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effortofthestrained · 1 day

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This mom of a new girl I’ve been hanging out with (bless her the mom is still wonderful) keeps making comments about my size bc yes I know I’m huge and big and tall and whatever but it’s really annoying.

Yesterday she told us to hurry and eat lunch bc “she’s a big girl she’s going to get hangry”

I laughed it off but I legit wasn’t even hungry. I pretty much take in 1000-1200 a day when I can. I just know I could under-eat any of them and survive. I told them “I don’t actually eat a lot” but I know they don’t believe me. Also they all know I used to be 400lbs so like??? I’ve lost 156lbs and they’re gonna comment about “how much I eat” like dude you lose weight by not eating as much?? I’m walking proof I don’t eat a lot.

Idk the whole thing pissed me off and made me sad. And just want to keep going and get smaller so this lady can one day comment about how thin I’ve gotten instead of how “naturally huge” I am

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effortofthestrained · 1 day

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Ok so I was basically kinda binging and not following my rules the last week bc I was incredibly busy and my period made me insane. I ate basically 1800-2000cals a day or so. I was so scared to weigh in bc of the water weight and shit so I waited a couple days for things to balance out

Mind you I’ve been super busy and working non stop but still eating a decent amount, not only did I not gain, but I LOST OVER A POUND??

New lw!!! And I’m so thankful bc I was convinced I was going to gain and this whole month would be for nothing but nope we’re okay. Maybe my activity level helped more than I thought?

Anyways, I’m super super happy

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effortofthestrained · 8 days

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As my ed gets worse, and I lose more weight, my life genuinely gets better.

My family is slowly getting better off financially, the farm is running smoothly, my motivation and work ethic are increasing, my brothers grades are better, I made new friends and got introduced to an amazing guy, my clothes keep getting looser, my cooking skills better, my garden is growing, the weather is wonderful,

Coincidence?

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effortofthestrained · 10 days

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I’ve overeaten the last three days (I’m still in an overall deficit but still not cool) and I was freaking out, hating myself

Then my period started this morning.

All things explained.

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effortofthestrained · 13 days

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OMG my metab day worked- I broke through my plateau and lost 5lbs in 3 days!!!

My cals looked like this for those curious

4/12 - metab 4k+ (yeah it was bad) = 249.0

4/13 - 1415

4/14 - 1155 = 253.6 (water retention)

4/15 - 1500

4/16 - 857

4/17 - = 245.6!!!

I’m so happy y’all have no idea I’ve been at 249 for literally 2 weeks eating around 1000cals plus labor on top of it.

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effortofthestrained · 16 days

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my dash is SO DRY lately soooo ->

REBLOG IF UR AN ACTIVE EDBLR BLOG AS OF: APRIL 2024

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effortofthestrained · 16 days

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I’m in a -1500 to -2000cal deficit pretty much everyday and I’m plateauing so hard. I did a metab day but I don’t feel like it helped. I think I’m just going to push through it with fasting and omads. Been at the same weight for two weeks. I’ll try to drink more water too.

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effortofthestrained · 19 days

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I am successfully eating less than ever and I’m so proud

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effortofthestrained · 20 days

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Gonna do a 42+hr fast and my reward at the end is half a bagel sandwich and a cigarette. Plus I’m going to try to omad from here on out

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effortofthestrained · 20 days

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Food disappears so much slower when you have an ed. I used to find myself out of my favorite fruits and veggies n shit super fast, always needing to go to the store.

Now I’m restricting more than ever and I’m finding food going bad before I can finish it. It took me 2.5 weeks to finish a block of cheese. I had 42g of it left when it turned and I had to throw it away.

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effortofthestrained · 24 days

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I’ve been so hungry all day but I’ve already met my cals so I’m having an apple for diner to prevent a binge

Weekends mess up my concentration so badly 😭

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effortofthestrained · 1 month

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Very glad I’m too poor to really celebrate Easter other than church.

No money for candy, feasts, treats or games. It’s just a normal day but we all share one chocolate bunny. Therefore no temptation to screw up

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effortofthestrained · 1 month

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I’m so excited, I’ve officially lost 150lbs since my hw of 400lbs (yes ik disgusting)

I spent years thinking I’d never lose any weight or I didn’t have the strength to do it. I proved myself wrong.

Only 70lbs to go before my ugw! (but tbh I might lower it when I get there)

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effortofthestrained · 1 month

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How long can I eat at or below 1200cals till my metabolism gets fucked up/I stop losing weight?

Cause my idea is if I just keep it there, eventually I’ll keep losing weight, the body has to get energy from somewhere ya know? But I e never gone this low before so I’ll take any education or advice from y’all

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effortofthestrained · 1 month

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I’m getting better at restricting. I’ve lost 8lbs so far this month.

The one downside is once your restrict more and more, e v e r y t h i n g sounds delicious. Plain broth? Rice and eggs? Plain fruit? Raw veggies? Boiled chicken? Everything sounds amazing.

That’s true hunger.

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effortofthestrained · 1 month

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I looked through old family photo albums and all I saw was I’ve literally been fat since birth and it’s just made me more solid in my resolve to finish what I started. I was literally the tallest and most obese child in every photo and I hate it.

After two weeks of strict calorie measuring I’m starting to get tired more often so I’m going to lower it again and if the fatigue gets worse I’ll give it another week before reducing my deficit.

I will die trying.

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effortofthestrained · 2 months

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The restriction and meticulous counting is working better than I thought.

I hit a new lw in just a week

The control is addicting.

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