Auroras and Sad Prose

Hi there! Zee here! I decided to start microblogging?? is that what its called?. Well honestly.. lifes been tough, and difficult for me. I just moved to Mile High City 6 months ago, thats been awhile! I feel like since I moved here, Im becoming more introvert than I was before. I actually was an active and social person, and it just weird for me to be quiet here, I only have few friends here, I feel like im so alone and it creeps me out sometimes. So.. why its Auroras and Sad Prose? It's actuallly came from a Taylor Swift song called 'The Lakes'. I like the song 'The Lakes' so much. Taylor wrote it beautifully poetic, I was so hard to understand the words and songs when it first came out lolll, I have to open my dictionary. But there's this line "..... I want auroras and sad prose" in the bridge part, which I found to be superly interesting. For me the line just represent how.. she wants both happiness and sadness, and I totally agree!. Because happiness can't be there without sadness, I mean.. you know when something bad happens, there's always a good news coming! But!! when sadness come, and it'll over what comes is Happiness. So its fair to say that... both Happiness and Sadness tied up as together... So welcome, to Auroras and Sad Prose (:

Random Talk/Confess #Situasionship

Just want to say, jujurly, I have a crush on you, maybe you already know it. Yang awalnya becandaan tapi jadi beneran. Serius deh, ini di luar ekspektasiku tau. Karena dari awal emang ga pernah kepikiran. But you act so sweet. Walaupun kutau, kamu emang se friendly itu sih orangnyaa. HAHA

Harusnya kalau dari awal kita becanda, aku ketawa bukan malah sayang. eh

You always asked, "nggak? emang kamu enggak?"                            Jawabannya "iya, tapiiiiiiiiiiii .......". *sambil menghela napas*                      Karena kalo engga ada rasa, ngga mungkin sih aku mau ini dan itu sama kamu. Karena aku bukan tipe orang yang bisa menjalani hal seperti itu tanpa pake perasaan. Gatau deh kalo kamu. 

Tapi yaa gitu, we are too different, and I know you already have someone else. Kamu udah punya pacar. Aku selalu merasa bersalah sih tiap inget ini tapi aku nyaman sama kamu :( maapin yaaaa.

I always hold back, tiap kali mau chat atau telp duluan karena I need to kill this feeling. Tapi malah jadi si paling selalu nunggu notif. lol. Aku yang gasuka di telp apalagi video call malah jadi orang yg selalu nunggu vc dari kamu, dan malah menjadikan itu aktivitas favorit. We talked about anything dan sebenernya ga penting, tapi kok aku malah suka. Aneh.

Tapi yang selalu gabisa kutebak adalah how is your true feeling, iya perasaanmu. Aku selalu merasa kalau kamu cuma penasaran karena menemukan mainan baru. Trust issue ku sama orang emang separah itu. Dan hal ini malah bikin aku mellow sendiri, tiba tiba galau. Tapi jauuuh di dalam hatiku terdalam, asiiik, aku harap kamu ngga cuma penasaran tapi emng suka beneran. Mustahil ga sih permintaanku?

Situasionship kayak gini tuh emang gambling banget yaa untuk aku yang gapunya jalan tengah. Padahal sadar nantinya kita akan jadi asing lagi, tapi tetep milih menikmati proses untuk merayakan patah hati. Ya Allah puitis banget sih na. hahaha.

Selamat merayakan patah hati untuk Ana.

Jakarta, 5 & 7 Mei 2023

Let your Fear guide you

Oftentimes we try to separate a fear or worry with our current realites if these are not connected to each other. So we start to only battle the situation with actions when our reality has come so close to our fear that there is no way we can deny that it has arrived in our lives -Even though it has been there all along - It was just small enough to be able to ignore as something that is not part of us

How to fight this ?

If we fear anything, we have to analyze where this fear is coming from. How is it connected to our lives and in what ways can I already actively battle the feared scenario and in this way also invalidate the fear

Aku Akan selalu menjadi diriku, entah dimanapun Dan kapanpun, kamu tidak harus mengerti APA Dan bagaimana Aku. Karena Aku tau itu tidak Akan mudah. Dari buku Aku belajar tentang bagaiamana menyikapi sebulan masalah.. what life will be.. and I know , you and I will never discover the answer. Karena sejatinya manusia hanyalah berusaha, namun kita juga harus tau Serta sadar. Allah Yang Akan menentukan. #selfjournal#experiences#belajar nulis

¡Hola a todos! Los días han estado fluyendo como agua y hoy me puse a pensar en algunos placeres simples de la vida de los que podemos disfrutar siempre que tengamos la oportunidad. Creo que a veces es bueno recordarnos que a pesar de todo lo malo qué hay afuera, hay cosas que podemos hacer para reconfortarnos a nosotros mismos. 🌸 ¿Qué hay de ti? ¿Cuál es tu placer simple? * * * * * * #journaling #journaladdict #myjournal #washitape #papeleriabonita #creativejournal #creativejournaling #journalingcommunity #journalingideas #journalingenespañol #paginasdetania #selfjournal #journals #journalenespañol (en Mexico City, Mexico) https://www.instagram.com/p/COBv69HFGpT/?igshid=4uota2ifylu4

So I’ve been using my bullet journal for three years non-stop because the system worked so well for me and I thought I would never go back to a traditional planner… until about a month ago I discovered the Best Self Co planner 😍 I saw that all the components of my bullet journal that I draw out every day: schedule, tasks, morning and evening gratitude, lessons learned, wins, habit tracker, in-depth goal setting and more are ALL in this planner. 💫 I used it for the first time yesterday in this two pages per day spread and had the most productive day I’ve probably ever had 🤔  plus there was enough room to add my own creative touches, track meals, add quotes, etc. 

Yeah.. this one is a winner, guys🌱 my studygram

Dia

Biarkan Dia merindu, biarkan aku pula merindu.

Biarkan Dia mencinta, karena aku pun sama.

Biarkan Dia mengenang kisahnya, karena aku ada untuk mengerti Dia.

Meski rumit dan berat hati ini menerima kenyataan nya.

Hati ku tak akan hancur, tenang saja.

Cintaku untuk Dia akan tetap sama.

Biar waktu saja yang bicara.

Biar Tuhan saja yang tahu apa yang Dia rasa.

Aku tak ingin terbawa sifat dunia.

Aku tak ingin mengganggu semesta.

Aku hanya ingin Dia bahagia.

Dan kebahagiaan ku adalah Dia.

Dia adalah Kamu tentu saja.

Otak kedua

Use Kaizen, the Japanese art of small changes over time that lead up to huge results. Suddenly, you'll look back and wonder how you got so far, so fast. ⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #motivation #motivational #success #successful #gratitude #dreams #positivity #positive #positivevibes #entrepreneur #design #designer #selfjournal #business #opportunity #workhard #focus #focused #luxury #luxurylife #travel #traveling #wealth #power #lifestyle #happiness #selfmade #goals #journal #planner #bulletjournal

T h e D i s a p p o i n t m e n t. - I’ve come to terms with my title I’ve always been the outcast, the weird one, the annoying, Hard to love, Never can do anything right, always the Disappointment. It’s not that I haven’t tried to be better... Maybe it’s due to my lack of faith... Maybe it’s my unwillingness to live but still wanting to fulfill every dream I’ve dreamt. I’m constantly contradicting myself. I feel like empty space unnoticed But yet the heaviest burden of anyone I come into contact with.. I’ve spent so much time trying to prove to them I’m worth the time. Maybe it’s time to prove to myself that I am what I am. I can’t change my title unless I try. I’ll no longer disappoint you. I no longer will wear this title proudly.

Sunday planning on a chilly, rainy day. 😍 How do you like to set the scene for your best planning? #positivevibes #bestself #selfjournal #entrepreneur #mmfamily ✨

Happy National Coffee Day ☕️

I've always had the ability to stay fairly in shape. I've enjoyed fitness and working out. Eating healthy has always been difficult for me. However, I have noticed as I get closer to 30 my metabolism has slowed down. My goal is to clean up my diet and continue working out. In the next few days I'll be posting self photos of now before I really focus on cleaning up my diet and designing my own work outs. I'll be recording what I eat so it makes me aware of what I put in my body. I plan to blog this adventure and my thoughts on what works for me.

Learn to love yourself can take years ..and that ok.. Take your time.. Because, honestly , sometimes process more important than result.. And sometimes you have to accept things you don't want to accept and leave people you would never leave..

Keep learning, keep growing. Very excited to start the new year by using the SELF Journal to plan my goals, take consistent action, and make each day count. . . . . . . . . @bestselfco #SELFjournal #bestselfjournal #motivation #bestself #journaling #planning #goals #newyearsresolution #execution #roadmap #successmindset (at Caffè Nero) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsG1qG6lvfZ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x4vqle9qel6o

10.19.2018

I want a career man who can take care of himself, but all I feel I deserve is a man with neck tattoos who I have to take care of.