#I’m with my family so I need strength from them rn
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Save me blorbos. Blorbos save me.
#just thinking about them a lot right now#thinking about my poirot angst au#Hastings comes to visit from Argentina and thinks poirot will just fall into his arms#think again sucker#hercule poirot#arthur hastings#James japp#felicity lemon#agatha christie#I’m with my family so I need strength from them rn
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My Heart Stays With You | Leona Kingscholar x Mistress! Yuu/Reader
NOTE: Hey, so I can’t find the FUCKING fic I was talking about in this post and despite all my desperate searching I STILL can’t find it so I’m WRITING MY OWN VERSION OF IT until the author of that fic MESSAGES ME AND GOES “EYO DUDE WTF THAT IDEA WAS MINE” so I can search their blog and finally read the fucking story cuz istg I can’t focus on my schoolwork with that fic weighing on my mind like a curse that’s been placed on my family for 40 generations.
EDIT: someone in the comments lovingly told me who the author of the original one was and it was @/kiwibirdmother but all their posts disappeared so 🤡 fuck. LUCKILY tho I used the wayback internet thing and I managed to read them again :D if you guys want a link to it I’ll share thru dm cuz I’m too lazy to post something about it rn ejdkskxkskx
SYNOPSIS: Leona had been forced into an arranged marriage with a noblewoman, but he had already been in a relationship with Yuu. They loved each other too much, and both of them weren’t willing to let each other go. So in their own selfish ways, they stayed together despite the ring shining on his finger.
The two of them never thought it would get to this.
Leona had hoped that he would at least be able to make her his officially. All he needed to do was graduate and introduce her to his family, as reluctant as he was to let her into the royal life for the fear that she would have to carry the weight of it, he was far too selfish to let her go.
But Yuu didn’t mind at all. Just like him, she was far too selfish to let him go.
. . .
. . . .
. . .
When the news came to her that Leona had no choice but to push through with the arranged marriage, he rushed to her room in Ramshackle Dorm to hold her in his arms.
“Stay with me,” He begged that night, holding her in his arms with all the strength he could muster. “Please stay with me.”
It felt out of character for him to say those words with such strong emotion, but in the years they’ve been together, as she approached her fourth year in NRC, Leona slowly learned to lower his walls around her.
Only around her. Just her.
“Stay with me. I won’t do anything with her. I promise.”
“But…”
Hearing her strained voice and her choked sobs as she cried on his shoulder broke his heart. His heart… that he had given to her all those years ago when she accepted him with all of her being…
How unfair could the world get?
“I won’t. You’re the only one in my heart,” he stated firmly, a promise that he would hold himself to for the rest of his life.
“That stupid marriage is only for formalities. A political convenience. That woman and I don’t even have to do anything, and I don’t intend on giving myself to her. Not my love, not my mind, not my body.”
He looked into her eyes, furrowing his brows with intensity. When Yuu looked at them, she could feel the fierce heat of his love for her and his unyielding devotion.
She understood his place. He really had no say in the marriage, it had already been set in stone. Leona knew this well, and yet he couldn’t help but feel guilty… she had been so kind to him, so understanding…
“Yuu…” his voice was molten gold, and it seeped through the cracks of her heart.
“I love you. Only you. Please stay with me.”
“I will,” she said without hesitation.
He kissed her the moment she said those words, and a night of passion between them followed.
That wouldn’t be their last.
The night before his wedding, Leona drove to a villa some distance away from the palace.
It was distant from other residences and a little more solitary. Leona knew it would be perfect for Yuu, so he bought it immediately before anyone else could so she could live there with Grim after their graduation.
He knocked on the door, and it opened within a few seconds.
He felt his heart beating rapidly when he saw her face. For a moment, Leona felt at peace.
Yuu smiled, looking just as relieved, “You’re here…”
He moved to embrace her.
Ever since the arranged marriage, it was the first thing he would do whenever he visited her. An act of reassurance that he would forever be hers.
“I came just as I said I would,” He said.
“It’s tomorrow,” she quietly muttered.
“Will you go?”
“I promised I would.”
“It would hurt you…”
“It would hurt you just as much…” she said, her voice breaking, “I…I promised you that I would…always be there to comfort you…”
“I don’t want to make you uncomfortable any more than I already have,” he sighed. His woman was far too kind to him. He wouldn’t have blamed her if she tried to be a little petty.
“I think… I think it would make me more uncomfortable not seeing you, knowing that you would be with her…”
Leona knew that his brother was aware of his distaste for the marriage, but the will of their father, even as he lay sickly on his bed, had to be followed.
“Leona…”
He knew what that tone in her voice meant.
He looked down at her slightly, immediately noticing her half-lidded eyes and her sudden shy but sensual smile.
“Will you stay with me a little longer…?”
She didn’t even have to ask.
He pulled her to her bedroom. And there, they lost themselves into each other’s arms, wrapped up in the heat of their love.
. . .
. . . .
. . .
“Did you meet up with your friends?”
The question came to him as they basked in the afterglow of their lovemaking. She had her head against his chest, his arm around her as he slowly traced shapes on her skin.
“Jack said that you asked him and Ruggie to escort me…” she said, recalling her meeting with her friends from NRC the past week.
Leona had taken it upon himself to invite some notable people from NRC, especially those he knew she would be close with. Most of them also knew of the relationship they kept going through with, as dangerous as it was.
Vil Schönheit had actually been the one to visit her first. He was invited as Leona’s acquaintance and former school “friend”, according to Leona himself. Vil was one of the few people who knew about their continuing relationship despite Leona’s arranged marriage, and out of respect for Yuu (who Vil was clearly fond of) agreed to keep it a secret.
Kalim and Jamil were invited as well, under the pretext of Kalim being the first son of House Asim and Jamil as his servant. When they came to her home, they reminisced on old times and agreed to keep in touch.
As she told him about their visits, she remembered another thing.
“I didn’t expect you to invite Malleus to the wedding…” she said.
“He’s your friend, isn’t he?”
“Yes but…”
Although she continued writing to malleus, as he was her cherished friend, she knew that the two of them hardly got along.
“A lotta random royals, nobles and celebrities are invited out of formality, so I thought that I might as well invite someone you’re familiar with. Kalim, Vil, Idia, and Malleus came to mind at first.”
He looked down at her as he stroked her hair, “I’m sure you’ll be fine with their company. If you’re around people like them then no one should be able to bother you. I made sure to tell them all to visit you before the wedding.”
Malleus didn’t come alone, of course. Lilia, Silver, and Sebek came there as the Briar Valley prince’s attendants.
Those four weren’t daft by any means. She knew that they had probably already figured out that they were keeping their relationship a secret from the public.
“Are you alright with this?” Sebek had asked her, his voice strangely reluctant and…soft.
“We both aren’t,” she admitted to him, “But this is… the only way we could live right now.”
Malleus sighed, lamenting how unfortunate your circumstances are.
“If you need a place to belong, let us know,” He told her. “Briar Valley will welcome you with open arms.”
“Thank you…” she smiled kindly at her friends, “But I belong with Leona.”
“Leona, congratulations on your wedding.”
Leona watched as Vil approached him with Yuu around his arm.
Vil turned to the bride with a practiced smile, “and to you as well, my lady.”
“Congratulations, both of you,” Yuu said with a smile that made Leona uncomfortable. He hated her fake smiles.
He hated this. He hated all of this.
“You truly are fortunate, Lady Aisha,” her words pierced his heart like a bullet. His hands were itching to hold her in his arms. “To be wed to Leona… well, it might not be easy but…”
Yuu met his eyes, something profound shining within them, mixed with hopelessness and pain.
“I’m sure…he’ll be a very wonderful lover.”
The bride noticed the look Leona was giving the human girl while pondering the meaning of her words. With a strained smile, clearly masking her irritation, Aisha intertwined her arms around Leona’s and smiled at her.
“Oh I am well aware of that,” she says with a sickeningly sweet smile, “he is always so good to me.”
Yuu didn’t mean to take her words too far, but despite the bitterness in Aisha’s words, she smiled like a flower in bloom, masking her pain like it was nothing.
“I wish you both happiness.”
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“Kifaji.”
The royal family’s long-time aid turned around at the sharp call of Leona’s new bride. Her features were marred with irritation, unbefitting of the occasion.
“Yes, my lady?” He acknowledged her calmly, ready to take every complain she has.
“Who is that woman?”
Kifaji looked at where she was pointing only to see Leona chatting with Yuu.
The aid’s expression softened at the sight of them. Leona’s eyes were unguarded as he spoke to the young woman, seemingly taking in every word she was saying. Yuu, on the other hand, despite the occasion simply seemed happy to be in the presence of the second prince.
It was the same scene he had seen quite a few years ago, when Leona brought her along with some other schoolmates for Tamashina-Mina. She was a darling little thing— she was beautiful. She got along well with their friends and Leona cared about her more than he liked to admit. But it didn’t escape Kifaji’s eyes when he saw Leona buy her a gift. A necklace the same color as his eyes, just as she requested.
“You should have chosen one with your eye color instead.” He heard Leona say to her.
“No,” Yuu shakes her head, “I like the color of your eyes better.”
She was sweet and by no means a push-over. She knew how to keep Leona in place without being pushy, and it was clear to anyone that Leona favored her greatly.
Kifaji had…hoped that he got to see Leona happy with her.
If it hadn’t been for the arranged marriage that the two princes’ father wanted… then maybe… maybe then the second prince would finally smile for the rest of his days…
“That is Miss Yuu, a long-time friend of his Highness,” he told Aisha calmly. “Prince Leona is quite fond of her, as is Prince Cheka, please do get along with her.”
“They look too close to be friends,” she quipped.
Kifaji could only do what he could for the Prince he had taken care of…
“I would not worry about that,” he said, expression unchanging, “I am certain that they are only friends.”
The lady huffed before fixing her wedding garments and going back to the party, Kifaji could finally breathe.
It was 12 AM at midnight, just two hours after the wedding and the reception ended when she heard something park itself on her driveway.
Before she could get the chance to look out the window, someone immediately knocks on the door.
In a rush, she opens the door only to see the lion that had been plaguing her thoughts, feeding the shadows whispering in her mind.
Large arms wrapped themselves around her in a warm embrace.
“I drove here as soon as everyone was asleep.”
She returned his embrace, feeling the beat of his heart against hers.
“You shouldn’t have come here.”
“I can’t stand it. She was so annoying…” he buried his nose against her hair. “All she did was complain when all I did was nap on the bed.”
Lady Aisha must have gotten angry that Leona wouldn't touch her on their wedding night... She thought to herself. The thought of Leona sharing a bed with another woman made her heartache. She wanted to erase the image in her mind..
But she couldn’t do much now, can she? He was a married man now, but it wasn’t to her… no, it was to someone else.
However…
“Aren’t you gonna welcome me home?”
He will always return to her. Never touched and never kissed by anyone else but her.
She chuckles, looking up at him with pained eyes.
“It’s your wedding night, you know…? You could at least…”
“I told you, I ain’t touchin’ her.”
“You…you don’t have to… but it might make your family mad if you suddenly—“
He places a hand under her chin and forces her to look at him before stroking her cheek.
“I don’t care,” he says with finality. “I don’t care about that stupid wedding. I don’t care about her. I don’t care about any of them.”
His forehead touches hers, a tear escapes her eye.
“I care about us.”
And he kisses her with more love than he could ever give.
Another night passes, and Leona is once more entangled in Yuu’s arms.
#AAAAAAARRGGGHHHHHH#I WROTE THIS OUT OF SPITE#I HOPE THE WRITER WHO WROTE THE THING I WAS LOOKING FOR SUDDENLY DMS ME AND SLAPS MY FACE SO I CAN GO TO THEIR BLOG AND FIND THE FIC T^T#LET LEONA AND YUU BE HAPPY#STUPID ARRANGED MARRIAGE SHIT UGH#LEONA IS SO LOYAL TO YUU YALL HE AINT TOUCHIN NO WOMAN#HE'S ON HIS WAY TO MASTERMIND THAT OTHER LADY OUT OF HIS LIFE DOE JDKFVNKSDFJNDKFJVN#twst x reader#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader#disney twisted wonderland#twst yuu#disney twst#twst#Leona Kingscholar#Leona Kingscholar x reader#leona x reader#Mistress! Yuu
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AHH girl dad! pedro is really just occupying my mind rn….
that one imagine with expecting! reader really has me in a chokehold but just thinking about how sweet pedro would be while your in labor
from the jump, he’d be by your side. the minute you feel your water break in bed and your contractions are feeling a little too real, hes right by your side. his old man brain is definitely a little discombobulated at first bit he’s definitely trying to get you out of your now soaked pjs and into some dry sweats to get you into the car.
thanks to you and all your nesting while pedro’s at work, all the hospital bags were set up and stocked fully for you, him, and the baby, along with the carseat already being installed, you guys were officially set up to be parents!!! pedro knows these contractions are really taking a toll on you so he’d give you all the time in the world to get your bum in the car. as soon as your both seated and settled, the drive over is filled with so much groaning and moaning and squeezing his hand with a freakishly amount of strength, because once again, contractions are indeed, a bitch.
but pedro will let you scream and shout all you need, hes just happy to be there with you. but he cant help but feel some sort of guilt. you both had entered this journey into parenthood but here you were carrying the heaviest load. so he did what he could best. after arriving in the hospital and being sent up to the suite you’d be staying in for the next few days, he’ your number 1 advocate. you want more ice chips? he’s already running down to grab you some more. one nurse isnt following the intended birth plan? best believe he is already asking for a new one. back hurts? hes the first to get behind you and rub it. hes going on walks with you, doing your lamaaze training (which he initially thought was dumb), holding you the exact way you need to be held, whispering sweet nothings, telling you how strong you are and how proud he is of you.
pedro makes it known that he wants to be as involved in the birthing process as possible, however he is needed. when its time to push, hes holding your leg up for you, praising you, helping the doctor count down on the pushes. as terrifying as it sounds, he had never been more glad to make such an effort. getting to watch beautiful, life-changing moment for the both you you. watching your daughter enter the world. i wholeheartedly believe the minute that little girl comes out, hes sobbing. i mean not that you arent but he just can’t express any other emotion what the overwhelming feeling of gratitude he feels. he feels incredibly lucky to have such a wonderful partner. he feels so lucky to have someone who was willing to go through all the troubles and challenges pregnancy presented to you. he feels incredibly lucky to have his heart grown even bigger for the newest addition into yalls life.
the minute your daughter is placed on you chest, it is the first time in a while that everything just feels right, and in place. your heart is more than content. you and your little family.🤍
i have so many thoughts in my mind about dad! pedro pascal, i just have no idea where to put them😭
Labour - p.p
hello angels! i’m honestly fuming because my last pedro fanfic got cut short- idk wtf is up with tumblr BUT… this request was the cutest thing i’ve ever read i don’t even think my writing is going to live up to it. i hope this is okay that it’s a part two to my last fanfic! enjoy angels (p.s dad! imagines are my fave so don’t be shy to put them in my inbox! x) 🤍 ⚠️age gap couple⚠️
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"Pedro, get here right now" you shouted as you sat up in bed, looking down at the now soaking bedcovers. he had insisted you go lay down and rest as a few contractions throughout the day had worn you out and now, after an hour of sleep, your water had finally broke. you heard rapid foot steps approaching the bedroom and then the door fly open.
"what?" he looked frantic, and once he saw your anxious look on your face he knew. he walked to your side of the bed and lifted the bed covers off of you and held his hand out so he could help you up which you gently took ahold of. he could see the wet stain on the bedsheet but that was the last thing he was worrying about, he was worrying about you.
he helped you sit up and watched as a contraction surged through your body, making your face scrunch up and a small whimper escape your mouth, you squeezed his hand and tried breathing through it. after the contraction subsided you turned your body so your feet were flat on the floor, getting out of bed had gotten a lot harder and you always had to sit to catch your breath before you could get up.
"i'm sorry" you said as you looked back at the stained bed. he kept his gentle hold on your hand and lent in to give you a small kiss on your forehead. "hey, don't worry. it's only a bedsheet baby, are you okay?" once he saw you give him a small nod and a smile which reassured him enough he let go of your hand and walked to the chest of draws to get you some knew sweatpants then quickly made his way back to you.
"we gotta get you to the hospital love, you've gotta get changed" he helped you stand up which made his heart crush when he saw you breathing through yet another contraction. each one was coming with a whole new level of pain and it broke his heart that he couldn't do anything to take the pain away.
after that contraction finally subsided he helped you get changed into the fresh sweatpants and with that he grabbed your phone and your hand then helped you make your way to front door, he had to grab the baby's bags which were packed by you. you had started packing a month before your due date whilst Pedro was still working/doing interviews and he had never been more grateful that you had done that instead of rushing to do it at near your due date.
the car seat had been installed in the car three weeks ago just incase the baby decided they wanted to show up a little earlier than planned but they didn't, your due date was two days away and it looked like your baby would be coming right on time. once he was sure he had everything he quickly made his way back to you and helped you slip on your shoes and then to the elevator. the ride down to the car park of the apartment complex was filled with groans of pain as the contractions started to get closer together.
Pedro held your hand as the elevator finally stopped on the ground floor and guided you to the car which was luckily not to far away from the elevator, meaning you didn't have to walk far. "babe we have to stop for a second" you said, these contractions were really brutal, so brutal that they actually made you want to cry and that was rare. you had a very high pain tolerance so when Pedro saw you with teary eyes he knew these were really getting to you.
you hunched over slightly as a more painful contraction hit you, this time the pain went to the bottom of your back and lower stomach. Pedro let go of your hand and placed it on your back, rubbing it softly. "you're doing so well honey, so so well" he said as you stood up right again. all you wanted to do was sit down and with the car being in your view, maybe 15 steps away, you knew you needed to get there.
Pedro kept his hand on your back as you both started walking to the car again and you breathed a sigh of relief when you finally made it. he opened the passenger door for you and helped you into the seat. "you comfortable baby?" he asked you and watched you nod your head. you had heard from so many people that contractions hurt but you did not think they would hurt this much. he closed the car door and then made his way to the boot so he could put the bags away.
once he was settled in the drivers side he immediately started the car and started the thirty minute drive to the hospital. the whole ride to the hospital was filled with you groaning in pain with each contraction that came and with that came the soft words of encouragement Pedro spoke to you. this was probably the softest you'd ever heard him and it made your heart swell with love as he tried his best to make you feel better, 'you're doing so well my love, keep breathing that's it' 'you're gonna be such a good mama, you're doing brilliantly honey'
"mother fucker this hurts so much" you said as you squeezed Pedro's hand tightly. he took his eyes off of the road for a split second to look at you. he didn't know why but he felt guilty. you were both becoming parents, both on this pregnancy journey together yet you were the one that had dealt with the morning sickness, crazy hormone changes, cravings, back pain, and now contractions. "i know sweetheart but you're doing so well, we are almost there, five minutes tops" he lifted your hand to his mouth and placed a small kiss there for comfort.
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you were finally at the hospital in the room where you would give birth to your baby. the nurse had checked and you were only 7cm dilated meaning you had another 3 to go. you were hunched over the bed, trying to get some sort of relief from the pain in your back, laying down did not help at all so you had to stick to this. Pedro was behind you, massaging the bottom of your back as you groaned in pain.
he watched the monitor which was tracking all of your contractions and saw that this one was a lot worse than the other ones. "that's it honey, well done. you're doing amazing" his words of encouragement filled your ears as your hand grabbed onto the bed sheets, keeping them in a tight grasp until the contraction subsided.
"that one was so bad" you said as you stood up straight and turned to face Pedro. he had a sympathetic look on his face. "i know" he opened his arms and you immediately 'fell' into him, needing one of his hugs. they always calmed you down somehow and right now you needed to calm down. "i'm so hungry" you said with a sigh.
you, for some reason, were only allowed to eat ice chips and all you wanted was a burger and actual chips but you couldn't, not until after you'd given birth. "we've run out of ice baby, let me go get you some" and with a kiss on forehead he pulled away from you to go find a nurse. within 5 minutes he was back with more ice chips. "here you are" he said lifting the spoon filled with ice chips up to your lips so you could eat them. "thank you sweetie" you said as you chewed on the ice. he lent in to kiss you on the lips and said a small "you're welcome" before feeding you more ice.
Pedro had been a bit weary of one particular nurse, she was in her mid 30s and was the most judgemental person he'd ever met. she was just not listening to a thing you had suggested and she was just one of those nurses who never listened to their patient, whatever the nurse wanted to do that's what was happening with no debate.
Pedro finally had enough of her when she almost made you cry with her harsh words and judgmental stares which lingered a little to long so she knew you'd notice. you both got judged on a daily basis on social media for your age gap but you had never had any bad experiences in real life, people were always so kind to you and in the thousands of judgemental people where were thousands of supportive people who always said how cute you guys were.
he had waited until she left before he slipped out of the room to speak to someone about getting a different nurse. you were in so much pain and having a nurse who wasn't making you feel any better was not something he'd ever want you to go through. luckily, there was an older nurse who was more than happy to take over. she must of been in her 60s. she followed Pedro back to your room and introduced herself to you. already the atmosphere had changed, she was so sweet to both of you and there was definitely no judgement coming from her.
"y/n, i think because you've been stuck at 7cm for the past two hours you go for a little walk around the ward, it doesn't have to be a long one but it could speed this up a bit and it also means you don't have to be stuck in this room" Mary, the new nurse said to you with a smile. she left you and Pedro alone and with that you both started walking around the maternity ward, hoping that this would finally speed up the process and will allow you both to finally meet your baby.
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"that's it y/n you're doing absolutely amazing, keep that push" Pedro was holding your left leg and looking at his baby being born. you let go of the push and let your head fall back onto the pillow for a second just so you could catch your breath. "well done sweetheart" you heard Pedro say as you felt a small kiss on your forehead.
"and again y/n, push with this next contraction. well done" you heard Mary say as you pushed as hard as you could through the pain, groaning and the pain became almost unbearable. "that's it sweetheart, keep going" he was still holding your leg but was now by you, comforting you as you pushed. "okay stop pushing sweetie, that was amazing pushing y/n, i can see the head" Mary smiled and your heart swelled at the thought of your baby being here any second.
"okay, another contraction coming, give this one a big push y/n. this will probably be your last one" and as soon as that contraction came, your chin was to your chest as you pushed. you groaned as you felt your baby finally coming out. Pedro was now up again, wanting to see his baby come into the world. as soon as you heard that loud cry coming from your baby, instant tears started falling down both yours and Pedro's cheeks.
"you did it baby, i'm so proud of you" he said, tears rolling down his face as he kissed you passionately. "congratulations you two, it's a girl" Mary quickly put the baby on your chest and you looked down at this beautiful bundle of joy. Pedro thought he could never love anything more than he loved you, but as soon as he set eyes on his daughter his love for her grew, no words could describe how much he loved her.
"hi my angel, it's so nice to finally meet you" you whispered to her as you gently grabbed ahold of her tiny hand. she was beautiful. utterly perfect. Mary took your baby to the other side of the room where she would be weighed and would have all the regular checks any baby had, leaving you and Pedro alone. you moved over in the bed, allowing him to lay down next to you and as soon as he did he pulled you into his embrace.
"thank you" you heard him whisper as a few small kisses were planted on your forehead. he was grateful, grateful that you'd you went through this entire pregnancy and carried your baby, grateful that you'd chosen to do this with him and grateful that you'd grown your baby and now she was here with you both, where she belonged.
you looked up at him and saw that his tears hadn't stopped, they were still flowing freely down his flushed cheeks. you reached your hand up to wipe the tear streaks and smiled. "you don't have to thank me-" "no i do. you have done so much these past 9 months and i'm so grateful for that. i could have never done what you have and and i'm just really really lucky" he said, leaning down to kiss you again.
after a few short minutes of it being just the two of you, Mary brought over a wrapped up bundle of joy who was looking around the room with her dough eyes. "8 ibs and 6 Oz. she's really healthy. i'm going to leave you two alone for a while to give you time to adjust but just ring the buzzer if you need anything. again congratulations, she's absolutely beautiful" after she passed you your baby, you both said thank you and watched as she left the room.
"she's got so much hair" you whispered as you looked down at her, running your hand carefully over the top of her head. she was the most precious thing you'd ever seen. Pedro watched the two of you together, he had never in his left felt like this. he just felt pure love and adoration for the two of you. "she looks just like you baby, she's so beautiful" he kissed your forehead and let his hand stroke her cheek. this was love and he was so excited for the journey ahead.
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Been thinking a lot about not only TK using Carlos’ bicep as his personal ‘emotional support bicep’ which 🥹🥹🥹 - also thank you and creds to @paperstorm for making the huge contribution to the whole entire fandom with this description -
But, also about the whole thing from Carlos’ perspective and how Carlos reacts to it, and feels about it, makes my stomach do a little swoop every time I come across a gif from either the wedding ep or the scene where they’re waiting for news on Marjan
Like, I’m thinking about semi-lonely, tense pre- and during season 1 Carlos needing someone, not just to love and be loved by but to take care of and hold and be there for🥺 Like we all know Carlos must work a lot to maintain those biceps and of course this is probably for his own sake bc he likes them, and to be good at his job etc but,,
He’s obviously gotten some attention from it, guys who finds him sexy and maybe likes a little power play
And he can appreciate that especially when ‘guys’ are in fact TK who enjoys it and wants him to use his strength a little bit to press his hands into the mattress above his head: (🔥)
Or to ‘twist his arm’ 😏😏
But more than that S1 Carlos longed for his body (huge bicep) to be appreciated in different ways. To be the one that someone (TK) needed to be held by, to be the shoulder (bicep) that someone (TK) could cry on, and lean on (both figuratively:
And literally:
- He needed to be that for someone (TK), to take on that role in a healthy, loving relationship. And he certainly got that from TK. But he got even more than that, more than he could have dreamed of, bc with TK he’s also become a shoulder (bicep) to sleep on:
Not just in the domestic privacy of their own home, but in public, among a wonderful new group of friends and family:
As well as a shoulder (bicep) to both lean on and rub their thumb back and forth on for self soothing:
In short, that work paid off exponentially as he got to be someone’s (TK’s) ‘emotional support bicep’. 🥲
And what completely gets me is the way he’s so casual about it in this last one. Like I imagined the first couple of times Carlos in his head would have been like ‘oh, okay, my bicep is now your pillow, I see, I’ll stay as still as possible or react in some way like by kissing your hair or something or move so you’re more comfortable’, and ‘oh okay, you’re not letting go, you really must love that bicep, I’ll buy a permanent gym membership and think of that ever time I work out, this bicep shall be forever dedicated to your needs’ while in his head being all 😳🫠🥰😌🥹🥹🥰
But now he barely reacts, it’s so natural. He just barely registers that ‘oh, my adorable, emotional boyfriend (husband😭) (TK who I know in and out and who know me the same way😭) is (once again/per usual😭) reserving my bicep for emotional support reasons while he cries on me, imma let him do his thing while I grab his ankle, both to comfort TK,’ - but also bc while TK needs to physically lean on someone (Carlos) when he’s emotional (or sleepy, or just, it’s right there anyway), what Carlos needs it something (someone) (TK) to hold on to, to tether himself to bc it’s overwhelming for him to lose control of his emotions.
And TK is the perfect rock for him because he’s not only so open about his emotions, and an adorable kitten boyfriend (husband), but because he’s also and at the same time incredibly strong and prepared to catch Carlos at any time😭
The naturalness of it all just says so much about how long they’ve been together and built their relationship, how well they know and how comfortable they are with each other and how they’re perfect for each other and fit together like two pieces of a puzzle! There are some thoughts here about different kinds and ways of embodying ‘masculinity’ and vulnerability but I’m not nearly eloquent enough rn to go into that..
Anyway, with TK, Carlos, now without even giving it a second thought, has gotten the relationship he dreamed of and more, has gotten exactly the appreciation for his strength and body (biceps) that S1 Carlos longed for and worked so hard for, and gets to take on the role in his relationship that he needs and be who he always were and I’m just 😭🥹🥹🥰🥰🫠 slowly melting away over it.
#me rambling#Tarlos ramblings#Tarlos headcanons#am definitely not working on my thesis right now as you all can see🙃#@paperstorm I hope it’s okay that I tagged you I’m still a newbie when it comes to tumblr etiquette and I wanted to give creds for the#emotional support bicep#since you came up with the term and I appreciate where that made my mind go 🙃#Carlos’ biceps#Tarlos#9-1-1 lone star#911ls#carlos reyes#tk strand#headcanons#Tarlos feels#kitten tk#gentle dom carlos#tarlos wedding#tk sleeping on Carlos
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Really loving all this lore for your seperated!AU, it's probably my fave AU actively updating within the fandom rn! You've talked a little about the krang, but i more so want to know Donnie's reaction to finding out aliens are a thing. The Krang themselves have a strong focus on power/strength, so i'd assume that their existence/tech would be of great interest to him. Would he want to try and catch one to dissect, for science?
@hotcrosscorgibuns So I’m changing things up a bit and Donnie will have the front seat when it comes to the Kraang! Mostly for those exact reasons you mentioned—their focus on power vs weakness really parallel his struggles growing up with Draxum. And since Leo’s arc in the movie will be pretty much taken care of by the time the Shredder is defeated, the movie plot will be vastly different in my AU (except for the time travel aspects)!
@lollobumy Leo and Raph will have their major character arcs in the final battle with Shredder and the movie plot will be more focused on Donnie and Mikey’s arcs. This means in regards Raph getting Kraangified we wont see that, and instead another brother will be, and it’ll be in a slightly different way but I wont say which brother it’ll be, or how the process will be different 🤐!
BUT Raph will still have his time to shine (be traumatized), and will sacrifice himself to save Leo, it’ll just come into play earlier and be different than the escape pods scene. Raph will even come out of the Shredder arc with some physical changes 🤐. And Leo will still have his arc of growth fulfilled, but since his personality is so different in the AU it’ll be less about him growing to become responsible and finding what his particular value is that he brings to the table, and more about him accepting his place in the family and that he deserves their love and support despite his bloody past.
Thank you anon for your concern about my water intake! I actually have a bottle right next to me that I’m working my way through! ❤️
@buckybarnessparearm We will see the brother’s getting their own chance to protect Raph eventually! He cares for them so much, that they can be pretty over-protective themselves when he needs them to be! The smarter villains eventually learn to not go too hard on the big guy if they wanna make it out of the fight with their jaws unbroken lol.
Raph and Leo will be super close after the Shredder is defeated. And actually tho in the beginning, there may be that barrier stopping them from being close emotionally—in the field and dojo they fight and train seamlessly like they’ve been training together their whole lives. It’s just the emotional side that gives Mikey and Donnie a headache—and no matter what they do, they only ever seem to make things worse. The family is horrified at first to realize that Leo’s mind’s been so effected by magic, but at the same time it’s almost a relief that there’s an explanation as well.
@organisedchaosstuff Raph’s self worth and guilt is pretty bad. He tries to hide it, and he’s good at it for the most part, until it’ll blow over and cause everyone to realize how much he’d been struggling.
I’d say in both AUs they comfort each other the same ways, physical comfort in turtle piles, and words of reassurance and love—finding each other after a dispute, and talking things out—apologizing when necessary (in Sep!Leo’s case that’s quiet often, unfortunately). Also Mikey and Raph really try and push fun group activities like going out and playing basketball, or teaching Donnie and Leo how to skateboard. They all even decide to take Donnie to the natural history museum after hours just to see him go nuts.
Feral!Leo finds comfort in the familiar, so fav movies and his favorite old blanket go a long way in calming him down. He’s most calm when he has sights on everyone, and knows they’re all safe in the lair.
#rottmnt#rottmnt separated au#ask slushie#separated au#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt
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Girl I have like an entire storyline here lmao, I have a lot of imagination…too bad I’m not a writer lol. I’m not a native speaker so I apologize in advance if something is written in the wrong way❤️.
So that was my idea for the Poseidon X Goddess! Reader:
I imagine her as a Norse goddess ( my favorite mythology) and this is kind of a crossover with marvel, but not really (everyone’s alive, but not mentioned and they live separately living each of them their own life, so no avengers, the members singularly exist but they are living at peace, just the occasionally battle, no war, no blip, no things like that, they are in the same universe but they don’t know each other tho) I hope this was clear 😫.
I imagine her as Thor and Loki’s younger sister (she is like 1000 years old or something)I don’t know what kind of goddess she could be, I was thinking love and war maybe, I love the goddess Freyja sooo…
I imagine her as the scarlet witch but with blue colors, even blue hair maybe lol, she is different from other gods and goddesses, maybe even considered weird from some of them.
They met when she was 800 or so, because before that olympians and asgardians did not like each other for centuries, so Loki, Thor and y/n have never seen Olympia.
Once Kronos dies, Zeus and Odin decide to make an agreement, both parties could live at peace without risking any war, a friendly pact.
Then they celebrate and everyone meet at Olympia, first meeting for y/n and Poseidon.
Y/n is a beautiful goddess, her blue hair are iconic and unique and she has the power of love and war, so I would say that everyone were watching her, some were envious, others jealous, someone was even afraid maybe, they don’t really know how her powers works, she is kind of strange with her blue hair.
But of course, Poseidon was very intrigued already. They all take a seat in this very long table, and while Poseidon was watching her, for the first time that night, she was staring back at him, she could feel that he was not judging her like everyone else was doing, so she smiled.
In the meantime I imagine the situation being a little bit chaotic of course, while y/n and Poseidon were just occasionally eying each other and EVERYONE could see that. Then they also dance together and talk a little (other gods were already feeling the sexual tension lmao😏) . From that moment, they of course are very interested in each other, and in many occasions they talk, they fight together, and one day they kiss.
He is the only one that believes in her powers and is not afraid of her strength (beyond her family and her people of course). He would definitely kneel for his woman and admit that she is more powerful than him any day.
But they can’t stay together, because yes to peace, no to relationships between olympians and asgardians (forbidden love trope 👀).
They keep their relationship hidden for a very long time (with her powers, they could keep the secret from Zeus, Hades knew but he was fine with it and never ever said anything, hades is a Poseidon and Y/n fan in this), but one day Olympia declares war to Asgard because the lightning bolt is stolen and y/n is the one being accused…but guess who was it actually ? Hermes, the motherfucker found out why y/n didn’t want him, at first he thought it was because of the rule but then he caught y/n and Poseidon in the lake and let’s say they were not swimming 👀…yes they were practicing so they could have Percy a century later lol ( I don’t know if you write smut, this scene would need al lot of spicy details)
So Hermes is the og Luke of course, the war doesn’t happen because they find the lighting bolt, everyone finds out about Poseidon and Y/n and another agreement is made, after a 100 or so peace, olympians and asgardians will never ever again have another interaction…
This was part 1, in the other Percy will be in it. I really hope you like it🦋🩵💙!
WAIT WHY DO I KINDA SORTA RLLY LOVE THIS???? OK OK IM MAKING THE MASTERLIST RN SO GIMME A MIN AND ILL PUT IT ON THERE!!!
#asks open#send asks#send me asks#anon ask#answered asks#ask box#ask me anything#ask#requests#request
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THINKING SO HARD RN
So what if dragon was actually founded by someone else when they ran away from their family? Someone with less….kind intentions
So dragon was taken prisoner, and was starved and abused, had parts of them cut off for money, and showed off to guests like a circus animal because “Look fellas a shapeshifting dragon! (Cracks whip) do the thing.” I think dragon would be smaller too from the malnutrition with several festering wounds that won’t heal
However through some miracle, the “owner” of dragon fell into bankruptcy and had all the assets seized, dragon took this chance of feigning death so the guards will unchain them before they take off and run off into the woods
However they couldn’t escape humans and into the mountains, so they settled on this lonely cottage in the middle of the woods, and are one of Mate’s chickens to regain their strength, regrow certain parts of themselves, and taking the opportunity to rest in complete freedom at a nearby cave Because one chicken isn’t gonna do all that, so they repeatedly ate more and more of mate’s chickens and crops too (because dragon’s growth stunted from malnutrition and now dragon is finally growing again)
Now at first when Mate didn’t notice a chicken was missing because of how many chickens they had, and the couple vegetables missing from their garden are probably the foxes or wild cats again, but then there were fewer nest with eggs, fewer chickens running around, their garden is barely alive. And so they began to investigate, and all evidences lead to the cave. Now ofc mate isn’t stupid and going in the cave alone defenseless is sucide, so Mate asks whatever is in that cave, to stop stealing from them, and they promise to leave some food outside their house, 3 meals a day and occasionally a snack, if the creature in the cave stop stealing from them. “I worked hard on those chickens! And those carrots! I wanted to make carrot stew!”. The creature doesn’t respond.
I call this part Operation Lure The Cat, because that’s exactly what happens, dragon eventually learns to trust mate as they have without fail, leave food out for them, 3 times a day, and one day, mate finds four things waiting for them at their porch, a bowl of trimmed meat with the fats separated, a bowl of bones, fur, and large antlers. The creature in the cave had hunted for them and even carved nice bowls! So mate recuperated by going allllll out for the next meal and personally delivered them to the creature at the cave, along with their own portion Ofc
As mate begins to eat at the entrance of the cave, a voice rumbles from inside, “It’s not wise to feed wild animals.” And lo and behold dragon comes out to take their portion of the meal
I’ll leave the rest up to you :)
OH MY FUCKING GOD
If this isn’t canon Dragon and Mate lore now I think I will simple have to kill you. This is everything to me. I’m going to think abt it forever now. I need to draw these two at some point also bc they are beloveds
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guess whoooooooo
ur first request that’s who! bonus points if u figure out who i am…….
anywayyyysssssss can i pls request felixxy/n smutttttttttttt. i rly don’t know what to request but i need you to write to stop ur writers block, it’s becoming a problem. anyways, byeeeeeee~
OMG THX SM FOR REQUEST!!!!!!!!!!!
im guessing it is none other than my bestie!
MDNI
smut under the cut
word count: 962
tw: teasing, fingering, oral (both receiving), ass slapping, squirting, use of slut, degrading, dirty talk, cum play (?), unprotected sex(reader is on the pill tho), i think that’s it lmk if i missed anything
inspired by an unwritten anon request on @therhythmafterthesummer’s blog
it was just another normal day at the skz dorms. you and your beautiful boyfriend felix had just eaten lunch and were now locked in a heated mario kart battle in which the loser had to do something for the winner.
you, with your natural talent were in the lead all of the game, however felix was using tilt controls on a dare from changbin, and kept accidentally knocking your breasts causing you to feel the heat rush to your core.
a door slammed open. “HEYYYY GUYSSS WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR DINNNERRRR????” screamed hyunjin even though he was right there. the shock caused you to fall behind at the last second and felix won. “hmmmmm, y/n i think soup wbu?” felix asked.
“yea, soup sounds good. ugh, now what do you want me to do for you?” you asked silently praying it wouldn’t be too bad, oh were you right in all the wrong ways. “hmm, give up horror movies for a month!” said felix, happy that he would be free of scary movies for a while. “what?! felix when i’m not busy with you or friends or anything i live off of horror movies!” you exclaim. it’s true, if you weren’t busy with work, or weren’t spending time with friends, family, or felix, horror movies were your go-to activity. you decided in hopes of at least softening it to seduce him, hopefully also satisfying the throbbing in your core. you put your hand on his chest and your head in his lap. “please lixie~ at least make it just two weeks?” you say. “fine y/n, are you hoping you could seduce me” he asks. you look up at him. “please felix, i need you…” was all you could say, he stoked your hair. “i’m sorry baby but i’m just not in the mood rn, maybe later?” he says. you grumble and cuddle him.
4 hours later you and the members are sitting around the table eating hyunjin’s soup when about 5 minutes in you feel a hand snaking up your thigh. stopping just before your clit and tracing patterns to tease you. you see a smirk form on his face as you deteriorate in front of all of them. “so y/n, how was your day?” asks jisung. you muster the strength to respond. “mnh, good…” is all you manage. “hey! why don’t we get ice cream?” suggests minho, you’re grateful that felix’s teasing will then stop. “YESSSS LET’S GO RIGHT NOWWWW!!!!” says changbin. you look at felix triumphantly. “wait…… can me and y/n stay back? we’re on the middle of a mario kart tournament.” says felix. “sure! why not, we’ll bring the ice cream here!” says chan. as they go to get their hats and masks you shoot felix a death glare. you finished the tournament hours ago and he’s just making an excuse for you to stay.
as soon as the door is closed felix is pinning you to a wall and kissing you desperately. “f-felix… ngh…” you manage as he begins to kiss down your neck. “mmh, kitten, get on the table for me…” he says, you obey, turned on by your boyfriend’s actions. once you are flat on the wood surface, he strips your clothes and begins to lick a long strip your pussy beginning at your clit. you moan from the pleasure. “ngh, mmh felix, p-please… need you” you moan out. he continues to lick your clit before he inserts two fingers. already this wet for me, huh?” he teases. “daddy p-please, ‘m close” you manage close to cumming. “beg for it, slut.” felix barks. you don’t want to but you’re so close you don’t care. “f-felix pl-please lemme c-cum daddy please!” you cry out. “good girl” you feel the knot in your stomach release as you finish on his fingers and tongue. “hands and knees now kitten.” he orders. you can tell you haven’t finished yet. you do as you’re told and feel felix’s tip enter you. it’s so big it feels like the whole thing. “f-fuck! felix! y-you can move…” you whimper. you feel his hips start to thrust and increase speed until he’s fucking his dick into you at an inhuman pace. before you know it you’re a whimpering, moaning mess underneath him and are clenching and cumming around his dick. “i’m gonna cum too, but i want to cum in your mouth.” he pulls out leaving you clenching around nothing. he slaps your ass before going around to your mouth and entering. “o-oh fuck!” he face-fucks you so hard his tip is visible in your throat and you know you throat will be sore. he lets out a lascivious moan as he cums in your mouth and you swallow it all. “i want you to count kitten.” he says as he walks around you. “w-what.. d-do you m— ahh!” you cry out as felix spanks your ass. “count for me baby” he says. “o-one… t-two… th-three-ee…” he finally stops at sixteen. “such a pretty ass just for me.” he says, your backside now fully red. just as you think you’re done, you feel felix thrust into you. “FUCK DADDY FUCK!” you scream. “say. my. name.” he says enunciating each word with a smack to your ass. “FELIX, FUCK FELIX.” you cry out forgetting everything but his name. the sound of skin slapping fills the room and you feel the knot in your stomach tightening and on a particularly hard thrust you squirt. felix chuckles darkly as he realizes what happened. “that was hot baby… want to go another round?” he says. “but felix, what about the b-” you can’t finish your sentence because a door opens and you hear han call: “WE’RE HOOOOMMM- y/n, felix?! what’s this?!”
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rottmnt!Raphael gets the comfort he deserves
hey gang i’m not feeling so great, so here’s me projecting onto my favorite turtles again!!!
(i am totally avoiding hw rn but shhhhh raph (me) needs the comfort)
TCEST DNI THIS IS FAMILIAL LOVE/AFFECTION!!! I HAVE A BAT!!!
No tws from what i can tell? Maybe just cws for depression and such. If any of yall think i need to add one, please tell me, ty!
Headcanons/Tags for this oneshot:
He/She Raphael
They/It Donnie
She/Her Mikey
He/Him Leo
They are all the big neurodivergent cuz idk how to write neurotypical people :skull:
Raph is 100% burnt out/depressed autism but she has the best support system ever frfr
FLUFF AND COMFORT SO SO SO MUCH FLUFF AND COMFORT
So it was one of these days huh?
Raph grumbles into his pillow, brows furrowing at the rough texture. He shakes out his heavy arms before flipping the pillow over. This does absolutely nothing to help alleviate the uncomfortable scratching.
She huffs, pushing the pillow away entirely, planning on using her arms as a replacement. They work decently (despite the spikey nature).
The lack of energy finally catches up, and he falls asleep.
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And when he wakes up, there’s a warmth at his side. It’s warmer then his plushies, but still cold. It seems to have scales as well and- oh.
“So from there, I’ll finally be able to reset the router-” the warmth was Donnie, “and connect the files to, welcome to consciousness by the way, my device.”
It was a quick greeting, spoken under a hushed tone. From there Donnie continues to info dump, and Raph continues to listen.
She is lulled to sleep by Donnie’s voice, while it continues to explain it’s “Major Awesome Cool Particle Accelerator.”
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The next time he comes to, the warmth has moved to the top of his shell.
Mikey.
Shockingly enough, the room is not filled with noise. There’s just a comforting blanket of silence that covers the room, with the only real noise coming from the switch in Mikey’s hands. It’s soft and fluffy, kind of like ice cream.
Raph’s stomach growls at the thought, and Mikey’s head shoots up from it’s resting spot. She smiles in understanding, before reaching at the bedside drawer. Raph raises a non-existent eyebrow in confusion, however, the feeling is smothered by the smell of butter on toast.
An easy texture to handle, and an even easier taste. Not too overwhelming, not too bland.
Raph tears up at all the thought that went into her meal. Mikey pretends not to notice, sliding off the spiked shell and landing criss-cross next to her. Raph doesn’t sit up, she doesn’t have the full strength to do so. Mikey’s smile softens, and she glances between Raph and the toast before them, a question.
He eats it all, before promptly passing out, holding Mikey in his arms.
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She realizes that the plush in her arms isn’t Mikey first.
Consciousness flows back to her brain like an hourglass tilted sideways. When the top is finally free of sand, she feels a hand slowly scritching the back of her head. Based on the previous visits, she can assume it’s Leo.
Raph finally processes the soft flipping of pages, knowing Leo, it’s a Jupiter Jim comic that he’s read about 100 times by now. She huffs in amusement, throwing her arms around the turtle and pulling him down. He yelps in shock, clearly unaware of her awakening.
“So, what time is it?” The words jumble out of her mouth. Soft and quiet.
“Around dinner time,” Leo giggles out, shuffling closer to her plastron, “I’m pretty sure Mikey’s gonna come in with food soon.”
That sounds nice, Raph thinks to herself.
“That sounds nice,” Raph says aloud.
And it is.
He finally sits up when Mikey walks in. He eats the noodles laid out in front of him. He stretches, gets up, walks to the couch.
He got up today, and his sibling’s eyes grow wide and fluffy and soft and caring and loving.
He got up today, and it’s progress.
He got up today, and that’s enough.
That’s enough.
Raphael Hamato is loved, no matter what time of day she gets out of bed (if she even gets up at all).
He is not alone. He will never be alone.
Not when he has his amazing family by his side.
#lord have mercy i just want someone to like#sit next to me when i can't get out of bed#sorry i'm just soft#and sad#TCEST DNI#I HAVE A BAT AND I KNOW HOW TO USE IT#getting out of bed is hard#but at least i can project on to my favorite characters#rottmnt#rottmnt fluff#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt#tmnt fluff#hurt/comfort#emphasis on the comfort#SO MUCH FLUFF#FLUFF#COMFORT#RAAAAHHHHH#rottmnt raphael#tmnt raphael#raphael gets the comfort he deserves#burnout#sorta angst?#but not really the main focus#idk how to tag#tmnt hurt/comfort#rottmnt raphael fluff#rottmnt raphael comfort#rottmnt hurt/comfort
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If you've read Casey's other two books, could you rank them? Because I have and I'm in the middle of IKSW and I'm worried bc I think i prefer that book to ols and it feels like that's wrong😬
simply put:
red, white and royal blue
i kissed shara wheeler
one last stop
long answer:
i like ols, but i don’t love it. just from a storytelling perspective, it’s a lot slower than the other books, and the sci-fi element doesn’t feel fully fleshed out imo. i also don’t love the ending honestly. but i love casey’s writing style, and i LOVE the supporting cast, probably my favorite out of all the books actually. ols just didn’t resonate with me like the others, and it’s not about relatability for me; it’s about strength character development tbh.
iksw is my favorite 2021 release so far. i love it for so many reasons but mostly for the care given to its characters. i feel like, with this being casey’s third book, they’ve found the perfect characterization strategies for their writing style here (both rwrb and ols struggle with this, particularly with black and brown characters). i think a lot about craft bc i’m a creative writing master’s student rn, and i think this, objectively, is casey’s best work, even if it’s not my favorite. now for my own mushy feelings, this is exactly the book i needed in high school. i see a lot of comparisons to paper towns, but this book surpasses that one imo. it’s beautiful—full of teenage imperfection, small-town charm/misery, and southern queerness.
now with rwrb, i love this book with my whole heart, but i can recognize it’s my favorite for more sentimental reasons than it actually being amazing. this book is messy. it’s casey’s first and it shows. but it still has so much heart. when it first started getting criticized on tiktok, i couldn’t believe people didn’t love it like i did, but i really reflected on their comments. and i get it. it’s a neoliberal fantasy that makes light out of serious situations that have real-world consequences, especially for the underprivileged. from a craft perspective, the pacing is wild and the plot only makes an appearance when Alex and Henry aren’t kissing, which is at least 60% of the book (i’m counting the emails as metaphorical kissing lol). let’s be honest, this book is fan-service, but that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. this book has value because the characters have soul, truly, and through their relationships with one another, both romantic and familial, we connect with the book’s over all message: “love is indomitable.” as for me, this book helped me realize my sexuality and gave me a confidence in myself that i haven’t found in any other book.
to conclude this essay that was certainly not the intention of this ask (can you see my henry showing?), like what you like. there’s no wrong answer here. 2021 was the year i decided to not apologize or not be ashamed of the things i like. i encourage you to make 2022 your year. idk anon life is too short not to like what you like (unless it hurts people, then maybe don’t like that thing). but i digress…anyways, what’s everyone else’s rank??
#asks#me lol#rwrb#ols#iksw#alex claremont diaz#henry fox mountchristen windsor#firstprince#august landry#jane su#sundry#chloe green#shara wheeler#whatever their ship name is#casey mcquiston#cmq#cmq verse#red white and royal blue#one last stop#i kissed shara wheeler
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tw: mentions of suicide
this past week has been a rollercoaster of even shittier dips bc of (the same root problem i unfortunately cannot get away from). and it’s hit me even worse than all the other times. what i went through just prompts me to come here to hopefully get the message across to somebody who may resonate w it now that i am speaking and thinking with a clearer head. three days ago i could barely speak clearly. i was angry, hurt, extremely terrified—above all, exhausted. but i feel the need to say this bc i feel that this is an unspoken problem a lot of us unknowingly carry:
you are not responsible for people and their actions. the burden is not on you if somebody tries to off themselves. you are not evil for establishing boundaries, ceasing contact, and curating your space to serve your peace and wellbeing.
the “im gonna k*ll myself so this is the last time i’ll ever msg u for a favor,” is a line i have heard my own father and sibling say to me time and time again every time i didn’t do what they wanted me to do. i used to feel so heavy all the time because of it. i felt chained in my environment. that threat felt like a creeping ghost that would sit on my shoulders everyday, trading shadows for flesh, growing so heavy it became tangible. and it did. this past week i felt like i was the devil. like i pulled the biggest sin because i wasn’t patient enough. i wasn’t kind enough. i wasn’t lenient with my own boundaries—for family— enough.
i thought keeping my space and staying no contact would be a temporary fix until i could get to somewhere more permanent. but i carried those words and wore them like they were my own self inflicted wounds. and they are not. i love my family so much. i hate that we are beyond repair. i hate that i let myself endure their mistreatment for over fifteen years. i hate that i tried to reshape myself into different forms of patience and strength when really i am just soft. i am tired; i am not angry nor vengeful; i am just nicole. more than anything i want to sit home for a week or two and just write for a while. i want to eat good food, sip a sweet drink, and sleep without feeling burdened by things that were pointed at me like weapons since i was so young.
i really….thought shit like that are just passing comments. perhaps to those who are more mentally tough. but i am just soft. i don’t want anyone to get hurt. none of this is my fault, and none of their misfortunes have ever been because of me. for god’s sake neither of them have ever supported me and i’m here making an honest living building life in a space away from all the energy that’s tried to drain me. i say and acknowledge that now with a thought process that isn’t as shaky as it was a few days ago.
idk things are changing, life is changing, and i am trying my best to grow stronger instead of become more and more drained. i want to apologize for now writing here as much either and just focusing on comms. tldr my company changed policy and tho i completed training i wont get a client assigned until jan 2023 since others have been pushed up and are more prioritized. things are just rocky rn. i will be here to write and tell stories again. just please bear w me a little bit longer. i love u all. myelocin is a safe space; a cozy corner; a nook where we all can just nap and chat and remind each other that life is swell. i miss u all sm.
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1, 3 and 5 for both vesper and fenix >:))
not lying when i say question 1 had me pensive for HOURS, under the cut because..it’s long. while you read this you need to imagine me sobbing
1.Is your muse a romantic? Do they dream of love and marriage?
okay first thing. i think that both aren’t the most romantic people on the world, fenix is a bit more romantic than vesper but not that much. both never dreamed of love: vesper has been alone for most of her life so she would dream of companionship, any form of it, she didn't have anyone in the world for so long, love was never her first concern. fenix never thought of love, probably didn’t even know what the word meant, to him love was just another form of betrayal (his parents abandoning him when he was a kid, his own brother being a complete awful man), he didn’t get the bare minimum of family love, he wasn’t going to experience any other kind of love, he just knew it and he didn’t care.
i’m not being dramatic when i say that they first started dreaming of love when they met each other and slowly fell in love, which made the way they fell apart more hurtful: i said this before but fenix started acting more and more distant because he was scared of being that vulnerable with someone (trauma huh?) and vesper only got heartbroken by that, thinking that probably she just didn’t deserve to be loved at all, by anyone in the world. just...falling in love with someone each day a bit more and watching that person slip from your fingers the more you love them...UGHUGH UG H I WANT TO HIT FENIX RN but i forgive him just because deny yourself the love you crave isn’t a easy thing too.
so marriage. hm. i’m pretty sure vesper thinks marriage isn’t something for her, mainly because she’s scared of repeating the same dynamic her parents had. she thinks that there’s no way for her to escape that kind of destiny because she would replicate the only and first example of love she ever witnessed. she thinks she is doomed. fenix thinks marriage is...fenix doesn’t think anything of marriage tbh. mostly because he didn’t have any reason to think of it, he was never going to fall in love. well clown nose on you man, YOU ARE going to think of it. i do think that at some point they both thought about it but while vesper went “haha. yea no.”, fenix went “haha...WAIT WHAT IF”. they joked about it too and he playfully called her “my sweet wife” a few times until it wasn’t a joke anymore. i do believe that fenix would propose, cross on my heart, it would take him idk what kind of herculean strength to do that but i think he would after thinking of it for so long. now thing is...i both think that vesper could straight up refuse or say yes. i mean UGHHH. she surely is scared for multiple reasons + what if that's heartbreak 2.0.? yes she gave him a second chance but you know, there's fear there. MAYBE..MAYBE she wouldn’t give an answer on the spot, she would probably be speechless and then going “wait i need to t h i n k”. (cut to fenix experiencing 300 heart attacks because of this). fuck it i say she would agree in the end, probably fenix would have to reassure her a whole damn lot but i say WE ARE GOING TO HAVE THIS WEDDING.
this needs me to spend a few words on a possible wedding too because do you know how long italian weddings last? you basically need a whole damn day. A FULL DAY. you sit down to eat at noon and finish eating at like, midnight. a buffet, two first dishes and second dishes, fruit, the cake, all of this alternating dancing moments and other entertainments. i don’t think neither vesper or fenix would care too much about a BIG wedding but they want to follow that vibe, fenix already doesn’t have...anyone to invite, be it friends or family, SO LET’S GIVE HIM HIS ITALIAN WEDDING. vesper would probably wear a dress, something she hates to do but fuck it, fenix would dress fancy but god forbid he wears a necktie. the only people invited are probably daniel, nader, panam, viktor, vittoria (vesper’s first ex, they are very good friends <3) and whoever very close friend they have, no family because yea..we know. daniel should be vesper’s..bridesmaid jfkjfh but since...fenix is huh..he..he doesn’t..yea (sobs) he doesn’t have anyone else, daniel is going to be his best man while panam is vesper’s bridesmaid. no dad so daniel is going to do most of the things their dad should’ve done for vesper, this is actually very sweet i’m (sobs). generally that would be ONE HELL OF A DAMN PARTY and i’m sure something would get broken because these people are damn crazy and what's a wedding without drama. the lunch would be one HELL of a meal please invite me too i love italian wedding i love eating. and just yea. just i think there would be some tears involved because woo look where we are after all the shit we went through but lots and lots of fun and I JUST HAD TO PUT ALL OF THIS OUT OF MY SYSTEM THANKS (explodes)
3. Is your muse good at kissing? Are they experienced?
vesper is a shy kisser at first but quickly gains back confidence the second she gets confirmation from partner that everything is good, that’s something they want too. i would say that she is experienced a good amount. for someone that acts cold and tough most of the time she sure gives those kind of kisses that make you feel all fuzzy and loved and warm inside (miss i love you miss i-)
fenix huh yeah, i mean. he’s a passionate kisser, needs to have his hands do something too while he is kissing because that only adds to the experience and he needs to be a menace every time he does anything. BUT i wouldn’t say he’s experienced, dropping this bomb here but vesper is his first serious relationship. he had a few night stands in his past but never liked being kissed by strangers when doing that, he really is out there drawing the line at kissing strangers on the lips. man.
5. Is your muse comfortable with public displays of affection?
vesper HATES pda, especially if it’s her brother that is hanging around when someone is trying to be affectionate with her, especially fenix because he always goes overboard. fenix loves pda fhkjsdfhkj yes he’s showing off his love, yes he’s going to kiss and hug and god knows all the things he is capable of in public. they fight about this and vesper every time tells him to quit it but he gets on his best behaviour for five seconds before going back at it
ask meme || oc page
#ask games#ask#nuclearstorms#oc: vesper#oc: fenix#THANK YOU BONES YOU UNLOCKED MY PANDORA'S BOX I WANT TO CRY AND SOB I'LL DISAPPEAR NOW#thank youuu for the ask MWAH MWAH <33
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I just read chapter 265 and omg😭😭i completely agree that ken is not doing mikey’s character the best rn. Like I literally love mikey to death and ik people are gonna make him out to be the true villain now🥲Like I just saw a tweet that said mikey is the reason that baji is dead now and i just don’t agree at all, I genuinely don’t think that mikey knew what exactly he was agreeing to when talking to kisaki like baji was literally one of his best friends and he wouldn’t have wanted him to die like that🥲but he did kill kazutora in past timelines, so he wasn’t in the best headspace at that time BUT he also wasn’t friends or knew takemichi in the previous timelines either so hopefully the next chapter is his admiration for takemichi and how he wants to do better/ some kind of redemption for his past timelines🥲sorry if this was confusing, i’m not the best at writing out my thoughts like this 😭
WHOEVER SAUD THAT DOESNT UNDERSTAND MIKEY LIKE US BESTIE !!!! NOT AT ALL
no but i think what upset me a lot about this chapter is that we’ve always seen mikey’s dark impulse as a part of him that serves as his one obstacle from building toman to what he wants and what is was meant to be. almost every single timeline consists of mikey’s dark impulse and kisaki’s manipulation being the reason why his gang turns corrupt u know ?? it’s the part of him that makes him need “saving” in the first place because besides that, he’s an otherwise good kid who wants to protect his friends and more or less follow his brothers footsteps and create a place for delinquents. mikey’s always shown a compassionate side underneath every thing he does that’s one of the main reasons why so many ppl want him to be saved and have a happy ending—he’s a genuinely good guy despite his past and his struggles. but this new chapter waters him down to someone who just only cares about strength and building toman by any means necessary. and maybe this is only to show his growth later on, but idk it upsets me to think that he’d have that mindset in the first place because i don’t like to think using darkness as a means of growth was ever a part of mikey’s character bc the main reason he looked up to his brother was bc of how he lead delinquents and created an age for them. the first time he met takemichi he said delinquents clean up their own messes and he “doesn’t see what’s so wrong with that.” like he doesn’t see toman as a way to rise to the top to have power over ppl, it’s literally his way of protecting his friends and creating a place for delinquents to have a family where they’re strong to stay that way AND THIS BASICALLY ERASES THAT and implies his drive for toman had other motives AND IT UPSETS ME A LOT
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Hello! I hope you are well, my friend 🖤!
This shall be the dual review/raving/scream-crying of Wayne-Pennyworth and Better Together.
Wayne-Pennyworth: simply put, I Love. That's it, that's my TEDTalk.
Alfred had been the closest thing you could have called a father for years; you were only a few years younger than Bruce, but just like him, Alfred had taken you under his wing when you were only a little scrapper.
My darling Alfred!! What an amazing man indeed!!!
Sneaky date night with Bane! But I don't know.... I think your father knows, sir, that little pause before asking of he needed anything has me sus!!
“I’m quite happy with it - it lets me catch up on Downton… will you be needing anything?”
Him catching reader in his arms A+. Cheeky comments by reader, oh I dunno, thought you were busy... 🤣
Bane: don't be a tease
Us: WE WILL DO NO SUCH THING!! WE ARE LITTLE SHIT AND YOU LOVE US FOR IT!!
Ahh the little moment near the stream, back pressed into his chest 😍.
It wouldn’t take long, but your arms were around his stomach and your head was on his shoulder. Bane wanted to stay like that forever, if he could have
🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 my sweets, my darling, same.
“We are,” Bane insisted. “My dear, if anyone ever tried to hurt you - you know I would break them. I would be their reckoning.”
JSKSJSKKSLSKJ
Bane took your hand in his as he clenched his jaw a little. “I promise. I won’t even hurt Bruce, when I bring down Gotham and I kill the corruption and greed - I will not lay a hand on him. For you.”
The love. The restraint. The promise. 😘😘😘 I was getting a little worried reading up to that point that they wouldn't be able to work it out but boy am I glad they did!! But Bane understands, he loves his family, he would never abandon them and on some level, that fierce loyalty is something that probably had a hand in drawing Bane towards reader as well. 🖤🖤🖤🖤
Better Together: same as above. I LOVE them, your honour. In addition to that: you almost broke my heart with that first paragraph 😫!!
Reader screaming for everyone to fuck off because he wasn't going to leave Banes side. Yeah, exactly! FUCK OFF, CAUSE WE ARE NOT LEAVING OUR BLOODY MAN TO DIE ON THE FUCKING FLOOR!
“Absolutely not,” you hissed, pushing him up and pinning him by his shoulders so he couldn’t do anything but look at you. “You don’t have my permission to die.”
🥹🥹🥹 don't you dare fucking die. I will fucking cry. I do not cry but I will fraking cry a stream of tears such that it would put floods to shame, like real full on tears of flipping sadness.
“You are my husband, just as I’m yours” you scoffed. “If I’m dying, you’re dying with me - not without me.”
You better fucking listen to that Bane, otherwise hubby is going to raise you from the dead to kill you himself! After he kills the fucker that hurt you!!
Bane would be lost without you, his favourite person in the world; his husband
🥲
But with each second and each new breath, he was steadily gaining his strength back; he didn’t need your support to sit up. [...] You wouldn’t have to know what life apart would feel like.
Fucking good. That is what I needed because you made me FEEL with this one. Injured Bane is going to make me cry 😫😭
I did not know if you were going to go the evil route and just kill him off, the way that my breath freaking caught, I can NOT!
Thank you oh so very much for writing these🖤🖤🖤!!
🐍anon
hi!!! I'm about to leave for the cinema so I'm excited!!!
Wayne-Pennyworth;
Alfred's a fucking badass. he absolutely knows what's going on. but, that's his son - regardless of the fact that they don't share blood, THAT IS HIS SON, HE RAISED HIM. he KNOWS him well enough to know that he's running off to see Bane; he just also knows that Bane's not gonna hurt him, so he'll keep his mouth shut and won't tell Bruce.
Alfred wants to watch Downton Abbey, that's all he wants in life rn. just to sit back and watch his silly little TV show about rich blorbos. BUT he will also drop EVERYTHING for his son, even if he does know that his son's gonna be fine bc he raised him.
Bane loves the reader and knows him well enough that he can TELL he's gotta catch him before he does something stupid lmfao dude might've been raised by THE Alfred Pennyworth but Alfred's kids don't exactly turn out to be geniuses (*cough* Bruce *cough*).
Bane means BUSINESS when it comes to his husband; anyone fucks w him, it's a bloodbath. except Bruce, bc Bane's aware that that's his brother-in-law.
Bane understands loyalty better than probably anyone else, he wouldn't hold it against his husband, even if he DOES hate corruption and capitalism, he can't fault his husband for being Bruce Wayne's brother, and he won't either.
Better Together;
they got that "we're in the trenches" vibe 😫
Bane telling other people they need HIS permission to die, but he needs his bf's.... poetry.
he WOULD kill him himself if he died 💀💀💀 they got the "if you dying, you dying with me" thing going on dhfkskfkskfks
hurt!Bane ft a VERY protective bf 👀
anyways you're SO welcome!!! and thank you 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
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Chapter 18 analysis LETS GOOOOO
I wanted to get this out sooner but I’ve been so busy lately 😭
Anyways congrats on 39k hits and 1100 kudos on ao3‼️‼️‼️
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THEY CARE‼️‼️ I now believe everything lunny says, since they never lied before. I trust in lunatic intuition
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Man.. I Wonder who do that 🤨🧐🧐🧐
Truly an unsolved mystery
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MY HEART
Daniela loves reader sm omg
And reader really is someone who grounds daniela, considering that she didn’t go feral when they were bleeding in front of her the second time and the fact she literally drank their blood
SHEE NEEDS THEMM
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You sure about that 🤨🤨
I’m assuming reader is gonna tell Bela the truth next (since telling Alcina is scary af) and I’m really excited for the scene to happen
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SHES IN LOVE OMGG THEYRE SO CUTE
This whole scene had me giggling and kicking my feet they're so cute together 😭
I also think Bela is going to be the next person to confess her feelings to reader, AND I CANT WAIT I LOVE BELA
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I love jealous reader LMAO
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I was worried for a second that lunatic still wanted to work for Miranda, but thankfully they were just faking it 😭 (correct me if I’m wrong) but I wonder, was Miranda watching them from nearby for them to fake it? Or was she doing some mind stuff?
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This part was when I kinda knew that it wasn’t lunatic causing any of the hallucinations. Cuz if I remember from part one, the hallucinations that lunatic shows were mostly of the dimitrescus being very.. uncomfortable? I guess? (I don’t really know how else to describe it) and maybe some other stuff about them crumbling/dying. But I never remembered lunatic showing them something about reader themselves (correct me if I’m wrong).
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NAH WHO TF R U
I NEVER MET YOU IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ☝️
Okay but this scene really got my brain GOING, the writing was great 😭
And the part with that other voice monster thing was very unsettling. My guess is that the young version thing and the monster thing are the same person, since reader said something about seeing something dark underneath their skin
And I’m glad reader wasn’t really tricked by the weird voices of anything, they know their beloveds would never
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THEYRE EVILLL
my guess is that watcher made a deal with Miranda to bring them back to their reality if they torment reader
And for this part I think the someone else is that weird monster voice thing. Maybe watcher was trying to distract reader until the monster attacked them and reader accidentally attacks the dimis? And then lunny snaps them back to reality?
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You don’t even try to fight her moving away from you, her brows furrowed as she glances between you and your copy. “You… We trusted you-“
OH MY HEART
This scene was so sad but I’m glad Bela was okay. One thing I really love is how you make the dimis put their family first over reader.
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In one last ditch effort to gain her attention away from everything else, you muster what’s left of your strength and energy to mutter out a rough, weak, “Mother.”
BROS MAKING MIRANDA RETHINK HER LIFE CHOICES RN
Her mother instincts kicked in
I do Wonder what’s going to happen now (if mother Miranda is still conflicted with this), like is Miranda going to try to be a ‘mother’ to reader now or?? I LOVE MIRANDA ANGST
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You blink once, twice. The third time, your eye does not reopen.
Let me just say- THIS WHOLE SCENE GOT ME GOING
LIKE DAMN READER REALLY ALMOST DIED
Like the other times it was just really bad injuries, but girl really stabbed straight through their neck💀 I am so excited for the next chapter with this reader angst
AND THE DIMIS?!?
omg I wished we were able to hear what they were saying cuz they just witnessed their love getting brutally stabbed 😭
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Some time during your spiral, you feel something settle beside you, some weight nudging against your back. When you peek your head out from beneath the blanket, you see that crow leaning into you, watching the door intently. Your copy says nothing to you, no smart comment or even a noise. They watch the door, never straying from their protective position beside you.
THEYRE LOOKING OUT FOR THEM‼️‼️ PROTECTIVE LUNNY THEY CAREEEE
I’m really excited for how their relationship will go, and so happy that lunatic is officially (I think) on reader's side. They’ll be able to talk to each other about everything that happened, cuz even if cass and Dani know they never really remembered anything. So they’ll be there for each other
THIS CHAPTER WAS AMAZING AS ALWAYS
I wanted to say more but I’ve been so busy and burnout lately 😭😭
Keep up the great work ❤️❤️
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF FIRST!!! you better be getting lots of rest and drinking plenty of water/eating plenty of food or ELSE >:(
but onto the analysis <33 i saw the notif pop up on my phone and couldn't stop grinning BAHA
Lunatic has canonically never lied!! maybe omitted some things or said things they truly believed at the time or what they were told, but they've never intentionally lied :3 always a treat to go back and read the things they've said while knowing that bit of information
you could never guess who did that :)
I LOVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP SO MUCH- they literally need each other, both help the other stay grounded and in reality and they're just so sweet and caring and they love each other so much PLEASE MY HEART
i have plans >:3
i already have her confession scene planned out AND IT'S SO... BELA???? IM SO EXCITED TO WRITE IT AND SHARE IT AAAAAAA
jealous Reader my beloved <333
bro was just feeling edgy in the moment 😔 and it was a bit of both! she was definitely monitoring their progress mentally while keeping an eye on them after they took over, which is why she knew exactly where to find both of them. Lunatic, thankfully, also knew she was watching them so they could pretend to be on her side to keep both of them alive a little longer
you're right!! this entire scene was actually meant to be a clear show that Lunatic hadn't even done anything to them; whatever was happening in their head was from an outside party looking to clearly harm them or cause them distress. Lunatic strictly showed the Dimitrescus looking a little wrong or showed specific memories of the Dimis dying/crumbling/injured, but never anything like what they were shown here
i will give you a hint and say they're the same person; it's only a matter of who this person is and what they want with Reader :3 and they know their beloveds would never do such a thing!! they'd never guilt trip Reader for things out of their control
the way i giggled at this MWAHAHA but it's a really good guess!! i suppose we'll see soon enough if your theory is correct >:3
THE DIMIS WOULD PUT THEIR FAMILY OVER ANY READER/OC AND I STAND BY THAT. these mfs who have only had each other for years would NOT betray their own family for some little idiot they've known at MAX a few months. nuh uh. i don't believe it
EHEHEHE I HAVE HORRIBLE THINGS PLANNED >:3 i loved writing this part and having Miranda be utterly conflicted with what to do as she finally saw them after all this time and through all these many different experiments... my heart :(
GENUINELY A VERY SHOCKING MOMENT- like, how does one even recover from something like that?? trick question, but i can let you in on what the fruit flies were doing: Cassandra went straight for Miranda upon seeing Reader fall, which is who we saw as like a blur chasing after her. Bela was completely in shock and unable to hold Daniela any longer, who went to Reader's side and tried to get them to speak to her or do anything to show they were still alive and could see her. Cassandra was then either knocked down or killed (haven't decided which was worse), which caused Daniela to try going for Miranda to help her sister, and that caused Bela to finally snap into action to save her family. it... did not end well
I LOVE PROTECTIVE LUNATIC SO MUCH!!! my poor baby just wants to be loved and appreciated and they're finally realizing that Reader could be the one to give that to them. they're my favorite traumatized siblings and i love them so much <33
AAAA BUT THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR THOUGHTS!!! i've been mentally exhausted lately so i understand being burnt out, and i want you to take care of yourself >:/ take breaks where it's needed and worry about yourself first!! or else!!!!
i appreciate you so much and it has been an honor to read your analyses and see the wonderful art you've created <333333
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I am deep in my feels rn and I’m just thinking. Like, humanity as a whole is just so fricken amazing. We were all in different parts of the world and slowly we began to interact and share experiences and story’s together and everyone is so different but we all seem to be similar even though we developed separately and there’s just this togetherness and strength that happened and then we combined forces and look what happened. There are so many things that have been done in the past century that seem to defy the rules of the universe but we made them happen. And there’s so many issues with how things are done but compare today to 100 years ago and see how much progress has been done and if we keep going and fighting and in another 100 years or even shorter we could fix it and we could love each other and be happy and express where we came from and who we are, each of us, individually and maybe that is possible because look at what we’ve done already. Hell If we can make air plains, and allow a species that was never ment to fly to travel the earth up in the sky, or we made a way to talk to someone on the other side of the globe at any point in time, we can fix everything that’s shitty in the world, let everyone be themselves unapologetically, we can reconnect with nature and the other inhabitants of this world, we can make it all better because we are strong and connected and that’s so beautiful. Because from the moment we become aware of our life we are aware that it will one day end and so we have to make the most of it. Cause sometimes we get delt a bad hand but we have friends and family and ways to support ourselves and sometime it feels like it’s impossible to keep moving but we do anyway because we have to and we want to because today is never gonna happen again so we need to live now while we still can and it’s all so messy and hard and exhilarating and wonderfully imperfect. And that’s beautiful
#I’m sorry if this dosent make any sense#I kinda just threw all my thought down as soon as they entered my head#I have so many emotions right now#and I don’t know how to properly express them#I just love humans so much and think we are so beautiful and amazing and powerful
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