#trans boy summer hell yeah
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cringefail loser approaches you at the pool, proceeds to try to flirt for 5 solid minutes, all while talking about his sick abs
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this might be weird to ask on a writing blog but do you have any manga recs?
yeah i got some recs! i'm gonna assume you mean less talked about titles rather than more well-known but quickfire popular recs i have are: chainsaw man, fullmetal alchemist, jjba, fruits basket, jjk and hell's paradise. but onto my other recs:
seinen
children of the sea**: a troubled teen named ruka embarks on the summer adventure of a lifetime after meeting two boys raised by dugongs at her dad's aquarium in the middle of a mysterious event taking place in the ocean.
the summer hikaru died: it's been months since yoshiki's childhood friend and secret crush, hikaru, went missing in the mountains for a week. hikaru's the same as usual, with his jokes and silly rambles and yet, yoshiki can't shake the feeling that whoever came back from that mountain, it wasn't hikaru. much to his horror, it wasn't. but rather than face reality and grief, yoshiki decides to play along with "hikaru's" act (body horror)
dorohedoro**: in a world where there are humans and magic users, humans have it rough being virtually treated as second class citizens. day after day, year after year, magic users come to the human realm to experiment on them with their magic. and after having his head turn into a caiman, kaiman, wants to get it back in blood and have his true form restored (body horror)
witch hat atelier*: in a world full of magic and witches, it's always been normal human girl coco's dream to be one. but after accidentally discovering a truth of this world and her mom getting caught up in the spell, coco becomes an apprentice of witch qifrey. (it was recently announced there's an anime in the works!)
skip & loafer**: desiring to become a government official to revitalize her hometown in the japanese countryside, iwakura mitsumi's first step to accomplish this goal is by going to a uni prep high school in tokyo. she's got a foolproof 10-step plan to boot! but of course, life hardly ever goes as plan, not even for a prodigy (mc's aunt has great trans rep)
jousei
sign of affection*: as someone deaf all her life, yuki has dealt with discrimination in both small and broad strokes. nor has she ever experienced romance. this all changes when she meets backpacker itsumi, a guy who goes to the same uni. just as he opens her world, she opens his
debu to love to ayamachi to***: after waking up in a hospital with no memories to her name, plus sized yumeko is told she is there after surviving a suicide attempt. the thing is, yumeko isn't sure why when she's just so beautiful! with a strong desire to live life to the fullest, yumeko decides to do everything the past her was to afraid to do. all the while it is revealed that her suicide attempt was more of an attempted murder... but who could have wanted to kill her?
my love story with yamada-kun at lv999**: nothing is worse than getting cheated on especially after akane invested a lot of time and energy into her shitty ex's gaming hobbies. but through gaming, not only does akane find herself healing, she managed to get herself a pretty cool boyfriend too
NANA**: 2 women, 2 different lives, 1 name shared. komatsu nana is quick to fall in love and after a series of less-than-lucky relationships, she finally has someone she thinks is the one. abandoned by her mother and her ex leaving her band, osaki nana hasn't had the easiest life. but on the same night, on the same train, these two women meet and their lives become deeply intertwined
shoujo
a condition called love*: when it comes to romance, hotaru's never experienced it besides stories of her friends relationships. but she soon finds herself about to experience the whirlwind of a lifetime when hananoi, the most popular boy in school, asks her to be his girlfriend
a bouquet for an ugly girl***: as her class' resident big girl, hana isn't expecting a blossoming spring in her high school career. and she's okay with that. she has everything she needsー otome games and gardening. but after her class' pretty boy catches her in the midst of changing the class flowers, their lives become a bit more intertwined
uruwashi no yoi no tsuki: yoi is quite popular at her school because of her neat short hair, beautiful face and overall princely appearance. in fact, it's gotten her dubbed 'prince' many times. but when the other prince of the school finally meets her, cupid's arrow quickly knocks him on his ass
shounen
frieren**: a manga that picks up after the journey has ended. the demon king has been defeated and the heroes have saved the day after 10 years of traveling together. 10 years? that's not even a 10th of elf mage frieren's life. but as her companions begin dying one by one of old age, she finds herself desiring to learn more about humans and the short yet impactful lives they still manage to have
dungeon meshi*: when a dungeon raid goes terribly wrong and laios' sister gets swallowed by a dragon, those that remain in his party decide to get it back in blood by saving laios' sister before she gets digested. in the mean time, there's nothing wrong with gordon ramsay-ing miscellaneous ingredients found in the dungeon along the way, right?
and if you like manhwa or would be down for some manhwa recs these are titles i don't see getting recommended enough
concubine walkthrough: a scifi & philosophical spin on the otome isekai genre that asks 'what is reality truly?', 'is your life any less real if you found out all your experiences were a simulation?' and 'what is reality to you?' where protagonist lee yona finds herself stuck in a VR edition of a game she only played once
a wicked tale of cinderella's stepmother: usually when someone wakes up in the body of a villainess, she's the same age as the protagonists. mildred, on the other hand, is stuck in the body of this story's cinderella's stepmother. with no husband and three daughters to take care of, there's only one thing she can really doー build up her daughters' sisterly bonds with one another and make sure they marry into good families (or that they can at least live lives they're happy with)
tricked into becoming the heroine's stepmother: at least mildred got the body of an important character, daisy on the other hand? she's in the body of an NPC you never even see in the story. bright side? this is a story she helped write and after meeting the presently six year old protagonist's father, she and father of the year decide to team up for the ultimate mission: making sure his daughter never meets any of the love interests
inso's law: ham dan-i is in a bit of a pickle when she wakes up and her new school uniform is completely different than the one her mom bought weeks ago. there's a drop dead gorgeous girl next door who claims to be her childhood best friend. even worse, like something straight out of a drama, there are four heavenly kings that rule her school. by the end of the day, dan-i has no other choice but to accept the fact........ her real life has somehow turned into a web novel. even worse, she's a side characterー the main character's best friend
webtoons
plum: in a world where fruit stacking is a major sport, little plum decides to be the very best like no one ever was and moves to the big city to compete in the fruit stacking games along with making some friends and rivals along the way
webtoons that are probably popular enough if they have hardcover copies at my local bookstore but i wanna talk about it anyway
cursed princess club: as the youngest princess of the pastel kingdom, gwendolyn loves her family. her protective papa, her oldest sister maria who often awakes to woodland creatures doing her hair. her older sister lorena who makes flowers bloom with her every step. and her younger brother jamie who's so pretty, he sparkles. and they adore her just as much. but things come to a very reality shattering halt when their father introduces maria, lorena and gwen to blaine, lance and frederick, the princes of the plaid kingdom and gwen overhears frederick call her ugly, something she's never heard in her entire life. somehow, gwen finds comfort in a club full of cursed princesses (and one prince) who teach her how to start loving herself again
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*) receiving an anime adaptation
**) has an an anime series or movie
***) receiving an anime adaptation & contains a story with a plus-sized protagonist that doesn't involve weight loss
#look she's answering#anon#manga recs#seinen#jousei#shoujo#manhwa#otome isekai#children of the sea#hikaru ga shinda natsu#dorohedoro#witch hat atelier#skip and loafer#debu to love to ayamachi to#NANA#uruwashi no yoi no tsuki#hananoi kun to koi no yamai#a bouquet for an ugly girl#concubine walkthrough#a wicked tale of cinderella's stepmother#tricked into becoming the heroine's stepmother#cursed princess club#plum
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You're My Girl (Patrick Hockstetter x Reader)
My IT obsession has been reignited. Specifically my obsession with the Bowers gang. This is an idea I have been sitting on for awhile and I hope you guys enjoy! (This is also the first fic trying out a new format in the top section here so lemme know what you think)
Trigger Warnings: None
Notes: Somewhat out of character Patrick Hockstetter.
"Patrick what the fuck?" I asked him as I opened my window.
I had gotten woken up by him throwing pebbles at my window at 2am on a school night and was absolutely not happy with him.
"What?" He shrugged "How else was I supposed to wake you up?" He asked nonchalantly, I groaned and rolled my eyes.
"Maybe you could have waited until tomorrow after school and not at 2 in the morning" I seethed through gritted teeth, Patrick laughed at this.
"Get dressed" he demanded
"Excuse me?"
"I said get dressed, the boys and I are going to the quarry and I told them you would come with" He said. I sighed, knowing full well I would rather go to the quarry with my boyfriend and his idiot friends then have to listen to my parents argue when my dad finally gets home from his graveyard shift with Butch Bowers.
I peered down at the lanky boy standing in my backyard and nodded
"Give me five" I said before turning back into the room to get dressed.
Once dressed I climbed down the lattice my dad had put up last summer for my moms plants, and hopped down in front of Patrick himself. The kids at school couldn't believe I had began dating Patrick Hockstetter, especially that I had chosen to date him voluntarily.
We have been together 2 years and still get strange looks, especially from the "Losers club", I don't mind though, it may sound cliché as all hell but Patrick is different with me then he is with everyone else, According to him it's because I'm "Real" though I am never 100 percent sure what he means when he says that.
Patrick wrapped his lanky arms around my waste and pulled me in for a kiss, and Patrick being Patrick he shoved his tongue into my mouth, at this point I had accepted that Patrick Hockstetter does not kiss "Normally".
"Yeah, because we came all this way to watch you guys suck face" Said a very peeved Henry Bowers from his place leaning on the Trans am.
Patrick pulled away and flipped him the bird.
"Don't be jealous Bowers" He snickered, throwing an arm around me and leading me to join the rest of the boys at Belch's car.
Henry scoffed and rolled his eyes as he got into his usual shotgun seat in the front. Vic and Belch snickered as they joined henry in the car, Patrick opened his side door and stepped out of the way so I could slide in between him and Vic.
"Malady" He said dramatically bowing and putting his hand out to help me into the car, I giggled and slid in next to Vic. Patrick got in and immediately gathered me in his arms to place me in my usual spot of his lap. Not that he doesn't trust Vic, he just likes to show what's his to any possible passing members of the Losers club as it is well known that quite a few might have a crush on me.
Belch follow the all too familiar roads of Derry until we reached the quarry. The boys one by one piled out of Amy, I went to get out but Patrick grabbed my arm halting me in place until he climbed out of the car.
"What are we even doing here at 2am?" I asked him, The loosers club would all be at home in bed by now along with most of the rest of the town so I didn't see much of a point. Patrick shrugged while closing the car door.
"It was the only time Henry could escape his old man, and all of us were awake anyway so we figured why not" I was almost shocked.
"Wow, the big bad Bowers' gang finally isn't fueled by the thought of bullying little kids" I teased him, He rolled his eyes as we followed the rest of the gang to the edge of the cliff.
We had all been at the quarry for maybe an hour when I heard another car pull up, I turned my focus away from Patrick and the gang and noticed what appeared to be a police car in the darkness.
"Hey hen?" I asked getting nervous.
"Yeah Y/n?" Henry answered, not noticing what I was seeing yet.
"Isn't that your old man?" I asked as I watched a figure get out of the car and make his way over to us, as the figure got closer it was obvious that it was Butch Bowers.
All the boys attention snapped to where I was looking as Butch approached us.
"Well, Well" He started when he was close enough "Look what we have here, It's 3 am on a school night, you kids should be at home" He said looking at Henry "Especially you" I heard him say under his breath when he got close enough to Henry.
Patrick had moved me slightly behind him silently hoping Butch wouldn't notice me, My dad worked with him on the force and surely he would go blabbing off about me hanging around his son and his friends. Patrick also knew what kind of man Butch was and didn't want me anywhere near him.
Butch continued to walk towards us to get closer when I heard his footsteps stop.
"Y/LN?" I heard him question, Shit. I stepped out from behind Patrick so he could see me but I still had the barrier.
"Yes sir?" I asked him, Through the darkness I could see a sick smile stretch across his face.
"Wait until your old man hears about you being out here with four boys at night" He snickered
"She's my girlfriend sir" Patrick spoke up "Not some whore" I nudged Patrick to get him to shut up, Butch Bowers was not one to be talked back too and I didn't want the already bad situation to worsen.
"What was that boy?" Butch asked, getting in Patrick's face, Patrick squared his shoulders and made direct eye contact with Butch.
"Patrick lets just go" I pleaded with him, really not wanting him to get into a fight with Butch Bowers of all people.
"You should listen to her, All you kids should take your asses home and don't let me catch any of you out here this late again" Butch commanded stepping back from Patrick and glancing to Henry.
"Except you boy, You're riding home with me" He said to him before turning back to his Cruiser, I sent Henry a sad glance as he followed behind his father.
Patrick, Belch, Vic and me all briskly walked back to the trans am and piled in. On the way back to our respective houses we were silent, Henry's empty seat being loud enough for all of us, even Patrick was quiet. When we pulled up to my house I got out and then motioned for Patrick to follow, he looked surprised at this.
"My dad won't be back until later this morning, Please pats" I begged, He smiled and nodded following me out of the car and into the house. After what happened with Butch I didn't want to be alone, Belch pulled off as we entered the dark house, He followed me upstairs and right into my bed after getting comfortable, he wrapped his arms around me and I laid my head on his chest.
"You don't have to worry about Butch Bowers baby" He whispered as my eyes were slowly shutting as I drifted off, "I won't let anyone touch you ever, You're my girl"
#patrick hockstetter#slasher x reader#patrick hocksetter x reader#patrick hockstetter x reader#it chapter one#bowers gang#henry bowers#victor criss#belch huggins
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Initial Thoughts on TOMORROW X TOGETHER's The Name Chapter: Freefall
Ok so i just listened to TNC: Freefall in full and damn, okay. Really solid album, sonically. And i say sonically bc i haven't read up on the lyrics just yet (i don't think the eng trans are out yet ☹️)
Am loving how they're showcasing more of their vocals (txt lower register enthusiasts, we are being fed at last 😭) and the whole band/session feels of the music really emphasizes that.
can we take a minute to talk about beomkai's vocals?? bc i really think this might be their era 🥹 and seeing as all of the boys have at least 2 credits to their name in this album, it really feels like this is their sound, and their personal music preferences came through too
i'm on the fence about DILT's inclusion in the album though. we all know it was not a planned track at all but it was a really good opportunity for them to collaborate and have a fun summer track out before headlining lolla 2023.
that said, it just doesn't seem to fit in (at least sonically) in this album. i don't know if moving it higher up in the tracklist would have been better since i haven't read the lyrics yet but sonically, it might have worked more since the more powerful/complex sounding tracks are in the first half, imo
but overall, this album is full of surprises, and very good ones at that!! I'm sure i'll love it even more when i listen to it again but yeah, from the first listen alone, i would recommend this album!!!
Track first impressions under the cut! very raw reactions ahead haha
Track 1: Growing Pain
oh damn gritty TXT ???
LOWER REGISTER LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOO
legitimately gave me goosebumps
EXCUSE ME THE OOH's IN THE CHORUS???? DELICIOUS
H U E N I N G K A I
that's it. that's the thought.
the guitar is so good ugh
ROCK BAND TXT LET'S GOOOOOOO
this will absolutely kill when performed live 😵💫
Track 2: Chasing That Feeling
HERE FOR THE SYNTHS(??)
giving TCHFTG and Blinding Lights by The Weeknd (i love The Weeknd btw)
Yeonjun's voice is so soothing??????
wait is the nod to the TCHFTG instrumentals intentional??????
maybe this is just me but their choreo (based on the MV) looks like it goes so hard but this song feels relatively chill/easy listening (esp compared to their last few title tracks bc sugar rush ride was a doozy to take in) so it seems a bit... off? idk idk
looking forward to a stage/practice vid to come out to appreciate their performance more!
Track 3: Back for More (TXT Ver)
already reacted to this before and ugh so good
HUENINGKAI POPPED OFF IN HIS VERSE UGH
Yeonjun's is also so good
love their adlibs so much 🥹
super interesting to place this track right after Chasing That Feeling 🤔
dance break instrumental and adlibs have my whole heart actually
like i can see them dancing in my head even if i'm just listening
Track 4: Dreamer
oh shit i love the bass already??????
FIRST LINE IN AND I'M IN LOVE ALREADY???
kinda scared to check the lyrics ngl
oh this song is delicious
i can already see all the tiktok edits happening (not necessarily a bad thing for them imo)
ooh shit "let me break it down for you" jdfh;kdjsfb;nsfkja
I LVOE THIS TRACK?????????
WAIT IS TAHT ALL SOOBIN IN THE CHORUS??????????
or is taehyun there too?
the "let me break it down for you" is going to haunt me in my dreams thanks
Track 5: Deep Down
strong start. nice
WTF IS THIS DIRECTION THEY'RE TAKING I LOVE IT????? 😳
yooo the minimal instrumentals in the start was so good
oh it got clubby in the chorus
OH HELL BEOMGYU IN THE CHORUS SHOULD HAVE COME WITH A WARNING (deep down i need you more)
this feels so different from the usual TXT but it works??
okayyyy the trumpet sounding stuff in the outro was a nice touch
Track 6: Happily Ever After
pretty sure i'll cry if i read up the lyrics of this one haha 🥲
oh this track is so smooothhhh in the pre-chorus
oohhh the la la la's are growing on me
it's like happy fools but more refined?????
LOVE the blending/harmonization 😩
GIVE ME ALL THE LAYERED VOCALS @ BIG HIT
SOOBIN I LOVE YOU (outro ver) 🥹😭
Track 7: Skipping Stones
the cymbals? hi-hats? at the start oh god *chef's kiss*
feels like a band session up in here!!!
HUENINGKAI LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO
oh damn beomgyu???
taehyun with the high notes mhmmm
band txt is the future i can see it all so clearly now
LOVE the way they start off each line durign the verses. scratches my brain sooooo good when they give the little oomph then blend it down ugh (sorry idk musical terms)
kinda obsessed with this music already wtf
the female vocals too!!
HUENINGKAI EXTENDED NOTE LET'S FUCKING GOOOO
HE MADE IT SOUND SO EASY?????????????
mhmmm soobin's falsetto
wow
just wow
FUCK ME WITH THOSE OHs AT THE END OF THE SONG GODDAMN
Track 8: Blue Spring
i know we were joking around about band txt but what if it's not a joke anymore bc we've had track after track of band/session sounds and i am not okay anymore
i'm never gonna be normal about this song sorry not sorry
POP OFF HUENINGKAI GODDAMN
what if i cry.....
hmmm the rest of the instrumentals kicking in. so good.
and then they strip it down??? to let the vocals shine????
so so good
COME THROUGH WITH THE DRUMS
soobin's verse with yeonjun's adlibs is what dreams are made of actually
god yeonjun and hueningkai are gonna make me cry
NO FUCKIGN WAY THEY ADDED MORE OF TAEHYUN'S ADLIBS????
STOP THE FUCKING CAR THEY'RE HARMONIZING INT EH CHORUS TOO??????????????
TYUNNING ADLIBS IN THE OUTRO????????????????
MY JAW IS DROPPED AND I CANNOT BREATHEEEEEEEEE
Track 9: Do It Like That
ok yeah ngl the mood shifted dramatically after all the band txt sounds lol
DILT is a cute song but i don't think it makes sense in this album
or at least not in this placement???
i may reconsider if this was a TXT ver lol
or maybe they were thinking about our mental health when they decided to keep it in the album
i would probs be a sobbing mess if tnc: freefall rly just ended with the studio ver of blue spring 🥹
Track 10: Chasing That Feeling (English Ver)
including this here bc why not it's on the tracklist anyway haha
tbh i wasn't feeling this track much from the teasers
but hearing the song in full changed my mind
the build up is good
why does yeonjun's voice sound so good in this genre like how is it soooo good
time's a thief that won't stop stealing -- well damn did i feel that
taehyun our belting star 🥺
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9, 23 for the end of year mem (and 1 because. Yes. must be acknowledged)
meme link / cc'ing shadowsplice because the lot of these concern him lmao
Best month for you this year?
june is a pretty reliable answer most of the time because it's my birth month, but this time around it was framed with catching spiderverse on said birthday + fall out boy live at the end of the month with t and i couldn't really top that. i almost want to say november but honestly the operative word in its case would be memorable lmfao—for the rest of my life i'm gonna have to explain that i began dating my boyfriend two days before i had my fuckin wisdom tooth surgery.
If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be?
in all legitimacy i think if i had the chance to hold a conversation with that me at that point i'd open my mouth and just start laughing. in a temporal prime directive type situation i couldn't hope to divulge as much as i'd like—as much as i'd think would be funny as hell—rather i'd clap myself on the back and inform with absolute unrepentant gusto that i was not coming back from this one. if i wasn't beholden to that... i'm not specifying it here!
Song of the year?
honestly! it's hard to pick! like yeah it's choosing from a bunch of fob tracks lmao but they've each meant something individual to me over the year. honorable mention goes to headfirst slide, which has little to do with the song's content but remains emblematic as a kickstart of several of the year's sentimental throughlines (and fucking owned to hear live, we were convinced we weren't gonna). apart from that it's, either: heaven, iowa—a song whose full significance i'm honestly not sure how to explain without. being extraordinarily roundabout, but which we also heard live, and; it might sound a little ridiculous or even just typical of concertgoing, but. it's hard to describe what it was like getting lost in the sea of the audience to that song, at that time, in particular. it's a junction, a crossed threshold of a song, and it will always be linked to a time and a relationship and a point—firmly centered in this year and the dead of summer desert heat, long after the sun had gone down, the air thrumming, the sky and sanity hazed over with spotlights, those specific circumstances. here we are, untouched, forever.
but on a slightly more personal note, i got a lot of mileage out of coffee's for closers this year, also. it's a song with a lot of significance for spencer, in particular immediately off the back of the Incident & during that lull in time while shiloh's healing and she's just trying to parse it. and i might write an entire essay on how and why, but suffice to say; change lies at the heart of spencer's story, especially her complicated relationship to it. change is not something she makes the habit of dealing in... granted the one notable exception of her transness. so the song itself has fucking nothing to do with that, but i drew the connection regardless.
it was also writing spencer this year that pushed me to start identifying with trans. as an individual and as a character, spencer cannot be excised from a hope for a better future—a participation in the choice for such. so as a song, it's a little uninteresting, ultimately underwhelming on its face, but that one refrain stuck in my craw. change will come. it's couched in a framework of disbelief, an explicit lack of hope—if you aren't in the position to get what you want now, you never will be—but always that inevitability. that inherent contradiction stuck with me, hit much harder than it would have otherwise. i think that strange tone of resignation and naïve cynicism woven with inevitability, the disillusionment & isolation but dense presence of catharsis, functions as a very specific marker of where i was at for most of this year. gonna be one of those tracks that always put me right back where i was at the time i memorized it.
#inbox#echolocating#o7#apologies for writing you a therapy session in response to your ask but uh . WHAT A FUCKIN YEAR#thank you for sending it . OTL
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Dear Creator Letter: Anakin-Clone Appreciation Exchange
Organized as:
General/Setting Likes
Gender Stuff
Setting AUs I like
About the ships
DNW with clarifications
General Likes:
Working with/around PTSD with each other
Asexual or ace-spec characters (doesn’t have to be explicit, just an underlying Vibe is fine)
hurt/comfort (NOT whump)
Generally I like ships being really sweet with each other, even when the sex or kink is rougher
I enjoy pretty much any kind of gender play, including:
Character is now Nonbinary
Trans (in the direction of canon)
Trans (in the direction opposite canon)
Questioning/Experimenting
Fluid
Magic sex swaps of the ‘woke up with my body a different reproductive setup, am learning the meaning of gender euphoria’ variety
Whatever the hell Ranma ½ technically is
Cisswaps (born a different cis gender) so long as it’s not used primarily to turn a same gender ship into a het ship
I do like AUs of all sorts, so long as the core of the character is intact, with vibes to match. This includes:
Time-travel, fix-its
Arranged/political marriage
Soulmate AU
Background or role swap AUs
Omegaverse (WITHOUT exaggerated omegaverse sexism or cissexism at all, and without mild/moderate sexism or cissexism as major plot points)
Modern AU
- chill bakery/coffee shop/bookstore/beekeeper stuff
- classy criminal playing cat and mouse with the FBI agent trying to catch them
- “oh no, you’re my teenager’s English teacher and this parent-teacher conference just got very awkward because we started dating over the summer before I knew”
- one of them is a celebrity
- literally just whatever
Historical Fantasy (mostly for the fashion and/or if the author gets really invested in things like trade routes and agricultural pressures and inane tax law)
History AU, but only if you go the Bridgerton route of Fun And Funky Tropes Without The Racism
Royal Fantasy
Soulmate
Role Swap (does not have to be between the ship!)
Backstory swap (e.g. Never a Jedi AU, Raised a Sith AU, Senator of Tatooine AU, etc.)
For Want of a Nail
Faustian Castle AU
ABOUT THE SHIPS
These are not prompts! These are just me trying to explain why/how I ship them, the vibes I usually go for, or the kinks I associate with them.
Cody&Anakin or Cody/Anakin
I think Cody is tentatively respectful and unimpressed by Anakin. I've got a whole post about it.
Rex&Anakin, Rex/Anakin, and Rex/Cody/Anakin
I don't think Rexwalker needs much explanation. We all know the draw there. As for Codexwalker... I need them to share him. I need Anakin flustered. I need Rex flustered. I need Cody laughing at them.
Any given mix of Anakin with Fives, Echo, and Hardcase
A ship of shenanigans! I do want Fives and Echo treated as a set whenever possible. Doesn't matter if they're both dating Anakin, or if one is dating him and the other is wingmanning like kingdom come, just need them to be A Set.
Fox&Anakin or Fox/Anakin
Reluctance, suspicion, and a slow growth of trust is the name of the game. Fox is so very guarded and he is JUST as unimpressed by Anakin's nonsense as Cody, but with far less cause or inclination to trust or develop affection for Anakin.
Rex&Vader or Rex/Vader
Bring that boy back to the light, baby.
Kix/Anakin or Kix&Anakin
Not too grumpy of a medic, please. He's soft-spoken in canon, yeah? Also I like the idea that Kix is eager to prove himself to Anakin in non-medical settings. He's already proven himself as a medic! Let him prove his kissing skills!
Alpha-17/Anakin
Alpha is challenging Anakin to prove himself. He is even less impressed than Cody. He is mean about it. I'm not sure if he'll ever like Anakin, but he might tolerate him long enough to have a grudging fondness after Anakin manically destroys a walker that was about to crush him or something.
Regarding my unwanted list/clarification on my DNWs
DNW that don’t need much elaboration:
incest (cloneshipping is fine)
bestiality
minor/adult ships
- age difference of less than three years is fine
- major age difference where both are adults is fine
Reader inserts, major inclusion of original characters
Lower body fluids (talking about blood or saliva is fine; excrement is not), vomit
Sick fic (injury recovery is fine)
IDK I just get nothing out of most sick fic
Non-canon Dark Histories meant only to make someone more sympathetic or pitiable (e.g. especially Rape as Backstory)
Downer endings (includes breakups that are not resolved)
Smoking/cigarettes/alcohol/recreational drug use
General sexism or bigotry as a major theme, or from one member of the ship to the other, as well as bigotry-based dirty talk
Moderate to extreme sexism or cissexism for omegaverse
anti-intersexuality bias, usage of 'intersex’ for dualsex (they’re not the same thing)
Misgendering
Particularly dark topics, including:
- Noncon
- major character death (I’m fine with “Tarkin died and that sure is impacting the war” but “the main character’s younger sister just died and the plot revolves around the grief” is a bit much)
- underage sexual content
- adultery/infidelity
- whump
- unresolved terminal illness
- suicide
- self-harm
- domestic abuse
- child abuse
To keep things simple, no nsfw for this one
Basic character/setting things:
Werewolf or folklore AUs.
No character bashing. I know the event already has this as a rule, but I want to make sure it's clear that I don't want ANYONE bashed, not just Anakin and the clones.
- By this, I mean vilifying them based on negative fanon or otherwise non-canon actions or behaviors (e.g. Anakin mind-controlling Padme into a relationship), or stories that prioritize punishing a character for their narrative crimes in the plot, especially in a way that is inconsistent with the setting or characters doing the punishment (e.g. Padme or the Jedi being incredibly harsh with Anakin about the Tusken Massacre, despite Padme moving past it easily in canon, and the Jedi displaying extreme forgiveness and providing rehabilitation to other characters that Fall, like Quinlan).
-The whole Anakin/Consequences movement is one that I dislike immensely. If you don’t know what it is, you’re probably not doing it. If you do know what it is, then you know what I mean here.
- It is very common/popular to write Qui-Gon as a neglectful, cold, or downright abusive caregiver/parent figure to the children in his care. I do not like this in the slightest.
For some reason, a lot of writers are very casual about violating a character’s bodily autonomy “for their own good.” I don’t like this (unless it’s horror, but that’s a different topic), and ask that you refrain from having characters do something like that for a person’s own good unless there are some massive extenuating circumstances. Please, for the love of god, do not have characters nonconsensually drug each other with sleeping pills as an act of care unless it's meant to be a sign of how dark and fucked up they are. Like, if Vader is drugging someone 'for their own good,' that's one thing, but...
I’m pro-Jedi and pro-New Mandos. I do not want anything that suggests they:
- deserved what happened to them
- needed to change or learn to accept more militant values/that attachment is good
- were stealing/brainwashing children or engaging in cultural genocide
- Traviss-style Mando Supremacy is a no-go
- This isn’t technically a DNW because it’s too difficult for the mods to enforce, but I’m not a huge fan of large amounts of Mando'a. If it makes sense for a scene (as in, characters are speaking Basic to one another and would include Mando'a for contextually necessary reasons) or has connotations that can’t be translated, then sure, but dropping in “ad'ika” or “gar gai” every few lines grates on me. Translation convention, please!
I do like the True Mandos but please don’t lionize them.
I have minimal interest in the Original Trilogy and no interest in the Sequels; my mind is squarely in the Prequels and pre-canon era.
- That said, I do delight in having baby versions of the characters present; I am always open to toddler Skywalker twins cameo.
- I’m not very into the Bad Batch. Cameos are fine.
No Barr*ssoka. No, not even as a background thing.
No Cod*wan. No, not even as a background thing. Preferably, no Jedi Master/Clone ships at all, but especially not Obi-Wan/Clones. (Knight/Clones is fine).
No Master/Padawan. I have exceptions when reading, but for an exchange, I’d prefer not to have any in my gift.
Vilifying Padme in the process of explaining why she isn’t with Anakin. She can be an ex, they could be in an open relationship, they could have not gotten in a relationship at all and just stayed friends, I don’t care, just… be nice about her.
The suggestion that Padme was mind-controlled into loving Anakin.
If you write Rebellion/OT setting versions of the ships, please don’t go hard on the clones being Old.
The word wh*re is considered a slur among many sex workers, and while I’m not among that category, I feel uncomfortable seeing it in contexts that don’t really justify it. If it’s a matter of characterization, to signify a character is a bad person, or part of a rougher underground community where it’s an in-group term, or a period setting, that’s one thing, but just as a part of dirty talk or an accusation or teasing? No, no thank you.
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Trans masc Dom Dom 4-1
Dominik had 2 Summerslam matches before this but he still hadn’t won at ‘the biggest party of the summer’ and Dominik desperately wanted that win here. Dominik had his very first match ever in the WWE at Summerslam where he was beaten brutally by Seth Rollins and lost, his second appearance at Summerslam was for the Smackdown tag team titles where he and his father lost to one of the greatest tag teams ever in the Uso’s. Dominik was angry that he even had to fight The Judgment Day, Dom and his father had already beaten them but his father wanted to get some payback after Damian put him through a table and Rhea kicked his injured arm. As Dominik got ready for the match Rey entered the room wearing the matching attire with some sponsor on it like he does a lot. “Hey mija-o I came to check on you. Are you ready this is a big match?” Rey asked with a bit of concern and Dom nodded, not really noticing that Rey accidentally misgendered him. “Look you know that Rhea girl is a problem right you think you can handle her? It’s more like a 3 vs 2 match because it’s no dq.” Rey put his hand on Dominiks shoulder. “Yeah we got this, we already beat them papa.” Dom said back to Rey affirmingly, and Rey just gave Dom a smile back. “Alright let’s go!” The Judgment Day had made their entrance first as they were clad in black as they normally were, then out came Dominik and Rey came out fast paced and covered in yellow and red even dominik thought they looked silly like walking McDonald's signs and as Dominik thought The Judgment Day clearly weren’t happy to see them. The second Rey and Domink got in the ring they were being attacked and the match was underway, even though at first The Judgment Day were handling Rey and Dom the father son duo quickly got back on their feet and gained control of the match. Damian, Finn and Rhea seemed extra giddy to teach Dom a lesson every time he was in the ring, they mocked him, harassed him and beat the shit out of him. Dominik after what felt like hours of him getting the hell beaten out of him finally gets an opening and tags in his father which got a louder response than Dominik had ever gotten. Rey took no time as he started to get the advantage on Finn but Damian was not having it entering the ring and double teaming the much smaller man, luckily for Rey, Dominik was not far behind and made it an even fight even setting up the dual 619 but before they could do it Rhea grabbed both their legs and dragged just Dom out of the ring at once. “Stupid, stupid boy!” Rhea said as Rey and Dominik hit the ground but before Dom could react Rhea had him on her shoulders and slammed him face first into the ring apron and Rey had been chokeslammed by Damian things were looking real bad then music started playing. It was Edge the former leader of The Judgment Day and more importantly one of Rey’s best friends comes in and spears Damian and Finn before Rey and Dom get in the dual 619 and get a win over The Judgment Day.
#rhea ripley#the judgement day#wwe#damian priest#dominik mysterio#finn balor#alternate universe#transgender#lgbtq#polyamory#rey mysterio#adam copeland
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You wanted it, you're getting it! Praise//degradation prompt!
I can't get them out of my brain now... Summer/Ziggy(/Dillon) <3
"Such a gorgeous little kitten, fucking yourself on Mommy's cock like that. You know you look like a goddamn whore, don't you, babygirl...?"
I fucking love you, Estel. /plat
Important note! Dillon is still part of the relationship, he's just at a training session with Scott and K. Also featuring trans!Ziggy.
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Summer hums, leaning back on the bed. She's completely naked except for the straps over her hips that hold the yellow strap-on cock Ziggy had asked for. "You've been a naughty kitten, haven't you?"
It's not a question and they both know it. Ziggy's been a brat all day, teasing the hell out of Summer and Dillon both. Ziggy knows why he's on the floor with a gag in his mouth, he knows why he hands are tied up, Ziggy knows why he's being punished. It's what he wanted and Summer's happy to deliver. She smirks, lifting a hand and curling her fingers towards herself, bidding the youngest Ranger up onto the bed.
Ziggy whimpers, looking hopeful, and quietly crawls up the bed with a muffled mrrow.
"You're usually such a good boy, Ziggy, what happened?" Summer asks, mock disappointed. Then she chuckles softly. "Oh, I know the answer to that, don't I?" she asks rhetorically. "You wanted attention, didn't you?"
Ziggy sheepishly nods, blinking slowly. Summer can feel the apology rolling off of him in waves. He's not sorry he did it - Ziggy's never sorry that he was a tease. He's just sorry he can't be more of one while Summer's on the bed. Ziggy really wants Summer to flip him over and fuck him hard. It's what he always wants when he teases with no real purpose. Summer won't let that happen tonight, not this time.
"Here's what you're gonna do, kitten," Summer says, shuffling her body around until she lays flat on the bed. She hums, running her hands up and down her body. Ziggy's eyes follow the trails her hands down her skin. "You're gonna ride me until I'm satisfied. If you're a good kitty, Mommy might let you come. If you're not," she trails off. She doesn't need to finish that sentence for Ziggy to take her meaning.
Ziggy whimpers. He climbs up and fits his pretty hole over Summer's cock. Summer moans, feeling the insert press against her g-spot. Ziggy slide down her cock under he's seated against her pelvis, sitting up straight and tall, like he knows she likes. "Mm, that's it, pretty kitty," Summer breathes, pushing up into him a few times. Ziggy's moan is muffled by the gag, but Summer doesn't mind a bit. She loves him all trussed up and bound. His wrists flex, fingers bending against her stomach like cat claws. Ziggy stutters out a moan. Summer reads his plea of his face like she does her opponents on the battlefield. Pushing that thought away, Summer settles in with a pleased sigh. "Go on, kitty," she says. "You'll know when I'm satisfied, won't you?"
Ziggy whimpers, then flexes his hips and grinds down. Summer makes a little noise, happy her kitten is obeying orders. Ziggy lets out these little cat-like chirps as Summer's cock brushes his sweet spot. He gets faster the longer he goes, growing bold, growing desperate.
Summer's already close herself. "Ah," she moans, pushing up into Ziggy's next downward thrust. "Yeah, like that. Oh, yeah." She moans, fucking up into Ziggy in earnest. "Oh, yeah, just like that. Such a gorgeous little kitten, fucking yourself on Mommy's cock like that." Ziggy whines. Summer reaches up and grabs Ziggy's shoulders, pulling down as she pushes up. Ziggy yelps around the gag, spurring Summer onwards, orgasm creeping up on her and settling in her gut. "Good boy," Summer gasps, "you know you look like a goddamn whore, don't you, baby boy?"
Ziggy whines. Summer faintly hears him beg, "Please!"
"Don't you dare," she snarls, chasing her pleasure from Ziggy's body. "Don't you dare come before me, baby boy." Ziggy let's out a guttural moan, head tilting back and eyes falling shut as Summer nails his sweet spot again. The sound coupled with the sight of Ziggy's pleasure tosses Summer off the edge. She moans, grinding up into Ziggy as she rides out her orgasm. Collapsing back, she blows out a long breath, humming a little as her slick cools on her thighs. "Mm, good boy," she praises.
Ziggy whimpers, half-formed pleas for attention, for more, falling off his lips. Summer smirks, she's still thrumming with energy, the teasing still at the forefront of her mind. She wants Ziggy to think twice before he teases like that again. Half wishing Dillon could be there to use Ziggy's hole, Summer makes up her mind. "You know what, kitten?" she asks. "I'm gonna put that mouth of yours to good use." With that, she effortlessly flips them so Ziggy's on his back and gently pulls out. Unbuckling the strap-on and tossing it off the bed to fall to the floor, Summer climbs up to Ziggy's head and undoes his gag. Ziggy barely has the gag out before Summer's pressing her clit to his mouth, demanding, "Suck, kitty. Be good for me, won't you?"
Ziggy's submission is her pleasure. His little whine as Summer grinds against his tongue is music to her ears.
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@estel-eruantien
#power rangers#power ranger rpm#ask#mutuals#estel eruantien#thanks estel!#mad writes#ask game#nsft#smut prompts#writing prompts#dom/sub
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all of them. unless you're uncomfortable with any
01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
only with my mom
02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?
I last said I love you to panda
03: Do you regret anything?
yep, lots of things
04: Are you insecure?
hell yeah, plenty to not like about me but that’s the anxiety talking
05: What is your relationship status?
taken
06: How do you want to die?
quickly, calmly
07: What did you last eat?
hamburbur
08: Played any sports?
play soccer mainly, but dabbled around
09: Do you bite your nails?
unless I paint them, yes
10: When was your last physical fight?
fourth grade
11: Do you like someone?
yeah, I’m dating them
12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?
yep
13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?
I hate actions not people, unless the action is unjustifiable. So like, Israeli military and my dad
14: Do you miss someone?
I miss my moots in a way of ‘we never met but I want you here way’
15: Have any pets?
yep, always lived with dogs
16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?
really shitty
17: Ever made out in the bathroom?
nope, never even kissed someone
18: Are you scared of spiders?
nah, they’re little guys
19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
nope, might get killed legally
20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?
haven’t yet
21: What are your plans for this weekend?
take a fucking break
22: Do you want to have kids? How many?
maybe, all I know is I want to adopt
23: Do you have piercings? How many?
none, but I want basic earibgs
24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?
anything art related or english
25: Do you miss anyone from your past?
no, I left them for a reason
26: What are you craving right now?
sleep and cuddles
27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
yeah,,,,, I didn’t want to hurt them but I’m not going to date someone I don’t like back. It’s not fair.
28: Have you ever been cheated on?
nope
29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
I believe so, but we were being sweet and it was a while ago
30: What’s irritating you right now?
school
31: Does somebody love you?
yes
32: What is your favourite color?
red
33: Do you have trust issues?
yes
34: Who/what was your last dream about?
Me, someone was trying to kill me
35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my teacher when asking for stock footage
36: Do you give out second chances too easily?
I think but also everyone deserves a new chance
37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive
38: Is this year the best year of your life?
don’t know, still growing
39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?
haven’t had one
40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
when I was like one
51: Favourite food?
Cheese quesadillas
52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
yeah, why else would they happen
53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
hug my mom
54: Is cheating ever okay?
only on tests that don’t matter much
55: Are you mean?
playfully mean
56: How many people have you fist fought?
three
57: Do you believe in true love?
yes
58: Favourite weather?
summer rain
59: Do you like the snow?
YES
60: Do you wanna get married?
yes
61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
yeah, I love pet names
62: What makes you happy?
a lot of things
63: Would you change your name?
yes, I did
64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
no? I kissed my mom on the check and I’ll do it again
65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
(well as a trans male) if I was single and liked them then maybe but usually I just say I’m not interested and run off embarrassed
66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
not really
67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Inka
68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
my mom
69: Do you believe in soulmates?
yes
70: Is there anyone you would die for?
no, but there plenty of people I’d live for
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okay let’s dive into this religious trauma lol it’s Brand New and I haven’t articulated it before and would love any advice or guidance bc I can’t afford therapy rn lololol
idk
Ok I grew up in a SUPER evangelical area like kids would stay home from school on Halloween and nobody was allowed to read Harry Potter… that kind of place. All the businesses would close on Sundays, you get it.
My dad actually wasn’t religious until I was 7 years old and he was Born Again and got EMBARRASSINGLY into it
I went to church every Sunday and like a Bible club every Wednesday where we no joke just memorized Bible verses and practiced proselytizing
My parents became missionaries and I spent a lot of my childhood practicing Religious Imperialism in Guatemala
I knew from a young age it was Wrong to be gay (trans wasn’t even in my vocab)
My family was REALLY in the Spiritual stuff which I still believe in because I saw these things happen but am trying to wrap my head around what the actual context might have been: possessions, real life miracles, stuff involving spirits and demons
Two important things happened when I was 14 which were a HUGE basis for the rest of my life:
1. I heard the word “transgender” for the first time. I looked it up and IMMEDIATELY knew that was me but had a HUGE freak out because I thought I would go to hell and I couldn’t lose my family so I immediately decided to repress it which I successfully did for another 6-7 years
2. I had a Religious Breakdown and was like “why am I doing all this bullshit do I even believe in it??” and then I swear to god (hehe god) I suddenly felt the Holy Spirit inside me. Like I’ve felt it since and I can’t describe it but it’s a serious light and presence inside me and I still honestly don’t know what else could explain the feeling
Anyway are these two things related who knowssss
Anyway I kept it up, walking the walk, talking the talk, pushing myself WAY more into femininity
In the first year of college I started IDing as non-binary just to give my still-repressed inner boy SOME relief
By this point I was SO over the proselytizing imperialistic aspects of Christianity but was still 100% in it for the spiritual elements
That summer I started working at a Christian summer camp full time for $100 a week (yeah, and they pressured us to donate some of that back to the camp) and it became my entire fucking personality I ate, slept, and breathed Jesus
I kept working there a few more years. I remember when the Pulse nightclub shooting happened my boss asked me to lead a prayer and I first of all had no idea why I was the one they asked lol but I also felt NOTHING about what had happened. (This memory terrifies me to this day)
At no time during any of this, did anyone tell me it was bad to be gay or trans. I just… had absorbed it all so much from my childhood that I kept pushing the narrative inside myself
A few years passed, I kept going to church and Bible studies, but I started to clear from some of that culty fog. Also my family was a lot less overtly religious at this point? My dad became a total asshole (that’s another post lol) and that kind of Killed the Jesus Mood there
I finally admitted I was trans and dug up those repressed feelings and WOW did I feel sick for what I’d done to myself for years when my identity was RIGHT FUCKING THERE
anyway I came out socially pretty quickly but was still kind of hush hush about it around home but also ASSUMED my family knew at this point, like they have eyes right?? (I was living back with my mom for Family Reasons and was sharing a room with my little sister omg ugh)
I kept going to church and listening to my Christian Music that I swore made me feel the Holy Spirit through all of this
People would give me Looks all the time and I probably was imagining like half of them at least but it still wasn’t a great vibe
I ended up moving to China and was able to find a Secret Illegal evangelical church to go to (THAT’S an entire other post) and I got really involved in the community there and at one point one of the church leaders was praying for me and asked god to like cure me of the confusion in my head and come back to my true identity or some bullshit??? that was so fucking jarring to me I never went back
I’ve started feeling more strongly about my weird feelings since then (that was like 5 years ago?) and haven’t gone to church since then but still tried to keep up the more spiritual aspects like prayer and reading the Bible. I’d go to church when I visited my family and would be fine talking to my mom about more spiritual stuff like prayer and following the Holy Spirit, etc.
My enthusiasm has been fading over time but I kept hanging on to “well I feel the Holy Spirit so this all must be real even though modern Christianity is so perverted from the true tradition but I still love Jesus so I’ll keep following him on my own even though churches suck”
And now pretty recently I’ve been like “okay actually no there are a lot of fucked up people who call themselves Christians and are just evil. I’ve been so hurt by Christianity throughout my life to the point that I denied my OWN identity for years without even being told to. I’ve definitely got some trauma to unpack”
And NOW super recently I have like palpably negative emotional reactions when I see anyone talking about Christianity or my mom mentions she’s gonna be praying for me or something. Like it seems like whatever trauma I have is getting worse??
I’d love to Get Over It…
ALSO if I ever told my mom how I’d feel she’d be so fucking disappointed in me bc she’s been drinking that kool aid her whole life and I CANNOT have my mom disappointed in me lol even though I’m pretty sure my siblings have similar feelings to me about religion
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Happy Pride Month Chat!!!!
AUGH I love this pride month since I know who I am for now! That’s always convenient! /Gen
I’m gonna be sappy under the cut. Feel no obligation to read I just love pride and I get emotion. HAPOY PRIDE MOTNH GUYS AND CHAT!!!
Last year was absolutely dookie in terms of like, my entire year, especially the summer- and what did not help at all I think was starting to question my sexuality and my gender at the same time. During the month of June.
That is when now, as a totally mature one-year-older, I realize that the expectation I was putting on myself last year was very unfair to me! I felt like I needed a label that would dignify my fluid sense of self, like I needed to contain that gooey mess of gobblygook in a cardboard box. Obviously, that did not work.
I realize now that I am a very inconsistent person. I change every day, every minute and every hour. I have grown to adore that part of myself and have taken away certain restricting labels or just. Added some that give me a little breathing room! For example, I used to identity as transmasc. Well shit, I don’t think I’m masc most of the time. Hell, most of the time I am a flamboyant piece of gay garbage and I wear dresses and I am FIXATED ON THIS MAROON DRESS I FOUND AT DILLARDS AND I WANT TO WEAR IT TO PROM SO BAD AND I
But I just identify as simply Trans now, because I like to acknowledge that obviously I am not Cis, but I’m not a man. I could be. I could not be. That’s not up for the courts to decide and god doesn’t even know. Shit sometimes I don’t even identify as trans. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I’m like wow, what a fine normal Cis boy going about his daily life looking like if mike wheeler’s dad was just a little gayer. As I said it’s all subject to change and I love it.
Last giant paragraph I’m gonna write at 6:29 am on our lord’s June First is about my aromanticism.
Listen to me. I want to put the flag in my mouth. I LOVE THE FLAG SO MUCH. LITERALLY LOOK AT IT THE GREEN THE GREY THE BLACK THE EVERYTHING. GGHUUUUAGHJJJHHHHH.
Okay okay fr. The journey to my wonderful aromantic self was wayyyy harder than it needed to be. I think that in itself makes me appreciate that part of my identity so much more than I appreciate the other parts. Cause I mean, thank god I live in a relatively accepting(?) conservative area, cause when I came out as trans in ye olde sixth grade, people didn’t really question it and I only really had to fight with my health teacher this past year! And that god damn English teacher, yeah, fuck her. No one really even challenges my aromanticism that much cause it’s not as obvious as pronouns or gender- but just that year long agonizing rock climb I had to do last year to figure out that I wasn’t obligated to romantic love makes me so appreciative of myself for sticking through and just. BEING.
And sometimes it makes me sad when people categorize aromantics as the “LOVE IS DEAD” and “IM A LONE WOLF AND I HATE ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS” people cause ! That is not me bro! I freaking love romantic relationships I watched Our Flag Means Death and I cried too many times to talk about! And there is absolutely no shame in being an aromantic that has that attitude, but aghhghrhh stereotypes. Aromanticism is a spectrum like anything else. If you’re aromantic, I love you and your identity. Platonically of course. Was that funny
Okay. Okay I should wrap this up
I just love the el gee bee tee community. It’s so cool how people find their identity on purpose and just fucking own it.
Have a happy pride month if you read this novel length spiel, and don’t let some insolent fucko have a say in your identity. Slay!
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any other trans man started feeling more comfortable with being feminine the moment they accepted their identity?
Before I knew my gender, I hated the idea of skirts and dresses, now I'm like "hell yeah, it is hot boy summer, bring those pink skirts here and let's go watch Barbie"
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I looooove your zukka rec lists! I recently became Avatar-obsessed, never got a chance to watch it as a kid and only just got through it all! I was wondering if you'd consider doing a specifically angst rec list? I love fluffy zukka everything, but sometimes you just gotta have your heart ripped out of your chest and put back in after being thoroughly blended.
thank you! i relate heavily to “recently became Avatar-obsessed” haha. as for the angst list, i sure can try! warning: all of these have happy endings because im a crybaby who can’t read unhappy endings. also, p much all of the fics in the completed section were featured on my other lists but this is specifically the ANGSTY ones >:^)
angsty zukka wips
first, most obviously, feels like we only go backwards by @oldpotatoe
-currently at 102k with 19/27 chapters posted; rated teen
-the amnesia fic. the amnesia fic. the amnesia fic. you know. i haven’t actually read it yet because, as previously mentioned, i’m a crybaby and am waiting for it to finish up but, from my understanding, this fic will murder you in a dark alleyway with no remorse. if u like zukka angst, you’ve probably already read this, but just in case!
An injury leaves Sokka with amnesia. His last memory is of the failed invasion, of leaving his father behind in enemy territory on the Day of Black Sun. Of hopelessness. Rage. // But then he wakes up, and the war is over. Suddenly, he must come to terms with the fact that years have passed, and that he's somehow the Southern Water Tribe Ambassador to the Fire Nation. He is also supposedly friends with banished-Prince-turned-Fire-Lord Zuko, of all people. Close friends.
Yeah, nah.
and i’ll do anything you say (if you say it with your hands) by @goldrushzukka
-currently 38k with 6/8 chapters posted; rated mature
-holy shit. holy SHIT. modern au based on the “my cat likes my fuckbuddy and i am falling in love” trope(?). maybe it’s just because of how the last chapter ended, but oh my god. this one made me cry. made me want to commit violence. when it’s not angsty as hell, it’s pretty funny, but holy shit. ao3 user nebulastucky please.
It’s supposed to be a one night stand. Pick up some guy at a bar, barely remember his name and never learn anything real about him, send him packing in the morning with a thanks for the ride and a cup of coffee to-go. That’s how it’s supposed to go. // But then it’s the best sex Sokka has ever had, and he thinks he’ll hate himself if he never gets to have it again.
Violet Blossoms and Celestial Objects by @hollypunkers
-currently 15k with 2/? posted. rated teen.
-this is the sequel to blue (an angsty, zukka rewrite of book 2-- go read it if u havent!)! !! this is a book 3 rewrite. only two chapters in and mrs hollypunkers is really abusing the miscommunication tag, as zukka writers seem to enjoy doing. im excited to see how the world and story develops with the changes to the story! you should be too!! its very good! obviously spoilers for blue lmao
Having sided with the Avatar in Ba Sing Se, Zuko not only must navigate his new relationship with Sokka but returning to the Fire Nation as a banished enemy. His own journey of self discovery and personal growth must now coexist alongside the personal struggles of every other member of the Gaang as together they blaze a treacherous path toward an unsure victory against Zuko's own father and nation.
breakable heaven by @fruitysokka
-currently 71k with 9/11 chapters posted. rated teen
-swt ambassador zuko! soon to be chief sokka! fake dating ur best friend to get out of an arranged marriage! what could go wrong!!! i also haven’t read this one ((see: i’m a crybaby who is being hurt by too many zukka wips already)), but it has been hanging out in my marked for later for months. from what i understand, this fic has: angst.
With his twenty-first birthday looming just around the corner, the Southern Water Tribe Elders have decided that Sokka, next in line to be Chief, needs to get married. Sokka does not want that, but he does need to get them off his back until he can figure his way out of it. What better way to do that than to pretend to date his best friend (and newly minted Ambassador to the Southern Water Tribe) Zuko? // Seriously, this is a foolproof plan. Maybe one of Sokka's best. Absolutely nothing can go wrong.
angsty zukka fics (completed!)
(i’ll put these in wc order)
lighthouse beam by @incorrectzukka
-7k, rated g
-a modern college au!! zuko’s inner-monologue is very angsty in this fic. typical zuko. also per usual, theyre both fucking dorks. they sort themselves out in the end, but not before The Angst. zuko is semi-deaf in this fic and also he has a bit of internalized homophobia.
Sokka’s breathtakingly beautiful and he’s smart and makes other people laugh. Zuko has a half-burnt face and a deaf ear. It’s not rocket science. // Or, Zuko falls in love with the boy in his Philosophy class.
This Isn’t My Idea of Fun by @khaleeseas
-9k, explicit
-moon spirit/nwt prince!sokka, no war to be found here! admittedly this isnt THAT angsty but like. the angst IS present. zuko is still the prince. a lovely childhood friends (though they hated each other for a minute haha) to lovers story.
If you asked Zuko, he and Azula saw far too much of Chief Hakoda of the Northern Water Tribe’s children growing up. It wasn’t until they were older, and Azula pointed out that - duh - their families were trying to set them all up, that he realized why. // He was told by his mother to be polite. These people were their friends and allies, and though their nations were as different as they came, harmony between nations was the most important thing. // It wasn’t his fault the Chief’s children were so annoying.
put your lips close to mine (as long as they don’t touch) by @celestialceci
-9k, teen
-modern au! zuko and sokka are college roommates. zuko goes to spend the summer with sokka. again,, not really that angsty but-- its there!! the detail and feeling of Home in this story make me happy. zuko is insecure as hell here too. if ur into that.
Zuko hates his home. He likes college alright, but he likes Sokka even better, his assigned roommate turned best friend. Spending the summer with Sokka will be fun, a welcome change of pace he desperately wants. It probably won't awaken anything in him... right?
the thing about dancing by anodymalion
-9k, teen
-yes. this one right here officer. it makes my heart ache. also trans sokka! which is cool. but the zuko angst in this one. hurts me. not so much relationship angst as it is zuko learning he deserves happiness angst. i’m sure u know The Type.
The first time a attendant spills Zuko’s tea and doesn’t immediately fall to her knees, begging the Fire Lord’s forgiveness, it is not anger but a resounding warmth that fills his chest.
i could (never) give you peace by @zukkababey
-10k, mature
-OUCH. OUCH OUCH OUCH. boys please learn to communicate im begging u. also zuko.. zuko, dude. as the tags of the fic say, hes “really going through it” in this one. YOUCH. post-canon.
Zuko almost said it. He almost said the words I think I’m in love with you, but he choked them back down at the last second. // Zuko would never be able to be what Sokka wanted. They might have needed each other during the summer, when two boys with too much weight on their shoulders found comfort in each other in the only way they knew how. // But now Zuko was Fire Lord, and Sokka was leaving.
this love burns so yellow (becoming orange and in its time, exploding) by @meliebee
-18k, teen, major character death
-i lied. THIS is the one, officer. found family.. good mai and zuko and toph friendships.. . ozai escapes prison and tries to overthrow zuko. OBVIOUSLY angst ensues. poor boy. he Does heal in this but it gets worse before it gets better. angst angst angst angst.
Ten months after Zuko is crowned at seventeen, he faces his first coup.
Anything for You by beersforqueers
-23k, explicit
-istg. this is probably one of my favorite zukka fics. its PAINFUL. modern au where theyre broken up but sokka hasnt told his family yet so zuko goes home with him for kataang wedding. a bit smutty, but the plot oh my god ohgm y fuvk. made me cry the first time i read it. (see: crybaby!me) insert that one picture of the horse with the caption PAIN.
In which Sokka and Zuko have broken up but Sokka hasn't told his family yet. So when Katara and Aang's wedding weekend rolls around and he doesn't want to break Gran-Gran's heart, he asks Zuko to pretend to be his boyfriend for one last weekend. // Things don't go as planned.
Moving Mountains by @thefangirlingdead
-64k, mature
-so. when i read this the first time it was in one sitting. soulmate au set within canon era / the comics, to an extent. soulmates can hear each others thoughts. i will happily say this is slowburn, jesus christ. champagne without the cham.
Soulmates are chosen by the spirits and can hear each other’s thoughts. Sokka thinks it’s cheesy and dumb. Zuko thinks it’s poetic justice that he doesn’t have one because he doesn’t deserve it. Cruel irony is finding out that the prince of the Fire Nation (and the person currently hunting you) is your soulmate.
In the Soft Light by @voidcenturyscholar and @romancedawning
-83k, teen, graphic depictions of violence
-moon spirit!sokka living in the northern water tribe. zuko is sent to the northern water tribe as a cultural liaison. iroh is the fire lord but while he is away taking care of lu ten after his injury ozai steps up. i cannot express how many emotions this fic made me feel. background yuetara. i would almost say found family?? but. anyway. plenty of angst to spare here with a healthy dose of enemies to friends to lovers.
As the newly appointed cultural liaison to Northern Water Tribe, Zuko is the first Fire Nation Citizen to step foot inside the city's walls in nearly a century. He's determined to prove himself—to the Fire Lord and to his father—even if the Water Tribe's spirit-touched prince seems to want nothing to do with him.
That Midnight Sky by @zukkababey
-103k, teen
-now now now. tms... modern college au where sokka agrees to tutor zuko in physics because zuko has to maintain straight a’s and physics is just not doing it for him. so. thats cool but THEN azula moves in, randomly, with zuko. to hide the fact that sokka is tutoring zuko, they fake date! what could go wrong!! the mutual pining in here combined with the angst... wonderful, tasty. everyone read it rn. also SLOWBURN
In Zuko’s strict family, needing a tutor is just about the worst thing you could do. Failing a class, however, is even worse. The only rational solution? Take up Aang on his offer to find him a physics tutor and have Sokka—beautiful, smart, handsome Sokka—tutor him in secret. // When Azula’s arrival threatens to reveal Zuko’s secret, it’s up to Sokka to convince her this definitely isn’t what it looks like. See, he’s actually… Zuko’s… boyfriend? // Hmm. There’s no way this could get complicated, right?
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Destiel Trope Collection 2021 | Day 6: Firsts
24 fics under the cut
Sometimes Things Just Work Out | @vampamber
Rating: General
Word Count: 1,027
Main Tags/Warnings: arranged marriage, angel Cas, royalty AU, mistaken identities
Summary: Castiel is not looking forward to being forced to marry this Prince Dean person. The angel had never met him, never even laid eyes on him. For all he knew, the marriage would be miserable. Now, this human who's trying to hide in Castiel's room? It made Castiel wish that he wasn't going to be part of an arranged marriage, because he was really starting to like this green eyed stranger.
Through the Night | @smokerdean
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 1,147
Main Tags/Warnings: Castiel Out of the Empty, Soft Epilogue, First Times, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Sharing a Bed
Summary: The motel is the same as thousands of others Dean has stayed in over the course of his life, but it's different, it's better, because he is here with Cas.
The Report Card | @fpwoper
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 1,211
Main Tags/Warnings: First Time, Crack Fic, Blow Jobs
Summary: The morning after Dean and Cas first fool around, Dean finds a honest to god report card.
Dragon's Den | @fpwoper
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 1,280
Main Tags/Warnings: First Date, Dragon!Cas
Summary: Dean and Cas's first meeting is in a coffee shop they randomly chose. It's just... a little dragon heavy.
Taking one for Team Free Will | @fellshish
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 1,560
Main Tags/Warnings: First kiss, pov dean winchester
Summary: There’s a spell that requires an angel’s kiss to work. Dean takes one for the team.
Cannibal Queen | @one-more-offbeat-anthem
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 1,683
Main Tags/Warnings: creature!Castiel and creature!Dean, first time, porn with plot, virgin Castiel, mild gore
Summary: What's a zombie to do when he finds out his (pretty hot) roommate and best friend is a vampire? In the case of Dean Winchester, the plan is to convince said vampire that they should team up and heist slaughterhouses. But when a run goes wrong, there are some unexpected consequences...
A Sign of Affection | @clarrisani
Rating: General
Word Count: 2,159
Main Tags/Warnings: First Kiss, Fluff
Summary: Castiel learns that different kisses mean different things.
9x06 coda : I'm sorry | @allofmystudentsrunaway
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2,288
Main Tags/Warnings: Mutual Masturbation, Angst with a Happy Ending, AngstEmotional Hurt/Comfort, fanfic gap
Summary: fan fic gap first time.
The blonde-haired witch and the little push | @chaoticdean
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 2,830
Main Tags/Warnings: Case Fic, Witches, Oblivious Castiel/Dean Winchester, Mutual Pining, First Kiss, Friends to Lovers, Sharing a Bed
Summary: It’s not the first time Dean’s ever had to listen to someone referring to Castiel as “his boyfriend”, but it sure as hell is the first time he has to sit through a diner listening to a witch referring to Cas as his husband without even batting an eyelash, like it’s the most normal thing in the world. Which would be fine if it didn’t cause actual shivers to run down his spine.
(or the one where a friendly witch gives Dean the little push he needs)
Every Part of You | @the-communist-unicorn
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3,097
Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe, Panty Kink, Married Dean/Cas, Explicit Sex (but non-penetrative so there's no top or bottom), References to Homophobia
Summary: Cas discovered his husband's secret completely by accident, but now that he knew, he wasn't just going to let Dean shove it back in that shoe box like it was something to be ashamed of. Every part of Dean was perfect and beautiful, and Cas might have just discovered a kinky side of himself too.
Whiskey and Wifi | @celipuff
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3,401
Main Tags/Warnings: Top!Castiel/Bottom!Dean, Dom Sub Undertones, Neighbors, Castiel Has A Panty Kink
Summary: Cas may have lost a WiFi connection, but when he makes his way over to his neighbors house, he ends up gaining something much better.
At Last! | @chaoticdean
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 3,617
Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Friends to Lovers, Best Friends, Mutual Pining, Idiots in Love, Airports, First Kiss, 5+1 Things
Summary: Five times Dean kept his mouth shut, and one time he didn’t.
OUR FIRST TIME | @cooloddball
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3,920
Main Tags/Warnings: Fluff and Smut
Summary: Dean & Cas' first time together
Ghost Town Saints | @nothing-but-dreams
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 4,010
Main Tags/Warnings: College, House Party, Beer Pong, Marijuana, First Kiss, Love Confessions, Friends to Lovers, Trans!Castiel, Supportive Dean, Angst with a Happy Ending
Summary: College is out for summer vacation, and that means Cas is back home with his family. Ever since he came out as trans, things have been tense, to say the least. After yet another argument with his parents, Cas needs to clear his head. Luckily, his best friend Dean is just a text away. Dean suggests the two of them escape reality for a bit and hit up a party being held at Ghost Town. As they drink and get high, they realize their feelings for each other run deeper than friendship.
It Started With Arousal | @vampamber
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4,260
Main Tags/Warnings: ABO, angel Cas, alpha Cas, omega Dean, soul bonds, virgin Cas, porn with plot
Summary: It was when Castiel violently slammed the demon into the wall mid-fight that he felt it. The bond he had with Dean ever since he pulled the omega out of Hell had been getting stronger lately, but this was the first time that Castiel truly experienced an emotion that wasn't his own. He had expected something like this to happen eventually, but there was no way he ever would have expected such a feeling at a time like this. Dean was… aroused? He spared a quick glance at the hunter, meeting green eyes but seeing nothing that might cause said arousal.
When three more demons kicked through the door to enter the room and the fight, Castiel promptly forgot the confusing emotion. For the time being, at least.
Kiss Me | @peanutbutterjelly-pie
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 4,285
Main Tags/Warnings: Canon Compliant, First Kiss, Humor, Friends to Lovers
Summary: Dean’s spur-of-the-moment ideas aren’t always the best, as lots of people are able to attest. And his last one really took the cake.
Because now he’s unable to forget the taste of Castiel’s lips and he’s got no freaking clue how to deal with this.
Kiss at the Drive-in | @notfunnydean
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4,380
Main Tags/Warnings: fluff and smut, getting together, drive-in cinema, semi-public sex, car sex, non-penetrative sex, handjobs, shy!Dean, dirty dancing, implied Bottom!Dean
Summary: When Dirty Dancing airs in a Drive-in Cinema near the Bunker, Dean really wants to go with Castiel. Of course only because Castiel’s education about movies is still bad. Not like it’s a date. Sadly.
Swayze Always Gets A Pass | @kingdumbass
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 4,766
Main Tags/Warnings: Bunker Fic, First Kiss, Drunk Dean and Cas
Summary: After Dean and Cas get into an argument over a case, Dean tries to apologize by asking Cas to Netflix and chill. Featuring: Cas the movie critic, his drunk friend, Dean, and Dean's tired brother, Sam.
Y Tu Dean Tambien | @a-mandala-rose
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 6,909
Main Tags/Warnings: High School AU, Geek Dean, Closeted Bi Dean, Pan/Possibly Demi Cas, Referenced Homo/Biphobia, Low/No Angst, Implied/Referenced Consensual Underage Non-Penetrative Sex, Nothing Explicit, Happy Ending
Summary: Dean Winchester has a crush. A great, big, secret, gay crush. Okay, more like a great, big, secret, bisexual crush, if we’re being technical. Either way though, the relevant word here is secret, because Dean lives in Kansas, which isn’t exactly known for its thriving LGBT community. In fact, he’s pretty sure most of his neighbors don’t actually know what LGBT stands for and he’d be willing to bet that if asked, at least a solid 10% would think it’s a sandwich.
So yeah, nobody knows that Dean’s spent the past six months crushing on Cas Novak, the sexy junior in his Spanish II class, and it’s damn well going to stay that way.
“Hola, Señor Winchester,” murmurs a gravelly voice in Dean’s ear, straight out his dirtiest fantasies and close enough to raise the hairs on the back of his neck, as Dean suppresses a shiver. The smirk on the mouth housing that goddamn sinful voice tells him that while he may have resisted the full-body shudder, his red cheeks did not go unnoticed by the boy sliding fluidly into the desk directly behind him.
“Hey, Cas.”
Nobody knows about Dean’s crush except for Cas, that is. Cas definitely knows.
Game of Survival | @sorajinsei
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 8,317
Main Tags/Warnings: Suspense, Alternate UniverseThriller,Alternate Universe - Purge, Demonic Possession, Alternate Universe - Angels & Demons, Bottom Castiel/Top Dean Winchester, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies
Summary: Who's in the shadows? Who's ready to play? Are we the hunters? Or are we the prey? There's no surrender and there's no escape.
Talk Therapy | shara (AO3)
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 9,309
Main Tags/Warnings: Castiel and Dean Winchester Need to Use Their Words, Top Castiel, Bottom Dean Winchester, First Time Bottoming, Rimming, Communication Issues, Self-Esteem Issues, ALL the issues
Summary: "Alright fine, you can put a finger in me," Dean says one night while watching Cas go down on him.
Cas pops his mouth off Dean’s dick and stares at him. "I never said I wanted to put a finger in you," he says slowly, and then stops and tilts his head. "Do you want me to put a finger in you?"
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Dean comes to terms with this thing with Cas, and with himself.
Bind Me To You | @imbiowaresbitch
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 18,184
Main Tags/Warnings: Explicit Sexual Content, Public Blow Jobs, Mild Kink, Condoms, Mutual Pining, Switching, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester, Anal Sex, Rimming, Anal Fingering, Light Bondage, One Night Stands, Strangers to Lovers, Teasing, Happy Ending, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Smut, Masturbation
Summary: Dean and Cas meet in a one night stand, but lust, chance and eventually more bind them together.
Tempered Desires | @mattzerella-sticks
Rating: Teen & Up
Word Count: 20,013
Main Tags/Warnings: Alternate Universe - Human, Alternate Universe - Pandemic, Baker Dean, Dean has ADHD, Recreational Drug Use, Meet Cute, First Date
Summary: Dating, sex, and finding love were the farthest things on the minds of both Dean and Castiel. There were more important things to worry about - namely the pandemic that swept across the globe and changed everything. Navigating this new environment was hard enough without adding romance.
But fate never intervenes when you expect. From first meetings to first dates, we'll see how Dean and Castiel's relationship blossoms despite the circumstances.
Put That On A T-Shirt | @celipuff
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 21,524
Main Tags/Warnings: Dean’s First Time With A Man, Blowjobs, Top!Dean/Bottom!Cas, Semi Public Sex
Summary: Getting blindfolded and blown by a random dude his girlfriend knew didn’t exactly sound like an ideal Sunday for Dean, until it actually happened.
#destiel trope collection 2021#day 6#firsts#destiel#supernatural#fanfic#saving blogs; queuing things; the tumblr business
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Hi! Idk what came over me but I thought an AU where Sander’s kid is anti-Bowie was the most hilarious thing thanks to @hidden-joy @kylesbishops and @sanderijzermans so I wrote it skdjdj
Disclaimer: it’s all fun and chaos and I don’t really know anything about how to write kids
x, x, x, x, credit to the chaos 🤪
The day Sander Driesen hears the words come out of his child’s mouth is the day he wonders if this is his child at all.
He’s standing there, leather jacket, white t-shirt and all, bleached hair icy even in the summer sun, and he looks down at the small stature in front of him. Grey-green eyes, dark locks and an air of confidence that could only be learned from a certain music-loving individual fill his sight. There’s so much innocence standing before him but a driven insistence breaks through the words spoken.
“Dad,” he hears. “I don’t know how to tell you this, but...I don’t really like David Bowie all that much.”
Sander thinks he’s lost his senses. He is definitely not hearing right. Hell, he’s only a man in his early thirties, he could not be this hard of hearing already. He tries to brace himself on the couch from falling over. Shit, he’s also too young to feel this frail.
“Wh-what do you mean you don’t like David Bowie all that much?”
The question comes out in gasps of air, ragged and winded, like he can’t believe what’s happening. He feels like his world’s spinning, like he’s entered another dimension, like there was no way, absolutely no way, his child doesn’t like David Bowie.
Denial is a pretty powerful thing, though...
See, when Alexandra Driesen was born, she brought light and life to Sander and Robbe’s eyes. She had a chubby face and squishy cheeks and eyes the colour of a summer storm. Her dark hair had been a blessing to match Robbe’s. Everything about her was as perfect as it could get. And then came the perpetual frustrations of parenthood with the screaming and the crying.
Sleep was something to be cherished at the Driesen-Ijzermans household. A few day-naps here and a doze-off there. But God, oh God, did Alexandra know how to cry in the middle of the night. Robbe and Sander spent hours upon hours holding her and swaying her and rocking her on a chair. Sander had read that sometimes music helps so he’d even done all that. Bowie usually floated in the shriek-filled room during these times and yet, Alexandra just wept.
“Come on, baby, just a little bit of sleep. Don’t you get tired of screaming all night?” Sander asked in that exhausted tone of parentese. He held her against the crook of his neck and walked around in sweats until he saw Robbe enter the room with blood-shot eyes and curls disarrayed.
“She’s still crying?” he asked with a rasp in his voice.
“She literally won’t stop and I don’t know what to do, I’ve tried everything. I’ve even got Bowie on for her,” he said.
Robbe took her from his arms and swayed her a little, cooing and kissing her tiny head.
“It’s kind of loud, though,” Robbe said to him as he then stepped over to turn off the music.
And in an instant miracle, the house was all quiet.
It seems that’s what’s always happened and Sander just hadn’t noticed it. Alexandra settled into Robbe’s chest and stretched her mouth in a heavy yawn. Her warmth radiated and glowed through Robbe, but Sander was stunned. He’s completely shocked.
“You-she-“ he stuttered clumsily for a bit. “But it was Bowie,” he said weakly.
How could his own daughter not feel at peace with Bowie? It was a connection he held with him, something connecting him and Robbe and what he hoped would connect their child to them in this little family.
“Hmmm,” Robbe hums pensively. “Maybe Bowie’s not her thing.”
“Not her thing?” Sander just about exploded. Then he suddenly remembered Alexandra’s finally gone to sleep and whispered, seething. “That is not our child!”
“Biologically, no. Legally and emotionally, yes,” smirked Robbe. “Calm down, babe, she’ll learn to like him soon enough. For now, how about we hold off on Bowie for a bit, yeah?”
He swayed her just a little more, just to really make sure she’s easing into sleep and then set her gently back down in her crib.
“How long?” Sander muttered and Robbe gave him a confused look. “How long without Bowie?”
Robbe contemplated.
“Maybe we give it six months or so,” he said.
And now it was Sander who wanted to weep. -
As the months and years went on, Alexandra had gone on without her Bowie-loving phase, only mildly being interested in the lightning bolt plushies and the songs blasting on road trips and the shirts Sander would get for her. Robbe says it just takes time for kids to get into stuff. That it’s better to leave it there in the open for them than to shove it down their throats.
“It’s barely any shoving,” Sander had grumbled.
“I know, babe. But I know how you can get sometimes,” Robbe had placed a soothing kiss upon his lips.
Still, Sander’s worries were increasingly growing.
Then a few years later, they’d adopted another beautiful girl. Mia was a radiant vision of blonde curls and brown eyes. They held a similar warmth that Robbe’s eyes held and Sander couldn’t be happier to lose himself in pools of coffee or dark, earthy soils or any other sort of metaphor for his favourite kind of brown.
To his relief, though, Mia loved listening to Bowie. She loved playing with the lightning bolt plushy and wearing all the shirts and as she grew, she and Sander had lots of music jam sessions blasting Bowie throughout the house. Alexandra was enticed into joining for a bit in the beginning but as time went on, Sander found it that she was making more and more excuses to not be in the same room when Bowie was mentioned.
“Uh, I got homework, Dad,” she’d nervously run her fingers through her hair.
“Uh, Papa needs help with dinner I think,” she’d run out with a tight smile.
“Group project due soon. Léon’s being a piece of shit and not pulling his weight at all.”
“Language,” Robbe would chastise coming around the corner.
“He’s being a dick?” she suggested.
“Fuck him.”
“Sander!”
“Sorry.”
Her interests lay instead in skateboarding with her friends, headphones in her ears listening to rap: BROCKHAMPTON and Stormzy with even a little Ed Sheeran in the mix, and keeping her hair as short as possible. She’d had a bit of a habit wearing overgrown shirts like Robbe did. But Sander found that endearing and he didn’t really think it was a case of ‘not-like-other-girls’ syndrome. He and Robbe just let her wear whatever she wanted.
And in fact, it was at thirteen years of age that Alexandra came out to the family as a boy. Sander remembers it clearly with them all huddled on the couch looking at the person in front of them with beady eyes, waiting.
“Dad, Papa, Mia. I think I’m a boy. I think I’m trans and I’d like to formally introduce myself to you all. I’m Alexander, or just Alex. And I use he/they pronouns.”
Sander had wanted to tear up, emotions flooding inside his rib cage. Happy tears, though, a joyous occasion where his son felt comfortable enough to tell them about this part of himself. That he and Robbe had created a space where he felt safe enough. Loved enough.
“I kept Alexander ‘cause, Sander,” he gestured to Sander. “But really, Alex is fine.”
And Sander wanted to cry all over again.
They’d all been encased in a huge family hug with Mia chirping that she’d ‘always wanted a big brother.’
Robbe and Sander had been quite supportive of it all, calling the school to change both the name and preferred name and asking if Alex was considering wearing a binder or getting a proper haircut. “Yes” to the haircut. “Hold off for a bit” on the binder. He’d whined a “Daaaaaad” when Sander ruffled the short brown locks. Most of Alex’s friends were cool with it, too and while it wasn’t all smooth sailing, he’d never run out of love from his family.
It was a big change and everything, but Sander thought, well...as long as he had his Bowie-loving children, it was all fine. -
It’s his worst nightmare. It’s the stuff that haunts you from the depths of the worst kind of hell, making your limbs feel like jelly. He’s cursing every name and divine entity and he’s really hoping Robbe’s right about those parallel universes because he’d love to hop over to the one where this wasn’t happening right now.
Sander’s having a hard time even looking at Alex in the eye.
“Dad?” he hears his concerned voice.
“I think I need to sit down,” says Sander, grabbing the armrest of the couch, lowering himself onto the cushion.
“It’s really not a big deal,” says Alex.
“Not a big deal?” Sander looks at him with wide eyes. “My own son hates David Bowie.”
“I never said I-“
“The man who infinitely changed my life. Space Oddity, Life on Mars, Ziggy Stardust, Ashes to Ashes. None of them?” Sander waves his arms. “You’re telling me you like none of them?”
“They’re...fine, I guess,” Alex shrugs innocently with a cringe to his face.
“Fine?” Sander squeaks.
“What’s fine?” Robbe trudges to them overhearing the conversation.
“Your son hates Bowie,” Sander squints his eyes at him.
“I do not,” says Alex. “I’m just pretty indifferent to him. He’s not exactly my style,” he shrugs, his hoodie moving with the movement.
“And what is your style?” Robbe laughs as he comes up behind him to rub his shoulders. He looks up at Sander with long lashes and a questioning smile stretching across his face. They share one of those ‘parenting looks.’ The ones where they know it’s not all that serious. But Sander thinks it is.
“A bit of rap, a bit of hip hop, some pop, some mainstream,” Alex lists off. “Not exactly the ‘80s vibes in me,” he laughs.
Robbe cheers as their tastes in music are quite similar and he proceeds to carry out their very own handshake they’d created when Alex was nine. There’s a different one with Sander. Sander, who’s getting more and more agitated by this revelation.
“Oh, okay,” he pats his knees and stands up. “Well, if you two are having such a grand time hating Bowie and bonding over your own music, I’ll just take myself and leave. No child of mine doesn’t like David Bowie,” he says dramatically.
“Sander…” Robbe looks at him.
“Dad…” says Alex.
“No, no. It’s fine. Really,” he begrudgingly walks out of the living room, almost knocking into Mia on the way.
“What’s with him?” she blinks twice and points a finger back.
Robbe sighs as he looks back at Alex.
“Your father, he…” Robbe puts a hand on his shoulder. “Bowie’s practically his life and so are the two of you, so I guess it’s really important to him that you like him, too. He’s just gonna need some time with all this.”
His eyes are apologetic and he gives him a half-smile, hand leaving his shoulder.
Alex takes in the words while Mia wiggles herself onto the couch and finds the tv remote beside her.
“You finally told him about Bowie, huh?” she gives him a gravely sad look. One that says he’s about to be doomed.
Alex just lets out a stressed breath as Robbe follows to go find Sander.
What’s so special about David Bowie anyway?
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Part 2 is coming! IM SO SORRY SKDJJF I just need sleep and rest
#wtfock#this sucks so much omg I’m so sorry#sobbe’s anti-bowie kid#<- liz I used the tag skdjdb#me writing a dad AU my god how did this happen#thanks Sarah for reading it over <3
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Making Mandos Here
I just wanted to put the nite owl helmets on boba’s body and put his on sabine’s body in blender to make the helmets more gender neutral by god things have spiraled out of control
So far I have three main body types of mandalorian.
Good old Jango
The effervescent Boba Fett
And the incomparable Din Djarin
We also have two sub types, and what what means will become clearer later.
The ever rebellious Sabine Wren
And a nondestinct deathwatch member
Five little funky guys to choose from for your mando character to choose from as a base to custom paintjob with the ability to swap helmets between them, nothing life changing.
Wrong. Incorrect. Very lifechanging. You’ll never be able to go back to the way you used to live in a moment.
You see, there’s Jango classic, sure, strapping gentleman, great guy.
Here’s the kicker though. What if he was slightly less strapping. Slightly more robust in other regards? A petit fellow mayhaps. Or rather, if your very own custom mando was, whether they just be a twink or a less than busty cis girl or an enby or a binary trans girl/boy or whatever else you or your minecraft girlfriend you’re forcing to rp star wars with you wishes their character to be.
If overtly thicc isn’t your cup of tea we also have Strapping Again But This Time With A Bigger Chest Area. Not quite mortifying anime boob plate its still a piece of armor and made to bounce lasers off of not direct them directly into your sternum, just a tad roomier if your mando is a wider framed dude and or dudette and or none of the above pre or post any sci fi tech ops. Though given Dying Of Sadness is apparently a thing medical droids aren’t good enough to deal with in the case of Padme maybe don’t go to the Sheev Palpatine Surgical Reconstruction Center they’re a solid two out of three on space yelp.
And naturally you can’t have those two options without combing the two if your mando is stacked all around and proud.
Recall what I said about the three main body types here. That’s right. That means all four of those funney body types are available for those three main bases. Twelve options right there babbey.
All the slim thicc bobas your heart could desire are at your fingertips here babes.
All the booba fetts.
All the furry vent comic lil thiccie fetts.
All the dins.
Every last one.
Yep.
I don’t have quips for everything.
As for those two other sub types I mentioned, Sabine and the claymation show sumbitch. Wharl, they’re already kind of skinny and I didn’t feel like making them broader shouldered. I could be bribed to feel like doing it, probably, but for now your options for either party are just basic breast reductions so like I’m sorry to say it but you’ve been government assigned as lightweights Sabine stans. Still four options for the sub types not bad.
Compared to
The claymation ones were from a web browser mmo originally don’t expect a ton here alright.
Wizard101 looking son of a bitch.
If you noticed a different there no you didn’t. Those legs were always bent slightly like that. Shut up.
Now, for where this all started. Helmets. You want a night owl helmet, regardless of gender, I’m your man.
You want dinn’s little funney crest helmet? Deal.
You want El Classico on a base that usually has a different helmet? Deal motherfucker.
That was a boba helmet too not a rink a dink jango swap. No little head dent. No marilyn monroe mole. Is the average recolorer offering that? Hell no brother.
You Want Chopa’a? Fucking Chopa’a? Chopa’a The Crime Lord From The Cloud City Level Of The Force Unleashed But Only The Force Unleashed Released For The Wii And Playstation 2 Specifically? You Are A Pervert. And We Will Have A Summer Wedding.
That one concept art helmet? Yeah you know the one. They were recycled as Chopa’a’s bodyguards before the claymation series had it as a disguise for Obi Wan. You would have already known that if you were invited to the summer wedding.
We got the darth maul helmets from the claymation series. Those were kinda cool yeah. Yeah.
We got the other claymation guy’s too. You know the guy. Like his second helmet. His first helmet was just el classico. But really long in the face. Because I guess how that’s how the claymation guys decided to stylize them.
And the other concept art one. You know the other concept art one. From the other claymation series.
Here’s a claymation two exclusive though from when in like the future when they have Y helmets instead of Ts for some reason and the double antennas. I think the comics did that earlier in like the EU. With the one black and gold guy. From the google result screencaps. You know the guy.
And a second claymation two one for like the fighter pilot boys. I’m still upset I didn’t find a version of there from any official games. That line is one pixel the textures are just low res as shit. Cause browser mmo.
And, as a treat for you good children, one from the old EU Jango backstory comics where the death watch idea first started.
That’s 16 body types times. Times 11 helmet types. Or maybe ten because they all have one by default so that like doesn’t count as another. We’ll say its ten because clearly I am lacking at math. That’s 160 variations baby. Which according to claymation logic where the helmets are gender locked even though mando’a is a gender neutral language to segment the market into girl and boy toys I guess, that’s 160 genders right there I just invented. But wait, there’s more.
If you want jetpacks then by god do I have entirely too many jetpacks. Like this scuffy claymation bastard.
Or this really swag Chopa’a guard pack. From the force unleashed. For the ps2 specifically.
This is a rare snacks holding jetpack actually so shut up actually.
Good old rising phoenix. The e should be before the o in phoenix if you ask me. Which you did.
The incomparable Jango’s.
And Boba’s absolute stud of a jetpack.
Well that’s enough variation for one day, 160 times 6 times the limitless boundaries of your imagination. Wrong. Soak this absolute swag in.
Peep this utter swaggery and weep.
Republic Commandos babbey. Another ps2 classic.
Let’s go Fetts babbey love the Fetts
The little things the clones have? The data pads? Wrong. I have them now. To give to you. On your mandos.
We can get weeby.
We got twi leks here babbey.
Maybe some of the little grievous side head fins. If you’re in fact nastay.
These montrails are kind of rough not about to lie. Not finished editing them. But they’re on the table.
You may have noticed the Chopa’a friendly versions. For the ps2. A mere fraction of my repainting abilities.
Oh that’s right, silly me, I also have Every Gun. Ever. If you see one that isn’t here you didn’t and also it’s fake. So don’t ask for it.
Except for this one, specifically.
And I can do this. Because of republic commandos again. Because of the playstation 2. Again.
And also every lightsaber.
I didn’t feel like opening them though. Also don’t ask me about animations I hate unity more than I hate life itself it is just there to get the avatars from blender to vr chat.
Speaking of which, of the possible millions of combos you can slap together and then get your own paintjob for, I stuck 57 into vrchat for Freeeeeeee. Because my meat is fucking huge and also never bother me because I am so so strong and handsome and generous. https://vrchat.com/home/world/wrld_9c6cc74c-334a-4193-91a0-511466817ab3
Dozens. Free. In game now. Mostly bug tested. If not who cares you didn’t pay for them. If you would to like to pay for Lets Talk Business Babbey.
https://discord.gg/DvTJcgCMSa
I also have sexy anime boy adopts don’t you fucking judge me I need to supplement my income.
#vrchat avatar#star wars#the mandalorian#boba fett#lgbt#mandosona#sabine ren#trans#nonbinary#jango fett#vr chat roleplay#gender nonconforming#gnc#mando#long post
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