#either that or one or both of them is trans and chose their own name
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Rendog’s cousin being named Renbob implies that ‘Ren’ is a family name and thus that Mr. Diggity’s parents named him Dog
#he also wasn’t a dog person at birth according to lore (:nerd:)#as opposed to his cousin’s parents who named their son a much more reasonable ‘Bob’#either that or one or both of them is trans and chose their own name#in which case ren CHOSE to name himself Dog which is arguably even funnier#hermitcraft#rendog#hermitblr
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Sort of a nuanced take so bear with me here-- I honestly think its a little weird that you obsessively post about every trans woman that happens to be poorly behaved. Not saying that Lily Orchard, Sophie Labelle, whoever this Poppy person is aren't doing bad things. It's just I don't know kind of strange that you have a blog all about documenting trans woman misbehavior as a non-binary person. Speaking as a trans woman you come off as transmisogynistic some times. I'm sorry it is. The only people who's bad behavior you post about are trans women. That's weird.
this blog started off talking about LO because i have seen evidence of her abusive/predatory actions to the point i felt worth talking about. she's the main focus.
P&Z came to the picture because they talked and responded to LO's lies about them. turns out they were abusive, as i have seen evidence myself and believed on their victims, and that felt worth talking about. especially since thanks to their videos on LO, the people who watched those and supported them deserve to know the kind of people who made them.
sophie labelle is a big name in trans/progressive spaces. massive even. i was a fan of her work and supported it fully until everything to do with using a irl toddler for lewd furry diaper art came out. i have only ever brought her up on that post in months to make an example of LO having a bigger issue with queer acceptance and usage than with pictures of irl babies being used for porn, so it was relevant.
EssenceOfThought made videos following on LO and then was unabled to continue doing them out of her own circunstances, so that clearly was relevant for this blog. she apologized to both Brittany and me in private for not telling us about that earlier and i have absolutely no ill will towards her or Levi. i'll probably not going to talk about her again in this blog except to say just that.
regarding all of them, i have never, ever, encouraged or supported any kind of harrassment, misgendering or transphobia against them. if anyone has any issue with any of them they can quietly unfollow or unsub. on my pinned post i put link to sites where you can download videos from youtube without giving anyone views if so people want it, encouraging, once again, to not go after any of these people for any reason.
i'm sorry that existing on the internet as a trans woman means being constantly demonized for merely existing. being used constantly as an example of a predator when you haven't done anything to deserve it it's incredibly tought and demorilizing. nobody deserves that. i don't blame you one bit for having a negative reaction when seeing transfemme being called out precisely for that, because so many bad people are going to use that as fuel to keep believing all transfemmes are the same and i hate that, i wish i could change it. for every transfemme that i discuss here i also met so many transfemme who were the sweetest, most considerate, smartest and kindest people that anyone can be.
but keeping quiet about these people is not an option either. it just isn't. they're bad people, dangerous people, who happen to have platforms where they have influence and power over vulnerable people, traumatized people, marginalized people who are desperate to feel safe somewhere. they're bad people because they chose to take advantage of the trust put on them, because they manipulated, lied and abused, not because they're trans women, and if i ever implied that then i'll dennounce it because that couldn't be further from the truth.
these people should never be used as any kind of example of how trans women are. they just happen to be trans. anyone using my blog or anything on it to further that narrative is no ally of mine and i'll block them whenever possible. if there's anything else you think i could do, please let me know.
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So about your newest post featuring Jon's parents, it has me thinking: since your Jon is trans, is there a reason he chose the name Jonathan, which is also his father's name? Did he choose to name himself after his father? And if so, what's the reason behind it?
(This isn't meant to sound mean or rude, I'm just genuinely curious since he'd have the exact same name as his dad)
Thank you, and also I really love Jonathan Sr.'s design ^^
oh yeah for sure! i talked about this on my instagram and totally forgot to mention it here, but the cliffnotes version is that jonathan's father worked as a doctor at the hospital that he spent most of his childhood in. his father was not overtly abusive but he was continuously neglectful and also very devoutly christian; he viewed jonathan as more of a 'problem to fix' than an actual child of his own. he believed strongly that god had made jonathan sick for a reason and that it was part of both their destined paths to inhabit the roles that they did of the healer and the patient. over time (and due to his other complex psychological issues) this led to jonathan developing an intense bitter resentment towards both god and his father; as his mental state degraded he began to subconsciously view the entire world as a doctor/patient dichotomy, with everyone inhabiting either one role or the other. as an adult jonathan experienced an intense mental break which culminated in him returning to his childhood hospital - where his father still worked - dressed as the scarecrow and filling it with enough fear toxin that it was rendered uninhabitable and eventually permanently condemned. he sent them letters of warning in advance to evacuate patients since his main targets were the medical staff that had raised him, but he blamed no one more for his misfortune than his father - after the attack dr jonathan crane (not sr at the time, given that jonathan the younger hadn't legally changed his name yet atp) went missing; no body was ever found and his whereabouts remained a mystery. some accounts even suspected him of the attack, given his unexplained disappearance thereafter. shortly following his father's disappearance and presumed death jonathan changed his name to what his father's had been. he explained it to his mother as a way of honoring his father's life - if he had been born a boy he would have been jonathan jr from the start, most likely. his mother thought it was sweet. in reality it was a violently psychological way for jonathan to assert his authority and independence in the world; by putting himself so directly in his father's shoes he cast himself distinctly on the 'doctor' side of his doctor-patient dichotomy, cementing his own power to himself.
TL;DR he changed it after killing his dad because he has the world's worst control complex and wanted to be a doctor, which according to his convoluted internal logic puts him in a position of power in his own life
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Slashers comforting dysphoric trans masc s/o
So my mutuals @the-slasher-madame and @ivanznetbet have made posts about this before and I found them very wonderful please go read their posts here and here. My dysphoria has been so bad recently and school just kinda makes it worse. I hope this helps some of y'all too.
Includes: Poly Billy and Stu, Herbert West, and the Sawyer brothers
Warnings: Talk of transphobia, mentions of violence and murder, strong language
Billy and Stu
They both knew about trans people before you but they're going to have a lot of questions about it. Stu might be that one cis person who asks weird questions and Billy will smack him on the back of the head.
They will continue to use your correct pronouns and name after you come out and will correct people. Billy will probably be aggressive about it.
When you express dysphoria about your chest, face, voice, bottom dysphoria, etc they'll be a bit confused but will try to help. In their mind you're a guy so why don't you feel like a guy? Billy won't say it out loud but Stu might. And if it makes you cry Billy will smack him on the back of the head again and Stu will feel super bad about it.
Stu's going to open up his closet for you to use and Billy will most likely just buy you new clothes. Both boys have money to spend and will use it on you. I'm going along with the head cannons about sharing clothes with them that my other mutual @chronic-boogara posted about recently (She just got her account back please go give her love)
Will help you bind. It's the 90's so it'll probably not be the best but they're trying. Will also try to get you on hrt if you want to do that and to get you top surgery if you want to. Whatever gender affirming surgery you want they'll help you get.
Will not tolerate people being transphobic to you. Like will go out of their way to be brutal when they kill them. They won't admit to you that they killed that person who constantly misgendered you, but they will look at each other with a smile.
Herbert West
Herbert himself is trans and could tell you were too. He didn't bring it up until you came out. He probably says something like "well it's easy to tell when you're trans yourself." so he also comes out to you.
He understands dysphoria but he went on testosterone before he had a female puberty so he's just more masculine. He'll help you inject your hormones when needed but insist he does his own because 'hes the doctor in the house'.
Will feel bad for you but has a hard time showing it because of his autism. He has a hard time relating to others struggles if he hasn't dealt with them himself so if you're talking about specific things that bother you that don't bother him on his body he's gonna be awkward.
His comfort consists of medical facts and assuring you that some cis men can grow breasts or that some cis men have a hard time growing facial hair. Will also talk about how some cis men had vaginalplastis because they were more common than phalioplaties at the time. "So some cis men know what it's like to have the wrong body parts too."
You'll always get your T on time because he gets special perks as a doctor. Probably also knows great surgons for your top and or bottom surgery if you want to get either. Or if you want to get facial masculinization surgery too. Whatever gender affirming surgery you need he'll help you get.
I feel like he doesn't like baggy clothes and I'm like 40% sure he wears his dress shirt and tie to bed so he's not gonna have any for you to steal. However he will steal from Dan's closet or will just buy you new clothes.
Will be very careful if you chose to bind. He's honestly going to insist he helps you put on the tape (It's the 80's that how people binded DON'T BIND WITH TAPE) Will make you take it off the minute it's been eight hours. If you want to exercise or do anything that requires a lot of movement while you bind he's already stopping you. He will make sure his boyfriend binds safely.
He cuts his own hair so if you want yours cut he's here to help.
The Sawyer brothers
Oh boy they're gonna do their best but they have no idea about anything trans related. I feel like Drayton knows about trans people and will help you explain it to the boys.
Bubba's gonna understand it the fasted and Chop Top's gonna take a few weeks to really get it. They'll never misgender you on purpose, ever. They might be sadistic cannibals but they're not monsters.
Bubba will help you with a nice wardrobe of new clothes he sews for you. If you're a similar size to the twins they will open their clothes to you. If a victim has masculine clothes in your size or bigger they're taking it.
A downside is that you might not be able to stay on T at the Sawyer house. But I feel like Drayton will find a way to like bribe someone to sell him T. Chop Top will keep the needles for like crafts and shit.
They all know some amount of sign language because of Bubba so if your voice dysphoria is really bad one day and you can't stand talking they'll understand if you just want to sign.
Not many mirrors around the house so you won't have to worry about accidentily looking in the mirror and spending the next few hours crying in your room about not being a pretty boy.
Drayton will give you something to bind with but it's like the 70's/80's so it's not gonna be the best.
Any of the victims misgender you automatic death. If any of them dare to be transphobic they're getting a swift hammer to the head. They're also going to be fed to the pigs outside. They refuse to eat them.
#billy loomis#billy loomis x you#billy loomis x y/n#billy loomis x reader#stu my beloved#stu macher#stu x reader#herbert west#herbert west x reader#sawyer brothers#bubba sawyer#bubba saywer x reader#bubba sawyer x y/n#nubbins sawyer#nubbins sawyer x reader#chop top sawyer#chop top x reader
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I have been a fan of Ezra Furman since Sep 5, 2019, when Bandcamp chose Twelve Nudes as its album of the day. I don't always check the album of the day but thankfully I did that day, and I knew before I listened that I needed it in my life. When I did listen, I was sold. I was done. I was changed. An absolutely perfect album start to finish. Since then I have flipped and fallen for a number of her songs, I devoured her 33 ⅓ book on Lou Reed's Transformer, and, like a lot of people, I came out of the shut down times being much more willing to be open about my own powerfully perplexing feeings about my gender and sexuality, and Ezra's music and her observations on Lou Reed from that book were absolutely a part of my journey. Although the show was delayed a few months, I was elated to have the opportunity to see her perform at the Music Hall of Williamsburg.
There was not a single second of the show where I was not either singing, dancing, crying, beaming, or flipping the bird. I think I started crying at the second word of the first song. I am not usually one for being starstruck, but I could barely believe I was in the same room as this incredible artist. She held the audience in the palm of her hand the entire show, and I am honestly not sure to what extent she realized it. An audience, by the way, that was extremely and beautifully diverse, containing various ages, races, and especially genders, all united by the heartfelt words of the star of this evening. Ezra is the perfect mix of performer and songwriter. I may have seen people who are better at one or the other, though I can't think of any at the moment, but I'm sure I've never seen anyone better at both. Her every motion on stage seemed possessed by the songs, completely driven by the music, except for some of the between song bits, where she seemed too aware and suddenly remembered, embarrassed, that she was in front of an audience. "Songs of love and war" she kept repeating, and unfortunately songs of war are just as necessary if not more than joyous songs of love at the moment, especially from a trans artist in today's culture. She was a magnetic performer, even moreso in the way that she did not seem overflowing with confidence, but she did seem invigorated by the stage and the sound and the spirit of the songs.
And what songs! I feel like Ezra Furman's songs transport me, fully immersed inside of them, as if I am living their truths. She opened with The Train Comes Through, the beautiful song that opens her newest album evoking Bob Dylan and Leonard Cohen, and from there exploded into the song that first made me a fan, Evening Prayer. She cracked my heart wide open with Book Of Our Names when she sang "the names will be the real ones that are ours.". I slow danced by myself to I Wanna Be Your Girlfriend and punk danced all the gunk out of my soul to My Teeth Hurt. I reverently sang all the words to Point Me Towards the Real and felt the thrill of Can I sleep In Your Brain rolling seamlessly into Calm Down. I knew there was no better conclusion than What Can You Do But Rock n Roll. When she returned for the encore and went into Lilac and Black, I pledged myself to take up those colors and join the queer girl gang. I put the final nail in my voice's coffin with the line TO THEM WE'LL ALWAYS BE FREAKS in Suck the Blood From My Wound. Before leaving, Ezra stood in the center of the stage and affirmed that the joy and anger had become one thing, and the name for that thing is rock n roll. If there is a religion based on that statement I want to join it. And she left us with Tell 'Em All To Go To Hell. My long neglected, unrecognized queer heart was full as fuck. I was expecting an unbelievable performance and Ezra overdelivered on every mark.
Before the show, I did something I normally don't at concerts and decided to grab a drink. While there I struck up a conversation with a fellow fan who had traveled all the way from Vermont for the show. Talking to strangers generally doesn't come easy to me, but I think I kept my end of the conversation moving and even entertaining. While I was talking to Geoffrey from Vermont about secret societies and life in general, two people came up to me, fellow poets who recognized me from an open mic I'd attended a month earlier. I took this all as a sign that this evening and my life as a whole are moving in a good direction. I left the bar and went upstairs in time to catch Jeffrey Lewis, who I had actually seen and enjoyed about 15 years ago, but I hadnt spent much time revisiting. He was an excellent opener, showing boundless creativity in both songs and the biographical graphic novels of Keith Haring and Sitting Bull projected behind him.
After the show, I was elated. What a perfect performance! I decided to do something else I normally don't, and wait in line to buy merch, because Ezra had more than earned my t-shirt money. When I was a couple spots back from the front of the line, I turned around and saw that she was sitting in the corner of the room, talking to someone. I reached into my rarely reached reservoir of social courage and resolved that if she was still there after I'd made my purchase, I would go up and say hi. "excuse me, I hate to interrupt, but you are fucking amazing!" was all I could think to say. Today, I think all the things I could have said. "Twelve Nudes is a perfect album!" "Temple of Broken Dreams makes me cry every time!" "I wish I had your music in high school!" "You helped me get in touch with my gender and it's made my life so much better." I guess "fucking amazing" is a decent blanket. She told me it was a dream come true getting to perform like that. I stumbled over the phrase "best show ever" and let her return to her conversation. I floated, glowing, all the way home.
Sometimes art hangs on its own and brings meaning to a life when it is sorely needed. Sometimes a life seems indivisible from the art that flows in, out, and around it. I have been riding one of those rare waves of energy and inspiration lately. There has been an influx of creative people in my life and I feel like this just made the show so much better for me. As I said, normally I wouldn't have swapped jokes and stories with a rando from Vermont, and I would have left and hopped the next train back to suburbia rather than sticking around to meet one of my favorite singers. As it is, I had an overall incredible evening that I will remember forever. I am an Aries and this is my season. There is nothing I believe in more than the beautiful two edged sword that is rock n roll and I don't think I've ever gotten closer to experiencing the purest most powerful version of that than getting to witness Ezra Furman sing her heart out in Brooklyn until the sound covered everyone who could hear. Songs of love and war, indeed.
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S & T!
S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged):
Ooh, this one's fun! Let me just list a handful of my own headcanons for MP100 and Watori:
• Ritsu is in love with his brother and Shou has complicated sexual feelings about his father, regardless of who they end up with romantically or sexually [I prefer them together! Their private taboo feelings, once shared, become part of the cement that binds them]
• Reigen quit the water cooler business for many reasons, one of which being that he was sexually assaulted by some coworkers at an all-but-mandatory drinking party. That's why he can't handle alcohol and has no close or intimate relationships with adults.
• Neighbours from Aftokrator lay eggs. My PERSONAL interpretation of this is that there is no dimorphism of primary sex characteristics for their species, and they all have basically the same downstairs mix-up going on regardless of secondary sex characteristics. Either parent can incubate their own or their partner's fertilized egg/s, and though it can be done externally, it's both 1: safer, and 2: more likely that an egg will gestate to maturity if a parent can manage periodic and/or sustained insertion.
• In my own 'Trans Teru' headcanon, I personally like to think that Teru's deadname was still Teruki, since 'Teruki' is a unisex name that becomes gendered solely based off of what kanji you use. I like to think that Teru started going by the nickname [in katakana] 'Teru' and that, when he entered Black Vinegar Middle and officially began living full-time as a boy, he filled out his official documents with more masculine kanji that he chose.
T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?:
I have a lot of headcanons, but I'm both 1: usually a big fan of 2 or more contradictory interpretations of a character or ship, depending on the scenario I want to discuss or explore, and 2: generally pretty chill about them! So I can't think of anything that I would DIE defending that's just a headcanon, y'know? I'll fight to the death about misinterpretations of canon that bother me [i.e. 'Yuri Plisetsky is a delicate waif' or 'Mello from Death Note is a foppish gayboy who slept his way to the top of the Mafia' or 'Reigen and Mob have a father and son relationship'], but headcanons are fluid and everyone gets to have em!
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Spiderverse was good it was sooooo good I will never be able to think about anything else again I'm gonna see it again next week
The whole thing being Miles told he's the original anomaly, that he never should have existed feels like a deliberate call out of all the people who've hated him since his inception and their bullshit
The entire through line of the unsustainablity of maintaining two half lives and hiding who you are. And then DRAPING Gwen in the trans flag while she confronts that gives it such an beautiful layer of metaphor
The other side of that through line being "you have to chose either or - No, I chose both" would go great with some bisexuality on top
So many of the emotional moments were legitimately gut wrenching. Gwen's dad shooting at her and still trying to arrest her even after learning it was her (and if we're treating this as a trans metaphor the forced outting, and her being proven right that it wasn't safe to come out to him) made my stomach drop
Spider Trex! They included Spider Trex!!!!
I think the only Spider who was suspiciously missing was Cindy, but that makes sense given the whole "What happened to the original spider" plot reveal. I wonder how they'll work her in to the SpiderWomen movie
They kept his dad's name change from the comics!
The animation!!!!!!!! God I cannot wait for all the gifs so I can lovingly pour over every single second and detail and line choice of this movie
Also the small references and nod backs to details of the first movie. The glass breaking when Miles jumps off the train after overcoming an army of Spiders. The getting haphazardly tied to a punching bag. BAGEL GUY BECAME IMPORTANT. The comic covers. Miles recounting his own narration from the first movie
Speaking of! Did I miss it or did Miguel not get a comic cover?
The sheer cacophony of snarky jokes when there's a high density of Spideys
I've said before that the MCU misusing the universe number designation and just stealing the most visible one is a peak example of how they don’t actually care about or respect the medium or creators they're profiting from. And this movie properly using them AND referencing the MCU universe with the proper number feels like the perfect cap to that example
Ooooo they went for evil alternate universe Miles! :O Can genuinely say I was not expecting them to pull from that plotline
Oooooh my god that ending. I can't think of another movie I've ever seen that ends on such a cliffhanger. I am SO excited for when we get to binge all three in one go
Everyone is so right to be obsessing over Hobie Brown
In short: THAT'S MY SON. LOOK AT MY SON ACADEMY AWARD WINNER MILES MORALES. HE DESERVES ALL THE AWARDS.
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another oc ask game w ohm ♡
- local ohm kisser
have i ever mentioned that ohm says trans rights
🛏️ What does your OC’s bed look like? What would they like their bed to look like?
Neat, he always makes his bed. Queen size, he always sleeps on the side nearest to the window furthest from the door. The other side almost always remains neat, unslept in. The sheets themselves are a navy blue, the comforter is a light purple with a white design. Every time he has to wash his sheets he has to painstakingly pick his long ass hair out of the sheets, its very annoying. Sorry if you end up eating a few strands.
🐁 Capybaras are friend-shaped. What shape does your OC have?
He's the shape of someone you can trust but is always fluctuating, there's no definition. It makes him dangerous.
🌧️ What is the favorite thing for you OC to do on a rainy day?
Read in front of the fireplace wrapped in a warm blanket. Maybe even bake something that smells sweet and warms the cottage.
🪨 Someone gifts your OC a shiny rock. What do they do with it?
He'll put it on one of his bookshelves, tucked beside several other mysterious items you can only assume are gifts.
🐹 Which would be your OCs favorite Pokemon? What kind of trainer would they be?
In our AU, Ohm is the professor of the Zima region! He studies pokemon isolation in reference to people. His most notable pokemon is an Espeon named Luna.
🎲 If your OC played a pen and paper RPG, what class would they pick? Warrior, mage, thief, ranger, cleric, paladin, druid, necromancer, bard (or other, if that’s not enough).
So this is interesting, I have thought of Ohm as a DnD class which would be a Grave Domain Cleric/Phantom Rogue. But if he CHOSE a role to play? Either a Life Domain Cleric or the homebrew Dream Domain Cleric!
🎮 If your OC lives or would live in the modern world, would they like video games? What would be their favorite game?
Yes lol- he'd use them to destress after work. But the thing is he LOVES horror games? How is that destressing, Ohm??
👎 Is there someone your OC can’t stand, despite them being on the same side or sharing basic values?
I want to say Kaeya but they are best friends most of the time LMAO- Uhh who else.. Oh I forgot! Seamus Pegg, the Seneschal. They don't get along AT ALL. They're on the same side, but they don't view things the same way. Varka has had to come between them several times.
🌈 Does your OC speak more than one language? If so, how many and which?
(Fantasy) Japanese, German, English, French, conversational Mandarin, and he can read/write Latin. I think there's more? But I can't remember right now. Either way, both of the twins are Polyglots. Languages also come naturally to them.
In non 'canon' Ohm can also speak basic Icelandic!
🥪 On a scale from ‘burns water’ to '5 course menu’ how well can your OC cook?
You won't be disappointed if he cooks for you. He's a better baker, but he's one of my most passable lmao-
📚 Your OC has to improvise a 10 minute lecture about a topic of their choosing. What do they chose?
You give HIM a topic and he'll improvise a ten minute lecture on it, he's that good.
🪄 Does your OC have any special powers? If so, are they normal in this OC’s universe?
Yes, and some of his abilities are normal but rare. Allogenes aren't supremely common unless they changed the lore again. But they're not not normal. It's his immortality and transference abilities that aren't considered normal.
🎨 Does your OC have any craft skill, as a hobby or profession? If so which?
He can sew ^^
🌳 Would your OC survive for a week on their own in the wilderness?
Yes lol, easily. He has several times, for longer too.
🌊 Has your OC ever seen the ocean? If not, do they want to? What do they think of it?
Ohm is terrified of water, and given he was born in Inazuma.. Lol. He also hates getting near the water in Liyue. He's not a fan of water, let alone the ocean. "Too vast. Too unknown."
🥞 Does your OC take proper care of themselves, like getting enough sleep and eating properly?
He tries to, but he forgets to eat and sleep and drink water frequently. He's very busy.
🤝 Does your OC have someone they want at their side when they are scared? Who?
He wants Sulien ): he wants his brother home.
🌌 If your OC has a nightmare, what’s it most likely about?
Ohm frequently deals with nightmares regarding his karma. He can get physically injured from these nightmares, which makes them all the more terrifying. And he can't do anything about that.
🪤 What is one thing that could be used to lure your OC into a trap?
Just say someone needs rescuing honestly lol
🎒 If your OC had to pick three things of all their belongings to keep, which would they chose?
Excluding his favours, since he can't exactly part with those. His brother's fox plush, his parents' destroyed visions, and a photo of him and the ragnvindr brothers when they were younger.
🕐 Was there ever a time your OC would have given everything to turn back the clock 5 minutes? What happened?
Stares at when he got marred and then lost his brother in less than 5 minutes, looks back at you. anyways i think he'd do that differently.
🎭 What is the one thing your OC regrets most? Would they undo it, considering how their life turned out?
Going to Snezhnaya, man he regrets the fuck outta that. He thinks about the what ifs all of the time.
🔪 What does your OC think how they’ll die?
Ohm was supposed to die young, he wasn't supposed to keep going. He knew he was going to die doing his duty. That was a fact of his life from a young age. And he feels betrayed that that was stolen from him.
📅 If your OC had one day left to live, how would they spend it?
Alone, thankful.
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I posted 14,612 times in 2022
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I’m officially 30 years old!
16 notes - Posted April 29, 2022
#4
Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: Succession (TV 2018)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Greg Hirsch/Tom Wambsgans
Characters: Greg Hirsch, Tom Wambsgans
Additional Tags: Trans Greg Hirsch, Trans Pregnancy
Summary:
Frowning, he watched his reflection in the mirror as he washed his hands. “Just get through this party. You can have a total fucking breakdown later,” Greg told himself firmly. “You just need to get through the next few hours.”
Somebody opened the bathroom door, and the sounds of Kendall’s party drifted in. Greg wasn’t in any mood to celebrate anything. Not even the news that he and Tom didn’t have to worry about prison anymore. It had all been dwarfed by the same two little lines that brought so many other people so much joy.
17 notes - Posted September 23, 2022
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Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: Succession (TV 2018)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: Greg Hirsch/Tom Wambsgans
Characters: Greg Hirsch, Tom Wambsgans
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Werewolf, Post-Canon, Whump, Angst with a Happy Ending
Summary:
How many times had his mother told him not to go outside during a full moon? A werewolf might get you! It had always seemed playful, almost like an inside joke between the two of them. Though he’d always known that werewolves were real, never once did Greg think he’d actually encounter one.
Marianne had never truly believed he would, either.
Or: Greg finds out keeping his secret from Tom is harder than he thought it’d be.
21 notes - Posted March 31, 2022
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I think that Tom sees himself as Goncharov, but he is actually more akin to Andrey. He just doesn’t know it yet. The white suit in deal with the devil scene is a direct reference to Andrey’s outfit in the much overlooked café scene in which Andrey and Goncharov are secretly trying to come to an agreement which may spare both of their lives. However, we as the audience already know it is doomed to fail. Tom is unknowingly already holding the gun to Greg’s head, thus making Greg one of the true Goncharovian characters of the story. In this essay I will–
21 notes - Posted November 22, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
Last night I had a dream that Nicholas Braun legally changed his name to Cousin Nicholas McGreg. Instead of saying anything about it, he immediately posted an Instagram story where all he said was “Remember everybody, this weekend is Wet Dick Weekend. That means you have to pour a different liquid on your dick every few hours all weekend long. Have fun!” It had the exact same energy as his Toyota Buy A Thon TikTok from like a year ago.
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I know you're totally against a reboot and I think currently they're SUPER overdone, but like a good QaF.... retelling for the 2020s would be fun (for me!)
but just this was not that, his 70 year old mom coming out as a Lesbian after she gets finger banged in the bathroom of a queer Jazz bar by the lesbian partner of her son's best friend who's also the mother of her grandkids? it's like soap opera mad libs!
also like I'm sure the script went through A LOT of re-writes, so at some point it might have been QaF and they wanted to keep Justin/Nate but fully hired a 24 year old to play a 17 year old and they did NOT look like they were in high school nooo nooo NO
also Ryan O'Connell like he already made a FULL 2 season TV show being that SAME character, 20something with CP, a co-dependent disability mom, failure to launch, moving out, "am I unfuckable in gay world as a disabled person?" etc like Special was a good show why would you do it again as a bad subplot of a lesser show?
also also the flashback.... like... how they kept bleeping the deadname, and like Brodie big sin is calling Ruthie that but it's bleeped out just... like... seems so weird? choices just choices, like it's either too upsetting/insensitive to trans viewers to do, or its not, censoring the word (even though you can clearly lip read what name it is) doesn't change the scene? it just makes it weird?
clearly can go on all day about that fucking trainwreck madness
Hey anon!
It was just a hot mess and at times to me I felt like 'are they deliberately taking the piss here is it supposed to be comedic?'
But the thing is I don't want to watch a third retelling of the Brian/Justin story we've been there done that. We got the original vision with Stuart/Nathan and then the US retelling of that and their own canon universe with Gale/Randy. They are both amazing in their own ways we don't need a 2022 one of the same people. Not to mention both the actors and characters of Brodie/Nate had no chemistry and were cringe.
Be original! Be unique! They had the template there they had more poc/trans characters/disabled characters and diversity but then totally failed on the execution.
None of these characters were likeable or made me feel for them because any moment of sensitivity or care was immediately followed up by some insane plot twist. Brodie's argument where he used the dead name felt so forced and was never even addressed fully afterwards because suddenly he was in love with Ruthie so yk let's just skip over that. The ending in the rain with the kiss was a choice it was both offensive and cliché.
Julian as a character was one of the better ones and it was refreshing to see him as a disabled character navigating his love life and place in the community but of course was then muddied with crazy soap opera love twists.
Brodie being involved in 1435 storylines at once where his mother/brother/best friend and her partner were all involved in some group swapping sex partners plot was just fucking bonkers.
I never cared about these characters because the show chose quantity instead of quality and never fleshed out one plot properly. The uk/us cast made me love the characters, hate them, empathise with them because they felt relatable and like real people the reboot were just like a joke. Not to mention the standard of actors were just higher in previous versions.
Like you say there's so many things that were wrong with the show we'd be here forever talking about it. But yk saving grace it's been cancelled so no fear of a part two 😌
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Fun facts that probably won't get directly mentioned in Songbird but either have already had or will have vgue references made to them
Camil, referred to as Papa, was trans! The story he would tell her as a child, the one she eventually told Ekko, was the story of his transition and why he chose the name he did.
Nari likes makeup but doesn't really like frilly clothes or pastel colors. There will be once where she wears both.
Nari does not like being referred to as Sannina. It would be more correct to refer to them as either Nari of the Sannina Isles or Nari Dantesdottir.
Mylo had a crush on Nari when they were younger and was the first person to be told directly that she was a lesbian. Despite how it appeared, Mylo and Nari were actually closer than her and Claggor. He was just a bitch and she had to stay on his ass about it lmao.
Ekko treats nari both as a mother and a sister. It's not as obvious but it does come through that even he struggles to see the divide because of how long she's been raising him on her own.
Nari likes to dance.
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Watched Monica (2022) today, which like... You should absolutely watch it. It's a wonderful transfem narrative that isn't about coming out or being subject to violent, brutal transphobia to "show the audience how bad things can be". It's artsy (in the sense the film is, at least on Hulu, in a 1:1 aspect ratio and has a lot of quieter shots). It's comforting. It has a happy fucking ending. But anyway-
Since Trace Lysette is Luna's fc, and a big inspiration to my trans!Luna canon truth, I wrote out some headcanons for everyone's favorite neighborhood watch leader. Most are focused on her gender, bc I know I've posted a little more about her job before-
She moved in with Sarah after obtaining her degree, both because Sarah lived closer to the city and because her family wouldn't take her back, as she'd used her independence to transition socially and medically.
Sarah is one of few family members who didn't outcast/disown her when she'd come out prior to leaving for university. While not able to provide much support, Sarah did give Luna a decent amount of her old clothing she'd been saving to donate prior to her leaving.
She's estranged from her family, but it's hard to keep contact to a minimum when her work with the District Attorney often means working in conjunction with them. Of course, she remains professional and treats them as she would any other officers/legal personnel she works with. That respect is hardly returned, but she bites her tongue as it would put her job further at risk (given raising flags about the BBK investigation and starting her own community watch has put her on the radar).
She doesn't smoke anymore, but she used to while in uni. It was a combination of peer influence, stress management, and so on. She kicked the habit after a few months, when she'd begun to feel sickly.
Luna's chosen name is a product of her fixation on classic literature, which she's always had from a young age. For her 16th birthday, a family member had found a collection of works by the Roman poet Horace, which Luna has read front-to-back more times than she could count. Her favorite story is that of Carmen saeculare, or "Song of the Ages", which was a dedication to Apollo (God of the Sun) and Diana (Goddess of the Moon). While digging into the imagery Horace used to invoke Diana (the "two-horned queen of the stars"), she was interested in how Luna as an entity often came to represent both Diana and Juno (or, in some literatures, Diana with either Proserpina or Hecate) as more of an epithet. This resonated with her, and thus Luna became her name.
Likewise, Luna chose to keep her legal surname despite distancing herself from her family. She briefly considered completely changing her name, distancing herself entirely, but she realized that it was still her name. Her legacy. And it would be a nice way of rubbing salt in the wound to remind the rest of her family that they couldn't get rid of her completely.
Luna would love to be a mom someday. She's kind of put that on the back burner because of her… run-ins with Adam's crew and the BBK, but when things settle down? When she feels truly safe? She would absolutely look into adoption options.
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We're a lost species. Republicans have gotten win after win, what losses? Seriously their algorithm's keep them from seeing them, ask and they aren't denying, they're just brainwashed they either really never heard of it, or were fed the bullshit version first. Why do you think Musk bought twitter and unbanned outspoken proud nazis? And is currently advertising them to everyone?
They've only seen republicans win while dems are apparently VERY active, something no one even slightly informed would find anything but laughable and sad.
Meanwhile, what have lefties and dems had to be motivated, outside of seeing how bad republicans are? Loss after loss and still Nothing Is Being Done, except by republicans.
Then the vast majority of people who don't vote. Like my god. It's "that's politicians for ya" when no, it's just fucking republicans. But dem politicians just Do Fucking Nothing but cowtow to the terrorists or plain and simple not even do anything.
We've already moved on from Dump and the government shutdowns.
Name one fucking thing biden has done that has helped both you and a friend. Not one god damn thing. "Oh he stoppe-" That's no longer the bar, stopping bullets is only getting us killed, we need to fire back, and our politicians don't. They will run on "We're not them!" And that's fucking it. Like electing children who are better behaved than bratty teenagers.
Min wage, marijuana, unions, abortion, LGBT rights, gun laws, any kind of positive messaging, policing Legal Gangs (Cops), nothing. We were So Fucking Excited and all we got was Biden. A fucking loser who emits not one scrap of strength, charisma, energy, where-with-all, or ability to do the fucking job.
What a deadzone of patheticness. At least everyday I had another reason to fucking kill myself. Now I have to wait to see Biden leave in another 6ish years, or more fucking likely desantis permanently break this country as we do nothing but let republicans continually move goal posts intentionally and coordinatedly.
Mark my words: Biden will cost us the election, and it's entirely because he chose to extinguish literally all the energy people had from the last election. Seriously. The amount of fucking Hope was incredible, and Biden has Smited it Time and Time again. A headpiece. A doorstop. And loser, he will kill this country one way or another. Either by 8 years of doorstopping progress and letting republicans continually win and win, or by letting Desantis beat him time and time again.
Biden Stands No Chance Against Desantis.
Seriously, Desantis hasn't been blasted for his immoral actions worldwide. He hasn't harmed people worldwide in a way he can't divert blame. He's literally doing what middle-voters want right now, they hate trans people, want the death penalty for pedophiles, want education to be sex free (even if it's not about sex but simply exposing children to the concept of different people and not fucking sex) Desantis is straight up more in line with undecideds than boring dipshit Biden.
He hardly stood a chance against Dump. It's about the smallest common denominator of intellect, the shortest attention span. He's slow as fuck, stutters like hell, is old as shit, made no accomplishments in his entire time in office that any 4th grader could've, he has no look, he has no ideology, no philosophy, nothing to connect him to voters.
Literally just mention he's pro police. That's it. It will crumble his voter base because they actually think critically. Sure it's a decently known fact, but all republicans have to do is actually point out that the reasons lefty voters voted for him, are antithetical to his own core beliefs.
Just run a single ad that's actual factual: Biden said he was too busy with covid to legalize marijuana, but he wasn't too busy to make the sale of vape onlien illegal, and then prohibitively expensive.
Point out he's pro police. Lied about being pro-union, and furthermore, caused several trains to derail and poison the water, the air, and more in several states due to his negligience to keep companies in line, despite being warned by the very workers there what would happen if he chose to side with the corporations.
Point out that he has never tried to raise minimum wage, legalize weed, resolve voter fraud (red states gerrymandered and vocally threw votes out illegally, voter IDs, etc etc etc) point out that he just gave even more handouts to the rich, point out that he gave in on republican demands during the debt talks despite vocally saying he wouldn't pull any bullshit, but then did.
Point out that he's hardly a democrat and hasn't made education more affordable, instead just did a 1 time payment, only to those who got a college loan, of 10k, which is not enough for most people nor really helps anyone in the long run. I assure you, 10k is a slap in the face for enough to be swayed the opposite way, biden caved on the original plans of full debt cancellation because he's spineless.
Biden has nothing going for him if republicans put a single fake democrat in. Hell I'll run counter to him at this point. Fuck this guy and his dumbass running again. Once again he's not trustworthy to his word nor unspoken but Fully Understood agreements that he was interim and maybe a trump card in the future if he lives lo- god damnit that's why, he wants a legacy.
This old man is going to put the entire country in shambles for a legacy. Fuck this idiot. I'll be Glad to say I didn't vote for him in '24. Even if that somehow costs dems the elections, I can't vote for placency.
There's no point. Voting Doesn't Work. It just slows the innevitable. I'm sorry. Literally everyone. I tried. But I don't see anything happening. I'm still seeing nazi-ism and a half-functioning old man in charge.
Voting doesn't work. We need to stop paying taxes and revolt as one. Make the handful of fuckers ruining our lives feel fear once again in any failure. This system is embarrassing to participate in, it's the weakest bullshit on the planet.
And not a god damn single soul more will be voting come next election. It will be less. Because Please Tell Me Who Can Possibly Fix Any Of This At This Point Without A Hard Reset?
Not democrats. No fucking biden.
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ok i’m gonna talk about my dnd ocs (intense brainrot) its under a read more bc its long and i assume some people are here for my emps content not my ocs
my fav gal is deer, a transfem lesbian who is headfirst in the closet but her knees r still outside. depending on the timeline, in one of them she’s clingy as hell. did i mention she has a girlfriend?
( ^ she has other refs depending on the campaign/timeline, this is just my favorite drawn)
her basic premise is that she was raised in a cult, being an outsider within, and that led her to escape with the help of a deer who she considered her father after feeling unsafe to live there any longer. she was assumed dead due to a fellow cult member (who, depending oh the timeline, later became her girlfriend after she escaped too). she changed her name both in a trying to hide way and in a trans way and later quests with a party. depending on the timeline (aa/mobs, pk, f&f, other aus of existing campaigns) she either splits with a chunk of her party due to a gaslighty asshole then changes universes due to a spell casted by her adopted elf brother, or she solves an attempted uprising which included a kidnapping of a god and multiple children to sacrifice to a different god before getting gf, or she gets kidnapped by a completely separate cult and then after escaping 50 years later she watches her gf get kidnapped by something that can be considered a cult (no matter what timeline she’s in she cannot catch a break. can u tell she’s my fav)
next i’m gonna infodump about spork bc i love them
(this is such an old ref i could do better)
he is a basilisk who’s nonbinary (they/he, they pref) and with the strongest people pleasing complex u’ve ever seen. his voice makes my vocal coords feel like they r squishing. their parents were killed by basilisk antis (cus bad stereotypes and shit) but they chose to prove themselves to the normies and think they owed them their life. they’re a traveling performer who preforms for money and meals (magic), and they accidentally woke up in the middle of nowwhere and then got adopted by a tabaxi turned caterpillar who owns a brothel and who shares ownership of the child with a snake pirate for tax benefits but they somewhat hate eachother and r absolutely not romantic. they r friendly for the sake of spork, tho
these ones r my only non-“original character!! do not steel!!” silly ones. my other ones r somewhat carbon copies of tom nook (todd snicker the traveling trader tanooki) geronimo stiltion (gerald wilton the writer mousefolk) the jetsetter escape the night (globe the cleric otterfolk) agent four splatoon (quartet the vigilante squidfolk) and you know what she is (witch sydney the witch tabaxi)
dnd is fun i think everyone should dnd if they can
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Your trevor meta is making me realize how weird it is that the writers and cast were so insistent that mickey wasn't coming back, because I don't think theyve ever really known what to do with ian's story without him. They put him in these lukewarm relationships and tell us they're so much better and healthier, but then have ian straight up admit that he still loves mickey and nobody else has made him feel the same way. How do they set that up and then have him go back to trevor? They set up ian moving on with "I'm not that person anymore" and follow up with season 8. It's like okay...who he is now is gay Jesus? Lmao. He's always been the shows forgotten middle child and after they wrote mickey off "for good" they could have taken him in a million directions but they chose one so shitty it basically made cam leave lmao. Sometimes it feels like fan insistence kind of forced mickey back but in actuality, the seasons where he's gone just hammer home that he was always the inevitable end to ian's story. So bizarre how little the showrunners understand their own story sometimes.
Ok. I’m going to be a little more Doylist here than I usually am, because we’re talking about what the writers are thinking. And I’m also going to take this opportunity to share this fascinating article from the AV Club in 2016: When Fan Engagement Goes Wrong. Everyone beware, it contains significant spoilers for The 100. But it’s also largely about Gallavich, the fact that online promotion of Shameless leaned hard into the popularity of the couple, and were up against it when Noel left. I’ll quote:
“[Supervising Producer Shelia] Callaghan’s choice to be honest and straightforward when engaging with fans is admirable, and yet also on some level futile. She can’t tell them exactly why Fisher chose to leave, she is (logically) unwilling to spoil future storylines outright, and she can only speak her own mind as part of a collaborative process over which she holds only some influence. So while many fans respect her effort to maintain the connection to this now marginalized community, others attack, reinforcing that attempting to manage these situations is a full-time job that no one has been properly trained for.”
This article links some tweets and the one I find the most interesting is this one:
“But the actor left. So...what to do? Have them just break up?? Felt way less true to me than a forced separation!”
That tweet is from Krista Vernoff, who wanted to convey that they tried really hard to come up with what they do with Ian now that he’d lost Mickey. And I’m sure they did try really hard. And.... People hated it. Mostly.
Here’s what I think, based on what I’ve read and the interviews I’ve seen, on deleted tweets and Tumblr rumours and YouTube clips: The show didn’t want Mickey to leave the canvas. At all. Noel wanted more money. The show could not come up with both that money and the money they needed for everyone else. The show let him go. And hoped they could solve the creative problem their budgetary problem had dumped in their lap.
I actually think Ian’s story in season six is decent. I miss Mickey, of course. I find the last scene with him really painful -- but it’s not painful because the show is trying to diminish him. They write and then cut together a scene where Mickey is DEMONSTRATIVELY still deeply in love with Ian. He’s carved his name in his chest. He is looking at Ian like he’s the most beautiful creature ever given breath. And Ian can barely meet his gaze. They tell us Mickey is being sent away for 16 years but when we see the last of Mickey Milkovich in season six I think “God, this is so sad. They love each other so much and this is so fucked up.”
I do NOT think “We are NEVER EVER EVER getting back together.”
The show always knew what it had with Ian and Mickey. They leaned into it promotionally. They gave meaty storylines to the characters, particularly given that Ian was the fourth lead on a family dramedy built around six children. John Wells replaced Aaron Sorkin on The West Wing. He knows how hard it is to follow a phenomenon.
The more I think about it, honestly? I don’t think they tried. I think they knew that they couldn’t bring in Mickey Milkovich, the sequel in season six, so they brought in Caleb. And maybe they meant for him to be a LITTLE more viable than he was... but I think there’s a pretty good chance they were just throwing something at the wall to see if it stuck, while being fully aware that the important storyline in season six was getting Ian from despair to a fulfilling career. Caleb was just there as a catalyst.
Season seven if more interesting, because Trevor is brought on and it’s very much... “Hey, let’s do something new. Let’s bring on a transmasc character and put him into a relationship with Ian and explore those complications.”
“Great! Put it up on the board!”
“Also. Let’s call Noel Fisher’s people and see what we can work out because we can do better with Mickey’s send off and people are yelling at me on the street about it.”
Quite honestly, these are not equal tasks for his writer’s room. You have one story -- Create a whole ass new character. The only thing we know is that he’s trans. Figure out the romance from there. You have six episodes to get them together as an established couple.
Then: Bring back the well-established and beloved character for an epic romantic two-episode arc where he reunites with his true love and they run away together and then ultimately realize it cannot be, and say goodbye and it all feels like I Will Always Love You should be playing in the background. They actors worked together for five years. They have a great professional partnership. They like working together. They have a ton of history so there’s lots of juicy subtext. The longing and sexual tension comes pre-established. See what you can do.
HOW do you make both those things work out so that they are equal? You need lightening to strike. And that already happened on How I Met Your Mother. They squandered their good luck and now there is none left for Shameless. I do not disparage Elliot Fletcher at all when I say that for Trevor and Ian to really work he’d have had to have come with scorching chemistry with Cam, rich material that really gave them a good opportunity to build rapport between the characters, and A wizard standing by to cast spells in the wings. They had SIX episodes, a pretty average connection between the actors, and the “these are the LGBTQ+ people in your neighbourhood” scene.
I just can’t believe that someone with as many years of TV writing under his belt as John Wells has expected that to work. He hoped the Trevor story might be good, and was certainly going to break some ground in terms of telling trans stories. And the Mickey story was going to be the highlight, because he knew people wanted it and he also knew that they’d had something pretty special to start with. Which is why people were yelling at him at Comic-Con. I DO think he hoped it might placate fans a bit. But... he wasn’t going to completely close the door on Mickey this time, either.
So... I don’t really think the show every intended to write Mickey off “for good”. I think they wrote him off “for now, and we’ll see what happens...” -- and they did that with Karen, Shelia, Jody, Steve and Fiona, too. They only brought a few of those people back... They brought Mickey back three times. They ended Gallavich FOUR times. Noel is in ever season except eight. I don’t think they wanted Mickey gone -- but I KNOW the fans also made it pretty hard for them not to know his value, so absolutely I think that played a role. But when you create something people love and you get that lightening in a bottle like they did with this story, I think writers are always going to be excited to get that back. They like praise! They like people to be excited about their show. And Gallavich was always one of the things that got people excited about Shameless.
I think they also wanted Gay Jesus to be a great story. But that’s why the lightening in the bottle is so valuable. You can’t just get it anywhere.
#asks#I hope this answered the question#I am honestly so interested in the behind-the-scenes efforts to make season 7 work#and I do think they wanted Gay Jesus to be a great story#and instead... Cam quit#because no#writing is hard#shameless season 7#shameless season 6#shameless season 8#shameless without mickey#thanks for asking!#God I hope that was an answer#Gallavich meta
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Modern AU: "Lilies"
Severus knows Lily is dead before James comes by to tell him. How, you ask?
Well, because she shows up in his kitchen on Sunday morning, translucent, to yell at him about his life choices.
Severus is living in a rundown old white house that he used to share with his wife Lily. She left him for James, a musician travelling with the other half of his duo act, Sirius. Last Severus heard, the two of them are world famous and Lily and James have had a son named Harry.
As it happened, five years ago James and Sirius had come to town for Sirius to reconnect with his little brother, Regulus. As they had a falling out and a difference of opinion regarding their parentage, their relationship remained just as strained and cold as it had always been despite Sirius’ best efforts. While James spent most of the visit having a smoky and lazy affair with Regulus, he met Lily at the grocery store one day and it was love at first sight. She’d left Severus a month later, choosing to travel the world with James, and had had Harry within the year.
During this visit, Remus, who had been married to Tonks at the time with a child on the way, had fallen deeply in love with Sirius, but had broken Sirius’ heart when he chose to keep his marriage vows rather than run away with him. Sirius tried to keep in touch with Remus after he and James left, but Remus never replied, though Sirius never stopped sending letters. Remus’ wife died two weeks after their son Teddy’s premature birth from complications, and Teddy followed in the hours after. Overwhelmed with grief, Remus shut himself away, only going out for work and to drink. The night he got fired from his job as a teacher, he drank so much he got into an accident on his way home, and is now confined to a wheelchair. That, paired with his self-inflicted scars and depression, led to a suicide attempt that Severus saved him from. Now, Remus is still a recluse, though he now works as a librarian, volunteers at the orphanage, and takes the time to have tea with Severus every day.
Severus grows lilies in his garden in memory of his wife, and nearly dies of a heart attack when her ghost shows up in his kitchen one Sunday morning. She yells at him about throwing away his life for her when she was clearly never worth it and Severus yells back at her for leaving him. But while their new living arrangement is a bit stiff, they remember why they loved each other well enough, so they get on fine, though Lily still cries about missing James and Harry nearly every day.
James shows up in town about a week later with Sirus and Harry in tow, saying he came to deliver a letter Lily left Severus upon her death, since she’d been sick for a long time. Severus invites them in for tea, because he’s British and he’s polite, and Sirius spends most of the time staring at Remus’ house through the window and asking questions about him. James holds Harry on his lap while Lily’s ghost fusses over both of them, though neither of them can see or hear her. Severus still hates James for stealing his wife, but it’s faded into a dull ache by now, especially as seeing James is now a single father, though James does assure him that since Sirius is his partner, Harry will be far from alone.
Though originally only planning to stay long enough to deliver the letter, James decides to stick around for a bit for unspecified reasons. (It’s not because Sirius and Remus both just smiled stupidly at each other for five gay minutes when they were reunited. Of course not.) As he usually leaves Sirius with Remus for the two of them to catch up, James takes to leaving Harry with Severus when he becomes too overwhelmed with grief to take care of him. Severus grows fond of the boy, and often translates Lily’s stories for him since Harry can’t see his mother the same way Severus can.
James tries to patch up his relationship with Regulus, but Regulus is not hearing of it, feeling abandoned and hurt since James left him for Lily. This does however make him more perceptible to Sirius, who is delighted to have his little brother back in his life, though his strained and shy relationship with Remus is wearing on him. Regulus tells James and Sirius that he had a partner, Amir, who died in a home break-in and Regulus, who is trans, suffered a miscarriage of their daughter upon hearing the news. Severus and Remus take care of him, though their own unstable mental states make it difficult some days. Working at the library with Remus helps, he says, but still refuses to speak to James and is tolerating but far from welcoming of Sirius. Only at Severus’ advice that he would be a far happier person if he just allowed Sirius into his life does Regulus begin to open up towards both his brother and his brother’s partner.
James stays at Severus’ house per Lily’s request, and Harry grows quite attached to Severus. Remus begins to spend more and more time with Severus, growing increasingly anxious about his strenuous relationship with Sirius. Lily and Severus begin to slip back into a domestic relationship even though she’s a ghost, and Severus tells Remus about it, believing he’s going crazy. Remus shrugs and says he still hears Teddy crying sometimes.
As times passes, James and Severus slip into a limbo of sorts. As James has become increasingly close to Remus through Sirius, they spend more time together than ever before, and end up falling for each other in their shared grief. Still, despite their unofficial connection, Severus encourages Regulus’ feelings for James, believing them the better match and hoping Regulus can find some sort of happiness after all the shit he’s been through. Unfortunately, this all comes to a head when one day Sirius and Remus break up in an explosive fight, leading James to leave with Sirius and Harry in tow. Severus bids them a bitter goodbye and settles into taking care of Remus and Regulus, both of whom are now far more broken than they were before.
Remus tries to kill himself again. Severus is alerted to this by Lily, who has been doting on Remus since finding out about his and Sirius’ love for each other. Severus races Remus to the hospital, getting him there just in time. Regulus is beside himself, and Severus calls James using the hospital phone, saying he thought he and Sirius should know. James hangs up on him, but shows up in the waiting room with Sirius and Harry three hours later. Severus offers to drive James home, since only family can stay and no one is doubting that Sirius is Remus’ husband even if there are no papers to prove it, and by his rights, Regulus is allowed to stay as well. On the way back to Severus’ house they have a conversation about their feelings for each other, though Severus continues to insist that James choose Regulus instead of him. This evolves into a shouting match until their attention is so far from the road that a semi crashes into them, gravely injuring Severus and hurting James severely, though Harry remains unharmed save a few cuts and bruises. James breaks down over Severus’ body, trying desperately to call 9-1-1, but it’s no use. Severus passes away in Lily’s ghostly arms, James’ screams still echoing in his ears.
Severus wakes up in his house, surrounded by the things Lily destroyed in her anger at him and James over the past few months. Lily is pressing kisses all over his face and crying, explaining that he’s a ghost now too, and stuck with her forever. Severus comments that he doesn’t think that’s too bad, and Lily slaps him but laughs anyway, drawing him into a kiss. They stay wrapped up in each other until James shows up at the house with Harry, sobbing and sagging to the ground in the doorway as both Lily and Severus wrap themselves around him, whispering, “Oh, Jamie…”
Sirius is trying to take care of James and Harry, but he’s pretty much a wreck himself, having been sleeping with a record number of men since his and Remus’ break-up and drinking and smoking his problems away. He’s been writing in manic frenzies, mostly songs about unrequited love, and has spent the rest of his time enduring depressive slumps. Remus is released from the hospital and tries to help him, but is struggling to deal with the loss of Severus, even if he has Sirius back.
Regulus begins to shoulder much of the responsibility of James’ care. He watches over James while Sirius and Remus watch over each other, and comes to care for Harry like a son. Sirius loves him for it, and does his best to pitch in where he can. Though his trust issues and grief are incapacitating, Sirius starts to rebuild his relationship with Remus, this time on a solid foundation of trust and truth, though it takes time. He begins to understand, through their conversations about both of the times they fell in love, why Remus chose to stay with Tonks despite his heart belonging to Sirius, and comes to a new understanding of Lily’s choice of James, as she was already pregnant with Harry by the time she left Severus, and in the minds of parents, children come first. Severus is a bit heartbroken to learn that Lily had cheated on him, but is too tired to truly be angry, and tells Lily it’s in the past now. She smiles at him and kisses his cheek.
James, meanwhile, is working himself into a downward spiral. He’s wondered for years whether Lily ever really loved him like he loved her or if she just chose him because of Harry, and he’s also felt terribly guilty for stealing her from Severus no matter how much he loved her. While he tried to treat Severus right, he knew it was a failed pipe dream from the beginning, as he could never truly keep his heart from Regulus’ delicate hands. Severus and Lily both try to speak with him, but in vain, as he cannot see them.
The ghosts try to take care of Harry, though he can’t see them either. As it comes to be, Sirius and Remus rebuild themselves and each other enough to give Harry and James a stable home. Their partnership with James gives him the strength to keep going, and he begins to make things right with Regulus, who seems happier these days despite all his sadness. As the years pass, Severus and Lily watch their family grow. Sirius and Remus marry, adopting four children from the orphanage where Remus volunteers: Luna, Hermione, Newt, and Draco. They and Harry make friends with the Wealsey children from down the street, and James marries Regulus in a quiet ceremony shortly after tying himself to Sirius and Remus permanently. Lily’s body is moved to their town and buried beside Severus, and the two ghosts settle down in their graves, willingly passing on.
And in case you were wondering… (which I know you’re not)
Remus makes Sirius quit smoking. He and James give up their famous lifestyle for their spouses and children, settling in the town where this all began. Sirius and Regulus build a strong relationship that does not fray or break any longer. Sirius is Harry’s second favorite person after James, and Harry makes Remus take him to visit Severus and Lily’s graves at least three times every year. Sirius loves Remus a lot, but that’s okay, because Remus loves Sirius a lot too.
Sirius is James’ favorite person and he loves him so fucking much - Remus too. He misses Severus and Lily every day, but he’s got their son and the flowers to remember them by. He thinks maybe he could have a Happily Ever After here, maybe. If the world stands still long enough.
Meanwhile, Peter has lived in a homeless shelter since he got dumped by his ex-wife Mary, who is a kindergarten teacher now dating Dorcas the karate teacher and Marlene the bartender. He meets Max and their son Seamus there and falls in love with Max immediately, eventually building a home with them on a generous gift from Sirius that allows him to start up his own bakery. Though Remus offers to put him up every time he visits, Peter always refuses, though he bakes him plenty of thank you muffins once he’s out. James comes to Peter for advice about all of his relationships, and Peter indulges him every time, though really he just wants to bake cookies and sleep. Peter is the happiest person in this story how is that possible
Mcgonogall is the head librarian who listens to hard rock and has her wards (Sirius, Remus, and James) over for tea when she needs to give any of them a swift kick in the rump for their stupid life decisions. Dumbledore and Grindelwald are a married couple who grow petunias in their garden and live next to Mcgonogall, since she and Dumbledore are partners. Grindelwald glares at everyone and everything and Dumbledore hums Beatles songs under his breath off-key and brings an open umbrella on his walks on sunny days, so yeah. The Weasleys are the nutcases who run the orphanage and the homeless shelter, Peggy Schuyler is Newt’s best friend and a schoolmate of the children’s, and life is alright.
Yeah I don’t know what this is either.
#snily#pro snily#wolfstar#jeverus#jily#james x lily x severus#jegulus#modern au#it's a sad and rainy little town full of sad and rainy little people#what else could you possibly want?#harry potter#marauders#severus snape#remus lupin#james potter#lily evans#sirius black#regulus black#peter pettigrew#ghosts#the afterlife#complicated love stories#enjoy i guess#i don't know#have a nice day y'all
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