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#scream poem
cocaineorchids · 3 months
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I woke up today with an ache in my soul. A reminder of the things you planted in my brain and left deep-rooted to overgrow like a wildfire. Time is the only healer of a broken heart but what do they say for those with broken souls? What about those of us who aren’t necessarily heart-broken, but in a constant loop, replaying the mistakes of the ghosts of our pasts, who’ve left deep scars in the most beautiful parts of ourselves. What do we have to say for those of us who are so sure that we’ve rid ourselves of the lingering aches left by those who took a knife to our hearts, only to wake up one day and feel as if we’re reliving it all over again. How is it that when all is said and done, those who’ve left us with a distorted self-image and a life time of questions, are the ones who walk away unscathed. I suppose my point is, how am i okay when i’m not okay at all.
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bxbybubble-jpeg · 1 year
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Hotel Books//Wooden Floorboards
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suqqubus · 7 months
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somewhereinthemisora · 2 months
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V.
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poetrylovebitch · 9 months
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The anger scares me but it’s the only time I don’t care if they leave. You wanna hurt me, leave? Look I can do it better.
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ithoughtbeethovendied · 7 months
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not fair
Oh
I don’t know when I fell in love with you. I didn’t know that I was capable of loving you. I mean how many many times have you heard about the girl who fell in love with her girl best friend and not platonically? I didn’t realise it then though, I thought it was affection.
Little did I know.
And now we don’t talk. And even if we did…….
I don’t know what I would say.
This isn’t a movie in which everything works out In the end. This isn’t some story in which the girl kisses the one she loves. This isn’t a poem that would cry all night for someone to be mine.
Oh how much I loved her.
How much had I wanted to caress her face, look into her eyes and admire her smiles?
Do I text you? Is that what I should do? WHAT SHOULD I DO when I miss you every night and my pillow catches your tears? What would you do?
Would you have called me if none of these things had happened? Would you have sat beside me that night and watched me cry? Would you have gently wiped my cheek and let your hand stay there just a bit too long? Would you have closed the gap? Would you have been there?
The truth is………. I don’t know.
I don’t even know if you loved me and whether you regret it.
I tell people I don’t hate you but I don’t see the point to not to. I miss you and I don’t like this feeling.
This feeling of my stomach dropping anytime anyone mentions you. This feeling of my head spinning at the thought of you. This feeling of me dying inside. Just because I don’t know you.
What did I ever do?
Or what the fuck was it that I didn’t.
My heart still beats but its empty chambers require fresh blood to give in.
And I don’t know who to trust anymore to pump it.
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self-titled-poet · 6 months
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I often picture the girl
Who is only (just) 18
In dark eye make up
And shoes that hurt her feet,
Because that’s what
Grown ups wear,
In a pub drinking
Glasses of things
Only adults are allowed to drink
Surrounded by people
All (at least) double her age
And the man at the centre
His hand resting on her thigh
As he jokes about her
Thinking she cannot hear
How his friends make
Envied comments about
What it must be like
To fuck someone so naive
So inexperienced
Someone so fresh and tight
How she leaves
To go outside and put
A stick between her teeth
That chokes her
All because she wants
To know addiction
To learn why he loves this
But cannot love her
I often think of this girl
And how those cigarettes
Were so loosely rolled
Yet she would spend hours
Hanging out of
Her parents window
Swirling white rum in a glass
Puffing smoke into the sky
Practising making tubes of paper
Stuffed with dry
Sweet smelling grass
All the while
Watching the stars twinkle
She had no hobbies
No interests
Only him, and those parts
Of him she could pour
Deep into herself
To fill the nothingness he gave her
Something inside her
Drowned
Or burned
Or he suffocated out
Because not even a shred
Of the girl at 18
Existed beyond those days
I think she still wonders
Those places
Like a ghost trying to find
The things she lost
The things he tore away
The things he no longer remembers
But I do
I think about the girl
So freshly 18
Lost in the man
That had a habit of plucking souls
And shoving them carelessly
Into his denim pockets
Letting them roll around
Next to his lighter
The fully formed man
Who’s comments stay fresh
Haunting the places
They went together
As if it were yesterday
And not seven years ago
The girl who does all she can
To not be deceived by love
The way she was
But forgives herself for being
No older than a child
Who is trying still
To piece together hobbies
To learn to only wear flat shoes
And to be youthful
With colourful makeup
I mourn the loss of a girl
Who had so much potential
But i suppose only those girls
Are worth being ripped open
—k.l
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hakuna-my-ass · 1 year
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Hide me in Tokyo, I’ll keep all your secrets
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logolepsyie · 1 year
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rosé by the ocean - In Her Own Words
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cocaineorchids · 3 months
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when you told me how she felt about you, your lips dripping with all the reassurance of yours for me, it didn’t cross your mind that it’d be a thought i’d go back to like a bad habit. with all of the trust i have in me to give to you, i am not overflowing with it. when you told me, my walls shifted a little and where the trust was seeping out faster than i could catch it, it was no longer unable to be contained. friend. that six letter word i catch myself getting stuck on like gum on the bottom of my shoe. and who am i to not believe in you, although please forgive that i can’t. call it what you will, but this is caution in all it’s bloody glory. i am nothing if not prepared for the battle of my own emotional turmoil. you see i am unequivocally, irrevocably in love with you, but when you told me that, and please understand that all i could see is that same feeling radiating within her
it’s not fair i know, but if the turned tables turned, would your humanity show too? i ask as if i don’t know the answer is that you’d understand in a way i could never fathom. a part of me though, the most selfish part of me wishes it’d pierce through you too. a thought you can’t shake. one that makes you question things to your core. yet i know this is what i’d call wishful thinking and when it comes to this page in the book, i know we’ll never quite be on the same one
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extraawords · 2 years
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apoeticbecoming · 11 months
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From my new book “learning how to breathe again” - check it out in my bio link!
Instagram: @apoeticbecoming
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suqqubus · 7 months
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everything means nothing to me - elliott smith
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somewhereinthemisora · 2 months
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poetrylovebitch · 9 months
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I just want someone to miss me the way I miss them. Fuck I hurt. I want to sleep but all I can see is your face and you’re talking to other girls and I’m just stuck. Again. Alone. Again. Why can’t you miss me? When did you stop loving me? Did you ever love me? Do you miss my body? Why wasn’t I enough. How often does my name run across your mind? How often do your hands run across another girls body? Do you feel any remorse when you flirt with another? Do you drink to forget my name? I drink to forget yours but only find your love at the bottom of the bottle. Will you wait for me? Put your lust to the side and come back to me. Did you ever love me the way I loved you?
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