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thequietkid-moonie · 2 months

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hello, i love your works and i just found out that you write for ror and ur request is also open..(so u know what this means lol)

may i request qin shi huang and an s/o that is also a human representative but they died in the fight? like, how would he react? also if you are currently busy with other requests/other things, i apologize. and thank you! ^^

S/O loses their fight

[ SCENARIO ] [ Qin Shi Huang ]

[ Shuumatsu no Valkyrie / Records of Ragnarok ]

Is been so long since the last time i write for Qin Shi Huang, it felt a little weird haha

Please forgive me if this isn't my best fic for him, I hope you like it!!

Qin Shi Huang was actually quite excited by the whole thing with the Ragnarok, of course he will, an exciting battle for a greater good was really and exciting thing, he won't definetly say no if he gets invite to such thing

It doesn't matter if both were invited to participate or it was only you, his excitment has been pretty much the same and even cheering for you, he won't really force you but will motivate you to accept to fight, reminding you how stronge you are, he was confident that you could easily win over any god that will stand in front of you

Well, that is pretty much how he acted ones the opportunity appear, as the moment to actually go to the arena to fight he will grow more serious about the topic, even if his smile never leaved his lips he is actually speaking from his heart when he tells you how much he loves you and how proud he is of you for representing humanity

As much as Qin believes in you and think really high of you, he has to repeat himself a few times that it is going to be alright, you are stronge enough and will easily take down your opponent, he tries to surpress his worries because he feels like he needs to be stronge and show you support, specially if he is going to fight too, he can't just show worry over a fight he will have to experience soon, he doesn't want to add worries to you

Before the fight starts he wish you luck but also mention that you don't need luck, he knows you can do this. Qin promised to be there to greet you once the fight is over, waiting for you with the biggest smile and ready to celebrate (even if he has to fight too, he would just take some time to be with you), he may be a little arrogant by assuming you'd win but is also a way to try to surpress his own worried

During all the fight his eyes never left you, following all your movements and trying to decipher your stragedy, watching carefully every one of your moves and how you work perfectly along side with the Valkyrie that company you. His proud and smile grows bigger with ever blow you strike, and, despite the fact that he isn't too loud when cheerishing you, anyone around can see how proud and excited he is for all the fight, saying that he knew this won't be a problem for you

Qin knows you too well to don't notice when you start to being at a disadvantage, even if you try to don't show it he knows when it start to happen, either because you start to be seriously injured or because you start to run out of energy, noticing that your your attacks aren't as effective as they should be or that your stragedy start to fail, and, as much as he doesn't want to admit it he knows that you are getting closer to the defeat

Qin feels terrible about it, he can feel his heart race with anxiety and his stomach drop when every attack that is throw, not really matering from what side anymore, but he can also look through his own worries and notice the determination on your movements, despite being at a disadvantage you were still fighting with honor, determinated to give all of you until your last breath, and that just makes him feel even prouder of you

Qin decided to respect your wish and cheerish for you until the very end, it isn't more about having the hope of you winning, is just about giving you his full support from where he is, not really matering the results of the fight

Still, that doesn't stop him from feeling his heart drop and feel like if the time stops the moment the final attack is throw, finishing with your life, his smile is vanished in a second and he feel like if it was only you and him in the world, with him not being able to do anything and is just forced to watch your body fall onto the floor, as your weapon break and the valkyrie that fighted along side with you exchange a goodbye with you

He knows you had fought with honor and determination until the very end, you had give all of you and even enjoyed the fight until the very end, and that is why after the last part of you become dust and were blow away for the wind he forces a smile into his lips again, expressing how proud he is for you and that he will never forget you

But is until he is all alone in his waiting room that the feeling of grief hits him, when he actually lets himself feel it, he will need time alone to be able to deal with all of this and he is going to deal with all of this alone, he doesn't want to let anyone see him in his grief state

At the end he will take all of those feeling and will transform them into his new determination and strength, promising to himself that he will win his own fight in your honor

#shuumatsu no valkyrie #records of ragnarok #snv x reader #ror x reader #qin shi huang #qin shi huang x reader #x reader #x gn reader #anime x reader #manga x reader

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pancakesandpessimism · 1 year

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Okay, so hear me out: I think Camila’s an official Crime Mom™ now.

I mean, we see that Vee and Luz graduated together, and the assumption is that it was from a human school, right?

I don’t know about you guys, but my high school required some paperwork to enroll a student. Namely A. some form of ID for the student, like a birth certificate, and B. proof that the parent trying to enroll the kid has legal guardianship over said child. Probably more stuff that my parents didn’t bother telling me about. Not to mention we see Vee playing baseball in one of the Noceda house photos, and while I’m aware this one might just be a My School/District thing, for high school we had to provide proof of ID AND a full vaccination record in order to participate in sports (this was true for school and competitive leagues).

Now, while I’m positive Camila would make sure her babies are fully vaccinated (not just Luz and Vee, you know the whole Hexsquad got hit with a strom of shots the moment she realized these kids were trapped in a world their immune systems weren’t built to survive in), seeing a record that has ALL the vaccinations starting only a few months ago despite most getting them as infants-children miiiiiight raise some eyebrows. Especially when the student is supposedly the sister of another student whose records DO start at infancy. Not that it’s impossible for this to happen, but combining that with the fact that Vee has no birth certificate or official record of her existence to speak of, which also probably means Camila has no proof of guardianship because how do you adopt a kid who legally doesn’t exist, people would notice something’s up.

Which then begs the question: How did Vee graduate, or get enrolled at all?

I present to you: Camila the Crime Mom™. Specifically, Camila the Identity Forger™.

I’d like to think that’s actually what Eda and Camila were talking about in that photo where they’re sharing apple blood. Eda was trying to give Camila some tips on how to make the documents look official (she probably has plenty of practice between her history scamming people and her general knowledge of crime. Not to mention she could hook Camila up with an expert or two if necessary, she’s got Connections) and a warm welcome to the Crime Parent Squad, while Camila comes to the realization that Luz did not embellish any of her stories about Eda’s criminal acts in any way. As a matter of fact, she was probably sugarcoating a lot of stuff.

And yes, there’s a possibility that she simply asked Gus to help them out with some illusions, but I raise you: Camila would want to do it herself because that’s her baby and she will ensure that Vee gets the education she wants without having to forfeit her new form, or any other part of herself.

Idk, it just makes me really happy to think that both of Luz’s moms not only would, but HAVE, broken the law for their kids. That is a family you Do Not want to mess with. Not to mention the idea that Camila went from letting societal pressures and her own painful experiences influence how she handled Luz’s education to committing a full on felony because fuck it, if her snake-daughter wants to go to school then she’s going to school brings a smile to my face.

Tldr Camila Noceda remains one of the best mothers in animated history and I love her.

#toh #the owl house #toh finale #Watching and Dreaming #toh spoilers #camila noceda #I don't talk enough about how much I adore Camila #Mother of the Year

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galactiquest · 9 months

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Unexpected Waltz

Fandom: Trigun Pairing: Millions Knives x Reader Other Characters: None Notes: So ummm... Hi!!! I’ve been quiet on this blog for a while because I’ve been hemming and hawing about whether I want to keep participating in this community with others (I haven’t had a whole lot of good experiences tbh) but... I decided to whip up a little Knives x Reader for old time’s sake. Please enjoy! Also, this song inspired the title and general feel. Word count: 921

Warnings: None, just some dancing and a semi-established relationship. And maybe very slightly out of character Knives but this is my house and I get to decide how Knives talks.

[Also crossposted to AO3!]

“I see no point to the task of dancing.”

Millions Knives, the Plant who was forever unconvinced that there was any substance to be taken from extraneous activities and pastimes of humans. And you, the human who loved him and desperately wanted him to do something nice with you.

You knew there’d be a rift between your worlds the moment you met him, regardless of whether that led to a relationship or not. Knives was just so convinced that he was different that he couldn’t fathom partaking in any sort of human activity.

Which, at first, you didn’t really mind–you wouldn’t push him, and he wouldn’t push you. Most of the time.But today, you really wanted to dance with him. Everything felt right, but he stayed stiff as a board on the other side of the room, arms crossed as crackly music came from the record player.

“Come on,” you huffed, mirroring his pout. “Just one little dance won’t kill you, you know.”

“Waste of energy,” Knives added. “Waste of time. All of it, a waste.”

“You said the same thing about kissing and hugging and cuddling at night.”

“And I’m still right,” he snided. “But it’s beneficial to you. That kind of contact releases oxycontin, a critical chemical for your wellbeing.”

“And you don’t feel even a little nice when we do it?”

Knives closed his eyes and refused to answer.

“Well. Dancing feels good, for one. It’s nice to move your body in a rhythmic fashion.” You spun around a little. “Humans have developed a multitude of dancing styles, both for music and without music. Some dances are sacred and used to tell stories, while others are just for fun.”

“...So it’s important.” He was looking away, but had a slight quirk to his lip that could imply a smile–the I’m-not-interested-but-since-it’s-with-you-and-I-like-you smile.

“To me, at least.” You held out a hand. “Will you at least try it? Just once?”

Something he’d heard a lot. When you urged him to take a bite of your cooking, or to draw on some scrap paper, or read a book that wasn’t another tome full of boring nonsense. And every time, he’d groan and lament about how you were expecting too much out of his greatness, how he shouldn’t bother with these things–but he’d still do them, so who was the real winner?

Both of you, actually. He just refused to admit that he’d both lost and won.

After a moment of hesitation, he approached, putting his hand in yours. Ever so gently.

That was the one far cry of the Knives that stayed in your house and laid in your bed from the one that used to be in the elements of the desert–he was gentle in most everything he did, despite his cruelty before, despite the harshness in his words. Maybe he knew that you were human and mortal, and you could only handle a mere fraction of his power before snapping. Maybe he really didn’t want you to break, because he finally found someone who could hear him.

Maybe he didn’t want to be alone.

You placed his hand on your shoulder, reaching the matching one on your side to his hip (his shoulder was far too high to hold comfortably) and interlacing fingers on the other side.

“I’ll lead us, okay?” You were alright with dancing–not an expert, but not completely clueless, either. A simple step would be fine.

“...Alright.” Knives usually hated relinquishing control, but he had extremely barebones dancing skills, if any at all, and didn’t want to step on your toes. Literally or figuratively.

Slowly, you moved your feet to the beat of the music, letting Knives follow in your footsteps. He was able to pick up the rhythm easily, though he was primarily just copying what you were doing. You took him around the room, spinning gently, watching his unmoving expression as he stared at you. There was a slight gleam in his eye–the gleam of I-like-you-but-I’m-trying-not-to-show-it.

As the music continued, you pulled away from him slightly, twirling yourself around his arm. He seemed a bit confused, but your smile was enough for him to allow this to happen. There was a certain warmth in his chest that came from his hand on your shoulder, your hand on his waist, and the other hands intertwined to the side. It felt nice, as much as he loathed to admit it. Knives almost wanted the music to last forever, but it was coming to an end.

“I’m gonna dip you!” You said, bracing your hand behind his waist.

Knives sort of knew this move. He wanted to make some kind of remark, one along the lines of you won’t be able to hold me up, but his body reacted before he made up his mind. He fell backwards, letting you keep him close with one arm. You still strained against his weight–how can one man be so dense, you wondered–but were able to hold the move for a few seconds until the needle bumped itself off the record, music stopping.

Knives stood up, partially taking you with him as you slid off of him.

“Well? What did you think?” You asked, grinning up at him.

Knives huffed out of his nose, then replied. “It… Wasn’t that bad. But don’t expect me to do it again.”

The tiniest smile formed on his face as he turned away. I want to do it again so badly! Please dance with me again!

You knew him too well by now.

#galactifics #trigun x reader #reader insert #trigun imagines #millions knives x reader #knives x reader #those tags should be sufficient. now EAT #text #oh and feel free to send me an ask if you want...? maybe...? i'd love to try interacting with the community more i don't bite i prommy

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greypetrel · 4 months

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I was gleefully telling my friend about you and showing her your art (she's super into LOTR so I was trying to find those, but got in the wrong tag🤣) and found/shared your Vespa comic. We had a good laugh and she said: "Wait till someone tells them about ROLLER COASTER" and I immediately came over here. WHAT IF someone tells Dorian and Aisling about ROLLER COASTER?? 🤣🤣🤣

Forgive me if it took too long, but this made me laugh so much that I HAD TO draw something.

Also: I'm leaving you the correct tag down here, but the Dark Lady one is "aisling the dark lady AU". You can find all my aus and tags in the character masterpost!

They'd LOVE the idea, of course. A little too much. They. Not most people around them.

They'll ignore Josephine begging them to please, PLEASE reconsider, think of your reputation, and rush to the Undercroft. Dagna will be over the moon with the plan, of course. Here's the blueprint, and under the cut some other details:

They found plenty of materials to build it in the Exalted Planes. Someone will have to dispose of all that rubbish after the war ended, right?

"Can't you build it in the Exalted Planes?" "But Josie, if we build it there, how would we experiment on gravity? We'll need to travel there and you see, that would be a great bother and will hinder our research. Also if we have it here, it would improve the moral of the troops greatly! :D"

Dorian's calculations were right. Solas discovered it with the first trial run. Not that any of the -very elated- science bros knew, but he actually started to think that maybe the Veil wasn't that bad of an idea, right there and then. Because can you imagine them WITHOUT THE VEIL? CAN YOU? Thedas wouldn't survive.

In order to make Josie happy, they'll come up with other rides to install around Skyhold:

Teacups will be installed in the upper courtyard. Except they're still a scientific experiment on Centrifugal Force, so they're fast. So fast that the game promises a free foal to everyone who manages not to puke on them. Since the foal is one of Little Brother's, Aisling horse (he made a name for himself in the Western Approach, biting on Venatori's butts, and is generally a prick), the excessive speed is actually considered a good thing. So nobody will win a foal of that horse or will have to tell Aisling that her beloved horse is an asshole.

Cullen's tower will be turned into a haunted house (thanks @ndostairlyrium for the idea). He'll actually contribute in painting the place, and will say that it's very useful to dissuade people to come looking for him if the report isn't REALLY important. "Aren't you scared, tho?" "Please, I was a commanding officer in Kirkwall."

Whack-a-mole in the Tavern's courtyard. The Iron Bull and Cassandra monopolize it and they're so-called nemeses. One day, then, the TRAGEDY: a mysterious person beat their record. No one knows who they are, there's a whole weekend of them playing Sherlock Holmes interrogating everyone around the Keep. (it's Krem.)

Josephine needed one joy, or ONE THING that she can use to sell the Inquisitor to the aristocracy. So Aisling organised something cute and nice for nobles to see and participate in. With horses! She named one of the horses Josephine! Josephine is moved, and from how Aisling describes it, calling it "giostra" because she heard the term from Dorian in vernacular Tevene and can't remember it in Trade for the sake of her, Josie thinks it's a carousel.

It's actually something better, and Josie loves it. (In Italian, "giostra" means a carousel, and also what happens in the video)

(Aisling is the unbeated championess. It's not that people let her win, is that she just can't be beated.)

One day, Dorian will eventually use all the data to calculate how much force they will need on the roller coaster to send a cart into orbit. Aisling will read his notes and find a way to propel the cart strong enough to actually do it.

Sera greatly approves.

#petrel replies #science bros #skyhold luna park #aisling the dark lady au #in the first drawing aisling's too tall oopsie #she is on tiptoes from excitement she'd do the rollercoaster thrice in a row and see what she ate last week #it will be counted as a positive experience by her and she'll LOVE IT #Solas in the corner thinking that you know maybe his plan shouldn't be brought forth #those two really benefit from the Veil #Dread Wolf Redemption plan: TIRE HIM OUT

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goldenpinof · 2 months

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I'd love to chime in on the wad talk if I may!

I think you saying that you're generally not a big fan of theatre makes a lot of sense as to why for you it didn't necessarily have to be a stage show. I work in live events and I absolutely adore theatre and such so to me it made a huge difference that it was a live show rather than a video. Which is why I think the blanket statement of 'it could have been a video' doesn't work, because the experience of the show is so subjective, especially with the topics Dan talks about. It might not be the most innovative show but I def think the emotional aspect for me and many others was the way it was because it was live and you could experience the energy of the room. That's not something that can be translated to video, simply because it's not the same medium and a certain layer of what the show's about get's lost if you change it! I think it will be interesting to see how different the experience will be now that we will have the recording of it tomorrow, I can imagine for some it might be the same as it was in person, but I also think for other people it might not be the same and both are totally valid! I think Dan choosing the live stage show over a video does deserve to be noted tho, because there is a level of vulnerability and honest that comes with speaking to people directly and in person that gets lost when you have a video and that was a very deliberate choice. He's always done his work with the security layer of the camera and youtube and him choosing not do this, when sharing so much with us in wad I think matters.

just my little thoughts from someone who adores theatre and live comedy and everything else that's 'in person'!

"the energy of the room" aka people around you, not only Dan. Dan likes getting live feedback, so i get why we went on tour. i still think that his show can be easily adapted into a video based on what i remember.

i think there's a difference between working with the audience and getting a reaction from the audience. and since wad is so heavily scripted it was the latter. he wasn't working with us, he was getting a reaction and moving on to the next bit. which is fine, it's not a stand-up. but a lot depended on how the audience was perceiving jokes and audience's ability to include itself in the show. Warsaw, for example, was very loud, and since the venue was small, people could hear each other and it made the whole experience a bit crazy. like, the fun was coming from both sides, so it was never boring. we were responding as a union to the things Dan was saying (e.g. communism and later putin), but also some people were yelling relevant jokes in response to Dan, thus making everyone laugh. in Berlin, i had a completely different experience audience-wise. the venue was much bigger, we couldn't really hear each other, thus no jokes coming from the seats that could bounce off of what Dan was saying. he was interacting only with the first 5-ish rows, and everyone else was just watching. we could still scream shit for the bit, but it didn't really matter. god, big venues were such a miss during wad, imo. BUT the show itself was better in Berlin because some things were improvised and the stage was bigger so he could move more. i'll try to explain what i mean by "the show could be a video". adjust the bits where we "choose" something by screaming and it's a video. it's him showing us shots and talking. and no matter what we scream or if we scream at all, the show would go on. no matter if the joke lands or not. he has a script and he follows it. sometimes he removes parts of it depending on the venue (aka the cubes, asking people to twist his hand and use the gavel), he also can remove parts if something goes wrong aka the bubbles. a lot of audience participation can be removed. and without it he would still have a lot to show and say. and this could be a video because the script doesn't heavily depend on the audience participation. if the show was more improvised that would be a different conversation. if you think that this show couldn't be a video because of the audience then it's your experience with the audience more than with the show. have a mid audience and remove some bits and that's a video. it's not a bad thing, idk why people are mad at me. the show is not bad, it's just not for everyone. i'm also curious how people will see the filmed version of wad. both those who saw it live and those who never saw it. people who weren't at the venues aren't gonna participate, so it's a different experience. some things will depend on the editing, but i would love to hear people's opinions on the show itself. we all love Dan and wish him success. i'm a dannie through and through ffs, he shines on stage, i'm not arguing with that. seeing him live is better because of how he enjoys being there. and seeing so many phannies in one place making each other giggle worth buying a ticket. but i'm interested to see reviews on the show.

#watch me watching the livestream tomorrow and changing my opinion #honestly i'd love to see the show live again. in a mid-size venue. 2 places aren't enough data to form a normal opinion #exactly because the experiences were so different #answered #wad #wad.warsaw #wad.berlin

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raining-tulips · 5 months

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How to Find Your Values and How to Apply them to Your Spiritual Practice

In a recent post, I talked about how I wish we taught new practitioners about learning their personal values for themselves. You might think that sounds silly - how can personal values apply to your spiritual practice?

But it's very simple: personal values can guide us to what to study in our practice, our style of practice, and how to deal with online discourse. It can help us feel more spiritually fulfilled. Here's how to discover yours in terms of your practice, for beginners or practitioners who feel stuck.

How to find your values:

Find a masterlist of values (I used this one) and write down/copy any that catch your attention or resonate. Any and all.

Do a second pass, highlighting ones that really stand out.

Sort the highlighted ones into themes or categories, and fill in any that the list seemed to miss. For example, the list didn't include "environment" or "nature" so I added it.

Compile and shrink the list until you're happy.

Usually, the standard is 3-5 top values and around 10 important ones.

Using myself as an example, my top values are: Connection, groundedness in my own individuality, nature/environment, with lesser values of beauty/craftsmanship, simplicity, community, calmness, and playfulness.

How to Apply Values to your Personal Practice:

I always advocate for new practitioners to truly just explore at first. If anything catches your eye or is the reason you found or wanted to try spirituality, witchcraft, paganism, etc. do that first.

But if you've hit a wall, beginner or not, your values might help guide you to a more fulfilling practice. When we follow and live out our values in everyday life, we are happier, more satisfied, and more fulfilled. To me, the whole point of spirituality is to fulfill the soul, or otherworldly quality part of ourselves/our world/our lives.

See if there are any values that are easy to apply

I value nature, so my practice might be heavily nature-based or green-witchy, with herbalism, gardening, crystals, or other "naturey" things. If you value technology, your practice may include using digital tools, pop-culture, etc.

I value simplicity - so my rituals and spells are going to be simple and easy. If you value tradition, your spells might be sourced from old records and adjusted to your use, or you may prefer longer more ceremonial work.

2. Dig deeper if needed

Some things aren't super obvious. For example, I value calmness. This might mean I prefer meditation, or that I won't involve myself in online discourse...If you value acceptance and voice, you may find it more valuable to speak online and participate in debates about aspects of practice!

3. See what needs to change.

I value community - but I don't have a community of spiritual practitioners. Though, it is important to note not every value can, should, or will impact your practice - I'm just using this as an example. So if I value community but have no community currently, I might join a discord server, leave more comments online, find a digital/in-person coven, etc.

If you value love, but haven't done any spell work to bring in or increase existing love, platonic or romantic, you might want to look into exploring that area.

If you value individuality, personal growth, etc. and your practice involves no psychology or deeper reflection, or you don't review past spells or keep a journal...maybe that's a sign you should start!

Everyone's practice is going to look different, and should be personalized to you. Hopefully, if you've been feeling stuck or hit a wall, maybe this will provide a sense of clarity, direction, or insight.

This might be a one-night thing, this may take you a while. That's okay! Take your time, experiment, and have an absolutely wonderful day.

#personal #witchblr #witchcraft #witchy #magick #spirituality #spiritual journey #spiritual development #witch community #beginner witch tips #witch tips #witchcraft community #witchy community

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a-vast-horizon · 7 months

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In early 1990, research continued into both the Backrooms as a whole and Daniel Fenton’s unique abilities, but an exploratory mission revealed that ASYNC personnel were not the only ones that had found their way into the Backrooms.

Fandoms: Danny Phantom, The Backrooms (Kane Pixels)

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Testing log: Experiment KV31-DP002

Participants: Daniel Fenton, Simone Richards

Research goal: Expanding on the results from Experiment KV31-DP001, determine the limits of Fenton’s control over his phasing ability and whether he can trigger his phasing at will.

Experiment procedures: Fenton and Dr. Richards will conduct a series of trials in ASYNC experimental labs in an attempt to prompt Fenton to phase. Fenton will attempt to intentionally trigger his phasing ability when prompted by Dr. Richards. In addition, Dr. Richards will attempt to trigger Fenton‘s phasing ability with a variety of stimuli including loud noises, disorienting visuals, and other input.

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Recording of experiment: The following is a transcript of various trials conducted as part of the experiment, each labeled with the date and trial number. Full video recordings of the trials are available upon request.

[Trial 1: January 3, 1990]

[11:21:34] Daniel Fenton, speaking: Are you sure this is a good idea?

Simone Richards, speaking: We need to know what you’re capable of, Danny.

Fenton, nervous: But what if, once I start doing it, it keeps happening?

Richards: You’ve gained remarkable control over unwanted phasing in just a few months. I don’t think you’re going to lose that progress if you phase intentionally. If your phasing ability is like a muscle, then using it regularly, in the ways you want to, gives you more control over it.

[Fenton laughs.]

Fenton, jovial: I’ve never really been one for working out, Doc.

Richards, speaking: Still. We’re all on untread ground here, Danny, but we want to help you figure this out.

Fenton, speaking: Right, right, I know.

Richards, speaking: Whenever you’re ready.

Fenton takes a deep breath and is silent for several seconds.

[11:25:17] Fenton, speaking: Okay. I’m ready.

Richards nods. Fenton closes his eyes, apparently concentrating.

[11:31:46] Fenton, speaking: I’ve got nothing.

Richards, speaking: You said before it felt like a sneeze; is there anything you can do to imitate the feeling?

Fenton, sarcastic: Right, let me just imitate falling through the floor.

Richards, speaking: No need to be upset. I don’t have the same understanding of how it feels as you do. But we did have some theories about how to prompt the response, if you’re alright with me trying them.

[Fenton sighs.]

Fenton, speaking: Yeah, whatever, let’s get it over w—

[11:33:07] Richards interrupts Fenton by clapping her hands together a few inches behind his head, creating a loud noise and startling him. Fenton reacts with alarm, stumbling forwards, and falls through the floor. Daniel was retrieved from the Backrooms 20 minutes later.

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[Trial 2, January 7, 1990]

[14:37:23] Simone Richards, speaking: Are you still mad at me?

Fenton, speaking: Yes.

Richards, speaking: I am sorry for startling you, but you have to admit it gives us some valuable data. If your phasing triggers in response to being startled or in an attempt to avoid perceived danger, it’s important to avoid situations where those circumstances might come up. And that might give you an edge for triggering the phase intentionally.

[Fenton sighs.]

Fenton, speaking: I guess you have a point.

Richards, speaking: Now, I want to see if we can distinguish whether the phase response is triggered by fear or being startled.

Fenton, speaking: They’re kind of the same thing, aren’t they?

Richards, speaking: Not necessarily. Being startled does typically lead to some temporary fear, but you can have a fear response without being startled—maybe if you know you have a test coming up that you didn’t study for. Hmm, on that note, it may also be worth testing if stress could have an effect.

Fenton, speaking: So, what, you’re gonna have me watch a horror movie and see if I phase?

Richards, speaking: Possibly. For today I thought we’d try to focus on the startle reflex, and see if we can test it with the element of fear more removed.

Richards opens her briefcase and pulls out several items, which she sets on the table: empty balloons, a pincushion, party poppers, and some popping rubber toys.

Richards, speaking: I’ll let you see it coming this time, so it shouldn’t be as frightening as last time, but hopefully enough to startle you.

[14:42:17] Richards inverts one of the popping toys and sets it on the table.

Fenton, speaking: I don’t think this is going to work.

[14:42:51] The toy reverts to its original state and pops up into the air. Fenton jumps slightly, but does not phase.

Richards, speaking: Okay, that’s a good sign.

Fenton, dubious: It is? How?

Richards, speaking: Well, it means you’re not going to be phasing at every slammed door or dropped plate. It would be pretty hard to get you back out into the world if that was the case.

[Fenton pauses, looking down.]

Fenton, muttering: Right. Because they’re definitely going to let me out.

Richards, speaking: Danny, I do want to help you get out of here and back to your life. We just need to make sure it’s going to be safe first, for you and everyone else, and that means understanding your new abilities.

Fenton, muttering: I know.

Richards, speaking: Are you ready to continue?

[Fenton nods.]

[14:45:06] Richards uses a small air pump to fill a balloon and holds it above the table, in Fenton’s line of sight. She picks up a pin and holds it behind the balloon, where Fenton cannot see. After several seconds, she uses the pin to pop the balloon. Fenton jumps but does not phase.

Richards, excited: Oh, excellent! Did you feel the impulse to phase at all during that?

Fenton, speaking: A little, right when it popped, I think, but then it died back down right after.

Richards nods, reaching for the party popper. She holds it above the table, letting Fenton see it. About a minute later, she activates it, and confetti shoots out. Fenton has no apparent reaction.

[14:49:02] Richards, speaking: How was that?

Fenton, speaking: There was a little impulse, but it was tiny.

Richards nods.

Richards, speaking: It’s a small data set, but it’s looking like just being startled isn’t enough to trigger a phase impulse. We can run some tests with isolated fear responses next.

Fenton, excited: Does that mean horror movies?

Richards, amused: It might. You seem awfully attached to the idea.

Fenton, speaking: My parents never let me watch that kind of stuff. If I’m gonna be stuck here, I might as well get something out of it.

[Richards chuckles.]

Richards, speaking: I’ll see what I can do, then.

—

[Trial 3, January 20th, 1990]

Daniel Fenton was shown a variety of horror movies while his response was carefully monitored. At certain points throughout the movie, Dr. Simone Richards asked him about his impulse to phase.

For the sake of brevity, results are consolidated below. The entire 6-hour recording is available upon request.

Film 1: The Shining

Results: Fenton did not phase throughout the movie, though did report heightened impulse to phase during latter portions of the movie, specifically during Jack’s rampage. Fenton described the impulse as “not very strong, but I can’t quite get rid of it either. Sort of like being in bed and having the feeling I left my bike outside, and I can’t stop thinking about it until I check.” Fenton jumped and appeared nervous at several points throughout the movie, largely coinciding with periods of high tension in the movie, and reported higher impulse to phase during these moments.

A rest period was given after the movie, and after twenty-three minutes, Fenton reported that the impulse had subsided to normal levels and testing continued.

Film 2: Jaws: The Revenge

Results: Fenton did not phase, and reported that his impulse to phase did not deviate from normal levels throughout the film. He did not appear to be significantly scared or unnerved by the movie.

A break of fifteen minutes was given before starting the third film.

Film 3: The Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2

Results: Fenton seemed frightened throughout most of the movie, and reported a strong impulse to phase throughout, especially during scenes of high tension in the film. Dr. Richards suggested ending the trial early 40 minutes into the film, but Fenton protested this and insisted on continuing. At one hour and thirteen minutes into the movie, Fenton startled at an onscreen jumpscare and phased through his seat and the floor.

Fenton was recovered from the Backrooms twelve minutes later and the trial ended for the day.

–

Conclusion: Initial results suggest that Fenton’s impulse to phase is triggered by a combination of fear and being startled rather than by either element on their own. Protocol for researchers working with Daniel Fenton has been updated to include announcing one’s presence to avoid startling him when possible.

This also provides a potential avenue for testing whether Fenton can phase intentionally, which could further open possible testing into whether he can phase out of the Backrooms as well as into them. The logistics of such an experiment are complicated, since it is impossible to determine where in the world Fenton might emerge, but once he has sufficient control of phasing into the Backrooms, it may be more feasible. Experiment design discussion is ongoing.

On February 3, 1990, a team of researchers mapping out the Backrooms found what appeared to be a human corpse. Autopsy found that the corpse was infected with a mutated strain of hay bacillus bacteria, very similar or identical to the strain found in samples from Daniel Fenton.

It is not yet known whether the bacteria was the cause of death. Until there is conclusive evidence that the bacteria is not lethal, quarantine measures on Daniel Fenton have been revised to be more rigorous. All tests relating to Fenton’s phasing ability have been suspended to minimize recontamination risk, and he has been instructed to resist phasing as much as possible.

Fenton has also been started on a course of antibiotics as was initially advised following his accident.

On the morning of February 9, 1990, Daniel Fenton was discovered unresponsive in his room. Initial evaluation found he had a fever of 101.4 Fahrenheit, and he was quickly taken to the facility’s medical department. However, before significant care could be administered, Fenton phased through the floor. Unlike in previous incidents, where Fenton has phased through furniture, the medical cot and IV stand also phased with him, as though a section of the floor became momentarily intangible.

Search began in earnest to recover Fenton before his illness became fatal, but no trace of him was found, and it was considered unlikely he could navigate back to the threshold in his current state. Regular patrols continued to keep a lookout for Fenton in case of a time distortion involved with his phase, but exploratory search missions were called off after 3 days.

On February 21st, 1990, Fenton approached one of the regular patrols on foot, disheveled but in apparently good health. Fenton was quickly taken to medical and given a full checkup, where he was found to be fully recovered from his fever.

Fenton was interviewed about his experience from his cot in the medical department once his condition was determined to be stable. Interview log follows.

—

Simone Richards: Well, you’ve certainly given everyone a scare this time.

Daniel Fenton: Hi, Doc. How long’s it been this time?

Richards: Eleven days. Do you know how long it was on your end?

Fenton shakes his head.

Fenton: All I can remember at the start is blurry. I remember falling in, but after that it’s just flashes of yellow for a while, whenever I managed to wake up. Then I know it was a few days where I could stay awake, but felt like trash, before I could get up and make it back.

Richards: And how long did it take you to make it back?

Fenton: That was a couple days too, I think. Hard to tell since it’s not like there’s nighttime in there, but I was way farther out than I’ve ever been before.

Richards appears lost in thought for just over a minute.

Richards: Overall, this seems to be a much more intense phase than those you’ve had in the past. Unfortunately, without more testing, I’m not sure what might have brought it on, your illness or the length of time since your last phase. For that matter, we don’t know what caused your illness; that and the intense phase might have both been the result of resisting your phase impulse for such a prolonged time.

Fenton: What, so I have to phase now?

Richards: I’m not sure. Like I said, it’ll take some additional testing to know for sure. But whatever it is, we’ll figure it out and find some way to keep it from happening again.

—

Following the incident, Daniel Fenton was given two weeks to recover without restrictions, and phased three times. At the end of the two weeks, when Fenton was apparently back in good health, the strict restriction on phasing was reinstated and Fenton was put under close watch. Fenton successfully went without phasing for three weeks, with the only negative side effects reported being more frequent phase impulses and difficulty concentrating. At no point did Fenton develop a fever, become unresponsive, or fall ill in any way, suggesting that disuse of his abilities was not the cause of his illness. This leaves the other significant change in Fenton’s care over the weeks preceding the incident, the course of antibiotics he was placed on, as the most likely cause.

While the exact nature of Daniel Fenton’s bacterial infection is unknown, the fact that this episode was preceded by consistent antibiotic administration suggests that the bacteria may now be essential for Fenton’s continued health. Moving forward, antibiotics are not to be administered to Fenton unless absolutely essential, and his current infection level should be treated as a healthy baseline for him. Research into the nature of the bacteria to determine its infectiousness and potential harm is now top priority; until conclusive results are determined, quarantine procedures for Daniel Fenton are to be strengthened.

[Read on AO3 and follow the series if you have an account!]

#the backrooms #danny phantom #kane pixels backrooms #backrooms found footage #backrooms phantoms #crossover #zen talks #zen writes

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estel-eruantien · 21 days

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Hiiiiiiiiiiii I'm here for Crystal Force NSFW headcanons please? Can we just do the full alphabet. List 2, the Sexy ABCs please?

ABC List 2

CRYSTAL FORCE

Aspen/Abbie/Nick/Cherry/Nyx/ + Kenzie

A ─ After care.

This group is so good about taking care of each other. Nick, as their mentor, is very good about being both the firm hand (sometimes literally) and the gentle caregiver.

He and Kenzie both are quick to spearhead aftercare duties (Kenzie because she doesn’t participate in intercourse, but is all for some cuddles)

Aspen and Abbie are likely to stay curled up together for hours after sex, and oftentimes others join them, just laying together in silence.

Everyone in the polycule loves to cuddle!

B ─ Breeding.

I didn’t really think yes to this one until Mad suggested Cherry and Aspen and now FULL SEND it. They absolutely indulge in that kink when it’s just the two of them.

C ─ Condoms.

Yes, they especially use them with Abbie, even after they’re no longer rangers.

D ─ Dreams.

Cherry probably has the most wet dreams out of the crew, oftentimes jumping whoever was the target of her dreams (oftentimes Aspen or Nyx because because she enjoys domming them)

E ─ Experimenting.

They all like to experiment. Abbie, due to her abilities, takes things slower than the rest, but still enjoys trying new things. The whole group has such a unique dynamic that they have to try new things to suit everyone’s tastes.

F ─ First time.

Aspen wasn’t shy toward sex when his relationship began with everyone. He had sex with Nick first, and Cherry a close second.

G ─ Games.

I love the idea of Nick and Cherry playing a game to decide who’s more dominant. And I imagine Cherry is one to play fight and wrestle her partners.

They are all definitely interested in roleplay!

H ─ Humour.

Oh yeah, absolutely. The goofiest bunch

I ─ Infidelity.

No, these guys are so loyal to each other. They were all raised by rangers, they all know each other in a way no one else would. They will always support one another.

J ─ Jewellery.

Kinda like his Papa, Aspen likes the idea of collars and piercings.

K ─ Kissing.

Aspen loves kisses. Cherry kisses him all over, leaving lipstick stains across his skin. He loves Nick’s biting kisses. And he loooveess to kiss Nyx and Abbie softly, all over their faces and on top of their heads.

L ─ Lingerie.

Nyx and Aspen have some “matching sets” that Cherry picked out for them. Abbie also has a few. Nick doesn’t have any, but he appreciates that everyone else does.

M ─ Masturbation.

Aspen loves it when he’s ordered to masturbate in front of his partners. That’s the only time he really does it, and he is very open to toys.

N ─ Nudes.

Cherry and Abbie have a contest every once in awhile to see who get a reaction out of Nick first with the amount of nudes they share with him. It’s like a double win if he sends one back!

O ─ O’clock.

Normally in the evening as it’s a good way for them to wind down, but they are no stranger to the quickie when the need strikes.

P ─ Public.

Aspen and Nick have done a little, Cherry once or twice at a club or concert, but not much.

Q ─ Questions.

They are all great at communicating and value that as a priority in their relationship. There are no taboo themes, they are willing to talk about anything with each other.

R ─ Recording.

Hell yes! They go back and watch them together, sometimes as a way to tease them. “Look at how pathetic you sounded,”

S ─ Spanking.

Aspen likes it a bit, but only from Nick. None of them are really physical with one another like that.

T ─ Turn ons & offs.

Aspen is a brat as a submissive and a softy of a dom. He loves to rile up and tease Nick and Cherry, and in some ways for Abbie and Nyx as well. Aspen enjoys making Nyx blush.

None of them would do anything super gross, no potty stuff.

U ─ Unusual.

Aspen and Cherry went camping and had sex in the tent, which was pretty fun.

V ─ Video call.

Aspen definitely would if he had to be long distance with his partners.

W ─ Walk of shame.

Stealing from Mad on this one - Kenzie has definitely shown up at the wrong time many times. Aspen tried to make up for it with snacks and extra kisses at night.

X ─ X-rated.

Yeah, I think they might watch a little porn for inspo and whatnot.

Y ─ Yucky.

No potty stuff!

Z ─ Zones.

Aspen’s neck and sides are particularly sensitive and he loves having his hair played with. His partners can read him like a book, so they all know where he’s sensitive haha

#power rangers #crystal force #power rangers crystal force #Aspen Grover #my oc #au #alternate universe #Ranger kids #nsft #sexy abcs #writing prompts

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the-mad-closet · 21 days

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Okay, listen, I know you sent me this same thing, but uh... List 2 for our Crystal Polycule please <3

I love this very muchly. You say this like I'm gonna have an issue with it. Who do you think I am? /playful /teasing

Crystal Force Polycule Includes: Kenzie Holling-Carver, Nyx Moran, Cherry Rocca, Abbie Carson, Aspen Grover, and Nick Jones

As per previous conversations and posts, Kenzie is asexual and will not be an active participant in this post.

A - Aftercare

All the aftercare. There's five of these guys, that's a lot of adrenaline and a lot of crashing and they turn it into a group project.

B - Breeding

Honestly, Cherry gives me those vibes. Maybe Aspen, too.

C - Condom

While they're Active Rangers, out there saving the day, yes. Afterward, there's no need kinda (except sometimes with Abbie). Like, Nyx is on birth control anyway, until she feels she's ready to have a kid.

D - Dreams

Nyx once had a dream of getting fucked while in chains and not allowed out of the chains until she'd satisfied her partners. Nick made that an immediate reality.

E - Experimenting

In a way, for them, it's necessary to experiment. Again, there's five of them, so they have to learn each other's limits and where the lines are on their boundaries. Plus, having sex with different kinks is great!

F - First Time

Nyx is half of a whole, they like to say, but sex is the one thing they and Kenzie don't agree on. So, when the time came for their first time with the group, Nyx was very nervous. Luckily, they've got four partners 100% willing to take things at Nyx's pace until they're comfortable enough to speed up.

G - Games

Nick and Cherry play fight for who's gonna be in control on a given night. Otherwise, no

H - Humor

Nyx makes jokes when they're nervous, and the others just kinda run with it. They try not to take themselves too seriously unless the scene is pretty serious

I - Infidelity

Uhhh, no. No one's ever cheated. Communication is everything in a poly relationship, plus Nyx (and Kenzie) insist on using their words.

J - Jewelry

Nyx is interested in getting her clavicle pierced. Otherwise, it's mostly the toys

K - Kissing

Kisses are important in any relationship. Nyx has a habit of kissing their partners hello and goodbye.

L - Lingerie

Nyx loves lingerie. They have all kinds. If it's fluttery and soft, they wanna wear it. Their favorite is a light blue slip on with lace along the hems. Aspen might be convinced to wear lingerie, Abbie has a few pieces, but Cherry and Nick don't really wear it

M - Masturbation

Nyx can, but prefers not to. They'd much rather get their partner off. Also, maybe has a chastity kink, which the others are happy to take advantage of

N - Nudes

I want to say yes. Explicitly because they're all pretty young and a lot of them are pretty horny.

O - O'clock

Usually at night, but I all reality, if they have a few minutes, they're probably fucking. It's literally in their nature.

P - Public

Nyx hasn't, it makes them uncomfortable. I wanna say Nick would? Probably Abbie too

Q - Questions

Not really. They're pretty open with the communication.

R - Recording

Yes, often. They love recording their scenes especially. It's easier to keep track of things that way.

S - Spanking

Not really? For Nyx, at least, they get beat up a lot on the battlefield and they really don't want to turn to pain in their sex lives as well

T - Turn ons and offs

Nyx likes praise, being tied up, and just a little bit of degradation. Not a lot, just a little. They also like being a brat, it's kind of like a little game for them. Also chastity kink.

Aspen, like I said earlier, has a breeding kink, Cherry as well.

Abbie, I feel like is a little bit less wild and more vanilla, but still likes being tied up.

With Nick, I feel like he gets off on pleasing his partners. If they're happy, he's happy.

No scat or urine.

U - Unusual

The kitchen, probably. Specifically in Nyx's kitchen with Casey studying in the other room

V - Video Call

Happen frequently enough. With Abbie's powers and abilities, it's hard for her to touch the others. Nyx fantasizes about one day having a video call in her classroom (no kids, of course)

W - Walk of Shame

Ironically, the walk of shame is usually done around Kenzie. She finds it hilarious.

X - X-Rated

I wanna say yes because those can be good way to get ideas, but also Nyx probably wouldn't unless asked to

Y - Yucky

Mostly just bathroom stuff. Urine, scat, and the like

Z - Zones

Nyx, in particular, is extremely reactive to touches on her neck. It makes hickeys fun in particular.

Thank you! @estel-eruantien

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helldustedstories · 12 days

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Moxxie has Opinions about most of A.ndrew L.loyd Webber's shows.

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat -- He has most of the Coat of Many Colours memorized. It gets stuck in his head. "Close Every Door" is another good song, but overall, this one is kind of middling. Would he still go to see it if given the chance? Absolutely.

Jesus Christ Superstar -- Honestly? Kind of overrated. There are only a couple of songs that are super recognizable, and while that's not a requirement of a good musical, it's one that's hard to just sing along to and have fun with. Still, it's an interesting take on the story, but not his favourite of his work.

Evita -- There are some iconic songs in Evita, and if it's done right, it can be visually stunning. He likes both the original recording with M.andy P.atinkin and P.atti L.upone because they're iconic, as well as the version with A.ntonino B.anderas and M.adonna. Not his favourite, but it definitely has its time and place.

Tell Me On a Sunday / Song and Dance -- Other than the titular song and "Take That Look Off Your Face," this one is kind of forgettable. It might be better viewed in person, but it's not a fave.

Cats -- Okay, so Moxxie will be the first to admit that he probably shouldn't have suggested that Blitz start with Cats. It's one of those musicals that kind of grows on you the more you experience it, whether that's hearing it, seeing it live, or performing in it. (Sidenote for this one: Moxxie would love to be IN Cats.) It's pretty high up on his list, though it's one of those "wait no, you don't understand; let me explain the thought behind it" sort of things.

Starlight Express -- Honestly, part of the appeal of this one is the fact that the actors are on roller skates. But the fact that it tells the story of sentient trains makes it up there in the weirdness scale. Probably even weirder than Cats.

The Phantom of the Opera -- And here we have Moxxie's all-time favourite. He loves the story, the music, the spectacle. There is not anything about this show that Moxxie does not love. If he wants to be in Cats, he is desperate to be in Phantom. It almost doesn't matter what role, as long as he gets to participate. (He already knows he'll never be able to play Christine, which broke his heart when he first came to terms with that fact.)

Aspects of Love -- This is one of those shows that has some good tracks ("Love Changes Everything" and "Anything But Lonely" come to mind), but some of the subject matter is pretty uncomfortable, considering several of the 'love interests' are seventeen and fourteen, respectively, while the other person is a full-ass adult.

Sunset Boulevard -- A lesser-known gem, honestly. (Even if P.atti L.upone was 100% in the right to sue.) It tells a complete story, unlike a lot of his other musicals (probably partly because it was based on a film), and it has some good music. It's also one of A.LW's few musicals to star a mezzo-soprano, so it gets points for that, too.

Love Never Dies -- Oh boy, okay. This show is a hot mess. For starters, in the original cast recording R.aoul's voice is better than the P.hantom's, which really shouldn't happen. But the whole thing shouldn't exist. It completely ignores the ending of the original, bastardizes characters, and makes a mockery of the original. Yes, okay, some of the songs are pretty damn catchy ("Beauty Underneath," "Devil Take the Hindmost," and "Why Does She Love Me?" are the standouts to Moxxie), but A.LW's cat had the right idea in trying to delete the whole thing, to keep it from completion.

Cinderella -- Originally, when Moxxie heard that there was a new adaptation of Cinderella, he wasn't sure it was needed. But when he heard it was by A.ndrew L.loyd W.ebber, he had to check it out. And he's honestly glad he did. Sure, it's not the best show, but it's fun. (And the young woman who plays the title role in the original recording sounds a little like Stolas' kid...., or that could just be his imagination. Maybe it's just the accent.) The B.roadway version, though...., seems like it was a mess. And the cast and crew deserved better than what they got.

#🎼 moxxie : headcanon #[yes I did relisten to most of these for this list]#[I love Moxxie and how much of a musical theatre nerd he is]#[after my own heart]#[and he's the ingenue in his own heart since he can't be on the stage]#[I know it's C.arrie H.ope F.letcher in Cinderella and not Barrett but they have similar sounds with the accent]#✎ helldustedstories : queue

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elecalice · 6 months

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Well, I had to do what I promised on the poll that I made.

This blog is dedicated to my attempt to do amateur Cosplay (Well, Crossplay) as Prosecutor Ito, from Mega Man Battle Network 6.

Amateur indeed, since I didn't and don't have a red tie, so I had to use a Bowtie. I feel that Ito could use a bowtie, I think. Also, I don't have formal shoes, so I had to use my cute beige Sneakers.

Yeah, I'm that amateur. But after all, I'm just casual and I'll not dedicate myself to cosplay. I'll sticking with drawings and other things.

I'll try to show the photos in chronological order.

WARNING// My real face (lol)

My first attempt on doing the Ito cosplay. It was December of 2022, and at one weekend there was a Geek/Nerd event. At Saturday, I went to buy a short for the cosplay. It kinda hurt my wallet back then, but oh well.

I even went to show off my Cosplay. I was SO nervious to show off to present my character, and I think I showed up too much introduction to my character. Eh, first times. But the best thing is that ONE PERSON recognized my character!! And he even took a picture of me! That made my day! ;w;

But I didn't took pictures on the event itself. But instead I took some photos during my way to walk to home. I took pictures nearby a tree, which fitted so well. (I took more but at that moment it was SO windy it kinda ruined some photos, in a funny way. Also, the book used was my copy of Fahrenheit 451. I didn't have a law book, so I improvised... yeah.)

Months later, now in 2023, I attended another event, the first event of a major Nerd event in my town. I even participated on the Cosplay contest. I sadly didn't took photos of myself on that event, except a few ones of me eating a origini. (That origini was delicious)

BUT as a compromise. I'll tell my experience on the Cosplay event... OH BOY.

I wasn't sure to participate, but then I decided to eat up my pride and participate. Adding to me not having a tie nor formal shoes, my hair, my natural hair by the way (not a wig), was long. But at least I complimented the Cosplay with a borrowed copy of my country's constitution. Yes really.

So yeah. But the most awkward detail was, I had to act in-character. And I was like "OH... FUCK". Ito doesn't do much, except operate JudgeMan or being the happy doomer prosecutor that we know. The NetNavis do the cool battle stuff, while the humans excluding some, don't do much. So yeah...I had to improvise. Using dialogue but... I didn't have a microphone, not they provided me one. So yeah. I had a massive disadvantage, and when I tried to speak, probably didn't reached to so many people. When I LAST attempted to "jack-in" JudgeMan at something, I did it in front of the judges, and I jumped out of embarassement. And fun? fact, acting while having your eyes close is, and I repeat, H.A.R.D. HARD, All caps. At least the judges told that the majority of time I actually looked at the public.

When I had to leave the scenario, I had to cover my face with the book, while my friends dragged me outside. I felt that my I wouldn't Cosplay as Ito again. This situation could've been more embarassing, if it wasn't for my friends supporting me during the whole dear, I REALLY appreciate them. ;w;

At least someone asked who's my character, and I told the lore around him, but I had difficulties due to my speech impediment with my unability to pronounce the hard R letter. (And in extention, the RR as well)

I had to recover the embarassment after that. I seriously considered NOT to Cosplay as Ito again... But at least I managed to eat my pride, accept that I did it and I should move on from that.

I also did a Tiktok making Ito dance a bit with the audio of Bo's "A really good book" Vine. I thought that the Vine fitted Ito SO MUCH that I had to do it while I was home alone. It was hard to find the perfect position to place my phone in orden to record that video. But yeah, I tried. Now I don't remember if I did it before or after the previously mentioned event. I think I did the TikTok before the event? I'm lazy to check the dates.

Now, in September, I managed to get a haircut. And in some moment, I had the idea to Cosplay and act like Ito for a moment. So I did it, and did some photos. I take more but I decided to put this three ones.

I also acted and did some videos of me acting as Ito and being angsty and edgy. Yes really. I tried to act. I also did some videos of Ito trying to awkwardly dance to Nürnberg's Valasy. I love Nürnberg's music, btw.

And now, the previous weekend, there was the second edition of the Nerd event on my town, and again I went as Ito. But I didn't participated on the Cosplay event. Because come on. I don't want to show off as Ito again, not due to embarassment, but because It's kinda boring of my part to show off again as Ito. Okay?

Anyways, despite the overwhelming first day, that and the second day I had fun. It was fun! I didn't took that much photos of myself. The first one I took it myself, but the second and third one I had a friend who took those photos of me in my cosplay. And the last photo, I did it after returning to home. (I also took one of myself with the brown jacket that I used in case that the day became cold. I think that jacket fitted Ito.)

So yeah!

As when I ate my pride to participate that contest, I'll be eating my pride showing my real face and dressing as my cuestionable blorbo.

And random fun fact, the me posing showing three fingers, is a reference to a Japanese fanart where Yuika, Vic and Ito pose showing three fingers, like a W. WWW, World Three. I love that fanart.

I kinda feel weird and kinda lonely being the major Prosecutor Ito fangirl. But oh well. That's kinda my curse. (?

(I hope I can get braces... When my friend took some photos, I felt self-conscious about my two weirdly-located frontal teeth. Well. Gotta save money. ;w;)

#elec being a fangirl #cosplay #crossplay #amateur cosplay #Prosecutor Ito #mega man battle network #mmbn

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josiebelladonna · 11 months

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okay, i officially hate art contests.

you know how yesterday i was saying that ai has cheapened art on pretty much every level possible? well, art contests play a role in that, too. probably a bigger role, tbh, and ai is merely writing its obituary.

i just think of all the contests i’ve ever entered, starting with the science fair in elementary school where my dad and i built a trebuchet together and we all thought that was going to be a slam dunk. our catapult lost out to your stereotypical volcano eruption of cola and mentos. A CATAPULT!

then there was an art contest in middle school, when i entered a cartoon in—i don’t remember what it was exactly but i had drawn a picture full of people in my cartoon style, fresh off the press from the winter before. i lost to the crappiest drawing you’ve ever seen, and i knew there was some favoritism going on there.

then there was soundgarden’s fan art contest in 2016. i entered a drawing of soundgarden themselves into it and i had absolutely no hope for it just from my past experiences. get this: it actually won… but no one on my facebook cared. i think one person liked it, but that was it (this was 2016, too, way before ai came about and ruined everything). the other girl who won got support out the nose. i also hated the prize, too, so figure i distanced myself from the whole thing. what, we put our hard work into this shit and you can’t even be bothered to do better than vinyl records?

then there was chalk on the walk the year before and in 2018. i drew a koi pond in 2015. got bupkis, not even a “thank you”. i drew chris with my heavy metal flowers in 2018. got a bunch of people stopping and taking pictures and asking me questions, but i didn’t even get an honorable mention. i don’t even know who won either year, i don’t even remember them.

i entered my beatles drawings into the state fair in 2018, all four of which i spent hours on. got nothing: i lost to the shittiest drawing of edgar allen poe i had ever seen in my entire life, and i wish i took a picture to show you guys because it really was that godawful.

now here we are with mermay. did all my stuff this year by hand and i’m starting to wonder what the hell is even the point now when it’s obvious they like the clean, digital, disney-ish stuff better. the month isn’t even done yet and i’m starting to feel like a complete idiot for even bothering with it. really, i feel genuinely embarrassed for even attempting it in the first place. i’m just gonna post the remaining ones and then just be done with it, i’m not gonna give a shit about the winners (plus, i’ve been on ig four years now and you’d think, logically, my account has grown by now. fuck me, right?)

i’m thinking of participating in a fashion one for edward gorey’s foundation later this year just to try something different but… now that i write this out, i really, really don’t know and i’m starting to regret even considering it. i have the worst track record with these things and my so-called family and so-called friends wouldn’t give a shit if my life depended on it. i can just see their reactions towards it, too, like “oh, great, here we go again… another contest, another forgone conclusion… get a real job, sweetie”. the people who claim to care about me don’t care at this point. they didn’t care in 2016, and they really don’t care now.

I don’t win contests. i never can, either, simply because of the whole unspoken act of favoritism. you put your heart and soul into a portrait of your dead friend or into four of the four lads from liverpool and you fucking lose to cheapness and amateurness in the worst way possible taken to its dumbest conclusion. they also shortchange artists, too, like the prizes for the chalk on the walk competitions were like gift cards. the soundgarden one had fucking vinyl, not meeting the guys or having a say in the art for the next album or anything awesome like that. just: “here. vinyl”. (worse, they didn’t even tell us what it was until after the fact, so yeah, figure i totally felt used and it left a bad taste in my mouth). because of this, they are very limiting. you can only get away with so much for the sake of the dumbest conclusion you can possibly think of.

art contests are complete bullshit. don’t bother with them if you respect yourself.

#art #art woes #art world #support artists #support a small artist #support the artist #rants #text #art contest

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booksandwitchery · 2 years

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Beginning My Story: Part I

Here goes nothing!

I think of this blog as a record of my “becoming” because after being an atheist for the past fifteen years, and now being well into my twenties, I am undergoing a weird kind of transformation that I don’t fully understand, but wish to document. I sense (and hope) that I am becoming who I was always meant to be.

It began with a very curious emergence of the Baader-Meinhof phenomenon, which is also known as the frequency illusion. It is when, after you notice something for the first time, you begin to notice it more often. This leads to the illusion that there is a reoccurring pattern in your life. This year, for me, it was the Adirondacks. Before this year I had never thought or heard of this mountain range, but for some reason ever since January I’ve been seeing it everywhere. I even ordered a book not knowing that the book is set in the Adirondacks. When I flipped through the book for the first time, the first word my eyes settled on was Adirondacks. So yes, just the frequency illusion, but it also showed me how desperate I am for meaning in my life, for self improvement, for control, for ritual, for SOMETHING. I began to feel what I would describe as “witchy,” but being a fairly rational person I wasn’t expecting to find much in my pursuit of spiritual purpose.

I began reading a bunch of books on Wicca, but I just can’t abide the whole polytheism thing. Any theism, really, that purports a divinity that cares about humans, doesn’t sit well with me--it just seems like wishful thinking, ego, self-importance. And, I know from experience that one cannot simply force themselves to believe in something they logically conclude is unlikely to exist.

However, I knew I had to keep exploring Paganism in some capacity--I just “knew”--but a different kind of knowing--because there are many aspects of Wicca that resonate with me, which are the following:

1. The Wiccan Rede: An it harm none, do as ye will.

2. If you put positive energy into the universe, living by your own set of ethics, trying to do good by yourself and others, you’re likely to receive that kind of energy in return. If you put negative energy out, you will get that back too.

3. There is a powerful, celestial force that presides over the earth.

4. This force is too large and abstract for humans to comprehend fully.

5. “God is a thought. God is a name. God is an idea. But its reference is to something that transcends all things. The ultimate mystery of being is beyond all categories of thought.” - Joseph Campbell

6. Humans separate powerful, unexplainable forces into facets, archetypes or metaphors that we can relate to.

7. The celestial force referred to in #3 is immanent, or inherent in all people and things-- Ex: We are all made of stardust.

8. There is a sacred force that infuses everything, and this is deity, or at least part of it. Ex: Gravity, mass, physics, universal laws that bind all things.

9. The earth is a manifestation, indication, or materialization of the celestial force, and by this association can be considered sacred.

10. Because of the nature of the earth as a materialization of an unseen celestial force, it is beneficial to connect with the cycle of the seasons and participate in earth’s cycles through ritual and/or contact with nature. In other words, nature alone inspires awe and reverence merely by existing in the first place.

11. If each human is infused with the same celestial material, along with the earth and all things on it, we ought to be able to tap into this force in some capacity (which is currently not understood, and likely never will be)

12. Many things in nature occur in patterns-the shapes of spiral nautilus shells, the patterns of leaves and branches. There are also less scientifically verifiable patterns in nature--”psychic ability” is simply the sensitivity and awareness of these patterns--sensing things that science cannot explain yet, but not trying to assign meaning to them.

13. Magic can be defined as “the science and art of causing change to occur in conformance with will,” - Aleister Crowley, which by this definition makes magic objectively real.

14. Magic by this definition is a tool for empowerment and personal growth, and each of us must find our own path to enlightenment and a moral compass.

15. I wish to be the arbiter of my own set of ethics, take responsibility for my actions, develop intimate self-knowledge, and direct the course of my own life.

**Note: Most of these are direct quotes from Wicca for Beginners by Thea Sabin, which I thoroughly enjoyed despite the last fifty pages of the book, which go into specific deity worship (Zeus, Morrigan, etc.). I am a non-theist, but I still found a lot of wisdom here.

#first post #first blog post #beginning #beginnings #becoming #mybecoming #booksandwitchery #spiritual #spiritual growth #paganism #wicca #magic #witchcraft #religion #self help #personal development #personal growth #the search for meaning #atheism

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Commentism

Originally published October 27th, 2014

One day, the inventor of the Internet had a brilliant idea.

"My goodness... It's genius!" "WHAT IS IT, PROFESSOR STINKLES." "Why Bebop4000, my robot companion, do you know how people are always remarking things to each other? Sharing their thoughts about a central thing?" "YES PROFESSOR STINKLES I AM NOT A DUMBASS." "Well, what if, when somebody puts something on the Internet, other people--can REMARK about it?!" "THAT IS A WEIRD QUESTION. HOW WILL YOU DO IT." "I'll create a--a little box! And in the box, people can write a comment. And they can make more and more comment boxes!" "CANNOT COMPUTE." *massive explosion*

And despite their untimely deaths, this idea of comments indeed became a thing. But I don't think anyone expected it to become as glorious as it did.

YOU get a comment! YOU get a comment!

...hmm, that wasn't--well, anyway, there's reviewing products, there's commentating on live events, but in the comments section on the Internet, you've got a global bathroom wall where everyone can read and participate at any time while taking a giant dump. And some people have really found their calling with comments, because they're fantastic at it.

I was supposed to be a fighter pilot.

...Alright, that needs to stop, whatever that is. ANYWAY, these certain commenters make reading comments a form of entertainment. It could be one person or a whole group of people, and the possibilitites are endless. With timing, grace, finesse, and maybe a diaper or something, these commenters essentially create literature: A dialogue that can stand on its own from the very thing that's being commented on. Comments imitating art, if you will.

Yes, I'm sure the infinite contributions of "fake and gay" would make a fine book.

Hey, if Kim Kardashian can make a book about her selfies, anything is possible.

please buy my book guys, its all the times i accidentally took a screenshot on my phone

EVERYBODY CALM THE FUCK DOWN I'M TRYING TO TALK. So YES, THESE kinds of COMMENTS are VERY ENTERTAINING, and I've even indulged in making them myself. But I've noticed an interesting phenomenon.

Soylent Green is people!

SHUT THE FUCK UP. THE PHENOMENON is that these COMMENTS are BECOMING THEIR OWN POSTS. I look at these expansive constructions of commentary and think that they themselves should be a separate piece with their own comment boxes.

Comment-ception.

BUUUUUUUMMM.

You have to write a comment in one minute that takes two minutes to read.

It's two minutes to write, one minute to read, dumbass.

Go home, you're drunk.

Is that why somebody called him a BUM?

Guys, alcoholism is a serious problem.

Yeah, come on guys, you're bumming me out.

The road to recovery is a bumpy one.

I recorded twelve songs about my own experience as an alcoholic. You can buy it on my brand new album.

I am a bum. am I doing this right?

Alcohol is a serious probum.

I actually think I may be onto something there. In fact, and I'm totally serious, I had an idea for a social network specifically for comments. But I'm getting off track. My point is that with all this focus on comments, sometimes you lose sight of the original post. And I know some of these original posts encourage this comment spectacle, and some people don't mind what happens to their posts, but you know what? I kind of do. Call it controversial, but I think some posts should be spared the comment circus.

Is the op trying to reclaim control of his own post?

ITS A TRAP.

If you strike me down, I shall become more powerful than you can possibly imagine.

Hahahaha, Star Wars, it's funny because it's a reference, what I'm trying to get at here is that perhaps we should use more discretion when commenting. Maybe take a look at these original posts and decide whether they might be important enough to deserve their own attention? Hell, I've had a lot of important posts I've made that have been subject to comments that have distracted people. I even used to do the same thing to other people. I love comments, but I think there are some posts that are too important for this parading of comments. Dare I say it, I am a COMMENT ACTIVIST. COMMENTISM.

#Kony2012

#GamerGate

#StopYellowFever

#KKK

#sicsemptertyranis

#MenAre#1

#But there's two sides to commentism. I've made many frivolous posts which have been commented on. I've watched the comments get more likes than my own post, and its always (to my surprise) really upset me. It's people essentially declaring that they prefer what someone else said over what I said. That my content is inferior. And you know what? That's a bummer for me, but what's wrong with it? There's no rule that my original post should be considered better than comments made on it, and there shouldn't be. Hell, I've made comments on posts that wound up more popular. Comments may bother me, but just because something was based off of another thing doesn't mean it can't be as great, or even greater. Dare I say it, I am a COMMENT ACTIVIST. COMMENTISM.

tl;dr

what are you doing making words? this is AMERICA

*eagle dives into pool of fireworks*

'MURICA

Morocco?

'MUROCCO

*Moroccan eagle dives into pool of Moroccan fireworks*

SO TO SUM THINGS UP I think comments are grand. I think that sometimes comments seem right when they're actually out of place, and I think that sometimes comments seem wrong when they're actually fine as they are. I think this is all something that people really don't consider much because people don't take comments seriously. But let's face it, a lot of us pay attention to comments. We notice them more than we think. So maybe this commentism thing is worth your time. After all, we're all commenters. We're all in this race together. And as long as we're racing, we may as well finish it in...

...

Come on guys, I literally set this one up for you.

FOURTH.

SECOND.

EIGHTY-THIRD.

PI.

SECOND.

ONE HALF.

NEGATIVE EIGHTY-THIRD.

Oh, comments.

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