I gained 5lbs in a week and I’ve been in my usual deficit so I figured it was water. So I chugged a gallon yesterday, ended up pissing 24/7 and I re-weighed today and I lost all 5lbs.

This is your sign to chug water.

Manifesting this for October ✨✨

Tw! EDs

It is insane to me that my life partner is over weight and beautiful. When I gain weight it makes me look severely unattractive. My partner has never experienced eating disorders tho they have experienced extreme fat phobia. I love them. And I love their body. The fat phobia in earlier ana and ed communities was so extreme. As an older gen Z I'm aware Ana forums still exist and I'm really happy to see the fatphobia change to anti fat phobic proanas. For me it's not necessarily about the look, it's about the ability to control the look. It's not about being attractive, it's about being sick enough to get help.

For those younger anas and mias and whatevers put there, remember that fatphobia should never be accepted in the Ana community. Fatphobia causes more pain. Do not force others to endure the pain you feel because that guilt will follow you for life.

I'm on adhd meds so my brain went on a rant lol sorry.

I got inspired by the video The Evolution of Pro Anorexia on YouTube.

No one can convince me that 100cals is not a lot.

Oh right, Forgot to update on my ed diary..

WE DID IT!!! 🎉

We can purge now! though it’s hard to now decided to eat or not to since its like. “you can, but you know what comes after, don’t you?” UGH UR ANNOYING OMFG!

I fasted today for a good 24 hours, when I went to eat I could hardly finish anything I put on my plate. I did drink a lot of water today, and I found some real low cal energy drinks that help any sweetness cravings. I think I'll do it again before I eat again, then I'll try this diet I found to help ease back into longer fasts.

If anyone wants to maybe be friends don’t be afraid to hmu, I love meeting new people. No minors please.

A couple fun facts idk:

- I’m 20 (soon to be 21)

- I love the outdoors more than anything, camping, hiking, exploring,

- I’m super musical, I love classical, alt, indie, folk indie, and play some instruments

- high sw so don’t worry you’re skinnier than me

- I live on and help maintain a small family farm with lots of animals

Not looking for any coaches just some buddies is all

Why can’t that be me?

Starving feels like therapy

My hw vs lw vs cw I wanna at least get to my lw again by April. That's only 14 lbs! I think I can do it... any encouragement?

Yes ik bluring my face doesn't do alot bc tattoos and surgery, but it makes me feel better.

One thing about me is i WILL waste all of my money on coke zero.

The comfort of feeling hunger>>>>