This is your daily reminder that anyone can criticise your favourite show. And disabled people, queer people, mentally ill people, and people from any other minority group are always allowed to criticise representation within your favourite show.

Obviously, a few people from the same minority group will disagree with this criticism. Everyone's gonna have a different opinion - that's great.

But that does not in any way invalidate the original criticism, especially when it's coming from so many people with visible mobility disabilities, survivors of suicide and abuse, and queer people.

That doesn't mean critics think the show is evil and should be destroyed forever. It doesn't mean they think that the show isn't good representation for you, with your specific intersection of representation needs, or that you can't enjoy it - or that you are a bad person for enjoying it.

Critics are allowed to stop supporting the show for future seasons because they dislike the representation, or the writing, or for any other reason. If you are sending anons over something so minimal as someone no longer wanting another season of your favourite show, then, frankly, I suspect you are a literal child. But also, you have a weird cultish relationship with this fandom and should probably step back.

Hell, I'm gonna try and step back, for the sake of my own mental health. I always wind up getting at least one weird anon per fandom, as I am Loud And AnnoyingTM - to the point where I see it as a bit of a badge of pride. Means I'm part of the fandom now, if I'm in deep enough - and noisy enough - to get nonsense. That doesn't particularly bother me.

But I cannot deal with the constant frustration of seeing fellow fans not understanding the very basic concept of 'a stranger on the internet can love this show, but still be disappointed in it and criticise it, and that is not an attack on me, personally'.

I encourage you to love the show! I love that you love it! I still somewhat love it, and I certainly love to criticise it! Criticism is just another form of interaction with a piece of media, and one that is integral to any fandom! It's not a threat to you or your appreciation of the show!

What becomes problematic is when you mock criticism, especially when it's coming from a whole bunch of marginalised voices.

Why are you being so aggressive about decrying everyone who complains as 'overemotional' and 'hysterical'? Why are you trying so hard to minimise and misinterpret the opinions of visibly physically disabled people who have struggled a lot with their disability, when invisible disability rep and casual positive disability rep are no less important but entirely different sorts of representation?

If you disagree, maybe just have some empathy and let marginalised people speak? Why are you so determined to die on the hill of defending a TV show from any and all criticism?

Which is all to say:

Your fandom is not exempt from criticism. Yes, you are still allowed to love your blorbos and your show. This is pretty fucking basic Fandom 101.

Was just listening to ep13 of Pod Watcher and they were talking about how they liked the new Wonka film and I am going INSANE over Shane saying that “all his blorbos from ghosts were in it”

I knew Shane watched Ghosts but it’s still incredible to me to hear him mention it out loud. I love when my hyperfixations intersect.

I love being a part of the G/t community because so many fandoms intersect with it. My friends will bring up a character or franchise or even a YouTuber and I get to sit there and pretend I know who or what they're talking about when the only context I have are borrower au fanfics.

Like, I only know who your blorbo is if they can fit in the palm of my hand or they can fit me in theirs.

writeblr intro!! finally!!

hello lovely people of the tumblr writing community <3 i'm marina (she/her) and i've had this blog for about a month now but so far Life and all its Obligations prevented me from making a proper intro post - here it finally is now, for everyone who'd like to get to know me and my projects a bit!

me as a person

i'm marina but you can also call me any nick name version of that and also any and all terms of endearment (can you tell i'm a libra). i'm 27, from austria, and speak german and english (pretty well), french (badly) and know how to order bread in korean (essential skill)

my interests include: philosophy, linguistics, horses, music, musicals, the city of paris, and also formula 1. yes i know this is random what can i say

i'm a full-time student and part-time capitalism worker-bee so depending on my schedule i might disappear for a bit, but i intend to always come back here to get inspired and get some work done! which leads me to...

me as a writer

i love coming up with new ideas and projects!! getting started is so much fun!! finishing things on the other hand!! is so hard!! send help!!

my fave genres (to read and to write): fantasy, sci-fi, works and words inspired by folklore and mythology - but really i like anything with compelling characters!

random things i love in writing: vampires (one day i'll write the Great Big Austrian Vampire Novella. alas, not today), characters that haunt the narrative, guilt and grief and healing from both, characters that make all the wrong choices, couples that have fun with each other, cryptic prophecies, sibling relationships, symbolic flowers

PLEASE COME TALK TO ME ABOUT WRITING!! i would really like to become part of a community here, so always feel free to come talk to me about your wips, my wips, the blorbo that lives in your head rent-free, the latest book you've read and loved... whatever you want to share i'd love to hear <3 you can also always tag me in games and challenges, but it might take me a bit to get to it, depending on how much real life hates me atm

my children: works in (never-ending) progress

i'm gonna make proper intro posts for all these projects soon, but to give you some idea of what i get up to, here are some short descriptions! some of these wips have been with me for a couple years, others are more recent, but they all haunt my every waking moment <;3

The Price of Wishing (first draft complete): good old sci-fi dystopian flair; a society that got rid of poverty by creating so called Houses of Service - institutions that will sell out their workers to the highest bidder for anything that people are willing to pay for. but it's not quite as simple as that: politics, organised crime, and a revenge plot years in the making all intersect at Isra's House of Service, and its inhabitants must learn to navigate these worlds - or they'll go down trying.

Forget Me (Not) (first draft about half-way done): wouldn't it be great to purge some of the mistakes we made from memory, not just our own but that of everyone? in a world in which the Chip implanted in everyone's neck records everything seen and experienced, this - collective forgetting - is the price celebrity contestants get to compete for in a reality tv show. each contestant has something they need the world to forget, but who can convince the viewers the most? the central theme of this story is grief, and when to hold on, and when to let go.

Attempts at Life (still in the outline stage): finn day and her brother felix know how their lives will play out: they were born in the lowest class society has to offer, and there they will stay. which is an unusual position for people like them to be in: both their souls were reborn for the fifth (and last) time; for them to have been assigned to this shitty life, they must have done something heinous in their previous one. finn is resigned to accept this punishment for a crime she can't even remember, but that's before the government offers her a position - she finds out things that change her view of society and herself forever, and she'll have to decide which one to save.

Untitled Fantasy (literally only thought of this last week): something something a necromancer brings back the hero of the ancient world to stop Something Bad from happening. only problem is - the hero does not remember ever being a hero. or anything at all, really. the rest of the world remembers, though. i'd love for this story to include some traditional austrian folklore elements! those are fun

so that's it! last but not least: if you've read this far, thank you so much omg you're my personal hero. i'm following a bunch of people already since i've been lurking for a couple weeks, but i'm always looking for new writers to get to know and support so pls interact with this post or shoot me a message and i'll check you out and follow you! and if you have any questions, or answers, or just wanna talk i'm very excited to get to know you all <3

10 Characters/ 10 Fandoms/ 10 Tags

Finally got around to doing this after a hell of a busy time. Thank you @bobbole and @besthany-smurftano for the tags! It was lovely knowing where our blorbos intersect :D

10. Aki Hayakawa (Chainsaw Man)

The blorbo who deserved a very happy ending, so I just pretend he got it and is with his angel.

9. Lady Maria of the Astral Clocktower (Bloodborne)

VERY tragic blorbo who should get revenge, tbh.

8. Erwin Smith & Levi Ackermann (Attack on Titan)

Also tragic blorbos, very loveable.

7. Kylo Ren & General Hux (Star Wars)

The ones who got done dirty.

6. Vanessa Ives (Penny Dreadful)

Simply one of my fave characters of all time. Very tortured and smart blorbo.

5. Zuko (ATLA)

One of my OG blorbos from when I was young.

4. John Constantine (Hellblazer)

My blorbo son who really needs a break, okay??

3. Reigen Arataka (Mob Psycho 100)

The fraud blorbo. He makes me cry like a baby.

2. Edward Teach/Blackbeard (OFMD)

The problematic blorbo who discovers he's not unloveable <3

The Corinthian & Dream of the Endless (Sandman)

My current obsession and the duo that brought me back into fandom with force. My very damaged, very emotionally stunted blorbos.

Sooo as you can probably tell, I have a type lol I have lots more but these are representative, sort of. I'm tagging (with zero pressure) @jessamydream, @tresmuertes, @thewhoreinthian, and if anyone sees it and wants to do it, just tag me (:

Hi Sarah, you sent me this but you're the only writer I know of AND talk to, so I'm pulling an uno reverse card! Now you gotta do this AGAIN, HAHA!! When you get this, answer one of the questions (or all if you really want!) then pass it on to 5 writer friends! 🥰 If you have more than one WIP, pick at random! We want you talk about your works and celebrate with you! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 1. What are you most excited to write with this WIP? 2. How has this WIP changed since the “daydream/brainstorm” stage? 3. Who is your favorite character in this WIP and why?

Lmao that's so real of you. Since I already did the wip I'm most fixated on, this time I'll talk about Put in the Work. This is barely a wip because it's complete, I've done the first full read-through, and made editing notes. I only need to make my edits, do another read-through, do those edits, maybe another read-through with some more edits, and then post! It's practically done 🫠

oh right it's a parkner fic currently sitting at 51k and was formerly known as The NASA AU (more on that in no. 2)

What are you most excited to write with this WIP?

At this point I'm most excited to actually finish it and start posting lol Oops got distracted reading it trying to find a spot I'm excited to edit haha let's just say the part where Peter finally clues Harley in that he means what he says is *chef's kiss* Have an excerpt!

Harley sits up, his lower back aching from the awkward position. “And you thought we could keep pretending like that first night and we would just—,” Peter snaps to full lucidity. His eyes bore into Harley’s, wide and alert. He licks his lips and when he speaks it’s rushed, like if he doesn’t get it out now, he might never. “Harley, I haven’t been pretending. Not since the first night. Everything I’ve said to you, I meant it. Please don’t hate me.” “Wha—,” All of the little I love you’s and promises of forever, spin through Harley’s mind in a dizzying instant. “Everything?”

2. How has this WIP changed since the “daydream/brainstorm” stage?

As mentioned, this was my parkner nasa au (it still sort of is). I don't know what it is about taking characters out of their canon and sticking them on a space shuttle or in a rocket lab but I live for that shit. Unfortunately, I only had the vague idea that Harley is a rocket scientist for NASA, Tony is jealous that he chose a government job over working at S.I., and Peter is Spider-Man, lives in New York, and was invited down to Florida with Tony to watch Harley's rocket launch.

Then I arbitrarily decided Harley should be a single father and everything went off the rails lol There is .02 seconds of NASA and the rest is all about the loneliness of devotion.

3. Who is your favorite character in this WIP and why?

Harley Harley Harley Harley

He's just so blorbo? He loves his people so much? He will sabotage his own happiness and call it an act of service. He sees something that needs done and he does it without witness, without reward. He's straight-forward and doesn't pander to bullshit. He's methodical and practical but also goofy and sarcastic. He thrives at the intersection of play and challenge.

He's my boy and I love him.

His daughter Hazel is also fun to write (which kind of surprised me!) and Abbie is as always a favorite <3

MR question: Has your favorite character from the canon books changed since you first read them? Or conversely, was there a character you weren’t a fan of but now find more interesting, even if it’s just conceptually?

- junpeijackflash

From the flock, my favorite character has remained Iggy, though the reasoning behind it has changed drastically— I first read the books in elementary school, when most of my peers were just starting to become interested in relationships and developing fictional crushes, and I wanted so badly to be allosexual that I plopped Iggy on the "fictional crush pedestal" and declared him my favorite.

Now, I feel that my love towards Iggy is a lot more in line about how he contrasts from the rest of the flock as someone who's calculating instead of reactionary (he jumps to bombs and traps, meaning that his violence is pre-meditated instead of purely in the moment), and the intersection between devotion/familial piety and ruthlessness that he displays in the first couple of books.

That being said, looking at the books in general, my favorite character is now Mike, due to his baffling recurrence throughout the series despite all logic saying he shouldn't keep showing up, and how strong and unapologetic his character intro was. Like, he was one of the few characters in the series that was never thrown by the flock's attitude, and responded with a bluntness that speaks of someone who has given up pretenses of shame. Mike from the subways/Michael Rivers from the Bronx/Grey/Maze/Gr3yHav3n is my certified blorbo and I love him, and I'm declaring all of his nicknames as canon.

As for other characters that I don't remember liking but now rotate in my brain more than I have any right to:

I was not originally a fan of Nudge, because I was not immune to sexism. However, she is so important to me now. The person who can talk, the person who strives to be human, the person who is so lonely in being the only member of the flock to consider herself human. She deserves so much. I love her.

I originally hated all of Fang's gang, and I still have mixed feelings about how they were used in-canon, but at least they acted like they liked each other and enjoyed each other's company, which is better than how the flock treated each other by the time of the late series.

Devin, because he showed up, monologued to an empty room, nearly assassinated Max, and promptly blew up. What a fucking legend. 10/10 best antagonist.

🔥 + any shipping discourse of your choosing :D

Oh boy, at a point I noticed that so many shipping wanks in fandoms just use the same circle of ad verbatim arguments just with a different coat of paint. And for the sake of enjoying my fandom experience I prefer to stay out of such discussions as good and often as possible.

BUT...

One development I don't get is the need of canonisation of shipping. I mean sure, who of us hadn't thought that a certain relationship would have improved/made more sense for a story, especially a character arc? Sometimes bittersweetness, unused potential, or unfullfilled longing makes sense for the plot, sometimes the author is an idiot (the eternal pain of enduring shounen manga endings written by men...). However... that is what fandom's for: The possibility of transformative versions, exploring ideas canon had space for, never intended, going silly, having fun. I would love to see my blorbos smooch each other but in the end that's free time enjoyment, nothing that I need to harass a creator/creative team over.

Whereas I do think that well written stories developing relationships that stray away from the standart het couple* can speak to people, and put a foot in the door for more stories being told by creators outside the standart Hollywood demographic, they are going to be usually not as popular in fandoms themselves. The reasons can be varied although my take would be it would be the invisible undercurrents of general dismissal of female characters, especially PoC female characters, a disinterest to engage outside of big IPs in first place. That's not me policing what kind of shipping would be the "🙏moral thing actually(TM)✨", fandom is for personal interest or fun in the first place. What I do find questionable is how the way that the language of social justice activism is coopted to argue why one's blorbos should smooch each other is beyond personal gratification actually also will singlehandedly be a deciding step in [add human right's movement of your choice here], adds another layer of annoying shipping culture. Certainly, it is mean how even acknowledgement of minorities has to compete against other demographic acknowledgement which also only has a chance to tolerated, and not even of large scale, in the accessible mainstream media. Still, I don't find it weird how, by example, the mere shipping (not even canon) of an interracial couple gets dismissed by other shipping groups as "no, the character is ✨gay✨, hun, no girls allowed".

I would maybe less irked by all that if so much shipping culture recently wouldn't push for "canonisation". having one ship next to the other or liking both ships could be a perfectly fine thing within fandom but the claim that one kind of ship would be better than the other in canon, without the consideration what cultural bagage comes with dismissing some kinds of relationships).

[*I mean two able bodied, cis, beauty standart guy and gal. Next to queer relationships (not excluding any intersection either),there's so much potential in talking about cross cultural relationships, dealing with disabilities or beauty standarts, or love in old age, generally love outside the model that "romance" occurs in fast food media only when the protagonist dude meets a conventionally attractive girl and they're obligated to fall for each other based on hormones boiling alone.]

In ill thoughts, I suspect that the wish for caonisation is only partly based of the distortion of fandom as activism space. (I mean when you spend all your life time on the web in fandom instead of going out creating or commissioning others to create the progressive work you want to see - or, very subversive, actually do activism and community support work yourself.)

Another the other reason I ill-mindedly speculate on is overindulgent wishfullfillment in two forms: A) A favourite blorbo gets so much projected on, they become a distorted fanon character yet have nothing to do with canon themes. This character then becomes a an altered Gary/Mary Sue doll the fandom created for itself, uses for dollplay whereas the canon does it's own thing. So what ever happens to thematical canon blorbo doesn't meet the ideal of fanon Frankenstein-blorbo and is met with anger. B) A Variation of the point above is selfprojection on the blorbo. Say when a blorbo becomes one's personal idol. Eg, like YA romance protagonists who're so suitable for reader inserts that one could easily think they themselves were the pretty sad girl with a hot love interest. The same can be observed in fandom where blorbos undergo the same doll-fication in a more personalized edition. Then character X isn't their canon self anymore, aggressive factions of fandom claim that X absolutely has to get together with the blorbo love interest - no matter the rest of the plot. (I wish the shipping wars during GoT season 8 were my only example but oh boy...!)

Speaking of the rest of the plot... I really dislike how overtaking shipping has become in fandom spaces. Certainly, makes more sense in romance centered fandoms but in in non-romance centered fandoms, it really bugs me how during the duration of shipping wars (and for all the flimsy excuses fandoms uses in the points above) it's impossible to talk about anything else, and how distorted fandom views can get about a certain kind of ship. Maybe, two blorbos smooching is not that world shattering as it personally feels.

(Yes, this is a reminder to myself by times when fandom gets too stupid. A reality check helps by times that people getting heated about two dimensional events is still leisure time whereas financial ends and deadlines need to be met, and honestly if something bugs me, the block function of users and/or tags is a great thing. Generally, we should log off more often but that's a topic for another day...)

14, 42, 61, 100, 130 (and if you want to recommend some more, 135) i love reading your opinions on literature

I forgot all about this and had to scroll through about a month's worth of posts just to get to the ask prompts, this is what happens when you have almost 200 unanswered asks in your inbox and too much executive dysfunction to answer them in a timely fashion lmao

14. A book that made you trip on literary acid

House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski

42. A book that made you want to scream by the time you got to the end

The Traitor Baru Cormorant by Seth Dickinson

61. Your favourite horror novel

Tie between Dracula and The Haunting of Hill House. The latter is genuinely much scarier and overall works better as a pure horror story in my opinion, but the former has all my blorbos in it <3

100. Your favourite gothic novel

This is based on a somewhat arbitrary divide between horror fiction and gothic fiction, simply because I don't want to put Dracula as the answer to two questions in a row, but I really like Northanger Abbey as a satire/deconstruction of the gothic novel, though I also enjoy actual straightforward gothic novels

130. A book featuring flashbacks and/or intersecting storylines

I think flashbacks can come across as a cheap way of providing backstory when the author clearly doesn't know how to integrate said backstory into the present-day story in a way that feels natural, but when used right, flashbacks and intersecting storylines are some of my favourite things, for instance the way Tamsyn Muir uses them to create the mystery plot in Harrow the Ninth.

135. Recommend any book you like

Sarajevo Marlboro by Miljenko Jergović, and my current read The Man in the Red Coat by Julian Barnes

blorbo aggression

y’all were so nice about me sharing my other thoughts, so i am sharing some more!

so i've got a little pet theory, based around the stuff i've seen on tumblr, & i've been thinking of it as "blorbo aggression".

so okay.

you know how you get cute aggression? (or at least, i do) when you see something so CUTE you want to squeeze it & bite it & generally be violent but in an affectionate way, & it's not usually *dangerous*, per se, but it's that same...

the way i've seen people talk about their faves is a similar vibe to me?

"i want to put him in a pringles can & shake it" "i want to hold him by the scruff of the neck & bathe him in my sink" "i want to examine her under a microscope like an amoeba" "i want to drop her in an aquarium & watch her scare my fish" "i want to bite their dumb little face" "i want to brush their hair like a little fashion doll"

this like. intensity of feeling that just wants to get OUT, only instead of kissing a baby or cuddling a puppy you're thinking of your fave

and wanting to smother them, but like, in a nice way

although this is also different from whump/hurt-comfort sort of stuff for me, because i also enjoy those sometimes. but blorbo aggression kind of feelings (for me, at least) are less about the... story of it, itself, & more the feeling?

i want to write fic where yaz gets sick & the doctor makes her soup. i want to read fic where mel and ace have to endure a really bad mission & then they decompress in the TARDIS. that feels different to me, on some leavel - those need things like "plot" or at least something like coherency or... *something*, although i couldn't tell you anything more specific than that

but for some reason some characters really hit me hard in the blorbo aggression, & i just want to point to her & go "!!!!" & then squeeze her & bite her & make excited squeaky noises

(incidentally, there's also something to be said about how most of the blorbo aggression i see is towards male characters, but that's a whole intersection of what people are comfortable with irt female characters versus male characters, & also how most of fandom tends to prefer dudes so talk about them more to begin with)

i just. man, brains are weird & i kind of love it. the fact that i see something so cute i just want to squeeze it & put it in my mouth, & that translates into billions of words to friends & on AO3 when it's aimed at my faves, aparently!

🦋🕯️💌 for the emoji ask game!

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

Not really insecure about anything these days? I've posted a truly absurd amount of fic and my previous fandoms include Harry Potter (TERF author can go rot) and MCU (... character roundabouts abound and the tonky stans refuse to admit it) so ... fandoms don't scare me much, I'm liberal with the block and delete buttons and I'm pretty confident in my own writing ability and general standing as a fanfic author.

I think the only thing I tend to worry about is my tags? I always either miss something, or tag something in a slightly weird way there's probably something better for. If you ever notice a fic of mine that could do with either tag pruning or an additional tag - please do let me know. I once managed to forget to add Whump to a fics tags and only remembered when a commenter mentioned it, I promise, I will not be mad.

🕯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you’re not a social person/experience social anxiety?

See, I am Bad At People. I had very few friends going up and whether or not I have any neurodivergency (unknown, not unlikely, Dad almost definitely is, but I also have trauma from bullying and a shitty ex to complicate matters) I don't always socialise so good. I tend to observe social interactions and write them well, but outside of my close friends I get very antsy about interacting with new people.

This is why, generally, I stay in my own lane on tumblr; I'll post my metas and analysis here or in response to asks and only occasionally add them to other posts - and then posts by either people I know or, for whatever reason, feel comfortable enough to add to. I used to be a lot more fighty but frankly that intersects with my social shit badly and I am trying to keep to things which spark joy, even if people being wrong on the internet regularly makes me want to fight them.

Anyway. Comments are also easy because like - an awful lot of people don't respond to your comments? And it's a massive load off my anxious back to know I can just leave a comment and probably won't get any response. And then, if there is a response, it's often delightful because I wasn't expecting it and it's to a comment I probably put way too much thought into which means there's often something fun to discuss. Likewise - I love when people comment on my work with clearly thought out considerations and I know, from my own experiences, that many don't expect a reply and it'll be a nice surprise for them.

And, like I said - I'm trying to keep to things which spark joy. Spreading that joy in fandom is one such. World sucks enough - lets not add to it.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

So uh.

I reblogged a meta from @exhaustedwerewolf a lil while back and it's because of that meta that Kash is now eating my brain apparently? I have gained a new blorbo. I will be resuming my other WIPs soonish - the intense rush of writing has definitely tapered off some - but uh. Now I have 2(.5) new WIPs, centring on Kash and Zahra.

Oops?

Look I just really like poking at characters and their trauma and Kash and Zahra are both fun and drastically different examples.

Anyway so uh.

From what we hear of Kash's backstory, that boy was raised in a cult? I'm so glad I've listened to the Gangster Capitalism series on Liberty University and read/watched/listened as much as I have to stuff about cults and cult-like entities and abuse within those structures because uh.

Boy has some shit to pick through!

(It's extremely engaging.)

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(not including tags that are straightforward, e.g. #parasocialing which is for parasocialing, #tma which is for the magnus archives, #cat tag which is for cats, etc)

#therapists dni: personal posts #any british ants in the chat?: og posts about dsmp/mcyt content #holy holy holy: religion + brain stuff intersection, approximately #girdled by the lightning: angels #and still to begin to sing it again: tragedy, meta conversations about narratives #i want to be strung up in a strong light: religion + kink intersection, approximately #where the winds sigh: kink/sex stuff; ship dynamics that hit My Buttons Specifically #rare and sweet as cherry wine: gore/etc tag, especially if i think it’s pretty #show up in shining colors and then stand there and get hit: tma + trauma #this cumbersome and heavy body: having a body is BULLSHIT #i tell you it has taken me all my life: also religion + brain stuff intersection, but in a different way #problems disorder: having a brain is ALSO bullshit sometimes #a symptom superficial to what they call knowing you: general ableism tag #crabs in a bucket: intracommunity ableism + intracommunity disability discourse. #your dreams will be reduced down to breathing: internalized ableism #watch me i’m flying: living while crazy. living, living, living. #hand in unlovable hand: ship dynamics where they both hate each other but there’s nobody else for them anymore. where the hatred is familiar. #fervid as a flame: ship dynamics where they both hate each other and they’re kismeses about it #we are known among the stars by our poems: humanity-positive #aure entuluva: hope #to love another person is to see the face of god: love #there are still stars: hope and love #show up in shining colors and then stand there and get hit: tma and trauma/brain stuff #down to hell and up to the sky: s4 daisy&jon friendship content #in this twilight our choices seal our fate: tma and themes of choice #i saw a sign there: americana #the harvest is passed the summer is ended: the specific sort of religious americana that results in those giant billboards that just say “HELL IS REAL” #a field with thirty ghost boys: MDZS/mo dao zu shi/CQL/the untamed #the cellar door is an open throat: yi city gang #i lost my heart in the dark with you: wei wuxian & jiang cheng #don’t you love me caroline: 3zun #hamsteak: homestuck #things will never stop from keep happening constantly: every day! every day i get emails!!!! #yet each man kills the thing he loves: romantic murder #come running come running through rivers with me: friendship #the piano is not firewood yet: beautiful things in dark places #not because of victories i sing: ordinary people, existing #do every stupid thing to try to drive the dark away: survival #where there is power: politics #these deeds that we do shall be the matter of song: legacy #everything in this forest wants to hurt us: everyone said you were a villain so you’ve decided to prove them right #could be love in his own eyes: characters who have been taught that love and violence are one and the same #i can’t stop that kind of touch: OCD feelings around desire and touch #one salt taste of the sea once more: water, the ocean, sea-longing #man hands on misery to man: trauma in MDZS/the untamed #a video about a game: polygon, especially the polygon video team #peering through the keyhole: tfw you are your own voyeur #the narrative is sentient and it is coming to get you: fate, inevitability, heroes who are dead from the beginning #what is called resignation: everyone has Issues and Problems, the world is fundamentally fallen #clingys your duo: tubbo & tommy #crimeboys: tommy & wilbur #i’ll see you all when we’re reincarnated into bushes: SBI #you even broke my good tape deck: ctommy & cdream, exile arc, etc #everything flash and guile: cquackity & cwilbur. sometimes contains ship content. #o7: l’manberg #tunglr dot edu: tumblr is a webbed site. can be either (affectionate) or (derogatory). #blorbo from my shows: generic posts about Characters #the most interesting thing in the world: tfw special interest #be cringe do cringe: ocd recovery stuff, doing things that are scary and embarrassing #personal pre script ions: things i should do, advice(tm) #the alternative to tragedy is damnation: attachments on the dream smp #we are no longer plankton: c!ranboo & c!tubbo. contains canon-typical ship content. #it’s obvious if you understand decision theory: for a certain stripe of discourse. i will not be elaborating. #the grackles calling to each other: rejecting dramatic tragedies, focusing on happiness in everyday life #light and air and color: nbc hannibal #from the house that we made our home: eclipse federation and all three relationships within it (vitalasy&subz, vitalasy&zam, subz&zam). sometimes contains ship content.

art summaries from this year and the last !! 21-22 !!

and here's some more commentary for 2022 because i will be more annoying this year

January - not a lot happening. i was asking for art reqs and NO ONE had ideas

February - MOEL SEKIYU TUMBLR BRANCH TOHRU ADACHI BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION?

March - 3/20 YEAH WAHOOO YEAAAH

April - lots of messing around this month. my merch came in the mail though !!!

May - PXDN ERA but i answered the teddie in a dress ask from like. two months prior

June - * didnt post this anyway i was messing around with csp. i really like the marker

July - * DIDNT POST THIS EITHER but one idol's stage costume looked like sho colors. it was funny in the moment

August - * DIDNT FUCKING POST THIS EITHER I HAVE NO IDEA anyway i just think theyre very important

September - * HOW MANY BIG PIECES HAVE I NOT BEEN POSTING HERE WHAT THE FUCK WHERE DO I EVEN SHARE THEM ANYWAY MAKING THIS WAS REALLY SAD CHIZUSAN WAS RETIRING AND DELETED HER SOCIALS ohh right my mimbot

October - I was trying out watercolors (the brush) and MARIE HALLOWEEN 2022 !!!

November - pocky day :] except it's jagariko

December - new year's art !! ive been wanting to draw blorbo to sogabe's new year art from the manga so here it is !!! sorry for no christmas holiday art

and here’s the love letter ive been meaning to write all the way back in august. it’s a bit personal but also vague . I am speaking from a soapbox next to a quiet intersection and pouring my heart out

im happy to see how ive improved throughout the years, and in some aspects stayed completely the same apparently. ve been jumping around 1000 brushes and 10000 more art styles ive never stayed consistent because I wanted something new and all I had was myself ! so apparently it became whatever happened here.

It’s true I had a lot more steam last year when it came to pumping art out but I think im also glad I did less art this year in a way. I’ll admit a lot of last year was fueled by chasing people and a way to reach the top and get my voice heard I felt like I was fighting for my life but im not too sure how it looked like from the outside. It’s also been fueled by spite which made me incredibly tired and something im glad I stopped utilizing this year. That I learned my boundaries and maintained them as peacefully as I am now.

Sure im a lot more tired but I think the pace im taking is a bit better in it’s own way too. I really wish I could’ve done more this year but when I look at it from afar I guess im still chasing things, too. Maybe not something new and I never really aimed for fame or anything. Maybe I just wanted to keep what I already have?

2021 I’ll confess was also a pile of shit and I guess 2022 was the year of my digging it all away and I’m not done yet. But as long as there’s progress that’s good enough for me. I’m glad I’ve been able to do all these things than not do them at all. But sometimes I wish I could relearn the restraint I had from before.

I never wanted to put a dark stain on the things I love so as long as I ground myself and remind myself why im here I can see the light and remember why I love theses things. I’m speaking in a very vague manner and I am relating this to my time in fandom as cheesy as it sounds, but also personally, I guess.

Imagine it like im talking on a soapbox right now when I say im really glad for the time I’ve spent here—while all of it isn’t the best that could’ve happened and the fault of my own shortcomings—I still treasure it. I love all the people I’ve met and the community I’ve formed and I guess there’s this fear of losing things since I’m afraid I can’t get them back, that I haven’t learned how to even connect better anymore. I really dont want this to sound like someone died lol but I really am genuinely grateful for all the time ive spent with people and how they considered me their friend and how theyre my friend and how they just moved on to other things and im stuck in a box ive put myself in that makes it so hard to be heard I stopped talking anyway.

To those who met me this year, or last year, or the year before that, or knew me before this gas station, and still are here somehow: thank you. For your kindness, for your tags, for your asks, for your replies, for your messages, for your discords, for your writing, for your art and for everything you’ve offered me. I always mean my gratitude from the bottom of my heart and I want to stop being afraid that it doesn’t show.

If this year brings more “Mim” then so be it. I’m happy you find joy in the silly nickname and all the love behind it no matter how silly it is. And even if I drift away or we all drift apart, I treasure every memory and sometimes cry over it at night. I wish 2023 would be nice to all of us and the years after.

Franfic questions!

What were some of your fav lines? Was there a scene that wasn’t originally planned but just hit you one day? Did you have to research anything strange while writing? When you think of the vK manor do you think of it as a complete map or just disjointed rooms? Did you have the title first or did you find it later on? What scene was the most fun to write?

oh!!! this is so nice, thank you for liking my art!!!

What were some of your fav lines?

i am soooo bad at picking fave lines cause when im proud of something it all looks like a million heart emojis to me gfhfg.

i'm very fond of this whole passage, though:

Miles’ wish to prosecute was a delicate thing, barely above a whisper, uttered softly into his nervous, folded hands. Franziska’s was a battle cry, boisterous and proud, a promise and a declaration and a perfect guarantee. Maybe that… was why, she tried to tell herself when a lonely, jealous ache would tug at her chest—Miles wasn’t born with a von Karma’s electric heart, and he was meek and unsure and soft spoken still, he needed extra guidance to show him how to be brave and unmoving and clever. That had to be the reason papa poured prosecutorial wisdom into Miles like an endless fountain of attention and care, while Franziska was left uncomfortably thirsty, lapping up spilled drops they left behind.

Was there a scene that wasn’t originally planned but just hit you one day?

i didn't really have a planned ending for it, but once i played bridge to the turnabout i was like oh okay holy fucking shit i know now. i know.

Did you have to research anything strange while writing?

oh i accidentally started learning german. that wasn't super intentional it has just kinda happened since getting into AA. eventually ill say fuck it and actually learn perhaps.

When you think of the vK manor do you think of it as a complete map or just disjointed rooms?

i don't visualize, so closer to the second? my memories of it are vivid but they are all snapshotty and sensation-based, hehe. all i can tell you is that the anime lowballed, it is WAY bigger than that.

Did you have the title first or did you find it later on?

i was originally going to give it the english title of the XTC song i wrote it to the tune of, knights in shining karma, but then i went on youtube only to find that the song... was so underrated NO ONE had even uploaded it to youtube? and i kind of pouted for a while. until i noticed SOMEONE FUCKING DID A GERMAN COVER OF IT, I REPEAT THE ORIGINAL ENGLISH SONG WAS NOT ON YOUTUBE BUT SOMEONE REWROTE THE WHOLE THING IN GERMAN AND PERFORMED IT IN GERMAN AND THEY COULD HAVE FUCKING PICKED ANY LANGUAGE AND ANY SONG BUT THEY DID KNIGHTS IN SHINING KARMA BY ENGLISH NEW WAVE ROCK BAND XTC IN GERMAN I WILL NEVER BE OVER THIS AS LONG AS I LIVE

the original has since been added to youtube. Listen To It.

What scene was the most fun to write?

anything with manfred in the early scenes where franziska is still stuck in hero worship mode. i have a lot of very sappy tactile memories of him before everything went to shit and it's the reason he's such a big comfort character. i really like writing about the charisma i remember him having because it was enchanting to me in a way i love trying to put words to. and also just... his voice? i remember his voice more clear than anything, i would spend the rest of my days waxing poetic about it.

one thing i love about the intersection of kin and writing is that you can WATCH my prose go flowery and poetic when i talk about comfort characters. a paragraph could be shit and then as soon as blorbo walks onscreen it turns into fucking hemingway or some shit hehe.

Happy Blorbo Blursday!

Trying an unconventional approach. Lyra in your Historical Romance wip LMAO. I'm using Anne Lister as an inspiration here. She'd be a lesbian wearing men's clothes and causing quite the scandal with the way she goes about and carries herself. Is mostly shielded by class privilege and being a landed woman with a family that is supportive of the fact that she refuses to marry. There are a lot rumours surrounding her and many of them are nasty. She travelled throughout Europe and had a string of "special female friends" whom she lived with for a time. Then eventually got to settle down with a woman she ""married""

I'm not sure how this would intersect with your world and characters but this was a fun exercise all the same 😂

Tbh, the Historical Romance WIP had gone through sooo many revamps, it's oficially on hold. I have a pretty good idea of the characters' personalities and their relationahips, but backstories and actual plot? I change my mind about them every week LOL.

And I love this idea for a HR character! I can't really see Lyra getting along with either Violet nor Nathaniel (my two leads), but I now def want to write about them meeting someone like this and being pretty baffled (and probably a bit jealous in Violet's case). I can also see Violet's daughter -Rebecca- thinking Lyra is the greatest person ever and wanting to be just like her when she grows up, much to her parents' distress 😂

Also, now I am curious about this mysterious woman that got Lyra to settle down 🧐 I know she was probs only made up for this AU, but it still sparks my interest.

Purim Gifts 2024 fic exchange letter -

Generally, 

DNW anything to do with harry potter, or a tragedy, everyone dies, oppression sucks, and life is awful vibe. No intense bigotry or invalidating someone's identity. Nothing super nasty. Im mostly looking for lighthearted fluff, fun, mischief, and good feelings. Im not averse to tension, action, mystery, smut etc. as long as its overall upbeat and hopeful. Approximately kids media level villainy. Bonus points for queerness and or disability (If youre wondering what counts, whatever you think does. Im very inclusionist). Mostly looking for various celebrations of Purim or Jewishness.

Fandom specific vibes, for your perusal: Edit: Ran out of steam so do what you want. :) The Adventures of Amina Al-Sirafi Id love to see more of the Jewish boyfriend tbh, but also the whole crew is just fantastic.  A League of Their Own (TV 2022) There's just so much missed opportunity that the only canon Jew is Shirley. Shaw should be Jewish. Greta could be. Esti. They could have cute Jewish lesbian bonding over Shabbos candles or something. Getting everyone involved in a gift exchange. Going in drag to the gay bar. Finding a Megilla reading that doesnt coincide with a game. Anything with Bertie. Theres so much potential.  Alex Stern - Leigh Bardugo This one might be more angsty. I just desperately want more Alex and her relationship to her Judaism. Did it hurt to pawn that kiddish cup? What was her grandmothers house like, what food did it smell of? Does she sing herself Ladino lullabies? Does she observe in any way on her own? (Also that chai necklace burning up in hell — I have to know how the magic realism intersects with Jewishness). Something sweet with her friends or fellow Lethe people is cool too, maybe something to do with the artifacts in El Bastone. Cosmere - Brandon Sanderson Im thinking Mistborn might mesh best but honestly go wild. Stormlight is probably my favourite, Rysn and Chiri-Chiri, Navani and Raboniel, Shallan, the trans king from the walking island. Marasi and Steris my autistic blorbos. Maybe something weird with Kelsier. Critical Role (Web Series) Im thinking Jester and Nott and pastries and mischief. Im not super caught up on campaign 3 Im up to Bassuras, Ive seen most of two and a good bit of one and would prefer no major spoilers. There's no character that I really dont like (unless im supposed to dislike them TRENT IKITHON). “I hope you find someone to mourn you when you’re gone”. Woof.  Probably mighty nein are my favourite but I also have big feelings about Ashton and chronic pain, Percy, Vax, Vex, Kiki, Gilmore. Mollymauk. I hope this is useful information lol. 

Dead End: Paranormal Park (Cartoon) Supernatural elements please

Emelan - Tamora Pierce

Lady Astronaut of Mars series - Mary Robinette Kowal  Purim in spaaaaace

One Piece  Pirate Jews, or an island of Jews please. Pokemon Pokemon involved in mishloah manot please!

Protector of the Small - Tamora Pierce Kel is just my favourite. The Strange Case of Starship Iris (Podcast) Brian Jeeter. Trans space Jew Brian Jeeter. The Locked Tomb pretty much anything tbh. This one also I expect a slightly higher angst level just by nature of the story. As long as there's also sweetness.

Tortall - Tamora Pierce 

Wayfarers Series - Becky Chambers  Jews on the human fleet. Ai Jews? lots of fun opportunities.

When the Angels Left the Old Country - Sacha Lamb 

Wiedźmin | The Witcher Series - Andrzej Sapkowski  / The Witcher (TV) Its Polish. Its vaguely medieval europe fantasy. There should be Jews. and Jewish food.