Begging for a list of songs that you associate with your blorbos.

oh thank GOD somebody asked. I lied. im not normal about them. they make me insane.

i do have spotify playlists for them that im gonna share, but fair warning they do widely range from “Songs i liked so then in turn associated to them” to “Just Vibes™️” to “Songs that are literally them” so i am gonna list out my faves :3

okay so for some reason chloe’s playlist just refuses to cooperate. apparently this is the thanks i get for sacrificing a whole town for her. but no fr, just search up “chloe.p vibes” in spotify and it’ll be the one with chloe staring at the camera with a photogenic sadness 🙏

i think my faves for this one would have to be: smokey eyes, wrath, call me what you like, im yer dad, alien blues, and (literally the most chloe post-hell week song ever) i’m not angry anymore 

my faves are probably: smokey eyes, guilty, body, cold weather, come over again, brutal, teen idle, dinner is not over, prom dress, and stressed out

for this girlie a good chunk of her songs are based off pure vibes… especially the fnaf song.

faves: femme fatale, my ordinary life, are you satisfied, oh no!, obsession, dumb dumb, home where, and sweet dreams (skylike dreams)

Have some of my random thoughts from my 4th/5th rewatch of the second season....

Apparently I have too many thoughts/comments so these are gonna have to be a post per episode. Please feel free to reblog/comment and answer my questions!

When Wille goes to Erik's room and his mom calls out to him. He pauses and waits until she gets there to close the door in her face. Why? If he has been ignoring her and pushing her away. Why not close the door as soon as he entered Erik's room?

Was August back from winter break early or did he spend his whole winter break at hillerska? His friends mention that he missed out on their vacation. Is that something they planned before or something they typically do?

Simon hadn't added Marcus on insta like he had suggested until he had no other option but to ask him for a ride. I think he likely had no intention of doing so had this situation not come about.

Also Simon getting in the back of Marcus' car like its a taxi 😂😂? Is he trying to distance himself from Marcus unintentionally? Or what?

When Nils&Vincent laughs when Wille tells August to only refer to him by his official title of Crowned Prince. Do they think its a joke? Also the panic in August's eyes when he realizes that Wille is going to make him pay for what he did and he cannot say a word.

Are August's friends clueless? How did they not figure out that Wille had something over him? The way Wille talked to him and called him out over and over again. Wille walk all over August right in front of his friends let alone everyone else. Wille's attitude toward August took a complete 180 from season 1.

Wille sitting in the opening assembly looking around for Simon. Like shit this choir is really boring. Where the fuck is my boy? He would make this so much better.

If Simon is late for school that day. Are Rosh and Ayub also late for their school that day? Or does their school start a different time?

The fact that Ayub says Wille is toxic and encourages Simon to go out with Marcus just grates me.

Did the girls really have Sara pay for all their coffee and snacks? They do know she is poor, right?

Sara getting so turned on just talking to August and putting her hand on his stomach. It that realistic? Does this kind of reaction really happen to people? (Forgive me I am asexual and this shit just baffles me.)

The look Malin gives Simon as he enters the library. Like yes please talk to this boy. He has been so sad. Make it better, you're the only one who can.

Wille's phone lock screen is a purple flower on a black background? Why? What does it mean?

Marcus singing at the karaoke bar when they first walk in actually sounds like a cat dying. Idk how someone as musically inclined as Simon can be near him singing without cringing so hard.

Simon being surprised that Marcus wanted him to sing at karaoke night. Like seriously? He invited you out after hearing you sing. Do you really think you were gonna get away with not singing? You have the voice of an angel bby don't be so nervous. Although the song choice could not have been worse.....further points against Marcus...

How is everyone in this universe so freaking lucky to be able to get their actual name as their username on Insta. Ffs.

The queen clearly seeing a call from Wilhelm, after him not speaking to her all break, and expecting it to be a calm and happy conversation. Really? How did you not see this coming? He has had two significantly traumatizing events happen and no one has helped him try to process this. His brother died and not only did he have a sex tape leaked but it was done by somebody he thought he could trust, someone his brother told him he could trust. He has been on the verge of a breakdown for far too long now. It is way too late for take 3 deep breaths. My boy need some love and understanding, he needs his mom, not the queen.

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Welcome to my blog! (^o^)丿

You can call me Anie and I'm born in 1992 / She/Her / Pisces / INFJ.

I work a full time job to become a great architect one day who will fulfill peoples dreams when it comes to living. Beside from that I like to listen to metal and rock music, enjoy concerts and festivals, play video games, watch anime and hang out with my friends.

I like to draw with just a pencil most of the time, but I also use my iPad for digital art sometimes. Honestly, I'm not satisfied with my art 90% of the time so my art will not appear on my blog often.

I rediscovered my love for One Piece a few years ago, though I watched the East Blue Saga as a kid. Since then I got sucked into this beautiful world of fanfiction and everything else. And all these great creators and works inspired me so much, that I started to write my own fics.

I will share my One Piece content, art and my own random thoughts on this blog and I hope you enjoy! English is not my first language and I hope you will forgive me for any mistakes.

You will also find my stories on Wattpad and AO3 under the username strawheartpirate. Or you can use the links:

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And and James please ^^

like .. for headcanons? 👀 sure!

imma be honest my ass don’t even like him so these hcs r just random LMFAO i’m so sorry

James is bi-curious and recently came to that conclusion in late 2021

He has an older brother and a younger sister

Yul and James become acquaintances after Disventure Camp but it took Yul a long time to forgive James for poisoning him😭

Other than being a fuckboy on social media, he also likes music! I assume the “CD” in his username relates to music❤️

His younger sister is trans 🏳️‍⚧️

⌦ ADMIN INTRO 》 hello — pleased to have you here !! ~ call me sunny! ☆⌒(ゝ。∂) i'd prefer being addressed with he / him, but i don't mind they / them either.

i'm an artist and a writer — nothing special in this sphere, yes, i'm not very interesting. my favorite passtimes other than that are thinking and watching, i guess.. i'm very unfortunately romanian, and english is a weird language, so forgive me .. ! i still enjoy chatting away. ♡ my username already suggests who i produce—and with natsume, i also produce the rest of switch + shu & wataru. ♪ i've been playing enstars for about a year now — but only made this blog in july 2021. other than that, i also like jshk, omori & pokèmon! feel free to chat me up on those too. ♡

in addition to this blog, i also host @natsumepilled! a sideblog for random things—oc dumps, art, and just chatting. there's a blog that i have open for mutuals only — so if we're mutuals, feel free to dm me for the url !!

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INTRODUCTIONS 🌼

Greetings, I am Krei! I go by any pronouns, genderfluid aroace, and I'm quite new to Tumblr! I have no idea what is on store for me on this platform. Though, I will say that I am going to be writing here!

I WAS on Wattpad as well, though I won't be writing there anymore due to reasons. You may find me with the username @/plausterite! I still go there from time to time to read books!

INFORMATION 🌼

All of my posts, or reblogs (?) will me related to KNY/Demon Slayer. Maybe sprinkle a pinch of Genshin Impact too on rare occasions. The fandoms that I am in (currently) are KNY and Genshin Impact. I kin Zenitsu and Bennett !

All of my posts are going to be safe for work (sfw) due to me, being uncomfortable sharing and/or writing nsfw. I am a minor myself so.. it is best to not interact with those. My account is a safe place! So, if you want to talk to me, request something, share a random thought — feel free! I'm all ears! <3

Requests can be via inbox or dms! Any is fine! I write for any gender, so don't be shy to request!

RACISM AND HATE ON MY PAGE WILL BE AN INSTANT BLOCK!!! <3

Though.. I will write some stuff that contains gore, graphic content, and more. Just — no smut. No pedophilic writings, and all of that stuff. Please respect my decisions.

I didn't upload for a couple days? It's normal! I attend online classes, so sometimes I can't write your request that fast!

English isn't my first language!!! My apologies if some of my work contains random words from time to time. I am also dyslexic, so if you notice my writing is a little yanky, I would appreciate if you would please forgive me :'] And if you want to know, I'm Southeast Asian. [ Btw, I do proofread my works!.. sometimes! ]

MISCELLANEOUS + EXTRA 🌼

I love love love Zenitsu and Kaigaku ! So I am so so sorry if my posts, writings, and other stuff are going to be all about them! They're just.. the skrunklies <3

Oh right! All of the posts that I will be writing are x reader ones! I don't know why but, I just won't be writing Canon x Canon... I'm so sorry :( Again — all sfw! Though, some might contain graphic content like mentions of gore, mild swearing, and etc.

The Masterlist(s):

KNY [DEMON SLAYERS]🌼 | KNY [DEMONS]🌼

STATUS: CLOSED

Thank you to everyone who follows me and enjoys my silly little fics! To celebrate this milestone, I wanted to do a small event.

THE THEME: MUSIC (because some of my fic ideas are inspired by songs I listen to and because I occasionally listen to music while I write)

1. Musical Muse (7/7 slots taken)

As an ask, send me a Haikyuu!! character, a trope and song lyrics (2-4 verses), and using this information, I will create a character x reader drabble that is approximately 600 words. For the song lyrics, provide the name of the song and the artist as well. But please note, I will only be using the lyrics you provide as inspiration. The drabble will not be based on the entire song. Make sure that the lyrics you send are SFW! The tropes can be anything from childhood friends to lovers, to AUs, to a sharing an umbrella, as long as it’s SFW (angsty stuff is fine). Characters and tropes can be repeated twice, respectively. However, the same character and trope combination cannot be used. For example, if someone has already selected Atsumu + meet cute, you either have to select a different character or trope. I will respond to your ask and add your character selection and trope to the list below. When I post the drabble, I will make sure to mention your username/anon emoji. Ex.: Oikawa + coffee shop au + “And isn't it just so pretty to think/ All along there was some/ Invisible string/ Tying you to me?” from “Invisible String” by Taylor Swift List: Oikawa + strangers to lovers, Kuroo + childhood friends to lovers, Atsumu + fake dating, Kita + unrequited love, Sugawara + best friends to lovers, Iwaizumi + friends to lovers, Yaku + coffee shop au

2. Pick from the Playlist (5/5 slots taken)

As an ask, send me a Haikyuu!! character and a number for from 1 to 100. The number will correspond to a song from one of my random playlists (yes, I will be exposing my taste in music). I will use this song to write some character x reader headcanons. This playlist ranges from fluffy love songs to sad ballads, so be warned. None of the song contain explicit content. Maybe some cursing/swearing, but that's about it. Character be repeated twice. Number cannot be repeated. I will respond to your ask and add your character selection and number to the list below. When I post the headcanons, I will make sure to mention your username/anon emoji. I think it would be a fun surprise to reveal the song associated to the number once I post the headcanons, but if you really want to know before that, mention it in your ask! Ex.: Sugawara + 37 List: Kuroo + 99, Bokuto + 4, Oikawa + 26, Atsumu + 17, Nishinoya + 37

Before You Enter/Rules:

You can choose only one of the options. Moots, you can choose to submit something for both!

Moots, if the slots for the one you would like to select have been filled, do not worry! You can still send in a request and I will fulfill it.

My blog is SFW, so the content I will produce for this event will be SFW.

Anons are welcomed to join! Just include an emoji I can identify you with.

For the drabbles and headcanons, I will try my best to keep everything gender neutral.

If you have any questions, do not hesitate to send me an ask!

This is my first event, so please forgive me if I am slow!

Also, please note that I'm pretty sure that this event idea is not unique, but I thought it would be fun to do.

Chapter 23

- You thought you and your best friend were having an outing, but then you bump into your soulmate who broke your heart. Can he atone for what he did? 

Pairing: katsuki bakugou x reader

Word Count: 1.4k

a/n: ummmm I can’t apologize enough for what took so long. I am truly sorry that it took me this long to get myself together and finally finish it. Although I’m sad that enemy is finally over, I’m really excited to start working on my next smau! I hope you all are doing okay, and stay safe!

You wandered around the park, admiring the pretty sunset. Summer was great in the sense that the sunset was so late. It was 8:30 in the evening and the sky was filled with beautiful warm colors. You were walking towards the tree that Todoroki told you he’d meet you at. An odd location to meet if you were honest. A random tree of all places. You spotted the unique features Todoroki described in the text and walked to it. You also didn’t know why he wanted to meet in a park of all places. His explanation was that he was doing something in the city, but couldn’t you just meet in the shop? You decided to stop questioning your friend’s weird logic. You saw someone underneath sitting on a picnic blanket but thought you’d just stand near the tree and not bother them. Until you saw who it was.

Bakugou looked at her and a shocked expression came on his face. You stood there speechless.

“Y/n…” he nearly whispered, looking her over with a soft look in his eyes. He stood up and made his way to her. “Don't,” you said sternly. “What are you doing here?!” the expression on your face changed from confused to furious in seconds. He looked at you, eyes filled with regret and sadness. “I said, what the hell are you doing here?!” you clutched your purse and furrowed your brows. The hurt in your voice was painfully obvious and it stung Bakugou.  “I need to talk to it, but I wanted to do it in person,” Bakugou said, attempting to keep his composure. At that moment you were a ticking time bomb. All the emotions you have been suppressing and hiding now coming to the surface. And as you stared at him, tears began to spill out of your eyes. “Who do you think you are?!” you yelled at him, anger pulsating through your whole body. Bakugou’s eyes widened at your outburst. He watched you with caution and guilt. “Y-you can’t just do that!” you sobbed. Your knees were wobbling, you felt as if you were going to collapse any minute. “Do you know how angry I am at you?! You lead me on and gave me hope that someone truly loves me for once! Then you just rip it all away, and now you want to talk!” you continued. Bakugou heard the hurt in your voice and his guilt grew. It was hurting him too, to see you like that, knowing he caused it. “I know, and I understand if you hate me and never want to see me again,” he said sadly. His voice was unusually quiet. Almost no one ever heard Bakugou speak like that.  “But can you please hear me out…” he said so quietly. You looked at him, eyes filled with tears. In front of you wasn’t the Bakugou that yelled at everyone. The Bakugou that hid his emotions from everyone and everything. In front of you was a vulnerable boy, with all the hurt and sadness spilling out of his body. He was letting you see him in his worst state. He was letting you see him with his walls down. You continued to stare for a couple seconds. “I don’t hate you, dummy,” you said, dropping to sit on the grass. You were also in her most vulnerable state. All the anger and sadness also spills out your body like a waterfall. “Well you probably should,” he said, dropping down next to you.   “Yeah, I know,” you said, giving a weak smile. “But I could never hate you..” you finished with a sigh at the end. You both sat in silence for a couple of minutes, watching the sunset. Those beautiful colors that filled the sky reminded you of the boy sitting next to you. “I already said this, but I am so angry at you” you continued. “But I could never hate my soulmate” you muttered as you met Bakugou’s gaze. His eyes filled with surprise for a moment which instantly turned to soft happiness. “I don’t know how I can ever make it up to you. But can I please explain myself, surprisingly I'm not an asshole who did that just cause he was bored” he said as he looked at her with the tiniest bit of hope in his eyes. You snorted quietly reacting to his words. “I’m always willing to listen to you,” you said laying back into the grass, watching as the sky turned dark as the sun went away. “When I was dumb and naive, I met a girl” he started, laying back down to level with you. You turned your head to look at him. He had a sad smile on his face. “At the time, I thought that girl was my soulmate, but in reality, she was my enemy,” he said. You watched as different emotions played on his face. “She seemed like a dream. Beautiful and funny” as he said those words, you couldn’t help but feel a pang of jealousy. “But then, she cheated on me. Multiple times. And would manipulate and gaslight me.” your eyes widened with surprise when he said that. “She seems like she's a great person,” you said sarcastically. “Yeah, and at the time I thought she was,” he said with sadness in his voice. “But we eventually broke up. And somehow she was an even bigger headache when we weren’t together” he said, continuing to stare at the sky. You leaned in continuing to listen. “She spread lies and rumors the moment we broke up,” he said with a sad look in his eye. “And when I met you, I didn’t….I didn’t want to believe such an angel really came to me” he said. You couldn’t help but have a blush spread across your face. His face was also turning red with embarrassment. Bakugou was never this honest with his feelings. Especially, in front of another person.  “I’m sorry that I hurt you. Believe me, I never meant to” he said giving you the most sincere look. You stared into each other's eyes for a while. His face for once was filled with vulnerability. His sadness and guilt shined through his eyes. “I forgive you, Katsuki,” you said, sitting up and he did the same. His expression was filled with hope. “You really do?” he said in almost a whisper. You saw the guilt and sadness in his eyes slowly melted away and instead became filled with happiness and love. “Yes, you dumb ass,” you gave a weak laugh when you said that.  “Who are you calling dumb ass” he snarled, his ego slowly returning to him. As you guys both looked at each other, eyes filled with pure love, you felt his hands on yours. Your heart fluttered as he leaned his face closer to yours. His eyes fluttered shut and so did yours as your lips connected. His lips were the softest things you ever felt. You put your hand in his hair and pulled it a little which made him kiss you even harder. All the emotions he’s been hiding and suppressing, were all being poured into this kiss. You and him broke apart for air. You looked over his face. You found all his features beautiful, you just loved him so much. “Y/n, I love you” Bakugou muttered out. At that moment, it’s like time stood still. Everything seemed so calm, so happy, and so...good. You were, you were truly happy at that moment. “I love you too, Katsuki,” you said as you leaned into his chest and closed your eyes. His face lit up in a cherry red when the embarrassment reached his brain. “Awww are you embarrassed?” you teased him, which made his face turn even redder. “S-shut up” he muttered covering his face with the back of his hand. You and him stayed like that and watched the stars. You saw people describe online how beautiful and happy they felt when they were finally with their soulmate. When you read those articles you couldn’t help but feel a little jealous, yet hopeful. Because maybe in the future, you would finally meet your soulmate. The person that is supposed to be by your side through thick and thin. The person that is meant to love you forever. And at this moment, you knew that you finally felt what you imagined all those years. You closed your eyes and inhaled his sweet scent. You finally found the place that you belong. With Bakugou by your side.

A/n: And now we just have the epilogue left! Let me know what you guys think! Thank you so much for reading and all the support! 

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So here we go, 2022…

Last year, 2021, was certainly fun and all, but it was as bad as it was good. Don’t get me wrong, great year. Simply delightful.

I overcame my depression after a suicide attempt, I learned to deal with my anxiety, I got three different jobs - last & current one is my DREAM JOB (cheers for that). I joined the gym and gave up smoking, and I started meditating. I made new friends, traveled, retook my gorgeous relationship and started off good in class. Also, my family and I have never been so good!

But I also broke up with my boyfriend pretty recently. I cut back on effort in class and I’m pretty sure I’m gonna fluke at least two out of the 6 initial classes I signed up for; I dropped two of them btw. I quit the gym and quit meditation, and just last month I had a depressive episode. I still hate myself sort of to this very moment for not being able to bring myself to study for my finals, which will take place in two (2) weeks.

For the longest time now I’ve been feeling -not guilty- sorry for myself. And honestly? I’m abso-fucking-lutely DONE. So here I am, back on a social platform that I thought was past dead, because I remembered how motivated and inspired it made me used to feel. Idk, perhaps I’ll find in here the community that will help me vibe the way I wanna.

It’s a journey, and I generally hate how us humans see a new beginning in something as random and futile as the planet Earth going around the Sun one more time. But forgive my normativity here, I’ll allow myself the cliché.

So this 2022 I’m done being a person that doesn’t like who they are; rather I’m gonna be the person that likes who they fucking are and owns it, and I’ll help myself become better. Every. Single. Fucking. Day.

I’ll give you an update as to what I’ll be doing and how I’ll be doing it, and I vow to post once a day, everyday, from January 1st until December 31st in 2022. Tumblr, you’ll be my journal, my diary, and somewhat of my confessionary, please and thank you!

I know it will be difficult, and forgive me if at times my human condition of feebleness takes the better part of me, you’ll understand that shit happens… But all in all I’ll try and do my very best. Not for you, I’m afraid. But for me. And in doing so I hope to inspire those of you out there who, like me, struggle everyday living through what we now call “adulthood” - eugh.

Yup! That means we’re going deep and personal, folks. We’ll be talking work, university, dates, nights out, friends and family and all that jazz, sex, mental & physical health (or the attempt at), and many more! This WOULD BE interesting if I were Meryl Streep or Maynard Keynes, but I’m sorry. You’re pretty stuck with me. Ain’t that exciting?

Also, you might be wondering the reason behind my username. Imma explain it all. I swear I’ll explain it all later!

Thanks for reading me!

M. Wittgenstock xx

Okay, time for your daily dose of wattpad drama

There was a person who dropped a random spoiler into my comment section. It had nothing to do with the book or fandom. It was a random, unprompted spoiler with the name of the show attached to it. So I was like ‘hey, you know that’s a spoiler right”

And they said yes lol

You do realize you just could have spoiled a show I wanted to watch, right?

“What’s the big deal spoilers are inevitable? Several plot points for the shown are all over articles---” Etc

Anyway, this went on for a while, since I was trying to convince them it was a crappy thing to do, since I have my comments on so I can reply to questions about the story. If they had said, oh, sorry, that would’ve been the end of it. 

But no, no, that couldnt be the end of it. Time went on, and they twisted my words “Go ahead, call me an asshole to my face. I dont care”

Even though I never once called them that, instead referring to a kid I went to school with who spoiled endgame because he’s an asshole. More comments, and more of them acting like they’re not at fault, that people ‘don’t mind spoilers because they enjoy the shows more’ and ‘i didn’t know you watch the show’

I don’t but I was planning to and you spoiled a big plot point.

Anyway, time skip to this morning because I muted them and deleted the comments last night so I wouldn’t have to deal with them anymore. Now this is where the drama comes in. This person has a habit of, if they mute me i make a post about it.

Samples include: This person just came at me all posh and whatever cause I called their portrayal of Zoë Nightshade OOC. She was also OOC for no reason whatsoever. I get it if she's like that because of some background story or smt but not without reason. It just seems like a bad writer to me and they're just coming up with excuses.

So…aparrently I offended someone because of something petty. This Wattpad user muted me cause I did something they didn't like (pretty sure they're a 'she' cause her profile description said 'lesbian' but I'm not assuming). I was reading one of their books and saw something interesting that wasn't canon. Something about demigods having golden specks in their blood. I was confused and curious. So naturally, I asked a question. Then this user who took people questioning them to a whole new level, muted me! (In referral to a person who has stated that they don’t like it when people do so and to please refrain from doing so)

And there’s also another one, but they drop the username of a twelve year old because they muted them for calling what they do annoying. But I’m not showing that one because again, child.

How does this factor in? Well, my dear dear children

Lmao this person petty af. They muted me after I ACCIDENTALLY spoiled something that I didn't even consider as a spoiler since the fanfic was unrelated to what I was talking about. I felt no need to apologise because of this and they acting to serious like I've commited a crime. Just get over it. There are worse problems to deal with than spoilers. Why so triggered?

I was replying back with no emotion whatsoever. It's hilarious at how angry they are and how long their comments were. I didn't even bother reading them.

Let’s break this down piece by piece. It is not an accidental spoiler when you drop a major plot point into an unrelated piece of media along with the name of what its from. They admitted that they put the name in there because people might not understand it, but the people who wouldn’t understand it would be people who haven’t seen the show or aren’t up to that part yet. 

The equivalent to this would be going to a random BnHA fanfic on Ao3 and saying *SPOILER FOR THE BARTIMEUS TRILOGY* I just finished reading Bartimaus being forced out of Nathaniel’s mind so he wouldn’t die too, In Ptolomy’s Gate! and then the (girl’s name) summons him at the end and it was so sad. 

*SPOILER OVER*

Even if it was an accidental spoiler, which  highly highly doubt considering they showed no surprise at it being a spoiler and literally said yes lol, it’s still a crappy thing to do. 

Next point: IT”S STILL A SPOILER EVEN IF ITS NOT RELATED TO THE FANFIC

Next: No need to apologize. Really? I straight up said I was planning to watch the the show and that I had avoided spoilers for years so I could watch it blind. And then they proceed to say ‘I didn’t know you watched the show” which again, i have not and now never will because my enjoyment of closely serialized shows hinges on not knowing what happens next. Soap operas are boring for me, and downright cringe worthy because they repeat the same plot points again and again. But then when they throw in a new plot (Or victor decides to be a good grandparent) I find myself enjoying it. Only for that to be yanked away if someone were to say, oh yeah x goes to jail for murder and then y breaks them out and they go live on an island somewhere. 

Also their reason for not apologizing is because people are still mad at you afterwards, also that it doesn’t change anything, but I share that so first part only. People are no obligated to forgive you just because you apologize. Sorry doesn’t wipe away their emotions and free will. Even if you don’t mean it sorry shows that you recognize you did something wrong. (Although I fall into a pit where my sincere apologies seem insincere which is not fun for me)

Next: As for why I kept replying to them. Because they were acting like they did nothing wrong and pushed the blame onto me. I wasn’t acting like it was a crime, I was saying it was a crappy thing to do and maybe dont do it because you can ruin a piece of media for something. But oh no, now I’m triggered I guess. I guess having concern for other peoples enjoyment is a crime now, take me away officer.

Next point: So, if they didn’t bother reading my comments, how did they know I was ‘angry’ Oh, I know. Because they assumed I was getting upset after they shoved words in my mouth. I don’t really get angry. Upset, sure, but not really angry. And even better? Those long comments? less than 1000 characters. Characters, not words. Just because I’m trying to point out that they did something crappy, I’m an angry person. Also???? Replying with no emotion. No they weren’t. I get that tone doesn’t translate in text, but by god they were one of the most combatant and defensive people I’ve seen on wattpad.

Since I can’t see the activity that led to the other things on their message board i can’t say what happened there, but based off of my own experience with them, I’m assuming they’ve twisted the narrative to suit their own needs. Which by the way, can be insanely damaging

I’ve had enough interaction on my account with people, and enough A/Ns for people to get the general vibe i give off, so this probably won’t be much of a problem for me. But if they had dropped my username and I had like 10 followers? It’s a lot easier to trash a reputation than it is to build on. “Oh hey, I like a book by this person” “that persons a jerk didn’t you see that one post” 

People fall into a false sense of security that wattpad is sunshine and rainbows because its mostly young teens on it, but there are plenty of jerks who will twist your words and reactions to fit their needs.

Sorry for the long post, but I can’t reply to the message on their message board unless I want to implicate myself with either of my accounts. So you get this because otherwise my side of things is unknown to the world.

ty for tagging me @queridopascal!

1. Why did you choose your URL? 

Because Arya Stark is one badass girl and if you know her and her story, you know what this username might refer to.

2. Any side blogs? 

This is my side blog for fanfiction, my main is @queenofthefaceless-main 

3. How long have you been on tumblr? 

I made the account in 2014 but barely used it till like... 2016. It changed A LOT over the years lmao.

4. Do you have a queue tag? 

Yep, it’s #queue and me

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I caved in and watched Game of Thrones for the first time in 2019, fell in love with Sansa and Sandor Clegane and the whole ordeal and... here we are. Also I wanted to improve my writing.

6. Why did you choose your header?

It looks pretty!

7. What’s your post with the most notes?

uhhh it’s the one where I mocked the social media blackout but I can’t find it now lmao

8. How many mutuals do you have? 

34

9. How many followers do you have?

As of now, a little over 2.3k which is fucking INSANE

10. How many people do you follow?

65

11. Have you ever made a shitpost?

oh yeah (but again, can’t find them)

12. How often do you use tumblr each day?

just a quick check here and there, the occasional random reblog or to post a fic so all in all, maybe 2 hours tops?

13. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

not really. and not publicly.

14. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I reblog things which I enjoy or things that are important to know. If it’s really important, I think it will resonate with people regardless. Cohesion doesn’t really do much.

15. Do you like tag games?

Yes!

16. Do you like ask games?

Yes!

17. Which mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

@the-scandalorian @novemberrain221 @acourtofsnakes (It could be that I forget some people, please forgive me)

Please dont let daphne be benny... like one It makes no sense because why would daphne choose this username and picture? No offense but i dont think shes street smart enough to come up with a username like that lol

My worst nightmare is having an internet friend who i tell everything to and really trust and confide in, turn out to be someone i know (ESPECIALLY a family member). Literally id never speak to that person again, it would be the biggest betrayal of trust and invasion of privacy, i would never forgive them for that. Id be really humilated and pissed off

Maybe the writers wont have it be as big of a deal to lola as it would be for me, but idk i feel thats not realistic. And especially if they have it be portrayed as a sweet gesture from daphne trying to look after lola even tho they werent talking, because again this is the most shitty thing u can do to someone. Lie and decieve them every day pretending to be someone else so they share their private issues with you and they dont even know it.

A plot like that would have to be done so early on in the season to properly show how wrong it is, and to show how catfishing like that can affect someone being able to trust again. Like the idea of Lola being rightfully mad at daphne, and then wanting to vent to her friend about it all, but turns out its daphne instead shes been talking to, thats just seriously fucked up. And daphne could just manipulate lola into thinking that shes on the wrong side of the argument then you know? Like ‘oh u fought with ur sister... i think u should listen 2 her bc shes right’. Plus, It would also make lola feel even more lonely that her one friend has actually just been her sister lying to her this whole time

I hoped that Benny would have been a random person from the clinic she went to who understands her and went thru similar stuff and we could have been indroduced to them and they could have helped Lola and talked about their experiences with addiction and recovery, but obviously its too late for that now

Wishing you were here... 3

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader (chatroom)

A/N: Hey guys! Today is my birthday! In celebration of that, here’s the third installment. I hope you enjoy it, and please let me know what you think. Part 4 will still be posted on monday (:

Warnings: language, flirting, pet names, feels, nerves, i think thats it?

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“Kitten?”

The baritone of his voice leaves you speechless, unable to force a single syllable to leave your lips.

“You with me?”

He speaks again, emotion laced in the words and you find yourself able to speak a name.

“Sarge?”

He sighs into the phone, though it sounds more like a pleasurable release than not.

“It is you. I.. I was beginning to think you wouldn’t call.”

You’re silent for a few beats before you respond.

“You.. you said you needed to speak with me.”

Another loud exhale comes from his end, followed by rustling that could only be the sound of him rolling on his mattress, repositioning before he begins to talk.

“I do.. I.. I needed you to know how incredibly, sincerely sorry I am. I was so.. so angry when I found out I’d be gone an additional three months, and doll, I swear to you, I tried to get them to let me message you - even just once, but it just wasn’t possible.. I..”

He pauses, taking in a breath to restore what he’d lost during his rushed explanation.

“I was so afraid that you’d never forgive me.. or worse, that I’d come back and you’d be gone completely, with no way for me to contact you because I’d never even thought to ask you for your goddamn name.. sweetheart, I.. I thought about you every fuckin’ day, every damn moment. I-I never stopped..”

You’re still at a loss for words, staring blankly at your keyboard as you listen intently to him speak. There was no denying the guilt and regret each sentence carried, just as there was no denying the effect it had on the pattern of your heartbeat.

“Even though every day was hell, it made me realize somethin’.. somethin’ I knew I had to tell you as soon as I got back. Whether you felt the same or not.”

He stops again, as if he’s waiting for you to ask what his grand realization was.

 “W-what’s that?” You finally manage to whisper, picking at a random thread in the hem of your robe.

“I need to see you.. to meet you. I-I’ve wanted to, for a long while now, but I was always too nervous, too terrified that once you saw me, really saw me, that you wouldn’t want to speak to me ever again, but.. somewhere along the way, that wanting turned into needing.. You’ve had a piece of my heart for so long, I think it’s finally time we revealed the faces of our ghosts, don’t you?”

His voice shook with uncertainty as he spoke the last few words.

You know he’s just as scared by the idea of meeting you as you are of meeting him. The idea of finally revealing the identity behind the username.

“Kitten, please..”

He’s on the verge of begging, and the way the pet name rolls off his tongue has you on the cusp of giving in.

“I-I don’t know.. It’s so close to the holidays, I’m sure transportation would be expensive..”

Every excuse in the book is racing through your mind, lining up one right after the other at the back of your throat.

His next words throw you for a spin.

“Let me fly you out here. To New York. First class. If you don’t feel comfortable staying with me, I can get you a hotel room. Please. Let me do this for you… for us. I.. I think we owe it to ourselves, don’t you?”

He’s literally taken any and all logical reasons for you to not go right out of the equation, and though part of you wants to squeal with joy, another part of you remains uncertain. There are still seeds of doubt planted in your mind.

“All I need is your name and birthdate to book the ticket. You could come next week, I’m looking at flights right now.”

The fear in his voice has transformed into excitement, the sound of his mouse clicking repeatedly is barely audible in the background of the call. 

You decide to voice your number one concern.

“What if I’m not what you’re expecting?”

The clicking on his end ceases and his voice regains an aura of confidence.

“I just want to meet the girl who’s stolen my heart over the last year. All I’m expecting is for us to be as honest and open with each other as we’ve been from the start. Please?”

A few moments of silence seem to stretch on for hours, before you finally let out a shaky sigh into the phone.

“I-Okay.. I’ll come. I can talk to my boss tomorrow. I don’t think he’ll give me more than a week vacation, though.”

He lets out an audible sigh of relief, followed by the first laugh you’d ever heard him release.

“You have no idea how happy you’ve made me, kitten. Ecstatic.”

A smile brings a glow to your entire face, prompting you to chew your lower lip to keep it from getting much bigger.

“I just need your name.”

Providing him with the proper information so he can book your flight takes no more than ten minutes, but that’s when the next dilemma arises. 

He clears his throat before he speaks.

“Now.. like I said before, you’re more than welcome to stay with me.. I live in a three bedroom apartment and I have a guest room that’s very comfortable.. I can also book you a hotel if you’d prefer.”

A war wages within your head, but you sit in silence. Wanting to get your mind completely made up before you speak.

“I.. I can stay with you. I trust you.”

Another small breath leaves him, and you try not to imagine what the smile that surely graced his lips looks like.

“I promise I will give you as much or as little space as you like. This is all in your control, okay?”

You nod, before realizing he can only hear you, not see you. 

“Okay.”

x

The next five days go by in a blur, and before you know it, it’s the night before you’re supposed to leave for New York. To meet Sarge. 

You’re packing away the last few articles of clothing you want to take on your week long trip, when your phone starts to buzz from its place on your nightstand. Sarge, the caller ID reads.

You answer with a shaky laugh, “Hello?”

“How ya feelin’, kitten?” You know the real question he’s trying to ask, but he doesn’t want to be rude.

Have you gotten cold feet yet?

Slowly zipping your suitcase shut, you respond in a much calmer voice than before, “I’m okay. A little nervous, but I just finished packing.. How are you? Change your mind?” 

You decide to tease at the question for him.

“I’d never. I’ve never been so sure of something in my life.”

You wish you had his confidence.

“It’s going to be fine, you know. I’m going to meet you at the baggage claim as soon as your flight lands. We’ll grab food if you’re hungry and then head back to the apartment so you can relax. Like I said, you’re in control of how all of this plays out.”

You’re sitting on the edge of your bed, arm crossed over your middle as you chew the inside of your cheek.

“What’s goin’ on in that pretty head of yours, doll?”

The affection in his voice makes you crack a smile. 

“It’s just.. everything will be different after tomorrow.. won’t it?”

He hums softly before he speaks, “Only difference’ll be that I’ll finally be able to put a face to your voice, and you’ll be able to put a face to mine. Think of it like.. the next step. I’m not gonna try to seduce you right away or anythin’ like that, not gonna do anythin’ you aren’t comfortable with. I just.. want to finally be near you. To see you.”

You will his words to soothe your fears, to convince you that everything really would be okay. It worked well enough to allow you to breathe without trembling.

 “You want me to call you to wake you?”

You laugh softly, moving your suitcase from your bed to a spot beside your bedroom door. 

“If you’d like. I can tell you what I’m wearing so you’ll be able to pick me out of a crowd.”

“Please tell me it’s a chicken costume.” He laughs, which prompts you to join in.

“No, no. I’m afraid not.. Black sundress. Red shoes. My luggage is red, too.”

“You like black and red, huh?”

“My favorite combination of colors.”

x

Waking up at 3am to make a 6am flight proved to be a lot more difficult than you anticipated, but Sarge called you at the exact same time your alarm went off, offering to stay on speakerphone while you got ready to keep you awake. 

“I’ve got to take a shower, Sarge, can I call you back in ten?”

A low rumble comes from his end of the call, a sound somewhere between a hum and a growl. “Of course you can, kitten. I’ll be waitin’ for ya.”

Showering and getting changed took a bit more time than you anticipated, especially when you decided to apply a light amount of makeup as well. Before you even get a chance to call back, he’s calling you.

“You worried me for a minute, had to make sure you didn’t fall asleep or change your mind, y’know..”

You laugh quietly, putting your purse over your shoulder and grabbing your suitcase as you make your way to the front door of the apartment. “I’m actually about to walk out my door now. My cab is waiting downstairs.”

He’s quiet for a few seconds, then his voice comes out in an almost-whisper. “It’s really, finally happening, isn’t it?”

Another laugh leaves you as you exit your apartment and lock the door behind you. “I’ll let you know when I get on the plane.. and I’ll be in New York in less than 7 hours.”

“I’ll see you soon, kitten.”

x

The flight to New York just so happens to go right through a storm, making it the bumpiest most nerve wracking  journey you’d been on, ever. By the time you land, your flight is 45 minutes behind schedule and you’re not sure if you want to puke due to the turbulence or anxiety. 

You exit the plane on shaky legs, following the signs through the airport, to eventually get you to baggage claim. 

You’d been too distracted to even fish your phone out of your purse, until you finally reach the baggage area and see that your cargo had yet to be unloaded thanks to the weather. 

Instead of getting out the device that might only cause you more heart palpitations, you decide to take a slow look at the people lingering nearby. There’s an elderly lady, staring at the announcement board as if she can make it change with her mind. There are a few couples clinging to each other, faces buried in necks and chests, fatigue evident in their eyes. There are a few stray men and women, eyes glued to their phones, but nobody stands out to you.

You see your luggage finally coming down the revolving belt and quickly move forward to grab it, but one of the wheels gets caught under the track. 

Teetering on the edge of panic, you open your mouth to ask someone, anyone, for help, but a presence behind you and a helping hand over your own stops your voice and heart in their tracks.

“Here, kitten. Let me help you.”

He tugs the large bag from the corral with ease, setting it down beside him. 

You’re practically in a daze and can’t seem to raise your eyes to meet his, gaze glued to the beat up doc martens that adorn his feet. 

Once his hands are free, they both move to slowly skim up your arms, before one rests on the small of your back and the other cradles your chin, tilting your face up to look at him.

“Hey. It’s just me.”

His breath washes over your face this time, and you blink several times before your attention finally focuses on the sight before you.

He’s beautiful. More beautiful than you could’ve ever imagined.

He’s got pillowy pink lips, hair the color of warm chestnut, and eyes the color of the clearest, bluest parts of the ocean. His hair is long enough to tuck behind his ears with a bit of a curl in the end, and his beard has been tamed into a nice shave. He’s smiling, and you can tell he’s taking in each one of your features, just as you’re taking in his.

You can’t help but feel he looks familiar, but your trance is broken when someone bumps into you from behind, sending you stumbling against his chest. If it weren’t for his hand on your back, you might have toppled over.

His gaze finally leaves your face and he scans the crowd around you, noting how it was only getting busier. “C’mon, kitten. Let’s get out of here.”

Without another word, he grips the handle of your suitcase with one hand and leads you towards the exit with the other, applying gentle pressure to the center of your spine. 

The walk to his car is completely silent, as if you’re both too afraid to break it. 

Once you’re in his car and out of the airport parking lot, he looks at you for a brief moment. 

“It’s weird, isn’t it?” He asks with a soft smile. 

You let out a breathless laugh that you didn’t realize you’d been holding in, nodding. “Just a little, I.. I guess I never expected you to be.. so..”

He cocks his eyebrow when you pause, a tiny frown on his face, as if he’s expecting you to say something bad. Warmth floods his cheeks at your next words. 

“So pretty.”

You’re just as embarrassed as he is once the thought leaves your mouth and you drop your gaze to your lap, cursing yourself in your head for being so forward.

“Well..” He hesitantly moves his hand across the center console, placing his fingers over yours where they lie in your lap. “You’re very pretty, too.. for the record.”

He gives your hand a little squeeze, which you return, flashing him a small smile, too.

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only the lonely survive // colby brock - chapter fifteen: and about forgiveness, we’re both supposed to have exchanged

A/N: hey guys :) here’s the next chapter. some crazy stuff happens in this, so let me know what you think. i’ll be coming out with another request at some point soon, so be on the lookout for that.

description of the story

taglist:  @ajosieface , @localsleeper , @julyrubyrose , @far-to-many-bands , @absolute-randomness-forever

trigger warning: cursing

word count: 2200

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After talking to Casey for over an hour about Colby and Brennen, I finally went to my room. Removing my dress from the other night and changing into pjs, I scrolled through my phone again out of boredom. I was gaining a lot of followers and subscribers, my dms were filled to the max, and people were tagging me in everything.

This is all a bit overwhelming.

I clicked on my username on insta and went down to my secret account: my Sam and Colby fan account. No one knew of golbrockloves, mostly because I never talked about it. I especially haven't brought it up to Colby.

How do you tell the guy you made out with that you have an instagram dedicated to him and his best friend without looking creepy? Exactly.

I slid down my feed, only to be met with pictures and videos of me. One video was a screen recording of my snapchat from yesterday, me and Colby in the store.

Why does that feel like such a long time ago?

The next couple pictures were from people's stories: screenshots of me and Colby dancing together, me and Colby next to each other in the kitchen, me and Brennen.

I bit my lip anxiously as I clicked on the comments. They weren't exactly bad, but they weren't great.

 snc3lifee who the fck is she?????

samnccolbby her @ is skyebennett

lovely_sncc is she dating colby or brennen?

saramcc OMG COLBY AND HER ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER

solby5vr she better stay away from colby!! HES MINE!!!!

dolansnc why can't colby stand next to a girl without everyone shipping her with him? jesus christ this fandom

 It was strange to see fans talk about me, as if they didn't know I would see what they were saying. Maybe having this fan account was a good thing: I could see how they all honestly thought about me without anyone knowing.

After reading more and more comments, I could tell most believed me and Colby were together. Or maybe me and Brennen. No one was certain. All they knew was that I was close to both. A lot of fans kept saying that I wasn't dating either one of them and that I was just friends.

While still lurking around on insta, I got a bunch of notifications from my personal account. I switched over to it to see I was tagged in multiple snippets of videos. Clicking on the it, I saw the face of Travis Marcus. He had uploaded a new video to his channel, titled "my truth".

Oh God...

I went to youtube and saw his video was slowly starting to trend. I clicked play and sat down on my bed.

Travis sighed, glancing up at the camera. "Hey guys, it's your boy Travis. Um, I have a lot to get off my chest right now. I'm sorry my energy isn't as high as it usually is. But, I needed to set the record straight. There is a lot of shitty things going around about me lately and I wanted to clear the air and tell you the truth."

"Skye, did you see-" Casey stated, dashing into my room. She stopped when she saw my phone in my hand. We both stood there watching Travis.

"So, as you guys know, I was recently accused of doing something terrible... of bullying another youtuber. I won't say her name because she doesn't deserve any more hate... or clout." His lips twitched, trying to cover up a smirk.

"As if he didn't tag you in the fucking video. Fucking asshat." Casey mumbled.

"One of her friends, Brennen Taylor, an old viner, tweeted that I made fun of her at a party recently. I just wanted to say that this is completely false. What actually happened was that I introduced myself to her. She claimed she was a huge fan and that she wanted to… get with me." Travis nodded his head uncomfortably.

What the fuck.

He continued. “I declined because she was extremely intoxicated. She then proceeded to get upset with me, made a huge scene, got kicked out of the party, and then I can only assume went to Brennen. He was also really drunk, which is why he tweeted in the first place.”

Casey gasped. “Are you kidding me? I'm gonna kill h-”

I hushed her, my eyes never leaving the screen.

“I have footage from that night, because I vlogged it. However, the audio got fucked up so I'm sorry for how muffled it is.” He admitted.

The screen changed to the night of the party. I saw myself standing in front of Travis, talking to him. The audio was complete garbage, low and muffled. I glanced over at the camera, only a moment later Travis nodded at it, smirking. Something I didn't see at the time. My face contorts for a second, he shrugs, and I shake my head, leaving immediately afterwards.

“Now, does that look like I was making fun of her? No. I would never do that. She was upset because I respectfully told her I didn't want to get with her after all her advances. She literally tried later that night to dance up on me, but I just wasn't into her. After I filmed this, she got kicked out for trying to hook up with another youtuber. I think she's desperate for views and just wants more followers.” He declared.

“So, don't give her that attention. And, don't send her hate guys. I wish her and Brennen the best honestly. Sorry this video is so short, I needed to get this off my chest. I hope you all can understand. Peace.” He threw up a peace sign, and then pushed his hand into the lens of the camera, the video fading to black.

Stunned silence fell over the room. Neither one of us could speak.

“Is this real life? I kinda feel like I've had this nightmare before.” I whispered.

“He can't be serious. Does he really think he can get away with this?” Casey shook with rage.

“Why wouldn't he be able to? He has almost a million followers. I just passed 2,000, if I haven't already lost all of them.” My voice faltered.

“I'm gonna call Brennen and see if he can help.” Casey left quickly, pulling out her phone.

I laid my back against my bed, closing my eyes. I took a couple deep breaths, trying to slow down my heart-rate.

That's it.

I sat up quickly. I went over to my desk and pulled out my camera. Setting it up on my tripod, I got comfortable in my chair.

I sighed deeply, then turned my camera on

"Hi everyone. I didn't think this amount of drama would happen to me so soon in my youtube career, yet here we are." I joked.

"I'm sorry if this video is a little all over the place. I'm not editing it. I'm just gonna post it as is.” I clapped my hands together, trying to stop their shaking.

I cleared my throat. “If you don't know, I'm the girl Travis Marcus made fun of. Or he claims he didn't make fun of. I need you all to know that he is lying. I'm not sure why when he could easily just admit he fucked up and apologize. Instead, he did this.”

“I want to tell you guys what actually happened that night…” I stated, looking directly at the camera.

I began to explain that party in detail: how Travis came up to me, how he flirted with me, only for him to make fun of my appearance and film it. I then went on to explain how I left the party because of him ruining my night, only to be told a couple hours later that he got kicked out of the party because he started a fight with Sam, Colby, and Brennen by throwing his drink on Kat.

"I have four witnesses, plus my best friend. And Big Nik's security team could easily corroborate my story. On top of all that, I have this."

I grabbed my phone, pulled open my dms on twitter, and found Travis' message to me. I showed the message to the camera, letting it focus on his words.

Travis: please tell Brennen to take down the tweets. Things are getting out of hand. I apologize for what I said.

"Why would you apologize for something that you didn't do? All of this could have been avoided if you wouldn't have made fun of me. I get you're 'famous' and have the ego the size of a tractor-trailer, but that doesn't mean you get to make fun of random people because they don't fit into what you think is attractive. Be nicer. Be kind. And stop lying to make yourself look good."

I reached over and turned off my camera. I paused, my breath hitching in my throat for a moment.

Holy fuck, did I just film that?

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I felt cozy surface beneath me tremble slightly. Three times in a row. I opened my eyes, glancing around my dark room.

Was all of that a dream?

I slid my hand over my bed, finding the item that was vibrating. I turned it over, my eyes closing instantly from the bright light. Squinting, I saw messages from all different people. But the most recent made me smile softly.

Colby: are you up to talk?

I shuffled my body upwards, leaning over and turning my light on. I gazed over at my sleeping laptop, my camera still plugged in. The memories flooded back to me. I uploaded a response to Travis, and instantly fell asleep from anxiety induced exhaustion. I didn't even want to see if anyone supported me or not.

Unlocking my phone, I went to Colby's message immediately.

Skye: just woke up. i'm down to talk.

Moments later, my phone started ringing. I answered it. "Hey Colby."

"Hey. How are you doing?" He asked sweetly.

I chuckled. “I've been better, that's for sure.”

“How long have you been asleep? Everyone's been trying to contact you.” He stated.

I shrugged. “Right after I uploaded the video, I fell asleep. I was just too stressed.”

“I'm sorry to hear that.” He apologized.

I held back a smile. “It's okay. I'm alright.”

“So, I guess you don't know what happened.” Colby replied.

“No, what did?” I questioned.

“Travis deleted his video.” He deadpanned.

I sat up quickly. “Wait what?”

“Well, after you posted yours, Brennen and I talked to Big Nik and we found out from him that his friend John was recording a snapchat during the fight that occurred with all of us in it. It shows Travis getting pulled out of the party yelling essentially what he said to you at everyone.” He informed me, continuing. “He cussed and screamed while he got kicked out, and John sent the video to Messy Monday, and they uploaded it to twitter. It's been trending for the past couple hours.”

“Holy shit. So, the snapchat proved me right?” I muttered.

“Yep. Travis took down his video. He's been radio silent since.” He laughed.

“He probably left a few choice words for me.” I said, rolling my eyes.

“If he did, let me know. I got some unfinished business with him.” Colby joked, causing me to let out a laugh. “Besides, before he deleted his video, Sam, me, Kat, and Brennen all came out on twitter and said that you were right. On top of that, apparently a thread was created of how rude Travis has been to fans. So... he's kinda done for.”

“I wouldn't be so sure of that. He'll be back in less than a month.” I scoffed, pulling my blanket closer to me.

“Well, even if he does come back, everyone will know you were right.” He reassured.

I picked at my blanket. “Tell that to his fans.”

“Enough about Travis. Is there anything I can do to get your mind off of him?” He requested.

I sighed. “Like what?”

“Go out with me.” I could hear the smile in his voice.

“What?” I choked.

“Go out with me. Where ever you want to go, I'll take you there.” Colby promised.

“When are you taking me out?”

“How about tomorrow? Say eight P.M?”

A smile rose to my lips. “Okay... that sounds good.”

“Where do you want to go?” He inquired.

“If you don't mind it... I kinda want to stay in for a bit. Hide away from the world. Maybe you could come here? We could order take out and watch some movies. And cuddle?” I bit my lip nervously.

He agreed happily. “That sounds fantastic.”

“Good. I can't wait.” I beamed.

“Is there anything else you want to talk about?” He mumbled, yawning.

I shook my head. “No. Besides, you sound like you need to go to sleep.”

“I'll stay up if you want me to.” He admitted.

“No. No, I'm okay really. You should get some sleep.” I declared.

“Alright. I'll see you tomorrow.” He responded.

“It's a date.” I smiled.

“Goodnight, Skye.” He whispered.

I giggled quietly. “Goodnight, Colby.”

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