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strawberrymilk-sunshine · 8 months

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My personal little experiment

Heeeeere's another Jade fic hehehehehehe-

Warning(s): slight yandere behaviours, manipulation, body horror-ish

There's a weird disease going around recently... it has some fancy scientific name, but most people just call it "mushrooming"

Basically, this new species of mushrooms popped up basically out of nowhere, and people learned very quickly that they can grow on people... and they feed on flesh.

So.. it's not great for people. You've had it particularly rough... your left eye has been consumed and replaced with a mushroom growing out of the socket, and a lot of your flesh is rotting... according to doctors, you should be dead... but you're not.

And oh boy... this unique scenario you're in was about to attract some unwanted attention to you.

You sit in a hospital waiting room. You've tried to cover as much of the rotting as you can. Looking around the waiting room, you see people with various injuries. Sitting directly across from you is a small girl with a mushroom growing from the top of her head... you can only hope her illness doesn't progress to the point yours has...

"Is there a (Y/N) here?"

You sigh and stand up, being led to the room and now waiting for the doctor. It takes a while, but eventually he arrives. A young redheaded man you've gotten quite acquainted with over the course of your infection, Dr. Riddle Rosehearts.

"Hey Riddle." You sigh, pulling down your hood you were wearing. "So... how have you been...?"

"I've been... well. However, you look worse than I remember." He sighs. "Have you been taking the medication I prescribed?"

"Yeah. It's working really slowly, if it's working at all."

"Your condition is just going to get worse and worse if this continues... I really do not want to do this, however..." Riddle writes something down on a piece of paper, and hands it to you. "Please visit this man, he may be able to help you more than I. Just be warned, he can be quite..." Riddle pauses, looking like he's searching for the right words. "He's quite eccentric."

"...I see. So... he'll be able to help me with this... advanced case of mushrooming?"

"He might."

"Okay... well then, if that's all you wanted me here for, then... I'll be going now." You stand up and put your hood back on.

"I look forward to seeing you get better."

The address led you to... a house outside the city walls. It looks quite... overgrown.

You knock on the door.

You wait for a few minutes, before knocking again. Eventually, the door opens ever so slightly.

"Who is it? If you're a member of the authorities, allow me to reassure you once again there is nothing illegal going on here."

"What?? N-no, I... I was sent here by someone, uh, D-Dr. Riddle Rosehearts..."

Then, the door opens, revealing a six-foot-tall man that definitely gave off some... strange vibes...

"Oh my... what an unfortunate situation you're in... your eye has been consumed and replaced..." He smiles. "Please, come inside, sweet child..."

When you enter the house, the scent of damp mustiness and decay hits you all at once... the room is somewhat organised, but there is still little space to walk. Piles of paper and books cover the floor and tables. Jars of mushrooms and plants line the shelves... it kinda freaks you out.

"Now, sit yourself down and tell me about your condition. I'll make us some tea." He smiles.

"...So you've been infected with Carne Comedere, have you?" He asks, as he sits down next to you, sipping his tea. "It's interesting that you've survived to this point, especially when the fungus is being... this intense to you." He smirks, chuckling slightly. "You are quite the... interesting specimen. May I ask your name?"

"...it's (Y/N)..." You say, taking a sip of the... surprisingly bitter tea. "And... who are you? Dr. Rosehearts didn't really... tell me who you are. He just sort of... gave me a piece of paper with your address on it and told me to visit you."

"Ah, good to know he's doing that. You see, what I do is not exactly legal within the city walls. As such, I prefer people don't know m name right away." He pauses, before looking straight at you. "That being said, you look trustworthy.... my name is Jade Leech."

"Wait it's not legal-?"

"Now, if you'd please stay still for a moment, I just want a small sample of one of your mushrooms, okay?" He pulls out a pair of scissors.

"Oh, um... o-okay..."

Jade stands up from his seat, walking over to you. He begins to comb through your hair, until he eventually finds a tiny mushroom, and he uses the scissors to cut it from your body.

"Why not just take the one from my eye...?"

"Well, you see, that one is in a very sensitive spot... who's to say what damages I could cause if I were to take that one out!" He sighs and pats you on the head a few times. "We wouldn't want that, correct?"

"...I-I guess I see what you mean..."

He takes the "sample" and brings it over to what you assume is his kitchen, and he begins to observe it.

"Yes... yes, it's quite interesting... Carne Comedere, the flesh-eating mushroom... you have quite an advanced variant..." He places the knife down on the counter, and cuts it in half. "It's so strange that you've survived to this point. I'd love to study you... but of course, you're counting on me to cure you... so perhaps I will not!"

You don't like the way he worded that...

The days go by and you keep visiting Jade.

He keeps taking samples from you... the mushrooms, your skin, your blood... he keeps giving you strange substances, but you aren't getting any better...

One day, you decide to confront him about it.

"Hey Jade, I... I'm not getting any better." You tell him. "Nothing you're doing to me is working..."

"Oh really? What a shame." He smiles deviously. "Here, lease have some of this meat."

"What-? No! Tell me why I'm not getting any better!"

"Why should I? You should trust me. I'm your doctor, after all." HE pauses for a moment. "Well... actually, I am not legally allowed to call myself a doctor... I suppose I'm more of a healer... regardless, you should just trust me."

"Not until you tell me why I'm not getting better..."

"You're sure you want the truth?"

...

"Fine then. I've decided not to cure you."

"WHAT-?! Why the hell not?!"

"I want to see how far it will progress. I want to see the extent of what your body can survive… after all, you've survived much longer than anyone would in your condition… so I'd like to test your limits." He hands you the plate of meat. " Now, we need to make sure the mushrooms inside you continue to live, as such you must have protein to build more flesh and muscle for it to feed on… of course I'll provide you other foods every now and again to keep you alive and healthy, but for now it's important I feed you meat. Enjoy."

"But you told me you would cure me-!"

Jade shoves the piece of steak into your mouth.

"Oh goodness, no. Not in your state. Your infection has progressed to such a point that it would be MUCH more beneficial to keep you like this so we may study the mushroom's long-term effects on the body!" He giggles to himself. "Not to mention, I never said ANYTHING about curing you!"

"I-I'm going back to Dr. Rosehearts, I can't deal with this..."

"No no no, we can't have that! I have so many things I need to do to you... I need to take a blood test… and a sample of both the mushroom and your skin… and a full body exam… ohhh, I need to do so many things to you~ Now sit still."

He suddenly injects you with some kind of syringe...

You try your hardest to ignore the increasing feeling of dizziness and exhaustion...

...

But you're just so tired now...

You slowly lose yourself to the... whatever he injected you with...

"Yes, yes... go to sleep, my personal little experiment...~" He smiles in an almost evil way. "Don't worry, I'm only doing this to you for the betterment of humanity!"

Even in your current state, you can tell he's lying to you...

"I'll see you again soon, my patient."

#jade leech #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland x reader #yandere twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #yandere twst x reader #jade leech x reader #yandere jade leech x reader #yandere jade leech #twst jade x reader #twst jade #twst jade leech

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simlicious · 8 months

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Personal update :)

Despite my body not feeling very well right now, I am still in high spirits. I got vaccinated last week and I had a lot going on, so I could not rest much the following days, but my body is not having it and is forcing me to take it easy now. I still went for a relaxing walk with my best friend yesterday and went on a small picnic with my family today. Usually, I just hole myself up whenever I feel slightly unwell, but I guess I am challenging myself more and more these days, to my own surprise! Another reason is that we have (the probably last) warm summer days and I want to make the most of them. Apart from getting vaccinated, my doctor's visit was very fruitful and I even got a prescription for a medical app to help treat anxiety. The previous doctor was skeptical about it and did not want to prescribe it, but there is a new doctor now and she is really awesome. She took a lot of time to talk to me and took me seriously and could not be happier! Doctor's visits are usually very anxiety-inducing for me, but the atmosphere was pretty relaxing this time, so I did not feel so bad there, which is a huge plus. I got another appointment next month for some routine check-ups and bloodwork. After the doctor's visit, I also feel freshly motivated to change my sleep cycle (I find myself going to bed way too late and sleeping into the early afternoon, which is not good for my mental health and is also affecting my hormones, as the doctor explained). So far, I am doing pretty well, but it only has been a few days so far.

My mind is pretty fragmented these days and I can't seem to concentrate on one thing for much, hence no further updates on my creative/simming endeavors. My health has to come first! Whenever I can focus a bit, I try to figure out what kind of knitting project I could tackle next. I like to knit during the colder months, and my doctor approves of that activity too 😄 Finding a suitable knitting project can be complicated, as I want to use existing yarns that I already have, and incorporate specific techniques that the pattern has to support, and of course the wool needs to be suited to the project, I need enough of it, and it all needs to fit/work together. It needs to be something quick so I will not get frustrated, and I have to feel the right vibes while making it. I had some ideas and started some projects, but something did not go as planned or as I envisioned it and I had to scrap it or put it on hold. I have yet to find a project I can happily work on. Generally, I like to make gratifying projects that can be made in a few days, but still give a feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction. This is why I usually knit with super bulky wool that knits up very quickly. I kinda want to design my own chunky sweater one day and I am gathering bits of inspiration for it. I am not sure I am ready though - I think I need a bit more experience with regular patterns first. Sooo.... onwards, ever onwards!

#personal #nonsims

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itsnotaphasemomitsanobsession · 10 months

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To all the tropes I've loved before

✨ Quality fic recs under the cut ✨

✨ If I could read only one trope for the rest of my life, it would be soulmate fic. A treasure of unfounded proportions ✨

Soulmate fics:

Vortex (T): TW: anxiety, brief mention of self harm, nonconsensual drug use (medical abuse in the form of over prescribing medicine). I've read this one several times because of how lovely I find it. The gentle love between Harry and Draco just does something to my cold dead heart. This fic has it all: Auror Harry, Down and out Draco, Teacher Draco, fluff, angst, and just the right amount of soulmate tomfoolery. Read also the authors part two of the fic: Riptide(M).

Everything a Word can Mean (T): Everyone is born with the nickname their soulmate uses for them tattooed on their body, Harry's just so happens to be something everyone calls him. I love this little fic so much, it's really sweet and fluffy and everything you need for a Saturday morning read!

Punch-drunk fingerprints (T): Cute and fluffy fic where if you touch your soulmate it leaves a mark on them. Draco just so happens to get pulled through a corridor with Harry tugging along.

Eighth year fics:

✨ These fics are either the sweetest most fluffiest fics or they are the most heart wrenching fics of all time and I love them with every fiber of my being ✨

Swish and flick (T): If there's one thing to know about me, it's that I LOVE roommate fics and this is a sweet one. Harry and Draco in this are really sweet and I feel like this fic needs to be on everyone's TBR right the frick now.

Inside Your Mind (E): TW: PTSD, use of sex as a coping mechanism (it does get better later), severe bullying. Coming back 8th year has been hard on Draco, but Greg is there to "help" by acting as bodyguard. Harry is pretty sure that's not really helping any. It's a sweet, sad and lovely fic that shows the love of friends and their willingness to keep you safe, but also how those friendships can blossom into something better and healthier. An absolutely beautiful fic and top notch smut if you partake!

Good Company (T): Such a sweet fic of Harry and Draco being friends in their 8th year. Harry feeling like the third wheel to Ron and Hermione falls into a friendship with Draco and Draco is just trying to get through the year. It's very very cute and I'm a big fan!

Lessons in Grace and Decorum (not rated): TW: power dynamic related consent problems, forced proximity, use of torture on purpose and on accident, self worth issues and depression. This is an oldie but a goodie, you will have to read it through a Google doc but it's really really good. Draco sees his dead mom and she gives him advice on how to make friends. It's sweet, sad as fuck and I've read it so many times I just have it permanently downloaded onto my phone.

Quiet (E): TW: implied sexual violence and abuse. Draco and Harry just vibe in the Slytherin common room and drink, gaze longingly at each other, maybe do some homework and play quidditch. There's also a cute little ficlet that is in the same story line, it's cute and it's ginny x pansy (big fan) so check out peripheral.

The In-betweens (T): Harry and Draco are roommates in 8th year. Surprisingly they get along pretty well, Draco sings dirty dancing in the shower and Harry likes it. I love this fic so much and I hope each and every one of you puts this on your TBR right this instant!!!!!

Job fics:

✨ Nothing better than older gay men finding love in what they do and also finding love in each other. Extra points if Harry isn't an Auror and Draco has an odd creative job ✨

The Snitch Maker (T): Draco makes snitches and Harry works for the Quidditch Union for the Administration and Betterment of the British League and its Endeavours. It's really cute and a little silly, Draco is very fun in this and Harry is an ex-auror with a disability. It's very sweet and worth the read

Chasing Shadows (E): TW: homophobia, death, and internalized homophobia. Draco works in a muggle bar and hasn't been in the wizard world for awhile, Harry works as an Auror and his next case is the death of Lucius Malfoy. Very very very good fic, features Harry coming to terms with his sexuality, an openly homosexual Draco and a series of fun OCS that make the fic very charming and worth the read.

Draco from the Wireless show (T): Very much a Welcome to Night Vale type of vibe. It's interesting and funny and just slightly odd which I love a whole lot. Draco in this is silly and a bit of a hermit and Harry is just trying to figure out why this town is so odd? I recommend this for days where you really need something silly to lift your spirits!

✨ please please please make sure you comment and leave kudos on the fics that you enjoy to let the authors know their worth!!!! ✨

#drarry #harry potter x draco malfoy #hpdm #drarry fic recs #drarry fic #drarry fanfiction

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compassionatereminders · 5 months

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Vent//advice. ((I don't think this breaks the rules but if it sounds like it, you can delete. I tried my best to not break them))

Does ADHD medication affect you differently if you don't have it? It made me hyper rather than focused. I think I was misdiagnosed on purpose. My psychiatrist tested me for ADHD, ignored the comment that I came from a very emotionally abusive home and that I can't remember my childhood and just tested me for ADHD only. (Pathetically) I originally found him to get a second opinion on autism but he said I couldn't be treated for it until I fixed the other issues which seemed like a weird comment to me???? He said the medication would "fix" my depression and anxiety but it actually made it worse. I don't think Adderall is a good antidepressant. I want to get a different diagnosis because I don't think I ever had ADHD. I feel like he just didn't care enough??? I actually stopped seeing that psychiatrist because the vibe was off.

I've had bad luck with therapy and I just want a good therapist/psychiatrist to listen to my actual concerns 🫤. I don't get why it's so hard to find a good fit?? Maybe it's me. Idfk. The connection is just never there though. Should therapy feel comfortable instead of stressful?

People with ADHD absolutely can get hyper and high from ADHD medication and other stimulants, but rarely at the medicinal doses doctors prescribe. Whereas people without ADHD are far more likely to get hyper and energized on doses which would not have the same effect on a person with ADHD generally speaking. So while it's obviously more complicated than that, if you just feel calm and focused on low to medium doses of stimulants, that is a common sign of ADHD. And no, your therapist/psych isn't supposed to overrule your concerns and make you feel unsafe, dismissed and uncomfortable. Adderall isn't an antidepressant in any sense of the word, and if you don't feel that it's helping you, your doctor really shouldn't be pushing it that hard

#chat with kat #drugs tw

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sewercentipede · 7 months

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hello pretti human ^.^ i am interested in ket, i hope you dont mind me asking some questions... what does ketamine do for you? How long does a trip usually last? And is the trip more chill than for example mushrooms or LSD, I am a big advocate for mushrooms but I feel like I need to prepare a lot just for one trip, it takes a whole day and I need to book time away somewhere because I don't feel comfortable doing it around my flatmates, does ketamine bring similar benefits without being as 'deep' if that makes any sense? Thank you in advance!

hello! <3

1. I detail roughly what ketamine feels like based on dosage in this post but i don’t go too too much into *what it does for me*. so ill expand more now on that.

ketamine, being a dissociative, is really good at dulling, numbing, and at high enough doses even transforming into pleasure, the sensation of pain. this makes it a godsend for my crohns. nothing else even comes remotely close to the pain relief I get from ketamine when it comes to abdominal pain or during a flare. so it is a miracle drug for me. it’s also amazing with depression—in an acute sense—especially good at shutting down really intense/acute depression and suicidal thoughts even at super low dose (for eg: i was really depressed one night during a time when I was hypomanic and I felt really reckless and planned to self-harm, but then I did a line or 2 of ketamine and almost immediately all those feelings were replaced with a deep sense of calm, of everything being fine, that I was okay and i no long had any desire to do anything irrational. In more mild-moderate depression (not actively suicidal, but hopeless and can’t get out of bed vibe), ketamine is like… an immediate boost to mental wellbeing.. it helps me appreciate life as it is and the ppl in it and it makes me feel hope.

Ketamine has long been known medically/pharmacologically as a first-line therapy for treatment-resistance depression but until recently was only used in rare and emergency cases, probably (im guessing) due in part to the fact that its antidepressant effects wear off when it wears off, for the most part. In the last few years however ketamine has become a whole area of specialization in the realm of psychiatry particularly for things like depression and eating disorders, with ketamine clinics and doctors prescribing ketamine infusions (IV ketamine sessions done regularly, from twice a week to once every 2 weeks), or IM (intramuscular injection) ketamine sessions.

when I did an IV ketamine infusion (as a very depressed and anxious individual) it was incredible, I felt real joy and gratitude and appreciation and love and the ability to just enjoy the present moment and “be here now” for the first time in a long long long time. this can be achieved through other ROAs with ketamine but IV is the most intense.

when my husband did an IM ketamine session he k-holed and when he came back he said “I saw my entire life” and couldn’t really explain it further but he said that it changed his perspective on his life a lot. as soon as he got up from the K-hole he went “I understand!” Lol, but what he understood was for him alone to know.

when my dad did IM ketamine the first time the dose was too low to hole, but it made him very emotional, talk about his childhood trauma, his recently deceased mom with whom he had a super complicated relationship, etc. ketamine will do that too at low doses, it’s kinda like a release valve for trapped emotions especially grief and I think that happens to some people whose depression cuts them off from their emotions (it did The same for me when I did a medium dose after my grandpa died and it made me emotionally purge A LOT of grief). his second IM session on a higher dose made him k-hole and he became a bodyless observer going through and inside and above and around the earth. he never revealed whether or not it gave him any insight but I imagine for a guy like him (tormented by his mind) it was a nice reprieve.

the dissociative effect of ketamine makes you detach, from everything, in layers/to degrees, your thoughts, feelings, worries, mindset, your physical feelings, your body, yourself entirely; and in this detachment clarity can be found. wisdom from that clarity can be found.

2. most ROAs of ketamine last no more than 1 hour, often 45 minutes to 1 hour. After 1 hour you will basically not feel any effects anymore (although with high dose there may be lingering motor coordination effects). doing a ketamine IV infusion however (which is done at a doctors office) will last longer (closer to 3 hours) because the full ketamine dosage is being administered slowly. sublingual lozenge ketamine I also notice while have far more subdued effects, lasts longer (2-3 hours). and just straight up IVing ketamine I think also lasts a bit longer than the 1 hour (but that depends on dose too and I’ve only done a pretty high dose that way so that could be why it lasted 1.5-2 hours.) For insufflated and IM ketamine, at whatever dose reaches k-hole, it’s the standard 1 hour max.

3. Girlllllllllll don’t even get me started on mushrooms and LSD in that regard like oh my god. I can’t do shrooms without mentally and physically preparing for like a week beforehand. it’s excruciating otherwise. And it absolutely requires planning a whole day around it (carving out time AND having a good place to do it at, that wont potentially cause a bad trip).

Ketamine isn’t like that at all…… ketamine is so fucking chill. It’s not a grueling emotional experience wherein you’re traversing the labyrinth of your mind and battling your mental pitfalls or whatever. It’s more like you’re being freed of your mind and body and letting the ketamine work its magic on you.

First of all it’s an NMDA-antagonist (dissociative), not a seratonergic psychedelic, so you won’t be having those weird seratonin effects (anxiety, paranoia, sweating, jaw clenching, feeling wired and awake, having funny tummy -or urge to shit- on the come-up, etc). there’s no come up or comedown, it’s altogether very gentle and chill, evornment only matters insofar as dosage. If you want to keep it at real low doses, you can do it anywhere. If you want to do moderate to high doses, you can do it at home or a friends house but not in public (you want to be able to lie down in a safe environment). The state of the room or house doesn’t matter (idk bout you but on shrooms or acid, if im in a house and the house isn’t clean it fucks with me. Ketamine doesn’t care). you can do it around other people without you yourself being affected negatively by their presence whatsoever (if they don’t know you’re on ketamine they might be confused as to why you’re walking like a drunk robot). and you can sleep as soon as it’s over. The k-hole if anything is extremely euphoric for me, not like mdma euphoria, its different, but my god it is euphoria.

however i have heard the occasional experience of the hole being scary particularly at too-high IM doses (my BIL after a high dose IM ketamine session said he “turned into atoms and got torn apart” and the intensity of it frightened him; he kinda has control issues though and did double the normal dose of IM ket, so it does not surprise me). In other cases of bad k-holes its 99.99% of the time people accidentally k-holing at festivals, i hear it’s very unpleasant, and I imagine it would be! but that’s what you get when you don’t respect ketamine by doing too much at a festival or rave so I have no sympathy for that lol.

4. This is a bit hard to answer. Does ketamine bring similar benefits without being as deep…. Yes and no? It’s very hallucinogenic, moreso to me than lsd or shrooms, but in a very very different way. It can bring perspective shifts and insight like the other two can. But again, in a different way. I would say yes it does this stuff without being as deep, mentally, emotionally. It doesn’t feel like “work” the way shrooms or lsd do, and is less interested in forcing you to confront and overcome your thought patterns in real time. your mind and awareness is not really necessarily what the work ketamine does is dependent on. When it comes to what we know about the effect of longterm microdosing mushrooms on depression and cluster headaches (and anxiety I believe?), I don’t think ketamine has a similar effect… I could be wrong though. I don’t know the effectiveness of longterm ketamine IV infusion therapy personally; anecdotally ive heard both “this saved my life” and “this did nothing”. Then again, shrooms for depression also doesn’t necessarily work on everyone either. So yeah idk, that’s my take.

One thing though, chronic ketamine use will affect your bladder. Like itll kill bladder cells. We see this mostly only in ketamine addicts (doing lots of ketamine daily for years type of people), but it makes me wonder for people who do regular infusions for years what the possible long term effects on their bladder might be. And also makes me advise against ketamine use if you have existing renal/bladder impairment. But If this doesn’t apply or you’re not planning to snort a lot of ketamine everyday for a long time then this isn’t something I’d worry about. But I feel like I should mention it all the same.

#ketamine #drugs

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talesfromthedreaming · 6 months

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Dont worry, your addition to the post was good! As someone who works in related healthcare, i feel like all too often people fall into thinking that the professional they go to is just pushing something else without a care in the world but its just that psychiatric medication is try-and-see

The doctor can prescribe SSRIs (or other meds) that generally help more on a certain or other thing most- but at the end of the day its throw crap at the wall and sees what sticks, because you just have to wait and see if your ultra-specific NT unbalance vibes well with one medication or if you have to try another.

Anyways, the reblog didnt break the "funny" vibe imo! You're good

thank you! this means a lot, honestly!

I do get anxious about these things, I always feel like I'm interrupting some else's party and ruining the vibe. I guess there is a reason why I have to take store brought serotonin

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psykoticrefuge · 1 year

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DIY

Content warning: discussion of biohacking and both medical and slang terminology of sensitive areas

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Not only do I like to science stuff, the PDA (persistent need for autonomy <or> pathological demand avoidance) tism type brain is a big, do it yourself kinda vibe. And as such I've ordered some progesterone cream to stimulate breast growth.

You wanna science along? Come with.

Background stats:

9 months HRT

8 of which was sublingual estradiol 2mg thrice daily (if you remember a previous post I had extra and was taking 4 pills a day and felt amazing)

Spironolactone 50mg twice a day

3 weeks in on depo estradiol injections

First week: 0.3ml/5mg and the last day was BRUTAL

Past two weeks: 0.4ml/5mg and feeling good

I do have an endo prescribing Spiro and E but reluctant to do prog yet

Cis women in immediate blood family and extended are typically gifted in the bewb department

Currently a tanner 3 tanner 4 cusp, unknown cup and band size

I've used the cream two days now and let's talk turkey:

I ordered the cream from Amazon and it's bio identical progesterone from yams. Smells great. Bottle says to use one pump (1.3g of cream) once or twice a day on soft skin areas. I started the same day as shot day and I'm applying the cream evenly between both breasts twice a day. The bottle also says to cycle it depending on menopausal or not. No instructions for trans folk. I'm doing this off of research and anecdotal evidence.

Today was a rough mental health day, combined with a rough physical pain day. Unsure if mood affected by introduction of new hormone. Over the last 3 weeks day 2-4 after injection are usually higher days. But also it's a very heavy time to be trans so again, can't make pure judgement call on mood effects. The nipples are more sensitive, like I can feel subtle movements of my top while I breathe. I'm prone to headaches and there is a listed migraine warning but so far no worries in that department. I probably won't post updates daily but will keep track of progress and write about it.

#trans #trans pride #transgender #diy hrt #progesterone cream #progesterone #biohacking #self science #mtf #nonbinary #transfemme

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the1975attheirverybest · 10 months

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what are your thoughts on anxiety medication? i just got prescribed lexapro and i’m very anxious to take it…

Oh heyyyyy. Lexapro is my favvvvv 🥰 ah I miss it so much. It was the first one I ever got on. And the best I’ve ever been on, tbh. So, personally, I would recommend it! I’ve been on other meds since (like maybe 5 others) and I have to say that some of them helped here and there but none quite as well as lexapro. Good vibes.

No, for real. Obviously I’m not a psychiatric expert, so definitely take your physicians word over mine. But in my experience, even the most hellish days on medication are better than the best days without it. I remember when I first got my anti depressants and anti anxiety meds prescribed, it was hard for me. I don’t know why. Cuz I’d been in therapy for a while before my therapist recommended I go see. Psychiatrist. So I definitely already knew that I had depression and anxiety and was already working with a therapist on them. But….idk. The idea that I would need an action pill to make my brain “like normal people,” kinda freaked me out and took me a while to accept and make peace with.

Everyone’s body is different and reacts differently, so you might have a different experience from me, and that’s normal! For example, I’m kinda jealous that Zoloft works for Matty, haha. Cuz I was on it for a while and it didn’t do much for me :( BUT the fact that you now have lexapro is good. It might work for you and it might not. If it doesn’t, please don’t give up! Talk to your doctor about it and try other things. Because, I have to say, the 3rd week, when lexapro really started kicking in for me, I felt sooo much better and I was like “wowwww. Is this what stable people feel like? No wonder they like living. If I didn’t feel like shit 24/7 id probably be excited about life too,” lol. Like I noticed a big difference! I really, really hope you feel that way too. No matter what you end up on.

There are, of course, side-effects. For me, lexapro just increased my appetite a ton. But I eventually made that a bit lesser by starting to take it with breakfast and being careful about food and stuff. Some people don’t experience any side-effects at all.

Obviously, your body, your choice and you should only do it if you want to, but I highly recommend meds. They’ve made a massive difference in my life and I wouldn’t be functional without them.

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Earnest post alert: I have a psych appointment in about 3 weeks to discuss medication for adhd, please cross your fingers/send good vibes/cast some spells for me. It's a new clinic and I'm terrified they won't believe me since I wasn't diagnosed as a child. I've only been prescribed non stim medication for adhd and it fucking sucked. I desperately want something to help my stupid brain, especially my impulsive eating habits.

#text post #personal vent #tw weight #adult adhd #adhd

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whoslaurapalmer · 1 year

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ooooooo it's time for a lulu makes her way through therapy update 🪅

- yesterday was psychiatrist day and my brother had to drive me which was very thrilling for all involved, because the psychiatrist was initially my brother's and has known my brother since he was a teenager and saw us both in the waiting room and got so excited and went '!!!!!! is this a switch?? am I seeing both of you??? Or are you here just for the purposes of transportation' and I said HE'S JUST TRANSPORTATION TODAY

- what's nice about him is that even if he was the one who prescribed the prozac he doesn't push me on it at ALL. EVERYONE keeps saying 'why wont you take it?' and He's like, 'no lulu, you don't have to. It's okay if it's just there. Quite frankly. I don't know if you need it right now?' Which was very nice!! because I've been doing very well lately!!!!! not super focused if at all on my breathing or anxiety or panic!!!!!! And it's nice to hear SOMEONE ELSE say 'you sound like you're doing really good!!' but also acknowledge that that doesn't mean the end of talking to people about my problems or not trying to do different things!!

- it's so fucking stupid every damn time when most of my problems are in fact solved by drinking more water. that's what I really focused on this month. And trying to eat a good amount. And trying to be more like. It sounds so STUPID to say mindful but that's what it is!! When I start to panic I started saying hello to everything in the room. and myself more frequently in mirrors. I get so stuck in my head and can't get out of it and give anxiety and panic so much weight that trying to refocus outside of me helped a lot. I also started a gratitude app and I do it twice a day and that's nice too!!!! For really appreciating little things about my town and my house and the things I interact with and the people I know. It's helpful to make myself notice more about where I always am and that's not bad.

- BUT MEANWHILE so I told him, I am trying to placebo effect myself.

- my psychiatrist: ..........explain 🤔

- so I wanted to take SOMETHING for my anxiety. But I cannot do side effects. But I figured, the brain can be tricked and rerouted, right?? because it's silly like that!!! so I just have to reroute it a specific way!! And I can PRETEND I'm taking something for anxiety!! so I was looking for something that like. Idk, would 1) look like a pill 2) be something that I could take like a pill but also WHENEVER, whenever I was anxious too. I tried to do it with like things I already take, like sinus stuff and vitamins, but I might switch sinus meds again depending on how this month's ENT goes, and I figured it'd be better to have something that I registered as SPECIFICALLY for anxiety, and not multiple things.

- I picked altoids!!!!! I really wanted a mint bc mint is distracting on its own being so potent. I let them dissolve under my tongue for maximum vibes and so the mint experience lasts as long as possible. I have one in the morning and one in the afternoon at vaguely the same time and started out thinking each time 'I'm taking this to help with my anxiety' and within a few weeks my brain morphed it into 'don't forget to take your anxiety medication :) ' which we both found FASCINATING.

-I don't know if it IS helping??? Especially bc at the same time i DID up the eating and water. But it is a Thing!!!! and I like it a lot!!!!!! So maybe it is helping too!!!!!!

- my psychiatrist: we should tell altoids. they're missing out on a marketing angle. anyway this is very exciting! The placebo effect is so intriguing.

#anyway. try some altoids.

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lcfthaunted · 2 months

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how to communicate with andi : a primer

So! Apparently my approach to communication is atypical, which I am wont to prescribe to birds of a feather flocking together and 90% of my social circle being adhd as fuck. To make things easier on everyone involved, here's my approach to and expectation in communication!

First and foremost, I never expect an immediate response. My brain works faster than I can keep up with, so I have a tendency to firehose ideas. This is where dis.cord conversations are ideal, as the reply function allows returning to an idea at a later point, no matter how much later that ends up being.

If you don't vibe with an idea, ignore it! Sometimes things just don't hit the spot, and that's fine. If there's something in particular about the idea that rubs you wrong, however, I do want you to tell me what it is, so I can remove that aspect from future ideas. You saying to me "abuse by neglect with parents is not my jam and I don't want to explore it" is not an attack, and I will appreciate your clarity and honesty. But sometimes, the stars just aren't in alignment for an idea, and it's fine to leave it unacknowledged on the shelf if and until it ripens.

I Will Ping Pong. Even medicated, my brain tends to bounce around. If there's something you really vibe with and I have responded positively, that is invitation to bring me back to it if I ping pong off on another tangent. Again, this goes back to my previous point; if the tangent doesn't connect to the subject you're vibing with, ignore it! We can come back to it later, or maybe it's not even something that fully requires a response, and a thumbs-up emoji reaction is sufficient.

I do not require but do greatly appreciate having messages acknowledged, even just a little emoji reaction dropped. If you don't that's fine! It's not for everyone, I know. But if you do, I do look and feel fondly about it, and it makes me more comfortable with sharing things. If messages regularly go without any sort of acknowledgement, though, I will stop offering so much attention and energy. I do not expect my energy matched, as it is too high even for me at times, but some reciprocation is needed.

If I do something to discomfort, upset, or hurt you, I do want you to tell me. I know it's not easy to do in the moment, but the sooner the better. If you sit on a grievance for months, it will only make me less likely to interact in the future, as I can no longer trust my interactions are being received in good faith. If I have a strong emotional reaction (which is very likely with adhd regulation issues) that is on me to regulate, and I may send you a message saying as much before I can appropriately respond to what you're saying. Do not keep quiet in fear of upsetting me; you are hurting yourself and robbing me of the opportunity to practice self-regulation and learn how to be a better friend. In return, I will alert you to anything that has made me genuinely uncomfortable, though it may take me a couple days to work through the emotion and be sure my reaction is proportional before I act on it. Disproportional reactions are on me to deal with, and not something you should have to tiptoe around.

Sometimes, the words just don't go, and I communicate in memes and shared posts. That doesn't mean I'm uninterested in conversation, it just means my energy levels are low and coherency has been sacrificed in favor of survival mechanisms. Sometimes, the words go too much, and you are welcome to ask for a tl;dr if you are not in a position to read All That but are still interested. The advantage of text-based communication is things can always be revisited at a higher energy day.

I am terrible at asking questions, and I do not have an exciting life. Simple "how are you how was your day" questions do not occur to me to ask and are always a labor for me to answer. You are welcome and encoraged to simply rant to me about your asshole coworker or the stupid crush you have on a regular. I do care about you as a person, and I am interested in learning about you, I just don't know where to start. If we talk about our characters regularly, I will likely share tidbits about my life without prompting. Ignore or reciprocate as your energy levels dictate.

If all of this is sensible to you, add me on disco at andi0937 so we can blabber about our characters! I have many ideas and many muses across my four blogs. I would love to learn more about your beloved blorbos.

#i can't even say it with a straight face • ooc #is it cool that i said all that ? • psa #( ok im off to dinner here's this thing it may get edited or added to in the future )#( bestowing your preferred demonstration of affection on all of you )

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compassionatereminders · 1 year

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hi i just sent u an ask earlier and wanted to update! my psych doctor was nice! i feel like he listened to me. he is lowering my medication which i’m nervous about but he prescribed me a new one that i asked for! thank u for the good vibes 💛💛💛💛💛

I am so happy to hear that the appointment went well! Thanks for the update, I appreciate knowing that you're okay. And best of luck with the upcoming med changes!

#chat with kat

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thecrystalcave17 · 2 months

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What Are The Key Properties of Crystals For Anxiety Management?

Anxiety disorders are widespread mental health conditions which affect millions in the world, mostly manifesting in recurrent worrying, fear and uncertainty. Commonly prescribed conventional treatments (therapy and medication) are presently being offered side-by-side with the introduction of alternative approaches to anxiety management. Such methods as crystal healing, a practice that predates our time and is based on the belief that crystals have certain special powers that can bring balance to all aspects of life — physical, mental and spiritual.

Crystals are said to emit energies that can calm anxious thoughts, relieve stress, and become relaxing, hence being preferred by those looking for natural ways to deal with their anxiety. The basic characteristics of crystals essential for anxiety relief must be grasped to convert their potential effects into reality.

This article discusses these properties in detail, highlighting the mechanisms under which healing with crystals for anxiety takes place and revealing their practical applications in mental fitness and remedy of anxiety. For more information about crystals, visit us at The Crystal Cave.

Critical properties of crystals for anxiety management

Relaxing energy

Amethyst is known for its calming vibe that helps people relax. Crystals' vibrational frequency connects with the body's energy field, soothing it. By touching or wearing amethyst, people may tap into this frequency and feel its calm energy, reducing stress and promoting inner serenity.

Amethyst alleviates anxiety because it calms rushing thoughts and helps people focus on the present. In meditation, as a pocket stone, or in the bedroom for deep sleep, amethyst helps achieve emotional balance and well-being.

Reduce stress

Rose quartz naturally reduces stress and promotes emotional healing. Rose quartz is linked to the heart chakra and is thought to provide a soft, loving energy deep into the emotional body. This energy breaks down stress and tension barriers, enabling self-love and compassion.

Meditation with rose quartz, wearing it as jewelry, or putting it in living settings may provide serenity and security. As stress levels decrease, the heart gets lighter, and anxiety decreases, promoting emotional regeneration and well-being.

Grounding

Grounding crystals including beautiful black tourmaline, are inevitable in giving security and protection in times of nerves and apprehension. Black tourmaline is known for connecting to the root chakra, the energy center linked to security and grounding. When held or worn, a black tourmaline forms a protective shield around a person, deflecting negativity and promoting feelings of inner strength and stability.

Such an anchoring effect reduces the psychological distress many of us experience during those moments of confusion and chaos. If carried in the pocket, kept under the pillow, or used for meditation, black tourmaline always stays beside you, providing support and protection on the path to emotional stability and strength.

Emotional recovery

Moonstone is respected for its ability to heal emotions and create inner peace. Moonstone's soothing vibration helps the emotional body reflect and release. Meditation or wearing moonstone jewelry might help people uncover their emotions.

Transformational emotional healing helps people let go of previous traumas and bad habits that cause worry. Healing emotional scars reduces anxiety and brings serenity and completeness. Moonstone helps emotional recovery by illuminating the darkness and bringing hope.

Chakra balancing

Crystals for anxiety are valued for balancing the chakras and supporting good health. Beautiful Citrine Crystal is linked to the solar plexus chakra, which controls self-confidence and power. Citrine aligns this chakra, bringing self-esteem and resilience to obstacles, lowering anxiety and empowering people.

Other gemstones target specific chakras to treat emotional and spiritual imbalances. People may use meditation, visualization, or holding the crystal to restore balance and harmony, lowering worry and increasing well-being.

Promoting mindfulness

Clear quartz crystals promote awareness, clarity, and attention. Clear quartz is said to boost intention and deepen meditation. Clear quartz may soothe the mind and increase awareness, lowering anxiety and encouraging serenity.

Improved mindfulness lets people notice their thoughts and feelings without judgment, creating inner calm and acceptance. Clear quartz, worn as jewelry, on a desk, or in meditation, can reduce anxiety and promote emotional well-being by reminding you to be present.

Aura cleansing

Selenite crystals are regarded for their aura-purifying characteristics, which remove energy blocks and promote lightness and clarity. Selenite's soothing vibration dissolves worry and imbalance, causing stagnant energy and bad influences in the aura.

Holding or putting selenite near the body releases energy garbage and restores energetic equilibrium, lowering anxiety and boosting vigour. This cleaning rejuvenates, letting people discard their past and embrace a better, more optimistic future. Selenite shines in the darkness, bringing clarity and emotional well-being.

Boosting relaxation

Lepidolite and blue lace agate are known for relaxing and calming. These gems generate mild energies that assist people to rest and unwind, facilitating profound relaxation. Lepidolite and blue lace agate may relieve tension and anxiety, helping bodies and minds to calm.

Relaxation improves well-being, reduces worry, and balances emotions. These crystals for anxiety help relax and reduce tension, whether put under a pillow, carried in a pocket, or used in meditation.

Promoting positive thinking

Positive, optimistic, and abundant energies flow from citrine stones. The intense sparkle of citrine energizes confidence and muscle power at the solar plexus. Citrine has a strong parallelism with abundant energy, enabling individuals to evade negative thought processes and take a positive stance.

Adopting this attitude reduces anxiety and encourages hope and optimism leading to resilience and a strong will to solve problems. Citrine enhances our awareness of wealth whether you have it in a pocket, on a desk or wearing it. With that, worry decreases and mental health increases.

Boosting intuition

Labradorite and amethyst are regarded for their spiritual and intuition-enhancing properties. These gems activate the third eye chakra, which governs intuition and wisdom. Meditation or visualization with labradorite or amethyst may help people access their intuition, lowering anxiety and providing clarity.

This increased intuition helps people trust their inner direction and make choices that benefit them, lowering worry and boosting emotional well-being. These stones can provide clarity and emotional resilience, whether on a meditation altar, in a pocket, or as jewelry.

Conclusion

Crystals' unique powers encourage relaxation, emotional healing, and general well-being, making them a comprehensive and complementary anxiety treatment. Crystals for anxiety may reduce anxiety and promote calm and harmony in self-care routines by recognizing and using their qualities.

Crystal healing is not a substitute for medical care, but it may empower people to manage their mental health. Crystals may help you find inner calm and emotional resilience with awareness, purpose, and an open heart.

Read more: Black Tourmaline Protection and Healing

#Crystals for anxiety #Crystals #Spiritual awakening #Healing #Inner peace

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methylparabens · 8 months

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I think I should get prescribed Concerta if this medication adjustment doesnt work, my psychiatrist said he’ll consider it. It’s honestly higher vibration to be sober overall. And I could take my medications like Klonopin too, and feel really good. But I would still be considered clean off all drugs because those are my medications. The vibe would be perfect 🥰🥰🥰

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imnotyourgirlfriendbro · 1 year

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Falling for you (literally)

Hi, sorry this is like literally trash but uh, hopefully you enjoy it?

Trigger warnings: medication, fainting, and some swearing

Dahlia grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and went to her room, opening her medication bottles and taking the prescribed amount. She then returned to the kitchen, planning on making herself waffles but she stopped when her phone chirped. There was only one message with no explanation, it simply said ‘I need you’ and since it was from Wooyoung she grabbed her keys and rushed out of the house. Dahlia didn’t even think to put any shoes on, she was too worried about what his message meant. She was in her pajama shorts and a tank top with no shoes as she drove to the boy’s shared house. She made sure to park and turn off her car before heading to the front door and opening it quickly. Jong-ho and Seong Hwa were sitting on the couch but looked up when the front door suddenly opened. Jong-ho looked her up and down slowly, giving her a very obvious look of confusion.

“Where's Wooyoung?”

“In his room?”

“Why?”

She ignored their questions as she shut the door behind her and headed straight for Wooyoung’s bedroom. Dahlia didn’t bother to knock, opening the door as soon as she reached it. Wooyoung was laying in bed with one arm over his head, covering his eyes as the other one was laid across his stomach. She walked over and kneeled next to his bed, gently grabbing his hand.

“What’s wrong?”

“I need you to make me breakfast, i’m so hungry and your food is so good and-”

She didn’t even let him finish his sentence. Instead she just got up from the floor, dusted her knees off and left his room. Wooyoung scrambled to get out of bed, nearly slipping on his blanket in the rush to follow her. Jong-ho and Seong Hwa knew he did something stupid again because of the blank look on Dahlia’s face as she passed by them. Wooyoung was in the living room within seconds and a small launch forward helped him stop her from reaching the front door. He got on knees, holding her wrist so she couldn’t escape and did his best to make a puppy dog look which made Jung-ho dramatically gag while Seong Hwa laughed.

“Please! I couldn’t stop thinking about your cooking last night and I'm so hungry!”

“Jung Wooyoung.”

The boys sat up on the couch as soon as Wooyoung’s full name was said. It let everyone know that she was beyond pissed, because she would do anything for Wooyoung and never uses his full name. Dahlia using his full name gives the same effect as your mother using your full name, and when it happens you know you’re in big trouble.

“I’m sorry.”

Wooyoung instantly began his apologies, letting go of her wrist quickly to put both hands on the floor and fully bow. Dahlia turned around to look at him as her hands moved to her hips but the change in direction made Wooyoung look up. He put his hands together and apologized again. She sighed heavily and slapped him across the face, but not hard enough to leave a mark. It was more so a slap that held love and hate but it still startled everyone, because Dahlia adored wooyoung. She loved him like a little brother and for her to slap him and use his full name then it must be really bad. For her it was. She took her medication and left without eating and she knew it was only a matter of time before she passed out. She was here though, so she decided to just cook here and eat her. She has to push through.

“I’m sorry.”

“Get up and go sit on the couch.”

Dahlia rolled her eyes as she dropped her arms to point at the couch, giving Wooyoung a direct command. Once he was sitting on the couch she turned and walked into the kitchen, getting the ingredients and materials out in silence. Actually everyone was silent, but they were watching her because it was so rare for her to be so upset. When the other boys finally got up and came out into the living room they instantly picked up on the vibe and sat down silently while watching Dahlia cook in silence. It was honestly pretty awkward with how silent it was, but no one dared to say anything. It went on like that for almost 10 minutes before they broke the silence after Dahlia dropped the spatula she was holding.

“Are you okay?”

“What’s wrong?”

They got up from their seats as they watched her, unsure of what was going on. Dahlia knew exactly what was going on and she made an attempt to get to one of the chairs at the kitchen island. The food was almost done and she thought she could push through but the heat of the stove increased the speed of her fate. She stumbled sideways, reaching for the chair but instead she fell over and knocked the chair down in the process. The boys ran to the kitchen to check on her, with San turning the stove off to make sure no one gets hurt. He moved the pan back on the stove to avoid it being knocked off, as the others shifted Dahlia’s body so she was laying flat on her back.

“What happened?”

“She passed out, idiot.”

“This is why you need to make your own food.”

“But her food tastes so good!”

“You selfish little shit. She just passed out and you’re still talking about her food?!”

“Stop fighting, that's not helping her. Go get cold wet rags so we can cool her down.”

Hong Joong was quick to scold Wooyoung and Yun-ho from arguing, and instead began handing out instructions which everyone followed very quickly. San grabbed a bag of frozen vegetables from the freezer and gently put it on her stomach, over her shirt. Ming-gi and Jong-ho brought back rags wet with cold water, and one was instantly placed on Dahlia’s forehead. Wooyoung retrieved a pillow from the couch, placing it under her head. Yeo-sang propped up her legs as Hong Joong gently began wiping her arms with the rag. All the things they were doing was an attempt to cool her body temperature and hopefully get her to wake up.

“Now what?”

“Now we wait.”

Wooyoung sat next to her on the floor with Hong Joong next to him, while everyone else was finishing up the cooking and cleaning up the kitchen as they waited for her to wake up. It didn’t take as long as they thought, because they thought they would be on the floor for at least an hour. Dahlia woke up in 10 minutes, sitting up with a soft groan as she reached behind her head to feel where she hit it off the floor. Wooyoung instantly got into a full bow next to her as Hoong Joong took away the rags and frozen vegetables.

“I’m so sorry. I’m so so sorry.”

“What happened?”

Dahlia knew what happened, because she could see the boy’s expressions but she thought it would be fun to ask. She stood up and took notice of the clean kitchen and the 9 plates of eggs and toast lined up on the kitchen island. Wooyoung slowly stood up as did Hong Joong, and the rest of the boys were standing in a line on the other side of the island. They all were watching her very closely, hoping there wouldn’t be another fall but they were all right there and could catch her if she did.

“You were making Wooyoung food and passed out. Are you okay? Do you feel ill?”

“Uh no i’m fine now. So i’m gonna head home now, ok?”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea. You just got up, so maybe you should wait a little while. Yun-ho and Ming-gi finished the food. Stay and eat.”

Dahlia did still feel hungry, so she agreed and they all sat down at the island to eat the food that partially caused her to pass out. The heat was what really got her. Dahlia picked up on the awkward silence and slowly cleared her throat. Everyone turned to look at her quickly, giving her their full attention. It made her feel a little uncomfortable but she didn’t back down.

“I’m not mad at Wooyoung. I was at first but I'm not now. It wasn’t his fault, it was more my fault than anything.”

“It is his fault. You baby him too much and let him get away with most things. He’s not getting away with it this time.”

Everyone stayed silent while Dahlia and Hong Joong talked to each other like no one was there. The conversation turned from normal chatting to loud voices very quickly, prompting the boys to feel a wave of uneasiness. They weren’t sure if they should jump in and stop them or if they should stay out of it and let them solve the issue themselves.

“Don’t punish him Hong Joong. It was a freak accident. I forgot to eat before I left this morning, because I was in a hurry.”

“And why were you in a hurry? Because he sent you a dumbass message that got you worried. You’re not even in proper clothes and you don’t have shoes on. Stop letting him get away with things like this.”

“I’m not! I could have grabbed something on the way out but I didn’t and I…. I didn’t want to change or wear shoes today.”

“Oh really? So you’ll go to the shop like that?”

“Yeah I will!”

“Bullshit! Why are you so persistent in protecting him? He’s an adult. He needs to get consequences for his actions.”

Hong Joong’s hands slammed down on the table hard, making everyone jump. A wave of silence fell over them as Dahlia and Hong Joong had a stare down with each other. It felt like it went on forever before Dahlia broke eye contact with sigh. She pushed the chair away from the counter and moved from in front of it before pushing it back in. They all watched her in silence as she grabbed her plate and gently set it in the sink, turning the water on to rinse it off and then turning the water back off. She dried her hands with the kitchen towel, and all of this was done in complete silence with the boys watching her. Finally she turned around to face them.

“I’m going home.”

“Dahlia, I didn’t mean it. It’s just he always does this and you-”

“If you need me, you know where to find me and you know my number.”

Dahlia cut him off as she walked to the front door, grabbing her keys from the bowl on the stand before heading out the door. She got in her car and drove home in complete silence, ignoring the text messages Hong Joong sent her, and the calls he slammed her with. She parked her car and entered her house, putting the keys up and locking the front door. A heavy sigh disturbed the silence but only for a few seconds before it was back to silence. She walked upstairs and flopped down on her, only replying to Wooyoung when he asked if she was okay. Information spread through Wooyoung and Dahlia’s texts let her know Hong Joong go scolded for yelling at her and he apologized to everyone. Including Wooyoung. After a couple minutes of texting she told him she was gonna take a nap and she would talk to him later, because she was gonna take a nap. The yelling match with Hong Joong made her head hurt and all she wanted right now was to sleep.

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