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Introduction Post!/DNI List
Hi, my name is aurora, im 24, and i have a full time job sooo unfortunately frequent fic updates/posts aren’t a guarantee. but i do love to write, and i find the time to do it when i can! My pronouns are she/her and I identify as a lesbian. i grew up in south jersey and i live in philly now, so i curse like a sailor. my zodiac sun is capricorn, my moon is leo, my rising is virgo (for all u astrology hoes out there) and im INFP if that means anything to u (i dont understand it at all)
im part of the unholy trinity of bishova, we come up with silly little fic ideas that turn into full-length novels together. they’re the reason i write, and i lov them a lot. u should follow them (functionally-medicated and laurie-bishop) on here, if u want the full experience. if anything ever happened to them or if anybody ever hurt them emotionally or physically i would hunt that person down in a completely feral state, unaware of my surroundings or actions, and what follows is not for me to say or take blame for.
Here’s some links:
my linktr.ee, which is basically all of these in one place except my ao3 bc minors follow me on tiktok and i... dont want them reading my fics or at least i dont wanna know abt them reading my fics lol
my main blog (desktop link)
My Twitter (until the rat man ruins it for good, this is the main place for my madness)
My ao3 (Please note that due to my deep fear of ai stealing my shit, all of my fics are only accessible to ao3 users; i will not be posting them anywhere else.)
And yes, my tiktok. (it’s literally just shitposts, mostly bishova)
DM’s and Ask Box are open for questions, comments, etc! Don’t be shy to ask about anything, I’m an open book and I give very mid advice. (if u are looking for romantic advice please know most of my exes cheated on me and i have deeply rooted emotional issues. so my advice will be ‘break up’ or ‘just ask them out the worst they can say is no’. if those are not the answers u seek i am not ur love doctor)
I’m not taking requests for fics, but i’m down for discussion for ideas and i might even end up writing something! If I do, I’ll ofc refer to the post(s) and give credit where it’s due. Or if it’s a blurb/drabble I’ll just respond in the ask.
You DO NOT have permission to share/steal my work onto other platforms unless it’s for the sole purpose of promoting the fic itself. For example, if you like to share links to your favorite fics on a tumblr or discord, that’s fine. You cannot claim it as your own, nor do I want anything read in a recorded space or shared with any cast/crew/whatever. (It makes me uncomfortable, and yes, this is something that has happened before lol.) Please and thank you x
OK DNI:
-if you write/read noncon/dubcon and dead dove fics, i have a lot of really negative views and putting them all here will just make my teeth itch
-if you’re a minor, please dni with my 18+ content!!!!!! I realize I can’t prevent y’all from coming here or reading my fics but i dont need to hear about it! im happy ur reading my stuff, and im very grateful, but pls understand that as an adult it makes me uncomfy hearing abt it, and any normal adult should probably feel that way.
-however, if u are a minor and an adult on here is giving u some weird vibes this blog is very much a safe space to talk abt them, i am very here for u, idc who they are or who you are, i do not tolerate adults taking advantage of kids in any way shape or form and i will go full mama bear mode
-terfs and maps/p*dos and other similar degenerates stay far the fuck away. i am not above publicly shaming you, and i am really really good at swinging and hitting low. i will bring up ur dead relative and im going to talk abt fucking ur mom. if ur mom is dead ill talk abt fucking ur dad. i dont care.
-lemme reiterate, TERFS are NOT ALLOWED. i specifically hate you so deeply, so intensely, my breasts ache with rage at the thought of being able to verbally or physically smack one of you bitches into the dirt. on this blog we respect the FUCK out of pronouns and gender identity and if u can’t vibe with that i genuinely think u are actual garbage, u are subhuman to me, if god asked me to recreate the caste system you would be at the bottom and i would get off to watching you suffer.
-i am once again repeating dead dove accounts stay far away from me. i dont go out of my way to be a bitch to you directly, so i am just asking you do the same for me. i do think we can hate each other and co-exist, unlike me and the terfs.
(random shit about me below the cut line. im sorry, it’s best u just find out i am literally insane right off the bat)
i work at a small coffee shop that’s also a chocolate/ice cream store (i will not be writing a coffee shop au, unless it’s for one of the unholy trinity or someone who has a plot idea that will make me overlook writing my job in fanfic). i do actually think i am the hottest person in the room most of the time, and the funniest at least half of the time.
My hobbies include complaining, playing ps4 or my nintendo switch (please tell me if u play ACNH, i had to get a new switch and my whole ass island was deleted. i need some fucking iron nuggets please im begging on my knees), and playing chess on chess dot com. (yes, im single, thank u for asking). i can play a weird variety of instruments but not well. I rewatch glee every other month, and twilight every month. i can recite the entire first 20-30 mins of the emperor’s new groove from memory, and also most of yzma’s lines. i have a lot of love for satire and adult cartoons, meaning i will unironically defend south park (but my favorite adult cartoons are bob’s burgers, king of the hill, and futurama)
my favorite color is pink, my favorite singers are Amy Winehouse & Taylor Swift (and i could write an entire essay on their lyrical geniuses, musical styles, and what songs of theirs i think go together perfectly). my favorite food is potatoes, my favorite animals are bears (specifically the spectacled bear), and my favorite flowers are pink japanese camellias. now you know the most intimate details of my personality. holy shit are you still reading. bro i just put this here because i thought it would be funny. i ddin’t even think someone would read this post. damn u must really wanna know abt me huh. ok well my favorite alcoholic drink is some goddamn jim beam bourbon or whiskey over a lot of ice. close second is jack and coke. i’m on antipsychotics so i can’t get drunk often, and when i do it’s after 2 drinks. i can’t take nyquil because it aggravates my mental issues. i am allergic to pollen, tree nuts, and literal spiders and mosquitoes (their bites give me rashes that look like im dying of some rare disease). i have 8 tattoos. i do 2000 crunches a day. i can hold a plank for 2 mins and 33 seconds. (learning margot robbie can do this for 4 mins has awakened something very competitive in me). i can hold the flex arm hang for so long i get bored and have to stop. holy shit dude ur still reading? jesus chirst. i can read tarot cards. i can read runestones. i’ve had the same nightmare/dream since i was 7, in different angles / places / scenarios, but always the same universe. i read wiki articles for fun and it’s not even about cool things like ww1 or the geneva convention. i have 2 older brothers that i love. we are the same people. my mom is my favorite person. she is why my brothers and i are Like That. my stepdad gave me good taste in film and women. my stepmom’s life is more interesting than mine or yours ever will be. my dad is slowly becoming a swifty, but he’s also unfortunately starting to fall down the right-wing pipeline and it’s a mega fucking bummer dude. thanks, joe rogan. i can do a not good kermit the frog impression but by god will i keep doing it. if im not in film for writing or directing then im going for acting bc at the end of the day at least im cute and funny. i am fully convinced i could kick ben shapiro’s ass. i am also fully convinced i could kick joe rogan’s ass. i play chess so that if i am for whatever reason challenged by andrew tate, i can humiliate him and make him fucking weep. and i also just like it and have been playing it my entire life. i am a certified pothead and stoner, and i vibe heaviest w the sober ppl at parties. speaking of parties and bars, i am the drunk white girl in the bathroom that tells you you look beautiful, sometimes while sobbing. speaking of sobbing, i cry really easily watching movies and tv shows, and i have gotten really good at holding it back just enough so i get that cheryl blossom style single tear down the cheek for a bit. i can cry on command, and my form of self-defense is barking (and now ppl are starting to do it on tiktok so it feels less original but it also feels good knowing that it’s so fucking effective) ok dam if u really read all this ur fucking nuts dude kudos to u tho. i am literally actually insane though fr fr like not in a cute way literally in a ‘what is wrong with u’ way. lots of things is the answer.
#intro post#dni list#ummmmm this is probably fine#im old i dont care about formatting im sorry#i tried to make it as not ugly as possible while still making it slightly jarring so that it's read#also important to mention i have a touch of mental spice so sometimes my fics will be Fucking Sad#Sorry About That#i will try to keep the existentialism to a minimum
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okay yall this is my first post so i apologize for the wonky formatting anywho this is what i think each Rory Culkin character would smell like inspired by a post from @icarus-star . (some characters do have x reader because thats all i read sorry not sorry🤭)
CHARLIE WALKER
okay so this dude is a loser (in the best way)
and losers love axe body spray
i think he always smells like he used an entire bottle of axe body spray each morning with a hint of old spice deodorant if hes feelin good
the real reason he uses so much i think though, is cause hes killed so much that he smells like blood no matter how many showers he takes
so his friends will tease him for it but he'll never stop using it
CHRIS KENTON
i think hes pretty aware of smells and is worried that he smells bad but he doesnt have a ton of money to spend
SO his solution is cheap cologne
dont get me wrong though, it smells nice. even comforting at times
sometimes he also smells like coffee (no reason as to why i think this, its just the vibe)
CLAY ROACH
ooooofff i love him but he STINKS
he smells like body odor, sweat, and sometimes other bodily fluids (ifykyk)
i think if/when he gets clean from all the drugs he does, he more so just smells like whatever deodorant he uses but its a very small hint of it
CLYDE
RAHHHHH I LOVE HIM
he uses sandalwood bodywash and matching shampoo and conditioner
but he also smells like weed
he smells heavenlyyyyyy
his deodorant is lavender old spice i take no criticism on this
DANNY COOPER
yall this man is a housewife
i dont think he really cared much about smelling good until he met you
now me PERSONALLY, i hate the smell of a lot of vanilla perfumes and stuff but he does smell like vanilla
but instead of vanilla perfumes, he smells like vanilla extract
or if he knows you guys will have a date that night, he ups his game and goes in with coconut coffee smelling stuff
EURONYMOUS
HE SMELLS SO BAD OMFG
this man smells like shit, piss, greasy hair, weed, alcohol, cigarettes, and every other BAD THING IN THIS WORLD
dont get me wrong babes i love rory's portrayal of him but LOOK AT HIM AND TELL ME IM WRONG!!! YOU FUCKING CANT
bro does NOT wash his ass😭😭😭
GABRIEL
i think he doesnt really smell like anything honestly
sometimes hell put on cologne but usually he just smells like soap
if you have a signature perfume or cologne though, hell douse his clothes in it because it brings him comfort (AHHHH I LOVE HIM SM)
JACK THURLOW
this man right here🤭🤭🤭 i love this man
he is so stuck up and prissy i love it
he smells sophisticated
he smells like a mixture of cigarettes, bergamot, patchouli, and sweet amber
and then he pretends its what he naturally smells like and gets mad when other people dont smell as good as him
KAPPA
at first i was going to say he smells pretty similar to euro but i started thinking about it more and i have come to the conclusion that this is not correct and heres why
hes a cult leader. charming, handsome, manipulative, and welcoming
he has to show that hes the best of the best and one way he does that is by smelling good
he smells comforting. like a warm, home cooked meal that you havent had since you were a kid
and this makes people feel more relaxed and comfortable around him which he uses to his advantage
thats it for now i hope yall liked it!
#rory culkin#rory culkin x reader smut#rory culkin x reader#euronymous x reader#jack thurlow#euronymous#jack thurlow x reader#gabriel#gabriel x reader#danny cooper#danny cooper x reader#chris kenton#chris kenton x reader#kappa#kappa x reader#charlie walker#charlie walker x reader#clay roach#clay roach x reader#clyde#clyde x reader
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05.19.23
howdy everyone! it's been a long time since i've done one of these. also this is going to be a long post, so if you're like "i'm not reading allthat but stay safe tho" im sorry in advance.
i was going to wait until the two year anniversary of TMITAWH to post this, but i've been getting more and more asks about the status of this game, why it's on lockdown, when it's coming back, etc. largely, i've been dodging these questions or answering them with a vague "oh, i'm working on it!" which is very much the truth. just, not the entirety of it.
the truth is this: the story is done.
the real truth is this:
actually, before i get into that, i wanted to mention something else. i know i've waxed poetry over and over again and maybe it's getting annoying to hear it - so i'm very sorry - but it really is important to me to mention this because it's the motivation and the life-force behind everything that i do on this blog. i wanted to say thank you. i remember typing up the intro post to TMITAWH after getting the second COVID shot, delirious, but bolstered by a fever that had rendered me brave. i've been writing this story since 2019, i had the vision, the characters, the aesthetics and the understanding and i wanted to desperately to share. i never expected the level of support and love from so many of you. i've never had people genuinely vested in my worlds or characters. i remember getting the first comment about the prologue and slamming my computer shut and freaking out. i cried when i got my first ask telling me how much they'd love it, despite the small amount of content. the fever may have given me the courage to post it, but y'all gave me the courage to continue. and that means more to me than anything means to me in this world. for two whole years!! you've dealt with my wildly out of pocket thoughts, long absences, and have continued to show your willingness to continue the exercise in patience. i dont have people in real life that would do that for me. so thank you, thank you for being here, thank you for caring, thank you for the sweet comments. i wasn't lying when i said that i keep most asks unanswered because i go back and read them, hold the words close to my chest, and convince myself that i can do what i want to do when it comes to storytelling. thank you. forever and always. i know this feels maybe so much like im baring my soul, but i think it's important. TMITAWH saved my life. I mean that in every understanding, with the breadths and depths of my soul. I mean that with all the fibers and cells and atoms that make up me. This story saved my life. it's important to me that you know that in so many ways you all did, too.
so much of the reason i've been sitting on this is honestly mostly fear. it's choking me now as i write this. i'm scared of y'alls reaction, i'm scared of potentially disappointing anyone, and i'm scared of people just being overall pissed off. which i would get! this is not why the majority of you are following me. i'm asking for grace, for understanding, for mercy.
so, the real truth is this:
Tell Me If There's A Way Home is complete. there's a beginning, of sort, a middle, an end. but, it is not complete in the way you might expect an IF to be complete.
this is, simply, because Tell Me If There's A Way Home has been re-written and re-formatted into a novel.
over this past year, i was struggling with the story. things had along the way stopped making sense. this WAS the story i wanted to tell, i knew what had to happen in order to get the whole point of it across. is it better to get back what you've lost, what does it look like when you do get it back? but there was something that wasn't working. i could force the scenes, have The Traveler spend time with Cain in his little house talking about his past, or provide the option to explore the peaks of a mountain looking for a legend of old. i could do all this. but it was all wrong. the story had become corrupted along the way and the vision of it that i held onto so desperately was fading into obscurity.
so i opened a new word document and just wrote. i wrote for a whole year, and the story unveiled itself to be in the way i believe it was always supposed to. i understand so much more of this story than i did two years ago. sitting at 90k words, book 1 is officially done. it's essentially the same story you all had read, but different somehow. more than it ever could have been in an IF format. there are the characters you love. there's cain. there's silas. alice of course. there's the traveler as *her* own character. and there's the reverie. but the reverie is no longer Ezio/Elena. it's just elena now. its beautiful, gorgeous elena with her quick smile and hemlock eyes and her memories.
what happens now?
i'll be spending the next few months making the book as perfect as i can make it. i've been working through the rough draft - or alpha draft- and then i will ask some people to see if they want to read draft 2, draft 3 , draft 4. however many drafts it takes until i feel as though i can do no more. after this, i'll query agents and pray to god that in the hellscape publishing is in right now that im offered representation. after this, i'll pray to god that an editor likes the book enough to want to work with me on it. after this, i'll pray to god that a publishing house likes the book enough to buy it, put in on shelves. there's going to be a lot of praying to god. a lot of luck. so i think it'll be a while before anybody gets to hold the book in their hands, but god i hope y'all get to. i really hope you get to. more than that. i hope you want to.
after all of this, i'll be working on book 2. i already have the title. i already have the first chapter. i know exactly what happens and how.
i know there's maybe some confusion, so please feel free to send me asks about it. i will happily and gladly answer what i can and discuss it.
i'm so so sorry for the long post. this all felt important to mention and it felt important to be transparent with y'all. this was becoming a secret too hard to keep and i'm glad that i dont have to anymore. i hope you're not mad, disappointed, etc. that would really suck ass. i hope you're excited, maybe. i hope you're curious.
anyway. thank you for getting this far, if you did. thank you. i love you. i'll talk to you soon <3
#Tell Me If There's A Way Home#Tell Me If There's A Way Home update#tmitawh#tmitawh update#i feel sickkkkkk#and nervous#ahhhhhhhh#AHHHHH#please ignore the spelling errors#my computer is on her last legs#keyboard functionality is taking a huge shit
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heres another oc i made.. this time he's more Game Accurate :tm: here's my oc, 'nothing' aka sorrel
i wrote a shitload of dialogue for him too below the read more
his gimmick is that he doesn't have a gear. at all. he wasn't spawned with one. i know that's lore inaccurate but idc
he's also the AF1 protag (which does in fact mean he's stratosfear) in my adventure forward au
this wasnt balanced for gameplay at all btw i just did whatever im no game dev LOL
sorry if the formatting sucks also its not complete i ran out of steam at some point cause my fixation ran out right before i finished this :sob:
also sorry if the other phighters are ooc i dont know how to write anyone but subspace
basic -
"Here we go again."
"Just like old times, I guess."
"Try not to be dead weight."
"This place is terrible. I respect absolutely none of you people."
map dialogue -
bogio skatepark - "I remember breaking a horn here as a kid."
protect telamon - "Who the hell is Telamon, anyways?"
roblox arcade - "..Not a fan of the green guy plushie in the claw machines. It feels ominous."
roblox mall - "Fantastic! I can't afford anything here."
crossroads -
"Never thought I'd be back 'home.'"
"…"
"I wonder if the housing prices here ever went down."
"Another day, another 24 hours to waste."
"All the coffee here is too expensive. yawn"
"Finally, a bit of peace and quiet. Now if only I could get my head to shut up, too."
match outcome -
victory - "You'll never underestimate me ever again."
victory - "Next time, don't even bother."
victory - "Don't waste my time anymore."
loss - "Why do I even try."
loss - "…."
loss - "#### ###. …Seriously? I can't even say that?"
ally interactions -
ban hammer
[BH] - "They really let just anyone into Phights these days!"
[N] - "Don't fly too close to the sun, Icarus."
[BH] - "..Who the hell is Icarus?!"
skateboard
[SB] - "Y'know.. A smile might be good!"
[N] - "There's nothing to smile about in my life."
[SB] - "Jeez.."
vine staff
[VS] - "Please, try to take better care of yourself, I worry for you."
[N] - "…Whatever."
[VS] - "You would benefit from talking to more people, I believe."
[N] - "…"
[N] - "Fine. I guess I'll try."
biograft
[N] - "You remind me of something."
[BG] - "WHAT DO I REMIND YOU OF?"
[N] - "Doesn't matter."
[BG] - "ANSWER UNCLEAR."
[N] - "…"
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HI DO U HAVE ANY TIPS ON STARTING A TUMBLR BLOG? like how you format your links and everything i'm new and want to start a blog but don't know how 😭😭
hi anon!!! omg sure yes I dooo!!! when I started I didn't have anyone to help me so it was literally such a shitshow lmfao so I HOPE THIS HELPS!!
— (long post below)
disclaimer: this is all based on my experience and im sure there are other users with better tips than me so DONT TAKE MY WORD FOR GOSPEL BAHAHA
(also I'm going to assume you reached out to me because you want to start a kpop writing blog and not smth else, so all these tips are obv specific to writing blogs. I also don't know how experienced u are w Tumblr so I might say some obvious things,, sorry if you already know most of these things!!)
anyway tumblr is actually really intuitive and after about two days I honestly think you'll get it (probably even within a day tbh). here are some quick steps I feel like make sense in my mind:
find a url
(if you're starting a kpop writing blog,, most people seem to include the name/a reference to their bias but in my case i kinda just went w my name and played around w it until I liked it 😭 you can also search for "url ideas" in tumblr if you're having trouble!!) keep in mind you can literally change it at any point in time so don't worry about choosing the -perfect- one
set up your blog!
most of the time, people have a navigation post (the pinned post where everything is linked so readers can navigate ur blog easily), a masterlist (a post that shows everything you've ever written), a wip list (a post that lists all your works in progress, so fics you're currently writing and want to publish in the near future). additionally, people have a post about themselves (like an about me section with blog rules and stuff. this is my old old one). personally, i have a carrd right now (this is mine here) and you'll find other users have one or the other!
set up your navigation post: hyperlink
honestly everyone's different (btw don't worry about taking these tips too seriously bc honestly u should do whatever you want on your blog — it's yours after all!!) but I think most people include their name, pronouns, age (sometimes), timezone (sometimes) and hyperlinks to their masterlist + wip list.
how to hyperlink
im sure you've done it before for school, but it's really easy! here's a demonstration — this link will send you to my navi, and this link will send you to one of my fics! to do it, you just need to copy the link of whatever post you're trying to hyperlink (three dots in the top right of the post -> "copy link"), typesomething, double click onto the word you're trying to link it to, tap the 🔗 button, and copy the link into that!
(in this example, it'd look like this: something.)
how to make ur navi neat/pretty
personally, I used to just search for moodboards (on tumblr) and pick 3 photos that I really liked (obviously give credit to whoever made the moodboard!). what I have now is just something that I designed but you can have one or the other, it doesn't really matter! other tips I think I'd suggest is to keep it as simple as possible; you can embellish it later but make sure it's easy to read and people can see all the links! I really like searching for "symbols" on Tumblr, and then there are cute lil symbols u can add to your post :) or just use emojis! or dashes! this might be a little ahead, but I have a tutorial on gradient text if you really care, but maybe focus on the base first :D just as an example, my moot @.hazyyu has a really pretty navi!
apply the same principles to your masterlist + wip list + about me
just search for symbols, add whatever images you think look pretty, search for "line breaks" on Tumblr and there are pictures of links you can use to divide stuff up! making a carrd is easy but time-consuming (just search on YouTube "carrd tutorial")
there are other caveats to a writing blog, but those were just the basics! here are some other things I thought I could mention:
a permanent taglist is a list of people you tag every single time you publish a story/update it (for the purpose of them being notified every time you post) — sometimes people will ask u to "add me to your permanent taglist!" which just means tag them every time you post a story. personally, I have a google form for anyone that wants to be on the permanent taglist, but I didn't do that initially — I used to just wait until people sent in an ask asking to be on it and then I'd have a separate post with everyone who did. for example, this was my old one! doesn't matter whichever approach you do ^^
people also organise their blog via the hashtags
I do this too! it's so much easier that way :)) for example, every time I get an ask, I tag it with "#ask" (umm a lot of people are much more creative w their tags but personally icb lmaoo — here's an example of my friend who used a different tag and it's really pretty!). if you want help with organising your blog w tags, here's an explanation I wrote a while back!
if you want help promoting your work, you should consider joining a few networks! these are basically big big blogs that reblog all your work so more people can see ur stuff ^^ here are some of the ones I'm a part of: kflixnet, enhanet, k-labels!
you'll meet other users along the way and call them your moots; most of the time this just means you interact w them a lot via asks/dms. personally I'm not really active and I kinda find it hard to keep track of a lot of moots so I stick to myself and interact w anyone that comes my way!! but bae u can do whatever u want!! go find blogs of people that seem rlly cool and send an ask and just see where it goes; just don't badger people, be nice and I think you'll pick up on sm things naturally!!!
ur blog is gna look great!!! let me know when you finish setting it up!!! I hope this helps 😋💖
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Sorry if this ask gets broken or send more than once, tumblr likes to crash on my phone a lot oops!
Anyhoo, any advice for creating a headmate?
We're a traumagenic system, so we never had any control over when we split new headmates. But I'm a fictive of someone who's a twin and I really miss my brother and would really really love it if he could join us in the headspace, I think he would really like my headmates and they would be very receptive of him <:) I talked to the others about it and they said they think its okay for me to try as long as we do so in a healthy way.
But I dont know how to split a new headmate in a healthy way. Im obviously not going to purposely put us through stress and/or trauma to encourage a traumagenic formation, that'd be unhealthy. BUT I dont know how to help form a headmate in a non-traumagenic way... Do you have any advice or tips? I know theres lots of ways to willingly form new headmates, but I dont really know how to utilize them.
Thank you so much in advance!!
Hi! This is pretty tricky, and in general we’d advise traumagenic systems to make sure they’re in a safe place/have made significant progress towards recovery before attempting to create a headmate. There’s a lot of ways something like this could go very wrong if proper care is not taken! That being said, you do know yourself and your system better than anyone else! So if you and your system believe attempting to create a headmate is the right thing to do and the best move for your system, we’re wishing you the best of luck, and have some resources we can share.
All of the best resources we’ve found so far we’ve compiled in our resources post for questioning systems.
That post ^ has a whole section for plurality that is non-dissociative disorder specific, with tons of links to guides and resources on how to go about creating a headmate. The paromancy (called “tulpamancy” in the links) guides are probably the most comprehensive, with tons of information on creating a paro/thoughtform, which is a type of nontraumagenic headmate.
Y’all might also find it easier and less high-stakes to visualize this person as an imaginary friend or an aspect of your headspace. Lots of systems have NPCs in their headspace which have limited autonomy, but aren’t actually full-fledged system members. You can visualize an NPC in the same way you visualize a setting or object as a part of a headspace - we have a little headspace primer which we’ll link below which might help if you choose to go this route!
If you start out with this potential headmate as an imaginary friend, and they ultimately start to feel like a part of the system, there’s a term for that! It’s called imagi, and you can read a bit more about it on Pluralpedia:
Hopefully this helps at least give you somewhat of a starting point! And if we may, a final word of caution:
Creating a headmate is a big deal. Often this is something that will last forever, and cannot be easily reversed. What is so so important to understand, is that once this headmate can think for themself and are afforded some autonomy and agency, they may make decisions or choose to be something that no one in your system ever would have anticipated.
This means thy may want to separate from their source. They may not act, look, or view themselves the way the twin from your source would have. They may not arrive with source memories, and may not see themselves as your twin at all. In many systems, headmates act and function as their own individuals, and feel happiest when they have their own agency and get to make choices about how they present and interact with the world. This means, there is a chance that any headmate you create won’t live up to the standards you’ve set for them beforehand. We’re not saying this sort of thing will happen 100%! But there definitely is a chance of this occurring, so it’s best to be prepared in case it does.
In the end, this is your choice and a choice to be made by your system! We just hope y’all are understanding the consequences of doing something like this, and know that no matter how you envision your new headmate at the beginning, there’s nothing certain that will keep them that way as they grow and develop on their own. We hope your potential new headmate will be understood, valued, and respected for who they are as they are, and not who others hoped for them to be!
Sorry this got so long! Good luck with everything! We hope this process goes as smoothly for you and your system as it can!
🌸 Margo and 👻 Ghost
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Metal Gear!!
YIPPEEE TY FOR SENDING IT IN
Favorite character:
kazuhira miller my beloved
Least Favorite character:
oh man. i think most of the characters are pretty cool, or im at least neutral on. hm. even the awful evil villains i find really interesting. i guess i can collectively say the b&b corps? i thought they were just boring, overdramatic fanservice.
5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):
❤️vkaz❤️ (venom snake/kaz miller)
otasune (solid snake/otacon)
solimiller (solid snake/kaz miller)
strangeboss (dr strangelove/the boss)
the insane mess that is bbvocelhira (big boss/venom snake/ocelot/kaz miller)
Character I find most attractive:
KAZ MILLER 😳 fucking. gender goals.
Character I would marry:
venom snake. or solid snake. both prime husband material ❤️
Character I would be best friends with:
otacon or mei-ling. i think we would get along very well :3 two very big nerds and also probably two of the sanest ppl in the series 😂
A random thought:
if you like mgs youll probably like no more heroes. begging more people to play them.
An unpopular opinion:
im not even sure this is an unpopular opinion but. i dont give a shit about the good queer rep/bad queer rep arguments. its a 30+ year old series with the majority of the games coming out before 2010. none of these characters are gonna be handled well. i still think the canon/subtextually queer characters are really interesting, even if they fall prey to stereotypes or the whole "queer-coded villain" thing (or in the case of metal gear where a not insignificant amount of the villains are explicitly queer)
or the ppl who get upset that ocelot HAS to be gay. why do you care. if someone wants to make him bi, let them. it doesnt hurt you. hes still queer either way.
My canon OTP:
i would argue otasune is basically canon. they adopted a daughter together.
if thats not good enough, then bbkaz 👍 awful awful couple and theyre so funny about it. they even had sex under a box on the beach.
Non-canon OTP:
vkaz. insane premise for a ship and i love it so much. what if i thought you were my lost love and you look and sound and act just like him but when i realize ive been tricked i vow to kill him (not you, just him). i love him and therefore i love you (i do.), i hate him and therefore i hate you (do i?).
Most badass character:
jetstream sam. guy does all that with no cybernetic enhancements (aside from the one arm he had to have replaced). (he wears a sort of power suit instead, whereas all his teammates are full on insane robot bodies. underneath his suit is mostly flesh and bone.)
Pairing I am not a fan of:
rairose. i just dont get it.
Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):
ROSE AND NAOMI AND MERYL. they really dont know how to handle women 😭
Favourite friendship:
SUNNY AND RAIDEN 🥺🥺🥺
also raiden and blade wolf. very funny banter.
if the formatting is fucked up. im on mobile rn im sorry 💔
questions from here !!!
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Hi! Can I request a matchup? I can make mistakes while writing and sorry for that, English is not my first language 🥲
Im 18 years old, my zodiac sign is Scorpio, rising is Aries and moon sign is Leo.
I'm an INTP.
As my characteristic; I'm funny, I don't like to stay cold unless the situation needs it.
I am a problem solver, my friends always asks for my opinions if they can't decide.
I really like to learn literally anything and everything but I love history and art especially.
My hobbies are drawing, visiting museums and art galleries, shopping and reading.
Still I'm a bit lazy and a procrastinator. I always deliver my tasks at the last minute.
I'm so creative, I can say that it's a bit too much. My brain doesn't stop for a second even 🤣
I'm calm under the pressure, I always think logically but I don't forget about my feelings. I think I have a good balance about it.
As my bad traits, I'm a bit weird. I don't think it's bad actually but still it's not good either. I like to search the weirdest infos,songs, books etc.
I can lose my temper a little too quickly but I am not vocal about it, I dont like to make noises while I'm angry, sad or overly happy.
But when I have someone I cherish -which is pretty rare- I can make them feel like they are the most important person of the world. I can't say it to their faces but I am comfortable while texting or when I don't look at their eyes directly. Nobody gets bored around me because I have interest for nearly everything and I'm okay with any suggestion they will come with.
I don't like to talk about my problems but I am a good listener. I don't listen only but can help them to find the solution as well.
I guess that will be last, I'm not a jealous person and I like to give my all courage to them when I feel like they need it.
Thanks for accepting ❤️ if you don't, it's not a problem. Have a nice day
Fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs
Format: Headcanons
Warnings: None
Word Count: 0.7K
A/n: Tysm honey, and here you go :>
I match you with...
Ryuunosuke Akutagawa!
So the main reason I matched you with him was because you have the same interests and likes (It's not like other characters don't enjoy it, but it's not as mush as Akutagawa does). Akutagawa is really into art (any type of it, but mostly drawing since he's a pro at it), so he would definitely enjoy going to art galleries, like you do. Sure, he's more comfortable with spending time with his s/o at home, but I can definitely see him going to museums, art galleries and book stores. BTW you have my respect if you get him to go shopping with you lol. He will be really helpful tho, you know what I mean if you've watched BSD Wan; and if you haven't? Well, I assure you, you won't be having any trouble carrying all the bags. Rashoumoun will take care of it.
Akutagawa needs encouragement, A LOT. The man has literally Zero confidence and self steam due to abandonment issues (All Dazai's fault tbh) so it would mean a lot and also really helpful if you encourage him over doing stuff. I mean he cares about your opinion a lot cause you and Gin are the most important people to him; so it would definitely make him feel better.
Becoming his s/o takes a lot of effort. Akutagawa has his guard on, and even won't open up to his sister about some stuff; so he needs someone who he can interact with without having to worry about them telling others or thinking lowly of them. It would take you a lot of time to reach that level where he trusts you enough to show his feelings toward you. I mean it will take him a long time to even realize them and accept them... Overall, patience is the key.
I think he would ask your opinion about almost anything since you don't seem to mind it and as I said before, you and your opinion are important to him. He just wants everything- especially himself- to be perfect in your eyes; so your opinion matters to him more than you think.
Please assure him that he's perfect the way he is and doesn't need to change anything :")
If he ever talked to you about Dazai... Just know that the man trusts you with his life. literally. Ooh and never bring Dazai up unless he really wants to talk about it. It reminds him all his insecurities.
Akutagawa is not one to talk much tbh. Even if he's that comfortable around you. His love language is Acts of service and he tries to show your value to him by doing meaningful things.
It would be nice to hear you adore him though, the man would furiously blush while having butterflies in his stomach when hearing you saying how much he means to you or how much deeply you're in love with him. Doesn't matter if you do it over text or without making eye contact, But if you do it while looking into his eyes, The man would melt.
Do I need to say that this man literally memorizes everything you say. Even the most random things or the things that you've only said once is always on his mind.
You seem like you can get along with a lot of people, and it would mean a lot to him if Gin is considered as those people as well <3 Gin is his most important. You two dating will never happen if you have any problem with Gin or the other way around. Don't worry tho, she's a sweetheart, and so are you :)
You can make your partner feel like he's the most important in the world? Please do it to him. The man needs it so much ngl.
He wouldn't think you're weird, or he will find it adorable if he does. I mean he's weird in a way himself lol.
Him closing his eyes when feeling your fingers gently caressing his cheeks while he's the little spoon which is really, really rare cause he thinks you'd think of him as weak when you have to take care of him; but he didn't argue with you about it that day cuz ROUGH DAY AT WORK-
tysm for participating, and hope you like it <3
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titans fans think they own the dickkory tag but seem to forget that in no way did they invent it. Dickkory has been the ship name for decades for the two characters for the comics. It so happens that other versions of the ship (like titans) have tacked onto dickkory tag to make it easier to enjoy content. Robstar is used solely for the 03 cartoon. I don’t mean to hate, i like titans as well but it comes off as belittling other media forms to prop up others. Ie putting down the cartoon for the show even though they are completely different but still star our favourite dc characters and the reverse as well. I dont get why fans fee the need to be negative like cartoon fans hating on titans - they are completely different but they are both still valid. Just cos you don’t like one of the versions, doesn’t mean they need to be dicks about it. Sorry to vent, night but I see the bullshit on twitter and now here too. Its so stupid.
Sigh. In a way, I feel this, anon. I get what you mean with the end part of that - it is stupid. Titans, 03 show, ttg, dcau, comics… at the end of the day, i stay out of that bs drama with what is better or whatever cos that is childish af.
I very clearly have a favourite version which has always been the cartoon. Its what got me into DC and i grew up with it when fics and fanart were going strong and it was back in the early 2000’s, you know. The good ol’ days. 😂 But, despite that being my favourite, I also really enjoy Titans cos its a gritty version that is aimed at an older audience. I think that is what a lot of fans who prefer comics or the cartoon etc struggle with. I think they lean towards flat out disliking it bc it isn’t what they know and it’s different. There’s nothing wrong with not liking Titans. It isn’t everyone’s cup of tea; hell, i dropped it for s3 bc i was so uninterested in what they were doing by the end of s2. I also did not care for all the side characters taking spotlight over the main ones but I digress. But, keep it out of the fan’s faces, you know?
Its rude and really annoying when you have fans shitting on your good time. Titans has had a good time so far with dickkory and so fans are allowed to enjoy that. The fact that other dickkory fans who dont like Titans are being dicks about it is weird, in my opinion.
Same as, i think fans who try and shit on fans who love the cartoon are lame af. Like so what if its old? So what if it was aimed at younger audiences? So what if you dont like it? Point is, other people do so leave them to enjoy it. My biggest gripe with the cartoon is people saying it was childish considering it actually tackled some deeper topics, despite being a kids show.
Main point here is, people who gatekeep tags and shit are losers. Like, no one owns anything and anyone acting like that is sus, imo.
I get so sick of seeing people fight over different versions of a ship considering at the end of the day, its all the same?? Like dickkory for example. You may not like them in one format but you do in another. Personally, i am so fucking starved for dickkory content, i will take it from anything. Any version is allowed to be in the tag, old or new like jeez.
They are all valid formats if it means i get to see my two idiots in love.
A lot of people hate the DCAU but i really enjoyed those animated movies cos of, you guessed it, dickkory. They showed their relationship so nicely in that. It was wholesome as fuck but was also a little flirty so it was aimed at the adults more so. I think some people see animated stuff and immediately think its shit and childish which literally isn’t the case at all.
The comics are the og sources for these characters and I’ve seen a lot of ‘comic gatekeepers’ moan about other forms of the characters as well through the years. Now, i’ve got knowledge of the comics but im not some purist who has read every single one, more so bc fuck, I can’t keep up and comics contradict all the time cos of dumbass writers (looking at you T*m T*aylor 👀) but, i still appreciate the comics being the thing that started it all off. Without the comics, I wouldn’t have my baby Koriand’r 🥰 so anytime something remotely to do with dickkory comes out in comics, im rooting for it, purely cos i like seeing some form of life for my ship.
TTG is also valid; its silly and fun and that’s okay too. The titans are like a chiller version of the justice league and they are a team that notoriously is a bit less serious in all formats; they still have very serious storylines but they are the younger team ya know? Again, i think thats why a lot of people don’t like TTG either which is FINE but dont be going into ttg tags and mouthing off about how shit you think it is. Like its bad fandom decorum. Personally, I don’t care much for ttg; i did at first. I liked it and watched it regularly but now i just dont. But again, im not out here bitching about how it isnt the og cartoon so its crap or it isnt titans so its stupid.
I didn’t mean to rant like this but I just find it so fucking ridiculous that we’re still at this point in fandom where people can’t just let others enjoy shit. It is pathetic especially when shit like this comes from people who are literally adults like come on ffs. Get a grip.
I will continue to stay in my dickkory bubble, enjoying it in all forms which I advise fans to do lmao, it’s much less annoying and bitter when you just let yourself enjoy your ship In whatever formats there are.
Need I remind people that dickkory, despite being hella popular and loved, hasn’t had anything substantially canon in a long time so if shows like Titans are feeding fans, don’t be a dick and rain on parades. It’s not fair when people just wanna enjoy it and it just makes you an ass.
Sorry, this got hella long lmao. Also, anon, i would avoid twitter. It’s too toxic there, i have found in the past. Though Tumblr has had its moments too and by the sounds of it, people be just as bad here. 🙄
I could literally write a book on this, that’s how many thoughts I have. I’ve been around the DC fandom and dickkory tags for a long time and I can’t believe people still can’t help themselves. Just let people enjoy things all round, ugh! 🤦🏻♀️
#i would turn comments off but idk how lmaooo#reblog if ya want#but dont be dicks#please#i cant be bothered with people being douchebags about something so stupid#i dont want arguments over this. like nah fam.#this is why i prefer to stay in my own dickkory lane#like no one is asking you to like any other versions#just be fucking respectful#its not hard#my god#you’d think people would learn that as adults who have been on this hellsite for a long ass time#night notions#nightglider124
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hiii! I’m back for the ship game :’) can I have one romantically w enhypen?
I’m 19 years old and I have shoulder length black hair, glasses, brown eyes and I’m around 153 cm.(Niki share some of those growth gummies pls 😫✋) my pronouns are she/her! im an infp and pretty shy and introverted irl but I love the presence of other people- like sitting with or facetiming ur friend while you both do your own work. I also enjoy spontaneous day trips and going out to eat. I’m currently studying to become a child psychologist and I absolutely love working with children and playing with them! They’re just the cutest ever 💗💗 def wanna work at a daycare someday 😌 as for love languages I love giving others handmade gifts (I love to crochet!) and receiving physical touch & quality time :) I usually comfort others when they’re upset by trying to make them laugh or smile. The jokes are fails half the time but I try :”) and this game is so cute, ty for doing it!!! -siri 💕💕
HIII, Siri, thanks for participating and sorry this took FOREVER to do! The amount I write has gone 📉 !! but hey, I’m doing it now! I hope you like it! 💕💕
I ship you with...Sunoo
ok ok, hear me out, doesn't this description just make you think of someone Sunoo would date? like seriously, you seem so caring and sweet and cute and just skjdka Sunoo’s type! also ngl, he’d love your height even though he sometimes teased you about it, he does it out of love =)
pairing - siri x sunoo
genre - fluff
wordcount - 710
warning(s) - n/a
a/n - if you would like to be shipped as well, check out my enhypen & bts ship game
"Alright, guys! Are you ready?" When you heard a series of 'yes' and the kids getting in formation, you smiled and pressed play.
As you and the kids danced with giggles and laughter, you saw from the mirror, your boyfriend walking in through the door, holding a banquet of flowers.
Before you even said anything, one of the little girls with brown hair stopped and pointed straight at Sunoo, "That's for Miss Siri, right?" She held a mischievous smile on her face, "She told us all about you. How she's sooo in looov-"
you jumped towards her, pressing your finger to her lips with a nervous giggle, "haha that's enough for today. Miss eunjoo will take over for me now."
Sunoo smiled, "aw, but I wanted to hear more about what you've told them about me. I bet you told them how in love with me you are." He teased, making everyone laugh except for you. You hid your face in your hands slapping his shoulder softly.
"You're so mean..." You whined
"I'm only joking, but I wanted to ask the kiddos if I could steal you away for a while. I wanna take you out for dinner."
Before you could answer, another young boy popped in, "Sure, as long as y'all don't get lovey dovey here." He laughed.
You both shook your heads, “then we'll be on our way out!" As you walked out the door, you heard them in unison, "Sunoo and Siri sitting on a tree K.I.S.S.I.N.G. !"
"The kids you babysit are the darn cutest kids I've ever seen." He commented, handing you the flowers.
"They are adorable. I love taking care of them, but they can be little stinkers." You laughed, taking the flowers and getting in his car, "So, where are we going?"
"Just someplace.."
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"JUST SOMEPLACE?!" You gawked at the huge building in front of you with wide eyes, "No way..."
You started to walk away before he pulled you back and wrapped his arm around your shoulder, "Yeah, just someplace." He said nonchalantly, opening the door to the restaurant.
You cringed into his side, "Sunoo, this is the type of place where people wear red dresses and suits and like super expensive jewelry. I'm literally in an old T-shirt I use to wear when I'm cleaning the bathroom and ripped jeans. I dont feel like I'm dressed suited to the occasion." You whisper-yelled, but he only shrugged, looking back down at you, "Love, you look gorgeous. Don't worry about it."
As you opened your mouth up to speak, a lady at the front spoke to Sunoo about reservations and sorts before leading you to your table, "Enjoy your night." She bowed with a smile, leaving.
"This place is so nice." You began, taking a look around, "when did you make reservations? It must have taken forever."
"Mmm, I made it a couple months ago. I wanted to do something special together since we've...or particularly I have been so busy with work that we haven't been able to actually sit down for a nice dinner and enjoy each others company in a long time." He took your hand in his and grabbed the menu with his other hand, "Take a look at the menu and pick what you like."
You ‘awwed’ before leaning over and placing a quick kiss to his cheek, “I really appreciate this, thank you.” You squeezed his hand and looked back at your menu.
“Ahem, after this...do you want to teach me that dance you taught this kids?”
You giggled, raising a brow, “You want to learn it?”
“Yeah...it looked cute.” He shyly scratched the nape of his neck.
You eyed him, “You just want to tease me, right?”
“No no, of course not! I just want my girlfriend to teach me a dance. Is that so wrong?”
“Okay okay, after dinner, let’s go to the dorm and I’ll teach you!”
“In front of the others?” He widened his eyes, taking a sip of his water that the waiter had brought them earlier.
“What? You embarrassed?” You snickered.
“Wh-what? No.”
“Okay it’s settled then.”
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After dancing in FRONT of the boys, DO expect lots of cuddles and kisses from Sunoo cause the boy is embarrassed!! But it’s okay, you make sure to make it up to him by cuddling with him all night...and maybe all of the next day.
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-- holy mashed-potato-moly
! this is something I'm doing because i miss yall and because im bored. i would like to reiterate i am NOT writing anymore, except if it's something im proud of or feel i have enough time to do and genuinely enjoy. with that being said, please enjoy this limited edition pastry this holiday evening, brought to you by (y/n), kageyama tobio, and yours truly. enjoy ! yes, i am doing this on my comp so until i wanna edit it this is the god awful format you're getting
brief summary: you and your thickheaded brother's best friend have to plan this year's thanksgiving dinner.
warnings: none just friendly (lowk annoying) banter
genre: fluff, frenemies to lovers/forced proximity trope
5 years. It has been 5 years since your brother's best friend has started spending thanksgiving with your family. it's not like kuroo tetsurou had no family. it's not like this was the only place he could go. no, if that were the case maybe you wouldn't be so frustrated every year around this time. this year you turned 16, and as family tradition goes, 16 year olds always make and plan thanksgiving dinner.
ever since you were little youd been looking forward to this. yet, this year, kuroo also turned 16.
16: a year of freedom, self-discovery, joy, leadership, maturity. kuroo tetsurou would NOT mess this up for you. no, you simply woulddnt let him.
"y/n?" you heard along with some knocks on the door. "can i come in?"
'speak of the devil,' you thought, the thought being so loud you thought you almost said it out loud. "uh, yeah sure," you replied.
as he came into you sitting on your bed, a box of tissues, many used ones already littered all over your bed, sitting there as well as headphones and random red clothing. all of this was for your weekly binge listen to red rerecord, a ritual everyone whod known you was familiar with.
"oh," kuroo said with a quick glance around your room. "sorry, is this a bad time?"
"oh no youre fine. i was just cleaning up anyways."
"well i'm good at cleaning. i guess. if you wanted me to help. i dont really care."
"ok tsundere. its fine i got it but next time if you wanted to help me clean you might as well have put on a maid outfit. maybe some cat ears too. add in a little spice. you're too dry and plain anyways."
"oh, i'm dry and plain now?"
"yup. pretty much"
"and, let me guess, you're 'spicy'?" he asked mockingly.
as this banter went on, he finally got to what he came in to ask in the first place.
"ok but for real, we should talk about thanksgiving."
"what about it?"
"i know how much it means to you, and i know how much you hate me. so, i'll get out of your way. you cook, i'll clean."
"sounds good to me. as long as i dont have to work together with you, i'll be just fine."
"fine."
"fine."
"fine," he says, hoping to get the last word as he slammed the door shut behind him as he exited.
"fine," you muttered under your breath determined to not let him get what he wants. as you sat there contemplating what just happened, you notice your abnormal heart rate. "what the fuck calm down. that was just tetsu, you've known him since you were 10, you've had so many conversations with him before. why are you acting so weird? get it together yn." then, you let sleep overtake you and you passed out.
5 days before the big day, kuroo (reluctantly) drives you out to the grocery store to get all of your essentials. As soon as you get there and get a cart, he opens the door and says, "ladies first," with his eyes looking like nala from the lion king.
with a smirk you respond, "so why aren't you going? it's obvious i have big dick energy, and you just, simply, dont." as he scoffs but goes in he turns to you with a smirk. thinking this cant be good, you prepare yourself.
"oh, by the way, i forgot to bring my wallet. have fun love," he winked and walked off.
"asshole," you mutter under your breath. good thing you have enough money to buy all you need plus a little extra. getting to the cans aisle, with kags (unfortunately), you squat down to get the cranberries at the very bottom shelf.
looking up at the rooster haired man above you, you scowl and ask, "are you just going to stare or are you going to help me out here."
"now why would i help you when i have this pretty view all to myself."
"tch," you say ignoring the effect his words had on you. just then, a child whizzed past knocking you off your balance, causing you to land on your butt ending up sitting like a toddler.
as fast as it happened you almost immediately hear kuroo ask, "are you okay?" and offer a hand to help you up.
as you get up yourself, ignoring his hand, you look away from him all flustered and embarrassed and mumble a small, "im okay thanks."
you then hear, "oh okay. good."
as the rest of the shopping trip goes smoothly without kags bothering you another time, a bit to your (what feels like), dismay.
as thanksgiving day approached, people just kept coming. as you made food and basted the turkey, and prepared desserts, you had one thing left to do, and arguably the most important, the mashed potatoes.
as you started to make them, you realized kuroo wasnt present to open the door for the people ringing so you quickly abandon the pretty much done mashed potatoes on the stove with the heat on.
you greet the people and guide them to where theyd be waiting before the food was ready and quickly hurried back as kuroo pulled up in the driveway with some more, you guessed it, people.
as soon as you get back in the kitchen, you walk in to realize the mashed potatoes had exploded on the stovetop.
you quickly holler for kuroo and pray he gets here soon to help you clean up.
as soon as he arrives you hear him wolf whistle and whisper, ‘holy shit’ underneath his breath. motioning for him to come to you quickly with big gestures, you immediately panic to him. “FUCK KUROO WHAT DO I DO. IT LIKE EXPLODED I LEFT IT FOR 10 MINUTES MAX AND WE HAVE TO PUT FOOD OUT IN LIKE 5. I CANT NOT PUT THESE OUT THERE THIS IS LIKE EVERYONES FAVORITE FOOD!” you exclaim.
“hey chillax babe im gonna help you clean it up as soon as you get those sweet potatoes from the oven.”
as you do what he told you to do, you get the potatoes out unpeeled into a pot.
“ok just unpeel those and make mashed potatoes ok? just trust me this is what we used to do in my family its 10x better.”
then you quickly plate everything and present it to the table it being a huge hit.
“and thats how i fell in love with your father,” you finish telling your kids at your thanksgiving dinner, for the it being the 22nd year having that recipe on the table.
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hhhhhellllooooo aaaagggaiiinnnnnn, thheeeeee ffffficcccc wwwwasssss vvverrryy nnnicceeee tooo rrrreeeeaaadddd!! ccccccoooouulllddddd youuuuu wwwwrrrrittteeeeee aaaaa puffffyyyyy x sbbbiiii rrreeeadddeerrrr whhheeeerrrreeeee ttthhheeeeyyyy wwwweeerrreee neeeegggleeeccccttteeeddd annndddd ssssaaaawwww pppufffy aaassss thhheeeirrrr ppppaaarrrrennnttttalll fffiggurrreee iiinnsstttteeeeadddd (cccaaannn thhiisss beeee iinnn tttheeee uuunnniiveerrrsseeee whhherrreee puffffy, ddrreeeammm, ssschlllaattt annnddd tuubbbooo aaarrreee knnoowwnn aassss tttthheeee hooornnns ffffammmilllyyyyy? aaallsssooo!! alllssoooo!!! cccaaann ttheeee rrreeeaddderrrr bbbeeee aaa cccrooowwwww hhhyyybbbriiiiddddddd?) tthhisss isss kkkinnddaaaa lllikeeee aaaa emmmeeerrrggeeencccyyy rrreeequeeessstt ccausseee myyyy ffffammilyyyy haasss beeen iggnorrringgg meee foooorrr aaaawhileeee nooowwww :((
- beeeee aaannnoooonnnn
𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚗𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜
𝙿𝚞𝚏𝚏𝚢 𝚡 𝚗𝚎𝚐𝚕𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚍!𝚋𝚒𝚛𝚍!𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 (𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚌)
𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜: Puffy, (next bunch are only mentioned) Tommy, Wilbur, Technoblade, Philza, Tubbo, Schlatt, Dream
𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚜: they/them
𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜: neglect, mentions of death, mentions of smoking, repetitive words (right after the page break)
𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎:
Bee!! im so happy you enjoyed the other request bud!! i hope this one lives up to your expectations!
im so sorry your family has been ignoring you though, dude :[[ they dont deserve you, and trust me! id be more than happy to be your new "horn family" because you deserve so much better
mmmm anyways,
ENJOY!!
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My name is signed in this book so many different times. It feels like every floorboard and every room in this building knows me like we’re old friends. The same format over and over in the small sign up booklet:
“Y/n L/n- issues to discuss, I’ve been feeling neglected and need help. Please.
Y/n L/n- more problems from the first meeting discussion we had.
Y/n L/n- I feel lonely. Too lonely.
Y/n L/n- they keep on forgetting me, I don’t know what to do.
Y/n L/n- more has happened. Are they forgetting me or ignoring me? Help.
Y/n L/n- they’re drifting away, I don’t know what to do.
Y/n L/n- I miss them.
Y/n L/n- I miss them.
Y/n L/n- I miss them.
Y/n L/n- I miss them.
Y/n L/n- I miss you.
Y/n L/n- I miss you.
Y/n L/n- I miss you.
Y/n L/n- I miss you.
Y/n L/n- I miss you.”
Puffy is the only one I can turn to at this point. My real family has just...dispersed. They’re all too busy, or y'know- dead. Tommy’s been going off on his own with his hotel. He usually only visits me if he needs to “borrow” money or materials, but lately he’s just been stealing it. Techno and Philza are caught up in their Syndicate work, they haven’t even bothered keeping contact with me. And Wilbur is just...well, dead! He was killed during the Manburg explosion. It’s not even that they just forget me. They ignore me, neglect me. I’ve tried on so many different occasions to just send them messages through our comms or strike up conversation with them if I see them on a rare occasion, but it’s always just the cold shoulder. And it’s getting even colder. It’s numbing. Family is supposed to be there for you through your strife, so where is mine?
Well, I’ll tell you. My family at the moment mainly consists of Puffy and occasionally Tubbo. The horn family of the SMP, technically Schlatt and Dream as well but seeing as Schlatt is dead and Dream is in prison I don’t really see them often.
“Y/n? Hey there bud!”
A familiar warm and friendly voice is heard from behind me. I turned around to see the lady I wanted to see right about now, Puffy. She wraps me in a quick side hug, squeezing my shoulder affectionately.
“I was just here to check my sign up booklet! Did you wanna check in again?”
I nod my head at her signaling that I just wanna chat like usual. She gets the sign and walks me to the small tree we’ve recently been going to to talk. It’s the tree that Schlatt smoked his cigarettes at when he was president. Sure, he’s dead and did a lot of bad things but Puffy suggested this place since she finds it comforting since they’re related.
We sit down on the worn grass around the tree as we usually do.
“So, what’s up? Anything in particular you wanna talk about, bud?”
Puffy usually starts off these conversations, she’s looking at me with a soft smile. It’s very comforting. She’s the only one who’s been giving me this kind of affection. I haven’t felt it in so long…
“Y/n…? Your wings are scrunching up, what’s wrong?”
I look back confused as to what she’s talking about. My wings are in fact scrunching together against my back, it seems like they’ve been scrunching up more and more the more I was in my head about my family.
“I just…my family..did I do something wrong?”
Puffy tilts her head, she usually does this when she wants me to elaborate.
“I’ve tried so many different times to just talk to them! Even when we were younger, they rarely paid any attention to me. I had hoped that letting Tommy take my things or giving Philza and Techno their space to work on their stuff or helping Wil-“
“Y/n! Y/n, please slow down. Now, collect your thoughts, alright? What is it that you're trying to say?”
I take a deep breath. The memories and thoughts clouding my mind. The days I’d spend in our family’s house touch starved and lonely. The days they’d only talk to me to feed me or to ask me for something. The days I’d go to sleep in my twin-sized bed and feel the black and gold-tipped wings on my back rubbing against my arms, reminding me who I was and will always be bound to. A father who doesn’t care, and siblings full of neglect.
“Is it really a big request to just want some attention from them? I don’t know what I did, and Puffy, it destroys me to think I did something to hurt them. I just want them to like me! What did I do?!”
I’m sent over the edge at this point. Tears are streaming down my face and my sobs get more and more aggressive the more I try to repress it.
“AND I HAVE THESE WINGS ON MY BACK TO REMIND ME OF THE PEOPLE WHO DON'T CARE!”
Puffy takes one of my hands in hers and gives me a small handkerchief from her pocket with her free hand.
“Y/n...it kills me to hear that you truly feel this way. But please, please tell me- why do you care so much about people who don’t care at all?”
I sit and stare at the velvet red piece of fabric in my hand. Why do I care so much?
“W-well..because they’re my family! And I should still care for them!”
She looks at me and wraps her arms around me in a tight hug. It takes me by surprise and I’m frozen in place.
“Bad people are bad people. It doesn’t matter who they are or what their relations with you are, they hurt you. It doesn’t matter if they’re your blood family, if they aren’t willing to give you the love that you need then they aren’t worth it, Y/n.”
I’ve been caught off guard by what Puffy had said. My mind analyzes and sifts through the memory of her words. It leaves me distraught to realize she makes sense. I’m desperate to grab onto something to say, but I can’t think of anything. So, I say basically the last thing I can.
“I wanna be part of your family, Puffy. I want horns, not these wings.”
Puffy breaks from the hug to look at me straight in the eyes. She still has that warm, welcoming smile on her face. The only form of comfort I have around here now. And I’m thankful for it.
“You don’t need horns to be part of my family, Y/n. I’ll accept you with open arms.”
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what's your giant bucket list for the potential nico book? like plot, backstories, tropes, all that good stuff. also becky riordan said that people have to read house of hades if "rick does a nico book in the future"
this is kind of all over the place and very long so uhh sorry in advance
omg yeah wait ur right becky did say the house of hades thing. it scares me bc i don’t know if she was just being like “you find out nico’s gay in this one and that bob still exists so uhh thats important i guess now buy my husband’s book 🔪🔪” and it doesn’t actually mean anything, or if it means something huge like “remember eros? yeah nico kills him in the solo book >:)” she could have meant anything im and terrified.
what i do know is that i want both nico and will narrating in first person pov. i’ve talked about why i want both of them here. normally i dislike first person pov’s in books but riordan is a weird anomaly where his first person narration is actually better than his third person narration? like, if you pulled random pieces of text from percy, apollo, and carter’s povs, i would be able to tell who was narrating bc they all have very distinct voices. in heroes of olympus the only pov that felt distinct was leo and thats one out of nine characters :/ nico and will both have really interesting personalities and i want to have that come through in the narration.
for the plot all i know is that i dont want it to be going to tartarus to save bob, thats too straightforward and honestly its kind of a cheap move. i think the whole bob thing should just be the hook and then as the story progresses we realize its something else entirely.
maybe its someone else trying to get rid of nico bc they view him as a threat, maybe its related to the pantheon meeting chiron was at, idk!! but theres a lot going on and i think this is bigger than bob
like, remember when luke gave percy the cursed shoes? i think it could be like that. imagine them getting so close, being just about to dive into tartarus, and then realizing they were tricked and that something bigger is happening. then the real plot picks up.
bc on a more thematic level what i really want this book to be about is a continuation of toa’s “breaking abusive cycles” theme. it should be about nico putting his past behind him instead of falling back into it.
then once the real plot starts i think it should be formatted like the pjo quests!! a big fun cross country road trip where you get almost killed, make some friends, make some enemies, and all in all have a horrible great time!!
im gonna trash on heroes of olympus one more time im so sorry. Son of Neptune is the strongest book in that series and what does it have? the cross country quest format!! once we expanded into moa and they were just on a fancy boat for the rest of the series it stopped being fun. literally like look at blood of olympus. no one cares about what the fancy boat people did in that book. what we did care about was the three person quest where they had no clue what was going on and had to make hedge do interpretive dance so that they could pay for breakfast.
so yeah i think for it both to be a strong stand alone as well as fit into the rest of the rrverse it needs to have that “some goddess just showed up and told us to go to kentucky but did not tell us how to get to kentucky. will won’t let me shadow travel so now we’re on a bus. the stranger sitting next to me fell asleep on my shoulder and i dont want to be rude and move them. why does god hate me.” kinda vibe.
the cross country think is also great bc that mean’s we’d get to see all our old friends!! maybe they stop at the waystation and see reyna & the hunt!! maybe they end up in texas and see will’s mom!! maybe they end up in california see hazel & everyone else over there!! maybe they go to paris and visit rachel!!!
the trogs must be involved. idk how but they must play a major role. maybe screech-bling is the third person in their quest and they can wear hats the whole time.
i really, really want will to finally get cannon complexity. he has a such strong foundation as a character and i’m still upset we didn’t get much real depth added to it during tower of nero. i feel like each book Rick gives us ten Will related puzzle pieces and leaves us to make the rest of them ourselves?? just make the whole puzzle rick it is literally your job.
the idea of Will, someone who has been a background character for 15 books suddenly being pushed into the protagonist position is such an interesting concept that i would love to see explored in the solo book. i think that contrast him and nico, who has been a Big Deal since before will was even born, would be really fun to read.
also i want him to snap. stop being composed will go apeshit!!! throw a scalpel at someone with your amazing apollo aim!! have plague powers and kill some people!! no one is gonna tell on you Will we all want this
going back to nico, he has no idea who he is rn. i mean seriously he’s never had a home like this, he’s never had people who care about him like this, he’s never been safe. remember what percy said in house of hades?
percy’s talking about how he personally doesn’t know nico, but i think it could be applied to this situation too. he’s changed so much in the past like 15 books and i want to see nico figuring out who he is now that his life isn’t being dominated by pain and sadness. i want to see who nico becomes now that he’s finally able to take up hobbies and just be a teenager!! he know’s who he is as a son of hades, as one of the most powerful demigods alive, but he still has to figure out who he is as a person.
so maybe we get to see what cabin 13 looks like now that he’s changed it!! maybe we get to see what his favorite modern movies & musicians are!! maybe we get to see jules albert finally driving nico and his friends to the mall like hades had intended :)
the should summon jason’s ghost at least once
hades should also properly apologize for threatening to kill him that one time lol
i want hazel, reyna, and rachel to play a major role and if i they don’t i’ll steal riordan’s dog.
is this too long? it feels like its too long even tho i have no clue what i said uhh anyway i hope you had fun reading this love you all xoxo
#i don't think a single part of this post was grammatically correct#nico di angelo#will solace#ton spoilers#is it still appropriate to put spoiler warnings on a book thats been out for six months?#rrverse#nico solo book#asks
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☆[nostalgic] summer romance!au han jisung
late birthday present for him and stays! | other skz aus
“you’re stepping on my foot.”
“deal with it.”
“you’re so bossy, no wonder the kids don’t like you.”
“do you want me to stomp on your foot next, jisung?”
he smirks in response
a half chuckle from nervousness because you might actually do it if he’s not careful
and another because just getting this response from you makes him giddy
the other camp counselors roll their eyes at the usual banter between you - head of troop 4 and him - head of troop 8
every summer is the same story
the infamous you vs. jisung rivalry
in everything from team sports to arts and crafts to lunch chores
the rumor going around is that it all started when you two were both campers instead, years ago, chasing each other all around the grounds and giving your troop leaders at the time the biggest headaches of their lives
now all this time later, you two weren’t campers anymore
and yet
your fighting still managed to cause a wave of groans heard deep deep into the forest and sky
but right now, under the canopy of the main cabin
everything seems to be just a little more tense
your hands are on his shoulders and jisung’s are on your waist
excitable troop 11 leader minho is standing five feet away
pointing to the two of you as an example for the troves of pre-teens that are sitting criss-cross on the floor
“now, for some of you this might be your first formal bonfire dance and i know youre excited, but we have to go over the dancing rules. first rule: keep a safe distance.”
you and jisung are obliging by that rule perfectly
there is no way you’re about to press any closer to him, and you’re sure he returns the sentiment
minho weaves his hands into the space between your bodies just to make a point
it somehow seems to push the heat and familiar woodsy smell that comes off jisung toward you, it tickles at you skin and you want to swat it away
but you keep rigid and ignore minho’s wrist that bumps your hip
you truly wish he’d just hurry up as
this is getting beyond embarrassing
probably because you are the least suitable couple for this demonstration, you literally hate each other and due to some kind of misstep on your part or the stars refusing to align today
you ended up here
“second rule, you should let your partner lead. in this case, jisung will lead.”
you try to mute your scoff, but it comes out loud and echoes. jisung does that dumb smirk of his again.
“third rule: for slow dances, go in a square formation. like so.”
minho clears his throat and throws you two a look
you throw it back at him because - hello, you only agreed to stand still in this position not actually dance
but jisung suddenly curls the hand that's on your waist a little tighter and with a confident nudge starts swaying you two in the devastatingly awkward silence
“minho, can we at least have some music?”
you hiss, you feel your skin hot with humiliation
“right right.”
it’s some popular ballad from a drama you didn’t bother to watch, you try to concentrate on the sad lyrics
because jisung is effortlessly moving you two through the beat
and the blatantly obvious difference in his fluid like movements
and your creaky, robotic ones is just crushing you
the song - after what seems like a million years, accompanied with minho’s chattering - finally comes to an end
jisung twirls you around and when you come up on the turn
you expect to see it for the third time
his smirk
but he’s not smirking, let alone even smiling. he’s just staring at you as if something other than embarrassment is scrawled across your face
you take offense to it - why wouldn’t you? you’re enemies
and you harshly tug your hand from his
without a word you return to your clustered troop at the back of the cabin and jisung shuffles to join his too
you don’t notice it, you’re busy doing your head count but he throws a glance over his shoulder
did you really hate it that much?
the bonfire dance rolls around at the end of the week
it’s been the same old routine up until then
your troops going head to head in anything and everything, you and jisung barking at each other like angry dogs and doing whatever possible to get on each others nerves
you have effectively erased the whole dance tutorial stunt minho had pulled on you both from your mind
(and the mind of everyone else that even tried to bring it up)
and with the way jisung was acting, you suspect he had too
and now - under the fairy lights and smell of barbecue
you watch the kids mingle and laugh, the music isn’t that loud - so you can still make out the buzz of words here and there when you hear
“dance?”
you turn around and jisung is standing there. he straightens up and you see the bright, orange tshirt all the counselors wear and the handmade bracelets from his troop on his wrist
you see the cargo pants you make fun of him for wearing all summer long
and the bandana that hangs out of the right pocket
his eyes wide like those of a frightened rabbit on a hiking path in the mid afternoon
if he was anyone else in the world, and not the him that you’ve known for years, you would have been smitten
which you find both hilarious and mortifying
“what?”
“are you not going to dance?”
ah, so you’re here to finally make fun of me for not being able to dance. what else could i expect from han jisung-
“do you want to dance with me?”
in an only natural reaction you scrunch up your nose and eyebrows, glare at him and go
“what? no. of course not.”
“why not?”
“because -”
“i want to dance with you.”
he blinks in perfect clarity, like what he’s just said is some kind of given and not an anomaly that's been built up for years
“jisung - i dont know what you are getting at, but it isn’t funny-”
he puts a hand out and his warm fingertips brush yours
the dance, the buzz of other people, the music, the food, all of it melts out of the frame of your mind
you still step back and away from him and jisung doesn’t move
“im not being funny. please dance with me.”
“i can’t dance.”
you blurt out, even though he’s the last person you want to confess that too
but this is so weird and you feel suddenly like the only person in the world
“that’s ok. we don’t have to dance here.”
part of you is sure it’s an imagination you’ve conjured at the weakest point of this summer
as jisung walks through the lamp lit path to the back of the counselors cabin, out to the little meadow there that’s wet from the rain that came down hours before
you’d watched the droplets from inside the lunch tent, jisung had watched you from three tables over
he stops in the middle of it and you can smell him and the night woods
“no one will see us here.”
his hand finds your waist and you start to tremble
“jisung, what are you doing?”
“im going to dance with you.”
you shake a little more violently
“why, you and i hate e-”
he leans in so fast you almost choke back on the last word when his lips brush yours and his hand on your waist becomes less a feathery touch than a grip that flows a shock through you
“ive never said that, ive never said i hated you”
his lips whisper against yours
“youve never said you hated me either.”
your hands find the front of that obnoxiously bright shirt and you should push him away but you just bunch the fabric up
he doesn’t move
“we should have said it.”
“no.”
he kisses you again, and again, and again, and again until the only thing you can remember is what it feels like to be held so close to him in the warmth of his body
you’re dizzy because you can’t even remember it’s jisung until you are pulling apart because someone is yelling his name and your name
“we should go-”
“will you dance with me later, another time?”
you have a feeling his hand around you won’t let go unless you give him an answer
you look at him - eyes adjusting to the moonlight casting a shadow over his face
“yes, another time.”
a decade later - you’re standing on the floor of a wedding hall
your shoes are stuffy, the chatter of people all around you and the smell of food somewhere down the reception hall
you feel out of place and slightly embarrassed
people are going to start dancing soon, aren’t they? i don’t want to dance.....
you regret coming for a fleeting second - but you couldn’t say no - you’ve known the groom, bang chan, for some time
refusing just because you didn’t want to make a fool of yourself for one dance would just be-
“are you not going to dance?”
the voice comes from behind you and you don’t turn, because you think you cannot be hearing correctly.
“do you want to dance with me?”
a hand takes yours and pivots you toward them slowly
suddenly the wedding halls white walls and lilacs turn to old wood and climbing ivy
the bright orange shirt, the cargo shorts, the big and soft and beautiful eyes
“jisung?”
“i want to dance with you and you said you’d dance with me later, remember - another time.”
his hand in yours reaches forward
and he turns from young and clumsy
to more mature and handsome
with a sharp jaw, long and heavenly features
when he softly tugs you by the waist toward him
you swear you can still smell the trees on him
the memory of a scent from all those years ago
“i cant dance”
you mumble and he reaches his lips down toward your cheek, “that’s ok. we don’t have to dance here.”
you are in the tight hallway between the closed door of the staffs kitchen and the stairs leading up to the second floor of the hall
no one is around, they’re all gone - jisung is holding you close and turning you in small squares
“you’re stepping on my feet”
he whispers and you want to laugh, but you think you feel the tears roll down your eyes when you mutter back
“sorry.”
he shakes his head, and he seems like he wants to pull you right into him. tighter. closer. to make up all this time.
“no, you’re supposed to say-”
“do you want me stomp on your foot next, jisung?”
#idk why i wanted to write this so bad#stray kids scenarios#stray kids au#stray kids imagines#han jisung au#han jisung imagines#han jisung scenarios#han jisung#stray kids#skz scenarios#skz au#skz#sfw#han au#han imagines#han scenarios
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(I think it's a word over 500, but:)
"Speaking of Tsukishiro, how's he doing?", Eriol asks. Frying pan to fire to volcano.
"He's good," Touya says quickly, before Sakura can say anything. Yukito is not even in the ballpark of "good". Yesterday he called Touya and begged him to bike over and said it was important and when Touya showed up he was asleep, and stayed fast asleep right through to the next morning. He keeps trying to make appointments with doctors, and then falling asleep before he can call, or, when Touya calls for him, before he can make it out the door. Privately, Touya isn't sure how much good a doctor can do for him, but anything has to be better than this, right?
"Really? I'm glad to hear it." Ugh, how much has Sakura told him. Not that she doesn't have a right to talk to her friends, but, come on, would it kill her to least keep it between her and Tomoyo and the funny looking cat.
He's good, that's an obvious lie. Ruby has said Yukito could barely stand upright at school. Every inch of Touya Kinomoto is packed full of magic. Sooner or later, Eriol figures, either Sakura will be powerful enough to sustain him, or Yue will have to get over himself and just eat already. Touya can't actually do anything with his magic, so it's not like Yue, even weak as he is, will have to face much of a struggle to take it. (Aside from competition with Ruby, of course. There's something to that, right, articles and studies about animals being healthier if they need a bit of careful planning to get their food? Yes, so this works out nicely.)
Or maybe- oh, that's probably it. Yue's on to him, isn't he? He's just being stubborn as usual, figuring sooner or later Clow will appear via Eriol and save him. He can imagine how surprised, overjoyed, grateful Yue would be, if Eriol showed up and saved his life. He can imagine Yue's head resting on his neck as clearly as if he had kept Yue well-fed with magic a thousand times in his lifetime. It would be nice, in the short run, but it wouldn't be right, no. Clow is dead, and Yue needs to learn to live with that. If he knows what's good for him, he will take responsibility for his own life, and if he doesn't...
Ahh, well, maybe it's Clow's old sentimentality, maybe Eriol is just warming up to Sakura's moon guardian all on his own, but he can't bring himself around to the idea of letting Yue just die. He'd save him, if it came down to it. But, he tells himself sternly, only as an absolute last resort. He's just worrying because he misses Yue and wants to get to know him better all at once in that past-and-future way- it's worth a visit, soon. Yes, a nice little visit, and Yue will never even have to know it happened. Just to check in.
(sorry the formatting got weird when i copypasted lol!)
hiiii thanks for the ask!!!
if we talk about this convo we need to back up and talk about how it got here. this should give you some idea of how badly this needs to be under a cut for length lol.
so it all starts with the bit about how someone falling and being caught is something that happens a lot in ccs. how with eriol, it's purposeful, and with fujitaka (and i misremembered it but since found out she fell *on* him and not *caught* by him, which lolol i hope he broke a bone, but also its fine the fic's already marked canon divergent, or maybe the story gets misremembered, whatever, in any case), it's an echo of clowriol's intentional artificial-trustbuild-dangersaves but without the magic or purpose to back it up (just like fujitaka himself!), but it's a situation he quickly makes favorable to him, because it may be a blank slate but it's made of the same material.
this whole convo was part of one of the very first chunks written, but everything was going to go in a very different direction at first. (there's a lot of Cut Content from this fic, some that i just didn't like, some that wasn't connectable with the rest of the fic after it took the shape it took but might pop up somewhere else one day idk). in this particular bit i cut the later half of the conversation because i really didn't like what i'd written, but then even though the direction of the story changed the conversation was still going so it had to bounce somewhere else, so it bounced to yukito. here we are answering your ask 2 paragraphs in!
yukito, iirc in the anime, did catch her from a fall, (in the manga, which made way more sense for why she had to change her clothes and rest so much, he saved her from drowning, again iirc because who can trust a memory) and at a point where eriol still has some investment in making yuekito/sakura (ewwwww) happen, he's going to try and draw on that symbolism to nudge her in that direction, right?
so all this said, SPEAKING of yuekito. how are they doing.
bad, obviously. touya's freaking out. i imagine that part of what's stopping yukito from seeing a doctor is yue, though- he knows it wont help, and i dont think yukito has, like, person insides that will stand up to medical tests, and yue would pick up on yukito like, not wanting to be outed to the doctor as a magic construct because he, like, doesnt actually have a real heart that pulses, just a repeating heartbeat sound. doesn't for real have blood etc to test, just records of blood type (for personality reasons).
and also touya's a very like keep-ur-problems-not-everybodys-business type so hes like imagining sakura venting her fears to this weirdo and getting pissed off. but that didnt actually happen, eriol knew all on his own lolol. touya you have to say something nice should happen to sakura to make up for wrongly suspecting her now
and this bit on eriol's end is all wrong information and inaccurate conclusions and i was really worried ppl would take it at face value but i hope nobody did. in ccs we get moments where eriol wants sakura to take power, or to learn that power can be taken- his final battle with her, for example, where the answer to his light and dark puzzle is to use kero and yue's power, except that's not something she would ever Want to do or would even Occur to her to try. the power is gifted to her by kero and yue (and syaoran!) because they love her.
same concept, here- the answer to the 'yue is dying' puzzle is to eat touya's power, and he can't imagine the real reason why he won't just do that, and when he thinks about it too long it goes right to his ego- yue looovvvvesss clow, and by extension me. he wants meeeeeee to save him. he wants to neck kissy MY magic soo sooooo bad. but yue isn't considering any of that at all. he's thinking about yukito and what touya means to yukito and why that would make yukito hesitate to reach out, and that no way in hell will he just ambush his other self's crush down a dark alley and take his magic, even to save both their lives. he's a lot more selfless than clow and eriol ever realize. maybe- this is just a half formed thought right now, i dont know if im like certain about it, but- maybe they feel his devotion to clow was a form of selfishness, that he Wanted Love as a thing he could hold and own, whereas pretty much everybody else who meets him goes like YOU SELFLESS MAN YOU CANT JUST DIE FOR PPL YOU CARE ABOUT YOU GOTTA TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOOOO
and there’s also that bit of teacherliness intrinsic to the three of them again: im doing this to teach him a lesson. im letting ruby do her thing without telling her what’s going on to help and encourage yue, etc.
anyway, that (in terms of fic weaving itself into canon) solidifies his decision to do uhmmmm a thing that creeps me out real bad in the anime (knocking yue out to have a moment with him, and oh, ding, there's another 'you fell but i caught you' moment!). eriol loves this manner of hanging out with people, you see it later in this fic, even:
It's important to say what's in your heart to the people you want to say it to, even if you have to make sure the other person never hears it. It's important for your own emotional freedom.
he loves to spend time with people exclusively on his terms, to the point where the other party never even knew he was there, because he knocked them out, or because he was just staring creepily at the outside of sakura's house while she did homework, etc etc etc.
tldr: it's all connected, aaaaaaaaa
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uhhh nobody asked but heres my take on those cutscenes in inside (or at least the ones i remember) that i wanted to post for some reason
between content and comedy: no comment, a bit of an opening to the special and not really something that has to be analysed
brand consultant: pretty obvious, its about how brands pretend to care about the struggles our society faces but really is just leeching off of it for more money
can anyone shut the fuck up: also pretty easy, with the internet everyone is always voicing every opinion they have on everything that no one even asked for (hell look at me now) and maybe we’d be a bit better off if we just shut the fuck up. also kinda interesting that this part is done in a stand up comedy-ish format.
reaction video: also kinda obvious, parodying those reaction videos on youtube like the fine bros where it just keeps going on and on. however we also get one of the first big and obvious self hate? moments or at least that i remember and i ave so many hypothesis’ on this scene but none of them make much sense.
im horny: i fucking love how this scene looks, pretty straight foward, or at least i feel so i cant remember this scene too well and searching up “bo inside im horny” on youtube is definitely a regret. bo sorta confronts us straight up that this is pretty fucked. possibly interesting that it has a sort of podcasty vibe.
youtube thank you speech?: bo passively aggressively wants to stab the camera. could possibly be about how childrens content on youtube is so half assed or even bad for children. like some of these videos are disturbing to watch, this also sorta comes up with the other one above with the lines about how we have this system that only benefits a bunch of millionaires and billionaires and i dont remember those lines right.
bo looks at old videos: also pretty straight foward, this scene felt awesome though. leading into problematic its bo looking at his older more controversial past and either regrets it or is impressed with how far he’s come/learned? or a mix of the 2 but mote likely its the first one.
dont kys speech: i remember someone else saying this on tumblr ages ago, if you know who that is tell me and ill credit them but someone said in this scene he is quite literally self projecting and i think thats the best i’ll get out of this part
video game streamer thing?: this one is quite confusing and like the reaction one, i have loads of loose ideas but nothing to tie it all together. could possibly be about how streamers and videogamers dont really pay much attention to the message of a game or the actual experience and really just want to get through it as fast as possible and make another video, or something like that. there are definitely some more noteworthy lines and i could explain this a lot more but not today-
just before all eyes on me: i dont really think theres much to look at here. this sorta ending part of the special though is when it gets more confusing if its all acting or genuine emotion.
the ending part: this has to be one of the most confusing yet best parts so far. starting off, obviously bo finally leaves the room, his hair is still quite long but we see he looks a lot cleaner and is dressed now. then as he leaves the room he finds himself to be on some sort of set and an audience starts laughing. he attempts to go back inside but finds himself locked out, then he starts breaking down in front of the door as the audience keeps laughing. then suddenly it cuts to bo back inside watching that previous footage on a projector, then slowly smiling, in a satisfed manor. this part is a lot easier until that last part. starting off, the lockdown is over. he goes to try and go back into the world and back into the public eye or into normal life again but he finds he doesnt want to leave yet or isnt ready. so he tries to go back into that old state of just working on the special alone, day after day, but cant. so he freaks out. the laughing is a bit confusing and i dont even have anything to say at all for the part as he looks on.
also sorta noteable is how in all eyes on me, there isnt any actual audience cheering for bo, possibly he’s sorta going back and missing the times he got to go on stage and perform something he put a lot of work into and be praised for it.
sorry for this strange and confusing rant i just wanted to get this out of my head, if anyone else has any different takes on different inside moments id love to see them
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