running yourself into the ground because it "feels good" but actually because it secretly feels bad like a cheese grater against all the soft bits of your mind and running yourself into the ground specifically because it feels very bad and right now the roadrash will give some kind of visual effect to the rest of the experience of your suffering and running yourself into the ground because you were raised religious and/or with strict parents and now you feel like you need an excuse any time you burn out or else it's not burnout it's laziness and running yourself into the ground so you can be really sure it's actually depression and not just because you ate something suspicious
and running yourself into the ground because the back of your throat tastes like rotted fish and yet everybody wants you to get up and make a pretty dance about it and running yourself into the ground like a matchstick because if you're going to have to be here you want to blaze about it and running yourself into the ground like a darkened landing strip so the plane wheels spark up and your hometown finally disappears in the distance good fucking riddance
and running yourself into the ground because of some fucked up great-great-grandparent's hard work aesthetic and because you somehow owe it to your parents, who owed it to their own parents, because owing things is normal in your family, like love is a cost-value analysis and running yourself into the ground and getting up and pretending that, like, this isn't burning the candle at both ends. two days is plenty to get back into it.
you're not spiraling, you're just manifesting wealth and happiness. you're not spiraling, the radio in your chest just has low batteries. what do you mean that's the sound of distress. when they went out looking, they never found your pilot. you haven't been in this body for years now. you found yourself and put her into a box and then put her up on a shelf. she's still safe up there and she's still a kid.
running yourself into the ground and the constant knowledge: you don't even know where you're going and you don't like the experience. but where ever it is: you're not there yet.
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Winged!Batfam AU where wings are really uncommon and are a black market commodity. Bruce has something even more uncommon: bat wings. They are one of a kind. When he’s not Batman, he dresses them with feathers so he can keep his identity. All of the robins were born with regular (bird) wings. The only exception to this is after Jason dies and he emerges from the Lazarus pit, he has bat wings like his father. Wretched mirrors. Yada yada. You get the picture. Something about demons coming back to haunt you.
Toying with the idea of Damian’s wings being plucked as a child while he was in the league so they would resemble his father’s. (Ik bat and bird wings are structured differently but pretend they aren’t.) Maybe they grow back, a rebirth. Maybe they don’t, a grim reminder of what he was supposed to be. Either way, his wings are painful to use compared to the rest of the family. He will power through it when he needs to, but he’s more earthbound than the rest of his family.
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