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schizopositivity · 11 months

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Hello! I just had a quick scroll through your blog and it helped me to understand a bit more! I was wondering if you could answer a question of mine? I have a friend with Schizophrenia and just in you personal experience, does confirming things that are real bad? Like if they think they hear dogs barking and aren't sure if it is real or not it's good to confirm something like that right?

Well I can't speak for everyone with schizophrenia. We are all different and have unique needs and preferences. I think you should ask your friend, they know themselves best.

As an example of how it could go: for me I'll ask my partner if they hear/see/smell something. And they will casually and calmly tell me yes or no. If they say no, they don't ask more questions. We both know I hallucinate and at this point in my life it's not a big deal. But I do like to check and see if it is a hallucination or not just for my own curiosity. They are the only person I feel comfortable doing this with because they know me best, and they don't treat it like a huge deal, which I appreciate.

You should also be aware of some of the reasons a schizophrenic person might not want to reality check with someone in this way. A lot of people will treat any hallucination someone they know has as a big dramatic thing that needs an immediate solution. People might react by getting really concerned and treating their loved one completely differently for having active hallucinations. Maybe they just raise their eyebrows and keep a close eye on you. Maybe they try to see the hallucination themselves. Maybe they suddenly act like the hallucinating person is in danger. They might even rush into trying to get the person into a hospital. The hallucinating person also may simply be embarrassed to tell people. And while all of this can come from a genuine place of concern, it can be really upsetting for the hallucinating person. It might just be their everyday symptoms, and someone being very dramatic about it makes them feel like they aren't seen as autonomous and conscious of themselves, or as someone that can't simply exist as themselves.

These are things you should say to a schizophrenic person while they are not hallucinating: if you want you can check with me and ask me if things are real. Would you like me to verify if things are real or not? If you are hallucinating while we are together, what would you like me to do? How can I tell when you need immediate help? And also just assure them that you won't judge them for hallucinating, you won't treat them differently, and you won't turn it into a big deal if it's not.

And if you ask them and they respond with "no I don't want to reality check with you, I don't want to tell you when I'm hallucinating" then that's their answer and you shouldn't try to push them into wanting anything else. It's not about you not being a good enough friend, it is just their personal boundaries. And if they respond with "yeah you can reality check with me, but only when I specifically ask for it" then you should accept that answer too. It takes an incredible amount of trust to reality check with someone, and that trust shouldn't be broken.

Once again, every schizophrenic person is different. I can't know what your friend would want, so please reach out to them directly about this. And if you can't openly have these types of conversations then you probably shouldn't be the one to reality check.

#answered #schizophrenia #mental illness #nd #neurodivergent #schizophrenic #psychosis #actuallyschizophrenic #mental health awareness #pseriouslypsychotic #schizophrenia questions #hallucination #hallucinating #reality checking #reality check

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stopitbehaveyourself · 10 days

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Kind of long. Ranting about the ST fandom because I need to get this out of my system.

What I'm about to say doesn't really matter as such, because there's about 5 people here who I've somewhat befriended here anyway. But I'm done with this fandom and the people in this fandom. Not all of them, but a lot of them anyway.

The hatred, the absurdity, the creepiness, the toxicity. It's too much. I got into this fandom because I adored jamie (and I still do. Always will.) I've never really met him but from what I've seen, he's sweet, kind, and REALLY TALENTED. So as much as I'll continue to follow him, I've decided to part ways with this fandom. Through the blog anyway. Maybe being a silent fan was always the better option, because having this blog (and a now inactive page on Instagram) has burst my bubble.

When I say this fandom, I mean the ST fandom as a whole. Not just the jamie fandom. Where do I even get started?

Hating Millie Bobby Brown for talking too much and being too loud and rude when she was a literal child. As if you guys were real mature kids who'd behave at a press conference if you played a big character in a big fucking show.

All the hate grace van dien recieved for simply addressing the chemistry she thought Chrissy had with Eddie. Calling her obsessed with joseph- her actual real life friend- on a blog/page dedicated to Joseph Quinn - who probably doesn't know you exist. Who's more obsessed here? You're allowed to have a celeb crush or simp over a fictional crush or whatever but learn to separate reality from fiction and stop hating and hurting real people over fictional characters.

Knowing Joseph Quinn is a private person and yet so many people disrespecting his privacy at any chance they get.

The hate Eduardo Franco gets for talking too much or for his looks.

And an endless list of toxic things in the jamie fandom alone. (I probably missed out on plenty other shit that happened in the ST fandom in general because I wasn't ever involved with it in detail)

Jamie being asked to sign a marriage certificate by a fan. Even if it was fake, if he says he's uncomfortable you STOP. Just because you paid for an autograph doesn't mean you're entitled to get whatever you ask for. He has the right to deny, and when he does, you respect his boundaries and back the fuck off. You don't ask him for a refund when he doesn't even handle that shit.

Overanalysing everything he/the person he is around says/does. Breaking news: everything a person does doesn't have to have a masterplan behind it. They're people. Let them fucking breathe.

Leaking his music even when he specifically asked not to. Support his work ethically maybe?

The recent hacking: Jamie specifically asked not to engage and yet people went on and engaged and were surprised when they got blocked. It's common sense that sending hate to a hacker won't actually make them stop hacking when they have the option to simply block you. By pissing the hacker off you only make Jamie's work more difficult. Sit back and let him handle things by himself maybe? He's an adult with a good enough team who can sort the hacking out for him.

Shipping characters, having a celebrity crush, indulging in fanfictions. It's normal. But keep it to yourself maybe? Nobody wants to see a stranger on the internet showing them their sexual fantasies with them. Try imagining yourself in his shoes, it's uncomfortable as fuck. He is too polite to point it out directly, but some of y'all don't get the fucking hint when he indirectly expresses his discomfort, do you? You pass it off as a joke.

I could specifically list down at least 5 more things but they'd be an attack to specific people and I don't want to get into an argument with anyone or genuinely attack anyone personally either.

All I'm saying is that this fandom is fucked. I miss the times I was oblivious to all the drama going on, but my bubble has burst now, and I can no more look at a video/post related to stranger things and not remember the negativity attached to it. I need to get my head clear at least for now. So I call quits. Maybe I'll return some day but I hope it's not anytime soon. It doesn't matter anyway, apart from the few friends I made here. But I had to say this. It was in my system for way too long.

Please don't spread hate x

#jamie bower #jamie campbell bower #stranger things #joseph quinn #grace van dien #eduardo franco #millie bobby brown #stop spreading hate #theyre people first and celebs later #touch some grass #maybe youll realise that theyre more than just fictional characters #these are real people with real feelings #maybe one day you will realise that if you dont like something you dont have to yell and hate about it #your choice is yours but dont impose it on others #keep your spiteful shit to yourself #respect boundaries

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digimonirl · 1 month

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Do you remember back when the government tried to hide digimon from people? Like, we had made first contact with aliens and the aliens were cool but they just DIDNT want us to know?

Okay so I know this sounds crazy, but it is broadly true. I don't often go into politics on this blog, but this is a point in our history that shouldn't be forgotten and as someone who was alive, albeit pretty young, during the aftermath of DATS I want to make sure people understand where the current system of Unions and the Brigade came from so we never repeat those mistakes.

Let's take a trip back to 1998, when the first permanent Digital Gate opened in what is now the shared headquarters of the Night Crow and Light Fang Unions. Over night the entire world knew about Digimon. This wasn't the first time they had crossed over of course; they had actually been coming through smaller gates opened within personal computers for decades at that point and rumors had started circulating. Everyone was surprised that they were real, sure. I mean it's not everyday a rumor about friendly interdimensional aliens turns out to be true, but people are remarkably flexible when presented with irrefutable evidence. People adjusted to the idea that we aren't alone in the universe and began considering the idea of coexistence.

But unfortunately for everyone involved, some people crave control. And when faced with a variable that they could not control our world's governments pooled resources into a collaborative project, called DATS, which publicly billed itself as a liaison for the entire Digital World but in reality was meant to suppress information about Digimon and grassroots movements for Human/Digimon cooperation. Lies told by DATS included that the Digital World was uninhabitable for humans, virus type Digimon were inherently dangerous, and that high level Digimon would inevitably lose control of their powers and go on a rampage. Now, to you and I dear reader these claims are obvious nonsense but back then we simply had no idea and so DATS was allowed to continue their work unimpeded. In addition to these misinformation campaigns, DATS was also involved in a number of experiments on Digimon which I will not go into for the sake of maintaining a relatively level head about all this. Needless to say, they fucking sucked.

You're probably asking yourself, "If they basically had all the funding in the world and people's ignorance on their side, then why don't DATS still exist today?" and the answer to that is simple. They got cocky. Remember how I said that Digimon had been coming over for decades at that point? Well some of those Digimon and the humans they had managed to befriend managed to infiltrate DATS headquarters, which was conveniently located right on top of a Digital Gate big enough to let through some pretty massive Digimon. Digimon like the Royal Knights.

We're not exactly sure what happened next, but when the dust settled Omnimon made a decree: we were to either negotiate a way to live peacefully, or all Digimon were to leave Earth immediately. I won't go on about the following riots or the founding of the Union system we use now because this post is already way longer than I expected it to be but I want to leave you all with this: question the people in authority. I'm not trying to say there aren't good, honest people in the world who just have your best interest at heart, but I am saying that most likely those people aren't in your government. Compassion and community action should always take precedence over fear mongering, now and forever.

#digiirl #digimon #unreality #digimon rp #asks #lady answers #wake up babes!#lore drop on a Wednesday afternoon!

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switchcase · 1 year

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Hey! No need to answer this, I'm not sure how you feel about discussing books like this on your blog. Otherwise, if you're willing I was wondering how you felt about Alison Miller's writings? You gave a very good perspective on van der Kolk, so that's why I ask!

Prefacing this with a very big warning not to read any books about RA unless you are in therapy AND your therapist has read the book you want to read AND your therapist thinks you reading it is a good idea.

I don't mind talking about books, though I will say I do not give book recommendations for this topic publicly. I am also going to assume you meant the book she wrote for survivors. As an aside, I have both not read this in a while and don't remember certain sections of it. ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

Probably the biggest criticisms are that there is some misattributions for abusers and the belief she seems to have in psychic abilities being a real thing (unsure if this was just to not contest survivor beliefs or maybe I even just interpreted it weirdly at the time). She probably includes survivor stories in this but to be honest those are typically the chunks I do not remember for books on this topic.

Some of what is in this book is outdated and/or no longer considered best practice, which is not necessarily a reflection on her, because the book was published during a time when those were the best practices or the information was up to date. Eg, Miller posits in the book that if you have a dissociative disorder, your trauma likely began in infancy/toddler age. As opposed to the more modern and more expanded age range.

Some of what she writes about are things that I have not personally encountered in my research except in her books. Which is not to say that they aren't true, but a good rule of thumb with these topics is to withhold both belief and disbelief on what you read until and unless you have seen multiple sources all describing the same thing.

I will be very lenient with her on how vague she is about certain topics because it is very difficult to write a book on this subject that isn't massively destabilizing. And also, that her audience was intended to be a very niche group of people. At the time this was written, you basically only ran across resources like this if you were suggested it by your therapist, if you were friends with enough other survivors (aka probably in group therapy or residential) who recommended it to you, or you were digging so deep that you already found a bunch of other resources. I found Miller's book like 5+ layers deep into a therapist site that linked to a survivor support group which linked to another survivor support group that linked to a therapist's website that had a subcategory for RA resources. Meaning that while Miller does word things in very vague ways that now could be criticized as being...a bit too blanket statement-ish and perhaps a bit paranoia inducing, it was not written with the contingency that your average guy could randomly stumble into it. I do still think she was too vague, but I can also see her trying to reality check people throughout the book.

All that said, Miller is one of only a very small group of authors who has written something explicitly for survivors to read. It is probably one of the less triggering books on the subject if only for the detached way she talks about it. And is simultaneously one of the very few books focused on recovering afterward as opposed to simply talking about the how's and why's of the abuse type. Also, I really appreciated this list in the book that was like "positive qualities of survivors" or something similar. "Kindness despite...; Humanity despite...;" lives rent free in my head forever.

Also, I do know that Miller pissed off some groups so she must have done something right. 🤷 She and several of her clients were harassed incessantly for years, even after her retirement.

IIRC @felis-the-complex-multiple has recently been reading this book but idk if Felis is close to done or has thoughts on it.

#also if I remember right a lot of this book is rhetorical questions #ask #anonymous #ramcoa

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xxs4d-b4st4rdxx · 6 months

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I have no idea why, but I have a sudden urge to talk about what Dr. Alto Clef is with in my head. It's probably because of that post of resent.

I'm going to be up and front with that this is more of me just rambling than a well-thought-out. I do better if I ramble with no form or idea where it is going. Also, I don't care if you think in any way is a waste or stupid. This is my blog, and I and do and say what I want, even if it's mindless rambling about a character or whatever else. -----

Well, to be honest, He does have a special place within my mind. It's greatly personal, I Rather not talk about it much, mainly because I rather keep the bad times behind me. Just know he has helped me get though some hard times in my life, even though he's a god-damn asshole of a character, lol.

Um… how do I start these things… Well first I must be clear that I have been out of the fandom he belongs in for some years now and so, much of what I view him is when I was really into it. SCP-4231 is a big piece to how I see him. I read that when it first came out, though I probably shouldn't have read it at that time.

Ok, enough of the rambling. For me, I view him as a bitter old man that real does not want to have anything to do with anyone. Which I don't blame. I thought of him being three different people with Alto being the last and Francis being the first, though the middle of the both does not really have a name He's just dubbed with Ukulele. Francis's GOC code name. With Ukulele being switch of dealing the stress of work and well their personal life. While Alto being formed when the incident happen and being the main for Francis to heal. Which never fully happen, Francis never really came back and only few years after it simply left. While Ukulele kinda linger not much anymore either being the next to fade leaving Alto be the last one left abandoned and the feeling that he had failed in sense. More bitter than anything in his mind left with the mess Francis had left him. Hope that makes sense in a way.

Another thing with the shipping of him and Kondraki (surprised I still remember how to spell his name). I like it though, I see it more of that Kondraki to him is a person that hang with and fuck around with once in a while, nothing more than that. I just see Alto being mainly a loner for that when he feels the safest at. I also do like the idea that he has amassed a large family of cat, those are his people. Furthermore, I like to think he thinks of himself as a cat as a way to cope with what he is.

The why I think he looks is pretty much what it most views him as. A white short fat man that doesn't have the greatest look, blond hair three eye colors, you know the gist. I have added on to that over the years with having a bad tan, you know what I mean. Have some numbers of scars from his year of living. A thing I also like is that he flip-flop in having somewhat short hair to have it long enough to have it braided. To be honest, I don't think he gives a shit how he looks other that his abundance of Hawaiian shirts, he's very prideful with that. His third eye I like to imagine he can move it anywhere on his body or hide it all together, another thing to fuck with people. Oh, Yeah, a chain smoker, of course.

Even with him being a shit person, I think deep with in him, he still cares about well… Francis's kid. Alto himself doesn't consider them being his kid nor being ever married. Though still cares about them.

I might be the reason he never just says fuck it and leave, to disappear, to live a life quietly without the Foundation being up his ass all the time. Maybe there's a different reason, who knows, he will never say, maybe he doesn't know himself either.

Do really think he's an anomaly of his own kind, being that most reality bender or what ever you want to call them, usually supper nova or simply disappear. Yet he's still there, well, depending on what stories you read. He does do either which is odd, potentially it's because of the circumstance he was in when there was still Francis and how him and his partner were like how two stars act when they are close to one another. Where the larger of the two slowly eats the other. Possibly that had some cause for it other than well... The trauma that comes with such an abusive relationship.

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Beyond this point, it is me rambling more about my old interest of realty benders than Alto himself. I was really into the concept of reality bender back in the day.

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As a side not I do compare reality binder with stars because of their life, cycle are really remind me of stars. With the more large hotter one having quite fast and destructive ends while the smaller and slow burning one much quieter ends.

Though, I'm just going to generalize things for the sack of understanding what I'm saying. But You want to go more specific, you can learn and use the lettering system that is uses to categorize stars. For example, our star is a yellow Dwarf and the spectral type G and with that will evolve into red giants. In turn, a white dwarf to finally a black dwarf where it does not have any more materials to produce energy (light). If you know the life cycle of a reality bender, you can fit it in within those terms.

There's also how some I would think some would bend reality some much they would leave tears within the fabric of reality, maybe creating a sort of black hole like some stars that are dense enough can form when dying. With what I said about super novas being how that is their max, their own unmaking. I think of it after math becoming nebula like in how mushroom producing spores, the matter with the disrupted reality creates others like as we are made of star matter someone can have that distorted matter that might form them as a reality bender. As they are not made with the same matter as others, but the same as another's demise for filling the cycle once more. Though like Alto, not all will meet their own destruction, with some living after that mass or simply never going through it. Leaving them much more stable in some sense. Though that does not mean they can't just go back to being a risk, which leave me to the point of why they might just simply disappear as a way to avoid that fate. As they might make their own small packet with in the fabric of reality, maybe that's how universes are made if you want to think of it that why. For me in star term I think of Alto a white dwarf star as something that is stable but has no risk of being destructive though much weaker than it was once before. That really does not matter with dwarf stars they live a very long lives, as like Alto they don't simply leave they stay for a very long time out live other stars, other reality bender without much change. In my head, I think he knows this, but I don't he likes it any. I think sometime he wished he was one that lives a short life that fades very soon after it was created.

To not stop on a sad note with the concept of cluster of stars like galaxy because I've already said what where nebulas as that is left over star matter which can in turn to make new stars. With galaxies, I see it as some reality bender might want to form groups, in a sense as a hive mind of sorts. Whereas in before they find their own space outside by themselves, this with a group can establish new one that are which much larger. Where the core normally being a black hole, their equivalent being a tear in reality. Which others get drawn to going from there leaving within the tare uses it as their own space allowing others to join with most leave to original for to become as one and in turn as a hive mind. With this being the case, they will hide that opening as to prevent unwanted out. Maybe this could be a way naturally how rips are mended in a way. Galaxies don't pose a threat as they have no more interest with their own reality from once they came, but they might have interest in merging with others like them.

I hope my word salad gave you some enjoyment. I really just did this for myself as a way to finally clean out what was left for my SCP days.

Thank you, for listening to my TedTalk, lol.

#Rambling #large post #scp fandom #scp foundation #alto clef #dr. clef #why not #scp-4231 #reality benders (not real)#I have to preface that for sake of no confusion #This took me three hours to type and clean up I was hyper focus wish I could do that more often #rich.txt

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darkburning · 1 year

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is there any other muse in this fandom you’d like to RP? // is there a muse you played on more platforms or in different moments of your life? // did you have a muse you tried to play, but didn’t feel connected to?

𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐓𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐃𝐀𝐘

#6/7/8

6. once i did consider kisara, probably like years ago, but in reality i really doubt that i have the motivation to try her out. frankly it was simply because i had the psd for her, but aside from that i don't think i would make a good kisara. another character i actually did try out was asuka tenjoin from GX a very long time ago. however, i confess i don't remember much of her muse so --- i don't think i have the confidence or motivation to pick her up again. mana is enough for me in this fandom, especially after all my monkey brain i had invested in her characterization.

7. well.... there is stella, to no one's surprise ---- especially you. she is the muse i will always come back too, and the one i stubbornly refuse to abandon. of course, if we are talking about the long distant past : i did rp maria kurenai in multiple platforms : deviant art , rp forums, and tumblr for a time ( which wow you also followed ). however, i do have a big preference with tumblr for better or for worst.... so i really don't have much muse outside of this hellhole lol.

8. i tried roleplay tifa, a long time ago. mostly because of peer pressure and whatnot, but i simply couldn't find her voice ---- and the duplicate drama was rampant at the time. but overall, if i do make a blog for said muse i usually feel very invested and vibe well with the character. it was really only that tifa attempt that i simply did not feel the need too lol.

#alskdaslkd you followed me at my worst and still u stood by me ;a;

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ray-talks · 3 months

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2/17/24

today's restriction while not adequate, i still accomplished my goal.

as i predicted, i was made to eat breakfast. i evaded lunch as i usually am able to, and i had to eat dinner. i successfully purged what i ate. it does not make me happy that i cannot restrict as much as i would want to, but at least i didn't binge, which is what i wanted to avoid. to be fair, if i could restrict as much as i liked, i probably would go for days without eating (lol), but in a routine way. i'd be more logical about how i approach fasting than i did last fall, because it ended up with a bad binge-restrict cycle, where i'd constantly be either binging or not eating for a week, and that proved to be unsustainable. i'd have to use trial and error to discover what would be most optimal for me to lose weight, if i had the freedom to do so. but i might never have that freedom. achieving that level of freedom would take a long time, and i would not wish to be alive for that time to arrive or not have accomplished my goal by then.

lately, i've felt frustrated by what appears to me, a lack of clear progress on the appearance of my body. i haven't checked my weight in months, and don't necessarily plan to soon. so, i have to rely on my eye to see visible changes. i have felt that my clothes have been looser on me, but i can't tell if i am making that up or not. and addition to that, i am unsure if i can see changes, or maybe i just can't remember how i looked before. i have become more bothered by my body, because it pains me to feel that i am not doing anything. what i have become most "insecure" (not sure how else to put it) about are my sides and thighs. my thighs are certainly too big, in my opinion, and it feels like the sides of my stomach just look... odd to me. i am not entirely sure whether this is accurate, but it seems like my hip bones aren't as prominent as they were in september -- which is about the last time i was checking my weight, and carefully assessing the changes in my body. it would make sense, though, because i think that i gained back a lot of the weight i lost, when i was hospitalized. it'll take a minute to get back to that weight, but hopefully not too long, i probably am already on my way there. i thought to myself that i do not feel skinny enough. but i do objectively know that i am to the average person. i suppose that doesn't matter, considering what i am looking for is not simply being just underweight, but being practically deathly skinny. regardless, all this is a waiting game, if i keep trying and don't give up, i'll eventually see the progress i desire.

i have been more hesitant to self-harm recently. i thought that i should have done today, because of my inability to restrict, but i didn't do it. the reason being that it is too much of an inconvenience and a mess, that i have to be meticulous about cleaning up. originally, i was going to write about the exact details to why, but i thought i should show some restraint with how i speak. i have this urge to write about certain experiences in excruciating detail. i think that it is because i am lonely. i know that there are memories and experiences that i will never be able to talk about, that could never be shared with others. a part of me wants to speak those realities into words, almost like to acknowledge that they exist. but it's not appropriate and it's unhelpful too. it isn't necessary for me to talk about everything so thoroughly -- which i sometimes do anyway in this posts -- because i am already being problematic with what i espouse here. it is not morally okay to glorify my eating disorder to an audience of people with eating disorders -- regardless, if i reject the pro@na label, i implicitly perform that anyway. i am aware that that my entire blog is objectively immoral in multiple ways. who gives a damn if it is an avenue of self-expression?--if what i am saying is inherently harmful/triggering. the reason why i went on this tangent is to say that i should pull back a little. maybe it's pointless to do so, because it's not like i am stopping myself entirely, but i felt that i should be more considerate and not so self-serving for once.

i don't have much more to add, but i would guess that i'll be made to eat breakfast. fingers-crossed that i won't have to, but i wouldn't count on it. to all who read this, i wish you a good day.

#ray talks #tw ana diary #mental health diary #tw restrictive ed #ed not ed sheeran

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bewitchingivy · 2 years

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Pick A Card: Angel Numbers You've Been Seeing & Their Actual Meanings: Pt. 2

Hey guys, welcome to the second part of this pac! As usual, all you gotta do is pick the number that you've been seeing a lot lately, so you don't have to choose intuitively (but you definitely can if you're drawn to another number or if you haven't been seeing any angel numbers lately!)

Each pile will be short and straightforward since I just want to keep this simple because there will be 10 piles to choose from 111, 222, 333, 444, 555, 666, 777, 888, 999, to 1111.

LINK TO PART 1 ; angel numbers from 111 to 555.

MY MASTERLIST

࿐ DISCLAIMERS:

Tarot or any forms of divination is not set in stone. It's not your only future, but a probable one with the current energy you have right now. If a reading doesn't resonate, simply let it fly away and shift your energy. Because you can change your reality, and you have the undeniable power to do so.

Please keep in mind that my readings are for entertainment, positive, or inspirational purposes only. Please don't take them as a professional or medical advice. Any actions or decisions taken are your responsibility.

The images I use in my blog are not mine unless I say so. The pictures belong to their respectful owners.

Feel free to choose multiple. Take what resonates and leave what doesn't.

666

Hello, people. Okay, wow. This is intense. The energy is kinda hurting me too, I'm literally feeling a numbing ache in my heart right now. So you might feel like everything is crumbling apart right now, everything in your life is. But here's the thing; the Universe is literally teaching you a very important lesson right now. You've been too stubborn and narrow-minded, and your guides are telling you to stop that. Open your eyes to the big picture. Just like in Pile 222, things are happening FOR YOU, not to you. Never against you. We go through things like this in life for us to become wiser and stronger. Okay? It's easier said than done, but that's a fcking fact. Also the Universe has been generous enough to provide a reason to why this is happening in your reading; it's because there's this goal or dream that you think it's the best for you. But no, that's not what you're here to do. You're here to do something greater, and the Universe will soon reveal that to you.

Shufflemancy:

Exhale by Sabrina Carpenter

better off by Ariana Grande

I wish you all the best and don't forget to take care of yourself!

- Ivy

777

Hellooo, to those of you who've chosen pile 777 :) Okay, woah. The message here is so fcking straightforward, it didn't need for me to interpret the cards, it made me laugh LMFAO. Okay, so anyways. The first card here is saying that you've been daydreaming a lot, procrastinating as well (bruh I feel you). And then the next card? It's clearly saying: JUST DO IT 😭 Waddufuq. HAHAHA. Welp, you've got your message. Oh, and I might add as well that for some of you, this may have something to do with romance?

Shufflemancy:

世界は恋に落ちている by CHiCO with HoneyWorks

TALK ME DOWN by Troye Sivan

I wish you all the best and don't forget to take care of yourself! - Ivy

888

Hi, people! Okay, so I really love your message here. (Yeah, I do favoritism when it comes to reading my piles-LMFAO.) Anyways... It's really clear here that you've been pretending to others and even lying to yourself that everything's okay. That everything is just sunshine and rainbows, when it actuality it's storming (i love storms though.) And you've also been, I don't know, denying your own power and potential? The Universe is saying here to own your power, know that you can do anything, and use it wisely. Wow that came through very easy. Ah, and this is for my stressed fam out there... DO YOU EVEN GET SOME SLEEP? BECAUSE LITERALLY YOUR GUIDES ARE LIKE PUSHING YOU TO SLEEP (or else they'll threaten you- lmao). PLEASE.. Taking enough sleep is very crucial in this message. Oh, and meditating also came up here. It's highly suggested by the Universe to you 😗

Shufflemancy:

Reason Living by SCREEN mode (文豪ストレイドッグス anyone? AKSHSJSHHS)

Sinking In by Katelyn Tarver & Jake Scott

I wish you all the best and don't forget to take care of yourself!

- Ivy

999

Hey, wonderful humans! So everything seems to be okay in your life right now, because the Sun came out upright. So 999 is a message from the Universe for you to learn and explore the things that's been taking your interest lately. Perhaps you've been called to learn more about esoteric stuffs? Or it may be you're called to explore and learn more about yourself through spirituality. Yeah, this is a really spiritual pile.. Maybe you're psychic as well, and you've been pushed to improve yourself in that. I don't know, literally anything worth learning, go explore that. That's the specific message I'm getting here.

Shufflemancy:

The Outside by Taylor Swift

Tied Together With A Smile by Taylor Swift

(both are from the same album, maybe you should listen to Tay's debut album 😌)

I wish you all the best and don't forget to take care of yourself!

- Ivy

1111

Okay, now last but not the least—to the people who chose this 1111 pile, hi there! I see here that you've been suffering lately, more like mentally. You may be regretting something, just a lot of dissatisfaction, and just problems to think about until you reach to a point where you just wanna give up. Well the Universe has a specific message here for that: Listen, you're strong. Stronger than you think you are. You've gotten this far didn't you? You've already survived through all the storms, and this is something you can get through as well. Believe in yourself that you can. It's time for you to take all the lessons you've learned, pay attention to those around you, and let these tough times make you act not out of selfishness and bitterness, but rather do things out of love.

Shufflemancy:

Breathe by Taylor Swift feat. Colbie Caillat

All My Friends by Kodaline

I wish you all the best and don't forget to take care of yourself!

- Ivy

#bewitchingivy #pick a card #pick a pile #tarot reading #divination #intuitive reading #pac #tarot community #tarot #witchblr #witch community #angel numbers #spirituality #manifestation #signs

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ceoofanticatradora · 3 years

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We need more anti C//A who are Adora stans (like you seem to be) so that people can understand that C///A is bad for Adora. Heck C//A is bad for Catra too, but the shippers don't seem to realize it. If Catra had been able to let Adora go maybe she could have healed instead of her festering and the abuse may have ended instead of escalated.

Hello Dear, welcome on my Blog and a big thank you for your message! Firstly I wanna apologize that this response is reaching you more than three full days, almost four later. Just real life getting into the way of my online presence (at least I got my A-Levels admission!) but I assure you that replying to you was on my To Do List the entire time. And while I could've typed something quick, I thought you deserved a full length response just as much as the person before you received. That goes for anyone really to ask/write me anything in the future.

Adora is a character that has flaws, her own interests, things she struggles with/is insecure about etc. but she also still works on being better (up to Season 5). This makes her relatable, fleshed out and overall three dimensional. Overall for me that makes Adora very likeable. Which is funny because when I first watched the show I thought of her as too goofy and felt like she as a character was overall just flat. Her character design did not speak to me either, the ponytail with the weird hair poof and these pointy shoulders of her jacket just really were not my taste. Isn't it amazing how perceptions can change?

As you can guess from that description I did not always stan Adora and she's probably still not my favorite character but over the almost two years I've been in this fandom I've grown rather fond of her. Other important characters to me are Kyle (a very relatable comfort character of mine, he learned to stand up for himself and others and I support that, f*ck Season 5 for barely acknowledging his existence), Lonnie (apart from treating Kyle badly (which I really do NOT support or excuse) I really love her, man, some women just do me like that, I mean she really stood up to Catra like that), Entrapta (I'm autistic too! It's great to have some representation, seeing the ableism/treatment she experiences in the show is not so much though), Seahawk (I don't even know why, I have some issues with his behavior towards Mermista at times but overall I love this dork), Scorpia (she reminds me of myself so much and I really wanna give her hugs, I'm so glad she chose to no longer let Catra treat her like that even though I will be forever salty she just immediately forgave her), Peekablue (I can explain this even less than Seahawk, especially since it was not even really him in the end but his existence somehow helped me cope with Season 5, without him I probably would've left this fandom ... and also my favorite color is blue) and Double Trouble (now there's enough people already critcizing how they're not exactly great Non-binary representation but this dramatic lizard will forever be in my heart, that reality check they gave Catra, basically slapping her in the face with facts was satisfying as h*ck, also I like lizards overall).

Now there's plenty of characters I like, dislike (or even hate) or am simply indifferent about but after all this is not a tier list but me talking about Adora, Catra and Catradora. Adora started off as this girl that was so sure what she was doing is right but once she was taught differently she was willing to leave everything she knew (except Catra, because she valued her despite everything) behind. And not only that, she broke out of the abuse cycle that Catra tried so hard to keep upright. And that is exactly what makes Adora such a good role model. She teaches children (or people) that:

Your past doesn't define what/who you are or what/who you can become

-> Adora used to be a Horde soldier and did not know where she came from, but nonetheless she found herself a family and became a hero that saved thousands of people

You can always change your mind and start a new life if you feel disappointed in what you are doing/who you are as a person

-> Basically the exact same point, Adora started a new life as she saw what the Horde really was and changed her mind about who to fight for

You deserve love too, be it platonic or romantic (or se*ual???) (If you're aro and/or ace just ignore the part that does not work for you)

-> While Adora for various reasons thought her only use was to please others and meet their needs and expectations (mostly due to Shadow Weaver and Catra) she learned to accept that she too deserves love and validation (if the love aspect would not have been focused on it being romantic love so she could smooch Catra in the finale this would've been a billion times better because she got love from her friends that showed her her real value)

You can walk away from something/someone, that does not make you egoistic/selfish

-> Adora walked away from the Horde, after Catra stubbornly refused to come with her despite many offers (basically Catra broke the promise, not Adora) from her too and that did not make her a "traitor" or "selfish", h*ck, Adora in the end did this for a bigger purpose too, even if part of it was her not wanting to live with such wrong morals

Your opinions, feelings etc. about a person/something can change and that is perfectly fine and valid, being able to change is part of what makes someone human

-> Adora's views on many things changed throughout the show: The Horde and the Rebellion, the First Ones, Catra, being She-Ra, herself, her priorities and so on ... she actually makes use of her brain, which is why Catra saying "Don't you ge it?" or calling her an idiot and dumb never sat right with me, she's a realistic character for shifting with her thoughts, feelings etc. and sometimes just does not fully think things through

You don't have to let other people treat you like sh*t (just because they have some issues they never worked through does not give them any right to let it out on you)

-> This point is obviously centered mostly around Catra and her abusing Adora almost every chance she gets, which is why Adora standing up for herself and not letting Catra blame her for her own decisions and mistakes is so important, "You made your choice, now live with it" is one of the most powerful lines throughout all the five Seasons

Now I'm sure there is still more to Adora's character than what I just listed and unfortunately almost all the points basically got pushed aside, well, Adora as a character got pushed aside in Season 5. All her growth, the things that made me love her, see her as great role model for so many people robbed of their value for the sake of making everything revolve around Catra. That brings me to her and how you are absolutely right that Catradora is harmful to both characters. Of course Adora is affected most by it in the end but Catra too is obviously suffering under the fandoms obsession and just the overall idea of them being romantically involved.

Just like with Adora the stans make almost everything about Catra over her relationship with Adora. She too can barely exist outside of it and if she wasn't the fan favorite she'd most likely would too be mostly in Fanarts that include Adora and not just her (if you google "Catra Fanart" most content is still Catra and Catra only but here and there Catradora still peaks through). But for whatever reason the fandom still views her more as her own person as the other ones? Catrouble and Scorptra Shippers might actually still get less hate than Glimmadora Shippers (I'm not denying they don't get any, they most certaintly do) which is just plain hypocricy and favorism. Kinda like the: A woman needs to be loyal to her husband and her husband only but if the husband wants to be active with other women that is perfectly fine because "that is just how men are" or how i like to call it ... sexism. Now in this case they are both women so it's not sexism but yo do get my point.

But much more importantly, Catra has an unhealthy obsession with Adora. Signs of that are for example:

Constantly talking about Adora, even when said person is not around (to Shadow Weaver, Scorpia etc.)

Obsessing over having control over Adora like in that one Episode "Are you kidding? I finally got control over Adora, I'm not giving that up!"

Building her entire character and her actions around Adora "We need to take Adora down", "Adora left me", "I'd rather see the whole world end than see you win!", also shown in Season 5 where she states she does save Glimmer only for Adora and not for Glimmer or to do the right thing

Getting aggressive or very emotional over Adora like clawing the wall, having nightmares etc. (destructive behavior towards herself and others)

Having no or barely any characteristics outside of her relationship with Adora like, we don't know her interests or likes and dislikes outside of being evil, obsessed with Adora, being abused by Shadow Weaver ...

Trying to force Adora to meet her needs and expectations regardless of Adora's owns

Sacrificing her oppurtunity to be happy in the Crimson Waste for the sake of her Adora obsession and being better than her at all costs

So yes, you were very right with saying that not putting Catra in a relationship with Adora would've benefited both characters. Catra could've learned to exist on her own, develop interests and a life outside of Adora. Learn to accept herself and eventually come to terms with her childhood abuse. She could've been free and not "the abusive cat girl that ended up with the person she unhealthily obsessed over to the point of no return" she kinda is now. Even if we ignore the whole "dating your long term abuser" part from Adora's side and "being rewarded" for horrible behavior, Catra alone is not giving a good example to people watching. As much as I dislike Catra, disdain her even, an ending where she is dependent on Adora, unable to stand on her own two legs after she led armies in war is not what I would wish for her, even with a decent redemption arc (that she did not get).

#anti catradora #anti c//a #anti catra #spop critical #response #my post #spop salt #ocd #role model #anti catra stans #anti catradora stans #comfort character #adora deserves better #honestly its worse once you know its not just bad for adora #anti+catra #anti+catradora

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scripttorture · 4 years

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Hello! In my fic, a character gets captured by the bad guy, but manages to escape after abt 5-7 days, and I'm just wondering do you think it'd be realistic that he'd manage to do that if he hasn't been given any food at all during the time he's been captured? I'm not planning to make the escape into much of a fight, but he'll have to swim a considerable distance. I've been trying to figure this out myself but all that comes up from googling is weight loss/detox blogs and I don't quite trust them

Honestly? Escape is very unlikely in a torture scenario full stop.

That doesn’t mean it’s a bad idea in fiction though.

Fiction doesn’t have to be realistic in every respect. And while I emphasise realism there’s a big difference between fantastical scenarios that condone/support torture and fantastical scenarios that don’t. I don’t think escape narratives condone torture and if that’s something you want to write I don’t see a problem with it.

When it comes to what’s possible after starvation-

Most of the time starvation in a torture context means less food, rather then no food. That means I’m working with ‘best guess’ scenarios here rather then turning to scientific studies.

I would agree that weight loss and detox blogs are probably not a great source. They are, at the very least, incredibly biased.

The character’s prior fitness would probably be a factor but I suspect the more important thing is that he’s swimming.

Because if he passes out, gets injured, gets buffeted about the current, if something goes wrong- he’d drown and die. My instinct is that after 5-7 days of absolutely no food that’s likely. Especially if he’s experienced any sort of sleep deprivation as well, which he probably has simply due to being hungry.

I won’t say it’s completely impossible, especially since I don’t know how long the character would be swimming for. But- I think it would be difficult and the difficulties would be kind of likely to result in death.

If the environment means that the water is cold then death is even more likely.

With no changes and a water temperature that’s not far from human body temperature my guess (and it really is a guess) is that the he could probably swim for an hour, possibly a little more. That’s my guess purely because we’re adapted for endurance.

But much beyond two hours I suspect the chances of survival would drop off rather rapidly. I think they’d also drop if the water was in any way difficult to swim in or cold.

The easiest adjustment would probably be to write the character having some food. Not nearly enough, but something. The equivalent of a cereal bar or a small bowl of rice would make a lot of difference. That would also be more in line with how this kind of torture is usually conducted.

I don’t think that’s an essential change for this particular story though. If you feel that having no food is important to the story then reducing the time he’s held (or reducing the time he’s held without food) would get more or less the same effect.

The only other options I can think of involving changing the environment.

That doesn’t necessarily mean removing the water as an element entirely. Perhaps he takes the chance to escape because the water is especially low at a particular time and can wade for part of the way. Perhaps there are patches of higher ground where he can rest for a while.

I’m going to end this by saying that there’s nothing in this ask that seems like a bad sign to me. There’s no suggestion of apologia, the common misconceptions I talk about or any sign you’re not taking torture seriously.

All of my suggestions are based on what would be more likely in reality.

But fiction goes against reality all the time and people sometimes do survive in really unlikely circumstances. If you want your character to survive when it’s more likely he would have, if you want him to just get lucky then there’s no reason you shouldn’t write that.

A story being unrealistic in places isn’t bad in and of itself. It’s where we choose to break with reality, and what we suggest when we do so, that matters.

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hartigays · 5 years

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don't know if this has been asked, but could you write nr19 from the kiss prompts for harringrove? i love your blog! :)

19. One person stopping a kiss to ask “Do you want to do this?”, only to have the other person answer with a deeper, more passionate kiss.

the harrington’s christmas party is in full swing.

billy grimaces, taking a sip from his cup. it was originally just eggnog, but he’d taken it upon himself to bring a flask of rum. figured he’d need to spike some of his drinks throughout the evening, and he was right.

steve had needed it too, as it turns out. his house is packed to the brim with his relatives and family friends. all of whom are belligerently drunk and continuously ask him when he’s going to settle down with a nice girl.

that just makes billy smirk. because steve harrington hasn’t laid eyes on a girl since he’d rolled up to hawkins high and swaggered out of his camaro. and yeah, billy knows steve likes both girls and guys. but he also knows that his relationship with steve is kind of a forever thing, even if they haven’t exactly talked about it.

so, yeah. settling down with a nice girl likely isn’t in the cards for steve harrington. not if billy has any say in it.

surprisingly enough, no one has questioned billy’s presence here tonight. steve had simply told them he’d invited a friend, and no one batted an eye. it was a foreign concept to billy. his entire life has been spent under his father’s scrutiny, questioning his every move.

steve’s life isn’t like that. but it is at the opposite end of the spectrum. because while billy can’t take a shit without his father breathing down his neck, steve could wrap his car around a tree and his parents wouldn’t question his absence for at least a week. maybe more.

he and steve may have had very different upbringings, but their overall reality is eerily similar. they’re both lacking in their parents’ love. but that knowledge has lost some of its bite, now that they’ve found a sense of belonging with each other. a better love. still unspoken, but it flows between them nonetheless, hot and bright and undeniable.

billy catches sight of steve across the room. he’s cornered by a few people. one of his mom’s sisters and her husband, if billy remembers correctly. he’s been introduced to so many people, it’s been hard keeping it straight.

in any case, steve is looking around the room desperately, until he finally catches billy’s eyes. gives him a pleading look. billy pushes off the wall he’s leaning against, making his way through the crowd. steve shoots him an appreciative smile as he walks up.

“hey, steve. everyone,” billy acknowledges with a nod and a charming smile. “i hate to intrude, but i need to borrow steve for just a moment. can’t seem to remember where i put my keys.”

“leaving so soon?” the woman in front of steve asks, crestfallen. “that’s just a darn shame!”

“oh no, i’ll be back. but i have some gifts i need to get from my car, you see. mrs. harrington has been so kind, i couldn’t come empty handed.”

the woman practically swoons, and billy takes the opportunity to grab steve’s wrist and pull him away, dragging him through the crowd. he leads them up the stairs, his eyes flickering around the room to make sure no one is watching them.

no one so much as glances in their direction.

he pulls steve down the hall and into one of the many bedrooms. the room is big, most likely his parents’ bedroom. the bed is piled high with coats and purses.

steve opens his mouth to speak, but billy swoops in, stealing a heated kiss. he crowds steve up against the door, cupping his jaw in one hand and kissing him like his life depends on it. it’s hot and messy and maybe a little desperate, but billy hasn’t been able to touch him all evening, not in the way he wants to.

he’s pretty sure he’s allowed to be a little desperate.

but steve is stiff, his shoulders still carrying far too much tension. billy pulls away, his palm still pressed against steve’s jaw. warm and gentle. grounding.

“do you want to do this?” billy asks, his eyes still locked onto steve’s lips. they’re puffy and red and sinfully parted. it’s incredibly inviting.

the tension melts out of steve almost immediately. he doesn’t answer - just drags billy’s lips back to his. seals their lips in a passionate kiss. it’s filled to the brim with heat and emotion, and it makes billy’s head spin.

he licks into steve’s mouth, making a soft noise of appreciation against his lips. allows steve to take the reigns, kicking back and just letting himself enjoy the ride.

kissing steve always makes billy feel like he’s floating on cloud nine.

“of course i want to do this. always want to do this,” steve mumbles in between kisses. “hate that we can’t do this out there.”

“what, suck each other’s faces off in front of your mother?” billy asks with a laugh, breaking away from steve for a moment. strokes his cheek, gazing into those big brown eyes.

steve kisses the corner of his mouth - a tender, lingering thing that makes billy’s knees weak. “no. hate that i can’t show everyone that you’re mine.”

billy sucks in a breath. searches steve’s eyes, though he’s not totally sure what he’s looking for.

“for what it’s worth, y’know. i love you,” billy mumbles. stares directly at his feet, the heat from his cheeks spreading down his neck. “or whatever. ‘s stupid.”

he doesn’t get an answer for a long moment. too long. it makes him want to snatch the words right back out of the air and stuff them back into his mouth. pretend like they were never spoken. but when he looks back up at steve, his heart flutters.

because steve has this look on his face, something like awe, or maybe fascination.

“how’d i get so lucky,” steve murmurs, tracing billy’s lips with his finger, his eyes focused on the movement, “as to be loved by you?”

and then he leans forward, kissing billy so softly, so sweetly, that billy thinks his heart might give out right then and there. steve kisses him again, and again, and again, each kiss punctuated by a soft i love you.

billy doesn’t know how long they stand there, their arms full of each other, lips tangled together. it feels like an eternity passes before they break apart, resting their foreheads against each other’s, breathing heavily.

“we should probably head back downstairs. we’ve been gone too long already.”

steve blinks, then turns the lock, before pulling billy towards the bed. his grin is mischievous, bright. “what? you thought i was going to let you off the hook that easy?”

billy lets steve push him down onto the bed, on top of the pile of coats. he just kisses steve, slow and deep, in lieu of a response.

he doesn’t want to be let off the hook by steve harrington, ever. and he intends to demonstrate that with every pull of his lips.

in the end, billy is more than sure he succeeds.

send me a number + a pairing!

#yeah this one got real sappy yall #im feeling soft today (but to be fair im a fluffy bitch who feels soft every day)#thank you for the request!#harringrove #my fics #ask #its-tortle

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soofection · 5 years

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jenkai discourse in retrospection

(long post)

to take a slightly more light hearted break from all the updates regarding the burning sun case, I propose a discourse of jxk in retrospection after gaining all the new knowledge exposed by the media recently

dont read if you dont want to, if you read please dont come attack me for posting what I want on my own blog 🥰

In no way is what I type facts, and I am NOT comparing burning sun case with jxk (jxk is so insignificant and jxk is not a criminal case) yet I will make references to what the media and companies are capable of doing as proven by the exposure from the b. sun case regarding similar behaviours.

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we now know that the kpop world is not what some once thought - an ideal fairytale land where idols/ the media never lie to us.

The truth:

We finally realize for sure that in korean ent. industry, sexual favours (in exchange for sponsors, promotion via media manipulation, basically fame and safety), offering prostitutes services... all in all using SEX is commonly used in return for connections / power / protection from the 'higher ups'.

why did jxk happen?

I propose: to cover yg x jni sex/sexual activities and jni has sponsors rumours (updated). After knowing yg is to a certain degree (personal assumption: large extent) involved in B.Sun and gangnam clubs, it makes sense to suspect that the jni rumour could be real. look up yg's past history, how he obtained his wife (emphasis, obtain). 12 years older yg 'fell in love' the moment he saw his wife as a second year middle school girl, recruited her at 16, ruined her career and married her. who knows how exactly yg treats his younger girl employees? Who is there to protect them?

but its just a 'groundless' rumour why was yg desperate?

to propose reasons: 1) it could be real, if so he HAS to camouflage it before it blows up further. 2) even if its not real, he didnt want to put bp's and his own name's reputation at stakes since bp is his most money earning group right now 3) if he doesnt make a deal with dispatch, who ofc are capable of digging deeper and they hate yg (proven by their ability to obtain kkt chats and exposing b.sun evidences) to supply them a fake scandal to cover ygxjni... dispatch WILL expose him. (also keep in mind jni has other sponsor rumour that might or not be true). and 4) - suggested by anon: yg could be taking precautions before b.sun scandal blows up. As we know b.sun revolves around sex crimes, Yg must get rid of the 'boss had sex with employee' label before b.sun blows up. Or else he will get dragged, it would be like adding oil on fire.

this theory is reinforced by allshitpop stating a media outlet discriminately announced 'the yg x jni rumour was false.' why purposefully mention it when no one asked?

but why ji?

main reason: hes an artist from sm. Yg desperately needed a scandal impacting enough to satisfy dispatch (releasing small unconvincing sandals will discredit dispatch's liability and reputation. ) But what to do when none of yg's male artists are popular enough to create a fuss nor any male groups's careers mature and stable enough to withstand the scandal pressure from the general public? the obvious solution is ofc to beg other big companies - sm or bighxt.

Most popular boy groups atm is still btx and ekso. honestly yg wouldve prefered btx due to their crazy fame, and jni will be their first dating scandal... the reactions would be DRAMATIC. yet in contrast to ekso, btx didnt really need to take that risk in hopes for more popularity. (rmb there would always be adverse effects when being involved in a dating scandal despite positive reactions and large no. of supporters). Also, even if btx has any scandals to cover, bighxt's recent merge with cj-enm (described as 'a powerhouse' aka very huge powerful company) means btx's any potential scandals can be taken care of for now. so that leaves ekso.

Who in ekso fits ji's image the most?

(hence will recieve 'positive' reactions and make them more aesthetically believable. without a doubt, its ji and his on going promoted sex appeal.) Reasons for ji and not other members: 1. theres no harm in giving him a beard (personal belief, ignore point 1. if you think homosexuality/kaisoo pairing isn't plausible) 2. to raise his popularity for his potential upcoming solo. 3. if someone who was involved in dating scandal before came up again, they probably predicts the pairing to be more positively recieved --> more supportors and a more hyped response from the public.

but none of that happened, the scandal was managed poorly. The paris evidence was made in a rush (dates didnt match) park pictures were too ambiguous (again dates and time didnt match), even when dispatch posted a pic of ji in a carpark supposedly came back from hawaii to give jni presents after landing - we learned from ji's own ig live that the day he wore the outfit in the photo, he had already returned to korea a few days ago, was around town shopping and went no where near the airport. Besides these failed attempts there was absolutely no other proof that jxk is real.

why was it poorly managed?

bc this is a rare collab between two big rival companies. Yg was the one begging at the start yet sm wasnt able to take full control of this scandal. Conflicts and disagreements upon makng many decisions were highly likely to occur between these two rivals.

The break up

a lot of fans were shocked when jxk broke up just after 25 days. (brand new record). what else is weird?

sm personally confirmed jxk broke up abruptly. Usually when couples break up, fan rumours start to float around first. But not this time, no rumours surfaced yet sm all of a sudden definitively stated that jxk broke up. Back then I already predicted it maybe because yg or bp got into trouble hence sm wanted to distance themselves as far as possible. I still stand by that idea.

Sm must get away from yg and b.sun case for the sake of theirs/ekso's reputation. sm def dont want to be dragged into the mess. Remember, sm as a huge company themselves def have their own dirt to hide, getting dragged means huge consequences if the investigators target them.

so why did sm agree in the first place? I assume its bc altho sm knew that yg had dirt to hide, they did not know it was something as serious, severe and big as b.sun case / tax evading case. Therefore, what are the coincidences that sm announced breakup shortly before dispatch sparked reinvestigation into b.sun by posting crucial evidences? (the first chats)

its highly possible that dispatch warned sm, (which makes them sound like the good guys but no. remember sm is dispatch's source of money and partnered with them many times. b.sun indeed aint directly related to sm, (as for now) dispatch has no reason to ruin sm) Or, sm could have found out through other sources that b.sun case will blow up soon. they quickly cut their collab with yg early, and announced break up probably without telling yg first. (since telling them possibly means giving dispatch away).

this also suggests that dispatch hates yg but anyway.

The benefits of ji

Comparing the two, jni seems to be the one who gained more from the scandal. She got most of media and the public's attention. there is an explanation for this - shes the 'rookier' one, and the trendier one out if the two since bp is still rising when ekso has reached their plateau. However, ji did gain his own lesser share of attention (indicated by the gained followers on his ig).

I have always said that when idols agree to be involved in a scandal, they are likely to get a 'reward.' but now thinking about it, agreeing to scandals is part of ji's contract, rewards are bonus but not obligations. Besides, the scandal itself supposedly helps ji gain popularity for solo and gains a beard, sm didnt NEED to give him more bonus. Often when idols get more modelling jobs / solo etc after scandals is bc sm uses the risen populairty from scandal as an opportunity to maximise profit by giving them more jobs, it might not be bc sm wants 'pamper' them.

Plan cut short

unfortunately for ji who is not getting his solo soon, the jxk plan flopped due to poor management, and was cut short due to b.sun case. The scandal did not fulfill what it was supposed to do and ended prematurely . Followed by the apparent troubles in sm negotiating contract terms with ekso, (delayed ekso schedules),chxn suddenly getting a solo, and the blowing up of b.sun case, ji might have missed his chance again. Or hes simply still preparing.

to summarize i want to clarify a few things.

- none of these are facts, but an overall picture forming one huge speculation.

- I dont try to defame bp or shame them. i also am not trying to state that girl artists def had sex with the hihgher ups. b.sun has shown us that men always have more power over women, and they rarely get protection.

- I want people to realize the dark side of kpop. The kpop industry is full of conspiracies, media manipulation and lies. What you see on tv is not who your idols are portrayed to be on camera. Don't impose your ideal vision on them and hurt others when reality suggests otherwise.

side note: this theory conveyed reinforcement to statements I've made before

- conspiracies are real and true. Look at all the dark and shady events involved in b.sun case

- media play, mass manipulation exist and are common practice.

- dispatch and sm collab and are partners on a case by case basis.

- idols lie on interviews all the time, their tv persona is different from the real them.

- companies offer protection for their idols

- it is indeed common practice to use one scandal to cover another

ANYTHING can happen in the world of the k ent industry. dont lightly dismiss any possibilities. We must analyse the sum of the situations - the full picture of any events before believing anything we are told.

#kaisoo #jongin #jennie #jxk #analysis #myposts #jxk1 #jenkai

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