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gummydummy19 · 2 years

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until you ruined it

Content Warning: SMUT, some degradation, enemies to lovers, L-bomb, hate fucking, cursing, enhanced reader, age gap (reader is early 20s, Bucky is early 30s), AU Avengers ft Steve Rogers, Wanda, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Bruce Banner, Natasha Romanoff, Sam Wilson all living in Stark tower together, kind off adopted stark reader, ANGST, happy ending, fluff.

A/N: I had so much fun writing this bhahahahah, as always, let me know what you think and requests are always open! ily x

Word Count: 4318

God you fucking hated him. You LOATHED him. Every single thing he did pissed you off.

You were sat in the kitchen of the Stark Tower, having a lovely quiet breakfast before Bucky had to stroll in and ruin it.

He stirred his coffee, the little spoon hitting the inside of the mug over and over again. You let out a deep sigh, trying to keep your calm. But as soon as you caught a glimpse of that amused smirk, you lost it.

He was pissing you off on purpose, because he fucking enjoyed it.

You shot a tiny electric spark his way, hitting his hand. It wasn’t enough to hurt him, but it was enough to make him drop his mug. Coffee spilled over his pants and his shoes as the cup shattered all over the kitchen tiles.

“WHAT THE FUCK Y/N?!”

“Oops” you said innocently, as you grabbed your glass of orange juice and walked back to you room.

Okay maybe you had overreacted a tiny bit, but in your defence, the last couple of months had been straight up TORTURE.

Sure, your life hadn’t been the easiest, but you were perfectly happy with the way things were.

You lived in the Stark Tower, as a part of the Avengers. Tony and Pepper basically adopted when you were 16, which was now over half a decade ago.

Your father used to work for S.H.I.E.L.D. He was killed by Hydra during an attack on his base when your mother was 6 months pregnant. They took her hostage and she died while giving birth to you.

That was what you had been told.

You don’t really remember a lot of what happened after that, you blocked most of it away.

When you were 5 years old, S.H.I.E.L.D rescued you from Hydra. You were put into a special foster program and were given pills for so called “allergic reactions”.

According to Pepper, S.H.I.E.L.D always kept taps on you, they just wanted you to have a normal childhood. When you got older the meds weren’t enough to keep your powers down, that’s when Tony took you in and made you an Avenger.

You were grateful S.H.I.E.L.D tried so hard to give you a normal childhood, you just always felt like something was missing, and when you moved into the tower, that void finally got filled.

They were your family. Your home.

Bruce and Tony helped you with your powers, while Steve and Nat helped you with physical training. When the physical training from Captain insane and Ninja Nat got too intense, you could always count on Sam for a good old jog in the park. You and Wanda even took some classes together to finish your degree, since you were only 2 years apart and she never got to finish hers.

Your life was perfect the way it was, until he had to walk in and ruin it.

Exactly 3 months ago, Steve introduced Bucky to the family. You didn’t know much about him, only that he was very important to Steve and they knew each other back in the 40s.

Bucky had been through a lot, spending years of his life brainwashed, fighting as Hydras personal murder puppet. It must have been awful. So when Steve finally found his best friend again, you were all really excited to meet him and welcome him to the team.

You remember the moment you first met Bucky like it was yesterday. You, Sam and Tony were sitting on the couch, watching some boring reality show, when the sound of the elevator dinging made you turn around.

Holy fuck. You didn’t mean to stare, but you were physically unable to tear your eyes off of him. He had to be the single most handsome man you had ever seen in your entire life, and you lived with the Avengers for christ sake.

Steve’s voice pulled you from your thoughts.

“Y/N, Tony, Sam… This is Bucky. He’s moving in today.”

Damn, this man was hot. You felt like a schoolgirl with a crush, your throat went dry, your face burned and your brain was somehow unable to make a coherent sentence.

That lasted a whole 10seconds before he opened up his stupid mouth.

“I didn’t know stark tower had a kids department.”

Wait what? You could have died right there. You were damn near drooling over the sight of him and he just called you a child.

Get your fucking shit together Y/N, you thought to yourself.

Tony and Sam bursted out laughing beside you, Steve had the decency to try and stifle his chuckle, but overall it just made your slight embarrassment worse.

“Yeah, apparently now we are turning it into a retirement home.” You shot back.

“I was just kidding” Bucky said, an arrogant smirk plastered on his face.

“So was I” you replied, and with that, you left the room.

Ever since that day it had been nothing but snarky comments and disgusted looks between the two of you. And it only got worse.

You hated it. You hated him. But most of all, you hated how attracted you still were to him.

Maybe your attitude towards him was a reaction to his behaviour towards you, or maybe it was your way of covering up how you actually felt about him.

Either way, you knew where your hatred for him came from, but you didn’t have a clue what it was about you that made him so mad, and it was messing with your head.

You couldn’t stand how much you cared. How some days when the bickering got so bad, you’d lie awake at night thinking what was so irritating about you that he had to be so mean.

You made sure he never knew tho. He never had a clue how much his words actually hurt you or how much you just wanted to have one normal conversation with him. How badly you wanted to get to know him. And how desperately you craved just a tiny bit of intimacy every once in a while.

You were sitting in your room, behind your desk, sipping your orange juice while scribbling down some things on your to do list, when all of a sudden, your door bursted open.

“Why the fuck do you have to be such a fucking BITCH all the time ?!?!” Bucky shouted at you.

“Ever heard of fucking knocking, grandpa?!” You yelled right back at him as you shot up from your seat.

“I have coffee all over me because you can’t control your fucking temper!” His voice boomed through your room as he stalked closer to you.

“It was a fucking accident. Get the fuck over it, old man” you said, not really knowing how to react to the sudden lack of personal space.

“An accident?!” He questioned. “I spend the last 20minutes mopping the kitchen floor!”

“Oh dear! What are you, scared you’re gonna turn into a 1940s housewife when you touch a fucking mop?” You chuckled. “The hell you want me to do about it ?”

“Apologise.” He almost growled, you could feel his breath on your face.

“HAH, you wish” you laughed.

“I fucking said, apologise.” His voice was way more quiet now, but still stern.

“And I fucking said no.” You tried your best to make your tone match his, but the proximity made you nervous.

He didn’t reply immediately, you had no idea what he was thinking, or what he was going to say next.

Bucky let out an angry groan before surging forward and smashing his lips on yours. He pushed you back until your ass hit your desk.

“God you’re so fucking insufferable” he growled as he picked you up to sit you on the desk and moved to stand in between your legs, waisting no time in ripping off your shirt.

What the hell was happening.

“Fuck you!” You growled back at him as you fumbled with his belt.

“Shut your fucking mouth for once and then maybe I will” he said as he quickly pulled off his own shirt before crashing his mouth on yours again.

Your hands roamed over his torso. It felt so good to have him so close to you.

“Take off your bra” he said, while unbuckling his belt.

Your cheeks grew hot. This was just sex. A physical outlet of all the tension that had been growing between the two of you for months. He hated you, he was just horny and annoyed and he needed someone to take it out on. And as much wanted it to be more, you knew you would happily take whatever he gave you, and you hated yourself for it.

As soon as your bra hit the floor, his eyes grew wide, and 10 shades darker.

“Fuck” he breathed out, and he immediately latched his mouth on your nipple.

You let out a heavenly moan as he started massaging the other breast with his metal hand. The cold sensation of the metal on one breast and his hot wet tongue on the other had your mind spinning.

He moved to slide his hands under your skirt and dragged your panties down, letting them fall on the floor next to your bra.

His metal fingers came to mess with your folds and you swear you stopped breathing for a second.

“oh FUCK, Bucky” you moaned as he circled your clit, his teeth slightly tugging on your hard nippled before kissing up your neck.

Your hands moved to his waist, pulling down his pants and underwear enough to reveal his throbbing cock.

You took him in your hand and started pulling slow and steady strokes up and down his shaft, hearing his breath getting heavy in your ear. All while he kept rubbing your clit with his metal hand.

“Im gonna fuck that attitude right out of you, you little bitch” he said as he pulled his fingers from your dripping pussy, before pushing his length into you in one slow, steady motion.

“Oh SHIT” you both moaned in unison.

You wanted to wrap your arms around his shoulders, to kiss him, to pull him closer, but you couldn’t bring yourself to show him how much you wanted him. You didn’t want to give him the satisfaction, or maybe you wanted to spare yourself the embarrassment.

You placed your hands on either side of your thighs, gripping onto the desk until your knuckles turned white.

He started thrusting into you, his hands held onto your hips so hard you were sure they were going to leave bruises.

His head was buried in your neck and his movements were rough. His pace was perfect, his cock dragged across that spongey spot inside of you with every single thrust. You bit your lip in a sad attempt to keep yourself quiet.

The room was filled with nothing but the sounds of pure filth. Flesh slapping against flesh, Bucky’s muffled groans and sighs and the occasional moan you just couldn’t help but let fall past your lips.

You felt a warmth starting to spread in your lower stomach and your walls started pulsing around his throbbing cock.

“Oh fuck I can feel you, are you gonna cum for me?” He breathed against your neck.

Bucky’s metal fingers started rubbing your clit and you were gone.

“Yeah” was the only coherent thing you managed to get out before you felt yourself tumble over the edge.

A few pathetic little “ah ah ah”s followed by a loud moan and a heavenly sigh left your mouth as your orgasm washed over you.

Bucky managed to fuck you through it until he finally couldn’t contain himself anymore.

“AARGHH fuck SHIT fhuh…” a string of curses and gasps filled your ears as he pulled out of you and finished all over your stomach, stroking himself until he was utterly and entirely spent.

When you both started breathing normally again, Bucky quickly pulled his pants back up.

“Let me know when you’re washing that, I still need this coffee stain dealt with” he said, signaling to your cum covered skirt and his coffee pants.

“Get the fuck out of my room, Barnes” was all you managed to get out before you hopped off your desk and walked into your bathroom, trying your best not to wobble too much.

What the fuck just happened?

You took off the remains of your ruined clothes and turned on your shower as you heard your front door close. Bucky had left. Just like you asked him to.

You let out a deep breath you didn’t know you’d been holding as you stepped underneath the streams of hot water.

Fog surrounded you. Clouding your vision as your thoughts clouded your mind. Bucky had slept with you. No, he had fucked you. He had used your body as he pleased and you had let him. And fuck, you wanted him to do it again. Over and over and over again until he grew tired of you, which you hoped he never would.

Part of you had never been so disappointed in yourself. Yet another part had never been so satisfied.

You stood there, in your shower, trying to wash away the guilt until the water turned cold.

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“Arrogant asshole” you spat in between kisses while your fingers clawed at his shoulders.

“Ignorant bitch” Bucky growled as he pushed you further inside of his room, mindlessly slamming shut the door behind him.

Somehow you had gotten here again, wrapped up in your steaming hatred for one another, engulfed in a passionate battle for dominance.

Ever since that day in your room, the two of your couldn’t seem to stay away from each other. Seeking each other out and getting under each other’s skin until one of you snapped.

Today was no different. You had gotten back from a mission, and you were hurt.

You got hurt, while saving Bucky.

“Couldn’t even do what you were told ONCE!” He yelled, spinning you around so your boobs were pressed against his wall.

“You’re lucky I fucking saved your ass, grandpa!”

He pulled down the zipped of your suit, revealing your bare, bruised back. The sight made him growl, he bend down and licked a long stripe up your spine, nibbling and biting along the way.

You winced when his teeth hit a cut. “Fuck! Watch it, Barnes.”

“I wouldn’t fucking have to if you had been more careful!” He snapped back, yanking your shoulder, making you turn around again.

His lips smashed back against yours, capturing them in a bruising kiss.

Your hands flew to his neck, tugging on the short strands of hair.

God it felt good to have him this close to you. It always felt so good.

“Hurry the fuck up, Barnes.” You growled as he took his sweet time, nibbling on your neck.

“Patience.” He teased.

You felt the air get thicker, as if time slowed down.

Bucky slowly slid the rest of your suit off, leaving you bare in front of him.

You felt your stomach turn as his hungry gaze scanned your naked body.

He pulled his own shirt over his head and started taking a few steps back, until his legs hit the edge of his bed.

Never breaking eye contact with you, he took off his jeans, leaving him in just his boxer shorts.

Bucky sat down at the foot of the bed.

“Come here” he said, a sly smirk teasing the edge of his lips.

You slowly made your way over to him, covered in nothing but cuts and bruises.

His hands immediately found your waist as you moved to straddle his lap, your mouth crashing on his.

Bucky groaned, sliding his hands flat over your exposed back. Roaming over every inch of bare skin.

His metal hand found the back of your neck, when you started grinding into his clothed erection, he tangled his metal fingers in your hair and pulled your head back.

“I said, patience.” His voice sounded stern yet playful.

“You need a lesson on how to do as you’re told” he chuckled.

“You need a lesson on how to say thank you, you ungrateful piece of shit.” You managed to snap back at him.

In the blink of an eye, Bucky had flipped you over on the bed, pinning you underneath him as he hovered over you, his nose flared and his eyes turned dark.

“Grateful?! That’s what you want me to be after you almost get yourself killed, you stupid little bitch?” He spat, pushing his hand in between your legs.

“Oh please, don’t make it sound like you care!” You suppressed a moan at the feel of his metal fingers teasing your wet core.

“I fucking don’t! But it would be nice to not feel like I’m babysitting the toddler of the group every time I set foot on the field!”

Ouch.

You tried your hardest to cover up how hurt you were. You thought that after all this time, Bucky finally saw you as an equal, an adult. More than some annoying 20 something only good enough to keep his dick wet. Guess you should have known better.

“God you’re so fucking annoying!” He growled as he finally tugged his underwear off, revealing his rock hard cock.

He stroked himself a few times before sliding in between your soaking folds.

You both let out a mixture of sighs and moans as he started moving in and out of you in slow, hard thrusts.

“There you fucking go. Like you so much better with my dick inside of you.” Bucky said as he picked up the pace.

His words from earlier were still ringing in your ears.

Babysitting the toddler.

He saw you as a burden.

“Shut up and make me cum.” You groaned, getting closer to that precious high.

“I told you to be patient.” He smirked as he slowed down again, just when you felt yourself giving in to that much needed release.

Maybe it was the heat of the moment, the pent up stress of the day, whatever. You felt your eyes getting itchy. Tears prickling at your waterline, ready to spill.

“GOD I FUCKING HATE YOU” you screamed.

No I don’t. I fucking love you.

Your mind was racing. Your body was aching. You just wanted Bucky. You were tired. So tired. Tired of games. Tired of pretending to hate him when in fact, you didn’t, not even a little bit, not even at all.

“I fucking hate you too” Bucky’s voice was raspy in your ear. Reminding you that this was no more than a primal need. A way to relieve some stress.

He picked up his pace again. Your ankles hooked around his lower back in an attempt to keep him there as his pubic bone rubbed against your clit, making you see stars.

Your hands flew around his shoulders, gripping his neck and tangling at his hair.

“Please.” you moaned, surprising both Bucky and yourself with your sudden vulnerability.

“What’s the matter, Princess? Change of heart?” He teased.

You were so tired.

And he was making you feel so good.

“Bucky, please.” You hadn’t noticed the tears finally started running down your cheeks until you felt him kiss them away.

“Please,…I…” you whimpered as you felt yourself getting closer and closer.

“Ssshhh” he whispered. The first moment of comfort you had ever gotten from Bucky.

It all became too much.

“Bucky, I…god….I…”

“Let go, princess. Cum for me”

That was all you needed. Feeling yourself tumble over the edge. Your mind was racing.

“Fuck, oh…oh…fhuh, I…I love you…”

Your voice was merely a whisper as you felt the fireworks erupting inside of you. It was all too much.

Bucky’s hips stuttered and he came inside of you with a deep groan, dropping his head on your shoulder as he kept slow fucking the both of you through your highs.

After a couple seconds, your eyes fluttered open, making you realize you had closed them a while ago.

Bucky was still breathing heavily, laying collapsed on top of you, when the realization hit you.

You didn’t say that out loud, did you?

As if he read your mind, Bucky raised his head. You were greeted with the most shit eating grin you had ever seen in your life.

Oh no. Fuck, god please no.

“Does someone have a little crush?” He chuckled. Making you want to die.

Before you knew it, tears started welling in your eyes again. You pushed him off of you, scrambling from under him and getting off the bed.

You hurriedly wrapped a loose blanket around yourself and picked up your discarded suit.

“Where are you going?” He laughed, not really understanding the situation.

You gave him one last look before leaving, finally making him notice the tears in your eyes.

“You know what, Barnes? Go fuck yourself.” You sniffled as you rushed out of his room.

This was by far the most embarrassing moment of your life. By the time you got to your room on the other side of the hallway, you full on broke into tears.

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Bucky sat on his bed as he watched you rush out of his room. The sight of your teary eyes made his grin melt away like snow on a sunny day.

You loved him?

You?

Loved him?

The sounds of your muffled cries travelled through the empty halls and closed doors, reaching his enhanced ears.

Oh for fucks sakes.

He quickly pulled on a pair of boxer shorts and made his way to your room.

He padded through the desolate hallway, stopping in front of your door, trying to ignore the sudden nervous pit in his stomach.

He never meant to hurt you. When he saw you risk your life on the field today, in order to save him. Something inside him snapped.

Truth be told, from the moment he laid eyes on you, he was a goner. It had been so damn long since he had felt this way about anyone, and he had absolutely no clue how to handle it. He knew he had probably messed it up from the start, but he couldn’t stay away from you.

That being said, this wasn’t what you guys did. Feelings. Emotions. Communication.

No, you screamed at each other, and then you fucked each others brains out.

He had never seen you cry, not like this. And he hated it.

“Get your fucking shit together, Barnes.” He thought to himself as he raised up his fist, knocking on your door.

“Y/N?”

When he didn’t hear an answer, he leaned his ear closer to your door.

Hearing the distant sound of water running, and your wavering little sobs echoing against the walls of your shower.

Ok screw this.

He opened your door and walked straight to your bathroom, hesitant for only a second before he slowly turned the doorknob.

You had your back towards the door, running your fingers through your wet hair as you calmed your breathing, when you noticed a presence.

“Go away.” You said, not even needing to turn around to know it was Bucky.

But he didn’t listen. He slid off his boxers, and joined you underneath the steaming hot water.

The feeling of his bare chest pressed against your bruised back made you suppress a sigh.

“If you’ve come to laugh at me some more, I’m not in the mood.” You said, still facing away from him.

You felt his chest rise against your back as he took a deep breath. There was a second of silence between the two of you, before he finally spoke.

“Hearing those three perfect little words leave your perfect little mouth while feeling your fluttering pussy squeeze my cock, made me blow my load harder than I ever have before.” He said as he wrapped his arms around you, turning you around to finally face him.

He pushed you back against the tile covered shower wall. When he saw your puffy eyes stare up at him in confusion, he felt a tug at his heart.

“God you drive me crazy. In every possible way. And I am utterly and completely in love with you.” He stated.

Your mouth fell open and you felt your stomach flutter, unable to respond.

“I love how stubborn you are. I love the way you nibble on your bottom lip when you’re trying to focus on something. Or the way you frown your eyebrows when you’re mad at me. I love everything about you, and most of all, I love driving you as crazy as you drive me.” Bucky continued.

“There you go, feel free to laugh at me too.” He said.

You were baffled, having trouble believing those words truly just left Bucky Barnes’ mouth. You had absolutely no clue how to respond.

Bucky took your silence as a sign of rejection. A million thoughts crossing through his mind.

Did he just fuck up even more? Should he have given you space? Was that too much? What if you didn’t even mean what you said and it was just the orgasmic bliss talking? Oh god did he just ruin everything?

“I’ll just…uh….I’ll just go…now…I’m sorry I sho-…hmpf”

You cut off his nervous ramble with a bruising kiss. Surging forward as you latched yourself onto him.

Bucky moaned into the kiss, wrapping his arms around you and entangling in a heated make-out session.

When you finally pulled your lips away, it was for no other reason than a desperate need for oxygen.

You both heaved as you caught your breaths, still holding each other close.

“Not so bad for the kids department huh?” You teased.

“I’m sorry.” He said, sincerity and regret clear in his voice.

You leaned up and pressed a soft, sweet kiss against his lips.

“I love you.” You simply said.

“Yeah I guess I love you too, brat.”

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dangermousie · 1 year

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Give it up for the most obsessive evil overlord to ever destroy a universe stylishly. He is in some sort of semi-gateway-to-death thingie conversing with demon god essence and his question? WHERE IS MUH WOMAN!!!! God, I love his one-track mind.

“Come on, man, we got people to slaughter, worlds to destroy and stylish outfits to make, get with the program,” fumes the demonic entity.

Demon entity needs to get it in the neck.

The whole scene with Tantai Jin taking out Tantai Minglang was epic, but the more and more I watch this drama, the more I think they will not end happily like the novel, but end right after he saves the world and disappears, perhaps with Susu left with their daughter to wait for him hopefully. I don’t think censors go for bad(dish) dudes getting happy endings, and even if he’s a saint compared to the novel version, he’s still done a lot of bloody stuff.

(Gotta love his lifting the robes as he walks away from the best rat barbeque in history. Regicide may be happening but can’t get the hems dirty.

Mmmm yes he IS!

They have softened him up considerably as the emperor; in the novel, there was a serious xianxia Caligula or Caracalla* vibe (I am sure there are more apt comparisons with Chinese emperors but I don’t know enough to make one.) But huge points to LYX for still conveying that slightly playful yet terrifyingly unhinged edge.

Pure insane edge. He is SPEAKING like book Tantai Jin lite but the vibe and the acting choices are pure OG book Tantai Jin and I am living for it.

When I saw the scene with the giant pot of soup I shrieked because this is such a nod to the novel where he cooked the prior ruler to serve them in pots because if they ate the past monarch they would always be viewed as traitors to same. If you didn’t read the book, you probably wondered why the random soup pot tho. MMMM ILY makers!

Chicken Soup for the Soul, by his Sovereign Majesty, Emperor Tantai Jin.

Hahahaha

The thing that I really love is that just like LBFAD showed that not feeling doesn’t mean bad (it means he can’t have bad feelings either), this drama shows that self-interest and cold-bloodedness and rationality do not have to be bad either. (And it’s not even just that - TTJ wants to protect his homeland in general.) Because TTJ smartly realized that if he’s a good, popular, powerful emperor, this isn’t just good for the kingdom, it’s good for his independence and safety.

PS He is STILL searching for Susu AAAAAAA!

#cdrama #luo yunxi #till the end of the moon

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opalescence-00 · 14 days

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uhm, hi. I guess we can get to know each other!

I'm Opal!!

- I'm a preteen ( 11 to be exact, if you're a creep, get the hell away from me )

- I'm Filipino-American !

- I have a YouTube channel named Opalescence00

- yes, I am Opalescence from Comic Studio, I am not impersonating dw!!!!!

- I love art, I even post art on my other platforms too!!

- my main interests are Interland and HexVet! ( Interland is an internet safety game by Google, made for the Be Internet Awesome program, HexVet is a graphic novel series by Sam Davies, very underrated too ! ) but I am multifandom, and I mostly post about the fandoms I'm in!!!!!

- bisexual and nonbinary!

- I have THE BEST partner ever!!!!!!!!!! :D ( ily August💞💞💞‼️‼️‼️ )

also I can't comment or message or something because I use fake emails and I can't verify them so uhhh, shoo. Get out >:(((

ok bye uhm uhhh

#intro i guess #TURN DOWN FOR WHAT⁉️#eoic epic epic!!

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captainsophiestark · 1 year

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Being the adopted child of the Jarvises would include...

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Requested by @bandshirts-andbooks :) This is my first time writing headcanons, so hopefully they’re good and you like it!

Fandom: Marvel

Summary: As the title says :)

Word Count: 1,096 lmao I’m incapable of writing short things

Category: Fluff, Humor

A/N: Special shoutout to @ghostofskywalker for beta-ing this for me (QUEEN ily) and for the addition about Bernard lol

Putting work into an AI program without permission is illegal. You do not have my permission. Do not do it.

Ok, so as we know from Agent Carter, Ana and Edwin Jarvis both DEFINITELY want kids

As we also know, Ana can’t have kids biologically after she literally almost died from a gunshot

They would be SO EXCITED to adopt a kid, and probably started the process as soon as the Isodyne/Whitney Frost/Vernon Masters stuff got figured out

They would be SO. PROTECTIVE. Omg, you can’t even imagine

And the rest of the crew? OH BOY. But we’ll get to that later

Basically, these two are the best parents. Ever.

They’re both patient and kind and caring, and the three of you are absolute GOALS. I’m talking tightest-knit family ever

And like, you still argue sometimes, because everyone does. But no matter how much you argue, you know they both still love you so much. It never, ever hurts your relationship

Ana is so sweet and soft and kind

You can talk to her about anything

Peak Mom Vibes™

She’s always ready to listen with ice cream, cookies, and milk at the ready if you need them (or whatever your comfort foods are)

You can tell her ANYTHING and she’s ready to listen with no judgment, only kind understanding

She just loves you so, so much, and it’s so clear in every single thing she does as your mother

Edwin is equally kind and caring and loving, although in a slightly different way

Especially once you get into dating-age, he’s running full background checks on anyone you bring home with his SSR and Howard Stark connections

He just adores you and wants to make sure you’re safe and happy, and with someone as wonderful as you are

He’s also pretty easy to talk to though, and you guys share a bunch of special, unique traditions

Following him around in the process of taking care of the Stark Menagerie

Bernard adored you from the first day you met him and your dad’s still salty about it

Making THE PERFECT cup of tea and sharing it together in the living room as you listen to your favorite radio program together

Sitting and talking together over some leftover snacks, long after Ana has gone to bed, just sharing about your days and your lives and everything going on in them

He is low key the BEST dad, it’s incredible

Speaking of snacks, y’all definitely cook and bake together as a family

Like omg, the level of food coming out of your family kitchen??? InSANE

You become such a good cook just from hanging around in the kitchen with the two of them

And you end up loving cooking because they always made it a family event

You gather together, work on things in the kitchen together while talking about your days, eat together, and then do the dishes together

Basically, you three are absolutely inseparable, and you’re completely unashamed to say your parents are your best friends

Additionally, unrelated to Ana and Edwin’s parenting styles, the rest of the crew is so SO protective of you

Like, Peggy Carter would absolutely kill any man that made you feel unsafe/uncomfortable

You grow up calling her “Aunt Peggy”, which is its own kind of incredible, and she’s the fun aunt mischievous influence that we all need in our lives

“Aunt Peggy, this boy’s being mean to me at school”

“Punch him and show him who’s boss once and for all. Here, I’ll show you the right stance”

Daniel, although less chaotic, would also absolutely kill for you

Pity anyone you bring home, honestly

Daniel’s also a good person to go to with anything you might not want to bring to your parents, although there’s basically nothing you can’t talk to them about. He’s always kind and understanding, and if you tell him something in confidence, he never shares it with ANYONE

Jack is the Bad Uncle™ with all the shady skills and questionable advice to go with it

Ana and Edwin left him on babysitting duty exactly one time, and then never again

Still, he comes around for holidays and stuff and always teaches you fun new skills like how to hotwire a car, for emergency purposes only of course

He’d never admit it, but he actually has such a soft spot for you. He loves hanging out with you, and once you get old enough to know when to ignore his bad ideas, he’s on babysitting/chaperone/whatever else duty whenever Ana and Edwin let him take it

One time when Ana and Edwin couldn’t make it to be chaperones on a school trip, Jack volunteered to take their place, and it was an adventure to say the least. But that’s a different fic.

Howard has no idea how to handle kids, but he ends up absolutely loving you

Low key, you’re the reason he decides to have Tony after he gets serious with Maria

It’s just so FUN for him to have a kid around to pass knowledge on to and to share lab time with and everything else that goes with having a science child

Whenever you spend time with him, Ana and Jarvis pick up a few gray hairs from the new information he’s given you that can easily be put to use in terms of mischief

Like Jack, Howard is only allowed to babysit once or twice before Ana and Edwin realize it’s definitely not worth the trouble that comes after a babysitting session

With all your extended family at the SSR and Stark Industries, however, no matter how infrequently they babysit, you are SO. LOVED.

You’re the first kid brought into the mix, and everyone absolutely adores you

And you know you have at least 5 other parents who are hovering around you and ready and willing to help with any little thing besides your actual parents

But as much as that’s a wonderful thing to have, you don’t really need them, because Ana and Edwin are the best parents you could’ve asked for

They’re wonderful, even when you have challenging patches, and you love them more than you could ever express

The three of you are such a loving, tight-knit family, and you’re absolute goals for everyone else

Basically, being an adopted child of the Jarvises is a dream come true, to the same degree that you’re a dream come true for them to have as a child

They love you no matter what and they have your back through everything

Even if it’s not by blood, you’re a Jarvis to the core, and absolutely nothing could ever tell you otherwise

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Marvel Taglist: @valkyriepirate

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crvwly · 8 months

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🛠What tools/programs/apps do you use to write?

YIPPEE I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD ASK THIS

i use such a very special tool for writing - because of my general upbringing and traumatic school years i tend to associate word documents / google docs with tasks that cause me a lot of frustration, energy depletion, confusion, etc, so writing on the computer is a very arduous task for me, i was always a notebook kid and used to keep dozens of comp books strewn around my apartment and loose pieces of paper were shoved into every crevice of my coat pockets and bags and couch cushions and i constantly lost bits of writing and had to type it all up by hand excruciatingly until FUCKING FINALLY

i was gifted the most incredible piece of technology (@universal-gay and @amextris i think about how grateful i am to you literally weekly for this gift, ILY BABIES) in existence which is my best friend for writing and also just one of the coolest tools i have ever used

the remarkable tablet

(not my picture)

i have written novel-length fanfiction by hand on this tablet and IT CONVERTS IT ALL TO TEXT FOR ME

it's the single best piece of technology in existence and i'll die on this hill. it's so adhd friendly, the interface is so easy to learn, you can use the notebooks in so many different ways - you can even type on it if you're determined !!

anyway this got so long i just love this fuckin tablet so much bruh it changed the way my brain works fr

Fanfic Writer Emoji Ask !

#chthonicrose #asks #i love my special rectangle

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moonjxsung · 1 month

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ALSKDKDJF OKAYYY !!! I’m glad it’s not a bother !!! I overthink sometimes alskdkjf

urgh so I am having A WEEK :( I hope it’s okay I rant a bit … alslkskdj

helurf okay so after midterms last week, I’ve been trying to like relax and give myself time to rest but IVE HAD SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS :((( and I’m so tired and burnt out and stressed cause I need to start studying for finals and ahhhhhh alsksjjdjf :(

okay now for some more fun updates!! i had fun at uni yesterday!! we had a super fun soil science lab we got to go into soil pits on the farm our campus has and analyze soil (ph, diagnostic horizons, colour, structure, texture etc) !! It was a lot of fun I’m gonna miss the class and my prof :( (it was my last lab)

another fun thing is its art market week at my uni so time to drop a ton of money on prints, stickers and crocheted animals !!! :D

AND okay so I made it into a special like abroad research kinda program/course in like that’s usually only available to upper years students but somehow I made it in alskkskdjdj . Anyways, we get to go to South Africa from like May 14-June 9 to do research and stuff in the field!!! and like IM SO EXCITED??? So anyways, the 19 students that also made it in (it’s a highly competitive program to get into) we had our second group meet up plus our prof (who taught my favourite class by far last term) yesterday and it was a lot of fun and we got free dinner which was super super yum and I can’t believe I’m actually going ahhhhh

and then I went to a friends house for dinner (yes, dinner again) which was fun we like catch up at least once a month and yeah

Anyways sorry for the truck load of information about my life weh

HOW IS YOUR LIFE STAR!!! I WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOU!! (With whatever ur feeling comfy sharing 💗)

🌱

UGH I always forget how close together exam season is WHYYYY ARE UR FINALS ALREADY RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER….. 💔💔 I believe in you angel manifesting all the best for you frfr you’re smart I know you got this 🫶🫶🫶🫶

AHHHH UR UNI LAB SOUNDED SO FUN I love labs where you just get to go outside and do stuff in nature it’s fr so healing 👼 I took a geology course in college where we got to go to this creek near my school and like test the ph balance of the water and it was so much fun being outside instead of cooped up in the lecture hall fr one of the best labs we ever did. AND the art market this week???? RAHHH HAVE SO MUCH FUN we used to have something similar at my uni and I would drop SO much on stickers not even joking my laptop is covered in them still :’)

ALSO OH MY GOD??? TO THE STUDY ABROAD PROGRAM?????? STOP THAT SOUNDS SO FIXKIFNT FUNNNNN IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU WYAHWJDNRJ CONGRATS ON GETTING IN BB ‼️‼️ I didn’t have to do study abroad when I was in college bc covid hit but I can’t wait to hear all about yours and live vicariously thru ur updates AHHHH and it’s coming up so soon !! WOWOWOWOW HAVE THE BEST TIME ILY ILY THATS SO FUN

My day was honestly vvvvv boring but it was productive! I had work and then I had a shit ton of laundry to do but I was tired as fuck and I have cramps bc my period started today so I got coffee first to wake me up and then after cleaning the apartment I caught up on Ateez vlogs and now I’m simultaneously writing and watching Zelda gameplay 👼 I think my emotions are like ten times worse rn because of my period so I’m just taking it easy but I have a huge party to go to this weekend and a lot of my friends are gonna be there so I need to get my shit together and stop being sad bc I don’t want to bring the mood down ☹️ why do I always have a party in the same week I feel like shit LOL the last time I had one my situationship and I got into a huge fight and my sister had to be checking on me like every 5 minutes bc I was borderline crying the whole night it was so embarrassing 😭 (I am so tired of crying over this same girl oh my god)

ANYWAYS I LOVE U ANGEL IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND I CANT WAIT TO HEAR ALL ABOUT UR STUDY ABROAD TRIP RAHHH THATS SO EXCITING CONGRATS AGAIN ILY ILY 🩷💖💞💘💕💓👼

#🌱 anon #ask

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bastardbvby · 2 years

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i’ve been in a slump for the day but im starting to feel better so i wanna share some good things that have happened recently or are upcoming :] im going to my first ever influencer event this friday (by myself so slight anxiety but hopefully it’ll be fun), i reached 150 followers on pinterest which felt super !!!!!!!! thanks to everyone who followed ily, i was accepted into the clinique ambassador program (im gonna have money for groceries who cheered), college fashionista reposted me on their ig and are going to feature me in their email newsletter which. no fawking words to describe how happy that made me, and whenever i do sign a lease im going to be living with my best friend again and that makes me very happy <3

#i was so sad earlier and still have a god damn migraine from crying adfhfjf but i calmed down (edible) and now im just thinking of all the #great things that are gonna be happening in the next few weeks that im genuinely excited for so :]#hope everyone else has good things happening for them <3333 #also my tiktok was super stagnant in terms of growth but it finally kicked up again today and that made me smile

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pinespittinink · 2 years

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✨ FIND THE WORD TAG 🔍

@baroquesse tagged me in this, thank youuu! my words were grace, corner, lift, end, type

🔎 GRACE 🔍 THE GREAT GLAVENISEAN THEATER

“Does Ariel ever come to these parties?” I ask, curiosity a small bubble through me, powered by the picture Travis painted of an enigmatic prima donna.

“Sometimes,” Seonghwa replies, his smile benign and lazy.

Christina scoffs, jostling Diedre’s fawnish figure slumped in her lap. “Whenever they deign to grace us with their presence,” she says. “She shows her face when she feels like it, which isn’t very often at all.”

“Unless Zachary has them tied up,” Travis replies with a smirk.

“They aren’t half the item you think they are,” Seonghwa says easily, batting a hand back at Travis’s face like a man chastising a kitten nosing at a plate.

🔎 CORNER 🔍 THE GREAT GLAVENISEAN THEATER

It doesn’t take me too long poking around the fringe streets to backtrack to where I had left the afterparty in that ungodly hour of morning. The entire experience still feels half a hazy dream, but there was glitter in my hair this morning when I unstuck the corner of my mouth from my pillow, and a rancid taste in the back of my throat that I did my best to wash free before grabbing my portfolio and heading out. And isn’t the greatest proof of it that I am here now, peering up at the back of the theater, portfolio in hand and sun searing, rather than walking into the cool department stores of Lisa Rollins?

🔎 LIFT 🔍 THE GREAT GLAVENISEAN THEATER

I cannot help the way my eyes widen at the sight, program clutched in my hand, the immense belly of the house teaming like a hive buzzing with conversation. The music is spilling from the pit orchestra cloistered before the foot of the stage, an entire brigade of ushers bustling about directing guests to their seats and guiding them up carpeted staircases to the double-tiered balcony booths framing the house in a gibbous curve. I lift my gaze to the ceiling, mouth parting in awe at the darkened paintings depicting midnight gardens, rays of light spreading out from the ceiling above the bow of the stage, filled with depictions of exotic flocking birds, frozen in flight.

🔎 END 🔍 THE GREAT GLAVENISEAN THEATER

“The doors of the house and the lobby will be closed throughout the duration of the show. They will remain closed until the end, and will not open until that time. Our wonderful staff is here to assist you in any way you may need, though we must impress upon you the importance that you do not leave your seats at any moment, for respect of the cast and crew, and your own safety.”

🔎 TYPE 🔍 THE MOON THAT BREAKS THE NIGHT {wishlines vampire fic}

Harper is sat on a kitchen chair tugged over to the same side of the couch as their unfortunate guest, a bitten expression tugged between his lips, dark brow furrowed. He casts Emerson an uneasy look, mouth drawn into a thin line.

“They didn’t like the needle at all,” he says, jerking his head to indicate the thin tubing taped to the stranger’s arm, a slim garnet vein pumping softly from an elevated bag of Type O.

Emerson feels his brows draw together.

“What do you mean?” he asks, coming to sit down on the nearest corner of the second vacant couch. “Did they wake up?”

Harper shakes his head, shooing away the pincushion that’s been bobbing near his ear like an overgrown bumblebee.

tagging this time: @bebewrites, @nectargrapes, @equusgirl-writes, @botanistweak, and @jezifster (also @sentfromwolves ily, you can always do these)

🌴your words are: echo, mouth, work, warm, white 📝

#tag memes #my writing #the great glavenisean theater #love these thinnnngs #also if you ever want to be tagged in these let me know you can reply on this post if you want #two back to back PHEW

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themidnightpanda · 3 years

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So this one took a week and Im uploading immediately after I finished drawing it

So yknow how I drew myself and my anti-self a while back? Me and Feral? So the two of us had a chat that started with “what if, theoretically, we could fuse into one being”. The conversation ended with the start of this thing’s character design.

Before you ask, yeah, I’m aware the legs look kinda wrong and how the hair doesn’t have actual hair texture and how fingers probably shouldnt work like they do for the hand thats holding the fancy fireball thats actually just a bunch of magical smoke. Thats all on purpose - after all, this is a being of chaos at its highest power, of course we’d stop listening to how humanoids should look, right?

Anyways, at some point in the future I plan on making this thing a reference sheet because I am definitely commissioning people to draw it later on, its probably gonna become my new online persona, if only because of the design, which I will go into deeper details about now, if anyones interested

First things first, the shoes. Because what being has any percent of being me in it without my signature shoes that I designed in 8th grade by accident and am reclaiming lately. Changed the colors a bit, added more details to them, and now I’m working on making them into real, actual shoes I can wear irl, because I am a nerd with a need to cosplay as my art sometimes (which is why I have a lot of my art of myself having me wearing clothes I already own, though this piece was really just me going “whatever” on the design and disregarding what is probably doable in some places). The stars aren’t printed or stitched on, actually - those are custom buttons with thick thread stitching them on, so they’re definitively firmer than the fabric shoes. Yes, the fronts of the shoes have indents to look sorta like animal paws - that is actually the specific way I draw lion paws, btw. I also draw panda paws similarly, though those are a bit more blob-looking... my two favorite animals are my name, yes, what of it. Last detail in the shoes is how the soles have my initials! The one visible has the P on it, and the other has F on. Also, yes, winged shoes. that’s like one of the 3 things I kept from the original design, along with the black soles and the heart tip for the... oh, no, I forgot what its called. I’m tired and my brain is a mush of colors, but the bit in gold, that’s also in the original design (though, then it was actually white and only the edges were gold)

Next up I gotta talk about that jacket, mostly because it just sorta happened by accident. It was meant to be a plain black jacket with the map inside of it, but then I remembered my love for fluffy collars, and while drawing it I just happened to accidentally use the wrong texture brush on it by accident,,,, and one thing lead to another and now the edges look like they’re fading into leaves with stars and bubbles and other such stuff that’s probably gonna change at some point, though I do love the idea of the bubbles floating on the jacket constantly. Yes, the jacket is oversized, the sleeves are scrunched up but it gets really floaty, which is intentional because then you can see the map on the underside. Speaking of, I had a huge problem when I got to that part of the design because I needed a map of one of my worlds - and none of the universes I create are stable enough to be mapped out, so I had to pick one and make a map for it - I ended up going with Eternalion, which is a world where everything is just... floating islands full of monsters, and the issue is that the islands constantly move, so only their shape (and for some, the places they meet, because there’s a group of tiny islands that are always together, and the mainland has another country off-shore that’s connected via bridges, and two other continents that are always together because they both have the theme for being super easy to get lost in for eternity), so that’s another thing about this piece that’s bound to move around between drawings, since the islands move in the world, they’ll also move on the map.

The shirt is one I actually have, I wanted somewhat simple stuff. It’s also a direct callback to the pieces with me and Feral, because my jacket was green and tehir background was also in this same area. Other things I’ve taken from real life are the phone (yes I have a blue phone I love that fact way too much) and my glasses, though my frame is a bit more round, but I didn’t want it to cut into the eyes.

The belt is actually directly taken from my OC I had when I was 7, whose name was Laila MoonValley who was a half-cat, half-bat, half-human queen of reality... I really haven’t changed much since. But the buckle that’s just a half moon is definitely from the original design of my first ever OC, so, there’s a fun fact.

The wings are actually probably my signature thing every time I draw myself. White feathers with golden edges, I literally used to go by “Goldfeathers” in 8th grade, it was cringe and I’m kinda over it, but the entire thing with the wings is, again, based on real life, because why not. Except mine are purely feathered, but I figured, why not add a bit of dragon-looking wings, so the tips are sorta dragon/bat like. Because why not.

The tail is... I honestly don’t know, but Feral insisted so why not. The ears, once again callback to my old OC and her cat ears. The other ears, the ones that look like wings, are sorta based on Fae ears, but not really? Like, its supposed to look kinda like it but also definitively like wings, so idk, wings for ears is fun.

The hair doesn’t work like hair, but my hair does work like that - it reflects the sun and gathers dust and stuff like its made of plastic, so, I took that to an extreme. The fingers are actually just how I draw demon-looking fingers - or, used to, at least. it’s been a while since I’ve drawn any demonic beings, so, idk.

The orb! It has a galaxy in it, because why not, and is also once again direct callback to the two pieces with me and Feral holding orbs ourselves. Except for some reason I went “it’d be cool if there were birds inside this one”, though I dont think they’re very visible anymore.... The eyes are also direct callback to our pieces - the actual color bit is in my shade of green, with the tiny bit of gold from my eyes, too. The pure black thing is actually supposed to look like the eyes are just sockets and so are the black trails coming from them, and that’s also what it should have looked like on Feral, theoretically.

The halo is just leaning on the angel vibe with the wings, while also having some semblance to my crown... except on the opposite side :) And the fire-looking thing, it’s actually smoke/fog, and there’s feathers in there. It’s magic, I don’t know much about what it was beyond “it looks cool so we’re doing it”. Oops.

The glowing wisp things are just a purple version of the glowing wisps from my piece - the one that’s my pfp, where, if you look, the wisps also form the wing-like ears! It’s gone full circle... or whatever. It’s been two weeks, idk if it really counts as long enough to warrant that phrase.

Not much to say about the background, I just wanted a light source from behing bc the last two pieces had a light from the front and I just wanted to try something new (as though this entire piece wasn’t an entire experiment in and of itself... oof). That’s a sun right there if it wasn’t obvious. Also the handwriting I used for that “oh?” was. so fun to make up. Its a combination of my fancier handwriting, my signature’s font (”font”, I just add stars a lot and use my fancy handwriting everywhere else) and adding a bit of flare by connecting the question mark with the h. I’d have said I made it up on the spot, but the O had a star even in my sketch, so, idk, it was mostly improv in this one, just had a vague idea and it went out of my hands... and took like a week to be made, this was supposed to take less but I got carried away... ^^”

#art #digital art #why is art so hard #this one took a week dear gods #oof #texture brushes are fun #thanks krita #best program ever ily #ooh boy Im tired #now time to prepare bc I have a test tomorrow and its 8 pm oops

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bonky-n-steeb · 3 years

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this probably isn’t a good idea but this has been bobbing in my head for awhile…what if bucky had killed one of y/n’s close family members like their sibling or parent(s) or anything like that while he was winter soldier and they’re one of the people on bucky’s list in tfatws to make amends and he’s like taking them on dates and stuff to show them he’s sorry and he remembers their family member and bucky ends up catching feelings for them??

this is probably a TERRIBLE idea and i’m probably making myself look DUMB MAYBE U COULD MAKE IT A LOT BETTER IDKXKENDDN I ADORE YOU AND YOUR BLOG EEEE

Thank you!!!! You made me blush. 🥰 This is an AMAZING idea and I’ll come there and bonk you if you ever again say it’s terrible. Ily 😘 I hope you like it!

the sun and the shadow

𝙗𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙮 𝙗𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙨 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 || angst with a happy ending

this is not proofread :/

This reminds of that post I’d seen where it was like you go on a date with Bucky and he tells you he killed your grandma 😂

Bucky wanted to tell you. He really did. But how could he? How could he tell you about his heinous crimes when you were all he had.

Bucky still remembered your first meeting. He had cancelled the names above you on the list and now it was your turn. It was simple, he was going to confess and apologise and walk away towards a new day.

His therapist had said it would help him. He still didn’t know how removing the scabs on his wounds would ever be good for him; but he did it nonetheless.

And it was probably helpful. He could sleep much better at night knowing that there wasn’t anything to hide anymore. But he would never say this out loud; he had a grumpy reputation to maintain after all.

But then he’d met you. You were waiting for some blind date at a restaurant when he had approached you. He was about to introduce himself but before that, you’d considered him to be your blind date.

You couldn’t believe that the white wolf was your blind date. The one and only Bucky Barnes. Like were the avengers on tinder too?

Bucky thought maybe it was for the better and had started talking with you. I’ll tell her at the end of the night, he told himself. But just like your actual date, the end of the night never came.

And one date, extended to two; and two became three, and it went on. Bucky hadn’t told you he wasn’t your actual date and neither did he tell you that he had killed your only brother.

He had been on a mission where along with a few others, he had killed your brother. Back then, the soldier didn’t feel any remorse. He wasn’t programmed to feel. But now the guilt ate him every moment of his life.

He knew that the day the truth would spill out, was the day you’d leave him. And just the thought of losing you brought upon immeasurable pain.

You were filled with life and your eyes twinkled with hope as you spoke and he couldn’t blame himself for wanting to have a share of your light. You were the sun and he was the shadow.

There wouldn’t be a shadow without the sun just like there wouldn’t be darkness without light. And he too would cease to exist without you.

Hydra had sucked out his memories and emotions. And even after his memories were back, he never thought he’d ever feel again. But then you made him feel.

He felt proud when you laughed at his jokes and he felt happy when you baked cookies. He felt jealous when someone looked at you the wrong way and he felt sad when you cried. Most importantly, he felt love every time he saw you.

But today was going to be the most difficult day he was yet to live. Today was your brother’s death anniversary and you had trusted him enough to ask him to be with you when you visited your brother’s grave.

He couldn’t deny you that. But he couldn’t keep this secret any longer either. He was finally going to tell you. Even if you slapped him and walked away, he would take the pain you gave willingly.

Bucky patiently waited for you in his car. When you came out of your house and sat besides Bucky, your eyes were red rimmed and he was pretty sure you had cried the previous night.

He asked you if you were fine and only when you nodded did he start his car. The entire ride you both were silent. You were lost in the memories of your brother while he was debating when to tell you.

When you reached the graveyard, you walked towards your brother’s grave while Bucky stood at a distance. He knew you needed some alone time with him.

You placed the flowers you had brought near the gravestone and quietly leaned against it. You wanted to tell him so much, but at the same time you couldn’t quite speak a word.

Never in your life had you thought he’d leave you so soon. But fate was cruel and death always took the best people. You just hoped he was happy and at peace wherever he was.

Every year after his passing, you’d come here and tell him the highlights of your year. This time was no different; you him about your promotion, your new car and most importantly Bucky.

Bucky was nothing like you’d expected him to be. He was caring, resourceful and loyal. He was a gentleman through and through. You were sure your brother and Bucky would be friends if he were alive.

Once you were done, you walked towards Bucky with a smile. He on the other hand looked tense and worried. “I want to tell you something.”

You nodded him to go ahead. “I… I killed your brother.” There was no point sugar coating it. Now that it was out of his system, he felt much better; though he knew what was to come.

“What?” You couldn’t digest words that fell on your ear. “When I was the winter soldier.. I, uh… I murdered him.”

He saw how your face crumbled, how your nose scrunched up and how the tears rushed to your eyes. You opened your mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

You walked behind until your back hit a tree and sagged against it. “Go away. Please.” Your voice was hoarse from all the crying and there was an underlying pain in it.

Bucky wanted to hold you and tell you how much he loved you. But the he was cause of your misery, wasn’t he? He had been selfish; if he had told you on the first day itself you wouldn’t feel this heartbreak.

Holding your head in your palms, you tightly closed your eyes and refused to watch him walk away. And the only question you asked to god, again and again was, why?

~~~

The tv screen was playing some football match as Bucky sat on the floor of his house, loathing himself. There were discarded beer bottles and leftover chips just laying around on the floor.

He knew he was supposed to clean the house and go to work. But he didn’t feel like doing anything. No matter what he did, your thought never left his mind.

He missed it when the first time it happened, but the second time his ears perked up when he heard the bell go off. Someone was here to visit him. He was 99% sure it must be Sam.

Before answering, he checked his phone. He almost gasped when he noted it been two whole days since the incident and he hadn’t even realised. God lord, he needed to get it together.

When he opened the door, he saw the last person he expected to, you. You offered him a bright smile when you saw him and he returned it back. Everything didn’t seem so difficult anymore.

“Um, hey!” He didn’t know why your mood suddenly became awkward. He followed your eyes and looked down. He wanted to smack himself when he realised he was practically naked save for his boxers.

“Oops! Wait a minute!” Bucky replied as he sprinted back into his bedroom. It wasn’t as if you hadn’t seen him in his boxers, but right now it was purely awkward.

When he came back, he was wearing a Henley and sweatpants. “Hi!” He shyly ran his hands through his hair. “I thought it was… over.” Bucky felt heavy even while saying it out loud.

“Do you want it to be?” Your intentions of coming here were much different. “No. I…” Bucky couldn’t say anything further. “I want us to be together.”

Bucky stared at you as if he’d seen a ghost. Did you just say that or was he imagining it? “But I…” You sighed as you began speaking,

“Yeah I know. I thought a lot in these two days. What you did wasn’t up to you. I can’t blame you for what hydra did. It wasn’t at all your fault.

And Bucky I love you.” Without being able to stop for a moment, he engulfed you into a bear hug. “You… you forgive me?” He was the happiest he had ever been.

“Bucky, there is nothing to forgive. But if it makes you happy, then yes I forgive you.” Oh, how had Bucky yearned to listen to those words.

“I have to tell you two things too.” You pouted, what did he want to tell you now? “Second, I’m not your actual blind date. I came there to tell you about your brother but you considered me your date and I couldn’t stop you.”

Bucky was shocked to see you laughing. “I… I know!” Bucky stared at you with wide eyes. “That idiot called me a day later and told me his boss told him to work over time so he couldn’t come. And I knew it definitely wasn’t you who was supposed to be coming.”

Bucky chuckled as he pulled you closer. “And what’s the first thing?” You asked in a sultry tone. “The first thing is,… I love you.”

You pulled his face down and kissed him. “As much as I love you, I need you to take a bath Bucky. You stink!” Bucky winked back, “Anything for you doll.”

#even I’m crying now #marvel #mcu #bucky barnes #sebastian stan #bucky barnes x y/n #bucky barnes x you #bucky barnes x reader #sebastian stan x reader #bucky barnes fanfiction #bucky barnes smut #bucky barnes angst #bucky barnes fluff #bucky barnes one shot #bucky barnes drabble #bucky barnes x female reader

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pr0dbeomgyu · 3 years

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8 + Beomgyu thank you!

8. “ just listen, real closely, all right. and stop laughing. "

pairing: bestfriend!beomgyu x fem!reader

prompts here

a/n: 🥺 thank you for requesting this, tbh i rlly hoped someone would req this prompt for beomgyu. and you did!! so you're my fav, anon! ily ♥️ i hope you enjoy it and maybe squeal like how i did while writing this

y/n's at beomgyu's house, game controllers on each of her and beomgyu's hands. this is a normal occurence to her, coming over to his house invited or not invited at least 3 times weekly. she knew every inch of the house, maybe she could even notice if there's a new crack in the walls. considering her 10-year friendship with him, it was only natural, she thought.

both of them were playing as if their lives were on the line, occassionally yelling and pushing each other by the shoulder. she kicked him in the shin when he messed up with the joysticks of her controller, making him yelp in pain as he dramatically rolled down to the floor in front of her.

y/n looked over at him, he's still lying on his back, eyes closed. rolling her eyes at his antics, she nudged him with her toes.

"stop being dramatic, a kick in the shin cant even cause death,"

"why are we even best friends?" he glared at her.

"idk, maybe cause im the only one who wants to be friends with you,"

"i dare u to say that again,"

and she did.

the next thing she knew, he was tickling her sides, making her lose balance. both of them laughed when he fell on top of her on the couch, his hand still tickling her until she felt like she cant breathe anymore.

somewhere in between while y/n was still laughing, beomgyu had stopped tickling, his hands moved to each side of her head. his long hair was dangling down at her, making him look rather surreal.

she saw his facial expression changed into a serious one,

"what's wrong now,"

"i have something to tell you,"

suddenly she felt all nervous. how could she not? the boy she had been crushing on for 5 years is looking at her intensely, not to mention how close their faces are? she could almost feel his breath fanning on her face. she let out a laugh out of habit(she always did this when she gets too nervous), and looked at everywhere and anywhere other than beomgyu's eyes.

beomgyu found himself smiling at the sweet sound of her laugh, adoring the features of her face; how her nose scrunched and her eyes crinkled.

it was indeed very endearing when he realised how nervous she is. he held her chin gently with his thumb and pointer finger, making her meet his eyes.

“ just listen, real closely, all right. and stop laughing. " he said softly.

he finally continued after y/n's laughter dies down.

"i know we've been friends for 10 years and i shouldnt be feeling this, but i really like you, y/n. remember that time when i went away for the exchange student program? i learned it the hard way that i cant live without you," he confessed, making her feel warm all over.

"really? hmm let me see, well i really like you too, beomgyu. i've been so in love with you for years but you're too blind to see. even taehyun the anti-romantic could see through me," you teased, tucking a strand of his hair behind his ear.

beomgyu wrapped his arms around y/n as he delicately cupped y/n's face, thumbs caressing them ever so lightly, making her lean into his touch.

"im so lucky to know you, y/n," he whispered into her ear, taking her hand towards his lips to place soft kisses on her knuckles.

#txt #beomgyu #choi beomgyu #txt fluff #beomgyu fluff #beomgyu imagines #txt fic #beomgyu oneshots #beomgyu drabbles #txt imagines #txt oneshot #txt drabbles #tomorrow x together

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zzwnki · 2 years

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CH_003: coming home rn

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A/N: woww another update 😱😱

SYNOPSIS: cho daeun and nishimura riki have been best friends ever since his parents opened up a dance studio next to her parents’ antique shop when the kids were seven. the two were practically attached at the hip until the two years she travelled abroad for a school program. when daeun returned with no contact from riki for over a year, she was surprised to find out he debuted in a group called enhypen and he never told her.

GENRE: antique shop!au, best friends to lovers, fluff, angst, high school!au, idol!au

WARNINGS: cursing, inappropriate jokes, riki AND daeun being dumb, violence (verbal & some physical)

TAGLIST: @enhacolor @ily-cuz-i @isoob @yvesismywife

#(๑´ ³`)ﾉ … 📂 wonfiles #🗝 ⥄ happy sad songs ༉#enhypen #enhypen fluff #enhypen niki #enhypen scenarios #enhypen smau #niki fanfiction #riki fluff #riki smau #nishimura riki #niki imagines #niki fluff #niki smau

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stardew-saloon · 3 years

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can I request maru seb bonding momence?

Yes !! Seb and Maru’s relationship is honestly really interesting to me because like. Maru mentions Seb a few times but Sebby rarely talks about her. So it gives me the vibe of Maru trying to reach out but Seb not wanting to talk to her.

Here’s some headcanons for them :) it’s mostly just like. How they started to be more okay with each other and eventually become good siblings.

There’s like . Minor sambastian and Maru/Penny but you can probably ignore it smh. But I will be sad that u ignored sambastian just remember that ok

(Also side note im sosososos sorry i haven’t been active at all, I’ve been so busy with school and Life Stuff and it’s so incredibly hard to get stuff out. Im hyperfixating on something else and it’s just ,, really hard to focus on other things yknow? Anyways thank u for being patient ily mwah)

Seb + Maru Bonding

The first time Maru tries to reach out to Seb, she’s immediately shut down. She had a new invention that required a little bit of coding to make the program work properly, so she went to Sebastian, trying to see if he could help.

Sebastian tells her to figure it out herself. The conversation ends after that, with Maru feeling disheartened and upset.

But she’s determined! She doesn’t want to get Robin or Demetrius involved because then they’ll force him to hang out with her and she doesn’t want that. Maru knows how anxious and out of place Sebastian feels whenever Robin and Demetrius try to bring the family together, so she wants to do this on her own.

The next time she reaches out, it’s a rainy day. There’s thunder and lightning. Normally, Maru would stay inside and tinker with her newest project, but Seb was outside today. She saw it as another opportunity.

Maru puts her coat and rain boots on before she meets Sebastian outside, not minding the smell of cigarettes that followed him. When he sees her, he turns away, like he’s trying to pretend she’s not there.

He turns back immediately when she asks him how to catch frogs. Sebastian’s confused, since he doesn’t get why Maru is talking to him. Maru is the perfect kid, and he’s not. It’s like he’s out of her league.

Regardless, Sebastian shows her how. Maru treasures the small smile on his face when they manage to get a frog. Maru suggests naming it Bedelia, which Sebastian agrees to immediately. They spend more time together in the rain, talking about frogs and how to care for them. Sebastian’s done his research, since he wants a terrarium, but the basement is too stuffy. A frog would stink up the place.

So, Maru offers to get a terrarium in her room. She has multiple windows and good ventilation, so it would be no problem. They run back home, frog in hand, both feeling like the little kids again as they beg Robin to keep the frog and get a terrarium. Normally, she would say no, but..

Sebastian hadn’t ever looked so excited. He lost the spark in his eye after his father died, and now, Robin saw it again. She saw the same kid he was a few years ago.

So she agrees to buy a tank from Wally. It’s in the house that very day with little assembly required. They’re both super excited over it, but Seb tries to hide it. He can’t let Maru know that he doesn’t hate being around her! That would be awful!

They bond over Bedelia the Frog. Robin is happy that he’s not cooped up in his room all day, instead choosing to spend time with Bedelia (and Maru, too, but he gets defensive when she suggests that the siblings were hanging out.)

And the coding that Maru needed before? He teaches her how to do it! Sebastian says it’s so that she doesn’t bother him about it again, but Maru thinks otherwise. He looked so happy when he was talking about how to do it, so she asked tons of questions, even if it was something she already understood.

It was the first time they’d ever spent time together without one getting annoyed with the other. After Bedelia came around, they spent more time together. Maru opened up about her feelings towards her best friend Penny, and Sebastian shared that it must run in the family to crush on best friends. She connects the dots and realizes that he’s talking about Sam!

Maru is happy that she’s not so alone anymore. It’s not like her dad can scare away Sebastian like he did all of her other friends. It’s hard for Seb to open up to her after hating her for so long, but Maru is patient with him and tries to understand where he’s coming from.

Eventually, they’re practically best friends! They take care of Bedelia together, and then they care for her entire froggy family! Robin is ecstatic that they’re so close, especially after being distant for their entire childhood.

Umm y’all know I’m bad at ending things so uh . That’s all ! Once again im sorry for the long delay. I’ve been trying to stay consistent but I’m really struggling man :’) im in the middle of a hyperfixation on Danganronpa so it’s a little hard to write for other things. But I hope this is good !!

Bye bye love y’all :) if today is your birthday then happy birthday!!!!

#sdv #stardew valley #sebastian sdv #maru sdv #sdv headcanons #stardew valley headcanon #sebastian stardew valley #maru stardew valley #i got the name Bedelia from hannibal just in case anyone wants to know LMAO

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emilyblame · 2 years

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i was about to call this a review, but it's not really a review, i'm just talking about the shit that i like. i'm not like, 'objectively' criticizing the album.

general impression: HOLY FUCKING SHIT!

also my favorite song is probably I'M GONE. to be determined, though, i'm only on my third replay (in a row).

putting the rest under a cut for spoilers or whatever...

IDGAF

strong album opener. i loved this song since it came out. all of it.

Close my eyes and cross my fingers I don't wake up / 'Cause I don't really wanna die, but really don't give a fuck

I LIE TO ME

i wasn't much into this one when it first came out, but it grew on me.

Just try to breathe, and get some fucking sleep / Think better things, till the black and white start to saturate

ILY, HOW ARE YOU?

i love how this song is about noticing someone else is having a bad time but waiting for them to talk about it first. like, not pressing the matter. and one of my favorite things is that the next song sounds like an answer to this one.

You smile / But your eyes / They scream 'ignore me'

IDC, I CAN'T TAKE IT

i love this song. it's such a live-song. like, it was written specifically to be played live.

I don't care what you say, I don't care what you do / I don't care what you think, I don't care if it's true / I don't care if you leave, I don't care if we're through / It doesn't matter to me

I'D RATHER DIE

not gonna lie i thought this was gonna be a heavy one. kinda surprised that it's pretty chill (the music at least.) lyrics are dark as fuck, but same, boys. fucking same.

It's like I'd rather die than take my own advice / It doesn't hurt to try - that's a fucking lie

I MISS 2003

fucking banger. i mean. the references alone. straight to my heart. also that riff... it's sooo early 2000s. i can't. i love everything about this song.

Now life is boring, let's write a story where we never grow up

I'M SICK AND TIRED

that breakdown... please. the clapping. the guitars are so dirty too, it really gives that early 2000s post-grunge vibe. the last chorus with a final riff kicking in, BITCH.

My head is feeling like a cage again / Self-destructing into nothing

I WANT TO SEE GOD

this song sounds like a b-side from The Used's self-titled album and i'm in fucking love with it. i feel 13 just listening to it. also, love how the line I've got some matches and a bad idea in my brain plays with the theme in In Threes. just. placement is everything.

I don't see the light / I don't feel alive / I don't think my thoughts and I should be alone tonight

IN THREES

everything about this song is perfect. and i know this is As It Is' moment, but i gotta be honest with you guys: my favorite part about this song is Cody's runs over the last chorus. that's some Justin Timberlake shit and i love it so much, that boy is so talented.

The fire inside of my head got out / I don't give a fuck if the house burns down

also the end of Jordy's verse, because i just won't choose:

When lying is all that I got 'cause it's hard to survive when you're living this life / And death is a bit of a bitch so I step to the side and I swallow my pride

I HATE ME TOO

this song just made me sad. who's being mean to the boys on the internet, i just wanna talk. no, but seriously, like, they're barely even online, how are they getting hate? people suck. them harmonies on the bridge tho. on point.

Just say that you'll remember me / A distant little corner of your memory / And when you can spare the empathy / Just paint my portrait over with a better me

I'M GONE

the vocal melody in this song is so nice...? like, both the verses and the chorus. the chorus is so satisfying to sing, you know what i mean? it's touching a nostalgic fiber in my heart but i can't tell what it reminds me of. best feeling ever btw. also: i don't know who recorded drums for this but oh, my god! and if they're programmed then... i'm sorry for the drummer that has to play this song live, it sounds like a workout. i love it.

Am I dreaming in silence? / Or screaming and holding on / To a hope that's gone?

I DIE 1000x

catch me crying my eyes out through that second verse. if you think the first time was the hardest i cried then... you're wrong.

Just fucking tell me what I want to hear / That you don't even really want me here / That I've been holding on / When all along all you'd be is better off without me here

i really felt that.

I CAN'T FEEL A THING

you know that nostalgic fiber i was talking about? yeah, same thing here. only this one makes me think of Linkin Park kinda... Living Things era? maybe? idk but i love it so much. i really like the contrast between the sweet piano-thingy and Patty screaming. i don't think i mentioned it (in this post) yet, but i adore Patty's scream. it's so good.

Give me what I deserve / Give me hell, give me hurt / Give me all of your worst

I WENT TO HELL AND BACK

short and to the point. yes, please. i feel like, lyrically it sums up everything the album talks about. and musically it's a really round finish to an album that's pretty heavy. i love the little bell-like sounds. and listen, i'm auto-tune's number one hater but... i really like how the low-pitched lines play against with those bell-like sounds. also, it ends in a very re-playable way, it leaves you wanting more. that's a good thing. i love that.

i can't choose a lyric from this song, the whole thing is just so good.

#as it is

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