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ohnoitsjetster · 1 month
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answer this ask once you watch falsettos and tell me if you liked it :)
I liked it :]
You will ignore my shaking hands and my bloodshot eyes and the tear stains on my face and clothes. I liked it
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celibibratty · 7 months
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we work so hard we put our hearts and soul on everything that i/we post/do and i hate it cuz it always the BULLSHIT (i Said its bullshit bullshit BULLSHIT) things that gets admired/gets relevant/are serving, that people praise, i work so hard to post content of the things, i work so hard to do something coherent, portray the characters coherent, i study/absorve the things and seems like i never will be somebody/my things will never be considered relevant as those BULLSHIT things, those people that come out nowhere inventing bunch of nonsense/ruining the things are more admired and praised for serving content than me💧💧(me that always was there and always give so much💧), i think the way i/we do the things/our contents are cool/coherent, but it's never them the things that people like💧
#I don't feel comfortable saying what was exactly the reason of the trigger#Just know that i cried in the bathrom for almost 2 minutes and i still with a bad feeling in my chest/heart#Opened up to marina ceased a little the trembling and high anxiety but still#I wish were my/our things that were the things that are remembered i wished i was the one that was considered is serving content💧#But this feeling cuz at the same time i want to be the one i don't want to give anything to people and don't want to motivate them...#And i know we have that power and i don't want make them feel hyped i want people to get BORED to get NOTHING to a point where they will...#Lose interest and gone FOREVER but infuriates we being right here being the ones that work sooooooooooooo hard and...don't get anything💧#I certaily sure the major trigger was this ao3/fanfic thing (i fuckin hate it this feeling somedays i feel i cured but i not#(Sigh) i hate this it seems like i ruining the day/the vibe i enjoyed watching this n1mona but when i get triggered it changes everything#Sucks watch a self-accptance movie and then get triggered by ask of someone praising a fucking blog saying how much this person is serving.#Content for the community fandom how much there things are amazing how much they are amazing when for me is all BULLSHIT💢🔥#I...wished my/our things were the right#But has another part of me (that its the true one) that i don't want them to engage/like cuz it's personal for me it's personal i don't...#Like to share cuz it's personal ITS MINE THING and don't people to TOUCH IT💢🔥#Sucks watch a self-accptance movie and then get sad cuz you feel you as a person is no one/anything/unrelevant/nobody likes you💧#But it's not gonna be a movie that will make this thought go away or change that feeling#reflection#I wish someone could understand it too or say something like ;no your contents are good what you serve is nice/cool and maybe even better#I just will be here wishinig💧certaily sure nobody will get it or say anything#I don't like to feel like this cuz when i like this i don't know what to do💧i feel lost nothing heals only thing that last to me is sleep#And pray to the next day i forget about it#I feel a Sadness mixed with a fuckin RAGE/ANGER💢🔥
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wanderingstill · 1 year
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So, I have come to a conclusion that my toxic trait and most toxic trait - which may seem quite obvious to some yet oblivious to me - is that I have a victim mentality.
Having a victim mentality not only means that you don’t need to take responsibilities for the choices made as an adult. But it also means that you can sit back and wait for somebody else to save you.
I anxiously spin circles in my brain recalling past events of the actions of others and how that has affected me. I don’t take as much time thinking of the actions of myself and how that has affected others. I suppose that is a hint of narcism in there somewhere, I suppose there has to be.
I have been waiting for someone to save me and that is my flaw. No matter what others do it is my responsibility to heal. 
Working with children all day has helped me see this. There are those with the mentality of victim and those that are responsible. I prefer the actions of those that take respobsibility. There are no excuses just accptance. Coming to think of it, it. requires a lot of energy in order to be a victim. You have to constantly look for reasons why it is not you. You have to rack your brain in order to keep you in that perpetuated state. 
It is a hell of an effective coping mechanism if you are trying to avoid self confrontation. I’ll give that to my inner child.
It is a not a coping mechanism that serves me as an adult. How can I grow if I don’t see the fault in my ways?
It is not my Fathers date to heal the trauma that my Mother passed down to me. It is mine. 
Saviour
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there-is-much-more · 3 years
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In 2021 we will
Be kind to ourselves
Appreciate our body
Notice toxic people sooner
ContInue to wear a garsh darn MASK
Drink more water
Go to bed at a consistent time
Try new things
Love our flaws
Spread positivity
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edgymomfriend · 3 years
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Aiding the New, and Healing the old.
There is something different about these last few hours.
I am not quite sure, but for the first time in a long time;
I am hopefully and anticipation of what is to come does not scare me.
All it took was accepting I need help.
Although, I have to say, fuck it is hard to accept.
Help, is something I understand.
As a Social Worker our duty is to help those who cannot help themselves.
Yet, why is it so hard to apply that same concept to ourselves?
In Social Work they teach you not to say help but Aid;
I never understood its importance till now.
Here I am, ready for new things to come; and old things to pass away.
Healing from the inside out.
I am ready to receive the Aid my friends and therapist are so willingly giving.
Is there fear?
Of course there is fear, it is the unknown.
But with them by my side I am never alone.
You see I have some to terms with there are many me(s)
At first I thought it was crazy.
Then I was crazy.
But, now I am realizing what I went through was crazy.
I am human and beautiful for it.
I am unique but not alone or isolated.
I am worthy of happiness.
I am worthy of love.
I am worthy of laughing.
I am worthy of being sad.
I am worthy of being more than my past.
I am worthy of healing.
I am so worthy.
Now it is time to act and allow myself to start healing with the things I enjoy.
I enjoy writing poetry
I enjoy sketching
I enjoy coloring
I enjoy painting
I enjoy reading
I enjoy deep meaningful conversations
I enjoy the company of others
I enjoy dancing
I enjoy sing at the top of my lungs
I enjoy nature
I enjoy the beauty found in the small that tends to be overlooked.
11-28-2020
- Daisy Lee 🌼
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olynychmara-blog · 7 years
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Accept the things you can not change but have the wisdom to know the difference.
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jb199812 · 7 years
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tranquil-olive · 5 years
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Somedays I want to feel like I am a beautiful Woman. While I view myself as gender fluid, I sometimes feel like an 'amorphous blob of a human', when what I really want to feel is beautiful and comfortable in my own skin. I never feel like a beautiful woman, and rarely do I feel like a beautiful human. Maybe it has nothing to do with how I view my gender. Maybe it is my low self-esteem, my lack of unconditional love and accptance for myself. Maybe its because I dress like a guy, partly to hide myself. And I realize this may not be serving me. And YES. My body is wonderful and strong; I've been amazed and proud of everything my body is capable of doing. And I can see that I have beauty inside of me as well. But too often than not, I hold harsh judgement on myself and presume what others think of me. I wish those moments of feeling proud, comfortable, beautiful,strong were not fleeting. I wish I could look in the mirror and not feel disappointed at the face staring back at me. Maybe someday I will find the love for myself that I seek. Maybe someday I will put less value on the opinions' of others. #personal #writing #thoughts #sharing #self #feelings #freewriting #feels #journaling #livingwithanxiety #livingwithdepression #life #words #genderfluid #selfesteem #selflove #unconditionallove https://www.instagram.com/extraaguacamole/p/BvyEh0sl05Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qnhy36yxxvxl
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wildnloving-blog · 6 years
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Self Portrait Series #2
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there-is-much-more · 4 years
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If someone toxic left your life, it’s ok to miss them. It’s ok to look back at the good memories you had with them. It’s ok to wish that things could have been different. But it’s important to remember your worth. Because you are better off without the people that have been holding you back. Because those people brought the worse out of you. They made you feel awful about yourself and your intreasts. And it is ok to miss them and the memories, but don’t forget that the better stronger version of you will grow because they are no longer part of your life. Keep looking forward after reminiscing. Because it’s ok to miss them but you need to remember you are doing great without them.
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there-is-much-more · 3 years
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Y’all gotta stop letting nasty toxic people control your life. You are freakin beautiful. You are creative. You are smart. You are funny. And you are freakin cool. Wear that funky shirt. Make crazy art. Say what’s on your mind. Walk like you know where you are going. Screw the people who made you feel like you weren’t amazing. Because gosh freakin darn it you ARE.
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there-is-much-more · 4 years
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Despite the many tears you shedded today. Despite how much you wanted to breakdown today. Despite how hard it was to smile today. Know that you are worth going into tomorrow. Because I promise tomorrow won’t be like today. It will be better and easier. But we have to make it through the rest of today to reach it.
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there-is-much-more · 4 years
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As July comes to an end, remember to let the things you can not control go. Remember you did all that you could do at the time. Remember to forgive yourself for the mistakes you did do. Remember to keep your head up. Dispite the hard times, you still have the power to make tomorrow better.
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there-is-much-more · 4 years
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SELF LOVE
that’s it
that’s the post
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there-is-much-more · 4 years
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For anyone who needs to hear this today, “You do not have to jeopardize your mental and physical health for the expectations of others.” You deserve better.
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there-is-much-more · 5 years
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I WILL GET BETTER. But not for my friends who are tired of dealing with me crying. Not for my teachers who are tired of dealing with my late work because of bad nights. Not for the gas station cashier who can’t understand me because of my stuttering. I WILL GET BETTER FOR MYSELF. For me and only me. My progress goes above all others who have to deal with my minor inconveniences. I will get better for me!
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