in every universe mingyu x reader
genres: angst, heartbreak, right person wrong time, not proofread (sorry… huhu)
wc: 307
just something small i wanted to write at 5 am :)) my mind was awake and i couldn’t think of anything else but to shed it onto some words. short one, but hope you like it hehe :D
would mingyu be the man who’d die for you? yes. he would do anything to be loved by your whole heart.
it’s been years since you two broke up, but oh how he loved.
how he missed the days where you laid next to him. how he wished you had just understood how he felt in the time you met the version of mingyu that he regrets you ever did.
mingyu has constant reminders in his life.
the polaroids he still has hanging on his wall. the flowers he planned to give you on your anniversary slowly withering away in the antique vase with evaporating water.
it was you who he waits for. it was you who helped remind himself what he wants in his life. a marriage, a family, a soul full with joy from seeing his lover happy right next to him.
mingyu hated his job.
he hated how he couldn’t flaunt off his own girlfriend in public.
he hated how he had to always tell you to wear black and cover your face during so-called date nights.
he hated, hated, hated it.
the one thing he only regrets in his life is letting you go.
not taking the risk to be in love.
unable to make the leap and ruin his career to feel alive. not bearing to lighten up his world by being with the girl of his dreams.
in the little time you two had, mingyu wished that he spent it more with you.
he wished he didn’t shun you off and go to the studio.
he wished, and wished, and wished—but nothing worked.
that was when mingyu learned he’d never see you again. not in this lifetime, nor the others.
in every universe, you end up falling for kim mingyu.
and in every universe, it never ends well.
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tagged by @coffeeandsalt to do this picrew! welcome to the world of tag games <3
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While I'm still riding the Xenoblade X hyperfixation, let me just use it to talk gender identity some more.
Between deciding on my current Cross design back during last December and where I am now (i.e. feeling that I'm probably a Woman But A Bit To The Side), I initially did have the plan of just switch between the male design and the female one. But even though I kept those two looking as close to each other as possible, there was always something that I didn't quite like about the male one on a very basic level, and something that I just couldn't put my finger on, let alone fix.
Somewhere down the line, I decided to also make myself smaller builds for both, as an alternative to switch to. So, "Young Boy" instead of "Boy", and "Girl" instead of "Woman". For the female Cross, that worked out well enough, and I still have the design I came up with for that saved in-game, even if I have taken no screenshots. But with the male Cross? For the life of me, I could not put together a design that I even remotely liked. Absolutely nothing felt right, even though on principle, I guess I preferred the younger looking face over my actual "main" male Cross (which even then, I almost never used). In the end, I just gave up that whole design process entirely.
I guess that only really serves to show that I'm really not off in my current self-perception. . .
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