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magicalink · 2 years

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NSFW Alphabet: Venti

Author notes: these aren't general headcanons, they refer to how Venti is in "Y/N's Marvelous Adventure", a smut various x f!reader fic I'm writing! Soon I will be posting chapters.

Warning: NSFW content ahead!

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Likes more to receive than to give. He's a little attention and pampering leech. Loves to get cleaned by you with a warm bath and then get cuddled to sleep. But it doesn't mean he won't take care of you. If you are the one who is more tired he'll gladly be the one to cuddle you until the sun goes up with an iron grip.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He loves his braids and hair because he personally chose them to resemble his beloved lost friend. Venti made his human body himself, and even though he could change it, he wants to stay loyal to it.

Regarding your body, he likes everything but especially your face and hands. Your candid smile and shining gaze illuminate his days and your soft hands are his favorite spot to kiss while courting you.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically…)

He is pretty immature about it. Likes to experiment and finds it funny like he was a fucking teenager. Would make it splatter everywhere if he didn't know you'd hang him if he gets your house dirty.

His cum is white, watery and luckily doesn’t smell bad or anything. Pretty surprising considering his messed-up diet consisting of liters and liters of alcohol. It must have to do with his godly powers to decide everything about his own body. Lucky bastard. He is even able to decide if he’s fertile or not, so you let him cum directly inside of you. Pretty convenient, given that condoms don’t exist in Monstadt. Besides, you like it because it’s warm and you both find it a very bonding activity.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Not so secretly wants everyone to know about what's going on between the two of you. And also would like to be seen having sex with you outdoors.

Has participated in orgies centuries ago. Don't ask Zhongli about it. I repeat, do not!

But his deepest secret is, probably, –hasn't told anyone about it–that he's had sex in exchange for alcohol in the past. And it was a terrible, traumatic experience.

Wow, those were a lot of dirty secrets!

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

You had your first time with him. You haven't really asked him about his past sex life but you assume it's quite prolific since he lived for thousands of years. Also because he seems to be an expert at everything and is quick to do multiple things that you might consider hardcore…

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying.)

And you're right. He's tried pretty much any sexual practice both known and unknown out there. And has done it with both humans and gods. All kinds of weird and extreme things. But wanna hear yet another little secret? It doesn't matter how inexperienced you are, doing it with you has been by far his favorite experience! ♡

And although he is very teasing, he doesn’t want to scare you away.

Cowgirl by far. Wants to be ridden hard by you forever. He absolutely loves to see you on top of him, being able to contemplate your whole body, the shape of your figure, your boobs bouncing up and down, witnessing the expressions of your beautiful face. He adores how brightly your eyes spark when you tell him that you love him. Having you making a big effort to grind onto him delights him and makes him feel desired. Also, it's a position in which you can best control the speed and depth of the penetration, which is useful given his annoyingly big dick, and that none of you want it to make you feel pain.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

The little rascal is probably the most annoying thing on earth. Always teasing and joking and trying his best to make you feel flustered regardless of how many, many times you've done it together. Will always laugh, and it tends to be contagious. He knows exactly how to bother you and how to break the tension to make you feel comfortable again. He makes you crazy in such a special way, a bonding complicity is starting to build between you…

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Storytime regarding body hair: You got really uncomfortable the first time you saw him naked. His whole body was completely hairless and he looked like a kid! (except of course, for the unnecessarily big cock!) It made you so stressed you covered him all up and refused to keep going further. At first, he found this very funny. It was completely normal for Mondstatians to be all shaved in the old times when they didn’t have running water, the times when he had his agitated and libertine sexual life. But after understanding your human concerns about this, he comprehended it was serious and important for you.

For the sake of getting to have sex for the first time with you, he altered his dear appearance for the first time in centuries! (All this to make you feel comfortable. He was really desperate to do it with you! The monster cock stays though) Now he has black hair with slight teal strands on his armpits and down there, it remains unaltered since it doesn't grow, it's just for the looks. It's neat and clean. Except when he gets wasted around the city and you have to pick him up from the streets to give him a hot bath. He has no happy trail.

About you know, head’s hair, it's probably the most beautiful thing in the world for you. It’s really soft, silky and shiny, he keeps it well combed and clean. He smells of cecilias. He loves taking baths with you to wash each other's hair and comb it and braid it afterward.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

He's a goofball but also very romantic. He always acts like a gentleman to court you, playing you songs, gifting you flowers and kissing your hand very often, like the princes from old Mondstatian fairytales. And at the moment of making love to you, he pours his soul into it. He loves you a lot and considers you family already. He always whispers sweet things in your ear and makes sure he expresses all of his feelings. He likes lots of caresses and kisses during sex.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

Given that he isn't human, sexuality wasn't natural to him. It was something that he discovered when he turned into a human.

A long time ago, he had an agitated sexual life, full of crazy partners and exotic practices.

At some point, he got tired of it and didn't find it satisfactory anymore. So, he has been pretty disconnected from sexuality the past few centuries as it didn’t interest him anymore, but it suddenly reawoke when he started liking you and desiring you.

Because of this, he didn't use to do it in the past but he does now, especially during your long trips and absences.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

He definitely has a praise kink. He'll melt in your hands if you start telling him how much you love him and how awesome you think he is. He'll go all soft and teary and emotional and will cum really hard.

He's a really big tease and likes to start and direct sexual encounters but he loves it when you take the lead and show him that you desire him too.

Gets really hard and moany if you pull his hair gently.

Loves to act like a needy kid all the time, requesting care of all sorts, sex situations aren't the exception. But if you ever called him daddy he would drool.

Body worshipping. Loves every single part of your body. Will caress and admire every muscle, mark and scar on your skin.

Being loud in general. Making noise shaking the bed, skin slapping against skin, moaning exaggeratedly, etc

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

His favorite place is in bed. In your bed, specifically. Despite having his own room in your Serenitea pot, he loves to assert his position as the husband of the house by getting to sleep in your room anytime he can. And he gets away with it most of the time by seducing you, either with cute things like serenading you to sleep or reading bedtime stories with you, or by crawling into your bed with puppy eyes that beg for love and sex.

Loving sex in bed, looking at each other's eyes, laughing, and spending quality time together is his favorite way.

Still wants to have sex outdoors. At Windrise, particularly.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

The game of courting gives him life. It drives him crazy when you play it with him and make him feel desired.

Would love it if you wore more and shorter skirts.

Seeing you wearing his shirts as pajamas gets him instantly hard.

Likes really long socks.

A bit of an exhibicionist.

Gently pull his braids to make him a moaning mess.

Loves making you feel flustered and seeing the blush on your face. Succeeding in this and getting in control gets him really riled up.

Loves being pampered and receiving all kinds of praises or attention. Being welcomed in your house, given food, a place to cuddle and to call home has given him life.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Probably the only things he wouldn't do would be anything regarding violence or pain of any sort. Doesn't like pain and would never hurt you in any way. Outside of that, he is willing to try pretty much anything.

Also, will never have sex while drunk because he's afraid of losing control and hurting you with his godly powers.

Has learnt from his previous mistakes and would never trade sex for alcohol again.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

He doesn't really have a preference, likes giving and receiving equally. You recently decided to try and receive some from him and discovered he is very good at it, just as much as he is at any other sexual technique. He has a tiny sloppy mouth and his tongue proves to be as skilled at licking as it is at singing and rhyming. Yes, it's as agile as his wit.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

He is a sex machine and has both modes. It depends on the situation. If it's one of those intimate and romantic moments he'll be slow and intense, burning low heat until you come on him and both of your hearts throb, overloaded by love.

If it's one of those heated and wild encounters then he can thrust as fast and hard as you can handle. He is very careful, tough. He has a ridiculous amount of strength that 's always been hidden, and even though he knows you are strong, he is afraid of going overboard because of his crazy love and end up hurting you. That's why he is always very mindful while having sex and would never do it while drunk.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Always down for it, really. Anytime, anywhere. With you, any moment can be turned into the perfect one for a memorable experience.

Wants you to ask him for it outdoors, in nature, preferably at Windrise.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Given that he is a supernatural being who has complete control over his physical form, he can choose if he wants to be fertile or not. Thus, there is no risk of getting you pregnant. Unless you wanted, of course…👀

Also he is immune to STDs and can't transmit them either. The perfect sexual partner, huh?

Regarding being catched in public, he wouldn't mind it really, and feels that the adrenaline of trying not to be catched makes it really fun.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

He has this ridiculous amount of energy and strength he never uses, so he could last as many rounds as you asked him, it depends on you. But most of the time you both get really sleepy and cuddly so you end up in bed after cumming once. But if you were really horny and begged him to keep going, he could fuck you forever. Literally.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

He is down pretty much for everything and wouldn't mind using them, but it isn't really popular around Mondstadt so he doesn't own any. If you got one he would use it on you or him, no problem. He would be very enthusiastic if you offered him to stimulate his male g spot too!

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He lives to tease, really. Whether it's sexually or not, anything that comes out of his mouth is teasing. Also he loves saying provocative stuff just to make you flustered and saying double meaning things (that he knows they won't understand) in front of the kids just to exasperate you. He's always looking at you mischievously and has a malicious smile that threatens to say inappropriate stuff that will embarrass the shit out of you 24/7.

During sex, he is pretty fair. He loves teasing you by insinuating himself to you and showing you his many beauties in order to make you desire him. He loves to see you thirsty for him but will always comply after making you desire him for a reasonable amount of time.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Little brat is a shameless moaning machine. If there's a risk of someone hearing, you have to cover his mouth with a hand or stifle him with a kiss in order to keep him down.

He moans and whines as loud as he can. If he could, he would make the whole world know how much he is enjoying being with you. You love knowing that he likes it, but sometimes you wonder if he's exaggerating because of his weird expressions. At this point you are used to his nature of savoring everything thoroughly and you like this about him.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Openly bisexual. Fortunately that's completely normal and accepted in the city of Freedom!

Is down for threesomes either with another man or woman if you ask him.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

He has a very delicate figure and a pale and soft, perfect skin. Compared to most fighters you know, he is not muscular at all. Makes sense since his strength doesn't come from muscles. He is indeed very slim.

About Venti's pants' content: (What everyone both in the real and Genshin world wants to know)

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

After a meticulous study of human culture, he decided it would be very funny to give a little brat like himself a damn big dick. You honestly find this cringy, but what about him isn't? You love him the way he is. I know people are obsessed with sizes so I'm gonna tell you it's 23 cm when fully hard. Yes, you had to initiate your sex life on hard mode 🤭

Just as his power, it's an enormous flame you ignited inside of him but he keeps it under control. He is really in love with you and loves spending time with you, doesnt matter if theres sex or not.

Despite being separated, you are always in his mind and sees you in everything beautiful that he sees. He always thinks of you when playing music.

When he can't contain his thirst for you any longer he'll come crawling to your bed and do his best to turn you on so you appease him. He is clingy and when wants pampering or sex he doesn't hesitate to pull the sad puppy dog eyes out in order to get what he wants. And he always gets away with it.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterward)

If it's in bed, he'll fall asleep instantly after you decide who's gonna be the big and small spoon. He loves finishing the day with intense loving sex and fall asleep cuddling.

He is the cutest and sweetest thing while sleeping, all dressed up in the cute pajamas you sewed for him. He sleeps soundly with the biggest smile on his face. Even his soft snores are cute. He sometimes sleeps so relaxed and happy that he is with his mouth open and ends up drooling all over your shoulder and pillow. No doubt he's adorable, for you to tolerate this!

Waking up in a weird position and seeing you by his side is the thing that makes him the happiest in life.

#fanfic #genshin impact #genshin x reader #venti smut #venti x you #venti headcanons #smut alphabet #venti x reader #f reader #genshin smut

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bonny-kookoo · 2 years

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One for the bonny!meter. Who do you think would be the 'softcore' or the 'hardcore' guy while doing the deed? 👀

Ooh, we doing a spicy Bonny-Meter, I see you 👀 (obviously warning for nsfw, also again this is just fun speculation)

Kim Namjoon

Softcore ━━━━━━━━♥━━━━━━━━ Hardcore

Listen, I personally believe that he's the perfect middle. While his actions can sometimes be rather rough, he does make sure to sweet-talk to you the entire time, praising you and your body throughout the entire act. Not much of a kisser, but definitely vocal. Likes to hold onto you and enjoys if you cling to him in return. Also definitely enjoys a nice pair of boobs- whether he's kissing them, holding them, or using them to push his dick through them.

Kim Seokjin

Softcore ━━━━♥━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hardcore

While I don't think he's the 'boring vanilla' some make him out to be, I also don't think he's as overly kinky as others believe. He's a gentleman even in the bedroom, quiet and doesn't talk much, but makes his actions count. Enjoys if you scratch his back a little out of pleasure. And listen- missionary might sound boring, but it doesn't have to be if you know what you're doing- and I think he knows how to play his cards very well.

Min Yoongi

Softcore ━━━━━━━━━━♥━━━━━━ Hardcore

I can see him using sex as a way to vent out his frustration if things don't go the way he wants them to. And while he definitely enjoys having your legs shake from his mouth and hands between them, he also can't deny that he loves you to ride him way beyond his own orgasm as well. Knows exactly how you feel about his hands, and will always tease you for it. Likes to grab your hair whenever you go down on him, and enjoys when you tug his whenever he goes down on you.

Jung Hoseok

Softcore ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━♥━ Hardcore

You know it, I know it, this man is not satisfied by just putting his dick in and calling it a day. He needs foreplay, he needs excitement, he needs everything you have to offer. He's adventurous to say the least, but knows when to stick to the classics; spanking, choking, orgasm control and even roleplay are some of his favourite things to do. Even has a thing for seeing you choke on his length down your throat occasionally. Likes to cum inside and watch it leak out. (If youre on birth control obv.)

Park Jimin

Softcore ━━━━━━━━━━━━♥━━━━ Hardcore

Okay all sub-Jimin enthusiasts hear me out on this one; this man knows how to get his way. I feel like I'm the only one but I can see this guy being the most hard dom with you in bed, grabbing your wrists while he pounds into you from behind, overstimulating you with toys or edging you until you cry, just to turn into the softest boy straight after. He gives the most tender aftercare, 10/10, one to take a bath with you and give you the most gentle handjob ever in the warm tub to make up for his harsh treatment before.

Kim Taehyung

Softcore ━━━━━♥━━━━━━━━━━━ Hardcore

Bit of a hot-take, I know, but he's a romantic. Slow thrusts, music in the background, endless foreplay. Loves to have you on top to either hold you close and thrust up into you, or let you ride him while he holds your hands. Enjoys teasing a lot, likes how you find new ways to get him going and needy for your body. Will drag the act out to high heavens, loves to hear you beg for him to touch you, tends to edge you both until neither of you can take it any longer.

Jeon Jungkook

Softcore ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━♥━ Hardcore

This man will only be satisfied once his body gives up. Kisses with him rarely just stay little pecks, no, he likes it filthy against what one might believe. He's not shy, knows his own appeal, and will make sure you know how attracted he is to you as well. Harsh thrusts, enjoys positions where he can hold you close or prove his strength. Biting, scratching, marking, he loves to have visible evidence of your lovemaking on both your body and his own. Edges himself, ruts into your hand while making out, very vocal. Wants to give lots of aftercare but is mostly too exhausted to do much.

#bts imagine #bts fanfic #bts fic #jungkook imagine #jimin imagine #min yoongi imagine #taehyung imagine #seokjin imagine #namjoon imagine #hoseok imagine #bts reaction

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elysianslove · 3 years

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Here to ask- could you rank the jjk boys on terms of kinky to vanilla ;) Also love your 🍆hcs I definitely would not be complaining if you said more 🤭... ♡♡

*dice rolls* sure thing shawty 😩 also thank you so much omg. i got another request for a dick analysis so 😼

for this, i basically explained each of the boys, then ranked them at the end!

JJK BOYS: A SCALE OF VANILLA TO KINKY

itadori yuuji

he’s somewhere in between! yuuji is curious enough to be considered kinky, but also he’s so loving that vanilla generally is his go to. not that vanilla can be a bad thing, because sex with yuuji, even if he’s not tying you up or spanking you and is just simply fucking you in missionary, is mind-blowing good. he never really is the one to initiate kinky things, or to ask to incorporate new things in the bedroom, but he’s always a hundred percent on board with anything you ask, no matter how extreme, even if he’s on the receiving end. maybe he’ll be the one to ask for things like “can i choke you?” or “can i blindfold you and use this toy on you?” but the hardcore shit has to come from you. it’s not entirely shyness, but there’s some of that too. he’s just generally new to sex, so even though he obviously has kinks he wants to try out, he sees sex as a way to pleasure both you and him, and that’ll be his main drive. if you want to add to that somehow, there’s absolutely no problem!

fushiguro megumi

oof he was a little tricky. i think he’s also somewhere in between, but definitely leaning way more towards kinky. like if it was a number scale, 1 being really vanilla and 10 being really kinky, megumi would be a good 7 or 8. it’s always the quiet ones. i think, at the start of your relationship, and when things start to get a little more intimate, he’s more vanilla, just cause he doesn’t wanna accidentally cross a line he hadn’t known was there. but as he gets more comfortable with you, he’ll definitely start asking you to change things up a bit. he’d do it cautiously though, cause what he’ll ask of you are either extremes, or kinks that have a high chance of you saying no, like pet play, or pain play. he’s definitely into dom/sub dynamics, and he’s a switch so, if you can also help him play out both roles, he’s in heaven. this was not an ask about his kink can i stay on track smh. but yeah, megumi’s definitely kinkier than he is vanilla, especially as your relationship grows and the level of comfort and trust between you does as well.

gojō satoru

do i even have to. he’s so kinky it’s off the scale. he’s always trying out new things. start, middle, end of the relationship doesn’t matter. maybe he’s romantic on your first time. genuinely though, he’s very kinky, and is open about it too. here’s a twist though, i actually think he’s capable of being vanilla, but on very specific occasions. if you ask him, he’ll be a little shit about it, teasing you the whole time. but sometimes, he prompts it, and it’s usually when a mission goes wrong, or if something goes wrong and you nearly get hurt, or you do get hurt, and valentine’s day cause like. obviously, in his words. also gojō’s kinky in the sense that sex with him is always exciting and new, so while he’s not always incorporating extremes, he might just grab his blindfold and put it on you once, or mid-sex he’ll ask you, “wonder if i can make you cum on command,” or something of the sort. also. i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again. gojō probably has a piss kink im so sorry.

nanami kentō

mostly vanilla. accidentally kinky. sex is something very important to nanami, something so intimate and special, something he wouldn’t share with just anybody, so most of the time it’s just that, a chase after your pleasure and his. but he is like, accidentally kinky sometimes, especially when he’s angry. he’ll be extra rough, practically using your body to chase after his own high, degrading and humiliating you, you know how it is. so essentially, he’s vanilla, with a hint of kinky that’s unlock-able during certain situations. but! just cause he’s vanilla doesn’t in no way mean you will be able to walk the next day, because you won’t. trust.

ryomen sukuna

this one’s weird cause, sex is traditional with him, but also it’s really, really not? like he has sex for the pleasure and he fucks to fuck, and he thinks things like toys or bindings or roleplay and he doesn’t like wasting time edging you or going all out with scenes, but he is kinky in the sense that there is huge power dynamic going on between you, or that he loves to see you cry, or that he loves to see you writhe in pain, or that he loves to call you the nastiest names. so like, he’s kinky, but that’s because that’s just who he is. it’s his personality projecting sexually, you get me? sukuna acting differently or weirdly would be him being vanilla, him being soft. (he is, very, very, very rarely). but does that make any sense? so yeah he’s kinky, but not for any other reason than him displaying his personality traits sexually.

getō suguru

oof he’s so kinky. will put you on a leash and take you out if you let him, honestly. the thing is, he’s so subtle about it. it’s not that he’s private, he’s just really fucking subtle that sometimes he’ll be the one with the kink but it will seem like it’s you? somehow? manipulative bastard. he’s also so suave and cool about how kinky he is too. like he wants you in a collar kneeling before him, but he’s acting like it’s the most natural thing ever? like that’s just how everybody gets off? idk he’s hella kinky but seems so vanilla and for that reason we should all be scared. or aroused. both.

inumaki toge

not so much kinky as he is open and adventurous, but also like, not exactly vanilla either. he definitely has a freaky and nasty side to him, but he’s not itching to live out those fantasies. i don’t think they’re so extreme either though, like it’s different and nontraditional, and they’re certainly kinks, but he’s not gonna suspend you mid air with a vibrator attached to you. but will he force orgasms out of you with his technique till it’s borderline painful? absolutely. honestly, toge’s leaning more towards vanilla than kinky, just cause yeah he’s for sure open to try out things, but he himself doesn’t really have anything too extreme to try out or in mind, you know? idk he’s always so difficult for me to figure out im sorry.

todo aoi

idk man he just. fucks cause. yk. sex! i think if you ask him to choke you he might be genuinely so shocked, and that’s one of the most common kinks out there. he does seem like he’d be into pet play though, maybe, possibly. but genuinely i don’t think there’s an ounce of kinkiness in him. sex with him leaves you braindead for sure, and yeah of course there’s the whole size kink and stomach bulge thing going on, but he just. you know. he’s a basic bitch. a basic bitch with a monster fucking cock though.

fushiguro toji

it’s kinda like the sukuna thing. it’s just his personality. so i guess he is kinky, but like. what else would you expect from someone like him? *a sexy ass dilf like him? so something like a power kink or a size kink is obvious, of course he’ll get off on that. but also, separate from sukuna, i think he does have so many kinks that are separate from his personality projecting, things like orgasm denial or breeding or! his weird obsession with sex toys. plugs you up after cumming inside of you and makes you go out like that, cause you know, he’s an asshole.

mahito

kinkiest fucking person. or curse. he can alter his body. he can alter his body. can you imagine the shit he’d do to you with that? obsessed with sex toys, any form of orgasm play, denial or overstimulation, will suspend you mid-air with some toy attached to you, is an exhibitionist, would love to have a gang bang, praise, degradation, cum play, literally anything and everything you can fucking imagine. he’s like gojō but nastier and unhinged. a menace to society in every way, but at least he’s pretty and giggles cutely.

ranking time! from vanilla to kinky, we have

1. todo aoi

2. nanami kentō

3. inumaki toge

4. itadori yuuji

5. ryomen sukuna

6. fushiguro toji

7. getō suguru

8. fushiguro megumi

9. gojō satoru

10. mahito

#jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #itadori yuuji smut #fushiguro megumi smut #megumi fushiguro smut #gojo satoru smut #nanami smut #sukuna smut #geto smut #inumaki smut #todo smut #fushiguro toji smut #mahito smut #sal's thirst tag <3

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i-did · 3 years

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Ok ok this may be a dumb question but we'll see, what are your thoughts on bdsm + andreil? The vast vast majority of these types of fics have Andrew as the dom (and I get why) BUT theres 1 dom Neil fic and I'm like 99% sure I think I saw u comment on it so I'm assuming ur reading it and enjoying it too. And tbh, I find it much better than pretty much all the dom Andrew stuff, I hadnt realised the potential dom Neil could have until I read it. But anyway, I wanted ur thoughts? 🤲 (this is so badly phrased I apologise)

Lmfaooo being perceived is so weird. I hope I didn't say anything because I remember commenting on that fic and thinking about commenting something about my personal sex life, but I don't remember if I did lmfaooo. Omg okay, all that aside–time to now respond to this seriously.

Okay regarding that specific fic, yeah I read a lot of AFTG fics of all types, I haven't read something NSFW in a while, but when I saw the ‘Dom!Neil’ tag I decided to give it a shot. It’s interesting seeing how other authors go about their ideas and just enjoying their story. It doesn’t align with my personal ideas of everything obviously, but those are my personal HC and that fic is that authors personal HC. I like that they’re exploring something that this fandom doesn’t see explored a lot and is just a fun read, lol. Honestly I give up on most BDSM fandom fics because the depiction of Neil makes me uncomfortable ...almost always. I agree a lot more with this fics concept of how they would explore power vs control in a BDSM sexual sense, than most Dom!Andrew Sub!Neil fics– which I have long ago stopped trying to read.

Okay here are my personal ideas about Andrew and Neil, and how they would explore sex.

Many NSFW HC below the cut:

I personally don’t think canon Andrew and Neil would go into BDSM culture or ascribe to either roll strictly. I feel they wouldn’t like established dynamics like that and would get turned off by that aspect, especially since Andrew both craves control of situations but fears ‘being like them’ and a lot of Dom play is about power dynamics that he wouldn't be comfortable with. Andrew sees power in sex as different as control during sex. He needs a controlled environment, and be in control of the other by having them listen to his boundaries, but he can’t feel he’s overpowering the other person. I don’t think he could do a lot of strictly Sub things either for similar reasons, he would feel like he's giving up control of the situation in a way that could make him very uncomfortable.

Neil on the other hand is also often portrayed as a very textbook sub, but I don't think he is. I see him written as a brat a lot, but personally I don’t see him doing that since a lot of what playing with a brat is, is giving them what they want and denying them what they want and them ‘defying you’ and stuff. It's like a form of playful miscommunication I don't see Andrew or Neil ever actually doing. Obviously all healthy and proper play is outlined and discussed beforehand, but I see Andrew and Neil as needing the actions themselves to be clear and cut and dry.

Neil also gets off on Andrews pleasure, Andrew is the same about Neil, they're almost like a feedback loop of “the other enjoying themselves is inherently hot.” to me, Neil getting off on other people (Andrew) getting off is a very Dom like quality. In turn, Andrew is very turned on by pleasuring Neil, but from the point of his knees, which is almost sub like, he is turned on by sucking someone else off and seeing how into it they are. Either way, I think they both wouldn’t be into hardcore BDSM or BDSM culture but also aren’t vanilla. I don’t see either of them going to leather clubs instead of Edens and going to Folsom Fair and joining BDSM social groups and stuff.

I also don’t think either would ever use titles for the other, I think they don’t call each other by their names often on a day-to-day basis, since usually the people were talking to already know their name, and we don’t need to use it for clarification. I do think–just like in canon with emotionally charged moments–names will be used with more emphasis, especially Abram which is not used frequently.

Side note about my Jewish Neil HC: Judaism rocks because sex isn’t shamed, but rather considered a blessing and a holy act. In fact, it’s a good thing to have sex on Shabbat, G-d is actively like ‘fuck yeah you little humans, enjoy life’s pleasures and each other's company’ sex was designed to feel good and a way to connect. Shabbat is all about human connection with those important to us, and a day of rest away from work, so sex on Shabbat is actually actively a good thing. I don’t think Neil is ever religiously Jewish, but Andrew making a joke about this once would be peak to me. Which also fits Abram, a very Jewish name I HC to be not just Neil’s middle name but his Jewish name, and is used in said holy context of sex.

I think like a lot of healthy adults who are sexually active, they will explore and will be more adventurous to try new and other things, especially when dealing with issues like waning to get off but having touch aversion and issues like that. I have a lot of sex life HC about them actually, ways they navigate erectile dysfunction, mental health, and what they like in a safe environment. They trust each other, and I like imagining different ways aspects of their relationship would change or evolve in my head in all different types of ways, including sexual. I also enjoy giving them kinks and inclinations I specifically don’t have, because it’s like me exploring the concept of why someone else might like something even though I personally don’t. I’m not imagining things that make me uncomfortable necessarily, just things I'm neutral on or don’t see the appeal of, but know why they appeal to others and try to imagine what these characters might think.

I feel canon Andrew and Neil explore sex and dynamics that make them comfortable, I have HC about Andrew possibly exploring pup play and wearing a collar for Neil partially as a “joke” in the beginning, but discovering they really like it. I also HC Neil is really into athletic stuff sexually, he thinks Andrew half dressed with his padding still on and a jock strap is just peak sex appeal. I also think Neil is very sensory, and makes associations with smells and senses easily, so he develops a sweat kink, which leads into his armpit kink. Neil isn't turned on by ‘the bad smell of sweat’ but rather the fact that when Andrew is sweaty he smells like Andrew a lot, rather than after a shower he smells more like soap, and he can’t smell Andrew as much. Andrew on the other hand prefers cleaner sex. He’s not triggered by dirty sex though– he used to suck guys off at an alt dance club and is used to the smell of sweaty balls, it's just not an active turn on. Neil has ‘nothing is hotter than Andrew wearing running shoes and socks, and only running shoes and socks’ energy to me too. I think Andrew feels good about himself in leather, but isn't going to be a leather daddy and wear the leather assless chaps and the cap, he will wear the leather harness that every gay wears to pride, but he wears it just for Neil. Also, Neil loves Andrews pecs, Neil’s kinda a boob guy, but for Andrew’s pecs specifically.

I personally think Andrew and Neil typically don’t have penetrative sex. They do it sometimes–and when Andrew is ready he will bottom more as a way to prove something to himself than anything–but it’s not their preferred way or their ‘go to’. When they finally do, they don’t see it as ‘finally having sex for the first time’, since all the sex they've been having is real sex, even if its oral, hand jobs, etc. I don’t think Neil is naturally inclined to bottoming, and since even the visual of topping can make Andrew uncomfortable, they enjoy sex in any other ways, thigh fucking, docking, Andrew fucking Neil’s ass cheeks, sucking each other off, mutual masturbation, frottage, etc. and it leads to stronger orgasms when they don’t have to hope ever second will be a cliff edge and turn into a panic attack. Safer waters are simply more comfortable for them to swim in, and they deem all sex as equal in ‘value.’ that being said, Andrew likes his ass being ate, as long as its just Neil’s tongue, while Neil is neutral on his ass being ate, but loves doing it to Andrew.

I also think they would explore toys, but not in the way they're often explored in fics, which is very vibrator and dildo centric. I think they would use jacking off toys, the disposable egg kind or some more long term ones, maybe even something they could use at the same time. I don’t see them ever actually using handcuffs or restraints really either. Andrew would see Neil tied up as an equivalent statement of ‘I don't trust you not to touch me’ when he wants to actively progress past that, and shows he trusts Neil by not holding his arms back or letting him touch him. Andrew had to hold down previous partners, but Neil is different, Neil listens. This isn’t my personal opinion about restraint, but it is what I think Andrew would think.

I have no idea if this is what you meant by ‘my thoughts’ but here they are. *puts something in your open palms,* idk what emoji that would be

#ask #aftg #aftg headcanons #nsft #OSHA violation #mailob

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k8kashi · 4 years

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Shikamaru Nara ~ [NSFW Alphabet]

NOTE: for obvious reasons, Shikamaru will be aged up to 19.

DISCLAIMER: this contains NSFW content.

A= Afterplay (What are they like after? Do they take care of you or do they immediately sleep?)

Shikamaru is pretty normal when it comes to aftercare. He’ll make sure you’re okay, and will clean you up afterwards. He’d probably be down to just lay around afterwards with you in comfortable silence, maybe talking about life. Definitely enjoys pillowtalk.

B= Body Part (What is their favorite body part? On them and on you?)

He never really prides himself on his physical attributes, but if he had to choose a favorite part on him, it’d probably be his hands. They help him think, they’re skilled in making signs, and he loves to see his hands on you. For you, his favorite body part would be your legs. He just thinks they’re sexy. He also loves to see them shake in pleasure.

C= Cum (Anything to do with cum really... I’m a disgusting person)

He doesn’t really have a favorite place to cum. If he can, he’d cum either in you or in your mouth, just to save the time of cleaning up. But if he isn’t particularly picky, he also likes cumming on your chest.

D= Dominant/Submissive (Are they usually dominant or submissive? Do they often lead?)

Mans is a TOTAL switch. He’ll take the lead most of the time, not minding it at all. But sometimes when he’s feeling extra lazy, he’ll love it when you take the lead. Even if it doesn’t seem like he’s enjoying it, he really is. Deep down, he loves it when you’re dominating him and telling him what to do. He’ll get all flustered and will probably stutter a lot, trying to regain control. If you’re controlling his orgasm, he’ll probably be too embarrassed to beg for it. But after a while, he’ll be whimpering and begging for you to let him cum.

E= Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Shikamaru has little to no experience, but he’s an insanely fast learner. His first time with you will probably start out a little awkward and fumbly if you’re expecting him to take the lead. You might need to guide him a little bit to help him loosen up, but once he finally feels comfortable, he’ll be an expert on your body.

He’s very perceptive, and will probably ask you questions like, “Does that feel good? Do you like that?” just so he can track where you like to be touched. Once he gets into the swing of things, he knows exactly what he’s doing.

F= Film (Do they like others watching you two do it? Are they willing to have a threesome with someone?)

Doubt it. Shikamaru will probably refuse to film a sex tape or refuse to do any serious risk just due to the horrors of someone watching you two. He treats sex as an important thing, and to be exposed to others in such an intimate state is something he’s terrified of. Threesomes too— he’ll probably not be down for that either. One, because that means putting in a lot of effort (what a drag...) and two, because he still doesn’t want to expose that part of himself to another person besides you.

G= Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment or humorous?)

honestly, it depends on the day. During his first time with you, he was a nervous wreck so he tried to stay as serious as possible. After you helped loosen him up a bit and get more comfortable, he wasn’t as serious. Sex with him can be funny at times— sometimes you might accidentally push him off the bed, or you might bang your head against the headboard, which will most likely be followed by an “Oh fuck! I’m sorry! You alright?” by him. You’ll start laughing, as you say, “I’m alright, Shika!”. When you continue what you were doing, he might make jokes about it afterwards, just to lighten the mood a bit.

H= Highlight (Does something usually happen while doing it? If so, what are those?)

He’s a BIG fan of lazy morning sex (obviously), and sometimes he might just be in a trance for a second, admiring your body slowly moving against him. If he’s on top, he might slow down with his thrusts or stop moving altogether. You have to snap him back into reality during these moments, but you don’t mind. The fact that he stopped because he was admiring you certainly flatters you.

I= Intimacy (How are they during the moment?)

even if funny moments do happen during the moment (as stated before), he’s quick to go back into his intimate state. He treats sex as an important thing that you and him only share, so he’s pretty intimate and passionate no matter what. Even if he looks unbothered sometimes (that rbf can sometimes show during sex), deep down he’s really enjoying the moment. But, usually, he makes sure you know he’s enjoying himself and that he loves you. Expect lots of loving touches and kisses.

He’ll probably let out small “I love you”’s and will 100% hold your hand as he’s going down on you. He’ll praise you a lot too, with phrases like “You’re doing so well. Man, you look so pretty like that.” and “You feel so good. I love you.”

J= Jack off (Do they often masturbate? How embarrassed are they when you find them masturbating?)

His sex drive is somewhat low, so he might not masturbate that often. When you’re not there, and when he’s feeling extra pent-up, he’ll make sure to do it where there’s no chance of anyone seeing. You might be able to catch him once in a blue moon, hearing soft sighs and small whispers of your name. He’ll be super embarrassed even if you’re the one catching him. His cheeks will flush, he’ll avoid eye contact with you, and he’ll mutter out a string of excuses to try and save him from his embarrassment, not paying attention that you were walking towards him, wanting to help him out.

K= Kink (What kinks do they have?)

Shikamaru is pretty vanilla, so nothing super major. but he DEFINITELY has a praise kink. It reassures him when you’re the one praising him, and when he’s praising you, he just likes to compliment you and show you how much he loves you.

He’s also into orgasm control. When he’s the dominant one, he isn’t super harsh with his commands. He’ll probably still praise you while giving you commands. He just likes to see you desperate for him. “You’re doing so well, baby. Just hold on a little longer, okay? You just look so pretty like this.”

If you want to control his orgasm, he’ll be a little embarrassed at first. Try to make him feel as comfortable as possible. Once he’s loosened up a little, he’ll be a blushing mess, whimpering softly and bucking up into your hand (like I said, mans is a total switch). If you make him beg for his release, he’ll be embarrassed at first, but once you let him know that’s his only way to cum, he’ll hesitantly start to plead for it.

L= Location (Favorite places to do it)

Since Shika is pretty worried about risks, he wouldn’t do anything where there’s a chance of anyone spotting the two of you. He’ll enjoy private places like the bedroom, the shower, and, if he’s feeling adventurous, maybe somewhere in the house like the kitchen table.

(He’s definitely had fantasies of fucking you in the hot springs late at night when no one was there, but he’s still hesitant about the risk. Will totally be down if he’s totally sure no one will catch you two.)

M= Mood (Do they often want to do it with you?)

Shikamaru’s sex drive is a little low— he can go without it for a while, but he’s almost always down to be intimate with you, as long as it’s safe and you feel comfortable as well. He probably won’t initiate sex very often, but if you tease him for a while, he’ll be following you around like a lost puppy, silently pleading for you to let him fuck you.

N= No (Something they wouldn’t do.)

Anything where there’s a high chance of getting caught by others. If you reassure him enough, he might give in a little bit and do something a tad bit risky, but nothing super out of his comfort zone.

He also wouldn’t do anything you’re not comfortable with. He wants to make sure you’re okay with everything he’s doing.

Probably won’t be into super hardcore BDSM or intense pain play. If you really beg him to choke you or slap you, he’ll be hesitant and will probably do it lightly, after asking you “Is this okay? You can say stop at any time. Am I hurting you too much?”. He really just doesn’t want to hurt you.

O= Oral (Do they like receiving or giving?)

He LOVES receiving. His favorite thing is to lay back lazily and let you suck him off. Hands behind his head, admiring the sight of your mouth on his cock. He won’t move an inch. Totally a pillow prince when it comes to receiving oral.

When he’s in the mood to give, he’d prefer you to sit on his face, so he doesn’t have to move around as much. Will totally be fine with you grinding on his face.

He definitely knows what he’s doing after the first couple tries. He’s an insanely fast learner and will take a mental note of what you like.

P= Pace (Are their paces slow or fast? Rough or soft?)

his normal pace is pretty slow and moderate. His lazyness keeps him from moving super fast and rough, but he’s certainly got the ability to do it. If he’s frustrated because of something, (maybe something has been bugging him or he’s just had an irritating day), he’ll pick up the pace a bit just to let out a bit of frustration, but he’ll make sure you’re okay with it first.

Q= Quickie (Their opinion on quickies. Do they do it often?)

He isn’t the biggest fan of quickies, but it gets the job done. He’d prefer to take his time with you, but sometimes he’s got a packed schedule and needs a way to quickly relieve himself. Sometimes he’d grab your hand before going on a mission and fuck you just in case it’ll be his last time seeing you. It’s not his favorite thing — he’d much rather be slow and sensual with you — but on the rare occasion he does do quickies, he makes sure you’re both satisfied. His pace quickens up and he’s a little more rough, but nothing too crazy.

R= Risk (Do they tease you in public? Do they have sex with you in public places? If so, usually where?)

Again, he’s pretty anxious about doing anything super risky. The most he’d do it tease you a bit in public, maybe whispering in your ear as you walk with him, or when sitting together, brushing his fingers against your inner thigh under the table.

S= Stamina (How many rounds they can go on?)

On a normal day, the most he’d want to go is two rounds. He can do another, but, again, his laziness usually keeps him from going over two rounds. If you beg a little harder, and if you’re both still wanting more, he might be down for a third round.

T= Toys (Do they own toys? Do they use them?)

He doesn’t own any toys, but he’s down to buy and use them if you want to. He’s pretty laid-back about toys. If you want to use some on him, he wouldn’t be opposed to it either, but he likes using them on you and seeing your reaction.

U= Unfair (How much do they like to tease? How often do they tease?)

He doesn’t tease you that much in public, but he likes teasing you in private. He’ll pull away from you while you’re kissing him, and will use his hands to roam your body but he won’t touch your sweet spots. You’ll whine a bit, but that only makes him more entertained.

“Shika... C’mon, quit teasing...”

“You know you like it when I do this.”

He actually tried to tease you in public, hugging you from behind and grinding into you slightly. Needless to say, you were certainly riled up after that.

If you try to tease him in public, he’ll turn bright red and will probably start stuttering a bit. Brush against his dick while moving past him through a crowd, and say “Oh, excuse me,” with an innocent look. The look in his eyes tells you he knows exactly what you’re doing.

If you’re dominant with him in the bedroom, teasing him is a fun challenge. He’ll act like he’s not bothered, but after a while, he’ll get impatient and desperate for you to touch him. He’ll probably stutter a lot, trying not to sound desperate.

V= Volume (How loud are they?)

He’s usually somewhat quiet. Mostly because he’s a little embarrassed. If he’s in charge, expect a couple of soft sighs and groans from him. If you’re dominant with him, he’ll be a lot more flustered and loud.

W= Wet tongue (Do they like to dirty talk you? Do they often do it? Are their words dregrading or praising?)

He can talk dirty from time to time. He’ll usually praise you and give you a couple of commands, but nothing super dirty. He’ll probably whisper out something like:

“Keep doing it just like that. That’s a good girl.”

“You look so pretty all spread out for me.”

If you want him to degrade you, it’ll be a little difficult for him to get used to, and he’ll always make sure you’re not uncomfortable with the things he’s saying. He’ll accidentally praise you out of habit sometimes.

“Look at you, all helpless. You look so beautiful— oh, uh, my bad. I meant...”

You’ll start laughing and he’ll start fumbling his words, trying to make sense at what he just said. He’ll get the hang of it sooner or later.

X= Xtra (Random headcanon)

LOVES it when you ride him. Especially when you’re facing him. He can stay there with his hands on your hips, helping you find a rhythm. When he’s feeling a little more submissive, he doesn’t mind if you straddle him and hold his arms down.

Secretly loves it when you pull his hair. If he’s kissing your neck, grab his hair and grind into him a little. He’ll go crazy.

Y= Yearning (How high is their sex drive? Do they often seek you out?)

He sex drive is fairly low, and he doesn’t initiate sex very often. He’s attracted to people who are direct and know what they want, so you’ll have to say exactly what you want him to do for him to get a clue. He’s pretty smart when it comes to you dropping hints, and probably suspects that you want him, but he’s always unsure and has doubts. Make sure to say exactly what you want to him, or else he won’t do anything.

Z= Zzz (How quickly they fall asleep afterwards.)

He can fall asleep after sex fairly easily. If he wants to, he can just lay there with you and talk, but he’s down for either one. If he’s feeling particularly tired, he’ll fall asleep against you right away, and you can watch him calmly drift off.

#shikamaru imagine #shikamaru headcanons #shikamaru nara #shikamaru x reader #n/sfw #ns/fw text

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chamomileteainabuttercup · 3 years

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Thanks for tagging me in, @demisexuallupin

How many works do you have on AO3?

Currently 24, but there are many more orphans, whether from fandoms I no longer enjoy or because I really didn't like how they were written any more. I orphaned rather than deleting them because I knew from comments there were people who'd enjoyed them, so I might as well leave them available in some form.

What’s your total AO3 word count?

782,484 (probably a lot closer to a million if we could count the orphans, I know at least two of them were over 100,000 words each)

How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

Currently I've got fics for Star Wars, various Star Treks, The Witcher, Tintin, Jeeves and Wooster and Sailor Moon. Past fandoms included A Song of Ice and Fire/Game of Thrones and Steven Universe (see above about "fandoms I no longer enjoy") - I'm not sure how many in total.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Curse of Chamomile (Geraskier)

Fairy Tales in Deep Space (Garashir)

Locked Inside (also Garashir and have you ever noticed how "Geraskier" and "Garashir" look like the same word written in different bad handwriting also both involve a pretty-eyed slut called Julian)

Boba's Back (Bobadin)

No Peeking (Dincobb)

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Oh yes! If only to say thank you and I'm happy they enjoyed it. As for why, it's a combination of "it's just polite," "it's a gentle form of self-promotion" and "the response and interaction is a huge part of why I actually publish stories online instead of just thinking about them to myself." The best comments are the ones that turn into a real back-and-forth conversation, and those often generate more ideas for the story.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I think it's To the Island, a Garashir fic which ended with the two of them concluding they couldn't be openly together because Garak has a lot of enemies and it would be too dangerous. (But I wrote a sequel where they reunite some years later when circumstances have changed.)

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I'm trying to think if I have, but I think the closest I got was crossing over characters from Star Trek: the Next Generation and Deep Space Nine, and it was an AU - not very crazy at all, I just adjusted time so that two characters who would have attended Starfleet Academy several years apart were there at the same time and fell in love. That's Cadets and it's Datashir if you're interested.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not outright hate, but a very ungracious comment of the "I don't like this ship but your writing is good" variety.

If it had been "I didn't use to like this ship but I enjoyed your story so much I'm starting to feel differently!" I would have been very pleased (and I have had some comments like that), but no. If you don't even like the ship, please don't read my story, it is not for you.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

hahahaha I write little else! A big part of why I write fanfic at all is that I want sexy material with the characters I like from media that doesn't get that (onscreen/page) sexy. I do have some G-rated fics, but they're in the minority. My smut tends to be romantic and fluffy and tender, though at the same time it can be relatively hardcore/kinky, I just think it's possible to have romantic, tender rimjobs and canings, you know? The characters are always in love or on the way there. It is virtually always queer. I've written more m/m than f/f, mostly because the SF/fantasy/adventure-type stories I like have disproportionately male casts with more screentime and interesting development given to male characters, and that is an industry problem not a me problem. (I love Sailor Moon the best and that has an overwhelmingly female cast which is great, but the characters are mostly in their early teens and I don't find them sexy at my time of life.)

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not to my knowledge.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, and I don't think I could. I've written fic based on discussions I've had, so I consider that co-created by my discussion partner (eg Just Business, Nothing Personal with @djarining) but actual writing feels very personal and idiosyncratic to me and I'm not sure I could mesh with someone else's writing effectively, even if we did it in a relatively discrete way like alternating chapters.

What’s your all time favourite ship?

Probably Garashir, but I don't have a strong degree of favouritism.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

oh uhhhh are we counting incomplete fics that I abandoned a long time ago? Because that's most of 'em, I'm very poor at finishing stories. I tend to want to go on until I've run out of ideas completely and have nothing left for a conclusion.

What are your writing strengths?

Lively dialogue with distinctive character voices seems to be the biggie. Also generating a vibe of comfort and healing. I think I write fairly vivid descriptions.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Not finishing things, struggling to create a plot, getting bogged down because I suddenly hit this weird mental state where I can't figure out how to describe kissing without making it sound gross or boring, and doing the writing-a-sex-scene equivalent of falling asleep right after coming - the chapter tends to end a bit abruptly after a climax because I've spent a long time writing through all this emotional and sexual intensity for the characters and I want to finally push the chapter out and get some response to it.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I don't care for it myself but I don't object to other people doing it! The fandom I'm currently most involved with is The Mandalorian and there's this current of people using lots of Mando'a dialogue, especially to express deep personal feelings, with characters who we've never canonically heard use the language, eg Boba Fett referring to Jango as his buir when in Attack of the Clones he called him Dad. I'm not saying it's incorrect, people are free to imagine whatever they enjoy, but it throws me off/alienates me slightly while reading - like it doesn't feel natural to me that Boba and Din would speak Mando'a to each other, especially because given Boba's life story I wouldn't be surprised if he doesn't speak it well or feel comfortable with it. It's entirely a matter of personal taste rather than something I disapprove of, I want to make that quite clear.

I mildly disapprove of people scattering in words of a real-world language that they clearly don't speak (eg gratuitous "hai" instead of "yes" in an anime-based fic) and are just getting from a phrasebook or Google Translate, just because it's kind of clunky and not really the flavour enhancement I think they intend it to be.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

I think The Vision of Escaflowne. A very, very long time ago.

What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

Whichever one I'm currently enjoying writing! I feel very fond of Curse of Chamomile because it was the first Witcher thing I wrote based on having only watched the Netflix series, and I felt quite indimidated to begin with but the comments I got were welcoming and lovely and some people even said the characterisation I arrived at worked like a blend of the Netflix series and the books, which was a lucky trick given that I have never read them. That was a really encouraging and up-cheering experience. A lot of the early comments coincided with the time I was on a very enjoyable winter holiday to Taupō so when I had downtime I could refresh AO3 on my phone and there was often something new, and it all just reinforced my Good Time so I remember it fondly.

Tagging, ummm, I always feel awkward doing this because what if someone else tagged them already and I didn't notice? Anyway, we'll say @djarining and @beboots and honestly, anyone else reading this who would like to have a go, consider this your free tag.

#fanfic #ao3

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radramblog · 3 years

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Album Discussion- The Fall of Troy

Last week I discussed an album that, more or less, was defined by looseness and empty spaces. This might as well be the polar opposite of that.

(man no-one seems to have uploaded this album art in high res)

Released in 2003, The Fall of Troy is a self-titled mathcore/post-hardcore/screamo debut album made by 3 17 year olds- and in some ways that shows, but it’s not like they were fresh, they’d had two EPs under a different name by that point. The Fall of Troy is probably best known by their song F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X., having been featured as a bonus track in Guitar Hero III, which is notably, not on this album. Rather, their second album, Doppelganger, had a few tracks that were basically retakes of songs from this first album. But we’re not talking about Doppelganger (and I still can’t find a bloody CD of it), we’re talking about The Fall of Troy, by The Fall of Troy, so let’s bloody well dive in.

The first song on here, Rockstar Nailbomb!, is as much a statement of intent as anything I’ve ever seen. It’s starts with hoarsely screamed, incomprehensible vocals over a frenetic set of guitar riffs, that cuts back into a more traditional song structure, you know, after a bit. Like any good opener, it’s introducing what you’re going to be getting from the album- songs that, while extremely energetic, tend to cut between sung vocals and screamed ones at a moment’s notice, complex and overlapping guitar riffs, and a very deliberately unpolished sound. The technical skill on display is incredible considering the age of the band, as well. For such a short song, Rockstar Nailbomb! goes in some real places, closing with a line that would be appropriate to finish off the album as a whole- but of course, we’re just getting started.

The next song is called Spartacus, and it shows off the talent of the drummer in a way that the previous didn’t. Unfortunately, I almost feel like this song was kind of a half-formed idea, considering it’s a minute and a quarter long, and the…squeal…? Near the end is kind of offputting. A mid one.

Oh boy it wouldn’t be a nerd band without ridiculous track names- next up is The Circus That Has Brought Us Back to These Nights (Yo Chocola), and no I don’t fucking know what that means. This one ironically feels the most like a song than the others before it, a slightly more traditional structure, the screaming and singing vocals forming something of a call-and-response that would probably make more sense if I could understand the lyrics half the time. Despite this, it’s no less speedy, frantic, and intricate, mixes between melody and dissonance that are basically the band’s signature.

The fourth track is named Mouths Like Sidewinder Missiles, and it’s one of my favourite tracks on the album. I can’t really describe why, though, so I’m going to take a minute to talk about something else. See, this is one of the tracks that was redone for Doppelganger, and on Spotify, for whatever reason, has the title misspelled “Misssiles”. I let them know about this years ago and they never fixed it, so I guess this is my callout post. For what it’s worth, I think the Doppelganger version is a bit looser, adding in some elements in the empty space (there’s a reverb after the initial riff I really love), but both have their own merits.

Okay, mild rant over, back to regular old rambling. The next track is The Last March of the Ents, Lord of the Rings reference very much intended. This is one of those tracks I always forgets exists to be honest, like the intro started and I was like…what was this one again? And then the bit at like 50 seconds came in and I remembered everything. That section is honestly really strong, though unfortunately the rest of the track kinda feels just like Mouths like Sidewinder Missiles, but like, slightly worse? Which is especially awkward considering it immediately proceeds that song. I will say the part of the song where it slows alllll the way down is really enjoyable, it’s very gradual and smooth, gives the bass a bit of time to shine, before blowing back up again because these guys just can’t bear to play slow for half a minute.

The next track is F.C.P.S.I.T.S.G.E.P.G.E.P.G.E.P. This is the song that their most popular track, F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X. is a version of, and they’ve never actually stated what the acronym is for. A common (and I believe discredited) suggestion is, and I quote, “Fuck condoms, premarital sex is the shit, get ‘er pregnant get ‘er pregnant get ‘er pregnant”, which is A Take. It also has nothing to do with the lyrics of the song itself. This track is actually by far the loosest and slowest on the album completely, appropriate considering it’s first words are “slow down”. There’s really not a lot of screaming on it, left only to the chorus, and they’re actually understandable which is nice (or maybe it’s just because I know it’s “come running home”). This is undoubtedly an emo track, based on the lyrics, but it’s also just kind of excellent, similarly complex lyrics slowed down to a comprehensible tempo and a bridge that builds in a supremely satisfying manner. The comparison to R.E.M.I.X. is of course, inevitable, and I will say the tightening up did help in some places- the very slow section at the latter part of the song probably doesn’t need to go that long, and that’s easily the part that gets sped up most in the redo. Still, the song stands out very naturally, feeling more thoughtful and controlled than its peers.

The next song is titled “Whacko Jacko Steals The Elephant Man’s Bones”, apparently a reference to…a music video where Michael Jackson danced next to a recreation of the skeleton of a famously deformed man. Yeah, ok, sure. I don’t actually have much to say about this one, it’s very scream-led, but doesn’t really stand out to me apart from the naming. It’s play rating supports this, being the second least listened track here, but it’s by no means bad. It’s just kinda long and as generic as something like this can be, I suppose. Honestly I kinda forgot all the directions this goes, some of these sections are really quite excellent, but the song is probably like 2 minutes longer than it needed to be. I’m just saying. Like I kept waiting for this song to try and change my mind and it kinda just didn’t.

Reassurance Rests in the Sea is up next, and god that little riff it’s building around, that just noodles around but at triple speed, is just so sick. It’s a song that spends a lot more time cutting itself down- like F.C.P.etc. it’s looser and slower, but substantially more disjointed than that one is. This song, uh, completely breaks off like two minutes in and just stops. And becomes a different song. Like, I don’t think this is a bonus track or anything, it’s just a part of the same song. And that second half is a really sort of chill (for this album) instrumental, lead by a bassline that slowly gets more riffs over the top of it. And then that bit stops itself, and the main song returns again for like the final half a minute or so. And honestly I was just like, wait, no, go back…….

The actual least listened to track on the album is number 9, The Adventures of Allan Gordon (it’s apparently about a book). Honestly, I’d kinda love to hear this live, because the first minute or so of it is the kind of thing you’d play as an interstitial to keep the audience going while you get your shit ready for the next song. Eventually (and I mean eventually, song’s a third through at this point) the lyrics and such come in, and yeah ok I see why this one isn’t as popular. It’s like, fine? Like, that cut back section is pretty overall mediocre, but when we get back to the screaming and the riffs and the noise its as solid as ever. It’s a little frustrating, because they can do the more lyrical stuff, F.C.P. is right there, but this one doesn’t quite make the mark for me. A shame.

Track 10 is I Just Got This Symphony Goin’, which does not have an actual symphony, but it does present and absolutely killer opening riff, so it’s not all bad. This is one of the songs I most associate with the album, even if it’s one of the ones also on Doppelganger. Its speeding up and slowing down and screaming and singing and lots of interweaving and yeah. I like it. Iunno.

The final song, What Sound Does a Mastodon Make? (I dunno, ask a paleontolgist?), is a full seven minutes, 2 minutes longer than the next longest track. It’s kind of interesting, since the second half of the album going by tracks is much much longer than the first half. It does this really fun bit where the lead guitar and rhythm guitar do their own little call and response thing, immediately followed by one of the weirdest vocal noises I’ve ever heard, and I don’t have a word to describe it, so you’re gonna have to either trust me or listen to it yourself. This song is just really, really long, man, and it goes in a lot of places but none of them are exceptional enough to really justify slogging through a total 7 minutes of it. I’m going to be honest, I’m probably not going to listen to it unless I’m going through the whole album. The extended build near the end is pretty sick, I guess? And the way the last minute just decides to, like, drop everything, and just end with a very quiet, indie-esque instrumental. Like the very “we did it, now we can relax” sort of moment. Lets both you and the band know its over, and you can move on past your energy high to something a bit more chill.

I think the best phrase I can use to describe The Fall of Troy is “ADHD music”. Both in that it feels almost a little distractable sometimes, multidirectional and often not fully resolving its lines, and also in that said lines are great if you’re someone like myself who’s brain needs something to be chewing over while the more conscious parts are trying to do something else. To be clear, I consider this a compliment. Like most music I discuss, this certainly isn’t for everyone, as you’re going to need a tolerance for adrenaline and screaming to enjoy this album, but I do think it’s worth the attempt. Now, I haven’t listened to Doppelganger (or any of the other albums for that manner) in full, so I can’t comment on how the style of The Fall of Troy would evolve over time. But at the very least, this is a very solid starting point for what would become a surprisingly long-lasting act.

#ramble #music #mathcore #the fall of troy

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(Corner Anon is back, with more angst) Tony has been dodging his feelings towards Stephen since Infinity War. For now, he’s content with not ruining the sweet little thing that is their relationship. Then Stephen gets fatally wounded in battle to protect Tony. And Tony ends up crying and screaming at Stephen to stay with him, confessing his love to Stephen as the sorcerer dies in his arms. (Excuse me while I travel to Stark Industries to apologise to Tony)

💔💔💔💔💔💔

😭😭😭😭

I’ll make sure that SI won’t cover your travel expenses back into your corner, you can be sure of that! Your imagination is really gruesome, has anyone - except me - ever told you that? Poor Stephen, poor Tony. My poor heart. Well, lets try to wring some happy end out of this heartbreaking ask, shall we?

You caught me in the middle of a really angsty phase in my writing and I got inspired. Since you like hardcore angst you should like this one - if you’re also ready for an ficlet/headcanon/storyoutline/thing that’s not quite as tame as most of my answers. (Yes, we will talk about sex here. NSFW warning. (Can’t tag it, otherwise it won’t show up in the Ironstrange tag. Sorry.) Move along if you don’t like.)

“The sweet little thing” - so they’re friends with benefits, right? They meet from time to time for some very nice (and hot) sex, sometimes Stephen even stays the night and in the morning there’s a round two. Their affair is already a couple of months old but they have kept it a secret so far and it’s always Stephen who comes to Tony, never the other way round.

Stephen thinks that this is all he’s ever going to get and he knows that he won’t have it for long so he shoves his feelings, hopes and longings far away and concentrates on the heavenly feeling of Tony’s hands on his body, lets himself be pushed into that direction or this position. Tony is a great lover - attentive and gentle but with a little bite, always caressing him, telling him wordlessly that he is beautiful and worth something. He manages to make Stephen feel as if he is something precious. Sometimes he can even believe it for a moment or two. He loves those days when Tony was not quite gentle enough with him and he can feel the aftereffects all day long.

Tony knows that he’s in love with Stephen. He’s not stupid and the way his heart starts working overtime and those butterflies that appear in his stomach whenever he lays eyes on Stephen’s gorgeous body are only the tip of the iceberg. He loves the whole package - Stephen’s wonderful body, his amazing intellect and the lost and broken soul hidden away behind the most beautiful eyes Tony has ever seen. He’s more in love than he has ever been but he can’t bring himself to tell Stephen that. He sees the vacant look in Stephen’s eyes when Tony makes love to him and doesn’t dare to ask any questions; too afraid that Stephen might now longer seek him out for some fun hours of relief. He loves the way Stephen, despite his hands, manages to hold on to him and keep him down when it’s his turn to get fucked into the mattress. He stares at the bruises for days and smiles everytime a wrong (right?) move reminds him of the strength hidden in that slender body.

Stephen loves Tony but he knows that their days are numbered and that zero is approaching fast, so he stays silent. If he dies Tony will only have lost a friend with some nice benefits, not someone really important he was in a relationship with. He can’t and won’t inflict that kind of heartbreak on the man he loves. And if Tony is the one to die? That’s not going to happen; Stephen will make sure of that, no matter what. So he takes what he can get while he can get it and mourns a future that will never be.

Tony loves Stephen but doesn’t dare to speak of it; too afraid that Stephen might run and never return. Stephen’s too broken and too far gone into the mystical side of life to ever be truly happy with a normal human being who can’t follow him on his adventures and can barely comprehend what goes on out there. So he takes what he can get, all the while trying to find a way to hold Stephen in this plane of existence. By his side. In his life.

Yet another battle happens but it’s nothing special. Just a little incursion by the Kree who haven’t gotten the memo that they’re in another timeline now - one where the Earth still exists and the remnants of humanity are not forced into the lighthouse. Yes, just another alien invasion; they are all pros at that by now.

Iron Man blasts one of the little fighters after the other out of the sky; the Scarlet Witch takes care of the few who managed to land on Earth (she and Tony are always on opposite sides of the battlefield, both unwilling to spent time in close proximity to each other); the other Avengers on call are dealing with this and that.

They haven’t called in the magical cavalry since it’s nothing major.

Suddenly a portal opens and Stephen in all his glory as the Sorcerer Supreme steps through. It gives them all a pause. When Stephen personally joins a fight it means it’s serious business. All of the Avengers are looking around nervously, afraid of what might lurk in the shadows.

Not so Tony. Tony takes one look at Stephen and knows that something bad is about to happen. There isn’t even time to speak to each other - suddenly the sky opens up and something comes through the rip in time and space. It’s worse than the wormhole over New York all those years ago. Because this time there is not an alien army waiting on the other side but something much bigger, much more dangerous. Something magical.

Wanda throws her magic at the thing before they haven even seen what it is while Stephen conjures a barrier to keep ground zero as contained as possible. Tony throws everything in his arsenal at the wormhole and already makes plans to fly through it to whatever lies on the other side. He brutally shoves his panic aside, he doesn’t have time for this right now. He’s just running the last few calculations when…

“Tony, don’t.”

Stephen’s voice is suddenly in his head and before Tony has any chance to comprehend what’s happening Stephen appears in front of him and smiles at him of all the things.

“Sorry but I’m not letting you that.” Stephen whispers inside his mind and the mirage vanishes. Tony looks up just in time to see the real Stephen seal the rip by throwing all of his power at it while Wanda helps.

Stephen is too busy doing that to protect himself and everyone else is far away/not paying attention because there are still Kree running around after all and Tony is too far away.

He can only stare in shock and horror as a stray bullet catches Stephen right in the back. He stands exactly on the spot where Tony would have stood for the most efficient way into the rip. Their height difference is just great enough that the bullet wouldn’t have been caught by Tony’s suit but the currently unprotected back of his neck.

Tony would have died instantly; Stephen stays upright long enough to finally seal the rip with the very last of his strength. Tony arrives at his position just in time to catch him as he collapses.

What follows is lots of incoherent babbling and some slightly more coherent love confession while Tony tries to patch the wound up with nano-tech. There is lots of begging for Stephen to please just hold on, that help is on its way. Stephen slips into unconsciousness with the bitter knowledge that all his efforts were in vain and that he has broken Tony’s heart even more with his denial of their true feelings and his refusal to let their relationship become more than pure sex.

His biggest regret is that he has never allowed Tony to kiss him, despite Tony trying time and time again.

Stephen’s vague visions of his death become true when he dies in Tony’s arms. Resuscitation is a success but he crashes two more times before the doctors in the Avengers compound finally manage to stabilize him.

He wakes up weeks later in the medical wing of the compound and the first thing he sees is Tony sitting on the adjoining bed which has been pushed directly next to his. Tony is holding on to his left hand as if it is a lifeline and smiles before he bends down to kiss Stephen for the very first time.

“I love you,” he whispers as his tears fall onto Stephen’s face. “You fucking, self-sacrificing idiot.” He kisses him once again.

Stephen tries and manages a weak smile. “Love you more,” he whispers back.

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When you need 1.3k words to right the wrongs of this ask… 😉 I hope you enjoyed it. Now back into the corner where I want you to prepare a nice apology not only to Tony but also to Stephen. Okay? Good. Love you, Corner Anon! 💞

(There’ll be real fic today. After I’ve slept. Sorry for the spam but this week I have all the time in the world and use it to type up Ironstrange angst at an alarming rate.)

#ironstrange #angst angst all the angst #corner-anon #amy imagines #anonymous #inbox

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Chapter 9: The Scheme

[[The American Publicist // JRD]]

Pairing: John Richard Deacon x Reader Word Count: 7.1K Style: Multi-Chapter Warnings: Swearing, references to sex/sexual themes (nothing explicit) Summary: Y/N was just hired to become a co-manager and publicist for the band Queen. The boys had never travelled abroad, so meeting an American was . . . intriguing, to say the least. Permanent Author’s Note: To clarify, I write because I get bored. Nothing is meant to be professional in any way, nor is meant to offend, cause anxiety, cause anger, cause sadness, or promote disagreement among readers in any sort of (semi)permanent way. A/N: SPOILER: I WENT HARDCORE INTO ONE OF MY FAVORITE TROPES AT THE END #SORRYNOTSORRY

Masterlist // Previous Chapter // Next Chapter // Masterpost

[previously…]

“Alright, Fred. What’d you find out?”

“She’s into him! You were right, Roger, you sly dog!”

“Well, Rog, if you are so smart, what do you suppose the next move should be then?” Brian was looking at Roger with a disapproving face, while Freddie was giddy with glee about playing matchmaker.

“A scheme of sorts. We need to arrange it so they can go on an adventure together, and then somehow end up needing to stay together, preferably at his house. They need a push to confess, because honestly if I see another gushy moment between the two of them and they aren’t official, I am going to shove their faces together myself.”

“Amen, Roger, amen.”

Once the three scheming musketeers had made their ways home, a three-way call ensued. Considering the weekend was right around the corner, the boys had very little time to conjure up a plan and put it into action. Freddie wanted to get started right away.

“Aright, darlings. Let’s get started. I think we all know where their evening needs to end up, but we need to figure out-”

“Wait… where does their evening end up?”

“Roger, I may be the stoic one here compared to you and Fred, but even I know what he is referring to.”

“Well, sorry, Brian, for apparently being stupid. You know, I was the one who figured out there were feelings between them, so we wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for that!”

“Relax, Rog, there is only room in this phone call for one hysterical queen.” Roger and Brian were back to listening to Freddie intently. “Also, I did get the confession out of Y/N, so don’t take that away from me. Anyway, here is what I am thinking. Our two lovebirds have a habit of injuring each other, and not in the fun way. So, we need them to a place where they cannot get hurt. Here’s what I’m thinking – John looks at her like she’s the most beautiful thing his eyes have ever seen. I’m sure if he was much more open as a person, he would have told us those exact words. Why not send them to a place where the beauty he sees in her will be illuminated further?”

Roger and Brian were looking at Freddie like he was crazy. Nothing was coming to mind as what could do what he wanted to do.

“Are you really not thinking what I’m thinking?”

“Fred, when is anyone in the same headspace you are?”

“Ha ha, funny Roger. But really! I was thinking of reserving them tickets to an aquarium! Our two little friends are both quiet people that love to learn, which can be done at an aquarium, plus aquariums usually have beautiful lighting! And the water will reflect small rays on their skin. Just think – John sees Y/N like that on a day to day basis. He’ll practically be bursting at the seams seeing her glowing and having a great time! We can buy them two all-day admission tickets, an I’ll give them to Y/N saying that this is for all the work and shit that she has had to put up with since she started working with us. I’ll also say that we are taking Saturday off and suggest that she take her best friend, John!”

“Fred, I love the plan. There’s one part of your plan that you haven’t thought out, though. You want their night to end with them staying together. It’s not like you can send them away to an aquarium trip where they’d need to book a hotel room. How exactly do you plan on getting them to one of their houses? It’s not like John wouldn’t drive her home in any situation at any time.”

Brian was right – and Freddie knew it. So did all the boys. John would do anything for you in any situation. If the boys were going to get a confession out of either of you, it was not going to be in a public place. It needed to be in a place where the two of you could be alone and where you felt safe. That basically meant the studio or one of your homes. The boys ruled out the studio because part of the plan was to tell you two that Saturday was a maintenance day for the building and it would not be open. That way the two of you would actually feel like you did not need to do any work. That was a personality trait the two of you shared that you had made note of early on – a workaholic nature shared between the two of you.

“So,” Roger broke the silence, “what are we going to tell them? We can’t freak her or him out by saying that there’s an accident in their neighborhoods and no one can go in or out. We also can’t just bluntly tell them that part of the deal is that they have to spend the night together since we bought the tickets.”

Roger saw the cogs turning in Freddie’s brain. So did Brian.

“Fred, no. You can’t be serious.”

“Fred yes! Think about it, Brian. Why wouldn’t it work? The two of them are practically inseparable already, I mean she told me just now before she left to have John call her when he got home. They were just together, and she wants to talk before they go to bed. It’s amazing to me that they haven’t already had a sleepover. Something tells me that if we told them that as part of the deal, we would like for them to spend the night at one of their houses, just to save them gas money or something, I really think they would consider it!”

Slowly, Brian and Roger began to see what Freddie was envisioning in his head. He really had a point. The two of you really were inseparable, so who is to say that you both were not chomping at the bit to have an excuse to spend the night at each other’s places? The three of them collectively agreed that this was the plan to move forward, and that Brian would make the arrangements to get the tickets first thing tomorrow for Saturday.

Ring… ring… ri-

“John?”

“Hello, love.”

“Freddie actually told you to call. That’s a first.”

“Probably would have called anyway, knowing myself.”

The call only lasted about fifteen minutes, yet you managed to talk about tons of things. Some basic things that you had not had a chance to discuss during the recording sessions, John told you about some new lines that he had to hammer out, you told him about the progress of Roger’s binder, and other small talk. Eventually you brought up the whole playing Brian’s guitar debacle, completely unaware of how that whole situation made John’s skin crawl.

“I had fun playing with you guys today. Even if it was Brian’s instrument.”

“What do you mean by that, love?”

“By what?”

“The ‘even if it was Brian’s instrument’ part. What do you mean?”

John did not have to audibly hear it, but he could tell that your breath hitched in your throat in anticipation of what you were going to say. He wanted you to say that you would have much rather have been playing his bass, standing pressed right up against him instead of Brian. He wanted you to say that the guitar really is not your style, but the bass is. And you did.

“Truly? I would have much rather have helped you play. I thought maybe since you’ve kind of been teaching me that there was… I don’t know, a reason? Besides being close and all.”

John thought his brain repeated itself, but eventually it dawned on him that the words were being spoken in your voice, because he was talking to you. You had said you would have much rather been helping him play. The anger that was still simmering underneath him at Brian completely faded away. That’s why you never moved in closer to Brian – you wanted to be near John. And then the last part of your answer clicked in his head. He said you two were close. No mention of the phrase “best friend.” Not that he hated the term – he was perfectly fine just getting to be around you every single day. But this time you did not use the dreaded phrase. You two were just “close,” and that gave him a glimmer of hope. You snapped him out of his trance with a question.

“Do you think that’ll ever get to happen?”

“Wh-what? Will what happen?”

“Me getting to help you play. I know I’m not good yet, and will never be as good as you, but… if you ever need help playing during a take, I need you to promise me that it’ll be me that you ask. Okay?”

“That’s a promise. If I was with you, I’d shake your pinky, love.”

You giggled at his childish response, but he could not see the dusty pink over your cheeks. He made you so happy, with even the simplest of words and gestures. Even if he did not mean them in the way that you hoped he did, you appreciated them nonetheless. After the promise, a comfortable silence filled the phones, both of you waiting to see if the other had any other last-minute things you wanted to say. A bold thought crossed your head and you debated even saying it, thinking it might be too risky. Screw it, you said.

“Hey, John?”

“Mhm?”

“How would…” You were regretting it. If you were going to say never mind, now was your chance. “How would… you feel about maybe one night having a movie night? Whichever house we choose, we can just stay there one night. Just enjoy each other’s company, share favorite movies. I’m sorry if that would make you uncomfortable or nervous, and just shoot me down if-”

“I would love to, Y/N.”

“Really? Like, you’re not messing with me? Because, John Deacon, I swear if you get my hopes up and then crush me!”

“Do you really think I could ever do that to you?”

He turned the call serious. You did not intend for it to become serious. Your question about having a movie night was, but your response after him saying he would love to was meant to be funny. And John knew that. He wanted to be funny in response, but his want to make sure you knew that he would always be there for you was stronger. He was in love with you, and even if he did not have the courage to drive to your place, stand on your doorstep, and tell you that passionately, he was bound and determined to show it to you in any way he could.

“No, I don’t.”

“Good. Because I can’t and I won’t, love. Even when you leave us for some up and coming American band, I will always be your best friend. I will make you come visit us.”

“You won’t have to make me, John, I’ll always come visit.”

He could hear the sadness in your voice at the prospect of eventually having to leave. You both were thinking all the time about some scheme of your own to find a way to get you to stay. Neither of you came up with anything but the obvious; get him/her to be my boyfriend/girlfriend. Obviously, that was not happening any time soon, not on your own accord. You needed a push. Another wave of silence washed over the phone, but this time the air was a little sad. You broke it again, with the intention of ending things on a happier note. You failed.

-“…thanks for being my best friend, John. I needed someone like you in my life, and I don’t want you to ever leave.”

“…don’t want you to leave, either, love.”

“I’ll let you sleep now, John. I’ll see you in the morning?”

“Same time, same place, love. Good night.”

“Night, Johnny.”

Click.

‘Johnny,’ huh? First, she adopted the nickname he reserved for her, and now an endearing pet name? This girl was going to be the death of him, in one of two ways. The first would be by ripping his heart to shreds the day he dropped her off at the airport to go back to the states. He did not refer to it as her home anymore, because of one conversation they had had a while back. She had told him that America no longer felt like home. Being in the studio and spending countless hours working on paperwork while John lightly strummed his bass, or the boys bickering, or all the times you would all go out to eat. That felt like home now. The other way? Well, if he ever worked up the courage to ask you out, there would be many nights where you would make him feel overwhelmed, and he would make sure that you had nights where he would be the death of you. You both had no trouble falling asleep that night, contrary to what you thought would be the case, considering the call ended in such a sad tone. You both laid in bed thinking the same thing, and fell asleep right after.

“God I just need to hear him/her say it. Just please say it. That’ll be enough.”

The next day, everyone gathered in the studio at the normal time, except for Brian. Roger and Freddie played it off by acting like they had no idea why Brian was late. Miami did not really care, since at this point, you all kept him out of your shenanigans because he, well, he asked you to. You and John, meanwhile were actually confused and thought maybe he was sick. It was almost 9:30am by the time that Brian walked through the doors. He did not look disheveled, did not look sick. Nothing seemed off. You and John tilted your heads simultaneously as if to say “what’s the excuse?” Brian picked up on his cue to keep the plan a secret, and answered normally.

“Took a new route to work, thinking it would be faster. Clearly, it wasn’t. I won’t be taking that route again. But I’ve wasted precious time, let’s get cracking, lads!”

No one particularly minded the lazy morning, so Brian’s eagerness to start working earned a groan from each of the band members. All of you were hanging out in the control room when he walked in. Freddie and Miami were sipping on wine and whisky, respectively, and Roger was sprawled out across the coffee table to whatever reason, flipping his drumsticks around in his hands. You and John were sitting on the loveseat across from Roger, you sitting upright while John’s head was in your lap, him lying on his back. You were lightly running your fingers through either the ends of his hair or his short, wispy bangs. Another tell-tale sign to the boys that the two of you are inseparable, and they were beginning to feel that their plan just might go somewhere. Roger and Freddie made their ways into the back, making sure to carry what it was they were holding in the control room, while John turned his head so his right cheek laid lightly against the fabric of the shirt you were wearing against your abdomen. He sighed up at you lightly, giving you a contented smile before forcing himself up from your lap. He had not even made it out of the room into the booth yet and the space where the weight of his head was felt cold and empty. Like you were missing something. You guessed that the sad feelings from the phone call the night before had not fully gone away by the time you woke up. Especially since you felt a thump in your chest when John shut the door to the booth behind him. Your body registered that as him leaving you, even though you could only not see him for three seconds while he stood behind the closed door. You hated that you felt this way about someone that you knew would not be a permanent member of your life. You wanted to find a way to make it work, desperately. As did John. The morning went like any other recording session, a bit of bickering here and there, mostly covered up by the angelic sound that is Queen. Time flew by while you worked and they jammed out, and before you knew it, it was almost 1:00pm and it was time for you all to go to lunch. The five of you decided to go to your normal spot and get your normal order. You were just having a normal conversation when Freddie changed the subject, rather abruptly, you might add.

“Y/N, darling, did you have plans for this upcoming Saturday?”

“Fred… we have work, Saturday. That’s my plan.”

“Oh, did they not tell you yet? Silly people. Work was cancelled on Saturday. It is one of the quarterly maintenance days of the year, and the building requires that no one outside of maintenance is in the building so they have full access. So, that should mean you are free, right? Of course, it does!” He did not even give you a chance to respond, and the gaping face you were making made John chuckle. You nudged him with your elbow lightly, laughing at him laughing at you. Freddie continued after yours and Johns exchange. “Since you are newly freed up, I wanted to offer you a gift.”

“Freddie, I don’t need anything!”

“Nonsense, darling! You have had to put up with quite a bit since you started working with us, and we have taken days off when you were in the studio, so you have earned a break. The lads and I chipped in and bought you two tickets to that massive aquarium a couple blocks away from the studio building!”

You were taking in all the words Freddie was spilling your way, and when he said ‘the lads,’ you assumed that included John. You turned to him and noticed that his eyes were squinted in confusion just like you, and you knew that this had nothing to do with him. Your mind then flashed back to the question Freddie had asked you the night before about your feelings towards John. You were terrified all of a sudden that he had told Brian and Roger, and that fear quickly turned to anger, because you thought you could trust him to keep it a secret. Apparently not.

“Now, darling, you may be wondering why I got you two tickets. Well, I figured you would not want to spend your day alone, so I was going to suggest that you take your best friend Deaky with you! You two could have a lovely afternoon out, and then maybe even go back to his place afterwards for a movie or something!”

Now both you and john were gaping. The thing he suggested doing at the end made you both fear that somehow, he had tapped your phones and listened in on the conversation you two had. It was exactly what you two wanted to do at some point.

”Wow, um… that’s such a coincidence you mention a movie night. We were talking about that last night, on the phone.”

“I’m not opposed to the idea love, plus the tickets are free. Would you want to go to the aquarium with me Saturday?”

“Now hold on, you two.” Roger jumped in, which meant that there was a catch to this little plan the boys had. “You can have the tickets at no cost if you make a promise to us. You clearly want to have a night together, as best friends, so in order for us to give you the tickets willingly, there are two things you have to do for us.” Neither of you particularly liked the way he was looking at you, but you waited to hear what he had to say. “The first is that the movie night you two want to have? Have it after the aquarium and make it a sleepover. Second, John I know you have a polaroid camera. Take a picture of you two in a place where I know I’ll recognize your house. We need proof this sleepover happened. That sound like a deal?”

You and John looked at each other with wide eyes, trying to hide the fact that you both were internally battling two separate ideas in your heads. Both of you were terrified about the prospect of spending the night together, but at the same time, you both desperately wanted it to happen. You gave John a soft smile, and he knew exactly what to say to Roger.

“It’s a deal.”

The three started to make their way to the car, while you went to the bathroom and John waited for you. They had a moment to let it sink in that their plan worked.

“Well. That went better than expected.”

“I told you wankers it would work. They just needed a little push.” Freddie was clearly proud of himself.

“…d’you think that John’ll take a picture of Y/N in any sort of provactive way?”

“ROGER!” Freddie was trying his hardest not to fall to the ground in laughter, while Brian respected your privacy enough to be embarrassed for you.

‘WHAT? It could happen! These two clearly want to shag, so who’s to say it won’t happen?”

Thankfully, the end of Roger’s sentence happened right as the two of you made your way out of the restaurant and you never heard a word they said. Their plan was falling right into place, and all that was left was to get you two to the aquarium.

“Today’s the day… my… what technically is this?” You were thinking aloud as you were getting ready for the Saturday ahead of you. You were trying to figure out what you would technically classify your day with John as. On the surface to anyone getting just the facts, it looks like a date. Hell, it is a date. Except you two did not arrange it – John’s sneaky bandmates did. And now you have a reason to assume Freddie told Brian and Roger about the “confession” you gave him. So, in reality, to you and John, the two that ultimately mattered, today is not a date. To everyone else, it is. Not to mention the fact that you are going to be spending the night at his house. Like that does not scream “date” to an onlooker. Brian bought tickets for the afternoon, so you and John decided to go around 3:00pm. That way you could go back to his house and cook dinner together before putting on a movie. You and him had talked about the dinner privately, not wanting to give the boys any more ammunition as to how seriously you two were taking this day. Your clock read 11:00am. That meant you had about three hours before John would be outside your apartment complex. A number of things ran through your mind. Some things were off of a mental checklist, things like what you wanted to wear for the day and what you needed to bring for the overnight part of your adventure/date. You also made it a point to pick out a couple of your favorite VHS tapes to bring with you. (I did some research and I know that VHS wasn’t a thing until 1976, which is like juuuust after I imagine this story to take place. Bear with me. I also completely screwed up when John wrote YMBF earlier in the story so like timeline? Never heard of her.) Among other things, you were wondering what types of animals this aquarium was going to have, you thought about whether or not you should bring John a gift for letting you stay overnight, and you thought about what his little cottage looked like in person. He had talked about it before, and you had seen it from the outside, but you had never been in it. The house was beautiful and quaint. The first time you saw it, you made a note in your notes that you imagined John was the domestic type. He had already earned a decent amount of money from the first Queen album, and the other lads had clearly used the money on lavish things. John kept his home and put the money away for important things down the road. You really admired it about him, and it might have frankly been one of the first things that attracted you to him. He was not a stupid, impulsive rock star. He was just John Richard Deacon. Before you could get too lost in your thoughts, you snapped yourself out of them and picked out an outfit to wear. You settled on one of your favorites that you knew would be comfortable for the entire day. It was a very basic white tee shirt with a breast pocket and cuffed sleeves. It did not hug your figure, but by no means was it baggy. It accentuated all the right parts of you. You also chose your favorite pair of overalls, which were loose fitting and a deep, rich forest green with cuffs at the ankles, as well. They rose up just enough to show your ankles, and they were fitted similar to the shirt – not baggy, but just loose enough to breathe. You also threw on a simple pair of black flip flops. The icing on the cake was making sure that John’s necklace was seated on top of your shirt and not underneath. You had never taken the necklace off, not once. You thought John had not noticed that. He did, every day, in fact. If the bass charm had slipped underneath your shirt without you noticing, he would make a point to look at your neck to see if he could see the chain. He did not mean for it to seem creepy, he just wanted to make sure his best friend was still there for him. Once you had settled on your outfit, you hopped in the shower where your mind continued its rambling from earlier. You were nervous about the day, but were doing a really good job at hiding it, aside from the occasional playing with the necklace out of habit. John, on the other hand, was practically having a full-blown panic attack. He had gotten up bright and early, deciding that his already spotless home needed to be cleaned more. He cleaned and straightened everything that he felt needed to be cleaned and straightened. Once that was done, he made sure that he had tons of options for dinner so you would be happy with whatever you decided to cook. He also made sure to pull out his bin of VHS tapes so you had a bunch to choose from. Then, once he had done all of that, he went through his entire wardrobe figuring out what he was going to wear. He settled on something that he did not know was one of your favorite shirts of his – that white, silky button up that he only buttoned about halfway up. He also chose a pair of dark brown slacks, and a simple pair of tennis shoes. He felt confident in his choice, but was still freaking out on the inside. 12:30pm his clock read at this point. He was just sitting staring at the clock in his bedroom not knowing what else to do before he was to be outside your apartment complex at 2:00pm. He decided to fix himself lunch, and call the boys.

Ring… ring… ring… ring…

“Johnny boy! How’s my darling bassist?”

“Hello, Fred. Could you get Brian and Roger on the phone, too?”

“Of course, give me two moments…”

The waiting was the worst. John really for in his own head in those two minutes.

“Hello, John.”

“’sup, Deaky?”

Now that John had all three of his bandmates on the phone, he practically word-vomited his fears to them without taking a single breath.

“Alright so I’m really freaking out here because I got up really early thinking that the house wasn’t clean enough so I cleaned everything and polished everything and laid out some newer decorations that I had recently bought and hadn’t put out yet and then when that was done I wasn’t sure what else I needed to do so I made a mess of my closet trying to figure out if this was a formal or informal day that we’re having because I don’t know what this really is and then I had to make sure that I had enough options for dinner because she suggested that we cook dinner together when we got back here and I said that sounded good and now I don’t know if she likes what I have or if she has an allergy or if I should’ve bought some American food to make her feel more comfortable and I’m genuinely starting to freak out because I’m in love with her and I don’t want to mess this up and I even bought and put out a candle that she mentioned she loved and brought my bass out in case she wants to hear me play—”

“JOHN!”

John let out a shuttering breath, realizing that he had not paused that entire time.

“Darling. There are a couple things I think we all want to ask you about, but there’s one that stands out particularly. Right towards the end of that… speech… you said something. Repeat it.”

“That I bought a candle she likes?”

“Ugh, John, you’re so hopeless sometimes.” John could practically hear the eye roll that came from Roger’s words.

“No darling, right before that.”

“That I am freaking out because I’m in love with—”

Brian, Roger, and Freddie were all smirking through the phone at John’s reaction to realizing he just confessed.

“Oh. That part. Um, I guess the cat’s out of the bag. I agreed so quickly to this idea because I don’t have the courage to ask her out myself. I kind of hoped she would think of this as a date. But then I remembered that she doesn’t feel the same way as me.”

It took all the strength the three had to not scream into the phone that they knew you felt the same way and that that was the exact reason they were sending you two on this adventure. They wanted to keep it a secret that they knew about John’s feelings for you and your feelings for him. Their goal in all of this is to squeeze a confession out of both of you. They did not want to ruin the feeling that would overtake you both when those words moved past each other’s lips. The three of them had experienced it, and to their knowledge, John had not. They were not about to take it away from him. Freddie chose his next words carefully.

“John. Listen. We have all been on those dates where we are infatuated with the person we are with, and are terrified to put ourselves in that vulnerable state because we don’t know what they’re really thinking. I completely get where you are at the moment, and I’m sure Brian and Roger do, too. And let me say this – even if this doesn’t turn into a quote-on-quote “date,” that doesn’t mean you cannot have the best day of your damn life with her. You’ve said it yourself – she’s your best fucking friend. Enjoy her presence and see where things go. If the moment feels right, let her know what’s going on in your head, and who knows? Maybe you’ll be in for a pleasant surprise. Just have confidence in yourself, John, and just have a good time. You’re not losing her anytime soon, but enjoy her while you can.”

John knew Freddie was right, and he definitely chose his words correctly. John had no idea that you were also in love with him like the three of them did. He felt a lot better after hearing Freddie talk, regardless. He waited a minute to see if Roger or Brian would say anything, and when they did not, John whispered into the phone.

“Thank you, Freddie. That really helped. Sniff…”

“John, Jesus, are you crying now?”

“Roger, be nice, we know how big of a deal this is for John now.”

“I know that, Brian. Sorry, John. Didn’t mean to make it seem like I’m annoyed with you. I’m not. I just forget that some people don’t date as frequently as I do.”

“DATE? YOU GUYS JUST SAID THIS ISN’T A DATE!”

“Dammit Roger!”

“That’s not—that’s not what I meant, John! I just meant that you two are going out together, and even though it’s just as friends. Ah, dammit. Sorry.”

The calm that John had felt left as quick as it came. And now, it was worse. Did the three of them want this to be a date? Did you think this was a date? Was he underdressed? Did you have expectations of him?

“John, darling, I can hear the cogs in your brain turning like mad. Relax, everything is going to be fine.”

“But if I’m not interrupting anything, John, my clock is reading 1:30pm, and you need to be at her flat in 30 minutes, do you not?”

“Oh! Yes, thank you Brian! And… thanks, lads. You’ve helped a lot. I’ll see you on Monday.”

Click.

Little did John know, when he hung up the phone, the other boys stayed on the line.

“Well done, Roger. You almost ruined the surprise for outr poor little Deaky.”

“It isn’t my fault that he is clueless about Y/N’s feelings!”

“Let’s just hope neither of them chicken out. This confession needs to happen, otherwise, Roger will be taking matters into his own hands.”

2:05pm. If it was not John we were talking about here, you would be concerned that he forgot about the day. You were waiting in the air-conditioned lobby of your building when you saw John’s car pull up out front. You took a deep breath and made your way through the doors. John had just exited his car and made eye contact with you while you walked through the front doors of the building. Completely contrary to how he was feeling, John smiled at you toothily and his signature eye wrinkles came out, and you melted on the spot. You really loved his man, and could not wait to go on… whatever this was with him. John noticed you had a bag hung across your back. He ran over and popped his trunk for you to put it in, and he met you there.

“Hi!”

“Hello. You ready to head over?”

“So ready.”

You two hopped in his car, and started the drive to the aquarium. You had about a fifty-minute drive ahead of you guys, so you decided to kill the time by just mindlessly chattering or belting out the songs that came across the radio. Well, it was mainly you that sang – John just sat there contently listening to you. Every once in a while, you would lightly grab his shoulder and urge him to sing with you, and the few times you tried it, it worked. And John’s voice made you feel so warm inside. He had a voice that in your head almost matched Freddie’s, but you were the only one who thought so. You did not care what anyone else thought – you fully felt confident in your choice to think that. Right at 3:00pm, the two of you pulled into the aquarium, and you were amazed at the grandeur of the building. Freddie hit the nail on the head about where to send you guys. You had not even made it into the aquarium and John was looking at you like you put the stars in the sky. John parked the car and you made your way into the building. John handed the admission lady your tickets, and you were free to begin your trek through the massive aquarium. Slowly but surely you made your way through each of the exhibits. Certain exhibits made you clearly more excited than others, and one of them was the shark tank. You adored sharks and was super excited to point out each type to John, showing him what you knew about them. When you turned around to see if John was paying attention, you noticed he was looking a little bit pale in the face.

“You okay, John? You don’t look like you feel good.”

“Wh-what? Oh yeah, ‘m okay…”

“Johnny, I know you. Something’s wrong.”

“Well, if you must know, I’m not the… fondest of sharks.”

“Oh, John, I’m sorry! I kept you in front of them for too long, we can keep going. C’mon!” With that, you laced your hand in his and pulled him toward the next exhibit. John’s heart was already beating roughly because of fear, but now it was beating because of your touch. It sent him through the roof on the inside, but he tried his best to keep his cool on the outside. He did not want to get his hopes up that you grabbed his hand for any reason other than to drag him to the next room, except you got there. And your hand did not move. The rest of the trip at the aquarium, your hand stayed placed inside of his. Eventually, John’s heart rate slowed down, the feeling of your hands interlocked becoming normal. He was seeing how people looked at you both adoringly, and with your hand in his, he was really starting to feel like this was a date. It seemed like the two hours flew by, but before either of you realized it, it was slightly after 5:00pm and it was time for you two to drive home. The two of you still had not let go of each other’s hands, and when you made it to the car, there was a slight bit of hesitation. Neither of you wanted to let go of the other. John walked you around to the passenger seat, opened the door for you, and you two slowly let go of your hands. You plopped down in your seat, and John practically sprinted around to the driver’s side. As soon as both of you were buckled into your seatbelts, chose a radio station, and pulled safely out of the parking lot, John’s hand came to rest facing upward and open on the console in between the two of you. You looked at his face and saw that he looked nervous about the gesture, but calmed him down immensely by placing your hand back in his, right where it belonged. It stayed there for the entirety of the ride. There was still the slightly more intense heart beating shared between the two of you, but about forty minutes into the ride, the lovesick heart rates turned rapid when a certain song came on the radio.

“John… is that…”

“We’re on the radio.”

“You’re on the radio! John, Queen is on the freaking radio!”

“Um…yeah wow…”

You almost broke his hand with how hard you were squeezing it. You began to belt out the words to “Keep Yourself Alive” with an intense enthusiasm. John still did not sing with you, but his smile was from ear to ear hearing you belt out one of their songs with such glee. While you aggressively squeezed his hand, he simply stroked his thumb from side to side on your hand just to let you know that he acknowledged everything you were doing. You both were still feeling a little bit airy from the mini concert you put on with the radio earlier when you pulled in John’s driveway, and you started to feel the nerves that were overtaking John all evening. You had seen his house from this angle before, but you were about to see the inside for the first time. For some reason, you could not help but think something as you walked through the doors.

“I could see myself settling down in a place like this.”

You two had made your ways through the door and you were just taking in the cleanliness and homey feeling it had. You loved it. It made you never want to leave. You were just taking in everything he had in his living room when he noticed you were just standing in the doorway.

“Y/N, love, you do know you can come in, right?”

“Yeah! Yeah… I’m just taking it all in.”

“Do you hate it? We can go to your house if you hate—”

“John, I’m in awe because I love it. It’s a beautiful and quaint house. It honestly is so you.”

John simply smiled in response and shuffled a little bit on his feet. He was feeling the nerves kick in again, and then he started to ramble on about everything planned for the night.

“Well, I have a bunch of different options for dinner, we can cook whatever you fancy. Then after that, I pulled out a bin of all the VHS tapes I have and we can choose one of those to watch. We can just do whatever you want, just… tell me what you want and it’s yours.”

“While I really appreciate that John, there is one thing I would like to do before all of that.”

“Mhm?”

“Could I put my overnight bag where I will be sleeping?”

“Oh! Yes! Sorry. Follow me, Y/N.”

John led you up the short flight of steps to the upper level of his house, and nonchalantly opened the door to his room. It did not even register in his head that he brought you to his bedroom until he walked about halfway into the room. Then he stopped dead in his tracks.

“Y/N. I just realized something.”

“What is it, John? You’re as pale as you were in front of the sharks.”

“I… I only have one bed in this house.”

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Updated rules

I updated my rules, here’s the link: https://hannahhostofheaven.tumblr.com/rules

They are mostly the same with just a few updates. You need to have read my rules before we RP:

* I will follow you as my MUN blog with is @Hannah-deserved-better

* My OTP is always Hannah/Castiel so keep that in mind. My Hannah will always have a thing for Castiel. I am opened to RPing with other blogs but there probably won’t be any romance.

* I am open to poly pairings so if you want to do something with Castiel, Hannah, and someone else, I’m okay with that as long as it’s not Destiel or Wincest. I don’t ship either of those. I am open to Sastiel plus Hannah, Megstiel plus Hannah, OCs, whatever. But it needs to have chemistry.

* Note that I am a demisexual and bisexual person and as such, so is Hannah. Demisexual means I don’t just jump into sexual relationships without there being an emotional and mental relationship first.

* not interested in RPing with anyone who views angels as brothers and sisters cuz as I said, I ship Castiel/Hannah so our views will not be compatible.

* I play Hannah using Erica Carroll as a face claim.

* Caroline Johnson is available to RP with upon request.

* No god modding or making my character act without me. Don’t anticipate or assume what my character is going to do, I retain complete control of her. Also, no time jumps without discussing it first.

* Don’t nag me for a reply. I am very busy and real life comes first, I will try to reply when I can, and if I need another long break I’ll let you know.

* discuss plot with me. I am a plot driven writer and I like to plan things out. I am open to pretty much everything but I like mulling things over.

* It’s my belief that Hannah would be on the autism spectrum if she were human so any Human Hannah AUs will be like that.

* MUN is autistic.

* female vessel Castiel blogs are welcome.

* I play Hannah in character as I see her in the show. How she reacts to things doesn’t necessarily reflect the MUN’s personal views. Hannah is passionate for an angel but she is very stuck on her idea of angel code, law, and justice. The internal conflict can sometimes make her doubt herself and often makes her a bit of a contradiction. When her angel code says one thing and her feelings say another, she can have conflict. She is also impulsive and quick to anger. I am always trying to better my performance of her, but she certainly has a lot of strengths and a lot of flaws and you can expect me to play her that way. If she gets mad at your character don’t take it to mean it has anything to do with the MUN, I am just channeling Hannah.

* I don’t like just jumping into a relationship. I like to establish things first. It can’t be forced. Sometimes our muses get together very fast, sometimes there is angry hate sex first before there is love, sometimes it’s a slow burn, but we definitely have to go at the same speed. I never want to just start writing a situation where our muses are just automatically in a relationship from the beginning.

** ** I’ve eased up on my stance regarding smut lately, but I still tend to be kind of fickle about it, I have to be in the mood for it, so please check first. I am always okay with mild sex scenes and abstract sex scenes where we keep to metaphors and such, and I am not really into hardcore stuff. I reserve the right to fade to black if I’m not feeling it. Also, I do not write porn. My roleplays are plot centered adventures that can INCLUDE sex but nor REVOLVE AROUND sex.

* Also, on that note, if we are writing and I sense that a sex scene might be coming up, I’ll probably PM you (or you PM me) so we can be sure we are both on the same page.

* no child OCs.

* I like angsty, dark themes, hurt/comfort type plots. I really don’t have any known triggers, but check with me first. I am okay with torture and with plots involving rape, though not with children. Also note on rape: I will not RP graphic scenes of rape, I will always fade to black, no exceptions. Also Hannah will not be in any kind of relationship with your character if they are the ones doing the abuse.

* I don’t do the whole ABO alpha omega thing. I don’t understand how it works at all and it’s really just not my thing.

* My stories tend to be heavy on Supernatural lore so if you aren’t familiar with the show, I suggest checking out the Supernatural Wiki. I utilize it quite a bit myself: http://supernatural.wikia.com/wiki/Supernatural

* I’m not really into working outside the Supernatural verse, though sometimes I might be okay with crossing over with related verses such as Buffy the Vampire slayer, but I won't want to work in a verse that I personally don’t know about (and I don’t watch a lot of TV so I am not part of many fandoms) so when in doubt, stick with Supernatural.

* We need to establish which season we are working with. If we don’t, I will assume that we are working with the most current season, in which case, I will default to the idea that Hannah has been dead since season 11, when she was killed by the angel Efram, when she was in her male vessel, and she died trying to defend Castiel, and was somehow brought back to life.

* Please try to play in character and with canon in mind. We will definitely be breaking with canon, but it needs to always be a guideline.

* Mun is over 30. Mun is also married and has a job so the demands on my time can be formidable. Mun is in California so we are dealing with Pacific Standard Time.

* Supernatural deals with angels and demons and a lot of religious lore. I tend to stick closely to canon when it comes to lore and things like that, so if you are religious its probably best not to get offended by things like Lucifer and such because it’s just a show. I personally don’t come from a religious background, though my husband, who is very well versed in Judeo-Christian mystics, helps me in those areas of the show. I also happen to hold a degree in history and am pretty knowledgeable in anthropology, mythology, and world religions. That being said, I suggest we keep to the guidelines and criteria dictated by the show, not the bible.

* I am relatively new to Tumblr roleplays so I am not completely fluent in the lingo and such. I don’t know how to do icon threads and I don’t know what discord or anything like that is so we should stick with thread style format. Although I do like to insert pictures and gifs into my posts once in a while.

Headcanons:

* Hannah is an angel’s angel, she lives by her rules, but she finds inner conflict with her feelings. She believes in law, justice, and order.

* She is a unique angel in that she has emotions. This makes her more intuitive than other angels. She is quite passionate and although she doesn’t always understand emotions, she just knows she has them. She has a temper, especially when someone taunts her or Castiel.

* Hannah has a fascination with Humanity, although she holds and maintains a distance with these creatures she doesn’t quite understand. She tends to find ‘human things’ like eating unsettling and disgusting, at first, but she is open-minded and when given enough encouragement, she will try new things.

* Hannah likes plants and plant life. She has an aversion to things like fences, borders, and barriers. Some things she retained from Caroline was being a bit of a daydreamer, animal lover, and an adventurous world traveler. In RPGs were Caroline was able to have a career, she always pursued something in travel and tourism, or in anthropology.

* In this headcanon, Hannah has given up her vessel’s soul who has gone to heaven, leaving Hannah her body. But she still recalls certain events from Caroline’s life, like living in Montana. Her favorite animals are horses, dogs, and tigers.

* In this headcanon, Caroline and her husband were not on the best of terms. Depending on RPG, Joe can be seen as neglectful at best, abusive at worst, and there was a reason why Caroline said Yes to Hannah in the first place. This may or may not contradict canon, depending on your interpretations of it.

* I think Hannah has cream colored wings with golden yellow tips, see blog banner picture.

* Hannah is considered a relatively young angel. She is perhaps 5-10 million years old which when compared to the archangels which are perhaps billions of years old,is very young. She is older than humanity but wasn’t around to see dinosaurs.

* Caroline Johnson was born February 25th, 1980 in Great Falls, Montana. She is a Pisces.

* Hannah has had limited dealings with humans but she does have a certain bond with Caroline Johnson.

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tifarobles · 6 years

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Most Inspirational Characters for My Life

Writing about Disney princesses and video games has made me take a look at what characters (specifically women) are the most inspirational to me personally. This includes not only the primary characters I related to as a child but ones I am glad the next generation has to look up to now.

Tifa Lockhart (Final Fantasy VII):

There are actually a number of Final Fantasy heroines that influenced me - Rinoa, Daggar (Princess Garnet), Aeris, and Terra to name some of the others - but I feel like it’s obvious who inspired me the most.

Let’s start from the beginning. You meet Tifa as a hardcore member of the resistance group, AVALANCHE, and the owner of Seventh Heaven bar in the slums of Midgar. She clearly has her life figured out as an independent woman with strong convictions. Tifa is from the small town of Nibelheim and is seen as wearing a cowgirl hat in flashbacks. She moved to the big city with honorable motivations of changing the world for the better.

She is beautiful and her flirtatious behavior with her childhood friend, Cloud, was relatable to me as a hopeless romantic. They grew up together, but it wasn’t until he was leaving for the war that she started to follow his story and realized that he was more complicated than she’d thought as a child. This is a realistic depiction of young love and wondering “what if” about a developmental time in your life.

Tifa is compassionate towards others, always willing to put their needs before her own. In flashbacks, you learn that she wasn’t always this selfless, dealing with tragedy in childhood and learning to cope with her own issues before being able to help others. This past strengthens the complexity and empathy of her character. During a crucial thematic section of the game, you play as Tifa and see her be the primary influence in Cloud’s journey of finding himself during an episode of chronic depression.

Tifa has a reputation on the internet due solely on her looks. To be honest, I appreciated that she wasn’t defined by her looks in the story at all. Yeah, she’s hot, but she is so much more than that. She proves that looks do not define you. She is an incredibly powerful fighter and often the smart and optimistic voice of the group. Throughout the plot of the game, Tifa’s ability to be a good friend and leader comes to the rescue. She was a fantastic friend to Aeris, despite their competing affections for Cloud, and she is the first person Barret trusts to take care of his daughter, Marlene.

I hoped that I would grow up to be just like her.

Belle (Beauty & The Beast):

I just wrote about my feelings for Belle as a feminist, but I couldn’t complete this list without her. Belle is an outspoken outcast in a small-minded community, something I can relate to. Often lost in her own imagination, she cares more about reading than socializing and would rather talk to animals than humans. Belle was definitely the smartest Princess for her time. She was also incredibly brave, making decisions for the good of her father and her strong sense of adventure. She wanted more from life and found just that with her own decisions and actions.

Belle never lets others make her chooses for her and follows her curiosity wherever it takes her, unafraid of the unknown. This is an admirable quality. She is also in touch with her own emotions, crying when she is sad but quickly wiping her tears away to plan her next steps. Belle doesn’t let the Beast’s temper control her and she doesn’t allow Gaston’s forced advances to make her do anything she doesn’t want to do.

For my generation of Princess movies, this was the one that moved me the most and inspired me to be a strong feminist, choosing my own love story and fate.

Maria Posada (Book of Life):

Maria embodies all of the characteristics I hope to achieve in my own life.

We first meet Maria as a rebellious young girl who decides to release a pin full of pigs, believing that slaughtering them is wrong. She cares deeply for animals, putting their safety above her expectations as a “lady”. Her father sends her away to boarding school, hoping to crush her tenacious spirit. She leaves her childhood friends behind, giving Manolo the advice to always play from his heart. This is a motto we should all consider more in our lives.

Returning from school years later, it’s obvious that her schooling only blossomed her rejection of society’s expected role for her. She has a reputation for reading books for fun (gasp!) and displays her intelligence in many ways. Watching Manolo in his first bullfight, she is the only audience member to applaud when he proclaims that killing the bull is wrong. It was clear to me that she was falling for this sensitive musician.

Standing up to her father, Manolo, and Jauquin, Maria continuously shows that she doesn’t need a man in order to be fulfilled in her life, making Manolo take time and effort to win her affection. She calls out sexism whenever she sees it and ensures to explain it in ways that they will understand. When the boys fight over her, she fights for herself, winning the battle with her own sword fighting techniques. She calls them out for their childish behaviors, refusing Jauquin’s engagement and Manolo’s attempt to kiss her. Her father’s attempts at arranging her marriage only work when her true love is thought to be dead and the town’s safety is at risk, and even then she isn’t happy about the situation.

In the end, Maria helps to save the town, inspiring them to fight back against the villain. Luckily, once the town is rescued she gets to marry for love.

Harley Quinn:

Harley Quinn is a complicated, important character. Her story explores the depths of abusive relationships, mental health issues, bisexuality, and overcoming a troubled past to live for oneself.

Being a professional psychiatrist, she is obviously intelligent and obsessed with the complexities of mental health. It’s no wonder that someone as deeply manipulative as the Joker was able to take advantage of her interest in this area. Their relationship is a very real depiction of abusive relationships, with the power struggle, controlling nature of the relationship, constant attempts to tear her down with insults and win her back with grand gestures., The Joker perpetually tries to tell Harley that she is nothing without him and even attempts to kill her to show his dominance over her and display a lack of a need for her in his life. She proves him wrong, saving him many times and eventually becoming an anti-hero on her own, free from his control. This is a powerful representation for a real issue for women in our society and an inspiration for breaking out of bad habits for a better self and life.

Joining the Gotham Girls, Harley oozes of woman empowerment. The friendship and the love interest between Ivy and Harley is a relationship worth exploring deeper. Yay for bisexual representation!

Harley was originally a very modestly dressed character in her first appearance (in a children’s show, I’d like to point out). I have very mixed feelings about her becoming a sex symbol over the years. I feel like there are many depictions that took this too far, focusing more on her appearance as a source of sex appeal instead of using her appearance to bolster her inner strength.

I totally understand why there was an explosion of Harley Quinn cosplayers and fanart during this movement of a more inclusive industry.

Rey (Star Wars):

Rey is the sci-fi hero that young girls have needed for generations. Rey consistently fights for what she feels is right, following her instincts regardless of how terrifying they might be. She works hard to channel the force and proves to be very powerful.

Living independently and always making decisions for herself, Rey proves that women can lead without the aid of men, but she gladly helps anyone in need (men, droids, or Wookiee) while on her own path. She is skilled at fixing and piloting ships and I get the feeling she can accomplish anything she sets her mind to. Rey’s empathy is so strong, that she does all she can to try to help her own nemesis. This empathy is a powerful trait that I wish we all had more of and seeing that on the big screen is important.

Rey made me care more about the Star Wars universe because I could finally see myself in that world.

What characters influenced your life? What characters do you hope influence the next generation of nerds and geeks?

#feminism #geekdom #nerdom #video games #Disney #star wars #comics

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voidfishersong · 6 years

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Fallane and Eliza Fate, please

Alright, these two are from different ‘verses just fyi. so any supernatural elements are very, very different, as well as social situations.

WARNING: Fallane’s contains reference to some things that might be triggering. nothing in-detail, but please be advised.

Full Name: Fallane

Gender and Sexuality:

male-ish but with a rising intonation and a hand-wiggly gesture. sexuality is definitely just a hand-wiggly gesture, we think he has a slight preference for men but tbh no one cares

Pronouns:

he/him. if you used other ones he probably wouldn’t object but if you asked he’d say ‘he/him’

Ethnicity/Species:

Egyptian. and he’s like,,, vaguely a demon but not actually. he’s

supposed

to be one of the generals/servants/sextoys/whatever of AN ASSHOLE who reincarnates every 30 years or so, possesses a young girl, and makes everyone’s life hell but he said ‘nope that’ and (mostly) left. so he’s not actually a demon but that’s what his kind got characterized as by various mortals and usually he doesn’t correct people

Birthplace and Birthdate:

like literal ancient egypt in like 2,700 bc or smth

Guilty Pleasures:

I don’t think he’s guilty about any of his pleasures.

that came out way more sexual than I intended

I just meant that he likes things and he’s not ashamed of it

Phobias:

ahhhh this ‘verse is so dark help. I’d say sexual assault is pretty high on the list. I think he’s also a bit claustrophobic. more than a bit. he’s very claustrophobic he just doesn’t get into many situations like that

What They Would Be Famous For:

he could be a model? like actually. he wouldn’t but he

could

. he’s got a wicked fashion sense and is really good at makeup. ooh he could model makeup too

What They Would Get Arrested For:

can u get arrested for smoking indoors? he would. or shoplifting. he likes petty crime because either a) ‘this shouldn’t be privately owned and private ownership is just a social construct’ or b) ‘haha what are u gonna do, catch me?’

OC You Ship Them With:

Sam!! Sam Reeve x Fallane is best ship. you could also ship him with Kai but Sam is most perfectest. I made a ship name for them but it’s lame and I’m not sharing unless u dm me. I also ship Fallane with a healthy lifestyle but that’s never gonna be canon so

OC Most Likely To Murder Them:

does Nara canonically murdering him count? there r a lot of ppl who want to murder Fallane so I feel like this is an unfair question. Kai genuinely hates him for a large part of the story. ahaha Kai canonically kills him too jesus christ Fallane you’ve been killed three times you gotta chill. but I think Nara would be more likely to succeed than Kai so. the answer I pick is Nara. in a sarcastic way tho it’d be Mista, who is so done with his shit and she’s the type to say ‘im going to murder you’ when he like, puts his feet on the table or something

Favorite Movie/Book Genre:

mystery? anything he can sarcastically criticize the plot of, tbh. maybe horror

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche:

if he’s a horror fan, then it’d be where any time someone says ‘dont do this’ the person does it and dies. I think he definitely dislikes the ‘aliens are always technological experts’ cliche like what if the explorers are anthropologists with no clue how their ship works?? did you ever think of that?? no you didn’t

Talents and/or Powers:

his main talent is sarcasm. he’s very gifted with picking up languages and accents, and he has a high appreciation for all forms of art. in the supernatural realm, he’s got a lot. he’s a natural low-level empath, and then he got powers on top of that, which made him nigh immortal, gave him rly cool wings, and magical charisma (which is like subconscious suggestion, except,, magic) which he mostly uses to convince people he’s paid for shit he

hasn’t

paid for. in the name of disabling capitalism, of course, and not because he just wants the pillow. then he’s also got some extradimensional abilities which are often interpreted as a kind of telekinesis but isn’t technically. and his empathic abilities get turned up to eleven until he can project so hard he can accidentally (or purposefully) kill someone

Why Someone Might Love Them:

if you’re about grey moralities, ambiguity, and anti-heroes, you’ll probably love Fallane. he’s also very protective, and a single dad of energetic twins so there’s no shortage of relatability, either. but I think a lot of his charm comes from his interactions with other characters, because he feels very strongly and brings many things other characters are afraid to say. there’s a weighty sense of honesty with him, and a real desire to do right by the world and help the downtrodden. he also struggles with trauma and mental illness and he’s really, really messed up but he

tries

and sometimes he fails and I think people will find a surprising amount to identify with. Fallane is my ultimate walking contradiction, but I think it works.

Why Someone Might Hate Them:

I feel like he’s a character people would be just indifferent toward UNTIL people started being apologists and saying he does nothing wrong and then he’d be one of those characters that the fandom just splits on, as polarizing ends get increasingly more argumentative. he can be manipulative too and I think people might take issue with things like that, but I feel like most people who would actively hate him would be misinterpreting him. he’s not supposed to be a paragon of good morality

How They Change:

in the first few waves of this ‘verse Fallane was a definite villain, if a hero-aiding anti-villain. then I decided villains were overrated and now there’s no villains, just a complicated mess of varying degrees of grey morality. in canon, this is reflected. he goes from a certain ‘I can’t do anything substantial about it so I just won’t bother’ to someone who

acts

on his desire to combat discrimination and abuse. he also gets his family back, and gains a little sister, and he’s constantly learning how to love (in every way) and how to

live

Why You Love Them:

honestly?

because

he’s learning how to live. much of Fallane’s backstory (and his role-switch from anti-villain to anti-hero) came from when I got over being suicidal, so he’s sometimes a comfort character. ngl, I also love his aesthetic. I’m also a bit biased because he has ocd and I have ocd and that’s relatable too and it makes his aesthetic

extra

relatable. he’s also incredibly emotional and that’s always an adventure to write. I really love Fallane guys.

also this ao3 tag is like the greatest descriptor of him:

Full Name: Eliza Fate

Gender and Sexuality:

female, bisexual

Pronouns

: She/Her

Ethnicity/Species:

English. and she’s a vampire so uh yea

Birthplace and Birthdate:

England and uh….. like…. idk….. a long time ago

Guilty Pleasures:

both slow and fast jazz music. also she’s surprisingly good with children - I like to think that sometimes, she volunteers at daycare-like-places in the shadier parts of town where there’s too many kids and not enough workers and she just helps out these toddlers and teaches them to jazz dance, the way you teach little kids anything, which is hold them and pretend they’re following anything you’re saying

Phobias:

I don’t think she’s phobic of anything, but she’s afraid of losing her family. they’re very important to her and I think her deepest fear is that someday she’s going to wake up completely alone. she’s not afraid of any one person leaving (obviously she’d be upset), it’s just the idea that

everyone

could disappear

What They Would Be Famous For:

she’s kind of famous within the criminal underworld because she’s like a mob boss, and she’s mostly famous for having a very large family, and for being independent. she went almost two centuries without a right-hand man/woman/etc which, especially as a woman, was quite unique

What They Would Get Arrested For:

I mean she already murders ppl and runs a mafia so that

could

get her arrested, but if she ever got caught it’d probably be something like she murdered a child abuser or something really,

really

violently and not well-planned

OC You Ship Them With:

Itsuki, who’s her canon boyfriend, and Andrea, who’s her canon girlfriend. she’s poly and her relationships are usually open relationships, including with those two. I also ship her hardcore with Katsumi, although that’s a very different dynamic (1960s lots of drugs and alcohol and free sex and it’s about pushing each other further and further and not always healthy but they know that and it’s okay). I feel like Eliza would be really great for romance fanfic because you can go with many time periods!

OC Most Likely To Murder Them:

Rin. boi Rin has wanted to murder her since he met her probably, he just hated her on principle and then Eliza went and decided she liked Itsuki so Rin hated that and

then

she started dating Katsumi too and so she’s in love with both his roommates and that pisses Rin off. it’s funny.

actually it’s often really depressing because they end up blaming each other for Katsumi’s death and just about everything else and I think Rin might actually wish she had never existed but

usually it’s a sarcastic ‘I would murder you right now Eliza I swear’

Favorite Movie/Book Genre:

slice of life. I think she likes the variety and the normalcy of it all, and she usually thinks the couples are cute. her least favorite genre is probably mystery

Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche:

love triangles. they’re way, way overdone. also they invalidate the possibility of poly or open relationships. on a less serious note, she hates any mystery story that ends with like ‘the detective was the culprit all along!’ there’s not really a reason why she hates that but. she does. I made her I make the rules

Talents and/or Powers:

powers: well, she’s a vampire. talents: charisma. she is very good at getting people to understand her viewpoint, when she puts her foot down on something, which is rare. she’s also good at dancing. and very good at sex too apparently. she’s good with children too! but only really smol ones, once they get above like 5 they’re usually assholes

Why Someone Might Love Them:

she’s strong, and independent, and I think she’s over all a good person. she doesn’t take shit from people, but she doesn’t assume that people

are

giving her shit. she’s quite easy-going, all-in-all. she’s also really loving to her family, and in many ways she fulfills feminine roles, but the way she does them and the way she thinks about them are empowering, I think

Why Someone Might Hate Them:

when Eliza was first conceptualized in mid high school, I was terrified that people would see her as bad representation because she’s not morally straight

and

I worried that making her bi and poly would make people angry. but I think I’ve mostly gotten past that? idk. but I definitely think people might dislike her for her constant relationships - she doesn’t do well if she doesn’t have at least one datemate, and people might see that as too dependent or needy. she sometimes comes across as needy, so there’s that. I think there’d definitely be Eliza Fate stans and Eliza Fate haters

How They Change:

you get to see her progression from the civil rights era to present day, and she does change a bit, but overall she’s one of the most stable characters in this ‘verse. she really learns to accept rejection, and since she adopts a literal child (Nayeli) into her family and doesn’t raise Nayeli with any expectations of her joining the Family, I think she learns to work with people during their formative adolescent years, too

Why You Love Them:

Eliza is a character from the second wave of this ‘verse, so she’s quite old to have changed so little. I also love how she can differ depending on the time, so her roles change depending on the context. her personality doesn’t really change between any of them, but she’s a very complex character (a side effect of having been in my head for at least 5 years) and you can actually

see

all her facets. also she’s a mob boss mom??? like that’s cool idk she’s super suave and i’m gay

#ocs #eliza fate #fallane

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indigozeal · 6 years

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Sweden Simulator 2017

A while ago, I mentioned picking up Profound Red, an adventure game whose title was clearly taken from Dario Argento's giallo meditation on gender constraints, Profondo Rosso, and whose launch icon was pulled from James Sunderland's mental depths. Unfortunately, the promises of these references did not deliver, but the game is such an unusual production that I thought I'd take an extended look at it.

The driving concept behind Profound Red seems to be: "hey, gang, we know code, we have a camera - let's get together and put on an adventure game!" The game environments consist of photographs of real locations from around the designers' hometown of Norrköping, Sweden; characters are acted out and voiced by apparent friends of the designers. The homemade approach continues right down to the method of sale: I purchased Profound Red not by visiting Steam or another storefront but by PayPaling the designers $12 and receiving a download link in my inbox several hours later.

While the prospect of Argento parallels pushed me into a purchase, it was actually this make-do, will-do attitude that drew me to this studio's work in the first place (first gleaned from a screenshot from a review of one of the developer's earlier titles, featuring an actress portraying a bedridden hospital patient but wearing full makeup: OK, I'll be in your computer game, but I'm not taking off my face for you). I unreservedly admire the gumption behind this production; the designers found a way to use the resources they had at hand to work in a field they apparently love. They've found success, too, as Profound Red is the 12th in its series. "Homemade" here doesn't denote jank, either; the photos are professionally composed and shot, and the technical side of the game runs quite smoothly.

Profound Red stars Sweden-dwelling English expat (and major classic adventure game enthusiast, judging from her bookshelves) Carol Reed, who here is summoned by her hotel-manager friend to investigate a suspicious suicide-note text from a recently-deceased guest. The trail leads to the dead woman's isolated country cabin, a derelict housing development abandoned after a rash of apparent poisonings, a downtown "motorbike basement" (that seems to house primarily non-motorized bikes), and other locations around Norrköping and its outskirts - but it focuses on the city's local swingers' club, where the woman was a frequent patron. Further investigation reveals that the owner was perhaps not privy to the complete range of activities taking place in his establishment.

As one might surmise, the club is where the "Profound Red" of the title is most prominently manifested. I was extremely disappointed, though, that the game takes nothing but one salient plot element from its Argento inspiration. Gialli deal in over-the-top visuals and lurid emotions, neither of which are really present in Profound Red; the designers apparently figured, "well, the plot centers around a sex club," and left it at that. The fan base seems sufficiently scandalized by finding enema bulbs and stim cream in examining the environment, with no deeper meditation on sexuality needed or sought. However, if your game invokes the name of Deep Red, a movie that's really invested in examining gender roles and sexuality, you have somewhat of a responsibility to take your treatment of this material beyond the tee-hee level.

We're left with what the developers wanted to accomplish via their strengths: photography and knowledge of their hometown. All the sets in Profound Red, of course, are real locations in Sweden, and the developers take care to include a few regional landmarks in each of their titles (here, a local museum, a city garden; even the sex club is an actual business). Some of the sights are photographed in close-up seemingly just because the photographer found them visually interesting and wanted to share them, be they local fixtures or happy, fleeting accidents - a friend's rabbit, sleeping it its little house-shaped hutch; a spiderweb artistically spun between the rails of a bridge, glistening in the sun; a trio of decorative boulders covered in an Argus's worth of hand-painted eyes. It seems as if the developers are in part using the adventure-game medium to document and share the history and sights of their hometown, which is an admirable goal and a truly unique use of gaming. It is this decidedly personal portrait that is the most striking aspect of Profound Red.

That touch permeates how the designers present their actors and the private residences they used for shooting. While the photos are clean & well-composed, it's also clear that the devs are working with friends, their homes, and the detritus of said friends' daily lives. The creators handle this, though, by letting the player in on the production to an extent. Click on the right places, and you can peek into closets to see the flotsam that had to be corraled to get the location into shooting condition. One of the developers apparently plays a role in each of the games as a running joke, as does a biker-like man in glasses known only as "Bigge," who has, based on forum reactions, evidently become a fan favorite. Series fans are revisiting not only characters, but actors, and Profound Red, to an extent, is about the process of making an adventure game. Given this candor, even the awkwardness many of the actors evince comes off as charmingly authentic, in a way, instead of off-putting - the product of friends' efforts rather than professional entertainers. The end product can at times be weird, but it's a forgivable, earnest-people-trying-their-best weird. Overall, it's instructive how Profound Red's producers have used familiarity and friendliness to turn weaknesses - a limited budget, amateur actors, a shooting location that triple-A gaming would dismiss as unglamorous - into strengths.

I'm coming off as more positive about Profound Red than I feel, though. The game has decided problems with puzzle design. The designers attempt to head off any gameplay trouble by including an in-game hint system that reveals the very next step in your investigation (but no more) with a couple clicks in the inventory menu. In theory, making direct help safely hidden but easily-accessible should work quite well: it caters to folks who might not be HARDCORE ADVENTURE GAMERS and are more invested in advancing the story, but it frees the designers to work out more involved riddles for those who do want a challenge. In practice, though, the presence of ready help is often taken as a license to play fast & loose with solid puzzlemaking: I frequently found myself stumped because I wasn't clicking in exactly the right place, and the use of certain items, such as the window cleaner, hems too close to cat-hair moustache territory. It's not across-the-board questionable by any means, but there were enough frustrating parts for me eventually to stop engaging with the puzzles and lean full-on into the hint system to get through the experience.

The other big mechanical sticking point is movement. The basic system is fine: locations are selected from a map and navigated via Myst-like clicking through a series of still images. There's only one entrance/exit per venue, though, and the game design frequently requires you to trek deep in and out of locations to pick up or use a single item, which weighs down Profound Red's pacing considerably. (A big long fetch-quest puzzle chain near the end of the title contributes mightily in this regard.) A "leave location instantly" option would help the tempo immensely here.

I'd like to talk about the story in-depth for a bit, particularly as it compares to Deep Red. Spoilers for both the game and movie lurk below the dark mirror of the soul below. You're safe when the comforting visage of Bigge appears!

OK, **SPOILERS SPOILERS SPOILERS** ahead: When the mom appeared, I was dearly hoping that she would turn out to be the killer, and I was not disappointed in that regard. You even get the side bit about the son appearing for a short while to be the killer but in fact acting only to protect her. (Upon seeing that she was wearing a gold necklace, I was also hoping that that would be the method of her demise, but I suppose decapitations are a bridge too far for this series.)

As mentioned, though, that is the limit of the game's Argento influences; for all its invocation of deeper material, the game seems studiously to avoid any closer reflection on its own story. For example: how does Sven, the club owner, feel about everything that's happened? He and Louise, the victim, seemed to be close; Louise seemed genuinely to love him; she was, however, sabotaging his business for self-enrichment via a blackmail scheme. And how did Louise feel about that? Her history of confidence schemes speaks to an ingrained sociopathy, but we never address this contradiction in her character. Then there's the thread about criminal behavior running in the family, which seems to be a major part of the story but is left undeveloped. Yeah, I get the sense that the folks who follow this series aren't looking for deep introspection - but, well, the story elements are there. The designers had an opportunity to go psychological with their inspirations and explore the plotlines they set up, and it would have cost nothing but text...they just chose not to do so.

Profound Red leans hard and somewhat unwittingly into the adventure genre's underobserved wackiness, such as the plotline (played completely straight) revolving around hardcore skateboard forgery, or the blackmail note demanding Bitcoin as payment, or how, at one point, my inventory consisted of a ten-foot-tall ladder, a trampoline, and a packet of lube. What I remember more, though, are the actors, and the sights of Norrköping, and all the photos of soda bottles in closets. I connected with this setting and could relate it to my own everyday experiences and environment (hey, Swedes have those dumb signs about the lake, too!); the game gets its primary focus right. It's an interesting artifact - though your interest may be limited if you're looking for something beyond interesting.

#profound red #deep red #profondo rosso #dario argento #carol reed #let's confuse all the fans of the third man

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Congratulations Chloe you’ve been accepted to Crimson Revolt as Sybill Trewlawney!

↳ please refer to our character checklist

Your application was such a treat to find in our inbox, Chloe! From the expanded traits to the wonderful headcanons you gave, your Sybill is so wonderfully fleshed out. The love you have for her is amazing and we all loved just how well you captured her - ‘she’s always been unafraid to march to the beat of her own drum‘ completely sold us. It’s so clear to see from you application just how much you’ve thought about the role that Sybill has to play in the war and gone into so much detail about her involvement with Aversio it’s such a pleasure to see! We think that Sybill will fit in just wonderfully and we cannot wait to have you both in our roleplay!

Application beneath the cut

OUT OF CHARACTER

INTRODUCTION

Chloe, she/her, GMT, from England

ACTIVITY

Well it’s been a little while since I’ve actively roleplayed so I might start out a little rusty, but given the preference you have for longer threads and your lenient activity limit I’m sure I’ll be around fairly often, like three times a week at least. (to give you a number I’d say like 7/10 on the active scale)

TRIGGERS

*removed for privacy

HOW DID YOU FIND US?

I was looking through the hp rp tag, and to be honest I was looking specifically for a Sybill Trelawney to play that I felt was actually a good representation of her character and also sat within an rp that had a good plot aha

WHAT HARRY POTTER CHARACTER DO YOU IDENTIFY WITH MOST?

Maybe a cliché but I really loved Ginny (in the books of course, don’t EVER get me started with the mess they made of her character in the movies dear god) she was spunky and confident (and ginger like myself, which tbqh has made me slightly bias in favour of the whole Weasley clan. Like you’re telling me not only do they deal w/ shit for being blood traitors but they redheads too??? Hard knock life, my man.) And of course my dear Sybill, who was just trying to be understood in a world that wasn’t quite ready for her.

ANYTHING ELSE?

Nope

IN CHARACTER

DESIRED CHARACTER

Sybill Trelawney

FACE CLAIM

Alycia Debnam Carey isn’t an fc I’ve ever worked with before but after browsing her tag and doing a little research she seems an excellent choice for Sybill in my opinion, and since she’s your chosen fc too I’m sure you’d have no problem with me picking her. (I am also partial to Juno Temple as Sybill, but I kinda feel that’s getting a little overdone)

REASON FOR CHOSEN CHARACTER

Uhhhh this is just a general comment but I really love that you’ve made Sybill a big of a fighter and actually self confident like all the time I see her portrayed as this scared little thing and I don’t think that’s accurate, like I’ve always felt that (at least in her younger years, before the world beat her down a bit) Sybill would have been a passionate and confident woman with faith in her gift and a desire to set the world to rights. Her words aren’t always tactful, sure, but I think everything Sybill says she says because she thinks it needs to be heard.

When I first read about this Aversio group you’d created I wasn’t sure that putting Sybill in with such people was the right choice but after a little thought the idea really grew on me. I think Sybill’s visions have forced her to witness so much death and destruction that she has been powerless to prevent, and who wouldn’t be made angry like that? Who wouldn’t grab the first chance that came along to take back some of that power, to try and defend the people she loved? Sybill is part of this group for all the right reasons. She’s fighting for freedom and safety, but she’s not naïve, she doesn’t think the order sitting around and just waiting to form counter attacks are doing enough. I also feel she was something of a loner in school and despite being quite clever was never really invited into or considered for the order and so perhaps this comes from the ever so slight niggling urge she has to prove herself, because despite being a hippy dippy seer she’s also capable of affecting change and taking part in things. (If anything her visions and prophecies have only made her more determined to change the world, for she will have seen how truly tits up everything could go.)

I just have a longstanding love for Sybill, she’s always been unafraid to march to the beat of her own drum. Like, refusing to take on the name ‘higglebottom’ and so causing the end of your own marriage?? That’s hardcore. That’s a woman who won’t take no shit. Yeah, I love Sybill and I am forever searching for an rp with what I feel is an accurate representation of her. This is getting long so I’ll wind it down now, but if you’d like to hear anything more about my love for Syb pls just do message me lmao.

PREFERRED SHIPS // CHARACTER SEXUALITY // GENDER & PRONOUNS

Sybill has always been wary of romance and love. With her gift it is easy to see the multitude of ways things can fall apart. Not only that, but it is hard to find someone with complete faith in this gift of hers, someone who truly believes all her madcap ramblings and feels the power of nature and the universe as much as she does. (Of course, she would only ever settle down with someone who believed in this power as much as she did and yet like her was not afraid to question it.) Sex is different to romance, though, I think Sybill views sex as something much simpler and it’s very much a pleasure she indulges in without ever feeling guilty about it. Honestly I think she can be quite the flirt when she wants, not ashamed of her desire to lure a man or woman into her bed for the night, because why should we deny ourselves such a simple craving? We shouldn’t.

As far as ships go I’m very happy just to go with the flow, nothing prioritised. Sybill goes by she/her pronouns, did consider them/they for a while but after some contemplation in the forest realised her energy was decidedly feminine in its nurturing and care, even if it was a little wilder and more adventurous. (Sexuality I touched on a little above, i feel like she’d be very fluid about it and call herself bisexual if pushed on the subject)

CREATE ONE (OR MORE!) OF THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR CHARACTER:

-EXPAND ON THE TRAITS

Self-assured- Sybill has gotten comfortable with her gift of sight, and by extension- since she’s long felt like that was the most drastic aspect of her personality- the rest of herself. She’s confident in who she is and the doubts of others can no longer throw her off her chosen course.

Free-spirited- spends a lot of time out in nature, but its much more than that. Sybill is very unassuming and so as long as what/who you are is not a cause of harm (for example, unless you are a death eater) she is quite happy to not only let you continue with your life and hobbies, but likely also interested in learning about it. She is happy for you to be in love, she is happy for you to mindlessly fuck, she is happy for you to abstain and spend all your time writing. As long as your soul is good and warm, you can be counted as a friend of Sybill’s.

Crafty- well, there’s the obvious definition of her being artistic which is true, Sybill likes to paint and tell fanciful stories and take one mans trash to make into her own treasure. But her crafty mind also makes her quite statistical, she can wriggle her way out of almost any problem and really earns her keep as one of the strategic minds of Aversio.

Genuine- Another fairly obvious I feel. Some of the stuff Sybill says may be odd, but she means every word of it. This applies to her actions too. She has not one conniving or manipulative bone in her body, she never lies. Everything Sybill does is honest and true to the core of who she is.

Dreamer- constantly lost in her own world. Idealistic almost to a fault, often too optimistic about the future. Sometimes too optimistic about the present and so gets herself into dangerous situations just because she underestimated the circumstances.

Emotional- oh GOD if you criticise Sybill’s shoes she will CRY for a week. If you call her pretty in passing it will make her smile all year. Let me be clear here I don’t think Sybill holds grudges or has preferences, but I think she remembers everything that people do and everything impacts her as much as it did at the time it truly happened (does that make sense? Every time she remembers that Lily once complimented her hair it fills her with the same joy as the initial compliment did, for example.) I think this is why her gift takes such a toll on her, every bad thing that happens (whether it really ends up happening or not) affects her psyche terribly.

Dramatic- it’s very up and down with Sybill. I think being dramatic is good and bad, because every small show of kindness is an absolute joy but also every little negative moment or action is the worst betrayal imaginable. Nothing is done in halves by Sybill.

Weird- I mean self explanatory. She talks to plants, she’s constantly blabbering on about the energies of nature and the universe. She relies too heavily on her inner eye to guide her rather than just watching and responding. It’s a weirdness she’s comfortable with but that doesn’t mean everyone else is so ok with it, sometimes she makes people uncomfortable with her frank statements and odd habits.

-A FEW HEADCANONS

Sybill can play guitar. Yeah, she loves music, I think she plays guitar really very well and finds it quite relaxing (can’t think about anything else if you’re trying to master difficult songs y’know) but it isn’t a talent she often shares.

She writes poetry too, doesn’t call it that, just calls it writing. Often times her visions and prophecies can be a lot to digest and so writing about it all can help to sort her crazy imaginings from what might actually be possible.

Not adverse to substance abuse. She lives alone, and sometimes being part of Aversio leaves her incredibly amped up and angry, so it can be difficult to sleep. A few glasses of whiskey or a couple of joints sort that problem out, though.

Can get aggressive with fellow Aversio members. See she knows they can handle it and all the negative energy has to go somewhere (where else would she take it out? Nature? Absolutely not.)

She meditates because it helps focus her inner eye.

-A FEW POTENTIAL PLOT POINTS

This aggression with Aversio members might be an interesting one- like, does she think some of them are really just death eaters afraid to admit that? Are some of them scared of her? Do they think she’s too pushy with the people she’s supposedly aligned with? Yeah, lots interesting to say there.

Of course as an Aversio member there’s always the chance that the order or DE might find out that she’s part of such a group and try to sway her one such way (the DE would have no chance, and i don’t really see the order being much luckier, though she may be willing to form some kind of cooperation with them.)

There’s always the chance of her abandoning everything to just live in the forest.

More prophecies or visions! Are they always accurate? Who knows?!?!?! No one really.

IN CHARACTER QUESTIONNAIRE

The following section should be looked at like a survey for your character. Answer them in character and feel free to use gifs. Or, if you’d rather, answer them in third person or OOC without gifs. Answers do not have to be extremely lengthy.

♔ If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it? Feel free to name it:

I think I’d like to invent a potion that would make me immune to all poisons. To be honest, that’s one of the few things that forces me to buy actual food from shops and stops me from living purely off the foods nature provides. I’m quite worried about being poisoned by something not meant for me you see, so if I had a potion that meant no such poisons affected me I would live only off the bounty provided by nature.

♔ You have to venture deep into the Forbidden Forest one night. Pick one other character and one object (muggle or magical), besides your wand, that you’d want with you:

I think Xenophilius Lovegood would make for very good company. He’s easy on the eye and we’re both the types who see more in the world than most people do. I don’t suppose i’d pick anyone for their ability to keep me safe- I’m quite capable of that, thank you. Rather I think I’d pick Xenophilius because we would not run out of things to talk about. Ad far as objects go, maybe a sword? They fascinate me to be perfectly honest- so violent, so pretty- and I think it would be most useful should magic fail me.

♔ What kinds of decisions are the most difficult for you to make?

Who to send on missions or counter attacks. It’s never very easy to decide if you need stealth and logic or aggression and strength, you know? And always I am so fearful that by sending the wrong type we will do more harm than good.

♔ What is one thing you would never want said about you?

That I am a liar. That’s easy, people can say much about me as long as they always believe I am true.

WRITING SAMPLE

Sybill could not sleep. This was not a rare occurrence. More often than not she’d use alcohol or drugs to knock herself out for the night, acutely aware of all the work that there was to be done the next day and so too focused on being alert for that to be concerned with her own body. Tonight, however, she chose the forest. And drugs. There was a lovely little wood right by her house (would Sybill move anywhere without nature close by? Of course not.) And so she meandered through the trees until a small clearing came about, settling herself with a joint and her notebook for a sleepless night.

See, tomorrows attack did not directly involve her. It was more an urban stealth mission, not really her style, and so she saw no harm in turning up to the meeting a little tired and out of it. Hey, she was usually ‘out of it’ as far as the others thought anyway, and so what was the harm really. So for this plan she had taken more a strategic role, using her gift to her advantage to help plan the timing, who she be where and when they should be there. It was something of an arduous task to be honest, left her a little drained to look so closely at individuals, but Sybill would never complain about it. Her inner eye was a gift very few possessed and she intended to use it to it’s full potential.

Besides being out here among nature’s glory with her writing and a joint would be sufficient to restore the balance of her energy. She took a drag and sighed into the quiet night, shifting to lay on her back and feel the full flow of the earth against her body. Her fingertips tingled and her toes curled. God, you know what would really help her sleep? Sex. But so few were as interested in no strings in the same way she was. Still willing to form a connection and truly bon with each other, just not so insistent that such a bond be permanent. It was okay to need someone only for a night or two. The summer she’d bounced around muggle music festivals had spoiled her, obviously. Maybe most wizards were so interested in commitment because it carried on the family name.

Not that she could blame them for such. Cassandra Trelawney had claimed the gift skipped three generations after all and by golly the family had seen to it that her point be proved. The idea made her giggle, bright energy pushing out against a dark sky.

Whatever the case, she was antsy and restless and worried about tomorrows plans. Worried about tomorrows’ people. If things went wrong those few were the ones who would pay most dearly. She closed her eyes, trying to feel the influence of the universe move through her and search for the answers she desired. Would tomorrow be okay? Had they chosen well? The universe, as it so often was in what it considered small affairs, had little more to offer than a small reassurance that Sybill wasn’t driving towards utter disaster.

#Accepted App #illness and timezones worked against us but we're thrilled to have you!

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RPG starter call

Like this or reach out to me if you are a Castiel muse and would like to RPG with Hannah and would like me to send you a starter. Or reach out if you would like to collaborate on a poly pairing with Hannah, Castiel, and a muse of your choice (as long as it's not Destiel or Wincest). I’ll be reaching out via my Hannah muse side-blog @hannahhostofheaven but please read the rules below and some headcanons, I copied and pasted them from my Hannah muse;

They are mostly the same with just a few updates. You need to have read my rules before we RP:

* I will follow you as my MUN blog with is @Hannah-deserved-better

* My OTP is always Hannah/Castiel so keep that in mind. My Hannah will always have a thing for Castiel. I am opened to RPing with other blogs but there probably won’t be any romance.

* not interested in RPing with anyone who views angels as brothers and sisters cuz as I said, I ship Castiel/Hannah so our views will not be compatible.

* I play Hannah using Erica Carroll as a face claim.

* Caroline Johnson is available to RP with upon request.

* Don’t nag me for a reply. I am very busy and real life comes first, I will try to reply when I can, and if I need another long break I’ll let you know.

* discuss plot with me. I am a plot driven writer and I like to plan things out. I am open to pretty much everything but I like mulling things over.

* It’s my belief that Hannah would be on the autism spectrum if she were human so any Human Hannah AUs will be like that.

* MUN is autistic.

* female vessel Castiel blogs are welcome.

* Also, on that note, if we are writing and I sense that a sex scene might be coming up, I’ll probably PM you (or you PM me) so we can be sure we are both on the same page.

* no child OCs.

* I don’t do the whole ABO alpha omega thing. I don’t understand how it works at all and it’s really just not my thing.

* I’m not really into working outside the Supernatural verse, though sometimes I might be okay with crossing over with related verses such as Buffy the Vampire slayer, but I won’t want to work in a verse that I personally don’t know about (and I don’t watch a lot of TV so I am not part of many fandoms) so when in doubt, stick with Supernatural.

* Please try to play in character and with canon in mind. We will definitely be breaking with canon, but it needs to always be a guideline.

* Mun is over 30. Mun is also married and has a job so the demands on my time can be formidable. Mun is in California so we are dealing with Pacific Standard Time.

Headcanons:

* Hannah is an angel’s angel, she lives by her rules, but she finds inner conflict with her feelings. She believes in law, justice, and order.

* I think Hannah has cream colored wings with golden yellow tips, see blog banner picture.

* Caroline Johnson was born February 25th, 1980 in Great Falls, Montana. She is a Pisces.

* Hannah has had limited dealings with humans but she does have a certain bond with Caroline Johnson.

#starter call #spn hannah #castiel/hannah #castiel muse #poly ship #HannahGirl

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