the way i live my life is LIDORALLY just like doing whatever’s gonna make my friends have a laff. have a good chuckle. no matter how stupid the thing is or how silly it’s gonna make me look to other ppl if it makes them do a little snort come hell or high water i will do that thing

Hey Ive seen Baeddel used in a lot of your posts but like,, other than a definition of the word I cant really find much on what it means like discourse-wise.

I know its something relating to transfems but other than that im lost x.x sorry for the bother

Basically it started out as an old timey slur for trans women. The word "bad" is rooted from it. In the early 2010s a group of trans women adopted the term and had a community for a very short time before it collapsed and not much information is left over.

Some say that had abusive dynamics. Some say they were just talking about transfeminism like they do now. My sibling swears up and down from their personal experiences with the initial group that they were a group of grifters using queer politics to fundraise for tumblers first big scam, The ARK(C?) Project.

A bunch of anti-transfeminists in their efforts to create the magical word that will allow them to terf-jacket trans women without having it called out as such happened upon the term and used the lack of concrete history/the fact that most of the subjective history isn't too charitable to this original group to fabricate a conspiracy theory that these original Beaddels were an evil cabal of bigoted trans women who never really went away and now operate and sow intracommunity discourse from the shadows for the explicit purpose of weakening the holy divinity of TransUnity.

And while some of them moved on to other terms like "TIRF" and "Neo Radfem" a good portion of TransUnity/Transandro anti-transfeminists have latched onto the term and have doubled down on their intent to use it to create a category of trans women that it's ok to exclude. Out of all of the anti-transfeminists that have come out of this new wave, the ones who build their politics around "Anti-Beaddelism" are some of the most mask-off exclusionists of the bunch. Like look at how they talk about Beadels

They will list how these groups have a bunch of ties to nearly every anti-queer group they could think of. And then they warn White™(Because everytime they attack trans women they have to pretend like it's a race thing to distract from the transmisogyny) that they mean to need to maintain a sense of hypervigilance around their transfem sisters and read into every laugh, every joke, and every word for the possibility of finding Beaddel rhetoric. This is a manipulative abusive tactic to keep the transfems within their sphere of influence to reach other to other transfems and rely on TME people to tell them what's right and provide community.

I remember on sailorportia's "Anti-Egg discoursers sound just like my conversation therapist" post I saw one of these people referring to the notes section as "full of beaddel dogwhistles" and inviting people to "take a look and educate themselves". Not specifying what the dogwhistles are or how they are dogwhistles. Just vaguely gesturing at the notes section and inviting you to regard anything a vocal trans woman as a crypto-beaddel and anything they say as "beaddel dogwhistles"

These communities cultivate a sense of paranoia. They encourage constant scrutiny regarding anything a trans woman says. Their leaders sell themselves as protectors of the community whose exclusion is a necessary evil to keep online trans communities safe. They are incentivized to keep the term Beaddel definition murky but representative of all the evils they attribute to trans women.

The term in the modern day is largely prescriptive and moreso defined by the reactionary "Anti-Beadelism" movement than it is defined by its history. Only a few trans women have reclaimed the term. When anti-transfeminists talk about Beaddelism they aren't talking about an organized group or community, they are referring to a bunch of individual trans women they have branded with the beaddel slur.

Currently I don't think reclaiming the word is a good move. Not that I disagree with it or think trans women shouldn't reclaim it. It's just that it will do more harm than good for as long as exclusionists control the narrative on its definition. I've seen mutuals have their posts on general transfeminism get completely discarded out of hand because they had Beaddel in their profile name or bio.

Because like it or not the current definition of Beaddels that gets passed around was written by current ex-terfs/transandro nothorses bro and cites TERF resources in their definition. This is the same dude who's responsible for the foundation or the current TransUnity echo chamber and used the influence from creating that community to try and redefine TERF to include trans women for the purpose of TERF-jacketing.

It's why me and some other trans women have been picking up the words trasfeminism to refer to discussions of transfem issues and anti-transfeminist to refer to these new wave of transfem exclusionist. It denies the exclusionists the ability to define our politics for us to outsiders. Also note: If the term trasfeminism picks up in use your going to see a lot of these people switch from "Beaddel" to "Radical Transfeminist" as their go-to anti-transfeminist TERF-jacketing slur

Something that's been on my mind a lot recently (to the surprise of no one) has been domming, but I've been doing a lot of thinking about it that's more informative than sexy in nature. I wanted to make a post for both subs and doms out there about something I see that kinda worries me, not just on here but on the internet as a whole.

I'm not gonna cover a lot of things covered better by other people/posts/sources, things like how to be a good dom/sub or how to establish communication and consent - those are extremely important things, but I think other people have said it better already.

The big thing on my mind is how a lot of queer folks entering the world of kink haven't really done any critical analysis on their preferences and roles. From a dominant perspective, you really /really/ need to put in the time to introspect about the role and why you desire that role, and how you will keep yourself and your partner safe, secure, and happy. From a submissive perspective, there's a bulk of thought to be done on how you expect to be treated - in and out of scene - and precisely where your boundaries and borders are.

If you're new to kink (or even if you're experienced, it's a good check-up) and you think you're wanting to try a dominant role, please ask yourself the following questions:

Why is this something I prefer?

What is the most I'm willing to do for my sub?

Are there means of communication (in and out of the bedroom) that I prefer?

Am I capable of exiting the dom mindset if needed?

What do I expect from my sub? Think about communication, but also how to meet each others' needs, protect from triggering situations, and what /you/ need to be happy.

Do I have the proper knowledge to safely attempt what I want to attempt? If not, how do I intend to get that knowledge before trying it?

Think these over! These are not meant to scare away anyone from kink, nor are they a comprehensive list of things you need to consider. Domming is a responsibility first and foremost, and it should be treated like one. Kink is a lot of fun, but like with anything (if not moreso), you need to put in the work to make sure you're doing it as safely and thoughtfully as possible for your sake and your sub's sake.

I wanted to write this because being a dom, especially a transfem dom/top, is stigmatized here and on the larger internet. A dominant mindset is often quickly written off as predatory, and I've seen very little content for doms - it's a beautiful role that requires a lot of work and responsibility, but its worth it in the scenes and art you can create. I want to do my part to educate and spread awareness as much as I can.

Feel free to reblog to spread the word, whether you're a dom, sub, vers, or just an interested bystander. Minors do not interact, as with all my content from this blog. Others are welcome to add more thoughts regarding domming and power exchange, and I'd happily welcome other perspectives onto this post - a similar guide to introspection for subs especially.

Is there really nothing better to go after than consenting adults having their fun with kink? Even moreso considering that these kinds of kinks have by far the highest cisfem participation ratios, and there's usually far more of them than of dominsnt transfems, and the fact that honestly? It takes a lot of emotional intelligence to admit and process desires like that, and then be eloquent about it. I've met some of the nicest people I know through them, and barely any creeps at all.

the fact that u are expecting me to justify why i would take issue with males openly expressing their “fetish” of raping & abusing lesbians is bizarre. i didn’t consent to see someone talk openly about wanting to rape lesbians so which consenting adults is this fetish between exactly? if u want to dedicate a blog to how much u want to rape & abuse lesbians then expect there to be lesbians who will see it and say that’s vile

The very important distinction between afrolatino Jason vs female-coded Jason is that afrolatino Jason was come up with by black DC fans who sometimes see themselves in him on a very personal level but generally it's because he falls under so many black character aspects and irl black cultural aspects that we feel it makes way more sense for him to be black than for him to be white so to us,he just is and we design him as looking like a black man and explicitly write him as one too and the latino part is added on for reclamation from the racist gringos who popularized the just 'latino' Jason with no real heritage to him out of fetishization rather than out of love for latin people

And female-coded Jason is literally just.Gender essentialism with underlying transmisogyny by cis women and other tmes LMFAO because when a character who's intended as a cis man in canon is accidentally written like a woman instead,that's transfem-coding and i'm all for tgirl Jason even if i see Jason as transmasc agender within canon but unfortunately that's not what they mean because they think he's a binary man and actively ignore the canon Batfam girls and even the girls in Jason only Batfam lore to the point they refuse to even learn they exist!A side thing that gets me is that they don't even make Jason fem presenting which while dosen't universally equal female is at least closer to it than how masc he is canonically and they somehow make him even moreso but not in a positive and healthy masculinity way that is again a canon and important part of his character so it's just.A very bad faith take with very bad implications as opposed to afrolatino Jason,which is very VERY good faith take that beyond improves his character and is made out of nothing but love by black people and support from our allies

Anyway.........Go find Cassandra Cain,Barbara Gordon and Kate Kane reading lists and i can provide Stephanie Brown,Rose Wilson and Talia Al-Ghul ones if asked

https://www.tumblr.com/jax-yacks/749851171797204992/hey-this-isnt-my-general-homestuck-poll-blog?source=share

Trans masc John would make more sense than June but that is just a headcanon. Nonbinary Roxy actually makes sense to me. Maybe they could have made Roxy genderfluid, I think that would have worked better than trans guy Roxy. It just doesn't make sense when she lived as a girl while not living around any other humans throughout all of her adolescence. She could have done anything she wanted with no pressure.

You posted: June does not appear anywhere in any piece of Homestuck related media made by an official team member for official purposes as of the writing of this post, and has only truly appeared in a single tweet.

June isn't even in Beyond Canon yet. I feel like I can already judge how June will be written. I already don't like what I've seen. How John was written in the epilogue was someone who was out of touch with reality because he recognized he was a fictional character and nothing is real. He seemed depressed, nearly suicidal, upset with his role of being a father. I don't think it is a good representation of anyone trans. John's story makes being trans look delusional. Reads more like a dig on being trans than anything else to me.

This is an outside looking in take. But from what I've seen there's not really an effort from the homestuck team to portray those themes well. Doesn't make sense that the entire fandom should even accept a headcanon if it's not even written yet. It makes more sense for us to reject it. And I will.

You posted: I won't go into my full breakdown of everything. It requires too much nuance to not be misconstrued more than this post could be, and I just need to remake some posts from my old blog.

I think you should go into it more. You obviously have a nuance take. I'd like to hear it. I think it's a good thing we all have different views here. I'm not trying to be disrespectful with any of what I am saying here, but know that many of the homestuck fans are tired of the June disk horse. I am so sick of June. I'm sick of it because it feels more like moral grandstanding than an actual attempt at representing a trans person's life. It's bad rep if it's trying to even be rep and not brownie points.

Clickable link for the referenced post

Re: trans hcs: I think I just like the tragedy of trans fem Roxy in regards to her infatuation with Dirk, but outside of that I honestly don't have a lot of gender thoughts for Roxy tbh. I love trans masc John especially in regards to all the notes Dad would leave around for him. It's very cute

Re: how transfem John will be handled: I honestly don't care a whole lot about whether it's a good look for a trans person to have gone through what John did as much as there were so many opportunities to work that gender shit into what John dealt with in the Epilogues especially having that conversation with Roxy in Candy about gender. Then again, from what I know about HS2, they didn't exactly follow through with several things they set up in the Epilogues and added things that should have had at least some amount of set up but didn't. Also, I would be more worried if the original writers were part of it still. But no there should never have been an expectation to accept June as canon at all much less before her appearance in Beyond Canon, but technically it was never WP pushing it. Just bnfs, especially one in particular, that they hired while apparently having no policy on how WP staff/contractors/partners should engage with the fanbase.

Re: Going into it more: I moreso didn't go into it in that post and am not going into it in depth here because outside of answering specific questions or responding to specific things, I want to take the time to create a whole huge post about it. I have the one in the Medium post I linked (here it is if you didn't see it), and on one of my old blogs, I had a further breakdown of that post, but I would also like to tackle it in a more organized manner.

Because the thing about June is it was never just about June. June was implicitly a reaction to trans masc Roxy. "They took one of ours so we'll take one of theirs." The creation and popularization of June cannot be separated by transandrophobia and radical feminist ideology present in that particular Homestuck fandom space. Also, as old followers are well aware, I was personally traumatized by that fandom space and primarily by that reaction to June in a few major ways. For realsies. Got a therapist I talk to about it and everything lol Thus, since I have my own potential personal bias wrapped in it more than your average observer, I do want to make sure I am able to talk about what happened with that in mind, especially since what happened to me is one of the things that people should be able to point to as one of the many fucked up parts of how June was being handled by the fandom. Also also, transandrophobia and radical feminist ideology is still alive and well here in queer communities including the Homestuck community, and also I don't want to phrase things poorly and accidentally hurt any trans fems who might read it, but considering we're talking about a trans fem hc that was popularized primarily by a trans fem bnf and their circle of friends that included a few other trans fem bnfs... It can be a touchy subject that I want to handle with care while not shying away from the realities of the situation.

It's all a lot of interconnected stuff and I am but a simple ADHD-haver who enjoys going off on various tangents, so it's hard for me to stick to Just June as a topic if I'm told to sit down and write about how she appeared and was treated in that fandom space. Sometimes even if I am given specific questions to focus on lol Even now I'm thinking about clarifications I should have added and how it wasn't clear that x or y was also a problem etc etc etc

But to address the rest of that final paragraph, it's bittersweet to hear people are tired of June. It's a good reminder for me that things are not as they were, but it also sucks that people are this tired of an inherently neutral headcanon, much less one that's going to inevitably be added to the ongoing official work. And it's not trying to be rep or brownie points imo -- it's just Hussie, seeing his friends share a neat hc that one of said friends (either friends at the time or soon to be friends) helped popularize or even came up with, while being willfully ignorant of the state of the fandom, around June and in general, liking that hc, and deciding it would be cool to make "canon," and then being terrible at communicating with the fandom per usual, and leaving us with no official confirmation she will appear ever at all until a few months ago.

June was a meteor set to blast off in space with Beyond Canon as the ultimate destination, carried on in these past several years by nothing more than the inevitable force of troll Isaac Newton.

I don't know if you've been asked this before, what is your opinion/headcanon on Levi ? Personally I headcanon him as trans but because of how malnourished he is, you can't see any physical differences.

(I really liked how you said Levi and Marina were narrative foils to each other, that was really cool)

thank you! my original draft of this opinion was something of a marxist-critique on levi, spiraling into a critique of funger as a whole. i decided that’s really not the way the games are “supposed” to be interpreted, so instead, here’s a reading of his character rather than how i think he “should” be

i think levi, in place of “the girl” from the funger 1, continues to represent the series’ stance on suffering, on the pure visceral horror of modern existence. they are the “negative extremities” of a ulta-utilitarian system: levi needed to be a child soldier to uphold the war effort and potentially overturn the bremen empire—the girl needed to rot in a dungeon all her life to potentially ascend into a being that could overturn the old gods.

that is to say, levi in fungermina is yet another example of the flaw in the logic of “the end justifies the means”—was it worth it for this literal child to endure this? except, instead of ascending into a god that epitomizes his suffering, levi has the infinitely more realistic outcome of being shoved into a death battle scenario and relive the horrors of war or burn in the pits of fart hell with salami-jesus-satan.

levi in the game is a further testament to this ideology, moreso than the other characters. if you want to use levi, to have him live up to his “fullest potential,” to be “useful,” he needs heroin. all the characters get powered up, but levi practically requires it—the end justifies the means.

that’s my i’m-trying-my-best-not-to-be-too-marxist-about-this interpretation anyway, but it’s important to note that levi isn’t pure pity. a sort of “resolution” to his existence is by coming to prehevil, by living with other fellow absolute shitshows of lives, and Fungermina employs its second major theme: suffering as a form of empathy/compassion.

rather than levi’s pain being a simple fact of life on the battlefield, in Termina, it is acknowledged. therefore, levi is acknowledged. in essence, to exist in any capacity is to have your suffering acknowledged for what it is, and further to connect with other people using those experiences. to recruit levi (give him heroin, go to the orphanage) is to, in some small way, acknowledge his shitty existence and not merely pity him but actually do something about it. connect w the boy.

anyway, that’s my somewhat surface-level reading of levi fungermina.

my headcanons! i personally think levi is transfem.

i do also agree that he’s malnourished as shit, but i find the idea of levi not really living at all in his life finding purpose in marina’s existence. it’s almost like levi is—and forgive me if this is an awful interpretation—marina had she not transitioned. marina would have had to dedicate her life (without her will) to the servitude of old gods and live a cruel and painful life, supposedly a glorified dark priest. ain’t that like levi being forced into the army as a child, a talented and exceptional soldier, but ultimately a horrible, unfair life?

beyond that, i think it’d be cool if transness could be a vehicle levi can distance himself from his past as a child soldier and potentially become a version of himself that he can actually live as, not merely survive.

tldr; levi is “the girl.”

Pls read this before DMing me

Hello, my name is Yuki and my pronouns are she/they. I am transfeminine nonbinary, and assigned male at birth, as if it even matters.

I am a switch and I can rp any gender or sex, so don’t be afraid to ask if you want to roleplay with me.

Kinks include:

Birth

Breeding

Fpreg

Transfem preg

Anal birth (fpreg or transfem preg only)

Girlcock birth

Sadism

Sex inducing labor

Sex during labor (genuinely a great way to keep the labor stage interesting for me)

Hyper birth/oversized offspring

Any type of nonhuman/monster/alien birth

Egg laying when the egg(s) is/are of equal or greater size to a human baby

Painful birth

Tearing

Generally, if it’s a category of birth, I’ll like it

Things I’m neutral to (not interested in but doesn’t make me ick):

Pregnancy (aside from confirming the size of the offspring, bellies don’t do much for me either. Includes most permapreg. Sometimes I like a little pregnancy fluff, but it’s gotta be followed by birth)

Sex (if it’s completely unrelated to birth. Barely even made this list as I do enjoy it of course, I’d just rather it not detract from birth, as this is a birth kink centered blog. I’ll link my “normal” blog at the bottom of this post.)

Multiples (leaning towards liking this nowadays, but it still doesn’t do much more for me than just one baby)

Birth denial (usually goes on for much longer than I have the patience for.)

Egg laying when the egg(s) is/are smaller than a human baby

Other types of birth that include smaller offspring (it’s gotta be a challenge)

Orgasmic birth (the pain is what I like about birth. Adding pleasure just makes it boring to me.)

Lactation (does nothing for me)

Things that make me ick:

Mpreg (starting to grow on me but if they’re too masculine it’s a still big ick)

Tmpreg (starting to grow on me moreso than mpreg, but too much masculinity is still an ick)

Sex during birth (anal or otherwise. Best case scenario it distracts from the birth, worst case scenario it’s straight up creepy)

Breast growth (when it’s a focus or excessive. I prefer smaller breasts anyway)

Weight gain

Furry

Inflation

Vore

Gore (I like blood and tearing, not organs or mutilation)

Stillbirth/miscarriage

Death (under very specific circumstances I’ll allow it)

Pedophilia (should go without saying. I am NOT attracted to the baby AT ALL, just the birthing)

Now that you know what I’m into and what I’m not, my dms are open if you’d ever like to talk or rp. I promise I will get back to you as soon as I can.

I am extremely grateful to have found this community of likeminded people who share this rare and often misunderstood kink and I would like to do more than just lurk for once. I really want to become a real part of this community, so please follow me if you like what I post and never be afraid to interact with me. My asks are always open and I will respond to as many as I can. Every time I open tumblr I check my inbox and every time I see a new one I do a little cheer, so do not hesitate.

That being said, if you want to see what I’m like when I’m not posting about birth, you can check out my alternate blog, @laynejailey, where I post things such as: normal content, “normal” kink content, My Chemical Romance, anarchy, Jerma985, and Hatsune Miku.

Also if you’ve caught on by now, the name of my alternate blog did come from “Layne Staley” and the name of this blog is a similar destruction of “Dave Grohl”.

idk if anyone remembers this, but there was a time 6+ years ago where people very outright claimed that all trans people afab are transmasculine and all trans people amab are transfeminine. you can still find this on old social media or old info material about trans people.

the idea behind this was that while all trans people amab are transfeminine, only some are trans women and transfeminine is mainly used by people wanting to escape the gender binary. the same thing applies to transmasculinity. they used these terms to describe the direction of someone's medical transition without naming a binary gender. except this approach was still binary.

they thought they were being inclusive by saying "well, if you're not a man/woman, then you have to be at least masculine/feminine".

one of the first info materials i found in a trans group in 2017 used these definitions and it felt utterly uncomfortable. while i did consider myself vaguely masc for a hot second after coming out, the term transmasculine never felt right. but i saw this document as a baby trans, calling everyone like me transmasculine and then going on to talk about how transmasculinity means that you take testosterone and/or have surgery without being a trans man.

there was no space for people who went on T/took surgery and didn't identify as transmasculine. there was no space for transmasculine people who didn't want to medically transition. there was no space for nonbinary people who were neither transmasculine nor wanted to medically transition.

and while people don't say stuff like "all trans people amab are transfeminine" or "trans femininity means medically transitioning in this way", that's still how these terms are used

all.

the.

time.

like, cool. you changed the wording a bit. but the sentiment is still there.

i still see people talk about transfems only in posts about vaginoplasty. i still see people talk about transmascs only when discussing testosterone. i still see people say transfems for things that pretty much affect all trans people amab and more. i still see people say transmascs for oppression that pretty much affects all trans people afab and more. (newsflash: misgendering people/expecting people to misgender themselves in order to be allowed to speak about a kind of oppression they share with trans men and transmascs is oppression in and of itself, but i give in and stay out of that horrendous exorsexist discourse.)

the terms transmasculine and transfeminine barely existed before 2010 and queer as cat already made a video about those terms and their messed up use TEN years ago. and i gotta say, not much has changed.

it looks like 2013/14 is when these terms really picked up, which is when truscum were extra loud and it also seems to be when nonbinary people gained more visibility.

but those terms clearly weren't all that inclusive even by 2013 standards if there have already been nonbinary people pointing out the weird ways in which they were used.

the origin of these terms is really dodgy, based on truscum ideas about medical transition and putting nonbinary people in boxes that are adjacent to men and women, but they're not men and women so we can't complain, right? the origin of these terms is basically what truscums are saying all the time: "we only accept nonbinary people if they experience body dysphoria/transition medically/are masculine/feminine enough".

i'm happy to see that the definitions of transmasculine and transfeminine have changed, or moreso that there isn't a clear definition of either anymore. i'm happy to see transmascs and transfems be transmasc and transfem in nonconforming ways.

but i also wish that more people were aware of these origins and wouldn't basically continue using the terms that way without thinking about it for 2 seconds.

transmasc and transfem are useful labels to many people which is a good thing, but there are simply too many people portraying them as the only two options (which lines up with the idea that all trans people afab are transmasc and vice versa). i've recently literally seen a blog that said they were "transmasc safe, transfem safe and intersex safe". absolutely wild. there are also too many people equating transition steps with being transmasc or transfem. newsflash, not everyone who goes on oestrogen is transfem and not everyone who binds their chest is transmasc.

the way these terms are used barely changed in the last 10 years, it's still as fucked up now as it was back then.

transmasc and transfem could be (and already are for many people) incredibly powerful self-descriptors if they weren't constantly used to misgender and binarise nonbinary people and transition steps.

transmasc and transfem aren't coherent categories of experience, there are many people with the same experiences who don't identify as either. continuing to use them as collective terms rather than personal identifiers does nothing but erase, misgender and silence nonbinary people who are neither.

ten kinda looks like an egg but not necessarily in a transfem kinda way. moreso a “this kid still hasn’t realized how apathetic about gender they really are” kinda way

DIAMOND CUTTERS/CRACKED DIAMOND AU HEADCANONS PART 1: SLINGER (AND SLANGLE)

JUMPSCARE! YOU'RE ABOUT TO GET A CRAP TON OF HEADCANONS FOR THE DIAMOND CUTTERS AND MY SILLY CLUSTER OF AUS ABOUT THEM! RAREPAIR AND OBSCURE CHARACTER ENJOYERS, GET YOUR FOOD!

First up, the flirty gender pilled ocelot with the gay little gun tricks!

Slinger Headcanons:

they're genderfluid and transfem (partly because I thought she was a girl when Mimic first shapeshifted into her.) This also means shipping them with Tangle is still yuri (important.) I dub her they/she + "gun" as a neopronoun for fun. Also let her wear whatever clothes they want.

She's also Mexican/Central American! Very clear accent, occasionally splices Spanish words into their dialogue, much like Tangle’s now-agreed-upon Italian. Says “Vamos!”, “Dios mio!” and “Que?” a lot. Also insults Badniks and other opponents in Spanish.

Pansexual apocalypse, easily INTENSELY flustered, they had a stupid celebrity crush on Sonic before the betrayal/actually meeting anyone. (Old idea I’m keeping alive, heck, maybe have another sub-AU for that.) Then in her “survivor” timeline, she finally meets Tangle and the epic 100k idiots to lovers slowburn yuri is real.

They’re EXTREME ADHD. She juggles, she keeps at least two fidget spinners on hand always, she needs to toss and twirl things or he’ll explode. She and Whisper and Tangle stim together a lot.

Backstory! The “mysterious past” reference doesn’t exist if I don’t look at it, so she and Claire were actually sibling-dynamic friends as far back as Slinger can remember, having grown up together in a jungle treehouse village. (Definitely didn’t come up with that just because ocelots and howler monkeys live in the same place, haha.) Things happened in the Forces war, next thing you know they both met Smithy (and soon after Whisper) and were inducted into the mercenary found family.

THEY’RE A CAT. Younger than Big and wayyyy more impulsive than Blaze, they do MANY MANY CAT THINGS. They have whiskers, they’re a liquid, they lick themself clean, they act like it’s daytime when it’s pitch black out, they miiiiiight have eaten a couple of mice, they purr when rubbed, all of it. This is also how you tell her apart from Duo, who is a fake cat and clueless to cat behavior.

Slinger, past and present, is still super cool and suave in battle, but a complete and utter LOSER in casual times, more than Claire, more than Whisper, they're such a fucking girlfail

They were definitely the “kid” of the team, moreso even than Whisper. They pulled pranks, did stupid stunts, and worried Claire and Smithy sick. In the timeline where they survived, they were VERY okay on their own! So utterly okay!

AU-Specific Headcanons:

They were never “shut-in” as the Guardian Angel - they still tried their best to act cool and suave, in spite of the anxiety below. They completely hid their appearance beneath masks and hoods, but still taunted and quipped at their adversaries and would sometimes talk rather openly to Resistance members lucky enough to interact with them long enough, though still never giving any context to who she was or what her deal was - or a clear view of his real face.

She wouldn’t use the same Wispon as canon Whisper - a gigantic rifle just isn’t their style. Instead, she’s gotten a lot better at physical combat to compensate for it - she managed to teach herself to Spin Attack, and can even do a crazy "Panjandrum" move where they fire their laser guns wildly while rolling. They’re decently fast now, but not as fast as any “speedster” character - think more like Amy, Tails, or heck, a realistic interpretation of the Forces Avatar.

They talk to their Wisps a lot. She constantly feels alone and doesn't want to be, and forever thanks Smithy for giving them a way to always talk to their companions somehow. She needs people to talk to, she really does, heck, give her a bit of a Yakko Warner complex if you want. Fortunately, Tangle logically helps with that a lot.

They FIRMLY saw Mimic as a father figure, and are FUCKING PISSED at him for stabbing and discarding everything they had. Him fucking around IMMEDIATELY cuts off Slinger's silly goofy mode and activates IMMA FIRIN MA LAZAH mode.

In Slinger’s timeline, Mimic’s Duo disguise was the feminine-androgynous “Duo the Hound,” using Whisper as the basis. Slinger got to pistol-whip him repeatedly and then dump him into the sea, don’t worry.

Tangle in this timeline is… girl-leaning panromantic. Blaze cemented her queer awakening, but Slinger, whose gender is fucked as hell, is the one she fell for hard. Slinger would get VERY worried about whether she feels the same towards them or not, but it doesn't matter what's in their legs or their head to Tangle - they're Slinger.

Slinger’s love language turns out to be the same as Tangle’s - doing stupid and dangerous things to impress her crushes. Ultimately Jewel and Lanolin have to LOUDLY tell them that they’re in love with each other and should kiss and go out on a date before they both get themselves killed beating around the bush. (That, or they just full-on kiss at the conclusion of Urban Warfare or even the Metal Virus, considering Slinger is much more open.)

Slinger is just as willing and encouraging to talk to Tangle about her fears as vice versa, in a direct manner at least. It is not “moon gets hurt and sun comforts her,” they’re kinda both cloud-obscured suns who goof off but also traumadump to each other.

Slinger can cook and prepare Mexican cuisine just fine. Them trying to cook anything else results in a kitchen-sized laser explosion (don't even ask how.) Their food living together basically amounts to alternating Mexican and Italian with Tangle occasionally baking something she found online in between.

Tangle comforts or supports Slinger whenever they have gender issues, she figured out they were genderfluid basically the moment they got the chance to try new clothes. Slinger silently, awkwardly asked her if she could try on a really twirly dress and she was just so understanding and said they looked absolutely beautiful and AGHHHHHHHHHHHH and now it’s their girly comfort outfit.

tangle is significantly taller than slinger. height difference. (slinger is significantly taller than sonic though lol, big tangle supremacy)

Slinger and Tangle cuddle super tight and warm and fall asleep together BOTH PURRING do you get my vision

Big headcanon posts for the other Cutters and their sub-AUs coming at some point.

having the tag tr/ns/ndrophobia blocked is so interesting because. i'll have mutuals who rb posts where the op is tagged that, i'll look at the post and it's a completely normal positivity post aimed towards transmascs (which is fine on its own, obviously). it's just so weird because with transfem positivity posts they never tag transmisogyny unless as a content warning. that fact that tr/ns/ndrophobia is used as sort of a community tag moreso than a content warning is so strange to me. i don't know how to specifically interpret that, but it's certainly off-putting. i have to CENSOR the word because people use it as a COMMUNITY TAG. you don't follow the transmisogyny tag or browse through posts tagged transmisogyny but i know people who do just that for tr/ns/ndrophobia. also on that topic if you're a tr/ns/ndrophobia truther (lmfao) pls go away🙏

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Hi this im sharing my experience w transandrophobia when i was younger. ⚠️TW for rape but nothing explicit. Also, sorry this might be long, theres a few parts I wanna cover, and I'm wondering if anyone else hs hd a similar experience. I was 15 and had only been out as trans for like a year or 2, and I didn't really know anyone else who was queer, let alone trans, so when a new trans girl around my age moved to my school I was excited, and I told her that I liked her outfit. We chatted a few times after that, and after a while she invited me to hang out at her place. I hadn't really known her well, but I was so excited to make a new friend that I kinda pushed any worries to the back of my mind. However, once I was there, we were bonding over being trans, and she started saying really weird things, that she couldn't understand why anyone would want to transition to being a guy, and that T corrupted people and made them ugly. At the time I still had a lot of iternalized transandrophobia, so I had initially brushed them off as a little harsh but ultimatly #feminist. Later that night things took a turn for the worse, and I'll spare you the gorey details, but I do remember that she told me that I'd be so much better as a lesbian, and that she had made fun of my packer to the point that I cannot pack anymore (something that used to help w dysphoria) bc of the assosiation of that night. She also said some fetishistic things about me being asian (shes white). I never ended up reporting it, bc at the time I still wasnt sure what had happened, and if it really had been rape. But I did ask her to never speak to/contact me again and blocked her. It made going to school really hard, because I was so nervous that I'd see her in the halls. After about a week, as I was leaving school she came up to me and started crying and telling me was sorry, and I didn't know what to do and people around me were glaring at me and it was just such a scary situation. I didn't really see her much after that. It was a long time before I told anyone. Its so hard talking about it because on one side, I'm worried that people will think I'm making it up to hurt trans women or to push a certain narrative. I want to say that I do not think this is a problem with trans women as a whole, moreso an individual problem with her. In fact, I had a similar experience at the hands of a cis woman when i was much younger. On the other hand, when I have talked about it, cis people have used it as an excuse to misgender her, or otherwise be transphobic, which doesnt help at all and just makes me feel worse. It just solidifies that they don't really see either of us as valid. That i'm just some poor little little girl who needs to be protected. Its been a few years, and I'm still getting over it, but I really wanted to get this off my chest. Thanks. Sorry it's so long.

Thank you for sharing your experience. I know there are other transmascs who have been in similar situations with transfem abusers and not talking about it for fear of the optics & how it can be used as a weapon by others, so just know you aren't alone and I'm glad you shared this.

So i figured out my uhhhh take? on Music Man?

There's like 2 canon lorebits for MM and like, its all just stuff that Matthew Curtis has said but I've had a really weird x reader fanfic idea for like the longest time that I never planned on actually writing, but

So my personal take on what MM's deal is that she was made to harness and store straight up souls (not remnant) but what is her whole Thing is that she was specifically made very Shittily.

The mechanisms spinning and churning the souls inside her are crude and unmerciful like a rusty music box and so while the souls, after years of being processed, have long forgotten who they are and are now moreso just the essence of life, their being is still very uncomfortably inhabiting her body, stretched out over all the machinery. The Music Man™ experience, best i can describe it, is like if your organs were gone and you were just filled with hard edges and other foreign structures. If you want a personal feeling, it's like being uncomfortably full of water and soda can tabs, in my experience (take that sentence as you will). She's very uncomfortable in her body and hence why she gets overstimulated by noise very easily (weirdly enough she likes cymbals because they drown out noise. they make a lot of noise themselves but they drown out everything else). She kind of craves devouring souls for this reason (the smoke is representative of this) since when she doesn't process it like the other ones, it kind of just chills in there and floods her body with relief and some feeling of freedom from the tight contraption her being is stuck in.

But one thing about the fic is that while yeah yeah romance it's also kind of, um, horrific. But in a fun way.

Like in the fic the whole Thing is that as Music Man becomes more enamored (and just, generally feeling more emotion than a robot really should be feeling) they become more and more human and by that I mean the emotions begin physically manifesting like how they would in a human. Like, her face is plastic so she can't actually blush like us,so instead, blood just starts oozing out of her facial orifices in the attempt to fill blood vessels that aren't there, which is just a horrible sight all around.

Anyways she's such a weird freak and I love her for that!!

If you're wondering why I refer to Music Man with she/her, this and only this is the singular reason why.

her main color palette is literally the same colors as this transfem flag. She's therefore transfem I don't make the rules sorry

Other than that there are these Whorish drawings of DJMM

And persona doodles. persona is based off of various phantom feelings of mine

If you know me, you know that I'm a shrimpy whelp of a man. HOWEVER! This bitch flies with their arms. If you were flailing around your arms to fly all the time, I just think it would make sense for them to be a Little Jacked-Looking

Darby is trans 2 ME okay. I know I know the whole “transfem coder” thing is a (very recent) stereotype. But there’s also just a lot to dig in to there about her relationship to womanhood— Is it ever difficult for her to fully connect to this thing so often entwined with victimhood? Plus we need more transfem rep who aren’t held to a standard of being perfectly high femme all the time. Darby’s specific androgynous expression reminds me of a lot of the more androgynous trans women I’ve known. And wouldn’t you have even more of a reason to obsess over the dead if you were in a population so likely to face violence, even moreso than the average cis woman? And theres the way she kind of grew up online bc that was her only outlet to really be herself. Also bc I said so or w/e

Personally, I don't mind being called bro as a trans woman, to me, the function of that particular expression of speech doesn't feel like a reliable enough indicator to certifiably intuit the way someone's perceiving your gender, but moreso, just happens to be a word that

"Conveys A Specific Set Of Emotions™️"

none of which usually have anything to do with a given person's gender that someone's using it in conversation towards, so deciding to get upset at that is petty and lame to me...

...but I don't judge other transfems who have different feelings about it, like it's really easy for me to imagine why someone could possibly be upset about something like that, and I don't mind if she feel some type of way about it, and I won't use it around her

But getting upset in like... An aggressive or intimidating way, lashing out at in excess towards people for inadvertently saying it in casual conversation without realizing it, or towards people who have no history with you and don't know not to call you that?? That really doesn't ever seem like a justifiable response to me because "bro" also happens to be one of those words that

"Fills In Empty Spaces In Speech™️"

Just like people say "Like" all the time, or "Um" or "Uhh" as a transition in between thoughts, or to switch the feelings associated between certain thoughts, and those "fills in empty space" type words are usually deeply unconscious and automatic, so having to exert conscious effort in order to change it for the sake of being respectful is gonna take some time and energy, so if you've explicitly told a person how to refer to you, and they wanna be in your corner and wanna be polite and respectful to you, they will usually notice when they fuck up and usually proceed to self correct without being prompted, and if they don't, usually a look is all it takes to get people to check themselves about these things if they don't immediately realize what they've said is in some way impolite

and if they don't care to bother exerting that effort into changing it to be more respectful, then that type of person don't deserve to be a significant part of your meaningful inner circle anyways...so like... fuck em, right?? Find better people to hang around then and move on