strikes, someone with good taste in music, doesn’t take themselves too seriously, cute as fuck.

34. Any fetishes? girls who know what they want and take it are attractive as hell, lingerie, hair pulling

35. Camping or indoors? man i haven’t camped since my boy scout days, but i’d be down to go again soon

#these were so much harder to answer for him #so it's probably a good thing i did it #my boy is not a big talker tho #character stuff #zack

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comeonfallenstar · 7 years

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Guys, I know it’s a long-ass post but please read and share?

Most of you probably don’t know that, as I haven’t been posting much about it on here, but me and my friend are running a foster home for homeless and shelter kittens. For more than last two years, we’ve been taking in kittens left in a shelter or brought to us by friends and people who heard about us. Most of them were either a few days or few weeks old. Our role’s to do everything possible to help them survive, so kinda being both a cat mum and nurse, and they when they make it - we find them new family. For these last two years we’ve been taking care of around hundred animals - kittens mostly, but there were also some puppies, bunnies and rats. It’s a voluntary work, as we’re not a fundation and we don’t get any financial profit from adoptions. We both work full time and running a foster home pretty much takes all of our free time left (and some of our sleep time as well). Since the beginning we promised to provide the best help possible to every little one- starting with good food and hygiene, to giving them love and teaching what their mother would. We went back to school to study and become veterinary technicians.

However what we keep realizing more and more is that we can’t do everything alone. Since the shelter doesn’t have much money we end up buying food and most of things with our own money. We learned how to provide animals with the basic medical treatment, like injections, IV, taking care of wounds and pretty much everything we can do in domestic circumstances. But sometimes something happens suddenly. Sometimes the cats we’re taking care of turns out to have some serious diseases (hydrocephalus, mutations of all kinds, nervous or motoric system diseases), some of them needs amputations. But we can’t afford that. Not while working, studying and having to pay for everything else. Theoreticaly, the shelter is supposed to pay for vet visits, but first you need to get a permission (and then confirmation when you’re already at vets), and it may take hours, long hours. There’s nothing worse than sitting at home waiting desperately for a call back with an animal suffering or dying in your arms - because you can’t afford going to vet immidiately. The same animal you’ve been taking care of since the very beginning, hoping it’ll find a loving home later and maybe even change somebody’s life for the better.

I know it sounds like ranting but I swear it’s not like that. We really love this job (because it is a job in a way), it’s the first time I actually feel like I’ve found something want to do for the rest of my life. Our dream is to turn it into fundation one day, but this won’t happen unless we’re 100% sure we are able to do everything possible to help them survive and grow safely. We’ve seen death so many times and we know you can’t save them all - we’ve already learned that a long time ago. But if we happen to lose any of them simply because of financial issues, I don’t know if we’ll be able to continue doing that.

So after thinking of and trying out every other way, we decided to finally ask for help through a crowdfunding site. Our goal is to collect 1500 zł (around 400$), that would be our financial backing in sudden or urgent cases.

If you could support us with anything it would mean the world to us - not only with money, but also by sharing this post or checking out and following our facebook page (it’s in Polish but I will create a sideblog with translations, if anyone’s interested). I suck at writing beautifully, I can’t make cute, touching posts, sorry about that - but I’m good at running a foster home, and for every support we get - we’ll repay with our hard work.

Our crowdfunding page (it’s also a Polish site but it accepts paypal) and if it doesn’t work, there’s this paypal account as well

Our facebook page KOTOWNIK

Thank you for reading ♥

#sorry I know it's long ;3;#animals #shelter #cats #kittens #foster home #DT Kotownik #personal #crowdfunding #poland

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mylifeasavetstudent · 7 years

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I just finished my first year of undergrad, and while I've shadowed at a vet clinic before, I'm about to start a job as a veterinary assistant. While I'm super excited, I'm also extremely nervous. Any advice for starting a first job at a vet clinic?

Ooh fun question! Congrats on finishing your first year and getting your first job as a vet assistant!

I volunteered/shadowed on and off from when I was 12-18, then got my first job as a part-time assistant at a general practice when I was 18-22, and now I’ve been working full-time as an assistant at an emergency hospital for the past year.

So much comes to mind, so this may be pretty long.

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-Be willing to learn! Accept that there is a lot you don’t know, and always be willing to listen and learn from more experienced people.

-Don’t be afraid to ask the doctors questions about cases. Most are more than willing to answer and explain. (Everyone there who is more experienced has been where you are now one day in their life - when you become an experienced person, remember what it was like to be a nervous, new assistant.)

-Don’t be afraid to ask the other assistants/techs for help. If you don’t know how to do something, it’s a million times better to ask than to guess and do something incorrectly. (Same goes for clarifying what you’re ALLOWED to do.)

-On the same note, if you don’t know how to do something, but want to learn, say so, or the experienced assistant/tech may just do it FOR you.

-Restraint. Start with the nice ones! If you’re not comfortable restraining an aggressive animal - SAY SO. Don’t be afraid to use muzzles, e-collars, comforters for big dogs or cat-muzzles, e-collars, towels for cats - they don’t hurt the animal and they help keep everyone safe. Despite what the owner believes, the dog CAN breathe through the muzzle (be careful with muzzles and vomiting patients though). Sometimes you can even distract patients with food (make sure they’re not on a special diet or NPO or anything). You can also pet their heads (if they’re not aggressive, just squirmy) or tap their heads gently with a pen (if they are aggressive) to distract them. If an animal is really stressing themselves out or has a high possibility of hurting you or someone else - tell the doctor. Medical restraint (drugs) is great! There are so many different ways to restrain animals of different sizes and temperaments for different procedures, that I don’t even know where to start. You’ll learn over time! Always be cautious. Even the nicest animals will bite when scared or in pain. Watch out for teeth and claws, but also those sneaky back feet and headbutts.

-Bring a notebook! Write down any questions you have (if it’s too busy to ask them) - you can look them up yourself, or ask them later. Write down things you learn, write down instructions on how to do something new, etc. (I actually looked back at my notebook from a year ago and had some fun reading my old questions).

-Bring snacks/drinks. My GP (general practice) shifts were 12 hours, my ECC (emergency and critical care) shifts are 11 hours. It’s a long day!

-Wear good shoes. When I started working, I wore converse sneakers and my god did my ankles hurt. It’s constant standing and walking - buy good walking sneakers!

-Everyone has their own way of doing things. If it’s something menial, take everyone’s methods into account and form your own way. If it’s something important, find a high ranking person (doctor, practice owner, head technician) and get it clarified which way YOU should do it.

-Try to keep busy! If you don’t know what to do, ask anyone if there’s anything you can do to help them. If not, you can always sweep/mop/clean. Your coworkers and employers will definitely take note of it.

-Check on patients. Maybe this comes from my emergency experience, but you can never check on patients too often! From something small like pee sitting in the cage, to a change in breathing patterns, you don’t want anything to go unnoticed for too long. If anything looks abnormal to you - ask for a second opinion.

-(May be targeted more toward Emergency.) Learn normal vitals. These are your first indicators of something going seriously wrong. Learn what a normal heart rate is for a small/medium/large dog and for a cat (and how it sounds!), learn a normal respiration rate, and normal gum color. Not as urgent - but temperature too. A change in vitals may be a normal occurrence of a disease process or side effect of medication, but always bring it up to the doctor just in case. Hopefully you’ve been around mostly healthy animals before shadowing, so learn what “breathing weird” looks like, and whether it’s increased effort (dyspnea) or increased rate (tachypnea)… or both. You hear about pale gums and cyanotic (blue/purple) gums a lot, but if you ever get to see them, take note of what they actually look like on a living patient. Mentation is important too - is that crazy energetic puppy suddenly only glancing over at you when you open the cage door? That cat who wanted to kill you an hour ago not even hissing when you disconnect his fluids?

-(May be targeted toward emergency). Triage. In the emergency room, we triage everything. In GP, we did not. Sometimes it’s obvious, like a patient hit by a car needs to be rushed straight back, and a puppy hopping around for a vaccine appointment does not. But if you get a chance to look around the waiting room, take a look at the patients. Take note of any abnormal breathing, mucous membrane color, a patient lying on its side (laterally recumbent) and not really reacting to its environment. Sometimes owners don’t realize how serious of an emergency they have. It’s important to pick out the important pieces of information from what owners tell you. You’ll learn how to ask the right questions.

-Double check your math. If your doctor gives you medication doses in milligrams, you’ll have to convert them to milliliters. Even if you’re just filling oral meds in the pharmacy, you may need to figure out how many tablets equates to the right number of milligrams. Double check your math. Triple check your math. Ask someone else to check it. Check it until you’re confident. (Soon you’ll get an idea of “that seems like a really high dose”, is it written correctly?)

-Be clear. Working around other people who know a lot about animals and medicine gives us a skewed perspective. Don’t assume every owner knows something that’s “common sense” to you. Be very clear with explanations or medication instructions.

-Label everything! If you have a pill just sitting somewhere, that’s extremely dangerous. Always write the type of medication, the dose, and the patient name. If an owner drops off treats for their pet in the hospital - label it! If you have a pet temporarily in a cage, write his name (you definitely don’t want patients getting mixed up and getting the wrong treatments). Label everything!

-Always keep a record, write things down. When the doctor asks you 8 hours later what diet you fed a specific patient this morning when there’s 20 other in-patients, you’ll be glad you did!

-Be nice to clients. People are frustrating, some people are very rude, but get used to your “customer service” persona!

-If you don’t have qualifications, be careful answering client questions. Depending on the rules of your practice, you may not be allowed to answer certain questions unless you’re a doctor. Unless the doctor explicitly tells you that you can tell an owner something, always tell the client that you will have the doctor come right in to talk with them. Unless it’s a straightforward question like, “Has he vomited today?”. (I’m talking about questions like: “When are we gonna decrease his medication?” “When can he come home from the hospital?” “Do you think he’s gonna live?” “Have his kidneys gotten worse?”)

-Learn how the front desk works! Just because you’re working as an assistant in the back doesn’t mean you should be confined back there. In my first job, the front desk was completely separate from the back treatment area, and none of the assistants knew how to work the front desk. Sometimes it’s busy or you need to cover someone for lunch, and you should learn how to check someone out, book an appointment, answer a phone call. It’s very helpful to understanding how the practice works as a whole.

-Clean up after yourself. If you make a mess, don’t leave it for someone else to clean up - this is a good way to annoy coworkers, haha. Of course, this isn’t always doable. Sometimes it gets busy, and everything turns into a mess at once.

-Respect the dead. Everyone in the medical field gets calloused to death/euthanasia because we have to. As sad as it is, sometimes euthanasia really is the best option for a suffering animal. We see death so often that letting every death tear us apart emotionally would be unsustainable. (Ever see that Scrubs episode where they talk about a patient dying, and how his whole family is taking the day off, but all the doctors have to move right on to the next patient a minute later? They say how they make jokes because it’s the only way to cope.)All that aside, have some respect for the patients. It’s okay to be emotionally calloused, but don’t be disrespectful. Don’t throw patients into body bags. Remember that this was someone’s best friend for a number of years. Treat them how you would want your deceased pet to be treated.

-That’s a good overall rule. Treat your patients how you would want your own pet to be treated in a hospital.

-Shadowing is a lot different than working. I’ve heard stories of people who graduate veterinary school, and all their experience is shadowing. They’ve never worked as an assistant or a technician, and when they handle their first patient, it’s clear they’ve never restrained a fractious cat. When shadowing, you just kind of stand there and watch. Your whole purpose for being there is to watch and learn - so you get to see all the “cool” cases and procedures and ask questions whenever. When you’re working, you may miss a “cool case” because you’re busy restraining the dog with an ear infection. But you learn what it’s REALLY like to work in an animal hospital on a daily basis - your future career! And it taught me a huge amount. A recent veterinary graduate told me that having all this experience working will help me immensely in veterinary school. Instead of just learning the concept of a disease in school, you’ll be able to relate it to that patient who HAD the disease and what the symptoms actually looked like.

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Good luck!

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levisarelamprey · 7 years

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Who Needs to Study Anyway?

i was tagged by @icouldbereadingnow dude you’re lucky we don’t have an exam this week or else I’d feel guilty for completing this in class

How old are you? 24 and it’s all downhill from here Current job? veterinary student + large animal technician... i have no life Dream job? on track to be a veterinarian but dream job would be a writer with talents akin to Stephen King b/c that man is amazing <3 What are you talented at? conceal don’t feel don’t let them know What big goal are you working towards, or have already achieved? i did my first two dog spays ever nearly unassisted and my patients didn’t die so that’s nice What’s your aesthetic? i have way too many it hurts my soul but also b/c i have so many they pop up randomly and bring me small blips of joy in my otherwise dreary life Do you collect anything? i used to collect the old broken glass i found in the woods around my house b/c it had history attached to it but that was old me and new me collects BOOKS BOOKS and more BOOKS What is a topic you’re always up to talk about? SPN. Don’t even have to think about it hahaha What’s a pet peeve of yours? when people don’t leave things the way they found them or better. like if you see the hematocrit centrifuge caked with blood and you’ve got time clean that shit off please and thank you Good advice to give? Just because I don’t take my own self-care advice doesn’t mean you shouldn’t take if from me b/c I'm a lost cause but you oh hun you are deserving of all the love and happiness don’t let anyone especially yourself tell you otherwise Recommend three songs? 1. “I am Human” by Brian Buckley Band 2. “The Resistance” by Skillet 3. Mash-up between Chord Overstreet’s “Hold On” and X Ambassadors’ “Unsteady” I kid you not it’ll leave you in cathartic tears

that’s all folks! @theangelstolemyphonebox, @chemically-yours, @rainekittie87

#Distractions #It's nice to not have to pay attention in class #But really I should be #Oh well #Vet school problems

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waywardmoeyy · 7 years

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I was tagged by @deanwinchester-smut Rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people

1. Drink? Cherry Coke

2. Phone Call? My mom

3. Text Message? My best friend

4. Song you listened to? Dirty Pretty by In This Moment

5. Last time you cried? Yesterday

6. Dated someone twice? Yes

7. Ever kissed someone and regretted it? Yes

8. Been Cheated On? Yes

9. Lost Someone Special? Yes

10. Been Depressed? Yes

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up? Yes

Favorite Colors 12. Orange 13. Teal 14. Purple

In the last year have you 15. Made new friends? Yes

16. Fallen in love? Yes, but they don’t know it. :(

17. Laughed until you cried? Yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you? No

19. Met someone that changed your life? No

20. Found out who your friends are? Yes

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list? No

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life? All of them

23. Do you have any pets? Just one cat

24. Do you want to change your name? No

25. What did you do for your last Birthday? Went to dinner with my family

26. What time did you wake up? 12:05pm

27. What were you doing last night at midnight? Writing

28. Name something you can’t wait for? SF SPN Con in December!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom? About 15 minutes ago

30. What are you listening to right now? My TV -- The Walking Dead

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? Yes

32. Something that is getting on your nerves? That’s super secret.

33. Most visited website? Tumblr and Amazon

34. Hair color? Dark blonde

35. Long or short hair? short

36. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes

37. What do you like about yourself? My eyes

38. Piercings? Yes my ears

39. Blood type? A+

40. Nicknames? Moe, Moeyy, Mal, Malliebear

41. Relationship status? Single AF

42. Zodiac? Scorpio

43. Pronouns? She/her

44. Favorite TV Show? Supernatural, The Walking Dead, Criminal Minds

45. Tattoos? No

46. Right or left handed? Right

47. Surgeries? Yes 2

48. Kids? Just a fur baby. xD

49. Sport? Baseball (to watch, go SF Giants!)

50. Vacation? Not soon

51. Pair of trainers? Don’t have any

52. Eating? DOTS candy

53. Drinking? Milk

54. I’m about to? Go to sleep

55. Waiting for? nothing really

56. Want? Money

57. Get married? Maybe someday

58. Career? Vet Assistant/Veterinary Pharmacy Technician (current)

59. Hugs or kisses? Hugs

60. Lips or eyes? Eyes

61. Shorter or taller? Taller

62. Older or younger? Doesn’t matter

63. Nice arms or nice stomach? Arms

64. Hook up or relationship? Relationship

65. Troublemaker or hesitant? Hesitant

66. Kissed a stranger? No

67. Drank hard liquor? Beer mainly

68. Lost glasses/contacts? No

69. Turned someone down? Yes

70. Sex on the first date? No

71. Broken someone’s heart? Yes

72. Had your heart broken? Yes

73. Been arrested? No

74. Cried when someone died? Yes

75. Fallen for a friend? Yes

Do you believe in

76. Yourself? I try to

77. Miracles? No

78. Love at first sight? Yes

79. Santa Claus? Not anymore

80. Kiss on the first date? Sure

81. Angels? Of course

Other

82. Current best friends name? Kaitlyn

83. Eye color? Blue

84. Favorite Movie? Rango

85. Favorite book? Kill Without Mercy by Alexandra Ivy

Tagging: Anyone. I’m lazy. haha.

#about me #hurray

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officialaemondtargaryen · 7 years

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Dog Days Are Over

Summary: You were already having a bad day, and then in walks Mr. Perfect and his best friend’s puppy. Oh, and he needs you to hurry because he’s got a blind date tonight, and he’s really nervous.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Word Count: 2,993

Author’s Note: Do you know how long this has been in my drafts? Anyways, here’s more fluff. Sorry I’ve been the Ebeneezer Scrooge of fluff, but I can’t help it that I’m a cynical, angsty bitch who likes to make people suffer.

There were certain rules to being a veterinary technician.

Number one, waterproof mascara and eyeliner always! When the customer cries, you cry. Number two, carry a lint roller on you at all times; it’s best to get the pocket-sized one, because Mr. Twinkles sheds a lot! Number three, iron your scrubs! And it’s probably best to keep an extra pair in your car, because Mrs. Comier’s Jack Russell likes to pee on people.

Even though you knew these rules by heart, and you followed them every single day of your work-life, today was an exception. It was just one of those days that absolutely nothing- no matter how hard you tried- was going right. You were covered in fluffy cat hairs, Mrs. Comier’s Jack Russell peed on your leg twice, and you had run out of waterproof mascara; so when Mr. Langley brought in his thirteen year old Labrador to put her down, he cried, and so you cried, and in the end you looked like the raccoon that liked to sneak into the office dumpsters at closing.

Today just wasn’t your day.

It was fifteen minutes until closing time, and you could feel the excitement in your bones. You needed to rest, go home, take a shower, crawl in bed and watch B-rated romantic comedies on Netflix until you passed out. If only you could snap your fingers and make those last few minutes fly by. But that was impossible, and manipulating time wasn’t in your skill set, so instead you swept the floors for the sixth time that day.

And that was when you heard it.

The tiny bell over the door chimed, signaling that a customer had just walked in, and you could hear the pitter-patter of doggie feet on the linoleum floors. As far as you knew, there weren’t anymore customers scheduled for the day. The last appointment was over thirty minutes ago, and it was a no-show. From your spot in the back hallway, you could hear your coworker talking to the patient, and then before you knew it, she was charging through the back door. Before she even opened her mouth, you knew what the question would be.

“No,” you said as you swept the dirt into the dustpan.

“Come on, Y/N!” She whined. “I really need to get out of here on time tonight! It’s just a simple check-up, and he’s really cute, and will you please just take him?”

You sighed, exhaling every ounce of oxygen in your lungs before finally giving in; slumping your shoulders and rolling your eyes as you put the broom down.

“Oh my God! Thank you so much! I owe you, big time.” She went to hug you but you stepped to the side, avoiding her embrace at all costs.

You simply nodded at your coworker as you tried to dust some of the cat hairs from your scrubs. It was no use, and you knew that, but still, you at least tried to look more professional. You should have known that clocking out on time was just too good to be true, but you still put a smile on your face as you walked up to the front desk.

The customer was on one knee as he played with the tiny puppy; rubbing it’s belly and tickling it’s sides. “How can I help you?” You asked, and the man turned around and looked up at you, flashing one of the most brilliant smiles you had ever seen, and you could have sworn that a chorus of angels were singing in the background. Or maybe it was just the classical music that your boss liked to play, who knows. When your coworker said he was cute, you figured she was talking about the dog. Not the man.

“Hey, uh- I had an appointment for this little guy.” He said, moving to stand.

“Okay,” you replied. “What’s this little guy’s name?”

“His name is Brooklyn.” The man replied.

“Oh.” You realized that this was that no-show appointment that should have been here thirty minutes ago. It was then that you looked right past his good looks, and let the irritation settle back in. “You’re Mr. Rogers? You had an appointment with us at 5:00.”

The man rubbed a hand on the back of his neck and gave you a half smile.

“Uh, not exactly. I mean, I did have an appointment. But Steve- uh, Mr. Rogers, couldn’t make it so that’s why I’m here. I’m his friend, Bucky, and I’m really sorry that I’m late. I hope I can still get him in, if it’s okay. If it’s a problem then I can just make another appointment.”

Your eyes widened as he rambled on and then you smiled at him. If it were anyone else, you probably would have told them to make another appointment. But this guy was just so handsome, and your hopes of getting home on time were already sacked, so you led him back to the exam room and told him that it was no problem.

“Hopefully this doesn't take too long,” he mentioned as he picked Brooklyn up and sat him on the table.

Was he really rushing you?

“I've got this stupid thing I'm supposed to go to tonight,” he continued as you checked the puppy’s weight.

He really was rushing you.

“It's a blind date that Steve, uh-”

Before he could say ‘Mr. Rogers’, you nodded your head to let him know that you understood who he was talking about.

“Yeah,” Bucky kept on, not really caring that you weren't really listening. “He set it up and I'm just nervous. I've never really been on a date- well, I've been on dates, but never a blind one. With the way this day has been going, she'll probably end up being an alien with six eyes.”

“I know how you feel,” you mumbled under your breath.

“What's that?” He asked.

“Oh, I just agreed with you-” You replied, not really wanting to go into details about your day with a guy who was about to go on a blind date, and probably fall in love with someone that wasn't the vet tech with a piss stain on her leg. “About the way this day has been going.”

“You've had a bad day, too?”

“I'm going to let Dr. Banner know you're ready, and we’ll try get you out of here as soon as possible.” You said, ignoring his question.

“Oh, okay. Thanks,” Bucky replied as you shuffled out of the exam room.

Your boss looked up at you from his desk and raised his eyebrows underneath his glasses. You said nothing and only dropped the puppy’s chart on his desk with a thud, before turning back around and heading into the back hallway. You could hear that Bucky guy sweet talking the pup from behind the door and your expression softened for a moment.

But that was only until you glanced at the clock and saw that it was well passed closing time, and you should’ve been walking through your front door right now; maneuvering out of your bra and kicking off your non-slip, worn out tennis shoes. Your frown came right back and you looked over the front desk, making sure everything was in order before your boss eventually called you in for an extra hand.

You sighed as you saw that your coworker had bailed on stamping the outgoing bill statements, a job which was tedious and tiring, and usually ended in cramped hands and sticky fingertips. With a soft groan, you sat down, flexing your toes in your shoes and tried to quickly stamp as many envelopes as you could.

“Hey, Y/N,” Dr. Banner called from somewhere within the office. “Can you lend me a hand for a moment?”

You stood up, tossing the four envelopes in the mailing bin, and headed towards the back hallway. “What’s up, doc?” You asked with a forced grin as you tried to lighten the mood. Your boss, Bruce, was under constant stress ever since his partner veterinarian, Dr. Stark, quit the practice to focus on his family.

“Can you draw me up 1cc of Nobivac?” He asked as he scribbled something down in the chart in front of him. “And I’m going to need you in the room when I administer it, there’s a note in the little guy’s chart that says he’s not very good with shots.”

“Yes, sir.” You replied as you pulled the keys to the medical cabinet out of the front pocket of your scrubs.

Bucky smiled at your when you entered the exam room. The puppy in his hands jumped in your direction, tail wagging from side to side as he whined for attention. “I think he likes you,” the man commented as he tried to hold the puppy back.

“That’s nice,” you replied, not really wanting to make small talk with Mr. I-Have-A-Blind-Date-Can-You-Hurry-Up. “But he’s probably not going to like me very much after getting poked.”

“Probably not,” Bucky laughed. You couldn’t help but feel a little light-headed at the sight of his smile. The sound of his laugh was just as attractive, if not more so. “But who knows, maybe he’ll forgive you.”

Dr. Banner stepped into the room, cutting your conversation short to begin his own spiel; informing Brooklyn’s short term owner of the possible side effects of the rabies vaccine, and also why is it important to have one. Information that, hopefully, Bucky would pass on to the absent Mr. Rogers.

While your boss prepped the puppy for his first rabies shot, your job was to try and distract the little guy as much as possible and to keep him comfortable, of course. Bucky stood off to the side, letting the two of you work your magic, and within seconds- without even so much as a yelp- the procedure was finished and Brooklyn’s tail was still wagging.

“All done,” you cooed, placing a kiss on the puppy’s wet nose.

“Looks like he still likes you,” Bucky said as he hooked Brooklyn’s leash back to his collar. “I had a feeling he would.”

You went to say something, but Dr. Banner got there first, sticking his hand out to Bucky for a handshake and saying, “It was nice to meet you. Please tell Mr. Rogers that we look forward to seeing him at the next visit, which you can coordinate with Y/N at the front desk.”

“Thank you,” Bucky replied. “I’ll be sure to let him know.”

“You can follow me, this way.” You told him, ushering him and Brooklyn out of the exam room and into the hallway. Bucky stepped into the lobby while you slid behind the front desk and grabbed for his wallet. “That’ll be $115,” you told him after tallying up the total sum of the visit.

He let out a low whistle and pulled his wallet from his back pocket. “Is there any way to leave a tip for your excellent customer service?” He asked with a sly grin, obviously trying to be charming.

You let out a dry laugh, and bit the inside of your cheek to keep from saying something that would get you in trouble. “While I appreciate the offer, you should probably save it for your date tonight.”

“Date?” He asked as he signed the credit card receipt. “Shit, right, my date!” He exclaimed, thrusting the tiny piece of paper your way. “I gotta go!”

You made a face and hurriedly handed him a copy of the bill. “Good luck,” you told him as he rushed out the front door. “And your welcome,” you said with a frown after he didn’t even say ‘thank you’.

Happy that your day was finally over, you couldn’t help but feel like you had just been kicked in the gut. As you finished stamping the monthly statements, your mind was stuck on what Bucky and his blind date- who may or may not be an alien with six eyes- were doing right now. Was she beautiful? Did he see her and immediately know that she was the one he had been searching for? Did time stop?

“Y/N?” You heard Dr. Banner’s voice from behind you and realized that you had been standing in the same spot for minutes now, holding a stack of envelopes that you had meant to drop into the bin. “You okay?”

“Yeah!” You replied, a little too enthusiastically, as you came back to reality.

“Don’t forget you’re fostering Nugget tonight to make sure that he doesn’t pull out his stitches.” He told you before disappearing back into the hallway.

“Ah, yes, Nugget.” You replied, mostly to yourself, as you were sure Bruce was out of earshot. “The overweight Chihuahua who looks like he ate one, too many nuggets. I couldn’t be more excited.”

After you locked up, and had Nugget on a leash, you said your goodbyes to your boss; happy as ever that- even thought it was well after dark- you were finally going home. you picked the chunky Chihuahua up, making sure not to touch his freshly removed man-parts and placed him in the backseat, where he quickly made a home.

Before you even pulled your seat belt on, you pulled your hair out of it’s ponytail and ran your fingers over your tender scalp. It was the first step to comfort after what you were sure was the worst work-day you might have ever had. If you could take your shoes off, you would. But, you were sure there was some crazy law about driving barefoot, so you left them on.

Nugget stayed quiet for most of the way, until he unexpectedly started to whine. Thinking that he might need to go potty, you pulled over into the parking lot of the local year-round ice cream parlor. He hopped out of your backseat gingerly, and lead you over to the grassy area where he proceeded to squat and relieve himself.

“Fancy meeting you here,” you heard from across the parking lot and turned to see none other than Mr. Blind Date himself, Bucky. Just when you thought this day was starting to get better, he begin walking toward you, Brooklyn in tow.

“Oh, hi.” You replied, cautiously looking around for the bombshell that would inevitably be introduced as his date. You didn’t want to ask, but curiosity got the best of you and, “How was your date?”

“Well, I was supposed to meet her here and she never showed.” He replied, looking a bit dejected. “I was just about to leave, but then I saw you, figured I say hello.”

You bit your lip to keep from smiling, unable to help yourself when you heard that there was no other woman, and that this extremely attractive stranger was somehow still single. “Well, hello.”

Bucky smiled brightly before taking notice of Nugget, who was shaking at the thought of being petted by someone new, and dropped down to a knee so that he could reach him. “Who’s this little chunker?”

“This is Nugget,” you replied. “I’m fostering him for the night.”

“Fitting name,” he laughed, standing back to his regular height. “So, can I buy you an ice cream? I don’t think I said thanks before I ran out of your office earlier, and I’d like to make it up to you.”

“Sure,” you replied quickly before you gave yourself a chance to say no. “I mean, yeah, that would be nice.”

Bucky smiled as you fell in step with each other, making your way to the front of the booth. Brooklyn and Nugget were playing with each other; romping around and play fighting; putting you and Bucky into a few awkward positions as you had to unwrap their leashes from around each other’s legs.

You learned that he was a mechanic, who worked mostly on vintage motorcycles and cafe racers, who lived on the quiet side of the city with Steve, his best friend and roommate. And you told him all about your bad day, and what it was like working in a veterinary office, and some of your funny stories from college.

Before you could even eat three bites of your ice cream, Nugget had coerced you into giving him most of it; which probably wasn’t what his actual owners intended for him to eat after his surgery. Bucky didn’t mind that the ice cream he had bought for you went to satisfying a fat Chihuahua’s sweet tooth, especially not when most of his own ice cream was being lapped up by little Brooklyn.

“Well, I should get home.” You told him after seeing the neon ‘open’ sign of the parlor clock off. “It’s getting late.”

He nodded, standing up from the bench that you had been sitting on. “It was really nice running into you.” He said softly, almost as if he had suddenly become shy.

“I agree,” you replied with a smile.

“If you’d like to, maybe I can take you to dinner next?” He asked as he nervously ran a hand through his hair. “You don’t have to.”

“I’d like to go to dinner with you,” you told him honestly.

“Really?” He asked excitedly. “I mean, that’s cool. I should get your number, then.” He said, taking out his phone.

You repeated the numbers twice to make sure he typed in the right ones, and with an awkward hug that was almost a kiss on the cheek, you and Nugget happily walked back to your car. As soon as the driver’s side door was shut, you let out a joyous squeal and did a small dance in your seat.

Before you could even pull off, your phone vibrated from the cup holder. You picked it up quickly and swiped at the screen until an unsaved number popped up on your screen. Your heart soared at the message that could only have been from one person.

212-555-6789

Best blind date ever ;)

tagging:

@poe-also-bucky @asirenscalling @holydeanmon @brandybucky @unpredictable-firecracker @capbuckthor @flowercrownsandmetallicarms @angryschnauzer @darkchocolaterey @hellomissmabel @john-benderr @kinqshley @iwillendyourlifeslut @malfoy-milkovich-royalty @mellifluous-melodramas, @hardcorehippos @ballerinafairyprincess @bovaria @jarnesbrnes

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mushing1 · 7 years

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| The inaugural Willow 300 is in books! We still can't believe that something that sparked as an idea 6 months ago has turned out to be a successful as this. The Willow 300 starting roster was the largest of all Alaskan middle distance races! Sure...we had our hiccups as a first year race but we are already improving and planning for next year. Word from the mushers was that this was a fun and challenging race with a well marked trail. We couldn't ask for anything better to be said! With that a few thank yous are in order... To the race sponsors including WDMA! Thank you for your support to the Willow 300. You can see the list of sponsors here...http://www.w300ak.com/race-sponsors.html To our few, but committed volunteers! A special shout out to Renee Crawford, Adam Worsell and Kevin Neher who really stepped up to the plate in times of need, especially at SCL. Always asking how they could help or what needs to be done. That's what it takes! For Dylan Lewis who manned the railroad crossing coming into Sheep Creek. Thank you for making sure the the teams made it safely. Sam Crawford/Wade Marrs for the best 2 man trail crew. From breaking trail, marking trail, point riders. You guys did it all and word was the trail was absolutely beautiful. Tracey & Bailey Schaeffer/ John Spitzburg for helping check in teams at Sheep Creek Lodge and the finish line. You all rock! Seth Barnes, winner of this years Sportsmanship award. Usually that award goes to a musher but it was decided to give that award to Seth. Seth went above and beyond for a race volunteer. Taking the work of a group of people and doing it on his own. Seth also stayed in Talvista an extra night with dropped dogs. THANK YOU!!! Patrick Beal, Vanessa Anderson, Julia Deloach for your awesome work at Yentna Station, making sure the checkpoint was functioning and cleaned. Helping wherever needed. It's awesome to see the younger generation taking a task and fully executing it. You all were phenomenal. Jenni/Marianne/Jessi: For all your work with dropped dog care and drop bags. The race doesn't end when the finishers cross the line and you made sure everything was taken care of! Jennifer Evans brought dropped dogs back to her kennel in Willow gave them a warm house and meal to rest in while waiting for their mushers. How sweet is that? To Sheep Creek Lodge, for too many things to list. Your positivity, hard working crew and kindness to our mushers was five stars! Offering soup, coffee and water to mushers at all hours and a warm place to sleep without complaint. Thanks for being such an involved checkpoint, the mushers and race appreciate that more than know. To Talvista and Yentna, for being so welcoming to us as our first time race. Our mushers enjoyed their visits. To our checkers/race judges: Thank you for doing your jobs and doing them with a smile! Your work was top notch!!!!! To our veterinary crew- for Jayne in Yentna Station taking care of all the incoming and dropped dogs. Jessica Winters and her technician Melissa doing a great job at vet checks and Deshka Landing. To our race veterinarian Adriana Fisher and her technician Nicole. Adriana did examinations at vet checks, Knik Lake and Sheep Creek Lodge. We are appreciative of such a dedicated vet staff. VCA Big Lake Animal Hospital Albert Marquez, for the beautiful photos! What a talent! We look forward to you capturing this race again behind the lens! Our pilot, Dave Bogart. An awesome man who loves dogs and made sure people and dogs got to their places quickly and safely. To John, from Kaiser Racing Kennel. John graciously offered to create our leaderboard and keep it updated. He did a wonderful job!! Last but certainly not least, Wade Marrs. Race Director, Race Marshall, Trail Lead, Checker and my personal saving grace! For someone as busy as you are, it's clear that you care about the future mushing and are willing to do whatever it takes to keep the community and mushers involved. I'm honored to be your partner in this. To anyone I may have forgot... You were noted! You are valued! You are appreciated! Keep checking the page for more pictures and videos and details about next years race. Again THANK YOU ALL! See you next year! -Sophie

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cynthiadshaw · 5 years

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#LadyBoss: redefining what a boss looks like

Too many of us grew up only seeing one kind of boss or leader in the media. The lack of representation for other groups reinforced harmful stereotypes and acted as a self-fulfilling prophesy, but would our opinion of what a leader looks like be different if the media did a better job at representing the true diversity of leadership in America?

Women and other under-represented groups are already leading many great companies, organizations, & academic institutions; others are authoring best-sellers, building engaged audiences, leading movements and more.

We had the honor of connecting with many of the best and brightest female leaders from in and around the city and we asked them our question of the month: What is the best advice you have for someone who feels like they are facing insurmountable odds.

We encourage you to check out the female leaders we’ve highlighted below, follow them on social media if you find their work or story interesting and most importantly do your part to #fightstereotypes.

Billie Nguyen

My best advice would be, there is no ultimate, best advice anyone could give you. Trust your guts, even when you feel you have failed. Trust your intuition, even when you feel you are lost. Trust your heart, even when you are at rock bottom. You are the driver of your vehicle. When you trust that it’s a darn good one, even at these moments, then there is no challenge big or small, you can’t handle. Grow and love yourself, always.

@billiee_goat @themoveproject

Elizabeth Reay | Graphic Designer

I’ve found that the best way to face something that feels insurmountable is to take it one step at a time. Focusing on smaller tasks helps me not feel so overwhelmed by the bigger picture and helps keep the fear of failure from taking over. I’ve also found that by acknowledging any fear and setting it aside, I can focus more on the fun and creativity in whatever I’m doing.

Elizabethreay.com @chaos_into_art @elizabethreaydesign

Ann | Spiritual advisor and life coach

Getting in touch with your spiritual side is the best way To face any obstacle or challenge that you may be going through nothing is impossible once you find the strength within yourself .

Spiritualistann.com @Spiritualist.Ann

Alexandra Barrientos | Photographer

@alexandratbarrientos

There is a way to learn from hard endings and to begin again with hope. There are times when we want to rush past the beginning and get to the next exciting chapter. But we can’t rush growth. Through the challenges, I’ve gone through I realized that you should not let fear be the author of your life but embrace the challenge that is in front of you. Remind yourself of this truth and take it little by little.

@alexandratbarrientos @alexandraabarrientos [email protected]

Charlotte Ellsworth | Community Outreach Director & Veterinary Technician

I am learning that your twenties are filled with challenges and obstacles at every turn. Whether that be at work, with family, in relationships, etc. The best advice I could give for someone who is facing an insurmountable challenge would be remember to believe in yourself and never be afraid to ask for help. Challenges are going to present themselves for the rest of your life, but how you deal with these challenges will make or break you. I know that when I’m faced with something that I feel like I can’t handle, I rely on my faith and I seek out mentors who have been in my position. Having a supportive community behind you, as well as believing in yourself, will help you move mountains you never thought you could. Even when you fail. Even when the world is telling you that you can’t do it. Even when you don’t have the right answer, try to make time to clear your head, take a breath and find that inner strength to overcome the odds. You will come out on the other side stronger than ever. As a millennial, I know that I can let anxiety about a certain situation and fear of the unknown completely shut me down. However, when you learn to combat anxiety with strength and confidence, you will be victorious in the end. Don’t let the worries of tomorrow steal you joy and peace for today.

@charlotte_ellsworth

Stephanie Lynch | Owner of No Bad Looks, LLC | Licensed Esthetician

David Weiser

Every day we face challenges both big and small, but nothing is too big to conquer. Get out of your own way, it is okay to be uncomfortable, embrace the unknown, and work harder than you ever thought possible. Be patient-‘Giving up’ should not be in anyone’s vocabulary, stay focused, set goals, take pride in what you are doing, enjoy the ride, and get after it! Stay positive-you got this!

nobadlooks.com @nobadlooks

Julie Dolhon | Interior Home Design and Decor

The best advice that I can give to someone who is facing a challenge that they feel is insurmountable is the very advice that I used during an unexpected and extended season of illness that I suffered years ago. That advice was to set small, specific and measurable daily goals. This helped me gain the confidence and the momentum to reach the end of that hard season in full stride knowing that I counted all of the little victories along the way and could celebrate the person that I was becoming through it all. I truly believe that the best seasons come directly after the hardest moments of our life. Having faith and a strong support system will help carry you through the ups and downs. You are stronger than you know.

@ProsperandHome

Tiffany Taliaferro | fashion | lifestyle blogger | online boutique owner, and dancer

If you’re facing something you feel is too big for you, change your perspective and speak positive truths over yourself instead of believing you can’t overcome it! When I’m feeling overwhelmed or incapable of accomplishing something, I remind myself all the reasons why I CAN do it and that I am good enough and strong enough! I also tell myself that I’m going to give it my absolute best with everything inside me and that’s all I can do! If in the end, it doesn’t turn out the way I wanted, then at least I know I tried my best! This mindset has helped me with lots of trials in my own life, including past relationships, jobs, Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders, starting my own business, etc. When things don’t go the way you had hoped, look for something positive in the situation and something you can learn and take away from the experience! Always get back up and keep moving forward, you never know what lies ahead!

@tiff_taliaferro @taliaferro_thelabel trulytiff.com taliaferrothelabel.com

Melissa De La Rosa | Blogger & Stay at Home Mom

Mindset is everything!! When you have the right mindset you can do anything, even overcoming obstacles that you thought were impossible.

heytheremelissa.com @heythere_melissa

Robin “Honey” George | Licensed Cosmetologist | Educator

@shawndfilms

God asks us to count it all joy when we find ourselves in good and bad times. We celebrate the good because there is a blessing and we celebrate the bad because there is a lesson. It may be hard to see the reason for what you’re going through but joy always comes in the morning. Often times, difficult situations build us up in ways that sunny days do not. No one ever graduated or grew without some struggle in the process. What I’m saying is that character is built in times of overcoming hardship. Its even said that lack is the father of invention because it forces you to be creative in obtaining the desired result. My advice is to pray for the grace to endure, remain positive and focus on what is going RIGHT and not what is going WRONG. If you can’t change your position, change your perspective. You would be surprised at how energized you could feel toward a challenge with a renewed mind.

honeygeorgehair.com

Jerri Quiroz | Rock & Roll Enthusiast and Artist

Not everything in life is easy, believe me, if it were, I would have not had all the mental break downs I had throughout the years. Sometimes I look back and think about how I even overcame these obstacles, to begin with. I have always had problems with anxiety and am easily prone to stress. Which is not a good combination, especially, when facing a challenge that I think is insurmountable. Though it does not mean that I am going to let that hold me back, because we all are going to face challenges in life, and unfortunately whether we like it or not we have to overcome it in some way or another. I am not going to lie though, there were times that I thought of giving up and thinking it was too much for me to handle. However, despite all this, I still managed to persevere. We all need time to break away and just focus on our self. I have many times called a mental break here and there. Though, it does not mean that we must stay in this sort of limbo forever. We must focus then come back to reality because one way or another we must face these challenges. Trust me it is not going to be easy and we might not receive the outcome we so desperately desire. I have personally received outcomes that I did not want or intended to receive myself. Though we might be afraid to try if we do not try at all to overcome this insurmountable challenge, we will never know what could have been. It is better to try and fail than not try at all. As time progresses, we will be faced with many challenges and how we choose to overcome these challenges will impact our lives. My best advice to anyone who is facing a challenge they feel insurmountable is to at least try. Even if you must take small steps in overcoming this challenge, take them. You must persevere one way or another, and if you must take a break take it. It is good to take a break and focus on one’s mental health. Though, when you are ready get, back at it. Do not give up even if it seems too difficult to overcome. Look for others for support when needed and if all odds are against you… do not lose hope. Not everything will work out in the end as you intended it to be, but it is better than never trying at all. Though, who knows… maybe this challenge will be one of your greatest accomplishments. Just persevere and keep on trying no matter what.

@jerri.quiroz

Brittney Carmichael | Salon Owner | Soul Coach | Founder of Shine School

@mistidavisphoto

Don’t give up! When you go through crazy struggles, don’t forget to take care of yourself first. Spend a little time each day to practice mindfulness such as meditation, yoga, or quiet walks in nature so you keep the connection to your soul open even when your heart wants to close. Each time you find yourself in worry mode, shift your thoughts to search for a creative solution and ask yourself “What good can come from this or what could go right?” Stay positive on your search for the silver lining. You’ve got this!

brittneycarmichael.com @theworldbybrit

Jennifer Nicole | Handbag Designer & Founder of Jennifer Nicole Collection

@kellywphoto

The best advice I have for facing a challenge they feel is insurmountable is to do a couple of things which have always worked for me. Fist, no challenge is insurmountable or impossible, it’s all about perception and attitude! If you go into a situation feeling like you’ll never be able to achieve it, it’s over before you even began. This leads into the second aspect, perseverance, which is half the battle. If you go into any situation knowing you can achieve any challenge and if it’s something you’re truly passionate about, just keep working at it and never stop “swinging the bat” and eventually you’ll knock it out of the park. This is something I always remind myself and have done for every challenge I’ve faced creating my own business and it’s worked for me every time.

@jennifernicolecollection jennifernicolecollection.com

Meredith Little | Account Executive & Actress

@adrian.stecker

Many times when I find myself with a challenge that seems too big for myself I do a couple of things. First, I remember this saying “if it’s not going to matter 5 years from now, then don’t spend 5 minutes worrying about it”. Most of the time, it’s not insurmountable to the big picture. Then I take time to breathe, remind myself that I am not alone and I have a great community of friends, family and coworkers who are willing to help. Also, prayer has always given me peace. I am currently suffering from Lyme Disease. I’ve had it since 2013 but only found out this January. That is a challenge that has felt to me, insurmountable. It seems most of the time like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. When I have a flare up (ex: migraines, nausea, panic attacks, heart palpitations) I feel so defeated but I am reminded that I am not alone and that there are people out there who have it much worse. I also have to remember the remarkable testimonials of those who have conquered Lyme Disease and are now living healthy lives. So while in the moment it may be scary and dark, I know that this isn’t forever and God has a bigger picture in mind.

@meredithmlittle

Hannah Spencer | Hair color connoisseur & fashion enthusiast

No challenge is in vain. It’s all apart of your journey, take what you can from it and move forward.

@h.spen @thesecretglocation [email protected]

Michelle Davis | Gym Owner & TV/Radio Host

For me, a continuous conversation with God is first, but many people confuse that with the responsibility of taking action. Being widowed with two young children at 33, I can tell you how easy it is to want to disappear into non existence and hide away. I followed up being widowed by entering into a business deal with a real bad character. My friends and family might call me Wonder Woman, but in both situations I felt like I wanted to crawl into a hole and peek my head out when it was safe. Everyone handles stress differently, and what motivates people to drive hard is different as well. One thing I can tell you, don’t turn your back on it, don’t ignore it. It will not just go away. Take a deep breath and then be proactive with your destiny. Work hard at the end goal. As you chip little pieces away at that challenge, you will feel good at each swing of your sledge hammer. When you do nothing, nothing happens! Every action you take is one step closer to busting over it, around it, through it. You won’t always make the best decisions and it almost never turns out exactly the way you planned, but you will pass the insurmountable and feel unstoppable.

@michelle.s.davis @michelleelainedavis @texasfitclubgymburleson @2texasfitclubgymburleson @TexasNewsroom @TexasNewsroom

Casey Colodny | Food Blogger & Freelance Content Creator

Travis Anderson Photo

Just go for it! You never know what you’re capable of achieving if you don’t try. With that being said – do your research. Be smart about your approach so you can set yourself up for success!

themindfulhapa.com @themindfulhapa pinterest.com/themindfulhapa

Chef Stoney | Celebrity Chef & Pastry Chef

The best advice I will ever have for someone who is facing challenges that feel insurmountable is to P.U.S.H! If you follow any religion you know this acronym stands for Pray Until Something Happens (even if you aren’t big on religiousness) it means to persevere through all obstacles. If you give up, you will never see what could be or could’ve been behind the next opportunity. There are no obstacles that you are given that you can’t overcome, but you have to be willing to sacrifice & work hard in order to change your circumstances. It all starts and ends with you, literally. From your diet to your daily thought process! Be the change you want to see, and everything else shall follow behind.

@StoneysPastries @StoneysPastries @StoneysPastries

Larissa Rolim | DPM MS Foot and Ankle Specialist

Stay focused on taking care of one task at a time to address your challenge. You’ll be overwhelmed by trying to fix it all at once. One step at a time facing the challenge by taking the stairs and not hiking Everest.

@dallasfootdoctor texasfootdoctor.org

Beauty By Bailee | Hair Stylist

We all face hardships in life and deal with situations in different manners, so the best advice I can give someone who is facing a challenge they feel is insurmountable, is to first meditate. Meditating can relax the mind and also take away any negative thoughts that you feel can distract you from handling your situation. I would also advise to ask for help. Many people are prideful and let their pride get in the way of being helped, which can block someone who really wants to make an impact in their life!! Life can get the best of us at times, which is why using the two suggestions I provided in your daily routine can really make a difference in not only your thinking, but your presence as well!!!

beautybybailee.com @beauty_bybailee @BeautyByBaileeee

Anna Huber | Self taught makeup artist

Be confident! You can do everything you want to do if you put hard work and effort in it.

@makeup__annah

Roma Osowo | Contemporary Abstract Artist

Justin Hackworth

When you’re facing a challenge you feel is insurmountable, the first thing I would advise anyone to do is to pray. Pray for peace through the challenge and for guidance on how to overcome it. Seek advice and guidance from those you respect and remind yourself that your challenge isn’t bigger than your will to overcome it. While walking through this challenge, be defiantly joyful. Do not allow this temporary obstacle to take away your present joy. Finally, everything is only for a time, so while going through your challenge, ask yourself what this trial is trying to teach you, and I assure you that you will be a wiser, stronger and more resilient human being once you’re on the other side of it.

romaosowo.com @roma.artist @romaosowostudio

Azzy Francis | Traveler and Content Creator

My number one piece of advice would be to take comfort in the fact that this too shall pass. I know this may sound cliché or it may be easier to say than to experience. But I challenge you today to hold on to that promise and know that God will never give you more than you can bare. If things are peaceful now and you’ve overcome, remember those days when you thought you couldn’t. Never give up! My second piece of advice is to surround yourself with prayer warriors. Surround yourself with individuals who will lift you up, who will support you, inspire you, your “positive vibes only” folks. I promise, with your tribe by your side, no challenge will feel insurmountable. Finally, have confidence in yourself and believe that you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you! You have everything it takes to overcome any challenge you may face! Believe it, cling to it! You’re a force to be reckoned with!

@asenathleah

Huong Vo | Fashion | Lifestyle & Leadership Digital Content Creator | Sustainable Living Advocate

Everything you do (or don’t do) begins with your state of mind. When it comes to facing a challenge you feel is insurmountable, you need to know that it’s all about your mindset. Rather than running away from your difficulty or ignoring it, choose to shine your light on the obstacle. Instead of it being you who’s facing the challenge, it’s the challenge facing you…amazing, fearfully and wonderfully made, one-of-a-kind you. What you give energy, attention, and focus on is what will grow. Why give failure the limelight? Failure already gets enough attention so choose to aim for success. Shift your focus and change your perspective as many times as you need to when approaching your challenge. By doing so, you give yourself various “home field advantage” game plans to take action. And if you fail, it’s okay! Failure is growth under pressure so embrace it! It also builds confidence and resilience. The more you fail forward, the more you’ll need that experience you’ve gained to take on bigger challenges you’ll face in the future. Learn from that defeat, try again, and keep going. Don’t be afraid of failure more than being afraid of trying. Action is the cure to fear, but you have to be intentional about how you respond to your challenge(s). And in case you didn’t know, diamonds are made under fire and pressure.

shesweatsdiamonds.com @shesweatsdiamonds @SheSweatsDiamonds @huongctvo pinterest.com/shesweatsdiamonds

Samantha G. Rosas | Creative Founder and Owner of Millie and Bows

If you ever feel like you’ve come across a point in life you don’t think you can get past, just breathe deeply and remember all that you have already overcome. You have the power to make any day a great one. You are a super human and your strength lies within. Your mood can be changed with the power of your mind and the way you choose to look at a situation. Always try to remember to see the glass half full and not half empty. Small bumps in the road do happen, but that’s all they are.. small bumps on the road through this beautiful life journey. You can and you will get past this.

etsy.me/2EsFeU1 @millieandbows

Joyce McLaughlin | Founder& CEO of Official Lady Lash | entertainment Manager & Financial Consultant

My best advice for anyone facing a insurmountable challenge is to remember the last one. Unfortunately with life comes challenges some small others seem to never have an end point. As humans it’s okay to feel defeated but avoid being defeated. Challenging’s bring out dark emotions you may not know how to handle alone. Reach out to someone you trust and if you don’t have someone to listen invest in free therapy locations in Dallas. Remember the hole you are in can not bury you unless you allow it , like your hole there is a way out of all situations. The climb will be hard you may lose ones you love deeply and even lose money you’ve saved for months. Good part is you have a love within yourself that will attract people into your life you deserve and money is replaceable.

@officialladylash officialladylash.com

Mackenzie Berry | Mortgage Loan Processor & Account Executive

My best piece of advice is to always keep going, & keep striving to be a better person than you were yesterday. It’s okay to have set backs or a bad day, but our success is determined by how we handle those set backs. Step back from the situation and asses how you can handle it better & learn from your mistakes. Take chances and push yourself out of your comfort zone. The greater the risk the greater the reward. It’s not an easy road but if you push yourself every day one day you’ll look back and realize you’ve accomplished more than you ever would imagine! Never quit!

4bestrate.com @mackenzieberrymlo @mackenzieberry.mikeclovergroup

Stacie Dahlbeck | Yoga instructor and Hip Hop Yoga Creator

@rkbgraphics

When faced with a challenge that seems insurmountable, it is important to remember that your reaction to a challenge determines how the situation unfolds. Remember to be bold, take challenges head on, and know that everything you need to handle your situation is already within you. On another Note, take solace in knowing that every notable achievement thus far was once deemed impossible and insurmountable.

@yogi_stacie [email protected]

Claudia | nail artist & lash | pmu artist

Don’t give up! Keep going and never let someone else’s opinion of you define you or keep you from following your dreams. Anything can be mastered with practice and practice will make perfect! It’s only failure if you quit.

@girlbossbeautybox

The best advice that I would give to a fellow brother/sister facing difficult challenges would be to truly hang on & seek God first! I, too, have faced many challenging and dark seasons but I had to trust that God was with me every step of the way. I was always told “one day you will look back on this moment and smile” and I must say I overcame my Giant and did just that! It took me not only evaluating myself, my environment but my circumstances, as well. If I wanted a different outcome, I need to change my outlook, along with my decision making and/or behaviors. Trouble truly doesn’t last always. Now every troubling experience I have, I’m fully equipped with His armor because my previous lessons prepared me & it can do the same for you! I have provided a bible verse to serve as your reminder as you push through your seasons: “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”” ‭‭John‬ ‭16:33‬ ‭NIV‬‬ God promises that your battles will be won! Hang on to His every Word & in due time you will experience victory!! Your roads will get tough, but give yourself credit! You are much more stronger than you think!! Believe in His promises & also believe in yourself!

shewhoembraces.com @shewhoembraces @shewhoembraces01

Jo Lam Founder | Project Beauty (501c3 nonprofit) Empowerment Coach and Speaker

We have to remember that no matter what happens to us. We have the choice to choose how we perceive and respond to that situation. I have been through many obstacles and challenges in my own personal journey, and what I have learned is to master my own energy, my own emotions. We can’t change what happens to us. But we can change how we look at those experiences, and when we change our perspective, what we look at changes. I look at every experience as a teacher. I know that nothing happens in vain. We grow and learn from EVERYTHING. It might be hard to see it while we are going through the storm. But look at your life, how many times you thought you couldn’t make it through. But somehow things always works out. We can’t deny that there is always a Higher Power at play… and when we look at this from the perspective of “I am so glad I got to go through this, because it taught me what I do want or don’t want” you will begin to build gratitude for EVERY experience.

theprojectbeauty.org @project_beauty_dfw @projectbeautydfw

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Forget me

You really have no idea how close you are to having to plan a funeral for your own child, do you?

Before you yell at me for posting this on Facebook, and I know you will because you did it before and you will do it again and tell me to talk to you if I’m so unhappy even though you already know you won’t actually listen to a word I say, and because you adopt the “yell first, talk never” policy, know that I can set the restrictions to this post so I control who can see it. Don’t worry, I would never dream of ruining the facade of this ever-loving family you constructed to show the public.

Even now, I know you will refuse to read or understand this and still yell at me or give me the silent treatment because you view this as a betrayal of your trust, even when there wasn't even a trust in place to begin with. There hasn’t been for a very long time.

Did you know that when I was still working in EY 2 years ago, I was so mentally distressed I spent my days in tears and my nights crying myself to sleep while contemplating the best ways to die? The times I drove home from work and fantasized about driving the car off the flyover or crashing into the lamp post. You don’t, because the only conversations we had were "I'm awake" and "I ate dinner".

And because I plastered a smile on my otherwise emotionless face when you visit.

Do you know that the reason why I am still alive today is because I thought of how my mother and grandmother will react to the news if I had died?

You don’t, because in your mind, I am a selfish person who does not care about anything other than myself.

Did you know I came back to this place I couldn't wait to leave years ago because I couldn’t bear to spend another living minute rushing for deadlines and feeling useless for not being able to cope with my work because the managers thought I seemed efficient and therefore showered my with work that I was not even capable of doing?

You don’t.

Did you know I came back thinking I would be loved and supported for everything I do as long as it doesn't hurt any living beings?

I was wrong.

I remember expressing my wish to apply for a cabin crew position perhaps a year after I came back. Someone in this household scoffed and told me, 'why do you even bother coming back?' This was the first sign that I wasn't welcomed back home.

A sign I blissfully ignored.

Do you remember a couple of months after I came home, I got yelled by OB for asking if I can use the shower before he does? You never knew I spent the following days considering going to the condo and jumping off the ledge. The only thing stopping me was the thought of Loki and Toby wandering the streets because I knew no one would keep them if I wasn't around anymore.

You shouldn't wish for them to be gone. They are the only ones anchoring me to this world. Without them, I would have killed myself a long time ago.

Do you know how the way I was brought up in this household by being repeatedly told I am useless and should be ashamed of myself for not having good grades in school affected me these days?

You don’t.

You make fun of me for not having friends.

Do you know why? Growing up, my father repeatedly told me, ‘no one will ever like you. Even your mother doesn’t want you.’ All just for not being academically good. I remember once when my parents came to pick me up from my piano lesson. The teacher told you things about my progress. I remember walking out of the piano centre, walking down the stairs with my ears pulled by my own father, telling me I am an embarrassment.

Despite all that, do you remember forcing me to put on a performance every time someone comes visit because you want to appear proud of me even when deep down I know you only did it to boost your own ego so people praise you for being good parents?

Everything you forced me to do, you made me hate it.

You lost me when you conveniently turned deaf and blind when I was chased around the dining table and whipped for 44 times until I had scratches on my face by my very own father. Just for almost failing my test at age 10.

You lost me when you did nothing when my father threatened to beat me into a pulp for taking off the seat belt too carelessly that it flung onto the car window and chipped it. OB saved me. He hid the cane.

He saved me. You lost me.

You lost me when you turned a blind eye on things like these.

"Not helping someone in need was akin to being complicit. Standing by to watch a child being beaten or starved was almost the same thing as doing the beating and starving yourself."

You are as much an accomplice as the perpetrator.

Do you remember slapping me because I didn't finish my homework?

Do you remember beating me because I went over to the neighbour's house to play? And now you wonder why I don't have friends. I wasn't allowed to have friends. I was conditioned to be alone since I was a kid.

These are the things I remember from my childhood. I don't remember anything else. These are the things that have burned themselves into my mind, erasing everything else.

Do you know I don't have a best friend or anyone to tell things to because I don't fit in? I never did. I am always being reminded by the voice from the past that any friends I make will leave me for new friends because no one will like me.

Because they always do.

I can't even talk to my own family because I am an outcast. Anything I say will be used to belittle me, turned against me to make me feel even worse. Everything I do is always wrong.

No, not always.

I remember the happiness on your face when I found the Louis Vuitton handbag you thought you lost. I remember the smile on your face every time I bought you your favourite ice blended chocolate from McCafe.

Everything else I do never made you happy.

Do you remember me expressing my wish to go back to study as a veterinary technician? Do you remember what you told me? You told me I was too old to go back to study. In your heart of hearts, you believed I am too stupid to ever succeed because I wasn't academically good. Do you realise when YB told you he wanted to study further, you told him to go ahead? Do you ever realised how biased you are?

I thought if I weren't allowed to study as a veterinary technician, the least I could do is try on my own to make lives better for animals around me.

Acquaintances who knew I adopt cats think I am a good person. People who knew I take in strays to neuter them think I am a good person. They think I saved those animals. They are wrong. Those animals saved me. But they are still proud of me for doing this.

No one in my family is. Family is supposed to be the biggest supporter of a person. But no one in my family is ever proud of me.

All of you think I wasted my own money and time for a nuisance. All of you think I am doing something useless because it does not profit me or my family. And all of you think I am going to keep the strays because I love cats, even though I kept reassuring you I will be releasing them once they are well enough to go back to the streets.

You kept asking when they are leaving. I kept explaining.

You never listened.

You kept implying I am going to keep them. I kept saying no.

You never listened.

Saving those cats gave me a purpose in life. Knowing I made their lives better gave me a purpose in life. Take that away from me, I have no purpose in life. I have nothing to live for.

One day soon, you will barge into my room in the early hours of a morning, yelling at me for being lazy and I won't budge. You are always angry at me and most of the time, I don’t even know why. Is it simply because I exist? You will get mad and yell some more, grumbling about how I am good for nothing, how I should sleep early and wake up early like you because people shouldn't be able to choose the way they live their lives. They should follow the way you choose for them because you always know what's best.

Because you are always right.

But I will never wake up.

You will discover me, cold and stiff. Not breathing. My heart not beating.

I hope then you will realise how fucked up I have become over the years.

I hope you realise I never escaped the childhood trauma you helped caused.

I hope you realise how I was still mentally trapped in the past.

I hope you realise all the yelling and screaming in the household almost every day weren't helping. They made it worse sometimes I hear those voices in my head.

I hope you realise your mistake when you said, 'everyone wants to live, but these people want to die,' every time you see news about people committing suicide.

Suicidal people are not selfish. The world is just bleak. No one cares. No hope left. There is no point in living when all we do is create more problems for other people who are happily living. Do you realise how hopeless a person must feel to be attracted by the prospect of death?

I hope you realise I might still be alive if parents actually care about the mental well beings of their children instead of self-labelling them as crazy and tell them, 'don't say stupid things.' every time they express their wish to die.

When I —when, not if. Maybe not today. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe some days later. You will never know until it’s too late. But I will. I assure you, I will— kill myself, I don't want a funeral. I never did understand the need to exhibit a person's dead body for people who never really cared to pretend to cry over and even worse, to take a photo of the dead body to share it onto their social media accounts for likes. I don't need relatives who never cared pretend to care when I'm gone. I don’t need relatives who despised me pretend to be sad when I’m gone.

I don't want a coffin. Don't bother spending an obscene amount on coffin when you never cared when I was alive.

I will also save you the trouble of advertising in the newspaper, because I don't have close enough friends who need to be notified of my death.

Dump me into the ocean. Let me feed those starving sea creatures as one last good thing contribute to the environment.

I will be alone. Like I always was.

Nothing will change.

Forget me. Like you always did. Like everyone always did.

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