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auroramokoena · 1 year
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SNOWFLAKE
Some people are like snowflakes-
Beautiful,
Mesmerizing,
And fleeting…
Yet still we try to catch them,
Hold on to them as they melt away,
Not because we don't know they can't stay,
But because of our wish to be within their midst longer.
And through the hurt we hold on to the image of them,
Frozen in our mind's lens…
Thank you for letting me know you.
Thank you for being my friend.
Thank you for melting on the floor of my palm.
I hope I am as beautiful a memory as you are to me.
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lola-prose · 4 years
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Sunflower girl
Paint me with the most vivid colours your mind can conjure. 
Recall my presence as a series of brush strokes that embody the savoir-faire of sunshine -
Warm, vivid, frivolous. 
Think of me, when the excitement of adventure is rife through your every valve, ventricle and artery. 
Take the thought of me and store me with the thoughts that make you feel the most alive.
Reminisce about my tan, flower- stitched boots resting leisurely on the dashboards of all who would allow it -
and think fondly of the scuffs they leave.
Think of me as you would rolling hills, boundless seas and the infinite blue above us; free.
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auroramokoena · 1 year
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New Year's
It's a new year!
And you are here,
So there's hope for tomorrow,
Whatever your wins,
Whatever your losses,
Whatever your sighs,
Celebrate you,
Celebrate now,
Celebrate all the possibilities your tomorrow could be.
Live,
Dream,
Live your dreams.
You are here!
You
Are
Here!
Happy new year!
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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LEARNING & LIVING
Maybe it didn't work out before
Not to signal for you to NOT do it again,
But to make you wiser
So that next time, you do it better
Without the need for you to be bitter.
Release your fear and pain to the shore
For lessons are no reason to live tied to a chain.
Freedom lies beyond excuses and pain.
So Sweetheart,
Learn,
Breathe and
Live.
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auroramokoena · 1 year
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LOVE OR SOMETHING CLOSE?
It's the balm you are
It's the weakness you are.
It's the wall I seek to lean on in you that you give but not completely
And I want all of you
And the sadness i could never be what you are for me
So I cannot take from you what I want
I cannot feed from you what I need
Because the guilt is choking
Hence my handing you over
And I see you waiting
And I hear you asking
And this lie I will tell you forever
I am okay
This is enough
This is okay
Because it is not in your hands
And I have made peace
With loving you from a distance
This is enough
Be happy
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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MISCALCULATION- Love Definition Series
You ruined it for me
I don't think you understand the enormous damage you did
When you lied and claimed to love
When instead of bringing me light
You became my darkness.
And now I'm only with you
To find the right moment to kill you
I'm too filled with vengeance
Yet I don't know how to hurt you
Because all I had was love for you
Yet love is nothing to you
I find myself struggling to endure
Even as I seek to finish you
You're ending me-
My heart in tatters
My brain shredded from trying to decipher the sword you are
And everytime you say you love me
Believing me still a fool for you
I wish foolishness could grace me once more
Just to take away the piercing pain whenever you say those otherwise beautifully soothing words
I guess my target was really me
My punishment for calling your poison love.
Miscalculation, the definition of your love.
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auroramokoena · 1 year
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EVICTION NOTICE
I need a voice
A voice audible a and firm enough
A voice precise and concisein it's 'No'
Because the creeping serpent refuses to hear me
Tell him to go away
Tell him I'm exhausted of his loud leeching off in my head
Tell him to feed on himself for once
Because my soul is tired
Remind him too
To take the darkness he came in with
For I do not have the heart to carry them,
They are too bloody, too noisy, too heavy
I need a voice
To send him off
Because I'm tired of playing host
And I'm out of courtesy…
Get
Out.
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auroramokoena · 1 year
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MERRY
It would be lovely
If the festive season could be festive for all of us
Because for some it is trauma triggers time
While for some the festivities are in the heavens while on earth it's sorrow time
And for others it's a depressing reminder of where we aren't and what we don't have
But I hope we all remember that we are here and that is reason enough to be merry
That we are loved
That we are saved
That there is hope
And that there's second, third and nth chances...
So stand under that mistletoe
Kiss your woes goodbye
It's a time to be merry
And you're reason enough to join in the fun...
A hug to the grieving
Applause for the ones trying daily
A fist bump to the ones fighting loudly...silently
It's a merry christmas,
Not the clothes,
Not the trips,
Not the marital status checks,
Not the job checks
It's a merry christmas
Because you're here
And you're reason enough to celebrate,
So a very merry YOU sweetheart.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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SELF DEFENSE
He kept breaking me.
He kept at it until the glue gave up.
He shred me apart.
He tore at me until no thread could sew me up.
He was going to kill me,
So I killed him first.
First degree murder.
Ridding my heart of him saved me.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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UNIVERSE TALKS
YOU ARE NOT ALONE
-but-
YOU ARE NOT ALONE
-perhaps in a way I-
YOU are not alone,
For you are a child of the Universe
Created in the image of the Creator
Nurtured by generations of your forefathers
Made from the earth
The soul of the Beginning breathing in you
The spirit of tomorrow pushing you forward
You are not alone said my God
You are not alone concurred the voices of my ancestors
You are never alone affirmed the stars.
NO, I AM NOT ALONE.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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EASY LOVE
Easy to talk about how love stays
Because it does and should if it's true
But there is more to love than enduring
There's more depth to love than patience
There's more life in love than compromise
And your failing to learn this is lesson enough for me that
Your love is only on the surface
And I love myself enough to know I deserve a deeper love than yours.
Easy to talk about all the calm and quiet things love can be
We forget the passion
We forget the fierceness
We forget, like you forgot to fight for me
Love stays but it chases too, didn't they tell you?
Yet you just stood and watched me walk away
Love frees but you could at least entice me back home, make me know I have one in you
Easy to talk about love in normal times
But darling, no great love story was raised on sunny skies alone.
I guess it's easy to talk about love when the hard work is eliminated.
Easy to see your love was never nurturing enough for my future.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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REGRET LOVE
I despise your loving me like I wanted
After losing me.
For a while I considered attempting another go at us
But I deserve a love that loves me in the present and not in hindsight don't you think?
I mean, you always knew how to act right by me,
Yet chose not to
Do you even love me, have you ever?
All I see in your eyes is deep care for me and
Reluctance to let go of a deep love that you might never receive again hence your fear
And I pray you get a huge surprise in that regard
But it is your hesitating in holding on to me and the lack of passion that has me dragging my suitcase
I can never reconcile my worth with this may-be-love, this one-day-love laced in regret
Because even now as you stutter your vows you're rooted in our past and not me…
Love's already an uncertain game, too unstable to tolerate your tittering indecisiveness
My jealousy can't get over that.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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LOVE LIST
I pray to never meet you
A love that requires me to bend over so much I forget how to stand straight.
I pray to never meet you
A love that demands I morph into another being to receive your love.
I pray to never meet you
A love that shatters my confidence in the fact that I am enough.
I pray to never meet you
A love who makes me apologetic for being myself and the experiences I've lived through.
I pray to never meet you
A love that makes living scary.
I pray to never meet you
A controlling love that doesn't permit growth.
I pray to never meet you
A cowardly love.
I pray to never meet you
A violent love.
I pray to never meet you
A love that demands for me to be silent.
I pray to never meet you
A love that commands my covering up my wounds and scars.
I pray to never meet you
A love that cannot hear me.
I pray to never meet you
A love that needs me to shelter it from all the bad that shaped me.
I pray to never meet you
A love that makes me sorry and ashamed for what I had no control in happening to me.
I pray to never meet you
A love that kills my hope and dreams for a better tomorrow.
I pray to never meet you
A love that dims my light.
I pray to never meet you
A love stuck in the past.
I pray to never meet you
A love that makes me resentful of loving a heart that leaves me unsatisfied.
I pray to never meet you
A love that leaves me without dignity.
I pray to never meet you
A love full of sighs of regret.
I pray to never meet you
A forced love.
I pray to never meet you
A love that makes me resentful.
I pray to never meet you
A love that makes me loath loving them.
I pray to never meet you
A love that cannot be blessed, that shouldn't be blessed.
I pray to never meet you.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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EPIPHANY
Silently wailed
Ceaselessly mourned
Put my heart aside and learned
For there's a lesson in every happening
Had an epiphany
That to heal is to learn
Because as I studied the lessons
The seed of my tears intended
Healing naturally came to be.
It is in the digesting of pain
That the venom in the sting is extracted.
So sweetheart take what you can from the bites of life
Welcome the pain.
Learn.
Adapt.
Grow.
Let it go.
Heal.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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REWARD- Love Definition Series
You make it worthwhile.
You make me congratulate myself
For believing when hopelessness made sense.
For all the desolation and loss,
The heavens consoled me with the best gift-
You.
To love another who makes you want to bless God in thanks like you do me…
I am so grateful for you.
My love, my reward,
I love you X Pi.
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auroramokoena · 2 years
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MAGNITUDE- Love Definition Series
A love that makes you apologise for te past...
How dismal was I,
Trying to fake it till I made it with love?
How insane was I,
Trying to quantify the non quantifiable?
What is love?
Everyday you expand my knowledge of this precious enigma.
Did I really know love before?
Perhaps I did but my knowledge was limited.
Even when not next to you I see, feel and simultaneously miss your love,
How is that possible?
Yet you do it all the time.
Your love touches my life, making me better.
Adding glitter to my galaxy with you at its core.
Your love refuses to be limited,
Transcending into other beautiful emotions and encompassing them.
Peaceful.
Your love is serenity.
Your love is big.
Will I ever know it's full magnitude.
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