posting this on the account that none of my irls follow:
i feel absolutely awful saying this but i’m a little disappointed in my christmas gifts this year… like yes i got things i have said i wanted in passing and yes i appreciate the things i got but i literally got one thing within the realm of things that i actually asked for. everything else was just random things i didnt actually put on my christmas list.
i feel like a brat for saying that and i promise i said lots of thank yous and i DO appreciate the gifts but i cant help but feel a little disappointed.
i’m mostly upset that i have a new (yr old if that still counts as new) special interest in bnha and i begged for anything with bakugou, kirishima and/or kaminari and didn’t get anything because my family doesnt like anime. like i get it to a degree but also its my interest and i worked so hard to get things that related to their interests and its like theyre not listening to how i’ve changed since high school.
like yes i know my special interests are “childish” but it makes me happy so i dont get what the big deal is over letting me indulge in those things… and also i begged for new clothes bc ive had to get rid of badically everything and got nothing bc they dont like that im more alt than i was so i guess i’ll be going on a shopping spree :/
anyway im probably being a brat so im sorry.
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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.
I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:
Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)
Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)
Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often
Eat dessert first
Celebrate well, and often
Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)
Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.
Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate
Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)
Walk without having a specific destination or goal
Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.
I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.
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I've been sick and suffering from fever for the last two days, and one of the medicines I was prescribed really made me feel really crappy and so I am scared to take it but idk whether it's a medicine you can skip and idk what to do, it's past midnight so calling a doctor is not an option and meanwhile I am burning from fever here
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distraction
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warnings: 18+ only, smut, p in v sex, unprotected sex, cockwarming
“no, it’s fine.” you sigh, flipping your hair over your shoulder as you pout at rafe, his skin illuminated by the lamp placed on his desk, casting the room in warm light. “you don’t love me anymore, whatever.”
rafes fingers pause their flying over the keyboard as he finally looks over to you, chair swiveling as he faces where you are perched on the edge of his desk. “baby.” he says firmly, a warning in his voice.
“no, no, it’s alright.” you wave your hand like its dispelling his warning. “you don’t love me. you won’t let me sit on your cock. it’s fine.”
“princess.” rafe reaches for your hand, rubbing his thumb over the back of it. “it’s just that i’m busy, darling. i really have to get this done.”
“i’ll sit super still until you’re finished, won’t be a distraction, i swear.” you promise, shifting your hand so you can wrap your pinky around rafes, shaking it to prove your point.
rafe sighs before using your interlocked fingers to pull you closer as you squeal with happiness of finally getting your way. you straddle rafes lap, having already taken your underwear off from under your skirt before entering rafes office, knowing exactly what you wanted from him.
“you’re already hard.” you giggle, reaching between your bodies to undo rafes pants, his bulge clearly straining.
“i got hard the second you walked in the room, bunny.” rafe sighs, leaning back and lifting his hips to let you tug his pants and underwear down to expose his stiff cock.
“then why didn’t you let me ride you?” you whine.
“work.” rafe gestures vaguely towards the computer, not wanting to explain what he has to get done, not when you are lining yourself up with his cock and sinking down with a moan.
“fuck.” rafe groans, one hand coming to grip your ass as you settle against his lap, arms wrapping around him as you lean in, resting your head against his shoulder.
“thank you.” you press a kiss to his neck. “love you.”
“love you too baby.” rafe says, moving his chair back in so he can continue to type. “be still for me, yeah? fuck you after i finish.”
“mhm.” you mumble into his neck, satisfied that you've got rafe stretching your insides, satisfying your craving. you know you won’t be sitting still for long, it’s just a matter of who breaks first, you or rafe.
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