So apparently after the Tallinn gig, Jere and Bojan went inside the tour bus together and stayed there for a while. Then Jere came out, bantered with the fans a little from further away but did not stay and left the venue. Then the other JO members came out to greet the fans but Bojan stayed inside the bus.

What do you think happened with these two?

Lots of tears, foreheads pressed together, hugs so tight a few ribs were crushed, head scratches, neck kisses, vows of eternal bro-ship, some feels were copped, next facetime date confirmed, obviously.

And then Bojan needed a moment to have a bit of a cry I MEAN SAVE HIS VOICE OF COURSE.

I just found a love in your almost cult yandere clone tropes and their cyares with the Jedi blessings. I mean damn you (later than ever). I'm imagining Cody and Rex and the bad batch. Or just Cody sharing with 😉 .

You made sprout the cult follower in me.

Here at Yandere-Wishes HQ, we try to inspire the inner cult follower in all our fans. We want the dark, deranged side of all our clients to shin through and someday even start cults of their own. 💜💜

I'm very sorry for how all over the place this is, tried to section it off as best I could. I'm still incredibly jet lagged😭😭

I think the reason behind the Jedi giving their blessing so freely to the clones comes from an inner yearning to be loved. The Jedi know their place in the universe, know that a sentiment-free life is what they must endure. Still, if those around them can be happy, then (in a selfless way befitting a Jedi) they can be happy too. Although I'm rather curious as to what would happen if say Anakin or Obi-wan fell for the cyare of their commanders. 

Personally, I think Rex and Cody would definitely share a darling. Same with Echo and Fives (and maybe Tup too). Maybe if you REALLY  want to lean into the cult aesthetic Anon, then what if each squadron has its own cyare?? A darling shared amongst all of them (That's a lot but I'm kinda only referring to the relevant troopers from each squadron 🤣🤣) it would be super cute if all her dresses were in said squadron's colors. Kinda like a personal cheerleader for them. Anyway, I'm getting ahead of myself here lol. 

🧡💙Being Cody and Rex's darling.

💙They're both very busy men. Constantly being deployed to the front lines. Always busy with some mission or another. They've tried to make sure at least one of them is with you, so you're never alone. It doesn't work, there are always long periods of time when you are trapped in isolation. 

🧡I truly believe that Rex and Cody's cyare wouldn't really "feel" like a "cyare", per se. Sure she doesn't have any freedom and is never permitted to make any decisions on her own. But they treat her so well, give her anything she could ever want, and they never hurt her in any way. 

💙Rex and Cody are both strict, not much leniency coming from either one. They have strict rules for they're cyare, under the pretext of keeping her safe. They've seen and experienced all the cruelties of the galaxy. And they don't want ANYTHING to ever hurt you. 

🧡Cody is more affectionate. More open with embracing and kissing you. Rex is much more reserved, stiffer. Yet he can't help but melt whenever your lips push against his. 

501st sharing (Rex, Fives,Echo, Tup, Jesse, Hardcase and Kix)

It's honestly exhausting belonging to all of them. Constantly being pulled in every direction. Sure the 501st is one of the gentler squadrons per se. But they are smoldering, constantly wanting to touch you in some way. It also doesn't help that regardless of the mission one of them is left behind to "watch" you. Not so much out of a fear of you running away but more out of concern for your well-being. I wonder what would happen if Anakin began to develop feelings for this particular cyare.

As for the bad batch I've yet to watch it (Although I've only heard good things) So I can't make a full observation just yet. Although I'd like to think that Hunter and Wrecker are on the "tougher" side, using force to make their cyare submit. Tech falls more into the stalker category. Take all this with a grain of salt, these ideas will 100% change once I've actually seen the show. 

.... All this aside can you imagine Obi-Wan and Cody sharing a darling?? Or even Anakin and Rex sharing a darling?? I mean every cult needs its leader right 😉😘

Hi! Sorry if it was asked before, but could you please explain how werewolf hierarchy works? I think that I kind if understand that alphas are on the very top like chieftains of a tribe, what about the rest? Who is next? What is delta? Is omega the lowest ranking member? And what do packmates do according to their ranks? Especially deltas. Finally, ate there any other designation except for alpha, beta, delta and omega? And what do they represent?

Sorry for bombarding you with questions, I just got very curious about the werewolf lore, especially yours because each author writes werewolves differently.

Hello, dear anon! I loved receiving this many lore questions <3 let's start from the beginning

Your comparison to a tribe is completely on point because packs were born in ancient times as sort of tribes and they have kept some of the structures and rituals to this day. There isn't a proper hierarchy, though. Just, everyone has its place and specific role.

There is only a sort of line of command when hunts are concerned, with alphas at the top and omegas being the ones to either stay home or act more according to their instincts (usually, alphas don't order omegas around. They just allow them to do their thing and most importantly alphas protect the vulnerable members of their pack). So this means that there isn't a lower ranking member per se.

In the pack, there are in total five designations: alphas, betas, gammas, deltas, omegas. (There may be more werewolf designations, but I will explain them if they are relevant to the plot)

Alphas are the ones who ultimately make the decisions in the pack. Not because they are dominant, but because they are the first to put themselves in line to protect the pack, or to bear the blunt of any decision that might go badly. Alphas are built to be resistant and deadly. Also to feel incredibly protective and territorial of their pack.

Betas follow alphas in hunts, and generally they are built for teamwork - in contrast with other roles who work better alone. Betas are intelligent and sensitive to the mood of the pack, they are quick to react and follow directions. They, too are quite protective, but not as territorial as alphas.

Gammas are the ones who guard the territory. Or scout the land. They are incredibly silent, and the fastest type of were (if you don't count omegas when they are feral). They generally work well with betas, and are in tune with other werewolves, responding to directions as the others decide. They can, though, disobey and fight if they don't feel like their orders are fair.

Deltas are the hard working wolves of the pack. Physically built for resistance and stamina, they aren't fast or agile. Instead, deltas usually help gammas guard the pack territory and rarely leave it (Indigo and Raine, the two deltas, weren't with Bela at the djinn lair). They experience strong urges to provide for the pack, and to protect it (they can be even quite possessive of the pack).

Omegas are, at the same time, the strongest designation and the most vulnerable. Strong because they are built to kill anyone that might threaten the pups/injured pack members - including strong supernaturals or even other werewolves. Vulnerable because omegas have a docile nature and can be exploited by supernaturals who are aware of this. Omegas are rarely aggressive, but they can go feral if their pack is gravely threatened.

In a way, omegas are kept in high regard by the pack. They are looked after and respected (in good packs) for their role.

Hi! I'm a longtime kaylor lurker, but I saw you and your anons were trying to think through the reason for this Travis Kelce push and I thought I'd share some perspective as an American who's not exactly a football fan per se, but is from an area of the country where football is very popular so I'm kind of an ambient fan by default. I'm very sorry this got a little long, but I do think there are some really interesting dynamics at play here, but the tldr; is - broad appeal for the American premiere and politics.

There are some optics about Travis Kelce that are I think getting lost in the NFL-to-Swiftie translation that may be important. He's a famous football player, yes, but NFL fans skew heavily towards older men in non-urban areas, which also means NFL fans skew conservative. Travis Kelce promoted Bud Light when transphobes in America were boycotting the brand, and is also partnering with Pfizer for a public health campaign to promote the COVID-19 vaccine, which is very controversial for American conservatives. He's also known as a very stylish man (which is weird to say but is pretty uncommon among American athletes, especially white ones, and he's well-known for it) and before Taylor, all of his known/rumored exes have been Black or mixed (I could write an essay on the racial dynamics alone of this weekend, but... suffice it to say it's there and messy). I'd also heard rumors that he was closeted before he got together with Taylor, but I never really looked into them that deeply so I don't know how true they are, or whether they arose just because he dresses well and doesn't usually date white women (sad but true that for a portion of Americans, that would be enough to make them doubt his masculinity and therefore heterosexuality). Which kind of gets to my point - before this, a lot of the more conservative wing of NFL fans saw Travis Kelce as controversial, "beta", not sufficiently manly, despite the fact he is a champion football player. I know all of this sounds a little insane, please remember that these are the people electing Donald Trump and going after drag shows and banning books with LGBTQ+ people in them.

So, with that slightly more nuanced image of Travis Kelce, I think that makes the clearest takeaway from this weekend, at least for me, how extremely traditional all-American it was. Football player, blonde girl cheering in the stands with his mom, driving off in his convertible after the game, them making a point to correct the initial reporting that she had paid for people's meals so that he's the one renting out the restaurant for her. To be clear, this isn't really how Travis Kelce is normally seen, and already I've seen some hit tweets with people dunking on conservatives criticizing Kelce for being insufficiently manly by responding something along the lines of "uh, he won the Super Bowl and bagged the world's most famous pop star, I think he's doing okay" - so, reading between the lines, he's performed (specifically) white masculinity very successfully. And for Taylor, too, I think we've already seen a lot of people saying how she's finally with a "real man" - he's very tall, he's very athletic, he's American, I think a lot of the joking anti-Joe "he's got a real job" comments fall into this bucket as well. She is performing white American womanhood in a very specific way, a large part of which is that she's being framed as not the 'dominant' partner in the relationship in the way she was in her relationship with Joe (by virtue of their differences in wealth and success).

So I think this is re-orienting both of their images into a new, very traditional, Americana-inspired direction. I don't think this is a market Taylor has really gone after maybe since she moved into pop in the first place, but especially not in recent years, when she swung very hard into a much more urban liberal niche (basing herself more out of NYC and London than Nashville, associating herself musically and socially with people like the Haim sisters, Phoebe Bridgers, MUNA).

I don't think we can know exactly why she's leaning this direction yet, but if I had to guess it's more about the American documentary premiere. In Hollywood, typically for the biggest box office impact you want a "four-quadrant movie" - one that appeals to the four biggest demographic quadrants (male/female and under 25/over 25). Taylor Swift's fanbase skews female and young, with a solid presence over 25 as well, and like I said earlier, the NFL's fanbase skews male and over 25. I don't think showing up to a football game will make a bunch of NFL fans suddenly want to see her documentary on opening night, but it may make them more inclined to go see it with their girlfriends, wives, or daughters a few days later, instead of staying at home, and that would have a very big box office impact.

I also think she *might* be looking at the political optics, and wanting to not only move on from MH but also put herself in a kind of solidly centrist-liberal place (she likes good ol' American football but also the vaccine! she votes Dem but she's not one of those New York liberal elites, she eats chicken tenders with seemingly ranch! - truly seems like this is a couple tailor-made (or maybe Taylor-made ;) ) to appeal to swing voters), which I think is very much where she tried to position herself with Miss Americana as well and which seems relevant given her voter registration push recently and as we move into an election year. I'll be very interested to see if she does anything further politically, or says anything about politics in her documentary again. Between her voter registration effort and his Pfizer partnership and the timing of both, politics is actually the angle I'd bet on driving this.

hi! thank you for sharing these thoughts, it provides more context for everything! i do think it shapes her persona in the public eye, and it’s interesting to think how that might benefit her in ways other than a profit motivation

hiii it's the luci and Satan anon again!! sorry for not being too specific (⁠๑⁠•⁠﹏⁠•⁠) as for ideas, maybe nicknames they'd give the reader, how they'd care for them (if they're strict or not and the like!), activities they'd enjoy with them?

and thank u for telling me about the term btw!! I had no idea (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠) I'll be more careful in da future!

Carer! Lucifer & Satan

Yeah sure, I hope this is what you meant! And no problem, I think there's no shame in not knowing something before. We all learn smth new every day and it's better not to assume something has been done out of maliciousness if it could be lack of knowledge. So I'm glad that I could help out in that way :) /gen

Gn! Reader

Relationships: Lucifer & Mc, Satan & Mc

Warnings/Tags: Age Regression, Regressor Reader, Fictional Carers, punishment mention, rules mention, headpats, bugs mention

Lucifer

Nicknames for tiny: little one, prince/ss/x, my child, puppy (depending on what you're ok with or like of course)

As a carer, Lucifer tends to be on the stricter side

This means he has clear rules and consequences for if you break them. However, they're mostly rules like not eating too much candy, brushing your teeth on time, managing screen time and making sure to drink enough water (not just juice!)

Consequences depend on the rule you broke, so for example if you ate candy in secret and lied, Lucifer would not hand out anymore candy for a certain amount of time or if you don't brush your teeth, he will come to you every night and brush them together with you to make sure you keep up with it now

"punishments" just turn out to do more harm than good usually and at least with you, he tries to restrain himself and show that he cares for you and your wellbeing, instead of making you fear and avoid him

Lucifer is also a big fan of work sheets and if you're old enough to work on them, likes to set you up in his office so you two can do "work" side by side

He even grades papers if possible, gives you little gold stickers and other rewards like candy and praises you for a job well done

Let's you sleep in his lap while he works too - he won't even complain when his legs fall asleep and just summon a cushion to make it easier on his legs while letting you sleep

Pats your head a lot - when he praises you, when he walks past you as you play, when you hug or cuddle and so on

Satan

Nicknames for tiny: kitty, pumpkin, kiddo, little one, bud (depending on what you're ok with or like of course)

As a carer, Satan is not necessarily strict per se but definitely goes more in that direction

He sets up a whole plan with you, makes little to do lists with illustrations so you remember to do things like brush your teeth, wash your face etc before bed for example

Having read into parenting books and tips to make sure he's not doing anything wrong, Satan understands quite a bit more about what things can help you, why you may react in some ways and how to work on problems in a way that isn't forced but a collaborative effort between you two

He's very enamored with you and even plays with you with stuffies if you like that. There are a bunch of cat stuffies that found their way on his bed and towers of books over time - so there's always one on hand when he wants to talk to you 'through' them

"Mr Claw wants to ask if you want to read a book together? How about..."

Favorite activity together is definitely reading out loud for you. Especially when it's an interactive book, like the ones that have little images instead of words so the kid can read out loud together with the adult

Also loves going outside though and playing in the park. If you like bugs, you can catch them and figure out what it's called together with an encyclopedia or if you don't, there are enough plants and the like outside you can identify!

Likes to give you little tasks/activities like finding something for every color of the rainbow and doing fun quizzes on stuff you learnt that day

Ruffles your hair if it's fine with you, otherwise just pats you on the head - when you're joking around, when you've gotten something right/done a good job and so on

some updates while i’m here. i miss you! whether you’re a casual enjoyer of my blog & i see you in my notes, or my mutuals, or my followers, i’ve been thinking of you :) rare vulnerable moment i do cherish this blog and all your well wishes. thank you very much. i was right, typing is a huge strain and taking a break has been very good for my hands, so i’m going to keep at it.

some things:

don’t be afraid to keep sending me asks! they’re a great joy to me, i love seeing a notif in the inbox. i’ve gotten a fair few already that i’m excited to respond to when i can come back.

i did post a fred weasley drabble and not that i have to explain myself but i wanted to say i’ve been watching the harry potter movies. i’ve never seen them in their entirety, and the earlier ones have always been christmas movies in my house so to speak so i figured id give them a fair shot. i did read the books, and i’ve seen bits and pieces of the movies (hence my interest in fred weasley when i was a tween, but seeing him again made me wanna write for him for the first time in years)

also! a very kind anon told me earlier that my response to someone wrongfully making an ai chat bot of my content was an overreaction. it was “not that deep,” i believe was the colloquial term used. so the inherent content theft of ai invading free creative spaces is solved everyone! well done! very special thanks to the anon that let me know i was overreacting towards something i am passionate about and had a strong feeling towards! wow :) i never would’ve seen it like that. genuinely i am sorry anon that you’re ugly irl and your mommy doesn’t love you, which is why you feel like you can’t have a backbone over certain things. maybe you should stop consuming the free content creators provide on tumblr because you feel so secure in criticizing the selfless service <3 it’s giving: “im an old bigot that thinks ppl must be talentless and stupid when they work at mcdonald’s, but i’m still going to eat the food from there.” you’ve been blocked btw so you’re not offended by my use of free will when making free content on the internet for your grubby little hands to get a hold of and your smooth brain to criticize my right to share my personal opinions.

because the internet is the way it is, getting “hate” online has never really bothered me since i’ve always been a person with a large enough platform for years. it’s very easy for me to ignore and block and never answer whoever has decided to send some worthless hate message. which is probably why i almost never get hate anymore but it does happen occasionally. this was different since it wasn’t an attack on me per se, more so someone trying to admonish me for having a fair reaction towards something offensive. so i’m here to tell you it’s alright to treat strangers on the internet as strangers. you’re allowed to reinforce boundaries. you’re allowed to tell people you do not appreciate their actions towards you, and don’t leave room for argument. i am a very direct person, which means i told that person firmly that they needed to delete that ai chat bot they made of my au without my consent. and i did it without remorse. and i was told “it wasn’t that deep.” well it was. and it is. it is that deep because it’s deep to me, and i know it’s something that happens to others and it is that deep to them too. so what’s the problem in it being that deep? there is none :) let things be deep. be sincere. it is very important.

also if you make ai chat bots without creator’s consent when using their content you’re a piece of shit and doing a disservice to the very person you’re trying to exalt. take a step back and reevaluate how ai harms your interests rather than progresses them as well as the creators you claim your respect and cherish. you’re a victim of propaganda, my friend! and i prolly wouldn’t have made this post if anon hadn’t said anything. so maybe they should’ve kept their mouth shut since they didn’t wanna see shit like this so bad lmfao

now that that’s out of the way, i am sending wet fat sloppy kisses to everyone’s lips tell me when you receive them

Hi sorry to correct anon but Michael Lindsay-Hogg (director, NOT writer of Two of Us) was not a friend of the beatles per se but he was indeed a close observer of them bc he directed Get Back. The actual writer of Two of Us, Mark Stanfield, was a Beatles fan who did extensive research; the film's technical advisor, Martin Lewis, was a Beatles historian. So while the movie was not written by someone who was personal friends with the Beatles, it was very much in collaboration with people who knew them. It is also, to my knowledge, is also the only movie in which John Lennon touches lips with Paul McCartney.

...and John is played by Jared Harris, which is perhaps the only point of interest to you as a fan of classic British actors

My eyes started to glaze over that (not your fault at all, I just don’t care about these guys m) and then I became a little excited cartoon when I saw the JARED HARRIS!!! ok I will be watching

Scar anon again I'm so sorry for sending consecutive asks but mashima really made the coolest dude + team ever (laxus n the raijinshuu in case it wasn't obvious) and then refused to elaborate like???good sir I would have paid for a full series of Them?? The raijinshuu are so criminally underutilised like I want to know their backstories!! I want to know how they came to join fairy tail!!! I start frothing at the mouth everytime I think about how mashima did the raijinshuu so dirty esp during the Tartarus arc ;- ; anyways sorry for the rant it's like 4 am and I'm having many Thoughts ok that's all from me for real this time 👍🏼 peace!

Everything after Tartarus is my villain origin story lol, not even joking. It's so messy.

Im not singing praises for everything before it ofc there was some jank from beginning to gmg but after tartarus' end the story and characterization really seemed to start coming apart at the seams and it really tanked everything even though at that stage mashima's art was 10/10. Which is a shame bcus tartarus really was a step in the right direction tonally but it just stopped right there. Copped a massive W then tossed it out for consecutive L's.

But yea man! Laxus and his squad! Laxus will forever be a sorta sore spot for me because of the dropped Dreyar family plot thread. The whole dealio with Ivan, Makarov sending Gajeel to spy on him, Laxus' lone adventures. It really could've culminated in either a small side arc or a B-plot of an already existing arc

(I personally would add it into Tenrou. Take Gajeel off tenrou to have him doin his spy gig, accidentally meet up with Laxus during that, plot details regarding the dreyar family happen all while the events of tenrou go down. The duo gets wind of Grimoire Heart heading to tenrou from Raven Tail due to all dark guilds sharing info. The duo head over to tenrou post haste and allowing gajeel to carry out the iconic gajevy moment where he saves her and justifying why Laxus ended up on Tenrou instead of just randomly showing up at the nick of time. But alas, details lol)

Thunder Legion's always been interesting to me though. I'll admit i dont think about them often but they are a pretty unique squad with varying personalities across the board that, on paper, you probs wouldn't expect em to be friends, let alone friends that close and loyal to one another.

Their magics are also a main point of interest because it really is so out there. Freed in essence has an upgraded solid script (plus those unused transformations the beast lookin one from fantasia and the more streamlined one from tenrou), Evergreen has the petrification magic (alongside her main magic with the energy attacks) and Bickslow? Soul manipulation? That can't be legal man. The magic system in FT is really underexplained and has a anything goes sorta deal (hello summoning gods) but man, i would've loved something there for these 3- power limits or drawbacks, how it works, whether its magic they naturally manifested or learned or both. Something along those lines.

And while i don't think a backstory would've been necessary for them per se, because at the end of the day they still are side characters so relevancy of the information learned throughout the story dictates how much is really needed to be known and this extends to learning about how they joined the guild as well (i personally think they all joined as adults tbh. I know a lotta peeps like to think of em as a teen friendship squad but i really prefer it they were an adult friend group. Having a friendship that strong forming in their 20s feels right to me), but i think even a one line or 2 regarding their pasts could come up in conversation for that information to come up naturally.

Like for eg. Freed gives off rich kid energy, so perhaps he's a runaway rich kid like herself but not from Fiore, that could be revealed in a convo with Lucy at some point to strike common ground between the two. Evergreen feels like an orphaned soul turned away (i personally think she gives off Jessie from pokemon vibes) by others a lot so why not a kinship with her and Juvia or even Mirajane? Bickslow the wild card could spout jokes about his acrobatic skills he learned from being a street performer, just something. They're not perfect concepts no, but they're little ways the characters could've been given even a scrap of info to help learn more about em.

Also uhhhh, it always threw me off that they weren't all S-class wizards so i think it would've been cooler if they were a whole squad of s class wizards who attempted a guild coup instead of just 1 s class and his homies. Aight byeeeeee.

What did you think about Helluva Boss season 2 episode 4? Do you think it's a good season or is it kinda fizzling out? Do you think the stolitz ship is gonna survive this season? Is anything thats happening in cannon going to have an effect of "A prince and his barron"? Thank you!

1) Ooh, alrighty, Anon. It’s been awhile since I got a HB-related Ask! Honestly, I felt, for what the episode had to do, from an objective point of view as an adult who’d graduated from a design college (thus, I’ve seen the amount of work folks from the Illustration - Animation fields have to do and the miracles they have to pull out on a deadline) and as a fanfic writer who keeps up with new Helluva Boss episodes so I can keep up with the canon lore, the episode served its purpose. The end of the episode hit hard, no? So they delivered on that. Personally I would change a couple things to make certain things hit even harder (because I’m sadistic and love me my emotional knives in stories) but that’s only because I’m a writer myself and I always have things I would do differently, even for my favorite shows or movies, haha.

It might not be my favorite episode per se, but we’re almost halfway to the end of Season 2 so there are going to be episodes that are stronger and episodes that are weaker. That’s just how shows go, overall. Plus, they are an indie crew so you just have to be more forgiving, especially when it’s a collaborative group effort with everyone’s conflicting schedules all around the world, time crunches, and unexpected setbacks such as having to find another VA and nervously hoping the realistic backlash of a changing VA won’t hit too hard. There’s also the rumor I’ve seen floating around that Loona’s VA was grieving the loss of her fiancé during this episode, so her not voicing any lines is also understandable on a fundamentally personal empathetic level (I don’t know if this rumor has been debunked, but it’s also still understandable for any other reasons. But I won’t get into that here.)

Animation is hard, y’all. And you have to remember the people creating Helluva Boss are human. Not all episodes will be perfect. Even with my favorite show rn, I have certain episodes I’m happy to rewatch and certain ones I skip. There are certain seasons that will be stronger and some that you’re not that into.

I will have to say, this episode isn’t an automatic skip for me unlike the Cherubs episode sorry, I just don’t like the Cherubs personally, haha, but I understand their reason for existing in the canon lore so kudos to the animators and VAs. I do appreciate the animation of S2:E4 though. The songs were nice, and it was interesting to see the storyboards and the tweets from the song writers about the direction they were given—and how that resulted in the final product. It’s very interesting to see all the behind-the-scenes stuffs.

2) I have yet to see all the episodes of Season 2 so I will be reserving my judgement. Of all four episodes released thus far, I think S1 is stronger—but it’s an unfair comparison (like apples vs oranges) because we’ve seen all the episodes of S1 and we have yet to see the rest of S2.

“Fizzling out” is a strong word. Hmm. (Anon, and I mean this with love, if my support or interest in a show genuinely “fizzles out,” that’s not a good thing; you’re not going to see me continuing with something if my enthusiasm fades and it feels like a chore just to sit through something, trust me.) I have to say, excluding the Circus episode which was very, very strong and Exes and Oohs which I just adored, the rest of the episodes released thus far have things I like and a couple things I’m meh about. But, again, that’s par for the course. So I can’t objectively determine if S2 is fizzling out or weaker yet; I’d have to sit through the rest of the unreleased episodes to make that determination and then see S3.

I can’t remember off the top of my head, but I believe Vivziepop tweeted they were already working on the scripts for S3 or S4. Feel free to correct me on this! But whether it’s S3 or S4 or S5, it shows they have a plan and a strategy and there’s a lot more they want to explore and show us. They’re not spontaneously creating plot beats after every episode has aired (trust me, spontaneous writing is HARD; I have massive respect for writers who can write spontaneously—and still be able to execute it well). I’m in it to witness the spectacle and see where they take us.

3) Hm. So, hot take, but the Stolitz ship is always going to survive regardless of what season it is. They’re not ignorant. I don’t know why there are some people who think or worry the ship isn’t going to survive. It’s the main draw, the main ship, the main way they’re making profit. They sell Stolitz merchandise; it’s the most popular ship in the show. It’s not even fanon; it’s canon. So an expectation has been set, and they have to deliver. Betrayal of expectations, regardless of subversion, will be met with backlash; no one likes the feeling of being lied to. So if the Stolitz ship doesn’t survive, their viewership is going to tank. If viewership tanks, that means less interest, and less interest means less money in the bank.

I’m looking at it realistically—which is honestly kinda immersion-breaking for me because this ruins any tension of the “will they, won’t they” for me, haha (like, no, you definitely know they will)—but it’s honestly why I’m not panicking even if there is “a breakup” or “let’s see other people” or “let’s take a break from each other” or a fakeout death planned. <- That, I think, would be the worst extent of the Stolitz ship temporarily “not surviving” (ey, I understand, as a writer you gotta throw in some angst, hardship, and obstacles so when your characters get together, it feels deserving and earned), but obviously they’re going to finagle a way to get Blitzø and Stolas back together as a couple.

At the end of the day, it boils down to the HB crew’s execution of this ship in the show. There’s a lot of pressure resting on their shoulders, and I wish them luck and success.

At the end of the day, people are being paid to put out a product for mass consumption so they are invested in seeing that product succeed so they can continue to make a profit for as long as they can. Helluva Boss is their money-making machine aka golden goose. This pays the bills for them. They’d be stupid to kill off their golden goose (Stolitz). A lot of names (especially big ones with the VAs) are also attached, so they also want it to succeed. Even if there’s a loud minority of antis on the HB critical side who consistently air that they don’t like the Stolitz element, honestly, nothing they say will make the show-runners of Helluva Boss change their mind on Stolitz being canon and delivered.

4) Is anything that’s happening in canon, as more and more episodes are being released, going to affect my Stolitz fic: A Prince and His Baron (AO3 🔗).

Yes. And no. What I mean by that is I’m going to be choosy with what I see in canon. It’s the reason why I initially strategized to make P&B an AU, because the big risk of writing a long fic for an ongoing show is at some point, inevitably canon will contradict what I have planned or written. With making it an AU, I get to be selective about the canon Easter eggs I want to include or be influenced by.

For example, with the reveal of them being childhood friends in the Circus, I understand and acknowledge their canon direction, but I’m obviously going to ignore it in my AU. They’re going to stay as strangers who happened to meet in their adult years as an assassin imp on the rise and a powerful Goetia prince who wants him on the Royals faction side. Because the latter makes sense for my AU and they have to develop their relationship from a one-night stand (with benefits -> granting Blitz his baron status and land -> lowkey manipulation to make Blitz indebted to him and the land has automatically made Blitz a vassal to the prince by definition) to an understanding and feelings of genuine affection and devotion. We’re playfully poking fun at the Harlequin romance genre after all (assassin x prince), with some Hellish infernal politics.

Somethings I’m taking from canon include the dynamic between Stella and Andrealphus. Oh boy, Stella. What a complete turnaround in opinion I have of her, haha. I’m probably going to take a different approach to her (potential spoiler alert for P&B: she’s still “evil” but I like the idea she’s been spoiled and perhaps manipulated, so for certain things she has a bottom line when it comes to wickedness—and Andrealphus will have crossed that at a certain point in the story and it challenges her core beliefs because now she has to decide betraying her family or aligning herself with the husband (and imp) she despises). Of course, the more episodes I see, the more decisive I will be in deciding whether or not to go with this angle. If I see Stella continues to be an unrepentant b*tch in canon, she may not have the relatively good outcome I had been planning for her in my story at the end with the royal wedding between Stolas and Blitzø.

I also have other things P&B are being affected by, such as the worldbuilding of the rings of Hell. So while I can fill in the blanks and make P&B entirely off my imagination, it’s fun to see the canon lore and see which things to keep and which things I want to take a different approach with. :)

Thank you for the Ask, anon! 💞

okay this has like, proper punctuation etc because it feels more of a #fic ? i guess?? i'm sorry if it's annoying to read it with all the paragraph breaks etc.

Mick is late.

Well, he is not late, per se, he’s just– well, he usually gets here a good twenty minutes early, checks in with Seb. Now he’s stepping into the conference room with the guys who smoke, right on the dot, which is fine, he sometimes joins them outside for a few minutes anyways, but usually only after claiming the seat next to Seb with his backpack. 

The seat is empty, now– Mick doesn’t take it; engrossed in conversation with Giacomo, he sits with him on the other side of the table, which is fine. He puts down his takeaway cup, first, his morning cappuccino. Usually he returns from his little coffee runs with a cortado for Seb, but not today, which is fine; Seb can get his own coffee, it’s not like he asked Mick to fetch one for him. 

“Hey,” he smiles at Seb, non-committal, which is fine. Like last night he didn’t– but it doesn’t matter, because they didn’t–

They can’t start the meeting, just yet; some of the engineers are in another meeting that’s running late, so. Seb chats with Elena, asking all the right questions, nodding in the right places. 

Seb sees it when Mick unwraps his scarf, the red blotch on his neck. 

Someone whistles. Giacomo punches Mick’s shoulder. 

“Fun night, boys?” Elena asks, laughing. 

“Always,” Giacomo grins, looks over at Seb, “You gotta come out with us, the next time.” 

“I told you, I’m too old for this,” Seb says, the grin on his face costing him the better half of his willpower. Even when he’s looking at Giacomo, Mick is right there in his peripheral vision. 

“You keep saying that, but you won’t even try,” Giacomo fires back and Seb has to look at Mick instead, but Mick is just taking a sip of his cappuccino. 

The engineers burst into the room, apologizing, and Seb doesn’t have to answer. He looks at Mick, at the cut of his shoulders visible in his jumper, at the red spot on his throat, which is fine– he was, clearly he was fired up last night. If anyone would know it’s Seb, or, well. It’s whoever worried that little spot between their teeth until it turned red. What a sorry excuse for a hickey, Seb thinks, it’s so faint it’ll be gone in a day and then he won’t have to look at it anymore.

Elevator anon/Gamemaster you are powerful indeed, powerful indeed. Picture me staring into space, a lost, wistful glimmer in my eyes. How do I write you fanmail? How do I know you're eating well? How do I bundle you up in the warmest comforter and give you tea? How do I show you this lil heart I drew for you on my notebook?

This told from Seb's perspective is. Oh my goodness. It's painful. The shock at seeing the mark on Mick's neck. The bitter hurt that follows, the jealousy. The resignation that comes after when he realizes this is the result of his own actions. The grin that he has to dredge up, while Mick looks past him. He can't direct this at Mick! It isn't Mick's fault! So he channels it all toward the nameless, faceless person who dared mark Mick, with a sorry excuse for a hickey, so faint it'll be gone in a day.

Breathless.

Elevator anon, you have my entire heart this was beautiful thank you so much for writing this I don't even know what else to say. Please excuse me while I go be unhinged in the tags.

https://www.tumblr.com/multiplicity-positivity/719290857934798848/ok-ok-i-have-a-question-but-its-kind-of?source=share

Same anon! I'm really happy with your response and now I definitely have an official name for my nonsensical thoughts, thank you very much! :3

But I'm left with one question: When these random thoughts are specifically questions (not curiosity, like "what happens if I do this?" but REALLY self-directed questions, like... "what do you like to do?") are also normal random thoughts?

In fact, I did that whole ask in order to understand this, because a lot of people tell me they have these random thoughts, but no one to this day understood when I talked about "hearing questions for me coming from my head", so... Is it a slightly more unusual experience of random thoughts? Or something else? Just a bonus of ADHD?

Sorry if this is a silly question! /lh

Hiya! We’re really not sure! It really could be that you’re just trying to learn more about yourself and discover different aspects of your identity (even through subconsciously asking yourself questions)… or could be something different!

What I’m curious about is… what happens if you ask that voice a question back? Does it have a response? Does the other voice feel like you, or does it feel like someone else? What does it think about this whole situation?

Idk if we’ve already said this, but plurality is totally an opt-in label! So even if you don’t have headmates per se, you are still more than welcome to call yourself plural if the framework helps you! You’re not hurting anyone by testing the waters… even if it turns out you’re not a system after all, no harm done! >w<

Sorry we couldn’t be more helpful! Our gut feeling is that this is still a normal singlet thing, but if it brings you joy to call yourself plural because of it, well, you are absolutely welcome to and you’ll definitely be welcome in our spaces!

💚 Ralsei and 🐢 Kip

WACKUS YOU HAD ME TERRIFIED. I have to applaud you on the way you wrote LB attacking Gabriel - the constant reminders of his age, fragility, and powerlessness in the face of her murderous wrath. Is it weird that I feel like I can forgive Gabe now? I used to think I didn’t want him to die for Adrien’s sake but I didn’t really care what happened to him otherwise. But seeing the way he thought of his son to the end made me relent. It was worse because of the dramatic irony that we all knew he wasn’t Monarque - though he definitely did deserve some of that beating. But maybe that’s why I feel like can forgive him now? Because he got the beating he deserved and more, and because he still thought of his son. And his son, still, despite it all, despite holding his father responsible for everything, doesn’t want his father to die.

~also I hope you’re happy because the fact that you had Lila playing her usually I’ll tell Adrien what Gabriel won’t game and that Adrien actually believes her and on some level feels grateful for it had me feeling as sick as a cat on a ship. It’s absolutely chilling to see her plan to get in his good graces by using Gabriel as the villain and herself as the one on his side has actually WORKED even if only to a tiny, microscopic extent. I feel sick and violated~

Also loved the brief glimpse of Felix, my love ;-; I felt so bad for him after he snapped at Adrien not to tell him 😂 but also 😭.

I’m so tense now that LB knows —BUT SO RELIEVED Adrien dropped that line about only Lila being on his side so LB hopefully is less murderous against feligami my beloved— I don’t know how im going to wait a week seriouslt I feel all hyped up on adrenaline 😫

hehe thank you anon 🙏🏼💖 my intention with gabriel isn't for you guys to feel sorry for him, per se. it's just to show that he's old and pathetic now, and everything that he was afraid of happening to him/the people he loves has already happened. so, when ladybug shows up to kick him while he's down...we don't get a lot of satisfaction from it because ladybug's beatdown has nothing to add.

and yes, you're right about adrien's love for his father! it's a broken kind of love, because adrien is a broken man. just like how gabriel is a broken man who gave adrien only broken love. but it's still real and it's still love, and adrien was literally made from love to give love. he's the best kind of person out there, so we are not surprised to see his tenuous relationship with his father being so strained, yet the love so apparent anyway.

i'm glad you liked seeing lila's manipulation working on adrien 😈 she's only kept gabriel alive as her scapegoat/ red herring for moments like these, where she can shift the blame or the brunt of adrien's anger to gabriel rather than herself. of course adrien falls for it! he doesn't know any better! sick and violated are great words for it bestie, the desired effect has been reached 💖💖💖💖

oh felix, poor felix 😂 he's crying in the club right now. you're right though, at least ladybug's righteous fury isn't directed at him, for the moment!

thank you so much i'm so happy you liked this chapter ❤️

Hello again! I'm the pimple anon (which is a strange name! But hey, I've embraced my insecurities!)

And, right off the bat, wanna say that I think all the points you made are completely valid and I am thankful, that you took time out of your day to respond.

Now honestly, I didn't at all allude that the reason BTS might disband (if ever or if they did or had done) would be because of their interpersonal reasons of affection or romance or anything like that, implying some sort of a "love triangle", or weird "jealousy" or whatever between the members. If my writing gave off that vibe, that was completely unintentional.

And like I wrote I enjoy ALL the ships in BTS even the polyamorous ones LOL because they are all so much fun. But I'm pretty conscious that these imaginations don't bleed into the reality of things, because 1. I'm not privy to their personal life. 2. They share only what they want or are required to. 3. They are humans and not made-up characters in someone's fantasy. 4. Unless it directly is from them, almost everything is speculation.

With that being said, I have followed BTS from the very beginning to now and really looked at them through almost neutral lenses, in a way that my bias is all 7 of them. So really everything that I wrote, was just an observation and not really a "story" I weave to feed or soothe myself!!

And like you wrote Jimin is highly emotionally intelligent, and I, 100% believe that too. But watching BTS from the earlier days to recent times, there does seem to be something unfathomable between him and Yoongi. And I'm not saying it's romantic per se, because chances are most likely it's not, however even just looking at them interact on TV it's unmistakable. It's undoubtedly subdued to the extent, I see some "people" completely call BS on it because they just can't "see" it. I disagree though, and again this is not to ship Yoongi and Jimin, but from my point of view their interactions are always so subtly different from how they interact with the other members, it's very intriguing.

Jimin and Jungkook, on the other hand just seem to click. Like two pieces of a puzzle. And watching them throughout the years realize this themselves has been almost cathartic. It might be platonic too between them, but it seems to tither on the edge of romantic! And it's not subtle at all. Their interactions are loud, in our faces, for the world to see and try to recognize for what it is.

Ahh, forgive me, again, I've written an essay!! It's just that, none of Jimin's interactions with Namjoon, Seokjin, Taehyung, or Hoseok carries this sort of visible chemistry (for the lack of a better word) as he shares with Yoongi and Jungkook.

But to finish off, I do immensely enjoy differing points of view, except when it gets too territorial and overtly antagonistic, I run away in that case!! Thank you again for responding and sharing your point of view. Hope you have a lovely day :)

Omg, you're calling yourself pimple anon! That's funny. And cute. Embracing it is the best thing to do, way to go 💪

Thanks for coming back and adding to some of your initial thoughts. The thing is, I know you personally weren't implying anything about love triangles and disbandment reasons. It's just that I usually start from one topic or a smaller issue and then I make a general point from it and it may go into a slightly different direction. So it was not because I didn't understand you or anything, I just wanted to expand on a larger issue and a phenomenon partaining to shipping, that's all. And anon, when I said story, I didn't mean it in a bad way. I wasn't mocking or not taking you seriously. Agh, tone is hard to express in a written form. So sorry about that. If I would have thought you were writing some bullshit or anything, I wouldn't have offered that type of response. So, we're good here, I hope 😊

And about the specific topic, you used the perfect word in this ask and now I understand more what you were trying to say. Chemistry! Yep, that's it. And I totally agree with you. But my opinion also comes from a biased perspective because I do enjoy more watching Jimin and Yoongi and Jimin with JK. I've said this before, if shipping two people would be up to my choice, it would be JM and Yoongi. Because of that chemistry. Because there is the je ne sais quoi lingering all the time. I find that with JM and JK as well. I know others will disagree completely, which is why it will always be a matter of personal preference.

P.S. I don't mind long asks. I really don't. There's nothing to forgive. If you come back in my inbox for other occasions, you can sign yourself as pimple anon, I'll remember you 😄Have a lovely day as well!

Things don't have to have substance, bunch of straight shit has no substance and is still entertaining at the very least. BL should be allowed have masterpieces and... the direct opposite. Not everything has to be a work of art and it's fine for it to not be.

Not sure what the context for you hating KP is (I don't follow you and this showed up in the KP tag), but the actors can actually act and have great onscreen chemistry and that's why I personally enjoyed the show despite the flaws it has in addition to the Meta the fandom produced and the engagement the creative team allowed for the audience to have.

Can't say most of BL shows produced and their team + fandom can come up with the things the KP fandom has or had put in the effort/complexity the KP creative team has.

Most BLs have the most mediocre actors paired with the most lackluster scripts so, at least for me, it was a gem. Also, I'd been waiting for it for 2 years before it came out. *shrugs* It was different, it was mature, it stepped out of the university setting I was so mind numbingly tired of.

Sorry fandom ruined it for you. It was, for me, one of the most engaging fandoms since ITSAY and Not Me and for that, I personally liked it despite its various shortcomings.

hi anon! first of all! my main problem isn't that kp doesn't have substance per se. i agree wholeheartedly that bls should have amazing, complex, mind blowing shows but also allow room for more silly and turn-your-brain-off kinda series and everything in between. we as queer people deserve the same range of shows and reps as cishets get in their own television, but my issue with kp is that people keep acting like it was a revolutionary show. it was not! it could've been, for sure. i expected it to be, and i'll be honest and say i was completely let down by the end result because i, too, waited over 2 years for it to come out, i was really excited because i adore apo and the premise of the story seemed fantastic, but alas, amidst all the troubles this production went through, the final product did not survive and we ended up with a show much different from that very first 9 minute "teaser" that made us all enthralled in what apo and mile could offer.

to me, kp had so much potential to be a great, thought-provoking, mature show that completely deviated from everything we've been used to in thai bls, but what came of it was a contradictory plot with many many plotholes and characters that didn't make sense or added anything to the story. apo is a good actor, and so is mile, but none were phenomenal or oscar worthy as some of you try to make them out to be, and the rest of the cast was mediocre. the production crew had many issues too and the vp actors are two shitbags im not gonna waste my time on.

like. fine!!!! you can enjoy kp i don't mind!!!! just please stop putting it on this pedestal as if it was the best thing in the world. be realistic pls. it *is* exciting that it offered something totally new to the thai bl scene, yes, but that by itself doesn't grant it a gold star. the show *was* lackluster and we all know it could've been so much better had they followed that original teaser. or, hell, focused more on the actual story than on those saturated sex scenes.

as for the fandom. well. i have a lot of bones to pick with like 90% of the people who engage with kp content, but i do admit some beautiful fan work came out of it that deserves praise. but overall, a very much braindead fandom by the stuff i've come across. again, it's not like there was a lot to work with considering the changes they made to the plot (like the house porsche and his brother live in, which does not add up to the situation they are living in, when in the original teaser they lived in a very small apartment.) and most of the show was just a display of hot men that i was personally not interest in, but the lack of critical thinking and the will to overlook serious problems and situations for the sake of finding actors attractive was honestly baffling. when kinn >sexually assaulted< a drugged porsche, people thought it was cute. when vegas drugged porsche and attempted rape, he was a little meow meow. when vegas, again, kept being completely awful and disgusting with porsche and then proceeded to torture pete, it was a love story. when accusations came out that pete's actor had done terrible things, no one gave a shit because y'all are much more interested in seeing men fuck than in the wellbeing of those who he hurt. like wake the fuck up, what's wrong with you all? shows are allowed to be complex and problematic, my complaint is not that. i don't care that vegas is vile and that kinn is flawed, but i do care about how you people willingly excused their behaviours for vanity. i swear petev3gas girlies are the most repulsive people i've ever seen and i hate each and every one of them with a burning passion. it's fucking hilarious actually how many maaaaany of them are all very anti-th4rntype and m3w and "sexual violence is terrible!!!!" but were so very quick to turn the blindest of eyes to the countless awful things vegas did and have the fucking gall to root for petev3gas.

anyways. like kp if you want, but i'm sick and fucking tired of y'all holding the show to this high standard when many others are far better and more cohesive, with a much better message, characters and storylines. please develop some critical thinking skills that tiktok and twitter probably sucked out of your brains and learn to accept that not everything you like is a masterpiece and that's okay.

Sorry if you've answered this before, but what's your favorite and least favorite JoJo parts and why?

omg no need to apologize at all anon! i haven't explicitly answered this before no, and I'm so honored you're interested enough to ask <3

cut cause this got long

long story short: my favorite part of jojo is stardust crusaders probably. short story long: my favorite part can change depending on the day to be quite honest, but it's always been tied between stardust crusaders, diamond is unbreakable, and stone ocean. however, while i know trust me i KNOW stone ocean and diamond is unbreakable are both much more well written than stardust crusaders, stardust crusaders ends up on top most of the time

stardust crusaders is probably my favorite due to kakyoin's presence in it, jotaro's entire thing, loved seeing joseph coming back as it really brought home that this story is about a family for me, i enjoyed seeing stands for the first time, i enjoyed the music (yugo kanno's debut was in sdc), and most of all i loved the group dynamic so, so much even if we didn't get to see it in all of it's glory for too long cause araki loved writing out kakyoin and avdol, and how the road trip setting made it feel most like a real adventure of all jojo parts (except for part 1, but part 1 was so short and we don't get to see much of the traveling aspect like we do for sdc ):). idk it just fills me with like...such happiness. like these are my friends. we are going on a trip. we will laugh and have fun and find moments worth fighting for despite the stakes. we will mean everything to each other. it will destroy us, the love won't save us per se, but it matters that we cared. it is who we are

my least favorite part kinda volleys between jojolion and vento aureo.

jojolion because it was literally on the way to becoming my favorite part, but then araki got bored and just ended it without resolving ANYTHING. without ANY character arc being completed. without ANYTHING being answered since like chapter 50. and as he goes out while ending the story before anything could properly bloom, he kills like four-five of the best characters and then is like "josuke's part of the higashikata family now don't mind that he was literally fighting against the next patriarch in line just five chapters ago" and also did such STUPID FUCKING HORSESHIT LIKE "also the abusive and neglectful mom who literally tried to drown her child actually loved him. actually. and this will give josuke closure somehow" also WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED OT HOLLY. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED WITH HOLLY WAS SHE SAVED DID SHE DIE WHAT THE FUCK. jojolion was literally going to be my favorite part and now i don't even think it should be animated due to how fucking all over the place and unresolved it ended up being. but most of my hatred is directed toward araki in this instance, not necessarily the story itself, so:

vento aureo because i just wasn't interested in the premise and araki didn't make me interested during the whole 39 episode run. araki set up a bunch of cool characters but then doesn't really do much with them like at all in general but especially past the first half -- in fact, after the first half he either writes them out or just straight up kills them (coincidentally, the first half was my favorite, while the second half i was so bored after trish's single sole moment of spotlight that i would constantly keep the timeline bar up so i saw how much of the episode i had left to slog through). also, like i mentioned for why stardust crusaders was my favorite part, i liked that we saw just how relevant family was to the story and how INTEGRAL part 3 is to part 4 and part 6 -- so in contrast, the fact that you could completely skip part 5 and not have any issues understanding any jojo part before or after it just. like you see why it drained the fun out for me right. like gio was fucking dio's kid for crying out loud and the only time that was even brought up was in the first four episodes and the first four episodes only. it just felt like so unneeded and honestly the only reason im glad i didn't just skip it is cause i do love fugo and trish a lot and i do like purple haze feedback. but that's it

anyway thanks for asking anon <3

joey anon coming back to apologize, i was up too late last night & the post triggered my paranoia (like actual "everyone is talking about you" paranoia not "tee hee" funny disorder paranoia) which, is why i deleted my blog in the first place. sorry for the hate-manifesto. the general vibe on tumblr triggers me sometimes and it sucks because it's generally a good community my brain is just. hell sometimes. i shouldn't have taken that out on you. hate aside, it does still like, hurt, to see a 'bigger' creator get more attention and/or kinda slam a post that you put your own heart into. even if you weren't attacking me personally it's something i see with bigger blogs that get into specific headcanons that makes it disheartening to post anything, even outside of my paranoia issues. but, yeah i apologize for sending you hate, it wasn't cool. i should have vented to someone in private instead.

Hey, it's cool; if that's the case, sorry for posting ur ask, I should've probably just deleted it like I normally do. If it helps, the only reason I published it was because it didn't seem to actually insult me, just assume some strange things, which really confused me. I've had some people assume I was talking about them specifically before and attack me for it (or sometimes just ask for polite clarification, which is fine) before, but never on anon, which was, in no small part what confused me. Sorry for putting you in the position where you felt the need to explain your paranoia to a stranger.

For the record (not just for you, for those other ppl as well): while I absolutely do sometimes make posts because of a post I saw, I almost never make posts I directly in response to others, if that makes sense. Sometimes a post reminds me of multiple other posts I've seen, and then I'll make a post because of that trend. But if it's just one post, isolated, that annoyed me, I usually just bitch about it privately. No posts of mine are ever intended as an attack on or response to anyone else's specific post unless I specifically state otherwise.

And I do understand it can be disheartening to have bigger blogs state exactly what you have and get more notes for it, or to just get little notes in general. Believe it or not, this is my biggest blog. I wouldn't even call it a 'big blog' per se, I just have a few hundred followers, but it's definitely bigger than a lot of other blogs and bigger than my others for sure. Not to mention that I write as a hobby, and it's always super disheartening to post things (on tumblr or otherwise) and get little to no attention for it.

But at the end of the day, that's just how social media works. People will be more likely to be exposed to popular stuff, making the popular stuff more popular. It's not the fault of big blogs (or popular writers) for being big. They started with zero followers like the rest of us, then, usually, just got lucky. That's sure what happened with every bigger blog I've ever owned. Nobody's deliberately taking attention away from smaller blogs. Big blogs aren't corporations who are deliberately trying to stifle mom-and-pop stores they see as competitions; hell, on Tumblr, they don't even earn money from their blog. They're just posting stuff like everyone else. Directing these frustrations at them is (as I'm sure you're aware) irrational.

We don't know each other, but from the sounds of it, it seems like deleting your blog was the correct choice, even if it was done in a fit of paranoia. Again, I'm sure you know, but sometimes the best thing to do with paranoia is to distance yourself from the source of it, even if you otherwise like it. I haven't had genuine paranoia (or the delusions/hallucinations that caused it) in years, but distancing myself from one of its main sources (despite me loving it) was essential to my mental health. I'm glad I didn't have access to social media back them, because I'm sure it would've exacerbated my issues. So it sounds like taking a step back from social media is probably the correct thing to do. But obviously, I don't know anything about you, so if I'm wrong in my assumption, just ignore me.

And in case you were wondering: I'm incapable of being concise, which is why I keep writing essays. Sorry about that. TL;DR: no hard feelings, I get it, take care of yourself and I hope you have a good day.