me at the beginning of the weekend, mentally and physically exhausted: I think I'll skip chores, socializing, and exercise this weekend. Surely I'll feel better after some rest, just chilling with YouTube in my room.

me at the end of the weekend, just as exhausted but now feeling like I wasted my free time: well, shit.

the long awaited sequel

I mean....my therapist let me say this to my ex-husband. It's all about making sure you feel heard 😅 But then he was an abusive dick.

Me after a teacher gave me constructive criticism on my writing to help me get a better grade:

Headless Bromtilda detail you might have missed

Matilda wears a lot of rings, even before the wedding. But she never wears a wedding ring!

Neither does Brom, but then after the wedding...

They BOTH wear rings for the rest of the show. It’s a tiny set detail that would have made no difference if the creators had left it out, but it just goes to show the amazing dedication to detail and the effort they put into this series. Now brb I’m gonna go cry about the finale some more....

therapy is so much fun i should have done this years ago. true main character moment that lasts entire 50 minutes non stop??? ensane

today I was productive until I lost focus and had a consensual three-episode Hannibal binge

cheers babes, I’m heading to sleep

for sure

just to sleep

one of the many iconic texts i’ve received from my psychologist

How embarrassing would it be to go to a therapist and be recognized as a popular Tumblr user...

[ID copied from ALT: A series of digitally drawn headshots of my OCs. From the top left, we have Era, Xena, Lorne, Zero, Rian, and Yuri. They all have expressions beffitting their personalities. End ID]

Decided to stick them into one post 💜

Meme - Tag 9 People

Tagged by @nubreed73, thank you!!

Three ships: Yoon Hee-jae/Jung Geum-ja, Lan Wangji/Wei Wuxian, Arthur/Eames

First ever ship: Michael Corleone/Tom Hagen UNREQUITED. That’s the first ship I wrote for in 2003, long before I understood a fandom or spoke to a fellow fan. And then there was Smallville. I may have written a deeply heteronormative Lex/Lana story (UNREQUITED!). I have dated myself, I know. It took me till 2020 to write again.

Last song: Kilimanjaro, Endhiran OST

Last movie: Kiki’s Delivery Service, in bits and pieces

Currently reading: Singapore Horror Stories. Amazed at how the villains in these were inevitably Indonesian black magicians, the slutty girls die horribly and the peeping Tom is an Indian construction worker. Appalling racism, even more appalling writing.

Currently watching: TVing Island. Please watch it and come scream with me about Kim Nam-gil and Lee Da-hee. (Okay and Cha Eun-woo, I guess).

Currently consuming: Iced gula melaka coffee with boba

Currently craving: fried chicken. a Kit Kat.

I’ll tag @teafiend and @newyearknwwme to try this if they’d like!

I feel like it should be possible to tip a therapist

Top Artistic/Creative Influences in My Life

Tagged by @randalltier for this new meme--I gotta admit it took me a second because I'd never really considered what pieces of media have influenced my own work. This was really cool to do tbh!! Though no one is allowed to make fun of me for the basic bitch answers included 😤

Modern Faerie Tales series (and its sequels/offshoots) by Holly Black: So this isn't super present in my fanfiction right now but in my original works I really like to engage with creatures or forces that are very inhuman in their thinking, where one of the struggles is understanding or working with forces that inherently have deeply different values and morality than our own. I won't say Holly Black does it best I've seen (or even, like...well) but the Modern Faerie Tales was the first time I really saw characters like that, where the faeries really felt like they were deeply inhuman and in some ways unknowable. It's also led to just a lifelong love of faeries in general that constantly shows up in my work lol.

Poetry by Eavan Boland: Easily my favorite poet, there's something about how Boland utilizes nature as an expression of emotion that really gets to me in particular--how water is grief in "Atlantis: A Sonnet" and "And Soul," how nature is indicative of healing in "How We Made a New Art on Old Ground." That's bled into my writing as well--a lot of my favorite bits of writing, where I really feel like I nailed trying to show character's emotions, comes from reflections in the environment and I draw a lot of it back to how her poetry has made me feel.

The Ones that Walk Away From Omelas by Ursula Le Guin: "Nothing is truly good that makes even one person suffer" is a really important theme to me and the story of Omelas is one that's stuck to me for ages. That theme shows up in some form or another in a lot of my stories--one that I published a long time ago is literally just a pastiche of the story--and its implications regarding colonialism and what makes a just society are pretty integral to core beliefs of mine in general!

The Gone World by Tom Sweterlitsch: I am a fan of time travel stories. But I became a fan of time travel as a double-edged sword, about the erasure of impact that it can have, about choice vs inevitability and what truly matters when things can literally be undone, because of this story. I've got a whole roster of OCs that fuck with time solely because of this and honestly it's a super well-written book beyond the time stuff, and honestly if you've played PWOTR and you like the implications of Aeon and the True Aeon end this is a really good read in general.

...Tolkien: Sorry for the basic bitch answer but. Yeah. Fantasy that has left behind a much brighter age and grieves it, things that are gone but not lost forever, the presentation of evil as seeming large and unstoppable but ultimately being so small and petty and miserable, and how the smallest of things (small people, small acts of kindness, small defiances in the face of the dark) can mean all the difference! It's really important to me! That message of hope and healing just matters a lot to me and a lot of my characters consciously feed into these arcs; like I really dislike making characters are stories with completely destructive scorched earth ends and I do think that comes from Tolkien.

Anyway!! I'm no pressure tagging @silversiren1101 @dujour13 and @dmagedgoods and anyone else who might be interested to talk about the things that have influenced or inspired their art!!