oh, i love the way relationships develop their own personal language of love. when all that joy shows the way they love you. i love when it is a little icon to who they are, to how you get along with them.
my sister takes a picture of a dead bug and sends it to me - this is you. my friend asks me how the move is going; she put a reminder in her phone to check up on me. i put a piece of ice down my friend's back, he returns the favor by holding my phone over my head and making me jump to catch it. jason and i scream-sing green day while going all of 15 miles an hour down country roads. molly is who i go to for a quiet night in with 5 dollar wine.
i go out for dinner with them and have to step outside to take a phone call; when i come back they've ordered my favorite appetizer without needing to be asked. andrew and i have a long-standing tradition of him picking me up to spike me directly into the first soft-looking surface around. i don't even need to speak to my best friend - she and i will just look at each other and have an entire conversation. burst out laughing at 3 PM, high and cackling like we're evil witches. i just moved by myself into a new city - my brother keeps introducing me to his friends that now live close to me. he always says - oh yeah, this is sibling and then pretends to ignore me. for days now, my family has been in and out of my apartment, just tinkering with things; making sure i am settling in nicely.
i usually have watermelon instead of cake for my birthday; kim forces a full yankee candle into the rind so i can have something to blow out and wish on. for 20 minutes on a saturday, all us grown adults crawl into one bed to have a cuddle puddle like we're in high school again. every 20 seconds someone starts giggling, and then we're laughing again. nick calls me from california; we both groan about the price of tickets, agonizing. miranda and i meet up in the city for the first time in years - without discussing it beforehand, the minute we lay eyes on each other, we both strike gruesome little gremlin poses instead of waving. dean always goes for the hug. joe always does a single firm handshake. sometimes i think about my friends and get so happy i just start crying.
oh, how wonderful to live in a world where affection is biologically ingrained in us. how wonderful that affection helps us build our single greatest strength - community. how wonderful that affection is our body's way of saying - thing is good, let's keep. how wonderful, this language, this skein we weave! to show the other person - i might not always say it. but i love that you live in me.
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You were a young, good looking girl. Or so you were told. Your long blonde hair fell gracefully on your bony bony shoulders. Your defined cheekbones gave you a sharp look. Your skinny waist made you quite the catch in the eyes of people around you.
But you weren't happy, were you? The long hair didn't feel right. Neither did the feminine face or the skimpy outfits you wore to show off your tiny body.
So you choose to pursue happiness instead and admitted to yourself that you're not the girl you're pretending to be. You chopped off the hair into a messy mohawk and dyed it bright colors, got piercings and tattoos, traded your tiny dresses and heels for oversized leather jackets, rough jeans and combat boots. It took years but you eventually even got on testosterone. The changes made you ecstatic. You gained muscle mass, your body hair grew and got darker, your voice deepened....
And you became hungry. All the years of denying yourself the pleasure of food in order to fit into a box caught up to you and for the first time you ate freely. After all, you were basically going through a second puberty and that's just how teenage boys get, right?
They chug bear, tear into a steak, devour plates after plates of chicken wings, fries, pizzas, whatever they can get their hand on. You were no different. You ate everything in sight and soon it started catching up to you.
Your small waist blended into your wide hips, giving you a more boxy, manly appearance. Your thickening thighs tore through your old feminine skinny jeans and became the perfect resting place for your softened belly. Your arms got huge and mixed with the muscle mass you still got they gave you almost bear like appearance. You could easily go out without binding because your tits now just looked like moobs.
Nowadays, you as much as catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror and can't help but get horny. The body you worked so hard on makes you wet just thinking about it. You made it yourself out of flesh that was unfit for you and you did it one shot and one stuffing at a time.
Tell me boy, doesn't it feel nice? To finally become one of the big men you always admired? Doesn't the low vibrator of your voice in your throat make you excited? Don't you want to get that tummy to jiggle even more?
I know you want this.
So eat up
You were never meant to be a small girl anyway
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Iterator ship naming
I saw pansear's one with slugcats and didn't see any other with iterators soooooo
I stayed up to 5m for this hehehheheheh
Now have these that may be edited as more are found
Five pebbles ships
Five pebbles x seven red suns - sunstone / seven pebbles / fpxsrs
Five pebbles x no significant harrasment - ragequit / noclip / fpxnsh
Five pebbles x unparalleled innocence - milkshake / trinkets / fpxui
Five pebbles x sliver of straw - gravel / faulty affirmative / fpxsos
Five pebbles x chasing/grey wind - hailstorm / fpxgw / fpxcw
Looks to the moon ships
Looks to the moon x no significant harrasment - lilypad / lttmxnsh
Looks to the moon x sliver of straw - waning crescent / slivermoon / faded memories / lttmxsos
Looks to the moon x seven red suns - eclipse / lttmxsrs
Looks to the moon x unparalleled innocence - unparalleled moon / innocent meteor / Moonflower / lttmxui
Looks to the moon x chasing/grey wind - cyclone / atmosphere / lttmxcw / lttmxgw
No significant harrasment ships
No significant harrasment x looks to the moon - lilypad / nshxlttm
No significant harrasment x five pebbles - ragequit / noclip / nshxfp
No significant harrasment x unparalleled innocence - team rocket / nshxui
No significant harrasment x seven red suns - traffic lights / nshxsrs
No significant harrasment x sliver of straw - taboo dissonance / nshxsos
No significant harrasment x chasing/grey wind - olive / nshxgw / nshxcw
Seven red suns ships
Seven red suns x five pebbles - sunstone / seven pebbles / srsxfp
Seven red suns x no signficant harrasment - traffic lights / srsxnsh
Seven red suns x looks to the moon - eclipse / srsxlttm
Seven red suns x unparalleled innocence - golden survey / unfortunate news / srsxui
Seven red suns x sliver of straw - unfortunate alternative / srsxsos
Seven red suns x chasing/grey wind - warm weather / solar flare / firebird / red wind / terapy / srsxgw / srsxcw
Sliver of straw ships
Sliver of straw x looks to the moon - waning crescent / slivermoon / faded memories / sosxlttm
Sliver of straw x five pebbles - gravel / faulty affirmative / sosxfp
Sliver of straw x no significant harrasment - taboo dissonance / sosxnsh
Sliver of straw x seven red suns - unfortunate alternative / sosxsrs
Sliver of straw x unparalleled innocence - peaceful contemplation / strawman / sosxui
Sliver of straw x chasing/grey wind - death zephyr / windy fields / sosxgw / sosxcw
Unparalleled innocence ships
Unparalleled innocence x five pebbles - milkshake / trinkets / uixfp
Unparalleled innocence x looks to the moon - unparalleled moon / innocent meteor / Moonflower / uixlttm
Unparalleled innocence x no significant harrasment - team rocket / uixnsh
Unparalleled innocence x seven red suns - golden survey / unfortunate news / uixsrs
Unparalleled innocence x sliver of straw - peaceful contemplation / strawman / uixsos
Unparalleled innocence x chasing/grey wind - grimace shake / content warning user interface / grinnocence / winnocence / uixgw / uixcw
Chasing/grey wind ships
Chasing/grey wind x five pebbles - hailstorm / gwxfp / cwxfp
Chasing/grey wind x looks to the moon - cyclone / atmosphere / gwxlttm / cwxlttm
Chasing/grey wind x no significant harrasment - olive / gwxnsh / cwxnsh
Chasing/grey wind x seven red suns - warm weather / solar flare / firebird / terapy / red wind / gwxsrs / cwxsrs
Chasing/grey wind x sliver of straw - death zephyr / windy fields / gwxsos / cwxsos
Chasing/grey wind x unparalleled innocence - grimace shake / content warning user interface / fleeting innocence / grinnocence / winnocence / gwxui / cwxui
Polyamorous ships
Five pebbles x no significant harrasment x seven red suns - triple divorce / roadrage / cold ones / fpxnshxsrs
no significant harrasment x looks to the moon x sliver of straw - green tea / nshxlttmxsos
Five pebbles x unparalleled innocence x no significant harrasment - double bullying / fpxuixnsh
Looks to the moon x no significant harrasment x seven red suns - solar system / lttmxnshxsrs
Extra ships (these are more fandom related + some are jokes)
Five pebbles x seven red suns x unparalleled innocence - ice cream sundae / fpxsrsxui
Absolent of sins x distant frontier - exempt bounds / distant sins / aosxdf (@distant-frontier-simp)
Giz x sliver of straw - gaming straws / ggxsos (@Gizgamer123 on twitter)
Chasing/grey wind x upright carnage - hurricane / gwxuc / cwxuc (@rw-repurposed but uc is from vic)
Unbroken promise x sliver of straw - ascended rhapsody / upxsos (iterator logs)
Three cold nights x seven red suns - plum / tcnxsrs (@airxpunged)
Five pebbles x sans (undertale) - rw charcoal / fpxsans
THIS TOOK TOO LONG AGHHHH
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